Ren wrote and performed this in late 2015 when he was at his lowest point, having suffered stress-induced psychosis. He still had not had a proper diagnosis for the illness he had been suffering from over the previous 6 years (he was finally diagnosed with Lyme disease the following year). He was absolutely sure that he was losing his mind and that he was going to die. He knew he needed a crutch but worried that the stress of Bibi (his gf) witnessing his deterioration would be too much for her. Genuinely find it incredible that someone could produce this work of art when they were so seriously ill.
Thanks for your reaction 👍❤ And thanks for reacting to Crutch it's not done very often and IMHO it's totally underrated. It's one of my favorite song in a long list of favorites 😀. It's so heartbreaking, beautiful and deep. "Crutch" dates back to a time when Ren really thought he wouldn't live much longer. Bibi said in an interview that they said their final goodbyes twice because they thought he wouldn't make it through the night (checkout 'Third year raising money to fund life-saving treatment for her boyfriend'). She as well launched an appeal for donations for his treatment/diagnosis. Ren said somewhere that he always feared of being left alone by everyone with and because of all his problems. It's also a song for anyone who is suffering for whatever reason while in a relationship. And it's for everyone who supports their partners, friends or whatever during times of crisis. And one detail: Did you notice how their silhouettes form a closing curtain when she sings that line? Much love and big hugs to everyone out there who is suffering. And to everyone who supports their partner, friend or whatever in times of crisis, suffering and hopelessness. ❤🫂❤🫂❤🫂
People close to Ren are running his account right now. They just posted he ended up in A&E, Accidents and Emergency, witch is our equivalent of the Emergency Room due to his autoimmune disorder. They were filming a video earlier and he got really sick 😢
Guys, im a huge Ren fan!! Ren shouted out a band called The Skinner Brothers on his TH-cam a few months ago, now im huge fan of theirs also. Theyre like if The Clash, The Sex Pistols and The Dead Kennedys had a baby. Amazing!! Punk, rock, a little rapping on collabs. Will be doing a collab w Ren soon. Highly recommend you guys check them out.
A happier tune with Ren and BiBi is “Ahiahiahohah” the back and forth flows are smooth af. Bibi is his ex. They were together still at this time. He did fear she would become a crutch and would leave because of it and all he was going through. She did leave, but she was also the one that set up his initial go fund me. “Penitence” w Molly Mckinna is also a hard hitter about the break up and his illness. 🤛👊😎👍 🔥🌳🌬️💨
Hi Guys great reaction this is one of my Favorite songs 🖤❤🖤If you look at the info on Ren's video link he gives a breakdown of the video it says "This was shot with no budget at the end of a frickin ' freezing October, felt like I was going to get hypothermia lying on cold slate for a few hours, serious case of mind over matter but so happy with how it turned out :) The song came about after a nervous breakdown following lots of visits to emergency room after some scary health problems. It's a song for anybody who has faced any kind of mental challenges, depression, anxiety, or health struggles while in a relationship and all the fears that come along for the ride with that. It is also a song for the courageous and wonderful people who support their other halves, family or friends during times of crisis :) In whatever context I hope my music can help take some of the weight from anyone suffering and help people feel less alone."
Ren said the song was to show the struggle for the people that support those with a mental illness. For me it's the line ... If I lose my mind will you stay with me.... does that me she is the illness, and he's saying if I give in, will we be together? Either way once he was on his feet she was gone.
