Hey y'all so my TH-cam comeback is finally here 🎉 If you want to see my home, here's the empty house tour on my second channel (please subscribe): th-cam.com/video/KoTfEMw7Ogo/w-d-xo.html
First of all…welcome back. Second thank you for being so vulnerable and honest in sharing your story with mental health. I think so many people are going to relate to this video and find comfort in your progress. Onward and upward from here! Best of luck Luke!
Omg i have been periodically checking your channel to see updates and wondering why there hasn't been any upload. I hope everything is well and you are alright, your fan base loves you.
I've never seen such raw, vulnerable mental health content on this platform that is so relatable without being self-depricating and making humorous light of it. I heavily relate to not wanting to think about the things we did while manic or recovering. I see you, Luke, and I cannot commend or thank you enough for this video. 💗
Luke you saved my mental health during 2020. While locked in quarantine I found your channel and instantly binged all your videos and haven’t missed a beat since. You deserve all the happiness and I know you will get there. You never know how many lives you may touch in this life but just know you have touched mine and your honesty and genuine personality is truly refreshing in a sea of unoriginal monotony. Thank you for being you 💜
BP1 here, when the meds are right you won't feel ANY lingering depression and you won't miss the mania. It's a battle but when you get there it's like you're coming home to a warm and cosy house after a cold day. It's really beautiful and you're doing the right thing. Proud of you and happy to have you back xxx
For sure! It's nice for a while, but over time the mania just feels like a roller coaster that you want to get off of. I'm tired of taking medication every single day but the thought of being manic again motivates me to be stable at this point.
I subscribed to you at first when your channel was first coming up. Just wanted to say thank you for being so open with your journey on difficult subjects like ED and mental health. You’re brave for being open and putting your personal experiences out on the internet. You’re helping many by being open. If you need to take a break, please take a break. Do whatever is best for you Luke and I’ll continue to watch and support you on your journey. You got this ✨
As someone with bipolar, I TOTALLY get missing mania. Also I feel you with still feeling the depression while on meds. Thanks for sharing your story and decreasing the stigma around bipolar.
When you said you had to pick up the pieces of the life you basically just destroyed after working so hard to create it reminded me of myself and what a lot of drug addicts do.. I’ve found a lot of times it’s actually so deterring for addicts to get clean and then get the reality check that wow I literally ruined things so not only do I have to deal with my mental health and staying clean but I have to restore the remnants of something that seems broken beyond repair. BUT ITS NOT its sooo not I like to refer to it as like a Phoenix rising from the ashes moment and that is 100% you right now Luke it’s so beautiful to see you unpacking everything and telling your story and your feelings to everyone to try to start new again and you are so fucking courageous for doing it and trying anew…when you said you’re 22 OMG 😱 you have so much ahead and so much time to heal whatever YOU feel you need it to.. I hope it’s a beautiful (tho it may be hard) time of discovery and reinvention for you and I wish you all the best
Luke darling, YOU ARE NOT A DISEASE! You deserve the world and more. You deserve to be kind to yourself. Keep going. If you don't love you, then we as your audience love you to pieces
My mom has bipolar and has been admitted before. She is doing well and staying on her meds which, as you figured out, is key. Sending you all the love and positive vibes. 💫
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with bipolar Luke… it really is so important for people understand the gravity of this disorder, especially because it is thrown around so casually and carelessly. People do not understand it. We love you so much and just know we are here to support you no matter what you’re going through. LOVE when you said “I, Luke Alexander, control my life”. ❤️
This was very real and raw and I related to several things including missing mania I was more carefree outgoing and spontaneous and when you get back to reality it’s tough pill to swallow dealing with the consequences such as spending money I don’t have, getting over relationships I didn’t need etc Starting fresh doesn’t mean I’m out of the clear it’s an everyday struggle to not think about the past and feel ashamed ….most of this was not dealing with trauma If you don’t learn from your experiences shitty things will continue to happen til you finally learn
I know you hear this a lot, I'm sure, but it's insanely appreciated by us neurodivergent people when content creators like you open up and share your mental health struggles. I've been struggling in ways lately, and I'm quite sure the biggest thing keeping my nose above water is my very supportive partner and my cats. But I still feel like I'm just above drowning, drinking too often, panic attacks every day, hypervigilance and realizing how many triggers I have throughout a normal day.
as someone with bipolar disorder, I can relate to a lot of what you’re saying. I’m so glad you’re doing better and decided to share this with us, I know for me it makes me feel so validated to hear from other people that have gone through a lot of the same things that I have.
It's very normal for people to struggle in their 20s and 30s. I've definitely got some stories. I'm 41 now.... I just grew out of caring about shat that don't matter. Between 24 and 31 was bad for me, despite being a high achiever.
It’s crazy how you take a stable living environment for granted when you lose it- what you said about having your own space is so true. It’s crazy because I’ve been experiencing something very similar with my living situation and my sleeping disorder/fibromyalgia, but seeing you get better gives me hope ♥️ So happy you’re doing better, I’ve been watching you since 2018 and it’s great to see!
