Kids aren’t accountable for their actions, they may as well be mirrors, reflecting/repeating what they see adults do. Adults are accountable, for every single thing we do.
This woman has lived one of the hardest stories I think I've ever seen on this channel. What kills me the most is she seems like a really genuine person that has just been given really bad cards.
I agree she really lived a tortured life … and was so violated by the people who were supposed to take care of her. She differently had to be strong to endure all these horrific horrors. I pray to God that one fine day she will be passed all this. This story really broke my heart!!! Stay strong and u will survive. God Speed!!!!!☪️✝️☦️💫🌟🥰✴️🥰Love from NJ
@michelle2003 No judgment here, but the odds of her writing and completing a book while using Fentanyl are probably close to zero. That drug consumes your life completely. Not to mention it’s like playing Russian Roulette. It kills people every day.
I was molested also and feel the same way about relationships. I was a heroin and pill addict for 15 years but have been clean for 5 years. Recovery is possible. Sending love to anyone struggling❤️❤️
I was molested by a female at 10, and groomed by a male teacher who I believed I was in a relationship with as a teen. I threw myself into hobbies and education to deal with it all, and I kept to myself. I just kind of hate adults now, and I am one. I’m working on it.
My mom grew up being raped by her father and physically abused as well. She was run off by her father at 18 when she didn’t come home the night before. My mom didn’t come home because a man she knew from work raped her and wouldn’t let her leave. That person is my father. She had no other option but to go to him because she had no where to go. They got married and still are today. Talked about a fucked up childhood. My parents should have never married and had four children, but that’s life I suppose. The point of this story is that my mom was permanently damaged, but she never allowed any of things that happened to her to be done to us. This is the first time I have shared this, but I feel like if any place is understanding to fucked up lives it’s this one. The cycle of abuse can be broken. It just takes wanting more for your children and the children that come after.
How is your relationship with your father? Do you remember at what point you figured out that their relationship was started with an act of assault? --just FYI, I'm not prodding for sensational details, but your story is so similar to my own family dynamics... I guess I'm trying to understand my own history by understanding yours. If that makes any sense....
Sorry, but it takes more than 'wanting'. Most parents want better for their kids, it's hardwired into us. Sometimes we are simply unable to follow through. Mental illness and addiction are commonly the culprits. I'm happy for you that your mom was able to break the cycle but please don't dismiss this lady and others like her as weak or defective because she couldn't.
Michelle please don’t end your life when that book is finished! You are a strong soul that went through some terrible experiences and traumas. There is a lot the world and humankind can learn from you and this unfortunate tragedy. Praying for you on your road of healing ❤️🩹🙏
But she may not feel like she owes the world anything. Just like they made her relive those sex tapes to help other girls -- but they don't seem to have done anything to help her. I'm not suggesting she kill herself. I'd just like to see her hang on to finally find peace in some way for herself.
She was able to experience how a parent can love and nurture unfortunately it was all taken away in a matter of this loving parent pulling the trigger and leaving her to find him and to again be all alone in her continued trauma. So sad , I truly feel sad right now while I listened to everything she had to say. Saddening and I’m sure Mark became choked up on this interview I know I did
@@norahsmith3320 Although suicide is highly selfish, it is also irrational & at times delusional, thinking stemming from deep rooted pain, depression/anxiety, complex PTSD, fear, guilt/shame. The majority of suicidal people feel so much encompassing intense mental, emotional, & for some physical pain, that they feel ending their life would benefit the ones they love/others instead of hinder and continue to cause pain in their lives as well. I now have 6yrs clean/sober, though have been suicidal many times during my 20yrs of hardcore addiction, & even as a child who was being sexually abused by my own father, ignored, not seen/heard by my absent mother. Believe me, I was born extremely empathic (indigo) & always have very strong, unconditional love for so many others, especially family, & the LAST thing I would want to do is cause any of them any pain/ suffering. But when your suicidal, you honestly think their lives would be better without you. So to say not sure if his love for her was unconditional because he was so full of pain that he just could not continue to face life, is not cool & not fair. I have known quite a few people who are very dear to me that took their own life, & like me they had so much love for others, but just could not love themselves. I am still a work in progress, but getting there. So please have compassion & empathy for others, especially since this could easily be you & God is the ONLY ONE Who has a right to judge.
@@norahsmith3320 There’s a line that separates life, from a good enough reason to die. And it might be selfish to assume you know where that line is for another person. They’re not all well and justified, but you can’t know their agony, and many of them weigh the cost of family’s reaction of pain to their death, and obviously decide their own pain is worse than the pain their family will experience in their death.
Just for the clarification record, being on Suboxone/Methadone/ETC. is not clean. It just means that the government is now your drug dealer! Addiction being a disease is a theory. Those who can not control their use are just weak minded, unable to take the bad with the good!! Whoop Whoop!!!
I’ve watched 2/3 of all of Marks videos and this video is BY FAR THE WORST childhood TRAUMA !!! I will be saying prayers for this woman for a long time. Please bless her with your prayers too!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Nobody is addicted to drugs for no reason.Everyone has experienced great pain in their own way and tries to suppress the pain with drugs.I was heavily dependent on myself for 15 years and have been in the methadone program for 27 years.Love from germany
@Josey I will probably take this to the end.My liver values are increased.The kidneys are ok.I'm afraid of relapsing again, even after so many years.
@San Diego Marie I completely agree you. This is the only interview that has fully captured me & my heart aches for this girl. Psychologically, she is still a young girl, as the trauma in her childhood started young & has never really ended. I’m so upset & surprised that none of her teachers or even a social worker reached out to her &, ‘took her under her wing.’ Having a positive relationship &/or role model with one of her female teachers, etc, could have made the difference in the direction her life took. I am absolutely heartbroken for this girl.
@Josey Methadone doesn’t & can’t, ‘get you high,’ which is the reason it is used to help people ween off of opioids. It binds to the Opioid-Receptors the way that other opioids do, which helps to prevent severe withdrawal, however, it does not bind to the receptors that make us feel, ‘high.’ However, methadone should not be taken continuously, as is mentioned above. It is meant to be a stop-gap between other Opioids, to slowly wean people off of the drugs they they previously abused. Most Heroin Addicts say that they no longer really use to get high, but instead, to prevent them from, ‘getting sick,’ (severe withdrawal symptoms).
The number of us addicted due to self medicating the pain of extreme trauma is mind shattering. And right now it's to the point where Mark just mentioned the # of interviewe's who are abuse survivors. It's horrible. I wish this on no one Please. If you read this and you urges to sexually hurt someone in any way then please seek help, seek therapy, medication, just resist the urge to destroy another child's life because it ruins there whole life. And to those who have been abused I urge you to come forward, seek justice to the fullest extent, confide in family and friends, you are not the sick one, the person that hurt you is. All my love to you.
Maybe part of the problem is that we don’t crucify the perpetrators. They always go free or have very light sentences. That shows these women and girls exactly how little we value them.
I agree. We need HARSH penalties..but it doubt very little will change since most court ruling is male dominated.. well almost eveythng is male dominated actually
With that upbringing I'd be doing drugs too..She has really had it rough.I hope her life turns around for the better and she can find some kind of peace..bless her heart..my goodness..I feel so bad for her...🙏🙏♥️
What a shame that marine who adopted her killed himself. You can see her smiling for the first time at that point. He sounded like an absolutely wonderful man. I wonder if he had trauma from war? The poor woman having to experience that as a little girl though
I was raped when I was 7 from my moms boyfriend after that I got taken from CP's and my mom came to a visit me with a marrigare certificate sing I don't believe you I don't believe you I wouldn't do this so anyway what I did she explained was she got married to him to prove to me how much you loved him regardless if he raped me or not she said but she said she didn't believe me
I don't know what devils her DAD (adoptive but I say real DAD) was fighting but I wished he stayed to continue give her the best life. It seems that's the only piece of happiness she had in her life 💛
@Josey Says the TROLL with a fake month old account - please just stop. She is very well spoken and coherent despite suffering great trauma her entire life. Show some decency and compassion if you are even capable of it.
