You can bid on the painting here 🙌 www.ebay.de/itm/224734719579 … let’s do this friends! Like, comment and share so we can raise some money for a good cause 💪
I have the opposite problem, i exclusively make art for myself but that hinders me from showing my art online, being consistent and having any profit from it .-. Also I really like how you connected the blocky brushstrokes into smoother ones by the end. I think its time for me to subscribe to your patreon
I was about the say the same thing! I have to make art for myself otherwise I start to hate idea of making anything. The only exception is I enjoy making and sometimes posting fanart related illustrations but its always from franchises that I love or enjoy. Yes it means my audience grows at a snails pace but I’ve come to terms with that for the sake of my mental health
@@hellodelightfulrando same. I mainly posted calligraphy but stopped because I was tired of the process of posting. I left Insta then a few months later, started doing calligraphy again and decided not to post anymore. Now I get joy out of the simple act of writing calligraphy. And that is a beautiful thing. Same with my art. I do it just for myself and occasionally share it with friends and family. And like you, it was all for the sake of my mental health. Keep doing what works for you. 💪💪
I started learning digital art almost 2 years ago. But I did connect into communities and that has helped me to grow faster then what I could on my own. Simply because I ask for honest feedback and I dont post the things that I dont like OR my smaller studies. If you don't compare yourself with other artist that have studied more hours and more years you will be fine, study from them learn from their styles, but dont compare. Also dont expect recognition on instagram or any other social platform because almost nobody comments or likes, except if you niche into certain fan art like a comment above.
Mee too! Best decision I ever made! No pressure to live up to anyone's expectations but mine. When I feel depressed or anxious I can use drawing and painting as a form of therapy. To me art is just as effective as journaling or meditating for mental health.
Same here. I post in an online gallery, but it's mainly just to get shareable links to show close friends. I don't really curate the page to be presentable or to have viral potential. I do sometimes think it would be fun to be able to do it for a living, but I definitely appreciate the benefit of not having to play the game of social media.
me too. there's something very serene about seeing an art that is a reflection of pure emotion. also, when the person making it seem joyful, it is a contagious feeling somehow. (:
I had a thought very much like this lately. My art seems to just flow better when I am doing something I’m excited to do vs doing something someone else asked for… your art, is just so emotion inducing to me. It’s like I feel your own emotions in them. Truly truly grateful to have found your page. Much love to you 💞
Couldn't agree more with what you're talking about in this video Alpay! It's exactly the reason why I'm taking a 3 month creative break in the new year. Creating not for clients, not for Instagram, not for views, likes or money. No plan or goal, except for playing, experimenting, making mistakes and having fun. Can't wait! Love your work and what a great idea to put this page up for auction for a good cause! 👏
Hey!! Same! I had switched off my Insta for a month, don't know why I wasn't satisfied from my work... As I drew again yesterday and damn! Feels so good! I was waiting for this time !
I found my refuge in drawing and painting. Whenever something went wrong in my life and I felt down, only the thought of painting something gave me some peace of mind. Painting is my haven. Good luck with the auction :)
You are right on the money with your thoughts. I switched from a career in art to a Healthcare career when I felt art lost its enjoyment. For almost 15 years, I hardly touched it until I bought some canvas and brushes on an impulse buy. Now I am painting again in my spare time and rediscovering the joy in art. I do it for me, for practice and occasionally will sell a little piece if someone likes it. Those who can stick with it, deserve nothing but applause. It can't be an easy way to make a living. Keep up the great work and the interesting videos. I will share your auction with my DeLorean owners group to see if we can get some more exposure for you.
I had to leave a long career in healthcare 12 yrs ago. I began my art “career” 3 yrs ago. I create for myself but when I share it, I feel so satisfied when I see peoples faces light up. I want my art to evoke feelings of joy and happiness. My outlook on life is now positive and expect much happiness in the future.
Loved the video anyways but it's great to hear that you will donate to Parkinson's research. My mother was diagnosed a while ago and so this is extra special for me. Thank you.
man ive been struggling with this on a fluctuating basis and its changed me so much that i havent gotten over my art block because of it. it terrifies me to post or try anything because i know i will hate it and will disappoint not only myself but those who seem to take the time to even follow and see my art. i find comfort in ur videos so much and love how u share ur perspective on such things as a professional artist and normal human being urself. thank u for another video filled with more questions for myself yet more encouragement to push forth regardless.
Amazing. I had to try and explain this phenomenon to my twitch followers recently as to why I took a long hiatus away from art and I am SO glad you addressed this issue so perfectly. I will be returning to my sketchbook, for mental health. THANK YOU.
I'm really happy about how he openly showed that he traced the image he'd wanted to paint Because painting is mainly not about the lines, but the way one colors the space inbetween :3
You're my absolute favorite oil painting TH-camr. Stay healthy and sane in this crazy world we're living in. I've just reached the stage where people are asking me to paint things I'm not interested in painting, for money of course. Luckily I'm not proficient in painting babies and pets so I can decline without any inner turmoil. But I know that if I want to start making money off my paintings I'm going to have to paint things that don't appeal to me. And that's a bummer.
I read somewhere that you should always have your sketch book open in front of you no matter what your doing. It weirdly helps and allows yourself to quickly jot down those ideas.
