Ren said on a live. That he gets aggravated a little when some comments will explain the meaning of songs. Or explain how he meant it. When he feels like after he releases the song. It’s not his anymore. It’s the listeners now. How you feel about it is right. Because it’s what you felt. He wants people to feel however they feel. No one can be wrong about the songs.
They are a collaboration made in heaven, Chinchilla has a beautiful voice and Ren is just amazing! You should take a look at some of Chinchilla’s solo work, they’re so good! I think this and Chalk lines are my favourites. I liked your reactions to the song and its meaning, it’s an easy song to resonate with, the lyrics are open to some interpretation but you got the main points. I went through hypochondria when I was undiagnosed with Fibromyalgia, I persistently consulted Dr Google which became an obsession! I get your frustration with your feelings, it’s not easy to accept that what’s going on in your mind isn’t always what is; it’s taken me a long while to accept my health issues and to not look for other things. When you’ve had every test in the book and they’ve come up negative you have to accept it, and stop searching, it’s just counterproductive to getting on with your life. 🌹🌹🌹
I liked this song a lot but at the same time I feel that her voice actually overpowers him in a lot of places which is ultimately her range and not a negative at all. I will def check out more of her solo works.
You're reaction is deep and songs are absolutely relative and you take what you need from them. Especially Ren's. My interpretation due to my own life is this: The first part is from the perspective of severe suicidal depression (from his friend) and the second part is from the perspective of the one left behind. I've been on both sides of the noose, so to speak, and neither side is in any way easy. I've lost several friends to their own hands and many others to natural causes or at least things beyond their control. The ones that took their own lives left a very different wound in my heart. It doesn't heal. There's also a measure of guilt, like if I'd been a better friend, or in one case, if I'd just listened when he asked me to...i know the i didn't pull the trigger, i didn't you're the noose and i didn't shove the pills down another one's throat.... but that guilt isn't rational. There's also the pain that they chose to leave me behind. That one is also irrational. Especially since i know firsthand that the choice doesn't feel like a choice at to them. It didn't for me either. I tried multiple times to end my own life, nearly succeeded at least once. I'm glad now that i didn't because many wonderful things would never have come to be, like my young adult son. However, i didn't see it as "surviving" i saw it as another "failure" to add to my growing list. Nowadays, I'd never leave my son with the guilt and betrayal of taking my own life. It still hurts inside, depression is a disease and it can eat you alive. I'm at a sort of compromise with it these days. But back then, it was just a dark hole. To my eyes, there was no way out but one. I couldn't think about the people that would be left behind because i literally could not see past my own darkness. That's how i know that, even though suicide is a very selfish action, it's not because the person can help it. They literally cannot see past the pain to see a different solution. Even if it's right in front of them. It's blocked. Now I'm in constant pain from a chronic pain disorder and connective tissue issue that caused a lot of injuries that the pain disorder has turned into my own personal torture chamber. My tomb is my body and it has bruises on the walls and suffocates me daily. But i can't walk out of myself. My life has been hell for a decade but I'm not giving in because for once, i can see past it enough to know the devastation I'd leave in my wake. But i still have the thoughts. They never quite go away. This song makes me cry because it fits so perfectly. Because i feel like I'm seen and someone else knows. I hate that anyone has to go through this, but I'm not alone and omg it is a connection that i need. I know it's selfish, but i guess I'll own it. That's why i always say, check on your friends. Especially the funny ones, the quiet ones, the caretakers... just talk to them and let them know you are there. You never know, just reaching out could be that tiny bit of light that helps them see a new path. Just check in and remind them that they are loved. Also, remember that you are loved and you are not alone. Sorry for the novella lol, i talk too much. Just be thankful you don't know me in person! Ask my bf.... lol he sometimes wonders aloud how i ever breathe 😂. Thank you for your reactions. I love this channel. It's uplifting! 🌻💜🌻💜
