She says she is selfish for trying to bring her loved one back, for trying to save them. Well, I guess that's one opinion, one way to look at it. But it could be said that the person who attempts or commits suicide is the selfish one. I've heard it rationalized by people saying 'Well, it's my life, so I should be able to end it if I want to.' But that's wrong. It's not your life alone. Because your life is a part of the lives of everyone to whom you mean something. Friends, family, co-workers, and not only the people you know right now. People you have yet to meet in the future, to whose lives you will make a difference, maybe a profound difference. Do you have the right to take all that away from all those people? I learned this lesson the hard way. I was there, ready to pull the trigger on one occasion. Ready to cut my own throat with an aluminum soda can on another occasion. But I didn't. What stopped me was the thought of how it would affect those I left behind. Over a decade later, I met someone in college who was on that ragged edge. Because I was still around, I helped to save her, by telling her my story and what I'd learned. That's when she told me something I'll never forget: "You know, God always seems to know just what angel to send to me, with just the message I most need to hear when I need it most." It chokes me up to this day when someone calls me that. But that's when I realized that it wasn't just the ones in my life at the time that I needed to live for. It was the people in my future, like that girl, who I had yet to meet, but whose life my life would touch in so meaningful a way. So please understand that it's NOT just your life to end if you want to. You matter to so many people, people you don't even know about yet.
I just felt like that's an opinion someone in this situation could have in response to something like this, you know? Overall it's hard to tell who the selfish one is, or if there even is one. But I absolutely agree with you on all fronts, honestly I have half a mind to pin this comment. It is such a complex issue that people don't tend to look as deeply as you have here. You're almost a kindred spirit with how similar of an outlook we have on this. Genuinely thank you for your comment. I couldn't have put it better myself. I would be truly fascinated to see how I would take a video of this subject matter nowadays, being such a vastly different person than I was when I first made these videos. I'm really glad to know that you're still here and that you've come to the conclusion that you have. You've made a world of difference een with that one person, you're meant to be here and I'm so glad you have that perspective that many people are too blinded by pain to see. I'm not sure what else I can add to this tangent that you didn't cover and far better, so I'll just thank you for your comment and give you a well-deserved pin~ I hope you're well at this point in time ❤️❤️
I remember listening to this on the hospital bed alone while crying because... Because no one actually care about my attempt, everyone is just mad and yelling so I was here crying alone because no one would give me support that time... Thank you for making this audio, this really helps me, a lot. Thank you so much
I lost someone I love to suicide so hearing that all they did was yell makes me furious, when you go through something like that you absolutely need love and support, it breaks my heart that you didn’t receive any, remember you are always worth it in the end.
I'm so sorry hun that's absolutely heartbreaking to hear 😭😭I'm glad I could at least make this at a time where you needed it and you found it when you did, but I'm still so sorry that you only found these words and support from a video and not from those around you. I sincerely hope you're doing okay right now, and I'm glad I could at least give you some support when you needed it ❤️❤️
"I am not angry at you, i am angry at the things that make you feel like Life isn't worth it anymore" And that, Ladies and Gentlemen(and all folks that identify as other), is how you make a sentence that contradicts itself
She said she wasn't mad at us but at the things that make us feel like shit. But we are the thing that makes us feel like shit then she's saying "I'm not mad at you, but i'm mad at you"
@@distressedbagofbeans i disagree. i think by “the things that make you feel like life isn’t worth it anymore,” that could mean yourself, yes. but not necessarily. maybe it’s your depression, or your insecurities, or your trauma, but it’s NOT you because you’re SO much more than that. get specific: what is it about yourself that makes you not want to live? because it’s not you. get specific and honest with yourself.
I miss my dad so much SO much but I understand why. I live with guilt loss pain everyday. People you are all so special so important. Each and every one of you has a place you belong. You all have so much to offer the world. We need you.
I'm so sorry for your loss hun, I couldn't physically wrap my head around death and why it was so terrible until it was my dad too. It's awful but we always hold them dear. And you're absolutely right, every person alive has something to offer and has a purpose, it may just not be in an area that you'd originally expect. We got this, and we can all hold on ❤️
I'm glad to see this up again. This audio has meant so much to me! Anytime I start to imagine hurting myself like this I listen to it and it reminds me exactly why I keep going. Thank you for making this and thank you for reuploading it because I feared I might never get to listen to it again!
I'm so glad this video helps you so much pixel like this is such a beautiful sentiment. It's amazing that I can help in such a profound way by just having a certain video up, and I'm happy to reupload, I just wish it never got taken down in the first place! But I'm glad it's back up and it's continuing to help people like that's such an amazing feeling. I'm glad you're still here hun keep holding on ❤️
@@MistressAudio Well it's been two years since that original comment so I'm happy to say I haven't been in a situation where I've needed to hear this audio again in all that time, but it means a lot to me so I still come back to it sometimes to remind myself that there are people out there that I'm important to. I know it might seem strange since this is probably just a simple audio you made from your perspective, but I'm certain I'm not the only one that's been touched by what you've put out into the world!
