what if by the time i realise ,, it's too far behind to see I do not own the content in this video. All credit goes to their respective owners. • Rex Orange County - Pl...
hey bub. i know you're trying and you're barely getting by the days now. i know it's hard to get up, brush your teeth, shower, eat, drink something, or even change outfits every day. i get it, believe me it happens to me too. but keep pushing. i know it's all a lot and it's okay to give up sometimes. it's natural, don't think you have to be this perfect machine. you're a human. we fail, we triumph, and all of the above. so just keep pushing babe. me and so many MANY others love you. so even when you can't anymore. push through it all. for me.
The great protector Is that what I'm supposed to be? What if all this counts for nothing Everything I thought I'd be? What if by the time I realize It's too far behind to see? Seventy-mil projector I can show you everything, yeah And we're on our way to glory Where the show won't ever end And the encore lasts forever And it's time we're due to spend Spending the years together Growing older every day I feel at home when I'm around you And I'll gladly say again I hope the encore lasts forever Now there's time for us to spend And it's sublime with you, my friend This right here still feels like the honeymoon When you say my name, nothing's changed I'm still a boy inside my thoughts Am I meant to understand my faults? I don't think so I don't think I'm meant to understand myself Maybe you do And that's good for you Maybe in time Maybe one day I'll do the same I'll do the same I'll do the same I'll do the same I'll do the same as you I'll try and hold it up Soon I hope, or as soon as I'm old enough Stay forever, you know more than anyone, yeah, whoa And it's you that knows my darkness And you know my bedroom needs You could blast me and my secrets But there's probably just no need
does anyone else just feel hopeless? i can’t imagine myself ever being happy, like happy happy. i can’t imagine being comfortable with who i am and i can’t imagine other people feeling that way, either. i can’t imagine having someone who like likes me. i can’t imagine getting top surgery. i can’t imagine surviving past 40. i can’t imagine a world that isn’t destroyed in 25 years. i can’t imagine getting closure from her or telling my grandfather how much he meant to me. i can’t imagine making up with my father. i can’t imagine walking forward. i can’t imagine anything good for myself. genuinely. maybe it’s my depression but i’m just so pessimistic about my own future and about the state the world is in. i wanted to live but there’s a difference between living and just being alive
Hey buddy I know what it's like to be depressed and pessimistic about your life and the world, but I also know that you can teach yourself to be optimistic and compassionate about your life, and yourself. I've learned it, and I hope you are able to learn to do it for yourself too. I know it can be done and I know you can do it. We get to be alive just this one time for a short couple decades, and the world already has enough misery in it. It's worth it to try and make our short existence beautiful and happy and worthwhile. It's worth it to try and love yourself, because no one can love you as well as you. I hope you find a way out of your misery buddy, I really hope you find happiness, I love you!
My grandmother just passed away a few days ago after having Alzheimer’s for the last six years... and so I flew in for the funeral. She was my last living grandparent. I’m now here with my parents for the remainder of my visit, having left my husband behind since he couldn’t come. I am in such a sad place mentally right now. This is the third death in my family this year, and I’m hurting. This song, this very version that’s slowed, both soothes the monstrosity of depression in me, while fueling it for rapid fire recalling of memories.
My bestfriend just died today he died at a car crash going to our house we were going to listen to this song while playing Minecraft and playing Valorant and pubg and watch anime we have been bestfriends for 7 yrs now his gone fly high may the force be with you bud:)
I’m extremely sorry to hear about your loss. Grief is such a complex and emotional feeling but I’m sure the connection you had with them was irreplaceable and precious. While they may no longer with us, the memories are, and those glimpses into the love you guys felt for each other are precious. The road will be bumpy and rough but with us or not your friend will be right by your side. I wish you only the best in this coming year and the ones after. Your stronger than you think, i believe in you, we believe in you, you will get better with time.
I can’t stop thinking about how my yellow is lying and betraying me, but ofc I am being a dumbass and keep thinking and talking to him. I just can’t stop these feelings for him.
This might sound weird but this song perfectly fits the mood and just describes the way I want my life to be just sitting back hearing the instruments is so nostalgic and creates an imagined world that is so relaxing
my bestfriend yasne recommended this song to me and i jsut brushed it off but now im in my bed crying and listened to this and lets just say, im crying more.
