Don't push your social anxiety away (it has a point)

In this video I give you my perspective on social anxiety. Many people just try to get over it but that may be contra-productive. Getting to know your social anxiety and your inner parts helps to create internal coherence instead of division.
Share with me below where you're at with social anxiety. On a scale between 0-10 with 10 being the strongest, how high is it today?
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[@PierreDominique141]

Thank you, listening felt like a river gently moving through some of the stored up feelings.
Just feel like sharing, hope it is okay.
Am feeling a lot of anxiety around approaching people in my surroundings.
There's this tension field inside, where one part of me deeply wishes for connection, depth, communion and intimacy also in human relation,
especially after having been quite isolated and alone in the physical the past few years,
while this other part in me does not want to be invasive and be portrayed as a potential danger or being projected something negative on.
I know thats not really my responsibility of what others might project, but it still hurts to experience it.
There were moments in the past where there seemed to be some genuine interest in me and I was so frozen because of rejections that came before. I recently realized how I've been in my own way in that sense, though it also makes me angry how opportunities passed by, because of experiences that had teached me that my wholeness and also my fire is not welcome.
My family moved a lot, I dont really feel these roots or a social net that is based on mutual appreciation.
It so often feels like it is on me to make connection happen, being the one coming from the "outside" and otherwise nothing would happen. I'm so tired of it.
The desire or wish for connection is so strong that the anxiety is triggered wherever I go.
I give my best to overcome these fears in the ways I can, though it feels quite crushing to reexperience rejection or indifference towards my presence/existence.
Its weird to always be the dispositioned fragment/puzzle piece that could only dock on through betraying one's true nature.
I would love to feel included in communion of beings coming together based on unconditional love and appreciation, instead of having to adapt to dogmatism of any kind or bind oneself to artificial power hierarchies.

[@VanessaNaumann27]

Hi Pierre, thanks for sharing so vulnerably. I think that's very brave to admit your fears and wishes to yourself. I would recommend you to feel through any feelings that may come up, try to name them, e.g. loneliness or the wish to connect to people. I would also inquire where you feel you don't belong and why, because above all it's an inside job. Where do you not see yourself as worthy of belonging and maybe seek out locations based on activities you truly enjoy, and see if you can let go of expectation when you go there and see what happens. When we experienced rejection and still carry this wound, we sometimes internally push connection away. Go inwards and you'll be able to find resolve. Good people are out there that are just waiting to connect to you. :) all the best for you.

[@PierreDominique141]

@@VanessaNaumann27 Thank you for taking the time and giving me some inspiration for the process! ❤🌊