Therapist Cries While Listening to Wings of Marie Pt 1 and 2 by Tool
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 8 ก.ย. 2024
- Therapist analyzes the lyrics of Wings for Marie Pt 1 and 2 (10,000 days) and discusses Judith Marie and what we can learn from her incredible story as well as highlighting the way music can allow us to access our grief in a really healthy way.
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My mother passed away in 2020 after suffering a stroke and being paralyzed and mute for 17 years. We read the "shake your fist at the gate....give me my wings" lyrics at her funeral.
So sorry to hear that. I hope you are ok. I can only imagine the pain you went through but i can assure you she is proud of you up where she is now. God this almost made me cry. I am sure she looks down on you with tears of joy. Thank you for sharing. You are awesome. ♥
I’m sorry for your loss. When my mom passed away i listened to this song and it helped me overcome my tendency to repress emotions and have a good cry. I’ve never been able to listen to this song the same. Tearing up a little as I type.
sorry, not many words, just ❤🩹
Same same and same. Miss mine every day. Cancer sucks. Music heals
Love drives all engines.
When he says “give me my wings” it gets me every time. This is such a beautiful tribute to his mother.
My mom passed away on January 26 2024 of Bone cancer. I put my life aside and moved back home and took care of her the last 4 years of her life. It was hardest but the best thing I ever did. Bonding with her was amazing, watching her suffer was heart breaking. But I'm glad I did it. I love you mom.
I am so sorry for your loss.. I wish you, and your family peace..
That brings tears to my eyes. I'm at that age where I'm seeing my parents decline each day,...I'm 40, my mom 64 & my dad 78. I can't imagine what that was like. I did take my dad to see these guys a couple years ago, though. He said it was one of the best experiences of his life. The cycle of life, I guess.
ahh yeah watever ya reckon
My mom passed away at the age of 53 from stage 4 colon cancer in 2021. I know everyone's journey and battle with cancer is different, but I know some of the loss and suffering of watching someone you love decline over time. Every bit of love you poured out to them is a treasure and a gift!
You're a good person. Bless you both.
I love how Justin' bass sounds like it's skipping around on the clouds in heaven.
For real
100% This is easily one of his best composed basslines... the way it floats around the melody and ties the vocals and percussion together is just beautiful.
Did you get to see them on the 2007 tour? These two songs were an unbelievable experience. This comment took me back because of the visual experience during these songs on the tour. They cranked in a TON of fog and then blasted flat, wide horizontal lasers through the fog, creating clouds above your head (if you were on the floor) It was magical.
I love playing wings pt2 on bass, it feels like a mantra
If you listen to Judith prior to listening to this, you can see Maynard's path of coping pretty clearly over time. From Anger in Judith to what we have here, which comes from a much different place.
Add Jimmy before that and you're onto something....
@@nucl3arboNgcame to say the same! Jimmy fits right in with these three songs. Reuniting with his lost inner child
Biography is really good.
Yes! Maynard's expression of the anger he was feeling towards his mother in the song Judith was a necessary stage in allowing him to express his genuine hurt and love and gratefulness in 10,000 Days.
My first time listening to Judith after this song and hearing her story was like a religious experience for me...I had never felt that emotional about a song before.
I'm hesitant to leave this comment since it's not like other commenters talking about people, but my dog Buddy passed away a week ago. I love him, and I miss him.
The emotional impact of losing someone special is significant, but their impact, their love, and the memories are with you forever.
Doesn't matter, love is love and losing anyone or anything you love is one of the hardest things we can all deal with. My brothers cat, that I essentially adopted recently passed and I was very sad, much more than I thought it would have hit me.
I lost my 16 year old golden chow 2 years ago and I'm still not over it. All life is precious.
maynard had a dog miho, whom passed away. he wrote a song about it called Singularity, its by one of the other bands he is in called Puscifer. Go to Puscifer's youtube channel and find it. There is some backstory in the more detail section of the video. he talks about how miho was always there in the recording room barking and making noises that sometimes they left in hidden under the layers of music. Theres also the APC song called kindred but thats about being a father and teaching his daughter who lost her cat about loss and not bottling up and hiding away from people or things because of fear of loss. or thats my interpretation of it. Anyways, much love, hope you and yours are well.
My friend, I work in veterinary medicine and have done so for almost 50 years. I can tell you that the love gor our pets is every bit as strong as for a loved person. We raise them, share with them, grow with them, and they give unconditional love. Perhaps the only unconditional love we will ever know. Loss is painful, and you have my sympathy. God bless.
Pets are some of the purist forms of love. I have lost a few beautiful best friends in my lifetime and although I will never forget them I always go and save another from the shelter to hopefully give them a great life. RIP Buddy
"10,000 days in the fire is long enough....you're going hoooooome!" is the most powerful line in those 2 songs!! I love these 2 songs so damn much!!!
Tied with maybe the most powerful lines in all Tools discography. H. line comes to mind in breakdown
I may be wrong but I seem to recall something about not allowing assisted suicide due to religious reasons which has a lot to do with Maynards feelings on religion. I remember hearing something about that but can't find a source now.
Give me my wiiiiiiiiinnnnnngggggsssss!!!!!
Since my mom has passed, this song makes me cry every time
"fetch me the spirit, the son and the father. tell them their pillar of faith has ascended"
is mine
This is one of the greatest pair of songs ever written. It's not possible to listen without getting worked up. Almost 20 years now and it still gets to me.
20 years? Jeeeees
Me too, and the day it stops is the day I'll start worrying that there's something wrong with me
This song makes me cry every single time.
Every. Damn. Time.
