It is ok to grieve for someone that u haven't been around in a long time. The loss takes you back to remembering the good times. Don't blame yourself how things turned out. You are a wonderful person.
I understand exactly. Parents divorced when i was 3. I chased him my whole childhood until I got pregnant at 16 (1990) and he laughed. Never saw him again. He died in 2012. He never made an attempt to see me my entire life. At that moment I knew he never wanted me. Wondering if is too painful and will never go away. Out of habit, I catch myself doing it. The little girl that wants her dad to love her. I have my dad that raised me too and he is the most wonderful man next to my grandpa. But.......... I send you all positive vibes and strength for teaching! Good luck 🌼
My life is almost identical to yours. My father decided to get in touch with me 50 yrs. Late. I felt nothing for him. He passed in 05. There was no feeling on my part. I had my mother and other family members whom I loved very much.
Isaiah 26:3 says, "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee." ... Just trust God through all this. HE'S GOT YOUR BACK!!!! He is SO good to us all....
I’ve been crying with you. I too, have grieved the loss of the parents who “made me” and the stepdad who helped raise me. I lost my mom very early (she was only 39 & I was was only 20). And 2 1/2 yrs later, my dad was murdered (Sadly, by the woman he left my mom for). I’ve had some really hard bumps in the road of my 63 yrs of life, but I’ve chosen to take the good memories over the bad ones and see how blessed I truly am. I have a wonderful husband of 43 yrs. Three wonderful children (2 by birth & 1 by marriage) and the icing on the cake is my most precious 9yr old (very crafty😉) granddaughter. I’m right there with you in being so OVER the uncertainty of this year. I miss the way life “used to be.” I don’t know you personally, but keeping up with you through your channel makes me feel as though you’re actually a friend. Since the pandemic started, I had to quit watching the news (Ever since my teen years, I’ve ALWAYS read the local paper & watched local & national news on tv). I even quit watching tv in general. I just turn to my favorite TH-cam channels & other social media sites to find a much happier content! My prayers are with you as you work through your grieving process❤️
Kelly, you have just given us all the words and the emotion that we are all feeling. You personally have had one heck of a load to carry! You deserve a break...mama can't take care of the family if mama ain't taking care of herself. Drive...cry...find a sanctuary and " just be". Grief is a wild beast...you can't outrun it. There is no way on this earth that your blood didn't love you. You are most deserving of the love.
I’m So Sorry for your loss. Just want you to know you have a father closer than a brother that will never leave or forsake you. He won’t put more on you than you can handle. God has plans for you. God is Good and he will help you. You are a strong woman that I have seen here on you tube. Lean on Him he is there for you. May God bless you and keep you and your family safe. God bless🙏🥰
Why is it when our parents make a mistake the child takes on their mistake & shame? Be strong and know this is not for you to carry, it's God's. God will gave you the strength to move forward and forgive, he will comfort your heart. You are stronger then you know, with God all things are possible. Just put your on the floor in and move. Be thankful for the day and do your best, that's all you have. You are powerful!
Kelly you can drive yourself insane with "what ifs," "could haves,". Don't let the guilt overcome you. There was nothing you could have done to keep him alive longer. Remember the Good memories! Keep them in your heart. Always.
Grieving for what should have been, with unanswered questions, is as painful as grieving for the loss of someone you saw often. Grieving for an absent parent who chooses to not be involved is awful and leaves a child with so many questions. It's lost time you can't get back and certainly weren't responsible for the loss. Praying for the peace the Lord will give you.
I was lucky and blessed to have both my parents in my life. My Dad has been gone 31years this month and a younger sister 32 years this month. My Mom passed in January 1999. We were a large family and after Mom passed there wasn't another loss until May 25 th of this year and our older brother passed. The worse part of the last 15 days of his life he was hospitalized and we couldn't see him. We talked on the phone as long as he was able, but the fact that no one could be with him and say I love you, hug him, hold his hands is so hard to deal with. I am very sorry for the loss of your Dad, Mother, and sister. I pray for your husband and son that GOD keeps them safe and healthy. May HE also bless you and the rest of your family.
First please thank your husband and son for their service. Second as a wife and mom of first responders thank you for your service. I don't think we thank the spouses enough. Thank you again. Remember we all grieve differently and at different paces. You are a very strong person and sharing your feelings makes you even stronger. Keep talking about how you are feeling because it will help. Remember you are loved. You are a very beautiful person both inside and out. By talking about this and sharing you may be helping others get through their pain. Thank you for sharing.
Kelly, thank you for sharing - hearing what your husband, your son face every day really brings this pandemic into focus. Your love and commitment to being the loving nurturing mom, wife that your are is so admirable. Of course you are going to grieve the loss of your bio dad - he was your dad. Your love for John takes nothing away from your biological dad, no matter how long since you last spoke. Sending you love and prayers and a huge Thank You for the first responders in your family.💜🙏🏼
Oh, Kelly, I'm so sorry. Just from watching you on this channel, you do everything with perfection, and you also have a very caring heart. Those two traits have a tendency to war against each other. I appreciate that you share your family and your life with us. You are so honest and an open book for us to read. Your thoughts help so many...especially about grieving. I believe we are suppose to share and encourage each other. This is your ministry for the moment, and you are doing a great job. Praying for you.
I feel your pain. Whenever you lose your parents you feel like an orphan, no matter how old you are. Often men don't know how to show their live and feelings. Just believe he lived you in his way.
Kelly, I feel so deeply for you. My father and I hadn’t spoken for over a year when he passed away. It makes the grief process so much harder. Take care and remember the good.
Kelly, my heart goes out to you and I'm sorry for your losses. My mom (my best friend) passed 10 years ago and my dad 1 year ago. It is difficult when your family diminishes. Its just not ever the same. I feel like I know you from watching you. You have such a special heart and love of your family. God bless all of you.
Hi Kelly. You are a very strong woman and you got this! Watching your DIY's helped me through my loses. Since October 2019 i lost my 41yr old son to cancer. He lived with us with his 2 daughters. After he passed the mother of my 2 granddaughters came and took them away. I have not seen then since. Then in March of this year my 96 yr old mom passed away. Through all of the losses, your ideas, the hauls, the DIY's have helped so much. Thank you.
I home schooled my sons through high School. Best decision ever! I was scared that I wouldn't be a good teacher. Turns out, I learned to be a better parent, as well a teacher. Meaning you'll do great
Please, sweetie, dont ever think that any of that distance was something you caused! You did not! Just know that you are loved by so many! And we are all praying for you and your family!💜
Easy to say, “hardships are the tools by which god fashions us for better things”. Harder to live through. Rely on those you can. I believe as a parent he never stopped loving you even though the separation happened.
Kelly I couldn't imagine having a Son and Husband on the frontlines, I feel for your worries, I hope with God's strength you will come out of this situation victoriously, I will pray for you and your family and please do not bottle this inside I wish I could reach out and give you a hug, Please try to stay strong you are Awesome. I hate to see you cry but I am always here for you whenever for whatever, We all love you so never forget how much we love you and thank you for everything, I am sorry for your loss but whatever did happen isn't your fault so please dont think that It's tough to try to figure things out. I know without a doubt that your Father loved you, no matter what. Maybe you could talk about this with your stepdad and he may hold the key you are searching for? Kelly I have a similar situation in my life with my parents and now they are both gone and it stays with me to, I pray about it alot and ask God to give me peace from all the doubt and questions I know I will never get the answer to, Stay strong and just know I am here if you ever need a good listener
Ty for this...i think you feel as we all do right now. Afraid for our kids, uncertain if I'm doing the right thing, bored to tears, worried about bills, food and just survival. I'm sorry about your Dad and I hope your heart heels and everything gets easier for us all. Ty for this I cried with you
The strength you have to be able to share your raw feelings in this way is truly a gift from God. You have just helped many who are experiencing similar pain. Thank you for this very powerful message.God bless you and your family.
I know this must be extra difficult without your husband being able to physically console you with a hug or kiss. I am praying for you and your family, for healing and peace.
Oh my dear, you have so much on your plate right now and have had for a while. I have no wonderful words of wisdom for this. All I can say is pray. Pray to start your day, pray through out your day. End your day with prayer. Your father chose to not stay in your life. I am so sorry for your loss and all your stress. Of course you can grieve. It is a very normal thing, regardless of the relationship. My heart truly hurts for you.
