I lost two young adult children recently and both parents before that. It helps me to sleep when I can and get out of bed when I can’t. Most days now, I sleep from about 4 am as long as I can. Sometimes it’s well into the afternoon. I had to stop working.
Take what comfort you can from knowing that your beautiful people are still there with you. Love seems to be both a gift and a curse. You have to choose to love knowing the price you might have to pay or avoid love and exist in a vacuum.
Grief has to be one of the hardest things to live through 💔 22 years ago my 8 year old daughter Ashlee passed away tragically 😭 I remember my arms physically hurting because I wanted to hug her so much 😔 .. grief counseling saved my life 🤍 and now I know she's always with me ❣️ I'm sending you the biggest hug all the way from New Zealand 🤍
My husband died almost 6 months ago… and I hadn’t slept well ever since. I finally took a friends advice to try CBD oil… one dropper full before bed and I was sleeping through the night. Doesn’t affect me negatively in anyway. Just a thought…♥️
I watched your interview with Alex last night and it was amazing.. you looked so lovely Nicky and the way you held it all together was unbelievable. It’s not surprising you are so tired and sad today. Take care and sleep when you can ❤️
My mom passed in 2010 (2yrs after a brain injury/life reset), my best friend and deepest grief ive experienced. I'm amazed you're functioning right now. I made it through because my parents set me as the executor of Mom's Will. I had no choice. A drug addicted brother putting vinegar in the coffee pot, my food in the freezer, stealing moms jewelry, told Im not even real family, etc all because I'm adopted, the youngest, and jealousy. Such a nightmare. Hearing your story on Alex's show my headt went out to you in compassion and empathy. I lost touch with my psychic gifts after the next several years of trauma after my moms passing. Be easy with yourself, allow yourself to grieve (and not shut down as i did), allow people to help, many will say less than helpful things because they're at a loss, talk to him often. Sending you love and healing ❤️💚
It is no time at all. My darling husband went home a couple of years ago. Knowing he is beside me always gives me such strength. Some days are okay, but some are like a Tsunami. I just batten down and wait for it to pass as there is nowhere to get for any peace. Lack of sleep and panic attacks are all part of it. When your partner goes home, in an instant you have lost your best friend, your lover, your rock and confidant and you feel like you have landed in a foreign land, where you haven’t got any idea about how to get from A to B et al. We have to treat ourselves as our own best friend and have no expectations. You are running on adrenaline, so just follow your beautiful heart and be guided. Sending much love to all.❤xx
Sending love and strength! I just passed my husband's 3 yr anniversary of going home. It does change it's not quite as painful, but the heartbreak never goes away.I'm so happy that you get signs. I'm still waiting ❤
… l remember the insomnia and waking at 3am….. ❤ you are doing all the right things x. Keep grateful for the love and gifts you have received xxx. You are so loved x l resonate so much what you say x …. Glad you had an interview with the wonderful AF 😊
Dearest Nicky, a friend of mine told me about you, your loss of your soul mate Darren, and your interview with Alex Ferrari. ( Ijust watched it.) I just wanted to drop by and send you a ton of love from country south Australia. You're in my thoughts and prayers, and I dearly hope somehow, one of my meditations can assist you in some small way for a better sleep. Wrapping you in healing light and love... Jason. xxx
My darling Jason. This is a wonderful and welcome surprise my love as I listen to you every single night! 🙏🏻✨now I know how it feels to be starstruck when someone I hold in such high admiration and respect leaves a comment for me! 💕💕✨⭐️ bless you for taking the time to message I am so humbled and grateful. Your work is beyond enlightening and has kept me me going through all the dark nights of fear, pain and insomnia. May the angels bless you every minute of your life, Nicky 💕💕💕
Hello from Colorado dear Nicky! Saw you last night on Alex's show and you looked fantastic, sparkly and fresh faced, and your sincerity and inner soul-beauty was shining through. I'm sure you gained more followers! You are blessed and your day-after blues seem normal as your energy was given to your audience and Alex in service. Then you felt exhausted. Just nurture yourself and know you are healing still. Love you! ❤️
Nicky, I couldn't of went through my grief and dealing with heartless family members, without you, you are a beautiful soul ma lovely! Thinking of you and sending lots a love from Canada ❤ xxx
I watched your interview with Alex. You were amazing. Thank you for all your videos helping people with their grief journey while you are dealing with your own grief. Sending you love. ❤❤
Darren was with us during this video wasn't he?!?!! He was letting us all know that he was there, listening and wanted to be a part of it again!!! Well done Darren!! You flashed your light and right away I said Hi Darren good on you sir!!!! ❤❤❤ As always sending lots of love and light from Arizona ❤❤❤
Bless you, you beautiful lady ♥ Followed you for a while now. I have suffered the loss of my grandparents, family and friends and my mum and dad and spent over half of my life on my own after a volitile 18 yr marriage, that was over 18 Yrs ago. Im sure my life lesson is unconditional love (sometimes i go mad trying to work it out) I have been asking myself for years why me, yet I am awake to celestrial truth and our god sourse but I don't have your skill that you with the evidence that you and your tribe see, I feel I have a knowing. You resonate with me deeply and I send you so much light and love as I have never suffered the loss of a soul mate or partner. Sending you love and strength to deal with your loss as your gift to humanity is one of pure love and just wanted to thank you for for you do for us all, try and get some rest sweetheart Xx
Nicky, you looked gorgeous on Alex’s Next Level Soul interview! I hope you can find a solution to your insomnia, it can be so debilitating and you’re dealing with grief, and so many requests pulling you in different directions. Blessings and love to you.
Hi Nicky every day you get stronger you cannot expect it all to be good in just three onths. I am looking forward to your interview I love watching Alex's Channel. Hugs and kisses 🥰🥰🙏🫂 take care
Love you Nicky💚 . Your interview with Alex brought me to tears of grief, joy and laughter . Your strength is inspirational and your compassion for others mind blowing. 💚🛸🌏☮
Thank you so much for this Nicky! 💗 my grandpa passed away in 2021 if it wasn’t for his passing it wouldn’t of taken the spiritual path and opening my Gifts from the other side that on this healing journey! Knowing that I got my gramps on the other side! 💙
My hubby passed 15 years ago unexpectedly aged 57...todate there are days when I feel his loss as if it were yesterday. The loss and pain of his physical absence changes but its always with me.
