Failures, Friendships and Forgiveness
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- Even when it feels like it all falls apart - life goes on!
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It's quite a thing for you to share your thoughts and I applaud you for it.
I wish you peace, love, and serenity. You're a good man, Max.
Well said.
Sounds like you are awfully hard on yourself Max. It would be lovely if you were as kind too yourself as your friends are to you, or you are to your friends. Onwards and upwards!
Wonderful video Max !!
Life has taught me that relationships seldom fail solely because of the actions of one person. In essence we make friends and are lucky to fall in love at times throughout our lifes, but nothing is certain, and sometimes not forever, we just need to remain thankful for the opportunities of knowing love and savoring those memories. I am a little (may be a lot) older than you and met someone new 12 months ago after being single for nearly 10 years. He proposed last week, what I am badly trying to say is being alive and living a full life for me means never stopping being open to possibilities or closing down and always taking advantages of what's thrown our way. Never say never ...although I realise it may not feel like that right now x x
Congratulations Megan! That's great to hear - and thank you.
I don’t think there is an easy way for any of us to fix this, make you feel better, make you feel less pain. However, hopefully you can take some comfort in knowing that there is people who are here for you, supporting you and championing you. I hope things get easier for you
“Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak knits up the o-er wrought heart and bids it break.” That is advice from Shakespeare... and I think he was on to something. Onwards and upwards and I hope, you will, on occasion, take us along for the ride. :) Be well, Max.
What a great quote - thank you for that.
“I’m going to be okay. I’m going to make things - some interesting things. And have some interesting adventures. And i’m going to film them. And you guys can watch them. So there’re good things to look forward to.” That’s the right spirit Max! Some of us who are (happily) tied down in relationships don’t always get the time to make things and have the adventures that we did when we were single. I get immense pleasure and inspiration from watching you make things and having the adventures that I can’t. Please keep it up! And I hope that you find all the happiness/relationships and companionship that you deserve.
It's all been said, but I'd just like to let you know how important are your videos and also those from some other posters to people like me. After several failed attachments when I was a young man, I finally found someone who would tolerate me and we have now been together for nearly fifty years. Sadly, my wife is now in poor health and virtually housebound. Caring for her means that I am also tied pretty much to the house and cannot pursue the many hobbies I enjoyed. I would have loved to have restored a Series IIA Land Rover, but that is never going to happen, so your videos give me a great deal of vicarious pleasure. I cannot go out to see friends as I used to, so watching you and listening to your experiences is a connection I much appreciate. Thank you: just thank you.
At a time like this your friends -online and off- want to “Hoover” your pain away but there is no way to do that. Certainly not in a TH-cam comment.
I hope videos like this are as therapeutic as they are courageous.
It happened to me 10 years ago. She broke of the relationship. I was heart broken, trying to understand why, trying to reason. I was in a bad way for a long time, depressed and lonely. But then then I realized, that one should always practice self love and forgeiveness first and then if you have love left then sure give it to someone you care for.
But dont ever compromise on your self over that other. You come first.
If you can not be your self in a relationship and you constantly feel compelled to please that other then the relationship is doomed. because it is not a mutually beneficial relationship.
learn to see the signs. Unfortunately, most of us learn the hard way, that important lesson in life. When you are infatuated with that other it can be difficult to see clearly.
@ Leigh Pierce, very sage words and so very true.
That took guts man, seriously. Thank you.
None of us are experts at life, we're always learning. Your attitude is inspirational.
Wish you lived near me in Exeter , I would love you as a counsellor ...not because of qualifications (or likely lack of ) but I see your humanity, openess, authenticity, gentleness and vulnerability which puts me at ease and your company would no doubt be very therapeutic . I have spent my entire adult life ( now 58 ) trying to find peace of mind and purpose without success despite so many opportunities and much privilege . Having a good friend would have made such a difference but everyone jumped ship when depression arrived 30 yrs ago . Alcohol kept me going ..made life worth living until 6 yrs ago when the end was near. Sober 6 yrs now ..and despite lucky to have a loving partner ..the hole inside where something is missing (and always has) just keeps my subjective experience of life as being a constant struggle.
