I wish I could have a conversation through the screen right now, I have so many thoughts about what you said, but it would be even more of an essay of a comment than it already is. It doesn't matter if you're good or bad at things, although considering some of your stories you are probably amazing at some things. Even a lot of people at the top of what they do feel like they're not good, but the experiences they have and the comparison with other people tells them that they are. You even mentioned a few of those experiences you've had yourself. But that feeling is important because if people didn't have that, then they would not strive to be better. But of course there will be experiences for the opposite as well, kinda like the "friends" ridiculing you for the spaghettios. There's always going to be someone better than you even at your best things, you can only do your best. And as for the life skills you say you're bad at, everything has a learning curve. Fighting games, writing, sports, music, cooking, cleaning, literally anything. You mentioned not having a reference for when something is "good". Well everyone has a different reference, like my family and friends think I'm an amazing guitarist, but going to music school, being in the scene and seeing soooo many musicians that are sooooooooooooo much better than me, my reference of good is a hell of a lot different, and I really don't feel like I'm very good. Again that can be applied to anything, cooking, gaming, sports, etc. That's why being good at things shouldn't matter. And not to be cynical but the end of the day, whether you're the best or the worst at something, we all end up the same way, so do your best to enjoy the time you have and make life good for yourself and who you care about.
You are absolutely right, you HAVE to trust yourself. You seem intelligent enough to me. Maybe try music? Im a musician and i feel like its the only thing that makes sense in my life... and the fact that you have writing chops means maybe theres a songwriter in there. Having a tangible sense of mastery (over anything) i think is super important to ones sense of self worth either way. I wish you the best of luck with both youtube and the lovecraftian and existential nightmare called life ❤ liked and subbed
Damn this really struck a chord with me! I’m in a similar place right now with self esteem and lack of self worth, and it’s so so difficult to challenge those thoughts, especially when they’ve been reinforced from such an early age like you described. I really appreciate what you’re doing. It’s comforting to hear people talk so openly about things like this! Keep up the good work soldier 💪
I see you man... the no self belief do be ingrained into every conversation alongside knowing I'm good at things and being above mildly intelligent(at least I think so).
Man, you're doing your best, and that's all anyone can ever reasonably ask you to do. I had to teach myself everything because I had neglectful, shitty parents. I stood alone in a 24hr laundromat watching video tutorials on my phone on how to do laundry when I was 25. You're not alone in this, and no matter what anyone tells you, there isn't a soul on this earth who is good at everything. Cameron, I don't know you from Adam, but I do know that you have so much potential. I believe in you, dude. Even if no one else does, I believe in you.
this makes me so sad. i wish you could understand that you are you, and nobody else. im 20 right now and dont have shit going for me. i think a way you can help is to speak to people who feel like you, but convey that having any skill at all makes you completely invaluable- and it doesnt even have to be a skill, it can be the aspiration to gain a skill. you are more than you think you are.
I can promise there is nothing you have felt that hasn't been felt before. And i hope you dont take this as a bad thing, it's not a competition, its more of a reassurance (for me anyway). It doesn't make your feeling any less significant, it's just comfortable to know that in the grand scheme of the cosmos, you're one with everything that's come before and everything that'll come after. Embrace your writing, don't wait too long
brother i will say it to you in the most clear way you are human you just like that and its fine bro the thing is when you fucked up somthing you will learn from it and withe that you move on and bro..i feel the same as you do the feeling you are alone and lonley and lost in thots and fear from waht you can and cant do...but you need to overcame your fear and withe time you will look back at your old selfe and you will smile and say "that was not so hard" so i feel you brother and if you need someone to talk we can talk and help you as much as i can
Hey there man I have to go into work in a moment but I think you are worthy of respect, intrinsically. I hope you're able to know what virtues you posses that help you feel competent and like you're expressing that worth to others. Thanks for posting these videos, it's not easy to be vulnerable in front of the whole world.
