my side of the story + how I'm healing so far

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  • @papachubby1951
    @papachubby1951 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I am 10 minutes into the video and I had to stop. My wife and I had a crash too. My wife was burnt over 50 percent of her body. She turned 30 in the burn center. We truly know what you are going through. We were lucky in that we did not lose each other. The debreeding, surgeries , and the scaring inside and out are all familiar to us. My heart breaks for your pain and the loss you have sustained. I would imagine that there is a support group at the burn center, please use it. I really don't know how to end this, so I am sending you a virtual hug from an old papa.

  • @thewolf3889
    @thewolf3889 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Just after high school I lost my fiancé the same way. I retired a few years ago and it feels like I lost her yesterday, the feeling doesn't change when you love someone as much as you both did. You and Spencer had something most people could never dream of, and because of that he will always live through you. Best luck always. Dust Buggy #1

  • @MillerTimeMotorSports
    @MillerTimeMotorSports ปีที่แล้ว +21

    We all miss Spencer
    I'll keep you in my prayers

  • @ChadsGarage1
    @ChadsGarage1 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    It really sucks what you've been through and are continuing to go through. Probably the hardest thing you'll ever go through in life. It will get better. Hard to see right now but it will get better. Keep your head up.

  • @rickgeorge4150
    @rickgeorge4150 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    We love you girl..so sorry this happened.

    • @sunilr3368
      @sunilr3368 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      ❤❤❤❤❤ I ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😊😊😊

    • @rickgeorge4150
      @rickgeorge4150 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thanks for liking my comment.her and Spencer are the reason I own a baja bug.shes in my prayers

  • @Mikefngarage
    @Mikefngarage ปีที่แล้ว +14

    So sorry for the loss of Spencer. He and you have been missed for several months. I am used to seeing you guys at about every event and your enthusiasm about the Baja world. In the back of my mind I figured you were just having fun doing other stuff. So sorry to hear about this. somehow fortunately you survived. (although at times I bet you feel so unfortunate). When you told the story I could just see the look on Spencer's face....Determined as he was to save your lives.....But it was out of his hands. The other drivers carelessness was something he could not control. Thank you so much for making this video. I know it must have been one of the hardest things to do, But talking about it helps your mind to process......Burying it is much worse.....Hope to see you soon....and never give up on yourself or your dreams. As much as it hurts it is so important to push on and live... You were Spared and you are important for some reason even though it might not feel like it. You will find happiness again. Keep your head up and take every day one at a time.

  • @karlspecht7491
    @karlspecht7491 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I've never met you but I watched your videos. As a fellow lover of VWs I'm so sorry about Spencer. It truly broke my heart when I heard. Stay strong.

  • @thecandidframe
    @thecandidframe ปีที่แล้ว +5

    You continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing your difficult and challenging journey.

  • @jeffsousa399
    @jeffsousa399 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    God Bless, the VW community is with you, and get well soon! RIP Spencer..

  • @vertigoone-gb9tg
    @vertigoone-gb9tg ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have a 72 Super beetle that is a Baja I picked up last winter. That's how I found the dust buggy channel and came upon your adventures . I enjoyed your work and I am very , very sorry for your loss. You are a special person. You have been through so much. I truly hope that you will be able find joy again and share more bug videos with us. Super beetles are apparently not ideal for converting into Bajas but you and Spence did it. You vids help me to understand what I need to do to make mine better 😅

  • @OtownGunner
    @OtownGunner ปีที่แล้ว +2

    It took me 3 attempts off an on to finish this video, I wanted to make sure I could commit my attention to it when I was watching it. My heart truly aches for you. I subbed to you guys when I got my 70 bug and I loved the content you guys made, it really made getting into the bug scene fun and organic.
    Spencer was truly a hero for doing everything in his power to try and keep you guys safe in such an awful event. I realize I'm a stranger and words are a fk all when it comes to comforting someone, but you need to know that just carrying on like you have shows more strength than the vast majority of people out there. I don't even know if I would have the strength if I had to go through that, my wife is my best friend and literally my other half. So for any opinionated ass hat that pushes you to move on they can go pound sand.
    You just keep on focusing on yourself healing emotionally and physically on your time. Much love from AZ.