Same
Me too
Same
i start from the first you believe :|
"Set as I am in my ways and my arrogance,
Burden of proof tossed upon non-believers,
You were my witness,
My eyes, my evidence,
Judith Marie,
Unconditional one"
This is the most powerful/beautiful stanza of any song. He is saying that he always needed proof, since he wasn't that religious, while she only ever needed faith. And that's where they differed. In the end, however, it turned out that her unconditional faith was the proof he needed. She was his witness, his eyes, his evidence. So poetic!
I still don't understand what "burden of proof tossed upon non -believers" is supposed to mean
He's talking about himself and his disposition. He does not believe in Judith's god. He's set in his arrogance about his belief that there is no god and tosses the burden of proof... where?
Like I feel it's so natural for atheists (and our love for the scientific method) to toss the burden of proof unto those who make wild claims, aka the believers.
Listening closely to it, it surely is "non-believers" (certainly not "the" at least) but how am I supposed to read it for it to make sense? Who tosses burden of what proof upon non-believers and how does it tie in with Judith being his evidence?
It's Maynards demand to the belivers to prove that his exists. I think you were right at the start - he does not believe in God, he thinks there is no proof of his existence, but (I think) his Marie's way of living was so strong that it was like a interacts proof for him. Maybe not enough to turn him into a beliver outright, but enough to cause dout maybe? Or at least acgnowleage the real power true faith gave to his mother.
It this light is like:
" As much as I'm sure (that there is no God) and arrogant,
As much as I believe we lack evidence to say that there is a God,
You were so strong thanks to your faith,
It was nothing short of a divine (and so you are like a proof to me)"
@@pr0pagandhi511 Judith's dedication to her faith remained so strong through the entirety of her tortured existence, that Maynard started to question his own arrogance. The burden of proof, which is typically put on the believers, has now been shifted. It has been "tossed upon non-believers", it's now their job to give their counter. Maynard has always dismissed religion, but here he shows a moment of doubt, that perhaps there was more to it than he originally thought.
@@pr0pagandhi511 When you're immersed in the church culture as I assume he was growing up, and you don't believe whole heartedly with what is happening, there is a definite and real feeling of being "less than" that is inescapable in that environment. You are surrounded by people literally pitying you for not getting it, whatever "it" is. With that personal experience in mind, that line makes a lot of sense to me. Always an outsider, always a feeling of guilt, and a feeling you have to defend yourself for not believing. That's how I hear it anyway.
@@andstriker This sounds great I'll have to watch out for that vibe next time I listen to it 🤙
TOOL is the greatest band on the planet. The deeper you dive into their music, the better it gets.
Oh, there are many greatest bands on Earth, but Tool is definitely one of them :)
Radiohead is the same..
They saved my life
NOT A JOKE ❤
Im listening to Tool for almost 20 years except those when they were gone, but to this day I discover some new stuff. And that is so amazing 😮💨🥲
TOOL is my soul music, my hymns. As a non Christian Gentile believer in the God of Abraham, I'm never closer to God than listening to TOOL.
These two are tough to get through even if you are not going through any grief. Let it out. We got you! May your grandmother recover fast and well!
He finally dealt with his grief and anger over his mother's passing and let her go. I'm in my 50's, saw them do this a couple times live back during their album tour. I can never listen to this without tearing up. Now go back and listen again without stopping and pay attention to how the music was written, and how it starts out low, because he's sitting in the church at her funeral... and then continues to build, as if she's being lifted up until finally she's demanding her wings from the trinity. There are so many more levels to this song besides just the lyrics. When you stop you lose the flow of the song and music, and I get that you're analyzing it, but now go back on your own, light a candle, kick back and really listen to it.
This is the best way
So well written. 🤘🏼
"...she's demanding her wings from the trinity." This the whole thing, right here.
THIS!!!!
I saw the 10,000 days tour here in LA at the Staples Center.
After these songs, Justin and Adam hugged Maynard.
My dad died of brain cancer almost 8 years ago. He knew the words to this song and we used to jam it together all the time.
I can't wait for your reaction but I guess I'll be crying today.
Edit: Hugs for you 💕 and your Grandma.
Thank you so much for sharing. Really sorry for your loss. I am sure your dad is proud of you and is still jamming this song up in heaven. You are great. Try to hear him Jamming with you when you play or listen to this song. I am sure he is greatful to have such an amazing child. I hope this helps a little. Maybe just try to play/sing this song, always helps me dealing with some things. Big love❤
That’s beautiful. I wish my kids were into tool. I’d be doing the same thing.
So sorry about your Dad. That’s such a tough road to go through but I’m sure you’re doing him and yourself proud.
Don't worry dude, my eyes are gunna be raw at the end too.
It’s so powerful “Fetch me the Spirit the son and the father, tell them their pillar of faith has ascended. It’s time now, my time now, give me my, give me my wiiiiings!” Brilliant.
Haven't clicked on a video faster in a long time.
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My mother was a dedicated ICU nurse who had to leave after being diagnosed with breast cancer. After her Mastectomy she returned to work because she loved helping others. The cancer returned twice where she had to endure chemotherapy on both occasions. She finally died in 2002. She was the most selfless person I've ever known.
From KyleGouldOfficial: @josephputz2964 Hi @HeartSupport_Fans
Thanks for opening up about your mother struggle with Breast Cancer. People like that are amazing to help people regardless of what she was going through herself and sorry for the loss. If you need anything else heartsupport is here for you!
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From bmao: @josephputz2964 Hey- thank you so much for opening up with us and sharing about your mother. She truly sounds like an angel and I wish I could have had the chance to meet her. What a strong woman she was, battling breast cancer while still suiting up to save lives in the ICU. That is true dedication to others, care, and selflessness. It is inspiring to hear your story and I am so thankful that you are here to carry on in her footsteps.
