It's not easy to take your own life. We are not built with a self destruct button. We are built to live forever, but through sin death became our wages. While you believe in God or not, no person that's ever lived believes death is natural or we wouldn't live in fear of it and panic when it comes for us. We all would fight to stay alive for as long as we could. Animals when dying often go off to die alone unlike us humans. I am wanting to die as soon as possible. I'm 60 years old and no longer give a toss about anyone. Humans are the disease in this world by destroying everything in their path. Greed, control, and power is what everyone wants. Yet all they get to be in life are f**king sheep doing as they are told (last two years proved that) and paying their hard earned money for the world masters to live in a life they are a custom to.
Hey I hope you're okay man. Hopefully it'll get better 👍 keep going for the little things!!! Like a good meal, a sunset or snow! Try and find the happiness when there isn't. Until then, I wish you luck man
Oh my gosh, I feel the same way. People usually get mad whenever someone with a "good and happy life" wants to die. They don't understand that anyone can have terrible thoughts. Depression doesn't care about how many possessions you have, or how many "friends" you have. Sadness is a very strange creature. It works in unknown ways, and can hurt even the happiest people.
To whoever listens to this playlist and reads the comment: I'm sorry. I know it's hard but you gotta keep pushing forward! I BELIVE IN YOU - even if I am just a random stranger from the internet. You are loved. I am proud of you bc of how far you've went! It must've been challenging BUT YOU DID IT! CONGRATULATIONS 👏🎉 I hope you get better soon and remember, that what is now your reality, after some time might become just a memory. It needs a lot of work BUT IT'S WORTH IT. I wouldn't be writing it now if somebody didn't tell me the same thing in the past... stay strong love
@@AnhTruong-dt5ef don't thank me Hun ;* You should be proud of yourself too! Look at you! You're so strong! I'm impressed ;)) Just keep going. Keep pushing. Keep trying. But remember to take breaks bc u are just a human being. I don't know your pronounce, I don't know your gender, your age, your nationality but what I know is that you are like the all of us and also as different and unique as you can be. You Are A Person; That needs time, space, support, rest, and all other stuff. So respect yourself. You are you, AND THAT'S GREAT! Might be hard but be yourself, express yourself, your feelings and speak up for yourself! It's very important bc it might actually change your way of living ^^ I hope that you (specifically) and all the ppl reading this find some peace of mind~ in this life time~ (U see what I did there? ;D) And I would just like to let you know that it's gonna be fine. Someday. You've got me if u need it. I've got your back so u can come back here to talk bestie
it hurts so much to think about suicide honestly yet it is so tempting. genuinely feeling worthless and i dont want my family to cope with a burden that i am. yet i still keep on living cause i dont wanna hurt them either, it sucks
to the person reading this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence, and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s the night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s the day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning, and so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s the evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you to a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug-like it's your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and a great year. Not mine but u can spread it :)
Whoever you are, thank you for writing this. I have not been having the best year, this honestly made me cry about how relatable it is. Looking forward to coming back here when I feel down.
i want to but im scared. I want to escape everyone and have eternal rest٫ but im not ready to experience physical pain like that. i dont even feel motivated to try and grab a knife to attempt. plus it feels like if i kill myself now then everything i worked hard for will go to waste. Im doing decent so im able to still try but ill always have a weird want for death
I had a friend for the first time in May 2022, and everything was going well until the emotional dependency finally came and I became so attached to this person that I can't imagine living without him. I already had big problems with my self-confidence, and it's even more the case now, and I can't imagine anyone ever loving me. This boy is quite popular at school, he knows almost everyone in the school, whereas I'm the opposite, nobody knows me and I don't know anyone. I was fine with that, being very introverted, my own company was enough. But when he came into my life, I just wanted to talk to him, laugh with him and finally just know the feeling of having a real friend to share all the stuff you see on TikTok with, and maybe just feel loved. Eventually our relationship started to become "basic" and he just sees me as a friend when I am the person I want to be with the most in my life. I know his whole life, he used to tell me everything that happened to him, while he knows almost nothing about me, not even my suicidal problems. I just want to die so I don't have to feel this emptiness inside me anymore, to leave this horrible world that probably doesn't accept me yet. Thank you for reading this far.
don’t kill yourself, its not worth it. i know it may seem like it won’t get better, but it will, i promise you it will. im not good at comforting people, but i hope this slightly helped, just know, if there are not people in real life that might care, other people might, its not all the same.
Dayum, it's been a year since I commented on this video. Well a lot happened but I'm glad that I'm getting stronger day by day. Bonus! My mental health is healing slowly but surely.
To anyone out there who needs this, I absolutely love you I love your smile I love your eyes I love your mouth I love your nose I love your ears I love your eyebrows I love your teeth I love your tongue I love your lips I love your hair (or lack thereof) I love your frown I love your hands I love your arms I love your elbows I love your chest I love your shoulders I love your waist I love your body I love your clothes I love your thighs I love your legs I love your shins I love your feet (Not in that way) I love your fashion taste I love your nails I love your nailpolish (or lack thereof) I love your skin I love your race I love your gender I love your attractions I will support your choices I will support your hobbies I will support your failures I will support your jobs I will support your school/job choice I will support your food choices I will support your house choice I will support your style I will support what you hate I will support what you love I will support what you like I will support who you like I will support you in general I will support you changing yourself I will support you staying yourself Your body is fine Your life is fine There is always people who love you There is always time for you to let out your feelings There is always someway to complete difficult activities There is always someone to teach you There is always a person to encourage you Your additude is fine Your style is fine Your choices are fine Your handwriting is fine Your obsessions are fine Your inking is fine Your calligraphy is fine Your itches are fine Your imperfections are fine Your perfections are perfect You are perfect in my eyes You are good enough in my eyes You have done so many things in my eyes I am proud of you for waking up I am proud of you for failing your exams I am proud of you for passing your exams I am proud of you for trying to complete your exams I am proud of you for being alive I am proud of you for not jumping I am proud of you for being you I am proud of you for following trends I am proud of you for not following trends I am proud of you for doing skincare I am proud of you for taking a bath I am proud of you for showering I am proud of you for brushing your teeth I am proud of you for eating I am proud of you for staying hydrated I am proud of you for going to school I am proud of you for going to work I am proud of you for getting a pay check I am proud of you for getting into your dream university I am proud of you for trying I love you for everything I love your for nothing I love you for living I love you for trying I love you for not giving up I love you - from mxchiri
I'm only 13 and I'm already feeling guilt , and regret I have been like this for 3 and a half years, i have been keeping my feelings to myself when it comes to my parents but I really don't think they would understand they never understand, sometimes its like I'm born to be a burden
It hurts to see younger folks feeling this way. When I was your age, I felt the same. Now, I'm gonna turn 22, and it's not really gottne better, ironically enough. Wish you the best.
