Please... take care of yourself before other. Take your time, be well and get back to your task and goals when YOU are ready. People that care about you will understand the situation. We know and comprehend that there is nothing foul from your actions. Life is indeed a struggle Friend... we all know this but all of our struggles at unique. Take your time the make it through your current storm. We are going to be here for you. Be well Friend. Be well. :3
you know brother, as someone whom lost almost all my loved ones, grief is a fascinating experience that often fuels our desires and vices while recalling memories of joy and pain. Its strange but it makes me think that we grow as individuals when we find purpose in it. Every death you live through you make something personal of the bond lost and carry this symbol with you that can often be a catalyst of deep changes in your mind and path of life. The pain is hard to deal with, we learn to live with it one way or another, but after years of dealing with it you can look back and see how much you changed and hopefully matured your thoughts about life with that person and life without and how we move forward through time in our life. Sometimes good things come out of it.
You're not too late. I didn’t helped my cousin while he was drowning in alcool. Litterally. He died after one year of trying to recover from cirrhosis. I was far away, and the only thing I could do was accompagny his Mass as a musician. I felt like that when going to vet for the last moments of my 17yo cat. Use your energy wisely, hope someone do like what you're doing somehow. I know I do. Take care. 😊
No need to apologize, friend. Your buddy will be watching over you and the rest of your group till you all meet again. Take care of yourself and have a happy Halloween
Always devastating to lost someone close to you... i'm 38 and sometimes i'm still struggling with grief, lost the love of my life because of leukemia when i was 22, i still go to the gym, work, playing video game etc etc, trying to look forward but it's a deep wound that never truly heal, stay strong my friend.
Man, guilt on top of grief is brutal. Don't be too hard on yourself. Just think about how much better you made Scottie's days when you did have the opportunity to hang out. Good luck with everything
I lost my dear aunt in August, and this is one of the thoughts that kept me going. She was always there for me during the very hard parts of my life and I know that she would not want me to suffer after her passing.
My heart breaks for you, Jerrel. Just remember: to grieve deeply is to have loved fully. Remember the good times you had with your friend and as long as you do that he'll always be there.
Lost my father back in February and It hurts everyday. He had cancer but like Scotty the cancer didn’t get em, total organ failure got my dad. I am so sorry for your loss man, I know how it feels.
loss is one thing we all go through, it's never pleasant or easy but it's something everyone can relate to. we'll still be here when you're ready Jerrel.
I’m sitting here with my father in hospice rn, I’ve been taking care of him for 6 months but we are down to the final minutes and hours of stage 4 lung and bone cancer. I know part of your pain, and for the part I do not I am so fn sorry. As worthless as a strangers apology is it’s all I have to offer you.
I feel the same compassion and well wishes for you. Despite being strangers, we can still understand each other. It is difficult staring down the barrel of a gun meant for someone else. I hope you are able to spend good time together and that you have a good support system there for you with family and friends.
@@Cracker_Barrel_Kidd_55 I've noticed that myself, and I believe it's due to strangers not having any obligation to take time away from their day to wish you well. We expect relatives to be supportive, but place no such hopes on people we've never met.
Death is always hard, just two days ago I was emotional again from losing a friend a decade ago. In time they become reminders and encouragement to be a better person tomorrow than you are today, I hope that for you too.
Tomorrow is never promised and time literally is a fleeting moment. I’m so very sorry for your loss my friend, my prayers for you and your friends family.
Please don't feel the need to push yourself through things for us. "I need to work as hard as I can" is the mindset that I had after my father passed, and I deeply regret it because I wanted to take my mind off of grief, but I've found it is much worse to stifle things and move on. I pray you find peace and I give my heartfelt condolences for your loss. Thank you for your transparency
Grief will come for everyone at some point and we all must weather it. The pain dulls over time but you point out a very important thing, find ways to healthily grieve loss. Jarrell thank you for sharing and be well!
Loss of someone near and dear to us, is never easy, I am sorry you lost someone near and dear to you, as someone who struggles to mentally deal with these things, I think being able to talk about them as you are, is very inspiring and comforting. I agree with what you said, grief and vulnerability are parts of the human condition, that aren't explored in games and media in a way that resonates, or has long lasting impact. It feels very strange when I consider what you mentioned: that games try to capitalize on relatability, through things like race/sexuality, and shy away from emotions and experiences everyone faces at some point, which connect us all to being "human". The former seems so hollow. I am sorry as I don't think I am very good with words, even thought I spent a bit to write this out. I just wanted to say I found what you said was very profound, and I sincerely appreciate what you had to say.
my condolences man. lost a friend myself last year and it was surreal, but i figure our conversation's just on pause and ill catch up with him eventually.
The first woman I was ever truly in love with died of leukemia when I was 20. Its been almost six years, and I'm already eight years older than she ever got to be. I think about her at least once a day. Periodically I'll message her on Facebook since it never got deactivated. It feels stupid admitting it out loud but she was one of the best friends I've ever had and it helps me feel closer to her even tho I know she can never and will never message back.
I'm not sure if that makes you feel better but I'll definetly pray for your friend (and based on how you described him he is definetly in heaven, cheering you on and happy for you and your accomplishments)
I lost one of my best friends to cancer in 2019. I didn’t go to his life celebration because I was working over time for a company that I thought would appreciate me. He was cremated and I never knew where his ashes were scattered. So I have no where to visit him. Ironically I was laid off later the next year at the beginning of the pandemic. So I lost my best friend and my job within a few months of one another. It is one of my biggest regrets in my life to this day. As much as we wish we could have been there. It’s something we have to unfortunately live with. I think of Russell almost daily and how I wish I spent more time with him towards the end. Scotty appreciated you and the love you gave him. He would understand that you couldn’t be there but felt your love nonetheless. Good bless brother
So sorry for your loss. That feeling of "I should have..." It's really tuff and it'll creep up from time to time, but you know that he knew you cared for him and he knew you both appreciated the times you got to spend together
I'm so sorry for your loss, I really mean that. Just 2 weeks ago I lost my 20 year old cat Lily. We've been inseparable for my whole adult life and I don't feel whole without her. My heart is broken. I really feel for you, the pain is incredible. Please consider reading or listening to the audiobook "Understanding Your Grief" by Alan Wolfelt. It really has helped me with processing the loss. All the best to you, please be kind and compassionate to yourself. And thanks for sharing, this meant a lot to me to see ❤
Grief and loss is a difficult thing to deal with. What Totalbiscuit said some tirme before his passing was, that you enjoy your friends and family as much as you can in the present while you can, because you never know when you can't do that with your loved ones any longer. Like you said yourself, you try and deal with the situation as gracefully as you can, and keep pushing on.