Something's wrong with me. Watching this, all I can think about is that I worried her and bothered her by making my problems visible, and that just makes me feel guilty.
hey...... come on loves, if i was your partner i'd rather have you bother me with your problems (its defo not a bother but just to make it clear) than to not have you at all
I mean I don't think that means there's anything wrong with you, but it does show that you value other's happiness and wellbeing over your own, and that's not a good place to be in. I hope you're able to get help for this because no one deserves to see themselves so lowly. You're loved and valued, always remember that❤️
I'm happy to help wherever I can hun, and I'm sure there are people in your life that do care about you, they just may be someone you don't quite expect. Hold out for finding them and allowing them to show themselves ❤️
this was like super comforting which may be weird but this.. this is why i havent attempted yet.. i dont want this to happen to my family.. my friends.. my.. everyone. i dont want them to ever have to deal with that.. thats why ive never attempted so thank you.. for helping me
That's why I did these videos, so they could hopefully reach the people they needed to when they needed it. That's what keeps me from unlisting it because my ex is in it lmao. I'm so happy to be a part of y'all's journeys like this it means everything to me ❤️
@MistressAudio I haven't listened to this audio in so long but this comment made me wanna come back. Since I posted this comment I have gotten a girlfriend, of over 2 years now, I have gotten my depression mostly under control and I haven't sh'd or had any thoughts in a long time. This video helped me so much at a time I really needed so thank you so so much for this
thank you so much for making this audio. i’ve been really depressed since i got my heart shattered by the girl who i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with. i loved her with all of my heart and soul. i really did. and she broke up with me. i’ve been thinking about trying to take my life for a while because i just feel so shattered and destroyed and don’t feel like life is worth it. but this audio helped me to realize that there are people who care. even if it feels like there’s not. just. thank you for making this audio. i think it saved my life. also. a quote that i read in a book that i really love. goes like this “ It isn't about you. Not at all. It never has been. You can love someone with all your soul and still hate yourself enough to want to die.”
Of course hun, it's a pleasure! No break-up is ever worth hurting yourself over hun, I absolutely assure you that. I get it, break-ups really fucking suck and I absolutely agree, but it's never worth it. I'm extremely grateful that I can help so many people with these silly lil videos, it's life-changing to me to get comments like this of people reaching out about how I've helped them. I'm so grateful to have been able to help you in such an amazing way, I hope you're doing well hun ❤️❤️
Actually I can't thank u enough for that I was going to do it and Idk somehow this vid appeared and you reminded me of my gf and how will hurt her like that and she will be in this state and that vid made me cry hard fr...thank u sm?
All I can think about is that part of Bohemian Rhapsody. "Mama, ooh Didn't mean to make you cry If I'm not back again by this time tomorrow; Carry on, carry on..."
This hits really hard because as often as I get close to the listener’s situation, I would absolutely panic that much or more if the roles were reversed
i have now cried my eyes out for 27 minutes and my anxiety is through the roof, my chest hurt so fucking bad from anxiety like seriously it can fuck off. but this audio, wow, seriously wow
This is really late sorry but I was listening to this when I was on my roof sitting on the edge thinking about it and went I heard her break down crying it was like she was physically there to stop me(I really want to thank you for making this❤🥰)
Heyyy that's alright no worries, I'm late too!~I'm so sorry to hear you were so close to doing it, but I am so glad that I was able to find you with this video at the right time, truly I'm so glad to hear that ❤️😭That's why I made these types of videos, to hopefully have it so the right people find it at the right time, and I'm so glad to hear that it did. Thank you for sticking around friend ❤️❤️
All sides of this issue are important obviously, but as just as an observation, I'm trying to find comfort of feeling like someone loves me to try to fight my depression and suicidal thoughts and despite suicde by far disproportionately occurring in males there seems to be only a fraction of tese videos directed towards them. Nothing against anyone, we each have to do our own thing. But I do feel abandoned, I'm sure that's just my own illness trying to get the better of me.
I can definitely see that you're exactly right. The only reason I didn't do that is because I'm gay so I make videos with a lady in mind, but you're absolutely right there should be more videos helping men through situations like that. I can see if I can make one in the future so that everyone is included, because everyone is just as important as each other ❤️
I recently learned that the woman who drove me away, several years ago, finally took herself out of the game, as she'd so often threatened to do. The worst part is that she took the leap while her parents, whom she pretended to love, were still alive. Both passed with in the year. I find myself wishing to believe in Hell.