I sometimes mess up with cooking too, it happens. Those friends don't really sound like friends (those who made those nasty comments). You are not a loser. Life is hard, even for people who look like they are doing better than you. I have a job right now but I am miserable about it, not sure if I should continue. I have also been unemployed for longer times (at 25 too, I am 35 now).
You wanna cook chicken breast in the oven at 375°F until it's 165°F on the inside. Idk if you have a thermometer or not but they help a lot. Gotta make sure you cut the chicken breast in half lengthwise before putting it in the oven otherwise it'll take too long. Or you could cut it into small pieces, that works too I do that when I cook chicken milanese for the family. Comes out really tender instead of being a tire to chew on like chicken breast tend to feel.
I think you have massive self confdence issues you should really consider going to therapy to work through. The way you speak and enumerate your thoughts show to me that you are infact intelligent. The thing I've always thought of when it comes to intelligence is that it is impossible to get another perspective on how their mind works. All you can do is compare the outside factors, what they say, do, have accomplished but never how their mind works. Because of this, it's so easy to put yourself down and think you're stupid at any small mistake, even when your thinking can be much more complicated than another person's. All you can ever understand is how you work and you cant compare yourself to others because its only gonna kill your self confidence. Burning food is no big deal in the grand scheme of things, in a week, month, years you wont remember that. Ive messed up meals many times and instead of taking it to the heart I just laugh it off and try to learn my lession. You can always buy more and you shouldn't force your self to eat it because you are mad at your self for being dumb, that's highly corssive to your self worth. Your hyperfixated on your failures and the words of others that hurt you when they don't matter at all. Its hard to get respect from others when you don't respect your self; other people can detect that lack in self confidence. Please go to therapy or get help in some way, I really think your life would start improving if your confidence improved. These videos seem to be a good start and your message at the end is the perfect way of saying things, just be your self unabashadly. Also I would put the low view videos back up as a playlist, I'm curious to watch them now
I wish I could have a conversation through the screen right now, I have so many thoughts about what you said, but it would be even more of an essay of a comment than it already is. It doesn't matter if you're good or bad at things, although considering some of your stories you are probably amazing at some things. Even a lot of people at the top of what they do feel like they're not good, but the experiences they have and the comparison with other people tells them that they are. You even mentioned a few of those experiences you've had yourself. But that feeling is important because if people didn't have that, then they would not strive to be better. But of course there will be experiences for the opposite as well, kinda like the "friends" ridiculing you for the spaghettios. There's always going to be someone better than you even at your best things, you can only do your best. And as for the life skills you say you're bad at, everything has a learning curve. Fighting games, writing, sports, music, cooking, cleaning, literally anything. You mentioned not having a reference for when something is "good". Well everyone has a different reference, like my family and friends think I'm an amazing guitarist, but going to music school, being in the scene and seeing soooo many musicians that are sooooooooooooo much better than me, my reference of good is a hell of a lot different, and I really don't feel like I'm very good. Again that can be applied to anything, cooking, gaming, sports, etc. That's why being good at things shouldn't matter. And not to be cynical but the end of the day, whether you're the best or the worst at something, we all end up the same way, so do your best to enjoy the time you have and make life good for yourself and who you care about.
You are absolutely right, you HAVE to trust yourself. You seem intelligent enough to me. Maybe try music? Im a musician and i feel like its the only thing that makes sense in my life... and the fact that you have writing chops means maybe theres a songwriter in there. Having a tangible sense of mastery (over anything) i think is super important to ones sense of self worth either way. I wish you the best of luck with both youtube and the lovecraftian and existential nightmare called life ❤ liked and subbed
Damn this really struck a chord with me! I’m in a similar place right now with self esteem and lack of self worth, and it’s so so difficult to challenge those thoughts, especially when they’ve been reinforced from such an early age like you described. I really appreciate what you’re doing. It’s comforting to hear people talk so openly about things like this! Keep up the good work soldier 💪
I see you man... the no self belief do be ingrained into every conversation alongside knowing I'm good at things and being above mildly intelligent(at least I think so).