While the pain of her being gone must still cut deep, the memories of her loving selflessness will never fade. Those memories can carry you through the dark nights, knowing that she is still looking down on you with the same care she had for you as a child and with the same dedication she had to each and every ICU patient she treated.
The song "Rose of Sharyn" by Killswitch Engage does a great job of encapsulating immeasurable love for your mother that has passed. I would highly recommend you giving that song a listen if you would like another song to help you cope through music and relate to the feeling of losing your mother.
Though your mother may not be on this earth any longer, her love is still so strong for you. The love of a mother transcends time and space, and she is surely watching over you and feeling proud- ready to wipe away your tears. You are so loved and you make such a difference in this world, just as your mother did. If you ever want to dive deeper or if you need more support, we are here for you, ready to listen.
From runner12: @josephputz2964 Thank you so much for your response! I am so glad you’re here! Your mom sounds like an amazing and strong person! You must be so proud of her. I’m sorry that she passed away after fighting so hard. That must have been difficult to go through. To see someone you love and admire struggling is never easy. What a wonderful example of selflessness though as she continued to help others despite her own battles. Im sure it is still difficult to deal with losing a parent and I pray that you’ve found comfort in her memory. Thank you so much for sharing her inspiring story.
My mom passed in February. She was a devout Christian even through her dementia. I just listened to this for the first time since her passing and it’s the first time I’ve let go and actually/ cried. I feel better now.
Sorry to hear of your loss. No more dementia. No more pain.
Peace and light fam
Same in 2024. Lost mom on February. Gave everything she could to me and my brother. Single mother worked nights.😢😢😢
😢
Cathartic
I’m sorry to hear that brother or sister. I’m in a similar position, only a year ahead. That hole never goes, but if you fill it with Christ you know the separation is only temporary.
My prayers are with you., hang in there.
😞
🙏
I am 70 years old and this made me cry. My mother (God rest her soul) passed away November 10 2001 after battling with alzhheimers she was 82 years old and it was 2 days after my 48th birthday. She led a very hard life dealing with my alcoholic father and raising 8 children me being the youngest. We grew up poor but rich in her love. Not ashamed to say I was a mama's boy. With all that she went through all she ever wanted was the best for us. Love you Mom.❤❤❤❤❤
God bless you sir
@jeffhelton3364 thank you.
Judith by A perfect circle
Which is the other side of it all.
Oh.. Pt 1 hits hard.. Pt 2 destroys.. I'm sitting here (again) in tears having heard this song literally hundreds of times. Gets me every time.
At the "bring me my wings" part.. nothing but goosebumps.
Two of the greatest farewell songs ever written. Moral of the story, if you can save just one life, yours was worth it.
Judith by A Perfect Circle is now a MUST listen. Maynard's expression of the anger he was feeling towards his mother in the song Judith was a necessary stage in allowing him to express his genuine hurt and love and gratefulness in 10,000 Days.
Maynard never felt anger toward his mom. his book is a must read to get a better idea and understanding of his point of view. Its easy to see how people would come to that conclusion though. If memory serves, he even says something along the lines of faith was all his mother was left with after the accident. how could he kick that out from under her. Not in those words, but thats generally the point. Take it with a grain of salt though as its been a minute since i read the book. the song, Judith is about extremist fundamentalist and the idea that a loving god would visit suffering on his beloved. His book talks about when his mothers incident occured, members of the church would talk behind his family's back and would say that god was punishing her. Here is a link to maynard's own commentary on the song Judith. th-cam.com/video/YU0BrwlWNTk/w-d-xo.htmlsi=yGvIZiIBCFlaDszI
@@Tekkadan-IBO thank you & even w out your link (sorry I didn't check it out) are there no other people that were brought up in the church that hears what he's saying?? yes it sounds so beautiful but listen to the words and the way he uses them.
@@leslieprieto4152 Not sure I'm understanding what you are getting at. If you're asking me can other people who went to church not derive their own interpretation and meaning from the song, than obviously the answer is yes. However, when people try to convey what Maynard's own meaning to the song is and kinda speak on his behalf, i think it important to get that part accurate or rather not speak on his behalf at all. Maynard was never angry at his mother. His book A Perfect Union of Contrary Things talks about clarifies this and the link also take you to the youtube video where maynard lays it out for you. If you dont trust my link, just type in the youtube search bar Judith A perfect circle Maynard commentary and you should find it. If you are simply uninterested than thats fine too. Hope this helps.
My mother passed away in 2018 after a short battle with lung cancer. It is never easy to see someone, who brought you into this world and who was your strength through so many things, get sick and end up feeling powerless to help them with their pain like they did for you. My sincere condolences to you and your family during this time. I'm crying with you.
From reem182: @gmanxxx7225 It really is so incredibly hard to endure loss, especially the loss of someone so close to you. I can't imagine how impossible it must feel to try to move on in the wake of something so catastrophic. And I know that it can feel really lonely during grieving because we no longer have that person who was our one constant shoulder to cry on. Life can feel so hopeless, and finding motivation to keep on pushing feels beyond difficult.
Despite all the pain you're enduring, I want you to know that you are NEVER alone no matter how deep the hurt cuts. While our struggles may feel eternal, I don't believe that we were merely made to suffer, and even if it seems impossible now, I know that there is hope for you to cling to. The simple fact that you are here today, with all the memories of that person forever in your mind, proves that their legacy and your purpose are meant to live on. Wherever you are when reading this message, I want you to know, friend, that I am here for you right now, I am praying for you this moment, and I am confident that the light of a new hope will find you soon. All you have to do is hold on with the assurance that hope is coming and you are worthy of joy once again. You are not alone today.