I'm so sorry for that experience, that sounds like a terrible situation on everyone's front. No one should ever have to bury their own child either. I hope you're alright ❤️
THank you, kindly. It's been a full 17 years since I last saw her, so the pain isn't what it could have been. I hung in for as long as I thought that there was a chance of putting things right. When I finally realized that this wasn't the case, I moved on. I'm still angry about what she did to her parents, her dad, in particular. He was the dad I'd always wished that I could have had. We even physically resembled each other.@@MistressAudio
This almost hit close to home, I had the exact same situation except for it was my sister, I didn't save her like in the audio. She was gone before I could got home
I'm so fucking sorry hun that's such a terrible thing to have to go through. I know she's resting well now, and I hope you've made your peace. You are loved. Remember that ❤️
As much as i wish this could be uplifting, it just reminds me that I can never have something like this. if i attempted i wouldnt have any close friend or partner to come save me. i guess my mom might but i dont feel any real care from her anymore, i just feel alone…
I'm so sorry hun. All I can really say is that you don't know that for certain. Please don't count yourself out or do anything like that. There are always people who will be moved by your absence, even if they're in places you don't normally expect. Think about that. Where else do you have those meaningful human interactions? Look there when you can't rely on those who are closer. ❤️
I understand, but those thoughts are involuntary. You have a low sense of self worth and that alters your brain. You can't help having these thoughts when they come up, but it's worth it to start seeing them for what they are: an abstract, involuntary thought which comes into being when you give it enough time to build itself up into something more tangible. Those thoughts may never go away either, but it's so worth it to give yourself a shot. People do love you, even if they don't come from the places you expect. Remember that hun ❤️
I still think about this from four years again when I came close to attempting it pretty much almost took my life wanted to but I was just too scared to but I still think back to this and I realize maybe I’ll find a way to heal don’t know how but I don’t want to die but at the same time I don’t want to live still but I don’t wish to cause that kind of pain to the people I love and care for so I won’t take my life because I know that deep down that would make me selfish taking the myself away the one thing that makes people feel happy and at peace somehow even if I hate myself too much to love on forth I’ll still let my loved ones enjoy me even if I don’t think they should
You may not have intended it, but your comment is beautiful, I just want to say. I love the sentiment and I'd be more than inclined to agree with you on pretty much everything you've said. I just think it's important to keep other's perspectives in mind when it comes to tricky situations like this where you're warring with your own head. There are actually other perspectives present in a situation like this, and so often we lose ourselves to that reality. Sometimes that's what we need to get some perspective. I really hope you're okay hun, you are loved and please remember that ❤️❤️❤️
@@MistressAudio I might not have known it during that moment in time but I’m just glad I didn’t decide to go through with it even if people and life both despise me existing I’m just happy as is with the audios providing me intimate comfort I’m really happy I didn’t do it I don’t regret the fact that I’m alive now I’m doing better somewhat compared to that day so no worries any further as of now thank you for the concern however it means a lot it does❤️
I had a good friend of mine commit suicide, and I can say the reaction of walking in on them laying on the floor passed out with their body clinging to life, the reaction of that was pretty similar to my reaction.
I'm so fucking sorry hun that's fucking horrible I don't even really know what to say. I'm at least happy that I purely got the similar reaction by pure chance, thankfully I've never experienced something like this. But I'm so sorry that you have hun. I hope you're still hanging on and rest in peace to your friend ❤️💔
I understand, shit gets overwhelming sometimes and sometimes we have slip-ups. But self-harm, no matter the sort, is never going to give you what you're looking for. I get it believe me I do, it's felt like it's helped me in the past, but all it does is hurt. We don't deserve to hurt any more than we already do. I hope you're well hun ❤️
I ended up in hospital a few months ago things got better but now my thoughts are getting dark and I can't share them my girlfriend because she is in a worse mental state and I have to be strong but the thoughts listing to this helped
The best advice I can give you is to seek out a person to lean on who isn't your partner - of course share things with her and lean on each other, but if you can, don't allow her to be the only person you can talk to who can get you through stuff. Speaking from experience, that can put strain on a relationship. Just find that healthy balance. :') But aside from that, I'm happy to help in any way and I'm glad this video could find you when it did! ❤️❤️
Lmao fair, I love listening to straight girl roleplays cuz I love the voice regardless of the pronouns used, so I get it~ And oh no absolutely not lmao, that was just my partner at the time providing the voice :')
This is so hard cord I have try many times to kill my self.. I try doing it in November 2021.. I cry so hard.. still crying... It is so hard to be ok.... Thank you for making this..
I'm so sorry you struggle so much with that, I know that sometimes just making that decision to stay alive is the only thing you can do in a day. And that's the most deciision you'll ever make. Choosing to still be alive is something you shouldn't underestimate. You will be found hun, you are loved ❤️
Please choose the first option Jay I beg of you. You've a whole community here who will stand by you and who would mourn the loss of you, whether you believe it or not. We'll all get to the end of life eventually hun, let's not speedrun life. Live it unapologetically, please, and do anything you need to get the help you so need right now. You're loved and wanted in the world
I wouldn't worry to much, I have an appointment in a few hours. I just have to show up, not lie to the people trying to help me for once in my stupid life, and hope they don't hurt me like they did the last time I tried to get help. EZ
I don't know how to respond to this hun I'm sorry. A lot of your other comments seem like jokes so I can't tell if this is also a joke. If not, I'm really sorry and I hope you get into a better mental spot :')
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She says she is selfish for trying to bring her loved one back, for trying to save them. Well, I guess that's one opinion, one way to look at it. But it could be said that the person who attempts or commits suicide is the selfish one. I've heard it rationalized by people saying 'Well, it's my life, so I should be able to end it if I want to.' But that's wrong. It's not your life alone. Because your life is a part of the lives of everyone to whom you mean something. Friends, family, co-workers, and not only the people you know right now. People you have yet to meet in the future, to whose lives you will make a difference, maybe a profound difference. Do you have the right to take all that away from all those people?