Thank you very much for bringing up this. As a hobbyist artist who was drawing all their life I completely stopped drawing after some time of posting art online. I just couldn't do it. Posting online and drawing only for that reason has killed my will to draw. But now, 2 years after that, I'm starting to pick up pencil again. But this time I'm drawing only the things I like. And no posting whatsoever. Whoever is reading this and feeling like they are on verge of quitting drawing - please start drawing for yourself and don't post. And even if you quit - don't worry, it just means you needed that rest. You might come back to it later, just as I did, although I felt that I would never ever draw again and that is after 20 years of drawing. So good luck everybody and please take care of yourselves!
Recently I've been trying out gouache after years of using watercolor. I've been so burnt out and uninspired for many years. Now I paint without sketch or plan no matter how weird or off it looks and it has brought back my creativity and love for art.
As a designer and mainly digital artist, after entering on a loop of just creating for others all the time, I recently got to the same point you make on the video. I decided to get a new sketchbook and a set of paints these holidays to create for myself, for the fun of the process and falling back in love with traditional art. I can't agree with you more. Awesome painting and video as always Alpay 🤟
I'm late, but thank you! I lost my father to Parkinson's after he battled with it for 13 years, and it means a lot to have other people that want to further research. He loved seeing me paint and draw, so it really pushes me each day to use that as motivation to not let my own inner demons get to me. Thanks again for the donation for research!
I always appreciate your honesty when it comes to motivations. For about a year I was off social media completely. In that time I was keeping a sketchbook and working in weekly. The drawings and paintings were definitely for me at that time because I was essentially showing them to no one. However, since then, I’ve come back to social and post my work regularly, as well as feel the need to create more work to post more often. It is such a trap trying to balance the marketing of yourself and the purity of the work you’re doing.
I'm not a very creative person, but I love watching artists create things. It's the reason I'm subscribed to so many art channels on TH-cam. It makes me sad when artists have to do things that they wouldn't normally, do just to survive. However, I don't think this is a new issue because I have to think even during the times of Leonardo DaVinci and Michelangelo, when they lived off their commissions, they must have found themselves in a similar position where they had to create what other people wanted them to do in order to survive.
My daughter loved this movie she passed away 4 months ago she met both actors, thankyou for donating to Michaels charity thats such a kind thing to do, take care xxxx
Happens to every profession I guess. The same goes for scholars: sometimes you have such a long reading list for research that you totally stop reading books you actually enjoy. Oh yes, been there, done that. Good point you have here. And as always, I just love watching you painting and listening to that soothing voice of yours. Good luck with the auction. :)
same with musicians. i know a few who studied traditionally, and the deep analysis, study, practice made it hard for them to enjoy music anymore. (especially anything modern). it's like it made everything so analytical that it tore out the feeling/love/appreciation way of listening. : (
beautiful painting!! love the attention to colors and how they're blending but not blended enough to where you can see other colors in the skin tone that aren't usually there. and wonderful vid as well, love the cause for the auction :) I also like the topic as well. There are only a few artists I have found on youtube that really dive into this and it helps to know im not the only one experiencing this :)
I love peeking into other's sketch books, it's like getting a glimpse into a part of their soul. Every time I watch one of your vids, I get inspired to learn about the how and why of color blending, like "why did you start with a lighter blue just to cover it with a dark for the background".
This is such a wonderful video with a topic that really needs to be discussed more. As an artist and creative, I often get caught up in that idea of "I'm not growing fast enough", mostly because I've been working hard in hopes of making a living doing what I love. But honestly, maybe the fact that it's taking a longer time is a good thing. I only create what I want to create and to do the things that bring me joy. If others also find joy in my work, then that's wonderful. But at the end of the day, I want to create the things that are meaningful to me and share what I enjoy and am passionate about. I've always wanted to stay true to myself, and I think I should be proud of that, even though at the moment I'm not making a living through my work just yet. So many people have tried to tell me "Why don't you do this? People like this stuff and you'll get more likes". It always makes me angry and frustrates me. I don't want that for myself. I want to stay true to who I am. ❤️
I completely understand this in a very deep level. I literally stopped posting my personal work online very recently, firstly because of art theft (which sucks on its own), but also because of the fact I realized that what I paint for myself is for *me*, not for my friends to see, not to show the internet. Realizing I don't need no ones validation on my personal work was really mind-blowing and freeing. Nowadays I've been only posting my commissioned work, and that's all that I need both as a showcase of my art for people who want to commission something and as "art for others to see online". Same goes for my sketchbook, it became a safe haven for me to draw whatever I want and however I want without the pressure of having to show it to people online.
i literally don’t understand how painters know what colors to put down. like blue and orange??? i would have never thought of that 😭 and it turned out so damn good 🏆
5:04 hit me. I don’t currently create for the online attention Perse but until last week I was basically only creating for the sake of Improvement rather than for the sake Of myself. But recently (including yesterday) I started drawing for myself and it was SO fulfilling. Allowing me to draw something I care about while also allowing it to not meet my expectations is freeing and far more fulfilling
Thanks, this video was very inspirational for me. As someone who has only ever made pieces for myself but has for the last year moved in to being a professional artist, your words are a great help for keeping me on track, down the road of happiness. Cheers.
This is an excellent video! When I first started making art for TH-cam I was focused on what I thought people wanted to see. Then, I decided to start making art for myself instead. Its allowed me to explore new subjects and tools and it’s fun again! I also think people enjoy my work more now. Thank you for this inspiring message.
