For anyone who "doesn't understand addiction," try quitting sugar, caffeine, TV, or social media. You'll understand it then. There are many things this society is addicted to. This just happens to be in a class of drugs that ruin lives faster than the others.
For sure! Try to quit those things, and multiple it by 1000%. (For drug addiction, at least) I thought about this the other day, how our society doesn't even realize the things they're actually addicted to. That word is "scary" and applies to drugs." That's how I think most feel about it.
I was a heroin addict for 3 years. A lot of family members would say, “I just don’t understand”… or “just stop doing it” stuff like that without really doing any research or caring enough to try and understand anything about addiction. Most people look down on drug addicts and think people really want to be living a life like this.
@@tydupont8084 congratulations on your sobriety!! I can't claim to relate to the people in these interviews from a homelessness standpoint. I've also never been into downers (thank Jesus). I've def had addictions - I was a cig smoker, a person who loved drinking to get annihilated on weekends, and I loved me some Addies. I am fortunate enough to have the ability to quit things with ease *when I am ready.* You are so right in saying nobody wants to live life like the way people experiencing addictions or homelessness do. They lose their kids, ffs. If that doesn't scream this is beyond their control, nothing does. ♥️
@@ashleycampbelllane4758 I fully agree with your comment! Thank you for saying that - we don't even recognize the amount of sh*t we are addicted to because it's glorified as being normal. A society of addicts judging addicts bc their addictions aren't the same. I really have hope for humanity bc of this channel and people like you who make comments like the one you did ♥️
I’m 4 years and 8 months clean off the needle (meth/heroin/fentanyl). It can be done. It’s hard. But it can be done. I can’t finish this episode … it just hurts so bad. I’m sending them love and support.
I literally know Tamra, i was in treatment with her. & i met Adrian 1 time at a meet with Tamra. They're good people! Tamra is a God fearing person, shes always said the best prayers, she always made me laugh when i was sad & shes has the best singing voice. I pray for them, i pray that they WILL recover & i wish them the best. I hope they find the red road & stay on it, through hell or high water. God bless yall
Do you mind if I ask what made you want it? Like was there an event or something happen that made you think I HAVE to get out? Or did you just wake up one day feeling like that?
A lot of people want it I don't think that's the issue. A lot of people want to be millionaires, but how hard are they willing to work? A lot of people want a good body, but how hard are they willing to work??? Ease not wanting, it's determination and it's work ethic
If you've been sober for 15 years weed is stronger than the best heroin in your day. You have no clue how addictive fentanyl is because you've never done it. Be grateful for that.
Amen!! I was addicted to heroin for almost 9 years. I chose to get sober this past January 15th, 2023! I changed my whole life around! I am coming up on 11 months sober in one week! I have my own place, my own car and I have an incredible job! I am so blessed to have the will to recover and to have God as my higher power in my corner! If you’re reading this and are struggling, you are worth recovery and you deserve happiness!
Observation a minute and a half in: as soon as she starts mentioning her father was a good man, good provider, the guy starts annoyingly rubbing her hand /arm. She looks like she tries to let go of his hand for a moment ..he adjusts his grip tighter. He seems insecure and triggered (not attentive and caring) when she mentioned a man (her father) who was hardworking and provided for her. Less than two minutes in... only my observation...and I'm NOT a trained professional.
The diagnosis is simple. Eventually one of them ODs and dies. The other either gets clean or follows the other and also dies. The end. Their love wasn't each other it was drugs.
I absolutely agree. That's why I'm trying over and over tell people that not all addicts are lying, manipualating, egoistic, narcissistic asses. There are some addicts who are so caring, protective, selfless, loving and would litterally sell their asses to avoid for their partners to turn to prostitution or do other things which woyld put them in danger. And on the other hand there's addicts who are sitting around all day nodding while their girls are out there doing dates having nasty, disgusting men do perverted things to them.
My daughter is a fentanyl addict. She is in a codependent relationship like this. She lost custody of my Grandaughter. We are taking care of my Grandaughter. My daughter doesn’t give a shit just like Tamra about being a mom. She only cares about fentanyl and her very dysfunctional relationship. She has put my Grandaughter through things she herself has never lived through. My daughter was never raised in poverty, neglected, abused or around drug use at all. Fentanyl is the worst. My hope that my daughter will get clean is gone. An addicts reality is death, prison or institutions.
I’m sending you love. I was In a relationship like this , he smoked meth and heroin and I shot it up. We lost everything. We eventually separated as each got clean. I’ve got 4 years and 8 months clean now, And he has 4 years. We aren’t together.... but we are friends. I know it hurts to love an addict. You’ll be on my mind and heart.
I felt the same way about myself, but I stopped using after running into a girl I knew from the streets, who had got help, quit and had a job. She was considered a “worst bet,” too! I begged my PO to let me go to that good counselor for my court order and never looked back. I used fentanyl…we didn’t know what it was, at the time. It just hit harder. The news came out, when I was in Phase 2 treatment, that fentanyl was killing people. I’d lost 5 people I knew, in a few months. I’d been in 4 tunsuccessful treatments, before finding one that worked, without even wanting to go to. The counselor was in recovery from meth and that helped me trust her, as she was not judgmental. It’s a Midwest IOP, so probably not helpful. Please don’t give up hope and showing love in any way you can. ❤
My sister just OD on fetanyl last weekend she was on a ventilator and today she's back on the streets of Arizona. Like ur daughter she doesn't care about her 3 boys and only thinks of her self. Calls me only when she needs something and then when she back to her shit then I am nosey and stay out of her business. Can't believe my sister who is college educated ended up like this. We have given her multiple times to come home and she decides to stay on that shit. She will probably die on the street as a Jane doe. I can't deal with this anymore it's all to much. They the addict think they suffer but us as families suffer as well.
I was addicted to Fentanyl & Oxy. I died in a Boston Hospital ER in 2020. All my organs started to fail, kidneys shut down, blood became septic, heart stopped... I experienced my soul ascending out of my body to Heaven. My Guardian Angel, Susan, guided me. There were colors and sounds I didn't know existed. I was met by Jesus. Total BLISS and LOVE. All pain disappeared. I had a life review like standing beneath Niagara Falls and every drop of water is a memory. I could have been there 10 seconds or 10,000 yrs, time did not exist. Part of my journey gave me a glimpse into Hell where I saw countless tortured souls. My Angel protected me. Indications it was real? While "hovering" above my body in the OR, I saw and heard the DR. cutting into my carotid artery placing a catheter for emergency hemodialysis. I was able to tell the doc afterward, step by step what he did and said. Lots more that don't fit in the limits of this comment section. It was real...
I'd love to have Mark @SoftWhiteUnderbelly interview me on my experience. My journey was real. My doctors have said that these types of NDE's (Near Death experiences) are a phenomenon that are not as infrequent as most would think. There are/were several tangible clues in my case that even doctors cannot explain, leading to questions about what happens after death?>
It’s obvious he loves and cares deeply for her but he needs to let her go if he wants to stay clean and stay out of jail. She is holding him back. OD’ing that many times recently, along with the things she said and how she said them, didn’t send a message that she cares much about life. He will do anything to protect her, I have a strong feeling he’s going to end up in jail for a long time and she’ll have a fatal OD and his sacrifice will be for nothing.
I'm a recovering addict i just celebrated 5 years in October. You have to want it, that's what it boils down to. You either want it or you don't! I wish them the best. ❤
"You have to want it." More i think about it the less meaning I find it that. Or maybe that it has meaning but isn't actually useful advice, maybe even kind of trivializes the problem or misses it entirely. I find that the most painful, troubling, soul-destroying aspect of the whole problem. It's all you want yet for some odd fuckin reason... you keep going back to it.
