26 has been realizing how much the work I have done has paid off and how that means other people haven't necessarily done that work. It's been this moment where I both felt so disoriented and also finally started to feel like I've gained even the slightest footing in the world
31... for me, 31 was a year of de(con)struction and desolation. I'm starting to realize as I approach 32 that it was entirely necessary to blow up so much of the life I had been living in order to begin something better.
i love this video! i turned 20 in november so it’s definitely felt somewhat monumental, videos like this make me more excited and less scared of what may happen as i get older 🫶💓🫂
25 has meant breaking old patterns and moving forward with my life. More than any other year of my life I think this year I have recognized and broken patterns of self neglect and disrespect. I've realized that I want the friendships I have now to be the foundation for friendships I have 20 years from now. I have built community and I've learned to love my hometown. I make mistakes and sit with discomfort as if it is a welcome companion. I think about my future children and how the person I am now reflects the kind of parent I will be in the future. I make bad art, I dance in the street, I hug my friends tighter and longer, and I am in a constant state of practice.
27 until July this year. My birthday wasn’t the catalyst for my change but 2024 starting definitely was. To keep it short, I’m starting my deconstruction journey from being born into a religion that has been my identity for 25 years. All of my core identifiers have been destroyed and I’m kind of on a raft in the ocean right now. I’m redefining my values and the connection with my family. Figuring out what’s important to me. I’m pretty lost but for once I’m not only focused on the finish line.
28 was THEE age for me. I moved to a different country to pursue a passion, I met my future husband, ditched toxic people in my life, and FINALLY started creating the life that I am so grateful for today as a 33 year old. ❤
thank you so much for this piece of art - I'm turning 27 next week and feeling all sorts of ways. 26 has taught me so much about where my values lie, and I'm realizing just how much my desire to be perceived 'well' has clouded certain relationships. part II, V, and IX really resonate with me. I can only begin to express my appreciation for naming masking culture in this video - a beautiful modeling of acknowledgment in itself. happy belated birthday, and here's to another wide year!
Happy birthday!!! I'm 24, 25 in July...I honestly feel like I've become a completely new person in the past year or so. I spent almost the entire second half of being 23 on the opposite side of the country from home in long term psych treatment. The journey didn't end when I returned home shortly before turning 24, but that gave me a solid foundation for growth. I have not only gained a lot of confidence and self-trust, but I've also learned that I love socializing and laughing and making other people laugh thru improv and standup, I've strengthened many old relationships and developed new ones, I've gotten healthier and gotten stronger via working out and actually staying on top of meds, appointments, and the like. But I think two of the biggest changes I've noticed have been how I've let go trying to control other people or people please or know exactly what they think of me all the time, and also just having faith that even when things are hard or don't turn out the way I wanted, they turn out fine eventually. Resilience is bliss. And I've really learned that I can love myself and feel content and positive about my self, my sense of self-worth, and where I'm currently at, even as I work to continue growing and changing some things.
that beginning shot of you blowing out your candles current day, the light going out, and being replaced with little!katherout....... oh i've barely started the video and i'm already feeling emotions
this is excellent. number 5 really spoke to me as you describe a fear that's always present in my life but that i haven't quite managed to work through yet. the way you speak is very interesting - listening to your introspection calms and clears my mind to spark deeper, intentional thought. i'm 26 and it's becoming more obvious how beneficial it is for me to see and surround myself with others in my age group living in a way that brings some clarity to my own life.
Okay number V hit DEEP. I've had a similar learning as I am falling deeper into intimacy with some newer friends that have come into my life since moving cities. I desire closeness yet I fear judgement and rejection in the same ways you described... trust really is everything. Also being that non-judgmental authentic friend for someone else tends to bring out that quality in the other person. Such a beautiful reflection!!
I have also been heavily processing my limerence over the past few years. For a period of time, I had a tendency to fall very fast for people I barely knew, and the connection would end as fast as it started. Since it happened so many times, I started paying really close attention to myself in this pattern, and I managed to unravel it though introspection, confronting my fears, and healing my insecurities. So now I don't crush on people in the same way anymore, I look to get to know people more thoroughly before I let my attachment grip onto them. I think it's the same for me, I am attracted to people with qualities I want more of in myself. It took me a while to realize that but in retrospect, it makes a lot of sense.