I'm sure you won't read this Maximus but thank you for sharing and helping many others ..you can see by the comments how many folk sense what a good man you are . As the old Buddhist saying goes
" May you be well , May you be happy , May you be free from suffering and at peace with yourself and all others" . Big Man Hug from Devon , Bill x
Thanks for this Max, you really bare your soul to us. I lost my wife to cancer this year, sometimes relationships end through no fault of either party. I found strength in your honesty, as I find strength through the family and friends who are helping me to navigate this grief. Stay strong brother.
Sorry to read of your great loss. Stay strong and stay well.
@@Themrjakecollins thank you
So sorry for your loss. I was widowed suddenly Dec 2021. Sending you love and strength 😢❣️
@@sprogella so sorry to hear that, and thank you ❤
I'm sorry for your loss.
Hey Max....I'm a collector of your things. My collection started with an excellent knife that was gifted to me and has lately extended to your shared words, honesty and wisdom; the latter are by far the most precious and valuable and I thank you sincerely for them.
I'm glad that you took your own advice (it's good advice, usually is) and were able to talk to your friends. Getting it out and having another listen is very powerful and therapeutic.
Yay to building interesting things and having adventures 👍!
What a guy!
A monk said, send compassion to whatever you're feeling: to your sadness, anger or fear, anxiety, self-blame or regret: have compassion for all of them.
For some of us, learning to be a friend to ourselves is a life-long work.
Thanks for sharing, Max.
This really resonated with me. I went through something similar in October. A two year relationship ended. Its easy to blame yourself but it's a two way street.
We love you Max
My friend helped me yrs ago with “It’s a life lesson, not a life sentence! “
Second video of yours I've watched, first being the drawknife. I'm very new to forging and have enjoyed Black Bear, Christ Centered and a few others. So glad I came across yours my friend. I'm a now 65 year old of blue hued collar, 33 years, by God's grace, sober. On completion of the drawknife you apologetically explained having never made use of one... You had me completely won over with that humble note of honesty. I went to your videos and my eyes were drawn to this.
I'm subject to periods of melancholy, since it sounds so much mire sophisticated than being depressed 🥴 and really appreciated the candor with which you shared these things to us. I thank you for you willingness to share beyond the forge and anvil as we are all, unless gravely ill, effected by these things of the heart. So glad you sought out friends and family as they and many of us out here find 'en-couragement' by you example. Hanging tough in its truest measure means dealing with a circumstance in manner which would promote the best available solution and not simply folding inward.
Also, love you manner of speech and the way your words come together in a way that the American vernaculars, except perhaps those more southerly, have lost.
Thanks bro, hang tough. You are in our prayers.
-Scott
Bon, Air Virginia
How beautiful that you bare your soul and pain to the world in this way. These things are never easy and we all feel for you. It’s actually inspiring hearing you talk openly and so eloquently. Our greatest mistake is that we all think we’ve got more time ❤
Max this could really help someone, thank you. As a natural introvert myself I spent far too long keeping everything to myself. It wasn't until I'd wasted far too many years that I actually started talking to other men about any troubles that I had. My surprise at how receptive my man friends were to listening, comforting and then often sharing troubles they've been keeping bottled up. As for you're beating yourself up about relationships. You're not perfect mate, and neither were they. Don't beat yourself up. Over analysing yourself is a painful side effect of your intelligence, very common. Shit sometimes just happens. Take comfort where you can find it and remember that you're just a human. Best wishes to you mate .
Love to hear you talking about that. The mental health is a stigma for may people and can if you hold it back and not seek help create very bad situations for you and the beloved around.. I have been depressed due to massive workload and was so ill that had to be home for a year to find the meaning of life again. It was a struggle but it worked out in the end and my company that I was employed at took the responsibility and helped me to get better. But it's different around the world and here in Sweden company's have a huge responsibility for their workforce and for me that was good... Still on some SSRI drugs but I'm feeling that I have control over my work situation. I have moved out to the country and start to grow my food and have chickens for fresh eggs and so on. You have shown me that it is possible to be a stronger human if you acknowledged your weakness.. Thanks for your open display of your struggle through life and the pros and cons of everything. You are a true hero....