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s such a hard thing to go through under “normal” circumstances but with everything going on now it just makes things more difficult. You are doing amazingly well! Sounds like you are doing everything that you can possibly do for you and your family at this time. Listen to your heart and you will be fine. Prayers and thoughts to you and your family. Your biological Dad knows what was in your heart dear. Don’t have any bad feelings.
I am so sorry for your loss and I know it seems like a lot with everything going on. Please don't feel bad it's not your fault with your biological dad you did the best that you could. Keep in contact with your step sister and you can talk and you'll feel better about this situation with your dad. And I know you will do fine as a teacher to your daughters. My prayers will be with you. God will help you get through it. Take care and you and your family will be ok.
You are not crazy. You are human. So much loss and grief. It seems you have a good handle on what the grief is really about. Many people go through grief not really understanding why they would grieve for a person that had not been close to them. You are going to come through this in good shape. Though I know it sure doesn't feel like that now. You just need a break girl. You are an extraordinary woman in a very uncommon situation. Your grief is tripled, at least, by all the stressors. You have just been bombarded. Lean on God. He will see you through. Know that you are being held up in prayer daily even if you can't feed it. You are greatly loved. Prayers from Texas.
Kelly it’s so hard to lose our parents. Just so thankful for all the memories. You’ve come all long way, now 2023 ending. You have had your fair share of sadness. Keep moving forward my friend. Your such a good mother. God is gonna see you through this all. Much love and prayers to you, your family and all here. ❤️💯🙏🏻🐶🐶
I admire your strength to share such personal thoughts. You never know how many people you helped by doing this. Thanks for letting people know there are wonderful step-parents that truly step up and become parents. Hugs and prayers for you and your family.
I’m in a similar situation. My stepfather has raised me from 12 years old, I’m now 50. My biological father is still alive but I have no contact or relationship with him. I feel for you and please don’t apologize for grieving. It’s a natural emotion and one you’re entitled to have. Thank you for sharing such raw emotions, as I’m sure it’s not easy. You’re in my thoughts and prayers. 😘
I was in tears. Really felt your pain. I'm so sorry for your loss. But many here have great words for you on this. Better than I could come up with. But on the topic of school. I think you made the right choice for your situation. Having another person out there possibly getting exposed is not what you need. It will be one less thing to worry about. I think you have what it takes to face the challenges of homeschooling. You are smart, creative and focused. Don't worry so much about it. Just see yourself as a facilitator which is how many of us educators have been trained to be for our students. There are so many resources out there now it's incredible. Whatever you don't know, there Is someone that does. I'm sure you can also network with other parents for support and guidance. Don't go it alone. Keep in close touch with the teachers and ask for help when or if you need it. Just Offer grace because this is still fairly knew to educators as well.I will be rooting and praying for you.
Kelley, sweet heart I am so sorry to hear you have and are suffering so much. It is ok and fine for you to grieve that is the only way you will heal. I am a mother and you can be sure that both you parents loved you endlessly. You are a wonderful daughter who is now a wonderful mother. Stay as Beautiful as you are and God will guide you. God Bless you and we will overcome this awful situation. 😘😇🙏
Can i just add a wee additional comment. Perhaps, like my Mum, your Dad was a Narcissist. Narcissists move on and when they get a second family, tend to ignore their first one. I tried my best to keep in touch with my Mum but she never even came to visit her grandkids but would send me pics of her step grankids, which hurt like hell. Perhaps it is the same with your Dad Kelly. Out of sight, out of mind is how a narcissist functions so if he didn't see you, unlike us normal people who would miss someone, they lack that ability and can literally put you out of their mind. You did your best to maintain contact, as did i and yip i too have no closure, no Mum saying i loved you, i am proud of you but Kelly the harsh fact is, even if alive, they wouldn't and deep down you know that and that hurts. We will never get the chance to hear them say it, explain why we were ignored, like you say, the door is closed and we are full of regrets and unanswered questions. Keep telling yourself that you would NEVER have gotten those answers. I'm so sorry Kelly ...you are loved by your family and hang onto that but i know as a loving Mum you will never understand why a parent can walk away. But like i said maybe he was personality disordered and couldn't help it and NOTHING you could've done, would have a different result. Big hugs from Scotland and be thinking of you and sending strength xxxxx
Thank you Kelly for opening up to us all. My condolences on your loss...May you get thru this sad and grieving process quickly. As I said in the beginning, thank you for opening up to us all...I cried with you, but it also let me know that I wasn't alone in feeling the way I have been lately bc of this pandemic. Your video kickstarted my strength back up to keep myself busy and my family as safe as I can...thank you
I am so sorry Kelly. You have had so much loss added to the stress of this pandemic. It's wonderful that you use crafting to work through your stress and grief, rather than abusing substances like so many others. The grief from losing my dad is what got me into gardening. Now so many people find joy in visiting my gardens, just like so many people enjoy crafting with you. Hugs to you.
My sincere condolences for your loss. I feel you have expressed what the entire world is feeling and going through right now and this magnitude of stress is unprecedented and overwhelming. We all need to be thankful for what we do have because there are so many who have less right now. You have a good support system and a healthy attitude. That right there is huge. Sending you love, light, strength and Big Hugs. xo
So so sorry for your loss and for everything you are going through, I am praying for you and your family. I love watching your videos so when this video popped up I stopped the video I was watching to tune into to yours that’s how much I love you and watching your videos. I feel like you are a part of my family. I laugh and cry with you.
Awww, HUGS! Y'all are gonna get through this! We just have to believe that this is just a season...a long season albeit. You all will come out, better & stronger. We have to just do what is necessary. Do not blame yourself for the choices your father made...it is a parental choice that he made. You all were adults. He probably had issues he never wanted you to know. He may have been protecting you from the issues by staying away. At any rate, I am so sorry for your feelings of loss & grief.
You are such a strong woman. You've been through so much. Praying for your healing heart. I don't even know you, but feel like I do, just by watching your videos. Sending you a giant hug and lifting you and your family up in prayer.
You can do this. I homeschooled over 20 years. Some days I learned right alongside my kids. Some days I felt like pulling my hair out. It created an awesome bond going through that with my kids. You are a great mom. I am sorry about your loss. I will be praying for y’all.
Sending prayers for comfort and stability during this time. It's rough, and I'm sure you are doing everything right to make it better for your family. Just remember - you are enough!
Kelly, I pray that the Lord will give you peace as you work thru the loss of your Dad, and that He will give you patience with yourself as you help your daughter with her on-line schooling. I also pray that the Lord will keep Jeff and Ray safe and bless your family with the strength, comfort, love and good health throughout this very trying time. Thank you for the videos that you post! Watching them gives me a little more confidence to try different crafts that I would never have considered trying before I started watching them.
Kelly as I'm viewing this video my heart is melting to see you in tears, I do understand your pain as I lost both of my parents as well. Trust God threw the process. Praying your strength!!!
Kelly thank you for sharing your story with us. I know God is with you through this journey and God is using your platform to help others that have been or are in a current situation. You have great strength! Kelly, God blessed you with another father that loved you unconditionally! god Bless you and we continue to pray for your husband and son as they are continually go out to protect others! Good luck with home schooling! Another adventure!! We look forward to watching you heal through your crafting! Take care of YOU!!! hugs & Blessings! Sandie
Kelly, I feel like my life has fallen apart as well. My Mother passed Christmas eve morning and it was just the 2 of us. None of my sisters even came to her funeral. My son was hit and killed by a drunk driver several years ago, he was my youngest and only 23 years old. There are so many people who care about you and love you. Hang in there. May God bless you and your family 👪
You have been thought an enormous amount of heartbreak yourself. I lost a son when he was 10 months old and both my parents are gone. The family fractured when my mom passed and non of us are close anymore. I never thought that would happen but it did. My heart breaks for you and I am praying for you as I am typing this. If there wasn't a God I wouldn't be able to breath because of the heartbreak I (an I'm no alone in this) have suffered. You too hang in there and God bless you too.
Oh, Kelly! So sorry for your struggles and losses. You are indeed a strong woman. Thank you for sharing your broken heart with us, so that we can pray for you. Lifting you up before the Throne of God that He will comfort you and protect you and your family. Love you.
I'm so sorry for your losses. My dad died about 7 years ago. I miss him everyday. I still have my mom. She is almost 86. I just recently moved her into an assisted living facility near me. I visit her twice a week and talk to her on the phone twice a day. Keep your head up. We will get thru this.
