One can’t even imagine the hell that she went through in life, especially the last year. Experiencing yourself waste away for so long, but she never gave up hope. Most would have committed suicide to escape the pain, but she was strong enough to endure it until the end. And now she is finally able to rest.
YOU CAN DO THIS ANGELIQUE! I BELIEVE IN YOU ! PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP!!!! You WILL get the help you need, and get BETTER! I TRULY BELIEVE YOU WILL! I think of YOU EVERYDAY....I AM NOT GIVING UP ON YOU! Sending my LOVE to you from the U.S...🙋♀️♥️
You can do this Angelique I believe in miracles If you have belief faith as small as a mustard seed God can do the rest, as a fellow sufferer, in chronic pain, with no hope for recovery I know better things are coming, healing is coming , keep your vibration strong, I want to see you in our future, sending all my love from Wales UK. We got this 🥰😘 xxx
I wish I could bring her here to Texas to help her personally! I know that is not possible but I want so much for her to get better. I pray for my family randomly each day and I have added her to those prayers. Please keep praying, my friend. She will overcome this! 🙏🏽
To be fair on the people who walked away,it's so hard and soul destroying watching someone who at times,refuse to help themselves. I've been there. And as much I believe In you,you look smaller than when you left hospital and its upsetting to see u get worse. So some people can only support u so much. It doesn't make them bad people,just like your not a bad person you just have an illness and anorexia is an illness no matter what people say. Took me years to recover. I'd eat a spoonful of full fat yogurt every 20 mins and drink nutrient and protein shakes. They hurt my belly so bad. But I did it. And if I can then so can you! We believe in you. Now u need to fully believe in yourself xx
I have so much respect for you. Keep on going, you are doing great. And I agree with everything you say. I'm worried too. Hopefully she will be submitted in the hospital in Rotterdam or Amsterdam.
@3, I hear you. And you are right. But, to also be fair to ourselves, I've learned a hard -- but AMAZINGINGLY freeing lesson not long ago: It is NONE OF MY BUSINESS what others think of me. It is NONE OF YOUR business what others think of you. That's their journey, their viewpoint, their problem -- not yours/not mine. They have no idea what we've been through in our lives, just as we can't possibly see how they form their opinions, ideas and perspectives based on what they've been through in their lives. HOWEVER, I do know this, and I know it to the depths of my soul. There is a God who created me, and you, and HE created us perfectly imperfect RIGHT WHERE WE ARE at this VERY MOMENT. If you are here reading this, it's NOT a mistake. This is either a moment for you to grow, be inspired or inspired others, and it's the same for every person on this page. And guess what, Angelique??? It started with you. YOU brought all these people together on this page to learn or grow or give...YOU went through your challenges and joys to be right here, right now, at this moment. GOD thought so much of each and every one reading these words that He believed the world needed you. So. HERE you are. Now go do something about it. BUT ONLY in love. Don't waste time hating, being envious or living in fear. Just Go Live. Be beautiful because not one other person in the world can do it the way you do. God Loves You just as you are. xoxo...
just a question pls... so the reason anorexic people don't eat is that it hurts their stomach ?.. why can't Drs correct this ?... couldn't a feeding tube be used as a last resort ?
@@vickieyoung7122 the stomach becomes smaller when people starve themselves, but will very soon become a normal size when people are starting to eat normal.
Listen, I've been homeless with a then newborn baby to take care off because my kid's dad went to prison. I lost everything! It took time but I slowly overcame my demons and finally start building the life we deserve! I know you can do this! You got ppl who care even if all we can offer are supportive views and comments on here. 😊
So glad to see and hear from you. I am 59 years old in recovery from anorexia. You can do it too. Slowly but surely. Keep the faith and hope. Can’t wait to see you as you regain health.
@@johannelanglois9800 sending you a big hug dear! Never give up hope… and in the midst of suffering, there is so much joy to find! We can learn to open up to that. Our lives still can be beautiful, no matter how the circumstances are! 💖
Your poor mom, however helpless you feel she will feel ten times more. Frustration makes her angry but she doesn’t mean it. I hope you are both able to witness miracles that see you back to better health. Love & light to you xx
My sister was very ill the last 5 weeks. She had a little glass container. Held maybe 3 Oz. Every 2 to 3 hours, she ate a little. I put it in the little bowl/cup. It might have been a little bit of chicken noodle soup. Sometimes she ate this 3 times, hours apart. Also blueberries or watermelon. Something about that tiny container helped her. Wasn’t very much but enough. The whole thing was too try to have her eat to keep up her energy. You probably have done this but it was so helpful to her. Sometimes a cracker with humus was all she wanted. Sometimes a spoon of yogurt or pudding. The thing that I saw was her energy was better eating a little bit every few hours. And wasn’t overwhelming to her. The other thing I try to remember if someone is unkind, it is ALWAYS ABOUT THEM. Rarely about you. Praying for you. Hope is abundant!
It is always a big wave of relief to see you post 🖤 You. Can. Beat. This!!! You have so much power in your voice alone, there is so much hope for you🖤 And I love what you said: depression, cancer, etc. None of these things are meant to be and there should always be hope for recovery. Keep on fighting, we are with you 🖤
I'm still watching your video but need to comment as you speak.. I believe in your recovery! I myself have been bed bound for a long while now and struggle with hope and acceptance due to my physical illness. There's seemingly no medical hope for me and I empathize with your frustration. Some days I cry because it hurts and some days I cry because navigating the medical system is a nightmare. And I agree that illness is not the work of God, you are still here!! He's not ready for you and you have purpose. I smile and exhale with gratitude every time I see your videos. Stay positive and stay strong. Sending love your way🧡🙏
O dear Dee… thank you so much for sharing this! I am sorry for your struggle. But that you are able to put a smile on MY face now is already a blessing coming through you! We are in this together dear… ❤️
What is your condition? I have been using alternatives such as Gerson Therapy for over fourteen years for cancer. I have a lot of knowledge now. Perhaps I can help X
You have to understand, her family knows her and been going through this for years. I’m sure they did everything to help her and it’s tiring on people because they have a life to live also. Sometimes sick people that can help themselves is overwhelming to a family. They can only do so much. I had this disease and it is a very selfish disease. I’m hoping you get better and healthy but it’s up to you. They are angry because they are tired and you refused to help yourself for years. You are taking your life, they refuse to let you tak theirs
True. I agree with everything. All addictions are selfish. I've dealt with eating disorders for 26 years and my family was fed up with me too. I can't blame them, because I was horrible to deal with. I'm glad you speak about this subject openly, especially because you were anorexic yourself. So happy you're on the other side now. Bless you.
@@elypowell6797 not true . U obviously have no idea how eating disorders work . Eg . I was forced into gaining weight at home by my parents , and now I'm suicidal . Never leave my house etc. (My life was better as an "anorexic" then now. Now ... her story is different to mine , I'm just trying to make a point that weight doesn't fix mental health. This women is amazingly strong . It's hard to fight an ed. And unfortunately most don't fully recover . I'm not saying she can't, I'll hope and pray she can . But to say "she just needs to eat normal and gain weight , then everything will be better" is a stupid statement . Because it's a mental illness . Everyone sees the physical symptoms and assumes there's 1 solution. But weight gain isn't the thing that will make life better , it's working through why you developed it in the first place .
I am so sorry about the fights with your mum. I was pretty certain the situation with your family was what you just said. It's wonderful that you can have compassion for those that hurt you, but you also have every right to be angry at them for it. _I_ am angry at them for letting you down and giving up on you! It is not right! You don't deserve it, and you deserve compassion too. For people who don't know it, this is extremely common with these kinds of illnesses.
Every time you post a video I feel such relief that you're still alive. Hearing that you think you can make it until you get to the hospital was so wonderful to hear! It literally gave me full-body chills! I am rooting for you every day! If anyone can survive this, it is definitely you Angelique. You're so beautiful. ♡
I have been praying for you and I will continue to pray. Continue to walk by faith, without faith it is impossible to have your prayers answered, Know that you are greatly loved, by the Father and by me. Keep fighting the good fight of faith.
I am praying for you. I am so deep into my eating disorder, depression, anxiety, cptsd, trauma memories and suicidal thoughts that in some ways you seem healthier and more on track than I feel. So I know you can hang on longer. Keep fighting . I'll hang on with you, if that counts for anything.