I am sorry for your loss. A family member of mine died of cancer a few weeks ago. Nobody saw it coming, because he didn't want to burden anyone with the bad news. I don't like the decision he made, but ultimately I think I respect it. It was his decision, and who am I to take that away from him? Pretty often life just sucks, we all have to die someday. We should really keep in mind our own and others mortality and should enjoy every sliver of happiness and maybe even fun we can have before the grim reaper gets to us. So enjoy the things you love :).
My sincerest condolences for you loss. He did sound like a true friend and I've unfortunately had some experience with such bereavement in recent years. All i can say is to treasure good health and good company and not take it for granted, because it can be so easily taken away.
No matter how much we think we are ready to deal with loss, we never are. It all happens so quick, and always leave such a hole within our lives. One can only push forward and carry forward those hopes, dreams, and memories of those we lost. Stay strong.
its ok to take time to grieve. we are ''not allowed'' to do so in these days. we have to push down feelings, wich are part of beeing human, and always perform and be at our best, I think that contributes alot for depressions and burnouts. yopu have a loved one that passes, and you have to be back to work in 3 days and ''get over it'' thats not how it works. be kind to yourself, take some time. and thank you for making me think about things that are important to me right now. xx
Stay strong brother I know it's easier said than done but I hope you take the time and go easy on yourself. I wish I've done more things to help friends in life before they passed away but I just know that life is not guaranteed and we gotta treat everyday as a gift. I know deep down I will meet again with all my friends and family again one day 🙏 much love man
Im so sorry to hear that, im not just saying that i really mean it, i lost my brother 14 years ago and those wounds are still fresh, you never really get over that pain especially when you're close to them, thats a gaping hole in the heart that never heals, but were all here for you, all your fans are here for you to help you through, remember all the good memories with him, its the only way i get through the day with the loss of my brother and i will honour him the best way i can, it doesn't help how much i miss him, but the memory of him is alive in my heart so he isnt truly gone, i hope in some way that helps, but you are in my thoughts 😢
I lost my best friend last year. Somebody I loved like a brother, and sadly although I knew he was my best friend since childhood and that I loved him, I really didn't learn how MUCH I loved him until the day he was gone. People like that become a part of you and you lose that part when they are gone. I miss him every single day.
I'm sorry again for your and Doc's loss. Everyone's experience of loss is different, the guilt and even shame of thinking you didn't do/visit/support them enough is pretty common in my experience. I had that with my grandpa 10+ years back, I wasn't close with him but it hurts all the same. Towards his end his mood and personality were completely different from the meds and diabetes moods swings, he hardly felt like my grandpa anymore...even forgot who I was quite a few times. I was at college in a different state, so I was pretty busy and it was hard to visit. I wasn't there for his passing and to support family, and regretted it for a long time. Honoring their memory, talking about their life, and supporting their family/friends afterward (in any capacity, doesn't have to be in person) is always a good place to start the healing process. Personally, I find it easier to talk about my feelings around a loss to irl and internet acquaintances/strangers rather than people I'm truly close with. So just as much as you want to be a positive example for us, I hope talking through this video and reading our comments is cathartic for you. ❤
As someone whom has not only had cancer themselves, but also lost friends to it, I understand your pain. The pain dulls over time, but never quite goes away completely. It's the same way with cancer, I may have beat it, but every time I have to go again for more testing is extremely tense, hoping I'm still healthy as I wait to hear from the doctors. I hope this too, gets easier as time passes, but I don't think it does. Love your videos, take care of yourself.
RIP SCOTTY. My grandfather used to say “show me your friends and I’ll tell you who you are.” Scotty was obviously a stand up guy and a great human being. We don’t have enough of those. Smooth travels to the other side, friend.
What kind of a friend is Jerrel then? By his own admission he hadn´t talked to Scotty in over a year despite knowing he was sick. Just a few days ago he was pushing the story that the only reason he was growing the channel was to sell more games so that he could earn money to visit Scotty. That story made little sense then and it makes zero sense now. He´s now telling us that Scotty is dead and he´s mad at himself for "not being there and being stronger". What´s that supposed to mean? What kinda of a man doesn´t speak to someone they call a friend for more than a year while knowing they are sick? He´s now using his friends death to promote himself again. This stuff makes my blood boil. The grief makes it hard for him to work on his games but he´s been pumping out one anti-woke video a day. C´mooonn.. How childishly naive is the crowd here? Wake up and smell the grift that you´ve all stepped in... 5 more Dragon Age videos are on the way.
@@PeePawPo I was gonna type out a very detailed response letting you know the exact species of subhuman you are, but I’m not gonna follow through. I feel badly for you, you’re obv a sad person. Hopefully not permanently, and I wish you the best navigating out of the sewer you’ve seemed to make home. Best of luck.
