Actually, in my 'healing' process, I stayed away from people for the most part. I spent most of my time alone, or only with one person that could truly understand what I was going through. What is the point of trying to heal with people that don´t understand your situaion? I wouldn´t worry about socializing to heal. Follow the path of the hermit until you are ready to come out of your cave on your own terms
heh, Yeah, I went through that at about 23 (54 now). I scared the hell out of a lot of people. I was asking if I were dead and not believing them when they said no... I thought they were "all in on it" and part of my purgatory experience as you had thought. Lol, I remember wandering and at a 7-11 seeing a lady get out of her car. I believed at that moment that she intentionally had pulled in to deliver me that car to go somewhere I was meant to go. I slowly got into the car and set there waiting for her to get into the passenger seat and tell me where to drive to. Thankfully both the man who had pointed me out to her and she were very kind people who simply came over to me and asked me what I was doing which I replied, "I don't know" and they gently ushered me from the car. I call that "the lost year" since large parts are gone from my memory. After a 20 year period of devoting myself to be the "normal father and husband" to my earthly wife and unearthly children (in a good way) I had finished my mission. At 50 it felt like spiritual flood gates had opened with otherworldly experiences and synchronistic events occurring more so than ever before. Sometimes as much as a dozen or more synchs per day and constantly walking in a spirit world overlayed upon or coexisting with the material one. While all my life I had such experiences and I always thought, I couldn't possibly see more... to compare then with now is like comparing a paper airplane with an F-16. My wife insisted I see a shrink since she thought I was mad even though I was able to stay in control during these periods which could last for months. She simply couldn't grasp what I was telling her because it shook up her fundamental religious views which were mostly lip service anyway. I went to placate her. I asked the shrink "how can I discuss a spiritual matter with someone who does not believe in such things"? While i'm open to discussing various possibilities you have already ruled out the one I believe to be the most likely answer as an impossibility. So I already know what you're going to say since I've studied psychology and already went over your beliefs a million times in the last 25 years. I also asked her "if you were a turkey and knew what the impending thanksgiving would bring, would you tell the other turkeys, or allow them to enjoy their remaining time in ignorant bliss"? I had already seen too many times that when someone actually does start to see what I'm talking about and begins to question all they ever thought to be reality that I could literally see the terror rising in their eyes. So, do I tell the other turkeys? The shrink could not grasp that and asked for an example. I said people like to think they are a "good person"? The way I see it, people who buy a lexus or Mercedes could've spent 10k on a good reliable car and saved a village of people from starvation with the rest. They don't feel for them because they ignore them while they drive around sitting in their "rich corinthian leather" seats soaked in the blood of children. Lol, that one got me a quick diagnosis of possible schizophrenia with delusions of grandeur. Not sure why the latter since I made no claims except that I could see things others could not. Anyway, it's good to see others saying what I've been saying since my "lost year" at 23, that most mental illnesses are spiritual in nature and anyone sensitive enough to see the atrocities all around us for what they are will naturally have a spiritual crisis if they are not moving towards addressing it properly. Being called mad in world run by lunatics is a badge of honor. Wear it proudly... we are the vanguard of the dawning of a new age for mankind. Think of yourself as an Olympic runner bearing the spark and passing that torch to the next gen as they carry on so that one day, all those sparks will grow into a blazing fire which will forever change this world into the paradise it was always meant to be. Be not strong for yourself as it will not be enough... you must be strong for all of us that struggle in silent loneliness with you, for all those like us who are to come, and most importantly, for the future of all of mankind... you ARE that important.
Wow, I haven’t seen any of ‘these’ videos in over 10 years This gentleman was my one and only guide through recovering from my first manic episode I just cried when I saw this video “You helped me so much during the toughest part of my life by far” Thank you so much for making these videos, your worlds were so helpful for me
I know the world is a mess. But if I´m also a mess, then I´m still part of the problem, because being in depression seriously limits your capacity to love. You are too stuck to love others. I think you can only start to help turn things around once you have some degree of peace in your heart. Only then are you strong enough to go back into the mess to try and make a difference.
Enjoyed reading your book “Am I Bipolar or Waking up” ! Kudos to the excellent work you are doing. Your truth benefits countless others as it ripples outward touching hearts.
The spiritual term for what happened to him is Kundalini awakening. It is very much (an important) spiritual experience. It is the true beginning stage for a profound spiritual awakening. Unfortunately mainstream society and mainstream science does not understand what Kundalini is, but mystics, in particular mystics of India have known about it forever. The Kundalini energy lays dormant at the base of the spine in most people. This is the area called the first chakra. There are seven chakra and they are along the spine going up the body from the base of the spine to the top of the head. A chakra is an energy center. The spine is the channel for these spiritual energies. On the spine is two energy channels, one feminine and one masculine. When a person is ready to begin profound spiritual awakening people shall have some sort of experience that shall trigger this dormant energy at the base of the spine to shot upward through the energy channels of the spine activating each chakra as it raises and then firing out the top of the head. When this happens the person will go into an intense altered trance like blissful state for a bit, anywhere from some hours to some days. This Kundalini awakening pushes up much energy from a person's subconscious level and thus after this experience for a period of some months to a few years the person shall be processing all the stuff that got pushes up, working on becoming more self aware. After a person has had a Kundalini awakening their focus in life shall strongly turn more towards an interest in spiritual things, the experience shifts people's focus to the Spiritual. Some people then have further Kundalini awakenings and this deepens the spiritual awakening.
Again, thank you for sharing this precious knowledge. I too have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder 5 or 6 years ago... The battle within myself has been terribly hard (and still is). I recently experienced what I believe was an ego death. I, for once, completely surrendered to the divine (I called for Jesus) For the first time, I feel like I begin to truly and deeply integrate the powerful and spiritual energy that has been released now almost eight years ago. For now I am still on medication, planning to go med free in the future.
Kundalini is a systematic lie from a pagan philosophy. That’s not the way to go. That’s why we struggle with it. I am a former Raja yoga instructor now Christian. Christians get a bad rep because of the Catholic Church but it’s the truth. There’s no power outside of the Holy Spirit. If you think you are spiritual go forty days without food or water and see if your kundalini keeps you alive. Only the living God can do that.