From domenic4: @gmanxxx7225 I am deeply sorry for your loss. I understand how hard it is to see a person you love go through such a hard battle and I understand how debilitating it is to go through that battle. My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. It's okay to cry and feel this pain; it shows the depth of your love. Take care of yourself and know that you are not alone in your grief.
sending love and support,
- domenica
Lost my wife to ALS on Feb. 5, 2024. She, too, was paralyzed and unable to speak. Though it was not 10,000 days it was 5 years. Felt like an eternity. She had strong beliefs, which I do not. Vivi prayed for me and the boys and communicated to me how grateful she was to have the boys and me.
This song resonates on so many levels. I know more than I'd like about pain, despair, and loss.
From TheTogah: @BrianMacdonald-gs9ic Hey Friend,
Thanks for posting this and sharing your story!
It's so hard to lose someone so close and can often feel like our world is getting smaller. One thing that helps me in this is looking at the positivity, or trying to find it. Your wife was strong, she had strong beliefs, and sounded like she was dedicated. What continues to help me is knowing that I can carry on that special person's light and bring it to the paths of others. Please keep your head up, and remember that you can still have faith and hope despite having a different faith than her. You still have a lot of love and light to give!
Cheers!
From djstarion: @BrianMacdonald-gs9ic Hello friend,
I'm so sorry for you loss. ALS is such a horrible disease. I've seen people close to me succombed to it and it's hard to see someone you care about go down that road.
What I will say though is that you, your wife, and your kids are absolute warrriors. I mean that! I can tell that she loved all of you with every fiber in her being, and rest assured her impact is always going to be there with you and your boys.
I also know more than i'd like about pain and loss and despair, but knowing those experiences and how they scar us makes us stronger than ever. And we're here for you every step of the way.
From jfritzart: @BrianMacdonald-gs9ic Hey man, Thanks so much for reaching it, I’m happy to have you here, and am really grateful that you have shared these vulnerable details with us about you late wife Vivi. It sounds like she was a really special person, and I can only imagine how it must feel for you to go through that journey with your family, and to then have to say goodbye - that loss hits something deep within me. I lost my mom when I was in my mid 20’s to breast cancer, and she also was this leader in my family, this voice of strength and losing her completely shook my understanding of the world and who I was. With that being said, it has been over ten years since I lost her, and I have been able to turn that pain into purpose and her passing inspires me to be a better man, to live in her honour and to continue to make her proud by learning how to be a better son, a better brother and a better friend, in the all the ways that she was there for me.
I know you’re probably feeling a lot, and I just want to let you know that we are here to listen, we are here to help support you through this.
Thanks again for sharing,
From h_soneta: @BrianMacdonald-gs9ic Hey friend,
I’m so sorry to hear about your wife. Losing a loved one is incredibly emotional and healing takes time, so please make sure to give yourself that time. It’s important to reconnect with yourself, and also with your family during this period. Your sons and other loved ones might need your support too.
We care deeply about what you’re going through and we would appreciate staying updated on how you’re doing. Please let us know how you’re feeling and what steps you’re taking to process this loss. Remember your wife will always be in spirit, your memories, and in your heart. Take care of yourself and focus on healing.
Warm Regards
From aj1313: @BrianMacdonald-gs9ic So sorry to hear about your loss. I'm sure trying to navigate things as a single parent while dealing with your own feelings can be a heavy burden. I feel like even though you may not share the same faith as your wife, you probably parallel the same faith she had in your kids and yourself. It's great that you were able to share your story with us and just know that if you ever need it, there are people here who care and want to help support you through these difficult times.
Every part of this is beautiful. In part 1, you hear a breathing machine, and at the end you hear the closing of a morgue drawer. in pt 2, its the funeral service. that same beating sound that was a breathing machine is transformed into wings at the end.
Damn.
i never put that all together. that's beautiful, but i admit i can't hear the wings in part 2
Its wings not a breathing machine
@@DaemonWulf7 Right after he sings the last line.
@@miloblackmetalhate oh damn... i had to turn it up, but thats so wild. thank you for adding something to music i already loved so much.
My mom passed away in 2006 the year this came out. I still get teared up everytime I hear it. My mom was a Saint and is still missed everyday.
From TheTogah: @mikewalls8115 Hey Friend!
Thanks for the post/comment! I can relate to this so much. My mom passed away the day after my birthday 12-11-21. It can be super hard and grief comes in waves. What helped me a lot was holding space for it and recognizing that I loved her so much. There are so many songs that remind me of her, especially Beauty in Tragedy by August Burns Red. For me the lyrics strike a chord on that one "I'll be sure to write your name in the sand where the waves can't wash it away" and helps me to remember that I need to carry on her memory and give the love/positivity that she had for everyone in her absence.
Thanks again!
From djstarion: @mikewalls8115 Hello friend,
This post hits really close to home for me. My mom was also a saint, and she lost her battle with ovarian cancer in 2014. There are songs that I listen to that make me tear up, like Young Blood by Naked and Famous and Smooth by Rob Thomas, which was one of her all time favorite songs. But that's the great thing about music, it connects us, and it connects us to memories that we have with people we love and miss the most. <3
From sbrent: @mikewalls8115 Every day that you spend with a person you think to yourself, I am going to have you for the rest of my life, you are not going anywhere. Unfortunately, this is not true because no one knows the time or the hour when they are going to pass away. This is why every precious moment that you have with the people that you love should be locked away in your heart so that you can always go back and remember all the beautiful moments you guys shared together. Tears may fall but love never dies!
My cousin died in a tragic car wreck. We just had her funeral today. She was a faithful Christian. As a nonbeliever, I was comforted by my sweet memories of her. Most of my family are devout Christians, and their comfort came from a different place. The beautiful thing is, we all had the same result: we were convinced that if there is a heaven, Carla is most certainly there. Give her her wings!