@@PeePawPo what exactly is he pushing/selling in this video senor numbnuts? He playing for subs? Most of us already are. Also most ppl I think watch this man because they agree with the things that he says or find him entertaining. Nobody’s here because sympathy. We were already here and sympathy is a normal human emotion. At least when not filled to the gills on ssris
@@Cracker_Barrel_Kidd_55 I guess I´m sad because my frontal lobe is still working and I don´t buy the hate that Sungrand and the mob have been peddling here for the last month. My BS detector is also still working while you wouldn´t recognize doo doo if you landed it in face first. You want to adress the issues raised or hide behind personal attacks...just like everyone else here.
You just need to talk to him in your mind, we are all mind. As a friend you have gained a direct connection to his soul. He's watching you, and proud of you.
I imagine he'd be quite happy with that horn-y antler frame. That's one cool way to have the dead remembered fondly. Our frames over here are all boring in comparison.
Its so beautiful that our friends stay with us forever in our hearts and memories after they are gone... All the great times we spend together with them will stay with us... To deal with the loss of a loved one is a very difficult for anyone, and the burden can only be lessened by shareing it with other friends and family. The loss of my father during the pandemic changed my view of the world and I hope i have become more mature to take on the challenges of life and this world. Be strong Jarrel, your down to earth videos are very calming after a rough day. We all are with you in these rough times, take your time and come back strong just as your friend would have wanted you to be. My condolences to you and the family. Take care and give your best everyday.
My condolences for your loss, please do not feel the need to push yourself as you continue to process what's happened. Happy Halloween, friend. The game will be ready when it's ready.
We don’t mind that you are late on your tasks. We care about how much work and effort you put into your work. It’s always a work of art made out of love. Thank you, Dad, for all you do.
You are a strong man. I was tearing up hearing the passing of a stranger. I feel sad for you. But you are a badass throughout the video explaining vulnerability. Take care of yourself. I will always click on your video in my news feed whenever you upload. Keep them coming. About the homebrew games, I believe to produce great work, one has to be focused? Just like anything in life. We can only do one thing at a time. You don’t have to work so hard or as much as you can. I believe good things come to those who wait.
Life is all about loss entirely everyday we lose more and more until we are gone ourselves and that's why we need to really enjoy every day to the max. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. They're watching over you I know it
Ive had more than my share of these kinds of losses. My only advice is let the sorrow run its course, but dont get stuck in it. Remember the good things and let all good memories be a light and a guide in harsh situations. You are not alone.
My condolences, Jerrel. Be strong as the grief and pain is real when someone passes, but if you accept everything that is happening, it actually helps move on and I'm sure your friend would like it that you remain calm and peaceful after all of this
I worked in medical referrals for a few years, mostly with older patients or oncology cases, and one thing our management always reminded us was to have grace for ourselves, our coworkers, and the folks we were there to help, and to reach out before things break us down or harden us up too much. Please give yourself grace and patience!
Sorry about the loss of your friend. It really sucks when we lose people that we love. I can relate with you, I’ve lost a handful of friends and family myself
Sorry about your loss. Trust me, none of your followers are worried about a game release when you're going through a rough patch. Take care of yourself. Make whatever content you feel like making. We'll be here to support you.
My condolences. I lost my grandma a few years back, and circumstances did not allow me to be there with her at the end. Once it began, she declined too fast. And visiting was heavily restricted due to it being the height of covid. I haven't yet forgiven myself for that. I'm not sure I ever will. I'm told time heals all wounds. I sincerely hope that's true. Even thought it hurts, remember your friend with a smile on your face, it's probably what he would want. And even if the game doesn't come out in Halloween, it's still a Halloween game so long as it's Halloween themed. Stay safe and have a good day.
I'm so sorry... I remember you talking about him on a live a few months ago. I'm sorry you won't be able to reach the goal you wanted to before his loss but we are still all here for you. Also I think Silverfalls being themed around grief is so true and I do believe it helps others who plays the games. Anger will always come with death and I hope you don't beat yourself up to much. Love from a fan
Sorry for your loss, man. While I haven't played any of your games, nor was I awaiting your new homebrew releases, I'm sure those who were will understand. Life is unpredictable.
I'm a silent viewer of your channel and I also lost a loved one to cancer (my brother) I know what this situation and I just want you to know that I appreciate you. Thank you for being you, I appreciate you and the expertise you share in your videos. I appreciate you fam.
My deepest condolences for Scotty may he rest in peace, and thank you for sharing your grief and expressing it with us. We understand and are here for you.
as a fellow human who has experienced grief, and especially someone taken away from me that wasn't supposed to go the way they did, I fully empathize. we aren't feeling the same things, but as a fellow human I do empathize. the winter season is extremely hard, but we'll all get through it together.
I to have lost a friend. We met online and were able to visit each other a couple of times. One night the gaming crew got informed that he passed away in his sleep, due to a Seizure. The sad part, he was opening up with more personal problems at the end of his life. I was trying to be helpful with my usual method of focusing on the positives, but to this day, I wish I was slightly more willing to listen and just be there personally. It truly was the story of, "see you guys tomorrow", followed by, Last seen online 5years. Then there's the moments, the smells, jokes for a one man crowd, and many other shared experiences that only that person would understand. It hurts to have this wrapped gift never to be opened, yet we have many gifts still to share. Thanks for reminding me to cherish my current friendships and relationships, giving them more of my time.
Loss is the hardest thing for me to process. Grieving takes a long time, it hurts, and over time it heals. Hope it gets better soon. Most people know how hard it is to lose a loved one. Take care my dude.
Grief and the loss of a loved one, lead me down the road of a crippling heroin addition that lasted over 10 years of my life I lost friends and family to fentanyl, but 3 years ago I was able to get the help I needed and I'm clean now and never been happier, and I love life again. This isn't related but, I also enjoy the content you make, and just to let you know I'm 100% sure you are helping people by making the videos you do.
Truly sorry for your loss. Thank you for your candour and your brilliant videos. Hope you can get some time to grieve and heal. May the memory of happier times soothe the pain of your friend’s passing.
Hey if it comes out during the Christmas season you can pull a hallmark and put Halloween into the Christmas season. Don't say sorry take time for you and grieve. Thanks for sharing.