Your honesty is so admirable, loved your content for a long time now, what ever you give to us, your tribe, we always recieve your wisdom with gratitude. ❤❤ ❤ you are fab. Xx and you were gorgeous on Alex's show.!!😊 Watching and learning from New Zealand
Thank you for all that you do Nicky. Your videos help me so so much. I also have fibromyalgia and Rheumatoid arthritis. My mum passed away from a burst ulcer and she also had Rheumatoid arthritis. I am just about to move house yet again after having a no fault eviction. My animals particularly my dog and your videos are keeping me going. Thank you again Nicky. Love and Light xx
@@NickyAlanPsychicMedium Thank you Nicky. I'm in a proper mess at the moment and in tears as I write this. I wish my mum was here, I really need her 😢 xx
Ive suffered from chronic insomnia for 40 years. Even with prescription meds i might only get an hour broken each night but id say just do what you are doing. Stay in bed and put the meditation or sound frequency on. Its still relax time x
Was a great interview ❤ take care if yourself. I lost my son and husband a few years back, it took me years to move on. Im proud of you, but you still need to take care.
The cat in the hat ....are you kidding thats so in your face it 😳 oh wow as I am writing this I can see that wobble on the left of you , thats amazing. He obviously isnt leaving your side.💚💚💚💚💜💜💜💜💜
I just want to hug you Nicky. You are such a truly authentic and wonderful person. Thank you for sharing your most vulnerable thoughts with us on how grief impacts you. My first real experience with death occurred as a teenager. I dated this wonderful guy and when we broke up, I held a place of love for him. We had a class together our sophomore year and we were able to become friends again. I had this feeling we would reconnect our senior year and attend prom together. Call it a gut feeling I suppose. Well fate had a different plan, and the summer before our junior year, he was in a horrible car accident with 6 guys in the vehicle with him. He was taken to the hospital and placed in ICU. All of our friends and his family were there praying and crying, and connecting with each other over him. I went back to see him a few times and held his hand and talked to him begging him not to leave. To fight to live. Unfortunately his head injury was too much and all the medicine pumped in him started to make organs fail. He passed away and it hurt like absolute hell. At his burial site, I found I didn’t want to leave him there. I remember telling my mom that he would cold and lonely. I loved him with a pure love. I made him a music playlist on tape and went to the beach a few weeks later and just listened to it and talked to him as I walked up and down the beach. I have never forgotten him. I saw his parents regularly as my customers as a pharmacist. His mom would always hug me and tell me it was nice to see someone his age and what we all were doing. Now that I have awakened to some of my gifts, he comes to visit me. I feel his presence and we talk. It’s so comforting to know he is around. I grieved for him for a very long time. I realized at such a young age that I am not immortal on this earth. I just pray for peace and serenity for you. May you know how loved you are and so appreciated for all you pour into us. Fast forward to today, and I am with my mother n law during her final days with terminal cancer. I am celebrating her as often as possible and we have talked about how we will communicate when she makes her celestial transition. The Angels and the Holy Spirit have been heavily present with us. My grieving has already begun because I am watching her slowly leave us each day. I don’t honestly know what is more difficult- to lose someone fast and unexpected or slowly while watching them diminish as their soul starts the process of going home. They both are not easy and I too am experiencing a lot of up all night experiences contemplating life and beyond. Much love to you always.
Darling I have always asked myself that as all my loved ones have gone quickly or tragically. I feel he may have been your soul mate this time round? ❤ I am sending love to your mother in law and please invoke Archangel Azrael to preside over you all and Raphael for ultimate healing 💚💚💚💚💚🪽 sending my love hun ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Tip: cold slices of cucumber for swollen eyes. I cried so much when my mom died that my eyes were convex and then, of all things, they peeled like a sunburn. The cucumber was very soothing. ❤️
I flew back to USA on Friday 13th after Mums funeral back in 2012 and arrived in USA same night and went to work Monday. I have no idea how I did it. I have no memories at all. I was with her for last weeks of his life. I've seen her in dreams and I have felt her lay next to me.
Nicky you have come so far over the last 3 months, and you are helping your community in coping with the grief process. Truly thank you nicky. We will always be here to listen and support you ❤️ 🙏
Nicky I'm crying for you breaks my heart too see the grief on your face in your heart. Its a slow process but hopefully time will help with acception, healing. You are a testament to our race that you have the fortitude to cope as well as you have. God bless your soul,love,light , blessings to you our lovely lady.🇬🇧🇬🇧🕊️🕊️🙏🙏
Nicky, don't worry about pharma meds, it's important to do what you need and feels right, there's no time limit for grief either, it really is early days , much love and a hug xx
Its not a coincidence that we all are attracted/guided to the people that resonate at a higher vibration and speak our shared vibration, I love Alex Ferrari & I adore you Nicky! I am so happy both of you exist/share & dare to help. Thank you! 🦋✨💎
I love listening to you Nicky, it’s like we are having a cuppa and sharing a loving space. Take your time sweet lady, I love all your stories. This is the most wonderful time with you.🙏🇨🇦
I have suffered with insomnia for years, and at times push through staying up 24 hour at a time. At times i get it right , and then lapse back. Know what it is like sleeping till 2 ir 3pm ti catch up on sleep.!!!!😊😊😊😊
Dear Nicky! I've listened to the conversation with Alex almost as soon as it came on.. your sharing makes it easier to accept the pain and the living in the void... going home with your lover..never truly returning..living in two worlds..your voice is so soothing..thank you, love to you, hugs♥️♥️♥️♥️
Nicky take your time . Grief is in control when we mourn we have to just go with it . Grieving myself at this moment I’m just going with it wherever I need to go , wherever it takes me I feel what needs to be felt . Your doing amazing, helping so many and just having the time to do these sessions is STRENGTH. Love you loads and keep doing what you need to do to get through it . Bless you always beautiful Angel ✝️🩵💟😇. We are Divinely blessed being part of you and having you in our lives .. 🙏💛💯🦋
It’s been ten months for me and I can’t remember a lot of the time leading up to and after losing my husband. Sleep is a real issue. I hope this passes for us both. You are amazing Nicky, I wish you peace and joy when the time is right.