I learned this lesson the hard way. I was there, ready to pull the trigger on one occasion. Ready to cut my own throat with an aluminum soda can on another occasion. But I didn't. What stopped me was the thought of how it would affect those I left behind. Over a decade later, I met someone in college who was on that ragged edge. Because I was still around, I helped to save her, by telling her my story and what I'd learned. That's when she told me something I'll never forget: "You know, God always seems to know just what angel to send to me, with just the message I most need to hear when I need it most." It chokes me up to this day when someone calls me that. But that's when I realized that it wasn't just the ones in my life at the time that I needed to live for. It was the people in my future, like that girl, who I had yet to meet, but whose life my life would touch in so meaningful a way. So please understand that it's NOT just your life to end if you want to. You matter to so many people, people you don't even know about yet.
I just felt like that's an opinion someone in this situation could have in response to something like this, you know? Overall it's hard to tell who the selfish one is, or if there even is one. But I absolutely agree with you on all fronts, honestly I have half a mind to pin this comment. It is such a complex issue that people don't tend to look as deeply as you have here. You're almost a kindred spirit with how similar of an outlook we have on this. Genuinely thank you for your comment. I couldn't have put it better myself. I would be truly fascinated to see how I would take a video of this subject matter nowadays, being such a vastly different person than I was when I first made these videos. I'm really glad to know that you're still here and that you've come to the conclusion that you have. You've made a world of difference een with that one person, you're meant to be here and I'm so glad you have that perspective that many people are too blinded by pain to see. I'm not sure what else I can add to this tangent that you didn't cover and far better, so I'll just thank you for your comment and give you a well-deserved pin~ I hope you're well at this point in time ❤️❤️
I remember listening to this on the hospital bed alone while crying because... Because no one actually care about my attempt, everyone is just mad and yelling so I was here crying alone because no one would give me support that time... Thank you for making this audio, this really helps me, a lot. Thank you so much
Im so sorry they treated you like that, and I’m proud of you for still being here.💕❤️
I lost someone I love to suicide so hearing that all they did was yell makes me furious, when you go through something like that you absolutely need love and support, it breaks my heart that you didn’t receive any, remember you are always worth it in the end.
I'm so sorry hun that's absolutely heartbreaking to hear 😭😭I'm glad I could at least make this at a time where you needed it and you found it when you did, but I'm still so sorry that you only found these words and support from a video and not from those around you. I sincerely hope you're doing okay right now, and I'm glad I could at least give you some support when you needed it ❤️❤️
Damn my girl put her acting skills on like this Really Good.
"I am not angry at you, i am angry at the things that make you feel like Life isn't worth it anymore"
And that, Ladies and Gentlemen(and all folks that identify as other), is how you make a sentence that contradicts itself
How?
She said she wasn't mad at us but at the things that make us feel like shit. But we are the thing that makes us feel like shit then she's saying "I'm not mad at you, but i'm mad at you"
@@distressedbagofbeans darn it! I wanted to explain that!
@@distressedbagofbeans i disagree. i think by “the things that make you feel like life isn’t worth it anymore,” that could mean yourself, yes. but not necessarily. maybe it’s your depression, or your insecurities, or your trauma, but it’s NOT you because you’re SO much more than that. get specific: what is it about yourself that makes you not want to live? because it’s not you. get specific and honest with yourself.
@@SJ-vv8vt exactlyyy.
as a girl that has been suicidal for 3 years
this made me not want to do it anymore
And I'm so glad that this video has the ability to do that for you hun, it really means the world I can do that for you girls ❤️
omg did yt just put laughter in subtitles when she was crying?! XD
Lol
Pfffft pls 😭
Oh gosh
It did oh GOD
What the hell…
not me feeling guilty and almost crying over an asmr vid, defo not me
Omg you know goth
Definitely not me either
I can't cry that easily..
What nah sorry I was ermm chopping onions 🌰 DEFINITELY not crying 😢
Nah wouldn't be, couldn't be even
I miss my dad so much SO much but I understand why. I live with guilt loss pain everyday.
People you are all so special so important. Each and every one of you has a place you belong. You all have so much to offer the world. We need you.
@D DOG fr
I'm so sorry for your loss hun, I couldn't physically wrap my head around death and why it was so terrible until it was my dad too. It's awful but we always hold them dear. And you're absolutely right, every person alive has something to offer and has a purpose, it may just not be in an area that you'd originally expect. We got this, and we can all hold on ❤️
I'm glad to see this up again. This audio has meant so much to me! Anytime I start to imagine hurting myself like this I listen to it and it reminds me exactly why I keep going. Thank you for making this and thank you for reuploading it because I feared I might never get to listen to it again!
