yessssss laziness. I was having a conversation with my friend the other day and she said one of the best (and hardest) things you can do for yourself, is to ask a friend to tell you honestly how they perceive you. oof. I told her I don't even need to ask, I know the truth is I have big dreams and big ambition but don't work very hard to get there. Then it was like, well no that I've said it out loud I can't ignore it. I've overhauled my life the last month and I have to say it's been GREAT. I love work, I don't know why I was so afraid of it (see: fear of rejection, failure, or being irrelevant).
I really appreciate these types of videos from you. It reminds me that you're a complex human, and it makes me feel less alone hearing a successful creative person struggle with the same things I do.
I really appreciate your honesty...I love videos like this because we get to see you - no script, or clever editing but just genuine you. This was great Jack, please never stop rambling.
This video is spot on. I have a mug that says "All I want to do is drink tea, create stuff, and sleep" and that's exactly how I feel. I am super, super motivated when it comes to filming/acting work, but give me a household task and I become lazier than a lazy susan on a lazy Sunday watching George Lazenby. Another great video Jack
i think having your main hobby as your job isn't necessarily a bad thing - if you live and breathe your aspiration then the success you want will find you as you've worked for it. At the end of the day, if making films, music, paintings or whatever is what you love to do, and you're fortunate enough to make it your everyday job, then what's the harm in just going for it? You would have spent most of your time trying to make it doing something you love - and nothing is more satisfying than that!
I wouldn't watch any channel if I didn't find something about it that was 'interesting'. With respect to your channel, I find your work engaging, clever and humorous whilst your 'ramblings' are coming from an intelligent and self-aware personality. I fully identify struggling with the perception of being interesting, my degree is very abstract, my interests are either very niche or talking about them sounds as if I'm boasting and I struggle to contain myself long enough to listen to others as I'm trying so hard to convince them I'm worth listening to. All I can say is that the self-awareness and intelligence within your presentation negates any potential monotony/disinterest. Those are just my ramblings, hope they're somehow relateable/helpful
I feel like a ramble every so often is good for the soul. It clears out all the nonsense that we feed ourselves and leaves us with a clean slate and a fresh perspective.
Maybe you're just "lazy" in comparison to popular standards of work productivity. Nowadays we're expected to value hard work above all else to an unrealistic degree. It's like, if you're not constantly exhausted and juggling 10 things at once you must be lazy.
+abundanceoferica true. you don't have to be exhausted your whole life, right? working is enough, you don't have to do it hard if you just want to enjoy your life, especially if you DO enjoy your life
I like this honesty, I get where you're coming from - especially with the uninteresting insecurity and the 'miss mash' thing. I liked the artsy anamorphic aspect ratio to balance the relatableness of the video too
Dear Jack,if you're worried about the fact thinking you're not interesting enough then stop ! because you ARE way too interesting and I can't stop looking at you because you got me possessed with your amazing charisma , truly. All the love from Bangladesh.
When you wash your shirts hang them up straight away on a hanger, the creases fall out while drying, won't prevent the need for ironing but will reduce a lot.
Don't stop rambling, Jack. Your honesty's lovely, and I can relate to your sentiments. I'm scared of being boring too, a lot of us are, but part of what makes us interesting is opening up rather than closing off.
This is actually so relatable for me. I go to college, do college work... And procrastinate. I don't feel like I have time for anything else, and also feel like I'm very lazy...
you gotta keep rambling Jack. I found my passion through procrastination and rambling and now I've been accepted to an arts school for culinary. Sometimes the only thing you can do is ramble because talking to someone, even if it is just a camera for a while, can help you find something that will form into a hobby, or just make you smile for a while, and sometimes that's really enough.
I found this really refreshing. I always and will always see you as a very intelligent, confident, funny and creative person. Even after this video I still think you're interesting because you have this 'youtube' life style and you've achieved and done so much that most of us viewers will never have the chance to do. It's kind of refreshing because it reminds me that I guess everyone has their own little doubts and insecurities and everyone may think "the grass is always greener'. It's just refreshing to hear words like this come from someone I aspire to be.
It's refreshing to hear someone being so candid. I doubt there can be a comment that will offer you any value that you won't have already thought but there is immense value in vocalising so I hope you find some comfort in having done it. These are thoughts we all have but as disconcerting as they can be, when we stop questions ourselves is when we should be worried.
to be honest i really appreciate those kind of videos, the 'sit-down-just-talking' ones. Because even though you 'just' get your thoughts out (which maybe seem random and uninteresting to you), they make me feel (kind of) relieved in a way that I am not the only one "struggling" with life and 'ordinary' things. I don't know how to express it better but i just wanted to leave a "thank you" for being honest and just for being 'you'.
Don't worry so much about everything. If you only like talking about films and creative projects than find other people that like talking about that too. Just do what you want. Sounds like you are worried that you aren't doing stuff you think you should probably be doing instead of just doing stuff you want. It sounds like you are trying to structure your life around what other people will think about you when they read your bio.