I've missed you. I've been rewatching your Tana reactions over your break. Hope you're doing well. Take good care of you. Such good content you left us with I'm excited for more. A very warm and loving welcome back 💕💕😊
Truly missed you Luke. I am so glad that you are fine and healthy now. And remember that we will always be here for you no matter how long you take to come back. Sending you lots of love from Egypt ♡
I have been keeping up with on insta and I can see that you have come so far I’m so happy for you and I know it’s weird because we have never met or anything like that I’m really proud of the life you created for yourself. I hope you continue to thrive and slay babez purr💅💅💅
My guy welcome back, I currently fixing my life too. Got dumped and got depressed because I gave this person alot of priority. Starting to get back into my studies, recovering, and loving myself. Luke this a new beginning so let's make it beautiful ❤️✨️ We suffer for a moment, sending hugs 🫂
went through this in 2020. it gets hard, gets harder, and then that feeling slowly gets numb or you have more things keeping you busy. you can get through this! 💕
Luke, Queen! I've been watching you since your move out at 17 video and I'm so glad you hear you're back! As someone who's been to the psych ward, it's very eye opening. You got this! And if you don't, don't ever worry about taking time. Missed you!!! 💕
It's just so unbelievable that when all this was happening I was just watching your videos and literally had no idea what was happening behind the scenes. Thank you for being so vulnerable Luke, good luck to you
I can definitely relate to you with having that lingering feeling. I went through a 6 month long depressive episode after having my meds changed for bipolar and I’m still recovering from it 4 months later. I miss my productiveness from the mania and the feeling of having so much energy. But I know the consequences that came with it. Hopefully one day we can all find a balance and not have to go through the depression and mania anymore ❤️
Luke we miss you so much. We support you in your journey. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. I checked your account for an update several times a month. And i was watching a video when i saw this video in my recommendations. I stopped immediately and clicked. So happy you're coming back
Your strength is unbelievably admirable. My sister also has bipolar and struggled through many hospitalizations. I’m so glad you’re safe, and I can’t thank you enough for being vulnerable and documenting your journey to decrease stigma. Life doesn’t really get easier, but we get so much stronger. We can move through denser things as we grow. Despite your struggles, you have grown a lot, and that growth will always be so valuable. Sending you healing energy and love❤️
Wow having bipolar also, I completely understand you, mania feels so good, when most of your life is you crying and being unable to even get out of bed, how could “feeling elated” could be a wrong thing? Until it makes you spend all of your savings, and get in debt, behaving like if permanently under coke and mdma. It’s always difficult to accept “being normal” or being stable at least, because it still feels dull, because the rush of mania, the creative energy, the charisma, those are things that you miss from being manic
I'm glad you're getting the help you need and so proud of you for keeping on. It's hard to accept that there's no "cure" to everything, just treatments, especially when you've been dealt a really unfair hand. You're so resilient and I hope that you can see how much you've done to make your life better even when it's a seriously hard mess. I can relate to a lot of what you said in the video, even though our situations are different. Thank you for sharing your story with us. You've got this. 🖤🖤🖤
We love you Luke. You are not crazy or mental or sick. You are a gift to us all. Thanks so much for sharing your story that all too many of us can relate to.
It’s so nice to see you again💞I missed you and your content! As a fellow human with bipolar disorder this resonated with me. I’m so glad you’re doing much better! Life is always going to be a process..
The last 2 years must have been such a scary time for you Luke ❤️I’m so happy to hear from you again! I just wish you the best! You’re an amazing, pretty, creative, funny soul! I hope when you wake up in the mornings you’ll look forward to the coming days! I’m sending you lots of love and sunshine from Germany 💐
WELCOME BACK!!! 🎉🎉 i am so proud of you!! you are so important to me and so many of us and i’m so happy you’re ready to be yourself here on TH-cam again. thank you for everything Luke, you’re so strong and so valued
Welcome back Luke, although I admittedly haven't been on your channel as often as I used to from 2020 I was around since you were at like 10k subs. As a pan afro Caribbean woman who struggles with severe depression and anxiety (among other things) I LOVED your honesty and sense of humour back in the day and I STILL DO ❤. You might not know me but I am so so SOOOOO proud of you ♥. I greatly appreciate your honesty in this video and I wish you all the best with your healing, your love life, your channel's growth and everything in between! Much love from Jamaica 🇯🇲
Sending love all the way from South Africa. We love and care for you. Thank you for sharing about your mental health journey, we love and support you. Always💜
im literally crying i missed you so much it’s so wonderful to hear your voice and to hear you laughing and joking. forever one of my og favorites i cant wait to continue to support you forever! love you lukeeee
Hi Luke, this absolutely BROKE my heart to hear that you had to go through that. But it's so admirable that you have shared your story and have worked on dealing with the challenge of bipolar. I actually just wrote a song about mania and how bittersweet it can be. Thank you again for being so vulnerable. It truly makes people like us feel less alone :)
I have borderline personality disorder and I legit do similar things with meds. I’m feeling happy and better well, that’s cause of the meds and then I get manic, depressed and it’s like girl come on this has happened how many times. So happy to see you doing well !!!
I loved your content before your break, and i was diagnosed bipolar type 2 in the pandemic so i know a lot of the struggles you're going through, just try to keep your head up and try to lean on the people you can trust. I hope you're doing okay, i know how hard it is to deal with the episodes and how you can get driven to the edge but just remember that sometimes those feelings arent yours and patience and relaxing can really help try to keep the mental feeling of safeness during some of those episodes.
I used video games for escapism a lot but theres times when that doesnt always help but also i like to just kind of create my own fictional fantasy world or like just script my own show in my head which helps me go to a happy place where i can use my creativity to break down some of the troubling things im trying to articulate
Wow props to you for doing this to heal yourself. I look back at many times I should have admitted myself but I didn’t want to recognize I was having a problem that needed professional help 💕 wishing you well and can’t wait for more videos
I am so glad you have had help, that you are so candid about it. You are a beautiful human being and I hope that you are gonna keep that glow and if ever you feel it slip, to get the help again and as often as needed cause indeed life is wonderful. Welcome back!
Thank you for being so open, and talking about mental health. I deal with my own mental health struggles, and some days are very, very hard. I’m glad you’re doing okay, Luke. We’re all here for you. ♥️ Sending love & hugs.