Hahaha thank you. Humor is helpful in moments like this. You're making me think of the Hallmark channel and how they make the exact same Christmas movie every year.
I have a lot of experience with loss. I recommend observing what is happening in your internal universe relentlessly. Get angry, get sad, whatever, unrelentingly observe it. Over time you will realize that although your suffering is the same size, you will grow to become greater than it can match.
Don't apologize for not being able to finish the Halloween homebrew project, its never easy to deal with what you're going through, I don't know how is your situation with work and stuff, but I hope you're able to take some time off
I’m so sorry about your friend. I’m sorry you feel like you let him down. After watching this, I felt like I needed some time to find meaningful words. Something better than the usual condolences. Something that would convey my genuine sympathy. Something that would be helpful. Anything. But there are no words. No consolation. Only a stranger who knows the pain and the regret and has nothing more to offer. So I’ll just say that: I’m sorry you’re going through the sort of pain that stays with you forever. 💛
I feel grief is hopelessly missing someone. We want to see them and say what was left unsaid but there's never a moment we would be ready to lose them and if only option for feeling grief is being alone or emotionally dead I rather pay the price for meeting that amazing person that passed.
Talking about this is always difficult, no one is ready, but believe me is always welcome and someone can get something good about it. I lost who was a second father for me 3 weeks ago, and i got the notification about your video while visiting his "rest place", i was cleaning it because Dia de los muertos is near (im from Mexico) and we usually go an clean, put flowers, go and speak a little bit, and hearing what you said, yeah, people need some time to grief, to remember the goods and if there are the bads, and it helps to find peace and clousure to this stage of life, that doesn't means that we are going to close and forget, nah, but what i've been saying i think from when i'm a kid is that im gonna remember everything that those people teached me, the good the bads and successes and the failures, but i need to keep making steps, and try to give every step, every breathing, every beat of my heart to those who raised me, who teached me, who knew and felt like were my family (friends), is difficult, some people needs more time other less, but is necessary, just don't stay in that moment more than the necessary, my father who passed away 2 years ago said to me "If you stay like that a lot, it's like you are not here anymore, you are dth in live, and they wouldn't like that, we need to think, remember, respect them, and move forward when its time to dedicate everything we do to them, to the family we lost, to the friends we lost, to those who shared a litle bit of time with us". Personally, i've charging with the guilt of my father didn't saw me get a car, a kid, and other things, now i feel like either my second father, but i know that they would said to me that thats no a problem, to keep pushing to an extend (to not keep me in that state of grief forever which when i lost my grandparents as a kid was really difficult), i've been working on it but that feeling comes back, but their words, knowledge, actions, always puts me back on track and makes me do my things with more energy. Take your time, my condolences, reflect on your connection with your friend, see all the things both of you did rather than focusing on the future right now, maybe later that photo rather than feel some guilt makes you remember in the better way. (Sorry for my english, talking about these topics doesn't let me think well in 2 languages, and the place im writing on it when overheats jumps some letter while tiping and i have to go back a lot, so thats why there are some edits, thanks Thinkpads)
My sincere condolences good man. Grief and videogames can go hand in hand I know from experience, it can be a distraction and also way of dealing with tough stuff. Strength to you and in the end be grateful for the time you have shared together. 🤜🏼🤛🏼
Thank you for sharing your story, my condolences for your loss. Personally I am absolutely terrible at handling people's passing. It is because I am very lonely and I feel that eventually there will be nobody left for me and I will just be on my deathbed, suffering alone and maybe some paid worker come to take care of me sometimes. And when my time comes there will be nobody around me anymore to and there will be nobody to even remember that I ever existed. Nobody left to continue my family line and every parent and ancestor that existed before me will ultimately lived and struggled in vain because I failed them.
That is a valid feeling and concern. Still, you never know what will happen in the future. You don't know who you will meet and how your life can change for the better.
I apologize for the Halloween Homebrew PSP game being late this year. I hope you understand.
What is the difference between homebrew and Indie title?
Please... take care of yourself before other. Take your time, be well and get back to your task and goals when YOU are ready. People that care about you will understand the situation. We know and comprehend that there is nothing foul from your actions. Life is indeed a struggle Friend... we all know this but all of our struggles at unique. Take your time the make it through your current storm. We are going to be here for you. Be well Friend. Be well. :3
take your time man.... we understand
you know brother, as someone whom lost almost all my loved ones, grief is a fascinating experience that often fuels our desires and vices while recalling memories of joy and pain. Its strange but it makes me think that we grow as individuals when we find purpose in it. Every death you live through you make something personal of the bond lost and carry this symbol with you that can often be a catalyst of deep changes in your mind and path of life. The pain is hard to deal with, we learn to live with it one way or another, but after years of dealing with it you can look back and see how much you changed and hopefully matured your thoughts about life with that person and life without and how we move forward through time in our life. Sometimes good things come out of it.
You're not too late.
I didn’t helped my cousin while he was drowning in alcool. Litterally. He died after one year of trying to recover from cirrhosis.
I was far away, and the only thing I could do was accompagny his Mass as a musician.
I felt like that when going to vet for the last moments of my 17yo cat.
Use your energy wisely, hope someone do like what you're doing somehow. I know I do. Take care. 😊
No need to apologize, friend. Your buddy will be watching over you and the rest of your group till you all meet again. Take care of yourself and have a happy Halloween
Thank you for that.
Hi dad! We're grateful that you're here to talk to us about life, the universe and everything.
I'll do what I can to help you.
No one is ever ready
I lost a grandmother. She left peacefully, but she always answered my prayers to her. Scotty is still out there and he is proud of you.
Always devastating to lost someone close to you... i'm 38 and sometimes i'm still struggling with grief, lost the love of my life because of leukemia when i was 22, i still go to the gym, work, playing video game etc etc, trying to look forward but it's a deep wound that never truly heal, stay strong my friend.