My pit-bull just passed on Monday night. My brother dedicated this to our dog Chance. “The great protector.” And “I hope the encore lasts forever and it’s time with you to spend. Spending the years together, growing older everyday. I feel at home when I’m around you....and it’s sublime with you my friend.” Those Lines suit him well. ❤️it’s been in my head. He was so patient, goofy, brave, kind, and full of love. He was so grateful for whatever we gave him. He never expected anything and it never took him a lot to be happy. He gave my family 14 years of unconditional love. Thank you Chance, rest easy buddy. 🐶❤️💔🥺 we love you so much our great protector.
here u go guys, have an amazing night you beautiful people :) The great protector Is that what I'm supposed to be? What if all this counts for nothing Everything I thought I'd be? What if by the time I realize It's too far behind to see? Seventy-mil projector I can show you everything, yeah And we're on our way to glory Where the show won't ever end And the encore lasts forever And it's time we're due to spend Spending the years together Growing older every day I feel at home when I'm around you And I'll gladly say again I hope the encore lasts forever Now there's time for us to spend And it's sublime with you, my friend This right here still feels like the honeymoon When you say my name, nothing's changed I'm still a boy inside my thoughts Am I meant to understand my faults? I don't think so I don't think I'm meant to understand myself Maybe you do And that's good for you Maybe in time Maybe one day I'll do the same I'll do the same I'll do the same I'll do the same I'll do the same as you I'll try and hold it up Soon I hope, or as soon as I'm old enough Stay forever, you know more than anyone, yeah, whoa And it's you that knows my darkness And you know my bedroom needs You could blast me and my secrets But there's probably just no need
the moment the violins take over I get goosebumps and start to dissociate. the world can make you feel so small and so horrible. this song is one of the things that can make you feel better, taking your breath away. stunning.💫
whoever’s there and has a significant other, please treat them like no other, spend as much time with them as possible because if they leave you after you’ve been arguing recently, you’ll never feel the same happiness ever again. trust me, i made this mistake, i haven’t been happy in nearly a year.
i don’t know who needs to see this but don’t give up. there will be a time in your life where you look back at how bad your life was and being grateful that you didn’t end it there. keep fighting we’ll get through this together. trust me i know it’s tiring hearing things will get better but they WILL. trust me. you are going to look back at today and cry of happiness and how you’re doing now and that’s your still here. i love you so much.
same; i think we should move on.. ik it's hard bc i have been with them for so long but they are literally tearing me down. you should move on, i'll do it with you. we deserve better, all of us. and i promise it's going to be worth it. lets do it? new year. new us 🤍
this song reminds me of my cat the was hit by a car, he was one year old and was too young to go. He meant so damn much too me and how he helped me with toxic people in my life and helped with anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I miss him so much. Im crying as im typing this. Im so sorry sammy, I will always love you 10/18/20❤
I’m so tired, so mentally and physically tired I haven’t talked to my mom in months We live in the same house She won’t look me in the eyes I came out to my dad a couple weeks ago It didn’t go well He doesn’t look at me the same anymore He told my mom They both purposely misgender and dead name me I’m the oldest with two younger siblings It’s so tiring trying to make things look normal for them I don’t want them to worry I don’t want them to know how truly broken our family is I want them to keep laughing with my mom, watch tv shows and movies with her, be friends with her Have a mother My depression has returned and it’s worse than ever I almost hurt myself yesterday The only reason I didn’t is cause my little brother was coming I didn’t want him to see me like that I couldn’t I wouldn’t forgive myself I’m afraid I won’t stop myself next time I’m so scared I can’t take it anymore I haven’t had contact with my friends in so long I’m so lonely I don’t know what to do anymore I’m so tired Please someone help I’m scared I don’t know what to do Help Please
@@ignoremeoof4711 wow uhm i forgot i made this comment. things got a little better. my mom and i are talking again, my siblings and i have gotten closer, i finally got in contact with my friends again. my parents are still not accepting of my name and pronouns, but we just don't mention it haha. thank you for checking in on a random comment from 8 months ago, i'm doing better. some things still aren't great but i am in a slightly better place mentally. thank you from the bottom of my heart :)
4 years… I keep trying to tell myself I moved on. At the time it felt like you were the best thing to ever happen to me, you completed me. And here I am, thinking of you once again and I can’t even tell you how I feel so I’m writing this in a TH-cam comment section of a song I hope you’ll listen to and feel the same way..