Never been prouder to be a patron, tears in my eyes as I write this xxx
There’s not many people I listen to and take notice of on the TH-cam, but you’re one of the few. Be well Max
Never commented before anywhere, but wanted to say how much i enjoy the videos and how its a privilage having watched you share your heart. Once step at a time Max.
I'm truly impressed by the way you're able to share this bravely and with your heart.
My man watches you, and I can't help but engage when youre on .
I may be a bit of an oldie
(ahem 53, ) but think you're not only jolly good with your hands but really rather scrummy.
Have faith, keep positive, life appears to carry on , and we could join in when feeling like engaging.
Take care.
Xx
When we are left to our own devices, given a shovel we can dig ourselves a very deep hole. A counselor once told me it's called ruminating where sit chewing over things, over and over and that is what we need to avoid at all costs. Sometimes things don't work out and it is nobody's fault. Hang in the buddy you've got a lot of supporters here.
The appropriate level of sad. Amen to that, it is right to feel sad and to reflect. Thank you for sharing this and the previous sit-down video. Different But still a compelling watch. Take care fella.
So long as we are talking about feelings, I felt the need to express how much I appreciate you and your channel. You have definitely been an inspiration for me. I have followed you for several years now. My wife, my two kids and I live in a small off grid cabin in the hinterlands of California. You have given me tons of great ideas to tackle living this kind of lifestyle. Also, as a fellow metal worker and blacksmith, I really enjoy watching your projects, the successes and stumbles. Everyone has ups and downs, that's life. We have had our own rollercoaster of highs and lows. But I wouldn't change any of it. The bad times make you appreciate the good. Hang in there. You are a super cool dude as far as I am concerned. And I look forward to all the future amazing adventures. Cheers!
Much as I love your daft projects and practical guides, these 'sitting down and talking' videos are honestly the most powerful. More power to you Max! I'm looking forward to these making and adventuring vids too.
You are a pure heart Max. Sending love and good vibes.
In many ways this video was like listening to my own story. Thank you for sharing.
1 Peter 5:7. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
As a Christian this Bible verse has comforted me many times. Obviously it’s talking about the value of letting go of our anxieties to God, but I think best friends work too ! And think you articulated the value of not dwelling and ruminating on our grief and sorrow but speaking about it with others. All the very best mate. God bless. Steve. Ps, love your vids and since watching them a few years ago I’ve found a love of tinkering with cars and motorcycles that I might not have discovered otherwise ❤😊
I hope you know how much your videos help and inspire your viewers Max
You're quite right, Max. It does seem at times that it's very easy to say the wrong thing, or the right thing in the wrong way, or not to say the right thing at all! keep moving forward.
Sorry for your pain Max. I see myself in most of the things you say. Thanks for baring all and helping others 🙏
Thank you for your videos and honesty, we are similar souls I think, I’ve suffered from depression since childhood, I’m 57, I too am restoring a 1984 109, i recede into myself in the bad times, and push friends away, and try and push through on my own, but after watching this video, I’m going to take your advice and talk to my friends, try and explain why I’ve been isolated and withdrawn, hopefully that will not only rekindle those friendships, but assist in pulling me out of the doldrums.
Thanks again Max, your videos are inspiring, and are also a form of therapy for me.
Time for me to try harder.
I just wanted to send you good vibes.
I know it can be hard to open up about our experiences. Loneliness, depression, etc.
I appreciate your videos. I've been watching them for years. I have learned from them. I've been inspired by them.
I'm just Miles from California but I respect you.
I am 30 years old and we have lived our own lives... When i watch your videos can relate to your personality and experiences.
We try to do the best we can with what we've got. We have traveled the world, and been to places we will never forget.
You've dealt with loneliness and heartache and so have I and many others who watch your videos.
Long story short, in the past maybe I've felt lonely and watched one of your videos and been cheered up by them.
I may never meet you, but It feels like we have hung out many times. I'm watching and learning as you rebuild the Landy.
I was there when you refurbished the old fireplace doors.
I almost feel a bit weird saying that. But that's how it feels. If you weren't someone I would want to hang around with in person.
I would not watch your videos.
I know I wrote an article for you but keep your head up and keep up with the videos.
