5 days ago. I downed a fifth of whiskey to myself in my garage. And proceeded to take a sludge hammer to my Jeep windows. windshield and all. 29 years old and been drinking since I was 19. And I am now 4 days sober. And really don’t have the urge to drink and truly believe I’m done with that dumb life. Cut off all my alcohol friends and family. And just focusing on being a family man. Wish me luck. WE CAN ALL GET THRU THIS MESS.
DUDE! Same here. I would drunk text everyone (got in trouble a few times), delete the texts because they were embarrassing. When I woke up the next morning, I would get replies and I forgot what I texted. FML. I'm trying to get sober.
The fights, dui's, major car accident that almost killed 3 of us, too many good jobs lost due to hangovers, super risky sexual behavior, oversharing to the point of absolute cringe the next day, hanging out with the worst of the worst CRAP people, being absolutely loud and severely obnoxious, when not filled with anger and bitterness becoming numb and apathetic, becoming downright hateful and mean. I loathe myself! I need to get my soul back. This isn't who i want to be. Edit: 12 days sober and with each day, it's one step further from the above person I was becoming. I am looking forward to that person being far in the rear view mirror.
A few nights ago I did something that could’ve gotten some people killed. I’m very disappointed in myself but honestly reading that someone else has made a similar mistake helps me out. I’ve been in a really dark place and I don’t think I’ll find a way out this time. But just know I really appreciate you sharing that, because it is helping me. I’m happy no one got hurt. I just wish i didn’t wake up. I’m 21 right now. I’m glad I realized that I can’t drink. But I also wish I would’ve realized it sooner.
@dmxgg2033 I was really messed up for a lot of years. I had really, really bad things happen to me as a child and used alcohol to cope. I wish I had the tools I have now back then. I also struggled with suicidal thoughts and attempts. I have better coping skills now. I had to do a lot of self growth and healing. Our past trauma is usually the cause for our addictions. I don't know your past, but my best advice is to study whatever you can about CPTSD. Childhood Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. You're very young and have a jump start on healing from your pain. Once you start doing that, alcohol isn't such a crutch anymore. Bless you, my friend.
Got drunk last night after being sober for a month and really told of some people that didn't deserve it, so here I am watching Tim's videos again. Lol
I quit drinking around a year ago and I almost forgot about the embarrassment everyday I woke up. The first few monthes of being sober I still felt so guilty and ashamed, thank fuck thats all in the rear view now.
I hope you are doing better. I’ve relapsed and am 2 days sober. That will be the last time booze ever goes into my body not matter what it takes. I’m finished and going to outpatient therapy, watching videos, journaling and finding hobbies I enjoy to replace alcoholism.
@@lasvegasauditor4508 sober 6 days.. again. Something feels different this time though, like something clicked. I think I needed all those relapses to understand how to be sober and make it stick.
@@5thdimension625 sadly I’ve fallen off the wagon a few times but I’m grateful I can go weeks without now, each time it gets longer. I feel my will is stronger now too
When I get drunk, I’m a both self pitying and angry drunk. I lost a group of my friends and my girl after acting like a fool. It’s been a week, but I gave up on drinking and will continue to do so. Thanks for uploading these videos. Very helpful and relieving to know that I’m not the only one who embarrassed myself
💀💀💀 I have been trying to find a video of someone who can match my level of "embarrassing" when drunk and I have finally found one🙇. i am so defeated and done with myself
I almost killed someone while drunk. How about that? I can go on and on brother. You're not alone. It took major courage to admit this. I was exactly like you. Trust me I know how far you've come. Stay strong
This really hit home with me. I’m quitting drinking as of last Saturday June 18th. Blacked out and showed my ass at a friends sons birthday party in front of their family and friends. I’m just glad they got me outta there before I showed my ass even more. A lot of ppl who met me for the first time while I was drunk probably don’t like me.
"A drunk mans words are a sober mans thoughts". I would always reflect on that saying after I said something I regretted while I was drunk. It made me realize that I repress too many feelings while I'm sober when I can more tactfully express them.
@@sdsmit3633 I agree, but I also think that some of what you say is repressed thoughts and/or feelings. In that case I think it's healthy to examine yourself.
Used to make up with people I still hated and fight with the people I wanted on my side the most and would wake up to try to stitch the peices of these memories together. Ugh 🙄
Day 2 of my sober journey, I relapsed 2 times before. I hope and pray I can make it a month sober. Tim this is so hard, it’s nice to know that a lot of people struggle with this and I’m not alone.
I can totally relate! I’ve lost friends and taken a lot out on my spouse in the past for no reason! Not drinking is 100% better than that embarrassment 👍
Omg! Yes! You are not the only one. I’ve texted my big boss, said mean things to people, danced on peoples counters, said inappropriate things to strangers, Did pretty much every thing you did. I won’t even say what I did last time. Haven’t drank for a couple of months. I want to keep going.
Absolutely, Tim. I've been there. The absolute dread of waking up the next morning and your heart completely drops. The shame kicks in, the panic, the paranoia, the feelings getting so far that you even feel suicidal in that brief period. I'm so thankful for Naltrexone. I recently started it and now I can drink one or two drinks and stop and not be hungover the next morning and remember what happened the night before. I hope to continue to drink less and less with this medication.
Thanks Tim your story resonates with me , I have been a binge drinker for 41 years and have my share of stories and events that I am not proud of. Everytime I try and drink responsibly I end up failing . 7 days in alcohol free and I feel great, your videos have helped greatly so thanks again.
I got drunk at a wedding, argued with my boyfriend and cried in front of strangers, got in a cab and went to the airport. Slept in the airport and then realized how dumb that was and went back to the hotel. I literally have never been so embarrassed in my life. I hate myself right now.
Right there with you brother. I had a legit scare this past weekend that has literally scared me sober. The fact that you can't remember if you did something or not I'd so haunting. Best of luck to us!
