Sully, if every man could just be as thoughtful and kind as you, it would be a different world. You are truly a man. Deep, thoughtful, and your music has saved my life. Music saves me every day. 💕
@@jr3950 Dam straight brother.. respect your women, cherish your family, love your country, fight for whats right, disregard what's wrong, take others views into consideration, and always remember tomorrow isnt promised so live every day to the fullest because waking up in the morning isnt a guarantee. When you do wake up do your best to wake up proud of who you are, realize your human and we all make mistakes its our growth through those mistakes that determines who we will be in the future. work hard to become the best version of yourself for those around you. Take care of what you love. Thats what it means to be a man.
There's time when it's not about you can't "do it" but first... before I try to get to my point I guess. I have always been a supporter from day one of compassion and choices. I do do not feel anyway has the right to tell me when I get to go. Wether it be from terminal cancer to cancer to any type of situation a car accident to a imental illness yes i said mentall illness or a noncurable disease. I should have not only have the right to make the decision when it either to much , my descion on quality of life is not there or the pain doctors treatment of patients and medicine is about gone . I was given a gift there. I personally think it's disgusting inhumane greedy barbaric and if anything should be illegal it should be what they do at hospitals with chemo and radiation two patients that has to have a closed casket because of what it's done to them that they did not eat for two weeks as your children basically watched so she could pass away because she had nothing left and anything is she did they just pushed the chemo and radiation to collect money if that isn't disgusting I honestly don't know what is then there's the all so Secret not-so-secret confirmation measures at the end of life when they give you the morphine and your already gone as far as I'm concerned but they know what they're doing it slows down the respiratory system so it basically move things along and I'm not against that but I think it's hypocritical. I always felt this way but I felt stronger about the decisions one should be entitled to make about their medical decisions especially when we hello children how to decide if they are having a baby yet we are not allowed to basically be involved but we are ultimately responsible for that that baby and God forbid the mother the child really is not doing right for the baby what can I possibly do go to court try to fight hover locked up in a facility to take care of Ob-Gyn needs parents are allowing the children to make life-altering decisions about Ginger assignment I didn't say I was for it or against it put bottom line it's a child and it's a life-altering surgery and but just those two simple things I feel I certainly have learned the right to say the least can make a medical decision and that is best for me based on my circumstances . Well I already have very strong opinions about this for multiple reasons but in those decisions the only thing I thought about and was a very crystal clear on was if I got cancer I was a very healthy and this physically fit 39 year old woman I have one daughter I have a very very blessed life but I have made it through my daughter and I actually we slayed it to be quite honest with you I wasn't ashamed I was proud I didn't think anything could touch us I need that wasn't really much you could think of that it's like something that you don't want to think of that I didn't go through I was content with life again in great shape happy inside Happy on the outside my daughter despite her circumstances was doing phenomenal I was actually in the middle of IVF due to a doctor watching a Aegean Sea I had no history of problems first time I had a miscarriage but it was a missed miscarriage and I had to have a DMC well you did mess it up and bottom line I couldn't I can do anything about it so I lost a year and I wasn't doing this young and all of a sudden I started having all these systemic issues and have pain throughout my whole body a very very long story short countless doctors countless countless doctors Imaging procedures hundreds of labs I have one of the top internists actually she was the top internists for 2018 and 19 in New York so I wasn't going alone I live in New York I have access to the best medical doctors in the country and I just kept getting sicker and no answers 2 years 10 months later I was diagnosed with a rare disease but was me not only did I have skull swear disease that's on the internet I had a form of it. It's not even on the freaking internet it's not curable where to buy insurance from New York Marketplace our payment has nothing to do with my my house I didn't have diagnosis it's $3,997 a month when I finally was diagnosed by the top expert in the country on this disease I had one option I've treatment to dry one one option and the it's $25,000 I said that point I had most of my organs involved my insurance said we feel it's experimental We're Not Bang well I lost my income my husband had to cut hours we lost our Union Insurance now we suck on a $4,000 a month premium not including co-pays and all the other and now basically I've lost all friends of family my marriage is about over I'm home in Long Island we're going to lose and I'm probably going to die because I won't have access to the medical team will have that are trying to keep me alive and my only daughter her biological father is an addict is not around I am I am useless I am nothing more than a body that is Alive by medical terms but I am not alive I am not even existing I can't even I bathed myself my hair that went down to my waist Amazon my crazy highlights and my signature pink highlights and ink. I'm gone my hair me everything. So they will give chemo at stage 4, or a friend pancreatic at 3 he did it he's gone. The insurance didn't even give me a chance for 25 grand . So I'm suffering in every way possible. I have the most painful disease know to modern medicine 24/7 but it's inside my body everywhere. I love my animals and would never let them suffer like thos. So I payed my dues ,I fought 10 people's lives. I deserve to leave this place with dignity not a label.
Lost my soulmate to blood clot to lungs this year, and i just got to hear Sully sing this way and love this song. Sully is what we all need to be, a good person, the world needs
Why am I barely hearing this in 2020??!! Thank you Sully. I lost a son at 3months old 11 years ago. You never recover from certain things. Thank you Sully. ....God works in mysterious ways I suppose....
To me this song isn't just about addiction. It's about not be able to find yourself. My husband kevin is going through cancer. And we are almost out of options. I'm scared and don't want to lose him. We also have a 25 year old son with Autism that doesn't comprehend what is going on and I can't explain it to him. I just need prayers and positive vibes please.
Sully…. Thank you for this! For the first Time after getting hooked by my drs on pain meds, I started doing the harder stuff 5 years ago. I am now on day 16 sober and I love it!!! Best thing that could have ever happened to me. I didn’t think I could do it but I did. It’s got to the point I hated the stuff…. I loved it but hated it…. I’m never ever going back either!! I love feeling like my normal self!
I lost all of myself to addiction and if only some of you knew how much an addict truly suffers. Sully sings to my soul and I thank god every day I made it out because I know so many that didnt so many that are still sick and suffering. Still seaching for who I am on the otherside of it all.
I felt this deep down in the core of my soul. There's no way to explain this to your family, when they hate you and isolate you for your mistakes. Thank you, Sully Erna for helping me feel better. Acknowledgement is power sometimes.
Lost my youngest daughter 9/28/2017, there's nothing that describes that loss, Nothing, I've burned a candle every day since that devastating phone call at 7am, my life and world will never recover from that heart crushing pain and depression has consumed my heart and soul.
Thank you for this song,Sully. I get it means different things to people. I lost my son father to stage 4 cancer 4 years ago. This song makes me think of all I have over come with my son. After losing his father. Yes, it’s a different kind of tear. I lost my love, a father to my son and he was my life. He and I shared soul love and we connected heart to heart. An my memories of him as a father and love will always be with me. Thank you for this song. I cried sad and happy tears. One I know, he is my and my son Angel and he keeps protected within his wings.✌️❤️🤘
I think of my son when I hear this song, my son has got addiction problems and I am here for him I just pray to God he can overcome his problem and fight the demons that follow him!!! Everyone please pray for the children of today !!!!!
I too have a son who suffers mental illnesses and addiction ,I lost my niece 5 yrs ago ,and my son almost 3 times brought back by narcan my heart is with all who have to challenge these demons but know we are here for you..🥺😥❤
Thankyou sully for your music it truly hits my soul you a very talented , and truly with a heart only few understand ty again and ole bartender from players who served you..❤
Thank you So much for ALL your music !!! Don't why I never found it b4 this year. (2024). The Lyrics are Perfect, Amazing, and Completely Profound !!! Thank you !!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
In my past life my past, I took my 2 sons down a road of addiction. I know the endless nights of praying for your sons after you’ve came out of recovery. That made me a bad MoM for a season but now 20 years later drug free family, I owe it all to my maker, we made it through an love each other so much . We are Survivors
An awesome friend, a son, a brother was lost on June 12th, 2022 due to a drug overdose. I don’t believe for one second that it was intentional, not to a man that was so full of life, enjoyed living everyday and was always there for his family and friends. Now his parents and brother have to bury him. RIP David. To say you will be missed is an understatement, you are terribly missed now.
Coming up on my 2-year mark. 2 years off the needle. 2 years that I have been fighting like hell. At around my year mark maybe 13 or 14 months... I can think very clearly again. Part of me doesn't like that because there's so many repressed memories about really bad shit that happened. The depression now is crippling. Fueled by some anxiety as well and a bit of PTSD. But somehow I'm still here. The music helps so much. That one particular scene toward the end of this music video where the girl dies... I had an incredibly similar experience. I don't want to really get into that here but it was fucking horrible. Anybody on here that's had a substance abuse problem I know damn well you can relate to this song. Sometimes music... We take it and we make it our own somehow with our own interpretation. This song is pretty literal. I believe that we are all blessed to be able to listen to this music. Another band that I'm going to promote right now and forgive me for this but check out poets of the fall. The Alexander theater sessions album. Humor me. Thanks for reading this.