I'm so glad this video helps you so much pixel like this is such a beautiful sentiment. It's amazing that I can help in such a profound way by just having a certain video up, and I'm happy to reupload, I just wish it never got taken down in the first place! But I'm glad it's back up and it's continuing to help people like that's such an amazing feeling. I'm glad you're still here hun keep holding on ❤️
@@MistressAudio Well it's been two years since that original comment so I'm happy to say I haven't been in a situation where I've needed to hear this audio again in all that time, but it means a lot to me so I still come back to it sometimes to remind myself that there are people out there that I'm important to. I know it might seem strange since this is probably just a simple audio you made from your perspective, but I'm certain I'm not the only one that's been touched by what you've put out into the world!
Something's wrong with me. Watching this, all I can think about is that I worried her and bothered her by making my problems visible, and that just makes me feel guilty.
You're not the only one here, buddy...
Same
hey...... come on loves, if i was your partner i'd rather have you bother me with your problems (its defo not a bother but just to make it clear) than to not have you at all
Normal reaction. Feel the same way.
I mean I don't think that means there's anything wrong with you, but it does show that you value other's happiness and wellbeing over your own, and that's not a good place to be in. I hope you're able to get help for this because no one deserves to see themselves so lowly. You're loved and valued, always remember that❤️
I missed this audio so much
Awwww well I'm glad I could bring it back for y'all!
I was thinking about trying. You saved me from that experience. Thank you so much. Your a lifesaver.
I'm so happy I was able to help you in such a profound way, it means the world to be a part of your journeys in this way. You're so welcome ❤️
Your acting skills are 101%
Awwww thank you Iam I'm glad you think so on this video which I don't think is that good. Glad y'all enjoy it!
I needed this Mistress. You're timing is great... Thank you so much
Of course hun I'm happy to help any way I can! :') ❤️
Thank you. I was seriously thinking of attempting this morning and this video made me stop. Thank you again.
Of course hun, I'm so sorry you got that low but I'm so happy I could be there to help. I hope you're still holding on ❤️
@@MistressAudio I can't believe I wrote this 2 years ago. Feels like it's only been a year at the most. I'm still holding on.
My sister did this and succeeded I couldn’t imagine someone else doing this thank your for this 💚🙏
Well I hope your doing alright
I've tried before and held back tho but your comment inspired me to keep going
I'm so sorry for your loss hun I truly am. I'm happy to help wherever I can, but I'm so sorry you've had such an awful experience ❤️
I’ll never do it again, your word is my promise.
Thank you hun, I sincerely do appreciate it :')
I absolutely love this
Thank you so much!!
I wish someone cared about me like this in real life
I'm happy to help wherever I can hun, and I'm sure there are people in your life that do care about you, they just may be someone you don't quite expect. Hold out for finding them and allowing them to show themselves ❤️
Glad this is back up! One of your best vids, I think!
Awww thank you, I'm glad y'all like this one so much!!
this was like super comforting which may be weird but this.. this is why i havent attempted yet.. i dont want this to happen to my family.. my friends.. my.. everyone. i dont want them to ever have to deal with that.. thats why ive never attempted so thank you.. for helping me
That's why I did these videos, so they could hopefully reach the people they needed to when they needed it. That's what keeps me from unlisting it because my ex is in it lmao. I'm so happy to be a part of y'all's journeys like this it means everything to me ❤️
@MistressAudio I haven't listened to this audio in so long but this comment made me wanna come back. Since I posted this comment I have gotten a girlfriend, of over 2 years now, I have gotten my depression mostly under control and I haven't sh'd or had any thoughts in a long time. This video helped me so much at a time I really needed so thank you so so much for this
i have been having QUITE the year so i needed this a lot.
And I'm happy this could be here when you needed it ❤️
I'll never do it again i swear.
Thank you hun :')
@@MistressAudio My comment is 2 years old, it took you 2 years to respond
@justasentientmclarenp1879 she's a busy person what did u expect?
9:29 you; crying -- the captions; laughter
I'm laughing on the outside doncha know? Crying on the inside, perhaps
thank you so much for making this audio. i’ve been really depressed since i got my heart shattered by the girl who i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with. i loved her with all of my heart and soul. i really did. and she broke up with me. i’ve been thinking about trying to take my life for a while because i just feel so shattered and destroyed and don’t feel like life is worth it. but this audio helped me to realize that there are people who care. even if it feels like there’s not. just. thank you for making this audio. i think it saved my life.
also. a quote that i read in a book that i really love. goes like this “ It isn't about you. Not at all. It never has been. You can love someone with all your soul and still hate yourself enough to want to die.”
