When Everything Feels Like a Dream | Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder
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It's not rare to feel like we're dreaming, even right after we wake up, but when it sticks around for longer than it should, it can merit its own diagnosis: depersonalization-derealization disorder (DDD). Hank unpacks what this disorder is and how scientists and doctors are working to understand and treat it.
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It would be interesting to see an episode on fugue states :)
Thanks for raising awareness. Although, you guys are running with the “defense mechanism” theory like it’s a fact, which is kind of misinformation.
SCISHOW! YOU SHOULD REALLY PROVIDE SUBTITLE TRANSLATIONS FOR YOUR VIDEOS like Kurzgesagt does. There are so many people I'd like to share your videos with, but they can't speak English. (auto-translate doen't really work all that well)
Who made the captions for this video? Because they only did like, every other sentence.
SciShow Psych if you or anyone wants to hear from the perspective of some one with that disorder, a hip hop artist that has that disorder made a song about it. th-cam.com/video/4hdEldfA0Jg/w-d-xo.html also if you search "Vinnie Paz depersonalization" on TH-cam you can watch some interviews where he talks about it. Btw this guy has been a major influencer on underground hip hop for decades, fully legit and lyrically amazing artist.
It honestly feels like this disorder can never actually be described. It feels im fading away. Like my consciousness is at 30% saturation.
@Derone Cerrone usually eliminating the anxiety gets rid of mine but then again mine is anxiety induced
I completely understand. I scroll through videos and articles and comments just searching for someone who can actually describe what I go through. I think it might be different for everyone. It’s more focused on everyone’s different anxieties. Idk. But I definitely feel you. It’s a lonely feeling
Like for me it’s still like the hazed/ fogged feeling, but it’s a lot more than tht. It happens really bad when I’m talking to people, even close friends and family, I’m not sure why, but I’ve found it hard to have conversations anymore. I’m more of a quiet person Bc anytime I try to hold a conversation with anyone the derealization (i guess Thts what it is) begins and I feel like I’m 10 feet behind myself looking at my point of view through a tunnel, I then get anxious and can’t focus on what I’m trying to say, or I focus too hard on trying to get what I’m trying to say out so it seems like im okay and not experiencing this crazy out of body experience. It doesn’t happen much anymore, only occasionally. Usually when I’m even just the slightest bit anxious. I’ll have these weird feelings. But I think it comes with periods of heavy stress or anxiety, I just had a solid 3 weeks of this feeling 24/7 maybe a little less than a year ago. There were other symptoms, this one was jsut the most inconvenient, I hate it and I wish things like this weren’t so hard to describe and I wish there was a more fine line when it comes to mental disorders.
The fading away thing is relatable though. I feel like I lose a bit of me each day. It’s tough to not see anyone share ur symptoms, but at least u kno tht ur not alone in searching for someone with the same experiences.
Yeah I’ve had this going on since 2014. Mine is suspected to be trauma based. It is an uncomfortable feeling. And it gets worse. Like I know I still have emotion, but I don’t really experience it all the time. I know I’m feeling it, but… not really?
For me it feels like the real me is already dead and I'm just living my memories.
I’ve thought this too, sometimes.
That I am feeling also, I wake up every morning and I’m like “ I’m still in my body ?”
How can we get out of this phase I want to be normal again !!
Mjnoon 360 I have tried everything,I still feel fear for no reason ,although I suspect why this is happening to me, I experienced some traumatic events in 2014 and other traumatic events in 2001/2002. I guess what’s appending now is related somehow to those events. I have recently became a father in parallel of sitting some dry tough exams. They could be the factor of the panic attack I experienced that made me get stuck in this déréalisation mode . Scary !!!
@@moslemmathlouthi2949 It's very related to anxiety and panic attacks, so if you're suffering from those things, the dp and dr are probably because of it. The solution is to make the anxiety go away, either with therapy, medication or pure mental will if you're strong enough I guess. Some residual symptoms of disassociation may still be present after the anxiety has gone, but if you can manage to ignore them and move on, you'll be okay eventually.
I've had this disorder for over 40 years . This is by far the SCARIEST part of anxiety! If my anxiety attacks only consisted of feeling nervous, thinking I was going crazy, etc. I could handle it. But the De-realization is THE WORSE! My prayers are with anyone who's ever experienced this
try to remember that u came out of a woman and u are made of star dust
Just had an episode today.
I’ve just started to have this feeling at most for 2 weeks now and it’s so scary I had no idea how to explain it but this video helped alot but I’m still scared
Dont Know who needs to hear this but just accept it and i can assure you that it will go
Lets say i deal with this everyday and it started when i smoked weed
As a 19 year old who has had severe derealization/depersonalization disorder since I was 11, describing it to others who don’t have the same disorder is extremely difficult. It feels like everything, and everyone, is a simulation. Nothing feels real, not yourself, not anybody else. Everything around you is covered in fog, and You feel so numb, yet so frustrated that you can’t seem to snap out of this dream/nightmare. You feel like you’re in a video game realm, yet you can’t take the VR headset off. It’s having a vague memory of what the world around you seemed like and, in comparison to now, you’re longing to see the world like that again. It’s living on pure survival mode. It’s not being able to absorb information around you. It’s having your vision clouded by smoke and showing you the most dull version of colors it can. It’s not having any (or very few) friends/relationships because it almost physically pains you to have conversations with people because you have to force your brain to come up with a pre-loaded, “socially-acceptable” response because you don’t have conversation skills due to not really understanding them. It’s so draining to even force yourself to talk because, your brain feels deserted. It’s sleeping 18+ hours a day because you don’t know what to do with yourself. And, at least in your dreams, you feel a little bit more real. Its forgetting what you just did every 2 seconds, like hopping out of the bath, getting dressed, and asking yourself right after, “Did I take a bath today…?” It’s also so much more than that, and so different for so many people. Derealization/depersonalization is real, so real, and please don’t hesitate to get help bbs. I currently am seeking to get treatment. We can get through this together 💓
Have you ever dove deep into the derealization/ depersonalization thoughts? As if they are trying to tell you something as if there if something fishy or off putting about this reality?
You perfectly described how I feel. I know your just some stranger on the internet but i legitimately choked up a little reading this. It’s mind boggling to me that there’s someone else who feels the exact same way.
Is there treatment for the condition? Growing up in an African set up I actually thought it was witchcraft when the condition started.
whoa im all better now but i went through all of these when i was hit with dp/dr couple of years ago
@@Alex-rf3zg Absolutely, especially as of recently. My derealization has gotten maybe slightly better since I’ve written this post a year ago? But not by much, and I’ve had a lot of time recently to really delve into my thoughts and I almost feel like there’s something that my blurred reality is showing me that may be more true than others’ realities. I feel like because of this disorder I’m much, much more open-minded so it could just be that I’m open to more ideas than some may be, but there’s definitely something fishy about reality for sure.
For me, derealisation is like watching a hyperrealistic movie. It often takes a couple of seconds to realise that someone is addressing me and not merely talking to the fourth wall
Yes!!!!
for me it feels like a game
i see objects not as something existing and touchable but as just 3d models of them
This is an accurate way of explaining it. It happens to me like this too.
Same girl!!
