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I have noone to talk to. So thats why im here writing about my thoughts and how i really feel.
My name is Kevin Gyuri i was born in Baja in Hungary. I was bullied from the start of my life till my 15th birthday. I was raised by only a mother who had syrenght and still has but this life is so cruel that even a strong willed mother cant stand. We just learn from life and the mistskes we made. Happines is so small that u have to enjoy every one bit if it is around.
Where was i, oh right.
Soo i was bullied till my 15th, after that school gave me a music lesson and i held a guitar i fell in love with it in seconds... The sound it made.. The look of it.. I knew music is going to be there with me for eternity. At that time i kinda liked someone so i wanted to be better than who i was back then. I still got bullied tho haha..
In this second my mind js telling me to stop writing its not gonna accomplish anything.. But i want to tell someone my full story so i can rest for awhile untill the next challenge is up here.. People called me a Liar, stupid, and all other things. Im not here to cry about it. Its just i wish they saw and felt the heart first and then they looked at there deeds. Some of you all might not be religious.. Me neither.. I call myself religious but in a way that doesnt hurt others. God = Dad.. Who created me. Jesus = Gods one and only son went down to give us heaven for free.. So that we can love God the same as Jesus did.. You see i didnt had a father on earth to be here for me. But i had God. He was always here i just didnt payed attention.. Im emotionless but my heart still exist.. Somewhere... In Gods hand..
The excact same is happening to me iam not in gospital but al tge same my frien iam johan . From namibia .. my wife left me last week .. no work in namibia and things going zall worst my friend there is light for us .. just know its us who must rise ... please my friemd .. i am religious ... i lost a child couple yeara ago mm life been tough .msome has to suffer before death hope we can talk more let me know brother ... its stfange ..love
@@johanj6660 my friend the only thing u have to know is that everything that is happening to you right now is for good sake. God choose u to be strong have faith my friend dont ve scared of the world this is not our place. God is waiting for us. And as u can see God has showed me to message u this. Keep strong and dont lose faith. At the end there is als light :) dont give up find peace my friend :)
God is my only real dad too. I know what it is to be alone. And feel utterly isolated. But once I recognized how much God truly loves me just for who I already am, I know I’m not alone. And I dgaf what anyone else thinks of me now. It’s all about Him, and his perfect fatherly love for me.
I used to cut both arms , neck and left leg starting today with mh face ... pretty messed up guys ,i dont want to live anymore ..... and i know i wil keep going ... iam soo aloooooonreeee aaaaaaaagggghhhhhhhhh fck i wish i could juat talk to someone ... i hate life i hate everything
I dont know anymore ... damn youtube comment box is all i haaave ... wish you guys could see what iam seeing and experiencing ... them agaim who is you ...i have no one ...no friemd nothing ... i have whatsapp no contacts ..fb ..no friemds mm. One of these days all iam is a commenr
I lost everything. My work. My home. My gilfriend. My family. And every "friend" and now im in Hospital... And I hear this. Im crying
Internet Stranger, Reading that broke my heart, i just hope you’ll do well soon.
@@sarthakjalota4856 I hope too my friend. My dream is so big. To life a live with all my dreams.. 28 years sadness. It has to stop
Everything might seem lost, but I promise you that you are not alone, even if it feels like it. Sending internet hugs.
I can literally fell your pain... I hope it's gonna change for the better as soon as possible. Sometimes people in the internet give more support than people around. I do understand that it so hard but you are not alone, I wish you all the best!
Kevin life isn't meant to be easy you're going to go through twists and turns and make tough decisions but let me tell you something you're not alone sometimes we go through things to make us strong to be a better person than we are to have understanding of life and to show us God's true love hope you get back up and keep pushing forward and god bless
I've listened to this song since I watched 13 hours in the movie theatre. It has been with me since I joined the Marine Corps and listened during many occasions. I've listened before and after lifting in the gym, while reading, driving to work and walking on the beach, after the greatest of times with close friends and driving away from them. When I had to move to a different state and start over. During moments of solitude and moments I found clarity and inspiration. I've never thought to listen to a slowed version because the original was deep enough for me to ask and address questions in my life.
Last month, I watched Mom take her last breath in the hospital and no longer have any parents/grandparents to guide me in life. It initially inspired negative emotions of fury and hate. I thought of the values and example she showed me during her life and I wanted to always make her proud. The six years that I was gone, I never realized that when my mom loved me, from birth and growing up that she saw the best version of me that I was always aspiring to be like. She loved me in the moment and also had vision to see me at my absolute best. Like a marble stone as I sculpt the best version of myself. I have these little moments that cut me when I envision myself at certain milestones she won't be apart of. Introducing a love, marriage, receiving my degree and commissioning as an officer, or seeing her sons all under the same roof again. Tiny little deaths, but as she kept her love and faith for me. I must honor her as if she were still here today. I must keep my faith just like she did. I know of the cliche of being a better son, but I could of truly done better in recent years of connecting with her more. It was quite difficult under the circumstances and thankful for my older brother for being there with her during her treatments through the years.
