Helen! I have been watching u for years now. You are such a necessary presence on TH-cam. I get so tired of the same old same old, and you are certainly not that. Just because you have been doing something for a while doesn’t mean anything! If anything it speaks volumes to your dedication to your craft. Much love to you. Xxxxxooooo
I've been watching you from the purple hair melon days and I've never got bored of your content. I feel like you've grown and adapted with the times and your personality is just lovely and keeps me coming back! :)
You are absolutely glowing Helen! 😍 I agree, getting therapy has been one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself. Tackling those issues and finding your inner peace is just BLISS. Perfect start to my weekend watching this with a nice (warm!) cup of tea! Xxx
Helen!! I used to follow you on tumblr in the silver hair/galaxy/melon days and I’m still here now and I will continue to be here! I love you as a human I feel like I’ve grown up with you (weird parasocial relationship) but whether you post once a week or once a month I’m here for it, you’re cool as fuck and always have been ❤️
Helen, I’ve been struggling a lot over the past few years. Where do I go, what everybody expect of me, what should my paths be? You have a real, profound influence on my life and that we all have to take a step back a lot. To realize what it is that we really want. Or what does society want to convey to us what we want. I studied sociology, gender and cultural studies and I’m still fighting. You are a statement and a reflection of what is authentic and difficult in many of our lives. Thank you so much for your honesty and closeness. For many people, you and your content mean a lot. Keep it up :) You were the first person I followed on TH-cam and I don’t regret a second of your development. It’s yours, not ours. But you’re reproducing a lot of elements that we all feel. A big thank you to you.
So I’ve been watching you from the start! I love your TH-cam videos! And I get so excited when you come out with a new video! I feel like you growing and changing helps me learn and grow as well! Also your style is amazing ! I love how real you are and it’s so amazing ! Like you’re very straight to the point with us and don’t really hide behind a camera !
I am a recovering alcoholic and from a viewers perspective, your relationship with alcohol sounds fine to me and that you are in control with it. It is always good to have a lil break from alcohol even if your relationship with it is fine ❤
Totally get the scarcity complex around food/ money/everything else! That feeling of not being able to afford it another time definitely drives a lot of my spending
Helen you don't realise how thankful I am to you for sharing this!! Like everything you said about the food, about growing up with little money, with the alcohol....it's literally me and it actually brought me to tears so I have some stuff to work through obviously 😭 Just so good to hear someone articulate what I've been feeling for years.
Hi lovely, I’ve had similar experiences with alcohol - and I’ve come to the realisation that my bad mental health has come down to my alcohol usage. Listen to the ‘sober powered’ podcast if you ever feel interested in knowing how alcohol affects our mental health over time; it’s just helped me stay on the straight and narrow. There’s one on a;cool and anxiety that’s very incitegul. Well done on all your progress so far! I;’ve been. Here since the beginning, and it’s been amazing growing up with you. Thank you for being here.
So happy that award gave you a reminder that you have been doing what your meant to be doing and doing it well. Sometimes we just need that little boost to get us up off our arse and on track again. I’m from the OG purple melon lady days. And still here all these many many years later. 🖤✨
Ahh Helen it makes me so happy that you're feeling better! Your content means so much to so many people. I've been watching you for years and my heart still jumps of joy when I see a new upload.
Helen, when you mentioned you feel overwhelmed reading the instructions of the board game. This is something that I struggle with. You have a particular style of learning. I am like this as well. ☺
Hearing you say "Can't wait to have kids now" and getting giddy for you...lol 😊 and i don't mean that as like have them right away or to wait either....But the overall statement was just absolutely adorable 🥰
So glad you're feeling happier. Intrusive thoughts absolutely suck and it's so hard to not let them infect everything. I can't remember how I found your channel it's been so long but I stayed because I found your honesty so refreshing. The daily vlogs, when they were a thing, showed a normal life that I could relate to. It wasn't avocado toast for lunch and the "perfect" lifestyle on display. I'd much rather watch your normality than someone else's performance.
I can relate so hard to food issues and money being tight growing up. Same with the heating. We had no heating in our house growing up for about five years.