Thank you for this wonderful video. I cried right along with you. ❤
Rest in Peace, Carla ❤
Thank you, it was an honour to spend this time with you watching this…
Man-this comment section is really beautiful. I truly wish everybody that has lost somebody special my best wishes and deepest condolences. I’ve been through it several times-and it sucks. One of the main reasons why I love Tool is because their music is so emotive. I feel something every time I listen to one of their songs-even if it’s the 4000th time I’ve listened to it. Beautiful reaction.
“Daylight dims, leaving cold fluorescence. Difficult to see you in this light.” Is one of my favorite lyrics ever. The double meaning is absolutely perfect. This came out just about the time my aunt tied cancer after a long fight. Definitely a cathartic song. Seeing it live was ethereal like nothing else I’ve ever experienced.
Many of us cry with this... Imagine writing it, then having to perform it in front of thousands nightly. Therapy, yes. Getting through it flawless every time... Wow
I'm sure I've read somewhere that he found it too draining to perform on that album tour. I can see why. I'm sad I'll never get to hear it live, but I totally understand why.
@Andy-nl8uq I heard it a few times on that tour. Not exactly sure which venues, Xcel Center was one, but I saw them 6 times that tour.
Praying for your grandmother. Praying she recovers and finds peace. You are helping us with grief. Thank you.
thank you so much! sending so much love
For anyone who has ever experienced loss
Of any kind, this is the single most powerful piece of art that humanity has ever created.
I cry at the same part every time as well. The notes are perfect with the emotions we feel. Literal perfection. It’s so beautifully sad.
With these lyrical lines MJK elevates his mother above the Godhead: “You are the light and the way that they only read about (when JC is supposed to be the light, the way)…. Fetch me the spirit, the son, and the father. Tell them their pillar of faith has ascended”. Just using the word fetch (almost dismissive) places her above them. Fantastic ode to his mother.
“10’000 days in the fire” always gets me too, my dad suffered for 10 years before his body said no more
I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. You provide much comfort to people with your reactions, just make sure to provide yourself with comfort too. Especially in hard times. Much love to you and your grandmother. 💝
thank you so much. I appreciate this a lot! so grateful for all of you - T
Songs like these can open you up emotionally. It implants empathy. Forces you to confront a powerful and painful time in his life that is most likely a shared experience. Empathy is the truth in the human experience. The embracing what makes us all human and ignoring our differences, for a time, is needed in this day and age, more than ever before. Maynard is an absolute legend.
I lost both my parents at a young age. Im 50 this year and still dream about them
These songs break me
You will meet them again. They will guide you through the journey back, to the true home, the source of all creation.
Lost my mother to cancer in 2017 and this song makes me cry EVERY time I listen to it
The main reason I seek out Reaction videos... I am an empath and strong reactions are incredible... the hell with VR... this is all around emotional immersion... These songs kick me in my ass,especially when I am in my Irish whiskey... I am sober and at work watching you go thru it... Amazing... Thank you for true RAW and REAL.
My family Never understood why I listened to bands like Tool.
I'm so happy that there are people like you guys who do understand.
I feel less alone now.
(PS... when you started tearing up, I started tearing up. Hugs.)
I knew that 10,000 days line would make you cry, but Jesus Christ. Positive vibes for your grandmother. ❤
Being a hospice RN has brought me the honor of walking so many people towards their final journey. Letting go can be difficult, but can be such a gift. Not just for you, but for the one leaving as well. The beutiful moments I have been privileged to witness will be with me until it's time for my final journey. Death is transformative- for ALL involved.
You will meet these souls again. And join them, as one.
Don't be sorry. I still cry every single time I hear it. Like everyone else in the comments who lost someone, I watched my father die. I still listen anyway, because frankly it's one of the best songs ever written. The music fits the words perfectly and makes you feel it that much more. Also, as you said, it's very cathartic. A gift.
Since December of last year I have lost my Mom. My job. And then my wife. These songs and you perspective on them have helped me so much. Thank for all that you do. I love it 😀
You will meet these souls again.
They will guide you through the journey back, to your true home, the source of all creation.
And then you will all be one.
My dad passed in 2006 right before this Album came out and it was from Cancer. In his last year he got baptised and turned Religious. "God" took my Dad from my life all too yound and early and it always pissed me the fuck off. Intensely. So when this song came out litteraly one month later after his death, from my favorite artist, it hit home really god damn hard. I was crying along with her to this song. It doesn't get too much more powerful than this. And to the Therapist, your energy is something to behold. I resonated with you immediately. It was pretty profound and strange. Like a kindred spirit. Thanks for this. ❤❤
Thank you! I still have my mom, but it still makes me crumble every time. EVERYTIME!
You're not alone. This song has brought me tears for so many years, every time. Amazing tribute.
I remember when my mom passed away from cancer 5 years ago these songs definitely helped me process the it all
tears ... they come easily when listening to this masterpiece
Had me in tears too… you should do Descending… it’s a song that people on the brink should listen to before hitting delete…
The song "Jimmy"
"What was it like to see
The face of your own stability
Suddenly look away
Leaving you with the dead and hopeless?
Eleven and she was gone
Eleven is when we waved good-bye
Eleven is standing still
Waiting for me to free him by coming home"
He was 11 when she had the stroke, at that time he had an abusive stepdad, his mother kept him literally protected from his abuse. She was the "face of his stability" and she had the stroke and could no longer be who she had been. She looked away.
The waiting for me to free him by coming home I believe is reference to his stepdad being able to direct his anger and blame and his own trauma onto Maynard, instead of having to deal with it alone.
10000 days is a direct reference to the amount of time his mother was alive without being alive.
"10000 days is long enough, you're going home"
Shows he is accepting of her faith, like somebody else commented going from the song "Judith" with a perfect circle to 10000 days/ wings for Marie really demonstrates the evolution of his grief.