Bless your heart. Don’t feel guilty for grieving your birth father. This year has been so hard for you and your family, but it will get better. I will continue to pray for you and your family. You’ll do great with school. Everything is in such a state of upheaval and I’m not sure the old “normal”will ever return. You will make it through as will I. You are an amazingly talented, strong woman. Don’t ever let others tell you how you should feel. They aren’t walking in your shoes. Continue to create. You bring joy to us all. 💜
I wish I would have seen your video months ago, but here are my thoughts that I wanted to share just in case they are still relevant to what you are going through... I think when we have a complex relationship with someone who passes it complicates the grieving process. We not only grieve what “was” with that person, but we grieve what we needed the relationship to be, and now realize will never be. I know a similar pain 😔 If I may give a suggestion for a crafting keepsake…how about a keepsake memory box for the photos your step sister is sending, and to hold cathartic letters you could write to your biological dad as you go through the healing process? Sending healing thoughts your way, Kelly. Let yourself feel what you need to feel, and give yourself lots of TLC💜
Dear precious Kelly, I'm so sorry for how things have gone for you. I'm going to talk to you as i would my own sister, or my daughter. Please remember that you did reach out to your daddy, he did know he was loved by you. As for him reaching out to you, we're not able to read another's heart. You aren't aware of what his intentions were, of what his little girl truly meant to him. Of how he probably had plans to see or visit you again. You don't know that while he probably had this intention he also never wanted those with him to be hurt. And remember that one day goes so quickly to the next, and before we know it too much time has passed. And please don't feel you have to explain to anyone, or even try to explain to anyone, what you are feeling about the loss of both your mom and dad. My parents are gone too. Between them I had 13 sets of aunts and uncles. One decade we lost about half of them and last year (8 years later) the rest were gone. There were 31 first cousins and now only 5 of us are left (and I'm not that old).We use to travel up and down the west coast every summer and all the families visited each other. The hole you mentioned about having but not quite understanding is the same one I've had. It's not just people we've lost, we've also lost our history. I have two wonderful, precious adult children, and as much as they mean to me, and that's a bunch, no one that comes after can take the place of those of our history. As far as on line schooling goes, my son is a teacher at a youth correctional facility. He was suggesting to a friend to hire a tutor for their kids. Perhaps that would be of benefit to your little one, and you. That way you can continue to the wonderful mom you are without wearing yet another hat of responsibility. Be kind to yourself sweetie, remember God is still in control, and you and your family shall be in my prayers. God bless you.
I am so sorry for loss and your unanswered questions. You gave been through a lot in the last few years. So thankful and grateful for 1st responders. Your family is in my prayers.
Your courage is an inspiration to us all. Thank you so, so much for sharing your grief (and understanding). Grief is touching us all in theses days and we have limited outlets for reaching out. Creative and loving person, you are a light in this dark world 💕.
I recently lost my sister and am having such a hard time. My heart goes out to you for your losses. I’m in grief counseling because I really need it. My counselor recommended a book for me to read. It has helped me understand the process of grief. I’m the oldest of 4 and I lost my first little sister. I’m in my 60s and the pain is unmeasurable. You have my most heartfelt condolences. The title of the book is “Living Through Personal Crisis.” By Ann Kaiser Sterns Ph. D. This book deals with all great losses. What I’ve learned is that grief comes with any type of great loss. So, I just wanted to share information that is helping me. God bless you! 🙏🏾
I lost my sister and my dad. It’s been a few years now for each of them. I don’t cry so much but miss them everyday. My sister was my only sibling. Life is hard. We have to hang in there. Stay strong. My heart goes out to you! ❤️
I made "In memoriam" scrapbook pages for my Mom and one for my Dad when they passed away and it really helped. I added a few pictures to the pages and it makes me feel warm inside to look at them
Kelly I am so proud of you for sharing your pain and sadness as well as the situation that caused you & your father to be separated for so many years, you are real and human that is why I love watching your videos because you are great at it as well. Blessings, Peace, Love and Prayers. God Bless You & Your Family.
Stay strong, the love that always exists between parents and kids healed all the wounds, whether spoken or not! As the child, no burden ever falls on you! Stay strong, we're all tired of being tired--completely normal!! This too shall pass, the Lord doesn't give us more than we can bear!!! Prayers to you and the ENTIRE family in y'all's time of loss!🙏🏾
Hi Kelly, as one who did traditional homeschooling of my two from kindergarten through 12th, I would not have traded it for anything in the world. Was it always easy, no way, but so worth having those years and being so much a part of their schooling lives. My son has a full time job and has received "employee of the month" twice and "employee of the year". My daughter is going into her fourth year of university. It's going to be different this coming year; she will still be going to stay at university and not at home. She is now making plans for veterinarian school and possibly the Army. Traditional homeschooling meant that I had to plan out all my kids curriculum, and everything. On-line schooling is different but very doable. I'm positive you will do a fantastic job in assisting her through this year. Take it one day at a time and before you know it, the end of the school year will be here again. YOU CAN DO THIS! Stay tough, you're stronger than you realize.
So sorry you're going through so much right now. Grieving is part of the healing process. Seems to me you did love your dad so cherish those memories you do have. I too have lost both my parents and a sister I was so close to. It was hard. I pray for God to give you all the strength you need as our families still rely on us moms, grandmoms. I do admit crafting is my getaway and feel at peace. God bless you Kelly. Thank you for sharing your story and your awesome crafts. 🙏♥️
You are a sweet, kind hearted person and I’ve followed you for a while. I feel inspired to share with you that you must remember that you are never alone. Through my faith, I believe that a loving Father in Heaven has made it possible for you to see your father again. Please don’t think that the door is closed on that. You will have the chance for all to be made right. Your questions will all be answered. Don’t give up hope, Kelly.
Bless you for your transparency. Prayers for you as you work through the grieving process. Never forget you have a perfect Father who loves you unconditionally. Rest in His arms. Let Him bring you peace.
It’s okay to feel that way, like you said this was the person that made you and more than grieving him is grieving the unknown and the never getting answers and closure. My husband lost his biological father as well and had not spoken to him since the day his father closed the door on him and his family due to domestic violence and that was 19 years ago. My husband grieved his passing feeling guilt for having to feel that way towards a horrible person that did nothing but hurt him. Thought it’s not the same in your situation, your grieving is valid, it’s your own, and valid. We all grieve in our own way. Your not alone, sending much love to you and your family love 💕
I’m sorry for your husband’s loss...my husband, also, suffers from ‘bad memories’ of his childhood abuse with his father, he can’t seem to forget ...😞😞😞
Irma Gonzalez ......it is both unfortunate and fortunate the impact these awful moment life throws at them. They have definitely shaped my husband to drive to be the best father and husband his father never got to be. But also is over protective with us because there so many things that trigger him to think back to moment he lived through at the presence of his father. And the worst part of the dark moment is the resentment that comes with triggers and memories.
My heart just aches for you Kelly..I am soooo sorry..wish I could give you a big hug...I hope you have a special spiritual person to talk to..Talk to God ..He is with you and has his arms wrapped around your aching heart...Your father Loved you Kelly... He knows your heart talk to your dad ..in a quiet place or write him a letter...from your heart...I have experienced so much pain and grief ...not only from just a divorce...the ramifications of it now Im a grandmother..is absolutely horrible. painful .the fact you have family members still by your side You are So blessed..Stay close to our God Kelly hang in there Take one day at a time..God will get you through it...Trust and keep your Faith... Gods strength will get you through and make all of you stronger....God bless you sweetheart...pray hope and dont worry...
Big hugs to you too Joanne. So many of us have gone through heartache and Kelly's story brought some of the pain back but.... all the thoughts and comments directed at Kelly are helping me too. Kelly is very special, I only know her from her website but her kind heart shows through. Kelly just know we all feel your pain and we are all sending you virtual hugs. You too Joanne.
Well. This was a sad video. Like it just hit differently. Lately I’ve been going through some real tough stuff and my emotions are just so crazy I legit can’t even cry properly anymore. And this video just got me right in the heart. THESE feelings are so normal and happen every day to some one. And I feel like there’s not a lot of talk about it, like on this level. And your video just really did that. It broke my heart, but also in a good way almost. Like I relate to you. And it’s okay that we’re sad about things and hurting and we’re hurting together. Big big hugs!!!! Even though we’re not really together in person, we’re all in this together.
Kelley I'm so sorry for your loss. It is natural to grieve because of a loss. We grieve for the loss of a loved one and what could have been. Praying that God grants you comfort and strength and for the continued health of your family.