@Josey you didn’t even watch the video did you? Please stop being a dick this woman is amazing so what she is homeless and an addict she has gone through so much
I agree with Brad Pearson, this beautiful woman could and should write a book. It could be very healing for her. On the flip side, It could also open old wounds. If she came across these comments and thought that she might be interested in writing a book, I suspect that SHE would know whether or not writing about her life would be a blessing or not. I don't know what some "troll " wrote, that was deleted, but I think it is really shameful and disgusting that someone would say something so foul/offense it had to be deleted. Shame on that person, people should have compassion and understand that no one is immune to struggles. Karma is a very real thing...
@@joolzg1936 I do see these comments... but they're consistently without any citation. Just a few quotes or time stamps would be really helpful for discussion and transparency. Would you mind clarifying a bit?
Michelle, go to Teen Challenge (not only for teenagers). It's a free rehab; one year program. Get clean and sober. Get a job. Save some money. Move back to Indiana. Get a job. Get set up. Get your kids back or at least visitation. Use this video to get people to help you. You can do it! I've personally met many people like you who did. I will pray for you. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. Your kids need you. They are more important than your book. It can wait. At Teen Challenge you will meet plenty of people who are former junkies who are now sober and thriving. You were made on purpose for a purpose! You are such a beautiful person. Your story is so moving. Hang in there. I know you can do it!
Kids don’t know to make up that kind of abuse in second grade. I’m glad her teacher believed her❤️I feel so sad for children that live that life. This girl lost the one person that she trusted. I hope you find love and peace, you so deserve it😩
We’re 8 months apart in age, I have 4 kids. I got sober in 2003 , I have 18 years in recovery. You can change your life too. Go to rehab, that’s what I did.
I have so many questions: 1. Why are humans so terrible to each other? 2. How can a parent torture and hurt their own children? 3. Why why why is sexual abuse so prevalent? 4. Is SA more prevalent in religious conservative areas due to repression? 5. Michelle is so smart and articulate. How different her life could have been. What would her life looked like with a different set of parents? 6. How her children must grieve for her. 7. The number of overdoses: how her brain chemistry must be effected. Can her brain get better? 8. How abuse ends up creating more abuse and drug problems. How to tackle these issues? 9. I can go on and on. …. Michelle, thank you for sharing your story. Mark, thank you for allowing her to share it and the dignity that you offer everyone.
@Josey She is capable, of course. And she probably has imbelished her story in different ways, as we all do. But after listening (and watching), I feel that the core of her story is true.
@Josey if you look at life like this you’ll never get anywhere. watch the fucking video and let them tell their story. what do you gain when you’re questioning that she isn’t genuine ? does it make you feel better or something?
As an RN for 25 years I don't understand the amount of pain meds she was on for the car accident! No doubt she had pain but she was getting what oncology patients would get. This was the era of over prescribing where pharma got rich and America got addicted. Inexperienced physicians in small town America was bought and sold and no one questioned what was essentially small amounts of synthetic heroin. Rats in research would kill anything in their way to get more. I wanted to quit as a nurse in the 2010 era when I saw how people were addicted so fast, I medicated my patients with so much Oxycontin and Oxy ER I knew it was no good. I also knew during the era of cutting people off it was going to cause people to go to street drugs as a replacement and that's how we got here. And now Fentanyl used for the dying is all over the streets! This is China trying to kill us, we need to do everything we can to get Americans up off their knees if we want to survive.
Hollywood doesnt have the guts to make a movie of this kind of horror perpetrated on children by twisted evil people. Thank you for shining a light on these peoples stories.
"Hollywood" may not but plenty of documentaries that go way deeper than this short video. What Mark does is not new! His format is unique and yes attractive.
What do you mean? Why would someone want to watch a movie about a child being sexually abused? I would never watch something like that so I can’t point you to one, but there are many movies exploring addiction, abuse, and pain if you search even a little bit.
These stories are the reason why I try so hard to love and support my children. It seems to always start with these people being unloved, I wonder how different their life would have been if their parents cared more.
Ummm how about you never judge anyone? We’re all going through something. Jesus. And honestly you should judge any adult for their actions and choices because no matter what happens to you, your choices are yours and only yours.
@@maverickbull1909 I agree. I'm in recovery from her0in and m3th ...which is why I said people shouldn't judge addicts because I know how it feels. There's a stigma whenever it comes to addiction & often understood which I guess is why people so easily judge. But I agree. We're all able to make our own decisions in life and nobody should judge anyone. We're all just trying to survive.
It depends on what you mean by "judge". Everyone judges everyone within 2 seconds of meeting them in some manner or another. You will judge my comment without a second thought. I don't care the reason someone uses drugs. They shouldn't be.
Thank you. I raised my kids telling them that homeless guy is there cuz events and circumstance, addiction builds with pain, pain persists cuz addiction. We act different roles in different periods of our lives so you can’t stigmatize a person, in one day things can turn, opportunity, perception, support, encouragement. In years this person who is lost could rise back, and that other person who think they’re superior could also collapse. Those who look at damaged people with judgement wouldn’t last half a day with the bagage they carry, the scars, the isolation. They wouldn’t even be able to be thankful for little things like struggling people are. Fresh laundry, strawberries in the winter, the sun on your cheeks.
@User 1307 💯 I love how you worded this. So accurate. It's a shame we all cannot think with an open mind and with compassion instead of judgement and hate if it's not within their standards.
Omg I want to give this woman a huge hug so bad!! Her parents and the system failed her!! The trauma is very obvious. I really hope she gets all the help she deserves 🥺
I feel like we always know when they're gonna have a complex story to tell. Which usually means a sad upbringing and life in general. It's absolutely heartbreaking and I haven't watched this video yet. Thank you for taking time to let them all vent, to care for them when noone else does or they feel noone does! They absolutely need to let these things out, it helps get passed them!!
Ofcourse. All of them have fabricated or blown up their stories to push away their responsibilities and keep on doing their drugs and bad ways. You NEVER hear them blame themselves for anything.
@@Melinmingle Check out "Fentanyl Addict Interview - Josh". He's someone who genuinely aims the criticism at himself. And I've seen several of the interviews where the interviewee makes a fair effort to take personal responsibility. This channel shakes me psychologically, and really makes me think to find new equilibrium. And I'll admit: I have thought along the lines of your comment alot. "These people are losers" "These people could just take responsibility (listen to some Jordan Peterson and Jocko Willink lol) and change their lives. But they choose not to so they're pathetic". But the more I listen to these, and reflect on my own upbringing (in Pine Bluff, Arkansas). I would be absolutely fucked if I had been molested, or handed a meth pipe, or if any number of situations had gone differently. I DO believe in character, and personal responsibility.. deeply. But people, like this woman, have been dealt a rough fucking hand. 'Makes it hard for me to judge her that thoroughly. I'll judge her surface, and I'll judge myself thoroughly.. but at the end of the day I can only wish her the best and keep it moving. Carrying disdain won't get us very far.
Please don’t kill yourself. I know things are tough. I get it. You can get through this. You’re MUCH stronger than you think, Michelle. I’m Praying for you.
This woman is the strongest person I have ever heard. I have no words to describe how her experience has affected me thank you so much for opening up your scares again helping so many more children and adults. I hope your book begins your recovery and relationships with your children you do have the ability to change their futures and yours. Love and light to heal your soul safe journey sweet girl. Blessed be
Early in i was thinking, 'this woman should write' and then she said she is writing a book. The stealing, selling, copping, consuming cycle might get in the way, but that would be amazing. Her story is hardcore - processing pain by producing something is much better than just covering it with drugs.
Her story on why her kids was taken is most likely bullshyt. And they never said she can't get her kids back bcuz she's a woman and women can't do it without help. That's all bullshyt
@@JGriffin5150 Hmm you do have a point there. Put it this way. Many women have taken on that struggle with some degree of 'success', however some kind of family or paid support is needed. But yeah. I find it unlikely that CPS would have made such a blanket statement. On the whole though I find this lady more relatable, honest and genuine than many of the interviewees.
It’s remarkable that she is still here, courageously sharing her story. I could not imagine the trauma this intelligent, well-spoken woman has been through. It’s heartbreaking that someone could steal a child’s happiness, so early in life.