My grandma passed in 18. And every time I hear this song I think about her. The same spot that made you cry is the same spot that gets me everytime.
I've Seen tool 3 times, an amazing live experience.
You're fortunately going to have to give A Perfect Circle - Judith a listen now.
Sending all the love we can to you and your grandma! We owe you so much, Taylor 🖤
awwww I love you
heart you as well amazing person!
I was raised by a single mom, Tool is my favorite band, so this song always hits me hard.
I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother. This song is so amazing on many levels but yes it is great for grieving. I tear up every time he says "give me my wings." I hope the best to you and your family as you travel down this path with your grandma.
Thank you for your tears and honesty 😢 I'm crying too, I see suffering in my mother right now
From reem182: @ThomasBlack-hv3os I'm sorry for the pain you're going through right now, friend. Enduring the suffering of someone so close to us is one of the most difficult things to go through. How is it possible to have joy or peace when we watch our family suffer? It's one of the hardest parts of life and I know you must be struggling through so many emotions right now.
Despite all that pain, I want to let you know that you are so loved and you are not suffering alone in this season. There are so many others crying alongside you, and even though the darkness seems overwhelming so much of the time, I know that you were not made merely to suffer. Your feelings are valid and the pain you feel is not foolish. Wherever you are when you read this message, I want you to know that I am thinking of you and praying for you right now. Thank you for your honesty and for sharing what you're going through; it means a lot more than you could know. You are not alone and I encourage you to cling to the hope of tomorrow, the hope that says it will get better despite all the pain. Sending you all my love, friend.
From domenic4: @ThomasBlack-hv3os Hi there!
I am so sorry for the pain and suffering you are going through and witnessing. I understand how hard it is to see someone you love and deeply care about suffering and more if it's your mom (that just hurts 3 times more). Crying about it is okay and it shows that you care and you deeply feel for your mother. Please take care of yourself through these hard times
sending love and support
- Domenica
I did not know this about his mother. I was completely paralyzed the year ago and I’m having a hard time but I’m recovering and during all this time it never occurred to me that someone else faced 10,000 days. This kind of brought me into reality and I’m grateful he wrote this song about this beautiful woman. I want to be like her thank you Judith for living the life the way you lived it.
I’m so happy you’ve reached these in your Tool journey. After loosing my wife Marian to cancer in 2018, these songs become such an important part of my grieving. To know someone else felt exactly what I was feeling and creating such a beautiful tribute has such meaning, especially at the beginning. Neither of us were/are religious, but if anyone else deserved their wings, it would have been Marian. Thank you for your channel, I’ve watched most of your videos and have really enjoyed your breakdowns of these songs and lyrics I love.
So sorry for your loss. Hope you're doing well.
I loved this song before I got into hospice. Now I really love it. I deal with loss a lot in my professional life. This song is so on point with grief.
Tool is one of the rare bands that you can take an album, turn out the lights, start at track 1, and go on an absolute odyssey of sound, and feel changed when the final notes ring out
i love tool but there are a lot of albums out there that not only do that but were also written that way.
Aww 15:43 I’m so sorry about your grandma. I miss my grandparents so much. I feel you.
Fetch me the spirit, the son and the father.
Tell them their pillar of faith has ascended.
wow
Now You have to listen to "Jimmy" by Tool and "Judith" by A Perfect Circle (second Maynrd`s band)
Tool fans really let her down by asking her to react to this one first before doing Jimmy and Judith.
I think the inverse is actually sort of better like a movie that starts near the end and then has flashbacks or prequels to fill in the story. Now Taylor will "see" the elements that could be easily overlooked in the earlier vibes aka stages of grief, the shock/denial (jimmy) and anger/bargaining (Judith) all while being more informed by the acceptance/hope (WFM+10Kdays).
@@lottt86 I think it is ok🙂
Your tears are not shed alone, and not alone shed, as we all have shed them, in our human condition, our connection of pain, grief, and honor and love to those we hold dear. Lending us to realize how precious, fragile, and finite life really is.
The way Maynard paints images with his words is insane, this songs get me every time, I can't listen without a hard cry!
I played this song for my dad en route to my grandpa’s funeral. Powerful and moving! I wish your grandma and you both well
Lost mom this past February after 3 strokes in one year. Song hits home hard.
From lu2910: @billpimentel-vm6cu I'm so sorry that you're dealing with such a heavy loss right now, the weight of grief can be so overwhelming. Losing someone so close to you can be a lot to unpack and feel like you don't know where to go or where to start from.
Your body and mind oftentimes struggle to catch up to one another, so make sure that you're taking care of yourself, eating, sleeping and drinking water. It may seem trivial, but the physical symptoms of grief can hit really hard. All of these feelings that you're currently and experiencing and all of the ones that you will are valid. Even the painful and confusing ones help our bodies and minds to release the pent up hurt we are feeling and ultimately are for our good.
You are not alone my friend, I am sending you all of my love and support in this time, you are valuable and loved <3
@@HeartSupport thank you
From domenic4: @billpimentel-vm6cu First, thank you so much for sharing your feelings with us and I just want you to let you know that you will always have someone to listen to you here!
I am extremely sorry for your loss. Losing your mom after everything she went through must be incredibly difficult. It's understandable that certain songs can bring up strong emotions and memories. Allow yourself to feel whatever comes up and take things one day at a time
Remember to take care of yourself during these hard times
sending love and support,
- Domenica ;)
I cried with you.
Wow this was the first time I heard this after my mom passed. Finally let it out..thank you for this reaction.
My sympathies for you and your grandmother. It hurts when we realize that we can't take away someone's pain. The best advice I can give is to let the person know they are wanted, and they will be missed tremendously if they must leave. I talked to my grandfather in hospice shortly before he passed, let him know that his years here weren't enough, I wanted him here for 100 more. He was in so much pain, but he smiled and held my hand. It's the best I could ask for.