Tullio238 I’ve felt that way before. I got over it. If I’m different from any other person in the movie, then who am I? If what we have isn’t real, at least there’s chances presenting the timeline making me as I am.
it feels like i’m stuck in my head and my body is just going along. Kind of like Auto Pilot
Same I hate this I Just want to kill myself to end it all
@@urthiccgrandpa5673 NOOOO don’t do that, it’s alright, 2 months later and i’m feeling better now. Just try ur best not to focus on it and don’t give it attention and it’ll eventually go away like it did for me.
@@luis9943 thank you
@@urthiccgrandpa5673 no problem, if you need someone to talk to just ask cuz i’ve been through that before because of weed
@@luis9943 I'm scared that I will never feel emotions after this disorder and I took a gummies and they were strong and I got this disorder
My derealisation began when I was 11 and I’ve just come to accept that I’m always going to feel about 40% conscious for the rest of my life
It definitely feels like the world around me has changed its aura
that was when mine started to fade. i just accepted it. After that there were glimpses of reality and getting in touch with my feelings again, slowly - i wasn't even able to feel sad. Then, the good (and bad) feelings were gradually overcoming and coming back. Now just feels normal again :)
@@aocastro that has happened for me, I excepted it and also realised I had depression that I suppressed and ignored causing derealisation.
Started when I was 13, I’m now 33 and just accepted to live with it.
☹️
I feel like this mostly happens to me when I’m socializing a lot, especially in an environment that I’ve rarely or never been in before.
I'm the opposite I guess, it's always in my own room
Yup same
THIS! for me is the same
And it's like a point of view from above, where I can see myself
I think it depends on the people you are talking and the conversation itself but I think socializing a lot helps actually
I've had this chronically since I was a about 10 years old and I can tell you that medically, nobody seems to remotely care.
Psychiatrists don't seem to take it seriously even though it can be so debilitating. I had to put my university studies on hold for a year because I couldn't concentrate anymore, because I dissociated every time I tried to read.
@@KatGlosddd happens to me all the time and it also doesn't let me fully remember or understand the text I'm reading.
I think I have ddd but I don't really know because I have read a lot of people say that anxiety causes it and I don't have anxiety.
Have you found anything that helps with it?
I have been with this feeling since I was 10 and now I'm 18. Sorry for bad english, not native speaker.
jamesdaly83, exactly. It’s like they’re okay with me having a depression, but they just don’t believe DDD is a real thing. I would have chosen to have depression and not DDD. I hate it so much more than my depressive symptoms.
@@unab1456 My derealisation got a lot better, it's still here, but got a lot better when I started taking anti depressants. It's been getting worse again after a few years, and I'm not sure if I've ever really been..."awake"? Like, feeling like I'm actually here, in reality, but it did help a lot.
@@KatGlos that sucks, I'd seek out a psychiatrist who actually knows what they're talking about because I've had some therapists who were just dumb and invalidated my feelings and it sucked but lately my psychiatrists have been great and take my dissociation/derealization etc seriously
I usually describe it as like having on a very convincing VR headset. You’re senses are all working and you can interact with your surroundings fine and, yet, you still feel like your not actually there. It still feels simulated and unreal.
Omggg yesss feels unreal
OMG THIS!!!!!
Yes!!
This this right here explains what im going through rn
That's exactly how I feel about it too. Either as VR or like I'm on a Movie/TV set, everything *looks* real but it's not actually real.
I use to live with this DAILY. I'm super thankful that I no longer get it- I was really depressed at the time as well. It felt as though you can't fully connect with everything. You know you're there but it feels like you're not, very floaty. I felt as though I was experiencing everything in third person, nothing felt mine or connected to me. It's a very hard thing to describe and experience. I remember telling people about how I felt and no one understood what I meant. If you're going through this and feel as though it won't go away, trust me, it will with time. I always thought it was just me but as time slowly passed it started to fade away.
How old are you?
How long did it take to go away?
I have this bs feeling for years and dont know how to get rid off.
Big hug to you ❤
I feel terrible for you! I recently found out my best frieand has it actually and I wanna try and help her stop having it so much so badly so I've been reaserching evry methods possible too try and help out with her problem!
this used to happen to me a lot when I was little and I could only describe it to others as "It feels like I'm in a dream" . it would just happen to me randomly whilst I was walking or something and it felt like my mind detached from my body
You explauned it perfectly. Its like the worst feeling ever.
If u wanna answer : do you
Have a toxic family ?
It feels like no one understand when I say
"Everything feels off"
Same. It’s hard to pinpoint and explain to someone if they haven’t felt the mindset themselves. Not fun.
This ! Sometimes i feel like i cat explains how i feel
bc literally no one does, every time i mention it everyone's like "oh lol" or laughs it off
Same. I feel you. I just say I feel weird. Or somethings weird.
I recently explained it as "It felt like I stumbled into a parallel universe. Everything looked 'familiar', but it felt wrong, like those photoshopped images of items that look familiar until you look closer and realize that everything is unrecognizable and nothing makes sense."
When I was younger I used to say "I don't feel myself" when I had this and people were like wtf
Sara S. Thats me! Omg
that's me with my family 😭 and since we're Hispanic they were like...chile...what's happening to her??? My mom didnt understand when I told her I dont feel like I'm in my own body and that I feel like am gonna die. i couldn't calm down ahhhhhhh i hate this D
When I was younger, I used to ask other people I was with when it happened to me, Do you feel like we are in a dream now? And they looked at me like no, wtf.
yes me too! i say i’m having ‘a moment’ and then have to try explain
Help me someone what should I do it's been 9 years like this...please help🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I have this. For me, its a continuous cycle of varying intensities. One moment I can feel anchored to reality, not thirty seconds later everything can be unreal.
Nothing has weight. I've been hit by a car going 50 mph, asked out or been asked out, and it feels like a movie.
The scariest part about DDD is the detachment makes you question the validity of your own memories. You know you had a good time during your high school prom, but you can't feel excited when you recall that moment. Everything is acknowledged. Nothing is felt.
Getting chills just watching. I experienced both in 2012, simultaneously and due to stress. It was, without a doubt, the most terrifying experience ever. My heart goes out to anyone experiencing this long-term.
Have had this for 5 years so far
15 yrs for me.. I just learned to accept it. And honestly I don’t know a life without it.
I had my first (and hopefully last) episode a couple of weeks back. It's the most terrifying thing I've experienced, and I relished every glimpse of reality I had during that time. Wasn't fun at all and I don't wish that on anyone.
2 months and I don;t know what to do. I'm just a walking nothing. Everything hurts all the time. Save meeeeeeeee.
@@Whoknows88-t9y I remember this feeling. I still don’t remember how long it lasted, but it took time to get over. I did a lot of crying and begging to “come back”. I know it feels like there’s no end in sight, but with help, you may be able to recover sooner rather than later. Do you have insurance?
I have many moments where I zone out and look at my hands, table, computer. When someone is talking to me, and I feel for sure stuck within a dream landscape. My surroundings feel like a dream and I don't feel present. I find my hands very uncanny! Because that's what we do when we realize we're in a dream, look at our hands. Even typing this...I know I'm alive and existing, but it truly doesn't feel right.
Most trippy dream I’ve had was breaking my arm off in jiu jistu for only the inside of it to be wires and metal
I had the same thing and eventually it developed into anxiety. I take an ssri now and feel fine
1. I have never heard of anyone look at their hands when dreaming! Lol 2. Just reading your description above was triggering the derealization. lol It’s so freaky!