Sorry for the weird autocorrect mistakes. I'm medicated and I just hope that it's readable enough to be understood lol I'm not trying to complain about my illnesses, I hope it came across as more of an explanation and not just me complaining. Also, I have to avoid looking up side effects or symptoms because I also have a bit of hypochondria. It's something I'm aware of, part of my panic disorder... I'm interested to know how you handle yours. Being chronically ill, especially with "invisible" illnesses, I wonder if you suffer the same stigma from others thinking you are "overreacting" to the pain and symptoms from your illness? I get that a lot. Although the doctors are finally taking me a bit more seriously. I'm disabled and did manage to get SSDI after a long battle of denials and finally getting a lawyer and a hearing. I also have documented arthritis and calcium deposits in my joints (more pain and lovely noises when I move lol) and the rotator cuff tears and subluxation and disk degeneration and etc that comes from a lifetime of hypermobility injuries that add up. Also recently discovered an unhealed fracture in my wrist/ thumb base that they don't know if they can fix because of a ligament tear on the other side of my hand and carpal tunnel impingement. The whole list is staggering which is what sent my mental health back into a nosedive. It sucks, but I wanted to give my "credentials" before letting you know that I care and someone understands. I wish you the best and, I know I'm a 50 year old lady nobody on the internet, but I wanted to pass it along anyway. Gentle hugs if you want them and an ear if you ever need one. 🌻
@@NixyRose72 I feel I too could write a book back to you but that's not what I'm going to do. All that's needed here is a simple, I love you. ❤ You are amazing, keep being amazing. We will all get through this together : )
@therosebush you know, I'd absolutely read a book from you. But the short version hit just the right note, and I'm in tears again. Tell me, if you know, why do we cry harder when kindness is given? Pain makes me defiant, despairing, angry, afraid.... But kindness, a sweet word, a hand up when I've fallen, a hug when my heart hurts or because I just want a hug ... Waterworks, every time. Lol, I think my wires may be a bit crossed 🤣 I do go on, though, lol. Thank you so much for your loving kindness. I will try to be worthy of it by continuing to pass it on. Sending love and blessings and hugs (if you don't mind them, that is) Peace and I DO believe that we have what it takes to get through this. Maybe we all just push the ones that need it, drag the ones that are stuck,and lean on each other when we get too tired. If we could get the world to do this, hell, we'd never have more than minor squabbles again. Anyway, lol, because this is getting ridiculously long again... Thank you. Much love and hugs and prayers 💜🌻💜🌻 Take care of yourself. 🌻
I really like this song and their chemistry together. Losing yourself can be caused by many different things over the course of a lifetime and it is easy to see why Ren found himself there given his experiences. I understand the hypochondria issue even when accompanied by actual chronic issues...at my age (67) I wonder if some of us simply have our nerve endings turned up to super sensitive compared to the average person. Hope the massage helped.
I agree. Personally I do suffer from Migraines, have since I was about 6 my earliest memory and I'm 32. I've also sustained multiple injuries to my tailbone and back just from being a kid, being outside, riding bikes, roller blades, horses, you name it and I definitely have some nerve issues going on and getting worse. I get to see a Neurologist In May 2024, had it booked since May 2023!