I love all the paintings you have shown!! I love back to the future!! Watched it so many times I knew most of the words. I am sad that I have probably missed this auction 😭 but I absolutely love MJ Fox. I hope it raised a lot 😊
I think this is my favorite painting you’ve done! Grew up watching Back to the Future. Christoper Lloyd & Michael J. Fox were a perfect match. So great this went to an important cause 👏🏻
Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm a full time teacher and find it very hard to create any art that is not for me or that I'm excited about because It's the only drive I have. The effort is not worth the little extra money. I just don't have the energy or the time. What I try to do is create stuff I enjoy and that others might also enjoy. But I have to enjoy it because otherwise, why would I sit for so many hours ...
My last time was yesterday. Hat is off to you as always with all respect and admiration one can have. Mix up years of study and talent and you get Alpay and select others that put in the work too. Add that voice and Alpay stands alone we all so enjoy listening to. Wonderful video as always.
Alpay, I just watched this and loved it for many reasons. To auction and give back for the movie and actors you love. Supportive of Parkinson Disease is just a beautiful and thoughtful way to spread the joy and goodwill. The use of your creativity to accomplish this amazes me...and inspires me to do something like this to give back too. I love your paintings and now admire you for being a truly good person! I hope your Christmas time is wonderful!
i really appreciate that you are donating the money to the research for parkinsons. my grandfather had has been suffering from this disease for the past few years and its been getting worse. although we have tried many methods to not make it worse, I hope in the future we could get some remedy for this disease. I'm still in school and I don't really own money to auction but the best I could do is to like and comment on this video 🙏
I agree with your message here and thank you for bringing this to light. Once you become ambitious with your art things get fucked up and you lose what you had when you started out. I’m going back to basics and do something just for me if I can still remember what that is.
Wonderful painting and thoughts again! I actually feel the same, although I am only semi professional at the moment. As soon as you show your work online, your thinking changes and you put your mind in a kind of corset. It can not breathe as deep and free anymore. Even if the feedback is just positive.
Thank you for your videos, they have helped me alot. Its so Nice to hear you talk about these issues. Ive been working with art for 10 years and recently got diagnosed burnt out. I will take your advice and paint nothing but Star Wars for awhile 🙏🙏 thanks man
i personaly always create art for me and it's a plus if people like it(mainly because i have taken money out of the equation)and i absoluetly love your sketchbook art , i think it s visible when someone create with passion :) thks for your videos and your art.
You're such an inspirational and affective speaker. Love the sketchbook paintings like this. It's been a while since I did a piece for me, and now that exams are coming to a close, I plan to make something just for me this season.
That's so sweet of you! I really enjoyed seeing the pieces you've done for yourself...like the Pokémon- I would have never pegged you as a fan and I grew up with it so seeing you paint Pokémon just made me so happy and nostalgic. Same for this one! Great advice you've given and AWESOME painting...as always!
THIS IS SO TRUE FOR ME!! I'm a hobbyist and i love making art. Few of my friends said they love it and that i should let others see it so i started posting online and it was fun in the beginning.. soon people started advising me on how to set up my posting schedule, do art challenges and hashtags etc and it just seemed to hinder my process of creating so i stopped. now i post super randomly, only when i feel like and it is still enjoyable to me. it's more like a memory archive of my art and acts as sort of a portfolio in case someone wants to see. ;) long story short, there's something magical about creating for yourself from your soul. it feels like a part of you and acts as an inpiration to create more. at least for me..
Same actually, I just started drawing this year last May to be exact and since then I'll be posting some of my drawings on my social media because I thought it would be fun to see my art journey later, and yes I usually come back there and it makes me happy🤗
I know I’ve said this before, but you can definitely see so much growth and creativity in the video editing! The transitions in this video! 👏👏👏 Well done man!
Love it. I was pretty jazzed about Back to the Future as a kid as well. Love it even more that you’re auctioning it for a great cause. Fantastic work (as always). Keep it up! I would, personally love to see more of this type of content. It’s an honest reflection of you as a person and the things that excite you, while still showcasing your amazing talent. And it’s incredibly cool to watch you paint… so there’s that. Happy Holidays all.
I also use a sketchbook for art just for me. I also use it as a place for me to "journal" but in painting or drawing. Family and friends do not understand this and think I should only be creating art to make money. "You can't sell a sketchbook!" , if often said to me. It is really frustrating when you just want to draw for yourself and no one understands. Thank you so much for this inspiring video!
Alipay, What a great cause and an awesome painting. I really like your movie related art. Watching your painting, it starts out looking like an abstract with the colors but it always looks great when it all comes together. Maybe that’s why my paintings look like they do. Need to break down the color and shades of the paint. I will try. 😀Angie St. Louis, Missouri
Yes, you were right about creating art for yourself. Honestly, I've already loosing my passion in art, I always dissatisfied with the result whenever I paint or draw. Maybe, I'm trying hard to focus on likes and fame instead enjoying the process of creating the art. Now, you've open my eyes and its time to create and enjoy again what I used to do. Thanks for your insight and word Alpay.