This song breaks my heart. It's obviously open to interpretation, but I take it as he's like if I lose my mind, will you stay with me? And then it pans to him alone, like she left him when he lost his mind. I also get Pink Floyd vibes during the breakdown part. Heartrbreaking...;
i have chronic pain and mental health issues i relate to this so much coz you don't want to be a burden on people you love and nothing scares you more then thinking your health effects their mental health so you get pushing people away coz its like a softer blow if the worst was to happen and they didnt stick around also you are wanting someone to lean on and be your crutch but its a thing you have to come to terms with that unless you get help you will always be fighting a battle on your own if that makes sense
Lean too much on a crutch and it will break. He was still with Bibi when they made this. He made it to share the fear of losing that support. Thats my understanding of the situation. Tauma to that level where both body and mind are going, it is just too much for most support people... I guess he was always doomed to lose Bibi eventually although I believe it was amicable. Supporting others, especially with mental issues is very exhausting and where is a crutches crutch? I like they way when the song is soft, Bibi comes in and says I will be here for you... but the reality is more the last verse
@@TWFydGlu Yeah, I think I first heard that from Red Headed Neighbour. It is a very positive thought... but does a person who holds you up leave you when you get well? perhaps if in a caring profession. Its great there are different views, mine is just the way I feel. EDIT: I just rewatched, yeah... the standing is intentional... my bad, cool, thank you for the reminder. We grow.
Hello, have you ever heard of The Butcher Sisters? Worth reacting, especially their music videos. (Maybe look up the lyrics to understand why things are happening in the music videos). "Baggersee" is a realy good one!
Wondering if you guys know who Eden Nash is. I would suggest Ocean and Humble, both by Ren feat Eden. Some thought she and Ren were dating, because let me tell you, they make beautiful music together.
Ren wrote and performed this in late 2015 when he was at his lowest point, having suffered stress-induced psychosis. He still had not had a proper diagnosis for the illness he had been suffering from over the previous 6 years (he was finally diagnosed with Lyme disease the following year). He was absolutely sure that he was losing his mind and that he was going to die. He knew he needed a crutch but worried that the stress of Bibi (his gf) witnessing his deterioration would be too much for her. Genuinely find it incredible that someone could produce this work of art when they were so seriously ill.
This is one of my favorites and it's rarely reacted to. It's so powerful.
Thanks for your reaction 👍❤
And thanks for reacting to Crutch it's not done very often and IMHO it's totally underrated.
It's one of my favorite song in a long list of favorites 😀. It's so heartbreaking, beautiful and deep.
"Crutch" dates back to a time when Ren really thought he wouldn't live much longer. Bibi said in an interview that they said their final goodbyes twice because they thought he wouldn't make it through the night (checkout 'Third year raising money to fund life-saving treatment for her boyfriend'). She as well launched an appeal for donations for his treatment/diagnosis.
Ren said somewhere that he always feared of being left alone by everyone with and because of all his problems. It's also a song for anyone who is suffering for whatever reason while in a relationship. And it's for everyone who supports their partners, friends or whatever during times of crisis.
And one detail: Did you notice how their silhouettes form a closing curtain when she sings that line? Much love and big hugs to everyone out there who is suffering. And to everyone who supports their partner, friend or whatever in times of crisis, suffering and hopelessness.
❤🫂❤🫂❤🫂
She helped him to his feet, before she left.
“Baby if I lose my mind, would you stay with me”. Makes me think that he believes she would not as she wasn’t at the end 😢
I believe she returned to film this with him. But she started the Gofundme that helped get him to the doctor that finally diagnosed him
People close to Ren are running his account right now. They just posted he ended up in A&E, Accidents and Emergency, witch is our equivalent of the Emergency Room due to his autoimmune disorder. They were filming a video earlier and he got really sick 😢
Thank you for reacting to our boy Ren love you guys and your reactions ❤❤
Guys, im a huge Ren fan!!
Ren shouted out a band called The Skinner Brothers on his TH-cam a few months ago, now im huge fan of theirs also. Theyre like if The Clash, The Sex Pistols and The Dead Kennedys had a baby. Amazing!! Punk, rock, a little rapping on collabs. Will be doing a collab w Ren soon. Highly recommend you guys check them out.
Yes 💯
A happier tune with Ren and BiBi is “Ahiahiahohah” the back and forth flows are smooth af. Bibi is his ex. They were together still at this time. He did fear she would become a crutch and would leave because of it and all he was going through. She did leave, but she was also the one that set up his initial go fund me. “Penitence” w Molly Mckinna is also a hard hitter about the break up and his illness.