I teared up watching this. as someone who has also struggled with mental health issues before, I'm so glad you're doing better. you deserve nothing but the best in life! remember to treat yourself kindly and take care of yourself 💙
It’s so good to see you again. :) To me it sounds like life just demanded way too much of you at that time, and no wonder it all became chaotic. I remember my early twenties were much worse emotionally compared to now in my thirties, I was just thinking about that since you’re actually so young still. And if you had some traumas with you from earlier in life, it’s very understandable that you’d be struggling more than others. I’m glad you’re feeling better now, and I hope you continue to listen to your own psyche and body to detect if you need help or something. It seems like you’ve thought a lot and learned a lot, I think you are stronger and wiser now :) And I think you are, and have always been, an awesome and kind person, and I wish you all well in the future, and I’ll probably watch many of your videos in the future too, because they tend to be entertaining :) Take care of yourself, digital hugs for you :) (And also digital hugs for other people who read this and are currently struggling. :) Hang in there, it gets better, no matter how impossible it can seem at times
BP2 here! Missing the hypomanic periods is so real for me. It’s like the light gets turned on and I feel like a regular person. But of course, I’m not always behaving in normal ways.
luke … thank you so much for sharing your story . i’ve been struggling really hard with mental illness stuff too and it feels good to know i’m not alone and we’ve gone through a lot of the same stuff . i’ve been watching you since 2019 and you’ve always been one of my favorite youtubers … im so happy to see you return . thank you for being such a light not only in my life , but so many others . i’m so so proud of you . you are so much stronger than you think 🤍 keeping fighting
I'm also bipolar, can relate so much. Had a manic episode last year, got arrested for throwing water at a cop and my fiance left me and got massive scar on my hand during my time in jail. its been challenging but I understand and its amazing that you are sharing your story.and weed is so bad for bipolar but its so challenging to quit
I have been following you for a long time now, and can fully say, I have missed you greatly💞 Im glad you are starting youtube again and I will continue to send my endless love,support, and good vibes😎
Luke! It's wonderful to hear from you again, thank you so much for this video. Glad you're doing better and I hope things get even better again. Like you said, you're only 22 - there are so many great opportunities, people, and ideas that are still making their way to you. I believe our twenties are one of the most important periods to spend time just being kind to ourselves and doing what we can to heal and feel closer to who we'd like to be. I'm also 22 and struggling with my mental health, and sometimes this life makes it seem like it will always be an uphill battle and the boulder will always roll back down. But I know that's not true. And it's especially not true for you, Luke; no matter what, you are a good person, and you're incredibly creative and resourceful and courageous and smart, and you absolutely can and will find the happiness you desire. We just have to keep trying, as cliché as that sounds. I tell myself I have to do it for that little child, and all my past selves, who couldn't change anything or defend themselves and didn't know any better because they didn't yet understand what was really going on. We are always just doing our best with what we have at a given time. It's okay to forgive yourself because making mistakes is a fundamental part of being human - especially for those of us who aren't always in full control of our own thoughts and actions. Not everybody sees the extra weight we carry on our shoulders. You're doing amazing on your path to healing, you're doing everything right. I'm just words on a screen, but I'm so proud of you, I really am. You are absolutely the boss of your own life and brain no matter which power struggles come into play lol and it's so awesome to hear you talking about your journey and what you've learned and how much you've been able to make things improve by taking the time to do the very important and very difficult work of reflecting, reaching out to people, and just believing in yourself. Wishing you peace and strength, Luke❤️🩹you will get to where you need to be, and it will be beautiful
I can't tell you how much I appreciate this video. I am glad about all the mental health content now but a lot of it doesn't talk about anything beyond anxiety and depression, or when you have a mental health condition that messes with your life in such a huge way. I've never felt seen in how "crazy" I felt. I recently went into a really severe disassociative episode and did all the same bad habits and hurt people and lost a lot of memory and it feels great to know I'm not the only person wos gone through something similar I'm extremely glad you're around to bring awareness and give hope, thank you 🖤
Welcome back and thank you for sharing your story with such honesty and openness, Luke! Keep moving forward and never be scared to be yourself, especially on TH-cam where your audience is here for YOU! ❤
Very happy you’re back! I’m so sorry you had to go through so much in such a short amount of time. I subbed around 2019/2020 right before Covid and your vids brought me so much joy during that time. I know you had already been through so much in your childhood based on your videos so I’m sorry you went through so much more. To be honest I was quite surprised to see you go into real estate since it did seem so different from the interests you talked about on YT, but I was happy to see you be successful-but we never really know what’s happening in someone’s life. Thank you for being so open about this. I miss this type of vulnerability and connecting on youtube. Very happy to hear you are doing better now and look forward to new content, but please never feel pressure to post if it means sacrificing your needs 💚
Omg that intro.... I've missed it :') I've missed you. So glad to have an update about you, you've been through so much but I'm glad you're doing better and I cannot wait for any future videos, gonna go watch the house tour video... we have new content from Luke Alexander..!!so excited. Thank you for being vulnerable about your mental health, it's really valuable. I've been watching your content for quite a while now and it really does feel like I'm growing with you, you're that type of creator for me and I'm sure for many others..and I'm so excited that you're back posting videos and I cannot wait for what's to come, considering that's what you want, I just want you to be okay. Take care ❤️
u have been through SO much and you are still here, still talking about your experience and being genuine through out. that takes some amount of strength and have a lot of respect for you. i have pulled myself out of so many dark places and have reached a point where some days are so hard but i’m also excited about life again and feel all of the things you said at the end. sending all the positive vibes 💛
I've been managing bipolar for over 10 years now and PTSD for 5. Benn hospitalized because of being put on an SSRI as well. I just want to say it DOES get better. It's painful and hard work but over time things get easier to manage. Stay safe bestie. The post-manic guilt is REAL.
I’m so happy you’re doing well now, I’ve been following you since those Episode videos and have kind off grown up watching your content. So it was really strange not seeing your videos 2 times a week and I was actually quite worried for you. Hopefully I will continue to watch your channel
So happy to see you back! Please never hesitate with those boundaries and look after yourself, Luke. Thank you so much for being so transparent with us, you're so brave!! We will all ALWAYS understand and love/support you regardless of what you're going through! I hope the highest of peaks of happiness for you in the future! 🖤
I’m so glad to see you back 🥺 I’m so glad to see your face & hear your voice. Sending so much love to you & I’m so proud and appreciative of you and your vulnerability about your mental health. You are such a beautiful and vibrant soul.