@@ServantoftheLord2007 Christain is a stupid path that is highly against spirituality. Why are you even here really? Your religion sucks, and clearly you are a moron. Go away idiot. Of course not all Christains are morans like you are, there are some that actually follow the actual teachings of Jesus, but clearly you are not one of them.
Your story is very similar to mine. I'm glad I was able to find this channel and get a lot of information on what I know for a fact was a spiritual experience in my life. Now I know I'm not the only one that went through this. I'll keep on watching every video.
oh man... as soon as you said landmark forum i got chills because I had my first "psychotic episode" shortly after attending LF. i experienced a certain excitement as well as just an override of emotions from discovering past emotions and trauma i had never confronted or even acknowledged. your video series are very insightful. thank you for posting.
I have a very similar story with a psychosis. They told me i was unfixable, i proved them wrong. I had a small relapse but it fixed itself eventually. I look back on my psychosis more as something that i needed that moment in my life and also as a part of me that was trying to tell me something about myself but it got lost in the translation. Years later i experienced ego death and starting looking up Jung. The similarities between my ideas during my psychosis and Jung's theories were creepy. Almost enough to make me go down that rabbit hole again, but mostly because i'm a bit older now i was able to deal with it better. Still struggling a bit with internal conflicts because of the whole experience. It's difficult to process, that your crazy ideas were actually an intuitive from of psychology and that were you admitted for it.
Thank you so much for everything Sean. I’ve read your book yesterday and I loved it and it helped me to understand my own spiritual awakening process. I had such a similar experience as you did. I’ve also watched the Celestine prophecy and it was a absolute blessing. God bless you and your sweetheart brother!
zoooo...ik doe het even in zijn Nederlands....fijn dat dit soort filmpjes er zijn....het helpt ons en de mensen die hier mee te maken krijgen...zichzelf en hun omgeving....inzicht te geven.....ik ben enorm dankbaar!!! ondanks alle plakplaatjes die ze me hebben gegeven....ik wist dat het goed met me kwam.....het IS goed.....hoe je leven ook loopt....!!!
Thank you so much for showing I am not alone. I have been hospitalized 3 times over the last 6 year. All times were only a few weeks. First time was just weeks after my father died. I have had pretty much ALL of the symptoms of what they kept calling 'most likely bipolar mania'. I never felt in a dark place. I felt indescribably at connected to everyone and everything. Last time they said I would have to be medicated for life. I have refused and no relapse in over 4 years. Its all about LOVE!!!
Recently I discovered I was bipolar. I haven't been to the doctors for years, I basically self diagnosed myself and I fit all of the characteristics perfectly. But I didn't want to believe that I was sick, I knew these feelings I've been having for years meant something, like an internal calling. I've always struggled between what society expects of me: like going to school, careers, fancy cars, the house and the whole American dream idea, and the calling I've felt in me since I was about 15.
Most of us are old souls. Given powerful and important gifts or abilities with an instruction manual that we can barely read. Look up your life path number.
Yes, it ramped up over the course, and peaked at the end. If you are on an intense course, be careful, it could be a trigger. And if you are on meds, stay on them until you have educated support around you. Be patient with yourself, the chances of a relapse when off meds is very high. You need educated support.
Society teaches us to be quiet and not to feel. When we awaken all sorts of emotions enter our realm which can be considered in our society as bipolar. Our spirit self is pure energy and as we know energy is not still and has many frequencies, hence all the emotions we experience sometimes at once. Anyway, we need more people to speak out so everyone else can feel comfortable with their true self. Thank you for sharing. Love is the highest frequency, Fear is the lowest, let us rise.
I can’t believe I stumbled on this page. Diagnosed at 35. Sadly it takes a manic episode to get a proper diagnosis, as my family doctor insisted it was just clinical and I knew it was more. My worst episode resulted in divorce of a 20 year marriage. It’s a blessing and a curse, as happy moments are amplified 100 times, but anger and sadness are also amplified 100 times. It’s theorized i had a predisposition and my dad died in front of me at 16 and ignited it. A life time of psychiatric visits and pill tweaking and changing. Newly spiritually awakened, told my psychiatrist I was doing meditation and wanted to make sure it wouldn’t worsen my condition although I’ve been stable for years. He said it was fine as long as I didn’t take psychedelics. It’s brought me peace and mellowed out this short fused Scorpio who used to get really angry, break stuff and thrown my iPhone down the driveway (God bless the good people at otterbox). Watching your video as I type. Bipolar insomnia is bad for me, it finally took Ambien cr 12.5 with two benzodiazepines. Ok, gonna focus on your video. Anxious to hear your story ❤
Very hermit like for 6 months. Then I went back to work, but still was somewhat removed for about 18 months. Don´t forget, the whole culture is working against you. You have to nurture your new self.
I share this story with you!!! I am in the process of awakening ans were there is light there is dark! i never had depression till I started my journey.. i think it is cause we are letting go and we feel we do not connect with people the way we use to the social life is no longer fun! We have all this knowledge but no body wants to hear about we feel alone! lOve and LIght-Heather
i agree this this guy- people need support from mentally stable people, and need to be spritual in a non superstious way. generally people need to be more happy and controlled, and less stressed and depressed
So what you are saying is that bipolar is actually an exsistental crisis... and therefore we need,as Victor Frankl said we need meaning in our lives. The kind of meaning that is based on the profound wisdom traditions of all religions.
nice to see you in this video, i am studying very carefully "bipolar or waking up " serial. Thank you deeply for your work. I will tell other after i will finish studying it. Cheers
I totally agree with what you're saying about so much of what defines the whole 'bi polar' thing as being external, social, preordained by the psychiatric system. I haven't decided yet if I go with all you're saying but it's obviously good for you. Good thing you're not in the UK man, I'm telling you, access to real and authentic support is just a battle, a struggle and so much stigma it's easier just to isolate, which is pretty much what I'm doing right now, having lost business, home, all really..humbling and actually I'm thinking that these things are not so bad. They didn't make me happy anyway. In the UK though, if we're in 'treatment' having being diagnosed with any form of bi polar, it's likely we are being prescribed meds with horrific side effects, and almost experimented on like guinea pigs. For example, watch out for that Lamotrigine rash, it could be fatal, or lets test your liver to see just how much toxicity it can handle... try as I might I can't bring myself to take any of them in anything like the quantities they are prescribed, or I would be a fat, numb person who felt nothing. I feel so little as it is. Being afraid and not being able to conquer this is a big part of staying trapped in this condition. These desensitised societies we now live in keep peddling that fear. By the way, something tells me Brazil is a better place to heal...:) I enjoy your vids...thank you.
