Thanks for watching, please read this comment for some additional information & context! First, a couple notes: 21:19 Meant to say ‘stuck in bed for 3 days,’ my brain was just fried. Hospital stay was 12 days. 54:24 By 6 weeks post op the leaking had completely stopped Now some important info for new & returning viewers! * Keep an eye on my channel for Feb 11th-12th, I will be releasing a second surgery video in which I give advice about being prepared to undergo surgery, as well as an in-depth look at dilation. Please like and share this video, as the more people this video(and more particularly) my second video reach, the more people we can help here. * I am still not at a stage in my healing process where I can make any judgement or recommendations for surgeon, location etc. etc. I just don’t have enough information to make an educated judgement at the moment. Please don’t take this video as a confirmation that you should or shouldn’t get surgery in Thailand. * To any new viewers, I just want to note that this video is an extreme departure from my normal content - I’m just doing this because I think I can help people with this series. Normally I focus on character centric comedy content, I really hope you stick around and check out my other videos because I think you might like them! * Lastly, this video is just intended to show you what getting gender reassignment surgery might be like. Please note that every surgeon has different processes, techniques, and gives different advice. Your recovery might be different from mine. My Surgery Timeline: September 18th - Admission 19th - Main Surgery 22nd - Packing Change Operation 25th - Graft Operation 28th - Disconnected October 1st - Discharged from Hospital 7th - Follow up appointment 10th - Flight home
Interesting how different things were for me, I had my vag installed exactly a month after you in Belgrade, Serbia. First day was anxiety, fear, checks, talks with doctors and a lot of laxatives :-) the worst part was anal cleansing 2x a day and I was crying while the nurse was doing it. Then on a day of surgery more waiting, more anxiety and fear. Then a nurse came in and told me it's time, so I walked to pre-op room got on that terrible hard plastic bed that looks like a cross and the real anxiety started, my BP was fine until then but it shoot up, breathing got heavy, doctors were very concerned and added some more anesthesia, but I didn't reacted to that, then I remembered I had my ukulele in my room, asked a nurse to bring her, because she always calms me down, a nurse brought my ukulele and immediately I was calm and holding my ukulele after that it all went dark and I woke up hearing: Can you please scoot to the left it would be great, that was me moving from operating table to my bed after surgery, I had asked a nurse to take a pic of me, then then recovery was hard, I was there alone, in the sound proofed room, the loneliness was super hard, I have no friends or family to support me, only pain I had were my feet as they were clamped in to some steel boots for 10 hours then my back from being in bed, but after one day I was able to get up walk around, after 4 days I was ready to go home but they let me stay for 2 more days because they don't want to discharge people during weekends. On Monday I had my packing removed, had a good look how pretty my vag is and at 15:00 I was on a taxi back to my Airbnb, then I walked to supermarket bought some food and had a proper shower and felt like human and amazing. 10 days after surgery my catheter was removed and I that's it done. Hardest part is isolation in hospital and recovery alone, but you can do it alone, it's hard but it toughens you up, you can do anything, there is no limit
I really appreciate that you are doing this. I had vaginoplasty over a decade ago and was woefully unprepared for the experience because the prevailing attitude was "we can't say that it's ever anything less than an absolute joy." As a result I went into it expecting it to be far easier than it was and with a poor understanding of risks about less than ideal outcomes, factors that made dealing with both a lot harder - I struggled with the short term recovery because I was unprepared for it to be that difficult and with a poor result (loss of sensitivity) because I had been directly told (including by my therapist) that it was impossible. All of it led to me regretting having surgery, an outcome that definitely would have been avoided with access to better information before surgery.
@@pjotor5 I am so glad how well that went for you! It’s so scary about hearing about it anyway. All of this brings up so many emotions for me. Would be quite convenient to just have one’s neurological sex match everything to begin with 😬😕. It’s all so “fun” to deal with. my main fear obviously if I could is what if they’re terrible, what if they screw up, what if I’m worse off? I know there’s absolutely terrible surgeons that shouldn’t be practicing, though obviously there seem to be good ones also.
@@DanielleWhite I don’t know how it was 10 years ago but it definitely seems like there’s some surgeons that shouldn’t be practicing. I hate that people have to do so much research to try to figure out if someone’s any good, and what the risks are with any given procedure in any given surgeon. I hope you’re OK in some capacity. All of it just brings up so many emotions for me because I probably can’t access anything, there’s so much fear for me if I could, and then others getting to do things I can’t even though I don’t want to have a bad reaction it just makes my brain freak out and feel faint and what not. It’s hard to process.
As a white British straight (kind of, long story) dude that noone asked for the opinion of. Your an inspiration and thank you for doing this so that people who want to transition can use your story as a piece of strength instead of being ashamed of being in the wrong body. You all are good people.
@@scrumps101 As a transgender non-binary person, I would like to point out that (1) you don't know enough about this situation to decide what is and isn't ridiculous. Considering all of the health professionals disagree with you should give you pause in your opinionizing on what is and isn't ridiculous, but I know it won't. (2) If you are willing to listen to my lived experience, transitioning is the greatest form of self acceptance I have ever done for myself. And the years of denial and trying to 'accept' my body was more self repression and trying to meet societal standards than anything else. Once I accepted myself and chose to live my life how I wanted to, shit just became a lot easier and better, and of course the transphobes started frothing but I'm not going to go back into the closet and hating myself for the likes of them.
He is not a gal, and never will be. He is not even a "trans" woman because you cannot transition to be female if you were born male. (This should be obvious by the fact none of these people can carry a child or give birth. The most accurate term to describe post SRS MtF is a pseudo-female.
Waking up from bottom surgery is such a weird feeling, it feels like a SUPER tight tuck. And the first shower where you look down and don't see it between your legs? Wow
I beg you not to. The Lord made your body how it should be…. Don’t listen to demons telling you to debase yourself and destroy your manhood. The painful irony is that you will only “be in the wrong body” one day when you realize your manhood was sacrificed to this sick world. Jesus touch this person
as a young transfem, I still don't know if I want bottom surgery or not. Videos like this help me get a better idea of the experience. Thank you so much for sharing.
Either way, unfortunately I think it’s extremely important to research any given surgeon and procedure that you might look into. It definitely seems like there’s some surgeons who don’t know what they’re doing and shouldn’t be practicing. I hate that it’s our responsibility to research this stuff!! Not remotely fair. For that matter, we’re already stuck researching stuff about other things like HRT since so many medical providers don’t know what the hell they’re talking about
@@ninajustiniano9055 I mean only if you use a terrible surgeon, which is unfortunately why you need to look in to how well an individual surgeon’s results go.
As a fellow trans girl, this was so incredibly inspiring, from start to finish. And the relationship you have with your mother is just so heart-warming and refreshing to see. Please keep spreading educational information like this. Not only does it help us trans people, but it helps educate so many cis people too! Truly wish you the best, Alice ❤and I hope you have a good revision Here, have a blåhaj 🦈 :) 🫴
Oh my gosh, I love your ending to your message! 😅 I’ve only been able to watch this slowly over the course of days because it’s kind of emotionally rough for me. But I teared up when her mom came in, when they were being separated, and kissed her on the forehead. I’m tearing up again saying that now.
While I don't ever plan on getting bottom surgery (it's too scary and costly for me 😅), I am so glad you were able to, and that you were able to share your experience with everyone. I really hope you are able to help out people who are considering getting bottom surgery after seeing what your experience is like
Thank you for opening up about this! I've wanted to get bottom surgery forever but it's a very expensive and intimidating surgery. It's good to hear other people's experience.
I smiled for you when you said I have a vagina! Then teary . Your mom makes me think of my mother. A beautiful rock full of pure yet selfless love. She may not feel comfortable with your or my choices but she's there loving her baby! Give your mom flowers 🌺 from me. A stranger at the other side of the Earth who admires her strength, love and commitment to her child! I pray that she has someone helping her be strong!
While I'm cis, I've had trans friends talk about this surgery and metoidioplasty. Thank you for sharing your journey to help others and I wish you luck on the follow-up surgery!
What is this cis??? A made up bullshit from the ugly confused psychos that wanna be women😅😅😅! How mad can you be??? So nothing like cis-mis words!!! It is called a WOMAN!!!! And the wanna be crazy ones 😂😂😂😂!
Calling yourself cis... don't be such a simp. It isn't a meaningful word, it is slang that degrades fact and it is completely unnecessary. You say, "whilst I am not trans" for example. "Man" "woman" are full complete descriptions that do not require, nor never will require, embellishmnet or any type of added descriptor. They are complete, succinct, and correct.