I stopped drinking for a month once and then for a year with pregnancy and nursing 😂 now I'm that wine mama but I cut out beer for the most part. I'm proud of you helen! I noticed you always pushing yourself to eat better be more active and productive and grow. You always look beautiful and you clean your house. No body is perfect but I see you make a lot of effort in your life and you should be proud of yourself. Congratulations on your award! You deserve it for your dedication and your killer content! For real! Love ya!
Yay hello been waitin to see ur face again :) most people i follow are now switchin to just insta and tiktok 😭 please dont leave Im 29 not really into booze anymore i got a allotment instead &cross stitch like a old nan 😅
Scrawl is one of my favourites, we play it with the kids (take out the rude ones!!) and we just laugh so much, it’s great. Migraleve is just the best isn’t it? Like a miracle in a pill!
I admit i only found you maybe during lockdown at start of last year,but i can assure you,you are completely recognised and relevant. Its refreshing to see someone more my shape who also loves fashion xxx
Helen try Brooklyn 0.5% alcohol beer. My husband can’t drink alcohol and this is his fave along with the Beavertown alcohol free beer - he’s tried them all and IPA’s were his fave when he could drink. Congratulations on your award my love, we’ll deserved!! X
Ive been following since purple hair melon days!! But havent been on youtube alot recently. So when i saw this title and was like AW HEEEELL NAH !!! love that weekly vlogs are coming back they are my bubble bath chill out vibes 🙌🙌 keeping being you lovely 💗💗💗
Yeah for the weekvlog! 💪🏻🤩 I drink a lot less than before The first lockdown. But when I’m out with friends I also feel the presure and feel indeed like a habit to drink a glass of wine. But last time I go out on cola and I had also have a lot of fun 😅 I’m just glad to hangout again with friends 🥳
Man I feel the same way with food/dranks and 100% in the same boat that lockdown’s made it a bit more difficult - I also grew up not knowing when I was going to have things again so it is hard for me to say no to stuff given the opportunity, and after listening to ya talk realised lockdowns come back and reinforced that. We’ve all worked this out before though so we absolutely can again 💪
I loved this Helen, you're settling into yourself more and more ❤ the game by the way - is an old parlour game called Eat Poo You Cat 😆 we used to play it at family Christmas parties!
1. So happy you won! I voted for you! 2. So happy you spoke up about your mental health. Hearing your story gave me the strength to get help for my mental health issues. 3. I find that drinking alcohol is much more a thing in the UK. I used to live in the UK, and now live in Canada and it is definitely not as much of a thing here. Although the way you describe your relationship with alcohol is my relationship with iced coffees 🤣 4. I am in the same place with myself and food. Definitely want to sort out my relationship with food. 5. So excited for weekly vlogs!!
I've been with you since melon lady days. You're the only youtuber I have followed for that long. Trust me when I say tell those intrusive thoughts to do one! You're so loved. I do understand where you are coming from as I'm a person that can give my self a hard time for the stupidest shit. Just letting you know 💖
An award might feel superficial but it’s a bit like a qualification in a small way. Where experts and peers in your field think you’re so great at something that they recognise you excel in that area. The only awards/qualifications I’ve ever received were academic ones and they made me feel like you’ve described. It’s that feeling of being worthy of your craft/studies that recognition from a body of people can give you.
Its so true. I personally dont drink. I never drunk too much and since having kids I dont drink at all. i always found it hard to socialise because everyone always wants to go out for a drink and I dont drink...Also people would judge me like why dont you drink? Just have one? As if something is wrong with me. I just dont enjoy drinking. thats it. its hard when the whole socialising depends on it....
I’ve had a lot of pressure in the past and it’s not been fun, I tend to feel a lot lower after some and it makes my dissociation worse of course. It’s okay to choose not to drink and not have to explain to others why
Do you have any tips for getting yourself out of that self-doubty, intrustive thought spiral? Like exercises or something that you've been doing? I really empathized with your "I need to quit" video. I too am self-taught freelance filmmaker and I am constantly battling imposter syndrome and feelings of not being good enough. If something goes wrong or I don't know the answer to something I straight away use it as evidence that all my doubts are true.