I just read about aspartame and bipolar keeps coming up a lot. Did you ever see if maybe aspartame is a chemical that you should avoid? Or MSG which is hidden in so many artificial foods and goes by over 30 different names? Good luck to you always.
I've always felt compelled to change the world in a meaning fully way, to heal, and to travel. Recently I have given into these feeling. Left my awesome job in New York, apartment and all, Ito travel the country with little to no money to my name, in search of truth.... Truth about my self, this life and our true purpose as humans on this planet.
I have a lot of trouble believing that bipolar disorder is what you describe as a spiritual condition, but then again, maybe I am not bipolar. I don't even know what I am. I know that I get extremely depressed, I know that I get extremely anxious; I know that I have an insatiable urge to be free, but instead feel like a slave. I know I am extremely cynical about this world, and this reality. I know I would never bring a child into it. I know that I am afraid.
I have done landmark before and i had an awakening experience after the course as well. I knew inherently if i took the course that i would have a peak experience. Your series of videos really encapsulates my experiences. I've 4 episodes, the 1st, 26, i was learning about history, sprituality, religion and seeing a mentor of sorts and lastly breaking up with a girl I thought was made for me... WOW!!!! 2nd Landmark, 3rd consistantly reading the bible every night (Ezekial 3:1-27)...WOW, Lastly LM.
You're an INFJ enneatype 4 with depressive personality. You mentioned Jung on your channel video so you probably know the mbti system. I appreciate you and your work.
I've been in mental hospitals six times, I have been diagnosed unipolar, bipolar,and other things to but I cant remember now...I have no communication with any entity that would give me any information about my case.life is a struggle for me, and it is hard to get across to people who "fit in" or can manage somehow to be in society..whatever that is, I'm often depressed and feel helpless and impotent. but I do not want the medications, I can keep my self up through exercise,music and learning.
You have an obligation to the world to work with others to figure wtf so many people are dealing with... def. Something with the brain u can hide from drs. They need you so they can figure wtf is up with millions of people
Good explanation of the perception by someone who has bipolar. The problem lies within medications which the pharmicst make billions on. Drugs only suppress the problem making it worse. Also drugs have very harmful side effects to the liver, heart, and sometimes cause problems like spina bifida. Alot of people have become dependent on medications and are consumed by the illness and the drugs. Self control is the key.
Great video,we as people look all over for a cure for whatever we are going through and put our trust in them or that.but honestly the only true answer you will find is in Jesus Christ.i believe that anyone that is going through any type of bi polar etc etc is under spiritual attack and needs to be set free through prayer Only.fear and any other negative thing or experience is definitely not from God the creator it comes from the enemy the devil.whoever is wise will understand what I am saying.
Your story is almost identical to mine especially in aspect of ages. I was diagnosed, Bi-polar, Major Depression, PTSD & god knows what else. I went through a year long awakening. Today i am a different person than i was the past 10 years. From what i understand most spiritual awakenings happen around the age of 30. Did you notice that?
praying and meditation are very very similar... Meditation is as Jon kabbat zinn says, "paying attention, on purpose, to something, as though your life depended on it" it could be prayer, cultivation of kindness towards others, but most people use breathing.
Sean I apologize is if this question seems strange. I have a question for you that is very important to me right now. How many connections did you allow after your "2nd" Kundalini experience.
Yes, it was a sledge hammer, no doubt. But as messy as it was, I still won't knock them. In fact, I would recommend the Forum for people who have not been able to snap out of long term depression.
very interesting. I am also a diver, and I have done Landmark Forum. I figured that if any portion of the program affected anyone so intensely, it would be the one you mentioned. I liked what I got out of the Forum, but it probably is not for everyone. I am trying to learn as much as possible about bipolar as my friend is back in the hospital after another manic episode, and she wants to find ways to get out of this cycle without medications.
Well, right now the 'blanket cure' is meds for life and it is considered incurable. No, I don´t think everyone will heal, but what´s happening now is a disaster.
Try to let it go, let it be. Trust that what is happening is for your own good and for your growth. Do not to overanalyze of what is happening to you and do not rationalize everything. Do not try to understand everything. If you feel that you should do something, or go somewhere than do it or go even when it is not socially acceptable (of course do not do anything destructive to yourself or others). Listen to your intuition as much as possible and flow with it even when it guides you to dark places or emotions or memories. Also try to ground yourself when it is too overwhelming. Go for walks, connect with nature, do some exercises - I would strongly suggest doing Yoga as it helps to center your mind and focus more on your body.
i had a similar experience after meditating an exercise that i read in an abraham-hicks book but it did wake me up spiritually and i was also crazy and taken to a crisis center also diagnosed bipolar
Hi, I've been diagnosed with Bipolar almost 6 months ago and just came across your videos. Thank you sooo much for your views - it helps and is good for friends & family too :-) I'm on medication but I'm scared... How are you??
@bipolarorwakingup Look, I definitely respect your video, and am really glad you are doing well now. I don't know what to do man. The truth is that I've been struggling day in and day out for like ten years. I've gotten into trouble for losing my temper, which can be very hard to control. I feel like a stranger in my body a lot of the time - there is this sensation of "I am in this body???" like it's foreign all of a sudden. So my question is, what do I have to do to get to where you are?
loss of emotions is one of the sure signs of enlightenment . most of the Indian yogis know this.the duality of pleasure and pain disapears and with it emotions . right now am going through it tho i have reached a level of almost stabilising and hence the senses have returned pure and shining. my advice is drink a lot of water ,stay detoxed, preserve ypur sexual fluids and dont occupy your mind with thoughts . kundalini will sureky rise to the top.
Hello Sean, I am half way into your book and find it very engaging. I am bipolar 2 so no psychosis here, however feelings of paranoia and incessant ruminating thoughts have increased with age. I refuse to do meds and see a naturopath instead, this does help considerably with depression, but as a result, I am living perilously close to the manic border. Are you still experiencing hallucinations?