I’m glad to see you’re back! Thank you for sharing your story. I know it’s probably really scary but I think this video will be helpful for so many people. I can’t wait for your new content and all the best for the future xx
Welcome back Luke, I have missed your videos, thank you for sharing your story. I was 19 when SSRI's derailed me too, its ridiculous how commonly they seem to be prescribed if you show any signs of depressive issues, I ended up partaking in a test (spit in a tube lol) the Otago University here in New Zealand were doing a few years ago that was about how different people react to different depression/anxiety medications and learnt from doing it that I do not respond well at all to SSRI's, which didn't surprise me after my experience! I went manic on them and hurt myself (hadn't before) and all sorts of things, so please know you're not the only one whose had this happen to you. I'm so glad you have your own stable home now, nothing better than having a space to call your own. Look forward to checking out the tour and seeing the rest of your content to come, but remember to put yourself first and look after yourself, and maybe go back to doing some sims videos if things get too hard/don't feel like looking at yourself, you might end up the next EA Game Changer before you know it!!
Oh Luke, I promise you that life can continue to be manageable, even with this diagnosis. My older sister has Bipolar 2 and she’s faced a lot of obstacles in adulthood. She’s married to a very supportive husband, has the most beautiful children and is a wonderful teacher. I admire her so much, especially as someone with an ADHD diagnosis, who struggles to keep her life together. On a more sombre note, I really am tired of these psychiatrists prescribing anti-depressants to individuals with Bipolar. Experts have said for years that it leads to manic episodes and if it’s not something these professionals are aware of, they have no business treating anyone with that diagnosis. Any decent Bipolar or mood disorder specialist is privy to this information, period.
Aw that's beautiful about your sister, really gives me hope. Hope you're doing well. And yeah it's really unfortunate how they give out so easily in the wrong cases
@@LukeAlexander I had hoped that me sharing that would inspire you a little. Have you watched the documentaries that Stephen Fry has created surrounding his own Bipolarity? I think they’ll be something you’ll relate to, especially when it comes to the feeling of ‘missing’ your mania.
Wow, thanks for being so vulnerable and honest! Wish you all the best! Happy to see you on TH-cam again and glad you feel a bit better! Crazy I watch you from germany 😅
Hey you, I was hospitalized for a psychotic/manic breakdown about five years ago and it was awful. I really let it afrect me psychologically to the point that i didnt trust myself and my own judgments for years. As much as it's true you may struggle in the future, don't let this moment define you. this time doesn't reflect you, and you don't have to take it on board. You are not your mental health struggles. ❤ I hope you are taking care of yourself
I appreciate you being open about your mental health and life experience! I related with the ED and distractions. I'm barely out of highschool and I don't really know what to do in life. I don't really have much ambitions. I kinda want a mental health check up because I think I have ADHD and my executive dysfunction gets unbearable sometimes. I don't really want to start college without going to a mental health professional at least. It's quite comforting to know that other people also struggle navigating in life, in a way. Glad everything is going well for you!
We have missed you all💖 so happy to see you again! Please try to not feel ashamed of you behaviour under a mania, it’s not you it’s the illness. Just like with a broken leg you can’t run. It’s not you, it’s the leg. How fantastic of you to share this with us. I know, I know it helps more people than just me💜✨❤️💖🫶 sending you a lot of love!!✨✨
oh luke i haven’t even barely started the video and i’m bawling. have a very similar story, i have bipolar one and it was luvox rather than lexapro that kept me manic. it’s so traumatic. i’m so sorry you went through this too and i rarely have wished more that i could reach through the screen and hug someone. i’m so glad you’re doing better and as a og subscriber i’m so happy to see you back💗💗
Hey y'all so my TH-cam comeback is finally here 🎉 If you want to see my home, here's the empty house tour on my second channel (please subscribe): th-cam.com/video/KoTfEMw7Ogo/w-d-xo.html
Glad you’re back 😊
So happy you're back and healthier (mentally) than before. You always come first Luke!!
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So glad you’re okay. Sending love from Mackay ☀️☀️☀️
First of all…welcome back. Second thank you for being so vulnerable and honest in sharing your story with mental health. I think so many people are going to relate to this video and find comfort in your progress. Onward and upward from here! Best of luck Luke!
💚 one for Luke 💙one for Peter
Aw thank you for your support Peter 💙
you killed a man, of course you can relate to anything.
I love seeing this type of support and compassion on this platform..thank you for showing love 🪷🙏🏽🖤
Legends supporting legends!
oh man I've been worried about you...hope you're doing ok and that you're safe right now. take care of you. You are so loved
aw thank you so much lovely
Omg i have been periodically checking your channel to see updates and wondering why there hasn't been any upload. I hope everything is well and you are alright, your fan base loves you.
Aw thank you! Lots of love 💕
I've never seen such raw, vulnerable mental health content on this platform that is so relatable without being self-depricating and making humorous light of it. I heavily relate to not wanting to think about the things we did while manic or recovering. I see you, Luke, and I cannot commend or thank you enough for this video. 💗
Thank you for saying that 🤍
it’s never too late to be brand new, luke. so glad you’re okay and that you’re back. ❤️❤️
I genuinely cannot believe it’s been 9 months since you posted! Glad to see you back and hope you are doing well!
Luke you saved my mental health during 2020. While locked in quarantine I found your channel and instantly binged all your videos and haven’t missed a beat since.
You deserve all the happiness and I know you will get there.
You never know how many lives you may touch in this life but just know you have touched mine and your honesty and genuine personality is truly refreshing in a sea of unoriginal monotony.
