Schizophrenia Onset and Hospitalization
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 21 ก.ย. 2024
- Today I describe the onset of my schizophrenia. I had been having hallucinations my entire life, but this is when they started to become severe. I also describe some of my experiences in a mental hospital.
your remarks are clear and lucid. you seem to be in a better place right now. I have the illness too and was also in the hospital for a few weeks. I think that you can adjust and live a productive life provided you have good friends, good doctors with effective treatment, and you can find ways to stay socialized. the thing that I struggle with is insight. I had a very productive and successful life before I got sick. and while I lack insight during an episode or actually in most things I do in real time, I can look back and see my mistakes and poor judgement. I also know what I have lost. I think if you are intelligent and have insight it is a death sentence. I don't mean to be pessimistic. one piece of advice I can give is forget the life you used to have and what skills you have lost. I can't forget and I think I am done. if you have friends and can work or do something to stay socialized, you can do okay. maintain your treatment and avoid drugs and alcohol. best of luck to you. thank you for sharing your story.
I can definitely relate to the problems that come from these cognitive problems. I used to have a good source of income programming for a well known corporation. Since my onset coding is much harder, even more so for interacting with coworkers. I'm working on relearning these skills but it's very slow. I've recently moved cross country and it's been difficult to adapt and be social. I truly believe that anybody can overcome these issue and other issues that come from these disorders. It is extremely difficult, but it's definitely worth it.
I'm definitely lucky when it comes to insight. I think part of that is because I've had hallucinations for a very long time before my actual onset. Practicing grounding techniques, medication, and making questioning your perceptions a habit are what helps me stay lucid the most. Still, it's really not easy. I wish you the best with what you've been dealing with.
Just remember you're not alone. There's plenty of people online you can get support from and people out there who can empathize with your issues and help you with them. TH-cam and Reddit have been great places to listen to and interact with people who understand the struggles. I wish you the best in overcoming the problems you've been dealing with and thank you for this helpful comment. I think othe people will think what you've said is very helpful.
My Odd Experiences thanks for your note. you have a different take on having insight and that is good. I have been sick for 7 years now with few (and very short in duration) periods of remission. my symptoms have worsened over time. the illness hit me fairly late in life. I have a graduate degree from a top school and 12 years experience in my profession. I have read many medical studies in search of answers beyond what doctors tell me. what I found was not promising for me given the progression of the illness. there are varying degrees of severity in this illness and that hopefully provides some comfort to you. about 1/3 fully recover and another 1/3 recover partially. so, 67% chance of some kind of recovery. I would advise you to do as much work in your profession as you can as soon as you can. skills deteriorate naturally without use, the illness notwithstanding. I read this study written by Roy Baumeister called suicide as escape from the self. his model is apparently the industry standard on this topic. I think I read it out of morbid curiosity. according to his model there are 6 criteria that place a person at high risk of suicide. I crossed the 6th rule (inhibition) in his model recently. I do not know why I need a study to tell me what I already know but there it is. I think in some respects you are right about recovering some portion of your skills but this has alluded me despite significant effort. I will exhaust the treatment options available. I am taking TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation) again. it helped the depression. I wish you the best luck in recovering your skill set and happiness.
Another very helpful comment. Thank you, I'm sure a lot of people with comparable issues can be helped by this and more easily identify their faults and how to improve on them.
Your experience sounds so much like my own that it made me cry. I was just diagnosed this March. Thank you for sharing. It helps to not feel so alone.
I feel for you dude. I was diagnosed in 1993. Back then the medications had side effects worse than the illness. I've had my ups and downs and have been in and out of the hospital at least a dozen times over the years. I am now on a cocktail of six meds. I'm living on SSDI and am relatively stable but not completely symptom free. It's hard because I feel I have to hide it. Some people STILL see mental illness as some sort of moral shortcoming. Thank you from all of us for coming out like this. It's very brave.
WanderingMogwai The medications keep him out of the hospital. Don't talk about things you know nothing about.
Read before you assume you know something. I'm on medications and know how hard it is. The meds "BACK THEN" I said were horrible. The side affects. I also said that now I am on meds. Jesus. Why am I even responding to someone who obviously is trolling...!