They call me Bi polar never have been depressed, in late 40's I went to a nurse in a Hospital out patient to ask a question, as I had interrupted someone. more then once. I was from a strict Baptist family with manners of English proper up bringing. I was put on med with a blood test, no history no questions. I never should have taken. When I told shaking and such Dr. put on other. I want to go off. I am fine. I sleep. I have never thought to kill my self. Once when I began in 2000 to eat well with a nutritionist instruction I had herbs of St. John Wort and Verlian made tea that I drank for 6 or 7 days. It gave me euphoric. I was put in hospital. I knew were I was who I was could walk slept. later in one week my primary tells me I created that as Depoke and herbs don't mix. It my fault I didn't know? Our society is so disrespectful of a person. I eat plants fruits organic nuts healthy mushrooms ect. I want to go off. this what to do?
I notice people get uncomfortable or frustrated when one gets enthusiastic or expressive, especially if their state is more level or reserved. I like to sublimate my energy with activities like Yoga, Singing,guitar and clarinet practice. Punching Bag (I put remote control headphones on can really get into it) running, hiking, Plyometrics, creative cardio-workouts integrating yoga, dance movement, and trying to learn and retain information, I'm working on Moby Dick and I'm a Wikipedia lover.
I had a similar experience occur to me in which I was arrested under no charges and taken to a hospital where the restrained me to a bed and inject me with medication against my will, under the canadian mental health act.
@fenrirthewolf1212 ~ thnxs 4 the tip ~ I've had ppl on-line claim bi-polar & act like the horses a22 ~ as an excuse ~ probably ~ bipolar sufferers mainly from depressive/manic episodes ~ correct ?
Some of this is ok, but other parts aren't! I went through what U said and the beginning and I still got a lot worse and things just kept getting worse! I've been in a really bad way for nearly 2 years, I mean really bad way. I struggled my whole life with a lot. Now I'm at my lowest. I'm completely lost and broken with it all. :'(
Sean James i pray you are ok I don’t agree with a lot of the comments it’s like more ways to escape but I know that there is nothin new under the sun God has a plan God gives each person direction and wisdom and honestly being bipolar I’ve had experiences mother Mary 8 hospitalizations 10 years wo meds 3 more hospitalizations and then back into addition So the answer? Each person path seeking help from god others the 12 steps are helpful for bipolar because most will self medicate I just hope u are ok
My last episode which is the only one Ive ever had was an acute psychosis, mostly positive, and seemed to be going into a good direction until my dad called the doctors on me. This made me feel as if they had broken something important, it was as if they had disrupted me from a sort of mission. I am off meds to possibly try again, this mission, if i can.
I feel you. My family also called the doctors and had me locked up in the psychiatric hospital for about 1 month. I felt like I was on a mission and everything made sense and I was connected. Bipolar disorder is wrongly treated by conventional medicine. Psych drugs are made to be taken for a lifetime, luckily I don't take them and I've managed to balance myself.
Even after what happened to me, I´d still recommend Landmark, and I haven´t been to a course of theirs since this one - so I´m hardly a cult member (although I think a few of them may be).
If I were in your position, with a battering husband, of course I would do the same as you and take the medications. But if you inner spirit is compelling you to make such destructive choices, I would also take the time to examine what is wrong with my inner spirit. Clearly something is wounded within you, and medications will never heal that.
I thought that was the case for me, That stop taking meds, and acknowledge this will help, but since i stopped the meds , i ve simply gotten worse little by little, to the point of suicidal attempts again. maybe you were probably not bipolar, or your disorder wasn't that severe, it didn't work for me. :(
@bipolarorwakingup ~ R bi-polars pre-deposed to being this way (rude/devious/demented) ~ I know of 1 who became treacherous w/ Me (their, good, ol' friend) & could be un-necessarily, nasty w/ their spouse (he told me) ~ another w/ 5 exs ~ refused sober conversation & rather endulge, name-calling, & seem to enjoy esoteric idea(s) (reptile ppl/re-incarnation) ~ is this a result of bi-polar , personality/moral issue, or etc. thanxs w/ any solid info.
You had a serious crisis, and the psychologists took a shit on you at the same time. Well, I know it had to hurt. Just be grateful you are not part of the bullshit regime in this world and are trying to do some good.
@cmhoch2002 Well no sense getting stuck on a label. Sounds to me like you are human. What you need to know is that someone going through an experience like I am here, is not much different from you. In fact, i USED to feel a lot like you do. Not anymore.
Actually, in my 'healing' process, I stayed away from people for the most part. I spent most of my time alone, or only with one person that could truly understand what I was going through. What is the point of trying to heal with people that don´t understand your situaion? I wouldn´t worry about socializing to heal. Follow the path of the hermit until you are ready to come out of your cave on your own terms
heh, Yeah, I went through that at about 23 (54 now). I scared the hell out of a lot of people. I was asking if I were dead and not believing them when they said no... I thought they were "all in on it" and part of my purgatory experience as you had thought. Lol, I remember wandering and at a 7-11 seeing a lady get out of her car. I believed at that moment that she intentionally had pulled in to deliver me that car to go somewhere I was meant to go. I slowly got into the car and set there waiting for her to get into the passenger seat and tell me where to drive to. Thankfully both the man who had pointed me out to her and she were very kind people who simply came over to me and asked me what I was doing which I replied, "I don't know" and they gently ushered me from the car. I call that "the lost year" since large parts are gone from my memory.
After a 20 year period of devoting myself to be the "normal father and husband" to my earthly wife and unearthly children (in a good way) I had finished my mission. At 50 it felt like spiritual flood gates had opened with otherworldly experiences and synchronistic events occurring more so than ever before. Sometimes as much as a dozen or more synchs per day and constantly walking in a spirit world overlayed upon or coexisting with the material one. While all my life I had such experiences and I always thought, I couldn't possibly see more... to compare then with now is like comparing a paper airplane with an F-16.
My wife insisted I see a shrink since she thought I was mad even though I was able to stay in control during these periods which could last for months. She simply couldn't grasp what I was telling her because it shook up her fundamental religious views which were mostly lip service anyway. I went to placate her.
I asked the shrink "how can I discuss a spiritual matter with someone who does not believe in such things"? While i'm open to discussing various possibilities you have already ruled out the one I believe to be the most likely answer as an impossibility. So I already know what you're going to say since I've studied psychology and already went over your beliefs a million times in the last 25 years.