Starting today again, 37 years old, partner hates my drinking but doesnt believe I need help. Last night, I had a couple extra martinis and threw up on myself, so humiliating! I feel like crap today. I dont have self control, tried and fail many times. Im hoping to quit, for good this time! I dont want to loose what I have now. Please, pray for me!🙏🏻🙏🏻
so many embarrassing stories never mind could ov hurt myself or others ...so done I look back like how am I here 29 days relapsed xmas 37 b4 that ..I want this
Tim, I was able to catch one of your live streams last year in which I asked you if quitting drinking was one of your biggest accomplishments. And you humbly responded that quitting drinking is not something that you accomplish but rather an on going battle that you have to tackle. I'm not much of a drinker myself but I can't help but wonder all the internal battles people who drink have to go through. I just wanted to commend you on your journey and the insights you share with all of us by being brutally honest with yourself and your viewers. Blessings to you and yours brother.
Man... in my unestablished 19 years of life, I’ve already had a lot of these moments. My desires tend to dictate my life, but I’ve been doing better. Again, I’m still young, my mind tells me that maybe I can drink again in a socially appropriate way, and I am going into college (starting in person) so I know I’ll be around it, and I’m nervous I’d give in, and worse get drunk and do something embarrassing or worse dangerous to myself or others. Anyways, your words of wisdom are much appreciated!
Your honesty is going to take you further than you can imagine. I have 100 stories like yours, we’re remarkably similar drinkers. I too have recovered and moved past those ways, it’s almost comical how quickly your life will turn around once you fully kick the sauce. Good luck people I’m rootin for ya’ll
It is crazy how quickly your life can change after you get sober. Sometimes it doesn't even seem like that person from back then was me lol. It's like I'm looking back at someone else's memories.
I’m also I angry drunk when I drink whiskey and the other night I blacked out for the first time said and did some really mean shit In front of my friends and an ex. Never drinking again. Glad to see other people have done this before and I’m not alone. 🙏
@@TimothyWard oh yeah my personality is all or nothing and that includes drinking so Ik it’s just gonna keep getting worse and worse. Thanks you so much for the video it really makes me and everyone watching feel better and want to take control over this bad habit. 👍
My new sober life is soooo freeing, I can honestly say I feel more at peace with myself then I ever have. The main thing i'm trying to work though at the minute though is moving on from the shame and embarassment of my past. I guess its all part of the process of sobriety, hopefully it wont take too long 😳.
thanks brother this was so helpful, especially about the drunk texting facebooking thing. Just yesterday I emberrased myself in front of all my facebook friends in the most extreme way, I wake up and just can't forget it, friends, family calling me etc. God forgive me...
Dude, can totally relate to the drunk texting and messaging!!! Pissed off so many people from doing it. Another great reason to stop drinking. Done with that shit.
Just found your channel and this resonates with me so much. On Sunday i drank to a black out, crashed at my brothers and he had to babysit me all night because i was throwing up in my sleep. I'm a grown 35 year old man and it's so embarrassing. Im not even a regular drinker, it might be once a month or once every three months but whenever i drink the same thing happens so i am really trying to go tee total immediately! I never want to touch alcohol in my life ever again.
Omg! I so related to you I’m so many ways. I’m a women and is more embarrassing. Your story is so uplifting for me. I decided to stop even tho is a week. But I had a start somewhere.
Tim, it’s like your telling my story. I just passed 4 months and I thank god every day I’m able to keep that old version of myself behind me. Thanks so much for sharing these videos
I'm proud of you Tim. That you have the strength to critically look at yourself and make the necessary change. Congradulations!!! Thanks for the inspiration 👍🤗
Tim, your channel is great. You are saving lives. Yesterday, I woke up still drunk and all I could remember was standing in the grocery store, ten miles from my house, mumbling to the assistant to give my number to his female friend who I like the look of. The worst part was, it was obvious that I had driven there drunk. He looked terrified. His expression shocked me out of my blackout for an instant. I made a fast exit home (driving). I remember nothing else about it. Today I went to my van and found a smashed liquor bottle next to the drivers door in my public parking space. Scary stuff.
After 4 years sober, hearing some of your stories brings back so many memories of my past life. Keep up the great work Tim, it helps people hearing that they are not the only ones going through this.
I'm on day two of my first serious attempt at sobering up after 10+ years of an almost daily reliance on alcohol. My decision to get on the wagon wasn't planned, but recently one or two things have hit home that finally convinced me that I need to stop. Without going into my life story, I just wanted to say thank you Tim for sharing your wisdom, experience, and encouragement. Your insights have been a big help, I'm sure we can all relate. Keep up the good work
@@TimothyWard You're more than welcome! Your vids, along with a few others have been a great help and I owe you my thanks. It's now day three and by now I've usually poured my first drink (I'm a 'youtube solo party' drinker myself), and while I know there's a struggle ahead, I also know it's what I have to do. Thanks once again for the strength buddy, will continue to tune in :) Steve (UK)
No your not the only 1. I'm 33 years old and have been drinking since 17. I've been 15 days sober I deal with the same problems dont need a drink every day but when I do drink its a wrap. I'm tired of waking up the next day feeling in disgust not being able to remember what the hell happand the night before or who did I call I do the same things you did. It sucks but God is helping me with this now 🙏 I feel alot better but deep down inside I'm like what about that day I pick up a beer again.
Tim. You're me. Even that manager story had me laughing I nearly had a full on fight with my manager after we had 4 bottles of wine each at the Christmas "party".
When I drink, I have no self control. I just had the worst nightmare last night at the casino that i go too. They told me that I was really drunk and cant remember how i lost nor went to my room..im nervous as hell to what I did. Im trying to forget about it. Im going sober..I keep blacking out and cant remember shit. Screw alcohol
Amen brother. One year sober.. I have former “friends” who no longer speak to me because of the things I did ( and still don’t remember ) when I was blackout drunk and drinking daily. So glad I saw the light and quit.
