James and his father were officers in the British Army. At the time of the making of this video his father was dying of kidney failure (having already donated one himself) and no donor in sight. Following the release of the song a distant cousin came forward and he pulled through thankfully.
That was his dad in the video and the first time he had heard the song. They recorded it in one take and at the end everyone in the studio was crying except his father. He asked them why they were crying, that he was still there. His label wanted to do a full production but he said no. He wanted to be real, no auto tune, no cuts, nothing but him singing to his father. After this video was released a distant cousin came forward who was a match. His father got a transplant and is doing well. I cry every time I watch it so don't be sorry for showing emotions. I have seen men and women break down sobbing and have to stop recording in the middle in order to get themselves together before they could finish it.
@@Wherever56 i wasn't dissing the song, its message, or the folks listening to it. just wanted to give props to those -- the chorus, the sound mixers, the janitor -- behind the scene. i'm also a bit of a stickler for details. ☺
A year after losing my father I thought I was doing ok. Then I heard this song about and the emotional dam I had built up just broke. It was what I needed thank you James Blunt.
Lol yeah I finally cried after a year when I first heard this song a couple months ago I didn't cry the day my dad die or on his funeral but this song got me lol that asshole
@@josemadera3138 it took this song to help me as well. And my father passed in 1991, and Jose I reacted the same way as you but much longer before my emotional dam burst. It is very cathartic
@@GhostofSicklesleg yeah I suppose lol it was crazy till then I thought I was fine but this song just hit something when I was driving and I didn't even realize I was crying lol it's still uncomfortable if that makes sense
Holy crap. I've never heard this song. My dad died from cancer 7 years ago. I wish I had gotten to say goodbye but he didn't tell us he even had cancer. He didn't want to "burden" us, but the pain of not saying goodbye was worse than any pain of watching him due could have been.
Sorry to hear about your dad. My dad died in August from lung cancer. I hadn't spoken with him in years. I also didn't get to say goodbye. I found this poem right after his funeral. It really made me think about what could have been. Stay safe. I NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE I never got the chance to say I Love you, I never got the chance to say I'll miss you. Nobody told me that you were going to die, It hurts, I never said GOOD-BYE. Where are you now, please talk to me, Show yourself and let me see. I know that can't happen no matter how much I try, All I wanted to do is say GOOD-BYE. I hope that you are happy wherever you are, I have you in my heart no matter how far. To the heavens above, I wish I could fly, Only to give you a warm GOOD-BYE. I will remember you each day that I live, You were such a good person with so much to give. Such a privilege to have known you, no one can deny. I think it might be time to say GOOD-BYE. I will keep with me the good times that we shared, I want you to know just how much I really cared. Till we meet again, on God we must rely, I love you, I miss you, and for now, GOOD-BYE.
@@milissaleatherwood6837 I'm sorry for your loss an no comparison or competition my grandpa died on 9/11/2009 he's bday is May 25 so I have two months that suck an no nothing compares to your dad he's was the one that made u an stood by u
James dad was actually dying from kidney disease & this was his tribute & farewell to his dad. Thankfully his dad received a donor kidney & is doing okay now. If this song doesn't get to you emotionally, there is something wrong with you. This song resonates with me as I was my dad's caregiver for 5 years until he passed away 2 years ago.
It doesn't get to me because my father was a monster. When he died I was so angry with him and always will be even though I can say I have a measure of forgiveness...enough to keep me from dissolving into nothingness.
@@cynthiacharpentier662 My father was as well. The song still gets to me because I understand where it came from. I do not miss my father but will always love and miss my mother.
“Monsters” was a heartfelt tribute to his father. The emotional track reflects the deep bond between them and a touching farewell. In the music video for “Monsters,” James Blunt sings directly to the camera, his eyes welling up with tears...The video is so powerful because sitting beside James Blunt is his real-life dad, Colonel Charles Blount. who was a former cavalry officer, battling stage 4 chronic kidney disease. The song captures the raw emotions of facing mortality and saying the things one wants to say to a loved one before it’s too late 💗 I can never get through this, without crying..........
My darling mum (81) died two months ago today. She wasn't in the best of health but I never expected her to pass. I was in the next room. Went into see her and she'd gone.... I'd only been in an hour beforehand she was fine. She slipped away without any fuss, or drama just how she always wanted to go. After the emergency services went I sat next to her and held her arm. This song has become so precious to me. She was 3 months premature in 1939 so she didn't do bad living to 81. But the gap in my life she's left is so huge. I miss her every second of every day. Wonderful reaction xxx
I was right there with you, tears streaming down my face. My grandson lost his father when he was 14. His father did everything with him including coaching him in different sports. In our little community, we have an annual parents/coaches baseball game to raise funds for the ball diamond. His father always played. But during the last stages of his illness, he was unable to play. My grandson made a tee shirt with two stick figures labeled, Me and Dad. He wrote, "I'm playing for my dad." Needless to say, when he took the field, I and many others couldn't hold back the tears through our smiles. I think his dad was the proudest he had ever been of his son. I left out many details and names to keep it short. That young man is now with the 82nd Airborne and has just re-enlisted. Proud? You betcha!
A very powerful song for anyone, because we are all children of someone, and most of us parents to a child. It's never too late to say I'm sorry....never too late to say I made mistakes...never too late to say I forgive you. Take that first step.
You had a lifetime with your father. While I'm extremely jealous of that fact I think there's lots of mercy in the fact when people die young. My parents died when I was 11 and they died together so I never had to witness one missing the other. I also don't have to worry how they live in this bad world every day. Even the worst situations there's always a silver lining
There is so shame in being moved by this incredibly emotional song. While I had no relationship with my father, it translates just as well to the relationship I had with my grandfather. Many years have passed since he died, and I'd give anything to know if he is proud of who I've become.
Don't ever question if he was. I can't imagine as a father not being proud of my child. I lost my dad last year. This was tough right off the bat. He was proud of you.
This song brought me to my knees. My father's relationship with me when I was young was an abusive one. So much so that I spent many years not talking to him. My father spent the last years of his life living as a hermit in the woods of Maine. He was found outside his cabin months after his death. What was left of him at least. In our last conversation he tried to reach out to me to connect as father and son. I told him that I didn't think of him as my father. He replied "But I am your father!" I said "My father is six hundred feet tall and broke bones and walls and mothers. It's best for you that I don't think of you as my father. To me you are an older friend that I share a similar sense of humor with that I speak to once a year (if that) on father's day." Eerily similar to " I'm not your son, you're not my father. We're just two grown men saying goodbye. I knew his mistakes, he knew some of mine. I could not forgive or forget. He was my monster.