Loved your interview with Alex, you looked all sparkly. You both have such an obvious bond over things. Equally love you without all the slap and filters, it makes you so relatable! 😊 I know these videos can’t be easy but you do make them look so effortless, sitting there in your pyjamas. I couldn’t sit and talk for an hour about such deep, meaningful, helpful things without a script. Don’t fret over opening presents etc. it will all get done eventually, and when you do open them it will bring up such great memories of that weekend. ☺️
Thank you Nicky I really resonated with your interview. And I am so sorry for your lose. I lost my only daughter at 45 years old suddenly. She passed without me by her side. How ironic that you held your loved one above the water, and such trauma to go through. Bless you. Your video this morning describes how grief hits you. One minute you are ok and the next you are not. My daughter passed on the 4.9.24 not long after your loved one xx It has given me some peace hearing you say he is still with you. The hard part is that everyone's life goes on , but your whole world has changed forever. I feal your pain. And I get that monkey mind where I relive the last moments of her life. She also had no will ,so I get what you have been through. Bless your beautiful heart ,you helped me xx
I absolutely loved your interview with Alex! ❤🌹🕊 I always look forward to your posts and anyone interviewing you. ❤️🌹🕊 I send you love,light,peace, and joy. ❤️🌹🕊 May you have a physical visitation like the one I received at the grocery store. ❤️🌹🕊
Hi Nicky, and thank you again for sharing. Your interview with Alex brought me to tears. As for medication, after so much difficulty with severance after taking anti-depressants for years, I avoided them after losing my TF a few months ago. Now obviously every story is different. You know we are all with you, same with your guides and angels. Loads of love xxx L0ve Unlimited 🦋💗🕊🙏😇🍀🐞🌈
Please Nicky, give yourself grace. Moving through grief at this stage is like moving through molasses. Everything is fuzzy and forgetting is natural. Hopefully one of your friends is helping you through this. My heart just breaks for you and every nasty thing that has happened. But I know, your friends and angels will get you through every second. Sleep as often as you can. It's part of the recovery. God bless to you. ❤😢
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Nick Propanolol is a god send. It's got me through some really harsh times, and when my Fibromyalgia flares up it stops the panic attacks I get in the middle of the night. Be kind to yourself Sweetheart. You're doing really well 💗
Good to see you on Alex channel, bless you. Since my stroke I can't comfortably read so audio books are great. Peter Levine is so respected in the trauma field. Babette Rothschild has some good self help books too xx
Dear Nicky, just do what you feel, that is more than enough! We’re all here for You. I think of you frequently with so much Love and Support 🙏💕❤️🙏 I also want to Thank You for A signed copy of your new book 💥🙏❤️ And I now also have bought your Tarot cards with the QR on so Thankyou, I’m truly Grateful to you xxx❣️✨🙏 Just remember baby steps, love always ❤️
Dear Nicky, take time out for yourself to be, in whatever way you need. Fall asleep when you're able to, shed tears, and think your thoughts and memories relaxed and happy, if something doesn't get done it can keep. It is a process. Missing our little Merlin cat had a dream about him and begged him to forgive me for vet interventions towards the rainbow bridge he spoke to me like a human to thank me he was suffering and has gone back with his first owner Mick and is so happy to be reunited with Mick who reared him from kittenhood! We love each other and I am so lucky to have little ginger Merlin for so many years in our lives.
I watched your fantastic and moving interview with Alex and I know it will help so many out there. So very glad you and Alex are connected, I love both of you and what wonderful work you are both doing. I totally agree with all the lovely things Alex said to you. I have recently heard of a very young person I know (late 30s) who has just lost his beautiful wife so I have written to him and pointed him in your direction to see Darren’s Diaries and see your journey. I feel sure it will help him at this very painful time he is going through. Let’s hope he watched it!. Much love ♥️
Nicky I saw your interview with Alex, you are so amazing, thinking how you can help those also dealing with grief. you looked amazing Nicky, I loved your hair, it's amazing what a good hairdo can do, we love you ,take your time Nicky, congratulation on your successful book signing, you have taught me so much,
A lot of people are having sleepless nights at the moment. Me included, so just know that you're being thought about and blessed by us insomniacs NIGHT and DAY. Take care and accept to do less for a while. ❤ big hugs😊
Over exertion from the MBS has emptied the small amount of reserves you had. This leads to physical and emotional burnout Time to replenish, you amazing lady ❤ Leave anything that can wait. Your body is telling you that you need to look after yourself and concentrate on healing. Sending you lots of love hugs and healing 💖 🤗😇💫
awe my heart is aching for your cause this is your first yule without darren but is amazing to see all of your family and friends surrounding you with so much love and light please know as much as we don't know you personally we feel like a family soul sisters and we have your back and if you ever need to reach out or want to go for a coffee we are here for that too sending love and healing your way beautiful woman
Yes, monkey mind, hate it. I'm exhausted, fall asleep for 2 hrs, then wake to the monkey mind. I have lost 4 friends + family, & 2 dogs in last 2 yrs. I wish I could cry 😭. I think I am too numb. Love to u always🙌🏼🙏🏼☮️💚
Love you so much Nicky .. I completely understand the exhaustion.. I had that when dad passed.. it’s the second Christmas without him.. it’s awful . Like you when dad passed I gave my home up , couldn’t bear living there now dad had passed, but my partner rescued me , I do feel for you .. I had sound bath yesterday , before the sound bath I felt emotional.. due to the full impending moon, but now I feel lighter. Hope this continues. I have experienced for the first time lucid dreaming , amazing . Please take care of yourself, rest as much as possible .. sending you so much love , .. you’re a beautiful soul Nicky .. oh I’ve just purchased your new book .. can’t wait to read it ❤xxx
I’ve watched baba jolie tarot 😊she is good 👍 also watch path of enlightenment,Nicole her name is and she is excellent 🙌so lovely 🥰 Darren is with you always ❤so comforting 🌟✨💞🇬🇧
It was a wonderful interview & was so nice to see you! You are helping so many Souls who are hurting. Sending you, and Darren, so much Love, hugs & Healing prayers!❤🙏❤
Beautiful Nicky, Thank you for being so open, raw, and honest with us. I always wanted my family to open up, but we were raised to hide and suppress our feelings and trauma. Things that needed to be said, never were. You are an Angel who has helped this aging single mother, grandmother, great grandmother except myself and my quirky ways without judgement. I now do as I please and look forward to the transition down the road ❤. Stay beautiful Nicky. You are a God send to many🙏. Be blessed and continue to encourage us to remain positive in our journey ⚘️.