Reading through the comments reminded me of the emotions. I use the emotions to create and inspire myself for something good and worthwhile. Pain only lasts within us when we are in the past. I'm learning again how to live presently and joyfully as I can. Because with all the adversity and shitty situations we've been through. We'll get through it. I just pray that we allow it to improve us and not destroy what we created already. Thank you.
-Hercules
Damn... best comment here. Keep moving forward. Always Forward.
You're incredibly strong. Your name fits you well.
You're going to make an excellent officer one day. Wake up every day with a fire in your belly. Live for your mom, and never forget where you came from. Semper Fidelis.
@@jacksonrudolph7502 what if your mum was abusive
I love you my fellow human ❤️
Jesus is King ❤
Viva Cristo Rey ❤❤
Amen. HE IS THE PRINCE OF PEACE, We love you, Jesus, and we can't wait to see you. ❤
Don't give up. If there's no one out there for you, you can be out there for others like you. With that goal in mind, you can strive to grow together than by yourself. It made me happier than previously being by myself with nothing to look forward to.
If there are no heroes willing to be your Knight, become the Knight to be a hero for others like you.
Have that mindset and you'll be repaid with the greatest reward.
Its not just the song that got me crying now, but also the comments
Everyone is so supportive or dealing with hard times, I hope everyone is feeling better. We all go through hard times, its normak, stay safe and take care
I do think about my faith when I hear music like this and I know the majority of people will not want this but I found these verses in an old King James Bible and they helped me out. Maybe someone out there who is struggling will read them and figure them out for themselves.
Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand; By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain.
1 Corinthians 15:1-2 KJV
For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:
1 Corinthians 15:3-4 KJV
Amen!
Amen to that brother.
Amen
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of God will be saved
Seeing a lot of people here saying they've been forgotten.. no you haven't! You have people that love you and care, we all go through rough times but we learn and grow. Keep on fighting out there no matter what and never give up no matter how hard it gets. We all have our own place and stories in this world so make it great. Love y'all
This song makes me reflect on how much success I've had these past 7 years. All of the victories and challenges I've had. It puts me in a rather pensive mood. Unto all who read this YES YOU CAN achieve your dreams !!!
Glad u made it, that’s love ! Keep going bro
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of God will be saved
remember me before this becomes famous.
I know things may be hard right now but whenever it feels too much come back to this comment and know that even if we may be strangers and if we do not know each other know that I am still rooting for you.
I may not know if tears are streaming down your cheeks while you are reading this, as you force yourself to keep you're cries silent. I may not know that you may be in your deepest darkest hour, while that feeling of heaviness and cold crush your chest, or that you feel so alone. Or perhaps you do have friends, many even, but not those that you could bleed your heart and soul to and reveal just how tired you really are, which makes you feel even more empty and alone.
Nevertheless know that I am here.
Who knows? Maybe you the person reading this and I had passed each other in the street without you knowing that it was me and without me knowing that it was you.
Who knows? Maybe I am someone you do know but someone of whom you do not associate with or talk to.
Or perhaps we really are just strangers. I am the person writing this and you are the person reading this.
But that's the thing, that is how the world works. It's a funny thing really. It is chaotic, unpredictable and so humane. Sometimes it can get harsh, sometimes unbearable but just hold on alright? Just know that I and many others are rooting for you. Wipe away those tears, and smile. Keep your head held up high, you deserve to feel happy. I love you❤️
We'll make it, somehow
Thankyou. We're meant for Greatness! I love you more! I pray that you find inner peace and may your dreams and desires come to pass. Blessings to you.
Thanks!
This message my heart in the deep
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of God will be saved
Idk how much I can keep up with this fake smile. It's so exhausting.
I don’t know why I’m doing this and I don’t know how you’re feeling right now but negative has to die sun has to rise you are stronger then you think wish you my luck 🍀
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of God will be saved
We all have a sad story… let it make you stronger. Stay hard, everyone.
Sometimes I think music is a lonely friend🤕💜
lorne balfe was insane for this
Juste magnifique...je m'injecte ce Chef d'oeuvre tous les soirs depuis presque deux mois.. une thérapie..un orgasme auditif... à consommer sans modération
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
A King may move a man, a father may claim a son, but remember that even when those who move you be Kings, or men of power, your soul is in your keeping alone. When you stand before God, you cannot say, "But I was told by others to do thus." Or that, "Virtue was not convenient at the time." This will not suffice. Remember that.