Let's live our lives to the fullest for the people whom we have had to leave behind.
Man, guilt on top of grief is brutal. Don't be too hard on yourself. Just think about how much better you made Scottie's days when you did have the opportunity to hang out. Good luck with everything
My condolences. Stay strong, take the time you need, and remember that your friend wouldn't want you to suffer. Rejoice at what was.
I lost my dear aunt in August, and this is one of the thoughts that kept me going. She was always there for me during the very hard parts of my life and I know that she would not want me to suffer after her passing.
My heart breaks for you, Jerrel. Just remember: to grieve deeply is to have loved fully. Remember the good times you had with your friend and as long as you do that he'll always be there.
Lost my father back in February and It hurts everyday. He had cancer but like Scotty the cancer didn’t get em, total organ failure got my dad.
I am so sorry for your loss man, I know how it feels.
I’m very sorry for your loss sir. We are here for you.
Lost my sister last year. It’s hard. Excruciatingly so.
loss is one thing we all go through, it's never pleasant or easy but it's something everyone can relate to. we'll still be here when you're ready Jerrel.
My condolences. I had a friend who unalived himself during Covid, I feel your pain.
I’m sitting here with my father in hospice rn, I’ve been taking care of him for 6 months but we are down to the final minutes and hours of stage 4 lung and bone cancer. I know part of your pain, and for the part I do not I am so fn sorry. As worthless as a strangers apology is it’s all I have to offer you.
I feel the same compassion and well wishes for you. Despite being strangers, we can still understand each other. It is difficult staring down the barrel of a gun meant for someone else. I hope you are able to spend good time together and that you have a good support system there for you with family and friends.
Take special care of yourself after he's gone.
My thoughts are with you and your father. May your pain be lessened by the knowledge that his pain will be over soon.
Thank you guys. Weird how a few words from strangers can do more to cheer you up than that of a relative sometimes
@@Cracker_Barrel_Kidd_55 I've noticed that myself, and I believe it's due to strangers not having any obligation to take time away from their day to wish you well. We expect relatives to be supportive, but place no such hopes on people we've never met.
Death is always hard, just two days ago I was emotional again from losing a friend a decade ago. In time they become reminders and encouragement to be a better person tomorrow than you are today, I hope that for you too.
Tomorrow is never promised and time literally is a fleeting moment. I’m so very sorry for your loss my friend, my prayers for you and your friends family.
Please don't feel the need to push yourself through things for us. "I need to work as hard as I can" is the mindset that I had after my father passed, and I deeply regret it because I wanted to take my mind off of grief, but I've found it is much worse to stifle things and move on. I pray you find peace and I give my heartfelt condolences for your loss. Thank you for your transparency
Still praying for you and all of Scotty’s friends and family. I’m confident you’ll keep making beautiful things.
Thank you.
Grief will come for everyone at some point and we all must weather it. The pain dulls over time but you point out a very important thing, find ways to healthily grieve loss.
Jarrell thank you for sharing and be well!
Loss of someone near and dear to us, is never easy, I am sorry you lost someone near and dear to you, as someone who struggles to mentally deal with these things, I think being able to talk about them as you are, is very inspiring and comforting. I agree with what you said, grief and vulnerability are parts of the human condition, that aren't explored in games and media in a way that resonates, or has long lasting impact. It feels very strange when I consider what you mentioned: that games try to capitalize on relatability, through things like race/sexuality, and shy away from emotions and experiences everyone faces at some point, which connect us all to being "human". The former seems so hollow. I am sorry as I don't think I am very good with words, even thought I spent a bit to write this out. I just wanted to say I found what you said was very profound, and I sincerely appreciate what you had to say.
my condolences man. lost a friend myself last year and it was surreal, but i figure our conversation's just on pause and ill catch up with him eventually.
The first woman I was ever truly in love with died of leukemia when I was 20. Its been almost six years, and I'm already eight years older than she ever got to be.
I think about her at least once a day. Periodically I'll message her on Facebook since it never got deactivated. It feels stupid admitting it out loud but she was one of the best friends I've ever had and it helps me feel closer to her even tho I know she can never and will never message back.
No worries. Take the time you need, of course. Take the time you can. You are a good man.
I'm not sure if that makes you feel better but I'll definetly pray for your friend (and based on how you described him he is definetly in heaven, cheering you on and happy for you and your accomplishments)
I lost one of my best friends to cancer in 2019. I didn’t go to his life celebration because I was working over time for a company that I thought would appreciate me. He was cremated and I never knew where his ashes were scattered. So I have no where to visit him. Ironically I was laid off later the next year at the beginning of the pandemic. So I lost my best friend and my job within a few months of one another. It is one of my biggest regrets in my life to this day. As much as we wish we could have been there. It’s something we have to unfortunately live with. I think of Russell almost daily and how I wish I spent more time with him towards the end. Scotty appreciated you and the love you gave him. He would understand that you couldn’t be there but felt your love nonetheless. Good bless brother
You are far from normal. In today's age, you are a legend and a great friend. Hope you find the peace that your friend has now. My condolences.
I'm sorry for your loss brother. I've had a good amount of family passing away last year. It never gets easier and you can never truly prepare.
So sorry for your loss. That feeling of "I should have..." It's really tuff and it'll creep up from time to time, but you know that he knew you cared for him and he knew you both appreciated the times you got to spend together
I'm so sorry for your loss, I really mean that. Just 2 weeks ago I lost my 20 year old cat Lily. We've been inseparable for my whole adult life and I don't feel whole without her. My heart is broken. I really feel for you, the pain is incredible. Please consider reading or listening to the audiobook "Understanding Your Grief" by Alan Wolfelt. It really has helped me with processing the loss. All the best to you, please be kind and compassionate to yourself.