Adam Lahue I’m so happy you are alive . I have depression & anxiety my husband is 9 yrs older then me he’s alcoholic he fussed nights very easily here and there different night it tears my insides up my stomach he drove me worried bye for years for money drive both our cars always had excuses daily I owned cleaning business me my mom I made lot money daily he drove me use cocaine powder then crack for a ur & half we have 3 daughters I left got out it now I been clean since yr 2001 he got clean ? We broke up 3 yrs now back we moved Florida start over separated again now it’s 2019 no drugs been very clean but I almost committed suicide many times last yr cause he want quit fussing when I ask more 1 question anything sets him off he was beat a lot growing up stables started as baby with beer in baby bottle his parents stables daily dad beat wive his mom a lot through yrs she stayed in it but I’ve pulled out finally switched my medicine 1 I’m on and I listen music walk outside crochet I stay busy at home Sullys new music is very awesome it helps Cornell’s music I love so much it don’t mix with depression at all Hold your up God has you
I think this song's lyrics are also applicable to mental illness...It describes very well how those crippled by mental illness feel as well as their loved ones. Although addiction is very often link with mental illness...
Yes a true artist known by me even if I never made a big break. If you loose a child no matter how the pain. Not all understand. GIVE IT ALL TO GOD AND KEEP HIS FAITH. HES COMMING SOON
@@kennethesherwood6142 I also suffer from both. It is extremely difficult for me and the ones who care about me. I can't explain the pain I feel inside.
This song can be acclimated to alot of different kinds of things, mental health battles, bouts of severe depression, the loneliness of being alone, death of a family member or spouse or child
I miss my son so much . Thanks for understanding. Thank you for the music that has saved me so many times . You are right , without music we would be robots. Thank you again .
Thank you. I lost my baby brother to alcohol and drug addiction. Now he can't even recover because he took his like on 1/15/2005. The war that raged in him was to much for him to handle. So he checked out. I am torn between anger and sorrow. Wow that was beautiful!
I’m a Meth survivor an I commend anyone that’s fighting any wicked addiction whether it be drugs depression loneliness, no you are not alone, We are all addicts in one way or another, we need to stand together, the four walls are not the answer
To go through life with so much pain, sorrow, hurt, rage and loneliness. Unless you've been through it yourselves, you don't know how it feels. It is a different kind of lonely and a different kind of pain. But these scars make us who we are. What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.
Want to tell anyone who needs to read this you can over come anything!! Abused child, sociopath mother, grandfather killed in my home while I slept, heroin xanax addiction, gangs, prison, now 34 raising two daughters alone in a beautiful and healthy home. Music helped me get through so much, I'm nobody so if I can I promise you can!!!
My dear, you are somebody. You are raising your precious daughters.......you have the love and strength to raise your girls and earned one of the most special titles in life....."Dad". It's hard being a single parent. You are EVERYTHING to your girls. I care as a human being and I am a widower blessed with 2 amazing sons. I am sending you blessings, encouragement, strength, confidence, happiness, blessings and faith for always a better tomorrow. YOUUU AREEE SOMEONE~ A VERY SPECIAL SOMEONE🙏👨🍼💖👨👧👧💖👨🍼🙏
@@vaden706 Hi my friend. I was listening and somehow your comment touched my soul and even 4 years later....My soul needed to respond. I felt your soul and prayed hard. I am a young widow who raised my 2 precious sons alone. You have been through so much and I needed to remind you.....that you are somebody. I hope you are doing well my friend. Sending love & blessings❣🙏
Heidi Robichaud I’m so sorry for your loss! I’ve been in recovering for over 2 years but I lost a lot of friends and my little brother gets closer and closer to the end every day! We have tried everything to save him and now we feel like we just wait to get the call about him. I pray for your healing from a pain that others can’t begin to imagine 😇
@@cindyfitzgerald4500 Dear Cindy,I am so sorry that you battle this and have to feel the pain as your little brother battles this.PLEASE remember you fight to be with the ones that love you.The fight is hard but to leave us alone in the world is hard for us so please keep fighting.I have to have faith that we can fight this together.❤Heidi Robichaud
Whatever life has thrown at you be strong like a brave worrior.. never give up when you are hardest hit, believe in yourself and find the courage to be strong for yourself and loved ones.. And come together except support and guidance and you'll pull through.
@@cindyfitzgerald4500 Cindy, I'm praying for you and I'm not a religious man. I want to believe, but I have a hard time believing a man made religion. Especially based on pagan beliefs. The Romans kinda made things work for them when they founded Christianity. I've been lost ever since my mom died in 05. I haven't the best of person as a result. I'm learning though. Especially learning how to repent. Fuck, I gotta go. I'm beginning to have an anxiety momen
@@CarolynHughes-zx4fc You are welcome Carolyn, and it’s a pleasure to have you here. Well I know you must be surprised to receive a message from me right?
I don't have a drug problem, just going through possibly losing my wife. This made me cry instantly. I thought I was doing ok and would make it through. Almost wish I didn't hear this song. This is deep
It hits home. My brother battled addiction for 14.years. I just lost him Jan 2019. It's the hardest thing to loose a sibling. He was my best friend. I will always keep his memory alive. I'm hear if anyone needs a shoulder. Sending hugs ,Love & Prayers
What can I say, Sully. You and your band are amazing. I remember going through those times when I was younger. Thank God I came 🙏 out of it. Keep doing what you and your band do to help our youth. God Bless You and your entire team..
it is crazy to me my evolution with Sully. I liked and also didn't like Godsmack. They were ok to me but didn't grab me. I am sure it is because of age and other differences. I liked my music I knew and the band liked their's respectivly. It is a mutual thing to be understood and respected. When sully started to speak on his own, I learned that he is more deep and I imagine it is because he and only he spoke on his own. If I did the same look at another member of the band, I probably would have the same result. IDK what to make of this video. I loved it. I loved the closing my eyes and listening more than the seeing. I see too much today and I have already seen too much before seeing too much today if that makes sense to someone. I worry youth can't see or think anymore. They only know how to feel. I feel too and I am sorry for my feelings. Sully did his job and I am a fan.
I was wanting to see you and staind but I can't afford the drive in tickets! I love you! ! Your a awesome guy with and without godsmack! 💯❤️💯💯❤️❤️❤️💯💯❤️💯❤️💯❤️
I think that this song is one of the best songs ever. It attracts a lot of people who are in thier addiction as well as those recovering every day. This is my morning and bedtime song. It makes me cry and wish no one else has to die. Thank you Sully, always have loved Godsmack, and I love this new album of your.
This is one of those songs that puts me into tears pretty fucking fast. I saw a comment that I left I don't know maybe a couple years ago stating that I was in recovery. While I am still in recovery. Today is Friday June 23rd 2023. I'm three-and-a-half years into my recovery now without any relapses. Striving to be the best version of myself.... It has opened my eyes and I have figured out through the help of trained medical professionals that I suffer from a whole lot more than I thought I did. I got a diagnosis a couple days ago with having something called dissociative amnesia. Mine is brought on as a trauma response. Unfortunately for me... And don't get this twisted this is not a pity party by any means... But unfortunately mine is a pretty severe case. I'm 43 years old and collaboratively the doctors and I have figured out that I have about seven years of actual memory retained. That's it that's absolutely yet. I have 5 daughters... I've been present at all of their births I mean quite a bit of stuff in their lives but I don't remember any of them being born I don't remember getting married twice I barely remember getting divorced twice... It's awful. I told the doctor that I don't even know who the fuck I am. I said that to him like nine months ago and that's how they kind of figured out that I have this disorder. From trauma. Years of fucking needle using drug abuse didn't help matters any. believe me there's plenty of times I just want to eat a bullet. Even though three-and-a-half years completely clean there's days I don't want to do this anymore. There's days I don't get out of bed until 2 in the afternoon and even then I sit around staring at the wall just lost. The world can be terrifying but I'm going to tell you something right now whoever is reading this... Whether you are in recovery or not... You need to take the steps that are necessary to either continue in your recovery or just start down that road. I promise there's no one coming to save you. Nobody came to save me either. Hell I barely am able to save myself. Every day it's a fight even on the good days. A lot of you know what I'm talking about and for those of you that don't... I think maybe someday you will to some degree I mean you might not suffer from dissociative amnesia or God knows what else but you'll see what I mean. Recovery is scary. But it is also perhaps the most beautiful thing that I've allowed myself to do. Because if I didn't go into recovery if I didn't stand up and realize that I needed to help I'd be dead right now and my daughter's they wouldn't have a dad. Or they would have some man playing daddy. You think I'm okay with any of that? Suck no I'm not. My daughters are my strength. Everyone of you reading this you either have strengths that you're aware of or you have the strength you just don't know what they are yet. Sometimes the music can you know it can hurt a lot this song is definitely one of them it really is. I cry like a fucking baby everytime I hear it literally every single damn time and I'm not too proud I'm not too much of a fucking man to say it either. Let some of that pain come to the surface and process it in whatever way you need to. Because if you don't... Well let's just say everyone's got a breaking point. We all do. It might be cliche to say this but if I can do it then so can't you. I know I know... It's very cliche. I'm aware of that because people have said that to me and I just look at them like okay yeah another program fucking response from narcotics anonymous right? But here's the thing... What I just said about if I can do it you can do it... It's the damn truth. Let me put it to you this way in closing... EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN LIFE... IF YOU THINK THAT YOU CANNOT ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING THEN YOU'RE CORRECT YOU CAN'T DO IT. IF YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING... YOU ARE ALSO CORRECT... AND YOU CAN DO IT. Stay safe. And help each other. Because we all need it.