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
Hey stranger I just wanted you to know that I know what its like to be a good friend when they are not your friends. I want you to know That I know its hard. Whatever you are going through And I don’t know what it is. I know its hard. And its okay to feel tired and sad and angry and all. I hope your heart gets the treatment it deserves. You are a good person. I want to hug you and let you cry as much as you want. You need some rest my friend its a hard thing you are going through I guess. I love you stranger❤️🖤
Thank you captain. I got massage 😘
Thank you stranger, I love you too ❤
I don't know how to say it
But...
This song...this...masterpiece was there in the most hard moments of all my life, i know i had lived a little, i am only 22 years now...
But, all i've lived, all i've seen, the wars that are fought on my mind, the wars i fought alone in the dark
So many times i wished to give up, but i carried on, with hope in my god that was always there for me, and i couldn't see him...
For all those, who read this
Know, that you're not alone
I never meet you, and i certainly will not, but remember, only you can accomplish your dreams, fight for them, don't give up of yourself like i did
Have faith, have strenght
And most important of all
Have love in your hearth, cause love van move mountains and make us better human beings.
From a Sad Man, to all the world
Iam 15 and I cant stop crying over this song
I can't take it anymore, honestly. I'm watching my life crumble around me, the castle I thought I built, turning into nothing more than a house of cards. Why can't I do anything right. I just want to be forgotten by everyone I know, I just want to disappear. I can't do this anymore.
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
I do not want you to disappear. And God doesn't want you to disappear. Call upon Christ Jesus. Let Him build your house. Let Him build you. And I can promise you that you will stand and the walk into eternity alongside Him.
So call upon Him and tell Him what's going on and surrender your situation to Him. Let Him be the Lord of your life. He died to redeem you and rose to show you that He is faithful and true. So trust Him.
Because he will not fail you.
You know what’s sad
I have to create a place
A place where I feel comfortable
A place where I feel at home
A place so deep in my heart
A place nobody will understand
A place where only I exist
And that’s where I cry
For I am forever alone
But it’s somewhat beautiful all by myself
Up here on the roof all alone
Looking at the stars who are forever alone
A beautiful poem
@@lukazaian01 Apart from that I think its his life. I think its my life
@@michaelcueva530 Tell me more on why you think that?
@@lukazaian01 To put it simply, you have this pre conceived notion in your head that if you tell the things are insecure about, most afraid of, that people simply would not care or have the time to care. But then again it's all in your head and it is easier to assume the behavior of others based on what you think; to truly find out if other people are worth your time and worth walking this world of woe with, you must be courageous enough to be vulnerable with them, so maybe just maybe they too can have the permission to be vulnerable with you, and not feel so alone as you do most of the time inside your own mind.
@@michaelcueva530 That I FULLY understand and relate to. Its funny I've recently experienced that. Thank you for your time and sharing your wisdom.
Honestly I listen to this masterpiece whenever I'm working on books or games. It's so beautiful.
I locked myself in a smelly ass bathroom with my dad's handgun.... staring at my reflection with terror of what I was contemplating... The urge had come on so quick I thought I was going insane. I kept calling myself a coward. I honestly thought that part of me was all in the past, but I guess not. I'm listening to this song at two in the morning just wanting be feel alive. I don't want to die. I never wanted to die. So why am I this way that I am? Why is nothing good enough for me? Why do I internalize every piece of hate and mockery like some sort of sick memoir? I don't think I can trust myself. Music is my escape. Music is my life. Music is the only thing I can live for sometimes. Thank you for this.
I'm so sorry! I want you to know that you're loved, and that I know what that feels like. To feel like you have absolutely nothing, it gets better trust me. I admire your strength and bravery, you're not a coward, not even close! It takes an insane amount of strength, determination and sheer will to stay when you're at a point where the pain feels too great, when it feels overwhelming. A quote that helped me during one of the roughest times and darkness times in my life is. “Sometimes even to live is an act of courage.”
This totally applies to you my good friend! You're so courageous, and brave! I cannot stress this enough to you.
Life sometimes is so exhausting and painful, it feels like there's no way out. But trust me there is! Something I use to cope is music, I see music isn't only an escape for me, it is for a lot of us! This is why I create these slowed and reverbed pieces. If I can bring comfort, or consolation to at least 1 person on this Earth, then it was worth it. When I read your story, I see myself and it breaks my heart to see others suffering so greatly. I'm so glad that you stayed! You being here on this Earth makes such a profound impact, it truly does. Even, if you don't see it right now. You will. :) We all have a plan in our lives, no matter who we are. We all have a story.
My good friend, I hope you stay safe. There are better days to come. Situations change, and you won't feel this way forever. Soon, just around the corner there could be so many things that will make you smile, and laugh, and just have fun. I know, right now it might not feel like it, but soon you'll see! I love you my friend, feel better soon. 💙
What an absolute beauty this is 🙏
All of you in the comments are true legends😭
"Know one thing... I lived in a darkness almost my entering life, and sometimes i felt... That is not light. But it have, the faith is the hope". Sentence from my script.