its funny really ive been suffering from this exact thing, for what seems like all of 2021 so far , and just yesterday i had realized that this, was the issue all along, THANK YOU Alpay Efe for bringing this up ill never forget this , god bless and take care ✌😉
Hey Alpey love your paintings and honest thoughts. I trained in illustration and fine art and haven't made any art in over 15years, I lost the early love that I had for it as a kid who drew and painted happily. But it seemed going through education and my work being assessed for qualifications diminished my creativity and approval from others made me put down the paintbrushes and pencils. I feel I've lost my skills sadly and I was pretty good at it X good luck with your auction that's great what you're doing in giving, but you give so much while you paint also x
Yes!!! I only just started making new work in the last month that was for me, and to not overthink and just have fun! It had been about two years of commission work before that…and I was really in a place where I felt a bit stuck creatively. Oufff! So I can’t tell you how much I agree with the sentiments you had in this video, it’s so important to do this as an artist🙏 really solidified things for me again, hearing you say it, so thank you, great work man! And Great video! 👌
So true. I use my sketchbook... whether traditional or digital... as a way to relax and get away from stress. I work as a graphic artist and web developer and after staring at code or layouts all day... drawing or painting in my sketchbooks is relaxation. I'd love to make money on the side but all in all... I'm too busy with that and just need time to do something relaxing for myself...
I have to make art for myself. The best compromise is that sometimes I will make fanart or fanart related illustrations and those usually get more traction that any of my random OCs. My platforms grow at snails pace but it has definitely helped me stay clear of burn out and depressing thoughts which is most important for me. I have however made some good friends thanks to the internet and being apart of online communities, and thanks to their support I opened up for commissions for the first time and while not all of my spaces got booked, I still got 3/5 slots filled thanks to them. It’s definitely boosted my confidence and my desire to grow my art skills way more than billions likes ever could
I'm very precise about my tastes, and very exigent about things I like, my creative block comes from this : wanting to have ideas and create things that I'm really interested, so actually it's the opposite problem I don't enjoy copying artworks or references, I enjoy a fun and surprising story showing through in a well executed picture, with mystery and weirdness, that's at the same time very precise and very hard to accomplish... Enjoying the idea of getting there is also a great solution
Somehow sometime youtube presents me something that i really need and boy do i need this today. I've been so depressed lately and this helped me so much. Thanks
Man, I used to do portraits only for compliments, I would go on discord, on to the most famous discord server, lofi girl server, and wait in the art channel, and I was drawing everyday just to go on to discord to get a compliment, and completely stoped when I stoped reserving compliments, and while I was laying in bed, I thought about it, and I realized that everything I drew was a lie, but I’ve gotten so much better, I am now drawing completely for myself, and couldn’t be happier.
This is one of your best! I bought your Domestika course and it is great! Would love to see another one on doing sketchbooks and more about color and your use of limited strokes. BTW most of questions below and more are covered in the course. I have no affiliation to the artist or Domestika.
I prefer the art you make for yourself rather than the portraits of women. It is more complex in emotion, brushwork and lighting. Sometimes it is more fulfilling to sell to the right customers rather than to the easier customers, like gourmet foods rather than fast foods. Looking forward to seeing more sketchbook paintings and experiments.
I don't know what you're talking about, this is another beautiful piece! Then again, I love sketchbook compositions, and this is yet another study in colors that'd love to be able to learn from. Thank you :)
You can bid on the painting here 🙌 www.ebay.de/itm/224734719579 … let’s do this friends! Like, comment and share so we can raise some money for a good cause 💪
this is using oil paint?
are you prepping the page with polymer or is this what allows you to draw on like a transfer?
I have the opposite problem, i exclusively make art for myself but that hinders me from showing my art online, being consistent and having any profit from it .-. Also I really like how you connected the blocky brushstrokes into smoother ones by the end. I think its time for me to subscribe to your patreon
I was about the say the same thing! I have to make art for myself otherwise I start to hate idea of making anything. The only exception is I enjoy making and sometimes posting fanart related illustrations but its always from franchises that I love or enjoy. Yes it means my audience grows at a snails pace but I’ve come to terms with that for the sake of my mental health
@@hellodelightfulrando Comparison is the enemy of everyone and a friend to nobody.
Same, ohmygoodness. I make a lot of art that no one sees cause I feel like no one will like it or I can't get a good enough photo of it. ( ･ั﹏･ั)
@@hellodelightfulrando same. I mainly posted calligraphy but stopped because I was tired of the process of posting. I left Insta then a few months later, started doing calligraphy again and decided not to post anymore. Now I get joy out of the simple act of writing calligraphy. And that is a beautiful thing. Same with my art. I do it just for myself and occasionally share it with friends and family. And like you, it was all for the sake of my mental health. Keep doing what works for you. 💪💪
I started learning digital art almost 2 years ago. But I did connect into communities and that has helped me to grow faster then what I could on my own. Simply because I ask for honest feedback and I dont post the things that I dont like OR my smaller studies. If you don't compare yourself with other artist that have studied more hours and more years you will be fine, study from them learn from their styles, but dont compare. Also dont expect recognition on instagram or any other social platform because almost nobody comments or likes, except if you niche into certain fan art like a comment above.
I don’t post my art on anything so always for my self, and it’s relaxing and I enjoy creating. It’s why I’ve chosen just to have it as a hobby.
Keep it that way 😉
That's really cool, lov it👍
Mee too! Best decision I ever made! No pressure to live up to anyone's expectations but mine.
When I feel depressed or anxious I can use drawing and painting as a form of therapy.
To me art is just as effective as journaling or meditating for mental health.
Same here. I post in an online gallery, but it's mainly just to get shareable links to show close friends. I don't really curate the page to be presentable or to have viral potential. I do sometimes think it would be fun to be able to do it for a living, but I definitely appreciate the benefit of not having to play the game of social media.