Thank you for being you 💜
Aw that's so sweet thank you so much 🤍
BP1 here, when the meds are right you won't feel ANY lingering depression and you won't miss the mania. It's a battle but when you get there it's like you're coming home to a warm and cosy house after a cold day. It's really beautiful and you're doing the right thing. Proud of you and happy to have you back xxx
For sure! It's nice for a while, but over time the mania just feels like a roller coaster that you want to get off of. I'm tired of taking medication every single day but the thought of being manic again motivates me to be stable at this point.
I subscribed to you at first when your channel was first coming up. Just wanted to say thank you for being so open with your journey on difficult subjects like ED and mental health. You’re brave for being open and putting your personal experiences out on the internet. You’re helping many by being open. If you need to take a break, please take a break. Do whatever is best for you Luke and I’ll continue to watch and support you on your journey. You got this ✨
aw thank you so much Nicole, appreciate the ongoing support
As someone with bipolar, I TOTALLY get missing mania. Also I feel you with still feeling the depression while on meds. Thanks for sharing your story and decreasing the stigma around bipolar.
When you said you had to pick up the pieces of the life you basically just destroyed after working so hard to create it reminded me of myself and what a lot of drug addicts do.. I’ve found a lot of times it’s actually so deterring for addicts to get clean and then get the reality check that wow I literally ruined things so not only do I have to deal with my mental health and staying clean but I have to restore the remnants of something that seems broken beyond repair. BUT ITS NOT its sooo not I like to refer to it as like a Phoenix rising from the ashes moment and that is 100% you right now Luke it’s so beautiful to see you unpacking everything and telling your story and your feelings to everyone to try to start new again and you are so fucking courageous for doing it and trying anew…when you said you’re 22 OMG 😱 you have so much ahead and so much time to heal whatever YOU feel you need it to.. I hope it’s a beautiful (tho it may be hard) time of discovery and reinvention for you and I wish you all the best
I really love what you said about a Phoenix rising from the ashes
Luke darling, YOU ARE NOT A DISEASE! You deserve the world and more. You deserve to be kind to yourself. Keep going. If you don't love you, then we as your audience love you to pieces
Even if you were gone for a decade I’d still be here when you came back! Welcome home ❤️
Aw thank you 🥺
My mom has bipolar and has been admitted before. She is doing well and staying on her meds which, as you figured out, is key.
Sending you all the love and positive vibes. 💫
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with bipolar Luke… it really is so important for people understand the gravity of this disorder, especially because it is thrown around so casually and carelessly. People do not understand it. We love you so much and just know we are here to support you no matter what you’re going through. LOVE when you said “I, Luke Alexander, control my life”. ❤️
I really don't like when people say "you're so bipolar" so flippantly so thank you for saying that
I was JUST thinking about you yesterday… Hope you’re doing okay ❤
I missed you luke!! you've always made me feel better when I was struggling and I'm so happy you're back
aw glad I can help
i'm so glad you're feeling better!
This was a difficult video to watch, as it very much feels like looking into a mirror. You deserve the world, Luke.
You deserve the world too!❤
@@jealousssss Thank you so much ❤
This was very real and raw and I related to several things including missing mania I was more carefree outgoing and spontaneous and when you get back to reality it’s tough pill to swallow dealing with the consequences such as spending money I don’t have, getting over relationships I didn’t need etc
Starting fresh doesn’t mean I’m out of the clear it’s an everyday struggle to not think about the past and feel ashamed ….most of this was not dealing with trauma
If you don’t learn from your experiences shitty things will continue to happen til you finally learn
My heart goes out to you. you aren't alone
You've been through a lot Luke. I'm so proud of you for helping yourself and making it to where you are today! I'm glad you're okay :)
I know you hear this a lot, I'm sure, but it's insanely appreciated by us neurodivergent people when content creators like you open up and share your mental health struggles. I've been struggling in ways lately, and I'm quite sure the biggest thing keeping my nose above water is my very supportive partner and my cats. But I still feel like I'm just above drowning, drinking too often, panic attacks every day, hypervigilance and realizing how many triggers I have throughout a normal day.
as someone with bipolar disorder, I can relate to a lot of what you’re saying. I’m so glad you’re doing better and decided to share this with us, I know for me it makes me feel so validated to hear from other people that have gone through a lot of the same things that I have.
Really missed your presence on my feed! Hope all is well with you personally, though. Love to see the comeback
It's very normal for people to struggle in their 20s and 30s. I've definitely got some stories. I'm 41 now.... I just grew out of caring about shat that don't matter. Between 24 and 31 was bad for me, despite being a high achiever.
It’s crazy how you take a stable living environment for granted when you lose it- what you said about having your own space is so true. It’s crazy because I’ve been experiencing something very similar with my living situation and my sleeping disorder/fibromyalgia, but seeing you get better gives me hope ♥️
So happy you’re doing better, I’ve been watching you since 2018 and it’s great to see!