Of course hun, it's a pleasure! No break-up is ever worth hurting yourself over hun, I absolutely assure you that. I get it, break-ups really fucking suck and I absolutely agree, but it's never worth it. I'm extremely grateful that I can help so many people with these silly lil videos, it's life-changing to me to get comments like this of people reaching out about how I've helped them. I'm so grateful to have been able to help you in such an amazing way, I hope you're doing well hun ❤️❤️
My ex tried to take her life and it was the worst thing in my life. I am so happy she's alive. I have been in this state for mind myself...
And I'm so happy she's alive as well hun, I really don't believe anyone deserves that. It's not worth it and it never will be, stay strong ❤️
Actually I can't thank u enough for that I was going to do it and Idk somehow this vid appeared and you reminded me of my gf and how will hurt her like that and she will be in this state and that vid made me cry hard fr...thank u sm?
Well however the help came about, I'm glad you got it~
All I can think about is that part of Bohemian Rhapsody.
"Mama, ooh
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again by this time tomorrow;
Carry on, carry on..."
Honestly I feel you, I get ya 🥰
This hits really hard because as often as I get close to the listener’s situation, I would absolutely panic that much or more if the roles were reversed
It's important to see all perspectives on an issue like this, that's why I do it~ I hope you're alright hun 🥺❤️
i have now cried my eyes out for 27 minutes and my anxiety is through the roof, my chest hurt so fucking bad from anxiety like seriously it can fuck off. but this audio, wow, seriously wow
I'm sorry that it hurt you so much hun, that's never my intention 😞 I'm glad you at least appreciate it for what it is tho ❤️
This is really late sorry but I was listening to this when I was on my roof sitting on the edge thinking about it and went I heard her break down crying it was like she was physically there to stop me(I really want to thank you for making this❤🥰)
Heyyy that's alright no worries, I'm late too!~I'm so sorry to hear you were so close to doing it, but I am so glad that I was able to find you with this video at the right time, truly I'm so glad to hear that ❤️😭That's why I made these types of videos, to hopefully have it so the right people find it at the right time, and I'm so glad to hear that it did. Thank you for sticking around friend ❤️❤️
All sides of this issue are important obviously, but as just as an observation, I'm trying to find comfort of feeling like someone loves me to try to fight my depression and suicidal thoughts and despite suicde by far disproportionately occurring in males there seems to be only a fraction of tese videos directed towards them. Nothing against anyone, we each have to do our own thing. But I do feel abandoned, I'm sure that's just my own illness trying to get the better of me.
I can definitely see that you're exactly right. The only reason I didn't do that is because I'm gay so I make videos with a lady in mind, but you're absolutely right there should be more videos helping men through situations like that. I can see if I can make one in the future so that everyone is included, because everyone is just as important as each other ❤️
I recently learned that the woman who drove me away, several years ago, finally took herself out of the game, as she'd so often threatened to do. The worst part is that she took the leap while her parents, whom she pretended to love, were still alive. Both passed with in the year. I find myself wishing to believe in Hell.
Well, I believe in hell and if that's correct. She has a 100% chance of hell
I'm so sorry for that experience, that sounds like a terrible situation on everyone's front. No one should ever have to bury their own child either. I hope you're alright ❤️
THank you, kindly. It's been a full 17 years since I last saw her, so the pain isn't what it could have been. I hung in for as long as I thought that there was a chance of putting things right. When I finally realized that this wasn't the case, I moved on. I'm still angry about what she did to her parents, her dad, in particular. He was the dad I'd always wished that I could have had. We even physically resembled each other.@@MistressAudio
Nope not me crying over an asmr video
No you would never, that couldn't be true
This almost hit close to home, I had the exact same situation except for it was my sister, I didn't save her like in the audio. She was gone before I could got home
I'm so fucking sorry hun that's such a terrible thing to have to go through. I know she's resting well now, and I hope you've made your peace. You are loved. Remember that ❤️
truly bold stuff thanks for reuploading
Thank you I do try~ And no problem!!
Hope Your PC Gets Fixed or you get a new PC can't wait for more of your awesome videos.
I'm having issues with my laptop too :')
We're all good on that front now, I think this is my third laptop for doing this TH-cam thing lmao~ I hope yours are better now!
@@MistressAudio it will be friend.
I really wish i had someone who loves me as much as this made me feel like i did.