Medications still have side effects worse than the illness lol
What a terrible ordeal to go through!! Hope you continue feeling better.
I love that your professor came to you after class and asked what's going on. It was a caring thing to do, and brave too. Many people don't want to interfere unfortunately and look the other way. I hope you're doing well today.
My son has suffered like you but I see in him strength and resilience that you both share. God bless.
this interview gives us so much insight to your feelings and what you are going through.
I appreciate you talking about these problems. I too have schizophrenia but mine was more delusions than hallucinations. I hope that you have recovered enough to live a normal life now. i still can't work due to panic attacks. i hope that your hallucinations have gotten alot better now.
I can't even imagine how terrified you must have been. Thank you for sharing I think most people don't understand how debilitating schizophrenia can be. Have they tried Cognitive Behavioral Therapy along with the meds. From what I understand it can be very helpful. Also check into the organization Mad in America they use peer support and have had pretty good success. My son is treatment resistant so he is always in a delusional state. Never at anytime is he clear minded enough for counseling to help. He has maintained his care, concern and generosity toward others and for that I'm thankful.
Genuinely the most terrifying disease. The brain is fucking powerful in the worst way sometimes.
I have bipolar and I have actually experienced a lot of the same things as you! I just want to say how awesome you are to be where you are now! (I also see from your channel you have newer videos.) I was afraid to eat and drink too, buddy! I get it. I had, not only a demon, but what I thought was the devil after me. It was super scary! I also take seroquil and depakote and lithium. Always know that you are loved, you are looked after, and, did I mention, you are loved!
we lost my brother in law last year from the disease. I've been trying to understand why. thank you for telling your story
I am sorry for your loss. Unfortunately many people with this disorder have a lot of trouble overcoming these issues. It is very hard or impossible for somebody with these issues to see a future without all the pain and fear. Even when somebody is making progress, psychosis can make it feel like all of your reality will forever be like how it is in the moment. I hope the best for your family with coping with his passing.
Riley Butterfield I'm so sorry for your loss. I don't think there is a "why" they have identified what causes it but it will be years before they can figure out how to prevent it. The US is way behind some of the European countries as far as treatment goes. Again, I'm so sorry.
Lavel Wise 1/10 people with schizophrenia kill themselves..
@My odd experiences. You're right brother. Heaps good description of Psychosis.
Yeah im sorry to hear that my brother thought that the government was chasing him and they were everywhere and they were aliens and at a point he thought that me and my brothers were Aliens 2 and he ran away from home and he's been gone for about 7 years he's homeless right now and we can't find him
I have had schizophrenia for 19 years and this was very helpful
Very brave and helpful to share these awful experiences. Let's all be open about our mental deseases and let the world know. I am convinced this will help tremendously with the acceptation of society.
That sounds absolutely terrifying
What horrible experiences you've delt with. The mind is such a powerful thing, and sometimes that seems to work to our disadvantage, especially in illnesses such as these. I grew up with a schizophrenic father, who passed over 10 years ago now, but I am always interested in hearing other peoples stories, and learning more. Thank you for sharing. I hope you are doing well.
My aunt had this disease. She was put on Haldol and Cogentin and then her hallucinations disappeared. After that she was ok.
So you will get better!! ❤
Thank you for making this video. It's so helpful to hear about these experiences from a first person perspective.
Be strong man, i know its probably the scariest thing anyone could probably go through but you have to keep fighting one day at a time
I hope you get good financial and familial support and at least have one or two friends who're sticking it out with you. Those things make all the difference. I'm also diagnosed with schizophrenia, though not currently medicated. Anyway, I wish you the very, very best and hope you take really good care of yourself. You majorly deserve a break after all of the suffering you've gone through!
I was diagnosed nearly tean years ago. for the first seven and a half years I fought the diagnosis. I tried to rationalize that it was the trauma in my youth.
So sorry you had to go through this, it sounds like the worst disease ever. Just horrible. So glad you're better.
Strong, brave man. Thanks for opening up.