This brought me to tears on a drive to work. Realizing all the people that love me and I’ve somehow pushed away. Recognizing how I’ve let past trauma prevent me from maintaining true connection with someone I love. Feeling disappointment in myself because most days I feel alone and I can’t help but feel like it’s my fault.
Pain makes life so beautiful. We all scratch the surface of our true possibilities, and are hurt by the ones we love. True courage is found in trusting others knowing we can be hurt. Peace be with you :)
Im going to be honest, im 17 stuck in life where i dont really know a thing. Didnt had a father to grow up with. I only had myself the whole time. Im at a place where depression is everywhere and Anxiety. Im so emotionless that i dont really care what happens around me anymore. If i lose someone i dont cry. Not because i didnt loved them. But because i know they are at a better place than this hell. I call this hell because every good in this world left along time ago. We are drifting up and down in this world and thinking we are so perfect. The only thing that is perfect.. Is earth, nature and everything around us.. But we people have misunderstood the most importsnt things in life.. We have moved so far ahead and forgotten every small bit of this life.. Every answer on the wuestions that people ask me i can only answer "i dont know" not because i dont know.. But i m too tired to even tell u the answer when it lays before u..
Im not perfect. Im not smart im not good at multitasking.. But the things im good in im the only one who can really see it when my eyes are opening the way urs never did. Sometimes i ask myself.. Does anybody even understands me? If not why am i even trying my best to MANKIND. People only see the faults that we make, the problems we made. But never the good things we made when we were on our last breath or the problems we solved when noone was arouund..
Dont forget im 17. And im not the only one who feels like this way. All we want is freedom and a place to call "HOME".
Omg yesss finally someone who can explain what I’m feeling! I am 17 too and i can relate to everything you have said.
@@euphoric_um Glad i could explain something haha i guess im good in this :) i hope u get up soon tho i hope ur writing ur own book aswell it helps ❤️
@@ReflexXSF2 haha yes! I hope you get up too. We got this!!
I am 16, and I didn't have a dad growing up either. One day, I feel like we will all find something, to love and cherish. That will free us from the feelings we have in the middle of night when all alone.
All I can tell you is, enjoy your youth to the fullest. Those years will never come back
I've lost everyone in my life. I've lost all hope. And never ever have I felt so liberated I am me!
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of God will be saved
Hey guys, iam back. I learned alot since i left that comment there.. There are people who still care for ur health, there are still people with hope inside them, ans Father knows that. He is in all of us he is watching. And know that everythinf ur goi g trough he knows it so well.. He is just waiting for u to let it all go and hold hes hand. I sinned many times after i left that.. Evil is attacking us.. And evil wilness we have tk be very careful what we accept.. I learned my lesson.. NOONE can give the love that Jesus has offered. For all of us. AMEN..
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of God will be saved
So beautiful 🌸
كل شخص في الأرض لديه كتاب ويعيش الفصول حسب نوعية تغذية الكتاب
هناك فصل سيئ وهناك فصل جميل
وهناك فصل غامض
وهناك فصل فارغ
وهناك فصل لا شئ
وهناك فصل القوة والعضمة
انت الان تعيش فصل من هذا الفصول ربما الآن انت محبط وربما سعيد وربما وحيد وربما صامت لا تقلق قانون الحياه هكذا وتذكر دائما تذكر أن الفصل السيئ لا يعني أنتهى القصة انت اجمل مخلوق خلقه على الأرض انت تحت مسمى البشر والرب معاك دائما صحح افكارك وعش الحياه لا تنسى ان تحقق أحلامك يا رفيق رحلة موفقة 🍁 🇮🇶
Thank you 😢❤
Masterpiece
Tomorrow is never promised, so make the day count. Tell the ones you love how much you care about them. And love to your hearts content.
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
Incroyable. J'aime cette mélodie
I cannot stop listening to this sad beautiful music that reverberates throughout my soul and just keeps me going on! Never give up on life! It's too too too precious!
God please forgive us our sins. Life is this moments conscienceness! You may never have another! Love is all we have brothers and sisters! Jesus is coming back soon as he promised to save us from the evil that exists all around us today! Accept Jesus and be saved! It's never too late!
Never more words can be true then these words spoken with the word of our Lord Jesus Christ. The only one way to our Farther God's Heaven, is though his son JESUS CHRIST ♾️💯
I’m two months away from graduating from my bachelors, I have to make up my decision on what I am gonna do. One of the decisions here is if I’m gonna take on a full-time job opportunity, but that would mean being away from my family and friends. School is getting harder by the minute, and sometimes it seems like a lot to take in. This song helps me clear my head and focus. I also use it when I pray thinking that while I seem like I’m forgotten, God will never forget about me and He will come to my aid❤️
God bless you everyone, and keep grinding
Guys I just graduated on Sunday!❤️ thank God it was possible. I was not forgotten, God came to my aid every step of the way.