These two are like bubbles swirling around the drain. They are so very close to going down the black hole for good and just hoping something comes along to put a stopper in before they get sucked down. I hope for their sake that the stopper comes fast because it doesn't look like they have very long left. Thanks for the video Mark.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
im a rideshare driver i gave this dude a ride a couple weeks ago. Really cool dude been through a lot for sure he seemed like he actually wanted to get better but she kept luring him back from what he told me.
Adrian and Tamra, there is hope! My husband and I were heroin addicts, together through our addiction. We got clean after doing time separately for about 2 years. We are now 10 years clean and happy and raising our 3 babies 💜 God bless and I wish yall well
Getting clean is the hardest thing you'll ever do but it can be achieved if you really want it. For me I had to enter a residential program and locate meetings to attend regularly BEFORE I was released. It's extremely important to surround yourself with others who have walked the path before you. Addiction is the only disease that can be remedied by simple acts of human kindness. Good luck to you both. You've got this.
Very sad to hear that she developed schizophrenia through continuous drug use. Their drug use spills into innocent people when he decides to steal. The comment, “if my car died I would steal a car,” this left me cold. I’ve been on the receiving end whereby our car was stolen. It’s a terrible thing when we are going to work everyday, just to have a person feel like they are entitled to our car! Sadly, this couple has become co-dependent. Honestly, if people choose drugs over their children or after overdosing; enough said.😢😢
She didn't develop schizophrenia. It's called psychosis from the meth keeping her sleep deprived. You can't believe anything that comes out of there mouth. When he was clean for 5 months and she wanted to use he should've let her go and moved on. I just can't believe these people can't stay clean it's crazy
She could care less about the children which to me should be a crime in itself and she should be locked up till she starts taking responsibility for those children.
You show Alot of hatred towards addicts. Obviously you don't know what it's like to be one. Shaming isn't the answer & I'm sure you recovered after your precious car was taken.
yup, I made a comment about the car stealing too. It sort of shows his true nature, he doesn't give a shit about hurting other people and has little or no empathy.
His problem is though, He's putting Her first and his sobriety last. He will end up burning out or losing control of that strong mindset from putting his addiction on the back burner.
@@forwarddrive4066Why would you get rid of the money maker. She’s probably not using him, he’s more than likely using her, She would be the money maker. At least, from my personal experience of having women by my side.
“Misery loves company” nothing truer than with these drug addicted co-dependent couples. Seems a million times harder to break when your significant other is right there doing it with you. It’s not love just convenience for both of them.
My husband and I have been clean for 3 years now. We entered a program together, but seperate. Yall doing it at the same time will be key. Also, hold each other accountable. It took about a year and a half for my brain to unFk itself. Its still healing now. The problems you had before drugs (mental, trauma) will still be there but you will have removed the obstacle that stops you from healing. The demonic power of drugs will end sweetie, yes, one way or another. I truly hope yall end it on your terms. Good luck to both of yall, god speed❤
I have son his age and he has a girlfriend her age both addicted to fentanyl it’s such a toxic relationship but all I can do is wait it scares me what a hold this drug on them 😢thank you this gives more insight into their relationship but it’s still heartbreaking knowing I can’t fix them nor will I unable them but when they do get sober I’ll walk through fire with them I miss him so much 😢
Have you checked out alanon? They offer support to families of addicts. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I put my loved ones through it. 9 years clean now.
I see a few comments here about how nice the guy is, but he said that the only reason he's not stealing a car from someone is that he's on 3 strikes and if he got caught he would go to jail for a decade, but this implies that if he wasn't on 3 strikes he wouldn't give a sht about who he hurt to take their property and has no empathy for others. He doesn't care about hurting other people, he only cares about the jail time. So he's not that nice a person and would rip you off in a flash if he could. His apparent devotion to his girlfriend is admirable though. She has phenomenal hair, wow. I feel frustrated with her because she's missing out on her kids lives and growing up and development, knowing full-well what the reason is for being kept away, at the current point in time she can justify it and explain it away to herself but in the future when she's much older I know what is happening now will be her biggest regret. She will look back as an old woman and it will eat her up inside that she missed out on her kids lives growing up. And it frustrates me because right now is the exact time she should be doing something about it to avoid all that regret and heartache and if she really tried she could in fact stop using and get back into her children's lives. They both could stop using if they wanted to and their reasoning is kind of weak. Tbh I think they both think life is hopeless so what's the point but if they had something they really wanted and were looking forward to, their attitude would quickly change and they would stay off it.
Incredible story and so much honesty. I really see these 2 getting clean. I think he gets it and he’s ready to do it. Hopefully he finds his way and she can get the help she needs to keep her mind clear and deal with her mental health struggles ❤️
I’ll be 8 years sober on January 5th 2024. I have two kids and a husband and a home in a well off neighborhood. Doesn’t seem like that long ago I was riding around in cars all day chasing my dealer around and going to the clinic for needles and getting dope sick and stinking and throwing up 😭 addiction is no joke. Whenever I tell people I used to shoot heroin, they have a hard time believing me. But I just can’t believe I wake up everyday not needing any drugs. I acknowledge my sober lifestyle every day. But it’s true, you have to want it. Best of luck. You can do it , all you have to do is do it.
You have to want it. Period. Otherwise youll never get clean. And your last moment will be slowly slipping away on the street by trash. And no one will care. You have to get clean and helping others is an amazing way of doing it.
First I want to say how precious you both are . I think Marc this is your best interview about this fentanyl tragedy. These two are so articulate and able to tell there reality , but at the same time unable to dig themselves up and out of it . They have a few challenges besides the drug use to overcome . Life itself is not easy . I’m happy you found each other. I had no one my baby’s daddy went to prison and my family had to take care on my child the obvious came first . I was left to decide what path to take I choose life and being strong got me through. God will take care of the rest !!! I’m praying for you too your both amazing ,one step at a time ! Bless you
The fact they found each other is why both of them are still addicted to drugs. If you watch these videos you have to understand how codependent relationships are extremely toxic. You’re being conned by the “love” goggles. This isn’t love, it’s convenient for both of them to get that next high. They’re both high af in this interview.
I will say the comments are wild and varied! Tamra is in a very dangerous place mentally and physically; I fear she is not long for this world if something doesn't change immediately. She carries a weight of pain not spoken of here. Empathy- the ability to suffer in another's suffering- a gift from God which humanity desperately needs. Bless them.🌹
I wanted to ask, respectfully, how Tamra makes it when he has been incarcerated? Addiction is so damned brutal. I am thankful I found recovery from crack before fentanyl. We hear about survivor's guilt all of the time but I haven't heard it often related to the addict who goes on to find recovery and thrive in some ways knowing that multitudes are jailed, institutionalized, or dead, whether it was our running buddy, or a stranger.
My daughter’s older sister from her dad is addicted to fentanyl and living on the streets of Portland. She has 3 older kids who hadn’t seen her In a year until she was taken to the hospital from a gunshot in the back by a 9mm. They cannot remove the bullet due to complications from an existing stint above her heart. She’s been in and out of jail, has OD’d multiple times and now shot my a 9mm. Thankfully she’s still in the hospital on suboxen, but I’m not convinced this is enough to keep her clean. I pray that she can and will get clean, but unfortunately the addiction to fentanyl is so strong that I’m afraid she will have the mindset of just one more time and this one more time will be the last. I’ve been addicted to plenty of things, just never these kinds of drugs, so I cannot imagine the nagging pain of needing to get high even after nearly losing your life. I love your channel Mark. I think it humanizes people rather than grouping them all together as “the homeless” or “junkies”. For people like me who feel that we can’t do anything to help them, I know through this channel, they have some chance of getting saved. Blessings.