I have embarrassed so often on F/B, kicked out of so many 'groups', didnt even remember what I said most of the time. Sometimes I did some damage control, but it was just a mess. I even made a rule, no facebook when drinking, but i would often end up breaking it
I showed up at my tiny neighbour dive bar a little drunk yrs ago and was loudly heckling the stripper. I got asked to leave. I was a 17 yr old girl, with plenty of drinking money. I also jumped out of a bedroom window naked at night and ripped the eavestrough off the whole side of a house, then fell down a hill. All in front of my bf's whole family. So glad when I had kids I stopped. About 35 yrs ago. Not one slip. And I would drink 40 oz of rye most days. At least a 26'er. The damage I did to my kidneys in that short time took years to reveal itself. to anyone struggling..It can be done. You're worth the effort. Love and light from northern Ontario,Canada !😊🇨🇦
I'm here tryin to cope with some embarassing things I did in my last drunk time. That's really hard to go through this and in think that's it with alcohol, I quit.
I went to a bridal shower and Booed the brides grandmother when she won bingo prize. (In my drunk mind it was a joke but it did not come across that way at all.) I deservingly got yelled at by the family but my response was to double down on my rude behavior and rude comments. Side note : I’m supposed to be a groomsman in this wedding and I have not been able to face the bride and groom to apologize. I’m not sure if anyone can even apologize for that kind of behavior. It certainly doesn’t seem like an apology would mean much at this time. I feel so bad for the bride that I upset her and her family on her important event all because I was absolute drunk jackass. This is one of the long list of reasons I need to stop right now. I’m on day 5
I can't see you as an angry drunk the sober you is so personable it's hard to imagine you being mean. I'm glad you can speak about it and share your experience with others thank you for that hopefully it'll jumpstart those that are struggling like Jessica 🙏 Praying for her as she's not going to make it if she doesn't stop and get help.
I can definitely relate to you on the girls' part. I've lost the chance with a handful of girls due to me scaring them away by drunk calling them 10 times, leaving empty voicemails, and showing up at their house at 2am. I would ghost them all week because I'm "busy" and then drunk text them on weekends. There was this one girl that I really liked. We were hitting it off so well for a few weeks, and one night I drunk-called her so many times that she told me we needed to cut it off because she was "already" talking to someone else. My last relationship didn't end so well. I was staying in, drinking, and ghosting her messages instead of being with her and talking to her. Another fling; we were terrific friends outside of the benefits. She told me we needed to cut it off because I came over super aggressive one night, making her feel guilty about nothing for no reason. She wrote me a whole letter and told me that this needed to stop. Countless times of waking up with a negative balance in my bank account, a scratch on my car, and sometimes even waking up at 6am in bed with that fling that was supposed to be in the dirt a long time ago. I would wake up with people texting me back, "Are you good?" and me having to explain things or not even respond. I even called my father one time. So embarrassing. One night I got physically hurt bad. I came out of a concert and rode an e-scooter back to the parking lot. I ate it and busted my lips and chin on the way there. Good thing I didn't lose a tooth, or else I'd lose it (I have a perfect smile btw and a record to prove it. I won the best smile in middle school and high school). That same night I remember ending up on the side of the highway entrance ramp FOR NO REASON, but because I was drunk, I was there. Pulled over and out of my car. I even hit a car once. I was going 5 mph, turning left at a light once it turned green, and hitting a parked car at the corner. One night my phone died while I was driving, and I ended up in some random city. Since I was drunk, I couldn't read the highway exits. I ended up getting help from some biker girl at a CVS. She googled my address and gave me directions back to the highway. Bless her heart for helping me at 2am.
Thank you for this vid. I have many stories that are very harsh/ embarrassing. I was laughing listening to some of your story, which is good because alcohol will use us, and we won’t remember, and we’ll justify it if we’re not sober. I had 13 years sober and fell off. Had a year, fell off and then decided I’d control it… it’s not always bad w alcohol but it never, absolutely NEVER makes anything better. It’s a big lie that alcohol helps at all… for fun, to help w anxiety, etc. Glad today I’m not drinking. I agree it’s great to have our wits about us, and we can all be of much more service to the world and God, being sober, clear headed. Thank you for your honesty, and forthcoming with your story. It helps ppl to know we’re not alone and we can be sober… we can do this, we can get through it.
Hung the alcohol hat up after my lovely Halloween performance at a friend's house for a party. Woke up the next day n told myself, there's more to life than a brown bottle n a barstool. Closing in on 4 months come March 1. Take care out there!
I did so many shamefull things its unreal. Once I was so drunk that I thought it could not Hurt to break into my friends back garden and knocking on his windo at 4 in the morning almost giving him an heart attack to ask for a cigarette. Hè told me to piss off.. the worst thing is that one of his patents saw me walking through their back yard. The next day he told me what I did While I forgot the Whole night. It was emarrasing to say the least
One of most embarassing things I have done when drunk was abuse my whole family at Christmas dinner..6 months later my mother passed of cancer..will never forgive myself for that
Bad path whenever i drink. The worst is when i get to a point of being sober where i think i can have another drink but that one drink lasts several months and loses every one of my friendships. Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing Drunk embarrassment 😔 I think all addictions require a fight for life and living. I overused for plenty of reasons you say, to cope, boredom, or to mingle. I am finally realizing too, just be me! 🤗 Back to sobriety life and living.
I can relate to your story completely, I still drink and the social media and texting is a big problem. I have a few friends that hate me for the drunk texts I’ve sent them. I’m a musician an I’ve sent my label an angry drunk email I regret a few months back.