Sending love, healing and strength Beautiful Nicky, you are doing so well my love and also helping lots of other people in the darness and despair of grief, stay strong Beautiful Nicky xxx
Im a new subscriber Nicky.I saw you yesterday when you were interviewed by Alex..just listening to what you had to say about the after life and especially soul contracts has helped me tremendously...Thank you ..❤❤❤
Like you say, no-one wants to be taking tablets but accept that you have to do what you have to do to heal. Often the alternative isn't bearable. You get through however you have to get through. Love you Nicky 💌 you're amazing...x
Insomnia is part of PTSD for me, doesn't help to fight in fact fighting makes it worse. I use it to make more time to meditate or at least dial it down while focusing on keeping vibration up I recognize, the more I loved the more it hurts, it comes in waves & remembering to honor lets it flow away less painfully than when I used to fight it The time you shared Darren with us was magical! I'm so grateful! It helped me heal & continues to every time you have been able to share since he made his journey to the other side of the veil I send much Love & Prayers for Blessings for you! 🕊
Love you Nicky! Take care of you. Rest whenever you need to, it’s ok to take meds if you need to, it’s ok to just heal. You are an amazing beautiful soul ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Yes new year new energy , we all love you , Eckhart Tolle is great to listen to as well , his calm voice helps me to relax , I enjoy epsom salt bath when I want to relax
I lost my father in law, my nephew, his mother my sister and my husband one after the other. It's been three years since the last-my husband. I wish I felt them. Sending you love
I’ve always said if you can say I don’t want to take antidepressants, then you don’t need them. Because when you feel so wretched you will do anything at all just to make you feel just a little bit like your old self again. It takes time.. but when u feel so lost, a minute can feel like a lifetime..you will get back to life Nicks..Darren and all the people who love will help you sweetheart ❤️❤️xx
🪷🌟 Darling Nicky, sharing & understanding grief. You surely did beautifully well in yesterday’s interview with our beloved friend, Alex, of Next Level Soul. I found Alex when I needed comfort most. Grieving is an odd business, all its own. Two of my four children have left this planet. Jesse Andrew (41) 5.3 years back. Took about 48 months, to feel I’d regained my footing, when Jesse’s older brother, Benjamin Thomas (47 & father of two small children) died; 15 months ago. I battle insomnia as yet, and the “3 a.m wake-up call”. I try to not fall into my old pattern, which I dread, that of being fully awake three hours, then falling drop-dead exhausted into 3 hours of sleep. This pattern can carry-on for weeks. And I do as you stated, try to fight to stay awake the long day. I work a 7 hour shift, through a seasonal job, straight through, so I have that to keep me occupied, but is home to the 3 hour “nap” and the cycle continues on. I am keeping you in my heart & prayers Nicky. Am hoping to purchase your fictional book soon, as I am to write. I need some notion of how this will occur for me. I find you inspiring beyond words! May your guides keep, guide, guard you, from within your heart and exquisite soul. Hugs & love, Cynthia 🌟🪷Laguna Beach, California
Lv alex his podcast amazing im so glad you went on again ❤️ take all the time you need my lovely xxx you are doing amazing Darren will be so proud of how much you have achieved talking and including everyone on tour journey. Darren walks one step behind in front and beside you with your fur babies ... eternally 😚
I lost two young adult children recently and both parents before that. It helps me to sleep when I can and get out of bed when I can’t. Most days now, I sleep from about 4 am as long as I can. Sometimes it’s well into the afternoon. I had to stop working.
Oh bless you! Praying and sending you love and light! I could not imagine! 😢
Bless you, Archangel Raphael for healing 💚🙏🏼
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Take what comfort you can from knowing that your beautiful people are still there with you. Love seems to be both a gift and a curse. You have to choose to love knowing the price you might have to pay or avoid love and exist in a vacuum.
Dear Nicky, please take your time! Sleep when you want to sleep, this loss is not nothing, your tribe will understand.... Send you light and love ♥
Grief has to be one of the hardest things to live through 💔 22 years ago my 8 year old daughter Ashlee passed away tragically 😭 I remember my arms physically hurting because I wanted to hug her so much 😔 .. grief counseling saved my life 🤍 and now I know she's always with me ❣️
I'm sending you the biggest hug all the way from New Zealand 🤍
I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter. Sending a big hug and prayers 🙏
Oh darling how awful ❤❤❤❤❤ I am so glad you have found some strength to keep going 🙏🏻⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
My husband died almost 6 months ago… and I hadn’t slept well ever since. I finally took a friends advice to try CBD oil… one dropper full before bed and I was sleeping through the night. Doesn’t affect me negatively in anyway. Just a thought…♥️
Sorry for your loss, sending a big hug and prayers 🙏
Yes tried it xx my body hates it 😂😂
I wonder if high dosage Valerian would work ? And magnesium sleep powder?
I watched your interview with Alex last night and it was amazing.. you looked so lovely Nicky and the way you held it all together was unbelievable. It’s not surprising you are so tired and sad today. Take care and sleep when you can ❤️
Thank you so much!!❤❤❤
My Earthing grounding mat has made a huge difference in the quality of my sleep. ♥️
You looked stunning on that interview! Much love!💕
Thank you so much!!❤❤❤
5 months since my darling Bill passed at home. Grief is so difficult & over whelming. One day at a time .... Hugs
God bless you darling soul ❤
My mom passed in 2010 (2yrs after a brain injury/life reset), my best friend and deepest grief ive experienced. I'm amazed you're functioning right now. I made it through because my parents set me as the executor of Mom's Will. I had no choice. A drug addicted brother putting vinegar in the coffee pot, my food in the freezer, stealing moms jewelry, told Im not even real family, etc all because I'm adopted, the youngest, and jealousy. Such a nightmare. Hearing your story on Alex's show my headt went out to you in compassion and empathy. I lost touch with my psychic gifts after the next several years of trauma after my moms passing. Be easy with yourself, allow yourself to grieve (and not shut down as i did), allow people to help, many will say less than helpful things because they're at a loss, talk to him often. Sending you love and healing ❤️💚
@@kristyhoover1122 aw hun love to you x hugs n healing x
It is no time at all.