A child, a sibling, a lover, a friends child, yourself. Recovery is a glorious wonderment. Such a process but so worth it. JUST HOLD ON AND DO IT! It's a different kind of life, a life of honesty, hope and promise.
This song& the entire album its part of, helped me so much in my ability to start grieving my youngest son this last year (he passed 2 summers ago at 2&1/2yrs old) by putting such intelligently apt lyrics and hauntingly beautiful music to a depth of intensely deep and/or tragic emotions that no parent or person should ever have to process. Some of the darkest places of our human minds go to when we're battling the healing of deep traumas or illness; are typically unspeakable at best, or unfathomable to the heart and mind at worst. Thank you to all the beautiful souls involved in the creation of this album bc its helped me and so others I know of. Love to all who are in the throes of this level of grief and pain💜💚💜
I lost my stepdaughter last August to her addiction and I think about her and miss her everyday. I myself have lived and walked the life of my addiction . Addiction is very powerful throughout our whole universe unfortunately it grabs a hold of us because it makes us feel safe secure and loved . The only thing that has been there . So walking in those shoes what I can do to help is stop and listen and love somebody until they can love themselves who is dealing with addiction is the best and greatest feeling any addict could experience instead of being judged and pushed away feeling not loved , giving them positive feed instead of negative the , and understanding what they are going through . As children we don't ask to become addicts when we grow up life happens circumstances happen and then we find comfort within a strong being in our universe and it's called addiction . I love and miss you very much 💜 sissy R.I.P
Me too. It’s a long and hard road and you feel alone and worthless but you’re not! Keep fighting! We have to believe in ourselves when no one else will. I’ve hit rock bottom way too many times. I od on pain killers but by miracle I’m still here. Even though a lot of days I wish I wasn’t. I just keep reminding myself that I can get through it. There’s people dealing with the same or worse things and I can’t give up. And through this wonderful world of music we can all connect and start to heal. Anyways, do t mean to ramble. For anyone dealing with depression, addiction or whatever you’re going through just know that you’re not alone.
Good God your making me cry, being in recovery coming on 9 years in a few weeks 6.16.11. I am grateful everyday to be clean and sober! Thank you for your music, your lyrics that speak from the heart, mind and soul.
My husband died Nov 11th 2017 of what his death certificate stated as a Methamphetamine Cardiomyopathy. He was someone's child. 21 years by Toby Mac is a song about his 21 year old who died from Drugs. So much loss from Drugs. It's HEARTBREAKING! LOVE THIS SONG.
Losing someone young to drugs is beyond anyone’s imagination. 😢Especially when you try everything possible to save them. You never cease to amaze me Sully, ❤ I love you. You give the world so much with who you are and what you do. You are beyond awesome!!!
Lost my daughter 10 yrs. ago to suiside. Her birthday was just the other day August 15. I miss her to this day!!! I shudda been the one to go, when I was in the hospital for trying? My mother was too busy to be there for me! I wanted to be there for my Baby, thanks to my hateful family, and Mother, she wouldn't let me. I would give ANYTHING just to have my baby back!!!!
Sully Erna is one of the most under rated story tellers that has lived. This man can sing anything and make you feel it down to your core. His vocal Range is amazing. I Lost the love of my life to addiction. His music over the years has saved my own life. I can not thank you enough for being you.
THAT WHOLE LIFESTYLE IS SO LONELY! LIVING ON THE STREETS, MOVING FROM TRAP-HOUSE TO TRAP-HOUSE, ALWAYS LOSING FREINDS/PEOPLE TO OVERDOSES, ALWAYS IN AND OUT OF JAIL, ECT! I NEVER KNEW HOW LONELY OF A LIFE IT WAS....💔😭
Lyrics for you🤘🏽❤️ Locked bedroom door I sit, head in my hands Only these four walls understand, This sort of emtyness holding the key I'm trying to breathe It's a different kind of hurt, It's a different kind of lonely, It's a deeper kind of pain, Don't act like you know this. 'Cause what you don't see, Is buried inside of me, All these cries always tryin' to disappear These a different kind of tears Taight, a perfect life was one I'd never know, Is it loneliness or being alone Will this heaviness swallow my fight? It just might It's a different kind of hurt, It's a different kind of lonely, It's a deeper kind of pain, Don't act like you know this. 'Cause what you don't see, Is buried inside of me, All these cries always tryin' to disappear These a different kind of tears It ain't easy believing in believing It ain't easy believing in believing It ain't easy believing in believing It ain't easy believing in believing It ain't easy believing in believing It's a different kind of hurt, It ain't easy believing in believing It's a different kind of lonely, It ain't easy believing in believing It's a different kind of hurt, It ain't easy believing in believing Don't act like you know this All these cries always tryin' to disappear It's a different kind of hurt, It's a different kind of lonely, It's a deeper kind of pain, Don't act like you know this. 'Cause what you don't see, Is buried inside of me, All these cries always tryin' to disappear These a different kind of tears
I heard this for the very first time the last time that I was in rehab. I'm now three and a half years clean but I mean I've got all kinds of other really nasty emotional and psychological shit going on. This is perhaps one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard. It is tragically hauntingly beautiful. I can definitely relate in a lot of ways with this video I'm sure most of us can especially those of us with substance-abuse problems... It fuck me up real bad at the end of this video seeing that girl dead on the bed... I experienced something very similar to that. Only difference was I got her back she didn't die. She almost did and I know she was dead for a minute or two... But yeah seeing that... Hearing the lyrics at the same time Jesus Christ that was too much to bear I cracked and I cried my fucking eyes out in a room full of 42 other male drug addicts and I didn't give a fuck who saw me. they say that music is the universal language and it truly is. And if you come back to read my comment I would love it if you could humor me and going to your search bar on TH-cam and type the following and watch it. If you want tell me what you thought of it after I'd love to know. Okay... So here it is... These guys are Mongolian they do not speak a word of English and when they sing it is also in Mongolian. But this is going to prove music is a universal language you don't need to necessarily understand the words if you can feel them.. Type the following in the TH-cam search... The Hu Shireg Shireg There are multiple performances but the one in particular that I would personally love you to watch is the one that is on the Jason Ellis show. You would be doing yourself a serious disservice if you don't watch it. Trust me it's that good.
I listen to this song over and over and it continues to bring tears to my eyes. My daughter isn't addicted to drugs, except the ones my wife and I give her to save her life, but when you're told most children with the same condition don't live past 21 years of age you spend sleepless nights crying hoping that they're going to wake up in the morning. My wife and I haven't slept deeply for 21 years, in fact my daughter sleeps next to me so that I'm there when she has a seizure. When you have a special needs child you don't just hope your children out live you you hope that you'll be able to be there for them forever since you're always afraid of who's going to take care of them if you do pass away. God bless all the special children for they just want to be everyone's friend. I know that my daughter has made me a better person by showing me how to smile regardless of how you feel or how much pain you're in. Sorry I dragged this out so long, I've never expressed myself like this before. Thanks for the music.
I've been sober 5yrs on August 5th thisyear, I definitely have a different kind of pain if we could bottle 5helovei have for humanity now to be able to teach people this endless love, there would be n9 war against. Thank y9u for awareness, 〽️
Jan 30, I lost one of my best friends, I've also been addicted to pain killers. Sully thank you for this song, I didn't know I needed to hear it until I heard it.
When I first heard this song about a year ago I automatically put it to my oldest daughter who I lost to the streets over drugs. And This Video!!!!! Yes, They Really Are Different Kind of Tears!!! Releasing Them Helps Me Cope!!!! Thank You Mr. Erna!!!! Your Music Always Helps Me Thru A Day!!! Goddess Bless You.