When I was 11 years old my grandma died from heart disease she was 68 years old we were very close then 3 years later my Grandpa died from lung cancer he was 73 years old I miss them both very much.
listen to the song "Jimmy" by Tool
I thought I was done crying to this song but here I am holding back tears with a tightness in my chest. I lost my mom at 17 the same year this album came out, and I remember listening to these two together on repeat over and over and over. It was so cathartic.
Also, as a suggestion, if you really want an amazing but deeply visceral song about grief, I would recommend Real Death by Mount Eerie. The whole album is basically him processing the death of his wife in the moment. It's definitely a hard listen and not going to be to everyone's taste since it's so stripped back, but it is intimate to the point of feeling invasive on the listener's part and absolutely an emotional gut punch.
My mom passed away right in front of me on March 14, 2024. Unfortunately, it wasn't peaceful, she had a massive heart attack and writhed on the floor screaming and yelling. I was on the phone with 911 and watched as the ambulance pulled up. I let them in and two paramedics and I watched her take her last breath. They worked on her for a half hour but slee was flatline the entire time.
Thank you for sharing that is tough as it was and I hope you can find peace
From sangasugarbog: @mdavidf Thank you for being open and reaching out, that is not an easy thing to do. It's uncomfortable to be open with our emotions and talk about experiences that are hurtful to us. You are very strong.
These are my favorite Tool songs of all time; I empathize and am so sorry that you are able to relate to his feelings in the song. It must be such a heavy feeling having your mother pass away, but you do not have to carry this weight by yourself. You are not alone in this battle, I *know* that you will win.
It will be hard overcoming this pain, but you are *so* strong. Rise above the hurt, and keep persevering my friend :slightly_smiling_face:
From tepidtooth85_95286: @mdavidf Hey there friend,
I cannot even begin to fathom how difficult this loss and experience have been for you.
I am so glad that this pair of songs resonated with you enough that you reached out here, I hope they’ve helped you find some peace. Tool are one of my favorite bands, and listening to them always seems to help me out of a negative situation.
If you don’t know the story of these songs, Tool’s vocalist, Maynard James Keenan, went through a similar situation when his mother had a stroke when he was young. His writing was influenced by this frequently,; other songs that deal with this topic are their song “Jimmy”, as well Maynard’s other band A Perfect Circle’s song “Judith” if you’d like to check them out!
I hope you are finding peace within your situation friend, I will be keeping you in my prayers.
When he sings You're the only one who can hold your head up high Shake your fists at the gates, saying "I have come home now Fetch me the spirit, the son, and the father Tell them their pillar of faith has ascended It's time now, my time now Give me my, give me my wings" it almost always makes me fight back tears. I have no idea why.
I’m sorry to hear about your grandma. I hope you get to spend lots of time with her.
This is the most beautifully powerful tribute to a person ever. I listen to the full song min 5x a week since 06’ and still get chills every single time. TOOL Army forever❤❤❤❤
Oh wow, what an ending to a roller coaster 48h. Came back to work after a sick leave, being dropped right back into it, with an even greater back log of stuff. Got a lot of stuff done, and made a plan for today which had me working until midnight. Met a coworker early to put the servers I worked on into production, as well as rearranging a lot of stuff in the data center.
Went home and felt good, I had gotten a lot of things done. Botched a config, and went to grab my laptop, which wasn't in my bag. It was still in the data center. Went back, got the laptop, fixed the botched config, drove home, changed and went for a dinner, sadly alone. I was dead tired, and booked at the last minute, so I didn't really have any expectations, but oh how I was pleasantly surprised. Really exquisite food. I found myself thinking: This is certainly heaven on earth. As I told the waitress: "I've been going through some rough times, but this was a beacon of light and hope".
Coming home and seeing this video. I've always loved these two songs, although they for me are more about my grandparents (on my mothers side) life in retirement from their dairy farm. My grandfather had a stroke, which hindered him somewhat physically, and they got to go on two trips. Then he had another stroke, and was more or less paralyzed (he could lift one of his arms 5 inches) and it also caused aphasia, which is perhaps the cruelest punishment of them all. My grandmother took care of him, never once did she complain, but she never had any alone time after the second stroke.
She got a few years after my grandfather passed away, but then she was cruelly taken by a myocardial infarction, two days before one my cousins' birthday. They were going to have a party together.
I was at home, some 280 miles away, but got down there asap. The funereal home had arranged a "last good bye", and for some reason my parents thought it appropriate that I drove us to that. I don't know what they were thinking, none of us were in any way shape or form fit to drive. But we got there ( and home ), and it might have been the only time I've seen my father cry.
O how I miss her. I had so much I had wanted to share with her, and some of that was things I would yet have to accomplish, but I know she would have enjoyed.
Oh what roller coaster. Cherish your loved ones!
From tepidtooth85_95286: @fluffpuckot Hey there friend!!
Wow, thank you for sharing such a heartfelt story on here and such a positive message. Cherishing loved ones is something we cannot take for granted.
I really enjoyed hearing your memories you have connected to this song, it's so incredible how much music and art can mean to us and how personal and different our connections to it can be. This song takes me back to my senior year of High School when my brother bought me "10,000" Days for Christmas, such a great collection of songs!!
From Micro: @fluffpuckot It’s hard to know that there are moments and milestones that she won’t be there to see, especially when you know she would have taken so much joy in them. When you lose someone you love, there's a part of your journey that feels incomplete without them by your side. For what it's worth, I feel that too with my brother, whom I miss dearly. Sometimes it's really hard to see yourself growing, becoming closer to the person you want to be, then to realize that you can't share this with them anymore. It feels like opportunities for life are robbed away from you.