I went to a methadone clinic to get off opiates and walked out of the methadone clinic almost 10 years ago. I have not touched an opiate since then and still have no desire. I was tired of throwing up blood everytime i would detox and when i went into the clinic i went in knowing I would not stay there forever. Rock bottom is different for everyone.
@@carolfromalbertacanada I'm not gonna lie it was a struggle at first and when I left the clinic I detoxed a little granted it was nothing compared to the detox from the strong opiates I had done. But I wanted to be clean more than I wanted the opiates.
@@jamieharris2633 pray you continue on this road. You CAN do it my friend. Don’t ever give up you DESERVE a better life. Wishing you the best on your journey 🤗🤗🤗🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽♥️♥️♥️ Love & Hugs from 🇨🇦Canada🇨🇦
Methadone saved my life almost 4 years ago. I was terrified of detoxing but was so fucking exhausted and over shooting up and selling and all the BS that came with heroin. Since got my first dose of methadone I've never used since. My older sister unfortunately never got clean and recently died from fentanyl alone in a car in downtown Phoenix. My mom would've had to lose and bury her only two children if I hadn't quit... I wish the stigma that comes with methadone would end and people could see how it really helps A LOT of people!
19 months sober. It can be done. But you have to want it more than anything. I thought I wanted it badly for 15 years. But when the time eventually came, I knew it was the really deal. Time to stop. Every ounce of me wanted to run away from it and get better.
Just go to the methadone clinic. People think its swapping one for the other but at least youre not gonna OD and die because fentynal is hard to detox off of
00:15 🏠 Adrian and Tamra had dysfunctional childhoods in different areas of California but faced varying family dynamics, ranging from neglect to hard work. 04:48 💊 Tamra started heavy drug use at 15, progressing to meth and heroin, eventually leading to fentanyl addiction about four years prior to the interview. 07:32 🤝 Adrian maintains a close relationship with his dad, who he deeply respects despite the family's challenging circumstances. 08:43 😔 Both struggle with emotions of guilt, shame, and hopelessness due to their inability to provide for themselves and their ongoing battles. 11:17 ⚠ Their biggest fears revolve around returning to prison or facing the possibility of death due to drug overdoses, a situation they've encountered multiple times. 14:55 👨👩👦 Tamra's estranged relationship with her children weighs heavily on her, as her drug use keeps her distanced from them and affects their well-being. 16:55 🚫 Adrian and Tamra find solace in each other's company despite the challenges of being a couple living on the streets, where trust and support are rare commodities. 19:00 🔄 They managed a successful period of sobriety but fell back into addiction when Tamra decided to resume drug use, highlighting the difficulty of staying clean together. 21:40 🧠 Tamra's drug-induced schizophrenia strained their relationship and caused extreme paranoia, making it challenging for Adrian to help her get clean. 22:51 🔄 Adrian's constant attempts to aid Tamra's sobriety were misconstrued, exacerbating her paranoid delusions and hindering their progress toward recovery. 23:08 😟 Adrian stayed with Tamra despite difficulties, fearing for her safety if he left her alone due to her vulnerability. 23:49 🚗 Their precarious situation with their only home being a car poses constant challenges; even a small issue like a dead battery can significantly impact their daily life. 24:33 ⚠ Despite owning their car legally, the fear of losing it leads Adrian to consider stealing another if necessary, despite the risk of accumulating three strikes in criminal offenses. 24:51 🧠 The most critical lesson learned is the inability to control drug addiction, emphasizing the need to avoid the illusion of control when attempting to get clean.
you make it sound like he's in control but obviously not, the story of checking the trunk for another girl demonstrates that she doesn't trust him even when there's literally nothing there but he still has to jump through hoops to reassure her. She obviously controls him, but he lets her control him, and they want to be together that way. Wouldn't say one is more to blame than the other in that case, both have to change for a relationship to actually work. She needs to get her insecurity together and he needs to not depend on her so much.
You two❤❤❤ are so close! You got this! I can hear it , see it and feel it!! Keep trying, keep reaching out to resources, start living your worth and dreams🙏🙏❤️❤️
My brother died of an overdose, so I empathize. But stealing a hard-working person's car to support yourself is ridiculous. Don't forget that person is also paying taxes for your food stamps and everything else you use in the system. Your choices should be your own. I should not pay for your choices in the form of you stealing my car.
I’m inside jails in Orange County twice a week teaching inmates how to do accounting. Adrian does not resemble a gang member or an inmate. Tamra is gorgeous. Wishing them the best to beat this addiction.
Her mother left and her Dad had to work all the time, that's dysfunction. The reason they were getting into trouble so young is probably because they were unsupervised a lot of the time.
Trauma + opiates = perfect storm for addiction. If you are going through a hard time, Do not indulge in short term fixes for long term problems. Do not resort to those substances that made you feel so good before. Even if you are not predisposed to addiction, the trauma changes the way your brain views the drug. Stay safe out there, dont use drugs to cope.
I wish them all the best. They just have to make that decision to become clean. No one else can. It's always a choice. We can always feel bad for them...but, in the end, it's up to them.
“If my car breaks down, the first thing I would do is steal another one.” He seriously has no awareness that someone else might depend on their car for their job/livelihood. I’m trying to understand, but they are so utterly self absorbed.
I came from a good household, with 2 parents that loved me and cared about me, so it's hard for me to understand what would bring someone to try hard drugs for the first time. They know what the consequences are. I'm a god fearing man and am working everyday to be better and not judge people. But when i see these women who abandon their kids or get them taken away due to drug addiction, it's very difficult. I still wish both these people the best
In a healthy relationship, you enable your partner to be their best; to take the risk to improve they otherwise wouldn't. In relationships like this, the exact opposite is true. In these relationships, the worst thing you can do to yourself and others is normalized and endorsed. Tough situation.
Fentanyl high voice…muted low slow… 😢 They just told us HOW to get clean….lock ‘em up. The draw to it is TOO great… We have empty hospitals. We need a law to lock up an addict for a year.
Adrian could be a professor reminds of Adrian Brody Tamar you are beautiful with your long blonde curly hair. You two could do wonders together, it will take hard work but you two knows what it takes you been clean you just have to want to get sober. Best of everything good for you two. Great content Mark.
I wore glasses/contacts and was a homeless addict …. And eventually they were stolen as my blind ass was just out there walkin around , hittin licks and getting caught up.
I've been clean for 14 years and I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt. If you put the same effort into staying clean as you did into getting high. You will have success in your recovery!
If they read this or if you see them again, tell them to sell that car and go buy a little shit-box car so they don’t have to worry about losing their “home”. I can tell you first hand that when you’re living in your vehicle, that is the last thing you want to lose. Especially as a woman, like myself that was alone. I know they’re together so it’s not so bad when you have each other. I didn’t have that. Which was probably a good thing at the time bc I have a single cab pickup truck with a small dog. Living in a car is a blessing when you’re homeless, though. It provides a roof over your head so you can stay dry and warm and you can lock your doors when you’re “home” to keep yourself safe, especially at night, and when you’re away, to keep your belongings safe and secure. If you have a truck with a cap, you can use the back as a storage unit and that keeps everything dry and no one can see inside (if you have tinted windows on the cap and a locking hatch door, which I did). I was only in my truck because I moved across the country at 18 when I moved out of my parents house and I had no money and no place to go. I wanted to start fresh. I eventually got a storage unit so my truck didn’t have all that weight in the back which can cause all kinds of problems for the vehicle. I was also able to keep most of the money from my paychecks bc I had no bills to pay except food and gas. I had 2 jobs in total during that time. The first one only lasted a few weeks. They had a problem with me living in my truck. That was just ridiculous. Then I didn’t have a job for many months. I applied and applied and got no where. I finally got a good and easy job making $20/hr with some overtime here and there. That made it possible to get into an extended stay hotel which was pure hell. Owners walking in when I wasn’t there, Invading my privacy when I was there, druggies everywhere (which I would’ve had no problem with if they weren’t scoping out my shit to steal). I finally found a house that I rent that’s considered extremely cheap but I still have a hard time making the rent but that’s life I guess. At least it’s not an apartment building. I have a very laid back landlord and no restrictions of any kind and my dog has a yard all to himself. I’m just doing this for him. He’s very old but still has lots of energy and once he’s gone and I’m alone, I’ll probably pack it up and live in my truck again so I can save money. I honestly really liked living in my truck. The only downside was finding a place to park at night where I wouldn’t get kicked out of by the cops while I was sleeping.