Don’t say that everyone here is beautiful and you do deserve to be loved, and if anyone disagrees with me on this topic, they aren’t good. Even if am a stranger on the internet I really really care for all of you. (And if people don’t tell you this already, I love you so much!!! And you are the best thing that could have happened to this earth
i love you. its okay everything will be okay ml always just think when ur sad that you have so many people that care about you and if they heard you say that they will be so upset
When you get older it gets harder to see the light you once saw and eventually the lights gone there is nothing stopping you from being blind from the never ending darkness but a rare chance you find your light again
I don't know why but lately i feel like things are getting to much and i wanna die but i know that its a selfish thing to do as i once read that in this world where people say i would die for you, i feel like its quite a selfish thing as in this painful world dying for someone is an excuse to get an escape while proving your love for someone,so i chose to live in this world as a way of proving my love. For anyone who wants to commit, please don't . Just don't because your gonna regret it.
It's hard to kys when everytime you think about how you'll leave your friends and that the people who didn't care about you will laught and call you selfish and you feel the guilt of leaving your loved ones, I've attempted 8 times all failed and agter that I just start crying cause I think about how I would've left my close friends withouth them knowing.
I hope you are doing okay and everything is getting better. I know it hurts now, but you have valid emotions and feelings you need to let them out or risk tearing yourself apart from the inside out. You deserve the care and affection you want. You deserve to be heard when you speak, and I bet you have the loveliest, and the most beautiful things to say. Not only that but you have some of the wisest words of wisdom. I was suffering from dysmorphia and ed. Bullying in my school and domestic abuse in my house made it worse. My dad cheated on my mom and blamed her for being "not enough." I dropped school and fell into a strong depression and dissociation. I isolated myself for almost 3 years, it hurt me badly. I didn't know what to do or how to approach it. But I stayed silent about it for so many years, when I finally broke I had to be hospitalized. So talk to someone, please. You're important. You're not the only one who feels lost. You're not alone. You don't have to be like anyone. You deserve someone who will love you, and will miss you for who you are.
to anyone who reads this comment - remember that atleast you are trying your best. dont put any pressure. you have to live in life, not like living in hell. remember this note. for all the people who have been called 'fat' or 'monkey' , you are NOT that. i love who you are already. atleast someone does, and they appreciate you so much, theyd wish they could give you a hug. right now. every time someone says you of a bad thing, IGNORE. after a while, theyd stop bullying you. i wish yall a wonderful life, you arent a monkey or an pig. youre a person. remember to live a happy life.
++++^^^VENT^^^++++ My “F. R. I. E. N. D. S.” Say I’m “Weird” or something along the lines of “Omg )DEADNAME( is so STUPID~” and I just get so pissed off at them I want to die. And I’ve taken it as slight bullying. But I choose not to report them because I’ll get in trouble for a “FALSE REPORT” and they will yell at me and it will make me even more pissed and angry with myself
I am so lucky to have such supportive parents yet everyday nothing feels like it's right. I'm constantly guilty and constantly alone and nothing is working in my favour anymore. I'm so done
Hey. Hope you’re doing better these days. If you think you need to talk and don’t mind doing it here I’ll listen. Either way please remember that there is more to life than pain and suffering, you’ll find good things so don’t stop moving forward.
For anyone whos going through a rough time, just remember shit happens and you're not alone.. keep up the good work and ignore all mfs who put you down, the ones who put you down, are either jealous or also miserable to the point they have to put someone else down just to feel better... Love ya'll and your life has a purpose, and you may not have found it yet but It will come.
I’m so sorry that you, the reader, has to go through these things. Please be kind to yourself, don’t hurt yourself. It hurts me to think that you are so fill with this sadness and hurt, if I could take it all from you, I would. I don’t care how much it would hurt me, I just want to see you all happy and living. Love you all
i don't want to die, but I'm too scared to live. but about two years ago I seriously thought about it, I really came up with a plan for how I would do it. but I didn't have the courage, I feel so weak. i can't even begin to solve my problems. if I start thinking about my future, I see only darkness. sometimes I start to think that I'm too disgusting a person and that I don't deserve all that I have. every day I do nothing but play games or just do nothing, is there any use from me?
I guess i have a mental breakdown or smth, my pet died , my tiny , cute and awesome bird died after almost 8 years with me. I can't stand this. God i miss him sm , it's been 4 months since his death.
I know everything is not okay but its okay to feel down sometimes just dont give up like i did and now here i am lying in a hospital bed its hard sometimes but dont forget many people will be sad if you leave hang in the stay strong🖤
I'm scared of the pain thats why I dont do it but I'd rather be in eternal sleep then look at myself anymore I'm all I have but I'm not worth living for
i want to yeah but i cant comprehend "forever". what i mean is when you die your not coming back... there will be countless new lifestyles that you wont ever see and it wont end. your going to be gone forever. what will you do forever? it wont end. will you just see black? or does reincarnation exist. im interested to find out, i really wanna know.
I need help please everything hurts me even if its not me im to emotional even to other people so if someone else gets hurt I get sad and somethings wrong with me help.