I've missed you. I've been rewatching your Tana reactions over your break. Hope you're doing well. Take good care of you. Such good content you left us with I'm excited for more. A very warm and loving welcome back 💕💕😊
Aw thank you, glad to be back 😃
Truly missed you Luke. I am so glad that you are fine and healthy now. And remember that we will always be here for you no matter how long you take to come back. Sending you lots of love from Egypt ♡
Aw thank you 🙏 😊 💛
I have been keeping up with on insta and I can see that you have come so far I’m so happy for you and I know it’s weird because we have never met or anything like that I’m really proud of the life you created for yourself. I hope you continue to thrive and slay babez purr💅💅💅
aw thanks babez
My guy welcome back, I currently fixing my life too. Got dumped and got depressed because I gave this person alot of priority. Starting to get back into my studies, recovering, and loving myself. Luke this a new beginning so let's make it beautiful ❤️✨️ We suffer for a moment, sending hugs 🫂
went through this in 2020. it gets hard, gets harder, and then that feeling slowly gets numb or you have more things keeping you busy. you can get through this! 💕
Luke, Queen! I've been watching you since your move out at 17 video and I'm so glad you hear you're back! As someone who's been to the psych ward, it's very eye opening. You got this! And if you don't, don't ever worry about taking time. Missed you!!! 💕
It's just so unbelievable that when all this was happening I was just watching your videos and literally had no idea what was happening behind the scenes. Thank you for being so vulnerable Luke, good luck to you
I can definitely relate to you with having that lingering feeling. I went through a 6 month long depressive episode after having my meds changed for bipolar and I’m still recovering from it 4 months later. I miss my productiveness from the mania and the feeling of having so much energy. But I know the consequences that came with it. Hopefully one day we can all find a balance and not have to go through the depression and mania anymore ❤️
Balance is the goal! Hope you're doing well 🤍
Luke we miss you so much. We support you in your journey. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. I checked your account for an update several times a month. And i was watching a video when i saw this video in my recommendations. I stopped immediately and clicked. So happy you're coming back
Your strength is unbelievably admirable. My sister also has bipolar and struggled through many hospitalizations. I’m so glad you’re safe, and I can’t thank you enough for being vulnerable and documenting your journey to decrease stigma. Life doesn’t really get easier, but we get so much stronger. We can move through denser things as we grow. Despite your struggles, you have grown a lot, and that growth will always be so valuable. Sending you healing energy and love❤️
Wow having bipolar also, I completely understand you, mania feels so good, when most of your life is you crying and being unable to even get out of bed, how could “feeling elated” could be a wrong thing? Until it makes you spend all of your savings, and get in debt, behaving like if permanently under coke and mdma. It’s always difficult to accept “being normal” or being stable at least, because it still feels dull, because the rush of mania, the creative energy, the charisma, those are things that you miss from being manic
YOOOOO I'm so glad you're back I hope you're taking care of yourself
I'm glad you're getting the help you need and so proud of you for keeping on. It's hard to accept that there's no "cure" to everything, just treatments, especially when you've been dealt a really unfair hand. You're so resilient and I hope that you can see how much you've done to make your life better even when it's a seriously hard mess. I can relate to a lot of what you said in the video, even though our situations are different. Thank you for sharing your story with us. You've got this. 🖤🖤🖤
We love you Luke. You are not crazy or mental or sick. You are a gift to us all. Thanks so much for sharing your story that all too many of us can relate to.
It’s so nice to see you again💞I missed you and your content! As a fellow human with bipolar disorder this resonated with me. I’m so glad you’re doing much better! Life is always going to be a process..
The last 2 years must have been such a scary time for you Luke ❤️I’m so happy to hear from you again! I just wish you the best! You’re an amazing, pretty, creative, funny soul! I hope when you wake up in the mornings you’ll look forward to the coming days! I’m sending you lots of love and sunshine from Germany 💐
Thank you ☀️
WELCOME BACK!!! 🎉🎉 i am so proud of you!! you are so important to me and so many of us and i’m so happy you’re ready to be yourself here on TH-cam again. thank you for everything Luke, you’re so strong and so valued
Welcome back Luke, although I admittedly haven't been on your channel as often as I used to from 2020 I was around since you were at like 10k subs.
As a pan afro Caribbean woman who struggles with severe depression and anxiety (among other things) I LOVED your honesty and sense of humour back in the day and I STILL DO ❤. You might not know me but I am so so SOOOOO proud of you ♥.
I greatly appreciate your honesty in this video and I wish you all the best with your healing, your love life, your channel's growth and everything in between!
Much love from Jamaica 🇯🇲
Thank you for your wishes, I really appreciate it 💛
Sending love all the way from South Africa. We love and care for you. Thank you for sharing about your mental health journey, we love and support you. Always💜
I missed you SOOOO MUCH im so glad you're ok!! you're so loved, so glad you're back. You always made me smile and happy with your videos.
im literally crying i missed you so much it’s so wonderful to hear your voice and to hear you laughing and joking. forever one of my og favorites i cant wait to continue to support you forever! love you lukeeee
Aw love you too thank you 🙏
Hi Luke, this absolutely BROKE my heart to hear that you had to go through that. But it's so admirable that you have shared your story and have worked on dealing with the challenge of bipolar. I actually just wrote a song about mania and how bittersweet it can be. Thank you again for being so vulnerable. It truly makes people like us feel less alone :)
I have borderline personality disorder and I legit do similar things with meds. I’m feeling happy and better well, that’s cause of the meds and then I get manic, depressed and it’s like girl come on this has happened how many times. So happy to see you doing well !!!
I loved your content before your break, and i was diagnosed bipolar type 2 in the pandemic so i know a lot of the struggles you're going through, just try to keep your head up and try to lean on the people you can trust. I hope you're doing okay, i know how hard it is to deal with the episodes and how you can get driven to the edge but just remember that sometimes those feelings arent yours and patience and relaxing can really help try to keep the mental feeling of safeness during some of those episodes.
I used video games for escapism a lot but theres times when that doesnt always help but also i like to just kind of create my own fictional fantasy world or like just script my own show in my head which helps me go to a happy place where i can use my creativity to break down some of the troubling things im trying to articulate
Wow props to you for doing this to heal yourself. I look back at many times I should have admitted myself but I didn’t want to recognize I was having a problem that needed professional help 💕 wishing you well and can’t wait for more videos
I am so glad you have had help, that you are so candid about it. You are a beautiful human being and I hope that you are gonna keep that glow and if ever you feel it slip, to get the help again and as often as needed cause indeed life is wonderful. Welcome back!
Thank you for being so open, and talking about mental health. I deal with my own mental health struggles, and some days are very, very hard. I’m glad you’re doing okay, Luke. We’re all here for you. ♥️ Sending love & hugs.