Wow, thanx for sharing your story . That must be a tough adventure . That's kind you do what you do for your little dog 🐶 . Dogs are so worth it . I've had dogs too, but they're passed away now . I miss them . A You Tube channel that I follow might in some way be of help to you & your travels is called Wandering Jeepsy . She lives in her Jeep with her little dog & travels around . Your story was interesting 🤠
Don’t hate me… But, I feel like Adrian’s addiction is more so Tamra than fentanyl. Every attempt he’s made to get clean he regressed and relapsed behind her. I love and admire the love he has for her, but I wish he, they had that some love for themselves. I truly with the best for both of them. This was a great interview as always.
Be grateful for what you have!! Some people ain't happy with anything in life. I also can be that ppl.. I'm in recovery and I am thankful for that!! I'm tired a lot of days though. I need to get to a doctor im not normally this EXHAUSTED!!! JUST THIS POST MAKES ME FEEL 😳 DEPLETED. GOD BLESS YOU BOTH 🙏🏼❤️✝️🙏🏼❤️
I hear & feel yr pain. literally & Emotionally, I’ve been there & I’m hanging in. Stay strong. Keep each other safe. Ain’t yr fault ..life Is so painfully sad & Complex ☮️💜
Mark: How was your childhood? Tamra: It was dysfunctional. Mom wasn't there. Dad always found ways to get into trouble. Mark: Sounds like a pretty good childhood. Me: WTF??
Go to the club AA club Covina. I got sober there as far and got one year seven months sober. I been thru it but glad I'm sober now the longest I've ever been
Mark has a tendency to say things “sounds like a pretty good childhood”. He is subconsciously being comparative to other interviewees. This in itself comes across as insensitive and lack of awareness. I wouldn’t say he’s the best interviewer I’ve ever seen. I do question why he picks the people he does, yet lack the ability show empathy and ask the right questions?
Its so tremendously sad to see these two persons ... so nice persons to be so lost I'm their lifes ... I hope they will find power and feel love of all people around.... family and absolutely strangers like me to drop this fentanyl ... I am from Belgium but basically I am ukrainien... guys be strong for your happiness!!! You deserve it!
Jail is a good way to get clean......word. Spent eight months in a San Diego fire camp forty years ago and it completely changed my life for the sober better.
Can you guys do an interview with a medium or someone who says they are able to communicate with the dead? It would be interesting to see what their life and experience is like.
For anyone who "doesn't understand addiction," try quitting sugar, caffeine, TV, or social media. You'll understand it then. There are many things this society is addicted to. This just happens to be in a class of drugs that ruin lives faster than the others.
For sure! Try to quit those things, and multiple it by 1000%. (For drug addiction, at least) I thought about this the other day, how our society doesn't even realize the things they're actually addicted to. That word is "scary" and applies to drugs." That's how I think most feel about it.
I was a heroin addict for 3 years. A lot of family members would say, “I just don’t understand”… or “just stop doing it” stuff like that without really doing any research or caring enough to try and understand anything about addiction. Most people look down on drug addicts and think people really want to be living a life like this.
@@tydupont8084 congratulations on your sobriety!! I can't claim to relate to the people in these interviews from a homelessness standpoint. I've also never been into downers (thank Jesus). I've def had addictions - I was a cig smoker, a person who loved drinking to get annihilated on weekends, and I loved me some Addies. I am fortunate enough to have the ability to quit things with ease *when I am ready.*
You are so right in saying nobody wants to live life like the way people experiencing addictions or homelessness do. They lose their kids, ffs. If that doesn't scream this is beyond their control, nothing does.
♥️
@@ashleycampbelllane4758 I fully agree with your comment! Thank you for saying that - we don't even recognize the amount of sh*t we are addicted to because it's glorified as being normal. A society of addicts judging addicts bc their addictions aren't the same. I really have hope for humanity bc of this channel and people like you who make comments like the one you did ♥️
Guess we need to pick our addictions. Keep ‘em safe and not destructive.
I’m 4 years and 8 months clean off the needle (meth/heroin/fentanyl).
It can be done. It’s hard. But it can be done.
I can’t finish this episode … it just hurts so bad.
I’m sending them love and support.
so happy for you. Wish you all happiness in the world❤
Great job not ez 6 years clean here. Stay on great Path. Thnx
Brava 🫀🦾🥹
What do you think it will take for them to ask for help and really want it?
I know it's very hard to get off herion "my x-drug of choice" I'm glad not a slave to the dragon anymore. Very happy for you!
I literally know Tamra, i was in treatment with her. & i met Adrian 1 time at a meet with Tamra. They're good people! Tamra is a God fearing person, shes always said the best prayers, she always made me laugh when i was sad & shes has the best singing voice. I pray for them, i pray that they WILL recover & i wish them the best. I hope they find the red road & stay on it, through hell or high water. God bless yall
I’ve been sober 15 years. You have to want it
Do you mind if I ask what made you want it? Like was there an event or something happen that made you think I HAVE to get out? Or did you just wake up one day feeling like that?
Been sober for going on 5 years
@@Vix2066
No reply usually means they're lying or want attention so they brag about their "Sobriety" when really they're on Suboxone or Methadone.
A lot of people want it I don't think that's the issue. A lot of people want to be millionaires, but how hard are they willing to work? A lot of people want a good body, but how hard are they willing to work???
Ease not wanting, it's determination and it's work ethic
If you've been sober for 15 years weed is stronger than the best heroin in your day. You have no clue how addictive fentanyl is because you've never done it. Be grateful for that.
Amen!! I was addicted to heroin for almost 9 years. I chose to get sober this past January 15th, 2023! I changed my whole life around! I am coming up on 11 months sober in one week! I have my own place, my own car and I have an incredible job! I am so blessed to have the will to recover and to have God as my higher power in my corner! If you’re reading this and are struggling, you are worth recovery and you deserve happiness!
Congratulations❤ I hope you keep going. I'm proud of you.
Observation less than two mins in. While she has her issues, not hiding them, he is being an attentive caring partner. That's a treasure.
Okay
He's whooped.
Observation a minute and a half in: as soon as she starts mentioning her father was a good man, good provider, the guy starts annoyingly rubbing her hand /arm. She looks like she tries to let go of his hand for a moment ..he adjusts his grip tighter.
He seems insecure and triggered (not attentive and caring) when she mentioned a man (her father) who was hardworking and provided for her.
Less than two minutes in... only my observation...and I'm NOT a trained professional.
The diagnosis is simple. Eventually one of them ODs and dies. The other either gets clean or follows the other and also dies.
The end. Their love wasn't each other it was drugs.
I absolutely agree.
That's why I'm trying over and over tell people that not all addicts are lying, manipualating, egoistic, narcissistic asses.
There are some addicts who are so caring, protective, selfless, loving and would litterally sell their asses to avoid for their partners to turn to prostitution or do other things which woyld put them in danger.