This is one of my favorite youtube from you I listen to this one twice it help me on my journey on my 1 year alcohol free thanks Tim it really help me never felt better no more crazy hangovers 🙏
Tim, thank you for a very inspiring message. I needed to watch this video today. Last week I drunk text my boss. I was upset with his lack of involvement with our team. Alcohol has always been a truth serum for me. Good or bad. I am an introvert by day, but alcohol opens the flood gates.. I am also an angry drunk…. My boss and I met the very next day and he was receptive to my criticism. I still have a job, and I am sober for 8 days. I am not touching another drop. Your video hit home with me. Thank you!
I love this channel man! I've been sober for a couple years and your videos really resonate with me.🙏🏼😊 They are so helpful. It's my AA meeting on TH-cam. So great to be Sober. Thanks again 🤠😁🥳😊👍🏽
Thanks Tim! I've done all of the dumb stuff. Humiliated myself way too many times. Thanks for speaking so honestly about the drinking. Thankfully I haven't had to feel that self-imposed shame in a little while now. It does feel so much better to be free. Rock on!
I love your personality! You have me laughin watching this lol its real. I’ve been clean a little while now and this is so relatable. I just subscribed and turned on the bell so I can join the lives 😊🙏🏼
I love these candid walk and talks and appreciate the honesty. We need more of this so that those who struggle with alcohol (as you and I did because my story is similar) know there is no shame or guilt in any of it. Once we understand the problem, we can find the solution and sobriety is one of the most amazing solutions in life ever.
5 days ago. I downed a fifth of whiskey to myself in my garage. And proceeded to take a sludge hammer to my Jeep windows. windshield and all. 29 years old and been drinking since I was 19. And I am now 4 days sober. And really don’t have the urge to drink and truly believe I’m done with that dumb life. Cut off all my alcohol friends and family. And just focusing on being a family man. Wish me luck. WE CAN ALL GET THRU THIS MESS.
Billy,May God bless you.. ❤️
Billy Blah Sending you light and well wishes Billy!! You’ve got this🙂
Congratulations on changing for the better. Keep up the good work. Continue to change for the better.
God bless you
I hope you’re going to AA. It’s the only thing that ever helped me stay stopped from alcohol
I used to delete drunk text messages on my end just so I didn’t have to be reminded even tho the damage was already done lol
Same here Game Cop lol!! It was way too embarrassing to keep those messages in my phone lol
Same here. 😄😒
Yep
DUDE! Same here. I would drunk text everyone (got in trouble a few times), delete the texts because they were embarrassing. When I woke up the next morning, I would get replies and I forgot what I texted. FML. I'm trying to get sober.
Me too 🙄🤦🏽♂️🤦🏽♂️
The fights, dui's, major car accident that almost killed 3 of us, too many good jobs lost due to hangovers, super risky sexual behavior, oversharing to the point of absolute cringe the next day, hanging out with the worst of the worst CRAP people, being absolutely loud and severely obnoxious, when not filled with anger and bitterness becoming numb and apathetic, becoming downright hateful and mean. I loathe myself! I need to get my soul back. This isn't who i want to be.
Edit: 12 days sober and with each day, it's one step further from the above person I was becoming. I am looking forward to that person being far in the rear view mirror.
A few nights ago I did something that could’ve gotten some people killed. I’m very disappointed in myself but honestly reading that someone else has made a similar mistake helps me out. I’ve been in a really dark place and I don’t think I’ll find a way out this time. But just know I really appreciate you sharing that, because it is helping me. I’m happy no one got hurt. I just wish i didn’t wake up. I’m 21 right now. I’m glad I realized that I can’t drink. But I also wish I would’ve realized it sooner.
@dmxgg2033 I was really messed up for a lot of years. I had really, really bad things happen to me as a child and used alcohol to cope. I wish I had the tools I have now back then. I also struggled with suicidal thoughts and attempts. I have better coping skills now. I had to do a lot of self growth and healing. Our past trauma is usually the cause for our addictions. I don't know your past, but my best advice is to study whatever you can about CPTSD. Childhood Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. You're very young and have a jump start on healing from your pain. Once you start doing that, alcohol isn't such a crutch anymore. Bless you, my friend.
Got drunk last night after being sober for a month and really told of some people that didn't deserve it, so here I am watching Tim's videos again. Lol
Everyone slips the important thing is to get back up you can do this God bless you🕯️🙏🕯️
I quit drinking around a year ago and I almost forgot about the embarrassment everyday I woke up. The first few monthes of being sober I still felt so guilty and ashamed, thank fuck thats all in the rear view now.
Word... I’m just now at a year. I’m finally starting to forgive myself
In one day I lost my driver's license, car, apartment, job, girlfriend...
That's a rough day ☹☹
That’s enough to make you turn to the bottle just kidding sorry to hear that
I hope you are doing better. I’ve relapsed and am 2 days sober. That will be the last time booze ever goes into my body not matter what it takes. I’m finished and going to outpatient therapy, watching videos, journaling and finding hobbies I enjoy to replace alcoholism.
@@333blacktoothgrin Day by day! Sober 5 yrs now...
@@lasvegasauditor4508 sober 6 days.. again. Something feels different this time though, like something clicked. I think I needed all those relapses to understand how to be sober and make it stick.
Haven't drank in 10 days because of your videos and I feel amazing! 🤟
Well done day 1 for me and counting
Aye hope you're going strong on my 12th, also quitting nicotine and thc. I want to lead a responsible life and a sober life.
@@cobjam31 Yup still going strong it gets easier. Just need to stop the nicotine now as well👍🏻
Congratulations on changing for the better. Keep up the good work.
I feel you.. I didn't get invited to my Nephew's wedding the other day.. but apparently 150 other ppl did.. time for change my man!
When you try to call a number back that you called when you were drunk and it's blocked… you know you said some shit
😂😂😂😂
Lmao i know all about that!
Hahaha 😝
Lmao or on social media
Just blocked a number last night....the ex....