Yesss
This is exactly what I feel
Remember what Batman reminds us of in TAS episode " Perchance to Dream" we can, t read in dreams, something to remember when travelling through,......The Twilight Zone.
my dreams have become so vivid i’m getting dream memories mixed up with “reality” memories
"Have I already told you this or was it a dream?" is something I've said way too often in my life...
Yh me too, my dreams and memories are getting like swapped.
SAME
I've asked family members about memories that ended up just being dreams in the first pllace
And with my made up world in my head.
Knowing there’s other people out there that experience this makes me feel way less alone, I genuinely had no idea what I was experiencing. It felt like I was reintroduced to a world that I’ve already been living in and never had an explanation for it. Everything just felt so fake like I was the only sentient person on earth. Sometimes I freak myself out that I’m in control of a person when I look down at my legs and body lmfao
It feels like my brain resets and starts to work in "discovery" mode with phylosophycal mindset
Exactly what I was feeling as well. Today is the first time I found soemthing to describe what I was feeling. If you ever need to talk I’m here!
I think I have found the best way to describe my feeling :
It feels as if my vision and senses are limited. So it feels like I am supposed to see more. I don’t have eye problems (I’m just nearsighted but I have glasses), but my derealization feeling is like… I feel like I should see more than what I already see in my field of vision. I feel like I should be seeing everything at the same time. Same with my senses. I feel like I am missing out on something. It’s as if, in my past life, I could see way more than just what humans see in their field of visions… Kinda like I used to see behind myself too and not just in front.
It’s actually mostly a feeling that something about my senses or capabilities is missing.
For me it feels like that there is some kind of aura in every object and person that I can only sense. Every person feels like a dream type of person or some kind of NPC. Objects can seem fake and weird to me
My dreams are WAY more real than my life. I still remember dreams from 34 years ago.
I feel like I'm a being that's fallen into some secret deserted and desolate sleeping place. I've been asleep for trillions of years and I have no ambition to wake up and explore existence because I don't feel any connection to it.
I feel like the people in this world are aliens pretending to be humans for some test they need to take or something like that .
@@vadoinak620 I feel like that today 😭
I just wrote a comment saying I’ve been having extremely vivid dreams and then seeing this comment scared me
SAME
I do have that too
So basically the brain is like that therapist meme?
Brain: those people harassing you out there aren't real and can't hurt you
Calculus test: *show full working*
I call it nihilist mode
Anybody create ddd fb group please..
CaramelLeek exactly lol
No it's *you are not real*
Derealization is something I experience often. Sometimes I'll be so deep into my own thoughts and mind that I feel like I'm on spectate mode and everything around me is a dream until I start to slowly ease out of it due to interaction with the things around me.
I've had episodes of DPDR for almost 10 years. It can make you feel like you are losing your mind and developing a more serious mental illness.
For me, these episodes seem to last anywhere from 2 weeks up to 3 months. The first time I experienced it, it lasted for around 6 months.
Other symptoms I have include; tinnitus, visual snow, migraines, OCD and during the episodes I usually suffer very acute and severe anxiety and depression as a result of the consistent and tiring anxiety.
Over time you get used to the symptoms of things not feeling quite right and feeling off or as though you are automated and playing out a dream or on the other extreme feeling hyper real.
The more troublesome symptom I experience when in the midst of an episode is the relentless irrational, philosophical and existential thoughts. Normally these don't bother us too much when we are in a calm state of mind, but during DPDR episodes they can be absolutely relentless. To the point where you begin to question every detail of the physical world around you, ordinary everyday objects such as a mug for example or a chair begin to trigger a barrage of existential dread and philosophical probing. You realise these objects have no inherent meaning and are just ideas conjured up in some humans mind and brought into existence using the available physical materials avaliable to us on this planet.
Again these kind of thoughts when not in the deep well of DPDR can be of great entertainment and philosophical exploration. But during DPDR they shake you to your very core. You are looking for some stability, anything tangible to latch onto to keep you feeling as though you are a part of this world, but every existential thought just makes you feel more and more disconnected.
A few words of advice I can give is this, make sure you are taking adequate supplements and decent nutrition. Exercise often and regularly, practice grounding and meditation. Build a support network around you, knowing people around you are looking out for you can be a huge help. Give it time. These episodes for most people do not last forever, yes they are very scary and you can quickly become hopeless during them, but things will get better and these episodes are usually just temporary.
Dear, this is the most explanatory experience I've ever read about DPDR . Thanks for sharing your scary experience with us . May God keep you safe and healthy.
thank you. life is a constant foggy spinning daze and posts like this help me re-calibrate a bit
we share the pain
this is a good explanation, thank you
this helped me understand what my partner is going through, thank you
I literally can't stare at a mirror too long or I just separate from myself. It's a really sucky feeling
NothingToSeeHere, exactly the same. I avoid looking at the mirror because of that.
It is.
I hear that
Well the great thing about not remembering much is every time I look in the mirror I’m like “hey, I thought I was uglier”.
You are not alone bro me too
For me it's just like, everything feels far away and inconsequential. It feels like I'm a ghost possessing someone's body and watching their life through their eyes. It has it's benefits, definitely also a lot of drawbacks. Brains are weird, man
OH MY GOD YES
This is the best description I've heard.
THIS
No benefit for me
YES
I got this when I smoked weed everyday for like a year without a break when I was 18. I decided to stop and after about 2 weeks I just woke up one day back to normal. Don’t take this as weed is bad, you just need moderation. Plus I was a little too young especially to be doing it every day all day long.
and this is why weed is still illegal in many parts of the world. If weed doesn't bring mental health issues to the surface for some people then great for them, they're so lucky, but it does for millions of other people. Drugs are to blame for how extreme my mental health issues got, 100%, and for the ignorant folk out there.. yes.. weed is a psychoactive drug, just like alcohol and hundreds of others that can fry your mind with enough abuse.
Yeah literally same story for me. 18 now and stopped.
Been smoking every day at 17 and have severe derealization. Gonna quit now
I've been feeling like this for already 10 months, there's no a day when I get used to it. I feel like everything goes so fast, the scenes of life go fast. When I talk to someone and the conversation ends, I feel like that ever happened. It's weird to explain and hard to get used
I had a lot of panic attacks before but that hasn't been happening in the last months, I've defeated my fears, but intrusive thoughts are there sometimes, and this seems to last forever
I get you man
Contrary to popular belief, the actual DDD acronym stands for:
D what
D is
D happening
relatable
D I'M GONNA
D CLOBBER THAT
D THERE KIRBY
@@neilisbored2177 WHY WOULD YOU CLOBBER KIRBY ;-;
@@neilisbored2177
*Coughs in amused surprise*
Lmao that hits too close to home
Sometimes i snap back into reality, and the past 10 minutes felt like i was on autopilot, living as someone else or something
How does it feel when you go from derealized to normal again?
This happens to me but only At school Or Sum times At home
It happens to me too, but only when I make an effort to “get back in the real world”. I find it so scary though when suddenly my brains realizes that all the object and people around me are real! Like “OMG this has been existing the whole time!? It was not just a dream!?” It’s quite unsettling I must admit.