No migraines for me, but allergies from birth that often produced excruciating pain...I mirror the tailbone problems...bulging discs plus arthritis in the spine and both hips...shoulder replacement, knee replacement, and fusion in the neck....among several other issues (of course I am much older than you, so I have had the opportunity to experience more). Don't ever let it get you too down, life is worth living and can be filled with joy even with constant pain in the background. I pray that your neurologist can provide you some relief.@@therosebush
Heya heya , loved your reaction. We LOVE Ren. Keep it going. Hey check out chinchilla Fingers (live) if you haven’t already . Also , little girl gone (live requiem) Cheers 🍻 🙂🇨🇦
I feel your reaction so deeply. When I was 28 I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. At that time was when people were starting to come around and not say it was all in my head. But I still got my fair share of that. Then at 32 I had a massive stroke that completely paralyzed the right side of my body. I had to learn how to walk, toilet, eat, write even breathe correctly all over again. Then, when I was 33 I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. Then just a few months ago at 40 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and PTSD from my childhood and other traumas. I was also diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and Panic Disorder. I had known my whole life that something was going on but I just could never completely put my finger on it. That's because my mental health has always been so complex. Go figure. And I still probably wouldn't know if 2 years ago I hadn't admitted to my husband that I needed to see someone because I didn't want to live anymore. I'm still really struggling so I feel you 100%. ❤
It's so debilitating and with regard to Fibro, same. It's such a complicated and misunderstood illness as it encompasses so many other things. Almost like an umbrella term for all these other conditions and there's that aspect of "it's all in your head" and yes, our mental state impacts our physical - mind and body - they go together. I have thyroid issues as well so this is a major contributing factor to a lot of my overall health issues as well. With regard to you, thank you for sharing and being vulnerable and I'm proud of YOU for speaking up for yourself and being aware enough to know you were/are not okay. It's okay to not be okay and take the time you need and do the things you need to be the best you.
Thank you 🙏❤ Rose ❤ for your 🐷 Ren X Chinchilla - How To Be Me reaction! #ren #chinchilla #joehughes #howtobeme Of course it was a one-take 🙂 Do you pay your cat some cat sweets for parttaking in a video?
Omg she is SO food motivated. She loves to eat, wants to eat all the time. Her favorite treats are Pure Bites Freeze Dried Minnows. She also loves chicken hearts from King Lou Pets. She's on a raw diet so she enjoys all the goodness of being a wild child! Ha!
Sending you positive loving vibes and energy, but also my personnel experience is we need the contrast of joy and pain to understand and learn. I hope that make's sence?
With music, or any art, can there be a wrong interpretation? Remember the words at the end of Hi Ren about things getting easier because it's true. I really enjoy your videos.
"I don't feel safe in my bed voices in my head talking to the dead. Fear and Sin follow me over the valleys and hills below; back home. It suffocates me...Wish I could get out of this tomb (Joe's own mind)" Ren wrote this from Joe's perspective in my opinion... You get to the end of the song and as Ren does so often he then breaks the 4th wall and says, "When HE gave up the fight, the decision he made stayed with me for the rest of my life. I miss you so." 8:00 Good Take. I believe it was Joe suffocating in this song and Ren breaks the 4th wall at the end to Speak to Joe directly, "I miss you so". However, I do understand that the song can also take the perspective of Ren.
It sounds like you have CPTSD like me. I think a more natural response to it is the best route. Massage should help.. I just know for me personally I hold so much tension in my shoulders from constantly being on edge that massages hurt a lot. I have been watching videos on exercises that stimulate and strengthen the Vagus nerve and that has been helping. You're not a hypochondriac though.. I have been told the same thing and the response that came out of me surprised me cuz I didn't even realize it was what I was doing. How it happened was I told him that all the symptoms of Long COVID sounded like what was wrong with me (cuz I got to the point where I couldn't get out of bed and I was always tired.. have been for years and I'd have different symptoms come and go) and he snapped at me telling me there's always something wrong with me and I just needed to find the motivation to get out of bed. I had had a feeling he felt that way and that others were judging me thinking I had just given up but to hear him voice it and confirm those suspicions pissed me off and I responded that he was looking at it wrong.. if it was just a case of me giving up, I wouldn't be looking for answers as to what was wrong with me and that I was looking for what I call "the