And thanks for sharing, this meant a lot to me to see ❤
Grief and loss is a difficult thing to deal with. What Totalbiscuit said some tirme before his passing was, that you enjoy your friends and family as much as you can in the present while you can, because you never know when you can't do that with your loved ones any longer.
Like you said yourself, you try and deal with the situation as gracefully as you can, and keep pushing on.
man, this absolutely takes precedence..im so sorry.my deepest condolences. Much love .take care of yourself
Condolences for your loss. It's never easy loosing someone you love, but by remembering them they live on.
I am sorry for your loss. A family member of mine died of cancer a few weeks ago. Nobody saw it coming, because he didn't want to burden anyone with the bad news. I don't like the decision he made, but ultimately I think I respect it. It was his decision, and who am I to take that away from him?
Pretty often life just sucks, we all have to die someday. We should really keep in mind our own and others mortality and should enjoy every sliver of happiness and maybe even fun we can have before the grim reaper gets to us. So enjoy the things you love :).
My condolences sir, I know the feeling well. Take your time to heal, but, don't let loss consume you.
My sincerest condolences for you loss. He did sound like a true friend and I've unfortunately had some experience with such bereavement in recent years. All i can say is to treasure good health and good company and not take it for granted, because it can be so easily taken away.
All you can do is honor your friend and cherish the time you have with loved ones.
My condolences. Life is precious, friends are precious. Take your time to grief.
No matter how much we think we are ready to deal with loss, we never are. It all happens so quick, and always leave such a hole within our lives. One can only push forward and carry forward those hopes, dreams, and memories of those we lost. Stay strong.
its ok to take time to grieve. we are ''not allowed'' to do so in these days. we have to push down feelings, wich are part of beeing human, and always perform and be at our best, I think that contributes alot for depressions and burnouts. yopu have a loved one that passes, and you have to be back to work in 3 days and ''get over it'' thats not how it works. be kind to yourself, take some time. and thank you for making me think about things that are important to me right now. xx
My condolences, think about the good times you had and let the sadness out, so that you feel happy while remembering.
You have my condolences. May you find solace in these trying times.
Stay strong brother I know it's easier said than done but I hope you take the time and go easy on yourself. I wish I've done more things to help friends in life before they passed away but I just know that life is not guaranteed and we gotta treat everyday as a gift. I know deep down I will meet again with all my friends and family again one day 🙏 much love man
Im so sorry to hear that, im not just saying that i really mean it, i lost my brother 14 years ago and those wounds are still fresh, you never really get over that pain especially when you're close to them, thats a gaping hole in the heart that never heals, but were all here for you, all your fans are here for you to help you through, remember all the good memories with him, its the only way i get through the day with the loss of my brother and i will honour him the best way i can, it doesn't help how much i miss him, but the memory of him is alive in my heart so he isnt truly gone, i hope in some way that helps, but you are in my thoughts 😢
I am so sorry for your loss, I hope we can celebrate the joyous moments of your friend Scotty through your games.
Don't be angry in what you can't change. Remember the good times instead
I lost my best friend last year. Somebody I loved like a brother, and sadly although I knew he was my best friend since childhood and that I loved him, I really didn't learn how MUCH I loved him until the day he was gone. People like that become a part of you and you lose that part when they are gone. I miss him every single day.
I'm sorry again for your and Doc's loss. Everyone's experience of loss is different, the guilt and even shame of thinking you didn't do/visit/support them enough is pretty common in my experience. I had that with my grandpa 10+ years back, I wasn't close with him but it hurts all the same. Towards his end his mood and personality were completely different from the meds and diabetes moods swings, he hardly felt like my grandpa anymore...even forgot who I was quite a few times. I was at college in a different state, so I was pretty busy and it was hard to visit. I wasn't there for his passing and to support family, and regretted it for a long time. Honoring their memory, talking about their life, and supporting their family/friends afterward (in any capacity, doesn't have to be in person) is always a good place to start the healing process.
Personally, I find it easier to talk about my feelings around a loss to irl and internet acquaintances/strangers rather than people I'm truly close with. So just as much as you want to be a positive example for us, I hope talking through this video and reading our comments is cathartic for you. ❤
I'm sorry for your loss, brother. Hope you feeling better soon.
Sorry man. Sorry for the loss. We all gone through these things. I am sure your friend is watching from above.
As someone whom has not only had cancer themselves, but also lost friends to it, I understand your pain. The pain dulls over time, but never quite goes away completely. It's the same way with cancer, I may have beat it, but every time I have to go again for more testing is extremely tense, hoping I'm still healthy as I wait to hear from the doctors. I hope this too, gets easier as time passes, but I don't think it does.
Love your videos, take care of yourself.
RIP SCOTTY. My grandfather used to say “show me your friends and I’ll tell you who you are.” Scotty was obviously a stand up guy and a great human being. We don’t have enough of those. Smooth travels to the other side, friend.
What kind of a friend is Jerrel then? By his own admission he hadn´t talked to Scotty in over a year despite knowing he was sick. Just a few days ago he was pushing the story that the only reason he was growing the channel was to sell more games so that he could earn money to visit Scotty. That story made little sense then and it makes zero sense now. He´s now telling us that Scotty is dead and he´s mad at himself for "not being there and being stronger". What´s that supposed to mean? What kinda of a man doesn´t speak to someone they call a friend for more than a year while knowing they are sick? He´s now using his friends death to promote himself again. This stuff makes my blood boil. The grief makes it hard for him to work on his games but he´s been pumping out one anti-woke video a day. C´mooonn.. How childishly naive is the crowd here? Wake up and smell the grift that you´ve all stepped in... 5 more Dragon Age videos are on the way.
@@PeePawPo I was gonna type out a very detailed response letting you know the exact species of subhuman you are, but I’m not gonna follow through. I feel badly for you, you’re obv a sad person. Hopefully not permanently, and I wish you the best navigating out of the sewer you’ve seemed to make home. Best of luck.