I personally enjoy seeing art that people make for themselves.
same here. When i see a person just making stuff that makes them happy and for themselves it makes my day better.
me too. there's something very serene about seeing an art that is a reflection of pure emotion. also, when the person making it seem joyful, it is a contagious feeling somehow. (:
It’s the best kind of art. 🤗
@@author-vibes768 most of the time the art they doodle in their sketchbook becazse they just feel like it are zhe better pieces too
Would you like to receive pictures of my drawings?
Kinda feel it could lose its magic or so, if seen by someone else
I had a thought very much like this lately. My art seems to just flow better when I am doing something I’m excited to do vs doing something someone else asked for… your art, is just so emotion inducing to me. It’s like I feel your own emotions in them. Truly truly grateful to have found your page. Much love to you 💞
I feel the exact same way
Facts lol that’s why I’m having a hard time getting into tattooing because the majority of the time you have to do other peoples ideas
Couldn't agree more with what you're talking about in this video Alpay! It's exactly the reason why I'm taking a 3 month creative break in the new year. Creating not for clients, not for Instagram, not for views, likes or money. No plan or goal, except for playing, experimenting, making mistakes and having fun. Can't wait! Love your work and what a great idea to put this page up for auction for a good cause! 👏
Hey!! Same! I had switched off my Insta for a month, don't know why I wasn't satisfied from my work... As I drew again yesterday and damn! Feels so good! I was waiting for this time !
I found my refuge in drawing and painting. Whenever something went wrong in my life and I felt down, only the thought of painting something gave me some peace of mind. Painting is my haven.
Good luck with the auction :)
You are right on the money with your thoughts. I switched from a career in art to a Healthcare career when I felt art lost its enjoyment. For almost 15 years, I hardly touched it until I bought some canvas and brushes on an impulse buy. Now I am painting again in my spare time and rediscovering the joy in art. I do it for me, for practice and occasionally will sell a little piece if someone likes it. Those who can stick with it, deserve nothing but applause. It can't be an easy way to make a living. Keep up the great work and the interesting videos. I will share your auction with my DeLorean owners group to see if we can get some more exposure for you.
Yea this is precisely why I don't draw for people. It takes the fun out of it for me.
I had to leave a long career in healthcare 12 yrs ago. I began my art “career” 3 yrs ago. I create for myself but when I share it, I feel so satisfied when I see peoples faces light up. I want my art to evoke feelings of joy and happiness. My outlook on life is now positive and expect much happiness in the future.
You always choke me up somehow. You're such a wholesome soul alpay 🥺 I'm ever so grateful to have discovered you!
Loved the video anyways but it's great to hear that you will donate to Parkinson's research. My mother was diagnosed a while ago and so this is extra special for me. Thank you.
I'm an artist, my favorite childhood movie is Back To The Future, and my father was diagnosed with Parkinson's recently. I needed this. Thank you!
I’m really glad that jazza’s video is opening up this conversation throughout the art community. Hopefully this brings us to a better place.
man ive been struggling with this on a fluctuating basis and its changed me so much that i havent gotten over my art block because of it. it terrifies me to post or try anything because i know i will hate it and will disappoint not only myself but those who seem to take the time to even follow and see my art. i find comfort in ur videos so much and love how u share ur perspective on such things as a professional artist and normal human being urself. thank u for another video filled with more questions for myself yet more encouragement to push forth regardless.
Amazing. I had to try and explain this phenomenon to my twitch followers recently as to why I took a long hiatus away from art and I am SO glad you addressed this issue so perfectly. I will be returning to my sketchbook, for mental health. THANK YOU.
I'm really happy about how he openly showed that he traced the image he'd wanted to paint
Because painting is mainly not about the lines, but the way one colors the space inbetween :3
You're my absolute favorite oil painting TH-camr. Stay healthy and sane in this crazy world we're living in.
I've just reached the stage where people are asking me to paint things I'm not interested in painting, for money of course. Luckily I'm not proficient in painting babies and pets so I can decline without any inner turmoil. But I know that if I want to start making money off my paintings I'm going to have to paint things that don't appeal to me. And that's a bummer.
I read somewhere that you should always have your sketch book open in front of you no matter what your doing. It weirdly helps and allows yourself to quickly jot down those ideas.
Thank you very much for bringing up this. As a hobbyist artist who was drawing all their life I completely stopped drawing after some time of posting art online. I just couldn't do it. Posting online and drawing only for that reason has killed my will to draw. But now, 2 years after that, I'm starting to pick up pencil again. But this time I'm drawing only the things I like. And no posting whatsoever. Whoever is reading this and feeling like they are on verge of quitting drawing - please start drawing for yourself and don't post. And even if you quit - don't worry, it just means you needed that rest. You might come back to it later, just as I did, although I felt that I would never ever draw again and that is after 20 years of drawing. So good luck everybody and please take care of yourselves!
Just found your channel and really love them. No long intro, just straight into the heart-stuff. And omg I loved this movie too. One of the BEST.
Seeing this way after it was posted, but it's really cool that you auctioned off this painting to donate the proceeds to such a good cause
Recently I've been trying out gouache after years of using watercolor. I've been so burnt out and uninspired for many years. Now I paint without sketch or plan no matter how weird or off it looks and it has brought back my creativity and love for art.