Kelly, I just want to say thank you for sharing your feelings. I lost my Dad in March and my Mom last month, so I understand your grief and want to let you know that listening to you express how you felt helped me in my grief. God bless you and give you peace and comfort.
Feel your heartache. I'm certain the stress and strain of the Covid is adding to depths of your despair. Please turn to Faith in God to see you through the hardest times. Feel His arms around you since you cannot wrap yourself in your husband's comforting embrace. You will handle online schooling just fine. Let Allie go at her own pace. No pressure. There are lots of resources you can use. You are not alone, count your blessings that you can be home with her. Hugs.
So sorry for your loss, Kelly. You are entitled to your grief. Relationships can be very tough on kids of divorced parents. And sometimes, parents have difficulty parenting and keeping their own hurt feelings about the divorce out of parenting their kids.May your memories of time spent years ago with your dad bring you peace and comfort. Take good care of you. 💜
I am keeping you and your family in my prayers. You have every right to grieve and share with your you tube family. It gives us the ability to pray for you and hopefully lift you up. Thank you for all of your tutorials.
Please grieve as much as you need to. My “dad” told me at 18 that he was not my dad. That my mom had been raped by her dentist. When I asked mom she said eye doctor. I never knew who my biological dad was. And “dad” was never a father to me. I lost my house 4 years ago and my dog was given away and all my belongings are stolen from the storage place. My fiancé was captured by the Taliban a month ago. I paid the ransom but now I know if they killed him or if they let him go in Nigeria. I am still grieving for my mom who left six years ago. You are strong. Do not think about what if’s. And pray. God knows. I still talk to mom everyday. At night when I go to sleep. God bless you.
God will help you ! Give him the problem and when it’s in his hands he will guide you ! Be thankful for the time you had together ! I found out I was adopted when I was 53 , I’m 73 now for the past 20 years I lost my adopted parents, always wondered why I never heard from my biological parents ! I know your hurt ! We will find out when God wants us to ! God Bless you !🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Kelly , Please thank your husband and son for all they do ...Thank you for sharing your feelings. Life is rough these past few months..Please keep faith in the Lord he is our true protector and provider. Keep your head up .Keeping your family in my prayers...Lots of hugs sending your way.
Kelly, he knows, your dad knows and he doesn't need you to rectify anything. Just love him as you knew him. He is in your cheering section. He loved you, I can tell. We do not diminish we return to our creator and become whole again. Those who have gone on before us are looking out for us and loving us unconditionally.
It’s a lot Kelly. Sometimes we need to slloooow down and breathe. Take a breath, self care. It will be ok. It will. School won’t be perfect this year it’s just day by day. Tired is definitely the word.
That's not your fault hun you where the child and he's still your dad you have a right to feel the way you do he's with god now looking down on you with love.I'm so sorry your feeling this way praying for you and your family,
I’m praying for you Kelly, I haven’t even met my biological dad, he knows about me and chose not to make a effort to met me. He has a wife and other kids. About 18 years ago I had the opportunity to met my dads brother and his family and a cousin from my dads side they were the only ones who reached out and wanted to get to know me. There are a lot of unanswered questions I have but I know it’s something that is out of my control and all I can do is live in the now and keep moving forward with the people that want to be in my life. I can’t even imagine going through all you are going through, I hope things get better so we all can get to that normal but all we can do is take it one day at a time. Your a wonderful person and look forward to seeing your DIY’s and I’m so appreciative for you. 🙏❤️
Kelly my tears are flowing with yours. You described your cumulative daily stress now topped with grief of many kinds so eloquently. I admire your ability and willingness to be so vulnerable in a public setting. You are in my prayers. May God bless you and your family and fill you with his peace.
You are so amazing. Everyone grieves differently. Everything you are going through is making you a stronger person. You got this sweet lady. Thank you for sharing
It breaks my heart to hear how deep your sadness is about life right now. Put your faith in God, and know that he is sitting by your side. I too have questions that I will never know the answer from my Dad. The tears come when the thought of them come out of nowhere. It has been 10 years for me. Let the tears flow. You need to release when the thoughts take over.
My dad who raised me, Eddie, passed in June of 2019. My "real" dad lives in Thailand with his 4th wife I don't see or hear from him unless he needs something. That being said, I hope you can let the hurts from the past go. You were the child, he the adult. You could not have said or done anything to change what was. It just was. You are right that healing will start with that. In time you will have answers. I know it's hard to wait, because it will be beautiful and right. I send you love and light. Your sister in grief, Tami
Kelly, I feel that you are a friend. You bring such joy and inspiration to me through your videos and vlogs. Wish I could give you a big hug. My heart and prayers are with you.
Kelly, you are so strong! I am so very sorry for your losses. You can rectify your relationship with your Dad whenever you want. I believe they are looking down on you. Talk to them, ask questions, yell at them if needed. They are all around you. I am not a religious person, it is just what I believe. We heard you today and saw your tears, so did your biological family. Sending love to you and big hugs.
God love you, honey! We were so concerned about covid, little did we know, my son, who is 36, has a wife and 3 young children, he has synovial sarcoma cancer of the heart and it has spread to his lungs. He is on chemo, they say it is rare and there is no cure. I say this, because he has been the healthy one. Now we are afraid to go anywhere, because we don’t want to bring any infections to him. Hold strong to your faith, that is what we are doing. The Lord will bring us all through our trials, and he is there now, carrying us! So sorry about your dad, my son is a stepdad to his oldest, who is an 11 year old boy. He doesn’t have contact with his biological dad. Since he was 2. I’m not sure how to help him. My grandson is going to do online school this year, because of his dad. So you hang in there dear, blessings to you and your family! Sorry this was so long.
Thank you for sharing your story, your stress, and your pain. I emphasize with you and understand your grief. I to, am a creator when I am grieving. It’s a weird way to handle things, but I’ve learned to embrace it.
You are such a strong person. Thank you for sharing such genuine emotions with us. I hope it helped you. I’m sure it helped a lot of your subscribers. Looking forward to your diys. I don’t do them, but I enjoy your clever productions. So sorry for these losses.
My dad passed away when I was 10 my mom hates me ever since he passed away. I don't have a step parents. I was a child that was throne away at the age of 10 years old.
Kelly, try coconut oil. That works wonders. Kelly, you know what helped me through the grieving process? Sit down and write a letter to your dad. I know it sounds crazy since he has passed, but write him asking him those unanswered questions and tell him everything that you felt growing up without him being there for you.
This is the way military spouses feel everyday. I was a military wife for 14 years and also have a son that was in the military. It is a lot for sure. You can do this!! I see your strengths! YOU ARE STRONG! You and yours are in my heart and prayers! Big hugs and peace to your soul.
Thank you for reaching out to us. You are not alone. You inspire so many of us, the least we can do is to be there for you to lean on, even if it’s virtually. Hang in there. This too shall pass.
Sorry for your loss. Prayers for you. You can't help how you feel. Of course you are right in grieving. I am glad that you had a man to call Dad that loves you and is not afraid to show it. My dad didn't care for me and he only wanted me around if he needed something. My heart goes out to you.
It is ok to grieve for someone that u haven't been around in a long time. The loss takes you back to remembering the good times. Don't blame yourself how things turned out. You are a wonderful person.
I understand exactly. Parents divorced when i was 3. I chased him my whole childhood until I got pregnant at 16 (1990) and he laughed. Never saw him again. He died in 2012. He never made an attempt to see me my entire life. At that moment I knew he never wanted me. Wondering if is too painful and will never go away. Out of habit, I catch myself doing it. The little girl that wants her dad to love her. I have my dad that raised me too and he is the most wonderful man next to my grandpa. But..........
I send you all positive vibes and strength for teaching! Good luck 🌼
My life is almost identical to yours. My father decided to get in touch with me 50 yrs. Late. I felt nothing for him. He passed in 05. There was no feeling on my part. I had my mother and other family members whom I loved very much.
Isaiah 26:3 says, "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee." ... Just trust God through all this. HE'S GOT YOUR BACK!!!! He is SO good to us all....
Your feelings are yours and they’re real, don’t ever feel the need to justify them. Sorry for your loss.