My darling husband went home a couple of years ago. Knowing he is beside me always gives me such strength. Some days are okay, but some are like a Tsunami. I just batten down and wait for it to pass as there is nowhere to get for any peace.
Lack of sleep and panic attacks are all part of it. When your partner goes home, in an instant you have lost your best friend, your lover, your rock and confidant and you feel like you have landed in a foreign land, where you haven’t got any idea about how to get from A to B et al.
We have to treat ourselves as our own best friend and have no expectations. You are running on adrenaline, so just follow your beautiful heart and be guided.
Sending much love to all.❤xx
This is so true I'm in the same position .God bless and be with you
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I saw that interview! It was spectacular! Always sending love and light to you! ❤
It really was.
Me too.
Watched as well. It was fantastic. I may watch it again! ❤
Thank you so much!🪽🪽💕💕💕💕
Sending love and strength! I just passed my husband's 3 yr anniversary of going home. It does change it's not quite as painful, but the heartbreak never goes away.I'm so happy that you get signs. I'm still waiting ❤
@@karenploransky9391 oh darling so sorry xx
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… l remember the insomnia and waking at 3am….. ❤ you are doing all the right things x. Keep grateful for the love and gifts you have received xxx. You are so loved x l resonate so much what you say x …. Glad you had an interview with the wonderful AF 😊
Dearest Nicky, a friend of mine told me about you, your loss of your soul mate Darren, and your interview with Alex Ferrari. ( Ijust watched it.) I just wanted to drop by and send you a ton of love from country south Australia. You're in my thoughts and prayers, and I dearly hope somehow, one of my meditations can assist you in some small way for a better sleep. Wrapping you in healing light and love... Jason. xxx
My darling Jason. This is a wonderful and welcome surprise my love as I listen to you every single night! 🙏🏻✨now I know how it feels to be starstruck when someone I hold in such high admiration and respect leaves a comment for me! 💕💕✨⭐️ bless you for taking the time to message I am so humbled and grateful.
Your work is beyond enlightening and has kept me me going through all the dark nights of fear, pain and insomnia. May the angels bless you every minute of your life, Nicky 💕💕💕
Hello from Colorado dear Nicky!
Saw you last night on Alex's show and you looked fantastic, sparkly and fresh faced, and your sincerity and inner soul-beauty was shining through.
I'm sure you gained more followers!
You are blessed and your day-after blues seem normal as your energy was given to your audience and Alex in service. Then you felt exhausted. Just nurture yourself and know you are healing still.
Love you! ❤️
Thanks angel xx love to you ❤❤❤❤
Nicky, I couldn't of went through my grief and dealing with heartless family members, without you, you are a beautiful soul ma lovely! Thinking of you and sending lots a love from Canada ❤ xxx
@@allyd440 and to you my love 💓💓💓💓
I watched your interview with Alex. You were amazing. Thank you for all your videos helping people with their grief journey while you are dealing with your own grief.
Sending you love. ❤❤
Darren was with us during this video wasn't he?!?!! He was letting us all know that he was there, listening and wanted to be a part of it again!!! Well done Darren!! You flashed your light and right away I said Hi Darren good on you sir!!!! ❤❤❤
As always sending lots of love and light from Arizona ❤❤❤
@@dorothyquintana6095 yes I think so ✨✨✨⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
@@dorothyquintana6095 yes I thought so too ❤
It’s been 3 months since Darren went home I love the way you put that Nikki.. we all long for home 💞
I understand the deafening void of nothingness - hugely challenging.
Strongs, Nicky ❤
Bless you, you beautiful lady ♥ Followed you for a while now. I have suffered the loss of my grandparents, family and friends and my mum and dad and spent over half of my life on my own after a volitile 18 yr marriage, that was over 18 Yrs ago. Im sure my life lesson is unconditional love (sometimes i go mad trying to work it out) I have been asking myself for years why me, yet I am awake to celestrial truth and our god sourse but I don't have your skill that you with the evidence that you and your tribe see, I feel I have a knowing. You resonate with me deeply and I send you so much light and love as I have never suffered the loss of a soul mate or partner. Sending you love and strength to deal with your loss as your gift to humanity is one of pure love and just wanted to thank you for for you do for us all, try and get some rest sweetheart Xx
Oh dear Nicky…., he’s with you always…, you see and hear the signs…. Sending you healing love from Washington state 🥰🥰🥰🥰🙏❤️💫
Nicky, you looked gorgeous on Alex’s Next Level Soul interview! I hope you can find a solution to your insomnia, it can be so debilitating and you’re dealing with grief, and so many requests pulling you in different directions. Blessings and love to you.
Yes it’s very tough xx❤
Alex is the best. You two are a super duo! ❤
Yes we have a lovely energy ❤❤❤❤
Hi Nicky every day you get stronger you cannot expect it all to be good in just three onths. I am looking forward to your interview I love watching Alex's Channel. Hugs and kisses 🥰🥰🙏🫂 take care
@@marycordemans4220 I will thank you x I know I’m pushing myself I need to ease up xx
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Love you Nicky💚 . Your interview with Alex brought me to tears of grief, joy and laughter . Your strength is inspirational and your compassion for others mind blowing. 💚🛸🌏☮
@@rustygrunert5316 me too!! I was crying like a baby.