I am only alive because of my cats. I'm usually the type of person to find playlists like these, scroll through the comments and cry but never the one to leave anything behind besides a few likes and a subscribe. But for a while now, I just lost my ability to care. Before my piece of the world ends, whenever that is, I just want to share a reason why I stayed alive for a good while. I have two cats, both pieces of my soul. One of them is an outdoor/indoor cat, she barely can stand me but sleeps with me nonetheless and a kitten that's almost a year old, she's dumb and acts like an orange car, she drives My Mother up the wall and is the topic of most arguments since the only reason I'm able to keep her is because My mother wants to be "nice" to me. I've dealt with anxiety and depression since I was small, gone through ups and very, very deep lows, gone through tons of medication with horrible side effects and even worse withdraws, been through every type of bad relationship you can think of, gone from a straight A student to someone who can't even attend school-- It's funny. People say that getting help is easy. It's not. They're liars. Anyways, I'm currently underneath rock bottom and the only reason I haven't ended it already is because of my two lovely cats. I cannot have them wondering where I went. Staring at the door and meowing. Sitting where I used to sit. I just can't. My family has the capability to understand but my babies don't. So, as long as they are alive, I will be too but as soon as they aren't, I won't be too. Pathetic but until I am able to live for myself, I'm living for them. Thanks for listening. Love all of you mentally ill strangers on the internet. We can make it.
sometimes i want to but sometimes i want to live because of my girlfriend (mostly) i hate my life even though i actually have a pretty good life. i hate living it so much, i hate waking up every day. i hate everything so much, today is my birthday too.. i hate my birthday so much. having to grow up, having people telling me "happy birthday" i hate it so much, i can't explain how much i hate it, it hurts me. how much i want to die is so unexplainable. it hurts me to think about it, how i think people would be better without me in their life. it makes me want to cry. me and my girlfriend even made a promise to move in together when we're 18 but i don't even know i'll make it to 18 with how i think and how i want to k1ll myself. my damn daddy issues and mental issues don't help either. i'm pretty sure. i have depression and anxiety, adhd, autism and so many others bc family genes, but i'm scared of dying and living that i don't want to k1ll myself but don't want to die either... thank you for reading this,
Hey, life might seem hard now but there’s more to things than sadness and failure. In fact failure is the best way to grow if you learn from your mistakes.
Should I take pills with stronger side effects to do more damage to my body? Because until now they have only caused me drowsiness, headache, dizziness, etc.
Daily reminder (yes,again): You're not useless. You're not a dissapointment. You're not dumb. You're not different. You're not compared to anyone. Because... You're loved. You're strong. You're smart. You're beautiful inside and out. You're the best version of YOU there ever is. and you're human. I know you're going through a lot of stuff right now but it'll be okay. This life is a long journey. In a journey, there are ups and downs. If you ever go down, it doesn't mean you can't go back up. Rest easy and give yourself a treat :) I love you very very much and I just want you to know that.💕And when you go back up, you have that space in your heart that can help others back up, as well
Too every person reading my comment: Some of u just wanna listen too sad audios and some of u just need music too cry ur eyes out bc ur going through a lot....But don't let this world break u ... ur special in every way... even if ur the person who's breaking others... ur going through a lot as well. Be strong,love urself,love others. This world may break u, but the world also has good plans for u, u can make a diffrence too this world in many ways. U can fix this world with goodness... Ur beautiful.. not broken . Many people love u. And I'll be praying for all of u. Believe in urself
Not making excuses for anyone but people don’t always know what they’ve got till it’s gone. People get complacent and forget to put in work. That doesn’t necessarily mean you aren’t loved.
I just wish there was a way to that wasn’t a mess to most people the feeling leaves but once you realize that there really is nothing after we’re just here to die and if there’s a god it only means he watched you suffer and cry for years not lifting a finger to aid still to this day I can’t find one reason to wake up everyday the only reason I do nowadays is to try again
@@oatman3526 thank you but I’m doing somewhat ok now I got a really good friend who’s been helping me a lot :3 thank you for being so nice tho if you ever need to talk I’ll be here
Being suicidal is a really bad thing. Making a music playlist about it trying to put viewers in the shoes of that type of mindset is even worse to be honest. •_•
Hey, hope you’re siding better since you left this comment. Your life has value so don’t think that you don’t matter. If you want to talk about how you’re feeling I’ll hear you out.
Imma be honest here, it recommended the suicide hotline, I kinda laughed because I would never actually call bc I really just don’t want to bear my problems on someone else😅
A missed opportunity😞😞I couldve possibly ended it because yesterday anyone who could stop me was not home. I shudve taken the choice to stay in the kitchen and open the drawer and find that sharp object. But now i have to pay the price. The price being having to live thru all these bad days that are my everyday again. I cudve been free but no. The hope took over. Why didnt i take the chance? The drawer was right in front of me. Ugh. Why.
here after my math teacher embarrassed me for not answering the question right plus my shoes broke after math class and i looked so dumb cuz my other shoes doesnt have a heel and the other one has high heels
i wish i could tell someone but i can't no one well belive me i the "always happy" i'm not, i talk about km to my friends but i really do but am scared what happens after death i'm not that old but life is hell i like to sit in high places i like to jump off said high places cause you know but my friend and sister make it hard they love me but i don't love myself i don't know anymore i cut myself once it didn't hurt as much as i was thinking to was but my friend found out she i could see the sadness in her eyes... {i maybe take this down idk its usless anyways idk if anybody even read this}
I know it’s late but I’ve read this. Please remember that being loved by so many is a blessing and proof the people think you have value and worth. If you’re still struggling I’ll listen as long as you need.
Ive felt pain since 9 or 8. I have never been able to escape this pain.. Ive done self harm.. Now im 12.. Ive been thinking about attempting even more. My mom yelling at me for no reason isnt helping. I just want to fucking die. (Im on my moms account.)