hey. your doing good! don’t stress. it’s not good for you. i know your trying your best, and i think your best is perfectly good enough! don’t sweat it! ily. 🥺
Everytime I listen to this song, it makes me think about him, and all of the things that we both could have done differently. Every day that void gets deeper and deeper. It's been months and still, it feels like I've lost something that was a big part of me, and in a lot respects I have. Sometimes I wish he was still in my life, but we both screwed each other over and it was for the best. Despite our differences however, I know that I'll still love him forever.
Imagine this. having a relationship that’s so beautiful you and your mate don’t even fight at all. You both love each other equally and respect each other no matter what. How did it come to this? You flashback to when you were about to confess your love to her. You’re both walking late at night on the sidewalk. No cars. Just orange yellow lights. You stare at her and take a deep breath to the say the words “I love you.” But then 3:24-3:52 She kisses you. 3:53-4:05 You kiss her back 4:05-4:28 You do it again and get closer then you wake tf up in your bed. sad.
I get chills just listening to this song on the phone, laptop, with headphones, etc. Whatever it is I always get the chills. Imagine going to the concert, I would cry a million times harder 😔👌
3:22 is something different... something i've never heard before, nostaglic, familiar but so different. every fucking time it plays my eyes prick with tears because it reminds me of somewhere, someone i havent even seen before.
hello. i am here on the 15th of january 2021, in the middle of a third national lockdown. this song was my therapy song throughout the first lockdown and it has so much fear and loneliness attached to it but in a sort of beautiful way. listening to this song again slowed and reverb, amidst the winter depression and isolation from my friends, this hits hard.
It amazes me the mind of the person that composed and arranged this song, the instruments, that violin part it's just... I have no words. Overwhelming.
This is his favorite song, now I can't stop listening to it. I don't play guitar literally never ever, but I'm learning to play one only to impress him by playing this song.
liking or loving someone is horrible and scary . the feeling of being unwanted is just too embarrassing and uncomfortable . i want to feel wanted , i do . im a senior and i will probably never the person again , i literally grow up with this person and i realised that i always liked him , its hurt because i cannot do anything . i wish i was this lucky girl but he will always be a fantasy
Don’t worry man we all get our turn it just depends on how much it means to you and how much you want it. I just had the nerve to tell my crush how I felt in person and she didn’t feel the same way but we’re friends now and maybe I can convince her why she should change her mind.... Mabye
I never had a song give me massive depression. Literally had this on repeat and kept thinking about people I’ve lost recently. I think I just needed to mourn, thank you.
it’s my birthday today and i know i have a lot of friends and family but ive never felt more alone. it’s like every day is the same 1: wake up 2: maybe eat 3: go to bed Repeat and I just want to end it all but I cant because I’m so scared. I’m sorry to everyone who feels like this too, because I understand. And if you’re still reading this, please don’t think you’re any less than you are. i know that everyone says this but they say it because it’s true, everything gets better over time. It could be years, but it will truly get better.
I have the same thoughts as you honestly. But there’s something deep inside of me that tells me everything is gonna be okay, sooner or later. So please stay. If you would like you can put your sc or insta so we can talk. Happy birthday
3:22 I think this is what your looking for
Omg thx
THX
Thank you omg
nah the whole song be a vibeeee
wtf you wizard
the violin part breaks my heart everytime.
am i supposed to cry during it
bc god i am
@@kalifiedmk6 me too, i can't even see what i'm writing on my lessons lol
@@Lea-zx7ci lol.
same ),:
i found out my friend ended her life today. we loved this song. i can't stop crying listening to this and remembering her. fly high, i love you hun.
i'm so sorry. my friend struggles with that to so i know how you feel, but i'm so so sorry. 🤍🤍
be strong💪🏼
i’m so sorry🤍🤍she’s proud of you
I am so, so sorry. It will be alright my dear 💙 thank you for being here
i teared reading this, sorry for your loss
I love how we all listen to the slowed version so much that when it got taken off we switched to a new vid of it
Im still recovering from that
"Old enough to understand" I am not even joking that part just makes me burst into tears..