And on the other hand there's addicts who are sitting around all day nodding while their girls are out there doing dates having nasty, disgusting men do perverted things to them.
Adrian looks more like a Starbucks barista than a gang member.
He'd made a cute barista. I love my local starbucks crew I could totally see him working there
@@Vix2066 gay
@@Vix2066🤗❤
Hes might be from Starbucks13
😂
My daughter is a fentanyl addict. She is in a codependent relationship like this. She lost custody of my Grandaughter. We are taking care of my Grandaughter. My daughter doesn’t give a shit just like Tamra about being a mom. She only cares about fentanyl and her very dysfunctional relationship. She has put my Grandaughter through things she herself has never lived through. My daughter was never raised in poverty, neglected, abused or around drug use at all. Fentanyl is the worst. My hope that my daughter will get clean is gone. An addicts reality is death, prison or institutions.
I’m sending you love. I was In a relationship like this , he smoked meth and heroin and I shot it up. We lost everything. We eventually separated as each got clean.
I’ve got 4 years and 8 months clean now,
And he has 4 years.
We aren’t together.... but we are friends.
I know it hurts to love an addict. You’ll be on my mind and heart.
@@joyfulgirlrecovery7526 Thank you! I’m so glad you were able to kick it!
I felt the same way about myself, but I stopped using after running into a girl I knew from the streets, who had got help, quit and had a job. She was considered a “worst bet,” too! I begged my PO to let me go to that good counselor for my court order and never looked back. I used fentanyl…we didn’t know what it was, at the time. It just hit harder. The news came out, when I was in Phase 2 treatment, that fentanyl was killing people. I’d lost 5 people I knew, in a few months. I’d been in 4 tunsuccessful treatments, before finding one that worked, without even wanting to go to. The counselor was in recovery from meth and that helped me trust her, as she was not judgmental. It’s a Midwest IOP, so probably not helpful. Please don’t give up hope and showing love in any way you can. ❤
@@shaunakai6798 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💚💚💚 also sorry for all my typos- I can’t type as fast as I think 🤦🏻♀️
Thanks for sharing too, it really matters .
My sister just OD on fetanyl last weekend she was on a ventilator and today she's back on the streets of Arizona. Like ur daughter she doesn't care about her 3 boys and only thinks of her self. Calls me only when she needs something and then when she back to her shit then I am nosey and stay out of her business. Can't believe my sister who is college educated ended up like this. We have given her multiple times to come home and she decides to stay on that shit. She will probably die on the street as a Jane doe. I can't deal with this anymore it's all to much. They the addict think they suffer but us as families suffer as well.
I was addicted to Fentanyl & Oxy. I died in a Boston Hospital ER in 2020. All my organs started to fail, kidneys shut down, blood became septic, heart stopped... I experienced my soul ascending out of my body to Heaven. My Guardian Angel, Susan, guided me. There were colors and sounds I didn't know existed. I was met by Jesus. Total BLISS and LOVE. All pain disappeared. I had a life review like standing beneath Niagara Falls and every drop of water is a memory. I could have been there 10 seconds or 10,000 yrs, time did not exist. Part of my journey gave me a glimpse into Hell where I saw countless tortured souls. My Angel protected me. Indications it was real? While "hovering" above my body in the OR, I saw and heard the DR. cutting into my carotid artery placing a catheter for emergency hemodialysis. I was able to tell the doc afterward, step by step what he did and said. Lots more that don't fit in the limits of this comment section. It was real...
Where can I hear full story??
Crazy. I died on the cutting block and only experienced nothingness. Just nonexistence.
I'd love to have Mark @SoftWhiteUnderbelly interview me on my experience. My journey was real. My doctors have said that these types of NDE's (Near Death experiences) are a phenomenon that are not as infrequent as most would think. There are/were several tangible clues in my case that even doctors cannot explain, leading to questions about what happens after death?>
Susan, lol
@@chriscalvert4609 out of curiosity do you believe in a higher power? Do you have any kind of spiritual beliefs?
The guy looks like a physics student and not like a gang member at all, I was so confused by his story
It’s obvious he loves and cares deeply for her but he needs to let her go if he wants to stay clean and stay out of jail. She is holding him back. OD’ing that many times recently, along with the things she said and how she said them, didn’t send a message that she cares much about life. He will do anything to protect her, I have a strong feeling he’s going to end up in jail for a long time and she’ll have a fatal OD and his sacrifice will be for nothing.
I'm a recovering addict i just celebrated 5 years in October. You have to want it, that's what it boils down to. You either want it or you don't! I wish them the best. ❤
💜
"You have to want it." More i think about it the less meaning I find it that. Or maybe that it has meaning but isn't actually useful advice, maybe even kind of trivializes the problem or misses it entirely. I find that the most painful, troubling, soul-destroying aspect of the whole problem. It's all you want yet for some odd fuckin reason... you keep going back to it.
Yes!!!! You get it!@@Heopful
These two are like bubbles swirling around the drain. They are so very close to going down the black hole for good and just hoping something comes along to put a stopper in before they get sucked down. I hope for their sake that the stopper comes fast because it doesn't look like they have very long left. Thanks for the video Mark.
Weird analogy.. guys like you just sit back and watch while passing judgement, and doing nothing to help anyone.
@@tydupont8084 Dang......passing judgment on someone you accuse of passing judgment.....triggered much?
actually, good analogy. You described it pretty fucking accurate 🤷🏽♀️
It was elucidation.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
im a rideshare driver i gave this dude a ride a couple weeks ago. Really cool dude been through a lot for sure he seemed like he actually wanted to get better but she kept luring him back from what he told me.
I agree.. I hope they make it
He has a car
probably don't work or no gas, so hitched a ride@@Theboxingtour
That's so sad. He seems more stable right now
Adrian and Tamra, there is hope! My husband and I were heroin addicts, together through our addiction. We got clean after doing time separately for about 2 years. We are now 10 years clean and happy and raising our 3 babies 💜
God bless and I wish yall well
Amen❤❤❤❤
Getting clean is the hardest thing you'll ever do but it can be achieved if you really want it. For me I had to enter a residential program and locate meetings to attend regularly BEFORE I was released. It's extremely important to surround yourself with others who have walked the path before you. Addiction is the only disease that can be remedied by simple acts of human kindness. Good luck to you both. You've got this.
Been sober 8 days i love it 😀
Hang in there!
Congratulations. I'm so proud of you ❤
You’re such a badass!!! Keep it up!
8 days? Turns into 8 years. Stay on path!
Beauty in all will now unfold for you.🌹
Very sad to hear that she developed schizophrenia through continuous drug use. Their drug use spills into innocent people when he decides to steal. The comment, “if my car died I would steal a car,” this left me cold.
I’ve been on the receiving end whereby our car was stolen. It’s a terrible thing when we are going to work everyday, just to have a person feel like they are entitled to our car!
Sadly, this couple has become co-dependent. Honestly, if people choose drugs over their children or after overdosing; enough said.😢😢
She didn't develop schizophrenia. It's called psychosis from the meth keeping her sleep deprived. You can't believe anything that comes out of there mouth. When he was clean for 5 months and she wanted to use he should've let her go and moved on. I just can't believe these people can't stay clean it's crazy
She could care less about the children which to me should be a crime in itself and she should be locked up till she starts taking responsibility for those children.
You show Alot of hatred towards addicts. Obviously you don't know what it's like to be one.
Shaming isn't the answer & I'm sure you recovered after your precious car was taken.
@@forwarddrive4066don't be so sensitive
yup, I made a comment about the car stealing too. It sort of shows his true nature, he doesn't give a shit about hurting other people and has little or no empathy.
