Building a Lego car while my parents are yelling, cursing and "using poor conversational skills" was one of the most vivid memories I had, because I wasn't exactly sad, but I sure as hell wasn't happy. In those days I only had a radio and a bin of legos to keep me from depression, and when I got my guitar the first song I learned to play and sing simultaneously was a song about a toxic couple breaking up. It's a scary experience many of us know much too well, and in particular if you're aware of this conflict and yet you try to drown it out with something you like it is the most bittersweet experience imaginable.
@@mokuken2469 Be strong bro, I been in a bad situation recently, only you have the power to improve the things. Put a smile in your face and keep struggling 💪
My dad was a junkie and my parents used to go nuts, fighting about stuff that didn't even make sense. I even remember my dad threatening my mom with a shotgun. I'd get pulled into the middle of conflicts, forced to choose sides, such as that. Some of us have the misfortune of having to learn how to be an adult by learning all the things NOT to do, but as someone who is a long way past all that now I can assure you as long as you focus and stay working towards your goals, better days are ahead. I have kids of my own now and I'm proud of the fact that they do not, nor will they ever understand the kind of home life I had.
Wow thats very traumatized childhood thanks man for sharing your story, i feel like i will keep moving till ends of the journey, and i have more need to learn about life 🥰😁👍
In a weird way, this really hit me.. When I was 13/14 my family started to fall apart and when I walked out of my room my mother often let out her frustration on me.. Combine that with being overworked from school and I got somewhat depressed.. So often I just sat in my room smoking green stuff, listening to music and just coding away, while my parents were arguing in the background.. Where is my mind was one of the songs I listened to on repeat.. and even now it still makes me fell kinda melancholic.. If you read this.. well, thx I guess for listening to my bs..
thats very sad childhood, its seem happened to except smoking green stuff 😅 thanks for sharing your story man but eyy we can get this through just keep strong and dont mind negative i also always tells that to me 😁👍
Hit's me too bro, sadly enough my parents kinda targeted me for being interested in that stuff. They used to always say they were proud of me for being so smart, but when I actually tried doing something I loved they would shoot me down saying that I "didn't know what you were doing" In some ways it was true, but I was learning. Lately I've been more motivated to try and get back to that mindset of constantly looking for that challenge again. But anywho, you're not the only one so, Cheers! :P
Dad is shouting because he failed to follow arch documentation and ended up wiping out all his data on drive. This guy has nerves of steel to install arch while parents are arguing. Press X to respecc
I only have second hand experience with this. My roommate in college behaved as if he had just escaped this exact situation. His stifled raging at online games, just barely not loud enough for a scolding parent to come into his room... His complete absence from normal activities around the household, as if everything outside his room was a minefield. Terrifying. I felt so lucky after living with him for a while. Stay strong people! Make something, as hard as it feels sometimes.
I grew up in this kind of environment and it's like that indeed. You try to make yourself as small as possible and not show emotions so as not to attract any of their attention. I mostly stayed in my room because it was the closest thing to a safe place I had.
i know how you feel man, this is like a clip right out of my childhood. one day i just snapped, stopped being scared, and started being angry instead. and its been like that every single day since. as exhausting as it is, anger is the only thing that works. most days i think its the all that still keeps me alive. work, coding, routing pcbs, are the only things that bring any semblance of peace. but it seems everyone is always trying everything in their power to pull me away from work. its like they know, and they want to cut off the only solace i've had left for a long time. sorry for adding my sob story to the giant pile. i guess i just want to say that it doesn't necessarily get better. just dont ever give up on the things that really make you happy. others will try to take that away from you, but don't let them. guard it with your life. i think you'll do great things one day. peace.
The last thing you want to hear, but which I'll say anyway for whenever you need to hear it: the acute focus anger can provide isn't a sustainable escape. At some point you'll need to go back to that snap point and decouple the (very reasonable) anger associated with the unjustifiable imbalance from the acceptance that came with it.
TH-cam: Ey...you know anything about programming? Me: No. TH-cam: Would you like to see a video about programming? Me: No. TH-cam: Come on. Have a gander. Me: Ok. TH-cam: Wasn't it funny? Me: I am mostly disturbed.
I have had Depression for years and the lows can get really bad. As a Linux user I can promise you that as long as you keep swinging, learning and growing, you'll get through this :)
What a mood. I've been in a similar spot. Learning as much as I can about whatever I could (including Linux) was a big part of how I escaped from my family life. Try to take things one day at a time, and never forget what you've learned. It'll serve you well.
I get so used to them arguing I usually make fun of them, sometimes I say they look like little kids arguing and then the situation dissappears for the most part, they get mad for a few days and then come back like it's nothing. I use Arch BTW
One lady lived with the Eskimos for a year or so, she learned the adults use their words instead of throwing fits, bc they teach their kids when they're like 2-5 how dumb it is.
I wish you were my brother man, dad likes seeing me install Linux distros and him seeing me install Arch makes him proud. He used to be a radio operator for the 28th Armed Artillery Group in the Brazilian army and eventually Expeditionary Force in the 90s. Used tons of DOS and OS2. Arch looks like wizardry to him. Hope you get better man, things will be ok, we're all here for you. Except the Ubuntu users, their snap installed browser still hasn't opened yet.