As a creator I think you never have to define yourself, because creativity is such a wide spectrum of ideas that you can't really just fall into one category. And laziness, I think that's something that everyone battles with at least once in their life, but I also am a chronic lazy person. But I think the main thing that comes out of this video for me is that if you don't feel a connection to vlogging, don't feel like you have to do it. You have your own creative mind, and you should do what you want with it.
I get this, SO SO SO much! I'm a student who works part time and I constantly stress whether I'm going to have enough time to do everything. While also making time to do things I enjoy without feeling a sense of guilt why I'm doing them. I'm just a bit lazy, need to work on that. Especially on mornings where I don't have to be anywhere because I keep waking up ridiculously late.
I don't have much more to say than this: I felt this video in my core. Sometimes you get to a point in your life where apathy is taking over. You don't want to get out of bed, you think about how others perceive you more than you should, and you think of all the things you could be doing. Those are the times you need to look back and recognize what you have already done. That and/or find something else that brings you joy. For me it's swimming in the mornings and playing ukulele in the afternoon. creativity and self expression are out there. Just got to find the ways to unlock your hidden potential.
Being in college, I've noticed I don't really have any hobbies anymore besides doing school work, going to classes, and watching TH-cam and, well, that's just a sad sad life. It's good that you love what you do!
That bit about having something to pull you out of bed in the morning really got me. I feel like I haven't had anything to be excited about in a long time and it's awesome that you have that because it drives you. I think you really have to take that drive and make the best of it while it's there. Channel it into other aspects of your life. It takes so much effort to get up in the morning and the fact that there are stuff that removes the effort really represents what makes them special. Everything that feels like work is taken away from the them and it just because more fluid and easy. But yeah I guess life have its crevasses and heights and you just have to keep flowing through 'em
Life balance seems really impossible, and I think it's partly because the way we live now, a lot of people don't work 9-5, check out and then live their personal lives. Our work and social and personal schedules are all like a massive bowl of spaghetti now so it's hard to figure out when to do what.
i really adore the introspective quality to your most recent videos, you're one of the few youtubers that have acknowledged how long you've been here for and have talked about how long you've been a part of this community including all the weird shit that's gone down over the years) and so it's nice to see you change up your style and format to fit your new perspective and aesthetic choices
Thank you, Jack, for this video .The second you mentioned the fear of being uninteresting, I realized it's my biggest insecurity put into words. Thank you for 'rambling'. I really needed this today
Honestly Jack, being interesting is all about perception. The way I see it, being interesting is being able to show stuff anyone things you have made or talk about those things, being able to tell stories, being able to listen and provide your insight on someone elses opinion/s. There's so much to factor in but you don't have to be interesting all the time. The moments of not being interesting is a rest period. Through this window of your life like youtube and snapchat I think your life is interesting and I'm sure over 100k people who watch you think similar to that. Plus, these are my favourite types of vlogs because this is a video diary, a thought documentation and not scripted with slight improvisation. Winner winner
Actually what I miss from today's TH-cam is this simple rambling, when someone can turn on the video camera and just talk. Talk about their lives or ramble without any script. So I am very grateful for these little videos of yours, Jack. Thank you for your talking. :-)
Jack, don't worry about your job being your number one interest. That's the best you could hope for - so many people are unhappy with their jobs. You're privileged with loving your job SO MUCH, and it's amazing. We're proud of you for what you do.
It's great to hear you be truthful about this as many people can brush these feelings under a carpet and paint a perfect picture. My hope with TH-cam is that with this current feeling amongst creators of a disconnection to youtube as a whole, and an uncertainty of where their content is going, is that they will start to just create what makes them happy. TH-camrs far too often fall into the trap of making content just to please their audience rather than what creatively fulfils them or what they would like to make. Hopefully creators will begin to have the approach of 'You know what, i'm doing this for me'. Once again it's good to hear you talk.
Would you ever consider doing a colour grading talk through/tutorial? Or even just an overview of your editing set-up/workflow/space? I think a lot of your audience would find that interesting..
I really enjoyed this. Personally I find that watching just honest dialogue, even if its in half-formed rambling thoughts, where the creator is telling their truth or sharing their thoughts or giving insight to their life and struggles and joys..etc, gives me the most pleasure as a viewer. Like not that I don't also enjoy other stuff, but I really appreciate that authentic vulnerable conversation. Anyways I'd love to watch more ramblings.
I really like these past few videos - they've felt very authentic, and wonderfully relatable despite the fact that most of us having little to nothing in common with you. It's clear you don't really want to do "traditional" vlogging, if only because you're insecure about the stuff you talked about here. But if every once in a while you just use this as a sounding board for your thoughts? That sounds like it's good for you, and enjoyable for us.