Thank you mister! You have no idea how strong you are.
Your videos are very enlightening, Thanks for taking the time. I am glad I stumbled across them . Best wishes mate. I really enjoyed your artwork in the other video. You have a good skill at describing what the actual experience is like, and you seem to have reached a lot of people already. Keep on keeping on man, you rock.
Thank you very much. I am so happy to have had an influence on so many people. My ability to put thoughts into words has been worse lately, and some other non-medical issues have made it harder for me to make videos. I'm sorry to everybody about the gap between videos but I'm researching two topics and hope to get more videos out soon and make these videos a regular thing again.
No rush, just take it easy and stay positive. Thanks for the reply. Looking forward to the videos!
My dear brother Our Lord loves you so much have faith !!! God bless you i have the same illness Jesus loves you
Hang in there Alec. You can do it.
I'm praying for you. May you heal and stay strong. Thank you for sharing, blessings to you from our Lord
Thank you for sharing your story....you will help so many and help yourself in return....you're brave....a sweet and kind soul shines through you hun.....keep doing what you're doing
Thank you so much for sharing. My son was diagnosed about 6 months ago with schizophrenia after a hospital stay. He does not share all his symptoms with me and I respect his privacy, but I also wish I knew what he goes through just so I can know and help him. He doesn't talk much too often. He has gotten better than he was months ago though.
Oh my!!! I think my son have schizophrenia. Taking him to the doctor tomorrow. I hope he'll go .., right now he doesn't trust anybody.
Tessie Nelson I know this is late, and I'm sorry about your son. Schizophrenia is pretty rare and can't be diagnosed unless symptoms are present for 6+ months. If your son does have some sort of psychosis, it's more likely to be a short term psychotic disorder. Hopefully these symptoms will pass. If not, you can still be supportive and he'll get better overtime with your help. Best wishes to you and your son.
Sam D There's a lot of info out there you can look into to better understand the disorder. It's good you respect his privacy and support him. The more you know the more you could figure out what's going on with him. Offering help and praise when appropriate really helps even if it doesn't look like it does. I hope the best for both of you, and I appreciate you being a supportive parent. That's not easy for any parent with a child with mental illness
Very sorry you've gone through this God bless you
Thank you for sharing your story. My son has it but currently doesnt believe it. Too him, we all are doing this horrible thing to him. I will pray for you young man.
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Alex, I have Schizophrenia also. I am controlled by medication so that I do not suffer anymore. I work in the field of mental health as a Peer Support Specialist.
It is fantastic that you have chosen such a difficult but important line of work. Despite how hard your life may have been, you are helping so many people overcome their issues. I hope you are very proud of yourself, you absolutely deserve it.
My hallucinations were Auditory.
That is clairaudient. No need for medicine to rid yourself of a great gift. You just need to learn how to control it.
wtf are you talking about? This is not a stubbed toe he is talking about. This is an illness that previous to the meds being discovered would have someone put away for life. Don't EVER tell someone to stop taking their meds. It's hard enough coming to grips that you need them without some a-hole like you making it harder!
I am the significant other if a 50 year old man who has had trauma after trauma throughout his entire life, starting as a child with the accidental death of his sibling, witnessed by his entire family. The very last traumatic incident was the death of his mother, who was the only foundation of his family. He didn't grieve very much at all, which I was very observant of. About 1 month after her death my boyfriend woke me up at 1:30 am, claiming he saw "a dark haired man leaning against his truck in our driveway and staring at us through the window in the front door". I thought he was having a nightmare, tried to comfort him, but he started to get irritable, anxious and panicky that I did not see this man. I went outside and walked around the entire truck to prove the man was not there. The delusions and hallucinations got very much worse over the next 2 months. He stopped eating. Drank nothing but energy drinks to stay awake because he would not sleep for days at a time. He looked like death. I had to call out of work often because he continued to wake me up hourly because "drones were drilling holes in our roof to plant devices in our house to spy on us; to poison us, to watch us take showers, and eventually kill us". I woke up one night to see him with a handgun pacing back and forth at the end of the bed mumbling he was going to "shoot the people trying to get in our house and invading our privacy". The gun was on safety, but was loaded. I was so scared I moved in with my mom and dad two months ago. I was able to take my boyfriend to a psychiayrist who has put him on antipsychotics, antidepressants, and a sleeping aide. I cannot imagine the deep, deep terror and fright that this man must be feeling. Everyone looks at him like he's a crazy nutjob and just walks away. I left for safety reasons but my heart has been shattered into a billion pieces and I will not stop loving or supporting this man. I want to move back in but under the requirements that he stays 100% religious about taking his medications and keeping doctor's appointments. I see now that perhaps this was the time I was created for.