I hate it. I can’t kms bc of my familiy and friends but i can’t do this anymore i don’t wanna do this anymore i want to end it all i hate it here I FUCKING HATE IT HERE. I want to die so badly but i can’t bc i feel like my family and friends would be sad. And i don’t want them to feel sad or smth i wish i was never been born.
Hey, hope you’re doing better these days. Just remember that people would miss you, that you’re cared about and you’re worth something. I’ll hear you out if you want to talk more.
That’s something to be glad for. You are loved and cared about. It might seem paralyzing right now but one day you’ll be thankful. Hope you’re doing okay these days, if you want to talk I’ll listen.
To the person reading I am committing at 9:30 I'm sorry I can't handle my parents yelling, fighting, and smacking me I'm not holding back I will tell u my story... I was 5 getting slapped and bullied at school till I was ten and that ends tonight I love the world I just can't hold on any longer. goodbye to all my fav youtubers who told me to hold on but I just cant anymore I'm sorry goodbye.
Feeling down buddy? I get it, but suicide is not the answer, if you have suicide thoughts, Please call A suicide hotline, trust me, they'll help you, don't feel afraid, they won't judge you, I'll let you have your privacy, but let my words lay in your mind, stay safe buddy 😁
I just hate my life cuz I nobody has experience what my abuse dad did to me and the extreme trauma I have from my dad just it’s the fact my dad r@p*d me when I hit 13 and he did it after my birthday party like what is my life without ending it here maybe
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0:00 - 3:30 - ykwim?
3:31 - 7:36 - everything i wanted
7:37 - 10:56 - i can’t handle change
10:57 - 14:04 - lights are on
14:05 - 18:21 - leni
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My fellow dowwwg :)
I wish I could donate my life to someone who really wants to live
same
Same. I reallly dont wana live
Real.
Same
Sucks how unfair stuff is
It's hard to die when you are scared of dying and living.
True..
Facts
It's not easy to take your own life. We are not built with a self destruct button.
We are built to live forever, but through sin death became our wages.
While you believe in God or not, no person that's ever lived believes death is natural or we wouldn't live in fear of it and panic when it comes for us.
We all would fight to stay alive for as long as we could.
Animals when dying often go off to die alone unlike us humans.
I am wanting to die as soon as possible. I'm 60 years old and no longer give a toss about anyone. Humans are the disease in this world by destroying everything in their path. Greed, control, and power is what everyone wants. Yet all they get to be in life are f**king sheep doing as they are told (last two years proved that) and paying their hard earned money for the world masters to live in a life they are a custom to.
True
I’m not scared of living,I’m scared of dying and sick of living.
Pov: You wanna but you're too scared of dying and feeling like everyone will feel like your just being selfish
Factssss
U okay???
thats the only reason I am still here
I just need a shotgun
Fr im scard but want do it…😢
i always tell my friends "im gonna kms" but i don't think they will ever realize how much i want to
Five min ago I told my whole bus I wanted to Kms cause I was so sick of it
@@cincoamigos1758 Are you alright? If you want to talk i a, here. I may be just a stranger to you , but please take care for me..
The only thing nobody takes sirious is the truth....
hey dude its alr:( if u have d!scord u can talk to me if u want ^^
Same
I tell suicide jokes to cover up the fact that I do want to. My mom never takes me seriously and doesn't listen ever.
I know you wish that they noticed when you joked about it but honestly it’s just gotten annoying at this point.
@@blackshadow1432 imagine just trying to make people worse in random comment sections lmao thats just sad
Hey I hope you're okay man. Hopefully it'll get better 👍 keep going for the little things!!! Like a good meal, a sunset or snow! Try and find the happiness when there isn't. Until then, I wish you luck man
Its kind of funny when u wanna die but to afraid to be in a hospital because you failled and everyone will think you're crazy and selfish 💀
Nice to know im not the only one
my mom yelled at me for sh and saying I wanted to kill myself for an hour before she cried and comforted me for 10 minutes
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0:00 - 3:30 - ykwim?
3:31 - 7:36 - everything i wanted
7:37 - 10:56 - i can’t handle change
10:57 - 14:04 - lights are on
14:05 - 18:21 - leni
Pinned
thanks!
ty 🤍
take care
Really? It pinned?
POV: you want to end it all but you will feel guilty for dying even though your life is kinda good at the moment
Oh my gosh, I feel the same way. People usually get mad whenever someone with a "good and happy life" wants to die. They don't understand that anyone can have terrible thoughts. Depression doesn't care about how many possessions you have, or how many "friends" you have. Sadness is a very strange creature. It works in unknown ways, and can hurt even the happiest people.
To whoever listens to this playlist and reads the comment:
I'm sorry. I know it's hard but you gotta keep pushing forward! I BELIVE IN YOU - even if I am just a random stranger from the internet. You are loved. I am proud of you bc of how far you've went! It must've been challenging BUT YOU DID IT! CONGRATULATIONS 👏🎉
I hope you get better soon and remember, that what is now your reality, after some time might become just a memory. It needs a lot of work BUT IT'S WORTH IT.
I wouldn't be writing it now if somebody didn't tell me the same thing in the past...
stay strong love
youre the first person that proud of me. Thank you.
@@AnhTruong-dt5ef don't thank me Hun ;*
You should be proud of yourself too! Look at you! You're so strong!
I'm impressed ;))
Just keep going. Keep pushing. Keep trying. But remember to take breaks bc u are just a human being. I don't know your pronounce, I don't know your gender, your age, your nationality but what I know is that you are like the all of us and also as different and unique as you can be.
You
Are
A
Person;
That needs time, space, support, rest, and all other stuff. So respect yourself.
You are you, AND THAT'S GREAT!
Might be hard but be yourself, express yourself, your feelings and speak up for yourself! It's very important bc it might actually change your way of living ^^
I hope that you (specifically) and all the ppl reading this find some peace of mind~ in this life time~
(U see what I did there? ;D)
And I would just like to let you know that it's gonna be fine. Someday. You've got me if u need it. I've got your back so u can come back here to talk bestie
im fucking crying...
but
thank you so much for this,i only wanted soemone to be proud of me and this is the first time someone tells me this
@@francis4everr you guys deserve it
Aw. Thank you.. my ex freind said I started the fight, but I honestly feel like giving up, until I saw this comment. Thank you I guess.