Dear Lisa, I really get you… the struggle can be so immensely hard… but never give up! And don’t hesitate to lean on me and others here. Feel free to share! Giving you a big hug ❤️
It's fascinating how some of us with these difficult mental and emotional struggles develop ED's. Like overeating to the point of becoming morbidly obese, or not eating because food just makes one feel yucky. I've been in both places. It's no fun. I realize that I keep the weight on because I don't want to be attractive to predators, even though I'm married and my own husband won't have sex with me hardly ever 😭
@@LisaPFrampton o dear… that must be a struggle in itself… brave to share this! I know many more who cope with the same. You certainly will find others here that recognize it…
@@liquefaith my thoughts and prayers are with you every single day...WE ALL ARE...... WE ALL BELIEVE in YOU, and KNOW YOU WILL GET BETTER! Sooooooooooooo much LOVE is coming your way Angelique..♥️♥️🇱🇷🙋♀️
You are so mature and wise in understanding with defense mechanisms, however, please don’t ever feel it is your fault for your chronic pain and condition and keep healing and spreading your positive wise words and feelings 🥰❤️
If she is so mature and wise she wouldn’t be in this mess. Have you ever heard her speak of seeing a psychiatrist? No. Because she thinks she has all the answers. She is not following the plan that was given to her for over decades. She says all the right things but look at her. I don’t want her advice, look at her. They always want help and blame people and facilities. She has been saying the same things for decades
@@lacyhodge1864 She HAS mentioned her psychiatrist. Why don't you work on your negative attitude and stop bashing an ill person! How do you know her? Do you know her in real life or are you just spouting things you "think"? Regardless, it shows a real lack of empathy on your part. Perhaps YOU should talk to someone and try to find out why you feel the need to try and bad mouth someone who is hurting? Even if she has made bad choices in the past, so what? Have you no faults? Have you never made bad choices??? (edited to remove a sentence that sounded rude.... I am sorry if I sound rude, but I just think that bashing her is not helpful.....everyone makes mistakes, and we don't know what is going to happen. I know I can't judge, I am FAR from perfect)
Hi Angelique! When I woke up this morning I thought of you and quickly checked to see if you had put out another video. I checked again to see you posted a video. Despite the circumstances, I am in marvel of how strong you are in your heart. It shines through the video. I am grateful to see your videos and hear what you have to say. I know you can do this, you've got such an amazing spirit. Sending all my love from New Zealand straight to you Angelique. You are in my thoughts! 💗
Where are you. In hospice. ? I damaged my heart In my twenties from anorexia, I crawled on the floor to refrigerator and drank milk which saved me from passing out, they didn't have care for it back then. And no internet support. I got well forcing myself to eat small meals 4 times a day. And protein powder. That's it. God and I did it. Wishing you well. One day at a time
Everything I’ve seen from you shows that if the help is there you are more than grateful to take the help. You beg for the help so people have no right in critizing you ❤❤❤
I believe in miracles too. With God, ALL things are possible. I’m working on ptsd and anorexia recovery. The Life Recovery Bible is helpful. I would send you one! You inspire me in so many ways!!
Those comments saying “go eat” are ignorant, anorexia is a legitimate mental illness and probably one of the hardest to overcome . Stay strong, you got this Lique ! 🤗
It may sounds ignorant, but all former anorexics agree on one thing: you have to eat in order to survive/live. It's natures law. Not easy, absolutely not. But necessary. Believe me, I know what I'm talking about. I've had eating disorders for 26 years, including anorexia.
@@marjol3in I mean just eating isn’t gonna help like some people said on her last video (though I’m very happy you got through yours by getting into the mindset you must eat to survive) , anorexia is an illness of the mind , healing the mind is just as important with this as eating. I myself have depression, anxiety, ptsd and bdd. Saying just be happy won’t fix it, saying just stop being worried won’t fix it, saying stop thinking of my past won’t fix it and saying stop imagining physical flaws won’t fix it. I have needed over the years to heal my mind to make progress with all of these.
@@anonmous4468 I totally agree with all you say. I have body dysmorphia too and had depression in the past. Obviously it didn't help when people gave me the advice "Just be happy". If it was that simple we already would have done that. And the same goes for loving our body. It's still hard and I still don't love my body, but I have moments of acceptance and those moments become more and more. I wish you all the best in your yourney. Bless you.
@@marjol3in yes so well said, i's hard but it's necessary and she can force feed herself, that's what I had to do in recovery. You have to take action if you want to get better, not just cry about it and talk about it while staying the victim to an eating disorder. Rise up and take your power back!
It’s so wonderful to see your face 💖 your raw honesty is incredibly moving and absolutely hit me.. the relationship between mothers and daughters is incredibly complicated. You’ve got this my friend. I do believe that you will live through this. Ana will not take you she’s taken too much already and you have so much more to share with the world. I cannot wait to read your book and say “I knew her when…”. I’m wishing more than anything that you get an amazing team around you who can support you as soon as possible
I am normally 95 lbs but I dipped to 78 lbs when I was around bad people with toxic energy that just kept trying to break me down. I was in a depression of the whole situation I was in and went through child custody battle. I was so skinny that I layered clothes to hide it. I lost my butt and all my beauty and I started to look like an old lady. It was disgusting and horrific to me, but I realized I had to get out of this hole and stop allowing these people and the situation to be doing what it was to me. I was very scared and thought that my heart would go into cardiac arrest as I was becoming so skinny, and nothing I ate was helping me to gain weight because the emotional turmoil within me was far too great. I had to stay strong for my child. It took me years to come out of it. I learned forgiveness and that helped immensely, more than anything. I let go of what was killing me basically! I started dating and got happy again, moved on, and I started gaining weight. I kept eating, but stress, anxiety, and depression of my situation, taking care of my newborn, dealing with a broken engagement and my ex already moving on quickly to another woman just all wore me down to skin and bone. It got to a point my stomach had shrunk and I couldn’t eat that much. I had no appetite. I felt very depressed and like giving up on life as my ex moved on. There is lots more detail to this story, and it was rock bottom in my life. No one tells you this, but since then I have even been through a 2nd rock bottom, though I was stronger the second time around and didn’t get skinny because it effected me differently and I had my support system around me and was on my own turf. My kids are the reason I kept fighting to overcome the situation, because otherwise my ex would have tried to take my child from me, claiming I was mentally unstable, depressed, anorexic, etc, when really I wasn’t!! I just was going through a hard time with the break up and all his mother and sister were saying and doing to me through the pregnancy and after the birth. I did everything to gain weight… I drank ensure, ate lots of carbs and protein. I get nauseated a lot these days from perimenopause and some days I can’t eat, and I have to ease into eating. What helps me is bone broth with a little lemon in it, rice crackers, banana, yogurt, apple sauce, plain cherrios, saltines, string cheese, and popsicles. It was a struggle putting on weight because I am iron deficient and anemic on top of it all. I am a lion as well July 26th!! For us Leo women, I think if you met a love interest, that in itself might turn you completely around! Just a little pick me up and happiness like that, quickly I was gaining weight overnight like a miracle. You know you can meet anyone nowadays on an app, even maybe an anorexic man like yourself going through a similar struggle. I pray you will survive this.
Hi Angelique! It’s always so wonderful to see your videos. I could listen to you talk for hours! Everything you say is so relatable to me, a recovering addict. When you mentioned the part about people close to you giving up on you - that’s also my exact situation and has been for a very long time. I’m so glad you decided to upload this video. I have the exact same relationship struggles with my mother also. I moved out at a very young age because of the toxic environment, but because of my addiction, I was financially not able to afford a place, so I’m currently living in a small apartment with my mother. I’ll be 32 years old in October. I work from home, currently miserable and saving up money until I can afford to be on my own again. It feels like re-living my traumatic childhood everyday and you can imagine how miserable it is. Your videos help me look at the bright side of things. I am thankful for my sobriety and the fact that I have a roof over my head. I also used to carry a lot of guilt and shame about my disease, but I have (on most days) learned to forgive myself. And I’m working on learning to love myself too. Anyways, I didn’t mean to ramble too much about myself, but I just wanted you to know that you’re not alone in your feelings. And a year from now we’re both going to be in much better places in our lives. I love the lion by the way. It’s a great representation of your fierce personality.🦁💜
Thank you so much for sharing this Jaclyn! And very relatable indeed… what you say now is exactly the way to view your situation now. It is GREAT you have a safe place now and are able to work towards your future on your own. Keep seperating your past from the current you… it is AMAZING how far you have come already! Just imagine how life will be a little further on the road… and dont forget to enjoy the here and now, which have there pearls so to hear 🙂 Happy to have you here sweetheart ❤️
I think you already started to recover when you decided to share your feelings and allow yourself to be vulnerable. I imagine how hard it must be, trying not to identify with your illness when you've been sick for so long. It's scary, because when you'll be healthy again you'll have so much free time and space, which can seem like a void, but also like a chance to discover yourself anew. Last week I've read a book by Carolin Emcke, a german author, and came across this passage: "Das Eigene beginnt mit einem Nein. Mit einer Verweigerung, dem Gefühl, etwas anderes zu wollen als das, was gewollt wird. Dieses Unbehagen an dem, was gefordert ist, kann verschwommen sein, eine Ahnung nur, es braucht noch nicht einmal eine Vorstellung von dem, was die Alternative wäre, es reicht zu wissen, was für einen selbst nicht in Frage kommt. Aber in diesem ersten Nein schält sich das Eigene heraus. In diesem Moment, in dem etwas nicht mehr als selbstverständlich empfunden wird, in dem eine Gewissheit plötzlich ungewiss, in dem das Fraglos plötzlich zweifelhaft wird, in dieser Bruchstelle entsteht das Ich." Maybe you came to this point before by saying no to a certain way of life, no to food, but now you're saying No to being ill and that itself is such a huge step and you can be so proud of you for trying to get away from a pattern mentally and starting to fight. Don't be too hard on you when it comes to your mother. It's good to empathic, but you also have all the right in the world to feel anger. You understand your mother and surely she has reasons to react the way she does, but this doesn't prohibit you from feeling angry because you feel let down by her or other people close to you. You can be angry at her and love her at the same time.