Tamra is higher than most you talk to. She won’t remember this
No kidding!
You can still remember things most of the time when you are high, it’s not like being drunk.
Praying these two get clean. They seem like such good people. The guy has great insight for someone in active addiction.
Most people who come through this channel seem like good people. Usually intelligent people aswell. Just makes it so much more heartbreaking.
His problem is though, He's putting Her first and his sobriety last.
He will end up burning out or losing control of that strong mindset from putting his addiction on the back burner.
@@forwarddrive4066Why would you get rid of the money maker. She’s probably not using him, he’s more than likely using her, She would be the money maker. At least, from my personal experience of having women by my side.
@forwarddrive4066 I agree. I believe he even said that in order to have a successful sobriety, they need to be apart.
@@Vix2066 as well is 2 words, aswell is incorrect.
She's obviously just using him
“Misery loves company” nothing truer than with these drug addicted co-dependent couples. Seems a million times harder to break when your significant other is right there doing it with you. It’s not love just convenience for both of them.
Many relationships are like this, minus the drugs.
My husband and I have been clean for 3 years now. We entered a program together, but seperate. Yall doing it at the same time will be key. Also, hold each other accountable. It took about a year and a half for my brain to unFk itself. Its still healing now. The problems you had before drugs (mental, trauma) will still be there but you will have removed the obstacle that stops you from healing. The demonic power of drugs will end sweetie, yes, one way or another. I truly hope yall end it on your terms. Good luck to both of yall, god speed❤
Congrats on your sobriety! I'm sure that was hard as heck ❤
@Here4TheHeckOfIt Things that are best are rarely easy, right!?🙃🙂 Thank you!!!!
I have son his age and he has a girlfriend her age both addicted to fentanyl it’s such a toxic relationship but all I can do is wait it scares me what a hold this drug on them 😢thank you this gives more insight into their relationship but it’s still heartbreaking knowing I can’t fix them nor will I unable them but when they do get sober I’ll walk through fire with them
I miss him so much 😢
Have you checked out alanon? They offer support to families of addicts. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I put my loved ones through it. 9 years clean now.
Dont stop praying for them and dont lose hope❤
My son is on the street too … it never leaves my mind. It’s pure torture as a parent.
So much pain there.
So sorry about that. All you can do is hope.
God bless you and prayers for your child!!❤❤❤ Keep looking up!!❤❤❤
I have been clean from fentanyl for almost 4 years. I’m on methadone and it has been a godsend for me. I wish you both all the best.
Congrats! MAT saves lives❤
I see a few comments here about how nice the guy is, but he said that the only reason he's not stealing a car from someone is that he's on 3 strikes and if he got caught he would go to jail for a decade, but this implies that if he wasn't on 3 strikes he wouldn't give a sht about who he hurt to take their property and has no empathy for others. He doesn't care about hurting other people, he only cares about the jail time. So he's not that nice a person and would rip you off in a flash if he could. His apparent devotion to his girlfriend is admirable though. She has phenomenal hair, wow. I feel frustrated with her because she's missing out on her kids lives and growing up and development, knowing full-well what the reason is for being kept away, at the current point in time she can justify it and explain it away to herself but in the future when she's much older I know what is happening now will be her biggest regret. She will look back as an old woman and it will eat her up inside that she missed out on her kids lives growing up. And it frustrates me because right now is the exact time she should be doing something about it to avoid all that regret and heartache and if she really tried she could in fact stop using and get back into her children's lives. They both could stop using if they wanted to and their reasoning is kind of weak. Tbh I think they both think life is hopeless so what's the point but if they had something they really wanted and were looking forward to, their attitude would quickly change and they would stay off it.
Omg you’re so right that she has phenomenal hair!!
Obviously this is framed for sympathy. In reality who knows wtf they've done for their fix probably some not great things....
It's just heartbreaking to see two young people addicted ,I wish I had a magic wand . Hope someday they will get it together and be free and happy.
Incredible story and so much honesty. I really see these 2 getting clean. I think he gets it and he’s ready to do it. Hopefully he finds his way and she can get the help she needs to keep her mind clear and deal with her mental health struggles ❤️
I’ll be 8 years sober on January 5th 2024. I have two kids and a husband and a home in a well off neighborhood. Doesn’t seem like that long ago I was riding around in cars all day chasing my dealer around and going to the clinic for needles and getting dope sick and stinking and throwing up 😭 addiction is no joke. Whenever I tell people I used to shoot heroin, they have a hard time believing me. But I just can’t believe I wake up everyday not needing any drugs. I acknowledge my sober lifestyle every day. But it’s true, you have to want it. Best of luck. You can do it , all you have to do is do it.
You have to want it. Period. Otherwise youll never get clean. And your last moment will be slowly slipping away on the street by trash. And no one will care. You have to get clean and helping others is an amazing way of doing it.
The pain she's putting her children through should be enough to change. Get clean and have a relationship with your children.
First I want to say how precious you both are . I think Marc this is your best interview about this fentanyl tragedy. These two are so articulate and able to tell there reality , but at the same time unable to dig themselves up and out of it . They have a few challenges besides the drug use to overcome . Life itself is not easy . I’m happy you found each other. I had no one my baby’s daddy went to prison and my family had to take care on my child the obvious came first . I was left to decide what path to take I choose life and being strong got me through. God will take care of the rest !!! I’m praying for you too your both amazing ,one step at a time ! Bless you
The fact they found each other is why both of them are still addicted to drugs. If you watch these videos you have to understand how codependent relationships are extremely toxic. You’re being conned by the “love” goggles. This isn’t love, it’s convenient for both of them to get that next high. They’re both high af in this interview.
I will say the comments are wild and varied! Tamra is in a very dangerous place mentally and physically; I fear she is not long for this world if something doesn't change immediately. She carries a weight of pain not spoken of here. Empathy- the ability to suffer in another's suffering- a gift from God which humanity desperately needs. Bless them.🌹
I wanted to ask, respectfully, how Tamra makes it when he has been incarcerated? Addiction is so damned brutal. I am thankful I found recovery from crack before fentanyl.
We hear about survivor's guilt all of the time but I haven't heard it often related to the addict who goes on to find recovery and thrive in some ways knowing that multitudes are jailed, institutionalized, or dead, whether it was our running buddy, or a stranger.
Selling her pu$$
My daughter’s older sister from her dad is addicted to fentanyl and living on the streets of Portland. She has 3 older kids who hadn’t seen her In a year until she was taken to the hospital from a gunshot in the back by a 9mm. They cannot remove the bullet due to complications from an existing stint above her heart. She’s been in and out of jail, has OD’d multiple times and now shot my a 9mm. Thankfully she’s still in the hospital on suboxen, but I’m not convinced this is enough to keep her clean. I pray that she can and will get clean, but unfortunately the addiction to fentanyl is so strong that I’m afraid she will have the mindset of just one more time and this one more time will be the last. I’ve been addicted to plenty of things, just never these kinds of drugs, so I cannot imagine the nagging pain of needing to get high even after nearly losing your life. I love your channel Mark. I think it humanizes people rather than grouping them all together as “the homeless” or “junkies”. For people like me who feel that we can’t do anything to help them, I know through this channel, they have some chance of getting saved. Blessings.
I went to a methadone clinic to get off opiates and walked out of the methadone clinic almost 10 years ago. I have not touched an opiate since then and still have no desire. I was tired of throwing up blood everytime i would detox and when i went into the clinic i went in knowing I would not stay there forever. Rock bottom is different for everyone.