I wish I could snap back, it constantly feels like I’m zoned out and I want to live again
At least you go back mine is constant its horrible I don't want to live like this anymore
can’t believe hank green knows what’s wrong with my brain. i feel so Seen i love this guy
Wait I got the same thing can we talk
I wish I would have found this video a year ago. I suffered with this for months, and when I tried to reach out to the people I trusted most they laughed it off, judged me, treated me like I was just "exaggerating" or trying to make excuses, and legitimately made me feel crazy, which made my anxiety go through the roof and just made everything worse.
Therapy helped immensely, but this knowledge - this validation that I wasn't crazy and really was in need of help - is bittersweet.
For me, derealization feels like everything is muted and dull. It's like I'm dreaming or so zoned out that I have to consciously decide to pay attention to something. It often accompanies downturns in my depression. I feel like I zoned out when I was 13 and never really tuned back into the reality I was in.
Omg you just explained what I feel
Damn accurate.
I can relate with second sentence..
FINALLY. I used to complain about this to my friends and they’d always look at me weird and I began to get a “reputation” before I stopped talking about it.
get help sicko
Maybe instead of talking about it you should go talk to someone about it.
Your friends likely branded you as "that chick" becuase you dont seek help.
If you wont help yourself, why should they show empathy.
yeah, don't bother. People don't get it and talking to them would only backfire. Pointless truly.
@esther m She set forth the statement. I judged it at face value. If the information was lacking it's her fault. Not mine.
Chill out captain defender.
I have very little sympathy for people who complain without helping themselves. Honestly some of the most toxic people I have ever met do this. So forgive my total lack of empathy. Or dont. Its youtube, idc.
Wonder who's more toxic here? One who complains about her mental problem to let out some steam
or
someone who practically complains about a complaint, truly nonsensical to the point of taking a little time of his day to say he has little sympathy.
If you truly have little sympathy, why bother commenting at all?
This comment won't matter. And yours won't.
This has to be the HARDEST experience to describe to others to understand.
It’s so uncomfortable to experience, I remember the first time it happened when I was a kid, and now know what it is. When it happens, you just want to go back to “normal”, it feels really weird to talk, to listen, to do anything.
How I describe it to myself is like your in a box, but there’s another box of you inside that box… it’s almost as if you’re just possessing your own consciousness. I hate it, and it has to be the absolute hardest thing to explain or describe.
during a high stress, anxiety and depressive time of my life i experienced this. i felt completely detached from everything else but it came in waves.
one second i was there, the next everything around me was like a movie being played at me
My depersonalization has been hitting really hard recently. Can't even recognize myself in the mirror tbh
i am so sorry. i wish i was the only one experiencing this. it is so awful
Kit kat when I had it bad years ago I used to look at pictures off my children and think they wasn’t real it’s such a frightening thing to have. I haven’t had it for many many years than today it’s popped up again that’s why I’m here not sure if my anxiety which I’ve had bad this week has made it rear it’s ugly head. Wish you peace in your mind.
When i look in the mirror sometimes, i look like my mom. Its so weird
Sasuke Uchiha yup
I just came out of this. Please be strong. There is hope.
When it said "Your head is stuffed with cotton" I was like "THAT'S IT" that's the way I have been using to explain it for years
Yes, I had the same reaction! I experience it occasionally during times of stress. But, the longest stretch of time I had it was when I was on Seroquel. I would tell people "I feel like everything is coated in molasses". Granted, that was a side-effect, and it went away as a daily thing when I got the f off it. But, yeah, when my brain disconnects occasionally now, it's the same feeling.
I had the same reaction! I usually say “molasses” or just call it “brain fog” (which I actually started using before I learned was even a recognized term). sucks though, i’m part of that 1-2%, ive had it on a constant 24/7 basis for the last 6 1/2 years
@@arachnidfingers I can't imagine how awful this must be like, having it for a few hours already sucks!
Sla vei honestly, when it started, it was living hell. at around year 3, my symptoms became less severe (i used to be so out of it that i didn’t have the presence of mind to cross the street properly and nearly got hit a handful of times), and it still sucks but rn it feels like i’ve been drowning and moving closer to the surface, but i’m still drowning.
Me too, or like there is a layer of white paint over everything.
for me it has always felt like i’m living in a third person pov, watching my body move and interact with the world from an above angle. scariest part actually isn’t the depersonalization/derealization but actually when it ceases for a brief period of time and my perspective temporarily shifts to a first person pov. it’s genuinely so scary and jarring and happens at the worst periods of time and just sends me spiraling mentally
i feel like this everytime i get out of my safe zone (when i leave my house). it is usually triggered by anxiety, and if i feel safe and relaxed, i don't feel like that.
I cried watching this… it gave an explanation to what I’ve been experiencing for years. This has caused so much anxiety and depression for me. Doctors would just say ‘there’s nothing physically wrong with you’. But this has helped me so much more than you can know.
I knows it’s an educational video but… yeah you’ve changed my life a bit
I had it for years and I recovered on my own, you can too! It'll get better
@@taym1698 If you don't mind me asking how did you recover? Just through therapy? I've been dealing with this for years too but had bad psychiatrists that didn't diagnose me so I can't afford to go again for a while.
@@PeacefulChaos77 used to have this when I was younger. It got better by fixing my sleep schedule and being physically active while getting the proper nutrition. I did some ice bathing too which makes you more hyper-aware for a short time which I like.
@@frrosp Thanks for replying! Yeah I'm sure exercising more will help a lot. I'll definitely try ice baths too :)
@@PeacefulChaos77 i myself have the same problem for years, i never went to a psychiatrist becaude my parents wouldn't know what the problem with me is.
Due to this same disorder, i got panic attacks and severe agoraphobia (fear of going outside or in crowded places.)
I fixed it myself by thinking to myself that its okay and its not gonna kill me in anyways so there's nothing to worry about.
Its really hard to fix it
Im glad i found out that the thing which i experience is indeed a disorder.
Happens to 2% of people, and they're all in these comments.
I have had these symptoms but I don't have DDD, remember he mentions only 1-2% have the disorder however depersonalization and derealization are symptoms of other disorders so its not surprising many people have experienced it.
Me too
the 80% either doesn't know that it happens,or came from being on shrooms and relates to the DDD reaction
maybe everyone it has happened to decided to come and watch this video..?
well, it kind of makes sense for a video on depersonalization-derealization to attract people who experience it, ya know?
Huh, I never knew this was its own thing. I always lumped this feeling in with lightheadedness as that’s the only time I really feel it. Usually if I’m in a new place or get super lightheaded it turns into this, where I feel distant from everything and almost like I’m not in control even though I know I am, where time passes by ten times faster and everything feels fuzzy. I’ve only had this happen a hand full of times, but when it does it’s a very odd feeling.
I get this a lot nearly every day. Nothing feels stranger than constantly feeling like you're floating and watching yourself move on a tv 😅
for me, it all feels like a bad dream or a simulation i can't wake up / get out of.
Just realise you are dreaming. Once you have recognised that you have done all that needs to be done. Recognise that the consciousness that you are is separate from the dream. It is the substratum upon which reality manifests. That is real.
Same. Somtimes I try to focus and force myself to like wake up and also tell myself that everything is real but it doesn't work.
@@mielk05 how are you now?
For me it feels like I died and I’m just reliving my memories I wake up and I know I have dp but for me it feels like I have some type of constant deja vu yeah that’s the word
Simulation is a good descriptor.