I’m no professional nor am I Helen but I’ve been taught about CBT which may be useful for this or challenging the thoughts, evidence for the thoughts. Mindfulness helps some, so you notice the thoughts are there and let them come in and then let them pass, don’t forget them away or fixate, just let them happen. It’s not easy but hope this somewhat helps!
Helen! I have been watching u for years now. You are such a necessary presence on TH-cam. I get so tired of the same old same old, and you are certainly not that. Just because you have been doing something for a while doesn’t mean anything! If anything it speaks volumes to your dedication to your craft. Much love to you. Xxxxxooooo
Coming here to second this statement! ❤🧡💛
Couldn't have said it better myself - I third this comment 🙌 xx
I've been watching you from the purple hair melon days and I've never got bored of your content. I feel like you've grown and adapted with the times and your personality is just lovely and keeps me coming back! :)
Same! 🥰
You are absolutely glowing Helen! 😍 I agree, getting therapy has been one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself. Tackling those issues and finding your inner peace is just BLISS. Perfect start to my weekend watching this with a nice (warm!) cup of tea! Xxx
You're not alone with how you feel Helen I often think the same about our job. I am so glad you are feeling so much more motivated now x
Helen!! I used to follow you on tumblr in the silver hair/galaxy/melon days and I’m still here now and I will continue to be here! I love you as a human I feel like I’ve grown up with you (weird parasocial relationship) but whether you post once a week or once a month I’m here for it, you’re cool as fuck and always have been ❤️
The brown hair makes your eyes look sooo pretty. I love that you show these flows of life, it’s more relatable to see the struggles and highs. ♥️
Tanning routine would be great! Glad you’re feeling better 🧡
I really feel you on the whole food/drink/money convo. It’s just habits we were doing when we were younger that we need to break out of.
Helen, I’ve been struggling a lot over the past few years. Where do I go, what everybody expect of me, what should my paths be? You have a real, profound influence on my life and that we all have to take a step back a lot. To realize what it is that we really want. Or what does society want to convey to us what we want. I studied sociology, gender and cultural studies and I’m still fighting. You are a statement and a reflection of what is authentic and difficult in many of our lives. Thank you so much for your honesty and closeness. For many people, you and your content mean a lot. Keep it up :) You were the first person I followed on TH-cam and I don’t regret a second of your development. It’s yours, not ours. But you’re reproducing a lot of elements that we all feel. A big thank you to you.
So I’ve been watching you from the start! I love your TH-cam videos! And I get so excited when you come out with a new video! I feel like you growing and changing helps me learn and grow as well! Also your style is amazing ! I love how real you are and it’s so amazing ! Like you’re very straight to the point with us and don’t really hide behind a camera !
I am a recovering alcoholic and from a viewers perspective, your relationship with alcohol sounds fine to me and that you are in control with it. It is always good to have a lil break from alcohol even if your relationship with it is fine ❤
Totally get the scarcity complex around food/ money/everything else! That feeling of not being able to afford it another time definitely drives a lot of my spending
I love your videos so much! Always makes my day better when you’ve uploaded a new video! Hope you are well x
Helen you don't realise how thankful I am to you for sharing this!! Like everything you said about the food, about growing up with little money, with the alcohol....it's literally me and it actually brought me to tears so I have some stuff to work through obviously 😭 Just so good to hear someone articulate what I've been feeling for years.
Hi lovely, I’ve had similar experiences with alcohol - and I’ve come to the realisation that my bad mental health has come down to my alcohol usage. Listen to the ‘sober powered’ podcast if you ever feel interested in knowing how alcohol affects our mental health over time; it’s just helped me stay on the straight and narrow. There’s one on a;cool and anxiety that’s very incitegul.
Well done on all your progress so far! I;’ve been. Here since the beginning, and it’s been amazing growing up with you. Thank you for being here.