Watching this video just gives me weird feelings. *I Hate Suicide And Depression*
Honestly fair tbh, and me too lol :')
shit dude, I was sobbing and then I just hear this cool game like music and start vibing (also nice steven universe background)
Lmao I fucking love how much I had no concept of tone like it's outstanding tbfh 🤣🤣
As much as i wish this could be uplifting, it just reminds me that I can never have something like this. if i attempted i wouldnt have any close friend or partner to come save me. i guess my mom might but i dont feel any real care from her anymore, i just feel alone…
I'm so sorry hun. All I can really say is that you don't know that for certain. Please don't count yourself out or do anything like that. There are always people who will be moved by your absence, even if they're in places you don't normally expect. Think about that. Where else do you have those meaningful human interactions? Look there when you can't rely on those who are closer. ❤️
I feel ok now
I'm glad hun :')
I feel like I’m not enough sometimes and sometimes I wish I wasn’t born
I understand, but those thoughts are involuntary. You have a low sense of self worth and that alters your brain. You can't help having these thoughts when they come up, but it's worth it to start seeing them for what they are: an abstract, involuntary thought which comes into being when you give it enough time to build itself up into something more tangible. Those thoughts may never go away either, but it's so worth it to give yourself a shot. People do love you, even if they don't come from the places you expect. Remember that hun ❤️
I still think about this from four years again when I came close to attempting it pretty much almost took my life wanted to but I was just too scared to but I still think back to this and I realize maybe I’ll find a way to heal don’t know how but I don’t want to die but at the same time I don’t want to live still but I don’t wish to cause that kind of pain to the people I love and care for so I won’t take my life because I know that deep down that would make me selfish taking the myself away the one thing that makes people feel happy and at peace somehow even if I hate myself too much to love on forth I’ll still let my loved ones enjoy me even if I don’t think they should
You may not have intended it, but your comment is beautiful, I just want to say. I love the sentiment and I'd be more than inclined to agree with you on pretty much everything you've said. I just think it's important to keep other's perspectives in mind when it comes to tricky situations like this where you're warring with your own head. There are actually other perspectives present in a situation like this, and so often we lose ourselves to that reality. Sometimes that's what we need to get some perspective. I really hope you're okay hun, you are loved and please remember that ❤️❤️❤️
@@MistressAudio I might not have known it during that moment in time but I’m just glad I didn’t decide to go through with it even if people and life both despise me existing I’m just happy as is with the audios providing me intimate comfort I’m really happy I didn’t do it I don’t regret the fact that I’m alive now I’m doing better somewhat compared to that day so no worries any further as of now thank you for the concern however it means a lot it does❤️
It’s a promise
Thank you for your promise :')
yay! a reupload✨
Yayyy!! Thankfully this is the only video to ever be taken down thus far, and I hope it stays that way lmao
I had a good friend of mine commit suicide, and I can say the reaction of walking in on them laying on the floor passed out with their body clinging to life, the reaction of that was pretty similar to my reaction.
I'm so fucking sorry hun that's fucking horrible I don't even really know what to say. I'm at least happy that I purely got the similar reaction by pure chance, thankfully I've never experienced something like this. But I'm so sorry that you have hun. I hope you're still hanging on and rest in peace to your friend ❤️💔
Thanks For Making This, Being Depressed, And Suicidal Due To Being Bullied In School, Thank You So Much 😢😢😭😭💔💔
I'm happy to help wherever I can love, so you're very welcome! ❤️🏳️🌈
I always get mad anxiety when ever they go to check where you are
Oh yeah that is a bit of a trope on videos like these isn't it? Oh dear :')
i shouldnt watch this because I KNOW this stuff triggers me a lot but I really want to 😭😭😭
Don't do something that is ultimately going to hurt you in the long run, that's never worth it for something like this
Ur my new best friend. Literally Stop✍falling✍in✍love✍with✍every✍Girl✍you✍see✍on✍tiktok✍because✍they✍don't✍know✍ you✍exist✍
Ayo?
Start of conversation. 10:22
Lmao gotta trim out the fat hey?
not me watching this at 4am crying
Ohhh dear, yeah I can imagine there were a few people like that :')
26:25 "Love you baby, sleep well..." **SICC CHIPTUNE MUSIC*
WAKE UP BITCH YOU BETTER NOT BE SLEEPING WELL!!
....I’m sorry......I won’t do it again I promise
ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ hug
Thank you hun, that's all I ask :')
I scratched my arms with a pair of scissors like a minute ago (I don’t cut I scratch) I don’t know what to do
I understand, shit gets overwhelming sometimes and sometimes we have slip-ups. But self-harm, no matter the sort, is never going to give you what you're looking for. I get it believe me I do, it's felt like it's helped me in the past, but all it does is hurt. We don't deserve to hurt any more than we already do. I hope you're well hun ❤️
Did you really call the cops? (btw great audio I love all your videos)
Nah that was my ex on the phone, I just held the phone up to my mic on call and let her talk lmao. And thank you I appreciate that!
Just did she actually call 911 or just voice addeo
Isnt 911 in Australia like 999 or sumthin?
Update: After a google search I have found out that it is 000
@@uneasyeasel7174 ok
i don’t think she would actually call 911 for a video lol
I had my fiancee act out the operators lines over FaceTime, rest assured I did not bother the authorities :')
@Puddles same, also it made me wonder how my boyfriend would react to finding me like that. . .
never put him in that position if you can ever help it. This will never be emulated beyond thoughts hun ❤️
I ended up in hospital a few months ago things got better but now my thoughts are getting dark and I can't share them my girlfriend because she is in a worse mental state and I have to be strong but the thoughts listing to this helped
The best advice I can give you is to seek out a person to lean on who isn't your partner - of course share things with her and lean on each other, but if you can, don't allow her to be the only person you can talk to who can get you through stuff. Speaking from experience, that can put strain on a relationship. Just find that healthy balance. :') But aside from that, I'm happy to help in any way and I'm glad this video could find you when it did! ❤️❤️
Your patreon link isn't working, is it still up?