@@agustinburgos7401 Congratulations !!!
You are born with gifts from your higher power.. embrace your talents.. you will find fulfillment in doing something good for others.. and meaningful.. this is your life.. stay blessed my friend.
@@wildblueangel7431God has bless me greatly. It’s waaaay better than I ever imagined. I’m marrying my best friend soon, we both work at the local hospital helping save lives, and we will soon get our own place as well as I will be applying soon for PA school. Not only that, every day I feel more and more thankful that I have a God that does not let me down and is always there for me like a friend and father, I am healthy, I have my family and my soon-to-be-wife❤️ Great is the Lord
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
I’ll Never Forget. Just keep Marching. 💔❤️🩹💛😞
Never think about the past, never worried about future, just live in the present ....keep going just keep going...because life is all about moving ....no one is waiting for you , no one is there for you...just keep up there, hold on yourself in bad situations....believe in God. Promise to yourself Today that you are alone stronger 💪...people come and go.....glad for yourself ❤
Beauty
This is Amazing Thank You ! 🖤
(Also The background images matches all the musics )
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
One of my favorite movies of all time
Never regret being in pain,
Don’t ever be afraid to cry;
Though in life comes failure…
You can honestly say that you try.
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
Fallen words grew strong as they stood to the rising sun of warmth, and life sprouted from the roots of design, a flawless creation on the core of a cracked pit, the tears fell onto the soil, as sweat drew cold in icy waters, heat rose to flames in the cold and dry air, as the moon sunk deep into the world. To feel the cold warmth on ones skin was yet more magnificent to see than to watch endings grow near to start. The line to beauty within its flaws was in ones reach of mighty grasp, and so it did. Now for the sky grew its palest freckles in the blast of the night, and the taste of regret nestled in the core of new truths. For the world was beautiful, with pain burrowing on the inside.
Is this your writing or are you quoting?
@@jessicarose9208 it’s my writing hehe
@@rain-dv5gf Noice!
@@jessicarose9208 thanks!
Here I am, a stranger, alone, and afraid in a world I never made.
И поэтому ты свободен
I have failed my parents , I was praying everyday just to get my dream jobs so that I can helped them when they no longer working but God , I just don't know now on what to do as my mother force me to keep on working hard to get it but it's just that I can't anymore I feel like suicidal thoughts has come again into reality at this present moment like in the past where I feel weak and can't even do anything but thinking what could have happen if..
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
Canım çiftim❤
Bu arad çok güzel olmuş eline sağlık😊
There hasn't been enough time in all ages of the universe to create a word that explains what I feel when I listen to this music. I only know it's good. It's good, and perhaps infinite. 😊
I knew this was going to hit me right in the heart, because I love this song so much… man it brought me to tears… such a powerful song.
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
Life can be stressful and hard to get through sometimes,
One moment it is school and next it is your heart.
One moment your feeling hopeless and the next your worried.
One moment you might be feeling lonely and the next empty inside.
One moment you might even be crying alone hiding your emotions so none can see.
but even in all of those moments I always had one person get me through that,
it was God.
He gave me hope when I had none, made me feel just a little less lonely when I was lonely; he loved me always and he loves all of us always no matter what.
Without God I would not have been able to carry on.
He was the best father I could ever have, on this world, and the next.
If sending your one and only son to die horribly, being crucified and having nails driven through his hands and feet just so that we could enjoy eternal life isn't a true testament of love then I don't know what is.
All God wants is for you to believe that his son died on the cross and that you would just ask for forgiveness for your sins, you will be born again, though life will still not be easy, but the Holy Spirit will comfort you.
He always had my back no matter what.
Dear reader, if you're reading this right now and you may be sad or feeling lonely or feeling worthless, just remember that you are loved by me, others and most importantly, your father in heaven.
I listen to this knowing life is a test as we go on we make choices that we accept but we all gotta look at perspective for everyone we all live and stress because we want to please others we want others to know they have meaning in our lives and honestly it can be hard life isn’t easy it never will be but I realized you gotta wake up and just go and keep go and things will always get better in this life we all make a choice and that’s the best thing you can do everyone who may read this just stay safe and keep going keep having gope
Every morning is the worst. I lost everything too. But I still have hope. I still know I can turn things around, but it shivers my timbers knowing that I can lose everything too. I'm scared of losing it. I asked for help from God and I didn't get it? I can barely make up words and I feel like I just want to stop having these intrusive thoughts. I woke up today and almost killed myself. Every single morning I start crying and every night I fall asleep peacefully hoping that there will be a chance for something new in the morning. But there isn't. The only chance for something is for me to start crying over some intrusive thought that I can't control again and if it gets better then I go on with my day and try killing myself in the afternoon and probably do it. I hate myself not my life. Why try if I don't try? I NEVER got help. NEVER. Everyone fucking left me when I needed them the most and I WAS THE ONLY SOURCE OF INSPIRATION. I WAS THE ONLY PERSON THAT TOLD ME TO GET UP IN THE FUCKING MORNING. IM SO WEAK I CANT EVEN DO A MEDITATION. IM SO TIRED AND WEAK AND SELFISH AND SUPERFICIAL. I THINK I CAN TREAT MYSELF WITH JUST EVERY PIECE OF SHIT I FUCKING TAKE. Well I'm done trying for one. I'm done. If I die today I'll die knowing I probably had a chance but wasted it. I hate myself to the moon and back. It's over.
