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Not for the first time, I made a video about why I've been struggling to make a video lately. It's depression.
So let's talk about how depression tends to manifest for me and what I've been doing to distract myself from it and how I want to be more aware of it to pull away from this feeling.
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TheJunieBird comes from an old nickname I had as a camp counselor for a minute. It's also a slight nod to my sister and I's nickname for each other, Jojo. On my channel I vlog about failing at adulthood (#adulting) and whatever else is on my mind. Topics such as television and media come up alongside thoughts on faith and sexuality. Sometimes I sing cover songs or do spoken word poetry. It's really a bit of a mixed bag around here.
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[@kujmous]

I've never made an actual swear jar, but I've learned my depression uses certain words. Always, never and forever are used to take my hope. Everybody and nobody are used to distance me from help. Should and just are used to rob me of my self worth. This list helps me hear the depression coming on.

[@RachelAnn]

This is a really good thing to be aware of. I'll have to start to notice if my depression has it's own vocabulary.

[@MicahRion]

Thanks for talking about this :) Depression is so sneaky and it's a relief hearing someone talk about what it feels like during an episode, not just after when the clouds have cleared.

[@MellieIRL]

Love you!

[@BeverleyButterfly]

Hey there beautiful I missed your face! Depression is so sneaky it creeps up and you don’t realise you are isolating yourself and not eating, or might just have been my January. But thank you for making this it’s so important we keep being seen even when depressed because we matter and this illness tells us we don’t the more we speak out the less people feel alone. Take care lovely you got this I believe in you xx

[@RachelAnn]

Exactly. I'm tired of depression isolating me. Calling it out for what it is breaks not only the stigma around it, but has helped me break off my depression even. You are amazing and I hope you are surrounded with love always.

[@BeverleyButterfly]

Rachel Ann we are both amazing and worth the world! If ever you need to talk I follow you on Instagram beverleybutterflyxx

[@Hallieisntbritish]

I really loved this. I hope your path out of the pit is short, and let me know if you ever want to talk :)

[@lucency]

I get the sneaking up thing. It was literally years before I realized it.

[@RachelAnn]

Yeah. It makes me wonder how much of my life has been influenced by depression without me realizing it. I try not to overly scrutinize college and high school because I know that wouldn't be helpful in the end.

[@JustAPeachyt]

Proud of you.. Love you. Depression is a sneaky lying asshole, you are a very good person. You got this kiddo