hope they don't take this down since they just took down the other one that had like a million views :((((
i miss that one so much
@@pacif1st68 me too
@@pacif1st68 Me 3
I downloaded it before it got taken down thank god. Such a beautiful song
@@N3XUS_T4RG3T wanna share that download 🤪
hey bub. i know you're trying and you're barely getting by the days now. i know it's hard to get up, brush your teeth, shower, eat, drink something, or even change outfits every day. i get it, believe me it happens to me too. but keep pushing. i know it's all a lot and it's okay to give up sometimes. it's natural, don't think you have to be this perfect machine. you're a human. we fail, we triumph, and all of the above. so just keep pushing babe. me and so many MANY others love you. so even when you can't anymore. push through it all. for me.
you're an angel
this made me sad especially since my nickname is bub, thank you so much
This comment is why I’m here
i love you
ew shut up
3:22 is the part where NOBODY can speak
I’m balling my eyes out
nah, no one can speak the entire song. i love. rex his songs are beautiful especially this one. no one can speak on any of his songs
You’ve literally made my day thank you I hope you have an amazing day xxx happy holidays
Can i cry in here for a while..
but where everybody cried
so glad i found this one bc the other one was taken down :( god bless lol
sameee
Ikrrrr
I literally have to sleep to it every night
Right ;(
Faxx tryna sleep
i cry to this song EVERY SINGLE TIME , i'm not even exaggerating thats how painful this is
ME TOO sometimes I even have to skip the song because it’s just to painful to listen to. It hurts
you are beautiful ^^ JESUS LOVE'S YOU
The amount of times I’ve listened to this version.. is unhealthy
The great protector
Is that what I'm supposed to be?
What if all this counts for nothing
Everything I thought I'd be?
What if by the time I realize
It's too far behind to see?
Seventy-mil projector
I can show you everything, yeah
And we're on our way to glory
Where the show won't ever end
And the encore lasts forever
And it's time we're due to spend
Spending the years together
Growing older every day
I feel at home when I'm around you
And I'll gladly say again
I hope the encore lasts forever
Now there's time for us to spend
And it's sublime with you, my friend
This right here still feels like the honeymoon
When you say my name, nothing's changed
I'm still a boy inside my thoughts
Am I meant to understand my faults?
I don't think so
I don't think I'm meant to understand myself
Maybe you do
And that's good for you
Maybe in time
Maybe one day
I'll do the same
I'll do the same
I'll do the same
I'll do the same
I'll do the same as you
I'll try and hold it up
Soon I hope, or as soon as I'm old enough
Stay forever, you know more than anyone, yeah, whoa
And it's you that knows my darkness
And you know my bedroom needs
You could blast me and my secrets
But there's probably just no need
thank you
so much
you are appreciated
its crazy because the girl he wrote this about isnt his girlfriend anymore..
NOOOOOO
im still heartbroken about it
damn😔
who was his gf tho?
@@keira8864 Thea they been dating for 5 years.
Dude I’m so tired. I don’t even know what words to use to explain anymore, I don’t have the energy. I’m just tired
you got this, i truly believe in you. this feeling won't last.
i love you im proud of you i care about you ❤️❤️❤️
you’ve got this 🤍🤍🤍
It’ll be okay in the end. Breath
same here :(
this song is like a hug
does anyone else just feel hopeless?
i can’t imagine myself ever being happy, like happy happy. i can’t imagine being comfortable with who i am and i can’t imagine other people feeling that way, either. i can’t imagine having someone who like likes me. i can’t imagine getting top surgery. i can’t imagine surviving past 40. i can’t imagine a world that isn’t destroyed in 25 years. i can’t imagine getting closure from her or telling my grandfather how much he meant to me. i can’t imagine making up with my father. i can’t imagine walking forward. i can’t imagine anything good for myself. genuinely. maybe it’s my depression but i’m just so pessimistic about my own future and about the state the world is in. i wanted to live but there’s a difference between living and just being alive
@@kelzz__2778 wtf is wrong with u he/she wants to speak up about her feelings. go get a life bye.