I am speechless, the content itself is stuff I have done, but the background noise is so unsettling. And the way this video spills feelings as well as bringing it close, well it is a lot closer than what Hollywood has ever managed to achieve. As such I consider myself lucky to have never experienced this and the other stories I have heard in the comments.
By all intents and purposes my parents' divorce has lasted 15 years and counting. Last year my dad sued my mom and during the entire duration of the affair we were in lockdown at home with her. It was not pleasant. It's taken me till the age of 19 but I've finally begun to taste genuine serenity within me. Just last month was the first time since I was 10 that I had a night free of insomnia. I'd go through all of it again. The joy of things as simple as looking at a sunset or dipping my feet in cold water while I realize I can actually sit alone with my own thoughts makes it all worth it. It gets better. Pet a cat when you encounter one in the street. Stay strong.
Stumbled upon this video while stressing over my thesis and feeling so empty. Searched the music playing and play it for the background and somehow it's so good and it gave me motivation and ideas to fix my writing mistakes and structures at 3am. I've made more progress in few hours than the last few days combined. The brain is a really weird thing
@@asmqb7222 i've been curious about that too and suspected about it, its getting annoying recently. might check it later with a doctor after my totally overdue thesis is done
@@mokuken2469 bro, i was in the same situation as you a year ago (i was 18). i just took a month's spend, my laptop and left. got a job as a web developer. i'm doing better than ever. just know that it's an option if things get out of hand. good luck!
I still remember during my teenage years, I felt that I was given an impossible task of "fixing my parents' broken marriage". Teenager who grew up this way either carried a lot of guilt that comes from no where or, they end up being as violent as their parent. I cannot believe I found a video that I can resonate so much. After years of depression and ups and downs, I found some kind of peaceful moment in programming, and I love tinkering with PC systems and just to chill alone. I hope you are doing well OP. Even if you are not, you can do it. One day at a time. Sometimes I felt that me dropping out from school was because of my parents, but thats water under the bridge I guess. Hope you are doing okay. Sincerely. :)
Thanks @Xiang Zhou but dont worry everything is fine now somehow... i will keep your advice thanks alot wish you the best too im really glad theres people got related to my video 😁🥰👍
@@mokuken2469 damn. I might give Arch a try. Having to use VPN or proxies on my system just to access google etc is kind of a pain in the ass. Good VPN costs too much.. Good luck!
@@stevenlaczko8688 im into adulthood many years now and I still struggle to find a way to express anger. cos when I was a kid, that was my father's thing. My emotion was numbed down to the point that I couldnt react to anything they are doing. They've got the whole show, the anger building up, the arguments, the drama and the apologies and promise will never happen again, for 1000 times. I can only sit and ovserve.
I clicked this but had to stop soon after the video started because the arguing hits way too deep. I grew up in a very dysfunctional family with parents who'd get into a fight way too often and had to put up with years of it. Hearing something like it again rekindles so many traumas that I'd rather avoid in order to stay mentally healthy. I hope anyone else going through something similar has better days soon.
It was weird for me because Mom was the loud one. Dad rarely raised his voice at her. I only have vague memories of what it sounds like when he raises his voice. I know for sure how Mom sounds pissed, though.
As someone who dealt with a lot and tried suicide, it's not worth it. May seem so in the moment because feelings are overwhelming, but your problems are a part of your life, not all of it. Your issues don't define you. Look for people to talk to, stay strong, fight, install arch again when your rice breaks. These are the constants of life :p God bless you friend
the fact that you simply mixed an existing guide, a sad music and a audio of parents arguing makes it beautiful to me this is the definition of art it’s not about making beautiful drawings or using learned skills to design original objects it’s about having a unique point of view and sharing it it hits every human differently and yet is unique to everyone Honestly this will remain as one of my core example of what pure art is Thank you
Man that's fucking depressing to the point that I can't even watch the video but what's even sadder is that you installed Arch like you are used to it. Keep up man! Stay strong! You want a hug?
My parents are best friends of each other, my family didn't abused of my mental health, they didn't mock me, they didn't force anything on me, and now they are paying a college for me, i am the first person in my family to go to college , but i still installed arch, the math isn't mathing
Man I feel this. This was the majority of my childhood as well. It will get better, just get out of there as soon as you can and make those tech skills work for you, my friend.
@@cahallo5964 same. the situation in my house only became better after almost 10 years. the thing about violent is that it is random. it doesnt appear becase of any reason, it just did, and it went. then you couldnt put your guard down, and you just felt nervous all the time..
Oh man so many memories... my parents were literally like two pitbulls during dog fights ... There was alcohol, lack of money ... Now I'm grown man with, good job, great wife and absolutely awesome son. Life's good now. It takes time but definitely it's worth to wait for it 🙂
My parents fought a lot too. They even got violent a few times. Somehow they are still together after 40 something years of marriage, and I'm pretty sure they still fight just as often and just as loudly. As long as they don't involve you, then I would just put in some earbuds to drown them out and dive into something cool. Arch is amazing for a number of reason, but I would suggest also looking at programming if you haven't already. Python is pretty great, and programming on Linux is a blast.