Thank you max for your honesty. It is good to hear a practical, down to earth man talk about these things. This is a little bit of the story towards taking the stigma out of men talking about our challenges. I am sure many of us are guilty of bottling things up when we should’ve sharing.
Must have been very hard to make this video. Massive respect to you for sharing. Absolutely love your videos, please keep making them. Take care of yourself and remember we're all here for you. All the best
This man really resonates with me , life is hard and for some people it can be really difficult but self awareness and learning to deal with your own mental health can bring you a long way. This has been the case for me. I admire his honesty and bravery sharing this with us.
May the tears u cry in 2022 water the seeds of your recovery in 2023
Bless you Max. They do say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but it doesn't make it any easier. Stay strong
Well done mate. Get that Kermit on the road. Your first talk really helped me.
I wish I could give you a big hug. Thank you for sharing your thoughts again. Much respect x
You are a great counterexample to the hollywood "macho" fad. All humans are emotional, not just women. And depriving yourself of the therapy of letting the tears roll down your cheek does not make you more of a man than someone who doesn't. Great video my friend, and keep being awesome.
Thank you for doing these videos, I live on my own off-grid and have been going through some tough mental wrangling recently. I've taken a lot from these videos and shared them with my friends and my therapist!
That was some brutal honesty, big lad. Keep doing what you do ( including listening to your own advice). All the best.
I can relate to worrying about something I said years later that no one remembers. Thank you for your courage in sharing such difficult emotions to confront. I'm sure your honesty will help many people over the years.
From across the pond in Florida...I still have the pairing knife that you made for me! I too have had the same situation/feelings as you. You are a bit hard on yourself, but that's because as men we are never taught the softer female side of feelings....quite a shame in fact! But life is a journey lesson and father time is the great healer! You too will come out of this in a better way! God bless and stand tall
And that’s exactly it, we always think that we’ll have more time and then it’s gone.
Thank you for your video. I took a great deal of understanding from your words. I wish you well and my advice to you is listen to those that support you, we are all here, muddling through life as best we can and being there for friends and strangers.
Treat yourself the way you would treat YOUR best friend. Thank you for sharing your story with us Max, it helps us all learn, because you had the strength to be vunrabal in front of us and yourself. Beautifull, just beautiful. Thank you Max you helped me.
Really good advice to share your troubles! A problem shared is a problem halved! As they say. Also another great thing to do is to write like a diary or journal. This also stops things going round and round in your head and gets them out onto the page and is pretty good way to start to make sense of things. Wishing you a Merry Christmas.
It's funny... to you, we are all strangers, but to us, you are like a mate. We all tune in and share in your highs, and lows. Sorry you had a tough time, although the right person wouldn't have walked, so in a way it's best that she did. Any time you wanna come up to my woodland and build something or mend a tractor whilst drinking beer, you're always welcome! :) Chin up Max.
Haven't watched you for 3 years after continuously doing so before then. This and your Antidepressant vid helped helped me out right now. Cheers mate. I'll watch the rest of the missed 3 years worth of vids soon.
More bravery. Speak its name and take its power. Man to man I am proud for you and I hope you are too. Be well.
This was clearly a hard video to record Max, but contains sage advice. It's all too easy to be self critical and to become obsessive in over analysing events with hindsight. Wisdom is born of experience.
I really appreciate these vulnerable video's you make. Here's this tough looking bearded man (a bit like me) who does all kinds of cool projects, and who then isn't afraid to talk about his feelings either. Thank you for showing that those too sides go together really well
Your last video WAS NOT ‘heavy’....was simply refreshing straight honesty. Every human has a different path,different experiences and different angles on reality. Greatest gift is sharing ones experience and realization in a way that you do. Probably don’t see it yourself and that is not a bad thing,cos then the old ego doesn’t jump aboard and sabotage your discourse. Just keep pushing on and life happens sometimes in spite of oneself,rather than because of us. In my experience every major event,encounter,experience happens out of the blue,unexpected.. no doubt you will continue to grow and hopefully continue to share. Wishing you a Very Happy Christmas. May you experience the true Nature of Christmas. Regards
Sound bloke. Been through the same recently, and also failed to see it coming. Talking is definitely the key. New adventures in life lie ahead fella :)
Thanks for sharing Max, have a man hug.