Hey buddy I know what it's like to be depressed and pessimistic about your life and the world, but I also know that you can teach yourself to be optimistic and compassionate about your life, and yourself. I've learned it, and I hope you are able to learn to do it for yourself too. I know it can be done and I know you can do it. We get to be alive just this one time for a short couple decades, and the world already has enough misery in it. It's worth it to try and make our short existence beautiful and happy and worthwhile. It's worth it to try and love yourself, because no one can love you as well as you. I hope you find a way out of your misery buddy, I really hope you find happiness, I love you!
@@kelzz__2778 i don’t give a fuck. eat shit
@@wildboargaming1858 period tell em again
@@kelzz__2778 you're making a hate comment to just get attention? Pathetic
this hurts when youre missing them
youve both changed so much
but you fell in love at different times
if only you didnt fall in love when you lost him
this explained my situation so perfectly. thank you.
yea.
explained it perfectly.
sometimes i feel a little better that we’re not alone and that other people are going through/have gone through what we’re going through...
UR PFP-
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you spelled tired wrong
You must rest
@@aven8545 it doesn't matter to me
Me too😔im so tired from this fucking life..the people are so bag with me, and nothing i do is ever good enough
take some rest, don't push yourself
pov: you went to cry to this song but realized it got blocked so now you’re here
Why did it get blocked
Waitt, whatt?
sorry to my friends and family
i’m trying my best
Stay. Please. Do it for me. Do it for a stranger that felt the pain of loosing a loved one from suicide. I love you please stay
you can do this, you are worth it.
@@sophiagonzalez2261 your comment made me cry im so sorry
@@dreia9690 it’s ok don’t cry. It was a long time ago but I’m fine now, I just wanna make sure that they are ok
i hope u r ok now :))
I’ve lost my baby... somehow this is the only thing that is letting me cry and process
I am so so sorry. That's so devastating. You are incredibly strong.
I am so sorry for your loss. I really hope you are doing better now
I’m sorry stay strong x
I'm so sorry. Please stay strong. I'll keep you in my prayers.
I'm sorry for your loss, i Hope you will get better, fighting! :-( 💗
Beautiful.
no you
@@tokio4976 and you!!!
My grandmother just passed away a few days ago after having Alzheimer’s for the last six years... and so I flew in for the funeral. She was my last living grandparent.
I’m now here with my parents for the remainder of my visit, having left my husband behind since he couldn’t come. I am in such a sad place mentally right now. This is the third death in my family this year, and I’m hurting. This song, this very version that’s slowed, both soothes the monstrosity of depression in me, while fueling it for rapid fire recalling of memories.
im so so sorry for your loss.
stay strong you got this :)
3:18 your welcome ☺️
that violin part is so powerful i just cry without even noticing the tears
here before this gets deleted gang ->
it won’t
My bestfriend just died today he died at a car crash going to our house we were going to listen to this song while playing Minecraft and playing Valorant and pubg and watch anime we have been bestfriends for 7 yrs now his gone fly high may the force be with you bud:)
I’m extremely sorry to hear about your loss. Grief is such a complex and emotional feeling but I’m sure the connection you had with them was irreplaceable and precious. While they may no longer with us, the memories are, and those glimpses into the love you guys felt for each other are precious. The road will be bumpy and rough but with us or not your friend will be right by your side. I wish you only the best in this coming year and the ones after. Your stronger than you think, i believe in you, we believe in you, you will get better with time.
@Sokudo i don't think the force was with him man
I’m so sorry
I can’t stop thinking about how my yellow is lying and betraying me, but ofc I am being a dumbass and keep thinking and talking to him. I just can’t stop these feelings for him.
Honestly me too💕 I hate to invalidate your story (which is not my intention) but I felt I could relate to this so much. Its gonna get better:)
i’ve been there.. it’s tough but you’ll make it through
that’s not your yellow if they are doing all that to you.. that’s a blue babez
@@xx-ju4kc haven’t you heard of emotions and love? Keep words to yourself, it can really affect someone.