As a designer and mainly digital artist, after entering on a loop of just creating for others all the time, I recently got to the same point you make on the video. I decided to get a new sketchbook and a set of paints these holidays to create for myself, for the fun of the process and falling back in love with traditional art. I can't agree with you more. Awesome painting and video as always Alpay 🤟
I'm late, but thank you! I lost my father to Parkinson's after he battled with it for 13 years, and it means a lot to have other people that want to further research. He loved seeing me paint and draw, so it really pushes me each day to use that as motivation to not let my own inner demons get to me. Thanks again for the donation for research!
İ like how your mindset is professional.Your videos are like gem and they're all important advices for me
I always appreciate your honesty when it comes to motivations. For about a year I was off social media completely. In that time I was keeping a sketchbook and working in weekly. The drawings and paintings were definitely for me at that time because I was essentially showing them to no one. However, since then, I’ve come back to social and post my work regularly, as well as feel the need to create more work to post more often. It is such a trap trying to balance the marketing of yourself and the purity of the work you’re doing.
I'm not a very creative person, but I love watching artists create things. It's the reason I'm subscribed to so many art channels on TH-cam. It makes me sad when artists have to do things that they wouldn't normally, do just to survive. However, I don't think this is a new issue because I have to think even during the times of Leonardo DaVinci and Michelangelo, when they lived off their commissions, they must have found themselves in a similar position where they had to create what other people wanted them to do in order to survive.
The deliberateness of your brushstrokes is just wonderful. That's what I want to have and I know it will take much practice
As an artist I really needed to hear this today… thank you ❤️
And I LOVE this painting!! Amazing talent!
My daughter loved this movie she passed away 4 months ago she met both actors, thankyou for donating to Michaels charity thats such a kind thing to do, take care xxxx
Happens to every profession I guess. The same goes for scholars: sometimes you have such a long reading list for research that you totally stop reading books you actually enjoy. Oh yes, been there, done that. Good point you have here. And as always, I just love watching you painting and listening to that soothing voice of yours. Good luck with the auction. :)
same with musicians. i know a few who studied traditionally, and the deep analysis, study, practice made it hard for them to enjoy music anymore. (especially anything modern). it's like it made everything so analytical that it tore out the feeling/love/appreciation way of listening. : (
beautiful painting!! love the attention to colors and how they're blending but not blended enough to where you can see other colors in the skin tone that aren't usually there. and wonderful vid as well, love the cause for the auction :) I also like the topic as well. There are only a few artists I have found on youtube that really dive into this and it helps to know im not the only one experiencing this :)
I love peeking into other's sketch books, it's like getting a glimpse into a part of their soul. Every time I watch one of your vids, I get inspired to learn about the how and why of color blending, like "why did you start with a lighter blue just to cover it with a dark for the background".
This is such a wonderful video with a topic that really needs to be discussed more. As an artist and creative, I often get caught up in that idea of "I'm not growing fast enough", mostly because I've been working hard in hopes of making a living doing what I love. But honestly, maybe the fact that it's taking a longer time is a good thing. I only create what I want to create and to do the things that bring me joy. If others also find joy in my work, then that's wonderful. But at the end of the day, I want to create the things that are meaningful to me and share what I enjoy and am passionate about. I've always wanted to stay true to myself, and I think I should be proud of that, even though at the moment I'm not making a living through my work just yet. So many people have tried to tell me "Why don't you do this? People like this stuff and you'll get more likes". It always makes me angry and frustrates me. I don't want that for myself. I want to stay true to who I am. ❤️
I completely understand this in a very deep level. I literally stopped posting my personal work online very recently, firstly because of art theft (which sucks on its own), but also because of the fact I realized that what I paint for myself is for *me*, not for my friends to see, not to show the internet. Realizing I don't need no ones validation on my personal work was really mind-blowing and freeing. Nowadays I've been only posting my commissioned work, and that's all that I need both as a showcase of my art for people who want to commission something and as "art for others to see online". Same goes for my sketchbook, it became a safe haven for me to draw whatever I want and however I want without the pressure of having to show it to people online.
i literally don’t understand how painters know what colors to put down. like blue and orange??? i would have never thought of that 😭 and it turned out so damn good 🏆
5:04 hit me. I don’t currently create for the online attention Perse but until last week I was basically only creating for the sake of Improvement rather than for the sake Of myself. But recently (including yesterday) I started drawing for myself and it was SO fulfilling. Allowing me to draw something I care about while also allowing it to not meet my expectations is freeing and far more fulfilling
Thanks, this video was very inspirational for me. As someone who has only ever made pieces for myself but has for the last year moved in to being a professional artist, your words are a great help for keeping me on track, down the road of happiness. Cheers.
This is an excellent video! When I first started making art for TH-cam I was focused on what I thought people wanted to see. Then, I decided to start making art for myself instead. Its allowed me to explore new subjects and tools and it’s fun again! I also think people enjoy my work more now. Thank you for this inspiring message.
This. The voiceover and the art made my heart happy. Thanks for that.
I love all the paintings you have shown!! I love back to the future!! Watched it so many times I knew most of the words. I am sad that I have probably missed this auction 😭 but I absolutely love MJ Fox. I hope it raised a lot 😊
I think this is my favorite painting you’ve done! Grew up watching Back to the Future. Christoper Lloyd & Michael J. Fox were a perfect match. So great this went to an important cause 👏🏻
Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm a full time teacher and find it very hard to create any art that is not for me or that I'm excited about because It's the only drive I have. The effort is not worth the little extra money. I just don't have the energy or the time. What I try to do is create stuff I enjoy and that others might also enjoy. But I have to enjoy it because otherwise, why would I sit for so many hours ...