I used to have Depersonalization badly and recently I looked in the Mirror and I felt my self staring back, I felt like I was human again, it was a good feeling. It kept me smiling on a monday morning :)
Pallineon I usually smoke a cigarette and/or drink coffee. Those usually help
Ants In My Pants
Coffee gives me anxiety and makes my DPDR worse, I guess it’s different for everyone:’)
That's excellent to hear. I'm incredibly happy for you.
I hope that one day all of us who are enduring this can feel human again too.
Do you guys also get those random happy moments where you just wanna yell “wow my life is so great I love everyone” and then the next hour you’re tired and numb again? The last time I talked to someone about this, they said it sounded like bipolar II but the mood swings were too short. Maybe I’m just special 🤔
I'm gonna try this, I really hope this helps me
I dealt with this all throughout my teen years and had very few resources that explained it to me. I grew out of it around the age of 18, but it still happens when I'm deeply overwhelmed. I'm so happy to see information circulating about this!
The way i deal with this is by drawing. It helps me transfer my thoughts into a real tangible proof
Good idea!!!
Me too! I would draw how I see through my perspective! I would calm down while crying and crying, and then take a picture of my drawing and would send it to my therapist. I’m happy, it brings me awareness to let me know that I’m here, even though no body was there for me during those moments.
Whenever I experience it, it feels like a camera that is picking up everything equally but can't focus on any one thing.
YES, it's like VR'ing your life with bad technology that's all flat and 2D!
My major trigger is dead (yep, it was Mom), so I almost had some episodes around her Death-iversary this year, but I was able to try to ground myself. I came close to yeeting myself out of my body and floating above my head like a balloon, but if I regulate my breathing with deep yoga breaths it slows the process so I don't autopilot and emergency eject my soul out of my body like I used to.
@@ladyjanewriter floating above my head like a balloon! That’s exactly how it feels
@@ladyjanewriter good job i still struggle keeping myself in check. one thing i try and do is just co exist with it. you can’t let it take over you and you can’t focus on it too much that it takes you over. if you just co exist with it you’ll be much happier
Thank you for putting this sensation into words!
wow thats accurate
I have felt like this for years now i thought it was just what "growing up" felt like
Terrifying comment. Thank you.
I have felt this way since I was 12 years old (I'm 24 now), I still can trace the exact moment it started, and at some point I actually thought that too, that it was maybe just supposed to happen. It's sooo good to finally know this has a name, feels less... lonely, tbh
@@danielaariassegura4869 i can too and it does feel much less lonely
Aaaaaaaa can relate
Yeah i thought that too.
I suffered from DDD for the majority of my childhood, I’m 18 now and through keeping myself entertained I’ve overcome most of the symptoms. It means so much to me to see people talking about this condition, because as a child DDD was hardly known.
It gets better. ❤️
I’m so glad my dissociation stopped after about a week. It was a miserable week and I still don’t know why it happened. I feel for those who have this chronic condition on the regular.
I get this but not after waking up, like it'll be mid day and I'm doing what every activity and then my brains like "woah woah woah slow down, this isn't real;)"
Same
Felt
Same
lol same here
I get it mostly after it gets dark
My DDD makes me feel like a video game or tv character. Every once in a while my brain goes "it's okay that the bad thing happened, you can revert to your last save point". Like, what save point????
Contemplate on your experience and your favorite video game. You might find that point where you completed experiences up to a certain point in your life. But the experience and purpose and direction are yours alone to interpret and use.
It's not that deep. It's just my brain thinking I'm fake and in a fake reality.
If you can't reload your saves, you may have encountered a softlock glitch. I would recommend the prayer chatroom to contact customer support, but those servers are infamously unreliable.
you know, it's possible to have multiple comorbid conditions. i have tourettes, ocd and autism spectrum disorder. if you're hearing your brain speak an audible voice to you, you may have more than just DDD? but who knows... all the same, i sympathize with your struggles!
@@AuntBibby Thanks for pointing that out! My brain doesn't actually say that to me, it's more that I'm thinking it without meaning to, but because I'm almost constantly depersonalized I never really feel like those automatic thoughts are mine. I do have intrusive thoughts as well but these seem different to me, it's my own voice saying to go to my last save point. Again, thanks, I really wasn't clear on that one.
For me, this can happen one of two ways: one is through excessive sleep deprivation or not enough sleep mixed mixed with anxiety and stress; two is through drinking enough to feel the effects of drinking (i.e. dizziness, loss of judgment and control). I've found that my episodes have lasted between 1-3 weeks and no matter how hard I try, I can't get them to go away immediately. I have to wait them out and it's the worst feeling in the world, having to go out and do stuff when you literally can't feel anything and your head feels like it's been hollowed out. My worst experiences have involved mirrors, and I don't feel alone anymore after reading that mirrors affect others as well. I can't look at my reflection whatsoever, and if I do, I can feel my head getting emptier and emptier. Kind of like that teddy bear/transferrable consciousness episode of black mirror.
growing up i’d have a lot of people tell me i had “a lot of will power”/“a high pain tolerance” but i think it was just this? i always just didn’t feel like things were really happening to me
thank u hank (as always)
Depersonalization/derealization is very annoying. It happens occasionally when I'm near an anxiety attack and it feels like being a foot away from my body.
Now imagine that but constantly but with those anxiety attacks just causing full on episodes
It's like my brain is watching me from across the room
@@Duskofoolacile420 do you have it constantly
@@squareoff2110 yeah for years now
I get this feeling so many times in public areas. Like, everything just feels like I'm going to forget it right after it's done. And I think I do? I don't know. I don't remember.
thespeedyyoshi I feel how you feel. I used to suffer from believing that I am the centre of the universe and only I think of such deep thoughts. Now I realise my stupidity, when I go out in public I no longer feel so critical of others and I feel more unreal as in all our actions won’t matter when we are gone. It’s like a sensation of being in a dream because whatever I do doesn’t matter.
thats exactly how i feel, no matter what happens bad or good doesnt matter , iwill forget it , am like if anyone comes and spits me i wont do anything i cant take it real, it doesnt triggers my emotions, sometimes i do things like its real and important in front of others like i care and am alive.
@@elizabethshepherd6153
I had about four months last year of having regular breakdowns over a similar idea. I realized that I don't actually know if anyone else is conscious or sentient, and kept thinking how if it was only me, everything was meaningless.
I don't think I'll ever feel worse than that.
You just explained the one thing I felt like no one would understand...That's what actually started my derelziation. 2 weeks ago I was heading to bed when I suddenly thought "how did I get here"? What's happening? Am I real? It was so scary...worse now.
@@zuragoderidze8823 that literally my life in a nutshell.
Working out and Martial arts has been the best thing for me for this. Especially kickboxing sparring, the intense work out combined with pain and needing to process things super fast really puts you back in your body
I get like this during deep, dark depressive episodes. Ever since I saw Get Out, I tell people it's like the sunken place.
It's not just that I'm numb, but it's literally like I'm a backseat driver in my own thoughts and actions. When I cut myself, it's like the "real me" is trapped in my own mind begging myself to stop.
Get Out. Yes! That’s exactly how I describe it to people too. Especially the scene when the main character first gets put in the sunken place and his body is falling away from what his eyes are seeing.