@PeePawPo
You most certainly have pronouns on your social media accounts and blue hair.
@@PeePawPo what exactly is he pushing/selling in this video senor numbnuts? He playing for subs? Most of us already are. Also most ppl I think watch this man because they agree with the things that he says or find him entertaining. Nobody’s here because sympathy. We were already here and sympathy is a normal human emotion. At least when not filled to the gills on ssris
@@Cracker_Barrel_Kidd_55 I guess I´m sad because my frontal lobe is still working and I don´t buy the hate that Sungrand and the mob have been peddling here for the last month. My BS detector is also still working while you wouldn´t recognize doo doo if you landed it in face first. You want to adress the issues raised or hide behind personal attacks...just like everyone else here.
My condolences good sir. No need to apologize. Your content, in whatever form, is always mint
You just need to talk to him in your mind, we are all mind. As a friend you have gained a direct connection to his soul. He's watching you, and proud of you.
I imagine he'd be quite happy with that horn-y antler frame. That's one cool way to have the dead remembered fondly. Our frames over here are all boring in comparison.
I will continue to call you 'Brother', stay strong!
Its so beautiful that our friends stay with us forever in our hearts and memories after they are gone... All the great times we spend together with them will stay with us...
To deal with the loss of a loved one is a very difficult for anyone, and the burden can only be lessened by shareing it with other friends and family.
The loss of my father during the pandemic changed my view of the world and I hope i have become more mature to take on the challenges of life and this world.
Be strong Jarrel, your down to earth videos are very calming after a rough day. We all are with you in these rough times, take your time and come back strong just as your friend would have wanted you to be.
My condolences to you and the family. Take care and give your best everyday.
My condolences for your loss, please do not feel the need to push yourself as you continue to process what's happened. Happy Halloween, friend. The game will be ready when it's ready.
We don’t mind that you are late on your tasks. We care about how much work and effort you put into your work. It’s always a work of art made out of love. Thank you, Dad, for all you do.
You are a strong man. I was tearing up hearing the passing of a stranger. I feel sad for you. But you are a badass throughout the video explaining vulnerability. Take care of yourself. I will always click on your video in my news feed whenever you upload. Keep them coming.
About the homebrew games, I believe to produce great work, one has to be focused? Just like anything in life. We can only do one thing at a time. You don’t have to work so hard or as much as you can. I believe good things come to those who wait.
I'm sorry for your loss, the loss of a friend or loved one so unexpectedly soon needs time to be processed, don't be upset about the homebrew.
As someone who lost someone this month close to me, I felt this. No need to apologize tbh. Life is a ride.
Life is all about loss entirely everyday we lose more and more until we are gone ourselves and that's why we need to really enjoy every day to the max. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. They're watching over you I know it
Ive had more than my share of these kinds of losses. My only advice is let the sorrow run its course, but dont get stuck in it. Remember the good things and let all good memories be a light and a guide in harsh situations.
You are not alone.
My condolences, Jerrel. Be strong as the grief and pain is real when someone passes, but if you accept everything that is happening, it actually helps move on and I'm sure your friend would like it that you remain calm and peaceful after all of this
I worked in medical referrals for a few years, mostly with older patients or oncology cases, and one thing our management always reminded us was to have grace for ourselves, our coworkers, and the folks we were there to help, and to reach out before things break us down or harden us up too much. Please give yourself grace and patience!
Sorry about the loss of your friend. It really sucks when we lose people that we love. I can relate with you, I’ve lost a handful of friends and family myself
Work can wait. Games can wait. Recovery dealing with grief takes time and priority.
I’m sorry for your loss. Take as much time you need, brother.
Sorry about your loss.
Trust me, none of your followers are worried about a game release when you're going through a rough patch.
Take care of yourself.
Make whatever content you feel like making.
We'll be here to support you.
My condolences.
I lost my grandma a few years back, and circumstances did not allow me to be there with her at the end. Once it began, she declined too fast. And visiting was heavily restricted due to it being the height of covid.
I haven't yet forgiven myself for that. I'm not sure I ever will.
I'm told time heals all wounds. I sincerely hope that's true. Even thought it hurts, remember your friend with a smile on your face, it's probably what he would want.
And even if the game doesn't come out in Halloween, it's still a Halloween game so long as it's Halloween themed. Stay safe and have a good day.
I'm so sorry... I remember you talking about him on a live a few months ago. I'm sorry you won't be able to reach the goal you wanted to before his loss but we are still all here for you.
Also I think Silverfalls being themed around grief is so true and I do believe it helps others who plays the games.
Anger will always come with death and I hope you don't beat yourself up to much.
Love from a fan
Damn. Shame about your loss. Loss of the loved is a terrible thing. You're very strong for taking it as you are.
My condolences. Life is hard. Grieving is hard. But it's good to share in it.
Take your time. Losing friends is never easy.
My sincerest condolences for your lost. Take all the time you need.
Sorry for your loss, man. While I haven't played any of your games, nor was I awaiting your new homebrew releases, I'm sure those who were will understand. Life is unpredictable.
I'm a silent viewer of your channel and I also lost a loved one to cancer (my brother) I know what this situation and I just want you to know that I appreciate you.
Thank you for being you, I appreciate you and the expertise you share in your videos.
I appreciate you fam.
I understand fully what you mean. I too want to make games, but I feel none are made for me. I hope you find peace.
no friend, no need for apologies. im sorry to hear about the news. take care of yourself and take as much time as you need.
My deepest condolences for Scotty may he rest in peace, and thank you for sharing your grief and expressing it with us. We understand and are here for you.
as a fellow human who has experienced grief, and especially someone taken away from me that wasn't supposed to go the way they did, I fully empathize. we aren't feeling the same things, but as a fellow human I do empathize. the winter season is extremely hard, but we'll all get through it together.