I also asked her "if you were a turkey and knew what the impending thanksgiving would bring, would you tell the other turkeys, or allow them to enjoy their remaining time in ignorant bliss"? I had already seen too many times that when someone actually does start to see what I'm talking about and begins to question all they ever thought to be reality that I could literally see the terror rising in their eyes. So, do I tell the other turkeys? The shrink could not grasp that and asked for an example. I said people like to think they are a "good person"? The way I see it, people who buy a lexus or Mercedes could've spent 10k on a good reliable car and saved a village of people from starvation with the rest. They don't feel for them because they ignore them while they drive around sitting in their "rich corinthian leather" seats soaked in the blood of children. Lol, that one got me a quick diagnosis of possible schizophrenia with delusions of grandeur. Not sure why the latter since I made no claims except that I could see things others could not.
Anyway, it's good to see others saying what I've been saying since my "lost year" at 23, that most mental illnesses are spiritual in nature and anyone sensitive enough to see the atrocities all around us for what they are will naturally have a spiritual crisis if they are not moving towards addressing it properly. Being called mad in world run by lunatics is a badge of honor. Wear it proudly... we are the vanguard of the dawning of a new age for mankind. Think of yourself as an Olympic runner bearing the spark and passing that torch to the next gen as they carry on so that one day, all those sparks will grow into a blazing fire which will forever change this world into the paradise it was always meant to be. Be not strong for yourself as it will not be enough... you must be strong for all of us that struggle in silent loneliness with you, for all those like us who are to come, and most importantly, for the future of all of mankind... you ARE that important.
Wish we could message!
Hello, iirc youtube used to allow private messages but doesn't look like it anymore.
This was a great comment thank you for sharing
Wow, I haven’t seen any of ‘these’ videos in over 10 years
This gentleman was my one and only guide through recovering from my first manic episode
I just cried when I saw this video
“You helped me so much during the toughest part of my life by far”
Thank you so much for making these videos, your worlds were so helpful for me
His message really resonated with me at the time, too. I became familiar with his work in 2007, the year I had my first manic episode.
I know the world is a mess. But if I´m also a mess, then I´m still part of the problem, because being in depression seriously limits your capacity to love. You are too stuck to love others. I think you can only start to help turn things around once you have some degree of peace in your heart. Only then are you strong enough to go back into the mess to try and make a difference.
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all the bipolar kids i met in the hospital i was in for 4 months were the nicest people. ordinary people are rude
Enjoyed reading your book “Am I Bipolar or Waking up” ! Kudos to the excellent work you are doing. Your truth benefits countless others as it ripples outward touching hearts.
The spiritual term for what happened to him is Kundalini awakening. It is very much (an important) spiritual experience. It is the true beginning stage for a profound spiritual awakening. Unfortunately mainstream society and mainstream science does not understand what Kundalini is, but mystics, in particular mystics of India have known about it forever. The Kundalini energy lays dormant at the base of the spine in most people. This is the area called the first chakra. There are seven chakra and they are along the spine going up the body from the base of the spine to the top of the head. A chakra is an energy center. The spine is the channel for these spiritual energies. On the spine is two energy channels, one feminine and one masculine. When a person is ready to begin profound spiritual awakening people shall have some sort of experience that shall trigger this dormant energy at the base of the spine to shot upward through the energy channels of the spine activating each chakra as it raises and then firing out the top of the head. When this happens the person will go into an intense altered trance like blissful state for a bit, anywhere from some hours to some days. This Kundalini awakening pushes up much energy from a person's subconscious level and thus after this experience for a period of some months to a few years the person shall be processing all the stuff that got pushes up, working on becoming more self aware. After a person has had a Kundalini awakening their focus in life shall strongly turn more towards an interest in spiritual things, the experience shifts people's focus to the Spiritual. Some people then have further Kundalini awakenings and this deepens the spiritual awakening.
+Volmarr Wyrd wow. thank you for that!
Again, thank you for sharing this precious knowledge. I too have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder 5 or 6 years ago... The battle within myself has been terribly hard (and still is). I recently experienced what I believe was an ego death. I, for once, completely surrendered to the divine (I called for Jesus) For the first time, I feel like I begin to truly and deeply integrate the powerful and spiritual energy that has been released now almost eight years ago. For now I am still on medication, planning to go med free in the future.
Right on the Mark brother.
Kundalini is a systematic lie from a pagan philosophy. That’s not the way to go. That’s why we struggle with it. I am a former Raja yoga instructor now Christian. Christians get a bad rep because of the Catholic Church but it’s the truth. There’s no power outside of the Holy Spirit. If you think you are spiritual go forty days without food or water and see if your kundalini keeps you alive. Only the living God can do that.
@@ServantoftheLord2007 Christain is a stupid path that is highly against spirituality. Why are you even here really? Your religion sucks, and clearly you are a moron. Go away idiot. Of course not all Christains are morans like you are, there are some that actually follow the actual teachings of Jesus, but clearly you are not one of them.
Your story is very similar to mine. I'm glad I was able to find this channel and get a lot of information on what I know for a fact was a spiritual experience in my life. Now I know I'm not the only one that went through this. I'll keep on watching every video.
oh man... as soon as you said landmark forum i got chills because I had my first "psychotic episode" shortly after attending LF. i experienced a certain excitement as well as just an override of emotions from discovering past emotions and trauma i had never confronted or even acknowledged. your video series are very insightful. thank you for posting.
I have a very similar story with a psychosis. They told me i was unfixable, i proved them wrong. I had a small relapse but it fixed itself eventually. I look back on my psychosis more as something that i needed that moment in my life and also as a part of me that was trying to tell me something about myself but it got lost in the translation. Years later i experienced ego death and starting looking up Jung. The similarities between my ideas during my psychosis and Jung's theories were creepy. Almost enough to make me go down that rabbit hole again, but mostly because i'm a bit older now i was able to deal with it better. Still struggling a bit with internal conflicts because of the whole experience. It's difficult to process, that your crazy ideas were actually an intuitive from of psychology and that were you admitted for it.
It always amazes me how incredibly intelligent and creative people with this "mental illness" actually are. WHAT YOU ARE IS THE FUTURE OF THIS PLANET!
Thank you so much for everything Sean. I’ve read your book yesterday and I loved it and it helped me to understand my own spiritual awakening process. I had such a similar experience as you did. I’ve also watched the Celestine prophecy and it was a absolute blessing. God bless you and your sweetheart brother!