@@Scarl19659 what did kerry x say? i think the comments gone
This might sound weird but this song perfectly fits the mood and just describes the way I want my life to be just sitting back hearing the instruments is so nostalgic and creates an imagined world that is so relaxing
stay forever. you know more then anyone.
I regret not listening to this sooner. It got recommended to me by a friend and- wow.
my bestfriend yasne recommended this song to me and i jsut brushed it off but now im in my bed crying and listened to this and lets just say, im crying more.
the people who disliked didnt mean it they just couldnt see the like button through their tears
ME
the people who disliked didnt mean it they just couldnt see the like button throught their tears
My pit-bull just passed on Monday night. My brother dedicated this to our dog Chance.
“The great protector.” And “I hope the encore lasts forever and it’s time with you to spend. Spending the years together, growing older everyday. I feel at home when I’m around you....and it’s sublime with you my friend.”
Those Lines suit him well. ❤️it’s been in my head. He was so patient, goofy, brave, kind, and full of love. He was so grateful for whatever we gave him. He never expected anything and it never took him a lot to be happy. He gave my family 14 years of unconditional love. Thank you Chance, rest easy buddy. 🐶❤️💔🥺 we love you so much our great protector.
sorry for your loss
i cant be the only one who just feels themself drifting away through out this song
here u go guys, have an amazing night you beautiful people :)
The great protector
Is that what I'm supposed to be?
What if all this counts for nothing
Everything I thought I'd be?
What if by the time I realize
It's too far behind to see?
Seventy-mil projector
I can show you everything, yeah
And we're on our way to glory
Where the show won't ever end
And the encore lasts forever
And it's time we're due to spend
Spending the years together
Growing older every day
I feel at home when I'm around you
And I'll gladly say again
I hope the encore lasts forever
Now there's time for us to spend
And it's sublime with you, my friend
This right here still feels like the honeymoon
When you say my name, nothing's changed
I'm still a boy inside my thoughts
Am I meant to understand my faults?
I don't think so
I don't think I'm meant to understand myself
Maybe you do
And that's good for you
Maybe in time
Maybe one day
I'll do the same
I'll do the same
I'll do the same
I'll do the same
I'll do the same as you
I'll try and hold it up
Soon I hope, or as soon as I'm old enough
Stay forever, you know more than anyone, yeah, whoa
And it's you that knows my darkness
And you know my bedroom needs
You could blast me and my secrets
But there's probably just no need
Your beautiful 🤍.
the moment the violins take over I get goosebumps and start to dissociate. the world can make you feel so small and so horrible. this song is one of the things that can make you feel better, taking your breath away. stunning.💫
whoever’s there and has a significant other, please treat them like no other, spend as much time with them as possible because if they leave you after you’ve been arguing recently, you’ll never feel the same happiness ever again. trust me, i made this mistake, i haven’t been happy in nearly a year.
Thank god for this one the other got taken down-
i don’t know who needs to see this but don’t give up. there will be a time in your life where you look back at how bad your life was and being grateful that you didn’t end it there. keep fighting we’ll get through this together. trust me i know it’s tiring hearing things will get better but they WILL. trust me. you are going to look back at today and cry of happiness and how you’re doing now and that’s your still here. i love you so much.
literally in love with the song wish they had a slowed down version on Apple Music
i found this song yesterday and i can’t explain how much peace and emotion this song brings me. wow.
Anyone crying cause there friends are toxic, no just me 🥲
me lol
you deserve better love
you deserve so much better please leave them
me too hun.
same; i think we should move on.. ik it's hard bc i have been with them for so long but they are literally tearing me down. you should move on, i'll do it with you. we deserve better, all of us. and i promise it's going to be worth it. lets do it? new year. new us 🤍
Can we have a 1hour loop from 3:22- 4:28 I die everytime I hear it 🥰
th-cam.com/video/xLUQQrjrFEI/w-d-xo.html not exactly the same but basicallyyyy
@@scarlett5175 thanks zero two
@Kit King th-cam.com/video/5AyJB_HlfiE/w-d-xo.html this is my favourite one
No
I was evicted from the last video. What’s up guys?