I was going to get surgery myself in two weeks, but the surgeon's office screwed me over and it's not happening, so I just can't bring myself to watch this yet. It all hurts too much. I really appreciate you making this video for us, I'll come back to watch when I'm ready, I'm sorry
I’m so sorry. If you get to be scheduled again somewhere please do as much research as you can about the surgeon and outcomes and stuff, because they’re definitely seem to be terrible surgeons. I’ve been watching this video slowly, I’m only 18 minutes in so far and that’s after probably a few days. It’s really hard for me, as has been processing surgeries that friends have had, because it’s like I can’t access it and it just brings up so many emotions and makes me have to confront things I guess, I had really extreme reactions to friends that I didn’t want to have and didn’t know I would have. Zero clue things were going to hit me so hard
@@nana73carol46 Why? Unfortunately I think everyone needs to do a lot of research on specific surgeons and specific methods before selecting something, and obviously weigh the risks and everything but…
34:55 Not everyone has that luxury... I will have nobody for my surgery... 😕 You were very lucky to have such a wonderful Mother to be at your side... ❤️💕❤️
As someone who has multiple surgeries in my life, complete understanding being nervous about having surgery. As had the same experience with high blood pressure when I was dealing with doctors when I had my second bout of cancer. They failed to understand why someone might freak out after given them terrible news. Sigh…
Yes, it’s clearly so complicated why someone might freak out 🙄🙄🙄 My blood pressure goes up anytime I’m around doctors and whatnot, much less before surgery I should think! I’ve only had surgery once, and it was like laparoscopic so comparatively no big deal at all and yet I was terrified, and even then I wasn’t really back to normal for months. I had really low energy for months, I could barely read for two weeks afterwards Thankfully I feel totally fine here years later!
"T posing, to assert my dominance one final time before they took my penis away from me" was by far my favorite moment in this video lmaoo Anyhow congrats on getting the surgery! You don't know me so it probably means nothing but i'm proud of you for being able to do this
I am so envious, Florida is being funny right now and I still have to go through high school until I can transition, thanks for keeping my spirits high.
The transition is safer the older you are so you can be fully developed for better results. It is not on you it is just on science of your body and puberty... at least for actual surgery for transitioning. Also, I am not coming at you just giving facts, went to school for a BS in science.
@@lyricalsmilez Oh, you have a BS in science? That doesn't qualify you to give to medical advice to a stranger you've only read a single message from pal. Otherwise I'd be able to open a doctors office with my degree in astronomy 😂
@@lyricalsmilez surgeries are pretty much only accessible to legal adults. Other stuff we’re better off avoiding the wrong puberty. Ditto for cis people too, it’s just cis people get the right one by default.
I found your channel 3 weeks ago and in that time you doubled your follower. Congratulations Girl! It's great how well the operation has gone so far and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it only takes one more operation and that you'll be happy. It's also so nice to see your mother supporting you.
The hell we go thru just to feel 'normal', cis people will never appreciate it. Much love to you, your strength is an inspiration. My own story is similar. You did it. YOU DID IT! 💜
Cis people? You mean normal? Why would I want to know what they go through most of these transitions don’t end well you know why because it’s not normal !
I am a 46 yr old Trans Woman and watching this video has helped me with my decision in regards to GRS. I have enjoyed watching your video’s and this one doesn’t disappoint at all! Thank you so very much for taking the time to make this video girl! I am so happy for you and am looking forward to the day that I can be in your shoes.
As somebody who has had to go through 15 surgeries now by age 15 and (Not gender related due to age obvy.) But also a trans woman. I totally understand the stuff you went through to a certain point. Thank you for making this video for those who need it. Yeah, anesthia does suck and yeah, the clear sh$t is amazing. Glad you made it! You got a new sub girl!
I’ve only had surgery once, and it took me basically three months to get back to normal more or less. The first two weeks I couldn’t even really concentrate to read. I couldn’t play video games either either. The only thing I was up for was watching TV.
aw heck yeah, i was waiting for this!! quite helpful, thanks for making this video, a lot of people, myself included, are really gonna benefit from knowing what to expect from bottom surgery!!
Dear Alice, I just wanted to say you are incredibly strong for going through all this and it's such a great thing for you to do to share all of this, thank you so much!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm preparing for bottom surgery and I've been having such a hard time. I don't know anyone who has gone through it, and I've had a million questions. This video really put this in perspective. I put myself in your shoes and it made me cry .... Thank you ... I know its what i need to do, I know its going to be hard ... but having this insight into what I'm getting myself into, as scary as it is, .... is incredibly helpful I know this is a very personal part of your journey, and I truly appreciate the privilege to understand it through your eyes. I'm gonna do it, wish me luck ❤ Again, thank you so so much ❤❤❤❤
OMG the wet dream thing! NEVER happened EVER before my surgery, now it's... every couple weeks? Only annoying because it can interrupt my sleep, but otherwise? HELL YEAH!
Oh wow, I haven’t gotten that far in the video yet because it’s really emotionally difficult for me to watch so I’m doing it in small chunks. Sigh. It turns out I found out that I don’t actually work like how one would assume I would work in a lot of ways. I had no idea until I started researching stuff a few years ago. I wish I had gotten to that point in the video so I could know exactly what the two of you were talking about but I’ve only had one dream that was… once, in high school, and my body was right in it. That’s the only dream related to THAT I can remember, though sometimes I’m right in dreams, which is wonderful. The rest of the time typically just can’t remember my body. But sometimes it’s right.
@@Bloody_Corpses yeah, I found it really helpful to hear from guys. It’s absolutely amazing to hear experiences that are so similar but inverted. One of my best friends is male and going through… sigh.
"the THING is gone!" with such relief in your voice! 🌹 I'm a transgender person myself, that has never had the opportunity to be brave enough to go through the transition. I'm 60 years old now, stuck as a "man", but I'm also a husband for over 30 years and a father for 22 years. recently I visited my new psychiatrist who's from Vietnam, and we went through all the issues I have suffered from all my life, with trans being only one of many. when we got to the topic of me being trans and we discussed it at length, I also told him why I never transitioned in the past, and why I can't go through the change now. but, he told me that if things were to change for me and I would have the opportunity to go through the change, he told me about a hospital in Seol, Vietnam that does this surgery for free, as an economic alternative, because he knows how expensive it is here in America. if things were different in my life, I would love to be able to say those very words myself, "The THING is gone!" because I KNOW where you're coming from!😍 by the way, tomorrow, September 14, 2024 (well, it'll be September 15 by then with you in New Zealand), I'm posting a couple of videos on TH-cam regarding this issue about my own life, and all the things I faced since I was young, as well as a short story I wrote about if I had been born in today's world instead of the 1960's and be a transgender child.
I am transmasc and purely watched this so I can support my best friend once she goes through this. I'm glad this went well for you and I hope I can be as supportive and helpful as your amazing mom was!
Thank you so much for sharing your journey. Your courage to share these vulnerable days is much appreciated, and a valuable resource for those who come after.
As a cisgender woman and a mother I want to just hug you so tightly🤗 you’re just such an angel! Thank You for your courage, strength, and transparency! I’m not lgbtqia, but the stats for trans causing “permanent self harm” is beyond alarming and heartbreaking! 💔 I feel that courageous women like you are setting the foundations for change that will see all assignment surgeries covered not just by insurance companies but government agencies as life affirming and necessary. 💗💗💗 And also what eyeshadow color and name are you wearing in every part of this vlog 😱 they are gorge and the outfit you got in Thailand was made for you😍 it fit and looked like perfection, just beautiful 😍
I can’t believe that outfit she got there! She looks so beautiful in it and totally pulls it off. I mean I think she looks beautiful in what she came in also.
Me watching you fly over 5000 miles for a three week stay while I'm stressing about whether my mom will be okay with taking me to a hospital 50 miles away for like a week... I'm so happy that your mom is completely supportive of your journey. I'm finally getting around to watching this because I've got a Zoom call tomorrow with the surgeon and some others because it's one of the requirements for the surgery. Lol.
I love how articulate and real you are in describing your journey! It’s also such a pleasure to see how much you love and your mother love and support one another, a real blessing! And you are very attractive. I am a new subscriber and wish you Every happiness, you deserve it!!❤from Montreal
I get nervous just posting a comment on Reddit. I couldn't imagine uploading a blog that's so open and honest like this. It's legit inspirational! Thanks so much for sharing, the vibe of this video is so good, and I'm super glad you're doing well!! :)
Yeah, the number of monsters out there, it literally is… I probably said too much in this comment section already and I worry about saying stuff on Reddit because of the monsters/sociopaths
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. My surgery is scheduled for Dec 17th of this year. So all the information I get ahead of time is greatly appreciated.
You are such a beautiful storyteller. I love the way you speak and you just tell everything just like it is I love learning about this kind of stuff. This is a part of life for a long time now people need to understand what other people go through, and if there’s nothing wrong with them, it’s just they were made in the wrong body.😊
So I'm a cis male, I've dated a few ftm guys, and not a lot about that transition process but I've recently started dating a mtf lady and she's very nice and wonderful! So I wanted to learn more about the process the other way around. Thank you so much to you(and other trans women TH-camrs) for helping to educate me so I can be informed and ready to support! Massive respect to you, honestly I'm so very lucky to be cis and happy with my gender. I'm pansexual and that comes with enough social issues in a conservative area. Honestly you are a legend! A true, amazing shining star in the sky of dull black. Always be true to yourself! - Spec.