So happy that award gave you a reminder that you have been doing what your meant to be doing and doing it well. Sometimes we just need that little boost to get us up off our arse and on track again. I’m from the OG purple melon lady days. And still here all these many many years later. 🖤✨
Yaaasssss!!! The weekly Vlogs are coming back! 😭👏💛
Ahh Helen it makes me so happy that you're feeling better! Your content means so much to so many people. I've been watching you for years and my heart still jumps of joy when I see a new upload.
Helen, when you mentioned you feel overwhelmed reading the instructions of the board game. This is something that I struggle with. You have a particular style of learning. I am like this as well. ☺
It's wonderful to hear you're feeling so much better. You're such a wonderful inspiration to me. Keep on being your true, awesome self. Xx
Hearing you say "Can't wait to have kids now" and getting giddy for you...lol 😊 and i don't mean that as like have them right away or to wait either....But the overall statement was just absolutely adorable 🥰
So glad you're feeling happier. Intrusive thoughts absolutely suck and it's so hard to not let them infect everything. I can't remember how I found your channel it's been so long but I stayed because I found your honesty so refreshing. The daily vlogs, when they were a thing, showed a normal life that I could relate to. It wasn't avocado toast for lunch and the "perfect" lifestyle on display. I'd much rather watch your normality than someone else's performance.
I can relate so hard to food issues and money being tight growing up. Same with the heating. We had no heating in our house growing up for about five years.
I stopped drinking for a month once and then for a year with pregnancy and nursing 😂 now I'm that wine mama but I cut out beer for the most part.
I'm proud of you helen! I noticed you always pushing yourself to eat better be more active and productive and grow. You always look beautiful and you clean your house. No body is perfect but I see you make a lot of effort in your life and you should be proud of yourself. Congratulations on your award! You deserve it for your dedication and your killer content! For real! Love ya!
Helen, for migraines try a combo of sleep masks + CBD stick, especially if you get them like mid afternoon/evening, so good for helping sleep them off
I really love that yellow jumper on you, it looks lovely and soft 😊
Yay hello been waitin to see ur face again :) most people i follow are now switchin to just insta and tiktok 😭 please dont leave
Im 29 not really into booze anymore i got a allotment instead &cross stitch like a old nan 😅
Scrawl is one of my favourites, we play it with the kids (take out the rude ones!!) and we just laugh so much, it’s great. Migraleve is just the best isn’t it? Like a miracle in a pill!
Selfishly so excited for the weekly vlogs!
You're so humble, you deserved that award!
I admit i only found you maybe during lockdown at start of last year,but i can assure you,you are completely recognised and relevant. Its refreshing to see someone more my shape who also loves fashion xxx
Just an FYI, for the flash gun, you're supposed to press the squishy thing on the side, when you change the direction of its head. So it won't break.
Helen try Brooklyn 0.5% alcohol beer. My husband can’t drink alcohol and this is his fave along with the Beavertown alcohol free beer - he’s tried them all and IPA’s were his fave when he could drink. Congratulations on your award my love, we’ll deserved!! X
Hiya from Essex UK loads of luv & looking forward to new schedule!xx
Ive been following since purple hair melon days!! But havent been on youtube alot recently. So when i saw this title and was like AW HEEEELL NAH !!! love that weekly vlogs are coming back they are my bubble bath chill out vibes 🙌🙌 keeping being you lovely 💗💗💗
I’m the same I have to wait for my coffee to cool down for half hour 🤣
I feel great after working out and eating healthier but when I fall off it sooooo hard to get back on.
We all love a happy Helen
You look so beautiful in this vid Helen 😍 You just being you is lighting up my screen and I love it! Best wishes xx
You look so happy! We love to see it!
You’re doing amazing Helen! I look up to you so much. Thank you for always being so honest
I too am part of the "tepid tea" team. Gotta leave it at least 15 mins
Yeah for the weekvlog! 💪🏻🤩
I drink a lot less than before The first lockdown. But when I’m out with friends I also feel the presure and feel indeed like a habit to drink a glass of wine. But last time I go out on cola and I had also have a lot of fun 😅 I’m just glad to hangout again with friends 🥳
Man I feel the same way with food/dranks and 100% in the same boat that lockdown’s made it a bit more difficult - I also grew up not knowing when I was going to have things again so it is hard for me to say no to stuff given the opportunity, and after listening to ya talk realised lockdowns come back and reinforced that. We’ve all worked this out before though so we absolutely can again 💪
I loved this Helen, you're settling into yourself more and more ❤ the game by the way - is an old parlour game called Eat Poo You Cat 😆 we used to play it at family Christmas parties!