Happy for you 🤗🙏🏽♥️
🇨🇦Canada🇨🇦
Methadone did it for me as well… I was in and out… I tapered down off methadone and have been clean ever since
@@carolfromalbertacanada I'm not gonna lie it was a struggle at first and when I left the clinic I detoxed a little granted it was nothing compared to the detox from the strong opiates I had done. But I wanted to be clean more than I wanted the opiates.
@@jamieharris2633 pray you continue on this road. You CAN
do it my friend. Don’t ever give up you DESERVE a better life. Wishing you the best on your journey 🤗🤗🤗🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽♥️♥️♥️
Love & Hugs from 🇨🇦Canada🇨🇦
Methadone saved my life almost 4 years ago. I was terrified of detoxing but was so fucking exhausted and over shooting up and selling and all the BS that came with heroin. Since got my first dose of methadone I've never used since. My older sister unfortunately never got clean and recently died from fentanyl alone in a car in downtown Phoenix. My mom would've had to lose and bury her only two children if I hadn't quit... I wish the stigma that comes with methadone would end and people could see how it really helps A LOT of people!
Where’s Waldo? Doing Fentanyl with his girlfriend.
Harsh man, but still funny af.
19 months sober. It can be done. But you have to want it more than anything. I thought I wanted it badly for 15 years. But when the time eventually came, I knew it was the really deal. Time to stop. Every ounce of me wanted to run away from it and get better.
Addiction is suicide in slow motion. These people are tired of living.
Actually addiction is the only way of keeping my life. paradoxically it will turn into death.
Just go to the methadone clinic. People think its swapping one for the other but at least youre not gonna OD and die because fentynal is hard to detox off of
Finnaly the juice sealed your lot
She's 1000% cheating on him when he's locked up
Thats how she gets money for the addiction thru sloppy toppy sessions with strangers
Why does that matter?
Of course, she’s selling pu$$y for money! Almost all addicted sell pu$$y! The ladies!
@@joyfulgirlrecovery7526 because she's not faithful. To each their own but I couldn't be with a woman thats not faithful. There's no respect there
00:15 🏠 Adrian and Tamra had dysfunctional childhoods in different areas of California but faced varying family dynamics, ranging from neglect to hard work.
04:48 💊 Tamra started heavy drug use at 15, progressing to meth and heroin, eventually leading to fentanyl addiction about four years prior to the interview.
07:32 🤝 Adrian maintains a close relationship with his dad, who he deeply respects despite the family's challenging circumstances.
08:43 😔 Both struggle with emotions of guilt, shame, and hopelessness due to their inability to provide for themselves and their ongoing battles.
11:17 ⚠ Their biggest fears revolve around returning to prison or facing the possibility of death due to drug overdoses, a situation they've encountered multiple times.
14:55 👨👩👦 Tamra's estranged relationship with her children weighs heavily on her, as her drug use keeps her distanced from them and affects their well-being.
16:55 🚫 Adrian and Tamra find solace in each other's company despite the challenges of being a couple living on the streets, where trust and support are rare commodities.
19:00 🔄 They managed a successful period of sobriety but fell back into addiction when Tamra decided to resume drug use, highlighting the difficulty of staying clean together.
21:40 🧠 Tamra's drug-induced schizophrenia strained their relationship and caused extreme paranoia, making it challenging for Adrian to help her get clean.
22:51 🔄 Adrian's constant attempts to aid Tamra's sobriety were misconstrued, exacerbating her paranoid delusions and hindering their progress toward recovery.
23:08 😟 Adrian stayed with Tamra despite difficulties, fearing for her safety if he left her alone due to her vulnerability.
23:49 🚗 Their precarious situation with their only home being a car poses constant challenges; even a small issue like a dead battery can significantly impact their daily life.
24:33 ⚠ Despite owning their car legally, the fear of losing it leads Adrian to consider stealing another if necessary, despite the risk of accumulating three strikes in criminal offenses.
24:51 🧠 The most critical lesson learned is the inability to control drug addiction, emphasizing the need to avoid the illusion of control when attempting to get clean.
Please, no AI, we can understand what we see and hear
You taking Adderall or something lol
Wtf is wrong with you that causes you to break this down in the comments lmao. Weirdo
No ai. Just stop
Thanks for taking the time to make this. 🙏
The word is not really protective of her, it's actually possessive of her. But in his mind protective sounds noble and possessive sounds crazy.
you make it sound like he's in control but obviously not, the story of checking the trunk for another girl demonstrates that she doesn't trust him even when there's literally nothing there but he still has to jump through hoops to reassure her. She obviously controls him, but he lets her control him, and they want to be together that way. Wouldn't say one is more to blame than the other in that case, both have to change for a relationship to actually work. She needs to get her insecurity together and he needs to not depend on her so much.
You two❤❤❤ are so close! You got this! I can hear it , see it and feel it!! Keep trying, keep reaching out to resources, start living your worth and dreams🙏🙏❤️❤️
He seems stronger than her. Prayers. Drugs affect people differently😢
My brother died of an overdose, so I empathize. But stealing a hard-working person's car to support yourself is ridiculous. Don't forget that person is also paying taxes for your food stamps and everything else you use in the system. Your choices should be your own. I should not pay for your choices in the form of you stealing my car.
I’m inside jails in Orange County twice a week teaching inmates how to do accounting. Adrian does not resemble a gang member or an inmate. Tamra is gorgeous. Wishing them the best to beat this addiction.
She said she had a dysfunctional childhood but it was her getting in trouble. They aren’t ready to be sober.
People deal with trauma and poverty differently. Don’t make it right but everyone deserves a second chance at life.
Sorry, I don't follow. How does the fact that she said she had a dysfunctional childhood mean she's not ready?
@@nomibones they don't know because it doesn't make any sense lol
Her mother left and her Dad had to work all the time, that's dysfunction. The reason they were getting into trouble so young is probably because they were unsupervised a lot of the time.
@@powderandpaint14That's called life. Stop making excuses for behavior and making Dad into a bad guy.
“I really wanna get clean just to make my dad proud I love him a lot” god did I feel that 🥺🥺 I relate to that
They are toxic together. He’s too weak to leave her and she’s too mentally unstable to help herself. They are doomed.
20 seconds into this video. It's always nice when a couple has something in common, such as being addicted to fentanyl
LOL
He needs to get away from her. He appears to be much more receptive to being sober than she is right now
When he said: My mother started “fu-Ing” my sisters boyfriend. Geezus - I had to digest that slowly. Bless you young man.
Itching your noise, the fentanyl salute!
Trauma + opiates = perfect storm for addiction. If you are going through a hard time, Do not indulge in short term fixes for long term problems. Do not resort to those substances that made you feel so good before. Even if you are not predisposed to addiction, the trauma changes the way your brain views the drug. Stay safe out there, dont use drugs to cope.
I wish them all the best. They just have to make that decision to become clean. No one else can. It's always a choice. We can always feel bad for them...but, in the end, it's up to them.
“If my car breaks down, the first thing I would do is steal another one.”
He seriously has no awareness that someone else might depend on their car for their job/livelihood.
I’m trying to understand, but they are so utterly self absorbed.
I’m sure they know know they’ll never get clean staying together.
I came from a good household, with 2 parents that loved me and cared about me, so it's hard for me to understand what would bring someone to try hard drugs for the first time. They know what the consequences are.
I'm a god fearing man and am working everyday to be better and not judge people. But when i see these women who abandon their kids or get them taken away due to drug addiction, it's very difficult.
I still wish both these people the best
This is what I'm thinking.😮 you transform my thoughts to words.
In a healthy relationship, you enable your partner to be their best; to take the risk to improve they otherwise wouldn't.
In relationships like this, the exact opposite is true. In these relationships, the worst thing you can do to yourself and others is normalized and endorsed.
Tough situation.
This is the definition of toxic love.
For sure!