I have not heard from her in months. She has been out there since she was 15. She started at 12.But I finally had to emancipate because they were gonna throw me in jail for neglect and I have 2 other children But because she skipped school, shoplifted. fake check writing, drugs of Everykind, stole cars, stole from my mom, and had four kids but does not have one She is Now 35. I grieve for her every day. Those months that go without hearing even a call when she is high I Cry of what could be! I have sent Angels to carry her. But I look at her oldest daughter who is now 15 and I have raised for those 15 years and I kinda get her back. Yeah, there is always Hope. But My Hope Is Now Focused On My Granddaughters I have 7 of them all together 3 of them are from my other 2 girls who raise them and work hard doing it. That Is Where My Hope IS Focused. Thanks for the positive note tho. Namaste
Just such passion about reality 🙏😭😭😭 Sully has IT!!! HE'S ASTOUNDING right when I feel like I've heard almost everything he's done. The Lord slips just what I needed to hear from someone who knows what he's talking about.💐💐👏👏👏🕊️🕊️💕💕💕
This song...to those who have ever judged an addict....take a moment and listen this story being told...as a recovering addict, this is EXACTLY how I felt, except I could never find the right words to express my thoughts and feelings...DON'T JUDGE THOSE ADDICTS...DON'T TELL THEM HOW OR WHAT THEY SHOULD DO OR WHAT THEY SHOULD HAVE DONE...DON'T FUSS AT THEM FOR THEIR DECISION MAKINGS....IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN IN THIS VICIOUS CIRCLE OF LIFE THEN U CANT BEGIN TO FULLY UNDERSTAND...but if u have an imagination, and can listen to his words in this song as if it is u and u are the one telling the story, that my friend is how myself as active addict felt and still feels as a recovering addict, and so do many, many others!! There's a pain inside us that wont go away, that we can no longer mask and pretend is not there, yet we can't find the right words to begin to try to explain what's going on!! So much pain, so many tears, so many stories never spoken😞😭....so many that took the only option they felt was left...be kind.....show love...a smile or just a long, tight squeezing hug given without a word spoken, can be what saves a life...hugs and smiles from me to EVERYONE THAT NEEDS IT🤗😊🤗😊💙💙 Thank you Sully. Thank you for this song...this song tells the story I've been trying so hard to say but never could get to come out of my mouth and into the ears of those I love, for them to understand...💙💙💙💙💙
I am with u on this. I've been clean now for over 5 years. When I was 4 months clean my wife passed away from an overdose in bed next to me just like in this video. It was and still is gutwrenching
Drugs are my life. No need to take some synthetic shit like meth or amphetamine just take psychedelics liks salvia, dmt, LSD, nbome, dxm, mushrooms and everything will be ok
This video Hit really hard. Especially the end. When I was in active addiction there's nothing I wouldn't do to get what I needed. I died three times. What got me out of it... Was having a girl die in my arms. Everyday it's a battle. But it's not an impossible one to win.
I understand that this song applies to addictions but it also applies to losing a child in every aspect of losing a child to another unnecessary battle.
This song applies to a lot of different things in life. Anything whatsoever that can elicit any kind of a trauma response I believe that this song applies to. The mother of my youngest two daughters called me up one morning and she could barely speak. I thought she was all fucked up again I thought she relapsed. She was begging me to come over and I could hear she was gasping for breath I thought maybe she was dying. So I rush over there come to find out... She was gasping and crying so hard because two and a half hours earlier she had awoken and her two-month-old little baby boy was no longer alive right next to her in the bed. I have never in my life seen somebody hurt like that. Ever I mean I have multiple tours in Afghanistan I've seen a lot of pain. I really have and I've had my own traumatic shit happened to me in life but nothing absolutely nothing can hold a candle to the amount of pain that I saw that girl in that day. the song match perfectly describes what she went through is the song called she talks to angels. Specifically the cover version of it by Smith & Myers. Check that one out. I will warn you though if you're in a bad mood or upset I would not suggest watching it because it's it's deep it really is. But you are correct. You are 100% correct whatever it is that causes a trauma response this song can apply to without question without fail. That's the beautiful thing about music... Some of it you know it's obvious what it is that is relating to the song and then you know most of the time we personalize whatever we hear if we can relate somehow based on how vague lyrics might be. It's one of the many beautiful things about music. it's a universal language. And approve this I'm going to type something at the end of this is going to be the name of a band and a very specific song. Humor me and go to the Google search bar type it in and specifically look for the version on the Jason Ellis show. Now these guys they are Mongolian and they do not speak a damn word of English and they don't say anything either. He'll the musical instruments or even a little out there. I was shedding tears 20 seconds after the vocals start and I don't understand Mongolian but I'll tell you right now I could feel it. And then I did the Google translate and listen to it again and followed along in the English translation and oh my God just wow. If you choose to listen to it listen to it and its original Mongolian language... The Hu: Shireg Shireg
BUT WHAT IS THE ANSWER? I am clean was a hyper-functional addict/alcoholic, addict of EVERYTHING even work, well hidden evidence of drug, but accidentally found N/A, then stopped running from God, began lovingly teaching my children. I failed you Bradley and Nicholas Haga. Bradley was 34 when he left us on March 14, 2020 holding my 4 month old granddaughter, Nicholas seems to be determined to follow the footprints. All my sons there are more, are my only and best friends, and it just hurts so bad. Gladly would I offer myself as this PAIN SEEMS TO HAVE CUT TOO DEEP, and in my addiction I lost 3 friends/fellow users, even grabbing their left bags and slamming them to join them. But my babies are my everything. gotta go and listen again THANKYOU SULLY ERNA, this song says so much, and my keyboard is wet, my first share on this. if someone knows the cure, and I know there's No Know Cure, but it's 2020, we cured the Black Plague.
Sully im the creator of rocking for a cure for heroin addiction I have lost 2 children I wanted to work with you and I won this yrs who who ty for this song and your right it is a different kinda pain ... I hope one guy to thank you in person saving lives matters .ty
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Sully, if every man could just be as thoughtful and kind as you, it would be a different world. You are truly a man. Deep, thoughtful, and your music has saved my life. Music saves me every day. 💕
Ik a few men that were good men like this, ik im not perfect but i try my best to be a good man
Every human*
@@krygerm That's all we can do. Be honest, and you will be a rare breed!
@@jr3950 Dam straight brother.. respect your women, cherish your family, love your country, fight for whats right, disregard what's wrong, take others views into consideration, and always remember tomorrow isnt promised so live every day to the fullest because waking up in the morning isnt a guarantee. When you do wake up do your best to wake up proud of who you are, realize your human and we all make mistakes its our growth through those mistakes that determines who we will be in the future. work hard to become the best version of yourself for those around you. Take care of what you love. Thats what it means to be a man.
I agree absolutely sully is awesome
Shame on any person who doesn't respect the meaning and quality of this work.
All of you, whatever you're going through, you're not alone. We can do this.
Sometimes life is a bitch that's for sure.
Thank you. We are not alone in these battles. GODSPEED.
Miles James Love to you 💕
There's time when it's not about you can't "do it" but first... before I try to get to my point I guess. I have always been a supporter from day one of compassion and choices. I do do not feel anyway has the right to tell me when I get to go. Wether it be from terminal cancer to cancer to any type of situation a car accident to a imental illness yes i said mentall illness or a noncurable disease. I should have not only have the right to make the decision when it either to much , my descion on quality of life is not there or the pain doctors treatment of patients and medicine is about gone . I was given a gift there. I personally think it's disgusting inhumane greedy barbaric and if anything should be illegal it should be what they do at hospitals with chemo and radiation two patients that has to have a closed casket because of what it's done to them that they did not eat for two weeks as your children basically watched so she could pass away because she had nothing left and anything is she did they just pushed the chemo and radiation to collect money if that isn't disgusting I honestly don't know what is then there's the all so Secret not-so-secret confirmation measures at the end of life when they give you the morphine and your already gone as far as I'm concerned but they know what they're doing it slows down the respiratory system so it basically move things along and I'm not against that but I think it's hypocritical. I always felt this way but I felt stronger about the decisions one should be entitled to make about their medical decisions especially when we hello children how to decide if they are having a baby yet we are not allowed to basically be involved but we are ultimately responsible for that that baby and God forbid the mother the child really is not doing right for the baby what can I possibly do go to court try to fight hover locked up in a facility to take care of Ob-Gyn needs parents are allowing the children to make life-altering decisions about Ginger assignment I didn't say I was for it or against it put bottom line it's a child and it's a life-altering surgery and but just those two simple things I feel I certainly have learned the right to say the least can make a medical decision and that is best for me based on my circumstances . Well I already have very strong opinions about this for multiple reasons but in those decisions the only thing I thought about and was a very crystal clear on was if I got cancer I was a very healthy and this physically fit 39 year old woman I have one daughter I have a very very blessed life but I have made it through my daughter and I actually we slayed it to be quite honest with you I wasn't ashamed I was proud I didn't think anything could touch us I need that wasn't really much you could think of that it's like something that you don't want to think of that I didn't go through I was content with life again in great shape happy inside Happy on the outside my daughter despite her circumstances was doing phenomenal I was actually in the middle of IVF due to a doctor watching a Aegean Sea I had no history of problems first time I had a miscarriage but it was a missed miscarriage and I had to have a DMC well you did mess it up and bottom line I couldn't I can do anything about it so I lost a year and I wasn't doing this young and all of a sudden I started having all these systemic issues and have pain throughout my whole body a very very long story short countless doctors countless countless doctors Imaging procedures hundreds of labs I have one of the top internists actually she was the top internists for 2018 and 19 in New York so I wasn't going alone I live in New York I have access to the best medical doctors in the country and I just kept getting sicker and no answers 2 years 10 months later I was diagnosed with a rare disease but was me not only did I have skull swear disease that's on the internet I had a form of it. It's not even on the freaking internet it's not curable where to buy insurance from New York Marketplace our payment has nothing to do with my my house I didn't have diagnosis it's $3,997 a month when I finally was diagnosed by the top expert in the country on this disease I had one option I've treatment to dry one one option and the it's $25,000 I said that point I had most of my organs involved my insurance said we feel it's experimental We're Not Bang well I lost my income my husband had to cut hours we lost our Union Insurance now we suck on a $4,000 a month premium not including co-pays and all the other and now basically I've lost all friends of family my marriage is about over I'm home in Long Island we're going to lose and I'm probably going to die because I won't have access to the medical team will have that are trying to keep me alive and my only daughter her biological father is an addict is not around I am I am useless I am nothing more than a body that is Alive by medical terms but I am not alive I am not even existing I can't even I bathed myself my hair that went down to my waist Amazon my crazy highlights and my signature pink highlights and ink. I'm gone my hair me everything. So they will give chemo at stage 4, or a friend pancreatic at 3 he did it he's gone. The insurance didn't even give me a chance for 25 grand . So I'm suffering in every way possible. I have the most painful disease know to modern medicine 24/7 but it's inside my body everywhere. I love my animals and would never let them suffer like thos. So I payed my dues ,I fought 10 people's lives. I deserve to leave this place with dignity not a label.