I never know if the past really happened or that i just dreamed it. Everyhting kinda blends together with my dreams..
yeah i get that too
That and if you have troubles recalling something your brain just makes it up and you cannot tell at that moment whether you dreamt it, experienced it, saw it on media or made it up. Your imagination is so strong you are really good at giving advice just from looking at the problem objectively and people think of you as stable but if you bring up the trouble of deciding something is real or not they get surprised and say it's just stress. sure, I'm stressed my whole life then
Calvin K same been happening to me since I was a child
me too , I thought I was the only onee
@@TigrashaWild holy hell. I thought it was just me.
Depersonalization can also cause people so feel like their looking at themselves from an outward perspective or from a birds eye view whilst they are dissociating
Birds eye view?? Really???
@Towhid Greedy what does this mean lol
this!
oh shoot
oh my god this happened to me for like a whole year once, i had no idea it was a real thing other people knew
I'm glad you mentioned that it can just feel like everything's far away because I've never related to it being dream-like and past therapists/psychiatrists never believed me
Is was going through this 2 years ago and it was probably one of the most terrifying experiences of my entire life. So glad I had my friends to support me and help me get through it
I experience depersonalization as a symptom of my anxiety attacks. I feel as if I am a video game character being controlled by someone else.
We're afk
Same, I feel like I'm in a video game. I mostly fell this when I watch too much TV or play too much video games and stay up, my brain can't keep up and I just go to bed and sleep for some good hours and I feel good.
I honestly used to think that I was the only human capable of experiencing this untill I read an article on Wikipedia about it.
Same
Yeah me to
The story of my life on finding out about all my disorders, but my epiphanies were mostly found on Reddit threads
Same
I love how the comments can relate to each other, its so comforting.
I remember experiencing these symptoms as a Child (10-11 years?) when attending a "Parochial" school and being , by today's standards very "emotionally abused" and being very spooked by my loss of "normal" feelings , kind of nice to find an explanation , randomly watching a video 60+ years later , I have had a whole lot of other problems in my Lifetime that may be related .
I’ve had it for 19 years straight now with no known cause. I’d give just about anything to feel connected again. My vacations feel like wasted money and time spent with people I love are for nothing but to make them feel better, which is fine. I just want to experience life again.
Same here, I think a small % of people with dp/dr actually have it from physiological causes rather than psychological. Definitely something worth looking into for long term sufferers.
Did LSD / Shrooms help?
@@andremakris3061 I don’t anymore but I was microdosing about .4 of shrooms for a bit and personally, I would say it does help a lot. But I made the mistake of telling to many ppl I was microdosing so if you do end up doing it I’d keep it to yourself except for maybe a few *close* friends/family.
Sameeeeeeee
I am so sorry it has been happening to me for 2 years and I can't take it anymore
Worst thing about DDD is that once you stop going through it everything that happened in that time span is gone. I went through this for about 3-4 months and i don’t remember anything from that time. I can’t even remember how it felt like, reading these comments reminds me a little but the feeling is so indescribable. It’s like if you broke a bone and you try to describe the pain to someone who’s never broken a bone.
Or childbirth!
@@loritracy1385 well I’m a dude so I can’t understand that either 🤣🤣🤣
@@Darealmclovin47 - True! It just popped into my head as one of those things that you can forget as a protection against what it was really like! 😂
Yes I have pretty frequent depersonalization and over the past few years especially I notice that large chunks of my memory simply don't exist anymore. My wife will tell me about a conversation we had only a few weeks ago that I literally have 0 memory of because my brain went into dream world while that conversation was happening. It's lead to extreme memory loss in my life and every doctor will just blame cannabis use for it. But I use cannabis medically for other conditions so I don't have much of an answer or advice from medical professionals. Extremely frustrating.
@@heyimpiratesteve I guess I can maybe offer some hope, I guess? I had similar but I practiced lucid dreaming for a while - took a couple years to get it reliable - and now I have kinda the opposite. I remember things super vividly, even if I was zoned out through it, buuut I also remember mundane parts from my dreams equally vividly so I get convinced that I’ve had conversations that definitely never happened. Brains are weird, maybe some lucid dreaming practice will help you.
If you want a starting point, if you ever notice something feels “off”, try willing something impossible but feels right. Mine’s usually to think of a fractal like an MC Escher drawing and try to interact with it, or just try remembering something recent and checking the date. Touch walls, too. I find if the back of my hand doesn’t bounce off of it, or if my hand kinda sinks in a bit like a mattress, something’s up.
This video and all the comments show you that you’re not alone! It does get better, I had this for months on end but it faded
Thanks for the explanation! I’ve had derealization for around six years straight now. Not officially diagnosed yet, but my new therapist mentioned it and it seems to fit perfectly with what I’ve been feeling.
King Dedede lives in Dreamland... Coincidence? I think not!
That's exactly what I thought!
I was gonna comment something like this too hahah
Considering how bizarre -- if not borderline nightmarish -- Kirby games can get, I think Sakurai and HAL Labs were onto something...
@@Brown95P or maybe DDD is named after Dedede
@@SotraEngine4
Frankly, I'd rather believe it be one hell of a coincidence then, because the opposite is far too good to not be true.
Is this the real life?
Or is it just fantasy?
*caught in a landslide
We are the champions of
@@rainyladyGNR no escape from reality
OPEN YOUR EYES
whovian james look up to the sky and seeeeee
When I was between the ages of 13 and 14 I suffered from panic attacks pretty badly. Other than the episodes of extreme anxiety, I distinctly remember periods of time where I didn’t feel like I was walking around a “real” place. The experience was horrible. I felt like my mind was inside a bubble where sights and sounds where being filtered. I described this to my psychologist as a “non-reality” feeling. I don’t think she ever understood what I was talking about. This video was fascinating because for the first time I know I wasn’t alone.
It was a long time ago now, but there are rare occasions it does return briefly.
Derealization feels like you are in a box but there is another box in that same box where the whole reality is. You and the whole reality are in the same box but the reality is separated from you in another box which makes it feel like you are both connected and disconnected to the world
It’s like being a video game. I’ve had random image thoughts of the walls turning into pixels and breaking apart when I have had bad depersonalization.
For anyone struggling with this, I had derealization for years..it gets better and I recovered
How’d u do it
How do you get out of it?
Please share with us how you recovered
Guys I really don't know, I would say for most people you should start with therapy. But I just think my life got better and I was able to get out of it
How old are you? Because mine got better for 24 years. (I used breathing techniques, and avoiding triggers) Then I went through menopause and it came back with a vengeance. Now nothing works! I'm back at square one. Never know when it will strike, and anything can be a trigger.
THERE’S A TERM FOR THIS?! I felt like this all the time growing up, I always describe it as I felt like I “woke up” when I turned fifteen and the experiences became far less prevalent than earlier childhood when it just felt…constant…
Uhoh. I dissociated and derealized in response to ongoing childhood abuse. ☹️ It was protection. Hoping that's not your case as well.
@@grmpEqweer Oh dear I’m so sorry to hear you went through that, I hope you’re doing better now 😥 I’m not sure if it’s the case for me as well, perhaps I just haven’t fully unpacked that part of my life yet?
@@madierenee473
Let's hope you just really hated grade school.