button".. an answer that could explain everything. If I could get to the root of it I'd have an answer & then I could start looking for answers on treating it. A bottom up approach if you will.. like a wound that needs to stay open and heal from the inside out instead of covering it and risk only the outside getting healed which could lead to future problems. Anyway I have found the button and it's a button all of us need to be made aware of. It's all linked to trauma. Western medicine has ignored the long term affects of trauma for years. They separate mind issues from body health issues and that is a huge mistake because the brain is what makes everything work and they have screwed us up big time. They fucked us all up from the start by underestimating the trauma of childbirth for women and babies. It is so unnatural the way they do it... before hospitals and men getting involved women used to squat to give birth which makes so much more sense to use gravity plus it'd open you up more. So the baby is born under a tremendous amount of stress and there brains would have kicked in the fight or flight response which sends stress hormones out to get the body ready to fight or flee the threat it detected to your life.. and in readying the body to fight or flee, it directs our blood and oxygen to only the areas needed to help us survive the threat and shuts down or slows down (depending on the severity of the threat) many of our systems including digestive system (metabolism.. hello obesity epidemic) & immune system. It also amps up our senses and emotions to get an accurate read on the threat level. In a natural childbirth situation (any other mammal in nature) mother's attend to the newborn instantly and it takes the newborn out of trauma or distress. You can see the change when a mother is handed her newborn. The relief and love from the mother and the newborn's feeling of safety because it knows it's mother's energy signal to our brains that the danger is over which signals the nervous system to secrete the calm down chemicals and blood flow and oxygen are returned to normal. The longer that is delayed, the harder it'll be to undo the damage. A newborn's brain is still developing and will be for at least 5 years. When our brains don't get the signal that we're safe, it'll continue to secrete stress chemicals and a newborn stuck in the birthing canal doesn't have the option of fight or flight so when those chemicals get secreted and don't get used up, they are toxic to us as they sit in our muscles and joints and lock us up (they call it freeze mode) .. this causes us even more stress which the brain reads asa continuing threat and secretes more putting us in a viscous cycle. I believe strongly that this is where the austism spectrum comes from..and ADHD, it's also an answer for mental health problems, definitely an answer to auto immune diseases, also to strokes, heart problems..you get the point. Extra cortisol (one of the stress hormones) causes inflammation in our joints (arthritis). Also in fight or flight extra glucose that is stored in our liver goes into our system to be used as fuel during fight or flight. Unused, it'll get stored as fat..and if we get stuck in trauma mode that'll continue to happen and it also makes us crave carbs and sugars more (like I said..hello obesity epidemic). Feelings get attached to memories and traumatic events so even if we eventually get taken out of trauma, all it takes is for us to feel that feeling again to put us right back into trauma. Having never been taught this though because the system we really on most claiming it's backed in scientific proof is the medical system that downplayed the affects of trauma since it's invention. That's why I use natural methods now. ✌️&❤️
I really love this! Thank you so much for dedicating time out of you day/night to provide such detailed information! I'm not a parent to a human so the bit about childbirth is not anything I've ever considered. Yes, the trauma of being born is something I've thought about but not on a chemical level and the impacts it has on us as we grow. It's quite fascinating and I'm grateful to you for enlightening me!
@@therosebush Glad I could help! I love your channel and the things you promote. Also love your name! My grandma's name was Rose and she married a guy everyone called Bud when I was in junior high and I didn't notice how their names went together at first because to me she was grandma until she got license plates that said ROSEBUD. 😂. Your channel name reminds me of her. ❤️
@@HollyB5484 OMG I love this so much! I'm such a sucker for a good pun and word play so when it's someones name, OMG i'm in love! I love this for you and I"m so grateful I could bring you such joy!
Oh yes, the PLANdemic. It was very successful. I learned what friends and family I could truly trust and the rest showed me how brainwashed and batsh!t crazy they are.
Ren said on a live. That he gets aggravated a little when some comments will explain the meaning of songs. Or explain how he meant it. When he feels like after he releases the song. It’s not his anymore. It’s the listeners now. How you feel about it is right. Because it’s what you felt. He wants people to feel however they feel. No one can be wrong about the songs.