There is POWER in vulnerability!! EMBRACE IT!! You of course are “allowed” to have your feelings, sweet girl, and you’re allowed to be so so angry, but you need your energy to LIVE!! It doesn’t matter anymore how we got to where we are, but where we are going … I’m not saying this to discount your feelings, but just to remind you that if you’re trying to drive forward, you can’t do it by looking in the rear-view mirror. LET’S LOOK FORWARD TOGETHER!! Like you said, everyone has different challenges at different times; some may seem harder than others, but are they really? Maybe it’s just what they can handle based on where they are! Iron sharpens iron; you are learning something valuable by going through your personal journey, and YOU NEVER KNOW WHO YOU ARE INSPIRING!! So I would like to salute you for being vulnerable, because you may be helping someone else face their fears or challenges or reconcile with someone they love. You keep pushing beautiful girl, and God will bless you more than you can imagine. And, just ask for that peace only God can give - one of the most frequent themes in the Bible is FEAR NOT!! This world is temporary our bodies are just a vessel, grow your spirit and bless others along the way. Like John said, All you need is love 💕 ❤️…
Requiring to be taken care of by choice, is giving up on yourself...it's like you want other to prove that they love you. But I'm disabled... But my intestines... But my traumas keep me from ..... You ..YOU are keeping YOU from getting better. Have some accountability.
Thank you. The only reason I keep trying to watch these is bc I keep listening for her to take responsibility for her actions. I just hear defensive stance and excuses and self-pity. I thank God for him sending me people who were honest with me and never bought into my BS. I would have succumbed to this disease years ago. "sounds like you made some choices Amy"
Goed om je te zien!! Wat fijn dat Rotterdam je kan helpen met refeeding. Je hebt helemaal gelijk, God staat aan jouw kant. Ik bid voor je dat je snel terecht kan. 🙏🏻♥️
Never underestimate the power of God. You’ve helped me today. I had a lot of back pain and it was extremely hard for me to roll over and get out of bed. My pain is so immense sometimes that by the time the evening comes I can’t remember what I ate for breakfast. My trust in God and His faithfulness is so strong that I don’t worry how all this will end. I’m still here and like you I can still reach out and touch one person each day. I believe you and I believe in you because of your faith. Things are ok not perfect but someday they will be. I look forward to your next video and to listening to your pearls of wisdom. Love to you from NC -USA
There are so many things that I wish I could say but it would be a book. I've watched a few of your videos now over a short period of time and to fully express how much you have impacted me is impossible. I've been through so much myself, lost so much and so many. I totally understand the pain and loneliness, etc of not having a good support system or help you need to keep surviving. Situations you see no way out of or through yet continuing moment by moment. Finding anyone who can honestly relate or to recognize that someone is in a harder situation than oneself is such a rarity and a sad treasure to find, of which you are. Sometimes when I feel so alone in my situations, I remember the story of Lazarus and the rich man. I think about how Lazarus only had the stray dogs to comfort him by licking his wounds. Those stray dogs were his only support system. They were the only ones he received love from. I relate to that. You remind me of him. I think of how life is such a struggle yet his end was wonderful. Not sure why we live so long in so much pain, loss, etc. but as you referenced, it does cause reaction and such in those within our sphere of influence, whether to their benefit or destruction in the end, only God knows but in that, I see us who struggle so, kind of like balances that God uses to weigh the motives, actions, words, etc of others and in some cases causes meaningful change in them. In that, our struggles, sufferings, are used for the eternal benefit of others and so I suppose worth it overall. The process sucks though. I'm rambling. I really just wanted to express how much your videos and how you keep going in such a hard situation, encourages and strengthens me in my situation bc if you can then I can. So, each moment you continue, you bring those of us who might not otherwise feel we can, with you...to keep going, to have that extra bit of faith, hope, relatability, etc needed. In that, you are carrying more than yourself as are we by those witnessing us. A ripple that far exceeds our own line of sight. I've had fear and anxiety about the next two weeks but knowing what you face in that same time frame helps me not feel so afraid right now. My trust is in the Lord and He is using you in a way no other right now could be used. It is all for a greater purpose and one day it will end and be worth it. I pray you will experience the other side of the suffering, being healthy and stronger and able to make the lemonade out of the proverbial lemons. Thank you for your vulnerability. Thank you for your strength. Thank you for continuing. 🌼💛🌼
Ooooo Alison… you are not rambling at all! What a powerful way to describe what you experience… I am just silent for a moment, taking this in… thank you so much for sharing this! And immense grateful how my sharing is helping you… you help me by this comment as well! So thank you too 🙏🏻 I will keep you in my heart and thoughts the coming weeks as you go through your own challenges. Never hesitate to keep sharing and reaching out! Giving you a big hug 💖
@@A.L.I.S.O.N noooo… 😳😥 I am out of words now… please know I am here for you… you are in my thoughts and heart! Please keep in touch, will you? Let me know what you need! For now: The biggest hug ever! ❤️
@@A.L.I.S.O.N OMG Alison.....I am SO SORRY you lost your Mom. I know it must hurt so bad. I hate that awful virus.....please take care of yourself and I will pray God helps you through this.
The very fact that you are still alive and fighting this shows strength and a will to live. I believe in you. I can’t begin to imagine what this is like for you. You want to get better but nobody will help you. What has gone wrong with this world. No matter what our wrongs are we should still help others in need. I’m praying for you and sending healing hugs and prayers.
As a retired chiropractor; trust me when I say the body is a miraculous recoverer in ANY facet of disease. Here's hoping you get back to slowly feeding your body both emotionally and physically. Every cell in your body COMPLETELY overturns and regenerate to new purity every 6-8 years. So, if you start day one today: in 5 years time or so you can look back and every cell will be new and fresh and rejuvenated this is scientific fact. And maybe as a healthy self you can look back at these videos and see how your life is on a better path. You DO NOT have to die from this disease. You don't. Start fresh today: fresh thoughts, fresh cells, fresh ideas, fresh foods, fresh love, fresh belief. Love you!
True legend I believe in you its breaking my heart watching you wish you were here in UK I would help you support you from this mental health and it stinks your the winner sending hugs prayers love from UK x
Seeing this video tonight was exactly what I needed to hear now. I will keep you in my prayers. Love the lion (and I’m grateful for the friend that came to see you and provided some timely encouragement)! You are so needed to remind others (like me) to be kind and forgiving to others and to ourselves. I see many comments from others that are also suffering. I am so appreciative of your words of compassion to so many who need that. Thank you so much! Keep on going, don’t give up. Gentle hugs from afar. ❤️
I believe in you Angelique, and I believe in miracles too. You show strength on being adamant, on not giving up. Others have recovered, so why not you too? God bless, stay strong, and keep the faith. ❤️💐👍💪🙏🙏
I have alot of faith God is going to heal you. Never give up I know days can be harder then others. I pray to God he can heal you and give you strength to carry on in life. Stay strong I believe in you.❤️❤️❤️
Amen Sister! I am praying for you. God please get this sweet lady the help she wants and need. Hold her hand through this struggle. In Jesus name Amen!🙏🏻
I’ve been thinking about you and am so thankful to see that you are alive! I believe in you and believe that you are here for a reason. You have so much passion and strength inside you and I can hear it in your voice. Keep fighting and believing. I always turn to my faith for comfort and one of my favorite Bible verses when things seem impossible is Job 5:9 “He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted.” Nothing is impossible for God, I believe that with every part of me. Your struggle is very real, but you have what it takes to push through until you get the help you need. I’m praying that happens for you very soon and that soon you will be posting videos of your recovery ❤️
Your name is literally FAITH darling! You are a Lion heart princess warrior. Us Leo's are STRONG (I'm a Leo too)....in mind, in spirit, in faith, in hope and in body! In so many ways your body IS still strong, it is doing the miraculous continuously keeping everything going. It is amazing and God is so good! He will never give up on you even when it feels like others have. It's ok to forgive yourself and start to see exactly how God sees you. To TMH you are perfect in all ways.....you radiate everything that is creation and his perfect love for you is out of this world. Marinate in what God sees
I am new to meeting you, but you have captured my heart!!! Yes - Don't lose hope!!! I am disabled also. I fell from a horse and severely injured my spine, I am in pain 24/7. I've had sooo many surgeries. Finding good home health help is sooo very hard here in the USA. Being vulnerable is such a hard thing to do!! I'm so proud of you!!! I see so much of you in me!!! I hate that you are in the predicament. Sending tons of positive vibes and healing energy!!! Much love!!