My last time was yesterday. Hat is off to you as always with all respect and admiration one can have. Mix up years of study and talent and you get Alpay and select others that put in the work too. Add that voice and Alpay stands alone we all so enjoy listening to. Wonderful video as always.
I love the way you conduct your brushstrokes! They are lovely and precise! Beautiful paintings!
I’ve not done any colour yet but I never understand how people know what colours to do like that to make the faces look so good lol
Alpay, I just watched this and loved it for many reasons. To auction and give back for the movie and actors you love. Supportive of Parkinson Disease is just a beautiful and thoughtful way to spread the joy and goodwill. The use of your creativity to accomplish this amazes me...and inspires me to do something like this to give back too. I love your paintings and now admire you for being a truly good person! I hope your Christmas time is wonderful!
Great video - I also use my sketchbook to ground myself and just have fun. It's important to remember why you picked up a brush in the first place.
GREAT SCOTT! This is FANTASTIC content!
Amazing artwork, based on one of the best films ever made! Thank you so much!
i really appreciate that you are donating the money to the research for parkinsons. my grandfather had has been suffering from this disease for the past few years and its been getting worse. although we have tried many methods to not make it worse, I hope in the future we could get some remedy for this disease.
I'm still in school and I don't really own money to auction but the best I could do is to like and comment on this video 🙏
Great video! Loved watching you paint one of my favorite scenes from this movie!
I agree with your message here and thank you for bringing this to light. Once you become ambitious with your art things get fucked up and you lose what you had when you started out. I’m going back to basics and do something just for me if I can still remember what that is.
Wonderful painting and thoughts again! I actually feel the same, although I am only semi professional at the moment. As soon as you show your work online, your thinking changes and you put your mind in a kind of corset. It can not breathe as deep and free anymore. Even if the feedback is just positive.
I love your style and technique...it's soothing and encourages me to be creative in my own way. Thanks for sharing your talent!
Thank you for your videos, they have helped me alot. Its so Nice to hear you talk about these issues. Ive been working with art for 10 years and recently got diagnosed burnt out. I will take your advice and paint nothing but Star Wars for awhile 🙏🙏 thanks man
i personaly always create art for me and it's a plus if people like it(mainly because i have taken money out of the equation)and i absoluetly love your sketchbook art , i think it s visible when someone create with passion :)
thks for your videos and your art.
You're such an inspirational and affective speaker. Love the sketchbook paintings like this. It's been a while since I did a piece for me, and now that exams are coming to a close, I plan to make something just for me this season.
your videos help me more than you can ever imagine 🙏🏽 you really help me get through so much thank you.
Thanks for making this video. It was very inspiring and emotional and much needed in so many ways
That's so sweet of you! I really enjoyed seeing the pieces you've done for yourself...like the Pokémon- I would have never pegged you as a fan and I grew up with it so seeing you paint Pokémon just made me so happy and nostalgic. Same for this one! Great advice you've given and AWESOME painting...as always!
I love your therapy art lesson sessions. You make me think, on my art technique and even my life man!!!
Thank you so much for this, been going months without creating, because of depression, this has helped
I just love the way you paint. Your movements with the brush are so relaxing.
I really enjoy watching all your WIPs. Wish it was longer because it was so much fun studying each brushstroke. Glad I found your page. :)
THIS IS SO TRUE FOR ME!! I'm a hobbyist and i love making art. Few of my friends said they love it and that i should let others see it so i started posting online and it was fun in the beginning.. soon people started advising me on how to set up my posting schedule, do art challenges and hashtags etc and it just seemed to hinder my process of creating so i stopped. now i post super randomly, only when i feel like and it is still enjoyable to me. it's more like a memory archive of my art and acts as sort of a portfolio in case someone wants to see. ;)
long story short, there's something magical about creating for yourself from your soul. it feels like a part of you and acts as an inpiration to create more. at least for me..
Same actually, I just started drawing this year last May to be exact and since then I'll be posting some of my drawings on my social media because I thought it would be fun to see my art journey later, and yes I usually come back there and it makes me happy🤗
@@jasmitiara3627 yeah it's a beautiful memory lane
I know I’ve said this before, but you can definitely see so much growth and creativity in the video editing! The transitions in this video! 👏👏👏 Well done man!
Love it. I was pretty jazzed about Back to the Future as a kid as well. Love it even more that you’re auctioning it for a great cause. Fantastic work (as always). Keep it up! I would, personally love to see more of this type of content. It’s an honest reflection of you as a person and the things that excite you, while still showcasing your amazing talent. And it’s incredibly cool to watch you paint… so there’s that. Happy Holidays all.
You're describing workhorses vs unicorns. Workhorses put food on the table and unicorns bring joy. I love seeing other people's unicorns
I also use a sketchbook for art just for me. I also use it as a place for me to "journal" but in painting or drawing. Family and friends do not understand this and think I should only be creating art to make money. "You can't sell a sketchbook!" , if often said to me. It is really frustrating when you just want to draw for yourself and no one understands. Thank you so much for this inspiring video!
Alipay,
What a great cause and an awesome painting.
I really like your movie related art.
Watching your painting, it starts out looking like an abstract with the colors but it always looks great when it all comes together.
Maybe that’s why my paintings look like they do.