The beginning when you said “I don’t feel attraction often…” I felt that. I love having little crushes on people but find them to be very hard to come by
This will be playing on repeat in my brain for the foreseeable future. With love from a 27 year old encountering many of these lessons in width of this age
I’ve been watching you since your USC days! Fan girl over here! I always come back to your channel to see your life updates and honestly , I feel seen all the time 💕🫶🏽 TY for this video! Happy late birthday !! 🎉❤
This video allowed my soul to take a big deep breath and remember what is true. My golden 27th birthday was last month and I’ve been reeling in all the “should’s & could’s” of my life! My inner knowing is more jumbled up and mysterious than ever before, when all I crave is clarity & confidence. I hope one of my differences this year is chilling soooo out.
This was so beautifully said and made ❤ absolutely have this same revelation (over and over) about not apologizing to the audience… I teach them how to respond to me
If i get to the unapologetic point of not pointing outy greasy hair, questionable outfit ipon pulling up somewhere... That is a big goal. Just like making my own intentions for experiences!! I have two more years to get to that point till 28. You put it beautifully! Thankfully, i have been really feeling my current age. I regularly sing "I'm feeling 25" like I have finally caught up to a 22, I didn't know I missed. I can go on adventures and I can be vulnerable, I don't have to be stoic or cold but can do it my way!
Thank you for much for sharing, Kath! This was so, so thoughtful and comforting and lovely. It helped me think more about and see more clearly where I am also currently at. You’re a gem!
Wow, this is a great video, beautiful and creative editing! Going through a rough patch with a partner, so your comments on intuition, role modeling, and standing up the spirit of the feeling feel so fitting right now. Thanks for this. And love these west coast views
I'm telling ya, Kath, the rumor mill is gonna start running with "Is she looking to make a move into Nature Documentaries?" The wild land cinematography in this has my attention, that's for sure. Also, when you said "non-profit industrial complex"..... when I tell you I *screamed*. I work at a non-profit right now, and that phrase couldn't be more true.
The lion kingdom was just happy to break even in those days while everyone else was moving onwards & upwards, buying their 1st house, starting their 1st marriage.
It means that I'm thirsty to finish my PhD asap, and I want to buy a house, and relax. I'm working hard for it and I can't wait to have time to rest and enjoy!
I'm 24 - feeling more stable than I was one year ago like I am more composed to deal with life's waves. Nevertheless, I constantly feel like a boat in the middle of the sea not knowing where I will float to - very uncertain!
what has your current age meant to you? let's gather it here.....
26 has been realizing how much the work I have done has paid off and how that means other people haven't necessarily done that work. It's been this moment where I both felt so disoriented and also finally started to feel like I've gained even the slightest footing in the world
31... for me, 31 was a year of de(con)struction and desolation. I'm starting to realize as I approach 32 that it was entirely necessary to blow up so much of the life I had been living in order to begin something better.
i love this video! i turned 20 in november so it’s definitely felt somewhat monumental, videos like this make me more excited and less scared of what may happen as i get older 🫶💓🫂
25 has meant breaking old patterns and moving forward with my life. More than any other year of my life I think this year I have recognized and broken patterns of self neglect and disrespect. I've realized that I want the friendships I have now to be the foundation for friendships I have 20 years from now. I have built community and I've learned to love my hometown. I make mistakes and sit with discomfort as if it is a welcome companion. I think about my future children and how the person I am now reflects the kind of parent I will be in the future. I make bad art, I dance in the street, I hug my friends tighter and longer, and I am in a constant state of practice.
27 until July this year. My birthday wasn’t the catalyst for my change but 2024 starting definitely was. To keep it short, I’m starting my deconstruction journey from being born into a religion that has been my identity for 25 years. All of my core identifiers have been destroyed and I’m kind of on a raft in the ocean right now. I’m redefining my values and the connection with my family. Figuring out what’s important to me. I’m pretty lost but for once I’m not only focused on the finish line.