This feels like a special video; it's personal and humanising. You don't create a barrier of superiority between yourself as a creator and your audience as consumers. Keep doing what you do, it's a testament to humanity and the thought processes we all go through when we want to succeed. I really appreciate this kind of context, just as much as your scripted videos and I doubt I am alone in this opinion :)
I actually love this type of video because I feel like I actually get to have a look in your brain instead of just seeing false smiles and it's refreshing. great video
Strange, I just walked into my room after a day of doing practically nothing, questioning my future and generally feeling down. I click on TH-cam to find Jack Howard uploaded another video, and as always it just generally makes me feel better. I spend my time making videos for TH-cam or looking forward to my next band practice. The future of a career, on the other hand, is something that I'm scared of, I have no idea what I want to do, i'm lazy because i have no motivation to get a soul crushing job, I don't want to work in finance and waste my life sat at a desk crunching numbers. I don't know what the future holds, maybe I shouldn't know. I should just focus on creating for TH-cam, doing what makes me happy.Thank's Jack, even if you didn't see this.
Jack, I find that creating is one of the hardest things because there are so many insecurities that come with it, which is what gets me. I struggle to create because of my need for it to be original or for it to be worth while. But every second I spend not creating eats at my being and makes me anxious to create more, to build more, to be original. And in those in between moments of not creating I find myself being lazy and being uncomfortable because of it, but laziness is what gives me motivation to be creative (strangely). An all around great creative guy is a good thing to be Jack, never assume it is uninteresting.
I'm kinda the same. I get out of bed in the morning mainly because I know that at some time in the day, I'm gonna make something. Whether it be art, writing or even making someone's day, that's why I get up. But I genuinely can't remember the last time I hoovered my floor or cleaned out my wardrobe or organised my art supplies. idk. I'm bad at finding that balance too I guess.
Certainly one of the most coherent rambles ever. Every creative person hits that weird sort of depressive moment where they are so flooded with thoughts that they don't even know which one to think first. It's like a person with too many things to do who wants to do them all and ends up doing none of them because he can't figure out which to do first. It was suggested to me once that it just means you need to focus on ONE thing, but if you do that it feels like all the other things are being neglected. Still it's the only sensible answer and the only solution for a creative mind is to set aside time to touch a few of those things, eventually one will become a bit more of a priority and be completed... then you can celebrate for a second before being swamped by the utter depression of knowing there are still a dozen other things you want to do.
These videos of yours inspire me even more than your creative ones and I feel like I can relate and use your advice and ideas to help myself through some struggles. Thank you.
Lazy has always been a tough topic for me, I've always seen myself as lazy and unmotivated but then I went to a therapist (not about being lazy about another thing) and she told me something that I think might help you. There is no such thing as been lazy, you may be scared or doubtful but not lazy. She said that there is a fear in your way of doing what you should be doing and calling yourself lazy is only cushioning your ego and not letting any improvement to be had on your way of life. That idea of being afraid and not lazy has stayed with me for awhile. I don't know if you connected with this at all, everyone is different and she is a therapist so ya know, everything is a deep problem, I hope this patch of negativity passes quickly for you Jack and you find new things to excite you every day!
Woah I get you so well! My biggest fear though is not that I'm not interesting enough, but "what if I'm not talented enough to create something", and the usual " what if my fantasy has limits and no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to jump over my head"
regarding your quick transition from university to career job, you mentioned that you were very intentional and worked hard to make sure that happened. do you think you could expound upon that? in what ways were you intentional to make sure that happened? you seem like a very hard working person; did that come naturally or did you have to train yourself to be focused? this year i've been making daily goals and making sure i'm spending time on things that are worthwhile. i want to continue this when i go to school. i would be very interested to hear your take on it.
Every person in the "arts" has a similar/the same problem. Your friends are all somehow involved in work, and when you take a step back you realise you've been living in a cocoon, and it worries you. You do nothing apart from your work, and understandably, this concerns you. So you take a break. But during this you begin to feel like a loser, and get stuck in a creative slump. And it takes SO much effort to get back on your feet You're not alone Jack. Everyone feels this way - maybe that's comforting in some way for you. Next time, you could make time every week or so, to force yourself to do something completely non-related to work. This could be really challenging, maybe even harder than work itself, since you seem to be a workaholic: but it's essential for your mental wellbeing. If you don't you'll just burn out. Hope you got something of use to you in all that rambling, if you even read this!
I like to make lists when I'm starting to feel boring. I write down everything that makes up who I am. "Casual bicycling in the summer, watching TH-cam vlogs, used to intricately paint my nails, marvel movies." It just makes me feel better that I am interesting when I think I'm starting to just be one thing:
Jack, one thing I have realized over the last few years is how few people actually have hobbies. Maybe it's because I have been around peers that have been in school for 16+ years, or maybe it's because some people don't strive to find out what their hobbies could be. I feel extremely lucky to have a couple hobbies I am passionate about, and who knows, maybe they will turn into job opportunities later. But I don't think you should feel insecure for thinking you don't have hobbies and therefore that makes you uninteresting.