I have my father in my life. I moved down the road from my parents so I could have my family close to my best friend and my hero. I get to see and talk to him everyday and I know how incredibly lucky I am. I love you dad.
Thank you for playing it without breaks so that we could get its' full impact. It doesn't matter whether your dad or mum is dying. It's still relevant and loving. I'm so glad his father managed to get his transplant.
I lost both of my parents in 2022 at the age of 30, while trying to graduate from university. It changes you. Things that used to matter suddenly no longer do, and things you took for granted are suddenly now the most important. What I would not give to see them one more time, to talk to them, to see their smiles, to hug them one more time. I miss them both so much! ;(
I’m so very sorry. It’s a strange thing to encounter abrupt changes in life that totally change your perspective. It may seem like this will change you for the worse, and in some ways, it does when it accompanies that pain but also has a chance to help you grow in character and support for others that will encounter that same path. It doesn’t make it easier, it there will be opportunities for you to help others walk this difficult road. I’m sure both your parents would want you to embrace the future full force and would want you to be happy. It may not feel like it right now since you’re younger, but our lives here are fleeting. It won’t be long before you will get to see them again. It will feel like waking from the longest dream. Blessings my friend.
You mentioned James Blunt monsters in Eminem's "When im gone" video and I havent heard this song before and oh my god did this hit me like a semi-truck.
This song breaks me every single time I hear it. I CAN NOT keep from bawling like a baby, no matter where or when. And I'm lucky enough to still have both my parents. I can't even imagine how hard this hits when you've actually lost a parent. Your reaction was beautiful, strong, emotional, honest. All my love to you! ❤️
I usually don’t watch reviews of songs… but I have watched reviews on this song …. And it has left each reviewer breathless and almost without words. James blunts distant cousin was a match and gave blunt senior a kidney… back in 2020… and from what I know blunt sr is doing well!!!!!!!! Your emotions are welcoming and endearing. Thank you.
Yes. Thank you for resisting the urge to pause. I know how difficult that was to do. I've watch dozens of reactions to this particular song and I've found mainly the males pause it to regroup themselves from showing their full emotions and I prefer authentic reactions, especially in the case of this song so I personally felt your reaction was 100% authentic and I also DO understand how difficult that this is and I find anyone who can do it even if a million people or 2 people are watching it and you want to show your full authentic reaction is very important to me. So thank you for doing just that. ❤♥️
In 2004, James Blunt wrote and sang 'You're Beautiful' which I LOVE until now. I've never heard of this 'Monsters' until I'm watching it on this reaction video. Oh wow, I can see the pain and the anger on James Blunt's eyes as soon as he started singing. I couldn't help but teared up as I could feel his pain. Wow, the emotion on his face is so raw.
Thanks for your reaction to a difficult song. I lost my mom the beginning of the pandemic and this one has me in tears every time. So sorry about your dad.
Thank you for being real with your emotions. Such a powerful song. There is so little out there for this specific heartbreaking yet inevitable situation of losing a parent.
A great song and a great reaction. When they recorded this both James and all the staff was crying. The producers wanted to fix James shivver in his voice with autotune and he said Dont you dare. He wanted this amazing version💛
My father passed away in 2013 .. eight years and this song brings the tears like the day he left me .. There is a special bond between father and son .. If you have lost your father then my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you now and forever ..
I'm a 45 year old otr truck driver and I bawl every time I watch this video or someone react to it. I still have both of my parents, but I dread the day this happens to me. Thank you for your real reaction, it's refreshing and moving.
Me looking for Moondog in the comments 0.0, overall I just want to say that I love your videos, they´re so genuine and emotional damaging haha. Discovered u a few years ago but came back just because you´re fantastic!
Thank you for your honest reaction! We are many who needs thus kind of reaction nowadays, just to show that we aren't alone witholding this kind of pain and the feeling of missing a person, albeit a father, a mother or an another kind of a rolemodel in our lives!
Yes, this is a good one! Hits you in the heart & you can't help but be emotional! Thank you for not editing that out. My father had Stage 4 prostate cancer & underwent chemo in late 2020. He finished right around Christmas. New Year's 2021 he was given a good report by his Dr. that the treatment had drastically reduced the cancer & he had a positive prognosis of at least 5 more yrs with us. 2-3 weeks later he started having pain in his side & back & became wheelchair-bound. After ER & dr. visits he was hospitalized & it was found the cancer had metastasized into small cell carcinoma & invaded his lungs, bones & and all organs. We lost him on Feb. 18, 2021. Here I am a year later, first hearing this song and I sobbed my heart out because it describes those last couple of days with him. I love your reaction. Stay real! 💓
Thank you so much for your comments. I’m so so sorry to hear about what you had to go through. I lost my father back in 2019 and now my father-in-law which is 91 years old was just taken to a board and care facility. I think he’s going through the dying process as he’s lost like 15 pounds in a week and weighs 140 pounds now. He has a hard time eating so I know that I’m probably gonna be losing him as well in the next few weeks. It could be hard but it’s also kind of healing to talk about it like you have. Blessings to you my friend.
I love this song, and have watched many reactions to it. Yours has to be one of the most honest I have seen. Someone would have to have a heart of stone not to react. Such raw emotion. Thank you.
Anyone who has lost a parent feels this in their soul. It really doesn't matter in the end the mistakes we make it's still your parent. The role reversal is so true. Love this song.
Hi larryshair, This is my first time listening to your channel.... I subscribed . Well I have been a James Blunt fan since his release of "Your Beautiful" in 2004 . I have loved all his songs so much. Thank you for your warm and thoughtful reaction and comments for "Monsters"..... my dad died when I was 25 and this is the first song that I have heard that explains how I feel about my dad . I am sorry for your loss . Much appreciation for the work you put into your channel .
This is one of the most tear jerking tributes a person can do for a parent. I cry every time I hear this song because you can just feel his emotion in the words. James Blunt...Kudos to you for being able to sing such an emotional song about your dad!
This song is the great leveller. In all the reaction videos you see all the "showbiz" stripped away from the TH-camr. All thats left is the real person behind the bluster. Its not always pretty but its (almost) always real. You showed yourself to be a fine man. A fine human being. Thankyou for this upload.