Thank you so much for this! ❤
That’s the beauty of music, everybody takes something different from it and can relate it to our own personal experiences
Great reaction 👍
Chinchilla was a contestant on The Voice UK last weekend ❤
Take a look at Chinchillas' new video Cut you off 👍
all mental illness is real. our minds are very powerful. they have the strength to pull us up or push us down. ty for your honesty
They are a collaboration made in heaven, Chinchilla has a beautiful voice and Ren is just amazing! You should take a look at some of Chinchilla’s solo work, they’re so good! I think this and Chalk lines are my favourites. I liked your reactions to the song and its meaning, it’s an easy song to resonate with, the lyrics are open to some interpretation but you got the main points.
I went through hypochondria when I was undiagnosed with Fibromyalgia, I persistently consulted Dr Google which became an obsession! I get your frustration with your feelings, it’s not easy to accept that what’s going on in your mind isn’t always what is; it’s taken me a long while to accept my health issues and to not look for other things. When you’ve had every test in the book and they’ve come up negative you have to accept it, and stop searching, it’s just counterproductive to getting on with your life. 🌹🌹🌹
I liked this song a lot but at the same time I feel that her voice actually overpowers him in a lot of places which is ultimately her range and not a negative at all. I will def check out more of her solo works.
You're reaction is deep and songs are absolutely relative and you take what you need from them. Especially Ren's.
My interpretation due to my own life is this:
The first part is from the perspective of severe suicidal depression (from his friend) and the second part is from the perspective of the one left behind.
I've been on both sides of the noose, so to speak, and neither side is in any way easy. I've lost several friends to their own hands and many others to natural causes or at least things beyond their control. The ones that took their own lives left a very different wound in my heart. It doesn't heal. There's also a measure of guilt, like if I'd been a better friend, or in one case, if I'd just listened when he asked me to...i know the i didn't pull the trigger, i didn't you're the noose and i didn't shove the pills down another one's throat.... but that guilt isn't rational. There's also the pain that they chose to leave me behind. That one is also irrational. Especially since i know firsthand that the choice doesn't feel like a choice at to them.
It didn't for me either. I tried multiple times to end my own life, nearly succeeded at least once. I'm glad now that i didn't because many wonderful things would never have come to be, like my young adult son.
However, i didn't see it as "surviving" i saw it as another "failure" to add to my growing list.
Nowadays, I'd never leave my son with the guilt and betrayal of taking my own life. It still hurts inside, depression is a disease and it can eat you alive. I'm at a sort of compromise with it these days. But back then, it was just a dark hole. To my eyes, there was no way out but one. I couldn't think about the people that would be left behind because i literally could not see past my own darkness.
That's how i know that, even though suicide is a very selfish action, it's not because the person can help it. They literally cannot see past the pain to see a different solution. Even if it's right in front of them. It's blocked.
Now I'm in constant pain from a chronic pain disorder and connective tissue issue that caused a lot of injuries that the pain disorder has turned into my own personal torture chamber. My tomb is my body and it has bruises on the walls and suffocates me daily. But i can't walk out of myself. My life has been hell for a decade but I'm not giving in because for once, i can see past it enough to know the devastation I'd leave in my wake. But i still have the thoughts. They never quite go away.
This song makes me cry because it fits so perfectly. Because i feel like I'm seen and someone else knows. I hate that anyone has to go through this, but I'm not alone and omg it is a connection that i need. I know it's selfish, but i guess I'll own it.
That's why i always say, check on your friends. Especially the funny ones, the quiet ones, the caretakers... just talk to them and let them know you are there. You never know, just reaching out could be that tiny bit of light that helps them see a new path. Just check in and remind them that they are loved.
Also, remember that you are loved and you are not alone.
Sorry for the novella lol, i talk too much. Just be thankful you don't know me in person! Ask my bf.... lol he sometimes wonders aloud how i ever breathe 😂.
Thank you for your reactions. I love this channel. It's uplifting!