This is one of a few people I noticed that got help from a teacher, either because they felt comfortable telling a teacher or a teacher noticed something off. I’m not sure what type of training teachers get for this but I believe we need a major focus on that.
yeah was a teacher too that helped me at school. my father beat me so bad as a girl 15 that my whole thigh was black and i had trouble walking. i was a quiet bookworm kid. he picked on me because hes crazy evil still is too. he knew i couldnt stand him so he beat sht out me for that fact. he got away with it though, the thigh being all black with bruising. i begged school to have social work take me away. no social work was called by 16 he tried to strangle me my father my judo training is what saved my life as i started to p ass out i managed to throw him off. i ran off was homeless
I'm absolutely affected and devastated by this lady's story. And outraged, of course. How easy it is for a couple of piss poor circumstances to lead to a horror story like Michelle's life. Could haver gone similarly for a lot of us. I wish the best for Michelle.
This is HEART-BREAKING!!! I wish I could enter that room, hug her, get her kids back and help her get her life together. I know she would fight for her 5 angels. Lord, help this woman :(((((( She is in so much pain.
What an incredibly strong and wise woman. She’s so right when she mentions it’s best to not dwell on our past. My heart goes out to her and I wish her some relief and happiness. That she changes her mind, and finds a new purpose that causes her to want to live after completing her book. She’s one of the most deserving souls there is.
I can relate to her more than I can explain. The childhood trauma, the CSA happened to me in my teens, the system taking my child… when my child was taken, I had already lost everything… my home, my ex husband who left me, everything. Then I lost my mind. I was hooked on all kinds of drugs off and on since the age of 13, I had stayed clean when I found out I was pregnant and for the first 2 years of his life. But losing my child was the last straw. They gave my son to his dad, who is still to this day a manipulative SOB. I became addicted to coke. I have 18 years clean off hard drugs, with 2 relapses, the last happening over 10 years ago. I decided to leave my hometown for the last time in 2016, and moved 2300 miles away for a better life because I was tired of fighting. I fought the system and my son’s dad for 11 years before I decided I had to go. I moved, built a life with my now amazing husband and I made sure I would have a safe place for my child to come when they were ready to know all of the truth. I couldn’t keep fighting with the system and having them flung around while his dad used him as a tool to manipulate me. I couldn’t keep doing it to my child or myself. My child is now 20. We have had a relationship since they were 17, and they now know all of the truth. As a matter of fact, they visited me for a year and now they are coming back to live in the state I am in, permanently. I say all this for this point: Life is hard af, it will kick the shit out of you, and if you don’t understand this woman’s story, consider yourself absolutely fucking lucky. We do recover. We do make it. I hope this woman is doing ok now. Her story hit me super hard.
Definitely need an update, I truly care about this woman. The pain she has endured is unimaginable. Yet she is so strong... I hope she knows that.. it's never too late to give yourself the love other people made you doubt you're worthy of.. my heart goes out to you, the things you've been through don't make you any less of a person. I pray you find your way. Ending your life isn't the answer, you've got so much life in you. You deserve a life you don't have to run from, believe in yourself. Don't let evil win
I didn’t expect to see a fellow Hoosier who is from a county next to the one I currently reside. It is a common story in some of these small towns. Michelle has a beautiful soul. It is obvious she speaks from the heart. Don’t give up Michelle. There are stories of redemption and reclaiming lost years with children. They still need you. You can turn this around and stop the cycle.
“Don’t dwell in the past or you can’t move forward into the future “ her words in this interview tell us how amazing her book will be I just hope she lives long enough to finish it ! Dear sister you and many others have been hurt so terribly it’s sad beyond words ! But somehow I hope you find healing and wholeness and love. And most of all I hope you are reunited with your children and they find healing with you !!! 🙏💜🙏
She has very soft and kind eyes. I hope she is able to get her life back together and finds a healthy way to help her heal from all the trauma she’s been through.
I do believe her story and feel awful I can't imagine. I do agree with comments I can't wrap my head around the 1st husband's death. She thought he was clean but it was normal for her to give him drugs to help sleep. Also why she was in Colorado for a week doing acid while her kids were with stuck with an addict. I'm sure her trauma and addiction contributes to her poor decision making but man.... that's 5 more stories that could end up on this channel for her 1. So sad I'm hoping the best for those kids I hope they're okay.
It is hard to hear or believe when their story doesn’t add up. Why? Why do women have kids? She had five! When her childhood was not good? It’s generational trauma. Her kids will suffer as she did. Her kid’s kids will suffer. Residentially challenged? Homeless Boost? That’s stealing. Fentanyl user? Not a book writer. But. I hope she reaches her goals. Good Luck 🍀
@Cassandra Renee XOXO it’s not that we are perfect and Michelle isn’t it’s a realistic truth that her kids will without a doubt have trials and tribulations in their life UNLESS they break the cycle which I pray they do!
@@christinebuckingham8369 sad to say. And yes my jidgememt was wring, it takes more than addiction for your soul too leave. Her soul is caged and afraid.
the most horrific life story i have heard and the most strongest human i have heard speak. with all the trauma's and abuse and addiction and even death and brain damage - she is still extremely intelligent and well spoken. so brave and honest. this woman is a good person. I hope that she writes that book and she finds a way to sell it and she finds her way out of addiction. make her money , live the rest of her life helping other girls who are young and traumatized . she would be amazing at that.
Thank you Michelle for your transparency to all of us. Your taking a huge step to knew beginnings by talking about the pain. Find a good counselor, someone who you can begin to trust. Ignore the cruel inhumane comments about you in this comment section. They put others down in order to feel temporarily good from their own misery. Best of Luck to you. Take baby steps 😉💗
This woman is a warrior. She may not know it but her courage and resilience to get up,each day is unbelievable. I cannot begin to relay how important it is for,her to be recognized. I am a psychotherapist living Canada. Whoever is closer to Michelle and can reach out…please do.
This channel really makes you put things into perspective and grateful for all the good things I have in my life. And how lucky a lot of us are to have a good childhood. Because your childhood affects the rest of your life tremendously!!!!
Blown away by this ladies story but also her recollection of events and rationalisation of life changing trauma. I hope she gets all the help she deserves and more
Her strenght amazes me how any human can endure what she has and still be pleasant and compassionate it beyond me what a lovely lady i pray the rest of her life gets so much better
i'm on methadone and stopped taking xzans and done 10 months ago. the combo almost killed me as well! that was the hardest thing I have ever F with! you are amazingly strong for all you have been through! you must be invinsable, so quit trying to kill your self its not possible! if you take just half of that strength you are capable of anything!!! good luck out there i'm routing for you!
Just for the clarification record, being on Suboxone/Methadone/ETC. is not clean. It just means that the government is now your drug dealer! Addiction being a disease is a theory. Those who can not control their use are just weak minded, unable to take the bad with the good!! Whoop Whoop!!!
@@ProphetJayWyatt You are very wrong in my opinion. I was addicted to pain pills after surgeries. About 13 years addicted. I would go through a script of 90 pills in just a few days. I have been clean since 1/16/2019. At first I went 16 days with nothing. Then I got suboxone. It don't touch my pain but it stops the withdrawal symptoms. Even with me taking suboxone when I have to go to the ER (I have Crohns disease) they always insist I take a pain shot. I have to repeatedly tell them I am a recovering addict. They still try pushing it. You say the government is the dealer for folks on suboxone, methadone, ect. Who do you think was the dealer with the other pain meds? I got mine legally and bought others. It was the doctors not informing me how addicted they can be. After just a couple scripts your physical body becomes addicted. Let alone the mental. The doctors were always the dealers.
I feel sorry for her genuinely I do. I really hope she finds the light to come out of that darkness she didn’t ask for. I can tell she’s so tired in so many ways.
I don’t always watch the videos but this one really drew me in. Michelle, you are a strong, intelligent and resilient woman who deserves to have a good life. Please take care of yourself so that you can move forward. LA is a place where you can choose to live and not die. Please write the book….
This was a really tough one. She suffers so much, and seriously has a death wish. She's one of those that feels like, "if it kills me, it kills me; I don't care." I heard a man on here (also addicted to fentanyl) say that before. Very sad.. Too many people just don't understand the intense importance of parenthood!
She seems like a really kind person. Praying for her. She and I are a year apart.. I’ll be 41 in December. I really hope she gets the help she so very much deserves.