28 was THEE age for me. I moved to a different country to pursue a passion, I met my future husband, ditched toxic people in my life, and FINALLY started creating the life that I am so grateful for today as a 33 year old. ❤
Hold the phone, new Katherout just dropped.
I turned 28 too in March, I can relate so much with this video. My 27th year was wild but I grew so much...
thank you so much for this piece of art - I'm turning 27 next week and feeling all sorts of ways. 26 has taught me so much about where my values lie, and I'm realizing just how much my desire to be perceived 'well' has clouded certain relationships.
part II, V, and IX really resonate with me. I can only begin to express my appreciation for naming masking culture in this video - a beautiful modeling of acknowledgment in itself. happy belated birthday, and here's to another wide year!
Happy birthday!!! I'm 24, 25 in July...I honestly feel like I've become a completely new person in the past year or so. I spent almost the entire second half of being 23 on the opposite side of the country from home in long term psych treatment. The journey didn't end when I returned home shortly before turning 24, but that gave me a solid foundation for growth. I have not only gained a lot of confidence and self-trust, but I've also learned that I love socializing and laughing and making other people laugh thru improv and standup, I've strengthened many old relationships and developed new ones, I've gotten healthier and gotten stronger via working out and actually staying on top of meds, appointments, and the like. But I think two of the biggest changes I've noticed have been how I've let go trying to control other people or people please or know exactly what they think of me all the time, and also just having faith that even when things are hard or don't turn out the way I wanted, they turn out fine eventually. Resilience is bliss. And I've really learned that I can love myself and feel content and positive about my self, my sense of self-worth, and where I'm currently at, even as I work to continue growing and changing some things.
all beautiful insights!!
that beginning shot of you blowing out your candles current day, the light going out, and being replaced with little!katherout....... oh i've barely started the video and i'm already feeling emotions
this is excellent. number 5 really spoke to me as you describe a fear that's always present in my life but that i haven't quite managed to work through yet. the way you speak is very interesting - listening to your introspection calms and clears my mind to spark deeper, intentional thought. i'm 26 and it's becoming more obvious how beneficial it is for me to see and surround myself with others in my age group living in a way that brings some clarity to my own life.
Okay number V hit DEEP. I've had a similar learning as I am falling deeper into intimacy with some newer friends that have come into my life since moving cities. I desire closeness yet I fear judgement and rejection in the same ways you described... trust really is everything. Also being that non-judgmental authentic friend for someone else tends to bring out that quality in the other person. Such a beautiful reflection!!
Something about this video really resonated with me. The fifth segment about trust especially.
Just turned 26. This video gave me great insight.
(BTW this editing reminds me of How To with John Wilson and I love it)
I have also been heavily processing my limerence over the past few years. For a period of time, I had a tendency to fall very fast for people I barely knew, and the connection would end as fast as it started. Since it happened so many times, I started paying really close attention to myself in this pattern, and I managed to unravel it though introspection, confronting my fears, and healing my insecurities. So now I don't crush on people in the same way anymore, I look to get to know people more thoroughly before I let my attachment grip onto them.
I think it's the same for me, I am attracted to people with qualities I want more of in myself. It took me a while to realize that but in retrospect, it makes a lot of sense.
very inspiring to hear you've healed from it!
The childhood videos (outfits!) & the lettering in this video ... amazing details among otherwise delightful snippets of sights & revelations
100% agree
I love these videos!! I love how reflexive and intelligent they are. I turned 28 last October. 28 has been great!! “Patreon sent me” ❤ haha
The beginning when you said “I don’t feel attraction often…” I felt that. I love having little crushes on people but find them to be very hard to come by
needed so many of these reminders and lessons today, thank you for this video
this was so beautiful, the videography felt so grounding yet exploratory. thank you for sharing your lessons and modeling authenticity
Happy birthday 🎉
27 has been a big crazy year for me and I’m turning 28 in June, don’t know what to expect
This will be playing on repeat in my brain for the foreseeable future. With love from a 27 year old encountering many of these lessons in width of this age
I’ve been watching you since your USC days! Fan girl over here! I always come back to your channel to see your life updates and honestly , I feel seen all the time 💕🫶🏽 TY for this video! Happy late birthday !! 🎉❤
so beautiful and thought-provoking as always!! love your mind and heart, my sweetie friend 💛💛💛
LUB U
This video allowed my soul to take a big deep breath and remember what is true. My golden 27th birthday was last month and I’ve been reeling in all the “should’s & could’s” of my life! My inner knowing is more jumbled up and mysterious than ever before, when all I crave is clarity & confidence. I hope one of my differences this year is chilling soooo out.
you are so young!!!