British telecom came up with a wonderful slogan quite a few years ago, certainly before mens mental health issues came to be acknowledged and recognised. "It's good to talk"
Hard times when there's a break-up. Been there myself several times. One time I was angry at the way I was treated. One time it felt like a release and I was ecstatic. One time I was sad about it and 20 years later I still am a bit. But it was all for the best. It's good to reflect a bit and learn from mistakes, but not to dwell on them too much or feel guilty about it. Next time, we will be older and wiser and we will do belter. Thank you for sharing.
Glad you had good friends to turn to Max and that you are ok. I'm sure there is someone special out there to love and appreciate you and I hope your paths cross soon.
I takes two to Tango, and when the music stops the dance is over.. a nice memory even if some feet got trodden on..
Thank you. I had a similar situation over Christmas. Again, thank you for posting.
Max, never a failure! There are always amazing things to take away from friendships, experiences and relationships that last or maybe don't. I have had plenty that haven't lasted unfortunately and have much like you come to the realisation that bottling stuff up doesn't help. I try to make a point now of cherishing (I think that is the right word) the good times and that though I might not be with that person now for a time I was and that is time that I don't have to give back. You're a good man, and you make great stuff - life would be duller without regular doses of Max!
It is a great friend who will just listen and offer support. Thanks for your brave honesty and sharing. From past experience, know that things will get better over time. Your self honesty and analysis of the situation shows a real bit of self awareness and mature perspective taking. We can all learn from your 'self-advice'. Be well!
Not failings Max, its called life and learning. Thank you for sharing, you are an inspiration and a gentleman. This is the time when our friends are needed, well done for communicating to them, us and yourself. Respect, and stay safe ....
Dear Mister Ironthumper - you are one cool dude! What you have shared is really powerful for me - i obsess, i don't open up, i think it's all my fault, but you sharing your experience is encouraging me to do the same. Thank you. Respect and big love
Max, I'm honored you shared this with us - the friends you don't personally know yet inspire every day. All the best to you.
We never forget we just cope and it gets easier over time, time is a great healer.
I'm glad you had good friends to help cushion that fall. Thats what friends are for really.
Ive only just come across this second video and I'm glad I did!
You have a way of putting things that ordinary people understand, are going, have gone or will go through and your insights are VALUABLE and APPRECIATED! Also I'd imagine it's good for you also to reflect and get it out there in a way.
Top man! Chin up I hope you're doing a lot better on yourself now mate!
I've had a horrendous 4 years following the end of a 7year relationship being completely screwed over not just the relationship itself but she set out to ruin my entire life and future and quite successfully Unfortunately!
Spent 4 years on my own had loads of other stuff go wrong whole life basically gone down tubes all while (like you had previously) suffering from suicidal depression anxiety and falling out with family simultaneously as I was being screwed over by my ex. It's been the worst 5 years of my life 10years in fact but last 5 unbearable, I saw your mental health video when you made it and I can't thank you enough for opening up about men's mental health/you own mental health, offering extremely valuable advice! Putting yourself out there on a limb so to speak and also with this video too..
Top man! Stay strong I'm sure things will look up soon if not already!? And I'm hoping this year I can turn things around myself. I'm suffering with CHRONIC pain back injury also and have been for years and all this time which again added to my woes, it's hard to stay positive, but that's the only way to get out and I've been far from positive for much of that time but somehow I've managed to get through this long AGAINST the odds, and your making that previous video REALLY hit a chord with me, as has this one! Things are NOT ALWAYS OUR FAULT! Even though we blame OURSELVES! Searching for answers that we will NEVER get ruminating and grieving for lost relationships both partners friends family etc and at the end of the day, sometimes people are just NOT NICE PEOPLE! OR the people we hoped they were!
While accepting and changing our own weaknesses and things we could do better, it's key NOT to blame OURSELVES for things out of our control! Self care, self love and self respect are ALL paramount even though as men we are supposed to be stoic about life, it's not sustainable 24/7..
Take care mate!
Cheers from London 👍
It's easy for us to forger that people are not mind readers, and they don't always interpret what we say in the way we intended. It's not always easy to go back & explain..