My ones are like yours. With exception of violence. Still together (they have 5 kids, my younger brother is 16 now). I couldn't do anything when they were arguing. I just felt bad and down. Now I at least don't see and don't hear that thing.
Man this is quite relatable. I don't code and only have minimal experience with linux (especially console), and i mostly just play games. when this type of shit happens, there's that feeling that you have to just force yourself on focusing on the game, but you just can't focus. you can't help but be distracted and overhear their fight. worse, the more you try to ignore it, the more you hear it. i hope you are doing well man
you are not alone my dude, i know how it feels. i’m a successful developer now in another country working for a good cause. it leaves it’s marks but it gets better.
relatable, when my parents were still together i would mess around with computers to pass time and id install different operating systems for fun. the first one was windows 8.1
It thoroughly pisses me off that parents think their arguing isn't going to affect their child, and some even think that pushing their child in to choose a side isn't going to affect them either. their broken fucking marriage, which they unironically are doing fuck all to fix, is not something they really need to get their child involved in. my blood boils when I hear people with parents arguing in the background, because I highly doubt theire parents even understand their child is actually listening and trying to get away from it. I'm really sorry that you have to go through this shit on a daily basis, I wish you nothing but the best man. My parents never argued like that, I instead went through having to kind of ignore my mother's alcoholic period between my ages of 10-15, which has given me traumatic memories. I know how it feels man, just know shit gets better.
Thanks man!! Dont be sorry man its ok its not your fault, we cant avoid this kind of situation even if we wanted to, and dont worry im fine im living with my lovable grandma, thanks alot man i appreciate your kindness!!
My parents are divorced, my dad used to work at a another Country and my mom didn't take care of me in 2020, i stayed up all nights learning about computers. and i lived like that for 8 months. its 2022 now I'm a programmer and i live by myself, my mom lives in her house and my dad lives in his house. my mom goes to parties every night and my dad still works in a another country, i am 13 now, and finally. my message to everyone is; i use arch.
@@mokuken2469 Thank you. It kinda changed things in my life, I’ve been coding for the past 2 years and j don’t know what really to do. I got social anxiety sadly.
same its hard to deal with social anxiety even we are not that shy, its hard to talk to other people even if we want to, except if they start the conversation though 😅
To evoke in oneself a feeling one has once experienced, and having evoked it in oneself, then, by means of movements, lines, colors, sounds, or forms expressed in words, so to transmit that feeling that others may experience the same feeling - this is the activity of art.
I went through the same thing since i was little. My parents were allways like that but recently they got alot better. What i used to do was just turn on the amp i have in my room and play guitar until i feel better. Playing games during their yells didnt really help me feel better and i cant stress enough how having an instrument gave me an outlet form my feelings when i couldnt speak them to someone
Bro the arguing in the background of the audio was actually more calming than the one that started outside my headphones just as I found this video lol
You know the saddest part about this is I've been there, and while it's all good now the part that still saddens me the most is that my childhood was like that and I'll never get to have a different one where I'm happy. All I can say in your situation is that it gets better but the past doesn't, so just do whatever you would if these kind of family issues didn't happen, act like they don't exist.
This is relatable lol Before I had a very complex set of tools I used to reinstall Arch every weekens and most of the time my parents would be arguing in the background
Sometimes I feel lucky to have a sane childhood without even knowing the word depression because of a sane parental relationship and I didn't even know that I should feel lucky for this because I never knew that there are people around the world with broken childhood, until I grew up and learnt about them in TH-cam or somewhere else like this.
Love the video. Strangely resonates with me. The year I got into arch was my last year of high school. One of the worst years of my life. I bought a whole computer lab of would be junk off Craigslist. Came with a stack of Thinkpad x41 tablets. I gave some away and installed arch on others. People would be amazed that I was able to do modern stuff on this 2005 laptop which sounded like an air conditioner. All thanks to arch and its community processor optimizations. I thought their reactions were hilarious. One of the few good parts of that year.
Lesson: don't argue when you became parents, or your kids will install Arch.
Haha and they starting to say "i use arch btw"
so that means that "i use arch btw" is a scream of pain and a beg for help...... omg
@@allisonsilva1573 it makes so much sense now
@@allisonsilva1573 we all knew that already
"Jump into rabbit hole"
Building a Lego car while my parents are yelling, cursing and "using poor conversational skills" was one of the most vivid memories I had, because I wasn't exactly sad, but I sure as hell wasn't happy. In those days I only had a radio and a bin of legos to keep me from depression, and when I got my guitar the first song I learned to play and sing simultaneously was a song about a toxic couple breaking up. It's a scary experience many of us know much too well, and in particular if you're aware of this conflict and yet you try to drown it out with something you like it is the most bittersweet experience imaginable.
parents be having dependency conflicts
Haha you are right 😅
I laughed way to hard at this.