I’ve been crying with you. I too, have grieved the loss of the parents who “made me” and the stepdad who helped raise me. I lost my mom very early (she was only 39 & I was was only 20). And 2 1/2 yrs later, my dad was murdered (Sadly, by the woman he left my mom for). I’ve had some really hard bumps in the road of my 63 yrs of life, but I’ve chosen to take the good memories over the bad ones and see how blessed I truly am. I have a wonderful husband of 43 yrs. Three wonderful children (2 by birth & 1 by marriage) and the icing on the cake is my most precious 9yr old (very crafty😉) granddaughter. I’m right there with you in being so OVER the uncertainty of this year. I miss the way life “used to be.” I don’t know you personally, but keeping up with you through your channel makes me feel as though you’re actually a friend. Since the pandemic started, I had to quit watching the news (Ever since my teen years, I’ve ALWAYS read the local paper & watched local & national news on tv). I even quit watching tv in general. I just turn to my favorite TH-cam channels & other social media sites to find a much happier content! My prayers are with you as you work through your grieving process❤️
Kelly, you have just given us all the words and the emotion that we are all feeling. You personally have had one heck of a load to carry! You deserve a break...mama can't take care of the family if mama ain't taking care of herself. Drive...cry...find a sanctuary and " just be". Grief is a wild beast...you can't outrun it. There is no way on this earth that your blood didn't love you. You are most deserving of the love.
The God who hung the stars is holding all his children in the palm of his mighty hand. Peace unto you beloved!
I’m So Sorry for your loss. Just want you to know you have a father closer than a brother that will never leave or forsake you. He won’t put more on you than you can handle. God has plans for you. God is Good and he will help you. You are a strong woman that I have seen here on you tube. Lean on Him he is there for you. May God bless you and keep you and your family safe. God bless🙏🥰
Amen Karen u are so right
Why is it when our parents make a mistake the child takes on their mistake & shame? Be strong and know this is not for you to carry, it's God's. God will gave you the strength to move forward and forgive, he will comfort your heart. You are stronger then you know, with God all things are possible. Just put your on the floor in and move. Be thankful for the day and do your best, that's all you have. You are powerful!
Kelly you can drive yourself insane with "what ifs," "could haves,". Don't let the guilt overcome you. There was nothing you could have done to keep him alive longer. Remember the Good memories!
Keep them in your heart. Always.
Grieving for what should have been, with unanswered questions, is as painful as grieving for the loss of someone you saw often. Grieving for an absent parent who chooses to not be involved is awful and leaves a child with so many questions. It's lost time you can't get back and certainly weren't responsible for the loss. Praying for the peace the Lord will give you.
I was lucky and blessed to have both my parents in my life. My Dad has been gone 31years this month and a younger sister 32 years this month. My Mom passed in January 1999. We were a large family and after Mom passed there wasn't another loss until May 25 th of this year and our older brother passed. The worse part of the last 15 days of his life he was hospitalized and we couldn't see him. We talked on the phone as long as he was able, but the fact that no one could be with him and say I love you, hug him, hold his hands is so hard to deal with. I am very sorry for the loss of your Dad, Mother, and sister. I pray for your husband and son that GOD keeps them safe and healthy. May HE also bless you and the rest of your family.
First please thank your husband and son for their service. Second as a wife and mom of first responders thank you for your service. I don't think we thank the spouses enough. Thank you again.
Remember we all grieve differently and at different paces. You are a very strong person and sharing your feelings makes you even stronger. Keep talking about how you are feeling because it will help. Remember you are loved. You are a very beautiful person both inside and out. By talking about this and sharing you may be helping others get through their pain. Thank you for sharing.
Amy Phillips beautifully said Amy ❤️
Kelly, thank you for sharing - hearing what your husband, your son face every day really brings this pandemic into focus. Your love and commitment to being the loving nurturing mom, wife that your are is so admirable. Of course you are going to grieve the loss of your bio dad - he was your dad. Your love for John takes nothing away from your biological dad, no matter how long since you last spoke. Sending you love and prayers and a huge Thank You for the first responders in your family.💜🙏🏼
Oh, Kelly, I'm so sorry. Just from watching you on this channel, you do everything with perfection, and you also have a very caring heart. Those two traits have a tendency to war against each other. I appreciate that you share your family and your life with us. You are so honest and an open book for us to read. Your thoughts help so many...especially about grieving. I believe we are suppose to share and encourage each other. This is your ministry for the moment, and you are doing a great job. Praying for you.
Thank you so much for that🧡
I feel your pain. Whenever you lose your parents you feel like an orphan, no matter how old you are. Often men don't know how to show their live and feelings. Just believe he lived you in his way.
Jesus can heal you everywhere you hurt. Trust Him.
Amen.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It doesn’t matter how long it’s been, he is still you dad. I’m praying for the peace of God will fill you completely.
Wendy Brown Amen!!
Kelly, I feel so deeply for you. My father and I hadn’t spoken for over a year when he passed away. It makes the grief process so much harder. Take care and remember the good.
Kelly, my heart goes out to you and I'm sorry for your losses. My mom (my best friend) passed 10 years ago and my dad 1 year ago. It is difficult when your family diminishes. Its just not ever the same.
I feel like I know you from watching you. You have such a special heart and love of your family. God bless all of you.
Hi Kelly. You are a very strong woman and you got this!
Watching your DIY's helped me through my loses. Since October 2019 i lost my 41yr old son to cancer. He lived with us with his 2 daughters. After he passed the mother of my 2 granddaughters came and took them away. I have not seen then since. Then in March of this year my 96 yr old mom passed away.
Through all of the losses, your ideas, the hauls, the DIY's have helped so much.
Thank you.
I home schooled my sons through high School. Best decision ever! I was scared that I wouldn't be a good teacher. Turns out, I learned to be a better parent, as well a teacher. Meaning you'll do great
Please, sweetie, dont ever think that any of that distance was something you caused! You did not! Just know that you are loved by so many! And we are all praying for you and your family!💜
Easy to say, “hardships are the tools by which god fashions us for better things”. Harder to live through. Rely on those you can. I believe as a parent he never stopped loving you even though the separation happened.
Kelly I couldn't imagine having a Son and Husband on the frontlines, I feel for your worries, I hope with God's strength you will come out of this situation victoriously, I will pray for you and your family and please do not bottle this inside I wish I could reach out and give you a hug, Please try to stay strong you are Awesome. I hate to see you cry but I am always here for you whenever for whatever, We all love you so never forget how much we love you and thank you for everything, I am sorry for your loss but whatever did happen isn't your fault so please dont think that It's tough to try to figure things out. I know without a doubt that your Father loved you, no matter what. Maybe you could talk about this with your stepdad and he may hold the key you are searching for? Kelly I have a similar situation in my life with my parents and now they are both gone and it stays with me to, I pray about it alot and ask God to give me peace from all the doubt and questions I know I will never get the answer to, Stay strong and just know I am here if you ever need a good listener
Ty for this...i think you feel as we all do right now. Afraid for our kids, uncertain if I'm doing the right thing, bored to tears, worried about bills, food and just survival. I'm sorry about your Dad and I hope your heart heels and everything gets easier for us all. Ty for this I cried with you
The strength you have to be able to share your raw feelings in this way is truly a gift from God. You have just helped many who are experiencing similar pain. Thank you for this very powerful message.God bless you and your family.
I know this must be extra difficult without your husband being able to physically console you with a hug or kiss. I am praying for you and your family, for healing and peace.
Oh my dear, you have so much on your plate right now and have had for a while. I have no wonderful words of wisdom for this. All I can say is pray. Pray to start your day, pray through out your day. End your day with prayer. Your father chose to not stay in your life. I am so sorry for your loss and all your stress. Of course you can grieve. It is a very normal thing, regardless of the relationship. My heart truly hurts for you.
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s such a hard thing to go through under “normal” circumstances but with everything going on now it just makes things more difficult. You are doing amazingly well! Sounds like you are doing everything that you can possibly do for you and your family at this time. Listen to your heart and you will be fine. Prayers and thoughts to you and your family. Your biological Dad knows what was in your heart dear. Don’t have any bad feelings.
I am so sorry for your loss and I know it seems like a lot with everything going on. Please don't feel bad it's not your fault with your biological dad you did the best that you could. Keep in contact with your step sister and you can talk and you'll feel better about this situation with your dad. And I know you will do fine as a teacher to your daughters. My prayers will be with you. God will help you get through it. Take care and you and your family will be ok.