same
same
Same
My heart aches every time i listen to this song i-
this song reminds me of my cat the was hit by a car, he was one year old and was too young to go. He meant so damn much too me and how he helped me with toxic people in my life and helped with anxiety and suicidal thoughts. I miss him so much. Im crying as im typing this. Im so sorry sammy, I will always love you 10/18/20❤
it kinda makes me sad that people only listen to this song for the tiktok part, this whole song slaps, every rex song slaps
Same bro :/ the whole song is good
I’m so tired, so mentally and physically tired
I haven’t talked to my mom in months
We live in the same house
She won’t look me in the eyes
I came out to my dad a couple weeks ago
It didn’t go well
He doesn’t look at me the same anymore
He told my mom
They both purposely misgender and dead name me
I’m the oldest with two younger siblings
It’s so tiring trying to make things look normal for them
I don’t want them to worry
I don’t want them to know how truly broken our family is
I want them to keep laughing with my mom, watch tv shows and movies with her, be friends with her
Have a mother
My depression has returned and it’s worse than ever
I almost hurt myself yesterday
The only reason I didn’t is cause my little brother was coming
I didn’t want him to see me like that
I couldn’t
I wouldn’t forgive myself
I’m afraid I won’t stop myself next time
I’m so scared
I can’t take it anymore
I haven’t had contact with my friends in so long
I’m so lonely
I don’t know what to do anymore
I’m so tired
Please someone help
I’m scared
I don’t know what to do
Help
Please
I’m so so so late to this comment but i truly hope you’re still here, I’m so proud of you ok?
@@ignoremeoof4711 wow uhm i forgot i made this comment. things got a little better. my mom and i are talking again, my siblings and i have gotten closer, i finally got in contact with my friends again. my parents are still not accepting of my name and pronouns, but we just don't mention it haha. thank you for checking in on a random comment from 8 months ago, i'm doing better. some things still aren't great but i am in a slightly better place mentally. thank you from the bottom of my heart :)
Im pretty late too but im so glad that things are going better for you keep trying and i hope that you only find happiness in your live
4 years… I keep trying to tell myself I moved on. At the time it felt like you were the best thing to ever happen to me, you completed me. And here I am, thinking of you once again and I can’t even tell you how I feel so I’m writing this in a TH-cam comment section of a song I hope you’ll listen to and feel the same way..
How's it going?
This song makes me miss a far love I never had, a distant happiness I don’t recognize, a broken heart that never has been broken.
hey. your doing good! don’t stress. it’s not good for you. i know your trying your best, and i think your best is perfectly good enough! don’t sweat it! ily. 🥺
🥺
Thank you
I’ve tried everything sorry.
The slowed version is so incredibly beautiful I love it so much
"This right here still feels like a honeymoon, when you say my name" God that line it makes me happy cry every time i hear this song
this song reminds me of dear draco, the violin part makes me sob literally every time.
i’m gonna start this at 11:56:36 on New Years Eve so that the violin sounds can be the last thing I hear for 2020
Me: tryna act like im in a movie blasting this at full volume headphones and crying at the end **ad** ruins my moment
I still thinking about doing it, everyday.
i hope you can stay strong
i'm proud of you, you're doing amazing
the ending with the vocals sounds a lot like Frank Ocean. just an interesting thought
i actually thought this was frank ocean when I first heard it on tiktok, it just sounds so much like something he'd make
@@ScarboroughAJishot samee, I thought it was one of his songs
Everytime I listen to this song, it makes me think about him, and all of the things that we both could have done differently. Every day that void gets deeper and deeper. It's been months and still, it feels like I've lost something that was a big part of me, and in a lot respects I have. Sometimes I wish he was still in my life, but we both screwed each other over and it was for the best. Despite our differences however, I know that I'll still love him forever.
I miss him it hurts
3:24 is what you’re looking for lovelies 💕
i still cant believe how much this song has helped me
Listening to this song and staring at my led lights and galaxy projector on my ceiling is just a vibe
Imagine this.
having a relationship that’s so beautiful you and your mate don’t even fight at all. You both love each other equally and respect each other no matter what.
How did it come to this?
You flashback to when you were about to confess your love to her.
You’re both walking late at night on the sidewalk. No cars. Just orange yellow lights.
You stare at her and take a deep breath to the say the words “I love you.” But then
3:24-3:52
She kisses you.