Lmao
Hahaa
Very nice.
"Linux heals the heart, no matter the distro"
- Someone.
*philosophical*
i use tiny core btw
@@circleubuntu how's the backup archive loading time eh
I know that cus I've used tc back then
@@degenaratezan2358 how's the live cd eh
@@circleubuntu still outdated, also installing nvidia driver is a pain in the ass, yes it's installed, but it's still a nightmare 2 years ago
Level 2: Install Gentoo in family court
Ohh its denshi oh my god hahaha
Man sorry for using ur video without your permission im having bad day when i making this video 😅
imagine
@@mokuken2469 Be strong bro, I been in a bad situation recently, only you have the power to improve the things. Put a smile in your face and keep struggling 💪
@@tojabdhei4881 I respect your grindset, but I say moku ken should put things in his own hands 🔫🔫🔫🩸🩸🩸
Level 3: open bsd in the orphanage
Level 4: temple OS in the depression clinic
Unstable households lead children to the darkest of places......like using Vim
Haha vim for life
vim is life
vim IS the light at the end of the tunnel
Shit, my whole life now makes sense.
a well raised child uses nano
>forgets to install bootloader
been there, done that.
yeah
Chroot back into that son of a bitch
Forgets to generate grub config
Lol, he also forgot to set root password or user password, he can't log in
@@ghfyewq879 network manager isn't manadatory if you use ethernet
It's incredible how arch works, even after the video ends the arguing doesn't stop
Underrated comment
💀
My dad was a junkie and my parents used to go nuts, fighting about stuff that didn't even make sense. I even remember my dad threatening my mom with a shotgun. I'd get pulled into the middle of conflicts, forced to choose sides, such as that. Some of us have the misfortune of having to learn how to be an adult by learning all the things NOT to do, but as someone who is a long way past all that now I can assure you as long as you focus and stay working towards your goals, better days are ahead. I have kids of my own now and I'm proud of the fact that they do not, nor will they ever understand the kind of home life I had.
Wow thats very traumatized childhood thanks man for sharing your story, i feel like i will keep moving till ends of the journey, and i have more need to learn about life 🥰😁👍
ok weeb
You should've ended it with "I use arch btw"
i don't think it's possible for someone with an oreimo profile picture to actually have sex, are your kids adopted?
@@ilike2dgirls ok fleshlight
I love how someone in their house is legit playing a piano in the middle of a fight
The sister is coping with their parents' failing marriage with piano and the brother is coping by reinstalling Arch over and over
😂😂
@@BetterCallBigShotAutos that could be written in the autobiography of a comedian
In a weird way, this really hit me..
When I was 13/14 my family started to fall apart and when I walked out of my room my mother often let out her frustration on me..
Combine that with being overworked from school and I got somewhat depressed..
So often I just sat in my room smoking green stuff, listening to music and just coding away, while my parents were arguing in the background..
Where is my mind was one of the songs I listened to on repeat.. and even now it still makes me fell kinda melancholic..
If you read this.. well, thx I guess for listening to my bs..
thats very sad childhood, its seem happened to except smoking green stuff 😅 thanks for sharing your story man but eyy we can get this through just keep strong and dont mind negative i also always tells that to me 😁👍
Thanks for sharing.
Hit's me too bro, sadly enough my parents kinda targeted me for being interested in that stuff. They used to always say they were proud of me for being so smart, but when I actually tried doing something I loved they would shoot me down saying that I "didn't know what you were doing"
In some ways it was true, but I was learning.
Lately I've been more motivated to try and get back to that mindset of constantly looking for that challenge again.
But anywho, you're not the only one so,
Cheers! :P
@blahblahblah1312 you a orphan?
hope your doing better now bro, thank you for sharing
Dad is shouting because he failed to follow arch documentation and ended up wiping out all his data on drive. This guy has nerves of steel to install arch while parents are arguing. Press X to respecc
😢 just happened to me (the wiping data part)
Plot twist: people actually use this as the installation guide for Arch
Divorce leads kids to dark places.
like arch console
to tty1
After installing he goes to them with a savage sunglass and says : Ay yo both of you shuddup! I use arch btw!
*sudo shutup -f
Haha man i cant stop laughing i think i will do that
@@mokuken2469 😆
Dad: "Oh shit mb."
Looks at Wife
"I told you to shut up."
DUDEEEEEEEEEEEE
I only have second hand experience with this. My roommate in college behaved as if he had just escaped this exact situation. His stifled raging at online games, just barely not loud enough for a scolding parent to come into his room... His complete absence from normal activities around the household, as if everything outside his room was a minefield.
Terrifying. I felt so lucky after living with him for a while.
Stay strong people! Make something, as hard as it feels sometimes.
I grew up in this kind of environment and it's like that indeed. You try to make yourself as small as possible and not show emotions so as not to attract any of their attention. I mostly stayed in my room because it was the closest thing to a safe place I had.