Most of us have shared your grief with loss of a partner, loved one. It’s good to share 🐝
💞💞 lots of love and healing to all the people on here going through loss. 💞💞💞💞💞
Thank you so much for this Nicky! 💗 my grandpa passed away in 2021 if it wasn’t for his passing it wouldn’t of taken the spiritual path and opening my Gifts from the other side that on this healing journey! Knowing that I got my gramps on the other side! 💙
Love and hugs Nicky, god bless you. You are a beautiful soul ❤
My hubby passed 15 years ago unexpectedly aged 57...todate there are days when I feel his loss as if it were yesterday. The loss and pain of his physical absence changes but its always with me.
Your honesty is so admirable, loved your content for a long time now, what ever you give to us, your tribe, we always recieve your wisdom with gratitude. ❤❤ ❤ you are fab. Xx and you were gorgeous on Alex's show.!!😊
Watching and learning from New Zealand
Always soothing to see and listen to you❤ thank you
Thank you for all that you do Nicky. Your videos help me so so much. I also have fibromyalgia and Rheumatoid arthritis. My mum passed away from a burst ulcer and she also had Rheumatoid arthritis. I am just about to move house yet again after having a no fault eviction. My animals particularly my dog and your videos are keeping me going. Thank you again Nicky. Love and Light xx
Oh darling sounds like my life a few years ago xx bless you ❤❤ keep strong ❤❤
@@NickyAlanPsychicMedium Thank you Nicky. I'm in a proper mess at the moment and in tears as I write this. I wish my mum was here, I really need her 😢 xx
Ive suffered from chronic insomnia for 40 years. Even with prescription meds i might only get an hour broken each night but id say just do what you are doing. Stay in bed and put the meditation or sound frequency on. Its still relax time x
Was a great interview ❤ take care if yourself. I lost my son and husband a few years back, it took me years to move on. Im proud of you, but you still need to take care.
The cat in the hat ....are you kidding thats so in your face it 😳 oh wow as I am writing this I can see that wobble on the left of you , thats amazing. He obviously isnt leaving your side.💚💚💚💚💜💜💜💜💜
I just want to hug you Nicky. You are such a truly authentic and wonderful person. Thank you for sharing your most vulnerable thoughts with us on how grief impacts you. My first real experience with death occurred as a teenager. I dated this wonderful guy and when we broke up, I held a place of love for him. We had a class together our sophomore year and we were able to become friends again. I had this feeling we would reconnect our senior year and attend prom together. Call it a gut feeling I suppose. Well fate had a different plan, and the summer before our junior year, he was in a horrible car accident with 6 guys in the vehicle with him. He was taken to the hospital and placed in ICU. All of our friends and his family were there praying and crying, and connecting with each other over him. I went back to see him a few times and held his hand and talked to him begging him not to leave. To fight to live. Unfortunately his head injury was too much and all the medicine pumped in him started to make organs fail. He passed away and it hurt like absolute hell. At his burial site, I found I didn’t want to leave him there. I remember telling my mom that he would cold and lonely. I loved him with a pure love. I made him a music playlist on tape and went to the beach a few weeks later and just listened to it and talked to him as I walked up and down the beach. I have never forgotten him. I saw his parents regularly as my customers as a pharmacist. His mom would always hug me and tell me it was nice to see someone his age and what we all were doing. Now that I have awakened to some of my gifts, he comes to visit me. I feel his presence and we talk. It’s so comforting to know he is around. I grieved for him for a very long time. I realized at such a young age that I am not immortal on this earth. I just pray for peace and serenity for you. May you know how loved you are and so appreciated for all you pour into us. Fast forward to today, and I am with my mother n law during her final days with terminal cancer. I am celebrating her as often as possible and we have talked about how we will communicate when she makes her celestial transition. The Angels and the Holy Spirit have been heavily present with us. My grieving has already begun because I am watching her slowly leave us each day. I don’t honestly know what is more difficult- to lose someone fast and unexpected or slowly while watching them diminish as their soul starts the process of going home. They both are not easy and I too am experiencing a lot of up all night experiences contemplating life and beyond. Much love to you always.
I saw the flash and as I typed my message to you my lights were flickering.
Darling I have always asked myself that as all my loved ones have gone quickly or tragically. I feel he may have been your soul mate this time round? ❤ I am sending love to your mother in law and please invoke Archangel Azrael to preside over you all and Raphael for ultimate healing 💚💚💚💚💚🪽 sending my love hun ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Loved the Alex F interview. You looked stunning! You were glowing. ❤
Tip: cold slices of cucumber for swollen eyes.
I cried so much when my mom died that my eyes were convex and then, of all things, they peeled like a sunburn. The cucumber was very soothing. ❤️
Sending you big, baby-soft cuddles (in lieu of real ones). Keep doing you (trauma and all) ❤❤
Thank you ❤❤❤
I flew back to USA on Friday 13th after Mums funeral back in 2012 and arrived in USA same night and went to work Monday. I have no idea how I did it. I have no memories at all. I was with her for last weeks of his life. I've seen her in dreams and I have felt her lay next to me.
Nicky you have come so far over the last 3 months, and you are helping your community in coping with the grief process. Truly thank you nicky. We will always be here to listen and support you ❤️ 🙏
We will support you for as long as it takes, months and years and centuries and eons if need be. ❤
Nicky I'm crying for you breaks my heart too see the grief on your face in your heart. Its a slow process but hopefully time will help with acception, healing. You are a testament to our race that you have the fortitude to cope as well as you have. God bless your soul,love,light , blessings to you our lovely lady.🇬🇧🇬🇧🕊️🕊️🙏🙏
Nicky, don't worry about pharma meds, it's important to do what you need and feels right, there's no time limit for grief either, it really is early days , much love and a hug xx
Hi Nicky , you are such an inspiration to us all .
Sending huge hugs & much love xxx
Stages …waves…. Bless Sending you love and light x. ❤
Its not a coincidence that we all are attracted/guided to the people that resonate at a higher vibration and speak our shared vibration, I love Alex Ferrari & I adore you Nicky! I am so happy both of you exist/share & dare to help. Thank you! 🦋✨💎
We love you so much ❤❤❤❤❤ thank you for the extremely difficult journey you chose in order to help others.