3:53-4:05
You kiss her back
4:05-4:28
You do it again and get closer
then you wake tf up in your bed.
sad.
omg stop i got depressed :(
Damn bro your making me feel more lonely then ever
I feel like an astronaut strolling through space (3:30)
I get chills just listening to this song on the phone, laptop, with headphones, etc. Whatever it is I always get the chills. Imagine going to the concert, I would cry a million times harder 😔👌
i am OBSESSED with this song, wow
Any song slowed down is better. Convince me otherwise
dear draco has got me crying to this song
Belly and their cottage🥺
3:22 is something different... something i've never heard before, nostaglic, familiar but so different. every fucking time it plays my eyes prick with tears because it reminds me of somewhere, someone i havent even seen before.
hello. i am here on the 15th of january 2021, in the middle of a third national lockdown. this song was my therapy song throughout the first lockdown and it has so much fear and loneliness attached to it but in a sort of beautiful way. listening to this song again slowed and reverb, amidst the winter depression and isolation from my friends, this hits hard.
Thank god I found this one 💕
I honestly just love how everyone is just commenting exactly how they feel. No explanations needed. Just thoughts.
The violin part just makes me break down, all the pain just comes rushing out..
It amazes me the mind of the person that composed and arranged this song, the instruments, that violin part it's just... I have no words. Overwhelming.
This is his favorite song, now I can't stop listening to it. I don't play guitar literally never ever, but I'm learning to play one only to impress him by playing this song.
This song does something to my heart that I can't explain but it hurts
It starts at 3:18
Congrats on hitting 1 million views!!! Been here since before 24k views! ❤️
Song in my head 24/7
Don't mind me, just playing this on loop and longing for something I can’t name
Imagine dancing in the middle of an empty ballroom with someone while this song plays
three words. Draco. Lucius. Malfoy.
@@ajandlayla8837 I imagined it with Harry but, whatever suits you 😛
@@shawty2837 yeah ig 3rd year Harry haha
liking or loving someone is horrible and scary . the feeling of being unwanted is just too embarrassing and uncomfortable . i want to feel wanted , i do . im a senior and i will probably never the person again , i literally grow up with this person and i realised that i always liked him , its hurt because i cannot do anything . i wish i was this lucky girl but he will always be a fantasy
i could hear my heart beating out of my chest at the end of this amazing song 💘
I was confused asf bc I couldn’t find the other one lol 🤣
Same
4:05 that part hurt's me in so many ways
So true🥲
i cant comprehend how much i love this
i miss him so much
Hopefully someone save the song/video 😭😭
...they broke up man 💔
my heart SHATTERS to this song
youtube knew i needed this cus the other one got taken down and put this on my recommended
Tokio your a lifesaver. Much love 🥰
Love isn't real, him and his gf broke up.
when?
Don’t worry man we all get our turn it just depends on how much it means to you and how much you want it. I just had the nerve to tell my crush how I felt in person and she didn’t feel the same way but we’re friends now and maybe I can convince her why she should change her mind.... Mabye
This is so heartwarming
Thank you for uploading this
everyone is talking about the violin part, but 4:28 is where it hits for me..
stay forever, you know more than anyone
the orchestra part hits different... it hits deeper than any other song
This song just hit a little bit too close to home .
when the orchestra kicks in it feels so magical bro..
I never had a song give me massive depression. Literally had this on repeat and kept thinking about people I’ve lost recently. I think I just needed to mourn, thank you.
it’s my birthday today and i know i have a lot of friends and family but ive never felt more alone. it’s like every day is the same
1: wake up
2: maybe eat
3: go to bed
Repeat
and I just want to end it all but I cant because I’m so scared. I’m sorry to everyone who feels like this too, because I understand. And if you’re still reading this, please don’t think you’re any less than you are. i know that everyone says this but they say it because it’s true, everything gets better over time.
It could be years, but it will truly get better.
I have the same thoughts as you honestly. But there’s something deep inside of me that tells me everything is gonna be okay, sooner or later. So please stay. If you would like you can put your sc or insta so we can talk. Happy birthday
wake up
school
sleep
i’m so tired.
Everybody's here after the original got taken down 💔