So, for the people that also tried but failed. YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON YOU NEED, God made you to show u how good and bad the world can be. If you're good to yourself, and NEVER GIVE UP, always stand with the mindset u have, always remember yourself who u truly are. For the people who still have a chance, you will always have a chance if u give urself one. And for the people that failed and are at their rock bottom but still try, I admire you. I did that for years, but I'm tired, and I failed. I failed, and I hope that God will forgive me for what I said to him.
I’m failed too…
I hope God forgives all of us
Pretty chill, like sitting in a pool in space
Without dying and the pool freezing of course.
You know what. I feel like this might be a safe place to say this and get it off my chest. Warning, cringe or emotions most likely will happen.
Honestly it started when I just finished high school, not even a year ago. I finished up and graduated, and I passed a test for a job I seriously wanted which was WLFF (for those who don’t know it’s wild land fire fighting. I knew a few people in it at the time and thought I could do it. After I graduate I go on my first fire and helped save 2 communities on my first day. That blew me away and how we went above and beyond our pay to do so. The group we were in is a type 2, and there are 3 types. From least to greatest it’s 2, 2 IA (initial attack), then the glorified type 1’s which do the fun stuff such as smoke jumping, hotshots, and heli attack. In depth they do burning, advanced tree cutting (type C, which is the most dangerous) and all that. We did burning on our first day, and used air support. No individual did much, but as a team we put in work. That entire role we were basically a type 1 classified as a type 2. Needless to say it was fun. We had a spot fire about 1/10th of an acre and we got right in on the action. Head first into fire getting smoked out to where we couldn’t see 2 feet in front of us. Trees burning, people yelling, some people evacuating with a burning tree right on their head. God that day was great. On the 3rd to last day we had another, but not as bad. We just picked up burning trees and put them in a pile to burn. My proudest moment of that role was picking up a flaming log with the flames going on my gloves. I felt like I was actually contributing for a few, and it felt great. I loved it that day. So the role ends and I go home. A few weeks later I’m on the second role where I almost went on a heli for heli attack (kind of the same situation), but the heli’s never came. We don’t know why but most of the time helicopters don’t pick up crews. Other than that the role was pretty normal.
When I got home from the second role, my mom was in the hospital and they didn’t tell me for a whole week Two weeks of work and half of that my mom was injured from horseback riding. As of today she’s still in the hospital, and had a major concussion. She will heal, but the fact my step-father hid it from me still upsets me. He’s lied on more occasions than I can remember at this point. He’s starved me and lied to everyone saying he wasn’t. He’s left me in a snowstorm for 3 hours straight after saying he was coming to pick me up. He’s neglected me over my half brother (him and my mom) and my step brothers). My dad, who left me when I was 2 after getting messed up from the military treated my entire family better than he ever has in the 12 years I’ve known him. On top of all this, he kicked me out when my mom was injured, he’s nearly hit me before, and to put the cherry on top, he’s tried to lie and say he isn’t trying to take me away from my mom and my little brother. He’s also blackmailing me currently. He’s bad enough to where my mom asked if I wanted him gone, but I’m too nice and said I don’t want to make that decision, and when my mom made me make it I said to let him stay. He’s done more harm than good at this point, and it tore my aunt emotionally when she found out what he did.
I’m at a friends house now and chilling out, but god if I only knew how bad this would be I would have said for him to F off.
Now at a job I got less than a month ago, I’m talking to someone (cringe part) and I feel like I F’d up a relationship she had, but I don’t know. All I know is that we are both in similar predicaments. It’s not even a month and I’ve already grown close to almost every co-worker and management team member to where I’m doing something I’ve only done once before, and that’s asking if they want food from an outside source. They feel like family just like my friends house I’m at does. My actual family doesn’t even feel that way anymore. I’ve grown apart because of that one ignorant, neglectful, selfish word-I-won’t-say. I don’t know if cussing is allowed, but if so I have words to spill.
So if you read through all this, thank you, and sorry for all this. I really hope you’re doing well, and if not talk to me. My insta is slepdeprived9671 and I will talk to you if you need. Everything you say to me is with me and me only. I don’t want to see people hurt anymore, nor hurt people myself. If you don’t talk to me it’s 100% okay and I understand. Just take care and I wish the best for you. Take it easy please. I know we probably have no idea who each other are, but I want to help rather than see people suffer.