thank you for sharing your experiences with schizophrenia, very informative
God bless you telling your story..KEEP THE FAITH..
This is the only video of yours that I've watched so far but you have had some frightening experiences!. You relate these experiences so well; you are a good communicator. I just know you will get back to normal and achieve what you want in your life. I guess everyone tells you that what you describe is like a really bad acid trip. Well it is true-- are you sure that somebody didn't slip something in your drink that night at the bar? People your age can have flashbacks out of the blue, after one real bad trip. The experiences you describe of seeing things melt, the image in the mirror not matching reality, seeing faces, bodies, and so much more. For some people a really bad trip can repeat itself even if you don't take any more drugs. So what you say is true that drugs and alcohol can mess with your mind. I'm just curious that maybe someone drugged you that first night without your consent using a hallucinogen. Well, one thing for sure --> you seem to be a WHOLE lot better and I wish the best for you, that you can stay in school and finish college and have a good life. Your friend that first night sounds like a nice person, calming and caring. Thank goodness you had someone to be there and helping to calm you. May you only know peace and success from now on. 👌🤗
". . . get back to normal . . ."? No, you won't. You will not want to be normal ever again. Normal people are voting for Trump, the Nazis, and Republicans who want to kill social security and medicare. Normal people want endless war to reduce the population. Normal people are voting for people who want to enslave those of us who must work for a living. Believe me, if you are not normal, then you are very likely a very good person with a few issues. Being normal really sucks right now, and you won't understand how anyone would want, or aspire, to being normal.
You are an exceptionally gifted and creative young man and so brave and unselfish to share your life and experience with others. Do you paint or play a musical instrument ...or write? You sound like an Artist to me. I wrote this comment before you mentioned drawing...that's confirmation for you. Lots of Love...you're doing just great!
Eltrelda Lopez Thank you for all the praise :) it really helps me get through the day.
I am probably one of the least talented people when it comes to music. I might be tone deaf, hard to say.
Artistically, I almost only draw. I only seriously started after my onset and it’s very therapeutic, so I don’t see myself stopping. I paint too but it is much more difficult for me. I love art but I’d only call myself an artist if I could consistently make sellable work. Still learning fundamentals.
More than anything I’m a left brained person though, I like programming apps and games and hope to make a career out of that.
thank you for sharing your experience. I hope you continue to feel better.
You're very brave.
Im very glad that your doing better it hurts me to know what your going through cuz my dad has paranoid schizophrenia and hes off his meds after getting back on his feet he threw it all away
Great video! reminds me of my first breakdown in many ways, except I thought that There was a micro chip in my body and that i was being tracked and followed I had many delusions and heard voices, it was scary
Your a sweetie. My heart aches for you. We are here for you and thank you for sharing with us how it felt having schizophrenia.
I had an ex bf that has it. We broke up. Not because of his diagnosis but because of his controlling sister. I decided to end it because he needed his sister more than me.
Anyways. I’m glad you got the help you desperately needed. It’s been 6 years since this video.
I hope your able to function and able to get through it and able to sleep even so.
Hugs. We believe you. And God is with you always.
As well as us who have a Big warm heart for your suffering.
God bless and many many beautiful colors instead. Xo
Those are some cool drawings man. I couldn't stay long though cause I don't want to get triggered. Its good to see another video and I'm glad you're doing well. The last time I left a comment I was in a psychotic episode so hopefully I didn't say anything dumb. The voices in my head become quite obsessive and loud not only driving me up a wall but eventually achieving the point to which I can no longer tell who is who and begin to belive that they're taking over me and that a demon is following me around making all these bad thing happen. but I did get my diagnosis. SZA bipolar type. Not surprised really there's like 5 know people in my family with this dx.