Thanks for these videos. It must take a lot of courage to stand naked in front of the world like that...
I hope that your honesty will help guide others along the paths that you have already been down, and maybe stumble a little less on the way as a result.
You're a good man, Mr Ironthumper. 👍
Very glad to hear you're okay Max. As you said in your previous video, it's appropriate to grieve when necessary, but times will get better with friends and family in the loop.
Max I felt that .looking forward to seeing what your going to make
Posting this video makes so much sense, and spreading the word is so powerful. Hats off to you Max! 👏
I'm so sad you have gone through this. You are truly a beautiful and very talented man. I really hope you find someone who is deserving of you.
A relationship ending is like constipation. Until you can get everything outside of you there will always be pain and a focus on what remains inside. Sharing with friends is a good laxative. I think as well, as we get older we need to question more why we need to be in a relationship at all. The older we get the more settled we are in our skin.
For me, the thought of being in a relationship now has no appeal whatsoever and its funny, when I admitted that to myself a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and life began to open up and I actually became happy for the first time in years and years.
I do believe the world is changing as far as relationships are concerned due to many factors but the old needs, the old expectations of what a successful good life means are changing and many it seems are realizing they are much happier not having to share life with another person intimately or cohabiting.
It is great if that still feels like the way you want to go but to do it simply to fit in or that it is the only way to have happiness and fulfilment without questioning it or deeply examining what brings you real joy can be a risky road to take.
good luck and be gentle with yourself and above all, be honest with what you want to create a happy and fulfilled life .
Thank you for the video - I’ve enjoyed your content for years, and while your projects have been aspirational (I’m all thumbs with no real aptitude for mechanical problem solving), your more recent person videos (this, your depression video and your fitness video) have been inspirational. Feels weird to speak up after enjoying your content in silence for so long, but if you can be open and honest in front of internet strangers, then the least I can do is thank you for all the enjoyment your videos have given me. Cheers, and take care of yourself.
More total respect to you sir for sharing your thoughts. I have been in a similar situation when a relationship ended and I felt destroyed and struggled with things. HOWEVER, talk to people, keep going, stay active. Bad days will come and go, peaks and troughs but keep going. Your a brave person for sharing and I respect you. Things WILL get better. Best Wishes From Chester 👍
I'm only just coming to terms with a relationship I lost 2007, we found each other 1991, Married 1993, and a wonderful daughter 1995, from day one I knew she was my soul mate. Despite 10 years passing I often thought of her and we started to speak again from 2017 and yes I still hold a candle for her i would never tell her, but I now use that Passion for life to help others I see going through bad times. This is the first time I've ever put this into words as I still suffer
Well done mate, from an inspired fan and landrover enthusiast in Oz! (Australia not the wizard one 😆) Both the craftsmanship and your willingness to be transparent in such a way is, I am certain, the very thing that some may need to hear and draw strength from. Take care and God bless, Adam
Thanks for sharing.
Much of what you have said is true for me as well.
Long distance relationship are always difficult, your honesty is real and so are your friends that step up when needed, we sometimes take things and time for granted, and only in hindsight regret what we didnt say or do! Dont be to hard on yourself, it takes two to make relationsship work, learn from old people that has spent a lifetime together and they will tell you to : appriciate each other(in words) and foregive faults!!
Never before have I ever related to a TH-cam video as this one, you could of almost been talking about me with a few small changes. Unfortunately for me I did not have the intelligence to share with my friends and the pain did not ease, it just got worse. I hope our future is good for you. Happy Christmas.
'I thought there'd be more time; but there wasn't'. If that isn't the ultimate lesson for us all in life, then I don't know what is. Thank you so much for your time and your selflessness. Truly inspiring.
Thank you for sharing this in a vulnerable way. It is hard to do. I know from experience that it is a process. Painful at times and slower than we wish it to be. We'll wishes and good thoughts going out to you.
Well done for sharing all this, you are not alone in your journey. Many of us will have had the same doubts and fears, talking them out has been a revelation to me since I undertook some bereavement counselling and changed my mindset and understanding of how things impact on me.
If you decide you want a relationship in the future then you will find one, hopefully with someone who is as understanding and caring as your long term friends.