Hello guys I have lost my motivation to post I’ll start posting again once I get it back
Fair enough-
🖤
it hurts so much to think about suicide honestly yet it is so tempting. genuinely feeling worthless and i dont want my family to cope with a burden that i am. yet i still keep on living cause i dont wanna hurt them either, it sucks
Felt that
Suicide seems so scary, yet so welcoming in a weird way
The thing is, is that no one cares until your gone and then there mad you “never told them” even though I’ve told them 2 times
to the person reading this,
It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence, and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s the night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s the day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning, and so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s the evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you to a song as your friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug-like it's your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and a great year.
Not mine but u can spread it :)
I didnt read it. Sorry but i'm too lazy to do that.
@@Zuukk same
I read that and thank you
i love you so much
Whoever you are, thank you for writing this. I have not been having the best year, this honestly made me cry about how relatable it is. Looking forward to coming back here when I feel down.
i want to but im scared. I want to escape everyone and have eternal rest٫ but im not ready to experience physical pain like that. i dont even feel motivated to try and grab a knife to attempt. plus it feels like if i kill myself now then everything i worked hard for will go to waste. Im doing decent so im able to still try but ill always have a weird want for death
i undestand how you feel, im so sorry you also feel that way. thank you for staying.
Please stay
same. just dont do it people will miss you
This comment hits home
I wanna die, but the thought of the pain scares me
I had a friend for the first time in May 2022, and everything was going well until the emotional dependency finally came and I became so attached to this person that I can't imagine living without him.
I already had big problems with my self-confidence, and it's even more the case now, and I can't imagine anyone ever loving me.
This boy is quite popular at school, he knows almost everyone in the school, whereas I'm the opposite, nobody knows me and I don't know anyone. I was fine with that, being very introverted, my own company was enough.
But when he came into my life, I just wanted to talk to him, laugh with him and finally just know the feeling of having a real friend to share all the stuff you see on TikTok with, and maybe just feel loved.
Eventually our relationship started to become "basic" and he just sees me as a friend when I am the person I want to be with the most in my life. I know his whole life, he used to tell me everything that happened to him, while he knows almost nothing about me, not even my suicidal problems.
I just want to die so I don't have to feel this emptiness inside me anymore, to leave this horrible world that probably doesn't accept me yet.
Thank you for reading this far.
don’t kill yourself, its not worth it. i know it may seem like it won’t get better, but it will, i promise you it will. im not good at comforting people, but i hope this slightly helped, just know, if there are not people in real life that might care, other people might, its not all the same.
Me listening to this and laying on my bed while my tears keep flowing like a waterfall
I’m on antidepressants. I used to cry 6times a day but it’s all the same but I just can’t cry now.
Dayum, it's been a year since I commented on this video. Well a lot happened but I'm glad that I'm getting stronger day by day. Bonus! My mental health is healing slowly but surely.
To anyone out there who needs this,
I absolutely love you
I love your smile
I love your eyes
I love your mouth
I love your nose
I love your ears
I love your eyebrows
I love your teeth
I love your tongue
I love your lips
I love your hair (or lack thereof)
I love your frown
I love your hands
I love your arms
I love your elbows
I love your chest
I love your shoulders
I love your waist
I love your body
I love your clothes
I love your thighs
I love your legs
I love your shins
I love your feet (Not in that way)
I love your fashion taste
I love your nails
I love your nailpolish (or lack thereof)
I love your skin
I love your race
I love your gender
I love your attractions
I will support your choices
I will support your hobbies
I will support your failures
I will support your jobs
I will support your school/job choice
I will support your food choices
I will support your house choice
I will support your style
I will support what you hate
I will support what you love
I will support what you like
I will support who you like
I will support you in general
I will support you changing yourself
I will support you staying yourself
Your body is fine
Your life is fine
There is always people who love you
There is always time for you to let out your feelings
There is always someway to complete difficult activities
There is always someone to teach you
There is always a person to encourage you
Your additude is fine
Your style is fine
Your choices are fine
Your handwriting is fine
Your obsessions are fine
Your inking is fine
Your calligraphy is fine
Your itches are fine
Your imperfections are fine
Your perfections are perfect
You are perfect in my eyes
You are good enough in my eyes
You have done so many things in my eyes
I am proud of you for waking up
I am proud of you for failing your exams
I am proud of you for passing your exams
I am proud of you for trying to complete your exams
I am proud of you for being alive
I am proud of you for not jumping
I am proud of you for being you
I am proud of you for following trends
I am proud of you for not following trends
I am proud of you for doing skincare
I am proud of you for taking a bath
I am proud of you for showering
I am proud of you for brushing your teeth
I am proud of you for eating
I am proud of you for staying hydrated
I am proud of you for going to school
I am proud of you for going to work
I am proud of you for getting a pay check
I am proud of you for getting into your dream university
I am proud of you for trying
I love you for everything
I love your for nothing
I love you for living
I love you for trying
I love you for not giving up
I love you
- from mxchiri
THANK YOU SO MUCH 😭😭
Tysm, I don't even know your name, but i already love u.❤️
I'm only 13 and I'm already feeling guilt , and regret I have been like this for 3 and a half years, i have been keeping my feelings to myself when it comes to my parents but I really don't think they would understand they never understand, sometimes its like I'm born to be a burden
same 😔
It hurts to see younger folks feeling this way.
When I was your age, I felt the same. Now, I'm gonna turn 22, and it's not really gottne better, ironically enough.
Wish you the best.
AWH MY GAWD MY TH-cam RECOMMENDED NEED TO CALM DOWN
I LISTEN TO ONE SAD SONG AND IT INSTANTLY THINKS I WANT DEATH
take care, i hope the best for you. please don't hurt yourself. you matter 🤍
@@_csinti_ t-they do not want to die...