@@Bloody_Corpses I mean, I'm British and we are *usually* a little more accepting, or at least the younger generation are. But theres still so much hate towards trans people here unfortunately... Recently the ruling party has been taking a soft anti-trans stance but haven't gone so far as to pass anti-trans laws... Yet... I think the world would be far nicer if more people could just let others do what they do and concentrate more on themselves. But that's just me anyway. Like realistically what does it matter to someone else what gender or sexuality you are? How does it affect them? The answer is, it doesn't affect them and they should concentrate more on being a good person than trying to tell others what is and isn't their identity
I want to tell you, I’ve watched many many videos about this subject. I’ve also as a teacher had many many students that went through this you by far seem to be the most educated on the subject, the most well spoken and eloquent you should probably think about being a speaker for this. I hope that life brings you everything that you want you deserve it and you’re beautiful.❤
Alice, you are an inspiration! I am currently completely at the beginning of everything (mtf), not even in social transitioning, but following your journey is eye-opening. Let's see where the years will take me. You have a new follower. Thank your for sharing this personal experience, i sent it to a friend of mine who is planning on getting GRS, i bet it helps her figuring stuff out and preparing herself. Love from germany.
Thank you for making this really informative video and I’m so glad everything went well for you, my girlfriend is going to be getting bottom surgery when we can afford it, she can’t wait! Even though it will be a while until she’ll be able to get the surgery. I’m just out here researching to do my best to help and support her!
Wow I have so many questions as I was born a woman I do find this amazing! It’s incredible to see how far things have come for the community. Congratulations 🍾
My sister is going to have this surgery in the near future, and as an older sib I can’t help but feel stressed about the intensity of the surgery and recovery. Thank you for sharing your experience. You’ve answered a lot of my questions that I didn’t want to bother my sister with. I’m so happy for you!
I’m on my fourth year post op which was the first transitional surgery I had. I’ve. I’m now 6 years into my transition and I’ve had 10 surgeries including 3 FFS (one was a revision), breast augmentation, body contouring and vocal feminization. Of all the surgeries I’ve had FFS was most painful in recovery followed by body contouring and then vaginoplasty. I never believed I’d pass and I didn’t do it for that reason but now if I tell someone they don’t believe I was AMAB.
I got so much euphoria from watching your amazing journey that I almost cried. As a fellow trans gal, I'm so excited to get my bottom surgery. thank you so much for making this video it's so incredible!
I think this video was so educational and helpful and I'm so glad you posted this. There is just not enough transparency and information out there about what comes from bottom surgery. I just want to say that for some people this is the right answer, but for others its not, it's a choice not to be taken lightly just as Alice stated in her video. No matter what you decide to do, it's your body and your choice, and just know that with or without bottom surgery you are completely valid as women or men for our trans men out here too. No matter what happens just try to do what is right for you, get educated and love yourself. 🖤
huge congrats i had my surgery back in 2019 with chett who was a very interesting person :D but its really nice to see someone else travel to get the surgery that saves lives :P but my god the weather was insane and being there alone kinda sucked but im so so happy for you :)
yes, i've finally found the time to watch your video entirely and you can't imagine how, despite the "bad" parts of your experience, i felt inspired. you are a big inspiration for me since a long time but this video really take the cake. i didn't really want surgery since i came out to myself 3 years ago, but the idea has begun to take more and more root in my mind since i've started hrt last summer. and now i feel like i really need it. but since i am, however, like you said a faint of heart, i may need to prepare myself mentally for months. but after watching you (and reading about other people experiences for the past few month) i feel like "yeah, i can do this", because i really, really want it. i mean, like you said, the lingerie. not even that, just feeling good in a standard issue pantie without for it to be a tucking one would be quite the amazing feeling i can't wait to have. (also sex. i mean. come on.) so thank you alice, again, for sharing this with all of us. ps : about the dream, of course i don't have the experience, but i guess just the brain processing what's happening. also there is this thing called "phantom vagina" which is really present in transfem people, and maybe it's part of the reconciliation of who we were wired to be from the start (women) and what your body finally is? i'll turn back in 2 years (the waiting time it's usually for this kind of surgery in france) when you're big and famous to tell you if i got the same thing x).
Im a transwoman that is really scared of the surgery, but your video is honestly convincing me I might get it. Im only a year on hormones, so i have a lot of time to decide and plan, but I needed to hear someone say that it is really scary and there are a lot of messy or anxious moments and it isnt perfect. It was a major relief hearing despite that, it went good, and especially that you had no pain in the surgery site, which is something im really anxious about. Thank you for your content, both on the reddit and youtube, and i look forward to seeing more from you!
Just please do research ahead of time with an individual surgeon, because from everything I’ve heard there seem to be some surgeons just don’t know what they’re doing and usually if not always have horrible outcomes. It really sucks that we’re stuck doing so much research on our own! But thankfully people are sharing their experiences so we can try to figure out what makes sense. Probably probably a moot point for me when it comes to surgeries sigh.
@rebeccasam3434 thank you for your reply! I will do a ton of research before I proceed, because I'm terrified and I want the best odds of things working out. I hope that as time goes on, those bad surgeons don't perform anymore and everyone gets perfect surgeries, but that's a lot to ask for
I just got approved for a consultation for my surgery and by far the hardest part is gonna be quitting smoking. You literally can't get the surgery within like 3 months of nicotine and I honestly don't know how I'm gonna do it. But I'm so excited and any price is worth it.
You are giving all details which is a little shocking BUT it's absolutely important for everyone who is entertaining the wish or idea of "bottom surgery".
Hey, I really appreciate you acknowledging that some people have zero options for a person to come care for them. What you had to say wasn't super encouraging, but at least you weren't sugarcoating it. When you first said "you need to bring someone"/"I couldn't do this without my mum" it was heartbreaking (because I'm going to have to go through this alone).
Your deeply positive attitude & outlook, along with your beautiful relationship with mom, was tantamount to walking you through this procedure. That, alone, is so incredibly vital. Hoping all remains well for you on your continued transition journey 💖
Okay so I love you❤ No hate. Just a little anatomy lesson. The inside part is called the vagina. The outside parts like the labia minora, labia majora and clitoris are all collectively called the vulva and the front part where the hair grows is called the pubis. Again. No hate. Just a little confusing to be calling all of those different things “vagina”😂
I have a question. With this surgery can you actually ever have an orgasm? Do you actually give up the potential to orgasm in order to have a cosmetic vagina, etc.? I hope you are fulfilled by this process to which you have committed yourself.
Interesting to here of your procedure differences. I went from standing in a hospital gown, flashing Dr Brassard, and his remarking "lots of skin" I think that was a positive. Then surgery, not sure how long it was to be honest. Number of hours. And from there it was finished aside from recovery. I gained B cup breasts (I could have gone to C but decided nah). I can say that no man can tell if I was born with a vagina or not. My family doctor remarked during my first girl style exam "nice work" funny comment while my doctor is staring at my hoohaw considering I have been male with him for decades. I have had no issues.
I'm hoping to go with Brassard for my surgery... I'm really excited but also thinking about it for too long triggers my goofy ass anxiety ughh. I need this so so so badly but it also seems like the scariest thing I'll ever do. Hearing other people's stories helps normalize it though, so that's good. Thank you for that :)
Thank you for sharing such an articulate summary of your experience Alice, it helps so much to hear another persons experience. Im going into a consult this week to get the process started and im excited for when it finally comes to the surgery date! Best of luck with the remainder of your recovery ❤
I have no idea how you ended up on my home page, but the “I’m up and about, and I have a vagina” made my day and made me stay. Lol. I’m intrigued to watch your videos and learn more. I have a friend who is thankfully, very open to all of my millions of questions. I know I drive them crazy….but I also know that if I don’t ask questions, I’ll never know the answers therefore keeping things more “in the dark”, for lack of better words. And I truly feel that the more educated we all are, the more understanding we can all live peacefully together. And I say we as in everyone. Every type of person, male, female, gay, straight, trans, etc., etc. I don’t say we as in a specific group. WE as in humans. I hope that makes sense 😊
I don't plan on getting vulvo/vaginoplasty, and will probably just have an orchidectomy. I just don't currently feel like the risks are worth the rewards, because my current concern is a flat crotch and I cannot get the hang of tucking at the moment. Also, I just don't like Castor and Pollux down there. I do appreciate you putting out this video, the Internet is a harsh place for us, so thank you for doing this!
@@omp199 have you? More people are hurt by not allowing transition, because like I said, only 3% regret transitioning. People have a choice in whether they wanna transition, noone is being forced or harmed. And naturally some people will regret it. Just like people can regret anything. Trans people shouldn't be held responsible because other people regret their transition. You're also straight up lying. You're not doing this because you care about people, because you certainly don't care about those trans people that want to transition.