God bless you
Stay true to yourself..and be honest.. It helps to seek your higher power, and try to find it in your heart to forgive the ones who betrayed you.. you will get through this my friend. you are a hero. Thank you..stay blessed.
Beautiful !
2021,the year that i was tested a lot ...And i have learned a lot after that ..About love,about heart ..If you love someone,please ..Love them with your heart,not just with your words ...And,appreciate them when they still with us .Because,you will never know how much worth of the time together until that time become a memories ...
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
This is really good.
I Love It, thanks bro
estou chorando.
I’ve made so many mistakes in my life.. I’ve lost so many people.. so much family.. I am so alone today and I really have no idea where to go or what to do.. I have a job and a place to Live, but I don’t even really feel alive anymore..
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
Magnifique ❤️❤️❤️
Have no one really to talk to anymore. I have always kept in mind the only sentence known to me, never give up, always a fighter. Well it looks like I’m about to fail that too. Among everything else I seems to screw up. Well don’t know if anyone reads this but what I would like to say to who ever is out there who’s fighting, never stop believe in yourself. Life has taught me one thing, if you won’t stop dreaming and believing and loving, light shines over you and you will succeed
I like it
Been listening to this ever since 13 hours came out. I was a Freshman in high school here I am 20 years old and enlisted in the US Army
Same here dude. I've been enlisted in the Army for just over a year now. I'm 18 though, not 20 😄
Guys can I ask a question
@@reiss166 go ahead friend
@@shadowhope3099 what can I do to increase my sit-ups reps , I'm good at pushup but I suck at sit-ups
I want to enter military, im 15
Your musics is good for thinking. I think is a good music for a movie. 🙂
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
We all have qualities
We all have defaults
We all have weaknesses
We all have strengths
We all have fears
We all have emotions
We all are perfect like we are
We all have a person who love us like we are
We all have our sensitivity
We all have a heart
We all have our story
We all have a different life
We all are humans !
So before judging someone, try to know them, think twice before to talk, even, dont judge someone at all
Sometimes, silence is the best answer
(sorry if my English is bad I'm French)
yeah
so my question is WHY DO WE BORN ??????????
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
I miss her so much.
You need to move on.
I can’t, I can’t let go
Let her go. Give her to God, maybe He’ll give her back
I’m really trying now, I promise I am
I know you are, and you’ve been doing good. Keep going now. It’s okay now.
Oh why do you have to squeeze my tears out?
And I felt enlightenment.. never thought gifting away is sacrefie..no matter it is sometimes..but it's done.. And I never found myself like a loser.. because she was in front of me....
I think this song accurately represents a change coming to my life, i have 1 full week of a dead end job and now im training to be a pilot. Here i come world.
I see u everyday.
There is so much hurt and strife in the world. People fight, or do terrible things to each other. But I think in the end, when we are gone and everything is still and quiet, the worst is being forgotten.
It is how you live that matters. The ones who you care for will remember you, and will carry pieces of you with them.
Like the DNA we pass on, treat and care for others in a way that is sustainable
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
@@adevoteelord You live on in your children.
Like the Bible Says:
Bury the Dead.
@@adevoteelord Also, strive for Respect, not Attention.
You live on in your Children. Beware of Toxic Media that takes people's identities
I want to forget
I want to forget everything
Everything...
From harming
To betraying
To laughing
To craving for bestridding
Everytime, everytime
Whenever I tried to bethink
The mistakes I done erstwhile
To withcall them is nasty
To shun them is sinful
Forget...
I need to forget...
Or else my behaving
In one day will make me
Be *forgotten*
- A Yellow Smiely Slime
Every time I hear this. I start to think about my terrible tragedy and all the things I still don’t have because of it
Hope things get better for you and I wish a goodluck life isn't easy there's no comfort to begin with but we need to keep going I believe in you
This song makes me think of the Americans who were murdered by the negligence of our government
@@thefirstechlon5522 ☹️
Lost me dear mum in 2015! She was my rock! We talked so much about life. She loved everybody. Above all she loved Jesus and always told me to follow his teachings. Jesus is the light of the world for all to see! Accept him with all your heart and soul and you will never worry again! For he is our saviour and ONLY way to enter God's eternal kingdom in heaven! Blessed are those that believe in him without seeing,! Blessed are those that hunger and seek refuge! Blessed are those that suffer pain and fear for they will rejoice when Jesus returns as he promised. Be strong and keep the faith! Go the straight narrow path that leads to our father who is waiting with open arms! He LOVES YOU!!!!!!
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of God will be saved
I can’t. I’ve never seen the movie but this song brings so much emotion out of me. It makes me feel pain and sorry and pride and love and despair in a world that tries to tell us that it’s wrong to hurt and weak to cry. Incredible.