Angelique, I believe everyone commenting on your videos is trying to help you. We may not know what to say or give advise that is not helpful to you, but please understand we are desperate to know how to help you. Please keep fighting as best you can. I still see the beautiful person you are, but it’s really hard to watch you from afar in a very desperate situation. I don’t want you to die. Miracles are absolutely real. There is a God and He loves you and is mindful of you. I pray you will find the strength to survive. It really has to come from inside you. You can do this. ❤️
You have such a good understanding on where you are in your journey. Hold onto The Lord. He loves you Lique! I pray for your healing and restored relations with your family xxx
When I look at you I am humbled by your vulnerability and authenticity. It is so brave and beautiful, I’m awestruck by your courage. When I look at you I see you are insightful and intelligent. I know your story is already helping people. When I look at you I see sweetness, sincerity, and innocence. It’s ironic, but sometimes the kindest souls experience the most hardship. You never deserved any abuse, suffering or hardship, but nonetheless it found you, like it finds so many of us. I sense those you love may have let you down. Boy do I know that feeling! I see that you are learning great strength and I know you have it in you to keep pushing through each day. You will get stronger each day. Yes miracles are real, I have seen them in my own family. I don’t know what to say except for I am praying for you and sending you light and love. You are so sweet and genuine and pure - the world needs more people like you. May God continue to bless you. I thank God the Almighty Creator for giving you strength and healing every moment. I thank God for giving you some comfort and peace each day. Yes it will get better.🙏❤️⭐️💫
I am so sorry my sweet girl. May our God keep you safe in the palm of his Mighty Hand on this earthly journey. Thank you for showing us all that the Spirit of God is stronger than anything in the whole universe. Let your light shine my love. Prayers and good wishes all the way from South Africa xxx
You pushed yourself to make this video…push yourself to live as long as it takes. I have no idea how hard it is but we are with you. We will be expecting many more video updates. You are a beautiful person whom I will never forget.
I believe your recovery WILL happen, you're a lovely genuine person with so much good to offer, the worlds needs people like you. Keep making the videos!
Sending prayers and hugs from Peru! I can feel the strengh in your voice. It’s always great to see a new video from you. Don’t give up! We’re all rooting for you! You got this!
Hi Lique! Thank you so much for updating us! ❤️ Yes, keep fighting! I am so upset that the hospitals are taking so long to help you. I think they should take you now and do as much as possible! I like your stuffed lion, that’s the spirit! Praying for you in Jesus’s Name, much love and hugs to you! 🙏🏻🤗🤗🤗❤️💝
My HEART is breaking the way I'll people are being treated.. If I were living near you I would certainly open my house to you and offer what ever help I could. LOVE and PRAYERS to you. FROM IRELAND XXX
I am confident you will make it through this..your insight into humanity is deeply moving. Please have faith and update us often whenever you are able.
You have my vote! I believe in you! I am so glad your fiesty self is in this world!! Hugs to you❤️ I love your view on things. You are a force to be reckoned with, Lique. Love to you, Lion, and happy belated birthday
My dear child. Stop stop! past child abuse, neglect, has nothing to do with the person you are. I truly believe for a miracle for you!... I have faith and hope in you!!!! You have been hurt. But you are beautiful you have a good life ahead of you! baby girl! BIG strong hugs from Norway, Oslo.
You're an amazing woman Angelique! And yes, we all need love, help and support. No-one makes it on their own. That doesn't make you weak. I found this video very inspiring, take care and keep persevering xxx
Angelique, you have such a lovely spirit. You are so strong. Stay determined and focused. So many people are cheering you on right now. Always remember how many people love and support. You can do this.
I will never stop believing in you! You are so strong and you show that to me in every video you make. I hope you keep believing in yourself because it sounds like help is just around the corner!
Hi. I don’t know about your condition but was moved by your words and wish you health and happiness. I really hope you get better and believe in your strength to do so. Don’t give up! Keep on speaking out and seeking help!
One can’t even imagine the hell that she went through in life, especially the last year. Experiencing yourself waste away for so long, but she never gave up hope. Most would have committed suicide to escape the pain, but she was strong enough to endure it until the end. And now she is finally able to rest.
The strength in your voice and conviction, and the cognitive abilities you've retained despite being so malnourished never ceases to amaze me!
YOU CAN DO THIS ANGELIQUE! I BELIEVE IN YOU ! PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP!!!! You WILL get the help you need, and get BETTER! I TRULY BELIEVE YOU WILL! I think of YOU EVERYDAY....I AM NOT GIVING UP ON YOU! Sending my LOVE to you from the U.S...🙋♀️♥️
You can do this Angelique I believe in miracles If you have belief faith as small as a mustard seed God can do the rest, as a fellow sufferer, in chronic pain, with no hope for recovery I know better things are coming, healing is coming , keep your vibration strong, I want to see you in our future, sending all my love from Wales UK. We got this 🥰😘 xxx
I wish I could bring her here to Texas to help her personally! I know that is not possible but I want so much for her to get better. I pray for my family randomly each day and I have added her to those prayers. Please keep praying, my friend. She will overcome this! 🙏🏽
@@susanrawlinson1095 thank you so much dear! 🥰
Thank you SO much dear Veronika… 🙏🏻💖
My love, I believe in you. You can do this! ❤🙏
To be fair on the people who walked away,it's so hard and soul destroying watching someone who at times,refuse to help themselves. I've been there. And as much I believe In you,you look smaller than when you left hospital and its upsetting to see u get worse. So some people can only support u so much. It doesn't make them bad people,just like your not a bad person you just have an illness and anorexia is an illness no matter what people say. Took me years to recover. I'd eat a spoonful of full fat yogurt every 20 mins and drink nutrient and protein shakes. They hurt my belly so bad. But I did it. And if I can then so can you! We believe in you. Now u need to fully believe in yourself xx
I have so much respect for you. Keep on going, you are doing great.
And I agree with everything you say. I'm worried too. Hopefully she will be submitted in the hospital in Rotterdam or Amsterdam.
@3, I hear you. And you are right. But, to also be fair to ourselves, I've learned a hard -- but AMAZINGINGLY freeing lesson not long ago: It is NONE OF MY BUSINESS what others think of me. It is NONE OF YOUR business what others think of you. That's their journey, their viewpoint, their problem -- not yours/not mine. They have no idea what we've been through in our lives, just as we can't possibly see how they form their opinions, ideas and perspectives based on what they've been through in their lives. HOWEVER, I do know this, and I know it to the depths of my soul. There is a God who created me, and you, and HE created us perfectly imperfect RIGHT WHERE WE ARE at this VERY MOMENT. If you are here reading this, it's NOT a mistake. This is either a moment for you to grow, be inspired or inspired others, and it's the same for every person on this page.
And guess what, Angelique??? It started with you. YOU brought all these people together on this page to learn or grow or give...YOU went through your challenges and joys to be right here, right now, at this moment. GOD thought so much of each and every one reading these words that He believed the world needed you.
So. HERE you are. Now go do something about it. BUT ONLY in love. Don't waste time hating, being envious or living in fear. Just Go Live. Be beautiful because not one other person in the world can do it the way you do. God Loves You just as you are. xoxo...
You are a very sweet soul, sister. God bless you! ❤
just a question pls... so the reason anorexic people don't eat is that it hurts their stomach ?.. why can't Drs correct this ?... couldn't a feeding tube be used as a last resort ?
@@vickieyoung7122 the stomach becomes smaller when people starve themselves, but will very soon become a normal size when people are starting to eat normal.
Listen, I've been homeless with a then newborn baby to take care off because my kid's dad went to prison. I lost everything!
It took time but I slowly overcame my demons and finally start building the life we deserve!
I know you can do this!
You got ppl who care even if all we can offer are supportive views and comments on here. 😊
Good for you 🙏🏻We are stronger than we think . Much love from Scotland ❤️
Which is sooooo helpful! Thank you dear 😘
W0men always have support for their b@d decisions, its basically criminal the amount of social privilege w0men get.
So glad to see and hear from you. I am 59 years old in recovery from anorexia. You can do it too. Slowly but surely. Keep the faith and hope. Can’t wait to see you as you regain health.