I love this song. I wish I got to say goodbye to my father, he passed away 3 months ago. Me and my father had a really rocky relationship or whatever its called. My Mother and father divorced when I was like 2. Thanks to his problems with alcohol. He stuggled alot with it and it messed with our relationship. Lately he had been trying to get better and try to be around more. My brother and Sister hungout with him, but last 3-4 times i had said no. Found out after his death, that he knew he would pass away soon, and just wanted a little bit more time with us. Never take your loved ones for granted, because you never know when its the last time. ( sorry for long emotional text )
oh my god that is giving me chills and I'm crying already because its bringing up a lot of things in my life. great song and your reaction . sorry for what may be on your mind Larry. much love take care.
Came from the emotional Eminem video to this one based on what you said in the video. I'm ready this time with my tissues. This is what TH-cam is all about. Taking a risk with a recommended video and becoming a fan.
Phenomenal performance, heard it for the first time yesterday after your (When I’m gone) reaction, tears rolling down my cheeks, I suppose everyone will take a different interpretation of it depending on what’s going on in their lives right now but for me it’s clear. It’s not often you hear a song once that makes an impact like this.
Just heard this song now...TEARS r rolling here too.....every1 needs a GOOD CRY now n again....POWERFULL I lost my Dad at 12...I'm 50 now n have Son n Daughter.....man oh man....Great Song
This song was released a few months after I lost my Dad. My heart breaks again a little each time I listen to it. Such beautiful and moving words. Love to all those who have experienced loss. Grief is the price of love.
Oh my gosh!😭😭This was beautiful, a truly genuine honest and raw reaction❤️ Thank you so very much for this. I’m so sorry about your dad. I so wish I could jump through the screen and hug you! I’m sobbing too! My dad is very close to the end now
❤️❤️❤️ sorry for your loss😢 James is an incredible singer and emotional writer. He was scared for his Dad... and his tears and emotions, I think resonated with almost all of us! Heart wrenching. 🙏🏻
Brought tears to my eyes again... My Dad lost his battle with cancer in 2019. When the time drew near, his fear of dying became so great that I and my son had to sit by his bed with our hand on his chest. We were to wake him if he quit breathing.... In the end I had to chase his monsters away... I called a pastor whom was here in a short time. He was then at peace... I had chased the monsters away and he passed peacefully in his sleep. Very powerful song.
I have watched a number of people reacting to this, and for me there is one simple line that stands out and acts as a trigger, its almost a throw away line, amongst those that most people 'hear' I think it got you too, 'Time is gone'
I just recently have found you as you may know and i absolutly love your reactions. They make my evening. I cant thank you enough. Show your emotions as much as you can, that is what the world needs. It helps people like me with depression that i share the same emotions. Absolutly love it. I really, really thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Sometimes, looking at things from a different angle can really make you think. One time, I was sitting on my balcony, thinking about the tough times my family was going through. My 5-year-old son came up to me and asked, "Daddy, are you okay?" That question hit me hard. This song really speaks to me. Every now and then, we need situations where we feel humble and vulnerable to remind us that, as fathers, husbands, and men, we're also just humans.
What a beautiful song. This made me tear up 😭 Another powerful song (it is particularly a "man cry" song) is "Hurt" by Johnny Cash - I am sure a lot of people will agree 😌 Many thanks for your videos, all the way from little old Tasmania, Australia 🙌
Thank you. Oh my goodness. This song reminds me of when my mom passed away. She had a brain tumour and at the end, she needed complete care. We kept her at home and took care of her ourselves. On her last day, I left work early when I was told she wasn't doing well. I made it to her side and took her hand. I whispered in her ear, telling her I was there and I told her we'd be ok and that she can go if she needs to. As soon as I spoke those words, mom took 2 more breaths and passed away. My youngest grandson was the last baby she held. So much sadness and joy all mixed together. It was such an honour to be able to drop everything (except work) and just spend that time with my mom. She didn't get super weak until the Friday before the Monday that she passed away. We had 2 months from diagnosis until that day and I AM SO GRATEFUL. We spent hours talking and laughing together. Like James said, I knew the mistakes she'd made and she knew mine - but that wasn't the time for any of that. We just loved each other. Period. She's been gone just over 3 years now and I still choke back tears but I'm glad she's free from pain. I know she's happy and healed in Heaven and I'll see her again. Earthly good byes still hurt though. Thank you for playing this song. I'd never heard it before and I still wouldn't have if it wasn't for you reacting to it. Thank you.
Once again, Larry is the best! Love the true, authentic reaction my man. this song stings. I feel a underlying tone of making the best of what you have before it's too late.
Just a little aded info for you. James' record company wanted him to use 'Auto-Tune' but he refused because he wanted this recording to be 100% real and genuine and what we see is the first take. It was the first time James had sung this to his dad, who only recently had been diagnosed with stage 4 kidney failure. I don't know how James managed to hold himself together for this but we can all see how emotional he was by the tears in his eyes. It's all quite amazing.
You should check out both of Iam Tongi's versions of this song if you haven't already. He was last years American Idol winner. He performed this by himself in his Idol debut and sang it with James Blunt in the finals. It was one of the most touching things I have ever seen when he broke down singing it in the finals.
Hi Larry, beautiful song and beautiful reaction. As you, I lost my Mum in Febr 2020 and oldest Sister just one month later and my parents in law last two years, I had my share too. I think if you loose someone close then this song has another impact then if you are young and the world ist still unbroken. Getting older and facing losts you realize more in depth that we are all here just a short time and we should cherish our time togehter being thankfull for every moment. And hey pssssssst, thanks for sharing. Ronald, Switzerland ;)
I already knew this song, so I had to wait to watch your reaction until I had the right time as I knew I was going to cry all over again with you…no other option with this one. Truly heartfelt. ❤️🇬🇧
Larry, I stumbled onto your page on accident a few weeks back. I struggle with mental health issues and music is what usually brings me back to normalcy. When watching some of your reactions I feel grounded and at peace. Your genuine reactions bring out my vulnerability in a way that I can’t explain. Thank you again and I’ll shuffle you some ideas to listen to soon. Take care, Larry.
I’m in my early 40s with my dad in his early 70s and I had the same reaction (also a father to two girls 10/7) as you. Brilliant song that will make millions all over the world tear up to ball! 🥹😢 The American Idol Iam cover of it is amazing/sad too. They also did a duo that was sad/touching.