Broken families lead to Arch users confirmed
I didnt noticed that😅😅
Ok but you're 100% correct
Hurt people, Arch people
Can confirm
I can agree
i know how you feel man, this is like a clip right out of my childhood. one day i just snapped, stopped being scared, and started being angry instead. and its been like that every single day since. as exhausting as it is, anger is the only thing that works. most days i think its the all that still keeps me alive. work, coding, routing pcbs, are the only things that bring any semblance of peace. but it seems everyone is always trying everything in their power to pull me away from work. its like they know, and they want to cut off the only solace i've had left for a long time.
sorry for adding my sob story to the giant pile. i guess i just want to say that it doesn't necessarily get better. just dont ever give up on the things that really make you happy. others will try to take that away from you, but don't let them. guard it with your life. i think you'll do great things one day.
peace.
Thanks alot man someday when i get being an adult i will use your advice and thanks for sharing your story man glad you got relatable on my video
@blahblahblah1312 ayyy
The last thing you want to hear, but which I'll say anyway for whenever you need to hear it: the acute focus anger can provide isn't a sustainable escape. At some point you'll need to go back to that snap point and decouple the (very reasonable) anger associated with the unjustifiable imbalance from the acceptance that came with it.
It was a fake audio
Level 3: Compile kernel during genocide.
Eyy its bugswriter man i love your videos man im glad you noticed my video 😅😁👍
This comment has aged well (Israel → Palestine).
Free Palestine
@@animecraftworks work sets you free
@@animecraftworksPalestine itself is bullshit lol
Super realistic audio, it kept playing even after the video finished
The comments here are proof enough, we want nothing more than your well being. Stay strong m8.
Im really grateful to you guys the comments are so kind i love you all, and dont worry everything is ok now somehow, 😁👍👍
@@mokuken2469 what? the video is fake tho.. its just a sound effect??
Its happened to me but unluckily i didnt record my parents argue cuz im scared, and i make the video while they arguing and they throw some plates
Dont worry man im ok for now..
@@mokuken2469 Show them this video and the comments it received, I bet it'll make them think.
TH-cam: Ey...you know anything about programming?
Me: No.
TH-cam: Would you like to see a video about programming?
Me: No.
TH-cam: Come on. Have a gander.
Me: Ok.
TH-cam: Wasn't it funny?
Me: I am mostly disturbed.
Parents arguing in English, system language set to en_US, console keymap set to Italian 🤔🤷
Reminds me of my late teen years with my parents, practicing coding while they bitched at each other; very nostalgic.
I'm 24, this happened to me last month when I bought a new laptop
@@dragossusi time to move out
I have had Depression for years and the lows can get really bad. As a Linux user I can promise you that as long as you keep swinging, learning and growing, you'll get through this :)
Thanks alot man! What a wholesome community, im proud! 😭👍
@@mokuken2469 oh yeah also always remember to pace yourself in a healthy way and don't burnout haha one love
what if i dont use linux
@@blehh_mae then stay depressed
Should I just use Linux instead of windows? I won't be able to do everything I do on windows though will I?
What a mood.
I've been in a similar spot. Learning as much as I can about whatever I could (including Linux) was a big part of how I escaped from my family life. Try to take things one day at a time, and never forget what you've learned. It'll serve you well.
I get so used to them arguing I usually make fun of them, sometimes I say they look like little kids arguing and then the situation dissappears for the most part, they get mad for a few days and then come back like it's nothing.
I use Arch BTW
sigma grindset
tfw your own kid tells you that you are acting like one
One lady lived with the Eskimos for a year or so, she learned the adults use their words instead of throwing fits, bc they teach their kids when they're like 2-5 how dumb it is.
0:26 *briefly zooms in on "vim"*
Truly an emotionally scarred child 😢
I wish you were my brother man, dad likes seeing me install Linux distros and him seeing me install Arch makes him proud. He used to be a radio operator for the 28th Armed Artillery Group in the Brazilian army and eventually Expeditionary Force in the 90s. Used tons of DOS and OS2. Arch looks like wizardry to him.
Hope you get better man, things will be ok, we're all here for you. Except the Ubuntu users, their snap installed browser still hasn't opened yet.
Thats sweet man but dont worry everything is fine now thanks to you and other people who help me to overcome this problem
LOL. Felt attacked by the second paragraph.
Wow cool, my father works in the Brazilian air force and he also had to use DOS in the past. He first showed me Ubuntu, now I'm a Arch user btw
@@adrianoliveira1044 estamos em todo lugar
No offence but I thought this was a joke video
I am speechless, the content itself is stuff I have done, but the background noise is so unsettling.
And the way this video spills feelings as well as bringing it close, well it is a lot closer than what Hollywood has ever managed to achieve.
As such I consider myself lucky to have never experienced this and the other stories I have heard in the comments.
It fucks with the way you look at people and the memories are there for life.
By all intents and purposes my parents' divorce has lasted 15 years and counting. Last year my dad sued my mom and during the entire duration of the affair we were in lockdown at home with her. It was not pleasant. It's taken me till the age of 19 but I've finally begun to taste genuine serenity within me. Just last month was the first time since I was 10 that I had a night free of insomnia. I'd go through all of it again. The joy of things as simple as looking at a sunset or dipping my feet in cold water while I realize I can actually sit alone with my own thoughts makes it all worth it. It gets better. Pet a cat when you encounter one in the street. Stay strong.