  • @colossalbigfoot256
    @colossalbigfoot256 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Spencer will live on with you and through you. Not watching the videos is something I went through when I lost a loved on. But watching them actually helped me to realize all the great times we had together. I think they could help. But only you know what you need to do. You both influenced a lot of us bug heads.. y’all even got me looking for a Super to make a Baja.. nobody does that. That’s how much we all care. Once your healed.. if you can continue on with this.. I think you will find something positive will come from it. You can never replace someone.. but you honor them the best you can. With you people can remember Spencer. I wish you the best and you can make it!

  • @thebinderbuilder
    @thebinderbuilder ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I'm definitely sorry to see you go through this struggle, but I know you're going to make it. God loves you, that's for sure. Hang in there! You are loved and cared for.

  • @digitalcamera3237
    @digitalcamera3237 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You look SOO much BETTER now!!! Obviously the mental healing will take longer.

  • @simonhumphreys3960
    @simonhumphreys3960 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Absolutely heartbreaking. Much love from the UK, stay strong. Do it for Spencer. X

  • @januaryonenineteenseventy4195
    @januaryonenineteenseventy4195 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    We are praying for you to one day gain back this lovely amazing person you were before this; please do not lose this part of yourself and know one day she will come back to you if you allow her to shine through again.

  • @Tanks-Link
    @Tanks-Link ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Hello, it’s John, I know we’ve chatted a few times I know sometimes it’s hard when people tell you it’ll be better give it time, you’re so strong, etc. etc. and they are right but as we both know, but until that day gets here, life is really fucked up and it sucks. I mean it’s five years for right now, I am just now starting to think my glass is half full and I’m starting to get back to doing the things I like to do. The best thing I did and unfortunately I waited a couple years before I finally excepted the fact that I needed to talk to somebody was talk to somebody professionally. Luckily, my insurance paid for it, but it really helped. Take care until next time, and try to keep busy because all that stinking thinking is a terrible thing. ❤❤

  • @rollotheviking6078
    @rollotheviking6078 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Time alone will heal this and the memories, talking about it for sure helps aswell. Stay strong, when you show up I’m sure I can speak for others in saying we will be here

  • @patar4568
    @patar4568 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Was very hard to watch, but its good you talked about it, helps with healing. Prayers for you to keep on healing and one day dusty bug video’s! 🙏🏻

  • @mkrp4
    @mkrp4 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    It takes a tragedy to recognize that you cannot take things for granted. Love and support!

  • @guncalinhosiqueira8547
    @guncalinhosiqueira8547 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm sorry for what happened, it was a significant loss for everyone who follows the channel, I wish you a lot of strength and wisdom to overcome this misfortune!

  • @friendlypiranha774
    @friendlypiranha774 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers and thoughts.
    RIP Spencer.
    Much love from Cape Town, South Africa.

  • @isaacparsons6486
    @isaacparsons6486 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m sorry that you’re having to go through all this and the courage to make a video and share it with all of us is out of this world your in my prayers and I hope you find some peace from all this

  • @dirtydogvideo
    @dirtydogvideo ปีที่แล้ว

    i just saw your video today. i wondered why i hadnt seen any new videos in a while. i am so sorry to hear about your accident and your recovery. thanks for posting. i hope you start to feel better soon and better days are heading your way.

  • @morrisgade873
    @morrisgade873 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sorry for your loss honey. 😢 hope you get well soon, mentally and physically! ❤

  • @TheBobberVlog
    @TheBobberVlog ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for sharing and reminding us how vulnerable we all are. Your strength is so inspiring. Stay strong and keep helping the world with your content!