Thank you. I will keep in mind to give trigger warnings if I talk about anything that could disturb anyone who is suggestible like many people with schizophrenia and similar disorders can be. I'm one of those people who is suggestible, so I should have known better and I apologize. If I see any comments that are hostile to people with these issues I will delete them as soon as I am aware of them. It is one of the only cases where I'll censor my comments.
Wow, thank you for your courage for sharing this.
Thank you.formshaeingnyour experience , I hope you can deal w living with such an impairing illness , all the best to you , much love
Amazing drawings and animations you've made and put on tumblr. About the eye. My schizophrenic friend complained to me that he sees eye on his tummy, one eye. I was wondering whether you ever saw this before? Now, why I'm asking before and not now is very important, because now that you've read this info about someone seeing an eye on their stomach might trigger such a hallucination in you from this point forward, that's why I'm asking whether you had such hallucination ever before. Because if you did and I live in a different country than you and you do not know me nor my friend and you had those, then this would be a mind boggling and mind-blowing fact. Also I'm asking this because I saw your drawings and noticed an eye in a triangle, like illuminati things you can see all around, in movies, in tv shows, ads, etc.
hey, what's his tumblr? I'd be interested in checking it out.
Beautiful soul, God bless you
I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but have been diagnosed with depression with psychotic symptoms. I do have synesthesia, which causes me to hear sounds when I touch things. It's hard to distinguish between an auditory hallucination or my synesthesia.
You got this! Where can we see your paintings? x
I find your videos really enjoyable
Thank you for this video. A very close relative of mine is being assessed for psychosis after hearing voices and hallucinating. He has had an anxiety disorder for several years. Is there a link between extreme anxiety and the onset of a psychotic illness such as schizophrenia?
Sorry, I have just read #Mental Restoration's post and it seems like the question of a correlation between extreme anxiety and psychosis has already been raised.
U mentioned that u could see empty space instead of hallucination itself and you could feel that the hallucination was there, while on medication. That was kind of perplexing, because of how confusing it is to comprehend it just from listening to your account.
Schizophrenia is caused from something not talked about in the medical profession. Please look at Jelaila Starr's video called Higher Perspective on Schizophrenia.
That sound so scary ! I would have ran or told my friend to bring me to the hospital!
Thanks for watching! If you're interested in seeing drawings and paintings of my current hallucinations, check them out here booty-mcscootie.tumblr.com
Feel free to ask any questions :)
love your art work im an artist myself and l have scizoaffective disorder l used to have a lot of hallucinations but now l am on meds l don't get them keep the art up they are great
Horrifying images! I wonder what is really going on in the brain that causes this.
Have you tried latuda? It is a new one I'm on and works for me and doesn't sedate! Thank you for this video. I hope you're well.
aww geez i hope you better god bless you dear
Hey. Good to hear you're doing better. I'd like to check out your tumblr, sounds interesting.
I pray that you find the you get the right medication to end your suffering.
I have found a combination of medication that has helped me a lot. Lots of these medications are sedatives though so I've been very tired and lazy most days which is one reason I've stopped making videos for so long. With how much my channel has grown and how much these videos have helped people, I owe it to myself and all of you to start making videos again. Expect more soon, and thank you for your concern.
you are strong ... Keep going on 👍🌺
You said you've had hallucinations all your life. What was your first hallucination that you remember? At what age did you first see it/what were some common one's as you've been getting older? Lately I've been hearing an old mans voice talking, and it's just like you describe it. For me, it's like I'm eavesdropping in a conversation outside closed doors. I can't make out any words the voice is saying, it's just murmuring. This has only happened a couple of times though. Another time I hallucinated the piano playing. It was actually really beautiful haha. (btw, i'm not diagnosed w anything, and my psychiatrist said that the voices are probably from stress/anxiety... but I'm just not sure :/ )
Sending you my best wishes.