You are not crazy. You are human. So much loss and grief. It seems you have a good handle on what the grief is really about. Many people go through grief not really understanding why they would grieve for a person that had not been close to them. You are going to come through this in good shape. Though I know it sure doesn't feel like that now. You just need a break girl. You are an extraordinary woman in a very uncommon situation. Your grief is tripled, at least, by all the stressors. You have just been bombarded. Lean on God. He will see you through. Know that you are being held up in prayer daily even if you can't feed it. You are greatly loved. Prayers from Texas.
Debi Adams I couldn't said it any better.
Kelly it’s so hard to lose our parents. Just so thankful for all the memories. You’ve come all long way, now 2023 ending. You have had your fair share of sadness. Keep moving forward my friend. Your such a good mother. God is gonna see you through this all. Much love and prayers to you, your family and all here. ❤️💯🙏🏻🐶🐶
I admire your strength to share such personal thoughts. You never know how many people you helped by doing this. Thanks for letting people know there are wonderful step-parents that truly step up and become parents. Hugs and prayers for you and your family.
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I’m in a similar situation. My stepfather has raised me from 12 years old, I’m now 50. My biological father is still alive but I have no contact or relationship with him. I feel for you and please don’t apologize for grieving. It’s a natural emotion and one you’re entitled to have.
Thank you for sharing such raw emotions, as I’m sure it’s not easy. You’re in my thoughts and prayers. 😘
My heart goes out to you. Grieve for a while and then move one. These are very hard times. Let's pray this too shall pass (soon).
I was in tears. Really felt your pain. I'm so sorry for your loss. But many here have great words for you on this. Better than I could come up with. But on the topic of school. I think you made the right choice for your situation. Having another person out there possibly getting exposed is not what you need. It will be one less thing to worry about. I think you have what it takes to face the challenges of homeschooling. You are smart, creative and focused. Don't worry so much about it. Just see yourself as a facilitator which is how many of us educators have been trained to be for our students. There are so many resources out there now it's incredible. Whatever you don't know, there Is someone that does. I'm sure you can also network with other parents for support and guidance. Don't go it alone. Keep in close touch with the teachers and ask for help when or if you need it. Just Offer grace because this is still fairly knew to educators as well.I will be rooting and praying for you.
Kelley, sweet heart I am so sorry to hear you have and are suffering so much. It is ok and fine for you to grieve that is the only way you will heal. I am a mother and you can be sure that both you parents loved you endlessly. You are a wonderful daughter who is now a wonderful mother. Stay as Beautiful as you are and God will guide you. God Bless you and we will overcome this awful situation. 😘😇🙏
I am so sorry....you can still talk to him, he hears you, and maybe he will give you a sign...
Can i just add a wee additional comment. Perhaps, like my Mum, your Dad was a Narcissist. Narcissists move on and when they get a second family, tend to ignore their first one. I tried my best to keep in touch with my Mum but she never even came to visit her grandkids but would send me pics of her step grankids, which hurt like hell. Perhaps it is the same with your Dad Kelly. Out of sight, out of mind is how a narcissist functions so if he didn't see you, unlike us normal people who would miss someone, they lack that ability and can literally put you out of their mind. You did your best to maintain contact, as did i and yip i too have no closure, no Mum saying i loved you, i am proud of you but Kelly the harsh fact is, even if alive, they wouldn't and deep down you know that and that hurts. We will never get the chance to hear them say it, explain why we were ignored, like you say, the door is closed and we are full of regrets and unanswered questions. Keep telling yourself that you would NEVER have gotten those answers. I'm so sorry Kelly ...you are loved by your family and hang onto that but i know as a loving Mum you will never understand why a parent can walk away. But like i said maybe he was personality disordered and couldn't help it and NOTHING you could've done, would have a different result. Big hugs from Scotland and be thinking of you and sending strength xxxxx
Thank you Kelly for opening up to us all. My condolences on your loss...May you get thru this sad and grieving process quickly. As I said in the beginning, thank you for opening up to us all...I cried with you, but it also let me know that I wasn't alone in feeling the way I have been lately bc of this pandemic. Your video kickstarted my strength back up to keep myself busy and my family as safe as I can...thank you
I am so sorry Kelly. You have had so much loss added to the stress of this pandemic. It's wonderful that you use crafting to work through your stress and grief, rather than abusing substances like so many others. The grief from losing my dad is what got me into gardening. Now so many people find joy in visiting my gardens, just like so many people enjoy crafting with you. Hugs to you.
My sincere condolences for your loss. I feel you have expressed what the entire world is feeling and going through right now and this magnitude of stress is unprecedented and overwhelming. We all need to be thankful for what we do have because there are so many who have less right now. You have a good support system and a healthy attitude. That right there is huge. Sending you love, light, strength and Big Hugs. xo
So so sorry for your loss and for everything you are going through, I am praying for you and your family. I love watching your videos so when this video popped up I stopped the video I was watching to tune into to yours that’s how much I love you and watching your videos. I feel like you are a part of my family. I laugh and cry with you.
Awww, HUGS! Y'all are gonna get through this! We just have to believe that this is just a season...a long season albeit. You all will come out, better & stronger. We have to just do what is necessary. Do not blame yourself for the choices your father made...it is a parental choice that he made. You all were adults. He probably had issues he never wanted you to know. He may have been protecting you from the issues by staying away. At any rate, I am so sorry for your feelings of loss & grief.
You are such a strong woman. You've been through so much. Praying for your healing heart. I don't even know you, but feel like I do, just by watching your videos. Sending you a giant hug and lifting you and your family up in prayer.
You can do this. I homeschooled over 20 years. Some days I learned right alongside my kids. Some days I felt like pulling my hair out. It created an awesome bond going through that with my kids. You are a great mom. I am sorry about your loss. I will be praying for y’all.
MAY GOD WRAP YOU IN THE COMFORT OF HIS ARMS. SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS AND THE SITUATION WITHIN YOUR FAMILY. PRAYERS
Sending prayers for comfort and stability during this time. It's rough, and I'm sure you are doing everything right to make it better for your family. Just remember - you are enough!
Kelly, I pray that the Lord will give you peace as you work thru the loss of your Dad, and that He will give you patience with yourself as you help your daughter with her on-line schooling. I also pray that the Lord will keep Jeff and Ray safe and bless your family with the strength, comfort, love and good health throughout this very trying time.
Thank you for the videos that you post! Watching them gives me a little more confidence to try different crafts that I would never have considered trying before I started watching them.
Kelly as I'm viewing this video my heart is melting to see you in tears, I do understand your pain as I lost both of my parents as well. Trust God threw the process. Praying your strength!!!
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Kelly thank you for sharing your story with us. I know God is with you through this journey and God is using your platform to help others that have been or are in a current situation. You have great strength! Kelly, God blessed you with another father that loved you unconditionally! god Bless you and we continue to pray for your husband and son as they are continually go out to protect others! Good luck with home schooling! Another adventure!! We look forward to watching you heal through your crafting! Take care of YOU!!! hugs & Blessings! Sandie
Kelly, I feel like my life has fallen apart as well. My Mother passed Christmas eve morning and it was just the 2 of us. None of my sisters even came to her funeral. My son was hit and killed by a drunk driver several years ago, he was my youngest and only 23 years old. There are so many people who care about you and love you. Hang in there. May God bless you and your family 👪
I am so sorry for your losses of your loved ones.
I am so sorry for your losses praying for you
You have been thought an enormous amount of heartbreak yourself. I lost a son when he was 10 months old and both my parents are gone. The family fractured when my mom passed and non of us are close anymore. I never thought that would happen but it did. My heart breaks for you and I am praying for you as I am typing this. If there wasn't a God I wouldn't be able to breath because of the heartbreak I (an I'm no alone in this) have suffered. You too hang in there and God bless you too.
Ginger: so sorry for your loss.
Lrd Gd of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob... send her your peace and heal her heart.
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Ruth Sills Amen!!
Oh, Kelly! So sorry for your struggles and losses. You are indeed a strong woman. Thank you for sharing your broken heart with us, so that we can pray for you. Lifting you up before the Throne of God that He will comfort you and protect you and your family. Love you.
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I'm so sorry for your losses. My dad died about 7 years ago. I miss him everyday. I still have my mom. She is almost 86. I just recently moved her into an assisted living facility near me. I visit her twice a week and talk to her on the phone twice a day. Keep your head up. We will get thru this.