  • @danielcrowley3184
    @danielcrowley3184 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    😢 I am so sorry. I thank you both for the fun and inspiring videos.

  • @darrylruple4564
    @darrylruple4564 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So sorry for your loss and the pain that you are enduring. I lost my first wife and it takes a lot of time to get get over the shock. I'm gonna pray for you and I hope that your family and friends are providing you with lot of love and friendship. I use to live in Santa Clarita and I know where the accident happened. I will remember Spencer whenever I'm there.

  • @user-vi3lx5mn9f
    @user-vi3lx5mn9f ปีที่แล้ว

    I am so sorry this happened to you. May you heal physically and emotionally ...

  • @joshhoman
    @joshhoman ปีที่แล้ว

    I wish you the very best. Do get better very quickly!

  • @brianelliott9101
    @brianelliott9101 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm so sorry for your loss I feel for you everyday. I hope you continue making videos on your progress. May your broken heart heal along with your body.

  • @thebugguy.8842
    @thebugguy.8842 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    We are sending you prayers. Hold in there.

  • @justinward2983
    @justinward2983 ปีที่แล้ว

    Stay strong girl.. you give us all hope 💚 I feel your pain & hopefully sharing will lighten the burden for u a little with all the love that we are sending u from around this planet. Spence is proud of u, you are here for a reason & my daughter & I have followed/watched all you’re adventures & look forward to watching more in the future, Love & light from Down Under (Australia) J & B

  • @timothydurham7579
    @timothydurham7579 ปีที่แล้ว

    so sorry that this happened to you and Spencer. I watched so many of your videos on utube while I was building my Baja. I loved your awesome attitude in these videos, made me laugh so many times. Stay strong, you have so many fans.
    Much love to you from Torrington, Connecticut

  • @rickteeters6329
    @rickteeters6329 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I pray for you and your family.

  • @anthonyconti9755
    @anthonyconti9755 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow, So heartbreaking, Ive been watching your videos since Im in the market for a baja. Been wanting one. And then this video came accross. Keep on keeping on girl. Prayers

  • @Svornskar
    @Svornskar ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sorry about my english it's still not perfect but all i wanted to say is that you are awesome person who inspired me a lot (i couldnt find or make any baja bug but at least found that sweet lifted Subaru BRAT whih is also cool buggy material) I wish you my best through this hard time for you. I'm really feeling bad about what happend. All i can tell you that you have to remain strong and positive as you were and wounds will slowly heal. You have to think about your future and leave past behind. Greetings from Poland. ;)

  • @mikeloki2064
    @mikeloki2064 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    You never get over the loss of someone you love. You learn to live with just their memories. I realize this all happened a few months before but I truly wish you well and a speedy healing of your body and heart.

  • @josephjohnson6128
    @josephjohnson6128 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am so sorry for you and your family I cried for the entire length of your video I've been fallowing you for years and just love your posts , please be strong and courageous and carry on. Life gives us challenges and we must carry on in memory of the ones we lost .

  • @zippythinginvention
    @zippythinginvention ปีที่แล้ว

    You reacted to my comment today and so I checked your channel... Oh, you sweet, wonderful, smart, strong and beautiful girl... That's the hardest thing I've watched, maybe ever. I'm soooo sorry you're going through this. Please, please focus on healing yourself. You're clearly a tremendously resilient person. Command yourself to heal. Do all of the things to stay healthy. Take special care of that skin. I wish I could do or say something to make you feel better. But, only time and your own mind can do that. I look forward to seeing you better. You'll get there. I know you can do it.

  • @gregorymendez2996
    @gregorymendez2996 ปีที่แล้ว

    We think about yall all the time! We loved meeting yall last summer. Lots of love in Texas for yall!