Horrible hallucinations. Wow. I hear mostly mean voices people talk about. I have GAD and panic disorder. Not cognitive disorders. Thank goodness.
Your artwork is profound. I follow a contributor on Reddit that claims schizophrenics were the shamans of preindustrial civilization. Your artwork makes me think he is correct. Hope you are well
I get the shadow people in the corner of my eye sometimes. usually when I'm tired at work or something. it's frightening for sure, knowing that it wasn't real
I was on Seroquel my god what a drug it defiently makes you sleep glad I got off it.
Your case is bad kid. I jus discover your channel. You are too afraid of things, I identify with that. The best route you can take is get stronger. Exercise, try to socialize more, don't give too much importance to criticism. Become more independent. Become what people call an alpha Male. Basically as you let go of fears and insecurities this negative waves will become less demonic and weaker. Your mind is telling you that you are weak, and it's defeating you.
Jesus can help you with this He helped me with my mental health disorder the word of God really helps
Hi Just wondering was this after schizophreniaform diagnosis? And were you taking your medications at the time?
This was before any diagnosis except for generalized anxiety disorder. I had some psychotic symptoms like paranoia and milf hallucinations but was not formally diagnosed with anything until my onset where the symptoms got much worse,
At that time I was hospitalized, then I was diagnosed with schizophreniform and given medication. Before my onset I only took meds for anxiety.
Cool story broter
Tell it again
I have schizoaffective disorder I find it pretty challenging in terms of dealing with my symptoms such as both auditory and visual hallucinations, extreme mood swings, racing thoughts, disorganised speech and agitation to name a few, and in recent months I have completed CBT therapy, anyone have any decent coping strategies?
When you say "injection of thoughts and visions in my mind" what do you mean? I am sorry for asking but I think I am going through the same thing.
Samtaplet At this period in time, I felt what I thought were demons, mostly touching my back, shoulders, and head. During or before intense hallucinations, I had stabbing pains in my head. It felt like all of these hallucinations and sensations were injected into my brain. I have frequent migraines which probably contributed. Now hallucinations just come in waves, and I usually don't feel like it's an outside force like I used to.
If your not a Christian of you give your life to Jesus he will help you
The doctors put me in 900 mg of seriquel which is soooooo high, i ended up overdosing and i took 90 300 mg of seriquel and 90 2 mg clonzapam.... i was in a coma for a few weeks. ..... anyways that was off topic. Hope you stay doing well :)
Amberlei Moon Thank you for sharing. Even when doctors know what their doing, or if people try it recreationally, seroquel should never be messed around with. Hopefully your comment will change somebody's mind.
sorry about double posting ...... well triple now. glitch in my phone
A question were you doing drugs at the time sounds like a bad LSD trip
Roy boy Just benzodiazepines. I took maybe 20ish doses between onset and hospitalization. Maybe more. It’s abuse and it might have made anxiety worse when it wore off.
A lot of people say that about bad trips. To me trips on deliriants sound more like this than bad trips on LSD or mushrooms.
On TH-cam a lot of bad trip reports on LSD say they had horrible panic attacks, delusions, thought loops. The hallucinations are scarier but not completely different than normal. Not that bad trips aren’t as scary as what I went though.
Look into Benadryl trips. They sound worse than psychosis in some ways. People are covered in spiders, shadow people, monsters surround them. People have conversations with people they know who aren’t really there, and they’re like horror movie clones.
I’ve seen horrible entities and bugs on me. Shadow people too. I can’t say which is worse and much on how they’re different, but Benadryl sounds so much more similar to psychosis.
You took 200 mg of Ativan ? Lorazepam 10 mg 20 doses ?
I’m from London England
I’m takin 1200mg seroquel each day!!!
Yh I said 1200 mg that’s the highest dose given to a crazy person ever.
I’m crazy bin crazy for 23 years had every symptom you’ve had and then some.