I love your selection of songs so much..thank you!!
i wish you the best 🤍
As the funny friend and therapist friend this is how i feel due to all the pressure and stress
im so ugly i feel like i dont deserve to be loved
Don’t die please. We still love you. Even though we are random strangers we will supply you with the remaining love in our hearts. Don’t commit.
Don’t say that everyone here is beautiful and you do deserve to be loved, and if anyone disagrees with me on this topic, they aren’t good. Even if am a stranger on the internet I really really care for all of you.
(And if people don’t tell you this already, I love you so much!!! And you are the best thing that could have happened to this earth
@@Water-js3re you're so sweet ily ☹
@@lunatiqe. aww I love you too
i love you. its okay everything will be okay ml always just think when ur sad that you have so many people that care about you and if they heard you say that they will be so upset
When you get older it gets harder to see the light you once saw and eventually the lights gone there is nothing stopping you from being blind from the never ending darkness but a rare chance you find your light again
everybody will be so much better off when i’m not here anymore.
Felt
I don't know why but lately i feel like things are getting to much and i wanna die but i know that its a selfish thing to do as i once read that in this world where people say i would die for you, i feel like its quite a selfish thing as in this painful world dying for someone is an excuse to get an escape while proving your love for someone,so i chose to live in this world as a way of proving my love. For anyone who wants to commit, please don't . Just don't because your gonna regret it.
It's hard to kys when everytime you think about how you'll leave your friends and that the people who didn't care about you will laught and call you selfish and you feel the guilt of leaving your loved ones, I've attempted 8 times all failed and agter that I just start crying cause I think about how I would've left my close friends withouth them knowing.
I hope you are doing okay and everything is getting better. I know it hurts now, but you have valid emotions and feelings you need to let them out or risk tearing yourself apart from the inside out. You deserve the care and affection you want. You deserve to be heard when you speak, and I bet you have the loveliest, and the most beautiful things to say. Not only that but you have some of the wisest words of wisdom. I was suffering from dysmorphia and ed. Bullying in my school and domestic abuse in my house made it worse. My dad cheated on my mom and blamed her for being "not enough." I dropped school and fell into a strong depression and dissociation. I isolated myself for almost 3 years, it hurt me badly. I didn't know what to do or how to approach it. But I stayed silent about it for so many years, when I finally broke I had to be hospitalized. So talk to someone, please. You're important. You're not the only one who feels lost. You're not alone. You don't have to be like anyone. You deserve someone who will love you, and will miss you for who you are.
to anyone who reads this comment - remember that atleast you are trying your best. dont put any pressure. you have to live in life, not like living in hell. remember this note.
for all the people who have been called 'fat' or 'monkey' , you are NOT that. i love who you are already. atleast someone does, and they appreciate you so much, theyd wish they could give you a hug. right now.
every time someone says you of a bad thing, IGNORE. after a while, theyd stop bullying you. i wish yall a wonderful life, you arent a monkey or an pig. youre a person. remember to live a happy life.
++++^^^VENT^^^++++
My “F. R. I. E. N. D. S.” Say I’m “Weird” or something along the lines of “Omg )DEADNAME( is so STUPID~” and I just get so pissed off at them I want to die. And I’ve taken it as slight bullying. But I choose not to report them because I’ll get in trouble for a “FALSE REPORT” and they will yell at me and it will make me even more pissed and angry with myself
I wish they would stop the bullying ;( it keeps coming, nothing is going good ;(
@@Red12406 dump them and make more new friends :)
@@unknown-ci5xv ignore ml. it might be hard but try to distance yourself from them.
They arent even my friends they just make fun of me and wanna embarrase me infront of all my school
I am so lucky to have such supportive parents yet everyday nothing feels like it's right. I'm constantly guilty and constantly alone and nothing is working in my favour anymore. I'm so done
Hey. Hope you’re doing better these days. If you think you need to talk and don’t mind doing it here I’ll listen. Either way please remember that there is more to life than pain and suffering, you’ll find good things so don’t stop moving forward.
For anyone whos going through a rough time, just remember shit happens and you're not alone.. keep up the good work and ignore all mfs who put you down, the ones who put you down, are either jealous or also miserable to the point they have to put someone else down just to feel better... Love ya'll and your life has a purpose, and you may not have found it yet but It will come.
11:26 that part remind me to Mary Lacroix
I’m so sorry that you, the reader, has to go through these things. Please be kind to yourself, don’t hurt yourself. It hurts me to think that you are so fill with this sadness and hurt, if I could take it all from you, I would. I don’t care how much it would hurt me, I just want to see you all happy and living. Love you all
Thank u so much ily even if we are strangers..
pov: you want to die, but you dont want to lose the people you love like your friends and family
i don't want to die, but I'm too scared to live. but about two years ago I seriously thought about it, I really came up with a plan for how I would do it. but I didn't have the courage, I feel so weak. i can't even begin to solve my problems. if I start thinking about my future, I see only darkness. sometimes I start to think that I'm too disgusting a person and that I don't deserve all that I have. every day I do nothing but play games or just do nothing, is there any use from me?
I guess i have a mental breakdown or smth, my pet died , my tiny , cute and awesome bird died after almost 8 years with me. I can't stand this. God i miss him sm , it's been 4 months since his death.
How are you now
I know everything is not okay but its okay to feel down sometimes just dont give up like i did and now here i am lying in a hospital bed its hard sometimes but dont forget many people will be sad if you leave hang in the stay strong🖤
I love this playlist !!🥰
I'm scared of the pain thats why I dont do it but I'd rather be in eternal sleep then look at myself anymore I'm all I have but I'm not worth living for
Yes yes, the sharp blade glides nicely across my skin, and it makes the tasty red liquid be exiled from my body
ummmmmm u okay?