My dad and me did not know our mistakes or enough about each other. Too late now, hope other sons and dads hear this song and share more. Beautiful song! Beautiful reaction!
My mum too passed away at the onset of Covid lockdown - it wasn’t attributed to Covid, but like you I thought it was (at that time testing wasn’t so good). This song tore my heart in two. Sending you my virtual 🤗
Wonderful reaction to a gut-wrenching song!! Like others who have commented below, I too was the caregiver of both my parents who have passed. I wouldn’t trade it for anything, but the day you become the parent to your parent changes you forever…😪💔Love to all those who have gone through it, are going through it , and will be going through it….❤️🩹
So hearing this song/your reaction sent me down a rabbit hole. I just learned James Blunt saved us from WWlll.... and I just listened to a bunch of songs. The Greatest about the birth of his son..... I love this. Thank you for sharing.
I feel very lucky to be able to experience music passionately and let the emotions that come up go where they may. So happy you are one of the lucky ones! ❤️❤️
So good! My brother-in-law just lost his father to old age and dementia and I think this one is meant to go to him. Thanks for always keeping it real! ❤
Oh my gawd. I've never heard this song before and it is so beautiful and sad at the same time. I'm sure everyone is shedding a tear listening to this. I have no idea how he could hold his composure while singing it directly to his father.
I knew this would hit me terribly hard but I always watch these reactions because of the strength he showed in even making this. Though a donor was found and his father survived, it doesn't diminish the pain he was in. I lost my Dad in March of 2018 and I know how hard this hits especially when you have lost a parent. I'm terribly sorry about your Dad. Praying for you.
I work with grief clients and experience people's losses all the time, but when i hear this song it brings tears to my eye, bout my dad who died when I was 18 , and my bro who is a lot older and became my surrogate dad....thanks for the review Larry and I'll say it along with others, no probs in your reaction mate, you're amongst likeminded people. Best wishes from the UK, and it might already have been said but its his dad in the video, who was ill.
You don't have to be anyone but who you are. Your reaction was from the heart and this song resonated with many, many other people who lost a loved one, ( as well as those who didn't). I reacted much the same as you because I lost someone recently. If you are not moved by this song, you either can't relate from personal loss, or you have no heart. Depends on what life has thrown at you.
i still find it hard to listen to this. After losing my dad a little over a year ago its hits so close to home. Still, crying is good sometimes. Thanks for the reaction.
Yeah, I just let my mom go a couple months ago, and yeah, this was a punch in the throat, she struggled with her demons till her final hours, I'm not a fan of his voice, but I'm drunk on the raw emotion and truth of his pain, I can still smell the room, and hear the equipment, and feel her hand in mine...
Wow, I'm so sorry, Ken. I lost my dad a few years back and my father in law a few months ago. Hang in there my friend. It can be really tough. You got this.
Hey Larry , welcome to the club , don’t matter if your 7ft or 3 ft tall, black , white , green purple whatever, if you have a soul this song tries it’s best to rip it straight out of your body , haven’t cried over anything for years , being the butch gentleman that I am ! But shit this got me , and my old dad is still with me ! blessings from across the pond.👍🏴
'You're Beautiful' is his most famous & the video has an amazing ending. All his songs range from sad to happy. A real talent & one of the funniest interviews out there.
I just found your channel today and I just wanted to say that you are so amazing! You remind me of my own Dad who is the best man ever. I loved watching you. Thanks so much
Nothing but respect for your honest reaction. I discovered this song not long before you did, and more than a decade since I'd lost my father. Such a powerful song, and it hits me hard every time. Thanks for reacting to it, and I'm sorry for the loss of your father.
James and his father were officers in the British Army. At the time of the making of this video his father was dying of kidney failure (having already donated one himself) and no donor in sight. Following the release of the song a distant cousin came forward and he pulled through thankfully.
This makes me so happy to hear!
Monsters it right song when you see the meeting you understand it’s very emotional moving
Thank you so much for sharing that!!
thats effing intense
Thank you for the deets. I'm so glad he didn't loose his father. What a gift and tribute this song was to his dad. ❤️❤️❤️
Real man with the real emotions. Bravo
That was his dad in the video and the first time he had heard the song. They recorded it in one take and at the end everyone in the studio was crying except his father. He asked them why they were crying, that he was still there. His label wanted to do a full production but he said no. He wanted to be real, no auto tune, no cuts, nothing but him singing to his father. After this video was released a distant cousin came forward who was a match. His father got a transplant and is doing well. I cry every time I watch it so don't be sorry for showing emotions. I have seen men and women break down sobbing and have to stop recording in the middle in order to get themselves together before they could finish it.
there WAS some post-production -- they laid voices over a few lines, starting with the second repetition of the chorus.
James Blunt said himself it took 5 takes
@@Wherever56 i wasn't dissing the song, its message, or the folks listening to it. just wanted to give props to those -- the chorus, the sound mixers, the janitor -- behind the scene. i'm also a bit of a stickler for details. ☺
@@Wherever56 same. 😜
@@kimbunchalastnames5357 Y'all do know that the song first comes out before the video is done. Right?
"it's my turn, to chase the Monsters away!"
So so powerful lyrics!!
That's the line that gets me.
Amen ❤
Especially with James' voice, he transmit raw emotion with it
I managed to hold it together by the skin of my teeth. That was the coup de grâce.
As a son in early 40s with dad in early 70s and dad of two kids 10/7 agree 100%. This was such a tearjerker.
A year after losing my father I thought I was doing ok. Then I heard this song about and the emotional dam I had built up just broke. It was what I needed thank you James Blunt.
So sorry to hear about your dad.
Lol yeah I finally cried after a year when I first heard this song a couple months ago I didn't cry the day my dad die or on his funeral but this song got me lol that asshole
I get it x
@@josemadera3138 it took this song to help me as well. And my father passed in 1991, and Jose I reacted the same way as you but much longer before my emotional dam burst. It is very cathartic
@@GhostofSicklesleg yeah I suppose lol it was crazy till then I thought I was fine but this song just hit something when I was driving and I didn't even realize I was crying lol it's still uncomfortable if that makes sense
Holy crap. I've never heard this song. My dad died from cancer 7 years ago. I wish I had gotten to say goodbye but he didn't tell us he even had cancer. He didn't want to "burden" us, but the pain of not saying goodbye was worse than any pain of watching him due could have been.