I know this isn't really very much from a random person from the internet but I've always thought that you're incredibly interesting and I have since 2011 which has been the reason that has kept me subscribed for so long. Your opinions/views, even when you're just rambling to a camera, are always so well developed, fascinating and thought out, which is something that I have always loved about what you produce and I have subsequently grown so much respect and admiration for you. I always know for a fact that your videos will always fulfil what I'm expecting (for lack of a better word) and that is not something you can always rely on nowadays. So thank you lots Jack :)
All I do is draw. But I'm also lazy. The only thing I want to do is draw but sometimes I have no motivation to do it, and at those times I kind of feel like nothing :L like I will work consecutive solid days on a piece of Art if I have to but if there's no deadline it won't happen for a long time. And then I see these other artists who have sketchbooks full of drawings and it's almost a compulsive thing for them... Eeeughh how do they do it? I love doing nothing. I also kind of hate doing nothing... What am I talking about?
I definitely relate to the whole "having no hobbies because I do what I live for a job" even though I'm still in school so I really don't have the time to do what I love as a full time job. I'll say it straight off- I'm a huge orchestra nerd. I play the cello in three orchestras and take private lessons, which is something I'm so grateful for, but I have almost no time for anything else but school and taking a break and de stressing from these things. It definitely makes it hard to be a good conversationalist, because I don't do much. I go to school, come home, do homework, go to practices and rehearsals, go on the Internet, and go to sleep. Idk It's nice to know that other people feel this way
Nice to know that there are other people out there in the world who go through the same things. Been feeling pretty much the same thing for a while now.
This might sound odd, but I love it that you're so raw and honest in this video. It is a quality that I feel is being lost in some of my favorite TH-camrs lately, as they are getting bigger and bigger― which is such a shame, because that's the reason why I started watching them in the first place. I'm glad to see that you are still keeping it real.
just because your job is your hobby doesn't mean that you aren't interesting, it's like talking to an author and them saying that they are boring because they write stories about what they enjoy, you do the same thing but with videos. I watched the bbc livestream last night and enjoyed it a lot. I love it when you ramble because then I get to write these long paragraphs that you are most definitely not gonna read but idc. love ya jack.
I am literally so similar to you, it's not that I try to be lazy it's that I'm too stressed to do things and so I don't unless it's something I love and even then I worry about it
Clicked on this not expecting to relate to this as much as I do. I constantly think I'm uninteresting for the same reason as you. I used to tell people all I am is shopping and makeup because that's what I loved and now that is my job. Great to feel like I'm less alone now.
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+Just Dean i saw bras =_=
MY FAVOURITE PERSON
Next time you get asked that in a taxi
"I'm a rambler"
There you go. Sorted
+Holly Knight-Parfitt Perfect.
These existential crises are giving me life
at the expense of your life I guess hahah
Agreed!
+thatjoelmaguireguy not the nicest thing you could say
+thatjoelmaguireguy hey we have similar usernames
That is true, if somewhat ironic.
You'll always be interesting Jack :)
I freaking love u
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Yeah, there is a reason why I spent two entire days watching all of Jack's videos 🤘🏼
Oh hey dad
+MacDoesIt
1. Love your videos Mac!
2. Very true! We love you jack
yessssss laziness. I was having a conversation with my friend the other day and she said one of the best (and hardest) things you can do for yourself, is to ask a friend to tell you honestly how they perceive you. oof. I told her I don't even need to ask, I know the truth is I have big dreams and big ambition but don't work very hard to get there. Then it was like, well no that I've said it out loud I can't ignore it. I've overhauled my life the last month and I have to say it's been GREAT. I love work, I don't know why I was so afraid of it (see: fear of rejection, failure, or being irrelevant).
Wow. And I thought my ending to January was bad. We still haven't beaten Louise's pumpkin video though...
nothing can best Louise's pumpkin video
Count on Jack to make a random, unplanned, chatty video which still has phenomenal photography.
You could say.....a jack of all trades (I'm sorry)
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+Victoria Howarth how(ard) dare you
I hate this
Victoria you love to have a good comment on a Jack Howard video
+Victoria Howarth You're brilliant, Vic
I really appreciate these types of videos from you. It reminds me that you're a complex human, and it makes me feel less alone hearing a successful creative person struggle with the same things I do.
I really appreciate your honesty...I love videos like this because we get to see you - no script, or clever editing but just genuine you.
This was great Jack, please never stop rambling.
It's unreal how much I can relate to what you're saying
This video is spot on.
I have a mug that says "All I want to do is drink tea, create stuff, and sleep" and that's exactly how I feel.