Man, you're doing your best, and that's all anyone can ever reasonably ask you to do. I had to teach myself everything because I had neglectful, shitty parents. I stood alone in a 24hr laundromat watching video tutorials on my phone on how to do laundry when I was 25. You're not alone in this, and no matter what anyone tells you, there isn't a soul on this earth who is good at everything. Cameron, I don't know you from Adam, but I do know that you have so much potential. I believe in you, dude. Even if no one else does, I believe in you.
this makes me so sad. i wish you could understand that you are you, and nobody else. im 20 right now and dont have shit going for me. i think a way you can help is to speak to people who feel like you, but convey that having any skill at all makes you completely invaluable- and it doesnt even have to be a skill, it can be the aspiration to gain a skill. you are more than you think you are.
I can promise there is nothing you have felt that hasn't been felt before. And i hope you dont take this as a bad thing, it's not a competition, its more of a reassurance (for me anyway). It doesn't make your feeling any less significant, it's just comfortable to know that in the grand scheme of the cosmos, you're one with everything that's come before and everything that'll come after. Embrace your writing, don't wait too long
brother i will say it to you in the most clear way
you are human you just like that and its fine bro the thing is when you fucked up somthing you will learn from it and withe that you move on and bro..i feel the same as you do the feeling you are alone and lonley and lost in thots and fear from waht you can and cant do...but you need to overcame your fear and withe time you will look back at your old selfe and you will smile and say "that was not so hard" so i feel you brother and if you need someone to talk we can talk and help you as much as i can
Hey there man I have to go into work in a moment but I think you are worthy of respect, intrinsically. I hope you're able to know what virtues you posses that help you feel competent and like you're expressing that worth to others. Thanks for posting these videos, it's not easy to be vulnerable in front of the whole world.
be kind to yourself! life's negatives always seem more bold than life's positives. take care of yourself!
dont worry i respect u man 💯💯
I sometimes mess up with cooking too, it happens. Those friends don't really sound like friends (those who made those nasty comments). You are not a loser. Life is hard, even for people who look like they are doing better than you. I have a job right now but I am miserable about it, not sure if I should continue. I have also been unemployed for longer times (at 25 too, I am 35 now).
project: life fix? maybe or like here we go, or something fun
You wanna cook chicken breast in the oven at 375°F until it's 165°F on the inside. Idk if you have a thermometer or not but they help a lot. Gotta make sure you cut the chicken breast in half lengthwise before putting it in the oven otherwise it'll take too long. Or you could cut it into small pieces, that works too I do that when I cook chicken milanese for the family. Comes out really tender instead of being a tire to chew on like chicken breast tend to feel.
I think you have massive self confdence issues you should really consider going to therapy to work through. The way you speak and enumerate your thoughts show to me that you are infact intelligent. The thing I've always thought of when it comes to intelligence is that it is impossible to get another perspective on how their mind works. All you can do is compare the outside factors, what they say, do, have accomplished but never how their mind works. Because of this, it's so easy to put yourself down and think you're stupid at any small mistake, even when your thinking can be much more complicated than another person's. All you can ever understand is how you work and you cant compare yourself to others because its only gonna kill your self confidence. Burning food is no big deal in the grand scheme of things, in a week, month, years you wont remember that. Ive messed up meals many times and instead of taking it to the heart I just laugh it off and try to learn my lession. You can always buy more and you shouldn't force your self to eat it because you are mad at your self for being dumb, that's highly corssive to your self worth. Your hyperfixated on your failures and the words of others that hurt you when they don't matter at all. Its hard to get respect from others when you don't respect your self; other people can detect that lack in self confidence. Please go to therapy or get help in some way, I really think your life would start improving if your confidence improved. These videos seem to be a good start and your message at the end is the perfect way of saying things, just be your self unabashadly.
Also I would put the low view videos back up as a playlist, I'm curious to watch them now
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