1. So happy you won! I voted for you!
2. So happy you spoke up about your mental health. Hearing your story gave me the strength to get help for my mental health issues.
3. I find that drinking alcohol is much more a thing in the UK. I used to live in the UK, and now live in Canada and it is definitely not as much of a thing here. Although the way you describe your relationship with alcohol is my relationship with iced coffees 🤣
4. I am in the same place with myself and food. Definitely want to sort out my relationship with food.
5. So excited for weekly vlogs!!
Love Jackson Brown, reminds me of my parents!
You are a REAL person on TH-cam my fellow Melon, and therefore you will always be relevant and special on here 💕❤️💃
Massive congratulations on your previous award. So well deserved- you're ace xxx
Yes to tan routine 🙌🏻
I've been with you since melon lady days. You're the only youtuber I have followed for that long. Trust me when I say tell those intrusive thoughts to do one! You're so loved. I do understand where you are coming from as I'm a person that can give my self a hard time for the stupidest shit. Just letting you know 💖
An award might feel superficial but it’s a bit like a qualification in a small way. Where experts and peers in your field think you’re so great at something that they recognise you excel in that area. The only awards/qualifications I’ve ever received were academic ones and they made me feel like you’ve described. It’s that feeling of being worthy of your craft/studies that recognition from a body of people can give you.
My fave always!!!
Tanning routine needed pleaseee 🤞
Just luv ya Helen..Glad your feeling Happy . Xx
As a fellow pale gal, I would looooove to see a tanning routine!!
Its so true. I personally dont drink. I never drunk too much and since having kids I dont drink at all. i always found it hard to socialise because everyone always wants to go out for a drink and I dont drink...Also people would judge me like why dont you drink? Just have one? As if something is wrong with me. I just dont enjoy drinking. thats it. its hard when the whole socialising depends on it....
I’ve had a lot of pressure in the past and it’s not been fun, I tend to feel a lot lower after some and it makes my dissociation worse of course. It’s okay to choose not to drink and not have to explain to others why
Totally relate to the food and alcohol topic.
Try starflower oil I had crippling menstrual migraines now I hardly have anything
Cool fact: Jackson Browne wrote These Days when he was only 16 🥺❤️ How could someone so young write lyrics that heartbreaking am I right!?
Yay to weekly vlogs 💛
16:13 my life 😂
I'm so proud of ya!!!!!!
Do you have any tips for getting yourself out of that self-doubty, intrustive thought spiral? Like exercises or something that you've been doing? I really empathized with your "I need to quit" video. I too am self-taught freelance filmmaker and I am constantly battling imposter syndrome and feelings of not being good enough. If something goes wrong or I don't know the answer to something I straight away use it as evidence that all my doubts are true.
I’m no professional nor am I Helen but I’ve been taught about CBT which may be useful for this or challenging the thoughts, evidence for the thoughts. Mindfulness helps some, so you notice the thoughts are there and let them come in and then let them pass, don’t forget them away or fixate, just let them happen. It’s not easy but hope this somewhat helps!
you look happy 😊
Tanning routine please!
Yes Helen keeping it real 💙
Ps thanks for the hyrdo jug heads up hope it will help me drink more (a lot more) 😀
You are so cooool 😊
Tanning routine yes plsssss🤩
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My partner's band is playing Wild Paths! Drones, you'd like them, check them out! X
You look sooooo good 😍
Love you ❤️
Love ya hun your gorgeous x
Hello! :3
Why are you click baiting no need
How is this clickbait? She legitimately thought she’d quit and now she’s informing us she’s not going to.
Can you explain the clickbait? Where have we been misled/exaggerated on?
My daith piercing helped with weather based headaches, but I have reproductive health issues and it does nothing for those headaches.