So sorry to hear about your dad 😥
Sorry to hear about your dad. My dad died in August from lung cancer. I hadn't spoken with him in years. I also didn't get to say goodbye. I found this poem right after his funeral. It really made me think about what could have been. Stay safe.
I NEVER SAID
GOOD-BYE
I never got the chance to say I Love you,
I never got the chance to say I'll miss you.
Nobody told me that you were going to die,
It hurts, I never said GOOD-BYE.
Where are you now, please talk to me,
Show yourself and let me see.
I know that can't happen no matter how much I try,
All I wanted to do is say GOOD-BYE.
I hope that you are happy wherever you are,
I have you in my heart no matter how far.
To the heavens above, I wish I could fly,
Only to give you a warm GOOD-BYE.
I will remember you each day that I live,
You were such a good person with so much to give.
Such a privilege to have known you, no one can deny.
I think it might be time to say GOOD-BYE.
I will keep with me the good times that we shared,
I want you to know just how much I really cared.
Till we meet again, on God we must rely,
I love you, I miss you, and for now, GOOD-BYE.
I know how to u feel I never got to say goodbye to my grandpa who passed in 2009 from lung cancer
@@blade12385 the anniversary of my dad's passing is on the 23rd. His birthday was the 10th + father's day... June fucking sucks.
@@milissaleatherwood6837 I'm sorry for your loss an no comparison or competition my grandpa died on 9/11/2009 he's bday is May 25 so I have two months that suck an no nothing compares to your dad he's was the one that made u an stood by u
James dad was actually dying from kidney disease & this was his tribute & farewell to his dad. Thankfully his dad received a donor kidney & is doing okay now. If this song doesn't get to you emotionally, there is something wrong with you. This song resonates with me as I was my dad's caregiver for 5 years until he passed away 2 years ago.
It doesn't get to me because my father was a monster. When he died I was so angry with him and always will be even though I can say I have a measure of forgiveness...enough to keep me from dissolving into nothingness.
@@cynthiacharpentier662 Forgiveness is a powerful thing and so worth it.
@@cynthiacharpentier662 My father was as well. The song still gets to me because I understand where it came from. I do not miss my father but will always love and miss my mother.
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I enjoyed your reaction. You should check out some of James Blunts older songs. They are amazing.
“Monsters” was a heartfelt tribute to his father. The emotional track reflects the deep bond between them and a touching farewell. In the music video for “Monsters,” James Blunt sings directly to the camera, his eyes welling up with tears...The video is so powerful because sitting beside James Blunt is his real-life dad, Colonel Charles Blount. who was a former cavalry officer, battling stage 4 chronic kidney disease. The song captures the raw emotions of facing mortality and saying the things one wants to say to a loved one before it’s too late 💗 I can never get through this, without crying..........
My darling mum (81) died two months ago today. She wasn't in the best of health but I never expected her to pass. I was in the next room. Went into see her and she'd gone.... I'd only been in an hour beforehand she was fine. She slipped away without any fuss, or drama just how she always wanted to go. After the emergency services went I sat next to her and held her arm. This song has become so precious to me. She was 3 months premature in 1939 so she didn't do bad living to 81. But the gap in my life she's left is so huge. I miss her every second of every day. Wonderful reaction xxx
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom, Claire. ***Sending hugs***
I was right there with you, tears streaming down my face. My grandson lost his father when he was 14. His father did everything with him including coaching him in different sports. In our little community, we have an annual parents/coaches baseball game to raise funds for the ball diamond. His father always played. But during the last stages of his illness, he was unable to play. My grandson made a tee shirt with two stick figures labeled, Me and Dad. He wrote, "I'm playing for my dad." Needless to say, when he took the field, I and many others couldn't hold back the tears through our smiles. I think his dad was the proudest he had ever been of his son. I left out many details and names to keep it short. That young man is now with the 82nd Airborne and has just re-enlisted. Proud? You betcha!
A very powerful song for anyone, because we are all children of someone, and most of us parents to a child. It's never too late to say I'm sorry....never too late to say I made mistakes...never too late to say I forgive you. Take that first step.
Currently taking care of my 91 yr old father.
This ripped me apart!!
Never knew eyes could sweat this much
THANK YOU!!!!
People like you show us younger people the right path sir.
You had a lifetime with your father. While I'm extremely jealous of that fact I think there's lots of mercy in the fact when people die young. My parents died when I was 11 and they died together so I never had to witness one missing the other. I also don't have to worry how they live in this bad world every day. Even the worst situations there's always a silver lining
There is so shame in being moved by this incredibly emotional song. While I had no relationship with my father, it translates just as well to the relationship I had with my grandfather. Many years have passed since he died, and I'd give anything to know if he is proud of who I've become.
I'm sure he's proud!
Don't ever question if he was. I can't imagine as a father not being proud of my child. I lost my dad last year. This was tough right off the bat. He was proud of you.
No worries, I'm crying too. I've never heard this song, WOW..... My father and husband are both gone now so this song hits pretty hard. Beautiful ❤️
Don’t be sorry. I loved your genuine reaction. This song touches souls and has made many men cry. Respect ❤
It's amazing how 45 seconds into a song, it can bring a grown man to tears. Music is so powerful
This song brought me to my knees. My father's relationship with me when I was young was an abusive one. So much so that I spent many years not talking to him. My father spent the last years of his life living as a hermit in the woods of Maine. He was found outside his cabin months after his death. What was left of him at least. In our last conversation he tried to reach out to me to connect as father and son. I told him that I didn't think of him as my father. He replied "But I am your father!" I said "My father is six hundred feet tall and broke bones and walls and mothers. It's best for you that I don't think of you as my father. To me you are an older friend that I share a similar sense of humor with that I speak to once a year (if that) on father's day."
Eerily similar to " I'm not your son, you're not my father. We're just two grown men saying goodbye.
I knew his mistakes, he knew some of mine. I could not forgive or forget. He was my monster.
I have my father in my life. I moved down the road from my parents so I could have my family close to my best friend and my hero. I get to see and talk to him everyday and I know how incredibly lucky I am. I love you dad.
Thank you, I have never heard of James Blunt either. I would have never heard this song without you. Very beautiful.
'You're Beautiful' is also one song from Blunt you should listen to.
Same here. How powerful.