Need to break down the color and shades of the paint.
I will try.
😀Angie
St. Louis, Missouri
Yes, you were right about creating art for yourself. Honestly, I've already loosing my passion in art, I always dissatisfied with the result whenever I paint or draw. Maybe, I'm trying hard to focus on likes and fame instead enjoying the process of creating the art.
Now, you've open my eyes and its time to create and enjoy again what I used to do. Thanks for your insight and word Alpay.
My war hero of a grandpa died of Parkinson's. So did my grandma. Love this cause and idea!
THIS is a cinematic masterpiece. Thank you for your creativity, it’s insanely inspiring.
its funny really ive been suffering from this exact thing, for what seems like all of 2021 so far ,
and just yesterday i had realized that this, was the issue all along,
THANK YOU Alpay Efe for bringing this up ill never forget this , god bless and take care ✌😉
the sketchbook paintings are probably my favorites that you do! especially the movie scenes!
Hey Alpey love your paintings and honest thoughts. I trained in illustration and fine art and haven't made any art in over 15years, I lost the early love that I had for it as a kid who drew and painted happily. But it seemed going through education and my work being assessed for qualifications diminished my creativity and approval from others made me put down the paintbrushes and pencils. I feel I've lost my skills sadly and I was pretty good at it X good luck with your auction that's great what you're doing in giving, but you give so much while you paint also x
Yes!!! I only just started making new work in the last month that was for me, and to not overthink and just have fun! It had been about two years of commission work before that…and I was really in a place where I felt a bit stuck creatively. Oufff! So I can’t tell you how much I agree with the sentiments you had in this video, it’s so important to do this as an artist🙏 really solidified things for me again, hearing you say it, so thank you, great work man! And Great video! 👌
So true. I use my sketchbook... whether traditional or digital... as a way to relax and get away from stress. I work as a graphic artist and web developer and after staring at code or layouts all day... drawing or painting in my sketchbooks is relaxation. I'd love to make money on the side but all in all... I'm too busy with that and just need time to do something relaxing for myself...
All the drawings and colouring of those images you did was a memory of my childhood. Awesome.
THIS REAL TALK IS WHAT I REALLY NEED RIGHT NOW! THANK YOU! REALLY THANK YOU 🤧💖
I have to make art for myself. The best compromise is that sometimes I will make fanart or fanart related illustrations and those usually get more traction that any of my random OCs. My platforms grow at snails pace but it has definitely helped me stay clear of burn out and depressing thoughts which is most important for me. I have however made some good friends thanks to the internet and being apart of online communities, and thanks to their support I opened up for commissions for the first time and while not all of my spaces got booked, I still got 3/5 slots filled thanks to them. It’s definitely boosted my confidence and my desire to grow my art skills way more than billions likes ever could
The joy I feel from watching this painting be created while listening to a genuine and grounded opinion, is immesurable
Loved it! your videos are so calming AND inspiring. And as always, thank you for sharing!
I'm very precise about my tastes, and very exigent about things I like, my creative block comes from this : wanting to have ideas and create things that I'm really interested, so actually it's the opposite problem
I don't enjoy copying artworks or references, I enjoy a fun and surprising story showing through in a well executed picture, with mystery and weirdness, that's at the same time very precise and very hard to accomplish...
Enjoying the idea of getting there is also a great solution
Thanks for giving me some inspiration to keeping me going on
Another wonderful video. I think most of us who keep a sketchbook can relate to every word. And yes, BTTF is magic.
Somehow sometime youtube presents me something that i really need and boy do i need this today. I've been so depressed lately and this helped me so much. Thanks
Can I just say how much I love your style and way of painting, I can't remember subscribing, but I'm so glad I did!
One of my favourite videos of yours, well done 🙏
Man, I used to do portraits only for compliments, I would go on discord, on to the most famous discord server, lofi girl server, and wait in the art channel, and I was drawing everyday just to go on to discord to get a compliment, and completely stoped when I stoped reserving compliments, and while I was laying in bed, I thought about it, and I realized that everything I drew was a lie, but I’ve gotten so much better, I am now drawing completely for myself, and couldn’t be happier.
Good on you for being honest with yourself and for doing something about it. 👏👏
This is one of your best! I bought your Domestika course and it is great! Would love to see another one on doing sketchbooks and more about color and your use of limited strokes. BTW most of questions below and more are covered in the course. I have no affiliation to the artist or Domestika.
Back to the Future has always been one of my favorites! This painting is amazing.
😭😭😭😭😭awe. I'm so glad you talked about this topic. Made me feel so much better knowing that someone feels the same way I do.
God bless you, Alpay! Such great content and such a beautiful heart :) 1980 baby here! lol
Yeah. Totally feeling you on this one! Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this.
this was such an absolute joy to watch!
I prefer the art you make for yourself rather than the portraits of women. It is more complex in emotion, brushwork and lighting. Sometimes it is more fulfilling to sell to the right customers rather than to the easier customers, like gourmet foods rather than fast foods. Looking forward to seeing more sketchbook paintings and experiments.
The fact that he doesn't keep any secrets in paintings and other things from us is just 💅
Love all your videos man. Keep it up! Your art is a true inspiration.
Hello from France ! I love back to the future too ! And I love your panting!
I don't know what you're talking about, this is another beautiful piece! Then again, I love sketchbook compositions, and this is yet another study in colors that'd love to be able to learn from. Thank you :)