Michelle...write your book....I have lost 4 kids ( a pregnancy, 2 babies abducted and my youngest son died suddenly in 2015 at 33 from his addiction) I didn't know how to write a book but I did because it was closure for me because not one person cared that I was suffering...we suffer in silence. It took me 30 years to finally write my book...no one cares about that either but it was for me and not them and for anyone else who has suffered loss. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!! I have hurt that much in my life too...you have a story which you have share here and WE care!!!!!!! YOU are important...YOU know how much you love your children no one can take that away from you. Just find someone to talk to perhaps at a local church. Just know , even though you don't feel like it, you have a lot of worth. You have touched a lot of people just sharing your story with us. Thank You! ((((big hug)))))
She reminds me of my mom. My mom has always hinted to a similar story of abuse with her dad. Unfortunately due to an overdose my mom is in a nursing home now with brain damage. I wish I knew her story.
So is it wrong to go away and leave your kids with the other parent or grandparents. I’m sure she didn’t think her kids would be abused. Ppl can go away there’s nothing wrong with that and who cares if she was doing acid she wasn’t wTching her kids I doubt she’d leave them with an abuser as sometimes men are normal till the woman leave them with kids and they can’t deal and lose it.
Sending warmth your way Michelle. Having gone through similar traumas I know the night terrors consist, giving us the opportunity to process and rid all the toxic memories and treatments we have experienced. Also, I recognize those tired eyes (trying to stay awake, feel and live! - when living is so difficult). Sending prayers over you and your sweet babies.
I've watched a lot of these videos and this one may have broken my heart the most. I don't know what was going on in the foster dads head (PTSD?) but it's easy to see that if he didn't make the decision to commit suicide, this ladies life may have been completely different. It's so heartbreaking.
She never had a chance from the start, she tried to do the right thing after losing her only stable life, with her foster father. Becomes remarried and tries to provide for the family, then unfortunately she’s left in a situation where another’s actions (once again) hurt her and ruin her path. I feel for her, you can do it Michelle! I understand your pain and struggle ❤🙏
They should have relocated her. My god I can’t imagine what that would do to a child- being vilified in a small town. She’d already been thru hell and now everyone is verifying what she already believes about herself. Never had a chance
It's her way of trying to lessen the pain of the trauma her mother put her through. The thought process says a lot about her mental state; some kind of awareness, an attempted forgiveness, and her way of blocking out the pain. Unfortunately, because she hasn't really reconciled with her past trauma and dealt with it healthily, this thought process becomes a great 'excuse to use' generator. Guilt, shame, use, more guilt, more shame, more usage, and not only does it go on and on; it compounds. So very sad. An absolutely heartbreaking story of abuse, neglect, and abandonment. Sending her the hope of self love, the inner strength and will to start breaking that wheel and begin processing... Never too late, love.
Cmon parents, being a parent is such an important job. 99.9% of the people that are drug addicted have had such a traumatized childhood. So sad to see lives ruined because of selfishness. So many of the people on here are hurting to the point of self destruction. Thank you Mark for letting these people speak about their pain and hopefully walk away feeling not so alone. Hopefully this channel will help create a more compassionate society. Remember no matter what you have been through, each one of us are worthy of being happy! This channel is very humbling and a great reminder of how everyone makes a mark in this world. Love, respect and kindness could change someone's life❤
Michelle, it is a divine miracle that you have endured all that you have. I don't know you personally, but I love you, and I know that God loves you. Your life is valuable. I am so happy that you are alive. If you reach out to God, He will help you get clean and rise up to all that you were intended to be. Greatness is in you. Thank you for sharing your story and for opening up to us all. You're beautiful.
I'm a single mom of 4, recovering Opiate addict ,almost 3 years sober. I work a full-time job, I pay all my bills, I take all 4 of my children to school everyday & make sure they get home . I help with homework, as needed, I cook them dinner when I get home in the evening. When I left their Dad 3 years ago, I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but giving up wasn't an option. Our kids NEED us. The system is so screwed up. They're more to hurt, than to help, in many cases. Fight sweet lady, fight. You can get your life & kids back. I promise , you can do it!! Angels all around you waiting to guide you, reach out. ♥️
“kids are cruel but adults are worse” truer words have never been spoken. 😢
They both are worse
Kids aren’t accountable for their actions, they may as well be mirrors, reflecting/repeating what they see adults do. Adults are accountable, for every single thing we do.
Your comment is so true.
There are adults that should never be forgiven, and to make sure we never let them forget.
I’ve watched a lot of these videos and this may be one of the worst stories ever. She’s had so much loss and abandonment. It’s just so unfair!🤬😩
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This woman has lived one of the hardest stories I think I've ever seen on this channel. What kills me the most is she seems like a really genuine person that has just been given really bad cards.
Definitely. She is one of the most, if not the most, genuine person I’ve seen Mark interview. You can tell none of it’s made up or exaggerated.
Dude .. I've heard worse life on here
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I agree she really lived a tortured life … and was so violated by the people who were supposed to take care of her. She differently had to be strong to endure all these horrific horrors. I pray to God that one fine day she will be passed all this. This story really broke my heart!!! Stay strong and u will survive. God Speed!!!!!☪️✝️☦️💫🌟🥰✴️🥰Love from NJ
This woman is so intelligent and well-spoken. When she finishes her book, I want to read it.
I hope she doesn't finish it, she said her plans were to write the book then kill herself. As much as I would like to read it......
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@michelle2003 No judgment here, but the odds of her writing and completing a book while using Fentanyl are probably close to zero.
That drug consumes your life completely. Not to mention it’s like playing Russian Roulette. It kills people every day.
@@LooXLaB True. Sad though.
I too!
She has such an amazing memory, it hurts to see it filled with trauma. What a beautiful soul.
Yea, a great mother too! ...
I was molested also and feel the same way about relationships. I was a heroin and pill addict for 15 years but have been clean for 5 years. Recovery is possible. Sending love to anyone struggling❤️❤️
I was molested by a female at 10, and groomed by a male teacher who I believed I was in a relationship with as a teen. I threw myself into hobbies and education to deal with it all, and I kept to myself. I just kind of hate adults now, and I am one. I’m working on it.
My heart is broken for these guys
Congratulations on your sobriety! Sending you happy vibes❤️
My mom grew up being raped by her father and physically abused as well.
She was run off by her father at 18 when she didn’t come home the night before.
My mom didn’t come home because a man she knew from work raped her and wouldn’t let her leave.
That person is my father. She had no other option but to go to him because she had no where to go. They got married and still are today.
Talked about a fucked up childhood. My parents should have never married and had four children, but that’s life I suppose. The point of this story is that my mom was permanently damaged, but she never allowed any of things that happened to her to be done to us.
This is the first time I have shared this, but I feel like if any place is understanding to fucked up lives it’s this one.
The cycle of abuse can be broken. It just takes wanting more for your children and the children that come after.
Yes, we CAN break the cycle😊👍
Jesus fn christ....
We literally live amongst 1000s of monsters & pedofiles who walk by us and we wouldn't have the faintest of idea
How is your relationship with your father? Do you remember at what point you figured out that their relationship was started with an act of assault? --just FYI, I'm not prodding for sensational details, but your story is so similar to my own family dynamics... I guess I'm trying to understand my own history by understanding yours. If that makes any sense....
Sorry, but it takes more than 'wanting'. Most parents want better for their kids, it's hardwired into us. Sometimes we are simply unable to follow through. Mental illness and addiction are commonly the culprits. I'm happy for you that your mom was able to break the cycle but please don't dismiss this lady and others like her as weak or defective because she couldn't.
Break the cycle by not having kids
Michelle please don’t end your life when that book is finished! You are a strong soul that went through some terrible experiences and traumas. There is a lot the world and humankind can learn from you and this unfortunate tragedy. Praying for you on your road of healing ❤️🩹🙏
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Very well put ❤
But she may not feel like she owes the world anything. Just like they made her relive those sex tapes to help other girls -- but they don't seem to have done anything to help her. I'm not suggesting she kill herself. I'd just like to see her hang on to finally find peace in some way for herself.
She’s a real life Leaving Las Vegas
I’m late but still want to elevate this comment. 💙
I'm glad she got to experience unconditional love from a man, a parent, and an adult via her adoptive father. She deserved it. May he rest in peace.
Yup men can be great adoptive father's. We just need to have better screening and follow up.