Ive just bought your book! thank you so much for sharing your story, for years i really thought i was the only one
zoooo...ik doe het even in zijn Nederlands....fijn dat dit soort filmpjes er zijn....het helpt ons en de mensen die hier mee te maken krijgen...zichzelf en hun omgeving....inzicht te geven.....ik ben enorm dankbaar!!!
ondanks alle plakplaatjes die ze me hebben gegeven....ik wist dat het goed met me kwam.....het IS goed.....hoe je leven ook loopt....!!!
Thank you so much for showing I am not alone. I have been hospitalized 3 times over the last 6 year. All times were only a few weeks. First time was just weeks after my father died. I have had pretty much ALL of the symptoms of what they kept calling 'most likely bipolar mania'. I never felt in a dark place. I felt indescribably at connected to everyone and everything. Last time they said I would have to be medicated for life. I have refused and no relapse in over 4 years. Its all about LOVE!!!
Yessss. It's all about LOVE! It's SO good to read and hear that people are sharing the same experiences as me!
Recently I discovered I was bipolar. I haven't been to the doctors for years, I basically self diagnosed myself and I fit all of the characteristics perfectly. But I didn't want to believe that I was sick, I knew these feelings I've been having for years meant something, like an internal calling. I've always struggled between what society expects of me: like going to school, careers, fancy cars, the house and the whole American dream idea, and the calling I've felt in me since I was about 15.
Most of us are old souls. Given powerful and important gifts or abilities with an instruction manual that we can barely read. Look up your life path number.
you saved me from medication! :) I’m finally starting to be okay with being me
Nice! How have things been? I’m at an earlier stage of all this, any advice would be appreciated!
Yes, it ramped up over the course, and peaked at the end. If you are on an intense course, be careful, it could be a trigger. And if you are on meds, stay on them until you have educated support around you. Be patient with yourself, the chances of a relapse when off meds is very high. You need educated support.
Society teaches us to be quiet and not to feel. When we awaken all sorts of emotions enter our realm which can be considered in our society as bipolar. Our spirit self is pure energy and as we know energy is not still and has many frequencies, hence all the emotions we experience sometimes at once. Anyway, we need more people to speak out so everyone else can feel comfortable with their true self. Thank you for sharing. Love is the highest frequency, Fear is the lowest, let us rise.
I can’t believe I stumbled on this page. Diagnosed at 35. Sadly it takes a manic episode to get a proper diagnosis, as my family doctor insisted it was just clinical and I knew it was more. My worst episode resulted in divorce of a 20 year marriage. It’s a blessing and a curse, as happy moments are amplified 100 times, but anger and sadness are also amplified 100 times. It’s theorized i had a predisposition and my dad died in front of me at 16 and ignited it. A life time of psychiatric visits and pill tweaking and changing. Newly spiritually awakened, told my psychiatrist I was doing meditation and wanted to make sure it wouldn’t worsen my condition although I’ve been stable for years. He said it was fine as long as I didn’t take psychedelics. It’s brought me peace and mellowed out this short fused Scorpio who used to get really angry, break stuff and thrown my iPhone down the driveway (God bless the good people at otterbox). Watching your video as I type. Bipolar insomnia is bad for me, it finally took Ambien cr 12.5 with two benzodiazepines. Ok, gonna focus on your video. Anxious to hear your story ❤
Very hermit like for 6 months. Then I went back to work, but still was somewhat removed for about 18 months. Don´t forget, the whole culture is working against you. You have to nurture your new self.
I share this story with you!!! I am in the process of awakening ans were there is light there is dark! i never had depression till I started my journey.. i think it is cause we are letting go and we feel we do not connect with people the way we use to the social life is no longer fun! We have all this knowledge but no body wants to hear about we feel alone!
lOve and LIght-Heather
i agree this this guy-
people need support from mentally stable people, and need to be spritual in a non superstious way.
generally people need to be more happy and controlled, and less stressed and depressed
Your videos are literally describing my experience exactly.
So what you are saying is that bipolar is actually an exsistental crisis... and therefore we need,as Victor Frankl said we need meaning in our lives. The kind of meaning that is based on the profound wisdom traditions of all religions.
nice to see you in this video, i am studying very carefully "bipolar or waking up " serial. Thank you deeply for your work. I will tell other after i will finish studying it. Cheers
I totally agree with what you're saying about so much of what defines the whole 'bi polar' thing as being external, social, preordained by the psychiatric system.
I haven't decided yet if I go with all you're saying but it's obviously good for you. Good thing you're not in the UK man, I'm telling you, access to real and authentic support is just a battle, a struggle and so much stigma it's easier just to isolate, which is pretty much what I'm doing right now, having lost business, home, all really..humbling and actually I'm thinking that these things are not so bad. They didn't make me happy anyway.
In the UK though, if we're in 'treatment' having being diagnosed with any form of bi polar, it's likely we are being prescribed meds with horrific side effects, and almost experimented on like guinea pigs. For example, watch out for that Lamotrigine rash, it could be fatal, or lets test your liver to see just how much toxicity it can handle... try as I might I can't bring myself to take any of them in anything like the quantities they are prescribed, or I would be a fat, numb person who felt nothing. I feel so little as it is.
Being afraid and not being able to conquer this is a big part of staying trapped in this condition. These desensitised societies we now live in keep peddling that fear.
By the way, something tells me Brazil is a better place to heal...:) I enjoy your vids...thank you.
I just read about aspartame and bipolar keeps coming up a lot. Did you ever see if maybe aspartame is a chemical that you should avoid? Or MSG which is hidden in so many artificial foods and goes by over 30 different names? Good luck to you always.
Man, you have given me hope. Thanks.
Your welcome! Good luck in your healing process!
I've always felt compelled to change the world in a meaning fully way, to heal, and to travel. Recently I have given into these feeling. Left my awesome job in New York, apartment and all, Ito travel the country with little to no money to my name, in search of truth.... Truth about my self, this life and our true purpose as humans on this planet.
Holy crap mine happened at L.M.F. In Los Angeles in 2004 - going to listen to the next video to see how yours went, but wow same thing for me
I have a lot of trouble believing that bipolar disorder is what you describe as a spiritual condition, but then again, maybe I am not bipolar. I don't even know what I am. I know that I get extremely depressed, I know that I get extremely anxious; I know that I have an insatiable urge to be free, but instead feel like a slave. I know I am extremely cynical about this world, and this reality. I know I would never bring a child into it. I know that I am afraid.