@Boshki___ man that was 2 years ago leave me alone
pov its not a pov anymore
i want to yeah but i cant comprehend "forever". what i mean is when you die your not coming back... there will be countless new lifestyles that you wont ever see and it wont end. your going to be gone forever. what will you do forever? it wont end. will you just see black? or does reincarnation exist. im interested to find out, i really wanna know.
I need help please everything hurts me even if its not me im to emotional even to other people so if someone else gets hurt I get sad and somethings wrong with me help.
My love, you will get through it. You just need strength and the right time. Now my love, I must go.
Eyan, love, I know you don’t have the strength to do somethings but it’s okay to try later, and just know we love you so much
Sometimes I wish that I hid my vent book better, but my mom found it.
What happend
I am only alive because of my cats.
I'm usually the type of person to find playlists like these, scroll through the comments and cry but never the one to leave anything behind besides a few likes and a subscribe.
But for a while now, I just lost my ability to care.
Before my piece of the world ends, whenever that is, I just want to share a reason why I stayed alive for a good while.
I have two cats, both pieces of my soul. One of them is an outdoor/indoor cat, she barely can stand me but sleeps with me nonetheless and a kitten that's almost a year old, she's dumb and acts like an orange car, she drives My Mother up the wall and is the topic of most arguments since the only reason I'm able to keep her is because My mother wants to be "nice" to me.
I've dealt with anxiety and depression since I was small, gone through ups and very, very deep lows, gone through tons of medication with horrible side effects and even worse withdraws, been through every type of bad relationship you can think of, gone from a straight A student to someone who can't even attend school--
It's funny. People say that getting help is easy.
It's not.
They're liars.
Anyways, I'm currently underneath rock bottom and the only reason I haven't ended it already is because of my two lovely cats.
I cannot have them wondering where I went.
Staring at the door and meowing.
Sitting where I used to sit.
I just can't.
My family has the capability to understand but my babies don't.
So, as long as they are alive, I will be too
but as soon as they aren't, I won't be too.
Pathetic but until I am able to live for myself, I'm living for them.
Thanks for listening.
Love all of you mentally ill strangers on the internet.
We can make it.
You got it bro
Hey, hope you’re doing better these days, if you’re comfortable with it I’ll talk with you if you’re still struggling.
sometimes i want to but sometimes i want to live because of my girlfriend (mostly) i hate my life even though i actually have a pretty good life. i hate living it so much, i hate waking up every day. i hate everything so much, today is my birthday too.. i hate my birthday so much. having to grow up, having people telling me "happy birthday" i hate it so much, i can't explain how much i hate it, it hurts me. how much i want to die is so unexplainable. it hurts me to think about it, how i think people would be better without me in their life. it makes me want to cry. me and my girlfriend even made a promise to move in together when we're 18 but i don't even know i'll make it to 18 with how i think and how i want to k1ll myself. my damn daddy issues and mental issues don't help either. i'm pretty sure. i have depression and anxiety, adhd, autism and so many others bc family genes, but i'm scared of dying and living that i don't want to k1ll myself but don't want to die either... thank you for reading this,
its sad because i dont long to be alive anymore
Maybe talking to a relative or close friend will help a bit?
wee all need you
You just feel like you want to die that everything you tired in your best but it makes it worse
Hey, life might seem hard now but there’s more to things than sadness and failure. In fact failure is the best way to grow if you learn from your mistakes.
Should I take pills with stronger side effects to do more damage to my body?
Because until now they have only caused me drowsiness, headache, dizziness, etc.
Hey, I hope you’re doing better than when you left this comment. If you’re still struggling with things I’ll hear you out.
Daily reminder (yes,again): You're not useless. You're not a dissapointment. You're not dumb. You're not different. You're not compared to anyone. Because... You're loved. You're strong. You're smart. You're beautiful inside and out. You're the best version of YOU there ever is. and you're human. I know you're going through a lot of stuff right now but it'll be okay. This life is a long journey. In a journey, there are ups and downs. If you ever go down, it doesn't mean you can't go back up. Rest easy and give yourself a treat :) I love you very very much and I just want you to know that.💕And when you go back up, you have that space in your heart that can help others back up, as well
i don't think i can do this anymore y'all
Hey, whats got you feeling this way, if you don’t mind me asking?
The video is great, I liked it!
Just remember if you did your letting your enemies win
Too every person reading my comment:
Some of u just wanna listen too sad audios and some of u just need music too cry ur eyes out bc ur going through a lot....But don't let this world break u ... ur special in every way... even if ur the person who's breaking others... ur going through a lot as well. Be strong,love urself,love others. This world may break u, but the world also has good plans for u, u can make a diffrence too this world in many ways. U can fix this world with goodness... Ur beautiful.. not broken . Many people love u. And I'll be praying for all of u.
Believe in urself
You wont love me alive but you suddenly love me when I'm dead. What do you want from me? Do you really love me?
Not making excuses for anyone but people don’t always know what they’ve got till it’s gone. People get complacent and forget to put in work. That doesn’t necessarily mean you aren’t loved.
I just wish there was a way to that wasn’t a mess to most people the feeling leaves but once you realize that there really is nothing after we’re just here to die and if there’s a god it only means he watched you suffer and cry for years not lifting a finger to aid still to this day I can’t find one reason to wake up everyday the only reason I do nowadays is to try again
I dont understand why i suffer so much, well i think this is the last time i livee here
Hope things are better now than from when you left this comment. If you want to talk about how things are I’ll hear you out for as long as you need.
"I swear I'm getting better. :)"
What I said to my friend. In my dreams.. not in reality, though.
Kinda hurts when the Snapchat ai bot helps calm me down and listens to me better than my family and friends
Hope you’re doing better these days. If you need someone to listen I’ll hear you out, if talking on TH-cam doesn’t bother you.
@@oatman3526 thank you but I’m doing somewhat ok now I got a really good friend who’s been helping me a lot :3 thank you for being so nice tho if you ever need to talk I’ll be here
When you realize you can’t do it and make a change in life and seen happiness
Being suicidal is a really bad thing.