I've had panic attacks and I'd sooner have a panic attack than be on anti-psychotics. Granted I've never had a spinning attack, except when drunk, this one time I got drunk and high on something (a la american psycho) and I straight thought one of my best friends was trying to kill me and I had spin attack. thankfully my hallucinations haven't been bad, just a shadow here a shadow there, no blood or dead things. though this one time I saw a wolf attack a moose. pretty bloody. there were salmon there too lots of salmon it was breeding season and the rivers were full of them. I love Alaska I want to go back but I'm a florida boy. It's in my blood so is alcoholism and drug abuse probs cancer too but that won't stop me. Nothing wrong with tap water bro. I've been drinking it since I was born. Tap water in Florida is the best., I treat it like a majick elixer, like potion of health. I got saved by a potion of health once. I was playing some dnd style game except it was in a dystopian radioactive setting like stalker, saved my life. blew the guys head off. Electromagnets are injecting thoughts into your brain that's why I use insulators used for XTP cables in my hats. Protects me from the Cylons. they're coming from the future to take over the world. I'm not sure if Synchrocity is real or if the whole world is in my head. too many coincidences the jews thrive on them "just a coincidence" they say my ass it's not a coincidence it's all planned from the beginning you think it's all just happenstance? bullshit they're pushing an agenda it's all happening to fast make it stop Arnold in my head in my kitchen in my bed when does he go away when I'm dead I'll become fey and that's the dead. bottled water and crackers sounds like me during college. Rice and onions that was my shit I love food but I can stand the not very flavoured shit. Ramen noodles for two weeks never again I can still taste salt on my lips.
btw if anti-psychotics help your soul then keep taking them dont' trust the doctors though they're all in on big pharm but take the drugs living hell is bad I know don't make shit up schizophrenia a big deal Wild Man Fischer best schizo around charles manson good too though shame he died loved his music Hurt yourself? I never go that thought this one time I got a splinter and tore my finger up trying to get it out never could play guitar as well agian I love 12 strings so beautiful sound I love em can't wait to get another I had one but I sold it to buy some rice gotta eat somehow I ate mostly rice in college rice and chicken boullion terrible for you but fills the belly my shit was small soft I almost got jaundice I got better though started eating brussel sprouts best with bacon and onions love that shit then there's fish nothing better than a catfish freshly fried this one time I was visiting an old friend of mine hadn't seen him in like 5 years but it was highschool so we grew a lot in a short amount of time did well in highschool got in trouble for writing a paper though thought I was gonna kill myslef or other people I caught a bass in a golf course pool of water they fill em you should seee it cool stuff just a tanker with a bunch of fish I went boogie boarding on Lake Griffan best shit ever shittiest lake ever Saw the monkies on Silver Springs cool shit spooky though a ghost town. Keep it up bro no one should die by suicide you got help and it helped good for you
are you okay? make an update video on how you are doing please
Hi, yes I'm okay. I've moved cross country and have had to make changes in my medication along with being very sick on and off. I've had poor motivation, family issues, and more trouble with speaking so I keep procrastinating with making videos. I'm sorry to you and all my other viewers for having to wait so long and worry. I am currently researching topics for upcoming videos so hopefully something will be out within two weeks at the most.
My son has no insight and is having his paranoia reinforced by the internet in the "gang stalking" / "targeted individual" community. How can I help him?
Is this "gang stalking" and "targeted individual" community a real one? This definitely happens to some people but it's important to make sure. If he is literally being stalked and harassed on the internet I'd recommend looking into using a VPN while being online. It is one way to make people think that he lives somewhere where he does not. If these people have access to his social networks it is probably a good idea to make a new profile on these networks using only new pictures which have never been posted before. Consider changing his username as well and use maximum privacy settings. This will make it very hard for online stalkers to find any of his accounts again and the VPN will make it very difficult or impossible to find his real location. Just be sure the VPN is not a virus. If your son plays video games, he should change his username and not reference his gaming username on his social networks. It might help if you helped him set all of this up. It could help him not have as much "what if" thought patterns which could fuel anxiety.