@@omp199 I'm not gonna "admit" something that isn't true, I can't even. That wouldn't admitting, that would be lying. The rate of detransitioners is 3%, those that regret are those 3%. You don't care about the majority who need and want to transition, you only care about those 3% that might regret it. I'm not defaming your character, you're just lying to yourself and me. Because you clearly DO NOT CARE about the trans people that want to transition and statistically won't regret doing so. You're not here because you care about people, you're here for some other reason, or for some agenda you hold.
57:15 Quite honestly I think it's a important topic to talk about. I myself am still so hard on the fence regarding bottom surgery that the fencepost is leaving marks. Overall deathly scared of surgeries and partly hospitals as a whole, but I always worry that I'll lose any sensation, feeling or drive. That along with the fear of regret, but als dealing with the fear of regretting not doing it. Some of the reason why I'm letting future me make this choise too once I'm actually on HRT and stuff
If nothing else, make sure you do a lot of research about the specific surgeon that you might be considering, as after a few years of sort of seeing people talk about stuff it’s obvious some don’t know what they’re doing. I hate that it’s up to us to figure so much stuff out that’s hardly fair! I don’t really know for sure what I would do if I had access to surgeries because they’re really scary and I know there’s bad results but if I could have good results??? I’m really thankful I was able to access HRT finally. I should’ve started this sooooooo long ago. If nothing else given me so many benefits already. Including it got rid of the constant pounding headaches I used to have!
@@blazingstar9638 I’m guessing it’s because my hormone receptor setup in my brain needs enough estrogen. Like most of the brain isn’t, sure, but the parts that are sexually dimorphic have piles of estrogen receptors in female brains, trans and cis, and in especially suspicious it’s this one low level part of the brain that in female brains (trans and cis) it’s half the size, but is loaded with estrogen receptors, and has tons of physical connections going out into the rest of the brain that are missing and male brains, and it deals with a ton of things including mind body integration (and anxiety, startle response, I think emotional processing, tons of stuff, and it’s connected to the amegdyla also) . I’m not explaining it well. At least I wonder if that’s why I spent so much time feeling disconnected from my body too. I had never read about it possibly dealing with my pounding headaches or migraines ahead of time. I had just long since given up treating them, and just endured as best I could. But after it happened to me I’ve spoken with a number of women who had the same thing happen with headaches/migraines. One I think used to lose days per week to migraines, and since flipping to running on estrogen, she loses a couple of days per month, though a lot just have nothing anymore. Not to mention how I just feel like ME again!!! My brain and body just can’t handle running on t. It seems so common for it to fix various weird physical problems. (Ditto switching to t if that’s what your body is set up for)
As someone who might be going through this myself someday, thanks you for sharing your experience in such intimate detail. Your honesty about how scary it was at the time is much appreciated. Biggest congratulations for completing this step on your journey!
First time out of country, and you go get SRS !! Omg I can't imagine courage and the stressss, plus Thailand seems so exotic ( I would have been 180 bpm, sitting in a corner lol). Honestly thank you so much for the video ! Maybe I'll get it too one day, who knows (if i ever manage to break the egg shell). I'll looking forward to the 12 feb update then ! Wish you the best :)
Hugs to you Alice and thank you for this informative video of your SRS in Thailand. I had mine in NYC back in June 2019, and it also involved a scrotal graft - although I had undergone electrolysis of the scrotum during the year prior. It seems yours was a more difficult surgery than mine. Mine was a single op, there was very little pain - I was mostly on Tylenol, and was discharged 5 days after the surgery. Perhaps the weirdest part of the post-op experience was when they drew out the packing. I did have to stay in NYC for another two weeks, then it was home. It took more than a month before I was comfortable sitting. Your Mom was wonderful. I was accompanied by my dear wife. It so helps to have a loved one with you during this operation. Like most of us who have undergone that surgery, there are absolutely no regrets.
I used to work as a nurse in the operating room where they did gender reassignment. We had an urologist make the vaginal canal and the plastic surgeon did the rest. One time the plastic surgeon wasnt happy with the depth, and said to the urologist: make it deeper, this is not for show" (being able to have sex)
You have so much more strength then me Alice. I don't think this is something that I will ever be able to do, I don't have the nerve. You are extremely brave, this is such a massive thing and you are absolutely amazing for doing it. I'm also really glad you have such a supportive Mother, she is a gem. I don't have that support, my parents are extremely unsupportive to the point that I have recently had to make the extremely difficult decision to go no contact. I am seriously so pleased for you Alice.
Why did I watch this…. I never really had bottom surgery but after watching this and seeing it all laid out in front of me… you made it seem like an achievable goal, not some impossibility. Fuck. Thanks for the video Alice, it’s wonderful
You are so brave. This is one of the hardest things a person could go through, I am very happy for you. This is the second video I have watched and love the channel. Keep up the good work. I found this channel through AvaThroughFire
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Thanks for watching, please read this comment for some additional information & context!
First, a couple notes:
21:19 Meant to say ‘stuck in bed for 3 days,’ my brain was just fried. Hospital stay was 12 days.
54:24 By 6 weeks post op the leaking had completely stopped
Now some important info for new & returning viewers!
* Keep an eye on my channel for Feb 11th-12th, I will be releasing a second surgery video in which I give advice about being prepared to undergo surgery, as well as an in-depth look at dilation. Please like and share this video, as the more people this video(and more particularly) my second video reach, the more people we can help here.
* I am still not at a stage in my healing process where I can make any judgement or recommendations for surgeon, location etc. etc. I just don’t have enough information to make an educated judgement at the moment. Please don’t take this video as a confirmation that you should or shouldn’t get surgery in Thailand.
* To any new viewers, I just want to note that this video is an extreme departure from my normal content - I’m just doing this because I think I can help people with this series. Normally I focus on character centric comedy content, I really hope you stick around and check out my other videos because I think you might like them!
* Lastly, this video is just intended to show you what getting gender reassignment surgery might be like. Please note that every surgeon has different processes, techniques, and gives different advice. Your recovery might be different from mine.
My Surgery Timeline:
September
18th - Admission
19th - Main Surgery
22nd - Packing Change Operation
25th - Graft Operation
28th - Disconnected
October
1st - Discharged from Hospital
7th - Follow up appointment
10th - Flight home
Seen a lot of TH-camrs who get GRS do similar, yours has been sterling dear. Thanks for helping by providing your experiences.
Interesting how different things were for me, I had my vag installed exactly a month after you in Belgrade, Serbia. First day was anxiety, fear, checks, talks with doctors and a lot of laxatives :-) the worst part was anal cleansing 2x a day and I was crying while the nurse was doing it. Then on a day of surgery more waiting, more anxiety and fear. Then a nurse came in and told me it's time, so I walked to pre-op room got on that terrible hard plastic bed that looks like a cross and the real anxiety started, my BP was fine until then but it shoot up, breathing got heavy, doctors were very concerned and added some more anesthesia, but I didn't reacted to that, then I remembered I had my ukulele in my room, asked a nurse to bring her, because she always calms me down, a nurse brought my ukulele and immediately I was calm and holding my ukulele after that it all went dark and I woke up hearing: Can you please scoot to the left it would be great, that was me moving from operating table to my bed after surgery, I had asked a nurse to take a pic of me, then then recovery was hard, I was there alone, in the sound proofed room, the loneliness was super hard, I have no friends or family to support me, only pain I had were my feet as they were clamped in to some steel boots for 10 hours then my back from being in bed, but after one day I was able to get up walk around, after 4 days I was ready to go home but they let me stay for 2 more days because they don't want to discharge people during weekends. On Monday I had my packing removed, had a good look how pretty my vag is and at 15:00 I was on a taxi back to my Airbnb, then I walked to supermarket bought some food and had a proper shower and felt like human and amazing. 10 days after surgery my catheter was removed and I that's it done. Hardest part is isolation in hospital and recovery alone, but you can do it alone, it's hard but it toughens you up, you can do anything, there is no limit
I really appreciate that you are doing this.
I had vaginoplasty over a decade ago and was woefully unprepared for the experience because the prevailing attitude was "we can't say that it's ever anything less than an absolute joy." As a result I went into it expecting it to be far easier than it was and with a poor understanding of risks about less than ideal outcomes, factors that made dealing with both a lot harder - I struggled with the short term recovery because I was unprepared for it to be that difficult and with a poor result (loss of sensitivity) because I had been directly told (including by my therapist) that it was impossible. All of it led to me regretting having surgery, an outcome that definitely would have been avoided with access to better information before surgery.
@@pjotor5 I am so glad how well that went for you! It’s so scary about hearing about it anyway. All of this brings up so many emotions for me. Would be quite convenient to just have one’s neurological sex match everything to begin with 😬😕. It’s all so “fun” to deal with. my main fear obviously if I could is what if they’re terrible, what if they screw up, what if I’m worse off?
I know there’s absolutely terrible surgeons that shouldn’t be practicing, though obviously there seem to be good ones also.
@@DanielleWhite I don’t know how it was 10 years ago but it definitely seems like there’s some surgeons that shouldn’t be practicing. I hate that people have to do so much research to try to figure out if someone’s any good, and what the risks are with any given procedure in any given surgeon.