Thank you for playing it without breaks so that we could get its' full impact. It doesn't matter whether your dad or mum is dying. It's still relevant and loving. I'm so glad his father managed to get his transplant.
I lost both of my parents in 2022 at the age of 30, while trying to graduate from university. It changes you. Things that used to matter suddenly no longer do, and things you took for granted are suddenly now the most important. What I would not give to see them one more time, to talk to them, to see their smiles, to hug them one more time. I miss them both so much! ;(
I’m so very sorry. It’s a strange thing to encounter abrupt changes in life that totally change your perspective. It may seem like this will change you for the worse, and in some ways, it does when it accompanies that pain but also has a chance to help you grow in character and support for others that will encounter that same path. It doesn’t make it easier, it there will be opportunities for you to help others walk this difficult road. I’m sure both your parents would want you to embrace the future full force and would want you to be happy. It may not feel like it right now since you’re younger, but our lives here are fleeting. It won’t be long before you will get to see them again. It will feel like waking from the longest dream. Blessings my friend.
Sir, your reaction was exactly the same as mine, this leaves me in tears. Very highly emotional song, the way James delivers it, is just brilliant!
You mentioned James Blunt monsters in Eminem's "When im gone" video and I havent heard this song before and oh my god did this hit me like a semi-truck.
“I’ll be the last one
So I’ll leave a light on” has to be one of the best written lyric ever. So good
I think this is one of the best songs that has ever been written!!! It’s so beautiful and sad. I love James!!
This song breaks me every single time I hear it. I CAN NOT keep from bawling like a baby, no matter where or when. And I'm lucky enough to still have both my parents. I can't even imagine how hard this hits when you've actually lost a parent. Your reaction was beautiful, strong, emotional, honest. All my love to you! ❤️
Thank you so much for your kind words!
I usually don’t watch reviews of songs… but I have watched reviews on this song …. And it has left each reviewer breathless and almost without words.
James blunts distant cousin was a match and gave blunt senior a kidney… back in 2020… and from what I know blunt sr is doing well!!!!!!!!
Your emotions are welcoming and endearing. Thank you.
Yes. Thank you for resisting the urge to pause. I know how difficult that was to do. I've watch dozens of reactions to this particular song and I've found mainly the males pause it to regroup themselves from showing their full emotions and I prefer authentic reactions, especially in the case of this song so I personally felt your reaction was 100% authentic and I also DO understand how difficult that this is and I find anyone who can do it even if a million people or 2 people are watching it and you want to show your full authentic reaction is very important to me. So thank you for doing just that. ❤♥️
In 2004, James Blunt wrote and sang 'You're Beautiful' which I LOVE until now. I've never heard of this 'Monsters' until I'm watching it on this reaction video. Oh wow, I can see the pain and the anger on James Blunt's eyes as soon as he started singing. I couldn't help but teared up as I could feel his pain. Wow, the emotion on his face is so raw.
I never heard of this song until reactions/watching the reactions made the song even more emotional .
Me too
Thanks for your reaction to a difficult song. I lost my mom the beginning of the pandemic and this one has me in tears every time. So sorry about your dad.
Thanks so much!
Wow, my first time to hear this...thank you for sharing your first reaction. I am there with you. I feel it.
Thank you for being real with your emotions. Such a powerful song. There is so little out there for this specific heartbreaking yet inevitable situation of losing a parent.
A great song and a great reaction.
When they recorded this both James and all the staff was crying. The producers wanted to fix James shivver in his voice with autotune and he said Dont you dare. He wanted this amazing version💛
I’ve watched a few reactions to this video and I’m yet to see a dry eye. Great song and it gets me every time.
this is the one song that kicks in to any men. its about our dads, us and how we are, no matter what.........♥
My father passed away in 2013 .. eight years and this song brings the tears like the day he left me .. There is a special bond between father and son .. If you have lost your father then my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you now and forever ..
Agreed. I lost my father 2 years ago and this one brought it home. Blessings my friend.
I know my reply is late, but never apologise for showing emotions, this songs get everyone.
I’ve watched this a lot and still tear up!
Thank you for sharing your time with us. ☮️
Respect to u for putting this out. I cry as a baby every thing aswell
I'm a 45 year old otr truck driver and I bawl every time I watch this video or someone react to it. I still have both of my parents, but I dread the day this happens to me. Thank you for your real reaction, it's refreshing and moving.
Me looking for Moondog in the comments 0.0, overall I just want to say that I love your videos, they´re so genuine and emotional damaging haha. Discovered u a few years ago but came back just because you´re fantastic!
Thank you for your honest reaction! We are many who needs thus kind of reaction nowadays, just to show that we aren't alone witholding this kind of pain and the feeling of missing a person, albeit a father, a mother or an another kind of a rolemodel in our lives!
Yes, this is a good one! Hits you in the heart & you can't help but be emotional! Thank you for not editing that out. My father had Stage 4 prostate cancer & underwent chemo in late 2020. He finished right around Christmas. New Year's 2021 he was given a good report by his Dr. that the treatment had drastically reduced the cancer & he had a positive prognosis of at least 5 more yrs with us. 2-3 weeks later he started having pain in his side & back & became wheelchair-bound. After ER & dr. visits he was hospitalized & it was found the cancer had metastasized into small cell carcinoma & invaded his lungs, bones & and all organs. We lost him on Feb. 18, 2021. Here I am a year later, first hearing this song and I sobbed my heart out because it describes those last couple of days with him. I love your reaction. Stay real! 💓
Thank you so much for your comments. I’m so so sorry to hear about what you had to go through. I lost my father back in 2019 and now my father-in-law which is 91 years old was just taken to a board and care facility. I think he’s going through the dying process as he’s lost like 15 pounds in a week and weighs 140 pounds now. He has a hard time eating so I know that I’m probably gonna be losing him as well in the next few weeks. It could be hard but it’s also kind of healing to talk about it like you have. Blessings to you my friend.
I love this song, and have watched many reactions to it. Yours has to be one of the most honest I have seen. Someone would have to have a heart of stone not to react. Such raw emotion. Thank you.
Thank you so much, Jackie!
I knew you were going to cry. You have a big heart & you actually listen to the words.Great reactions
Anyone who has lost a parent feels this in their soul. It really doesn't matter in the end the mistakes we make it's still your parent. The role reversal is so true. Love this song.