Thanks for this, my crisis happened at age 30 as well. It lasted 2 weeks. My life is so much better now.
What to do
I have done landmark before and i had an awakening experience after the course as well. I knew inherently if i took the course that i would have a peak experience. Your series of videos really encapsulates my experiences. I've 4 episodes, the 1st, 26, i was learning about history, sprituality, religion and seeing a mentor of sorts and lastly breaking up with a girl I thought was made for me... WOW!!!! 2nd Landmark, 3rd consistantly reading the bible every night (Ezekial 3:1-27)...WOW, Lastly LM.
You're an INFJ enneatype 4 with depressive personality. You mentioned Jung on your channel video so you probably know the mbti system. I appreciate you and your work.
I've been in mental hospitals six times, I have been diagnosed unipolar, bipolar,and other things to but I cant remember now...I have no communication with any entity that would give me any information about my case.life is a struggle for me, and it is hard to get across to people who "fit in" or can manage somehow to be in society..whatever that is, I'm often depressed and feel helpless and impotent. but I do not want the medications, I can keep my self up through exercise,music and learning.
Terrible
You have an obligation to the world to work with others to figure wtf so many people are dealing with... def. Something with the brain u can hide from drs. They need you so they can figure wtf is up with millions of people
this guy was ahead of everyone
Hi
I agree with everything you say and have had an awakening. Are you still doing well ?
Mike
Not sure actually. I think they are some sort of vases. I bought them last year just to brighten up the place.
Very insightful! Thanks for the props!
Good explanation of the perception by someone who has bipolar. The problem lies within medications which the pharmicst make billions on. Drugs only suppress the problem making it worse. Also drugs have very harmful side effects to the liver, heart, and sometimes cause problems like spina bifida. Alot of people have become dependent on medications and are consumed by the illness and the drugs. Self control is the key.
Great video,we as people look all over for a cure for whatever we are going through and put our trust in them or that.but honestly the only true answer you will find is in Jesus Christ.i believe that anyone that is going through any type of bi polar etc etc is under spiritual attack and needs to be set free through prayer Only.fear and any other negative thing or experience is definitely not from God the creator it comes from the enemy the devil.whoever is wise will understand what I am saying.
Your story is almost identical to mine especially in aspect of ages. I was diagnosed, Bi-polar, Major Depression, PTSD & god knows what else. I went through a year long awakening. Today i am a different person than i was the past 10 years. From what i understand most spiritual awakenings happen around the age of 30. Did you notice that?
@paulieboy2010 Hey no meds for 4 years. That´s wonderful, congratulations!
The chemical imbalance thing is a complete myth.
your storie's amazing, thank you for sharing. i really do appreciate it.
Depression is the reflection
Thank you. Bless you back.
Great book, I took it with me when I moved to Brazil!
No problemo! I'll actually be in Toronto from Dec.14-Jan.11 for Xmas with the family.
praying and meditation are very very similar... Meditation is as Jon kabbat zinn says, "paying attention, on purpose, to something, as though your life depended on it" it could be prayer, cultivation of kindness towards others, but most people use breathing.
Sean I apologize is if this question seems strange. I have a question for you that is very important to me right now. How many connections did you allow after your "2nd" Kundalini experience.
Yes, it was a sledge hammer, no doubt. But as messy as it was, I still won't knock them. In fact, I would recommend the Forum for people who have not been able to snap out of long term depression.
very interesting. I am also a diver, and I have done Landmark Forum. I figured that if any portion of the program affected anyone so intensely, it would be the one you mentioned. I liked what I got out of the Forum, but it probably is not for everyone. I am trying to learn as much as possible about bipolar as my friend is back in the hospital after another manic episode, and she wants to find ways to get out of this cycle without medications.
your research into bipolar is amazing...thank you...I am of the same opinion abt it
Well, right now the 'blanket cure' is meds for life and it is considered incurable. No, I don´t think everyone will heal, but what´s happening now is a disaster.
im going through a positive spiritual awakening but getting overwhelemed by what ive learnt how do i calm my mind down
Try to let it go, let it be. Trust that what is happening is for your own good and for your growth. Do not to overanalyze of what is happening to you and do not rationalize everything. Do not try to understand everything. If you feel that you should do something, or go somewhere than do it or go even when it is not socially acceptable (of course do not do anything destructive to yourself or others). Listen to your intuition as much as possible and flow with it even when it guides you to dark places or emotions or memories.
Also try to ground yourself when it is too overwhelming. Go for walks, connect with nature, do some exercises - I would strongly suggest doing Yoga as it helps to center your mind and focus more on your body.
Turn to Jesus, Prince of peace 🙏
we all one...one love...one world....thanks!!!
i had a similar experience after meditating an exercise that i read in an abraham-hicks book but it did wake me up spiritually and i was also crazy and taken to a crisis center also diagnosed bipolar
Hi, I've been diagnosed with Bipolar almost 6 months ago and just came across your videos. Thank you sooo much for your views - it helps and is good for friends & family too :-) I'm on medication but I'm scared... How are you??
May I post your comment on my blog? It may be the best comment I´ve ever had. Thanks man!
The reason why they need to take medication for the rest of there lives is because its a fked up world and anybody with a bit of sense can see that
U are my Hero!!!!
I agree, although I have more experience with regressions happening spontaneously. they just clear stuff up immediately.
I'm manipulated by the guy I fall in love with so badly. I couldn't handle the pain. Then I realised my family is narcisstic too.
@bipolarorwakingup Look, I definitely respect your video, and am really glad you are doing well now. I don't know what to do man. The truth is that I've been struggling day in and day out for like ten years. I've gotten into trouble for losing my temper, which can be very hard to control. I feel like a stranger in my body a lot of the time - there is this sensation of "I am in this body???" like it's foreign all of a sudden. So my question is, what do I have to do to get to where you are?
I'm feelin' ya!
@utube3215 Ouch! I hope my videos can help make things a little easier for you once day.
loss of emotions is one of the sure signs of enlightenment . most of the Indian yogis know this.the duality of pleasure and pain disapears and with it emotions . right now am going through it tho i have reached a level of almost stabilising and hence the senses have returned pure and shining. my advice is drink a lot of water ,stay detoxed, preserve ypur sexual fluids and dont occupy your mind with thoughts . kundalini will sureky rise to the top.