I hope you’re OK in some capacity.
All of it just brings up so many emotions for me because I probably can’t access anything, there’s so much fear for me if I could, and then others getting to do things I can’t even though I don’t want to have a bad reaction it just makes my brain freak out and feel faint and what not. It’s hard to process.
As a white British straight (kind of, long story) dude that noone asked for the opinion of. Your an inspiration and thank you for doing this so that people who want to transition can use your story as a piece of strength instead of being ashamed of being in the wrong body. You all are good people.
Thank you so much xx
You are a lovely person❤
I am very curious to know what the long story behind being straight is. Thank you for being a good person
@@omp199 oh eff off with your woke ideals and let trans people exist
@@scrumps101 As a transgender non-binary person, I would like to point out that (1) you don't know enough about this situation to decide what is and isn't ridiculous. Considering all of the health professionals disagree with you should give you pause in your opinionizing on what is and isn't ridiculous, but I know it won't. (2) If you are willing to listen to my lived experience, transitioning is the greatest form of self acceptance I have ever done for myself. And the years of denial and trying to 'accept' my body was more self repression and trying to meet societal standards than anything else. Once I accepted myself and chose to live my life how I wanted to, shit just became a lot easier and better, and of course the transphobes started frothing but I'm not going to go back into the closet and hating myself for the likes of them.
I dont plan on getting this surgery myself, but I am so unendingly thankful that you made this video to inform our fellow gals
You’re welcome. Information is power!
He is not a gal, and never will be. He is not even a "trans" woman because you cannot transition to be female if you were born male. (This should be obvious by the fact none of these people can carry a child or give birth. The most accurate term to describe post SRS MtF is a pseudo-female.
Waking up from bottom surgery is such a weird feeling, it feels like a SUPER tight tuck. And the first shower where you look down and don't see it between your legs? Wow
Oh yeah hahaha it was pretty wild
Don't make me MORE excited for bottom surgery, please.
(This was made to be a joke. I think it's awesome that it can be so life-changing)
I’m probably lucky that I can’t really see anything anyway
Since I probably can’t do anything about things.
I've had my Orchiectomy I don't know if I can handle the recovery for bottom surgery but the more I think about it the more I want it
I was able to capture my initial reaction on video, ugliest cry ever 🤣🤣🤣
From one trans girl to another thank you for sharing your experience. I hope to have this surgery relatively soon.
Thank you so much!! Good luck!!
Good luck 🤗
good luck!!!
I beg you not to. The Lord made your body how it should be…. Don’t listen to demons telling you to debase yourself and destroy your manhood.
The painful irony is that you will only “be in the wrong body” one day when you realize your manhood was sacrificed to this sick world.
Jesus touch this person
Good luck! I hope I can get on HRT in the future.
as a young transfem, I still don't know if I want bottom surgery or not. Videos like this help me get a better idea of the experience. Thank you so much for sharing.
Either way, unfortunately I think it’s extremely important to research any given surgeon and procedure that you might look into. It definitely seems like there’s some surgeons who don’t know what they’re doing and shouldn’t be practicing.
I hate that it’s our responsibility to research this stuff!! Not remotely fair.
For that matter, we’re already stuck researching stuff about other things like HRT since so many medical providers don’t know what the hell they’re talking about
@@ninajustiniano9055 Why do you care so much? Do you want my penis?
@@ninajustiniano9055 I mean only if you use a terrible surgeon, which is unfortunately why you need to look in to how well an individual surgeon’s results go.
Just because a woman might have a manly cock and balls doesn't mean she's not a strong woman. A penis doesn't make you a man!
Many women say that they feel indifferent to it, but then after a couple months of progesterone, they decide that they want it.
The lil bit with you mum at 31:00 made me tear up 😭From a trans girl in Canada keep kicking ass and im sending you the biggest internet hug!
Let’s go Canadian trans girls 🇨🇦🏳️⚧️
As a fellow trans girl, this was so incredibly inspiring, from start to finish. And the relationship you have with your mother is just so heart-warming and refreshing to see.
Please keep spreading educational information like this. Not only does it help us trans people, but it helps educate so many cis people too!
Truly wish you the best, Alice ❤and I hope you have a good revision
Here, have a blåhaj 🦈 :)
🫴
Thank you!!
Oh my gosh, I love your ending to your message! 😅
I’ve only been able to watch this slowly over the course of days because it’s kind of emotionally rough for me. But I teared up when her mom came in, when they were being separated, and kissed her on the forehead.
I’m tearing up again saying that now.
@@rebeccasam3434 It was so wholesome 😭 I was hugging my Blåhaj so tightly while watching it 😢 🦈
aaaaaaah! I really need to get Blåhaj... Do you have a big one or little one?@@hubblebubbledouble
I don’t know if my daughter ever wants to have bottom surgery but because of your video I will not let ANYTHING stop me from being there if she does.
Good
Trump has entered the chat. lol jk
Your mom is so cool and supportive. I'm glad you had her to lean on through all of this
She’s fucking awesome
@@aliceinwonder1andAbsolutely... 💕
A complete failure
While I don't ever plan on getting bottom surgery (it's too scary and costly for me 😅), I am so glad you were able to, and that you were able to share your experience with everyone. I really hope you are able to help out people who are considering getting bottom surgery after seeing what your experience is like
I respect that, it was certainly scary!!
Your relationship with your mom seems so sweet, I'm really happy for you 😊 Big hugs to both of you 🫂🫂
I love her a lot
Thank you for opening up about this! I've wanted to get bottom surgery forever but it's a very expensive and intimidating surgery. It's good to hear other people's experience.
You’re welcome xx
I smiled for you when you said I have a vagina! Then teary . Your mom makes me think of my mother. A beautiful rock full of pure yet selfless love. She may not feel comfortable with your or my choices but she's there loving her baby! Give your mom flowers 🌺 from me. A stranger at the other side of the Earth who admires her strength, love and commitment to her child! I pray that she has someone helping her be strong!
While I'm cis, I've had trans friends talk about this surgery and metoidioplasty. Thank you for sharing your journey to help others and I wish you luck on the follow-up surgery!
Thank you so much!!
What is this cis??? A made up bullshit from the ugly confused psychos that wanna be women😅😅😅! How mad can you be??? So nothing like cis-mis words!!! It is called a WOMAN!!!! And the wanna be crazy ones 😂😂😂😂!
No cis is made up.
You are a woman not cis!
Calling yourself cis... don't be such a simp.
It isn't a meaningful word, it is slang that degrades fact and it is completely unnecessary. You say, "whilst I am not trans" for example.
"Man" "woman" are full complete descriptions that do not require, nor never will require, embellishmnet or any type of added descriptor. They are complete, succinct, and correct.
It's very brave and kind of you to share something as personal as this. ❤
I want to help people!
@@aliceinwonder1and 💗
I don't need bottom surgery cuz I'm already a bottom. Now all jokes aside I'm happy for you and I wish you to live the best life you ever can.
Hehe silly bottom. Thanks xx
This video made me very much cry. You are a strong lady. @@aliceinwonder1and
Does that mean now Alice became a bottom?
@@aylen7062 she did it for pegging ofc
@aylen7062 yes, yes it does
I was going to get surgery myself in two weeks, but the surgeon's office screwed me over and it's not happening, so I just can't bring myself to watch this yet. It all hurts too much. I really appreciate you making this video for us, I'll come back to watch when I'm ready, I'm sorry
Aww I’m really sorry. That’s awful. Hope you get it soon
I’m so sorry. If you get to be scheduled again somewhere please do as much research as you can about the surgeon and outcomes and stuff, because they’re definitely seem to be terrible surgeons.
I’ve been watching this video slowly, I’m only 18 minutes in so far and that’s after probably a few days.
It’s really hard for me, as has been processing surgeries that friends have had, because it’s like I can’t access it and it just brings up so many emotions and makes me have to confront things I guess, I had really extreme reactions to friends that I didn’t want to have and didn’t know I would have.
Zero clue things were going to hit me so hard
Just don't do it!
@@nana73carol46 Why? Unfortunately I think everyone needs to do a lot of research on specific surgeons and specific methods before selecting something, and obviously weigh the risks and everything but…
Might be a blessing in disguise.
34:55 Not everyone has that luxury... I will have nobody for my surgery... 😕
You were very lucky to have such a wonderful Mother to be at your side... ❤️💕❤️
Have you had your surgery
No... 10 months in on HRT... another 2 months before I can get on 'The List'...
@@Genevieve111 if you want a friend and support im available!
As someone who has multiple surgeries in my life, complete understanding being nervous about having surgery. As had the same experience with high blood pressure when I was dealing with doctors when I had my second bout of cancer. They failed to understand why someone might freak out after given them terrible news. Sigh…
Aww. I’m sorry that sucks a lot. Hope you’re doing better now
@@aliceinwonder1and Yes, thank you. Recently made it to my five year cancer free mark. Hopefully your recovers will also go well.