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
And a donut - another call from auld family. Thank you so.
Cherish your time, stride with vigour, pride and joy. Waste not each moment, live.
Make love, not war🇺🇦❤️
I prefer to do both.
Wilddddddddd and that's all I can say is wilddddddddd
I fight for anxity.
Its the little things in life
Moje życie na Ziemi jest ograniczone w czasie i chciałbym poznać wszystkie stworzenia żyjące na tej planecie i ich funkcje, a poznanie wszystkich tych stworzeń jest częścią poznawania Tego, który stworzył nas jako istoty ludzkie, ponieważ moje ziemskie życie jest ograniczone w czas. Pragnę otrzymać od Stwórcy tego wszechświata możliwość lepszego poznania Stwórcy i Siebie samego, a Stwórca tego wszechświata nigdy nie jest sam, ponieważ Jego świadomość, mądrość i moc są z Nim, a poznawanie Go jest ciągłym procesem, jak poznawanie Jego woli, atrybutów i wszystkiego, co stworzył...
if you aint first . .. your last
It's 2:00 A.M
I'm crying like everyday
Everything Ruined
Te entiendo amigo, todo mejorará
Same here, different time
@@memozfutbol I hope that
And it will happen that whoever calls the name of one God will be saved
Just lost a best friend of 5 years who I met in an online game. We met up twice overseas. I just found out that it was all fake and that apparently I forced everything, that I was unwelcome when I thought I was welcome, that I was an intruder when I thought I was a guest. That things should have never gone beyond the video game screen. That that is all they ever saw me as and felt me as. I feel I’ve lost 5 years of my life, I feel that any trust I ever had is gone. I feel that after 5 years this person doesn’t really know me and I don’t know them…
You are worthy of friendship.. you are good enough.. you are not incompetent.. you are not a burden.. people who understand sincere love, will see this.. Stay blessed my friend.
Do not lose your confidence or your value because of people who do not have emotional responsibility... You are wonderful and your friendship is valuable. It's been 6 months since you posted your comment but if you want a virtual friend you can write to me.
I lesson to the song every night .....every time I lesson to it ..I tell myself all will b good one-day I should not loose hope
This is giving me a climax vibe from transformers bayverse film
Very good and sad. You should do Thelema by Ofdream and Zack Hemsey Vengeance
Those who are battling demons and their thoughts, you have to love yourself - accept yourself and if God has given you health appreciate it. Want to forgot the past and lesser the pain? Can't overcome and forgot her name? Don't have any purpose or reason to live?
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I was in this condition few years back, and when i look back i realize that how far i come. And the only thing that i practiced to overcome all of those negative thoughts, depression, feeling worhtless etc...
Is no fap, it is beyond an internet community, it strengthen your unconscious mind, same unconscious mind that is the reason of OCD, depression, low motivation, low productivity, low confidence, and anxeity
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If you one of these people, try no fap
This masterpiece reminded me the years i spent in the prison, 6 years in the prison, i was about 18 years old till 24 years, and the worst thing in this story is that i didn't commit any crime. i had been sent to prison injusticly by murder! I didn't do that i swear, but no one believed me, now im under parole for 10 years, i cant work, no one needs someone with a criminal record! But i didn't do it! Im fighting till now, but Im afraid to lose hope.
Embrace your talents..find out your gifts.. what you are good at.. Start your own business!!!.. knowing in your heart who you are.. and lean into your higher power..you will get through this.. stay blessed my friend.
There is a way which seems right unto a man but the ways thereof are the ways of death. Even in laughter the heart is sorrowful; and the end of that mirth is heaviness.
Man is sentenced you to punishment of death but even when those who have not been dealt with the same treatment are never always happy.
Commit your ways to the Lord. A just weight and balance are the Lord's: all the weights of the bag are His work.
The Lord God of Abraham can make this right for you, not man.
2:40
Dear , we are together..😊😊😊😊
❤️🔥
7:22
Estoy leyendo un Manga... Acabo de morir uno de mis personajes favs... Estoy triste... No lo merecía.. 💔
Beautiful Piece As In The Movie Ambulance 😅
The God's envy us. Because they will never know the beauty of being temporary and doomed. They can never know the feeling of just a moment. Deep emotion amplified by the short amount of time we have left. It makes anything meanful said, worth more.
This is why our existence is such a blessing and yet a curse at the same time.
But thankfully I survived
So so sadd2022😭🥺🥺
Stwórca tego wszechświata jest miłością bezwarunkową, a miłość warunkowa jest niewinna. Chciała tylko przyspieszyć proces uczenia się, czym jest miłość i Stwórca, a Stwórca tego wszechświata nie jest ograniczony w czasie, podobnie jak jego cierpliwość i miłosierdzie