As you were talking about how you thought you had made mistakes I was thinking that its not as simple as one person being to blame or responsible.... If you cannot realistically stay in control of your own thoughts, doubts and fears, which is what I think you have said over the two videos, then how on earth can you expect to understand your own as well as someone else thoughts, doubts and fears at a range of over however many miles.
I expect that both of you are hurting and neither of you set out to feel that way - it just happened and unfortunately its painful. Doesn't mean yours anyone's fault.
I am so glad you have shared it and not bottled it up. I wish you both well in dealing with a difficult situation, but at least its done now and you can appreciate the people that obviously care very deeply for you.
Have a great Christmas, hopefully you will spend it with whoever you want to!
Robert
I know I might sound "cliché" but, as sad as it is to see a relationship ends, it might have helped you grow and helped you learn new things that you will be able to apply in your next one. Never think that the relationship as ended only because of you.. Most of the time it is because of both partners... You shouldn't have to think things like " oh I should/shouldn't have said/done this or that" (unless you really wanted to hurt her/him) whatever you said at that moment, it is who you are, and if your partner fails to understand the meaning of what you were saying, and never asked any questions, it is on him/her too. You can't change who you really are, and whoever you are ,you are worth it . If someone leaves you, it is not because you are not good enough .. you have just grown apart, and now have different interests/points of view.. In this case, Max, from what I can see in the videos, you look like one heck of a good lad with a great attitude, a simple way of life, and a lot to give.. I'm not even worried for you, you will find somebody new in no time ;) . Cheers buddy!
I appreciate these videos Max and I wish you the best. Life is wild. We’ve got our projects and boredom and ordinary mundane moments as well as the joys and terrors that rise up like tsunamis. We’re all in it together.
Hi Max! I can see this was a hard one to make. I want to say "well done", but that won't be doing it any justice. The closest I can get is "glowing respect". You are an inspiration, mate!
I know a good person when i see one. And you Max, are one of the good ones 👍
I hope you find peace and happiness, and i wish you all the best. Thank you for sharing your feelings and showing that it's important to talk to someone, anyone, if you're feeling down. It's a really important message.
An 'appropriate level of sadness', is for me the key phrase you used. I have, on a few occasions gone down a frightening hole over relationships that were still born or failed to grow. Later I wondered what on earth had happened to me.
I think for me it's always a case, as I say to myself, of going from 'zero to hero', way too quickly, then fleeing or getting in way too deep, too fast.
At any rate the circular thinking can very quickly lead me into a downward spiral, oft checked by friend's help and practical concerns. I would guess that you are not dissimilar in nature.
Perhaps we can never become the wild things that we'd like to have been but if we go at our own slow pace and ask others to respect that, make clear our weaknesses and articulate our feelings openly then we can avoid hurting others and keep our ship on course through life's stormy weather.
One of the most helpful and meaningful videos I have ever watched on TH-cam. We have all been through the different phases of relationships from exciting new discovery to sad loss and we are often least honest with ourselves. Our one or two good friends can help to pull us out of the morass of self pity that we often indulge ourselves with and give us an anchor in reality. Thank you for your honesty and efforts in the making of this video.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with you Max, and you are excellent at communicating. In terms that I think you will appreciate, sometimes Whitworth and metric threads don't match, however hard you force them, neither is at fault, wrong or to blame. Always happy to indulge your wisdom.
Huge respect to you max for sharing these things, and to your anti depressants video. Talking things out with close friends has always been theraputic for me too. Also writing your feelings and problems down on paper, to manifest them as more than thoughts, then setting light to the paper, i have found helpful in the past, as silly as it may sound. Although i no longer have a workshop, throwing myself into resto projects, was probably the most absorbing thing for me. ( like you said the motorbike journey made you focus on other things.) i look forward to the next installments of your project Kermit therapy. respect and regards, Jon
I'm sure, Max that things will turn out well for you - I'm sorry for all the pain that you've gone through but I very much respect you for sharing those difficult thoughts and times - those of us who have come to know you through your videos will be most supportive of you. Very best wishes.
Mark has been a rock for me too.
Sending you a hug chap.
It's very brave of you to talk about your life and emotions in such an honest way. I think you will help people who are also going through similar life events.