Thanks man and thanks for sharing your story but dont worry everything is fine i can make it through somehow 😁👍
@blahblahblah1312 "thats the best you got" get your anime-character-talking sonic-adventures-cut-scene-dialogue-sounding bozo ass outta here
Always pet a cat when presented with such opportunity. UωU
That man knows what's up.
Yeah Insomnia..I can relate 🌸
Update: I feel amazing. Life gets real good you just have to thug it out.
Stumbled upon this video while stressing over my thesis and feeling so empty.
Searched the music playing and play it for the background and somehow it's so good and it gave me motivation and ideas to fix my writing mistakes and structures at 3am. I've made more progress in few hours than the last few days combined. The brain is a really weird thing
Achievement unlocked: awareness of ADHD
Underdeveloped focus control is so annoying, but it does get better.
@@asmqb7222 i've been curious about that too and suspected about it, its getting annoying recently. might check it later with a doctor after my totally overdue thesis is done
I hope the best for you man. It's all gonna be better
Thanks man its so sad day for me
@@mokuken2469 It's all gonna be better my man. Keep your chin up
@@enziaki-real 🙂 thanks a lot i really appreciate it man
@@mokuken2469 bro, i was in the same situation as you a year ago (i was 18). i just took a month's spend, my laptop and left. got a job as a web developer. i'm doing better than ever. just know that it's an option if things get out of hand. good luck!
@@peaklander1 Thanks man life is hard it needs pull yourself together
Forgets to install bootloader because subconsciously wishes never to be born
I still remember during my teenage years, I felt that I was given an impossible task of "fixing my parents' broken marriage". Teenager who grew up this way either carried a lot of guilt that comes from no where or, they end up being as violent as their parent. I cannot believe I found a video that I can resonate so much. After years of depression and ups and downs, I found some kind of peaceful moment in programming, and I love tinkering with PC systems and just to chill alone. I hope you are doing well OP. Even if you are not, you can do it. One day at a time. Sometimes I felt that me dropping out from school was because of my parents, but thats water under the bridge I guess. Hope you are doing okay. Sincerely. :)
Thanks @Xiang Zhou but dont worry everything is fine now somehow... i will keep your advice thanks alot wish you the best too im really glad theres people got related to my video 😁🥰👍
@@mokuken2469 damn. I might give Arch a try. Having to use VPN or proxies on my system just to access google etc is kind of a pain in the ass. Good VPN costs too much.. Good luck!
Is that why I have a guilt complex? ;0
@@stevenlaczko8688 im into adulthood many years now and I still struggle to find a way to express anger. cos when I was a kid, that was my father's thing. My emotion was numbed down to the point that I couldnt react to anything they are doing. They've got the whole show, the anger building up, the arguments, the drama and the apologies and promise will never happen again, for 1000 times. I can only sit and ovserve.
@@xiangzhou8188did you block by gfw?
"hold on babe I'm installing arch" - a sentence that shall never be spoken
this gave me flashbacks to when I still lived with my parents, oddly nostalgic and most definitely despair inducing
yup..
I clicked this but had to stop soon after the video started because the arguing hits way too deep. I grew up in a very dysfunctional family with parents who'd get into a fight way too often and had to put up with years of it. Hearing something like it again rekindles so many traumas that I'd rather avoid in order to stay mentally healthy. I hope anyone else going through something similar has better days soon.
Same 100%. I couldn't bear to keep hearing them argue. Shit hit home way too close.
Fireinthehole
It was weird for me because Mom was the loud one. Dad rarely raised his voice at her. I only have vague memories of what it sounds like when he raises his voice. I know for sure how Mom sounds pissed, though.
As someone who dealt with a lot and tried suicide, it's not worth it. May seem so in the moment because feelings are overwhelming, but your problems are a part of your life, not all of it. Your issues don't define you.
Look for people to talk to, stay strong, fight, install arch again when your rice breaks. These are the constants of life :p
God bless you friend
Thanks alot man this is very kind words and a good advice dont worry i will keep fight and install arch as many times till i get old 😁😁
Thanks for sharing brother 🙏
Yeah I've noticed that strange thing: for some reason, from a few of my friends who use Arch, all have family problems, and also are poor
"YOU CAN SIT THERE AND TELL ME, I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU" damn
He would be good enough if he installed Arch.
"I use Arch BTW"
"I'm sorry to hear that."
Oh, Denshi's Arch install. Good stuff right there
When im watching denshi's video my parents start arguing so i think i will make a video about it 😅
the fact that you simply mixed an existing guide, a sad music and a audio of parents arguing makes it beautiful
to me this is the definition of art
it’s not about making beautiful drawings or using learned skills to design original objects
it’s about having a unique point of view and sharing it
it hits every human differently and yet is unique to everyone
Honestly this will remain as one of my core example of what pure art is
Thank you
thanks man glad you love it, if there something happens to me that can relate other people im not ganna hesitate to make something about it 😅😄👍
@@mokuken2469he's right, this is art! It's influential and invokes good discussions. More such expressions we need.