Been there a million times buddy. The embarrassment can be crippling
You aren’t lying. That’s how I was feeling before watching this video. It still stings, but yes, it’s crippling. I can’t do this anymore
At 25 days so far, longest I’ve been so sober since I was 20 🙏🏽
That's awesome Teddy! You got this!!!
@@TimothyWard quick update now it’s 54 days without drinking love the channel, thank you 🙏🏽
@@teddy6419 Awesome !!! I'm proud of you. Enjoy your sobriety!
I hope you’re still sober Teddy, ONE Day at a TIME
@@5thdimension625 sadly I’ve fallen off the wagon a few times but I’m grateful I can go weeks without now, each time it gets longer. I feel my will is stronger now too
When I get drunk, I’m a both self pitying and angry drunk. I lost a group of my friends and my girl after acting like a fool. It’s been a week, but I gave up on drinking and will continue to do so. Thanks for uploading these videos. Very helpful and relieving to know that I’m not the only one who embarrassed myself
Me too,man... me too. We got this!
Me too
Same here
Damn i thot i was the only one
Word... I did allllllll of that
Yes, the sober journey. Drinking has been glorified too much
Dude I've been in the exact same situation, checking Facebook messages making sure I didn't say something stupid, what a horrible feeling that is...
For real lol! I'm so glad that's in my past now 🤣
how did you overcome the guilt... ?
@@rk_nyra By doing positive things and not reverting back to the old me which was a heavy drinker who did stupid things while under the influence.
💀💀💀 I have been trying to find a video of someone who can match my level of "embarrassing" when drunk and I have finally found one🙇. i am so defeated and done with myself
I almost killed someone while drunk. How about that? I can go on and on brother. You're not alone. It took major courage to admit this. I was exactly like you. Trust me I know how far you've come. Stay strong
Good to know I'm not alone eather,😬
@@luiskaponi6777 me too man…. Me too. I’m fucking stupid.
Dude explain how you did dokt say that and not even explain the story
This really hit home with me. I’m quitting drinking as of last Saturday June 18th. Blacked out and showed my ass at a friends sons birthday party in front of their family and friends. I’m just glad they got me outta there before I showed my ass even more. A lot of ppl who met me for the first time while I was drunk probably don’t like me.
Have done same,
Over a year sober now?
Like literally showed your asss?
Tim I did everything you did times TEN! What's worse, I'm a woman!!!
I feel you girl. Same!!
Me as well
You need to start a virtual support group Eva!
Same 🤦🏼♀️
@@celeste5362 me too,you're not alone guys
"A drunk mans words are a sober mans thoughts". I would always reflect on that saying after I said something I regretted while I was drunk. It made me realize that I repress too many feelings while I'm sober when I can more tactfully express them.
That quote is only partially true. Not everything you say is what you think while sober. Sometimes you speak straight incoherent, nonsensical lies.
@@sdsmit3633 I agree, but I also think that some of what you say is repressed thoughts and/or feelings. In that case I think it's healthy to examine yourself.
I realised this about myslef too. This made me to happy and lovely drunk to angry drunk wont let anythng slide.
Used to make up with people I still hated and fight with the people I wanted on my side the most and would wake up to try to stitch the peices of these memories together. Ugh 🙄
Been there too.
Same. I hate the blackouts. So embarrassing and wonder what in the world I’ve said. I’m done.
thank you for sharing this. How did you cope with it or how did you recover from like all the guilt and all ?
Day 2 of my sober journey, I relapsed 2 times before. I hope and pray I can make it a month sober. Tim this is so hard, it’s nice to know that a lot of people struggle with this and I’m not alone.
You definitely arent alone. It's a hard fight and most all of us have relapsed too. You got this!!!
@@TimothyWard thank you 😊 your doing great keep it up
There's a lot of is like that, especially when we are going through something in life and doing it sober is very hard but it's possible
Don’t give up. Just get back up and try again until you get it right!
Congratulations on changing for the better. Keep changing for the better. Keep up the good work.
I can totally relate! I’ve lost friends and taken a lot out on my spouse in the past for no reason! Not drinking is 100% better than that embarrassment 👍
Me too❤ my husband has taken a lot
You are describing my experience with drinking. And I thought I was the only one doing these embarrassing things
No, you definitely aren't alone lol
i also thought i was the only one. so embarrasing and the anxiety i have to deal with the morning after. wow i cannot do this anymore
Omg! Yes! You are not the only one. I’ve texted my big boss, said mean things to people, danced on peoples counters, said inappropriate things to strangers, Did pretty much every thing you did. I won’t even say what I did last time. Haven’t drank for a couple of months. I want to keep going.
At least it's comforting knowing we aren't alone
I can relate to it all. Especially checking your phone the next day.
Absolutely, Tim. I've been there. The absolute dread of waking up the next morning and your heart completely drops. The shame kicks in, the panic, the paranoia, the feelings getting so far that you even feel suicidal in that brief period. I'm so thankful for Naltrexone. I recently started it and now I can drink one or two drinks and stop and not be hungover the next morning and remember what happened the night before. I hope to continue to drink less and less with this medication.
You described exactly how I felt yesterday and still a little today. The mixture of paranoia and embarrassment is horrific.
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Thanks Tim your story resonates with me , I have been a binge drinker for 41 years and have my share of stories and events that I am not proud of. Everytime I try and drink responsibly I end up failing . 7 days in alcohol free and I feel great, your videos have helped greatly so thanks again.
I got drunk at a wedding, argued with my boyfriend and cried in front of strangers, got in a cab and went to the airport. Slept in the airport and then realized how dumb that was and went back to the hotel. I literally have never been so embarrassed in my life. I hate myself right now.
Right there with you brother. I had a legit scare this past weekend that has literally scared me sober. The fact that you can't remember if you did something or not I'd so haunting. Best of luck to us!
@@JossieL-w8k omg! Hope everything worked out for you. Trust me, the shame and guilt you feel is horrible.
I feel ya. 4 real. Next day of shame.