I love listening to you Nicky, it’s like we are having a cuppa and sharing a loving space. Take your time sweet lady, I love all your stories. This is the most wonderful time with you.🙏🇨🇦
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Nicky lovely to hear your voice, keep moving forward, you are brilliant, brave and beautiful, love & healing sent ❤️❤️❤️
❤ I saw it Nicky, it was lovely ❤ thank you this chat Nicky,🤗 it has really resonated today ❤🕯🙏
I have suffered with insomnia for years, and at times push through staying up 24 hour at a time. At times i get it right , and then lapse back. Know what it is like sleeping till 2 ir 3pm ti catch up on sleep.!!!!😊😊😊😊
Dear Nicky! I've listened to the conversation with Alex almost as soon as it came on.. your sharing makes it easier to accept the pain and the living in the void... going home with your lover..never truly returning..living in two worlds..your voice is so soothing..thank you, love to you, hugs♥️♥️♥️♥️
Nicky take your time . Grief is in control when we mourn we have to just go with it . Grieving myself at this moment I’m just going with it wherever I need to go , wherever it takes me I feel what needs to be felt . Your doing amazing, helping so many and just having the time to do these sessions is STRENGTH. Love you loads and keep doing what you need to do to get through it . Bless you always beautiful Angel ✝️🩵💟😇. We are Divinely blessed being part of you and having you in our lives .. 🙏💛💯🦋
It’s been ten months for me and I can’t remember a lot of the time leading up to and after losing my husband. Sleep is a real issue. I hope this passes for us both. You are amazing Nicky, I wish you peace and joy when the time is right.
Loved your interview with Alex, you looked all sparkly. You both have such an obvious bond over things. Equally love you without all the slap and filters, it makes you so relatable! 😊 I know these videos can’t be easy but you do make them look so effortless, sitting there in your pyjamas. I couldn’t sit and talk for an hour about such deep, meaningful, helpful things without a script. Don’t fret over opening presents etc. it will all get done eventually, and when you do open them it will bring up such great memories of that weekend. ☺️
Thank you Nicky I really resonated with your interview. And I am so sorry for your lose. I lost my only daughter at 45 years old suddenly. She passed without me by her side. How ironic that you held your loved one above the water, and such trauma to go through. Bless you. Your video this morning describes how grief hits you. One minute you are ok and the next you are not. My daughter passed on the 4.9.24 not long after your loved one xx It has given me some peace hearing you say he is still with you. The hard part is that everyone's life goes on , but your whole world has changed forever. I feal your pain. And I get that monkey mind where I relive the last moments of her life. She also had no will ,so I get what you have been through. Bless your beautiful heart ,you helped me xx
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I absolutely loved your interview with Alex! ❤🌹🕊 I always look forward to your posts and anyone interviewing you. ❤️🌹🕊 I send you love,light,peace, and joy. ❤️🌹🕊
May you have a physical visitation like the one I received at the grocery store. ❤️🌹🕊
Hi Nicky, and thank you again for sharing. Your interview with Alex brought me to tears. As for medication, after so much difficulty with severance after taking anti-depressants for years, I avoided them after losing my TF a few months ago. Now obviously every story is different. You know we are all with you, same with your guides and angels. Loads of love xxx
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We saw that interview ❤❤❤❤❤❤ so much love from Australia 🇦🇺
We love you nicky thankyou for your strength and devine light what a difference you are bringing to humanity 🎉❤🎉❤
I love the smile that comes across your face at special memories of Darren. :)
Thank you Nicky darling ❤️. I did see the shadow. Xxxxx I hope you have a better night sleep 😴. Xxxxx
Please Nicky, give yourself grace. Moving through grief at this stage is like moving through molasses. Everything is fuzzy and forgetting is natural. Hopefully one of your friends is helping you through this. My heart just breaks for you and every nasty thing that has happened. But I know, your friends and angels will get you through every second. Sleep as often as you can. It's part of the recovery. God bless to you. ❤😢
Nick Propanolol is a god send. It's got me through some really harsh times, and when my Fibromyalgia flares up it stops the panic attacks I get in the middle of the night. Be kind to yourself Sweetheart. You're doing really well 💗
I have a pillow beside me where my late husband lay. Still have it there 2 years on. But it still helps. Love you Nicky. Your amazing ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Good to see you on Alex channel, bless you. Since my stroke I can't comfortably read so audio books are great. Peter Levine is so respected in the trauma field. Babette Rothschild has some good self help books too xx
Dear Nicky, just do what you feel, that is more than enough! We’re all here for You. I think of you frequently with so much Love and Support 🙏💕❤️🙏 I also want to Thank You for A signed copy of your new book 💥🙏❤️ And I now also have bought your Tarot cards with the QR on so Thankyou, I’m truly Grateful to you xxx❣️✨🙏
Just remember baby steps, love always ❤️
Nicky You are a Rockstar❤❤ You are an amazing soul and I send you all my love and positive healing energy! ❤❤❤❤
Listening to you is like hooking up with a good friend … sending love ❤❤❤❤❤
Dear Nicky, take time out for yourself to be, in whatever way you need. Fall asleep when you're able to, shed tears, and think your thoughts and memories relaxed and happy, if something doesn't get done it can keep. It is a process. Missing our little Merlin cat had a dream about him and begged him to forgive me for vet interventions towards the rainbow bridge he spoke to me like a human to thank me he was suffering and has gone back with his first owner Mick and is so happy to be reunited with Mick who reared him from kittenhood! We love each other and I am so lucky to have little ginger Merlin for so many years in our lives.
I watched your fantastic and moving interview with Alex and I know it will help so many out there. So very glad you and Alex are connected, I love both of you and what wonderful work you are both doing. I totally agree with all the lovely things Alex said to you.
I have recently heard of a very young person I know (late 30s) who has just lost his beautiful wife so I have written to him and pointed him in your direction to see Darren’s Diaries and see your journey. I feel sure it will help him at this very painful time he is going through. Let’s hope he watched it!. Much love ♥️
Nicky I saw your interview with Alex, you are so amazing, thinking how you can help those also dealing with grief.
you looked amazing Nicky, I loved your hair, it's amazing what a good hairdo can do, we love you ,take your time Nicky, congratulation on your successful book signing, you have taught me so much,
A lot of people are having sleepless nights at the moment.