Bless your heart. Don’t feel guilty for grieving your birth father. This year has been so hard for you and your family, but it will get better. I will continue to pray for you and your family. You’ll do great with school. Everything is in such a state of upheaval and I’m not sure the old “normal”will ever return. You will make it through as will I. You are an amazingly talented, strong woman. Don’t ever let others tell you how you should feel. They aren’t walking in your shoes. Continue to create. You bring joy to us all. 💜
I wish I would have seen your video months ago, but here are my thoughts that I wanted to share just in case they are still relevant to what you are going through...
I think when we have a complex relationship with someone who passes it complicates the grieving process. We not only grieve what “was” with that person, but we grieve what we needed the relationship to be, and now realize will never be. I know a similar pain 😔
If I may give a suggestion for a crafting keepsake…how about a keepsake memory box for the photos your step sister is sending, and to hold cathartic letters you could write to your biological dad as you go through the healing process?
Sending healing thoughts your way, Kelly. Let yourself feel what you need to feel, and give yourself lots of TLC💜
So sorry, kelly. I’m sending prayers. You have been through so much, just know you are not alone...we r all in this together... allow yourself time.
Dear precious Kelly, I'm so sorry for how things have gone for you. I'm going to talk to you as i would my own sister, or my daughter. Please remember that you did reach out to your daddy, he did know he was loved by you. As for him reaching out to you, we're not able to read another's heart. You aren't aware of what his intentions were, of what his little girl truly meant to him. Of how he probably had plans to see or visit you again. You don't know that while he probably had this intention he also never wanted those with him to be hurt. And remember that one day goes so quickly to the next, and before we know it too much time has passed. And please don't feel you have to explain to anyone, or even try to explain to anyone, what you are feeling about the loss of both your mom and dad. My parents are gone too. Between them I had 13 sets of aunts and uncles. One decade we lost about half of them and last year (8 years later) the rest were gone. There were 31 first cousins and now only 5 of us are left (and I'm not that old).We use to travel up and down the west coast every summer and all the families visited each other. The hole you mentioned about having but not quite understanding is the same one I've had. It's not just people we've lost, we've also lost our history. I have two wonderful, precious adult children, and as much as they mean to me, and that's a bunch, no one that comes after can take the place of those of our history. As far as on line schooling goes, my son is a teacher at a youth correctional facility. He was suggesting to a friend to hire a tutor for their kids. Perhaps that would be of benefit to your little one, and you. That way you can continue to the wonderful mom you are without wearing yet another hat of responsibility. Be kind to yourself sweetie, remember God is still in control, and you and your family shall be in my prayers. God bless you.
Stay strong honey this will all pass its hard to lose a parent and a sibling stay safe am praying for you and your family
I am so sorry for loss and your unanswered questions. You gave been through a lot in the last few years. So thankful and grateful for 1st responders. Your family is in my prayers.
Your courage is an inspiration to us all. Thank you so, so much for sharing your grief (and understanding). Grief is touching us all in theses days and we have limited outlets for reaching out. Creative and loving person, you are a light in this dark world 💕.
I recently lost my sister and am having such a hard time. My heart goes out to you for your losses. I’m in grief counseling because I really need it. My counselor recommended a book for me to read. It has helped me understand the process of grief. I’m the oldest of 4 and I lost my first little sister. I’m in my 60s and the pain is unmeasurable. You have my most heartfelt condolences. The title of the book is “Living Through Personal Crisis.” By Ann Kaiser Sterns Ph. D. This book deals with all great losses. What I’ve learned is that grief comes with any type of great loss. So, I just wanted to share information that is helping me. God bless you! 🙏🏾
I lost my sister and my dad. It’s been a few years now for each of them. I don’t cry so much but miss them everyday. My sister was my only sibling. Life is hard. We have to hang in there. Stay strong. My heart goes out to you! ❤️
I made "In memoriam" scrapbook pages for my Mom and one for my Dad when they passed away and it really helped. I added a few pictures to the pages and it makes me feel warm inside to look at them
Kelly I am so proud of you for sharing your pain and sadness as well as the situation that caused you & your father to be separated for so many years, you are real and human that is why I love watching your videos because you are great at it as well. Blessings, Peace, Love and Prayers. God Bless You & Your Family.
Kelly, thank you for sharing. You are helping so many of us by doing so. Prayers, love, and positive thoughts to you and your family.
Stay strong, the love that always exists between parents and kids healed all the wounds, whether spoken or not! As the child, no burden ever falls on you! Stay strong, we're all tired of being tired--completely normal!! This too shall pass, the Lord doesn't give us more than we can bear!!! Prayers to you and the ENTIRE family in y'all's time of loss!🙏🏾
Hi Kelly, as one who did traditional homeschooling of my two from kindergarten through 12th, I would not have traded it for anything in the world. Was it always easy, no way, but so worth having those years and being so much a part of their schooling lives. My son has a full time job and has received "employee of the month" twice and "employee of the year". My daughter is going into her fourth year of university. It's going to be different this coming year; she will still be going to stay at university and not at home. She is now making plans for veterinarian school and possibly the Army. Traditional homeschooling meant that I had to plan out all my kids curriculum, and everything. On-line schooling is different but very doable. I'm positive you will do a fantastic job in assisting her through this year. Take it one day at a time and before you know it, the end of the school year will be here again. YOU CAN DO THIS! Stay tough, you're stronger than you realize.
Same here.
So sorry you're going through so much right now. Grieving is part of the healing process. Seems to me you did love your dad so cherish those memories you do have. I too have lost both my parents and a sister I was so close to. It was hard. I pray for God to give you all the strength you need as our families still rely on us moms, grandmoms. I do admit crafting is my getaway and feel at peace. God bless you Kelly. Thank you for sharing your story and your awesome crafts. 🙏♥️
You are a sweet, kind hearted person and I’ve followed you for a while. I feel inspired to share with you that you must remember that you are never alone. Through my faith, I believe that a loving Father in Heaven has made it possible for you to see your father again. Please don’t think that the door is closed on that. You will have the chance for all to be made right. Your questions will all be answered. Don’t give up hope, Kelly.
Bless you for your transparency. Prayers for you as you work through the grieving process. Never forget you have a perfect Father who loves you unconditionally. Rest in His arms. Let Him bring you peace.
It’s okay to feel that way, like you said this was the person that made you and more than grieving him is grieving the unknown and the never getting answers and closure. My husband lost his biological father as well and had not spoken to him since the day his father closed the door on him and his family due to domestic violence and that was 19 years ago. My husband grieved his passing feeling guilt for having to feel that way towards a horrible person that did nothing but hurt him. Thought it’s not the same in your situation, your grieving is valid, it’s your own, and valid. We all grieve in our own way. Your not alone, sending much love to you and your family love 💕
I’m sorry for your husband’s loss...my husband, also, suffers from ‘bad memories’ of his childhood abuse with his father, he can’t seem to forget ...😞😞😞
Irma Gonzalez ......it is both unfortunate and fortunate the impact these awful moment life throws at them. They have definitely shaped my husband to drive to be the best father and husband his father never got to be. But also is over protective with us because there so many things that trigger him to think back to moment he lived through at the presence of his father. And the worst part of the dark moment is the resentment that comes with triggers and memories.
My heart just aches for you Kelly..I am soooo sorry..wish I could give you a big hug...I hope you have a special spiritual person to talk to..Talk to God ..He is with you and has his arms wrapped around your aching heart...Your father Loved you Kelly... He knows your heart talk to your dad ..in a quiet place or write him a letter...from your heart...I have experienced so much pain and grief ...not only from just a divorce...the ramifications of it now Im a grandmother..is absolutely horrible. painful .the fact you have family members still by your side You are So blessed..Stay close to our God Kelly hang in there Take one day at a time..God will get you through it...Trust and keep your Faith... Gods strength will get you through and make all of you stronger....God bless you sweetheart...pray hope and dont worry...
Big hugs to you too Joanne. So many of us have gone through heartache and Kelly's story brought some of the pain back but.... all the thoughts and comments directed at Kelly are helping me too. Kelly is very special, I only know her from her website but her kind heart shows through. Kelly just know we all feel your pain and we are all sending you virtual hugs. You too Joanne.
Well. This was a sad video.
Like it just hit differently. Lately I’ve been going through some real tough stuff and my emotions are just so crazy I legit can’t even cry properly anymore. And this video just got me right in the heart. THESE feelings are so normal and happen every day to some one. And I feel like there’s not a lot of talk about it, like on this level. And your video just really did that. It broke my heart, but also in a good way almost. Like I relate to you. And it’s okay that we’re sad about things and hurting and we’re hurting together. Big big hugs!!!!
