7305 days around the sun | A letter to my future self

7305 days around the sun
I've never known what to think about my birthday.
In the past, I've even found myself sinking into a more melancholy state when it came around, wondering what I should feel; what I should do; should I have noticed a big change? Had I grown at all since the year before?
What did being this age mean for me now?
This year I wanted to change that. I wanted to do something for myself; create something special that I could look back on and cherish.
So I decided to write a letter to my future 25-year-old self.
I hope she will see this in the future, and think back to these uncertain times, when I was trying to find my way in this crazy world.
On May 29th (the day before), I was sitting at a table, thinking about many random things, when my friend walked in and told me to bring swimming gear and a towel, and go with them at that moment.
I was driven to a large and incredibly beautiful national park nearby, where some of my other friends sat waiting at the end of a winding forest path by a lake.
They sang (and played on a lovely Japanese instrument) happy birthday for me, read me poems, and shared some wonderful fruit and vegan food.
We swam in the lake. Something I haven't done for so long, but that brings me so much joy.
The day was absolutely wonderful. I could have swum gently through the water for hours, relishing the calmness, and the deep connection I was feeling.
I am so grateful for my friends, who put so much effort into making this day so beautiful.
Nothing luxurious was needed, only nature, nourishing food, loving people, and the sun.
It is moments like these that bring me back to the truth of what is really important in life.
I am reminded that I am so much more than what I feel I have to accomplish, or who I feel I have to be.
My anxious breaths are soothed, and I feel a wholesome warmth deep within.
I wish for all of you to feel soothed and deeply loved, and as always,
sending lots of love, and light:)
MUSIC: Beginnings - MC YOGI feat. East Forest
ABOUT ME
Hey there! I'm Anna-Maria, and I'm a human being that has been travelling the world since October 2018. I am a free-spirited, creative, calm and kind person, and love being surrounded by nature, beautiful souls, and warmth. I do not like to define myself so much, as I (like everyone else) am always changing and evolving, and don't wish to limit myself in any way.
I'm a big fan of spending time with animals, cooking vegan food, playing music, making art, laughing crazily with good people (or alone) and being my weird self.
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[@NikiProshin]

The moment when I realize that I'm 25 now. But deep in my mind and heart still 17

[@animekopf]

What a beautiful video🙏🏼
I hope you find your way, but actually I know you will... It takes courage to take this path of uncertainity, the way of life outside of the boundaries we set to ourselfes. Thus I am certain that you will eventually find what you are looking for. Find it within🙏🏼

[@cookwithme8872]

Love it.

[@thecloudithnineth9103]

What were some of the steps you took in making this dream a reality? I’ve been desperately wanting to get out into the world and experience life as it is outside of the bubble I’ve lived in, but I worry I’m not yet educated enough about what it truly takes to travel the world. Im just curious what your thought process was. I love the videos by the way! Very inspiring to see other people appreciate the natural world.

[@wayvak3330]

I recommend a reddit page called solotravel my friend. But you’ve already taken the first step which is recognizing the bubble. Trust yourself.

[@thecloudithnineth9103]

Wayvak thank you! I will most definitely check it out.

[@thecloudithnineth9103]

Anna-Maria that was literally perfect thank you so much. I need to be more spontaneous and like you said free flowing, not expecting anything just see what life has in store. I’ll probably start it small as you recommended just to get an idea about being out on my own completely but I too just have the urge to push my limits and my fears. Again thank you both so much! I really appreciate the guidance