Amen to that!!!💚💚💚💚💋
Lost my soulmate to blood clot to lungs this year, and i just got to hear Sully sing this way and love this song. Sully is what we all need to be, a good person, the world needs
Why am I barely hearing this in 2020??!! Thank you Sully. I lost a son at 3months old 11 years ago. You never recover from certain things. Thank you Sully.
....God works in mysterious ways I suppose....
All of Sully Erna's music is awesome. He's a really deep person.
To me this song isn't just about addiction. It's about not be able to find yourself. My husband kevin is going through cancer. And we are almost out of options. I'm scared and don't want to lose him. We also have a 25 year old son with Autism that doesn't comprehend what is going on and I can't explain it to him. I just need prayers and positive vibes please.
Sully…. Thank you for this! For the first Time after getting hooked by my drs on pain meds, I started doing the harder stuff 5 years ago. I am now on day 16 sober and I love it!!! Best thing that could have ever happened to me. I didn’t think I could do it but I did. It’s got to the point I hated the stuff…. I loved it but hated it…. I’m never ever going back either!! I love feeling like my normal self!
This song will never get old..😢
R.I.P. Mom… I’ll cry these tears for you forever. Thank You Sully Erna for such beautiful music.
I lost all of myself to addiction and if only some of you knew how much an addict truly suffers. Sully sings to my soul and I thank god every day I made it out because I know so many that didnt so many that are still sick and suffering. Still seaching for who I am on the otherside of it all.
Hi there, good day to you and it’s nice seeing you here.
This is for my momma who just passed. I can't explain it. It hurts in ways I could never explain. Rest in peace Momma.
I wish I could take your pain. Please believe this.
My deepest condolences to you. I know exactly how you feel.
I felt this deep down in the core of my soul. There's no way to explain this to your family, when they hate you and isolate you for your mistakes. Thank you, Sully Erna for helping me feel better. Acknowledgement is power sometimes.
Lisa Daffron He’s the best! 💕
Hope your feeling better this year. We’re all in this together!!!!
Yes, Lisa...
I've spent the last two years coming off of alcohol and +6 months from opiods... your music has helped me. thank you.
Thank you Sully. This means more than you’ll ever know.🖤
Lost my youngest daughter 9/28/2017, there's nothing that describes that loss, Nothing, I've burned a candle every day since that devastating phone call at 7am, my life and world will never recover from that heart crushing pain and depression has consumed my heart and soul.
Thank you for this song,Sully. I get it means different things to people. I lost my son father to stage 4 cancer 4 years ago. This song makes me think of all I have over come with my son. After losing his father. Yes, it’s a different kind of tear. I lost my love, a father to my son and he was my life. He and I shared soul love and we connected heart to heart. An my memories of him as a father and love will always be with me. Thank you for this song. I cried sad and happy tears. One I know, he is my and my son Angel and he keeps protected within his wings.✌️❤️🤘
Hi there, good day to you and it’s nice seeing you here.
@@SullyErna-Godsmack thank you and good to meet. Sully you are truly amazing artist. You are awesome. Good to meet and greet you.
@@SullyErna-Godsmack Sorry my reply was late. 🤘❤️🤘
@@Itisme-wo7 You are welcome Tracy, and it’s a pleasure to have you here. Well I know you must be surprised to receive a message from me right?
@@Itisme-wo7 You are welcome Tracy, and it’s a pleasure to have you here. Well I know you must be surprised to receive a message from me right?
I think of my son when I hear this song, my son has got addiction problems and I am here for him I just pray to God he can overcome his problem and fight the demons that follow him!!! Everyone please pray for the children of today !!!!!
Ur a Great dad
I too have a son who suffers mental illnesses and addiction ,I lost my niece 5 yrs ago ,and my son almost 3 times brought back by narcan my heart is with all who have to challenge these demons but know we are here for you..🥺😥❤
Thankyou sully for your music it truly hits my soul you a very talented , and truly with a heart only few understand ty again and ole bartender from players who served you..❤
Lost my husband 3 years ago along with 10 other friends in a 6 month time frame. My heart is so broken
I will my friend I will pray
Thank you for your compassion, Sully. So many people have lost that. My addiction was meth.
Thank you So much for ALL your music !!! Don't why I never found it b4 this year. (2024). The Lyrics are Perfect, Amazing, and Completely Profound !!! Thank you !!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Hi there, good day to you and it’s nice seeing you here.
Cheers. My son got cancer 6 years later its gone. Didn't lose my son. But sure know that pain an those tears. God bless
In my past life my past, I took my 2 sons down a road of addiction. I know the endless nights of praying for your sons after you’ve came out of recovery. That made me a bad MoM for a season but now 20 years later drug free family, I owe it all to my maker, we made it through an love each other so much . We are Survivors
An awesome friend, a son, a brother was lost on June 12th, 2022 due to a drug overdose. I don’t believe for one second that it was intentional, not to a man that was so full of life, enjoyed living everyday and was always there for his family and friends. Now his parents and brother have to bury him. RIP David. To say you will be missed is an understatement, you are terribly missed now.
Coming up on my 2-year mark. 2 years off the needle. 2 years that I have been fighting like hell. At around my year mark maybe 13 or 14 months... I can think very clearly again. Part of me doesn't like that because there's so many repressed memories about really bad shit that happened. The depression now is crippling. Fueled by some anxiety as well and a bit of PTSD. But somehow I'm still here. The music helps so much. That one particular scene toward the end of this music video where the girl dies... I had an incredibly similar experience. I don't want to really get into that here but it was fucking horrible. Anybody on here that's had a substance abuse problem I know damn well you can relate to this song. Sometimes music... We take it and we make it our own somehow with our own interpretation. This song is pretty literal. I believe that we are all blessed to be able to listen to this music. Another band that I'm going to promote right now and forgive me for this but check out poets of the fall. The Alexander theater sessions album. Humor me. Thanks for reading this.
No words except these come close to explaining the pain💔
Im getting ready to lose my son to cancer.. this song is something that explains this pain...
No one is ever alone, you just have to reach out. Doesn’t have to be family either, somewhere out there someone cares and willing to help you change.
Listening to sully erna has saved my life even in my darkest hours I was calmed by his music
When I heard this I cried I’m a heroin survivor I had two overdoses before I quit thank you sully
Adam Lahue congrats to you.
Stay strong, congratulations
I'm sorry bro. Glad you're still here. I lost a childhood friend to an OD of heroin. I hate that fucking drug
Adam Lahue I’m so happy you are alive . I have depression & anxiety my husband is 9 yrs older then me he’s alcoholic he fussed nights very easily here and there different night it tears my insides up my stomach he drove me worried bye for years for money drive both our cars always had excuses daily I owned cleaning business me my mom I made lot money daily he drove me use cocaine powder then crack for a ur & half we have 3 daughters I left got out it now I been clean since yr 2001 he got clean ? We broke up 3 yrs now back we moved Florida start over separated again now it’s 2019 no drugs been very clean but I almost committed suicide many times last yr cause he want quit fussing when I ask more 1 question anything sets him off he was beat a lot growing up stables started as baby with beer in baby bottle his parents stables daily dad beat wive his mom a lot through yrs she stayed in it but I’ve pulled out finally switched my medicine 1 I’m on and I listen music walk outside crochet I stay busy at home Sullys new music is very awesome it helps Cornell’s music I love so much it don’t mix with depression at all Hold your up God has you
I'm glad you're still here
If you don't know , you never will understand the pain!
I think this song's lyrics are also applicable to mental illness...It describes very well how those crippled by mental illness feel as well as their loved ones. Although addiction is very often link with mental illness...
Yes a true artist known by me even if I never made a big break. If you loose a child no matter how the pain. Not all understand. GIVE IT ALL TO GOD AND KEEP HIS FAITH. HES COMMING SOON
Yes I suffer from both. Everyday is a struggle. Not only for myself but my family.