Hi larryshair, This is my first time listening to your channel.... I subscribed . Well I have been a James Blunt fan since his release of "Your Beautiful" in 2004 . I have loved all his songs so much. Thank you for your warm and thoughtful reaction and comments for "Monsters"..... my dad died when I was 25 and this is the first song that I have heard that explains how I feel about my dad . I am sorry for your loss . Much appreciation for the work you put into your channel .
Thank you so much and I'm so sorry about your dad. Sounds like you were too young to lose him. So sorry. ***Hugs***
This is one of the most tear jerking tributes a person can do for a parent. I cry every time I hear this song because you can just feel his emotion in the words. James Blunt...Kudos to you for being able to sing such an emotional song about your dad!
Beautiful song. Beautiful, heartfelt reaction. Should come with a warning label...tissues required.
This song is the great leveller. In all the reaction videos you see all the "showbiz" stripped away from the TH-camr. All thats left is the real person behind the bluster. Its not always pretty but its (almost) always real. You showed yourself to be a fine man. A fine human being. Thankyou for this upload.
I was crying right there with you ....... I lost my mom in middle of covid ..but very thankful I got to be there with her and say goodbye
I love this song. I wish I got to say goodbye to my father, he passed away 3 months ago. Me and my father had a really rocky relationship or whatever its called. My Mother and father divorced when I was like 2. Thanks to his problems with alcohol. He stuggled alot with it and it messed with our relationship. Lately he had been trying to get better and try to be around more. My brother and Sister hungout with him, but last 3-4 times i had said no. Found out after his death, that he knew he would pass away soon, and just wanted a little bit more time with us. Never take your loved ones for granted, because you never know when its the last time. ( sorry for long emotional text )
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad.
Your post broke me. 😭
Thank you. Not sure I can manage anything else right now. ✌🏻🙏🏻
“carry you home” “no bravery” and “the girl that never was” by James are emotional masterclasses as well.
oh my god that is giving me chills and I'm crying already because its bringing up a lot of things in my life. great song and your reaction . sorry for what may be on your mind Larry. much love take care.
Came from the emotional Eminem video to this one based on what you said in the video. I'm ready this time with my tissues. This is what TH-cam is all about. Taking a risk with a recommended video and becoming a fan.
Phenomenal performance, heard it for the first time yesterday after your (When I’m gone) reaction, tears rolling down my cheeks, I suppose everyone will take a different interpretation of it depending on what’s going on in their lives right now but for me it’s clear.
It’s not often you hear a song once that makes an impact like this.
Just heard this song now...TEARS r rolling here too.....every1 needs a GOOD CRY now n again....POWERFULL I lost my Dad at 12...I'm 50 now n have Son n Daughter.....man oh man....Great Song
This song was released a few months after I lost my Dad. My heart breaks again a little each time I listen to it. Such beautiful and moving words. Love to all those who have experienced loss. Grief is the price of love.
Oh my gosh!😭😭This was beautiful, a truly genuine honest and raw reaction❤️ Thank you so very much for this. I’m so sorry about your dad. I so wish I could jump through the screen and hug you! I’m sobbing too! My dad is very close to the end now
Oh no. Praying for peace. I'm so sorry Sandra.
Never apologize for having the courage to share your vulnerability. More men need to embrace their sorrow 🇨🇦♥️🇨🇦
❤️❤️❤️ sorry for your loss😢 James is an incredible singer and emotional writer. He was scared for his Dad... and his tears and emotions, I think resonated with almost all of us!
Heart wrenching. 🙏🏻
Brought tears to my eyes again... My Dad lost his battle with cancer in 2019. When the time drew near, his fear of dying became so great that I and my son had to sit by his bed with our hand on his chest. We were to wake him if he quit breathing.... In the end I had to chase his monsters away... I called a pastor whom was here in a short time. He was then at peace... I had chased the monsters away and he passed peacefully in his sleep. Very powerful song.
Hi Kathy, so sorry to hear about your dad. It's so touching on how you ushered your dad to the finish line. So touching.
I have watched a number of people reacting to this, and for me there is one simple line that stands out and acts as a trigger, its almost a throw away line, amongst those that most people 'hear' I think it got you too, 'Time is gone'
I just recently have found you as you may know and i absolutly love your reactions. They make my evening. I cant thank you enough. Show your emotions as much as you can, that is what the world needs. It helps people like me with depression that i share the same emotions. Absolutly love it. I really, really thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Wow, thanks so very much JN!!!
Sometimes, looking at things from a different angle can really make you think. One time, I was sitting on my balcony, thinking about the tough times my family was going through. My 5-year-old son came up to me and asked, "Daddy, are you okay?" That question hit me hard. This song really speaks to me.
Every now and then, we need situations where we feel humble and vulnerable to remind us that, as fathers, husbands, and men, we're also just humans.
What a beautiful song. This made me tear up 😭
Another powerful song (it is particularly a "man cry" song) is "Hurt" by Johnny Cash - I am sure a lot of people will agree 😌
Many thanks for your videos, all the way from little old Tasmania, Australia 🙌
Thank you. Oh my goodness. This song reminds me of when my mom passed away. She had a brain tumour and at the end, she needed complete care. We kept her at home and took care of her ourselves. On her last day, I left work early when I was told she wasn't doing well. I made it to her side and took her hand. I whispered in her ear, telling her I was there and I told her we'd be ok and that she can go if she needs to. As soon as I spoke those words, mom took 2 more breaths and passed away. My youngest grandson was the last baby she held. So much sadness and joy all mixed together. It was such an honour to be able to drop everything (except work) and just spend that time with my mom. She didn't get super weak until the Friday before the Monday that she passed away. We had 2 months from diagnosis until that day and I AM SO GRATEFUL. We spent hours talking and laughing together. Like James said, I knew the mistakes she'd made and she knew mine - but that wasn't the time for any of that. We just loved each other. Period. She's been gone just over 3 years now and I still choke back tears but I'm glad she's free from pain. I know she's happy and healed in Heaven and I'll see her again. Earthly good byes still hurt though. Thank you for playing this song. I'd never heard it before and I still wouldn't have if it wasn't for you reacting to it. Thank you.
Once again, Larry is the best! Love the true, authentic reaction my man. this song stings. I feel a underlying tone of making the best of what you have before it's too late.
Thanks so much for your kind words!