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Top 5 fav song. Not enough love for it. I cry every time.
Hi Guys great reaction this is one of my Favorite songs 🖤❤🖤If you look at the info on Ren's video link he gives a breakdown of the video it says "This was shot with no budget at the end of a frickin ' freezing October, felt like I was going to get hypothermia lying on cold slate for a few hours, serious case of mind over matter but so happy with how it turned out :) The song came about after a nervous breakdown following lots of visits to emergency room after some scary health problems. It's a song for anybody who has faced any kind of mental challenges, depression, anxiety, or health struggles while in a relationship and all the fears that come along for the ride with that. It is also a song for the courageous and wonderful people who support their other halves, family or friends during times of crisis :) In whatever context I hope my music can help take some of the weight from anyone suffering and help people feel less alone."
Ren said the song was to show the struggle for the people that support those with a mental illness. For me it's the line ... If I lose my mind will you stay with me.... does that me she is the illness, and he's saying if I give in, will we be together? Either way once he was on his feet she was gone.
Powerful tune got me all emotional
One of my favourite ren songs it makes me weep
Great reaction guys. Bibi was there for a long time. She helped him in numerous ways, but it reached a point where she couldn’t take it anymore. 😉❤️✌️
All the love for the people who support those who need it. ♥
This song breaks my heart. It's obviously open to interpretation, but I take it as he's like if I lose my mind, will you stay with me? And then it pans to him alone, like she left him when he lost his mind. I also get Pink Floyd vibes during the breakdown part. Heartrbreaking...;
Thanks for sharing ❤🤘 one of my favs!
Tears.
i have chronic pain and mental health issues i relate to this so much coz you don't want to be a burden on people you love and nothing scares you more then thinking your health effects their mental health so you get pushing people away coz its like a softer blow if the worst was to happen and they didnt stick around also you are wanting someone to lean on and be your crutch but its a thing you have to come to terms with that unless you get help you will always be fighting a battle on your own if that makes sense
Nice you guys react this
Lean too much on a crutch and it will break. He was still with Bibi when they made this. He made it to share the fear of losing that support. Thats my understanding of the situation. Tauma to that level where both body and mind are going, it is just too much for most support people... I guess he was always doomed to lose Bibi eventually although I believe it was amicable. Supporting others, especially with mental issues is very exhausting and where is a crutches crutch?
I like they way when the song is soft, Bibi comes in and says I will be here for you... but the reality is more the last verse
At the beginning Ren was lying down, but at the end she disappears once he is standing.
@@TWFydGlu Yeah, I think I first heard that from Red Headed Neighbour. It is a very positive thought... but does a person who holds you up leave you when you get well? perhaps if in a caring profession. Its great there are different views, mine is just the way I feel. EDIT: I just rewatched, yeah... the standing is intentional... my bad, cool, thank you for the reminder. We grow.
One of my favorites … please react to Diazepam if you haven’t yet
Hello, have you ever heard of The Butcher Sisters? Worth reacting, especially their music videos. (Maybe look up the lyrics to understand why things are happening in the music videos). "Baggersee" is a realy good one!
I was reminded of Pink Floyd The Wall, like it could have been placed right after 'Nobody Home"
Last part reminds me Pixies - Hwere is my mind.
6:33 Yeah if I understand, she actually had been there... *but bounced...* yet agreed to make the song with Ren so.... at least there is that
Lurve!!!
You guys need to try children of the moon i think you will dig it
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Wondering if you guys know who Eden Nash is. I would suggest Ocean and Humble, both by Ren feat Eden. Some thought she and Ren were dating, because let me tell you, they make beautiful music together.
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Bibi was Ren's real-life girlfriend at this time, but in terms of this video, yes, "Was she never there" is a fair question.
Heavy!
Bibi was Ren's first girlfriend. She left him in the end to save her own sanity. He talks about it in his Chapters.
can you please listen to the song, ghostemane - Convoluted
Where's the new Whitechapel reaction?
Soon!
way to slow for my taste,
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