@@madierenee473 I been like this since I smoked a blunt idk when it will get better
When I had experienced depersonalization-derealization, it was in my high school math class and I felt like I had to think super hard about moving my hands, almost felt like I was controlling robotic limbs with mind control, (which isn't technically wrong I just don't know how else to describe it.) Sometimes I would see myself floating above my own body, and the sound of my class talking would fade into one strange noise that sounded unfamiliar to me. Other times I would look around and be able to see the insides of my classmates, like it would show their muscles only, or their skeletons. Which sounds insane, I honestly thought I was going insane for a short period of time, Reading all these comments have helped me a lot knowing that others know how I feel, but I just felt like sharing what It felt like for me, incase someone else out there is going through what I had to.
the first time this happened to me from a panic attack i was so scared; this video explained better than anything i’ve read
Had DDD as a part of protracted withdrawal syndrome from benzodiazepines, lasted around 18 months. Not fun and one of the many reasons doctors need to take this syndrome more seriously than they tend to in the UK and USA. I used to describe it as like being an avatar in a video game, I could do everything but felt nothing.
I agree completely it's a very difficult thing to live with and sadly isn't known by many medical professionals and they always want to jump the gun to diagnose you with something else like depression
If it was taken more seriously I'm positive more people out there would get help that they need rather than just thinking they're crazy like I did
That's exactly how mine feels! I've never seen someone else describe it that way
@@dylanmiller5102 I'm baffled that so many therapists don't know much about this condition. When I tried to explain this to my psychiatrist he labeled it as some sort of psychotic reaction and put me on antipsychotics. 4 months later the situation was catastrophic, not only didn't help but made the symptoms worse (anhedonia, complete lack of pleasure ON TOP of DDD, as if it wasn't enough) among other side effects.
I like that description of it. It's common, often a symptom in other mental illnesses too like anxiety, but certainly can be seen in benzo withdrawal too.
@@DoctorElliottCarthy Try telling the British medical establishment that protracted withdrawal syndrome is even a thing. When I asked to be put back on my original fairly low dose and go on a taper, they accused me of drug seeking behaviour. I had zero history of drug abuse or any other substance abuse. Nope just a whole set of symptoms doctors in less corrupt regions would 100% associate with withdrawing from Benzos.
My sister has this disorder and it's so nice to see a video on it because nobody knows what it is. We really dont know how to manage it. It causes so much anxiety and can make social interaction very hard. When you dont feel real, or nothing else feels real, it's hard to motivate yourself to do anything.
It's so hard for her every day, because it can start to cause delusions over long periods.
It definately seems to have come from early traumatic situations as a coping mechanism, distancing her to protect her from harm.
I just wish we knew more about it.
It's actually one of the most common mental illnesses after anxiety and depression. (Though they can often occur comorbidly) Just that in general people only experience it in very small doses and it goes away on its own a lot of the time. (E.g. waking in the morning) It really is great to see so many people trying to make it better known though. When mine started i thought i must've been having a psychotic break, i was especially afraid that it would be schizophrenia. Caused me a lot of distress. Thankfully I came across Doddie's video regarding her experience with it. That gave a name to the beast , made it more manageable, and that helped me eventually to reach out for help. (And probably avoid a misdiagnosis of Schizophrenia or psychosis) Anxiety disorders are really common in people with DDD as well ,although causation is impossible to show one way or the other. In other words Anxiety can cause or worsen DDD and DDD can cause anxiety but it's hard to tell which is which in different people. Mine got better once i was on Medicine and therapy for my anxiety, its still there but it's not debilitating anymore. If you're haven't already maybe try and help her with the anxiety? Just be mindful of how the doctors go about it, ideally it should be therapy/life style changes (exercise does wonders for anxiety) first and then medicine but I've seen enough doctors either push both at the same time ,which has shown to be the most effective way of treating several illnesses but if one can get better without drugs and avoid their side effects that's the way to go imo, or go straight to medicine without any thought to CBT and the like. My doc was gonna give me antipsychotics [ they worked for a friend's derealization] but I wanted to see where I could get with just anxiety treatment. Life's so much better, it might never be the same as i used to be but im happy I recovered this much of "me". I will say though, talk to her often even if they seem disinterested. It can be terribly lonely. It feels like no one understands it and no matter how people react it's hard to feel like its genuine interest to understand, so isolation can happen easily. That in turn makes it harder to connect and feel for those around you alienating you more and more until you just stop caring about talking to others cause they feel unreal and inconsequential. Talk to her, reference things that are personal to her, make her feel like a person with a past and a future, make her feel like her. Learn some grounding techniques and breathing exercises to keep anxiety down. Work on changing the inner dialogue to be more positive and under control (often my episodes got going after small things like staring at my limbs and thinking how weird it was to control them and then I'd realize what i had done and that i was in the beginning stages of another episode. That would freak me out and then it was too late, the thoughts would spiral until i was full on breakdown level dissociated.)
Also try and make them feel more consequential. Often it's hard to feel responsibility when you have DDD. That sounds bad cause it conjures up thoughts of lazy bums but it's different. Dissosiation can make a break between what you do and what happens; cause and effect doesn't seem as solid. It's hard to explain but give them things to accomplish that will make them feel like they're real and have influence in the world. I have todo lists, clear Daily/weekly/monthly goals, and milestones now that im always striving for but at the start my sister would give me lego sets to do and it was something that grounded me. It was real, i could see my actions manifest into something tangible and realize that what i did & didn't do also had consequences. Slowly working to making what my "goal" is to be experince itself because right now if i spend too much time aimlessly doing nothing, feeling no purpose I'll start to feel a bit of dissosiation and dread. Working on it though. Sorry for the really long post, it's catharsis and honestly hope someone might be a bit better off after.
Caffeine and sleep help
I can relate so much to everything you said Sam.
The thing about social interaction being difficult was exactly how it was for me. I would sit in my room and try to distract myself from the constant feeling. For me it only lasted a few months and what helped me get out of it was DOING those social interactions that I avoided. I don’t know if this helps everybody, but now I only DP every so often and only for a day or so.
I've dealt with this for so long, and never knew this was an actual disorder.
It took two years but my derealization finally going away. I can’t describe how bad I felt for the last two years going through life but not feeling present in my own actions feeling robotic questioning my every thought and action trying to discover the root. But constant reminders of life, feeling hurt or sad actually brought me to reality and through the that I was able to reconnect with my myself. I don’t know if living and experiencing emotions will help but do your best to understand you have a problem but your capable of conquering anything sometimes even yourself
Did you use to have intrusive thoughts about one specific topic for a very long time? And have you experienced constipation because I heard DP/DR is related to lack of serotonin
@@user-rx5qe7iz5v Yes my intrusive thought typically it was me in an internal debate trying to convince myself that I was fine and not losing my mind, even though I clearly was suffering internally. But on the constipation I can't quite say since I developed early prostate problems around this time, so using the bathroom has been a struggle or different at the very least.
@@hackmasterbrax How did it feel to get out of that disorder? Does it feel like you are going to heaven?
@@hackmasterbrax And also another thing. I have a weird feeling that some objects feel real and fake at the same time. Like for example when Im watching a review of a device (smartphone , console , tablet...) and the person describing the specifications feels like he/she is describing a cardboard even tho you know the device is completely real
@@user-rx5qe7iz5v For me accepting my problem and paying no mind to the constant thought loops, I began to slowly reconnect to my natural personality but it required me to relearn how to connect with myself emotionally which took a while; and I still feel I'm trying to do. Since we are emotional beings I think this really brought me around. And if your referring to the feeling during DP/DR. No I felt more like a pair of eyes floating meaninglessly around, no joy haunting thoughts, and a huge fear that life was going to be like that permanently.