Thank you so much for sharing this Kim! You too sweetheart, we will get through this 🙏🏻💪🏻
I was so surprised to see your age, I am 58 myself and struggled all my life and still are, so heart breaking to see this young person suffer so much
@@johannelanglois9800 sending you a big hug dear! Never give up hope… and in the midst of suffering, there is so much joy to find! We can learn to open up to that. Our lives still can be beautiful, no matter how the circumstances are! 💖
@@liquefaith xoxo:!
Your poor mom, however helpless you feel she will feel ten times more. Frustration makes her angry but she doesn’t mean it.
I hope you are both able to witness miracles that see you back to better health. Love & light to you xx
Where there is breath, there is hope. Fight & keep faith my dear girl.
My sister was very ill the last 5 weeks. She had a little glass container. Held maybe 3 Oz. Every 2 to 3 hours, she ate a little. I put it in the little bowl/cup. It might have been a little bit of chicken noodle soup. Sometimes she ate this 3 times, hours apart. Also blueberries or watermelon. Something about that tiny container helped her. Wasn’t very much but enough. The whole thing was too try to have her eat to keep up her energy. You probably have done this but it was so helpful to her. Sometimes a cracker with humus was all she wanted. Sometimes a spoon of yogurt or pudding. The thing that I saw was her energy was better eating a little bit every few hours. And wasn’t overwhelming to her. The other thing I try to remember if someone is unkind, it is ALWAYS ABOUT THEM. Rarely about you. Praying for you. Hope is abundant!
It is always a big wave of relief to see you post 🖤 You. Can. Beat. This!!! You have so much power in your voice alone, there is so much hope for you🖤 And I love what you said: depression, cancer, etc. None of these things are meant to be and there should always be hope for recovery. Keep on fighting, we are with you 🖤
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I'm still watching your video but need to comment as you speak.. I believe in your recovery! I myself have been bed bound for a long while now and struggle with hope and acceptance due to my physical illness. There's seemingly no medical hope for me and I empathize with your frustration. Some days I cry because it hurts and some days I cry because navigating the medical system is a nightmare. And I agree that illness is not the work of God, you are still here!! He's not ready for you and you have purpose. I smile and exhale with gratitude every time I see your videos. Stay positive and stay strong. Sending love your way🧡🙏
Hi Dee I have me/cfs and can relate so much to your comment. Housebound and partially bedbound. I hope you are doing okay. 💛
O dear Dee… thank you so much for sharing this! I am sorry for your struggle. But that you are able to put a smile on MY face now is already a blessing coming through you! We are in this together dear… ❤️
@@merb457 Thank you Nicola! Stay strong🧡 we're all in this life together!
@@liquefaith Thank you🧡you are not alone and you give a huge gift to so many of us watching.
What is your condition? I have been using alternatives such as Gerson Therapy for over fourteen years for cancer. I have a lot of knowledge now. Perhaps I can help X
Lots of smart words that are not backed up by actions.
A hundred hugs, you're a warrior.
You have to understand, her family knows her and been going through this for years. I’m sure they did everything to help her and it’s tiring on people because they have a life to live also. Sometimes sick people that can help themselves is overwhelming to a family. They can only do so much. I had this disease and it is a very selfish disease. I’m hoping you get better and healthy but it’s up to you. They are angry because they are tired and you refused to help yourself for years. You are taking your life, they refuse to let you tak theirs
True. I agree with everything.
All addictions are selfish. I've dealt with eating disorders for 26 years and my family was fed up with me too. I can't blame them, because I was horrible to deal with.
I'm glad you speak about this subject openly, especially because you were anorexic yourself. So happy you're on the other side now.
Bless you.
@@elypowell6797 I think she may be too far gone for that. He body has suffered too much damage. She is fooling herself.
@@elypowell6797 not true . U obviously have no idea how eating disorders work .
Eg .
I was forced into gaining weight at home by my parents , and now I'm suicidal .
Never leave my house etc. (My life was better as an "anorexic" then now.
Now ... her story is different to mine , I'm just trying to make a point that weight doesn't fix mental health.
This women is amazingly strong .
It's hard to fight an ed.
And unfortunately most don't fully recover .
I'm not saying she can't, I'll hope and pray she can .
But to say "she just needs to eat normal and gain weight , then everything will be better" is a stupid statement .
Because it's a mental illness . Everyone sees the physical symptoms and assumes there's 1 solution. But weight gain isn't the thing that will make life better , it's working through why you developed it in the first place .
@@purselady7323 don't say that . She has hope for herself , and we should too!
@@Heartbreaker1999-o5s I will be praying for her.
Omg I wish I lived near you, I work in hospice. I'd be honored to come care for you. You are I'm my prayers and in my heart.
I am so sorry about the fights with your mum. I was pretty certain the situation with your family was what you just said.
It's wonderful that you can have compassion for those that hurt you, but you also have every right to be angry at them for it. _I_ am angry at them for letting you down and giving up on you! It is not right! You don't deserve it, and you deserve compassion too.
For people who don't know it, this is extremely common with these kinds of illnesses.
Thank you for understanding so well… 🙏🏻
Every time you post a video I feel such relief that you're still alive. Hearing that you think you can make it until you get to the hospital was so wonderful to hear! It literally gave me full-body chills!
I am rooting for you every day! If anyone can survive this, it is definitely you Angelique. You're so beautiful. ♡
Thank you so much dear… always happy to read your comments! 🥰
I have been praying for you and I will continue to pray. Continue to walk by faith, without faith it is impossible to have your prayers answered, Know that you are greatly loved, by the Father and by me. Keep fighting the good fight of faith.
I’ve been in awe of your courage and tenacity for some time. Now I can add empathy to that list. You ARE lionhearted!
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I am praying for you. I am so deep into my eating disorder, depression, anxiety, cptsd, trauma memories and suicidal thoughts that in some ways you seem healthier and more on track than I feel. So I know you can hang on longer. Keep fighting . I'll hang on with you, if that counts for anything.
Blessings. Keep taking one moment at a time. 💔
Dear Lisa, I really get you… the struggle can be so immensely hard… but never give up! And don’t hesitate to lean on me and others here. Feel free to share! Giving you a big hug ❤️
Look up Gerson Therapy and start juicing fresh organic vegetables you need the nutrients to help your brain recover X
It's fascinating how some of us with these difficult mental and emotional struggles develop ED's.
Like overeating to the point of becoming morbidly obese, or not eating because food just makes one feel yucky.
I've been in both places.
It's no fun.
I realize that I keep the weight on because I don't want to be attractive to predators, even though I'm married and my own husband won't have sex with me hardly ever 😭
@@LisaPFrampton o dear… that must be a struggle in itself… brave to share this! I know many more who cope with the same. You certainly will find others here that recognize it…
Praying for your healing and ultimate recovery!
I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES FOR YOU ANGELIQUE! I WILL see you in a year...a BIG HUG from me to you Angelique..🙋♀️♥️♥️♥️♥️🇱🇷
Thank you dear Veronika! 🙏🏻🥰
@@liquefaith my thoughts and prayers are with you every single day...WE ALL ARE...... WE ALL BELIEVE in YOU, and KNOW YOU WILL GET BETTER! Sooooooooooooo much LOVE is coming your way Angelique..♥️♥️🇱🇷🙋♀️
Bless beautiful lady fight fight till cant fight anymore you got this stay strong stay positive sending hugs luck prayers most of all love from UK x
Thank you so much Deb… 🙏🏻💖
You are so mature and wise in understanding with defense mechanisms, however, please don’t ever feel it is your fault for your chronic pain and condition and keep healing and spreading your positive wise words and feelings 🥰❤️
Thank you for this reminder… 👍🏻🙏🏻😘
If she is so mature and wise she wouldn’t be in this mess. Have you ever heard her speak of seeing a psychiatrist? No. Because she thinks she has all the answers. She is not following the plan that was given to her for over decades. She says all the right things but look at her. I don’t want her advice, look at her. They always want help and blame people and facilities. She has been saying the same things for decades
@@lacyhodge1864 True. Action speaks louder than words.
@@lacyhodge1864 She HAS mentioned her psychiatrist. Why don't you work on your negative attitude and stop bashing an ill person! How do you know her? Do you know her in real life or are you just spouting things you "think"?
Regardless, it shows a real lack of empathy on your part. Perhaps YOU should talk to someone and try to find out why you feel the need to try and bad mouth someone who is hurting? Even if she has made bad choices in the past, so what? Have you no faults? Have you never made bad choices???