It’s sad to see people strung out.
I’m rooting for them. I wish them the best fr
Fentanyl high voice…muted low slow… 😢 They just told us HOW to get clean….lock ‘em up. The draw to it is TOO great…
We have empty hospitals. We need a law to lock up an addict for a year.
It is sad how self aware they are of everything but they still are unable to change their situation.
This is called sickness, to know it does Not change it
it's the worst
Adrian could be a professor reminds of Adrian Brody Tamar you are beautiful with your long blonde curly hair. You two could do wonders together, it will take hard work but you two knows what it takes you been clean you just have to want to get sober. Best of everything good for you two. Great content Mark.
43 years of no alcohol no drugs no tobbaco. After rehab addictions etc. I am 62 years old dude.
He's way too dependant on her but I think she uses him for security. She will keep him addicted to drugs if he stays with her.
What a gorgeous woman. You can see the suffering in her face tho. Poor dear. Wish the best for her and Adrian.
Yea I thought so too. She can model easily.
Never quit quitting !! Yall can do it !
For some reason, it really stood out to me that Adrian wears glasses. I don't remember ever seeing an addict who wears them on here!
I’ve thought about that also .. I thought since their homeless what do they do if they can’t afford glasses 🤷🏼♀️
I wore glasses/contacts and was a homeless addict …. And eventually they were stolen as my blind ass was just out there walkin around , hittin licks and getting caught up.
@@peacelily64 you can get glasses for under $10...
Wow, my heart breaks for her children.
I've been clean for 14 years and I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt. If you put the same effort into staying clean as you did into getting high. You will have success in your recovery!
If they read this or if you see them again, tell them to sell that car and go buy a little shit-box car so they don’t have to worry about losing their “home”. I can tell you first hand that when you’re living in your vehicle, that is the last thing you want to lose. Especially as a woman, like myself that was alone. I know they’re together so it’s not so bad when you have each other. I didn’t have that. Which was probably a good thing at the time bc I have a single cab pickup truck with a small dog. Living in a car is a blessing when you’re homeless, though. It provides a roof over your head so you can stay dry and warm and you can lock your doors when you’re “home” to keep yourself safe, especially at night, and when you’re away, to keep your belongings safe and secure. If you have a truck with a cap, you can use the back as a storage unit and that keeps everything dry and no one can see inside (if you have tinted windows on the cap and a locking hatch door, which I did). I was only in my truck because I moved across the country at 18 when I moved out of my parents house and I had no money and no place to go. I wanted to start fresh. I eventually got a storage unit so my truck didn’t have all that weight in the back which can cause all kinds of problems for the vehicle. I was also able to keep most of the money from my paychecks bc I had no bills to pay except food and gas. I had 2 jobs in total during that time. The first one only lasted a few weeks. They had a problem with me living in my truck. That was just ridiculous. Then I didn’t have a job for many months. I applied and applied and got no where. I finally got a good and easy job making $20/hr with some overtime here and there. That made it possible to get into an extended stay hotel which was pure hell. Owners walking in when I wasn’t there, Invading my privacy when I was there, druggies everywhere (which I would’ve had no problem with if they weren’t scoping out my shit to steal). I finally found a house that I rent that’s considered extremely cheap but I still have a hard time making the rent but that’s life I guess. At least it’s not an apartment building. I have a very laid back landlord and no restrictions of any kind and my dog has a yard all to himself. I’m just doing this for him. He’s very old but still has lots of energy and once he’s gone and I’m alone, I’ll probably pack it up and live in my truck again so I can save money. I honestly really liked living in my truck. The only downside was finding a place to park at night where I wouldn’t get kicked out of by the cops while I was sleeping.
Wow, thanx for sharing your story . That must be a tough adventure . That's kind you do what you do for your little dog 🐶 . Dogs are so worth it . I've had dogs too, but they're passed away now . I miss them . A You Tube channel that I follow might in some way be of help to you & your travels is called Wandering Jeepsy . She lives in her Jeep with her little dog & travels around . Your story was interesting 🤠
Don’t hate me…
But, I feel like Adrian’s addiction is more so Tamra than fentanyl. Every attempt he’s made to get clean he regressed and relapsed behind her. I love and admire the love he has for her, but I wish he, they had that some love for themselves. I truly with the best for both of them. This was a great interview as always.
They enable each other. Worst case scenario
Misery loves company.
Be grateful for what you have!! Some people ain't happy with anything in life. I also can be that ppl.. I'm in recovery and I am thankful for that!! I'm tired a lot of days though. I need to get to a doctor im not normally this EXHAUSTED!!! JUST THIS POST MAKES ME FEEL 😳 DEPLETED. GOD BLESS YOU BOTH 🙏🏼❤️✝️🙏🏼❤️
Please don't have kids
Wishing this kind couple ALL the best. Be brave, you can have a better life !
They need help... please help them if you can. Addiction is a crazy thing... I've been there, trust me
Thank you. I wish the both of you the best. I admire your dedication to one another. I hope you two can find your strength to get past this
It's addiction, not dedication.
@@Sleepparalysisdemon2 they are addicts yes but that doesn't mean that is all they are capable of
3:50 I tried to watch it, but one more arm rubbing and I scream
I hear & feel yr pain. literally & Emotionally, I’ve been there & I’m hanging in. Stay strong. Keep each other safe. Ain’t yr fault ..life Is so painfully sad & Complex ☮️💜
Mark: How was your childhood?
Tamra: It was dysfunctional. Mom wasn't there. Dad always found ways to get into trouble.
Mark: Sounds like a pretty good childhood.
Me: WTF??
She said she always found a way to get into trouble not dad. But yeah, no mum. Dad at work all the time. Doesn't sound like ideal childhood.
It's paramount that the interviewer doesn't gloss over painful or poignant moments. I was so disappointed when I heard Mark say that
Her: I had a dysfunctional childhood without my mother.
Him: Sounds like a pretty good childhood.
Me: 😵💫
Adrian you deserve a good Dad❤
Two beautiful souls Tamra is such a stunning beautiful woman , I hope they get to that place and live in peace xxx
Go to the club AA club Covina. I got sober there as far and got one year seven months sober. I been thru it but glad I'm sober now the longest I've ever been
Mark has a tendency to say things “sounds like a pretty good childhood”. He is subconsciously being comparative to other interviewees. This in itself comes across as insensitive and lack of awareness. I wouldn’t say he’s the best interviewer I’ve ever seen. I do question why he picks the people he does, yet lack the ability show empathy and ask the right questions?
Adrian is shockingly handsome, he should put that to use in LA.
Its so tremendously sad to see these two persons ... so nice persons to be so lost I'm their lifes ... I hope they will find power and feel love of all people around.... family and absolutely strangers like me to drop this fentanyl ... I am from Belgium but basically I am ukrainien... guys be strong for your happiness!!! You deserve it!
I'm rooting for you two. You're young enough to create your dream life still, but you'd have to start getting clean now.
Thank you Thank you for the interview Adrian, Tamra and Soft White Underbelly
He can get and stay clean .. but she is his downfall 🙏🏾
Jail is a good way to get clean......word. Spent eight months in a San Diego fire camp forty years ago and it completely changed my life for the sober better.
Can you guys do an interview with a medium or someone who says they are able to communicate with the dead? It would be interesting to see what their life and experience is like.
O….k……
He already has several interviews with both con artists and schizophrenics
These folks look new to the game. Clean & well fed looking. Give it a few years, we’ve seen the result.
The best thing that could happen to him is going to jail...maybe that would be good for her too?
Agreed. I feel the worst for her kids that don't have their mama. He needs to get out of the picture and she needs to straighten up for her kids.
The codependency with these couples is so fascinating to me.