Hello Sean, I am half way into your book and find it very engaging. I am bipolar 2 so no psychosis here, however feelings of paranoia and incessant ruminating thoughts have increased with age. I refuse to do meds and see a naturopath instead, this does help considerably with depression, but as a result, I am living perilously close to the manic border. Are you still experiencing hallucinations?
oh my god........ i experienced the same thing
Thanks Frankie!
I would like to know what a BP crisis episode is. It doesn't happen here and there. It happens all day and every day.
They call me Bi polar never have been depressed, in late 40's I went to a nurse in a Hospital out patient to ask a question, as I had interrupted someone. more then once. I was from a strict Baptist family with manners of English proper up bringing. I was put on med with a blood test, no history no questions. I never should have taken. When I told shaking and such Dr. put on other. I want to go off. I am fine. I sleep. I have never thought to kill my self. Once when I began in 2000 to eat well with a nutritionist instruction I had herbs of St. John Wort and Verlian made tea that I drank for 6 or 7 days. It gave me euphoric. I was put in hospital. I knew were I was who I was could walk slept. later in one week my primary tells me I created that as Depoke and herbs don't mix. It my fault I didn't know? Our society is so disrespectful of a person. I eat plants fruits organic nuts healthy mushrooms ect. I want to go off. this what to do?
I notice people get uncomfortable or frustrated when one gets enthusiastic or expressive, especially if their state is more level or reserved. I like to sublimate my energy with activities like Yoga, Singing,guitar and clarinet practice. Punching Bag (I put remote control headphones on can really get into it) running, hiking, Plyometrics, creative cardio-workouts integrating yoga, dance movement, and trying to learn and retain information, I'm working on Moby Dick and I'm a Wikipedia lover.
Of coarse you can, and thank you.
Peace
I had a similar experience occur to me in which I was arrested under no charges and taken to a hospital where the restrained me to a bed and inject me with medication against my will, under the canadian mental health act.
@fenrirthewolf1212 ~ thnxs 4 the tip ~ I've had ppl on-line claim bi-polar & act like the horses a22 ~ as an excuse ~ probably ~ bipolar sufferers mainly from depressive/manic episodes ~ correct ?
i am getting off my meds because I believe if i master mania I can learn to use it for many advantages.
Some of this is ok, but other parts aren't! I went through what U said and the beginning and I still got a lot worse and things just kept getting worse! I've been in a really bad way for nearly 2 years, I mean really bad way. I struggled my whole life with a lot. Now I'm at my lowest. I'm completely lost and broken with it all. :'(
Sean James i pray you are ok I don’t agree with a lot of the comments it’s like more ways to escape but I know that there is nothin new under the sun
God has a plan
God gives each person direction and wisdom and honestly being bipolar I’ve had experiences mother Mary 8 hospitalizations 10 years wo meds 3 more hospitalizations and then back into addition
So the answer? Each person path seeking help from god others the 12 steps are helpful for bipolar because most will self medicate I just hope u are ok
My last episode which is the only one Ive ever had was an acute psychosis, mostly positive, and seemed to be going into a good direction until my dad called the doctors on me. This made me feel as if they had broken something important, it was as if they had disrupted me from a sort of mission. I am off meds to possibly try again, this mission, if i can.
I feel you. My family also called the doctors and had me locked up in the psychiatric hospital for about 1 month. I felt like I was on a mission and everything made sense and I was connected. Bipolar disorder is wrongly treated by conventional medicine. Psych drugs are made to be taken for a lifetime, luckily I don't take them and I've managed to balance myself.
taking longer than I thought. sorry about that.
Even after what happened to me, I´d still recommend Landmark, and I haven´t been to a course of theirs since this one - so I´m hardly a cult member (although I think a few of them may be).
@pabloperezvenini I was never abused, but was emotionally repressed. See video #6 on Trauma & Repressions. I talk about it there.
If I were in your position, with a battering husband, of course I would do the same as you and take the medications. But if you inner spirit is compelling you to make such destructive choices, I would also take the time to examine what is wrong with my inner spirit. Clearly something is wounded within you, and medications will never heal that.
Are you medicated? I hope not!
Como faço para me encontrar contigo? Tenho transtorno bipolar. Sou de São Paulo.
An open-minded cynic. I´ll take that.
yes you can by knowing right and wrong you will be controlling your actions.
I think that all mental abnormalities are aspects of spiritual awakening - as that's what our lives are in the first place - spiritual journeys
Has vitamin d deficiency been a topic of discussion surrounding all this?
Is that a possible cause?
+Latrey Fontaine I suspect it could be.
+randrew renglish Why exactly is that? Could you please elaborate?
+randrew renglish Okay.. I never knew that could be part of the problem!
god bless U man!
I thought that was the case for me, That stop taking meds, and acknowledge this will help, but since i stopped the meds , i ve simply gotten worse little by little, to the point of suicidal attempts again. maybe you were probably not bipolar, or your disorder wasn't that severe, it didn't work for me. :(
holy crap those drugs made me so fatigued that I could barely walk up the stairs. And I'm 25 and really strong. It sucked.
@bipolarorwakingup ~ R bi-polars pre-deposed to being this way (rude/devious/demented) ~
I know of 1 who became treacherous w/ Me (their, good, ol' friend) & could be un-necessarily, nasty w/ their spouse (he told me) ~ another w/ 5 exs ~ refused sober conversation & rather endulge, name-calling, & seem to enjoy esoteric idea(s) (reptile ppl/re-incarnation) ~ is this a result of bi-polar , personality/moral issue, or etc. thanxs w/ any solid info.
You had a serious crisis, and the psychologists took a shit on you at the same time. Well, I know it had to hurt. Just be grateful you are not part of the bullshit regime in this world and are trying to do some good.
@7777HIDIEO @7777HIDIEO Your welcome man. Why don't you join us at Wake the Planet?
See my blog, bipolarorwakingup
I will!
Remember me?
@cmhoch2002 Well no sense getting stuck on a label. Sounds to me like you are human. What you need to know is that someone going through an experience like I am here, is not much different from you. In fact, i USED to feel a lot like you do.
Not anymore.