(edited to remove a sentence that sounded rude.... I am sorry if I sound rude, but I just think that bashing her is not helpful.....everyone makes mistakes, and we don't know what is going to happen. I know I can't judge, I am FAR from perfect)
I can speak because I was in he shoes. This disease is a selfish disease. I know this
Hi Angelique! When I woke up this morning I thought of you and quickly checked to see if you had put out another video. I checked again to see you posted a video. Despite the circumstances, I am in marvel of how strong you are in your heart. It shines through the video. I am grateful to see your videos and hear what you have to say. I know you can do this, you've got such an amazing spirit. Sending all my love from New Zealand straight to you Angelique. You are in my thoughts! 💗
Thank you so much Rose! 💖🙏🏻
I believe in miracles and in your recovery.
Where are you. In hospice. ? I damaged my heart In my twenties from anorexia, I crawled on the floor to refrigerator and drank milk which saved me from passing out, they didn't have care for it back then. And no internet support. I got well forcing myself to eat small meals 4 times a day. And protein powder. That's it. God and I did it. Wishing you well. One day at a time
No,she left the hospice a couple of weeks ago. I think she lives with friends.
How are you doing now and is your heart restored to health?
You are a lion courageous….a fighter!
Everything I’ve seen from you shows that if the help is there you are more than grateful to take the help. You beg for the help so people have no right in critizing you ❤❤❤
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While there is breath there is hope. I pray God fills your needs. ❤
I cannot imagine a country giving up. I PRAY FOR STRENGH FOR YOU!!! YOU CAN DO THIS. NOT GIVING UP ON YOU....love from the U.S. LOVE YOU BLUE EYES...
I believe you can do it and you will get well. Praying for you to also get help soon.
God bless you sweetheart stay strong
I believe In YOU, YOUR recovery and healing 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻❤️ You have inspired many and we will all be here for this journey to all heal together ❤️
Thank you Sonya! 🙏🏻💖
There is so much strength in your speech!
You have a BEAUTIFUL spirit and are incredibly inspirational, my amazing friend ❤️ we believe in you ❤️
You are so well spoken, and have such depth of wisdom. Thank you for sharing and fighting to get better!
You may never get the emotional nourishment from your family. However. You can get better not in spite of them, but because of them.
It will be so beautiful to see you recover and get stronger. I'm looking foreward to it! 💪
I believe in miracles too. With God, ALL things are possible. I’m working on ptsd and anorexia recovery. The Life Recovery Bible is helpful. I would send you one! You inspire me in so many ways!!
Thank you so much Allie! Dont know that bible/book? Will google it 🙂
Keep on doing the good work! I have your back dear! 🙏🏻💖
Those comments saying “go eat” are ignorant, anorexia is a legitimate mental illness and probably one of the hardest to overcome .
Stay strong, you got this Lique ! 🤗
It may sounds ignorant, but all former anorexics agree on one thing: you have to eat in order to survive/live. It's natures law. Not easy, absolutely not. But necessary. Believe me, I know what I'm talking about. I've had eating disorders for 26 years, including anorexia.
@@marjol3in I mean just eating isn’t gonna help like some people said on her last video (though I’m very happy you got through yours by getting into the mindset you must eat to survive) , anorexia is an illness of the mind , healing the mind is just as important with this as eating.
I myself have depression, anxiety, ptsd and bdd. Saying just be happy won’t fix it, saying just stop being worried won’t fix it, saying stop thinking of my past won’t fix it and saying stop imagining physical flaws won’t fix it. I have needed over the years to heal my mind to make progress with all of these.
@@anonmous4468 I totally agree with all you say. I have body dysmorphia too and had depression in the past. Obviously it didn't help when people gave me the advice "Just be happy".
If it was that simple we already would have done that. And the same goes for loving our body. It's still hard and I still don't love my body, but I have moments of acceptance and those moments become more and more.
I wish you all the best in your yourney. Bless you.
@@marjol3in yes so well said, i's hard but it's necessary and she can force feed herself, that's what I had to do in recovery. You have to take action if you want to get better, not just cry about it and talk about it while staying the victim to an eating disorder. Rise up and take your power back!
At this point thats the only option, there isnt time to just "figure things out" mid organ failure.
Sweetie! I root for you. Hugs from Guatemala! You keep me strong when I feel I can[t anymore. Love you so much!
Big hug back to you!! ❤️
It’s so wonderful to see your face 💖 your raw honesty is incredibly moving and absolutely hit me.. the relationship between mothers and daughters is incredibly complicated. You’ve got this my friend. I do believe that you will live through this. Ana will not take you she’s taken too much already and you have so much more to share with the world. I cannot wait to read your book and say “I knew her when…”. I’m wishing more than anything that you get an amazing team around you who can support you as soon as possible
Thank you so much Kathleen… this touches me while reading… 🙏🏻💖
I am normally 95 lbs but I dipped to 78 lbs when I was around bad people with toxic energy that just kept trying to break me down. I was in a depression of the whole situation I was in and went through child custody battle. I was so skinny that I layered clothes to hide it. I lost my butt and all my beauty and I started to look like an old lady. It was disgusting and horrific to me, but I realized I had to get out of this hole and stop allowing these people and the situation to be doing what it was to me. I was very scared and thought that my heart would go into cardiac arrest as I was becoming so skinny, and nothing I ate was helping me to gain weight because the emotional turmoil within me was far too great. I had to stay strong for my child. It took me years to come out of it. I learned forgiveness and that helped immensely, more than anything. I let go of what was killing me basically! I started dating and got happy again, moved on, and I started gaining weight. I kept eating, but stress, anxiety, and depression of my situation, taking care of my newborn, dealing with a broken engagement and my ex already moving on quickly to another woman just all wore me down to skin and bone. It got to a point my stomach had shrunk and I couldn’t eat that much. I had no appetite. I felt very depressed and like giving up on life as my ex moved on. There is lots more detail to this story, and it was rock bottom in my life. No one tells you this, but since then I have even been through a 2nd rock bottom, though I was stronger the second time around and didn’t get skinny because it effected me differently and I had my support system around me and was on my own turf. My kids are the reason I kept fighting to overcome the situation, because otherwise my ex would have tried to take my child from me, claiming I was mentally unstable, depressed, anorexic, etc, when really I wasn’t!! I just was going through a hard time with the break up and all his mother and sister were saying and doing to me through the pregnancy and after the birth. I did everything to gain weight… I drank ensure, ate lots of carbs and protein. I get nauseated a lot these days from perimenopause and some days I can’t eat, and I have to ease into eating. What helps me is bone broth with a little lemon in it, rice crackers, banana, yogurt, apple sauce, plain cherrios, saltines, string cheese, and popsicles. It was a struggle putting on weight because I am iron deficient and anemic on top of it all. I am a lion as well July 26th!! For us Leo women, I think if you met a love interest, that in itself might turn you completely around! Just a little pick me up and happiness like that, quickly I was gaining weight overnight like a miracle. You know you can meet anyone nowadays on an app, even maybe an anorexic man like yourself going through a similar struggle. I pray you will survive this.
Hi Angelique! It’s always so wonderful to see your videos. I could listen to you talk for hours! Everything you say is so relatable to me, a recovering addict. When you mentioned the part about people close to you giving up on you - that’s also my exact situation and has been for a very long time. I’m so glad you decided to upload this video. I have the exact same relationship struggles with my mother also. I moved out at a very young age because of the toxic environment, but because of my addiction, I was financially not able to afford a place, so I’m currently living in a small apartment with my mother. I’ll be 32 years old in October. I work from home, currently miserable and saving up money until I can afford to be on my own again. It feels like re-living my traumatic childhood everyday and you can imagine how miserable it is. Your videos help me look at the bright side of things. I am thankful for my sobriety and the fact that I have a roof over my head. I also used to carry a lot of guilt and shame about my disease, but I have (on most days) learned to forgive myself. And I’m working on learning to love myself too. Anyways, I didn’t mean to ramble too much about myself, but I just wanted you to know that you’re not alone in your feelings. And a year from now we’re both going to be in much better places in our lives. I love the lion by the way. It’s a great representation of your fierce personality.🦁💜
Thank you so much for sharing this Jaclyn! And very relatable indeed… what you say now is exactly the way to view your situation now. It is GREAT you have a safe place now and are able to work towards your future on your own. Keep seperating your past from the current you… it is AMAZING how far you have come already! Just imagine how life will be a little further on the road… and dont forget to enjoy the here and now, which have there pearls so to hear 🙂 Happy to have you here sweetheart ❤️
I think you already started to recover when you decided to share your feelings and allow yourself to be vulnerable. I imagine how hard it must be, trying not to identify with your illness when you've been sick for so long. It's scary, because when you'll be healthy again you'll have so much free time and space, which can seem like a void, but also like a chance to discover yourself anew. Last week I've read a book by Carolin Emcke, a german author, and came across this passage:
"Das Eigene beginnt mit einem Nein. Mit einer Verweigerung, dem Gefühl, etwas anderes zu wollen als das, was gewollt wird. Dieses Unbehagen an dem, was gefordert ist, kann verschwommen sein, eine Ahnung nur, es braucht noch nicht einmal eine Vorstellung von dem, was die Alternative wäre, es reicht zu wissen, was für einen selbst nicht in Frage kommt. Aber in diesem ersten Nein schält sich das Eigene heraus. In diesem Moment, in dem etwas nicht mehr als selbstverständlich empfunden wird, in dem eine Gewissheit plötzlich ungewiss, in dem das Fraglos plötzlich zweifelhaft wird, in dieser Bruchstelle entsteht das Ich."