I to have lost a friend. We met online and were able to visit each other a couple of times. One night the gaming crew got informed that he passed away in his sleep, due to a Seizure. The sad part, he was opening up with more personal problems at the end of his life. I was trying to be helpful with my usual method of focusing on the positives, but to this day, I wish I was slightly more willing to listen and just be there personally. It truly was the story of, "see you guys tomorrow", followed by, Last seen online 5years. Then there's the moments, the smells, jokes for a one man crowd, and many other shared experiences that only that person would understand. It hurts to have this wrapped gift never to be opened, yet we have many gifts still to share. Thanks for reminding me to cherish my current friendships and relationships, giving them more of my time.
Thanks and this needed going through unemployment and parents health issues
Loss is the hardest thing for me to process. Grieving takes a long time, it hurts, and over time it heals. Hope it gets better soon. Most people know how hard it is to lose a loved one. Take care my dude.
Grief and the loss of a loved one, lead me down the road of a crippling heroin addition that lasted over 10 years of my life I lost friends and family to fentanyl, but 3 years ago I was able to get the help I needed and I'm clean now and never been happier, and I love life again.
This isn't related but, I also enjoy the content you make, and just to let you know I'm 100% sure you are helping people by making the videos you do.
Truly sorry for your loss. Thank you for your candour and your brilliant videos. Hope you can get some time to grieve and heal. May the memory of happier times soothe the pain of your friend’s passing.
Hey if it comes out during the Christmas season you can pull a hallmark and put Halloween into the Christmas season. Don't say sorry take time for you and grieve. Thanks for sharing.
Hahaha thank you. Humor is helpful in moments like this. You're making me think of the Hallmark channel and how they make the exact same Christmas movie every year.
I have a lot of experience with loss. I recommend observing what is happening in your internal universe relentlessly. Get angry, get sad, whatever, unrelentingly observe it. Over time you will realize that although your suffering is the same size, you will grow to become greater than it can match.
my condolences, saying goodbye its never easy, no matter what... Cheers from Brazil
Don't apologize for not being able to finish the Halloween homebrew project, its never easy to deal with what you're going through, I don't know how is your situation with work and stuff, but I hope you're able to take some time off
It is okay. Sorry for your loss, your friend watches you from the coulds.
I’m so sorry about your friend. I’m sorry you feel like you let him down.
After watching this, I felt like I needed some time to find meaningful words. Something better than the usual condolences. Something that would convey my genuine sympathy. Something that would be helpful. Anything.
But there are no words. No consolation.
Only a stranger who knows the pain and the regret and has nothing more to offer.
So I’ll just say that: I’m sorry you’re going through the sort of pain that stays with you forever. 💛
I feel grief is hopelessly missing someone. We want to see them and say what was left unsaid but there's never a moment we would be ready to lose them and if only option for feeling grief is being alone or emotionally dead I rather pay the price for meeting that amazing person that passed.
I'm sorry for your loss, sir. I can't imagine losing a friend of mine.
Talking about this is always difficult, no one is ready, but believe me is always welcome and someone can get something good about it.
I lost who was a second father for me 3 weeks ago, and i got the notification about your video while visiting his "rest place", i was cleaning it because Dia de los muertos is near (im from Mexico) and we usually go an clean, put flowers, go and speak a little bit, and hearing what you said, yeah, people need some time to grief, to remember the goods and if there are the bads, and it helps to find peace and clousure to this stage of life, that doesn't means that we are going to close and forget, nah, but what i've been saying i think from when i'm a kid is that im gonna remember everything that those people teached me, the good the bads and successes and the failures, but i need to keep making steps, and try to give every step, every breathing, every beat of my heart to those who raised me, who teached me, who knew and felt like were my family (friends), is difficult, some people needs more time other less, but is necessary, just don't stay in that moment more than the necessary, my father who passed away 2 years ago said to me "If you stay like that a lot, it's like you are not here anymore, you are dth in live, and they wouldn't like that, we need to think, remember, respect them, and move forward when its time to dedicate everything we do to them, to the family we lost, to the friends we lost, to those who shared a litle bit of time with us".
Personally, i've charging with the guilt of my father didn't saw me get a car, a kid, and other things, now i feel like either my second father, but i know that they would said to me that thats no a problem, to keep pushing to an extend (to not keep me in that state of grief forever which when i lost my grandparents as a kid was really difficult), i've been working on it but that feeling comes back, but their words, knowledge, actions, always puts me back on track and makes me do my things with more energy.
Take your time, my condolences, reflect on your connection with your friend, see all the things both of you did rather than focusing on the future right now, maybe later that photo rather than feel some guilt makes you remember in the better way.
(Sorry for my english, talking about these topics doesn't let me think well in 2 languages, and the place im writing on it when overheats jumps some letter while tiping and i have to go back a lot, so thats why there are some edits, thanks Thinkpads)
My sincere condolences good man. Grief and videogames can go hand in hand I know from experience, it can be a distraction and also way of dealing with tough stuff.
Strength to you and in the end be grateful for the time you have shared together.
🤜🏼🤛🏼
My deepest condolences. Take your time, sir.
Work has to take the backseat at certain times, this sounds like one of them. So sorry for your loss. I wish you strength and peace ❤
I really appreciate that. Thank you.
Every time we loose someone close we also loose a small part of us.
The more painful the loss the bigger chunk we loose.
Thank you for sharing your story, my condolences for your loss. Personally I am absolutely terrible at handling people's passing. It is because I am very lonely and I feel that eventually there will be nobody left for me and I will just be on my deathbed, suffering alone and maybe some paid worker come to take care of me sometimes. And when my time comes there will be nobody around me anymore to and there will be nobody to even remember that I ever existed. Nobody left to continue my family line and every parent and ancestor that existed before me will ultimately lived and struggled in vain because I failed them.
That is a valid feeling and concern. Still, you never know what will happen in the future. You don't know who you will meet and how your life can change for the better.
@@sungrandstudios You are right, I don't know that. Nobody knows the future.