She was able to experience how a parent can love and nurture unfortunately it was all taken away in a matter of this loving parent pulling the trigger and leaving her to find him and to again be all alone in her continued trauma. So sad , I truly feel sad right now while I listened to everything she had to say. Saddening and I’m sure Mark became choked up on this interview I know I did
Not sure it was unconditional since it was so selfish of him to kill himself.
@@norahsmith3320 Although suicide is highly selfish, it is also irrational & at times delusional, thinking stemming from deep rooted pain, depression/anxiety, complex PTSD, fear, guilt/shame. The majority of suicidal people feel so much encompassing intense mental, emotional, & for some physical pain, that they feel ending their life would benefit the ones they love/others instead of hinder and continue to cause pain in their lives as well. I now have 6yrs clean/sober, though have been suicidal many times during my 20yrs of hardcore addiction, & even as a child who was being sexually abused by my own father, ignored, not seen/heard by my absent mother. Believe me, I was born extremely empathic (indigo) & always have very strong, unconditional love for so many others, especially family, & the LAST thing I would want to do is cause any of them any pain/ suffering. But when your suicidal, you honestly think their lives would be better without you. So to say not sure if his love for her was unconditional because he was so full of pain that he just could not continue to face life, is not cool & not fair. I have known quite a few people who are very dear to me that took their own life, & like me they had so much love for others, but just could not love themselves. I am still a work in progress, but getting there. So please have compassion & empathy for others, especially since this could easily be you & God is the ONLY ONE Who has a right to judge.
@@norahsmith3320 There’s a line that separates life, from a good enough reason to die. And it might be selfish to assume you know where that line is for another person. They’re not all well and justified, but you can’t know their agony, and many of them weigh the cost of family’s reaction of pain to their death, and obviously decide their own pain is worse than the pain their family will experience in their death.
I found this to be the saddest one of these I've seen. Her eyes say everything. Love to you, Michelle.
There isn’t an addict out there who hasn’t suffered trauma…addiction is a symptom of an underlying MH issue
Yes. 🙏
Exactly that x❤👍🙏
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Just for the clarification record, being on Suboxone/Methadone/ETC. is not clean. It just means that the government is now your drug dealer! Addiction being a disease is a theory. Those who can not control their use are just weak minded, unable to take the bad with the good!! Whoop Whoop!!!
@@ProphetJayWyatt wow ooookkkk then
I’ve watched 2/3 of all of Marks videos and this video is BY FAR THE WORST childhood TRAUMA !!! I will be saying prayers for this woman for a long time. Please bless her with your prayers too!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Nobody is addicted to drugs for no reason.Everyone has experienced great pain in their own way and tries to suppress the pain with drugs.I was heavily dependent on myself for 15 years and have been in the methadone program for 27 years.Love from germany
@Josey I will probably take this to the end.My liver values are increased.The kidneys are ok.I'm afraid of relapsing again, even after so many years.
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I completely agree you. This is the only interview that has fully captured me & my heart aches for this girl. Psychologically, she is still a young girl, as the trauma in her childhood started young & has never really ended. I’m so upset & surprised that none of her teachers or even a social worker reached out to her &, ‘took her under her wing.’ Having a positive relationship &/or role model with one of her female teachers, etc, could have made the difference in the direction her life took. I am absolutely heartbroken for this girl.
This one along with this interview from this young man named Ckairo. Breaks my heart
@Josey Methadone doesn’t & can’t, ‘get you high,’ which is the reason it is used to help people ween off of opioids. It binds to the Opioid-Receptors the way that other opioids do, which helps to prevent severe withdrawal, however, it does not bind to the receptors that make us feel, ‘high.’ However, methadone should not be taken continuously, as is mentioned above. It is meant to be a stop-gap between other Opioids, to slowly wean people off of the drugs they they previously abused. Most Heroin Addicts say that they no longer really use to get high, but instead, to prevent them from, ‘getting sick,’ (severe withdrawal symptoms).
The number of us addicted due to self medicating the pain of extreme trauma is mind shattering. And right now it's to the point where Mark just mentioned the # of interviewe's who are abuse survivors. It's horrible. I wish this on no one
Please. If you read this and you urges to sexually hurt someone in any way then please seek help, seek therapy, medication, just resist the urge to destroy another child's life because it ruins there whole life.
And to those who have been abused I urge you to come forward, seek justice to the fullest extent, confide in family and friends, you are not the sick one, the person that hurt you is. All my love to you.
Thoughtful post. Thankyou.
Amen brother. God bless you.
I suffered sexual abuse
Amen
Thank you
Maybe part of the problem is that we don’t crucify the perpetrators. They always go free or have very light sentences. That shows these women and girls exactly how little we value them.
I agree. We need HARSH penalties..but it doubt very little will change since most court ruling is male dominated.. well almost eveythng is male dominated actually
And young boys! If the system can put a dog down for attacking a child than why not with pedophiles? Speaks volumes about our politicians
THATS A FACT .. IF YOUR SURE ABOUT SOMEONE DOING THAT DIRT ESPECIALLY ON LITTLE KIDS .. THEN YOU GOTTA MAKE EM ................GOOD... PERIOD!
@@alexagg7640 AMEN TO THAT COMMENT!!!
FACTS.
With that upbringing I'd be doing drugs too..She has really had it rough.I hope her life turns around for the better and she can find some kind of peace..bless her heart..my goodness..I feel so bad for her...🙏🙏♥️
I’m a little over 4 minutes and her story is already extremely sad. Sending hugs her way.
7 over here
It’s heartbreaking 💔
What a shame that marine who adopted her killed himself.
You can see her smiling for the first time at that point.
He sounded like an absolutely wonderful man. I wonder if he had trauma from war?
The poor woman having to experience that as a little girl though
I am so sorry this happened to you. Sexual abuse leaves horrible scars. I don’t understand how prevalent it is and how people turn a blind eye.
I was raped when I was 7 from my moms boyfriend after that I got taken from CP's and my mom came to a visit me with a marrigare certificate sing I don't believe you I don't believe you I wouldn't do this so anyway what I did she explained was she got married to him to prove to me how much you loved him regardless if he raped me or not she said but she said she didn't believe me
The childhood this poor woman had to endure just breaks my heart. How can people be so cruel to a child?
Everyone who turns to things like fentanyl is hurting so deeply, and also feels so deeply. I hope she’s okay.
I don't know what devils her DAD (adoptive but I say real DAD) was fighting but I wished he stayed to continue give her the best life. It seems that's the only piece of happiness she had in her life 💛
Damn. I hope everything starts to turn around for her. You can tell she has a good heart. She really could write a book. Stay strong 🙏🏻👍🏻👊🏻✌🏻
@Josey Says the TROLL with a fake month old account - please just stop. She is very well spoken and coherent despite suffering great trauma her entire life. Show some decency and compassion if you are even capable of it.
@Josey you didn’t even watch the video did you? Please stop being a dick this woman is amazing so what she is homeless and an addict she has gone through so much
I second that hope and prayer
I agree with Brad Pearson, this beautiful woman could and should write a book. It could be very healing for her. On the flip side, It could also open old wounds. If she came across these comments and thought that she might be interested in writing a book, I suspect that SHE would know whether or not writing about her life would be a blessing or not. I don't know what some "troll " wrote, that was deleted, but I think it is really shameful and disgusting that someone would say something so foul/offense it had to be deleted. Shame on that person, people should have compassion and understand that no one is immune to struggles. Karma is a very real thing...
DILAUDED- very addictive; not her fault!!
This is the realest person you have had on this show
I was thinking that to a very high degree and respectfully. Her face bleeds all her emotions.
Yeah unless you’re smart enough to catch some of her lies
Oh my God. This woman is delusional and lies throughout the interview. Don't be fooled by her lies.
@@joolzg1936 how so ?
@@joolzg1936 I do see these comments... but they're consistently without any citation. Just a few quotes or time stamps would be really helpful for discussion and transparency. Would you mind clarifying a bit?
The amount of pain and suffering this woman has endured..
Lord please send this woman something good, that she can keep.
Michelle, go to Teen Challenge (not only for teenagers). It's a free rehab; one year program. Get clean and sober. Get a job. Save some money. Move back to Indiana. Get a job. Get set up. Get your kids back or at least visitation. Use this video to get people to help you. You can do it! I've personally met many people like you who did. I will pray for you. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. Your kids need you. They are more important than your book. It can wait. At Teen Challenge you will meet plenty of people who are former junkies who are now sober and thriving. You were made on purpose for a purpose! You are such a beautiful person. Your story is so moving. Hang in there. I know you can do it!