Yes, it’s clearly so complicated why someone might freak out 🙄🙄🙄
My blood pressure goes up anytime I’m around doctors and whatnot, much less before surgery I should think!
I’ve only had surgery once, and it was like laparoscopic so comparatively no big deal at all and yet I was terrified, and even then I wasn’t really back to normal for months.
I had really low energy for months, I could barely read for two weeks afterwards
Thankfully I feel totally fine here years later!
I’m delighted that it went well for you! I hope the revision surgery goes swimmingly.
Thanks!!
@@aliceinwonder1and how do you have time to reply to so many people… very impressive, though I can’t imagine you sleep that much
"T posing, to assert my dominance one final time before they took my penis away from me" was by far my favorite moment in this video lmaoo
Anyhow congrats on getting the surgery! You don't know me so it probably means nothing but i'm proud of you for being able to do this
I am so envious, Florida is being funny right now and I still have to go through high school until I can transition, thanks for keeping my spirits high.
Aww stay strong xx
The transition is safer the older you are so you can be fully developed for better results. It is not on you it is just on science of your body and puberty... at least for actual surgery for transitioning. Also, I am not coming at you just giving facts, went to school for a BS in science.
@@lyricalsmilez
Oh, you have a BS in science? That doesn't qualify you to give to medical advice to a stranger you've only read a single message from pal.
Otherwise I'd be able to open a doctors office with my degree in astronomy 😂
@@lyricalsmilez surgeries are pretty much only accessible to legal adults. Other stuff we’re better off avoiding the wrong puberty. Ditto for cis people too, it’s just cis people get the right one by default.
Just because you chop off certain body parts doesn't change who you are. I wish you could experience love for your body the way you were born
I found your channel 3 weeks ago and in that time you doubled your follower. Congratulations Girl!
It's great how well the operation has gone so far and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it only takes one more operation and that you'll be happy. It's also so nice to see your mother supporting you.
Thanks!! Me too
The hell we go thru just to feel 'normal', cis people will never appreciate it. Much love to you, your strength is an inspiration. My own story is similar. You did it. YOU DID IT! 💜
Cis people? You mean normal? Why would I want to know what they go through most of these transitions don’t end well you know why because it’s not normal !
Not cis simply a woman, and no I think people that have their genitals removed are bat shit crazy!
I am currently in Bangkok. I just woke up from anesthesia at Kamol. I just have to say your room is huge!
Fast recovery!
I am a 46 yr old Trans Woman and watching this video has helped me with my decision in regards to GRS. I have enjoyed watching your video’s and this one doesn’t disappoint at all! Thank you so very much for taking the time to make this video girl! I am so happy for you and am looking forward to the day that I can be in your shoes.
I’m rooting for you!
As somebody who has had to go through 15 surgeries now by age 15 and (Not gender related due to age obvy.) But also a trans woman. I totally understand the stuff you went through to a certain point. Thank you for making this video for those who need it. Yeah, anesthia does suck and yeah, the clear sh$t is amazing. Glad you made it! You got a new sub girl!
I’ve only had surgery once, and it took me basically three months to get back to normal more or less. The first two weeks I couldn’t even really concentrate to read.
I couldn’t play video games either either. The only thing I was up for was watching TV.
aw heck yeah, i was waiting for this!! quite helpful, thanks for making this video, a lot of people, myself included, are really gonna benefit from knowing what to expect from bottom surgery!!
You’re so welcome!!
Congrats! 🍾🎈🎊
NOW PUT ON THE MAID OUTFIT!
ALREADY DONE
Dear Alice,
I just wanted to say you are incredibly strong for going through all this and it's such a great thing for you to do to share all of this, thank you so much!
Thank you so much!
I just wanted to say that you're like my favourite woman of all time, your videos never fail to put a smile on my face.
Aw thank you so much
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm preparing for bottom surgery and I've been having such a hard time. I don't know anyone who has gone through it, and I've had a million questions.
This video really put this in perspective. I put myself in your shoes and it made me cry .... Thank you ... I know its what i need to do, I know its going to be hard ... but having this insight into what I'm getting myself into, as scary as it is, .... is incredibly helpful
I know this is a very personal part of your journey, and I truly appreciate the privilege to understand it through your eyes.
I'm gonna do it, wish me luck ❤
Again, thank you so so much ❤❤❤❤
OMG the wet dream thing! NEVER happened EVER before my surgery, now it's... every couple weeks? Only annoying because it can interrupt my sleep, but otherwise? HELL YEAH!
IM NOT ALONE !!
Oh wow, I haven’t gotten that far in the video yet because it’s really emotionally difficult for me to watch so I’m doing it in small chunks. Sigh.
It turns out I found out that I don’t actually work like how one would assume I would work in a lot of ways. I had no idea until I started researching stuff a few years ago.
I wish I had gotten to that point in the video so I could know exactly what the two of you were talking about but I’ve only had one dream that was… once, in high school, and my body was right in it.
That’s the only dream related to THAT I can remember, though sometimes I’m right in dreams, which is wonderful. The rest of the time typically just can’t remember my body. But sometimes it’s right.
I am envious as a cis person
I’m ftm but I always find it interesting to hear about the “opposite experience” hah. You’re so brave and inspiring! Thank you for sharing this
You’re welcome!!
Wow i also commented about how educational it is to watch different experiences as a trans man too
@@Bloody_Corpses if you could get a penis would you? I've read that they're working on something.
@@Bloody_Corpses yeah, I found it really helpful to hear from guys. It’s absolutely amazing to hear experiences that are so similar but inverted.
One of my best friends is male and going through… sigh.
"the THING is gone!" with such relief in your voice! 🌹
I'm a transgender person myself, that has never had the opportunity to be brave enough to go through the transition. I'm 60 years old now, stuck as a "man", but I'm also a husband for over 30 years and a father for 22 years. recently I visited my new psychiatrist who's from Vietnam, and we went through all the issues I have suffered from all my life, with trans being only one of many. when we got to the topic of me being trans and we discussed it at length, I also told him why I never transitioned in the past, and why I can't go through the change now. but, he told me that if things were to change for me and I would have the opportunity to go through the change, he told me about a hospital in Seol, Vietnam that does this surgery for free, as an economic alternative, because he knows how expensive it is here in America.
if things were different in my life, I would love to be able to say those very words myself, "The THING is gone!" because I KNOW where you're coming from!😍
by the way, tomorrow, September 14, 2024 (well, it'll be September 15 by then with you in New Zealand), I'm posting a couple of videos on TH-cam regarding this issue about my own life, and all the things I faced since I was young, as well as a short story I wrote about if I had been born in today's world instead of the 1960's and be a transgender child.
SLAY
I CANT WAIT
UNTIL I EARN
ENOUGH MONEY TO DO THIS MYSELF-
GLAD IT WENT WELL
Good luck!!
Congrats ma’am!
Also the line at 18:31 had me laughing hysterically, props to you
I am transmasc and purely watched this so I can support my best friend once she goes through this. I'm glad this went well for you and I hope I can be as supportive and helpful as your amazing mom was!
Ooh I’m glad, I hope everything goes well!!
Thank you so much for sharing your journey. Your courage to share these vulnerable days is much appreciated, and a valuable resource for those who come after.
As a cisgender woman and a mother I want to just hug you so tightly🤗 you’re just such an angel!
Thank You for your courage, strength, and transparency! I’m not lgbtqia, but the stats for trans causing “permanent self harm” is beyond alarming and heartbreaking! 💔
I feel that courageous women like you are setting the foundations for change that will see all assignment surgeries covered not just by insurance companies but government agencies as life affirming and necessary. 💗💗💗
And also what eyeshadow color and name are you wearing in every part of this vlog 😱 they are gorge and the outfit you got in Thailand was made for you😍 it fit and looked like perfection, just beautiful 😍
I can’t believe that outfit she got there! She looks so beautiful in it and totally pulls it off. I mean I think she looks beautiful in what she came in also.
@@rebeccasam3434 her eyes are just 💗, and the eyeshadows to match the outfits 💜 💜💜
Me watching you fly over 5000 miles for a three week stay while I'm stressing about whether my mom will be okay with taking me to a hospital 50 miles away for like a week...
I'm so happy that your mom is completely supportive of your journey.
I'm finally getting around to watching this because I've got a Zoom call tomorrow with the surgeon and some others because it's one of the requirements for the surgery. Lol.
I love that your momma is so supportive! 💕
Special cheer for your Mom, you are a great parent.
Thank you, I love her very much
Yeah, big cheer for a supportive mom!
I love how articulate and real you are in describing your journey! It’s also such a pleasure to see how much you love and your mother love and support one another, a real blessing! And you are very attractive. I am a new subscriber and wish you Every happiness, you deserve it!!❤from Montreal
I get nervous just posting a comment on Reddit. I couldn't imagine uploading a blog that's so open and honest like this. It's legit inspirational! Thanks so much for sharing, the vibe of this video is so good, and I'm super glad you're doing well!! :)
Thank you so much!!