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Sorry for the weird autocorrect mistakes. I'm medicated and I just hope that it's readable enough to be understood lol
I'm not trying to complain about my illnesses, I hope it came across as more of an explanation and not just me complaining.
Also, I have to avoid looking up side effects or symptoms because I also have a bit of hypochondria. It's something I'm aware of, part of my panic disorder... I'm interested to know how you handle yours. Being chronically ill, especially with "invisible" illnesses, I wonder if you suffer the same stigma from others thinking you are "overreacting" to the pain and symptoms from your illness? I get that a lot. Although the doctors are finally taking me a bit more seriously. I'm disabled and did manage to get SSDI after a long battle of denials and finally getting a lawyer and a hearing.
I also have documented arthritis and calcium deposits in my joints (more pain and lovely noises when I move lol) and the rotator cuff tears and subluxation and disk degeneration and etc that comes from a lifetime of hypermobility injuries that add up. Also recently discovered an unhealed fracture in my wrist/ thumb base that they don't know if they can fix because of a ligament tear on the other side of my hand and carpal tunnel impingement.
The whole list is staggering which is what sent my mental health back into a nosedive.
It sucks, but I wanted to give my "credentials" before letting you know that I care and someone understands.
I wish you the best and, I know I'm a 50 year old lady nobody on the internet, but I wanted to pass it along anyway.
Gentle hugs if you want them and an ear if you ever need one. 🌻
@@NixyRose72 I feel I too could write a book back to you but that's not what I'm going to do. All that's needed here is a simple, I love you. ❤
You are amazing, keep being amazing. We will all get through this together : )
@therosebush you know, I'd absolutely read a book from you. But the short version hit just the right note, and I'm in tears again.
Tell me, if you know, why do we cry harder when kindness is given?
Pain makes me defiant, despairing, angry, afraid....
But kindness, a sweet word, a hand up when I've fallen, a hug when my heart hurts or because I just want a hug ... Waterworks, every time. Lol, I think my wires may be a bit crossed 🤣
I do go on, though, lol. Thank you so much for your loving kindness. I will try to be worthy of it by continuing to pass it on. Sending love and blessings and hugs (if you don't mind them, that is)
Peace and I DO believe that we have what it takes to get through this. Maybe we all just push the ones that need it, drag the ones that are stuck,and lean on each other when we get too tired. If we could get the world to do this, hell, we'd never have more than minor squabbles again.
Anyway, lol, because this is getting ridiculously long again... Thank you.
Much love and hugs and prayers 💜🌻💜🌻
Take care of yourself. 🌻
I really like this song and their chemistry together. Losing yourself can be caused by many different things over the course of a lifetime and it is easy to see why Ren found himself there given his experiences. I understand the hypochondria issue even when accompanied by actual chronic issues...at my age (67) I wonder if some of us simply have our nerve endings turned up to super sensitive compared to the average person. Hope the massage helped.
I agree. Personally I do suffer from Migraines, have since I was about 6 my earliest memory and I'm 32. I've also sustained multiple injuries to my tailbone and back just from being a kid, being outside, riding bikes, roller blades, horses, you name it and I definitely have some nerve issues going on and getting worse. I get to see a Neurologist In May 2024, had it booked since May 2023!
No migraines for me, but allergies from birth that often produced excruciating pain...I mirror the tailbone problems...bulging discs plus arthritis in the spine and both hips...shoulder replacement, knee replacement, and fusion in the neck....among several other issues (of course I am much older than you, so I have had the opportunity to experience more). Don't ever let it get you too down, life is worth living and can be filled with joy even with constant pain in the background. I pray that your neurologist can provide you some relief.@@therosebush
Great reaction....ty for your open honesty❤ I live with anxiety so I relate. Just subscribed 😊
Thank you for opening up!
There cover of sexual healing. Is a must react to!! Pay attention to how Ren reacts to her voice in it. Very special Ren & Chinchilla me t.
Thank you very much 😊
Heya heya , loved your reaction. We LOVE Ren. Keep it going.