I am super, super motivated when it comes to filming/acting work, but give me a household task and I become lazier than a lazy susan on a lazy Sunday watching George Lazenby.
Another great video Jack
Idk about the rest of your audience, but I really appreciate your honesty :)
Want you to know that I enjoyed this. This is still quality content in my opinion, even if it's "just" an improvised, honest chat
i think having your main hobby as your job isn't necessarily a bad thing - if you live and breathe your aspiration then the success you want will find you as you've worked for it. At the end of the day, if making films, music, paintings or whatever is what you love to do, and you're fortunate enough to make it your everyday job, then what's the harm in just going for it? You would have spent most of your time trying to make it doing something you love - and nothing is more satisfying than that!
I wouldn't watch any channel if I didn't find something about it that was 'interesting'. With respect to your channel, I find your work engaging, clever and humorous whilst your 'ramblings' are coming from an intelligent and self-aware personality. I fully identify struggling with the perception of being interesting, my degree is very abstract, my interests are either very niche or talking about them sounds as if I'm boasting and I struggle to contain myself long enough to listen to others as I'm trying so hard to convince them I'm worth listening to. All I can say is that the self-awareness and intelligence within your presentation negates any potential monotony/disinterest. Those are just my ramblings, hope they're somehow relateable/helpful
+Marcus Hunter wow i love how you articulated this. thank you for the ramblings :)
I feel like a ramble every so often is good for the soul. It clears out all the nonsense that we feed ourselves and leaves us with a clean slate and a fresh perspective.
this is exactly how i have been feeling in my head lately. i feel you bro
Maybe you're just "lazy" in comparison to popular standards of work productivity. Nowadays we're expected to value hard work above all else to an unrealistic degree. It's like, if you're not constantly exhausted and juggling 10 things at once you must be lazy.
+abundanceoferica true. you don't have to be exhausted your whole life, right? working is enough, you don't have to do it hard if you just want to enjoy your life, especially if you DO enjoy your life
Actually do not stop rambling Jack!
+HeyThereBImHope Yeah I kind of like these videos more.
Hey film kid, your film kid is showing.
Sincerely, another film kid.
I like this honesty, I get where you're coming from - especially with the uninteresting insecurity and the 'miss mash' thing. I liked the artsy anamorphic aspect ratio to balance the relatableness of the video too
i feel like being a patchwork of creativity is pretty great. you can do whatever you want and there's less routine in your life...
When people who "youtube" are authentic, that is when they are most interesting. Thank you for sharing.
Dear Jack,if you're worried about the fact thinking you're not interesting enough then stop ! because you ARE way too interesting and I can't stop looking at you because you got me possessed with your amazing charisma , truly. All the love from Bangladesh.
When you wash your shirts hang them up straight away on a hanger, the creases fall out while drying, won't prevent the need for ironing but will reduce a lot.
I really like seeing people being themselves in videos like these, not trying to be anything over-exaggerated. Just Jack being Jack.
I'm having some Charliesissocoollike flashbacks here
Don't stop rambling, Jack. Your honesty's lovely, and I can relate to your sentiments. I'm scared of being boring too, a lot of us are, but part of what makes us interesting is opening up rather than closing off.
I think a lot of these thoughts are normal for young adulthood, I don't do anything even remotely close to youtube, but I totally get this
This is actually so relatable for me. I go to college, do college work... And procrastinate. I don't feel like I have time for anything else, and also feel like I'm very lazy...
i like these types of videos yes i like them a lot
Its just a bit of an identity crisis. You'll get through it, I did.
you gotta keep rambling Jack. I found my passion through procrastination and rambling and now I've been accepted to an arts school for culinary. Sometimes the only thing you can do is ramble because talking to someone, even if it is just a camera for a while, can help you find something that will form into a hobby, or just make you smile for a while, and sometimes that's really enough.
I found this really refreshing. I always and will always see you as a very intelligent, confident, funny and creative person. Even after this video I still think you're interesting because you have this 'youtube' life style and you've achieved and done so much that most of us viewers will never have the chance to do. It's kind of refreshing because it reminds me that I guess everyone has their own little doubts and insecurities and everyone may think "the grass is always greener'. It's just refreshing to hear words like this come from someone I aspire to be.
It's refreshing to hear someone being so candid. I doubt there can be a comment that will offer you any value that you won't have already thought but there is immense value in vocalising so I hope you find some comfort in having done it. These are thoughts we all have but as disconcerting as they can be, when we stop questions ourselves is when we should be worried.
Ooo, a vlog in that cinematic aspect ratio. How nice 😂
this felt so real, i could see at moments you spoke fully from your deepest inner self. thats courageous.