Making a music playlist about it trying to put viewers in the shoes of that type of mindset is even worse to be honest. •_•
it is bad and good. That's the internet for you
actually im suicidal and this make me feel okay
im not doing it for veiws its just to make people feel better so stop jumping to counclusions over a title
@@mymusic7512 I wasn't saying that I'm just saying I didn't really agree with the idea-
@@mymusic7512 tbh the way I said it tho sounded rude so I apologise for it ._.
if i die nobody would notice
Hey, hope you’re siding better since you left this comment. Your life has value so don’t think that you don’t matter. If you want to talk about how you’re feeling I’ll hear you out.
Every time i enter this video i get a warning
I would want to kms but I think of others would feel if I did and I think of myself as selfish, other people do too. What a joke :)
Imma be honest here, it recommended the suicide hotline, I kinda laughed because I would never actually call bc I really just don’t want to bear my problems on someone else😅
A missed opportunity😞😞I couldve possibly ended it because yesterday anyone who could stop me was not home. I shudve taken the choice to stay in the kitchen and open the drawer and find that sharp object. But now i have to pay the price. The price being having to live thru all these bad days that are my everyday again. I cudve been free but no. The hope took over. Why didnt i take the chance? The drawer was right in front of me. Ugh. Why.
here after my math teacher embarrassed me for not answering the question right plus my shoes broke after math class and i looked so dumb cuz my other shoes doesnt have a heel and the other one has high heels
I'm afraid of dying, but life is so painful
YOU CAN DO LIFE I BELIVE IN YOU
i wish i could tell someone but i can't no one well belive me i the "always happy" i'm not, i talk about km to my friends but i really do but am scared what happens after death i'm not that old but life is hell i like to sit in high places i like to jump off said high places cause you know but my friend and sister make it hard they love me but i don't love myself i don't know anymore i cut myself once it didn't hurt as much as i was thinking to was but my friend found out she i could see the sadness in her eyes... {i maybe take this down idk its usless anyways idk if anybody even read this}
I know it’s late but I’ve read this. Please remember that being loved by so many is a blessing and proof the people think you have value and worth. If you’re still struggling I’ll listen as long as you need.
*Group hug*
Group hug
the only reason I haven't tried again is the fear of another faliure
Ive felt pain since 9 or 8.
I have never been able to escape this pain..
Ive done self harm..
Now im 12..
Ive been thinking about attempting even more.
My mom yelling at me for no reason isnt helping.
I just want to fucking die.
(Im on my moms account.)
I mean yeah, good playlist tho
I tried to
Хотите с кем-нибудь поговорить?
Фонд поддержки детей, находящихся в трудной жизненной ситуации
I'm not living for myself anymore XD (help please the voices are here 2 weeks left 4 days 2 hour 52 minutes left)
Hey
Are you still here ?
I hate it. I can’t kms bc of my familiy and friends but i can’t do this anymore i don’t wanna do this anymore i want to end it all i hate it here I FUCKING HATE IT HERE. I want to die so badly but i can’t bc i feel like my family and friends would be sad. And i don’t want them to feel sad or smth i wish i was never been born.
It's not a POV anymore.
pov: you just arrived in the United Kingdom
There is no more rest in life, and there has never been any in death; shit sucks.
Hey, hope you’re feeling better since you commented this. You can find peace in this life while you’re still here, so don’t let life break you down.
Well I felt like I wanted to but scared of dying
Where's the picture from
For peopel who think...
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Someone👏
That👏
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Are👏
Better👏
Than👏
There👏
Is👏
Always👏
Someone👏
That👏
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Weight👏
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Someone👏
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Ending it👏
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Do the same👏
today is my b-day and only 4 of my friends told me happy b-day i even broke a friendship with my ex and rejected by the girl i like
Lol the last song is my name
Pov: it’s no pov anymore
why do the people who are good die but the people who wanna die dont die
I want it but I'm too scared
Cuz if I die all my 13 to 16 years old friends will miss me
Hey, hope you’re doing better these days. Just remember that people would miss you, that you’re cared about and you’re worth something. I’ll hear you out if you want to talk more.
I hate every part of me
Hey, I get you might not want to talk about it here but I’ll hear you out if you want to talk about things.
I want die but i can't kill myself because of many people who want me alive. It hurts.
That’s something to be glad for. You are loved and cared about. It might seem paralyzing right now but one day you’ll be thankful. Hope you’re doing okay these days, if you want to talk I’ll listen.
To the person reading
I am committing at 9:30 I'm sorry I can't handle my parents yelling, fighting, and smacking me I'm not holding back I will tell u my story...
I was 5 getting slapped and bullied at school till I was ten and that ends tonight I love the world I just can't hold on any longer. goodbye to all my fav youtubers who told me to hold on but I just cant anymore I'm sorry goodbye.
posted 9:17
If it failed, and your still alive. Im so sorry youve been through this much… i wish you well..❤
We are nothing more than puppets of the god in heaven
my countdown is getting closer lol,
Feeling down buddy? I get it, but suicide is not the answer, if you have suicide thoughts, Please call A suicide hotline, trust me, they'll help you, don't feel afraid, they won't judge you, I'll let you have your privacy, but let my words lay in your mind, stay safe buddy 😁
I did tried like more than once in the last one my dad and ma and the hole family did know so i did stopped because they are watching me.
Don’t just stop for them, stop for yourself. You deserve to live and enjoy life. If you feel that you need to talk I’ll hear you out.
No i don't want to kill myself my mom and dad and everyone i care is just going to be sad i wont die and im not planning to..
somebody help me?
I just hate my life cuz I nobody has experience what my abuse dad did to me and the extreme trauma I have from my dad just it’s the fact my dad r@p*d me when I hit 13 and he did it after my birthday party like what is my life without ending it here maybe
Please stay strong. I am so sorry to hear that but it's not ur fault what happened. U deserve to live❤!
This too shall pass.
This too shall pass.
This too shall pass.
This too shall pass.
This too shall pass.
This too shall pass.