Maybe you came to this point before by saying no to a certain way of life, no to food, but now you're saying No to being ill and that itself is such a huge step and you can be so proud of you for trying to get away from a pattern mentally and starting to fight. Don't be too hard on you when it comes to your mother. It's good to empathic, but you also have all the right in the world to feel anger. You understand your mother and surely she has reasons to react the way she does, but this doesn't prohibit you from feeling angry because you feel let down by her or other people close to you. You can be angry at her and love her at the same time.
Wow… love that passage! And your wise words and wishes too… thank you! 🙏🏻💖
There is POWER in vulnerability!! EMBRACE IT!! You of course are “allowed” to have your feelings, sweet girl, and you’re allowed to be so so angry, but you need your energy to LIVE!! It doesn’t matter anymore how we got to where we are, but where we are going … I’m not saying this to discount your feelings, but just to remind you that if you’re trying to drive forward, you can’t do it by looking in the rear-view mirror. LET’S LOOK FORWARD TOGETHER!! Like you said, everyone has different challenges at different times; some may seem harder than others, but are they really? Maybe it’s just what they can handle based on where they are! Iron sharpens iron; you are learning something valuable by going through your personal journey, and YOU NEVER KNOW WHO YOU ARE INSPIRING!! So I would like to salute you for being vulnerable, because you may be helping someone else face their fears or challenges or reconcile with someone they love. You keep pushing beautiful girl, and God will bless you more than you can imagine. And, just ask for that peace only God can give - one of the most frequent themes in the Bible is FEAR NOT!! This world is temporary our bodies are just a vessel, grow your spirit and bless others along the way. Like John said, All you need is love 💕 ❤️…
@@KeepingItNeal ❤️❤️
I’m so happy you uploaded again!! You can do this Angelique!!! We’re with you
Miracles happen every day, sweetie. Stay strong. Praying for you. 🙏❤🙏
Thank you Mary 🙂❤️
Requiring to be taken care of by choice, is giving up on yourself...it's like you want other to prove that they love you.
But I'm disabled...
But my intestines...
But my traumas keep me from .....
You ..YOU are keeping YOU from getting better. Have some accountability.
Thank you. The only reason I keep trying to watch these is bc I keep listening for her to take responsibility for her actions. I just hear defensive stance and excuses and self-pity. I thank God for him sending me people who were honest with me and never bought into my BS. I would have succumbed to this disease years ago. "sounds like you made some choices Amy"
I agree to the fullest!!!
Goed om je te zien!!
Wat fijn dat Rotterdam je kan helpen met refeeding. Je hebt helemaal gelijk, God staat aan jouw kant. Ik bid voor je dat je snel terecht kan. 🙏🏻♥️
You have come much farther than anyone thought. You just need to keep doing what you have been, and I know you will make it.
Never underestimate the power of God. You’ve helped me today. I had a lot of back pain and it was extremely hard for me to roll over and get out of bed. My pain is so immense sometimes that by the time the evening comes I can’t remember what I ate for breakfast. My trust in God and His faithfulness is so strong that I don’t worry how all this will end. I’m still here and like you I can still reach out and touch one person each day. I believe you and I believe in you because of your faith. Things are ok not perfect but someday they will be. I look forward to your next video and to listening to your pearls of wisdom. Love to you from NC -USA
There are so many things that I wish I could say but it would be a book. I've watched a few of your videos now over a short period of time and to fully express how much you have impacted me is impossible. I've been through so much myself, lost so much and so many. I totally understand the pain and loneliness, etc of not having a good support system or help you need to keep surviving. Situations you see no way out of or through yet continuing moment by moment. Finding anyone who can honestly relate or to recognize that someone is in a harder situation than oneself is such a rarity and a sad treasure to find, of which you are. Sometimes when I feel so alone in my situations, I remember the story of Lazarus and the rich man. I think about how Lazarus only had the stray dogs to comfort him by licking his wounds. Those stray dogs were his only support system. They were the only ones he received love from. I relate to that. You remind me of him. I think of how life is such a struggle yet his end was wonderful. Not sure why we live so long in so much pain, loss, etc. but as you referenced, it does cause reaction and such in those within our sphere of influence, whether to their benefit or destruction in the end, only God knows but in that, I see us who struggle so, kind of like balances that God uses to weigh the motives, actions, words, etc of others and in some cases causes meaningful change in them. In that, our struggles, sufferings, are used for the eternal benefit of others and so I suppose worth it overall. The process sucks though. I'm rambling. I really just wanted to express how much your videos and how you keep going in such a hard situation, encourages and strengthens me in my situation bc if you can then I can. So, each moment you continue, you bring those of us who might not otherwise feel we can, with you...to keep going, to have that extra bit of faith, hope, relatability, etc needed. In that, you are carrying more than yourself as are we by those witnessing us. A ripple that far exceeds our own line of sight. I've had fear and anxiety about the next two weeks but knowing what you face in that same time frame helps me not feel so afraid right now. My trust is in the Lord and He is using you in a way no other right now could be used. It is all for a greater purpose and one day it will end and be worth it. I pray you will experience the other side of the suffering, being healthy and stronger and able to make the lemonade out of the proverbial lemons. Thank you for your vulnerability. Thank you for your strength. Thank you for continuing. 🌼💛🌼
Ooooo Alison… you are not rambling at all! What a powerful way to describe what you experience… I am just silent for a moment, taking this in… thank you so much for sharing this! And immense grateful how my sharing is helping you… you help me by this comment as well! So thank you too 🙏🏻
I will keep you in my heart and thoughts the coming weeks as you go through your own challenges. Never hesitate to keep sharing and reaching out! Giving you a big hug 💖
@@liquefaith ((♡))
@@liquefaith my momma passed away tonight from Covid. I'm devastated.
@@A.L.I.S.O.N noooo… 😳😥
I am out of words now… please know I am here for you… you are in my thoughts and heart! Please keep in touch, will you? Let me know what you need!
For now:
The biggest hug ever! ❤️
@@A.L.I.S.O.N OMG Alison.....I am SO SORRY you lost your Mom. I know it must hurt so bad. I hate that awful virus.....please take care of yourself and I will pray God helps you through this.
If people can’t say anything positive, say nothing at all. Words are very powerful. ❤❤❤
I believe you and you got this ! Sending love from the uk
The very fact that you are still alive and fighting this shows strength and a will to live. I believe in you. I can’t begin to imagine what this is like for you. You want to get better but nobody will help you. What has gone wrong with this world. No matter what our wrongs are we should still help others in need. I’m praying for you and sending healing hugs and prayers.
As a retired chiropractor; trust me when I say the body is a miraculous recoverer in ANY facet of disease. Here's hoping you get back to slowly feeding your body both emotionally and physically. Every cell in your body COMPLETELY overturns and regenerate to new purity every 6-8 years. So, if you start day one today: in 5 years time or so you can look back and every cell will be new and fresh and rejuvenated this is scientific fact. And maybe as a healthy self you can look back at these videos and see how your life is on a better path. You DO NOT have to die from this disease. You don't. Start fresh today: fresh thoughts, fresh cells, fresh ideas, fresh foods, fresh love, fresh belief. Love you!
True legend I believe in you its breaking my heart watching you wish you were here in UK I would help you support you from this mental health and it stinks your the winner sending hugs prayers love from UK x
Sending faith, love, hope, and PRAYERS to you. You are in our hearts!!
Thank you Brenda… 🙏🏻💖
Seeing this video tonight was exactly what I needed to hear now. I will keep you in my prayers. Love the lion (and I’m grateful for the friend that came to see you and provided some timely encouragement)!
You are so needed to remind others (like me) to be kind and forgiving to others and to ourselves. I see many comments from others that are also suffering. I am so appreciative of your words of compassion to so many who need that. Thank you so much! Keep on going, don’t give up. Gentle hugs from afar. ❤️
So sweet of you… and so considerate about the ‘gentle’ 🥰 Thank you…
I believe in you Angelique, and I believe in miracles too. You show strength on being adamant, on not giving up. Others have recovered, so why not you too? God bless, stay strong, and keep the faith. ❤️💐👍💪🙏🙏
Thank you Rosanna! 🙏🏻💖
I have alot of faith God is going to heal you. Never give up I know days can be harder then others. I pray to God he can heal you and give you strength to carry on in life. Stay strong I believe in you.❤️❤️❤️
i feel like youre a friend chatting with me! thank you for talking to us about your thoughts.