Your longing to have your grandma there, to share your successes and life’s little moments, shows just how much she meant to you and how much you cherished your time together. She was without a doubt a beautiful soul, a caring human being, and there's no doubt that learning to walk through life without her has been heartbreaking so far. Thank you so much for sharing about her, about your grandfather too, about your family and about you. That kind of love never really fades. Cherish your loved ones, indeed. :heart:
I literally just had something in my eye and popped this vid on again knowing that there's no way I wouldn't cry along. Your reaction is so damn visceral it gets me every time. Could write a thesis on how your body language and mimics gave your grief away long before you broke.
You praised the song for helping people know they're not alone with their pain over sick/lost loved ones but your reaction here can very much have the same effect.
Thanks again for sharing.
Probably the best reaction to these songs I've ever seen
Galileo Galilei said: Wine is sunlight, held together by water - Tool is emotion distilled by skill and absorbed through sonic vibrations. There is nowhere that you cannot go and nothing you cannot feel through the majesty of these four maestros
My sister passed away on April 1, 2008 at the age of 26 in a car accident. We were less than 2 years apart in age and she was the closest person to me on the planet. Music has always been a huge part of our lives so we made a soundtrack for her funeral. One of my choices was Part 2...
We are all one day away from losing a loved one. This grief is the one common thing we all have as human beings.
Your grandmother is a shining light here on this plane and again in the next
That line "set as I am in my ways and my arrogance, burden of proof tossed upon non-believer. But you were my witness, my eyes, my evidence, Judith Marie, unconditional one" always hits me really hard. For so long my non-belief in god was driven by the suffering I saw in my mom. Even though the non-believer doesn't have the burden of proof, another's suffering is powerful evidence, especially when it's a parent suffering with prolonged illness.
edit: you really need to listen to Judith from A Perfect Circle, this is a great tribute to his mother, but it's also very obviously rose tinted glasses in a way. Their relationship was so much more complex than this song lets on.
I actually think the official lyrics are "burden of proof tossed upon the believers", which is admittedly a bit worse imo, but the meaning is almost unchanged cause it's like he's just repeating what we usually say about burden of proof in faith in order to reverse it in the lines just below it.
@@igornaimoli7321 I only saw those lyrics on a fan made lyric video that also had multiple typos -- though as toolband no longer posts any official lyrics (that were apparently never official, just posted by the webmaster) it's one of those things we'll never know 100%. I think the lyrics I posted are what I hear if I listen closely, and it's what now shows up on sites like genius lyrics. I think it's safe to say the person who made the lyric video just screwed up. :)
@@zetronman aren't there official lyrics with the CD? I don't have it but there's usually a booklet
@@igornaimoli7321 Nope, 10,000 days came with a picture book that you use the silly glasses on the front to see cool 3D images the band setup. No lyrics. Most tool albums have no lyrics as the band wants the listener to "focus on the music" and Maynard wants the listener to experience his vocals as another instrument first and foremost.
@@zetronman oh ok thanks
I never comment really anywhere. But I lost my mother and step mother within two months. Same age. Same reason. Here I am a year later and still life travels on. Music helps us heal in a way no other can. Tool has been one of the bands that really helped me get through the struggles I went throught, along with others. But tool stood out. Like tool always does...
Jimmy! You've gotta do Jimmy now! Great job on this powerful song!
I don't know of a modern day lyricist that can express and articulate in a way to convey such situational and emotional presence. Maynard is brilliant this way. This song makes me emotional every time I listen to it. True, this is for the presently grieving and even those who have grieved in the past. For anyone that has lost a loved one, this song speaks volumes to the pain and grieving process we all go through.
Others related to his mom ,Jimmy , Perfect Circle-his other band ,Judith , and she seems to pop up in small references all the time
I won't get into my mother, but my grandmother who raised me. Deserves her wings. I love you grandma. I will always remember you
I know it’s tough to hear the first time listening through, but there’s a swooshing sound at the end implying Marie has her wings and is flying to heaven.
Maynard understands the power of faith and its construct. The Church remains essential for so many. As an Atheist, I respect those who serve their higher power….if they’re not subverted by those who seek to destroy it. Love thy neighbor is something lost on too many due to the constant politicization of our institutions. There is so much common ground we’re all being denied. Maynard’s understanding of faith is beautiful and very much respected by me.
7:35 This is the recorded sound of a casket closing.
This song has sentimental value for me since I’ve experienced this. These two songs are my favorite tool songs but I only listen to it once every year because it’s a sore spot for me. The lyric “daylight dims leaving cold fluorescents” gives me flashbacks to the nights in the hospital. So raw, so vulnerable, so poetic. Beautiful songs both parts one and two, and yes you did it right, listened to both back to back with lyrics on. It’s an experience.
Cold florescent to me is Maynard viewing her in a sterile hospital bed/room.
Daylight brings cold fluorescence......my mom was in Henry Ford hospital in Detroit for 4 months straight fighting leukemia.....that line hit me hard thinking about walking down the hallway to her room every day. She lost her fight months later. Beautiful piece of music.
Day 13 of asking her to react to Diary of a Madman, by Ozzy Osbourne.
My grandmother died in 2015 when I was 7 and now I'm 16. I miss my grandmother very much, I dream of my grandfather and grandmother when I'm sad, I miss you.
From OmarM: @faliqq5348 I'm sorry for your loss, losing a loved one, especially a grandparent at that young of an age is hard. It's normal to miss her, the bond between a grandparent and grandchild is nothing short of special. You dreaming about them shows just how special they were. My mom used to tell me that grief doesn't have schedule, it comes and it goes. But your memories of them keep them close to you, especially during tough times. They will always be with you and a part of you and live on through you. Keep reaching out friend and god bless.
@@HeartSupport thank you❤️