Kids don’t know to make up that kind of abuse in second grade. I’m glad her teacher believed her❤️I feel so sad for children that live that life. This girl lost the one person that she trusted. I hope you find love and peace, you so deserve it😩
Her story runs parallel with mine. Please keep your head up Michelle!
Hugs. Nobody deserves to suffer at the hands of family or loved ones.
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💔 ((hugs))
Much Love and Respect to you
Same to you..you're gonna get there...I've been in her shoes and it's hell on earth. But glad to say I just retired as a hospice nurse.
We’re 8 months apart in age, I have 4 kids. I got sober in 2003 , I have 18 years in recovery. You can change your life too. Go to rehab, that’s what I did.
I did rehab and halfway house for 6months. Along with changing my environment when I got out, it worked 💪
@@KimbradleyMasterGardener Amazing! Very proud of you. It can be done!
I have so many questions: 1. Why are humans so terrible to each other? 2. How can a parent torture and hurt their own children? 3. Why why why is sexual abuse so prevalent? 4. Is SA more prevalent in religious conservative areas due to repression? 5. Michelle is so smart and articulate. How different her life could have been. What would her life looked like with a different set of parents? 6. How her children must grieve for her. 7. The number of overdoses: how her brain chemistry must be effected. Can her brain get better? 8. How abuse ends up creating more abuse and drug problems. How to tackle these issues? 9. I can go on and on. ….
Michelle, thank you for sharing your story. Mark, thank you for allowing her to share it and the dignity that you offer everyone.
As far as SA goes, look up Anneke Lucus. It definitely isnt just religious conservatives unfortunately.
@Josey She is capable, of course. And she probably has imbelished her story in different ways, as we all do. But after listening (and watching), I feel that the core of her story is true.
@Josey boo
@Josey if you look at life like this you’ll never get anywhere. watch the fucking video and let them tell their story. what do you gain when you’re questioning that she isn’t genuine ? does it make you feel better or something?
Sexual abuse is prevalent in liberal areas as well. Let's not forget that too!
As an RN for 25 years I don't understand the amount of pain meds she was on for the car accident! No doubt she had pain but she was getting what oncology patients would get. This was the era of over prescribing where pharma got rich and America got addicted. Inexperienced physicians in small town America was bought and sold and no one questioned what was essentially small amounts of synthetic heroin. Rats in research would kill anything in their way to get more. I wanted to quit as a nurse in the 2010 era when I saw how people were addicted so fast, I medicated my patients with so much Oxycontin and Oxy ER I knew it was no good. I also knew during the era of cutting people off it was going to cause people to go to street drugs as a replacement and that's how we got here. And now Fentanyl used for the dying is all over the streets! This is China trying to kill us, we need to do everything we can to get Americans up off their knees if we want to survive.
This is the realist comment I e ever read on here. Speak your truth 🤝
I don't blame her for taking fentanyl.
Me either:*( poor soul
Hollywood doesnt have the guts to make a movie of this kind of horror perpetrated on children by twisted evil people. Thank you for shining a light on these peoples stories.
Probably because Hollywood is guilty of some of the most sadistic abuse against children and women
"Hollywood" may not but plenty of documentaries that go way deeper than this short video.
What Mark does is not new! His format is unique and yes attractive.
Nothing new to Hollywood
What do you mean? Why would someone want to watch a movie about a child being sexually abused? I would never watch something like that so I can’t point you to one, but there are many movies exploring addiction, abuse, and pain if you search even a little bit.
Isn't that because half the producers are sexual predators. Lol.
These stories are the reason why I try so hard to love and support my children. It seems to always start with these people being unloved, I wonder how different their life would have been if their parents cared more.
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... It's like you're saying you don't want your kids to wind up like her. Kind of insulting.
@@brunettezprettyr4296 that's exactly what I'm saying yes.
May God bless her and put her on the right track and may she bless her with her kids back
She has to want it tho.
It was never your fault, Michele. Bless you sweetheart.
This is why people shouldn't judge addicts. You never know what they went through or the reasons that likely lead to their situation.
Ummm how about you never judge anyone? We’re all going through something. Jesus. And honestly you should judge any adult for their actions and choices because no matter what happens to you, your choices are yours and only yours.
@@maverickbull1909 I agree. I'm in recovery from her0in and m3th ...which is why I said people shouldn't judge addicts because I know how it feels. There's a stigma whenever it comes to addiction & often understood which I guess is why people so easily judge. But I agree. We're all able to make our own decisions in life and nobody should judge anyone. We're all just trying to survive.
It depends on what you mean by "judge". Everyone judges everyone within 2 seconds of meeting them in some manner or another. You will judge my comment without a second thought. I don't care the reason someone uses drugs. They shouldn't be.
Thank you. I raised my kids telling them that homeless guy is there cuz events and circumstance, addiction builds with pain, pain persists cuz addiction. We act different roles in different periods of our lives so you can’t stigmatize a person, in one day things can turn, opportunity, perception, support, encouragement. In years this person who is lost could rise back, and that other person who think they’re superior could also collapse. Those who look at damaged people with judgement wouldn’t last half a day with the bagage they carry, the scars, the isolation. They wouldn’t even be able to be thankful for little things like struggling people are. Fresh laundry, strawberries in the winter, the sun on your cheeks.
@User 1307 💯 I love how you worded this. So accurate. It's a shame we all cannot think with an open mind and with compassion instead of judgement and hate if it's not within their standards.
Omg I want to give this woman a huge hug so bad!! Her parents and the system failed her!! The trauma is very obvious. I really hope she gets all the help she deserves 🥺
This was really hard to watch, I'm speechless.
I feel like we always know when they're gonna have a complex story to tell. Which usually means a sad upbringing and life in general. It's absolutely heartbreaking and I haven't watched this video yet. Thank you for taking time to let them all vent, to care for them when noone else does or they feel noone does! They absolutely need to let these things out, it helps get passed them!!
Ofcourse. All of them have fabricated or blown up their stories to push away their responsibilities and keep on doing their drugs and bad ways. You NEVER hear them blame themselves for anything.
@@Melinmingle Melvin Melvin Melvin……….
@@leeleemee yeah lets believe everything and feel bad
@@tiggybud8474 say what u want you cannot prove im wrong
@@Melinmingle Check out "Fentanyl Addict Interview - Josh". He's someone who genuinely aims the criticism at himself. And I've seen several of the interviews where the interviewee makes a fair effort to take personal responsibility.
This channel shakes me psychologically, and really makes me think to find new equilibrium. And I'll admit: I have thought along the lines of your comment alot. "These people are losers" "These people could just take responsibility (listen to some Jordan Peterson and Jocko Willink lol) and change their lives. But they choose not to so they're pathetic".
But the more I listen to these, and reflect on my own upbringing (in Pine Bluff, Arkansas). I would be absolutely fucked if I had been molested, or handed a meth pipe, or if any number of situations had gone differently. I DO believe in character, and personal responsibility.. deeply. But people, like this woman, have been dealt a rough fucking hand. 'Makes it hard for me to judge her that thoroughly. I'll judge her surface, and I'll judge myself thoroughly.. but at the end of the day I can only wish her the best and keep it moving. Carrying disdain won't get us very far.
Please don’t kill yourself. I know things are tough. I get it. You can get through this. You’re MUCH stronger than you think, Michelle. I’m Praying for you.
I just want to hug her... she is broken but her soul is so bright. Im praying for you michelle you are beautiful.
This woman is the strongest person I have ever heard. I have no words to describe how her experience has affected me thank you so much for opening up your scares again helping so many more children and adults. I hope your book begins your recovery and relationships with your children you do have the ability to change their futures and yours. Love and light to heal your soul safe journey sweet girl. Blessed be
Early in i was thinking, 'this woman should write' and then she said she is writing a book. The stealing, selling, copping, consuming cycle might get in the way, but that would be amazing. Her story is hardcore - processing pain by producing something is much better than just covering it with drugs.
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Intelligent and well spoken.