So welcome Jillian 🙂
Please don’t waste your energy on negativity…you deserve to heal and be well….love from the USA
Thank you Claudia…
Amen Sister! I am praying for you. God please get this sweet lady the help she wants and need. Hold her hand through this struggle. In Jesus name Amen!🙏🏻
I’ve been thinking about you and am so thankful to see that you are alive! I believe in you and believe that you are here for a reason. You have so much passion and strength inside you and I can hear it in your voice. Keep fighting and believing. I always turn to my faith for comfort and one of my favorite Bible verses when things seem impossible is Job 5:9 “He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted.” Nothing is impossible for God, I believe that with every part of me. Your struggle is very real, but you have what it takes to push through until you get the help you need. I’m praying that happens for you very soon and that soon you will be posting videos of your recovery ❤️
Great verse!
Thank you so much for your encouragement Liz! 🙏🏻💖
You are in my prayers love. Hang in there. Don’t give up. You have so many out here routing and praying for you. Huge hugs 💕💕💕
Thank you Angi! Hug back to you 🙂💖
Your name is literally FAITH darling!
You are a Lion heart princess warrior.
Us Leo's are STRONG (I'm a Leo too)....in mind, in spirit, in faith, in hope and in body! In so many ways your body IS still strong, it is doing the miraculous continuously keeping everything going. It is amazing and God is so good! He will never give up on you even when it feels like others have.
It's ok to forgive yourself and start to see exactly how God sees you. To TMH you are perfect in all ways.....you radiate everything that is creation and his perfect love for you is out of this world. Marinate in what God sees
I'm with you Angelique!!! and I believe you will recover !!! I see you and your strength! Keep up the hope. You can do it! Much love to you!
Thank you Lori… 🙏🏻💖
@@liquefaith ti sono vicina e anche io credo in te!! Forza! 💪♥️
@@SabrinaPiumarossa grazie 🙏🏻
@@liquefaith 💪⭐🪄♥️
You are so articulate and insightful and intelligent..I pray you will be healed and become a beacon for all suffering the same condition 🙏💜
Thank you Laney 🙏🏻💖
Stay strong girl. I’m so proud of you for believing in yourself don’t give up!!!
I am new to meeting you, but you have captured my heart!!! Yes - Don't lose hope!!! I am disabled also. I fell from a horse and severely injured my spine, I am in pain 24/7. I've had sooo many surgeries. Finding good home health help is sooo very hard here in the USA. Being vulnerable is such a hard thing to do!! I'm so proud of you!!! I see so much of you in me!!! I hate that you are in the predicament. Sending tons of positive vibes and healing energy!!! Much love!!
Angelique, I believe everyone commenting on your videos is trying to help you. We may not know what to say or give advise that is not helpful to you, but please understand we are desperate to know how to help you. Please keep fighting as best you can.
I still see the beautiful person you are, but it’s really hard to watch you from afar in a very desperate situation. I don’t want you to die.
Miracles are absolutely real. There is a God and He loves you and is mindful of you. I pray you will find the strength to survive. It really has to come from inside you. You can do this. ❤️
You have such a good understanding on where you are in your journey. Hold onto The Lord. He loves you Lique! I pray for your healing and restored relations with your family xxx
When I look at you I am humbled by your vulnerability and authenticity. It is so brave and beautiful, I’m awestruck by your courage. When I look at you I see you are insightful and intelligent. I know your story is already helping people. When I look at you I see sweetness, sincerity, and innocence. It’s ironic, but sometimes the kindest souls experience the most hardship. You never deserved any abuse, suffering or hardship, but nonetheless it found you, like it finds so many of us. I sense those you love may have let you down. Boy do I know that feeling! I see that you are learning great strength and I know you have it in you to keep pushing through each day. You will get stronger each day. Yes miracles are real, I have seen them in my own family. I don’t know what to say except for I am praying for you and sending you light and love. You are so sweet and genuine and pure - the world needs more people like you. May God continue to bless you. I thank God the Almighty Creator for giving you strength and healing every moment. I thank God for giving you some comfort and peace each day. Yes it will get better.🙏❤️⭐️💫
Thank you SO MUCH for this encouragement… it is bringing tears to my eyes… 🙏🏻❤️
@@liquefaith ❤️🌻💐🌞🙏
I am so sorry my sweet girl. May our God keep you safe in the palm of his Mighty Hand on this earthly journey. Thank you for showing us all that the Spirit of God is stronger than anything in the whole universe. Let your light shine my love. Prayers and good wishes all the way from South Africa xxx
You pushed yourself to make this video…push yourself to live as long as it takes. I have no idea how hard it is but we are with you. We will be expecting many more video updates. You are a beautiful person whom I will never forget.
I believe your recovery WILL happen, you're a lovely genuine person with so much good to offer, the worlds needs people like you. Keep making the videos!
Sending prayers and hugs from Peru! I can feel the strengh in your voice. It’s always great to see a new video from you. Don’t give up! We’re all rooting for you! You got this!
You have such a strong beautiful soul. I believe you'll conquer this disease and live the life you deserve.
Thank you Trist… 🙏🏻💖
You’ve got this, Angelique! The light of your beautiful soul will attract miracles and blessings! 🥰🤗💫🕊🎶🙏🏻
Thank you Annah 🙏🏻💖
Hi Lique! Thank you so much for updating us! ❤️ Yes, keep fighting! I am so upset that the hospitals are taking so long to help you. I think they should take you now and do as much as possible! I like your stuffed lion, that’s the spirit! Praying for you in Jesus’s Name, much love and hugs to you! 🙏🏻🤗🤗🤗❤️💝
Thank you Amy! 🙏🏻💖
@@liquefaith You’re so welcome, Lique! God bless you, much love, hugs, and prayers to you 🤗❤️💝
My HEART is breaking the way I'll people are being treated..
If I were living near you I would certainly open my house to you and offer what ever help I could.
LOVE and PRAYERS to you. FROM IRELAND XXX
So sweet of you Clare! Thank you… 💖
You can do this. Lord Jesus Christ is with You all the time. I believe in You. ❤️
Strong, Brave, and Courageous!!! A true lion through and through. You have the most powerful mindset. You will WIN this fight. I am with you 100%.🙏🥰
I stand with you in believe and prayers!GOD CAN!
You poor darling girl I wish I lived next door to you so I could help you with your recovery even in the smallest way. Keeping you in our prayers
Thank you Pattie… 🙏🏻💖
I am confident you will make it through this..your insight into humanity is deeply moving. Please have faith and update us often whenever you are able.
This is the first time I've seen your videos, you have such a beautiful soul please don't give up 🙏 we are all here routing for you ❣️
Thank you Lisa! 🙏🏻
I BELIEVE IN YOU!!! And I pray for you to get the help you need asap, sending you lots of love!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Always glad when you upload a video. Please keep it up, you ARE a fighter!
You have my vote! I believe in you! I am so glad your fiesty self is in this world!! Hugs to you❤️ I love your view on things. You are a force to be reckoned with, Lique. Love to you, Lion, and happy belated birthday
Thank you dear Gilraen! 😘
My dear child. Stop stop! past child abuse, neglect, has nothing to do with the person you are. I truly believe for a miracle for you!... I have faith and hope in you!!!! You have been hurt. But you are beautiful you have a good life ahead of you! baby girl! BIG strong hugs from Norway, Oslo.
You're an amazing woman Angelique! And yes, we all need love, help and support. No-one makes it on their own. That doesn't make you weak. I found this video very inspiring, take care and keep persevering xxx
Thank you Charlotte! 😘
It is lovely getting to know you over the last few months, you are so brave❤❤❤
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Angelique, you have such a lovely spirit. You are so strong. Stay determined and focused. So many people are cheering you on right now. Always remember how many people love and support. You can do this.
Thank you Heather!
I will never stop believing in you! You are so strong and you show that to me in every video you make. I hope you keep believing in yourself because it sounds like help is just around the corner!
Stay strong. I will pray for your recovery 🙏 sending you love and healing energy ❤️ from UK
Thank you Anna 🙏🏻💖
You are an inspiration to me to keep fighting healed from cancer and chemo. Watching your videos give me the courage to keep fighting 💯🙏🏿🙌🏽🥰
Yes!! Keep having faith sweetheart! 👍🏻👏🏻🙏🏻❤️
Hi. I don’t know about your condition but was moved by your words and wish you health and happiness. I really hope you get better and believe in your strength to do so. Don’t give up! Keep on speaking out and seeking help!
Thank you Yaron!