It sure is bestie, it's actually banging over there unlike what it was when you asked~ :') patreon.com/user?u=16397857
so hard to listen to. Ive been depressed for years and gotten close to the listener pov
Ok I almost did commit suicide and idk why but this is so comforting 😭
I'm so sorry hun I'm so happy to know you're still here ❤️❤️
L/N : I’m fine don’t worry
It don't particularly seem like it bestie
I'm a straight guy, so i just pretended like this was what I'd usually listen to, i hope you actually didn't dial 911 during the call! 😂
Lmao fair, I love listening to straight girl roleplays cuz I love the voice regardless of the pronouns used, so I get it~ And oh no absolutely not lmao, that was just my partner at the time providing the voice :')
@@MistressAudio Exactly! And tell them that they absolutely nailed their part! 😂😁
Pathos rhetoric doesn’t work on me for some reason. Every time I hear it it just sounds like guilt tripping and emotional manipulation.
No I mean that's fair I don't think you'd be alone in that 🤔
my bestie did the remix to this 🤪
Oh my god 😨 I'm so sorry
Why the whole time this is playing I was dancing I was at a 🎉
Best backing track for a party tbh
Hahaha ha I am so early
And I am not!
I feel bad, I ruined her good day ]:
Awwww don't feel bad hun, you're worth it ❤️
This is so hard cord I have try many times to kill my self.. I try doing it in November 2021.. I cry so hard.. still crying... It is so hard to be ok.... Thank you for making this..
I'm so sorry you struggle so much with that, I know that sometimes just making that decision to stay alive is the only thing you can do in a day. And that's the most deciision you'll ever make. Choosing to still be alive is something you shouldn't underestimate. You will be found hun, you are loved ❤️
im sorry i wont put you through it again
I just hope it never gets this far again 🥺❤️
Mines gona work herowin will make it work
Cute
Life can be shit a lot of the time, but suicide's never the way to end it. It's practically a one-way ticket to Hell.
Right where I belong
@@goldennyx6203 Are you ok, buddy..? 😶
You're kinda scaring me over here...
I see what you mean 🥺
me listen to this after i take the whole bottle of pills 🤡
...you good bro????
@@ProblematicBeach not really
@@its_byeol wanna talk about it..?
@@ProblematicBeach i don't wanna be a burden, it's okay
Oh shit I am only just seeing this shit are you okay Ashe???
It's either do or die tomorrow.
I'll get hope or kill myself tomorrow.
I don't have any other options.
Help; not hope, lol.
Please choose the first option Jay I beg of you. You've a whole community here who will stand by you and who would mourn the loss of you, whether you believe it or not. We'll all get to the end of life eventually hun, let's not speedrun life. Live it unapologetically, please, and do anything you need to get the help you so need right now. You're loved and wanted in the world
I wouldn't worry to much, I have an appointment in a few hours.
I just have to show up, not lie to the people trying to help me for once in my stupid life, and hope they don't hurt me like they did the last time I tried to get help.
EZ
Despite the irreverent tone I use as armor against my own brain, I really do appreciate the sentiment.
It means a lot.
I'll try.
💗
❤️
I cut myself everyday
I don't know how to respond to this hun I'm sorry. A lot of your other comments seem like jokes so I can't tell if this is also a joke. If not, I'm really sorry and I hope you get into a better mental spot :')
Read my name🗿💔
Correct
Ayo?
Girlfriend im no a girl im a CROISSANT 🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿
valid
🏃🏾🏃🏾🏃🏾
You literally said 🏃♂️💨
I have actually attempted sucide 8 times so yea
I'm so sorry you've gone through all that hun. I hope you're doing better now at least ❤️
help?
no ❤️
what
huh?
Real
Tongues of fire on Idris flaring,
News of foemen near declaring,
To heroic deeds of daring,
Call you, Harlech men.
Groans of wounded peasants dying,
Wails of wives and children flying,
For the distant succour crying,
Call you, Harlech Men.
Shall the voice of wailing,
Now be unavailing,
You to rouse, who never yet
In battle's hour were failing?
This our answer, crowds down pouring,
Swift as winter torrents roaring.
Not in vain the voice imploring
Calls on Harlech men.
Loud the martial pipes are sounding,
Every manly heart is bounding,
As our trusted chief surrounding,
March we, Harlech men.
Short the sleep the foe is taking;
Ere the morrow's morn is breaking,
They shall have a rude awakening,
Roused by Harlech Men.
Mothers, cease your weeping,
Calm may be your sleeping,
You and yours in safety now,
The Harlech men are keeping.
Ere the sun is high in heaven,
They you fear, by panic riven,
Shall, like frightened sheep, be driven,
Far, by Harlech men.