Omg drunk texts, drunk flirting thankfully is gone! Nearly 4 months off alcohol! Don't ever want to go back, well done :)
Starting today again, 37 years old, partner hates my drinking but doesnt believe I need help. Last night, I had a couple extra martinis and threw up on myself, so humiliating! I feel like crap today. I dont have self control, tried and fail many times. Im hoping to quit, for good this time! I dont want to loose what I have now. Please, pray for me!🙏🏻🙏🏻
I can see how painful it is to talk about this and I commend your courage to face your demons head on and help others in the process.
He is the goat for this video
Yes I do wish you well. I have not seen my brother sober in 50 years. He was arrested 2 months ago. I will never see him again.
so many embarrassing stories never mind could ov hurt myself or others ...so done I look back like how am I here 29 days relapsed xmas 37 b4 that ..I want this
Tim, I was able to catch one of your live streams last year in which I asked you if quitting drinking was one of your biggest accomplishments. And you humbly responded that quitting drinking is not something that you accomplish but rather an on going battle that you have to tackle. I'm not much of a drinker myself but I can't help but wonder all the internal battles people who drink have to go through. I just wanted to commend you on your journey and the insights you share with all of us by being brutally honest with yourself and your viewers. Blessings to you and yours brother.
Man... in my unestablished 19 years of life, I’ve already had a lot of these moments. My desires tend to dictate my life, but I’ve been doing better. Again, I’m still young, my mind tells me that maybe I can drink again in a socially appropriate way, and I am going into college (starting in person) so I know I’ll be around it, and I’m nervous I’d give in, and worse get drunk and do something embarrassing or worse dangerous to myself or others. Anyways, your words of wisdom are much appreciated!
Your honesty is going to take you further than you can imagine. I have 100 stories like yours, we’re remarkably similar drinkers. I too have recovered and moved past those ways, it’s almost comical how quickly your life will turn around once you fully kick the sauce. Good luck people I’m rootin for ya’ll
It is crazy how quickly your life can change after you get sober. Sometimes it doesn't even seem like that person from back then was me lol. It's like I'm looking back at someone else's memories.
Bigfoot got me on the path out of addiction
.... sounds crazy, but the entire mystery of it got me more intrigued than drugs
That’s cool! Whatever it takes
Thank you for being real. Many female sober blogs just say I did embarrassing things. You are exposing yourself and helps me see more clearly.
That's totally me. Glad I'm not the only one.
You’re not alone Meg Olson. I am exhausted at being this person. I’m done. Hang in there.
I’m also I angry drunk when I drink whiskey and the other night I blacked out for the first time said and did some really mean shit In front of my friends and an ex. Never drinking again. Glad to see other people have done this before and I’m not alone. 🙏
You’re definitely not alone! At least now you know what might happen when you drink and you can use that as incentive to stay sober.
@@TimothyWard oh yeah my personality is all or nothing and that includes drinking so Ik it’s just gonna keep getting worse and worse. Thanks you so much for the video it really makes me and everyone watching feel better and want to take control over this bad habit. 👍
My new sober life is soooo freeing, I can honestly say I feel more at peace with myself then I ever have. The main thing i'm trying to work though at the minute though is moving on from the shame and embarassment of my past. I guess its all part of the process of sobriety, hopefully it wont take too long 😳.
Its great that you can look back at that time in your life and actually laugh at it.
Yeah it is Jan. I'm so glad it's far enough behind me now that it's funny lol
thanks brother this was so helpful, especially about the drunk texting facebooking thing. Just yesterday I emberrased myself in front of all my facebook friends in the most extreme way, I wake up and just can't forget it, friends, family calling me etc. God forgive me...
Dude, can totally relate to the drunk texting and messaging!!! Pissed off so many people from doing it. Another great reason to stop drinking. Done with that shit.
Just found your channel and this resonates with me so much.
On Sunday i drank to a black out, crashed at my brothers and he had to babysit me all night because i was throwing up in my sleep.
I'm a grown 35 year old man and it's so embarrassing.
Im not even a regular drinker, it might be once a month or once every three months but whenever i drink the same thing happens so i am really trying to go tee total immediately!
I never want to touch alcohol in my life ever again.
Omg! I so related to you I’m so many ways. I’m a women and is more embarrassing. Your story is so uplifting for me. I decided to stop even tho is a week. But I had a start somewhere.
Good luck G M!
I'm glad you are still sober February 6 2021 I will be 11 months without alcohol I was a happy drunk but I don't miss it at all they strong my brother
That's awesome Elijah! You'll be hitting that 1 year mark soon. I appreciate the words of encouragement!
Tim, it’s like your telling my story. I just passed 4 months and I thank god every day I’m able to keep that old version of myself behind me. Thanks so much for sharing these videos
Thank you for the beautiful scenery in the background. Those mountains look impressive.
I'm proud of you Tim. That you have the strength to critically look at yourself and make the necessary change. Congradulations!!! Thanks for the inspiration 👍🤗
Thank you 😁😁
Tim, your channel is great. You are saving lives. Yesterday, I woke up still drunk and all I could remember was standing in the grocery store, ten miles from my house, mumbling to the assistant to give my number to his female friend who I like the look of. The worst part was, it was obvious that I had driven there drunk. He looked terrified. His expression shocked me out of my blackout for an instant. I made a fast exit home (driving). I remember nothing else about it. Today I went to my van and found a smashed liquor bottle next to the drivers door in my public parking space. Scary stuff.
After 4 years sober, hearing some of your stories brings back so many memories of my past life. Keep up the great work Tim, it helps people hearing that they are not the only ones going through this.
Hello Mr.Timothy and everyone. ✌🏿❤.Im glad you stopped Drinking. You're an amazing Sobriety Coach.
I agree! One of the best TH-camr’s I’ve found and really enjoy!