It's all fine Jack :)
to be honest i really appreciate those kind of videos, the 'sit-down-just-talking' ones. Because even though you 'just' get your thoughts out (which maybe seem random and uninteresting to you), they make me feel (kind of) relieved in a way that I am not the only one "struggling" with life and 'ordinary' things. I don't know how to express it better but i just wanted to leave a "thank you" for being honest and just for being 'you'.
Don't worry so much about everything. If you only like talking about films and creative projects than find other people that like talking about that too. Just do what you want. Sounds like you are worried that you aren't doing stuff you think you should probably be doing instead of just doing stuff you want. It sounds like you are trying to structure your life around what other people will think about you when they read your bio.
As a creator I think you never have to define yourself, because creativity is such a wide spectrum of ideas that you can't really just fall into one category. And laziness, I think that's something that everyone battles with at least once in their life, but I also am a chronic lazy person. But I think the main thing that comes out of this video for me is that if you don't feel a connection to vlogging, don't feel like you have to do it. You have your own creative mind, and you should do what you want with it.
I relate to this sooooo much !
I get this, SO SO SO much! I'm a student who works part time and I constantly stress whether I'm going to have enough time to do everything. While also making time to do things I enjoy without feeling a sense of guilt why I'm doing them.
I'm just a bit lazy, need to work on that. Especially on mornings where I don't have to be anywhere because I keep waking up ridiculously late.
I really liked this ramble. Very relatable.
Guess who's back.. Jack is back back again.. Tell a friend
I don't have much more to say than this: I felt this video in my core. Sometimes you get to a point in your life where apathy is taking over. You don't want to get out of bed, you think about how others perceive you more than you should, and you think of all the things you could be doing. Those are the times you need to look back and recognize what you have already done. That and/or find something else that brings you joy. For me it's swimming in the mornings and playing ukulele in the afternoon. creativity and self expression are out there. Just got to find the ways to unlock your hidden potential.
Being in college, I've noticed I don't really have any hobbies anymore besides doing school work, going to classes, and watching TH-cam and, well, that's just a sad sad life. It's good that you love what you do!
honestly, i feel like many youtubers go through this. It's ok, the excitement will come back!
What you just described is EXACTLY how I'm feeling
That bit about having something to pull you out of bed in the morning really got me. I feel like I haven't had anything to be excited about in a long time and it's awesome that you have that because it drives you. I think you really have to take that drive and make the best of it while it's there. Channel it into other aspects of your life.
It takes so much effort to get up in the morning and the fact that there are stuff that removes the effort really represents what makes them special. Everything that feels like work is taken away from the them and it just because more fluid and easy.
But yeah I guess life have its crevasses and heights and you just have to keep flowing through 'em
Life balance seems really impossible, and I think it's partly because the way we live now, a lot of people don't work 9-5, check out and then live their personal lives. Our work and social and personal schedules are all like a massive bowl of spaghetti now so it's hard to figure out when to do what.
i really adore the introspective quality to your most recent videos, you're one of the few youtubers that have acknowledged how long you've been here for and have talked about how long you've been a part of this community including all the weird shit that's gone down over the years) and so it's nice to see you change up your style and format to fit your new perspective and aesthetic choices
Nice to have you just chatting here with us :)
Thank you, Jack, for this video .The second you mentioned the fear of being uninteresting, I realized it's my biggest insecurity put into words.
Thank you for 'rambling'. I really needed this today
I can relate to this so much
You got that David Fincher vibe going on in this one. I'm diggin' it.
Should have called this "I'm Relatable". :)
My biggest fear is people thinking I'm not funny or just generally good company.
Honestly Jack, being interesting is all about perception. The way I see it, being interesting is being able to show stuff anyone things you have made or talk about those things, being able to tell stories, being able to listen and provide your insight on someone elses opinion/s. There's so much to factor in but you don't have to be interesting all the time. The moments of not being interesting is a rest period. Through this window of your life like youtube and snapchat I think your life is interesting and I'm sure over 100k people who watch you think similar to that.
Plus, these are my favourite types of vlogs because this is a video diary, a thought documentation and not scripted with slight improvisation. Winner winner
Actually what I miss from today's TH-cam is this simple rambling, when someone can turn on the video camera and just talk. Talk about their lives or ramble without any script. So I am very grateful for these little videos of yours, Jack. Thank you for your talking. :-)
Jack, don't worry about your job being your number one interest. That's the best you could hope for - so many people are unhappy with their jobs. You're privileged with loving your job SO MUCH, and it's amazing. We're proud of you for what you do.
It's great to hear you be truthful about this as many people can brush these feelings under a carpet and paint a perfect picture. My hope with TH-cam is that with this current feeling amongst creators of a disconnection to youtube as a whole, and an uncertainty of where their content is going, is that they will start to just create what makes them happy. TH-camrs far too often fall into the trap of making content just to please their audience rather than what creatively fulfils them or what they would like to make. Hopefully creators will begin to have the approach of 'You know what, i'm doing this for me'. Once again it's good to hear you talk.