I teared up watching this. as someone who has also struggled with mental health issues before, I'm so glad you're doing better. you deserve nothing but the best in life! remember to treat yourself kindly and take care of yourself 💙
It’s so good to see you again. :) To me it sounds like life just demanded way too much of you at that time, and no wonder it all became chaotic. I remember my early twenties were much worse emotionally compared to now in my thirties, I was just thinking about that since you’re actually so young still. And if you had some traumas with you from earlier in life, it’s very understandable that you’d be struggling more than others. I’m glad you’re feeling better now, and I hope you continue to listen to your own psyche and body to detect if you need help or something. It seems like you’ve thought a lot and learned a lot, I think you are stronger and wiser now :) And I think you are, and have always been, an awesome and kind person, and I wish you all well in the future, and I’ll probably watch many of your videos in the future too, because they tend to be entertaining :) Take care of yourself, digital hugs for you :) (And also digital hugs for other people who read this and are currently struggling. :) Hang in there, it gets better, no matter how impossible it can seem at times
Aw thank you! Digital hugs to you too 🤗
BP2 here! Missing the hypomanic periods is so real for me. It’s like the light gets turned on and I feel like a regular person. But of course, I’m not always behaving in normal ways.
aww luke i am so sorry u went through all that :( but don’t worry now that ur back i hope everything goes great and we love you 🤍🤍
luke … thank you so much for sharing your story .
i’ve been struggling really hard with mental illness stuff too and it feels good to know i’m not alone and we’ve gone through a lot of the same stuff . i’ve been watching you since 2019 and you’ve always been one of my favorite youtubers … im so happy to see you return . thank you for being such a light not only in my life , but so many others . i’m so so proud of you . you are so much stronger than you think 🤍 keeping fighting
Thank you for your support, I'm things get better soon
Awwww Luke!!!!!!! We all love you very much...
I'm also bipolar, can relate so much. Had a manic episode last year, got arrested for throwing water at a cop and my fiance left me and got massive scar on my hand during my time in jail. its been challenging but I understand and its amazing that you are sharing your story.and weed is so bad for bipolar but its so challenging to quit
I have been following you for a long time now, and can fully say, I have missed you greatly💞 Im glad you are starting youtube again and I will continue to send my endless love,support, and good vibes😎
I’m glad you’re back. I hope you are doing okay. You are so loved.
Luke! It's wonderful to hear from you again, thank you so much for this video. Glad you're doing better and I hope things get even better again. Like you said, you're only 22 - there are so many great opportunities, people, and ideas that are still making their way to you. I believe our twenties are one of the most important periods to spend time just being kind to ourselves and doing what we can to heal and feel closer to who we'd like to be. I'm also 22 and struggling with my mental health, and sometimes this life makes it seem like it will always be an uphill battle and the boulder will always roll back down. But I know that's not true. And it's especially not true for you, Luke; no matter what, you are a good person, and you're incredibly creative and resourceful and courageous and smart, and you absolutely can and will find the happiness you desire. We just have to keep trying, as cliché as that sounds. I tell myself I have to do it for that little child, and all my past selves, who couldn't change anything or defend themselves and didn't know any better because they didn't yet understand what was really going on. We are always just doing our best with what we have at a given time. It's okay to forgive yourself because making mistakes is a fundamental part of being human - especially for those of us who aren't always in full control of our own thoughts and actions. Not everybody sees the extra weight we carry on our shoulders. You're doing amazing on your path to healing, you're doing everything right. I'm just words on a screen, but I'm so proud of you, I really am. You are absolutely the boss of your own life and brain no matter which power struggles come into play lol and it's so awesome to hear you talking about your journey and what you've learned and how much you've been able to make things improve by taking the time to do the very important and very difficult work of reflecting, reaching out to people, and just believing in yourself. Wishing you peace and strength, Luke❤️🩹you will get to where you need to be, and it will be beautiful
I can't tell you how much I appreciate this video. I am glad about all the mental health content now but a lot of it doesn't talk about anything beyond anxiety and depression, or when you have a mental health condition that messes with your life in such a huge way. I've never felt seen in how "crazy" I felt. I recently went into a really severe disassociative episode and did all the same bad habits and hurt people and lost a lot of memory and it feels great to know I'm not the only person wos gone through something similar I'm extremely glad you're around to bring awareness and give hope, thank you 🖤
Welcome back and thank you for sharing your story with such honesty and openness, Luke! Keep moving forward and never be scared to be yourself, especially on TH-cam where your audience is here for YOU! ❤
We love you and are here for you!!!! Thank you for being so open and honest with us 💖
I love you Luke! I’m so glad your back. Hope everything gets better for u
Very happy you’re back! I’m so sorry you had to go through so much in such a short amount of time. I subbed around 2019/2020 right before Covid and your vids brought me so much joy during that time. I know you had already been through so much in your childhood based on your videos so I’m sorry you went through so much more. To be honest I was quite surprised to see you go into real estate since it did seem so different from the interests you talked about on YT, but I was happy to see you be successful-but we never really know what’s happening in someone’s life. Thank you for being so open about this. I miss this type of vulnerability and connecting on youtube. Very happy to hear you are doing better now and look forward to new content, but please never feel pressure to post if it means sacrificing your needs 💚
Omg that intro.... I've missed it :') I've missed you. So glad to have an update about you, you've been through so much but I'm glad you're doing better and I cannot wait for any future videos, gonna go watch the house tour video... we have new content from Luke Alexander..!!so excited. Thank you for being vulnerable about your mental health, it's really valuable. I've been watching your content for quite a while now and it really does feel like I'm growing with you, you're that type of creator for me and I'm sure for many others..and I'm so excited that you're back posting videos and I cannot wait for what's to come, considering that's what you want, I just want you to be okay. Take care ❤️
u have been through SO much and you are still here, still talking about your experience and being genuine through out. that takes some amount of strength and have a lot of respect for you. i have pulled myself out of so many dark places and have reached a point where some days are so hard but i’m also excited about life again and feel all of the things you said at the end. sending all the positive vibes 💛
Hey Luke Heyyyyy ❤️. You are 22!! You’ve got so much life to be lived and loved 🥰
I've been managing bipolar for over 10 years now and PTSD for 5. Benn hospitalized because of being put on an SSRI as well. I just want to say it DOES get better. It's painful and hard work but over time things get easier to manage. Stay safe bestie. The post-manic guilt is REAL.