I'm on day two of my first serious attempt at sobering up after 10+ years of an almost daily reliance on alcohol. My decision to get on the wagon wasn't planned, but recently one or two things have hit home that finally convinced me that I need to stop.
Without going into my life story, I just wanted to say thank you Tim for sharing your wisdom, experience, and encouragement. Your insights have been a big help, I'm sure we can all relate.
Keep up the good work
Thanks Stony! And good luck to you your sobriety journey. I'm sending prayers and strengthening vibes your way. You can do this!
@@TimothyWard You're more than welcome! Your vids, along with a few others have been a great help and I owe you my thanks. It's now day three and by now I've usually poured my first drink (I'm a 'youtube solo party' drinker myself), and while I know there's a struggle ahead, I also know it's what I have to do. Thanks once again for the strength buddy, will continue to tune in :) Steve (UK)
Sorry I accidentally pressed the unlike button. I was trying to press read more. Not a hater here. Thanks for sharing your story Stony Stevenson
No your not the only 1. I'm 33 years old and have been drinking since 17. I've been 15 days sober I deal with the same problems dont need a drink every day but when I do drink its a wrap. I'm tired of waking up the next day feeling in disgust not being able to remember what the hell happand the night before or who did I call I do the same things you did. It sucks but God is helping me with this now 🙏 I feel alot better but deep down inside I'm like what about that day I pick up a beer again.
Congrats on the 15 days sober David! You got this man!!!
I can't remember anything when I am drunk but still Know that yes I did some embarrassing things last night
Tim. You're me. Even that manager story had me laughing I nearly had a full on fight with my manager after we had 4 bottles of wine each at the Christmas "party".
Thank you for sharing this 🤍
This is so therapeutic, thank you so much for sharing brother🫡
When I drink, I have no self control. I just had the worst nightmare last night at the casino that i go too. They told me that I was really drunk and cant remember how i lost nor went to my room..im nervous as hell to what I did. Im trying to forget about it. Im going sober..I keep blacking out and cant remember shit. Screw alcohol
Amen brother. One year sober.. I have former “friends” who no longer speak to me because of the things I did ( and still don’t remember ) when I was blackout drunk and drinking daily. So glad I saw the light and quit.
I have embarrassed so often on F/B, kicked out of so many 'groups', didnt even remember what I said most of the time. Sometimes I did some damage control, but it was just a mess. I even made a rule, no facebook when drinking, but i would often end up breaking it
I showed up at my tiny neighbour dive bar a little drunk yrs ago and was loudly heckling the stripper. I got asked to leave. I was a 17 yr old girl, with plenty of drinking money.
I also jumped out of a bedroom window naked at night and ripped the eavestrough off the whole side of a house, then fell down a hill. All in front of my bf's whole family.
So glad when I had kids I stopped. About 35 yrs ago. Not one slip.
And I would drink 40 oz of rye most days. At least a 26'er. The damage I did to my kidneys in that short time took years to reveal itself.
to anyone struggling..It can be done. You're worth the effort.
Love and light from northern Ontario,Canada !😊🇨🇦
I'm here tryin to cope with some embarassing things I did in my last drunk time. That's really hard to go through this and in think that's it with alcohol, I quit.
I went to a bridal shower and Booed the brides grandmother when she won bingo prize. (In my drunk mind it was a joke but it did not come across that way at all.)
I deservingly got yelled at by the family but my response was to double down on my rude behavior and rude comments.
Side note : I’m supposed to be a groomsman in this wedding and I have not been able to face the bride and groom to apologize. I’m not sure if anyone can even apologize for that kind of behavior. It certainly doesn’t seem like an apology would mean much at this time.
I feel so bad for the bride that I upset her and her family on her important event all because I was absolute drunk jackass.
This is one of the long list of reasons I need to stop right now. I’m on day 5
Good luck on your sobriety journey, my friend!
I can only imagine the amount of inner strength it took to get over those embarrassing moments. ❤
It didn’t feel like strength lol. I think I got through those moments, not sure I got over them. Not until I got sober at least.
@@TimothyWard I feel that. 😪
I'm definitely considering getting sober. It's hard to imagine life with absolutely no alcohol.
Winter look good on you.
I can't see you as an angry drunk the sober you is so personable it's hard to imagine you being mean.
I'm glad you can speak about it and share your experience with others thank you for that hopefully it'll jumpstart those that are struggling like Jessica 🙏
Praying for her as she's not going to make it if she doesn't stop and get help.
I definitely was a different person when I drank lol. It's good to be the real me at all time now!
This is me, embarrassing moments while drunk. I'm on day 7 of sobriety and having a hard time forgiving myself right now.
Havn't drunk for 9 months, i can relate too all you say looking back, my life so much simpler & fulfilling now. Peace brother
Congratulations on the 9 months of sobriety!!
I can definitely relate to you on the girls' part. I've lost the chance with a handful of girls due to me scaring them away by drunk calling them 10 times, leaving empty voicemails, and showing up at their house at 2am. I would ghost them all week because I'm "busy" and then drunk text them on weekends. There was this one girl that I really liked. We were hitting it off so well for a few weeks, and one night I drunk-called her so many times that she told me we needed to cut it off because she was "already" talking to someone else. My last relationship didn't end so well. I was staying in, drinking, and ghosting her messages instead of being with her and talking to her. Another fling; we were terrific friends outside of the benefits. She told me we needed to cut it off because I came over super aggressive one night, making her feel guilty about nothing for no reason. She wrote me a whole letter and told me that this needed to stop.