Even when I'm happy I still feel anxious, I just try to distract myself with laughter but I'm always feeling like life is foggy and not real. I feel like it won't even get better
When I'm having an episode I feel like I'm riding around inside of my body not in control of anything. I can have episodes of vertigo with it, extreme tiredness, and no matter if I'm having a severe episode or not, I never associate my reflection as being me. I tend not to stare into mirrors because it makes me anxious.
Can you elaborate how long does it last what kinds of feelings do u have?
I FEEL THE SAME!!!!!!
For me, this goes hand in hand with my depression episodes.
When the movie Get Out released, I legitimately cried when seeing him sink into the sunken place. I was like, that's exactly what it feels like!!!!!
I've always hated mirrors too, you put the words to the why
Ive been waiting for someone to mention vertigo. Irt freaks me out the most.
As a child I was obsessed with the mirror, trying to understand how that reflection could be me. It never really got better.
When I was younger, my father was very emotionally abusive when he was deep into his addiction. He would sit my brother and I down and lecture us for hours on end about how our mother was trying to turn us against him and other things that were too heavy for us at the time.
I used to depersonalize and everything would look really small and far away. I can picture it very vividly in my mind, it was terrifying and it always seemed to happen during those lectures.
Luckily, I haven't hit the deal with this since I was a kid but I have a lot of empathy for people who do because I know how terrible it is
For me it feels like I’m thinking about dreams. Not in a dream, but thinking about them. And I can’t stop. I am filled with existential thoughts and memories that I can’t tell if they’re real memories or dreams I had long ago. It feels blue, like the color blue. It often happens randomly (like when i’m playing a game, at school, or talking to someone) and makes me lose interest/have to drop whatever i’m doing to endure it. A headache sometimes follows.
I feel like it should be mentioned that depersonalization/ derealization can lead to depression. I felt this way for a few years and it's very difficult to come out. Everything feels like it's made of playdough as if everything is not real. Pretty sad and difficult to enjoy the simple things in life.
Laloweed Interesting that how you put it is opposite to how I perceive it - chronic depression has left me feeling not quite part of my own experience. The simple things are all that I have to enjoy anymore.
@@graceh1967 I'm sure I never had chronic depression. Maybe that's the main difference between our experiences as the brain changes overtime.
It doesn't usually lead to it cause it is usually a stem from anxiety or depression
I live in the netherlands
See exactly. I try to tell my mom to get me tested and she's always says no and I don't know what to do anymore
I was convinced that I didn't exist from age 8 - 24. I still kinda don't 100% believe I'm really here.
If you don't exist then who is writing this post.
A friend of mine feels she doesn't belong on Earth, and she wants to find and go *home*
@@MrWarlockFTW ...if your going to make a joke, at the very least make sure it's funny and makes sense...
@@MrWarlockFTW No, it's like "I don't exist and the marks I make on the world are all an illusion" for me, probably similar to them.
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But what is real?
I believe it was Lao Tzu who wrote the story that he slept and was a butterfly, freely flying in the air. He woke up and was Lao Tzu. Then he wondered if he was himself dreaming he was a butterfly, or was the butterfly dreaming he was Lao Tzu?
I often explained it as being a ghost, you can see everything and interact with things, yet they all feel fake, almost as if your not there, just watching things happen around you, and this video explained that perfectly
I first got this when I was 18 years old which was ten years ago now. It was a very tough couple of years at first and I couldn't stop thinking about the dp/dr, plenty of anxiety attacks ect. Came about through smoking weed as with a lot of people. I found with daily routines I broke the haze I can't say for certain if I'm fully healed now as it was so long ago before I got it I forgot what it feels like to completely not have it. But it is definitely over 90% healed and I'm actually thankful for it. I was an anxious mess before I got it now with daily exercise, meditation, yoga, walks In nature ect. I have become much more of a sociable happy confident person. Find a job you enjoy surround yourself with positive people and eat healthy / work out and trust me over weeks / months it will improve and you will get out of it ! Stop watching videos about it and feeding the monkey brain to think about it also. During the first couple of years my dad passed away mom got seriously ill ( recovered now thankfully ) and i was also depressed along with having this anxiety condition. I am now in a very happy place and enjoying life - you can beat dp/dr
Amazing. In the end, I do think the derealization is a humbling experience. I really am trying to be a better person in all aspects of life more than I ever have.
So this has a name.
I seem have a version of this all the time. As if I'm remote-controlling some biological robot from some other place.
Something too scenic...
Like a third person view??
Like a numbed down version of whats actually happening?
I sometimes get the feeling that I'm being controlled in a game like the Sims and I get shock through my body.
I feel in control of “my” body, but I don’t feel like it’s my own.
When I was younger I couldn’t describe this more than a “storybook feeling”.
This has been happening to me so much lately and I thought they were just minor panic attacks
Thank God I found this
Oh my god. I didn't expect you to say the thing about the glass wall. I don't experience it as much as I did when I was severely depressed, so I don't know if I'd be diagnosed with the disorder itself, but the experience still happens and it's wild.
Also, the blood draw thing makes perfect sense for me as someone who tends to experience derealization more often. I don't have any issues while I'm getting blood drawn, but it's oddly more uncomfortable to see others get blood drawn.
I tend to have this after looking at screens for way too long, flashing lights or during depressive episodes. When that happens I get a strange panicky feeling locked in my head, like the the sunken place in Get Out. It’s honestly horrifying and I feel so bad for people with DDD.
When I had DDD I had this experience every few nights for a while. I actually described it as being in "the sunken place" too. It feels like your terrified of nothing and you just don't understand why and there's nothing you can do about it. I actually thought about just going too the hospital and begging them too sedate me, it was just so awful, I honestly can't remember how I got through it.
@@Unknown-zt2lt I have it right now but luckily for me I have it in episodes so it doesn't happen all the time but each episode is around few minutes to hours and they happen multiple times a day more often than not I feel like my surroundings aren't real I'm going to probably start counseling or therapy soon
Have you been tested for temporal lobe epilepsy? all the things you described are seizure triggers, and I had derealization/depersonalization for two years before it turned out I’d been having temporal lobe seizures all along. They aren’t usually convulsive and often present as anxiety, derealization, and depersonalization, so it might be worth getting tested for that :)
i've had this since i was 5. i would always question wether i'm the only person in the world and everything else is just a bunch of fake people, i still question this. sometimes i'm just lightheaded and nothing feels right, i look at everything and it feels weird even when i touch things. but i'm just out of my head. i hope i get better
r u better?
I feel you man
I've had the same experience for probably the same amount of time. I've come to the conclusion that we're all probably the "focused" person of the universe at once, and there's just a main hub person that nobody knows who is who, since we all feel the same way at once. I think everyone feels at least remotely similar about this topic, so it's nice to know that we're not alone in that feeling ♥
Maybe u r a solipsist
I question it too. I promise I’m real, and that I am seeing out of my own eyes. If that makes you feel any better.
I used to experience this at my first job as a cook in an restaurant. I would get so anxious when we were busy, there were moments where I didn’t even feel like anything was real. I felt like everything was 10 feet away and my surrounding all blurred together and I had no way of selectively focus on anything. It was so bizarre and uncomfortable but it all makes sense now.