This was so beautifully said and made ❤ absolutely have this same revelation (over and over) about not apologizing to the audience… I teach them how to respond to me
exactlyyyy
If i get to the unapologetic point of not pointing outy greasy hair, questionable outfit ipon pulling up somewhere... That is a big goal. Just like making my own intentions for experiences!! I have two more years to get to that point till 28. You put it beautifully!
Thankfully, i have been really feeling my current age. I regularly sing "I'm feeling 25" like I have finally caught up to a 22, I didn't know I missed. I can go on adventures and I can be vulnerable, I don't have to be stoic or cold but can do it my way!
Thank you for much for sharing, Kath! This was so, so thoughtful and comforting and lovely. It helped me think more about and see more clearly where I am also currently at. You’re a gem!
ABIGAIL
i am so thankful to know you and your mind katherout!
Wow, this is a great video, beautiful and creative editing! Going through a rough patch with a partner, so your comments on intuition, role modeling, and standing up the spirit of the feeling feel so fitting right now. Thanks for this. And love these west coast views
I love these kind of videos. Happy belated birthday!
I loved how you edited this omg
I'm telling ya, Kath, the rumor mill is gonna start running with "Is she looking to make a move into Nature Documentaries?" The wild land cinematography in this has my attention, that's for sure.
Also, when you said "non-profit industrial complex"..... when I tell you I *screamed*. I work at a non-profit right now, and that phrase couldn't be more true.
I will turn 28 soon lol. This was a great and informative video Kath!!
Solidarity forever!
counting 5, 6, 7, 8 to sing happy birthday is so professional i love it 😄
if you invite a musical theater kid to your bday party it will happen
this was SOOOOOO GOOD
Happy belated birthday!!! You're such a good writer! I wish I had your gift!
loved the example of masking as a model :)
The lion kingdom was just happy to break even in those days while everyone else was moving onwards & upwards, buying their 1st house, starting their 1st marriage.
This was beautiful to listen to, thank you
each of these are a gift ❤
We need videos every week please!!!!
IM TRYING 😭😭😭😭
This is so beautiful Kath! Thank you for sharing these lessons!
my favorite human experience is the painfully slow tempo people choose to sing the happy birthday song no matter how quickly it’s counted in
omg today is my birthday! thanks for the bday gift of this video haha
HBDDDDDD
I love the metaphors you use 😍 .. and everything about this video ❤
It means that I'm thirsty to finish my PhD asap, and I want to buy a house, and relax.
I'm working hard for it and I can't wait to have time to rest and enjoy!
Loooooove. Love this. ❤
I'm 24 - feeling more stable than I was one year ago like I am more composed to deal with life's waves. Nevertheless, I constantly feel like a boat in the middle of the sea not knowing where I will float to - very uncertain!
Omg I didn’t realize we were both 96 babies wooow
year of the RAT!
i love this video!
Yess not the non profit complex... love that for you.
Looks like someone spent time at the Monterey Bay Aquarium. 🙂
Yess being a roll model. I love food. haha
8:17
10:30
20 ate ❤️ woo same age
limerence is a beautiful name for a femme baby enby
wait sooooo true
You should read the book of Ecclesiastes, you seem like the person that will understand and appreciate its teachings.
🤟
𝔥𝔞𝔭𝔭𝔶 𝔟𝔢𝔩𝔞𝔱𝔢𝔡 𝔟𝔦𝔯𝔱𝔥𝔡𝔞𝔶
this is why birthdays shouldnt carry that much weight...
such a cutie...
Happy birthday! What a great tradition of reflecting on the growth you had on these days
Thank you for putting into words the feelings that I’ve been having but have had difficulty expressing 🥲