Countless times of waking up with a negative balance in my bank account, a scratch on my car, and sometimes even waking up at 6am in bed with that fling that was supposed to be in the dirt a long time ago. I would wake up with people texting me back, "Are you good?" and me having to explain things or not even respond. I even called my father one time. So embarrassing. One night I got physically hurt bad. I came out of a concert and rode an e-scooter back to the parking lot. I ate it and busted my lips and chin on the way there. Good thing I didn't lose a tooth, or else I'd lose it (I have a perfect smile btw and a record to prove it. I won the best smile in middle school and high school). That same night I remember ending up on the side of the highway entrance ramp FOR NO REASON, but because I was drunk, I was there. Pulled over and out of my car. I even hit a car once. I was going 5 mph, turning left at a light once it turned green, and hitting a parked car at the corner. One night my phone died while I was driving, and I ended up in some random city. Since I was drunk, I couldn't read the highway exits. I ended up getting help from some biker girl at a CVS. She googled my address and gave me directions back to the highway. Bless her heart for helping me at 2am.
Thank you for this vid. I have many stories that are very harsh/ embarrassing. I was laughing listening to some of your story, which is good because alcohol will use us, and we won’t remember, and we’ll justify it if we’re not sober. I had 13 years sober and fell off. Had a year, fell off and then decided I’d control it… it’s not always bad w alcohol but it never, absolutely NEVER makes anything better. It’s a big lie that alcohol helps at all… for fun, to help w anxiety, etc. Glad today I’m not drinking. I agree it’s great to have our wits about us, and we can all be of much more service to the world and God, being sober, clear headed. Thank you for your honesty, and forthcoming with your story. It helps ppl to know we’re not alone and we can be sober… we can do this, we can get through it.
Day 3 today for me:)
Love it man, we have about 90% similarities with our drinking, thanks
Hung the alcohol hat up after my lovely Halloween performance at a friend's house for a party. Woke up the next day n told myself, there's more to life than a brown bottle n a barstool. Closing in on 4 months come March 1. Take care out there!
Sometimes we need to put on a really bad performance to make us realize it's time to stop lol. Congrats on the almost 4 months!
I wish you had a podcast , I could listen to you all day ❤️
I did so many shamefull things its unreal. Once I was so drunk that I thought it could not Hurt to break into my friends back garden and knocking on his windo at 4 in the morning almost giving him an heart attack to ask for a cigarette. Hè told me to piss off.. the worst thing is that one of his patents saw me walking through their back yard. The next day he told me what I did While I forgot the Whole night. It was emarrasing to say the least
One of most embarassing things I have done when drunk was abuse my whole family at Christmas dinner..6 months later my mother passed of cancer..will never forgive myself for that
Sorry for your loss brother. In order to heal you must forgive yourself GOD bless
@@countryswole7475 thanks for the kind words and advice brother 🇦🇺👊
Sorry for your loss
@@izzymart2966 thanks mate
Bad path whenever i drink. The worst is when i get to a point of being sober where i think i can have another drink but that one drink lasts several months and loses every one of my friendships. Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing
Drunk embarrassment 😔
I think all addictions require a fight for life and living. I overused for plenty of reasons you say, to cope, boredom, or to mingle. I am finally realizing too, just be me! 🤗 Back to sobriety life and living.
Thanks Tim!! I’m so grateful that you decided to continue posting about addiction. Your touching so many lives.. great content🙏🏽
Thank you Tim for sharing I’m going through the embarrassment, and I’m going to stop in Jesus name!
thank you for sharing your story
The honesty is refreshing.
LOVE YOUR HONESTY
I can relate to your story completely, I still drink and the social media and texting is a big problem. I have a few friends that hate me for the drunk texts I’ve sent them. I’m a musician an I’ve sent my label an angry drunk email I regret a few months back.
Nothing like being alcohol free 🙏
This is one of my favorite youtube from you I listen to this one twice it help me on my journey on my 1 year alcohol free thanks Tim it really help me never felt better no more crazy hangovers 🙏
Very glad I found ur channel bro. I relate way too much . Took 11 reasons for me to finally quit last year lol . Life has never been better
The landscape you are walking through is amazing. Those snow capped mountains are beautiful.
I'm in Bozeman, Montana in this video
Tim, thank you for a very inspiring message. I needed to watch this video today.
Last week I drunk text my boss. I was upset with his lack of involvement with our team.
Alcohol has always been a truth serum for me. Good or bad. I am an introvert by day, but alcohol opens the flood gates.. I am also an angry drunk…. My boss and I met the very next day and he was receptive to my criticism. I still have a job, and I am sober for 8 days. I am not touching another drop. Your video hit home with me. Thank you!
Your sister sounds like an amazing person.
I love this channel man! I've been sober for a couple years and your videos really resonate with me.🙏🏼😊 They are so helpful. It's my AA meeting on TH-cam. So great to be Sober. Thanks again 🤠😁🥳😊👍🏽
You are hysterical 😂 I really appreciate you and yr naked honesty 🙏🏻😊
Thanks Tim! I've done all of the dumb stuff. Humiliated myself way too many times. Thanks for speaking so honestly about the drinking. Thankfully I haven't had to feel that self-imposed shame in a little while now. It does feel so much better to be free. Rock on!
No problem Zan! I think if the world was more honest about drinking and addiction we wouldn't have as many people struggling with it.
Drinking and dialing gets many of us in trouble.
I can't talk to my mom unless I'm drunk.
Then I forget everything we talked about
Most of this sounds eerily familiar, they don’t call them “spirits” for nothing right? Great honesty, great video.
Thank you !👍
I love your personality! You have me laughin watching this lol its real. I’ve been clean a little while now and this is so relatable. I just subscribed and turned on the bell so I can join the lives 😊🙏🏼
Thanks Jordan 😁! And welcome to the channel. I look forward to chatting with you soon on a live!
@@TimothyWard same here! Talk soon 😊😊 have a beautiful day
I’m the same thanks for sharing I’m 2 months sober
I love these candid walk and talks and appreciate the honesty. We need more of this so that those who struggle with alcohol (as you and I did because my story is similar) know there is no shame or guilt in any of it. Once we understand the problem, we can find the solution and sobriety is one of the most amazing solutions in life ever.