Even though we’re not really together in person, we’re all in this together.
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Kelley I'm so sorry for your loss. It is natural to grieve because of a loss. We grieve for the loss of a loved one and what could have been. Praying that God grants you comfort and strength and for the continued health of your family.
Kelly, I just want to say thank you for sharing your feelings. I lost my Dad in March and my Mom last month, so I understand your grief and want to let you know that listening to you express how you felt helped me in my grief. God bless you and give you peace and comfort.
I can’t imagine the complex emotions you are trying to process. I hope you are able to find peace & contentment 💕
Kelly my heart breaks 💔 for you.I pray that you find some joy in your memories of your dad. May God bless you in the days to come and give you peace.
My mantra too “It’s temporary. It’s temporary. It’s temporary.” Blessings and hugs to you. This too shall pass🙏🏽
Feel your heartache. I'm certain the stress and strain of the Covid is adding to depths of your despair. Please turn to Faith in God to see you through the hardest times. Feel His arms around you since you cannot wrap yourself in your husband's comforting embrace.
You will handle online schooling just fine. Let Allie go at her own pace. No pressure. There are lots of resources you can use. You are not alone, count your blessings that you can be home with her. Hugs.
So sorry for your loss, Kelly. You are entitled to your grief. Relationships can be very tough on kids of divorced parents. And sometimes, parents have difficulty parenting and keeping their own hurt feelings about the divorce out of parenting their kids.May your memories of time spent years ago with your dad bring you peace and comfort. Take good care of you. 💜
I am keeping you and your family in my prayers. You have every right to grieve and share with your you tube family. It gives us the ability to pray for you and hopefully lift you up. Thank you for all of your tutorials.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.
Please grieve as much as you need to. My “dad” told me at 18 that he was not my dad. That my mom had been raped by her dentist. When I asked mom she said eye doctor. I never knew who my biological dad was. And “dad” was never a father to me. I lost my house 4 years ago and my dog was given away and all my belongings are stolen from the storage place. My fiancé was captured by the Taliban a month ago. I paid the ransom but now I know if they killed him or if they let him go in Nigeria. I am still grieving for my mom who left six years ago. You are strong. Do not think about what if’s. And pray. God knows. I still talk to mom everyday. At night when I go to sleep. God bless you.
Oh lord where on earth are u . That’s crazy just when we think we have it bad we find some else that’s wow wow I’ll pray for u
sharon keef I am in Cleveland, Ohio. Thank you very much
God will help you ! Give him the problem and when it’s in his hands he will guide you !
Be thankful for the time you had together !
I found out I was adopted when I was 53 , I’m 73 now for the past 20 years I lost my adopted parents, always wondered why I never heard from my biological parents ! I know your hurt ! We will find out when God wants us to ! God Bless you !🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Kelly ,
Please thank your husband and son for all they do ...Thank you for sharing your feelings. Life is rough these past few months..Please keep faith in the Lord he is our true protector and provider.
Keep your head up .Keeping your family in my prayers...Lots of hugs sending your way.
Kelly, he knows, your dad knows and he doesn't need you to rectify anything. Just love him as you knew him. He is in your cheering section. He loved you, I can tell. We do not diminish we return to our creator and become whole again. Those who have gone on before us are looking out for us and loving us unconditionally.
Reach out to the parents of Allie's friends to brainstorm together to help each other with the virtual schooling.
really good idea!
It’s a lot Kelly. Sometimes we need to slloooow down and breathe. Take a breath, self care. It will be ok. It will. School won’t be perfect this year it’s just day by day. Tired is definitely the word.
That's not your fault hun you where the child and he's still your dad you have a right to feel the way you do he's with god now looking down on you with love.I'm so sorry your feeling this way praying for you and your family,
I’m praying for you Kelly, I haven’t even met my biological dad, he knows about me and chose not
to make a effort to met me. He has a wife and other kids. About 18 years ago I had the opportunity to met my dads brother and his family and a cousin from my dads side they were the only ones who reached out and wanted to get to know me. There are a lot of unanswered questions I have but I know it’s something that is out of my control and all I can do is live in the now and keep moving forward with the people that want to be in my life. I can’t even imagine going through all you are going through, I hope things get better so we all can get to that normal but all we can do is take it one day at a time. Your a wonderful person and look forward to seeing your DIY’s and I’m so appreciative for you. 🙏❤️
I’m sorry. I’m 55 and my bio father has been denying me since before I was born. I wish you didn’t have to endure that pain.
Kelly my tears are flowing with yours. You described your cumulative daily stress now topped with grief of many kinds so eloquently. I admire your ability and willingness to be so vulnerable in a public setting. You are in my prayers. May God bless you and your family and fill you with his peace.
You are so amazing. Everyone grieves differently. Everything you are going through is making you a stronger person. You got this sweet lady. Thank you for sharing
It breaks my heart to hear how deep your sadness is about life right now. Put your faith in God, and know that he is sitting by your side. I too have questions that I will never know the answer from my Dad. The tears come when the thought of them come out of nowhere. It has been 10 years for me. Let the tears flow. You need to release when the thoughts take over.
My dad who raised me, Eddie, passed in June of 2019. My "real" dad lives in Thailand with his 4th wife I don't see or hear from him unless he needs something. That being said, I hope you can let the hurts from the past go. You were the child, he the adult. You could not have said or done anything to change what was. It just was. You are right that healing will start with that. In time you will have answers. I know it's hard to wait, because it will be beautiful and right. I send you love and light.
Your sister in grief, Tami
I’m so sorry for all of your loss. How horrible Kelly. Prayers. I know how you feel with your dad. My daughter doesn’t talk to me.i’m crying with you.
Same here just pray and try to forgive and forget I have a hard problem with that part God bless your soul
Kelly, I feel that you are a friend. You bring such joy and inspiration to me through your videos and vlogs. Wish I could give you a big hug. My heart and prayers are with you.
Kelly, you are so strong! I am so very sorry for your losses. You can rectify your relationship with your Dad whenever you want. I believe they are looking down on you. Talk to them, ask questions, yell at them if needed. They are all around you. I am not a religious person, it is just what I believe. We heard you today and saw your tears, so did your biological family. Sending love to you and big hugs.
God love you, honey! We were so concerned about covid, little did we know, my son, who is 36, has a wife and 3 young children, he has synovial sarcoma cancer of the heart and it has spread to his lungs. He is on chemo, they say it is rare and there is no cure. I say this, because he has been the healthy one. Now we are afraid to go anywhere, because we don’t want to bring any infections to him. Hold strong to your faith, that is what we are doing. The Lord will bring us all through our trials, and he is there now, carrying us! So sorry about your dad, my son is a stepdad to his oldest, who is an 11 year old boy. He doesn’t have contact with his biological dad. Since he was 2. I’m not sure how to help him. My grandson is going to do online school this year, because of his dad. So you hang in there dear, blessings to you and your family! Sorry this was so long.
I’m sorry for your loss. You’re in my prayers.
Blessings to you and your family.
Thank you for sharing your story, your stress, and your pain. I emphasize with you and understand your grief. I to, am a creator when I am grieving. It’s a weird way to handle things, but I’ve learned to embrace it.
You are such a strong person. Thank you for sharing such genuine emotions with us. I hope it helped you. I’m sure it helped a lot of your subscribers. Looking forward to your diys. I don’t do them, but I enjoy your clever productions. So sorry for these losses.
My dad passed away when I was 10 my mom hates me ever since he passed away. I don't have a step parents. I was a child that was throne away at the age of 10 years old.
Kelly, try coconut oil. That works wonders. Kelly, you know what helped me through the grieving process? Sit down and write a letter to your dad. I know it sounds crazy since he has passed, but write him asking him those unanswered questions and tell him everything that you felt growing up without him being there for you.
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This is the way military spouses feel everyday. I was a military wife for 14 years and also have a son that was in the military. It is a lot for sure. You can do this!! I see your strengths!
YOU ARE STRONG! You and yours are in my heart and prayers! Big hugs and peace to your soul.
Thank you for reaching out to us. You are not alone. You inspire so many of us, the least we can do is to be there for you to lean on, even if it’s virtually. Hang in there. This too shall pass.
Sorry for your loss. Prayers for you. You can't help how you feel. Of course you are right in grieving. I am glad that you had a man to call Dad that loves you and is not afraid to show it. My dad didn't care for me and he only wanted me around if he needed something. My heart goes out to you.