I relate too this pretty damn well...
I actually feel your pain. You deserve more recognition
Would you ever consider doing a colour grading talk through/tutorial? Or even just an overview of your editing set-up/workflow/space? I think a lot of your audience would find that interesting..
I really enjoyed this. Personally I find that watching just honest dialogue, even if its in half-formed rambling thoughts, where the creator is telling their truth or sharing their thoughts or giving insight to their life and struggles and joys..etc, gives me the most pleasure as a viewer. Like not that I don't also enjoy other stuff, but I really appreciate that authentic vulnerable conversation. Anyways I'd love to watch more ramblings.
I really like these past few videos - they've felt very authentic, and wonderfully relatable despite the fact that most of us having little to nothing in common with you. It's clear you don't really want to do "traditional" vlogging, if only because you're insecure about the stuff you talked about here. But if every once in a while you just use this as a sounding board for your thoughts? That sounds like it's good for you, and enjoyable for us.
How can people dislike this. This was beautiful. Saying out loud what is on your mind can be hard and easy, but it is extremely important.
This feels like a special video; it's personal and humanising. You don't create a barrier of superiority between yourself as a creator and your audience as consumers. Keep doing what you do, it's a testament to humanity and the thought processes we all go through when we want to succeed. I really appreciate this kind of context, just as much as your scripted videos and I doubt I am alone in this opinion :)
I actually love this type of video because I feel like I actually get to have a look in your brain instead of just seeing false smiles and it's refreshing. great video
i adore and appreciate your honesty Jack
Love your pic
Lily Steel yours is pretty damn cute tbh
wow, this is one of the issues that's been troubling me at the minute and it was amazing how good it felt to finally hear someone say it out loud.
Strange, I just walked into my room after a day of doing practically nothing, questioning my future and generally feeling down. I click on TH-cam to find Jack Howard uploaded another video, and as always it just generally makes me feel better. I spend my time making videos for TH-cam or looking forward to my next band practice. The future of a career, on the other hand, is something that I'm scared of, I have no idea what I want to do, i'm lazy because i have no motivation to get a soul crushing job, I don't want to work in finance and waste my life sat at a desk crunching numbers. I don't know what the future holds, maybe I shouldn't know. I should just focus on creating for TH-cam, doing what makes me happy.Thank's Jack, even if you didn't see this.
Jack, I find that creating is one of the hardest things because there are so many insecurities that come with it, which is what gets me. I struggle to create because of my need for it to be original or for it to be worth while. But every second I spend not creating eats at my being and makes me anxious to create more, to build more, to be original. And in those in between moments of not creating I find myself being lazy and being uncomfortable because of it, but laziness is what gives me motivation to be creative (strangely). An all around great creative guy is a good thing to be Jack, never assume it is uninteresting.
I'm kinda the same. I get out of bed in the morning mainly because I know that at some time in the day, I'm gonna make something. Whether it be art, writing or even making someone's day, that's why I get up. But I genuinely can't remember the last time I hoovered my floor or cleaned out my wardrobe or organised my art supplies. idk. I'm bad at finding that balance too I guess.
Certainly one of the most coherent rambles ever.
Every creative person hits that weird sort of depressive moment where they are so flooded with thoughts that they don't even know which one to think first. It's like a person with too many things to do who wants to do them all and ends up doing none of them because he can't figure out which to do first. It was suggested to me once that it just means you need to focus on ONE thing, but if you do that it feels like all the other things are being neglected. Still it's the only sensible answer and the only solution for a creative mind is to set aside time to touch a few of those things, eventually one will become a bit more of a priority and be completed... then you can celebrate for a second before being swamped by the utter depression of knowing there are still a dozen other things you want to do.
These videos of yours inspire me even more than your creative ones and I feel like I can relate and use your advice and ideas to help myself through some struggles. Thank you.
This is the most (for me) relatable video you've ever made. It's nice to know that other creatives have these worries. The balance is difficult.
Lazy has always been a tough topic for me, I've always seen myself as lazy and unmotivated but then I went to a therapist (not about being lazy about another thing) and she told me something that I think might help you. There is no such thing as been lazy, you may be scared or doubtful but not lazy. She said that there is a fear in your way of doing what you should be doing and calling yourself lazy is only cushioning your ego and not letting any improvement to be had on your way of life.
That idea of being afraid and not lazy has stayed with me for awhile.
I don't know if you connected with this at all, everyone is different and she is a therapist so ya know, everything is a deep problem, I hope this patch of negativity passes quickly for you Jack and you find new things to excite you every day!
I feel this. Especially the getting out of bed in the morning thing. I FEEL THIS.
Woah I get you so well!