@@kennethesherwood6142 I also suffer from both. It is extremely difficult for me and the ones who care about me. I can't explain the pain I feel inside.
Sending you love.
This song can be acclimated to alot of different kinds of things, mental health battles, bouts of severe depression, the loneliness of being alone, death of a family member or spouse or child
I miss my son so much . Thanks for understanding. Thank you for the music that has saved me so many times . You are right , without music we would be robots. Thank you again .
475 people either didn't "get it" or it hit TOO CLOSE to home for them. I really hope it was the latter. POWERFUL MUSIC SPEAKS AGAIN.
Thank you, Sully Erna for such deep understanding of our lives! Yes, it's different kind of tears, DEEPER kind of pain...
I thank the same way you do sully I care about our people and music keep up the great work HAILSA my friend
Thank you. I lost my baby brother to alcohol and drug addiction. Now he can't even recover because he took his like on 1/15/2005. The war that raged in him was to much for him to handle. So he checked out. I am torn between anger and sorrow. Wow that was beautiful!
I’m a Meth survivor an I commend anyone that’s fighting any wicked addiction whether it be drugs depression loneliness, no you are not alone, We are all addicts in one way or another, we need to stand together, the four walls are not the answer
Powerful song.. can go for anything from suicide to drugs, to depression. to losing a friend, or any loved one.
My heart goes out to alll parents inolved as i know how bad this hurts..stay strong. Thank you everyone for positive comments
To go through life with so much pain, sorrow, hurt, rage and loneliness. Unless you've been through it yourselves, you don't know how it feels. It is a different kind of lonely and a different kind of pain. But these scars make us who we are. What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.
You know it's like dying inside more each day till it kill. You
Want to tell anyone who needs to read this you can over come anything!! Abused child, sociopath mother, grandfather killed in my home while I slept, heroin xanax addiction, gangs, prison, now 34 raising two daughters alone in a beautiful and healthy home. Music helped me get through so much, I'm nobody so if I can I promise you can!!!
1776 you are somebody and you matter!
My dear, you are somebody. You are raising your precious daughters.......you have the love and strength to raise your girls and earned one of the most special titles in life....."Dad". It's hard being a single parent. You are EVERYTHING to your girls. I care as a human being and I am a widower blessed with 2 amazing sons. I am sending you blessings, encouragement, strength, confidence, happiness, blessings and faith for always a better tomorrow. YOUUU AREEE SOMEONE~ A VERY SPECIAL SOMEONE🙏👨🍼💖👨👧👧💖👨🍼🙏
@@melissaannkelly Thank you, I posted that comment 4 years ago. It’s nice to come back and see such kind words. ❤️
@@vaden706 Hi my friend. I was listening and somehow your comment touched my soul and even 4 years later....My soul needed to respond. I felt your soul and prayed hard. I am a young widow who raised my 2 precious sons alone. You have been through so much and I needed to remind you.....that you are somebody. I hope you are doing well my friend. Sending love & blessings❣🙏
Thank you....my daughter overdosed 3 times. She has been clean and sober for four years now. I turned her on to your music. Thank you so much!
My daughter has been gone 11 months I cry everyday.Thank you Sully you gave me a voice.I love you Natasha Raine💓💓💓Your Mother
Heidi Robichaud I’m so sorry for your loss! I’ve been in recovering for over 2 years but I lost a lot of friends and my little brother gets closer and closer to the end every day! We have tried everything to save him and now we feel like we just wait to get the call about him. I pray for your healing from a pain that others can’t begin to imagine 😇
@@cindyfitzgerald4500
Dear Cindy,I am so sorry that you battle this and have to feel the pain as your little brother battles this.PLEASE remember you fight to be with the ones that love you.The fight is hard but to leave us alone in the world is hard for us so please keep fighting.I have to have faith that we can fight this together.❤Heidi Robichaud
STAY STRONG 💪 It's Hard I know. Much ♥️
Whatever life has thrown at you be strong like a brave worrior.. never give up when you are hardest hit, believe in yourself and find the courage to be strong for yourself and loved ones.. And come together except support and guidance and you'll pull through.
@@cindyfitzgerald4500 Cindy, I'm praying for you and I'm not a religious man. I want to believe, but I have a hard time believing a man made religion. Especially based on pagan beliefs. The Romans kinda made things work for them when they founded Christianity. I've been lost ever since my mom died in 05. I haven't the best of person as a result. I'm learning though. Especially learning how to repent. Fuck, I gotta go. I'm beginning to have an anxiety momen
This is one great song Sully
Hi there, good day to you and it’s nice seeing you here.
@@SullyErna-Godsmack thank you for writing 🥰🥰🥰
@@CarolynHughes-zx4fc You are welcome Carolyn, and it’s a pleasure to have you here. Well I know you must be surprised to receive a message from me right?
@@SullyErna-Godsmack hello there and yes I am surprised and thank you for writing
@@SullyErna-Godsmack thank you for writing
as someone in recovery that damn near died from drugs and alcohol, this video is raw, powerful, and real
I can relate to this song so much.I lost my son in 2021.This song really hit my heart.Sully u are a great artist.
I don't have a drug problem, just going through possibly losing my wife. This made me cry instantly. I thought I was doing ok and would make it through. Almost wish I didn't hear this song. This is deep
It hits home. My brother battled addiction for 14.years. I just lost him Jan 2019. It's the hardest thing to loose a sibling. He was my best friend. I will always keep his memory alive. I'm hear if anyone needs a shoulder. Sending hugs ,Love & Prayers
You family with me brother and it's gonna be ok.
The meaning... BLOWS ME AWAY TO THE EARLY '70S
Ive lost so many dear freinds and family can't stop watching this so sad thankyou sully
Thank you Sully for doing this. You are so inspiring.
Amie Evatt He’s so special 💕
Beautiful song Sully 🎵❤
What can I say, Sully. You and your band are amazing. I remember going through those times when I was younger. Thank God I came 🙏 out of it. Keep doing what you and your band do to help our youth. God Bless You and your entire team..
it is crazy to me my evolution with Sully.
I liked and also didn't like Godsmack.
They were ok to me but didn't grab me. I am sure it is because of age and other differences. I liked my music I knew and the band liked their's respectivly.
It is a mutual thing to be understood and respected.
When sully started to speak on his own, I learned that he is more deep and I imagine it is because he and only he spoke on his own.
If I did the same look at another member of the band, I probably would have the same result.
IDK what to make of this video. I loved it.
I loved the closing my eyes and listening more than the seeing.
I see too much today and I have already seen too much before seeing too much today if that makes sense to someone. I worry youth can't see or think anymore. They only know how to feel.
I feel too and I am sorry for my feelings.
Sully did his job and I am a fan.
Thank you, Sully Erna! Your the reason people stay alive, thank you! It's been a rough year
I was wanting to see you and staind but I can't afford the drive in tickets! I love you! ! Your a awesome guy with and without godsmack! 💯❤️💯💯❤️❤️❤️💯💯❤️💯❤️💯❤️
I think that this song is one of the best songs ever. It attracts a lot of people who are in thier addiction as well as those recovering every day. This is my morning and bedtime song. It makes me cry and wish no one else has to die. Thank you Sully, always have loved Godsmack, and I love this new album of your.
This is one of those songs that puts me into tears pretty fucking fast.
I saw a comment that I left I don't know maybe a couple years ago stating that I was in recovery. While I am still in recovery. Today is Friday June 23rd 2023. I'm three-and-a-half years into my recovery now without any relapses.
Striving to be the best version of myself.... It has opened my eyes and I have figured out through the help of trained medical professionals that I suffer from a whole lot more than I thought I did. I got a diagnosis a couple days ago with having something called dissociative amnesia. Mine is brought on as a trauma response.
Unfortunately for me... And don't get this twisted this is not a pity party by any means... But unfortunately mine is a pretty severe case. I'm 43 years old and collaboratively the doctors and I have figured out that I have about seven years of actual memory retained. That's it that's absolutely yet.
I have 5 daughters... I've been present at all of their births I mean quite a bit of stuff in their lives but I don't remember any of them being born I don't remember getting married twice I barely remember getting divorced twice... It's awful. I told the doctor that I don't even know who the fuck I am. I said that to him like nine months ago and that's how they kind of figured out that I have this disorder. From trauma. Years of fucking needle using drug abuse didn't help matters any.
believe me there's plenty of times I just want to eat a bullet. Even though three-and-a-half years completely clean there's days I don't want to do this anymore. There's days I don't get out of bed until 2 in the afternoon and even then I sit around staring at the wall just lost. The world can be terrifying but I'm going to tell you something right now whoever is reading this... Whether you are in recovery or not... You need to take the steps that are necessary to either continue in your recovery or just start down that road.