Me included, so just know that you're being thought about and blessed by us insomniacs NIGHT and DAY.
Take care and accept to do less for a while.
❤ big hugs😊
Over exertion from the MBS has emptied the small amount of reserves you had.
This leads to physical and emotional burnout
Time to replenish, you amazing lady ❤
Leave anything that can wait. Your body is telling you that you need to look after yourself and concentrate on healing.
Sending you lots of love hugs and healing
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awe my heart is aching for your cause this is your first yule without darren but is amazing to see all of your family and friends surrounding you with so much love and light please know as much as we don't know you personally we feel like a family soul sisters and we have your back and if you ever need to reach out or want to go for a coffee we are here for that too sending love and healing your way beautiful woman
Yes, monkey mind, hate it. I'm exhausted, fall asleep for 2 hrs, then wake to the monkey mind. I have lost 4 friends + family, & 2 dogs in last 2 yrs. I wish I could cry 😭. I think I am too numb. Love to u always🙌🏼🙏🏼☮️💚
Love you so much Nicky .. I completely understand the exhaustion.. I had that when dad passed.. it’s the second Christmas without him.. it’s awful . Like you when dad passed I gave my home up , couldn’t bear living there now dad had passed, but my partner rescued me , I do feel for you .. I had sound bath yesterday , before the sound bath I felt emotional.. due to the full impending moon, but now I feel lighter. Hope this continues. I have experienced for the first time lucid dreaming , amazing . Please take care of yourself, rest as much as possible .. sending you so much love , .. you’re a beautiful soul Nicky .. oh I’ve just purchased your new book .. can’t wait to read it ❤xxx
I’ve watched baba jolie tarot 😊she is good 👍 also watch path of enlightenment,Nicole her name is and she is excellent 🙌so lovely 🥰 Darren is with you always ❤so comforting 🌟✨💞🇬🇧
It was a wonderful interview & was so nice to see you! You are helping so many Souls who are hurting. Sending you, and Darren, so much Love, hugs & Healing prayers!❤🙏❤
Beautiful Nicky,
Thank you for being so open, raw, and honest with us. I always wanted my family to open up, but we were raised to hide and suppress our feelings and trauma. Things that needed to be said, never were.
You are an Angel who has helped this aging single mother, grandmother, great grandmother except myself and my quirky ways without judgement. I now do as I please and look forward to the transition down the road ❤.
Stay beautiful Nicky. You are a God send to many🙏. Be blessed and continue to encourage us to remain positive in our journey ⚘️.
Sending you light & love❣️
Sending love, healing and strength Beautiful Nicky, you are doing so well my love and also helping lots of other people in the darness and despair of grief, stay strong Beautiful Nicky xxx
Im a new subscriber Nicky.I saw you yesterday when you were interviewed by Alex..just listening to what you had to say about the after life and especially soul contracts has helped me tremendously...Thank you ..❤❤❤
Like you say, no-one wants to be taking tablets but accept that you have to do what you have to do to heal. Often the alternative isn't bearable. You get through however you have to get through. Love you Nicky 💌 you're amazing...x
Insomnia is part of PTSD for me, doesn't help to fight in fact fighting makes it worse. I use it to make more time to meditate or at least dial it down while focusing on keeping vibration up
I recognize, the more I loved the more it hurts, it comes in waves & remembering to honor lets it flow away less painfully than when I used to fight it
The time you shared Darren with us was magical! I'm so grateful! It helped me heal & continues to every time you have been able to share since he made his journey to the other side of the veil
I send much Love & Prayers for Blessings for you!
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Thank you❤️
Let it go x ❤ allow it … you are so wise Nicky…. Self love self compassion x ❤
Please be kind to yourself Nicky. Bless you 🙏 ♥️
Love you Nicky! Take care of you. Rest whenever you need to, it’s ok to take meds if you need to, it’s ok to just heal. You are an amazing beautiful soul ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are such a Gem Nicky you have helped me so much navigating greif along with you❤🎉
Dear Nicky ❤sending love and hugs, you are an inspiration and guiding light for us all, your so brave, kind and a beautiful person. X
Yes new year new energy , we all love you , Eckhart Tolle is great to listen to as well , his calm voice helps me to relax , I enjoy epsom salt bath when I want to relax
I lost my father in law, my nephew, his mother my sister and my husband one after the other. It's been three years since the last-my husband. I wish I felt them. Sending you love
Loved the interview and sending love to you! From Arizona
I’ve always said if you can say I don’t want to take antidepressants, then you don’t need them. Because when you feel so wretched you will do anything at all just to make you feel just a little bit like your old self again. It takes time.. but when u feel so lost, a minute can feel like a lifetime..you will get back to life Nicks..Darren and all the people who love will help you sweetheart ❤️❤️xx
🪷🌟 Darling Nicky, sharing & understanding grief. You surely did beautifully well in yesterday’s interview with our beloved friend, Alex, of Next Level Soul. I found Alex when I needed comfort most. Grieving is an odd business, all its own. Two of my four children have left this planet. Jesse Andrew (41) 5.3 years back. Took about 48 months, to feel I’d regained my footing, when Jesse’s older brother,
Benjamin Thomas (47 & father of two small children) died; 15 months ago. I battle insomnia as yet, and the “3 a.m wake-up call”. I try to not fall into my old pattern, which I dread, that of being fully awake three hours, then falling drop-dead exhausted into 3 hours of sleep. This pattern can carry-on for weeks. And I do as you stated, try to fight to stay awake the long day. I work a 7 hour shift, through a seasonal job, straight through, so I have that to keep me occupied, but is home to the 3 hour “nap” and the cycle continues on. I am keeping you in my heart & prayers Nicky. Am hoping to purchase your fictional book soon, as I am to write. I need some notion of how this will occur for me. I find you inspiring beyond words! May your guides keep, guide, guard you, from within your heart and exquisite soul. Hugs & love, Cynthia
🌟🪷Laguna Beach, California
Lv alex his podcast amazing im so glad you went on again ❤️ take all the time you need my lovely xxx you are doing amazing Darren will be so proud of how much you have achieved talking and including everyone on tour journey. Darren walks one step behind in front and beside you with your fur babies ... eternally 😚