Just a little aded info for you. James' record company wanted him to use 'Auto-Tune' but he refused because he wanted this recording to be 100% real and genuine and what we see is the first take. It was the first time James had sung this to his dad, who only recently had been diagnosed with stage 4 kidney failure. I don't know how James managed to hold himself together for this but we can all see how emotional he was by the tears in his eyes. It's all quite amazing.
Iv found the best channel iv ever seen someone to cry with lol james blunt hits different
powerful song.. gets me everytime. much love to anyone reading this.
so proud to me one of the reactors and at the same time Angel... we will support her all the way... nice reaction brother...
You should check out both of Iam Tongi's versions of this song if you haven't already. He was last years American Idol winner. He performed this by himself in his Idol debut and sang it with James Blunt in the finals. It was one of the most touching things I have ever seen when he broke down singing it in the finals.
James sings from the heart his experiences sad and happy.
Hi Larry, beautiful song and beautiful reaction. As you, I lost my Mum in Febr 2020 and oldest Sister just one month later and my parents in law last two years, I had my share too. I think if you loose someone close then this song has another impact then if you are young and the world ist still unbroken. Getting older and facing losts you realize more in depth that we are all here just a short time and we should cherish our time togehter being thankfull for every moment. And hey pssssssst, thanks for sharing. Ronald, Switzerland ;)
I already knew this song, so I had to wait to watch your reaction until I had the right time as I knew I was going to cry all over again with you…no other option with this one. Truly heartfelt. ❤️🇬🇧
Larry, I stumbled onto your page on accident a few weeks back. I struggle with mental health issues and music is what usually brings me back to normalcy. When watching some of your reactions I feel grounded and at peace. Your genuine reactions bring out my vulnerability in a way that I can’t explain. Thank you again and I’ll shuffle you some ideas to listen to soon. Take care, Larry.
Thanks so much, Jon. So sorry to hear about your struggles. Blessings to you my friend.
I’m in my early 40s with my dad in his early 70s and I had the same reaction (also a father to two girls 10/7) as you. Brilliant song that will make millions all over the world tear up to ball! 🥹😢
The American Idol Iam cover of it is amazing/sad too. They also did a duo that was sad/touching.
You’re human, I love the fact you feel and you show it. You’re most definitely no idiot !!! I’m balling crying too ❤️❤️❤️
Fathers are so important in life. If you're one be the best one you can...It will last longer than you will. I miss you dad
Well-said. Sorry for the loss of your dad. I'm betting he would want nothing more than for you to be happy.
My dad and me did not know our mistakes or enough about each other. Too late now, hope other sons and dads hear this song and share more. Beautiful song! Beautiful reaction!
My mum too passed away at the onset of Covid lockdown - it wasn’t attributed to Covid, but like you I thought it was (at that time testing wasn’t so good).
This song tore my heart in two.
Sending you my virtual 🤗
You too, Mary 🤗
Wonderful reaction to a gut-wrenching song!! Like others who have commented below, I too was the caregiver of both my parents who have passed. I wouldn’t trade it for anything, but the day you become the parent to your parent changes you forever…😪💔Love to all those who have gone through it, are going through it , and will be going through it….❤️🩹
So hearing this song/your reaction sent me down a rabbit hole. I just learned James Blunt saved us from WWlll.... and I just listened to a bunch of songs. The Greatest about the birth of his son..... I love this. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks so much!
I feel very lucky to be able to experience music passionately and let the emotions that come up go where they may. So happy you are one of the lucky ones! ❤️❤️
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So good! My brother-in-law just lost his father to old age and dementia and I think this one is meant to go to him. Thanks for always keeping it real! ❤
Oh my gawd. I've never heard this song before and it is so beautiful and sad at the same time. I'm sure everyone is shedding a tear listening to this. I have no idea how he could hold his composure while singing it directly to his father.
I knew this would hit me terribly hard but I always watch these reactions because of the strength he showed in even making this. Though a donor was found and his father survived, it doesn't diminish the pain he was in. I lost my Dad in March of 2018 and I know how hard this hits especially when you have lost a parent. I'm terribly sorry about your Dad. Praying for you.
You too, Amanda. So sorry to hear about your dad.
@@larryshair thank you
James Blunt is one of my most favourite singers he's amazing
I work with grief clients and experience people's losses all the time, but when i hear this song it brings tears to my eye, bout my dad who died when I was 18 , and my bro who is a lot older and became my surrogate dad....thanks for the review Larry and I'll say it along with others, no probs in your reaction mate, you're amongst likeminded people. Best wishes from the UK, and it might already have been said but its his dad in the video, who was ill.
You don't have to be anyone but who you are. Your reaction was from the heart and this song resonated with many, many other people who lost a loved one, ( as well as those who didn't). I reacted much the same as you because I lost someone recently. If you are not moved by this song, you either can't relate from personal loss, or you have no heart. Depends on what life has thrown at you.
i still find it hard to listen to this. After losing my dad a little over a year ago its hits so close to home. Still, crying is good sometimes. Thanks for the reaction.
Hang in there my friend.
@@larryshair appreciate that. Hope you're well.
I keep coming back to this your reaction is so raw I cry with you. You’re really the best ❤️
Yeah, I just let my mom go a couple months ago, and yeah, this was a punch in the throat, she struggled with her demons till her final hours, I'm not a fan of his voice, but I'm drunk on the raw emotion and truth of his pain, I can still smell the room, and hear the equipment, and feel her hand in mine...
Wow, I'm so sorry, Ken. I lost my dad a few years back and my father in law a few months ago. Hang in there my friend. It can be really tough. You got this.
Great reaction mate, probably the most emotional song I've heard and I think so many people can relate as I did.
Hey Larry , welcome to the club , don’t matter if your 7ft or 3 ft tall, black , white , green purple whatever, if you have a soul this song tries it’s best to rip it straight out of your body , haven’t cried over anything for years , being the butch gentleman that I am ! But shit this got me , and my old dad is still with me ! blessings from across the pond.👍🏴
'You're Beautiful' is his most famous & the video has an amazing ending. All his songs range from sad to happy. A real talent & one of the funniest interviews out there.
I just found your channel today and I just wanted to say that you are so amazing! You remind me of my own Dad who is the best man ever. I loved watching you. Thanks so much
Nothing but respect for your honest reaction. I discovered this song not long before you did, and more than a decade since I'd lost my father. Such a powerful song, and it hits me hard every time. Thanks for reacting to it, and I'm sorry for the loss of your father.