I promise there's no one coming to save you. Nobody came to save me either. Hell I barely am able to save myself. Every day it's a fight even on the good days. A lot of you know what I'm talking about and for those of you that don't... I think maybe someday you will to some degree I mean you might not suffer from dissociative amnesia or God knows what else but you'll see what I mean. Recovery is scary. But it is also perhaps the most beautiful thing that I've allowed myself to do. Because if I didn't go into recovery if I didn't stand up and realize that I needed to help I'd be dead right now and my daughter's they wouldn't have a dad. Or they would have some man playing daddy. You think I'm okay with any of that? Suck no I'm not. My daughters are my strength. Everyone of you reading this you either have strengths that you're aware of or you have the strength you just don't know what they are yet.
Sometimes the music can you know it can hurt a lot this song is definitely one of them it really is. I cry like a fucking baby everytime I hear it literally every single damn time and I'm not too proud I'm not too much of a fucking man to say it either.
Let some of that pain come to the surface and process it in whatever way you need to. Because if you don't... Well let's just say everyone's got a breaking point. We all do.
It might be cliche to say this but if I can do it then so can't you.
I know I know... It's very cliche. I'm aware of that because people have said that to me and I just look at them like okay yeah another program fucking response from narcotics anonymous right? But here's the thing... What I just said about if I can do it you can do it... It's the damn truth.
Let me put it to you this way in closing...
EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN LIFE... IF YOU THINK THAT YOU CANNOT ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING THEN YOU'RE CORRECT YOU CAN'T DO IT. IF YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING... YOU ARE ALSO CORRECT... AND YOU CAN DO IT.
Stay safe. And help each other. Because we all need it.
A child, a sibling, a lover, a friends child, yourself. Recovery is a glorious wonderment. Such a process but so worth it. JUST HOLD ON AND DO IT!
It's a different kind of life, a life of honesty, hope and promise.
This song& the entire album its part of, helped me so much in my ability to start grieving my youngest son this last year (he passed 2 summers ago at 2&1/2yrs old) by putting such intelligently apt lyrics and hauntingly beautiful music to a depth of intensely deep and/or tragic emotions that no parent or person should ever have to process. Some of the darkest places of our human minds go to when we're battling the healing of deep traumas or illness; are typically unspeakable at best, or unfathomable to the heart and mind at worst. Thank you to all the beautiful souls involved in the creation of this album bc its helped me and so others I know of. Love to all who are in the throes of this level of grief and pain💜💚💜
I lost my stepdaughter last August to her addiction and I think about her and miss her everyday. I myself have lived and walked the life of my addiction . Addiction is very powerful throughout our whole universe unfortunately it grabs a hold of us because it makes us feel safe secure and loved . The only thing that has been there . So walking in those shoes what I can do to help is stop and listen and love somebody until they can love themselves who is dealing with addiction is the best and greatest feeling any addict could experience instead of being judged and pushed away feeling not loved , giving them positive feed instead of negative the , and understanding what they are going through . As children we don't ask to become addicts when we grow up life happens circumstances happen and then we find comfort within a strong being in our universe and it's called addiction . I love and miss you very much 💜 sissy R.I.P
I'm Sully Erna's newest, biggest fan. Thanks for sharing.
Why am I just finding this? Phenomenal and it's been a treat watching you all evolve.
Hi there, good day to you and it’s nice seeing you here.
This is for my long battle of depression.
Kevin Brown I’m with you. Keep on going, if it takes minute by minute. 💕
Same brother you're not alone
Same here! But Sully's voice brings me peace.. I will always listen to his voice. It's so powerful!
I suffer as well. Don't know why I'm still here , looking for a reason
Me too. It’s a long and hard road and you feel alone and worthless but you’re not! Keep fighting! We have to believe in ourselves when no one else will.
I’ve hit rock bottom way too many times. I od on pain killers but by miracle I’m still here. Even though a lot of days I wish I wasn’t. I just keep reminding myself that I can get through it. There’s people dealing with the same or worse things and I can’t give up. And through this wonderful world of music we can all connect and start to heal. Anyways, do t mean to ramble. For anyone dealing with depression, addiction or whatever you’re going through just know that you’re not alone.
I can relate to this song losing my daughter and my brother I miss them every minute of the day 😭
Good God your making me cry, being in recovery coming on 9 years in a few weeks 6.16.11. I am grateful everyday to be clean and sober! Thank you for your music, your lyrics that speak from the heart, mind and soul.
AWESOME JOB SULLY keep representing Lawrence Massachusetts show the world tons of talent comes from our city!!!
My husband died Nov 11th 2017 of what his death certificate stated as a Methamphetamine Cardiomyopathy. He was someone's child. 21 years by Toby Mac is a song about his 21 year old who died from Drugs. So much loss from Drugs. It's HEARTBREAKING! LOVE THIS SONG.
Aw lord, give us courage to change what must be altered,
serenity to accept what cannot be helped,
and the insight to know the one from the other.
Losing someone young to drugs is beyond anyone’s imagination. 😢Especially when you try everything possible to save them. You never cease to amaze me Sully, ❤ I love you. You give the world so much with who you are and what you do. You are beyond awesome!!!
Lost my daughter 10 yrs. ago to suiside. Her birthday was just the other day August 15. I miss her to this day!!! I shudda been the one to go, when I was in the hospital for trying? My mother was too busy to be there for me! I wanted to be there for my Baby, thanks to my hateful family, and Mother, she wouldn't let me. I would give ANYTHING just to have my baby back!!!!
Hi there, good day to you and it’s nice seeing you here.
Sully Erna is one of the most under rated story tellers that has lived. This man can sing anything and make you feel it down to your core. His vocal Range is amazing. I Lost the love of my life to addiction. His music over the years has saved my own life. I can not thank you enough for being you.
THAT WHOLE LIFESTYLE IS SO LONELY! LIVING ON THE STREETS, MOVING FROM TRAP-HOUSE TO TRAP-HOUSE, ALWAYS LOSING FREINDS/PEOPLE TO OVERDOSES, ALWAYS IN AND OUT OF JAIL, ECT! I NEVER KNEW HOW LONELY OF A LIFE IT WAS....💔😭
This song always brings me to tears
Kids are getting younger and younger...may God rap his arms around each and every person who can't see the light at the end of the tunnel
Lyrics for you🤘🏽❤️
Locked bedroom door I sit, head in my hands
Only these four walls understand,
This sort of emtyness holding the key
I'm trying to breathe
It's a different kind of hurt,
It's a different kind of lonely,
It's a deeper kind of pain,
Don't act like you know this.
'Cause what you don't see,
Is buried inside of me,
All these cries always tryin' to disappear
These a different kind of tears
Taight, a perfect life was one I'd never know,
Is it loneliness or being alone
Will this heaviness swallow my fight?
It just might
It's a different kind of hurt,
It's a different kind of lonely,
It's a deeper kind of pain,
Don't act like you know this.
'Cause what you don't see,
Is buried inside of me,
All these cries always tryin' to disappear
These a different kind of tears
It ain't easy believing in believing
It ain't easy believing in believing
It ain't easy believing in believing
It ain't easy believing in believing
It ain't easy believing in believing
It's a different kind of hurt,
It ain't easy believing in believing
It's a different kind of lonely,
It ain't easy believing in believing
It's a different kind of hurt,
It ain't easy believing in believing
Don't act like you know this
All these cries always tryin' to disappear
It's a different kind of hurt,
It's a different kind of lonely,
It's a deeper kind of pain,
Don't act like you know this.
'Cause what you don't see,
Is buried inside of me,
All these cries always tryin' to disappear
These a different kind of tears
I love you sully
I heard this for the very first time the last time that I was in rehab. I'm now three and a half years clean but I mean I've got all kinds of other really nasty emotional and psychological shit going on. This is perhaps one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard. It is tragically hauntingly beautiful.
I can definitely relate in a lot of ways with this video I'm sure most of us can especially those of us with substance-abuse problems... It fuck me up real bad at the end of this video seeing that girl dead on the bed... I experienced something very similar to that. Only difference was I got her back she didn't die. She almost did and I know she was dead for a minute or two... But yeah seeing that... Hearing the lyrics at the same time Jesus Christ that was too much to bear I cracked and I cried my fucking eyes out in a room full of 42 other male drug addicts and I didn't give a fuck who saw me.
they say that music is the universal language and it truly is. And if you come back to read my comment I would love it if you could humor me and going to your search bar on TH-cam and type the following and watch it. If you want tell me what you thought of it after I'd love to know. Okay... So here it is... These guys are Mongolian they do not speak a word of English and when they sing it is also in Mongolian. But this is going to prove music is a universal language you don't need to necessarily understand the words if you can feel them..
Type the following in the TH-cam search...
The Hu Shireg Shireg
There are multiple performances but the one in particular that I would personally love you to watch is the one that is on the Jason Ellis show. You would be doing yourself a serious disservice if you don't watch it. Trust me it's that good.
And thank you Sully
Hi there, good day to you and it’s nice seeing you here.