Her story on why her kids was taken is most likely bullshyt. And they never said she can't get her kids back bcuz she's a woman and women can't do it without help. That's all bullshyt
@@JGriffin5150 Hmm you do have a point there. Put it this way. Many women have taken on that struggle with some degree of 'success', however some kind of family or paid support is needed. But yeah. I find it unlikely that CPS would have made such a blanket statement. On the whole though I find this lady more relatable, honest and genuine than many of the interviewees.
How will you know if anyone ever touches your kids? Your not there for them. Go to rehab for their sake so you can be there for them.
You do not know her pain and trauma. We are all doing the best we can. Offer support, not judgement.
It’s remarkable that she is still here, courageously sharing her story. I could not imagine the trauma this intelligent, well-spoken woman has been through. It’s heartbreaking that someone could steal a child’s happiness, so early in life.
This is one of a few people I noticed that got help from a teacher, either because they felt comfortable telling a teacher or a teacher noticed something off. I’m not sure what type of training teachers get for this but I believe we need a major focus on that.
yeah was a teacher too that helped me at school. my father beat me so bad as a girl 15 that my whole thigh was black and i had trouble walking. i was a quiet bookworm kid. he picked on me because hes crazy evil still is too. he knew i couldnt stand him so he beat sht out me for that fact. he got away with it though, the thigh being all black with bruising. i begged school to have social work take me away. no social work was called by 16 he tried to strangle me my father my judo training is what saved my life as i started to p ass out i managed to throw him off. i ran off was homeless
I'm absolutely affected and devastated by this lady's story. And outraged, of course. How easy it is for a couple of piss poor circumstances to lead to a horror story like Michelle's life. Could haver gone similarly for a lot of us. I wish the best for Michelle.
This is HEART-BREAKING!!! I wish I could enter that room, hug her, get her kids back and help her get her life together. I know she would fight for her 5 angels. Lord, help this woman :(((((( She is in so much pain.
Mothers who don’t believe their children are being SA should be tortured
The mom was a predator also- she 100% knew it was true
@@mosluggo1 😭
@@mosluggo1 EQUALLY AS GUILTY
I am one too. It took my voice away.
@Lori Joy Fine Art Channel she literally said her mom didn’t believe her.
What an incredibly strong and wise woman. She’s so right when she mentions it’s best to not dwell on our past. My heart goes out to her and I wish her some relief and happiness. That she changes her mind, and finds a new purpose that causes her to want to live after completing her book. She’s one of the most deserving souls there is.
I can relate to her more than I can explain. The childhood trauma, the CSA happened to me in my teens, the system taking my child… when my child was taken, I had already lost everything… my home, my ex husband who left me, everything. Then I lost my mind. I was hooked on all kinds of drugs off and on since the age of 13, I had stayed clean when I found out I was pregnant and for the first 2 years of his life. But losing my child was the last straw. They gave my son to his dad, who is still to this day a manipulative SOB. I became addicted to coke. I have 18 years clean off hard drugs, with 2 relapses, the last happening over 10 years ago. I decided to leave my hometown for the last time in 2016, and moved 2300 miles away for a better life because I was tired of fighting. I fought the system and my son’s dad for 11 years before I decided I had to go. I moved, built a life with my now amazing husband and I made sure I would have a safe place for my child to come when they were ready to know all of the truth. I couldn’t keep fighting with the system and having them flung around while his dad used him as a tool to manipulate me. I couldn’t keep doing it to my child or myself. My child is now 20. We have had a relationship since they were 17, and they now know all of the truth. As a matter of fact, they visited me for a year and now they are coming back to live in the state I am in, permanently. I say all this for this point: Life is hard af, it will kick the shit out of you, and if you don’t understand this woman’s story, consider yourself absolutely fucking lucky. We do recover. We do make it. I hope this woman is doing ok now. Her story hit me super hard.
I believe in my heart she is a genuinely good person, unlike some other people that mark features. I hope she finds peace in life
Definitely need an update, I truly care about this woman. The pain she has endured is unimaginable. Yet she is so strong... I hope she knows that.. it's never too late to give yourself the love other people made you doubt you're worthy of.. my heart goes out to you, the things you've been through don't make you any less of a person. I pray you find your way. Ending your life isn't the answer, you've got so much life in you. You deserve a life you don't have to run from, believe in yourself. Don't let evil win
This story really hit close to home 🥺 I pray she finds the strength to overcome her addictions. She is so full of potential.
I want to hug this woman so bad. This woman has so much pain and has been let down by everybody anybody.
Michelle, you’ve touched my heart. I’ve heard stories like yours, and it’s unfathomable. Releasing a hug into the air & sending it to go find you. ♥️
I didn’t expect to see a fellow Hoosier who is from a county next to the one I currently reside. It is a common story in some of these small towns. Michelle has a beautiful soul. It is obvious she speaks from the heart. Don’t give up Michelle. There are stories of redemption and reclaiming lost years with children. They still need you. You can turn this around and stop the cycle.
“Don’t dwell in the past or you can’t move forward into the future “ her words in this interview tell us how amazing her book will be I just hope she lives long enough to finish it ! Dear sister you and many others have been hurt so terribly it’s sad beyond words ! But somehow I hope you find healing and wholeness and love. And most of all I hope you are reunited with your children and they find healing with you !!! 🙏💜🙏
She has very soft and kind eyes. I hope she is able to get her life back together and finds a healthy way to help her heal from all the trauma she’s been through.
I do believe her story and feel awful I can't imagine. I do agree with comments I can't wrap my head around the 1st husband's death. She thought he was clean but it was normal for her to give him drugs to help sleep. Also why she was in Colorado for a week doing acid while her kids were with stuck with an addict. I'm sure her trauma and addiction contributes to her poor decision making but man.... that's 5 more stories that could end up on this channel for her 1. So sad I'm hoping the best for those kids I hope they're okay.
A better question would be if she really remembers how everything happened........I doubt it😒
U sound skeptical
It is hard to hear or believe when their story doesn’t add up. Why? Why do women have kids? She had five! When her childhood was not good? It’s generational trauma. Her kids will suffer as she did. Her kid’s kids will suffer.
Residentially challenged? Homeless Boost? That’s stealing. Fentanyl user? Not a book writer. But. I hope she reaches her goals. Good Luck 🍀
@@LooXLaB wow it’s great to know that you’re so PERFECT…..🙄
@Cassandra Renee XOXO it’s not that we are perfect and Michelle isn’t it’s a realistic truth that her kids will without a doubt have trials and tribulations in their life UNLESS they break the cycle which I pray they do!
Man.. hard life...these stories have me humbled... I'm a big fan Mark... Your the most original.. thank you sir
You can see it in her eyes that her soul has left her body long ago.
Her soul is still with her - her hope has left her heart and being long ago.
@@christinebuckingham8369 sad to say. And yes my jidgememt was wring, it takes more than addiction for your soul too leave. Her soul is caged and afraid.
the most horrific life story i have heard and the most strongest human i have heard speak. with all the trauma's and abuse and addiction and even death and brain damage - she is still extremely intelligent and well spoken. so brave and honest. this woman is a good person. I hope that she writes that book and she finds a way to sell it and she finds her way out of addiction. make her money , live the rest of her life helping other girls who are young and traumatized . she would be amazing at that.
Thank you Michelle for your transparency to all of us. Your taking a huge step to knew beginnings by talking about the pain. Find a good counselor, someone who you can begin to trust.
Ignore the cruel inhumane comments about you in this comment section. They put others down in order to feel temporarily good from their own misery.
Best of Luck to you. Take baby steps 😉💗
This woman is a warrior. She may not know it but her courage and resilience to get up,each day is unbelievable. I cannot begin to relay how important it is for,her to be recognized. I am a psychotherapist living Canada. Whoever is closer to Michelle and can reach out…please do.
This channel really makes you put things into perspective and grateful for all the good things I have in my life. And how lucky a lot of us are to have a good childhood. Because your childhood affects the rest of your life tremendously!!!!
Blown away by this ladies story but also her recollection of events and rationalisation of life changing trauma. I hope she gets all the help she deserves and more
Girl, I don't even know what to say. I wish I could give you a hug. I wish the best to you and your kids.