Hey check out chinchilla Fingers (live) if you haven’t already . Also , little girl gone (live requiem)
Cheers 🍻 🙂🇨🇦
I feel your reaction so deeply.
When I was 28 I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. At that time was when people were starting to come around and not say it was all in my head. But I still got my fair share of that. Then at 32 I had a massive stroke that completely paralyzed the right side of my body. I had to learn how to walk, toilet, eat, write even breathe correctly all over again. Then, when I was 33 I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. Then just a few months ago at 40 I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and PTSD from my childhood and other traumas. I was also diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and Panic Disorder. I had known my whole life that something was going on but I just could never completely put my finger on it. That's because my mental health has always been so complex. Go figure.
And I still probably wouldn't know if 2 years ago I hadn't admitted to my husband that I needed to see someone because I didn't want to live anymore.
I'm still really struggling so I feel you 100%. ❤
It's so debilitating and with regard to Fibro, same. It's such a complicated and misunderstood illness as it encompasses so many other things. Almost like an umbrella term for all these other conditions and there's that aspect of "it's all in your head" and yes, our mental state impacts our physical - mind and body - they go together. I have thyroid issues as well so this is a major contributing factor to a lot of my overall health issues as well. With regard to you, thank you for sharing and being vulnerable and I'm proud of YOU for speaking up for yourself and being aware enough to know you were/are not okay. It's okay to not be okay and take the time you need and do the things you need to be the best you.
Thank you 🙏❤ Rose ❤ for your 🐷 Ren X Chinchilla - How To Be Me reaction! #ren #chinchilla #joehughes #howtobeme
Of course it was a one-take 🙂
Do you pay your cat some cat sweets for parttaking in a video?
Omg she is SO food motivated. She loves to eat, wants to eat all the time. Her favorite treats are Pure Bites Freeze Dried Minnows. She also loves chicken hearts from King Lou Pets. She's on a raw diet so she enjoys all the goodness of being a wild child! Ha!
OMG you and i are one and the same! 🥺 regarding the hypochondria and fear of death.... it's so scary sometimes 😭
it really is quite exhausting and debilitating.
My gosh you look like Julia Roberts! Thanks for the reaction video.
Haha thank you!!! I've been told this a lot throughout my life! It's a wonderful compliment! She's gorgeous and amazing!!
Sending you positive loving vibes and energy, but also my personnel experience is we need the contrast of joy and pain to understand and learn. I hope that make's sence?
Sis, I had those thoughts for three years every day, but I got better. There is a way around it.
Hi Rose. We all struggle with something, we all have thé same baseline (family), we just differ in thé mix. Have a great massage.
With music, or any art, can there be a wrong interpretation? Remember the words at the end of Hi Ren about things getting easier because it's true. I really enjoy your videos.
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"I don't feel safe in my bed voices in my head talking to the dead. Fear and Sin follow me over the valleys and hills below; back home. It suffocates me...Wish I could get out of this tomb (Joe's own mind)" Ren wrote this from Joe's perspective in my opinion... You get to the end of the song and as Ren does so often he then breaks the 4th wall and says, "When HE gave up the fight, the decision he made stayed with me for the rest of my life. I miss you so."
8:00 Good Take. I believe it was Joe suffocating in this song and Ren breaks the 4th wall at the end to Speak to Joe directly, "I miss you so". However, I do understand that the song can also take the perspective of Ren.
It sounds like you have CPTSD like me. I think a more natural response to it is the best route. Massage should help.. I just know for me personally I hold so much tension in my shoulders from constantly being on edge that massages hurt a lot. I have been watching videos on exercises that stimulate and strengthen the Vagus nerve and that has been helping.