As for the paranoia, a therapist and/or psychiatrist may be the best way to help, especially if it is delusional paranoia. Google "grounding techniques" and "breathing exercises" to help with panic attacks and potential psychotic episodes. Over time it might get easier or harder for him, probably easier. If things get easier, you can work with him to slowly introduce him to situations which cause anxiety which worsens his quantity of life, get him a bit out of his comfort zone every once and a while and his anxiety may slowly improve as he learns that what he sees as danger isn't so dangerous. If this is delusional paranoia, wait on getting him out of his comfort zone. The best option is comforting him as a parent and seeking out psychiatric help and a therapist. As time goes on, let him know that you're seeing progress. Usually people with delusional paranoia don't see their progress.
I hope this helps, best wishes for you and your son.
Ur son is being stalked
I didn't realize I was hearing voices for years. I tried to kill myself to make them shut up. More damage. I haven't heard voices in a while. I've had some hallucinations, like shadow people, which I think are from my meds. Eloi and I have met a few times. I have hypnagogic hallucinations, but I've had those forever. Sometimes, I get ideas ,and I do stupid things. I've also been remembering things from my dreams in reality. I'm trying to just forget my dreams.
I have the same diagnose I saw shadow people I saw a Demon with red eyes but in my dreams I Dream always bad stuff, think it comes from the demon.
You may not ever want to talk about the trauma which triggered it which is okay but did it involve a car incident?
Try to eat ketogenıc dıet please. There ıs a you tube channel called" Doıng well with Schızophrenıc" she reduced her medıcatıon sınce havıng ketogenıc dıet. I am so sorry for what you went through.
You should be writing science fiction!
You are beautiful.
I see you have a bad thing in your haed. It's difficult for me to write in English so I can make mistakes in English sentences. Foreign languages can make you a big problem for your haed. Train your mind. Maybe it gives you to feel good a little. Russian grammar is very crazy. ☺️
Have faith to God
When ever i eat un prosesed meat i always have verey gorie vishuns of the animal with its skin torn off and bloud everey where and thats why i can only eat prosesed food with oddly the exeptoin of sushi.. it doesent make any sens sushi is raw thanks fo reading my coment have a grate day :)
Sounds like a very bad LSD trip!!!
Have you done acid or mushrooms?
I’ve done mushrooms, I had a positive experience but would still not recommend it to anyone predisposed to mental illness. That was all before my onset.
@@MyOddExperiences I recently started having bad experiences. Not this extreme, but the dead bodies and mirror stuff, and pits of worms were things I experienced years ago on shrooms. I'm worried that it will escalate. Thank you for sharing.
*This is "Freaking Scary" dude - I have alot of Skitso issues all my life (cant tell the difference, just part of my reality - but this sh.. Is freaky!!
Someone definitely slipped some LSD into your drink/drinks.
U cant tell me
trust God with all your hearth
how old were you ?
I think I was 22
Cover your self under the blood of Jesus
were you ever involved in Satanism or Satanic practice ? were you an avid horror fan ? why are you so special that a demon would come for you ? who is he/she and what's your connection to all these imaginings is what i wonder .
I was never involved in anything satanic, I don’t consume much horror content either.
Please do some research on psychosis and how professionals manage it. You’ll find that many problems relating to brain chemistry can cause these issues. Maybe it’s drugs, maybe it’s stress, maybe it’s genetics.
Medication has helped me overcome my psychosis and live a relatively normal life. After medication, I no longer believe in any form of demons and they are no longer a problem.
My psychosis caused delusions where I believed I was being watched / stalked by entities of some sort. This isn’t unusual for psychosis caused by schizophrenia or some drugs. When your brain isn’t functioning normally, it becomes easy to think things without evidence or proof. When medication or sobriety puts your brain chemistry into a normal range, these thoughts fade and reality becomes clear.
I am not going to say if supernatural entities exist or not, but I will say that they weren’t ever involved in my mental health. It is just a problem with my brain chemistry that is now mostly better.
In the future, if someone is not all there, please don’t assume supernatural phenomena are the cause. The fact that antipsychotics work for so many people should be reason enough to believe that psychosis is going on in the brain and isn’t a spiritual issue. Assuming psychosis is a spiritual problem could result in ineffective treatments like exorcisms which could traumatize someone who is psychotic or encourage delusional thinking.
Jesus casted out demons of people