I look forward to your unhinged rant entitled: “AI Art Is Stealing My Livelihood”
Holy cringe.
Its copying
LOL
"Work is the best antidote to sorrow." - Arthur Conan Doyle / Sherlock Holmes
Thanks for an awsome motivation! 😭👍
Work can also be a crutch to not deal with your feelings and mature. I know it has been 2 years.
"Divorce leads children the worst places"
-Arch
Man that's fucking depressing to the point that I can't even watch the video but what's even sadder is that you installed Arch like you are used to it. Keep up man! Stay strong!
You want a hug?
Sure man *Hugged* thanks man!! But dont worry im fine now thanks to all of you and right now im living with my grandma temporary
@@mokuken2469 That's great to hear! Keep making videos, they'll help you focus your mind somewhere else. Waiting for more awesome content ;)
My parents are best friends of each other, my family didn't abused of my mental health, they didn't mock me, they didn't force anything on me, and now they are paying a college for me, i am the first person in my family to go to college , but i still installed arch, the math isn't mathing
Love the Mr. Robot style close-ups
and music choice
@@evlad7238 exactly ❤️
Man I feel this. This was the majority of my childhood as well. It will get better, just get out of there as soon as you can and make those tech skills work for you, my friend.
thanks man! i hope this year will be better
Holy shit that was painful. If parents had just a small hint of how this arguing and screaming affects their children they would never do that.
nah they'd do it anyways
mine did
no they are completely aware its just that they watch too much kdrama lol
@@cahallo5964 same. the situation in my house only became better after almost 10 years. the thing about violent is that it is random. it doesnt appear becase of any reason, it just did, and it went. then you couldnt put your guard down, and you just felt nervous all the time..
@konqi korean drama
basically melodrama n shit
holy shit this brings back some really unhappy memories
thanks for concentrated targeted despair, algorythm
Oh man so many memories... my parents were literally like two pitbulls during dog fights ... There was alcohol, lack of money ... Now I'm grown man with, good job, great wife and absolutely awesome son. Life's good now. It takes time but definitely it's worth to wait for it 🙂
Anime? Check. Broken home? Check. Linux user? Check. Arch user? BIG check.
My parents fought a lot too. They even got violent a few times. Somehow they are still together after 40 something years of marriage, and I'm pretty sure they still fight just as often and just as loudly. As long as they don't involve you, then I would just put in some earbuds to drown them out and dive into something cool. Arch is amazing for a number of reason, but I would suggest also looking at programming if you haven't already. Python is pretty great, and programming on Linux is a blast.
Thanks man!! I know some of the basic of python and i will learn more thanks for the advice
Holy C.
@mr.1n5an_e hell yes
My ones are like yours. With exception of violence. Still together (they have 5 kids, my younger brother is 16 now). I couldn't do anything when they were arguing. I just felt bad and down. Now I at least don't see and don't hear that thing.
What books or sites you suggest to start with python?
Man this is quite relatable. I don't code and only have minimal experience with linux (especially console), and i mostly just play games. when this type of shit happens, there's that feeling that you have to just force yourself on focusing on the game, but you just can't focus. you can't help but be distracted and overhear their fight. worse, the more you try to ignore it, the more you hear it. i hope you are doing well man
Been there. I created new worlds and perfected my general understanding of the universe when my parent's argued. Of course... those were Unix days...
Fuck paintings. _THIS_ is ART!
This was heartbreaking to watch. Nobody deserves this.
Fake
Level 3: install Linux from scratch while your parents are actually divorced.
Finally it’s here now ready for you th-cam.com/video/Ndjce1Vr4eM/w-d-xo.html
I'm a granpa and I bet I was more stressed than you were when I was all alone trying to install Arch with a youtube tutor.
"And you know what?? Our son uses arch, btw!"
I'm so sorry for you, nobody should go through that while your family is falling apart in the background
ITs STOLEN AUDIO
THINK ABOUT IT HOW CAN HE RECORD IF HE IS INSTALLING
@@thegovtdoesntcareaboutyou Why people that can't even understand jokes always have the ALL CAPS on? XD
Back in my day, it was installing Windows 98 or XP, whilst my parents argued.
Still have the XP installation messages burned into my memory.
Wow, this was literally what parts of my childhood were like, but with Red Hat in the 90's. It was something non-emotional to keep me occupied.
Parents: arguing conflict
Current objective: install Arch
you are not alone my dude, i know how it feels. i’m a successful developer now in another country working for a good cause. it leaves it’s marks but it gets better.
Thanks man!