Yeah, the number of monsters out there, it literally is… I probably said too much in this comment section already and I worry about saying stuff on Reddit because of the monsters/sociopaths
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. My surgery is scheduled for Dec 17th of this year. So all the information I get ahead of time is greatly appreciated.
Good luck!!
@@aliceinwonder1and Thank you, so much!
You are such a beautiful storyteller. I love the way you speak and you just tell everything just like it is I love learning about this kind of stuff. This is a part of life for a long time now people need to understand what other people go through, and if there’s nothing wrong with them, it’s just they were made in the wrong body.😊
So I'm a cis male, I've dated a few ftm guys, and not a lot about that transition process but I've recently started dating a mtf lady and she's very nice and wonderful! So I wanted to learn more about the process the other way around. Thank you so much to you(and other trans women TH-camrs) for helping to educate me so I can be informed and ready to support!
Massive respect to you, honestly I'm so very lucky to be cis and happy with my gender. I'm pansexual and that comes with enough social issues in a conservative area.
Honestly you are a legend! A true, amazing shining star in the sky of dull black. Always be true to yourself!
- Spec.
Aw thank you so much
It's fantastic seeing a supportive cis person especially with how many horrible bills are being approved its heart warming 😊
@@Bloody_Corpses I mean, I'm British and we are *usually* a little more accepting, or at least the younger generation are. But theres still so much hate towards trans people here unfortunately...
Recently the ruling party has been taking a soft anti-trans stance but haven't gone so far as to pass anti-trans laws... Yet...
I think the world would be far nicer if more people could just let others do what they do and concentrate more on themselves. But that's just me anyway.
Like realistically what does it matter to someone else what gender or sexuality you are? How does it affect them? The answer is, it doesn't affect them and they should concentrate more on being a good person than trying to tell others what is and isn't their identity
I want to tell you, I’ve watched many many videos about this subject. I’ve also as a teacher had many many students that went through this you by far seem to be the most educated on the subject, the most well spoken and eloquent you should probably think about being a speaker for this. I hope that life brings you everything that you want you deserve it and you’re beautiful.❤
Alice, you are an inspiration! I am currently completely at the beginning of everything (mtf), not even in social transitioning, but following your journey is eye-opening. Let's see where the years will take me. You have a new follower. Thank your for sharing this personal experience, i sent it to a friend of mine who is planning on getting GRS, i bet it helps her figuring stuff out and preparing herself. Love from germany.
Thank you welcome aboard
I had the surgery performed in 2007. For a year i felt nothing...then
Let's say it was worth it 😊
Hi, What did it feel like when you got rid of most of your testosterone ?? Was it more noticeable after hrt and your orchi ??
This has me fricken crying before even 10 mins thinking about my own journey and future
Thank you for making this really informative video and I’m so glad everything went well for you, my girlfriend is going to be getting bottom surgery when we can afford it, she can’t wait! Even though it will be a while until she’ll be able to get the surgery. I’m just out here researching to do my best to help and support her!
woo!
you go girl!
hell yeah!!
Wow I have so many questions as I was born a woman I do find this amazing! It’s incredible to see how far things have come for the community. Congratulations 🍾
My sister is going to have this surgery in the near future, and as an older sib I can’t help but feel stressed about the intensity of the surgery and recovery. Thank you for sharing your experience. You’ve answered a lot of my questions that I didn’t want to bother my sister with. I’m so happy for you!
You're very lucky that your Mom loves you. My Mom hates me after coming out, luckily I have my Dad and my Brother on my side.
The nurses did such a good job. Love you Alice.
I just wanna hug you. This video is amazing and helpful to so many people, myself included. Oh and your mom is an absolute MVP.
I’m on my fourth year post op which was the first transitional surgery I had. I’ve. I’m now 6 years into my transition and I’ve had 10 surgeries including 3 FFS (one was a revision), breast augmentation, body contouring and vocal feminization. Of all the surgeries I’ve had FFS was most painful in recovery followed by body contouring and then vaginoplasty. I never believed I’d pass and I didn’t do it for that reason but now if I tell someone they don’t believe I was AMAB.
I’m so happy for you!!
I got so much euphoria from watching your amazing journey that I almost cried. As a fellow trans gal, I'm so excited to get my bottom surgery. thank you so much for making this video it's so incredible!
I think this video was so educational and helpful and I'm so glad you posted this. There is just not enough transparency and information out there about what comes from bottom surgery. I just want to say that for some people this is the right answer, but for others its not, it's a choice not to be taken lightly just as Alice stated in her video. No matter what you decide to do, it's your body and your choice, and just know that with or without bottom surgery you are completely valid as women or men for our trans men out here too. No matter what happens just try to do what is right for you, get educated and love yourself. 🖤
huge congrats i had my surgery back in 2019 with chett who was a very interesting person :D but its really nice to see someone else travel to get the surgery that saves lives :P but my god the weather was insane and being there alone kinda sucked but im so so happy for you :)
yes, i've finally found the time to watch your video entirely and you can't imagine how, despite the "bad" parts of your experience, i felt inspired.
you are a big inspiration for me since a long time but this video really take the cake.
i didn't really want surgery since i came out to myself 3 years ago, but the idea has begun to take more and more root in my mind since i've started hrt last summer. and now i feel like i really need it.
but since i am, however, like you said a faint of heart, i may need to prepare myself mentally for months. but after watching you (and reading about other people experiences for the past few month) i feel like "yeah, i can do this", because i really, really want it.
i mean, like you said, the lingerie. not even that, just feeling good in a standard issue pantie without for it to be a tucking one would be quite the amazing feeling i can't wait to have.
(also sex. i mean. come on.)
so thank you alice, again, for sharing this with all of us.
ps : about the dream, of course i don't have the experience, but i guess just the brain processing what's happening. also there is this thing called "phantom vagina" which is really present in transfem people, and maybe it's part of the reconciliation of who we were wired to be from the start (women) and what your body finally is?
i'll turn back in 2 years (the waiting time it's usually for this kind of surgery in france) when you're big and famous to tell you if i got the same thing x).
Im a transwoman that is really scared of the surgery, but your video is honestly convincing me I might get it. Im only a year on hormones, so i have a lot of time to decide and plan, but I needed to hear someone say that it is really scary and there are a lot of messy or anxious moments and it isnt perfect. It was a major relief hearing despite that, it went good, and especially that you had no pain in the surgery site, which is something im really anxious about. Thank you for your content, both on the reddit and youtube, and i look forward to seeing more from you!
Glad I could help! A lot of trans women do get a bit of pain, but I didn’t. It varies from person to person x
Just please do research ahead of time with an individual surgeon, because from everything I’ve heard there seem to be some surgeons just don’t know what they’re doing and usually if not always have horrible outcomes.
It really sucks that we’re stuck doing so much research on our own! But thankfully people are sharing their experiences so we can try to figure out what makes sense.
Probably probably a moot point for me when it comes to surgeries sigh.
@rebeccasam3434 thank you for your reply! I will do a ton of research before I proceed, because I'm terrified and I want the best odds of things working out. I hope that as time goes on, those bad surgeons don't perform anymore and everyone gets perfect surgeries, but that's a lot to ask for
I forgot to mention, I'm 1 year too! 13 months almost...or just 6 depending on what I'm counting from @@SoftAirGaming
I just got approved for a consultation for my surgery and by far the hardest part is gonna be quitting smoking. You literally can't get the surgery within like 3 months of nicotine and I honestly don't know how I'm gonna do it. But I'm so excited and any price is worth it.
You are giving all details which is a little shocking BUT it's absolutely important for everyone who is entertaining the wish or idea of "bottom surgery".
If that what makes you truly happy glad your chasing it ! Good luck on your journey
Kudos to Mom for being so supportive! ❤
You’re so lucky you have a beautiful mom and you’re so close with her like that.
Such an amazing and truly informative video. Everyone who is considering surgery should watch this. Plus your mom is amazing. Big hugs to both of you
Thank you!! Glad you liked it
i had srs 3 weeks ago ♡ its such an amazing feeling, i'm finally free! congratulations 💕
Awesome and hopefully your very happy? Fantastic!
Hey, I really appreciate you acknowledging that some people have zero options for a person to come care for them. What you had to say wasn't super encouraging, but at least you weren't sugarcoating it.
When you first said "you need to bring someone"/"I couldn't do this without my mum" it was heartbreaking (because I'm going to have to go through this alone).
First thing; you have a lovely,kind and accepting Mum. Second: you look wonderful Carry on!!
Your deeply positive attitude & outlook, along with your beautiful relationship with mom, was tantamount to walking you through this procedure. That, alone, is so incredibly vital. Hoping all remains well for you on your continued transition journey 💖
Okay so I love you❤ No hate. Just a little anatomy lesson. The inside part is called the vagina. The outside parts like the labia minora, labia majora and clitoris are all collectively called the vulva and the front part where the hair grows is called the pubis. Again. No hate. Just a little confusing to be calling all of those different things “vagina”😂
I have a question. With this surgery can you actually ever have an orgasm? Do you actually give up the potential to orgasm in order to have a cosmetic vagina, etc.? I hope you are fulfilled by this process to which you have committed yourself.