So proud of you for being so open and vulnerable, that isn't easy
Luke, I have been watching you for years.... I 100% believe in you. You got this!!!
I’m so happy you’re doing well now, I’ve been following you since those Episode videos and have kind off grown up watching your content. So it was really strange not seeing your videos 2 times a week and I was actually quite worried for you. Hopefully I will continue to watch your channel
Hope you stick with me, exciting videos to comen
Luke 🥹 thank you so much for your vulnerability; you are a gift to this space
I'm so sorry you have been dealing with all of this but so happy you are doing better. We're all rooting for you, your health and your happiness!
Baby it’s good to have you back 🤍 we’ve missed you so much .. not your Videos only but YOU Luke 🥰
So happy to see you back! Please never hesitate with those boundaries and look after yourself, Luke. Thank you so much for being so transparent with us, you're so brave!! We will all ALWAYS understand and love/support you regardless of what you're going through! I hope the highest of peaks of happiness for you in the future! 🖤
My heart is happy because you are back! And you are on a healthier path. Love you!! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
I’m so glad to see you back 🥺 I’m so glad to see your face & hear your voice. Sending so much love to you & I’m so proud and appreciative of you and your vulnerability about your mental health. You are such a beautiful and vibrant soul.
I’m glad to see you’re back! Thank you for sharing your story. I know it’s probably really scary but I think this video will be helpful for so many people. I can’t wait for your new content and all the best for the future xx
I needed to hear this tonight. Love you ❤️❤️❤️ And I love everyone who is reading this. You are worth it. We ALL truly all are ..
Welcome back Luke, I have missed your videos, thank you for sharing your story.
I was 19 when SSRI's derailed me too, its ridiculous how commonly they seem to be prescribed if you show any signs of depressive issues, I ended up partaking in a test (spit in a tube lol) the Otago University here in New Zealand were doing a few years ago that was about how different people react to different depression/anxiety medications and learnt from doing it that I do not respond well at all to SSRI's, which didn't surprise me after my experience! I went manic on them and hurt myself (hadn't before) and all sorts of things, so please know you're not the only one whose had this happen to you.
I'm so glad you have your own stable home now, nothing better than having a space to call your own. Look forward to checking out the tour and seeing the rest of your content to come, but remember to put yourself first and look after yourself, and maybe go back to doing some sims videos if things get too hard/don't feel like looking at yourself, you might end up the next EA Game Changer before you know it!!
Been a subscriber since your mental health romanticization video. You've come a long way, proud of you, and glad you're back :)
Oh Luke, I promise you that life can continue to be manageable, even with this diagnosis. My older sister has Bipolar 2 and she’s faced a lot of obstacles in adulthood. She’s married to a very supportive husband, has the most beautiful children and is a wonderful teacher. I admire her so much, especially as someone with an ADHD diagnosis, who struggles to keep her life together. On a more sombre note, I really am tired of these psychiatrists prescribing anti-depressants to individuals with Bipolar. Experts have said for years that it leads to manic episodes and if it’s not something these professionals are aware of, they have no business treating anyone with that diagnosis. Any decent Bipolar or mood disorder specialist is privy to this information, period.
Aw that's beautiful about your sister, really gives me hope. Hope you're doing well. And yeah it's really unfortunate how they give out so easily in the wrong cases
@@LukeAlexander I had hoped that me sharing that would inspire you a little. Have you watched the documentaries that Stephen Fry has created surrounding his own Bipolarity? I think they’ll be something you’ll relate to, especially when it comes to the feeling of ‘missing’ your mania.
Yes! Right after I get home from work! I’ll be in the live chat for sure! Can’t wait !
I miss Luke’s videos so much I’m so proud of you, don’t feel pressured to post here but when you do just know we fully support you
I'm so glad you're back Luke! You look amazing!
Just got out of the psych ward a couple of days ago myself. Sending love ♥️
Sooo happy you’re okay n in your own place ! Life is a roller coaster just remember to keep your head up!!
We’ve missed you! Here for your content and personal growth. Welcome back 🥳
Wow, thanks for being so vulnerable and honest! Wish you all the best! Happy to see you on TH-cam again and glad you feel a bit better! Crazy I watch you from germany 😅
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Hey you, I was hospitalized for a psychotic/manic breakdown about five years ago and it was awful. I really let it afrect me psychologically to the point that i didnt trust myself and my own judgments for years.
As much as it's true you may struggle in the future, don't let this moment define you. this time doesn't reflect you, and you don't have to take it on board. You are not your mental health struggles. ❤
I hope you are taking care of yourself
welcome back! so glad to hear you are okay, and onto this new chapter of your life💙
I appreciate you being open about your mental health and life experience! I related with the ED and distractions. I'm barely out of highschool and I don't really know what to do in life. I don't really have much ambitions. I kinda want a mental health check up because I think I have ADHD and my executive dysfunction gets unbearable sometimes. I don't really want to start college without going to a mental health professional at least. It's quite comforting to know that other people also struggle navigating in life, in a way. Glad everything is going well for you!
We have missed you all💖 so happy to see you again! Please try to not feel ashamed of you behaviour under a mania, it’s not you it’s the illness. Just like with a broken leg you can’t run. It’s not you, it’s the leg.
How fantastic of you to share this with us. I know, I know it helps more people than just me💜✨❤️💖🫶 sending you a lot of love!!✨✨
oh luke i haven’t even barely started the video and i’m bawling. have a very similar story, i have bipolar one and it was luvox rather than lexapro that kept me manic. it’s so traumatic. i’m so sorry you went through this too and i rarely have wished more that i could reach through the screen and hug someone. i’m so glad you’re doing better and as a og subscriber i’m so happy to see you back💗💗
Welcome back!!! Thank you for being so open is sharing your story :)