My biggest fear though is not that I'm not interesting enough, but "what if I'm not talented enough to create something", and the usual " what if my fantasy has limits and no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to jump over my head"
regarding your quick transition from university to career job, you mentioned that you were very intentional and worked hard to make sure that happened. do you think you could expound upon that? in what ways were you intentional to make sure that happened?
you seem like a very hard working person; did that come naturally or did you have to train yourself to be focused? this year i've been making daily goals and making sure i'm spending time on things that are worthwhile. i want to continue this when i go to school. i would be very interested to hear your take on it.
Every person in the "arts" has a similar/the same problem. Your friends are all somehow involved in work, and when you take a step back you realise you've been living in a cocoon, and it worries you. You do nothing apart from your work, and understandably, this concerns you. So you take a break. But during this you begin to feel like a loser, and get stuck in a creative slump. And it takes SO much effort to get back on your feet You're not alone Jack. Everyone feels this way - maybe that's comforting in some way for you. Next time, you could make time every week or so, to force yourself to do something completely non-related to work. This could be really challenging, maybe even harder than work itself, since you seem to be a workaholic: but it's essential for your mental wellbeing. If you don't you'll just burn out.
Hope you got something of use to you in all that rambling, if you even read this!
+Danielle Mac this this this.
I like to make lists when I'm starting to feel boring. I write down everything that makes up who I am. "Casual bicycling in the summer, watching TH-cam vlogs, used to intricately paint my nails, marvel movies." It just makes me feel better that I am interesting when I think I'm starting to just be one thing:
Jesselyn Marie I like this idea, I may try it myself! :)
Jack, one thing I have realized over the last few years is how few people actually have hobbies. Maybe it's because I have been around peers that have been in school for 16+ years, or maybe it's because some people don't strive to find out what their hobbies could be. I feel extremely lucky to have a couple hobbies I am passionate about, and who knows, maybe they will turn into job opportunities later. But I don't think you should feel insecure for thinking you don't have hobbies and therefore that makes you uninteresting.
I know this isn't really very much from a random person from the internet but I've always thought that you're incredibly interesting and I have since 2011 which has been the reason that has kept me subscribed for so long. Your opinions/views, even when you're just rambling to a camera, are always so well developed, fascinating and thought out, which is something that I have always loved about what you produce and I have subsequently grown so much respect and admiration for you. I always know for a fact that your videos will always fulfil what I'm expecting (for lack of a better word) and that is not something you can always rely on nowadays. So thank you lots Jack :)
You're doing just fine Jack, you'll be alright! We all feel like this sometimes, sending love! ❤️
All I do is draw. But I'm also lazy. The only thing I want to do is draw but sometimes I have no motivation to do it, and at those times I kind of feel like nothing :L like I will work consecutive solid days on a piece of Art if I have to but if there's no deadline it won't happen for a long time. And then I see these other artists who have sketchbooks full of drawings and it's almost a compulsive thing for them... Eeeughh how do they do it? I love doing nothing.
I also kind of hate doing nothing...
What am I talking about?
I have never related to a TH-camr more than I did in watching this video. Thank you Jack.
I definitely relate to the whole "having no hobbies because I do what I live for a job" even though I'm still in school so I really don't have the time to do what I love as a full time job. I'll say it straight off- I'm a huge orchestra nerd. I play the cello in three orchestras and take private lessons, which is something I'm so grateful for, but I have almost no time for anything else but school and taking a break and de stressing from these things. It definitely makes it hard to be a good conversationalist, because I don't do much. I go to school, come home, do homework, go to practices and rehearsals, go on the Internet, and go to sleep. Idk It's nice to know that other people feel this way
perfectly summed up my inability to get out of bed and the feeling of never having enough time to do anything
Nice to know that there are other people out there in the world who go through the same things. Been feeling pretty much the same thing for a while now.
This might sound odd, but I love it that you're so raw and honest in this video. It is a quality that I feel is being lost in some of my favorite TH-camrs lately, as they are getting bigger and bigger― which is such a shame, because that's the reason why I started watching them in the first place. I'm glad to see that you are still keeping it real.
just because your job is your hobby doesn't mean that you aren't interesting, it's like talking to an author and them saying that they are boring because they write stories about what they enjoy, you do the same thing but with videos. I watched the bbc livestream last night and enjoyed it a lot. I love it when you ramble because then I get to write these long paragraphs that you are most definitely not gonna read but idc. love ya jack.
I am literally so similar to you, it's not that I try to be lazy it's that I'm too stressed to do things and so I don't unless it's something I love and even then I worry about it
Look, Jack Howard, there are boring people out there. You are not one of them.
I'm also a filmmaker and I pretty much relate to everything you just said.
Clicked on this not expecting to relate to this as much as I do. I constantly think I'm uninteresting for the same reason as you. I used to tell people all I am is shopping and makeup because that's what I loved and now that is my job. Great to feel like I'm less alone now.
I like it when you get all ramblely. It's also good to really talk about things too! Just to get things off of your chest.
got to love a good jack howard ramble