Interesting to here of your procedure differences. I went from standing in a hospital gown, flashing Dr Brassard, and his remarking "lots of skin" I think that was a positive. Then surgery, not sure how long it was to be honest. Number of hours. And from there it was finished aside from recovery. I gained B cup breasts (I could have gone to C but decided nah). I can say that no man can tell if I was born with a vagina or not. My family doctor remarked during my first girl style exam "nice work" funny comment while my doctor is staring at my hoohaw considering I have been male with him for decades. I have had no issues.
I'm hoping to go with Brassard for my surgery... I'm really excited but also thinking about it for too long triggers my goofy ass anxiety ughh. I need this so so so badly but it also seems like the scariest thing I'll ever do. Hearing other people's stories helps normalize it though, so that's good. Thank you for that :)
Thank you for sharing such an articulate summary of your experience Alice, it helps so much to hear another persons experience. Im going into a consult this week to get the process started and im excited for when it finally comes to the surgery date! Best of luck with the remainder of your recovery ❤
Thank you! I hope my video helped
I have no idea how you ended up on my home page, but the “I’m up and about, and I have a vagina” made my day and made me stay. Lol. I’m intrigued to watch your videos and learn more. I have a friend who is thankfully, very open to all of my millions of questions. I know I drive them crazy….but I also know that if I don’t ask questions, I’ll never know the answers therefore keeping things more “in the dark”, for lack of better words. And I truly feel that the more educated we all are, the more understanding we can all live peacefully together. And I say we as in everyone. Every type of person, male, female, gay, straight, trans, etc., etc. I don’t say we as in a specific group. WE as in humans. I hope that makes sense 😊
I don't plan on getting vulvo/vaginoplasty, and will probably just have an orchidectomy.
I just don't currently feel like the risks are worth the rewards, because my current concern is a flat crotch and I cannot get the hang of tucking at the moment.
Also, I just don't like Castor and Pollux down there.
I do appreciate you putting out this video, the Internet is a harsh place for us, so thank you for doing this!
You’re welcome!
A harsh place you say! Why I hadn’t noticed!
(Sorry, extremely bad joke. 😬)
Well done for pushing on making yourself who you want to be. Keep rocking it and never let anybody try and make you doubt your choices ❤
im 13 and am getting my bottom surgery when i turn 16 in a couple years!! i hope it goes as good as yours did :3 you’re so pretty!
@@omp199 there are many great places on earth where people aren't hateful and fearful
Good luck ❤
@@omp199 have you? More people are hurt by not allowing transition, because like I said, only 3% regret transitioning.
People have a choice in whether they wanna transition, noone is being forced or harmed. And naturally some people will regret it. Just like people can regret anything. Trans people shouldn't be held responsible because other people regret their transition.
You're also straight up lying. You're not doing this because you care about people, because you certainly don't care about those trans people that want to transition.
@@omp199 I'm not gonna "admit" something that isn't true, I can't even. That wouldn't admitting, that would be lying. The rate of detransitioners is 3%, those that regret are those 3%.
You don't care about the majority who need and want to transition, you only care about those 3% that might regret it.
I'm not defaming your character, you're just lying to yourself and me. Because you clearly DO NOT CARE about the trans people that want to transition and statistically won't regret doing so.
You're not here because you care about people, you're here for some other reason, or for some agenda you hold.
@@omp199 uhm okay? It's removing and reshaping the penis to look and act like a vagina? What is it that I'm denying exactly? Is this a red herring?
Gosh, I did not expect to cry as much as I did watching this. So happy for you Alice! I hope maybe one day this will be me.
57:15 Quite honestly I think it's a important topic to talk about. I myself am still so hard on the fence regarding bottom surgery that the fencepost is leaving marks.
Overall deathly scared of surgeries and partly hospitals as a whole, but I always worry that I'll lose any sensation, feeling or drive. That along with the fear of regret, but als dealing with the fear of regretting not doing it.
Some of the reason why I'm letting future me make this choise too once I'm actually on HRT and stuff
Fair enough. Takes a lot of thought honestly
If nothing else, make sure you do a lot of research about the specific surgeon that you might be considering, as after a few years of sort of seeing people talk about stuff it’s obvious some don’t know what they’re doing. I hate that it’s up to us to figure so much stuff out that’s hardly fair!
I don’t really know for sure what I would do if I had access to surgeries because they’re really scary and I know there’s bad results but if I could have good results???
I’m really thankful I was able to access HRT finally. I should’ve started this sooooooo long ago.
If nothing else given me so many benefits already. Including it got rid of the constant pounding headaches I used to have!
@@rebeccasam3434wow that’s so neat. Why do u think the headaches are gone? That’s great
@@blazingstar9638 I’m guessing it’s because my hormone receptor setup in my brain needs enough estrogen.
Like most of the brain isn’t, sure, but the parts that are sexually dimorphic have piles of estrogen receptors in female brains, trans and cis, and in especially suspicious it’s this one low level part of the brain that in female brains (trans and cis) it’s half the size, but is loaded with estrogen receptors, and has tons of physical connections going out into the rest of the brain that are missing and male brains, and it deals with a ton of things including mind body integration (and anxiety, startle response, I think emotional processing, tons of stuff, and it’s connected to the amegdyla also) . I’m not explaining it well.
At least I wonder if that’s why I spent so much time feeling disconnected from my body too.
I had never read about it possibly dealing with my pounding headaches or migraines ahead of time. I had just long since given up treating them, and just endured as best I could. But after it happened to me I’ve spoken with a number of women who had the same thing happen with headaches/migraines.
One I think used to lose days per week to migraines, and since flipping to running on estrogen, she loses a couple of days per month, though a lot just have nothing anymore.
Not to mention how I just feel like ME again!!! My brain and body just can’t handle running on t.
It seems so common for it to fix various weird physical problems. (Ditto switching to t if that’s what your body is set up for)
As someone who might be going through this myself someday, thanks you for sharing your experience in such intimate detail. Your honesty about how scary it was at the time is much appreciated. Biggest congratulations for completing this step on your journey!
I got emotional from this as someone only 3 months on HRT this is encouraging and emotional for me as it oddly feels like my future in a way
Aw sorry and thank you XD
Your story is wonderful, and your video is amazingly thorough.
Your mom is so great. You’re a lucky girl.
First time out of country, and you go get SRS !! Omg I can't imagine courage and the stressss, plus Thailand seems so exotic ( I would have been 180 bpm, sitting in a corner lol). Honestly thank you so much for the video ! Maybe I'll get it too one day, who knows (if i ever manage to break the egg shell).
I'll looking forward to the 12 feb update then ! Wish you the best :)
Thank you!
Hugs to you Alice and thank you for this informative video of your SRS in Thailand. I had mine in NYC back in June 2019, and it also involved a scrotal graft - although I had undergone electrolysis of the scrotum during the year prior. It seems yours was a more difficult surgery than mine. Mine was a single op, there was very little pain - I was mostly on Tylenol, and was discharged 5 days after the surgery. Perhaps the weirdest part of the post-op experience was when they drew out the packing.
I did have to stay in NYC for another two weeks, then it was home. It took more than a month before I was comfortable sitting. Your Mom was wonderful. I was accompanied by my dear wife. It so helps to have a loved one with you during this operation. Like most of us who have undergone that surgery, there are absolutely no regrets.
Thank you for being brave and sharing your journey. ❤
I'm so glad you shared this story with us all!
Also, is nobody gonna mention how amazing Alice's abs are? Absolutely sculpted and I am a little jelly
I used to work as a nurse in the operating room where they did gender reassignment. We had an urologist make the vaginal canal and the plastic surgeon did the rest. One time the plastic surgeon wasnt happy with the depth, and said to the urologist: make it deeper, this is not for show" (being able to have sex)
This was excellent, and so helpful and informative. Thanks so much for posting!😊
You have so much more strength then me Alice. I don't think this is something that I will ever be able to do, I don't have the nerve. You are extremely brave, this is such a massive thing and you are absolutely amazing for doing it.
I'm also really glad you have such a supportive Mother, she is a gem. I don't have that support, my parents are extremely unsupportive to the point that I have recently had to make the extremely difficult decision to go no contact.
I am seriously so pleased for you Alice.
Only plan on getting the jambags removed but its so good to have all of this neat information, happy for you!❤
Thanks!
Why did I watch this…. I never really had bottom surgery but after watching this and seeing it all laid out in front of me… you made it seem like an achievable goal, not some impossibility. Fuck.
Thanks for the video Alice, it’s wonderful
I'm super excited and terrified about getting bottom surgery simultaneously.
The excitement at 3157 gave me tears too!
This is amazing to witness and hopeful for the future
Sending love to you and your mom!
These surgeries sound so painful and scary. Hope these decisions are carefully made. To go through this, better be certain 😮😮
You are so brave. This is one of the hardest things a person could go through, I am very happy for you. This is the second video I have watched and love the channel. Keep up the good work.
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