Wow. This is my song. Explains it perfect
I listen to this song over and over and it continues to bring tears to my eyes. My daughter isn't addicted to drugs, except the ones my wife and I give her to save her life, but when you're told most children with the same condition don't live past 21 years of age you spend sleepless nights crying hoping that they're going to wake up in the morning. My wife and I haven't slept deeply for 21 years, in fact my daughter sleeps next to me so that I'm there when she has a seizure. When you have a special needs child you don't just hope your children out live you you hope that you'll be able to be there for them forever since you're always afraid of who's going to take care of them if you do pass away. God bless all the special children for they just want to be everyone's friend. I know that my daughter has made me a better person by showing me how to smile regardless of how you feel or how much pain you're in. Sorry I dragged this out so long, I've never expressed myself like this before. Thanks for the music.
Idk how I've missed this song, but God led me to it today😇 thank you for understanding, thank you for telling our story ❤️
I've been sober 5yrs on August 5th thisyear, I definitely have a different kind of pain if we could bottle 5helovei have for humanity now to be able to teach people this endless love, there would be n9 war against. Thank y9u for awareness, 〽️
Mister Sully Erna.. At his best. I have no experience with drugs myself, only alcohol, but with this song, I feel so sorry for their loss..
Drugs or alcohol man you can have addictions to them both I did, it really messed me up something fierce
Jan 30, I lost one of my best friends, I've also been addicted to pain killers. Sully thank you for this song, I didn't know I needed to hear it until I heard it.
Love you cuz miss u bro fly high my friend
WOW! Very emotional. Sully you are amazing
This video and song has saved thousands of lives.
When I first heard this song about a year ago I automatically put it to my oldest daughter who I lost to the streets over drugs. And This Video!!!!! Yes, They Really Are Different Kind of Tears!!! Releasing Them Helps Me Cope!!!! Thank You Mr. Erna!!!! Your Music Always Helps Me Thru A Day!!! Goddess Bless You.
Sorry for your loss!
cheryl hopper 💕💕
"lost to the streets"? Did she die? As long as she breaths there is hope.
I have not heard from her in months. She has been out there since she was 15. She started at 12.But I finally had to emancipate because they were gonna throw me in jail for neglect and I have 2 other children But because she skipped school, shoplifted. fake check writing, drugs of Everykind, stole cars, stole from my mom, and had four kids but does not have one She is Now 35. I grieve for her every day. Those months that go without hearing even a call when she is high I Cry of what could be! I have sent Angels to carry her. But I look at her oldest daughter who is now 15 and I have raised for those 15 years and I kinda get her back. Yeah, there is always Hope. But My Hope Is Now Focused On My Granddaughters I have 7 of them all together 3 of them are from my other 2 girls who raise them and work hard doing it. That Is Where My Hope IS Focused. Thanks for the positive note tho. Namaste
What was her name?
Love your music 🎶
Just such passion about reality 🙏😭😭😭 Sully has IT!!! HE'S ASTOUNDING right when I feel like I've heard almost everything he's done. The Lord slips just what I needed to hear from someone who knows what he's talking about.💐💐👏👏👏🕊️🕊️💕💕💕
I've been sober 12 years but, it seems like it was yesterday.... Damn, it man! Thank you for this song.
KEEP up the Great job👍
Powerful song and video. Thank you for sharing this with the world.
Wow just wow sully truly has a one of a kind voice. While I love godsmack and still jam out to it. I respect his voice and style now.
As it should be! 😎
This song...to those who have ever judged an addict....take a moment and listen this story being told...as a recovering addict, this is EXACTLY how I felt, except I could never find the right words to express my thoughts and feelings...DON'T JUDGE THOSE ADDICTS...DON'T TELL THEM HOW OR WHAT THEY SHOULD DO OR WHAT THEY SHOULD HAVE DONE...DON'T FUSS AT THEM FOR THEIR DECISION MAKINGS....IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN IN THIS VICIOUS CIRCLE OF LIFE THEN U CANT BEGIN TO FULLY UNDERSTAND...but if u have an imagination, and can listen to his words in this song as if it is u and u are the one telling the story, that my friend is how myself as active addict felt and still feels as a recovering addict, and so do many, many others!! There's a pain inside us that wont go away, that we can no longer mask and pretend is not there, yet we can't find the right words to begin to try to explain what's going on!! So much pain, so many tears, so many stories never spoken😞😭....so many that took the only option they felt was left...be kind.....show love...a smile or just a long, tight squeezing hug given without a word spoken, can be what saves a life...hugs and smiles from me to EVERYONE THAT NEEDS IT🤗😊🤗😊💙💙
Thank you Sully. Thank you for this song...this song tells the story I've been trying so hard to say but never could get to come out of my mouth and into the ears of those I love, for them to understand...💙💙💙💙💙
I am with u on this. I've been clean now for over 5 years. When I was 4 months clean my wife passed away from an overdose in bed next to me just like in this video. It was and still is gutwrenching
Drugs are my life. No need to take some synthetic shit like meth or amphetamine just take psychedelics liks salvia, dmt, LSD, nbome, dxm, mushrooms and everything will be ok
I agree 💯💯💯, my heart aches for anyone who's fighting this personal war, you're stronger than you believe.
@@johnniecarsten3589 My soul goes out to you, how heartbreaking, jm rooting for your recovery, in every way ❤️💜
Amen sister 👍🏼👍🏼
Damn, this guy can sing anything. 👍
Im just starting in recovery, and my family doesnt know and im trying to show them what im going through right now. They dont know the agony and rage.
This video Hit really hard. Especially the end. When I was in active addiction there's nothing I wouldn't do to get what I needed. I died three times. What got me out of it... Was having a girl die in my arms. Everyday it's a battle. But it's not an impossible one to win.
Tim Woodward 🙏peace
I understand that this song applies to addictions but it also applies to losing a child in every aspect of losing a child to another unnecessary battle.
The pain is soul shattering no matter how you lost your child. God bless all the parents that go through this every day 🙏❤️
This song applies to a lot of different things in life. Anything whatsoever that can elicit any kind of a trauma response I believe that this song applies to.
The mother of my youngest two daughters called me up one morning and she could barely speak. I thought she was all fucked up again I thought she relapsed. She was begging me to come over and I could hear she was gasping for breath I thought maybe she was dying. So I rush over there come to find out... She was gasping and crying so hard because two and a half hours earlier she had awoken and her two-month-old little baby boy was no longer alive right next to her in the bed.
I have never in my life seen somebody hurt like that. Ever I mean I have multiple tours in Afghanistan I've seen a lot of pain. I really have and I've had my own traumatic shit happened to me in life but nothing absolutely nothing can hold a candle to the amount of pain that I saw that girl in that day.
the song match perfectly describes what she went through is the song called she talks to angels. Specifically the cover version of it by Smith & Myers. Check that one out. I will warn you though if you're in a bad mood or upset I would not suggest watching it because it's it's deep it really is.
But you are correct. You are 100% correct whatever it is that causes a trauma response this song can apply to without question without fail. That's the beautiful thing about music... Some of it you know it's obvious what it is that is relating to the song and then you know most of the time we personalize whatever we hear if we can relate somehow based on how vague lyrics might be. It's one of the many beautiful things about music. it's a universal language. And approve this I'm going to type something at the end of this is going to be the name of a band and a very specific song. Humor me and go to the Google search bar type it in and specifically look for the version on the Jason Ellis show. Now these guys they are Mongolian and they do not speak a damn word of English and they don't say anything either. He'll the musical instruments or even a little out there. I was shedding tears 20 seconds after the vocals start and I don't understand Mongolian but I'll tell you right now I could feel it. And then I did the Google translate and listen to it again and followed along in the English translation and oh my God just wow. If you choose to listen to it listen to it and its original Mongolian language...
The Hu: Shireg Shireg
Thank you Sully!! I lost my sister a little over a month ago to a herion overdose. This song just speaks to me.
I love your voice forever so nice ❣🎸❤
Such a beautiful song...Such an emotional video...Sully Erna is the best!
Awesome Sully!!!
BUT WHAT IS THE ANSWER? I am clean was a hyper-functional addict/alcoholic, addict of EVERYTHING even work, well hidden evidence of drug, but accidentally found N/A, then stopped running from God, began lovingly teaching my children. I failed you Bradley and Nicholas Haga.
Bradley was 34 when he left us on March 14, 2020 holding my 4 month old granddaughter, Nicholas seems to be determined to follow the footprints. All my sons there are more, are my only and best friends, and it just hurts so bad. Gladly would I offer myself as this PAIN SEEMS TO HAVE CUT TOO DEEP, and in my addiction I lost 3 friends/fellow users, even grabbing their left bags and slamming them to join them. But my babies are my everything.
gotta go and listen again THANKYOU SULLY ERNA, this song says so much, and my keyboard is wet, my first share on this. if someone knows the cure, and I know there's No Know Cure, but it's 2020, we cured the Black Plague.
Sully im the creator of rocking for a cure for heroin addiction I have lost 2 children I wanted to work with you and I won this yrs who who ty for this song and your right it is a different kinda pain ... I hope one guy to thank you in person saving lives matters .ty
I used to be on Facebook n we were friends because of mutuals. It's been like at least 5 yrs but we used to talk.