Her strenght amazes me how any human can endure what she has and still be pleasant and compassionate it beyond me what a lovely lady i pray the rest of her life gets so much better
i'm on methadone and stopped taking xzans and done 10 months ago. the combo almost killed me as well! that was the hardest thing I have ever F with! you are amazingly strong for all you have been through! you must be invinsable, so quit trying to kill your self its not possible! if you take just half of that strength you are capable of anything!!! good luck out there i'm routing for you!
Just for the clarification record, being on Suboxone/Methadone/ETC. is not clean. It just means that the government is now your drug dealer! Addiction being a disease is a theory. Those who can not control their use are just weak minded, unable to take the bad with the good!! Whoop Whoop!!!
@@ProphetJayWyatt You are very wrong in my opinion. I was addicted to pain pills after surgeries. About 13 years addicted. I would go through a script of 90 pills in just a few days. I have been clean since 1/16/2019. At first I went 16 days with nothing. Then I got suboxone. It don't touch my pain but it stops the withdrawal symptoms. Even with me taking suboxone when I have to go to the ER (I have Crohns disease) they always insist I take a pain shot. I have to repeatedly tell them I am a recovering addict. They still try pushing it.
You say the government is the dealer for folks on suboxone, methadone, ect. Who do you think was the dealer with the other pain meds? I got mine legally and bought others. It was the doctors not informing me how addicted they can be. After just a couple scripts your physical body becomes addicted. Let alone the mental. The doctors were always the dealers.
Hey Gram, I'm glad you're still around my friend.
I wish you well on your journey in life. 💜 😊
@@BabzV thanks babs, me to! Have a great day.
@@Gram72534 I was already having a really good day and you just added to that.
Thanks my friend, have a good one.
Love from the Netherlands. 💜
I feel sorry for her genuinely I do. I really hope she finds the light to come out of that darkness she didn’t ask for. I can tell she’s so tired in so many ways.
I don’t always watch the videos but this one really drew me in. Michelle, you are a strong, intelligent and resilient woman who deserves to have a good life. Please take care of yourself so that you can move forward. LA is a place where you can choose to live and not die. Please write the book….
Michelle, please write that book, you're such a good storyteller!
Exactly,they are stories,i call BS on a few things she said
This was a really tough one. She suffers so much, and seriously has a death wish. She's one of those that feels like, "if it kills me, it kills me; I don't care." I heard a man on here (also addicted to fentanyl) say that before. Very sad.. Too many people just don't understand the intense importance of parenthood!
Michelle don't give up. You deserve to have a beautiful life with a man who loves you and ur children in ur life. U can do it. Love u. X
Sending you all my love Michelle, you are a truly special human being
She seems like a really kind person. Praying for her. She and I are a year apart.. I’ll be 41 in December. I really hope she gets the help she so very much deserves.
She has a very sad demeanor yet she is soooo strong 💪 prayers that you find happiness and get to be with your kids someday soon.
Michelle...write your book....I have lost 4 kids ( a pregnancy, 2 babies abducted and my youngest son died suddenly in 2015 at 33 from his addiction) I didn't know how to write a book but I did because it was closure for me because not one person cared that I was suffering...we suffer in silence. It took me 30 years to finally write my book...no one cares about that either but it was for me and not them and for anyone else who has suffered loss. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!! I have hurt that much in my life too...you have a story which you have share here and WE care!!!!!!! YOU are important...YOU know how much you love your children no one can take that away from you. Just find someone to talk to perhaps at a local church. Just know , even though you don't feel like it, you have a lot of worth. You have touched a lot of people just sharing your story with us. Thank You! ((((big hug)))))
I’m so sorry this happened to you Michelle. You are so smart and strong.
Tight hugs to her.
Her life experiences are so heartbreaking. 💔
Such a gentle sweet woman. Hope she finds somebody to take care of her
She reminds me of my mom. My mom has always hinted to a similar story of abuse with her dad. Unfortunately due to an overdose my mom is in a nursing home now with brain damage. I wish I knew her story.
Sorry about your mom🥺❤️🙏
Man.. I feel so sorry for this woman… God bless you . I hope one day you can find happiness and peace
I can relate to alot of what this lady has shared.im in tears,and I'll continue to pray for her.what a sweetheart
5 kids at home and where was she ? In Colorado for two weeks doing acid . Spare me your sympathy
So is it wrong to go away and leave your kids with the other parent or grandparents. I’m sure she didn’t think her kids would be abused. Ppl can go away there’s nothing wrong with that and who cares if she was doing acid she wasn’t wTching her kids I doubt she’d leave them with an abuser as sometimes men are normal till the woman leave them with kids and they can’t deal and lose it.
She’s my age. I enjoyed waiting tables too. I send her so so much love. I want to give her a big hug!
Sending warmth your way Michelle. Having gone through similar traumas I know the night terrors consist, giving us the opportunity to process and rid all the toxic memories and treatments we have experienced. Also, I recognize those tired eyes (trying to stay awake, feel and live! - when living is so difficult). Sending prayers over you and your sweet babies.
I've watched a lot of these videos and this one may have broken my heart the most. I don't know what was going on in the foster dads head (PTSD?) but it's easy to see that if he didn't make the decision to commit suicide, this ladies life may have been completely different. It's so heartbreaking.
She never had a chance from the start, she tried to do the right thing after losing her only stable life, with her foster father. Becomes remarried and tries to provide for the family, then unfortunately she’s left in a situation where another’s actions (once again) hurt her and ruin her path. I feel for her, you can do it Michelle! I understand your pain and struggle ❤🙏
Such a wonderful, smart woman put through hell with horrible parents. I wish her the best. Please do an update on her if possible.
Amazing interview. This woman has been through so much. I am speechless. Breaks my heart hearing her story. I am praying for her and her sister. 💖💖
They should have relocated her. My god I can’t imagine what that would do to a child- being vilified in a small town. She’d already been thru hell and now everyone is verifying what she already believes about herself. Never had a chance
Michelle: My Mom was a 💩y Mom but a good friend.
Me: No, Michelle. You had a 💩y Mom, period. You don’t have to make excuses for her bad behavior.
Hard to do when you make the same mistakes your mother did and lose your children.
She must look inward.
She said it about her father, too. Shes just too loving
Mom was probably abused too, arrested development......psychologically the same age as her troubled daughter.
It's her way of trying to lessen the pain of the trauma her mother put her through. The thought process says a lot about her mental state; some kind of awareness, an attempted forgiveness, and her way of blocking out the pain.
Unfortunately, because she hasn't really reconciled with her past trauma and dealt with it healthily, this thought process becomes a great 'excuse to use' generator. Guilt, shame, use, more guilt, more shame, more usage, and not only does it go on and on; it compounds. So very sad. An absolutely heartbreaking story of abuse, neglect, and abandonment.
Sending her the hope of self love, the inner strength and will to start breaking that wheel and begin processing... Never too late, love.
I want to read your book Michelle. Please keep going. I’m praying for you.
Cmon parents, being a parent is such an important job. 99.9% of the people that are drug addicted have had such a traumatized childhood. So sad to see lives ruined because of selfishness. So many of the people on here are hurting to the point of self destruction. Thank you Mark for letting these people speak about their pain and hopefully walk away feeling not so alone. Hopefully this channel will help create a more compassionate society. Remember no matter what you have been through, each one of us are worthy of being happy! This channel is very humbling and a great reminder of how everyone makes a mark in this world. Love, respect and kindness could change someone's life❤
Michelle, it is a divine miracle that you have endured all that you have. I don't know you personally, but I love you, and I know that God loves you. Your life is valuable. I am so happy that you are alive. If you reach out to God, He will help you get clean and rise up to all that you were intended to be. Greatness is in you. Thank you for sharing your story and for opening up to us all. You're beautiful.
I feel compelled to help this woman n sooo many others
I'm a single mom of 4, recovering Opiate addict ,almost 3 years sober. I work a full-time job, I pay all my bills, I take all 4 of my children to school everyday & make sure they get home . I help with homework, as needed, I cook them dinner when I get home in the evening. When I left their Dad 3 years ago, I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but giving up wasn't an option. Our kids NEED us. The system is so screwed up. They're more to hurt, than to help, in many cases. Fight sweet lady, fight. You can get your life & kids back. I promise , you can do it!! Angels all around you waiting to guide you, reach out. ♥️
My heart goes out to you, Michelle
I’m gutted by Michelle’s childhood. This sweet young woman. Hoping she finds peace & loving arms.