"Hello, friend" - Elliot Alderson / Mr Robot
"loadkeys it" ah un altro italiano
relatable, when my parents were still together i would mess around with computers to pass time and id install different operating systems for fun. the first one was windows 8.1
The most pro way of installing Arch Lunix.
ah yes, lunix
Lunix is my favorite OS
I've prolly done this tbh lmfao, gotta love the classic disturbed/fearful atmosphere as you're working on a project in your room
It thoroughly pisses me off that parents think their arguing isn't going to affect their child, and some even think that pushing their child in to choose a side isn't going to affect them either. their broken fucking marriage, which they unironically are doing fuck all to fix, is not something they really need to get their child involved in. my blood boils when I hear people with parents arguing in the background, because I highly doubt theire parents even understand their child is actually listening and trying to get away from it. I'm really sorry that you have to go through this shit on a daily basis, I wish you nothing but the best man.
My parents never argued like that, I instead went through having to kind of ignore my mother's alcoholic period between my ages of 10-15, which has given me traumatic memories. I know how it feels man, just know shit gets better.
Thanks man!! Dont be sorry man its ok its not your fault, we cant avoid this kind of situation even if we wanted to, and dont worry im fine im living with my lovable grandma, thanks alot man i appreciate your kindness!!
@blahblahblah1312 I was going to tell you it's not really funny but then I realize nice bait...
anyway, have a nice day sir
How did you distill my entire childhood into a 57 second long video?
My parents are divorced, my dad used to work at a another Country and my mom didn't take care of me in 2020, i stayed up all nights learning about computers. and i lived like that for 8 months. its 2022 now I'm a programmer and i live by myself, my mom lives in her house and my dad lives in his house. my mom goes to parties every night and my dad still works in a another country, i am 13 now, and finally. my message to everyone is; i use arch.
thats sad pretty like same as mine hope you the best pal follow your dreams and it will come true someday
@@mokuken2469 Thank you. It kinda changed things in my life, I’ve been coding for the past 2 years and j don’t know what really to do. I got social anxiety sadly.
same its hard to deal with social anxiety even we are not that shy, its hard to talk to other people even if we want to, except if they start the conversation though 😅
@@mokuken2469 True, but I can’t even talk if they start a conversation. I just end up with eee uhh yes and things like that.
@@mokuken2469 wanna be friends? 😄
To evoke in oneself a feeling one has once experienced, and having evoked it in oneself, then, by means of movements, lines, colors, sounds, or forms expressed in words, so to transmit that feeling that others may experience the same feeling - this is the activity of art.
Level 4: Making game in Unreal Engine 4 while parents are fighting
My parents arguing woke up my inner demons voice and made me cold hearted killing machine.
You sound very pretentious
I went through the same thing since i was little. My parents were allways like that but recently they got alot better. What i used to do was just turn on the amp i have in my room and play guitar until i feel better. Playing games during their yells didnt really help me feel better and i cant stress enough how having an instrument gave me an outlet form my feelings when i couldnt speak them to someone
he: I use arch btw.
me: your parents divorced, hm?
he: no, what?
me: ?
Bro the arguing in the background of the audio was actually more calming than the one that started outside my headphones just as I found this video lol
My mom and dad used to do this and it broke my heart.
Watching your parents use Linux is heartbreaking to a Windows boi.
chad parents
Idk why but this video always gives me such nostalgic vibes.
Watching this while my parents are arguing is just priceless
Read title
"This is going to hit close to home..."
Video starts
>loadkeys it
"Now it's getting too real"
- piano plays- My Mind: When you try so hard, but you don't succeed. hehe
Hahahaha… definitely never done this before. No siree, haha
You know the saddest part about this is I've been there, and while it's all good now the part that still saddens me the most is that my childhood was like that and I'll never get to have a different one where I'm happy. All I can say in your situation is that it gets better but the past doesn't, so just do whatever you would if these kind of family issues didn't happen, act like they don't exist.
Damn, if this ain't the truth.
Unstable families lead children to the darkest places- becoming Linux users
This is relatable lol
Before I had a very complex set of tools I used to reinstall Arch every weekens and most of the time my parents would be arguing in the background
Sometimes I feel lucky to have a sane childhood without even knowing the word depression because of a sane parental relationship and I didn't even know that I should feel lucky for this because I never knew that there are people around the world with broken childhood, until I grew up and learnt about them in TH-cam or somewhere else like this.
my dad threatened to shoot my laptop that I bought after saving up birthday and Christmas money for 3 years
Our parents are toxic
this has "installing arch while parents are arguing" vibe
the sequel we never knew we needed
this is just perfect, it's even uploaded in my birthday
hey i wat to say happy birthday even its too late have a good year and i wish for you is more birthday to come
Not enough wall punching or door slamming, but otherwise great tutorial!
1337/10 would install again.
We're reaching niche levels of humor/trauma previous thought impossible
Love the video. Strangely resonates with me. The year I got into arch was my last year of high school. One of the worst years of my life. I bought a whole computer lab of would be junk off Craigslist. Came with a stack of Thinkpad x41 tablets. I gave some away and installed arch on others. People would be amazed that I was able to do modern stuff on this 2005 laptop which sounded like an air conditioner. All thanks to arch and its community processor optimizations. I thought their reactions were hilarious. One of the few good parts of that year.
“GIRL, I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO GET DINNER READY!!!”