You're not a hypochondriac though.. I have been told the same thing and the response that came out of me surprised me cuz I didn't even realize it was what I was doing. How it happened was I told him that all the symptoms of Long COVID sounded like what was wrong with me (cuz I got to the point where I couldn't get out of bed and I was always tired.. have been for years and I'd have different symptoms come and go) and he snapped at me telling me there's always something wrong with me and I just needed to find the motivation to get out of bed. I had had a feeling he felt that way and that others were judging me thinking I had just given up but to hear him voice it and confirm those suspicions pissed me off and I responded that he was looking at it wrong.. if it was just a case of me giving up, I wouldn't be looking for answers as to what was wrong with me and that I was looking for what I call "the button".. an answer that could explain everything. If I could get to the root of it I'd have an answer & then I could start looking for answers on treating it. A bottom up approach if you will.. like a wound that needs to stay open and heal from the inside out instead of covering it and risk only the outside getting healed which could lead to future problems.
Anyway I have found the button and it's a button all of us need to be made aware of. It's all linked to trauma. Western medicine has ignored the long term affects of trauma for years. They separate mind issues from body health issues and that is a huge mistake because the brain is what makes everything work and they have screwed us up big time. They fucked us all up from the start by underestimating the trauma of childbirth for women and babies. It is so unnatural the way they do it... before hospitals and men getting involved women used to squat to give birth which makes so much more sense to use gravity plus it'd open you up more.
So the baby is born under a tremendous amount of stress and there brains would have kicked in the fight or flight response which sends stress hormones out to get the body ready to fight or flee the threat it detected to your life.. and in readying the body to fight or flee, it directs our blood and oxygen to only the areas needed to help us survive the threat and shuts down or slows down (depending on the severity of the threat) many of our systems including digestive system (metabolism.. hello obesity epidemic) & immune system. It also amps up our senses and emotions to get an accurate read on the threat level. In a natural childbirth situation (any other mammal in nature) mother's attend to the newborn instantly and it takes the newborn out of trauma or distress. You can see the change when a mother is handed her newborn. The relief and love from the mother and the newborn's feeling of safety because it knows it's mother's energy signal to our brains that the danger is over which signals the nervous system to secrete the calm down chemicals and blood flow and oxygen are returned to normal. The longer that is delayed, the harder it'll be to undo the damage. A newborn's brain is still developing and will be for at least 5 years. When our brains don't get the signal that we're safe, it'll continue to secrete stress chemicals and a newborn stuck in the birthing canal doesn't have the option of fight or flight so when those chemicals get secreted and don't get used up, they are toxic to us as they sit in our muscles and joints and lock us up (they call it freeze mode) .. this causes us even more stress which the brain reads asa continuing threat and secretes more putting us in a viscous cycle. I believe strongly that this is where the austism spectrum comes from..and ADHD, it's also an answer for mental health problems, definitely an answer to auto immune diseases, also to strokes, heart problems..you get the point. Extra cortisol (one of the stress hormones) causes inflammation in our joints (arthritis). Also in fight or flight extra glucose that is stored in our liver goes into our system to be used as fuel during fight or flight. Unused, it'll get stored as fat..and if we get stuck in trauma mode that'll continue to happen and it also makes us crave carbs and sugars more (like I said..hello obesity epidemic).
Feelings get attached to memories and traumatic events so even if we eventually get taken out of trauma, all it takes is for us to feel that feeling again to put us right back into trauma. Having never been taught this though because the system we really on most claiming it's backed in scientific proof is the medical system that downplayed the affects of trauma since it's invention. That's why I use natural methods now.
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I really love this! Thank you so much for dedicating time out of you day/night to provide such detailed information! I'm not a parent to a human so the bit about childbirth is not anything I've ever considered. Yes, the trauma of being born is something I've thought about but not on a chemical level and the impacts it has on us as we grow. It's quite fascinating and I'm grateful to you for enlightening me!
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Must have been a nightmare being a hypochondriac during the fear porn of the last three and a half+ years.
Oh yes, the PLANdemic. It was very successful. I learned what friends and family I could truly trust and the rest showed me how brainwashed and batsh!t crazy they are.
Apathy?????