  • @MasterofBlackJack
    @MasterofBlackJack ปีที่แล้ว

    😢 only time can make it hurt less. Stay strong

  • @dougstrain1122
    @dougstrain1122 ปีที่แล้ว

    Heartbreaking, be strong if you can. Your best friend is in your heart. His memory will help when he can. Sending love.

  • @FitnessbyEvelyn
    @FitnessbyEvelyn ปีที่แล้ว

    God bless and prompt recovery. So sad to hear all this happened. May the One above give you the necessary strength to get you and the family through this difficult times. Spencer, Buggy on!

  • @monkeymachine62
    @monkeymachine62 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am so sorry for what has happened to you and spencer, I used to wait with baited breath for the next dust buggy adventure . Thank you for all your energy and videos ash , I do hope for you the Pain gets somewhat easier to cope with stay strong ...❤

  • @TRKJSR
    @TRKJSR ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m so sorry for what happened. My dad has been a fan of your channel for several years and just today found out what happened. He is very sad for the loss of Spencer and hopes for your continued healing.

  • @danboy3399
    @danboy3399 ปีที่แล้ว

    Broken hearted for you and Spence’s family. You are in our prayers. May God bless you and continue to heal you in body and heart.

  • @its2nv4u
    @its2nv4u ปีที่แล้ว

    I watched all the way to the ending in which to say i love ur hair style and yet u have a beautiful smile when you smile ur eyes lites up. To answer questions, yall didnt do anything wrong to anger God. Must understand if not now then later that everything happens to bring about something we dont understand at the current time but time does heal all things and one day you will see and understand why all this has happened. Ive lost several peep very close to me, n yet i still face things to where im in hospital for weeks cause tragic hits with my parents, ive asked same questions. But one day you will know why. Main thing is lean on people that is here for you. To gain strength. Its to plain to see that theres a strong n good reason why you were left here. Be strong. Let urself continue to heal, pets are a big plus. A cats purring held to ur chest heals, you can google it. N so will love from dogs. I wish i knew u in person, id be there every day to help out as a friend could be. Im here if u need a friend. Sendin prayers and know itll all be ok, thru it all, just one day at a time. Hugs from Candi Arnold 🤗

  • @2stroke103
    @2stroke103 ปีที่แล้ว

    I think about you often, you and Spencer. My heart is broken! Thank you for sharing God bless you

  • @CraigParrott
    @CraigParrott ปีที่แล้ว

    yea hope u tell your mom happy mothers day.and will pray for you and you fam.much love

    • @dustbuggy
      @dustbuggy  ปีที่แล้ว

      Just did a few minutes ago 🥰 thank you

  • @scottt1904
    @scottt1904 ปีที่แล้ว

    Since the first video of you saying what happened I’ve prayed everyday for you. You are a very brave and strong person. Just know you will always be in my prayers. I have so much respect for you for doing this video. ❤❤❤❤and bugs rule!!!

    • @philwillman3982
      @philwillman3982 ปีที่แล้ว

      So sorry to hear what you are going through.
      My brother and I built some Baja bugs in Fla. quite a few years ago we had a ball with those old units. They are a lot more fun when you work to make them better alot. That's what I really enjoyed about your Dust Buggy videos. We got to have the fun with you guys. Today was the first I heard of the accident.I am 74 and still love bugs and especially Bajas. I also love Jesus and lost my wonderful wife Jean on Christmas eve '21 to kidney failure after 52 years.
      I want to tell all of this so you know there is hope for you in God's plan. You've made it this far so please never give up.Just the fact that you survived is very important. Your parents are there for you and one day you will do a story of the legacy of you and Spencer and the Dust Buggy. Please be strong , as we all will be praying for you every day. I go to a group called Grief share and I think it keeps me from going crazy.
      Thank you for letting us all know what happened. We all Love you like a daughter and God Loves you More. Keep us informed. Phil Willman

  • @stargeyser1
    @stargeyser1 ปีที่แล้ว

    I got interested in Baja because I saw your videos. Seasons of life! Your brave you will get over it! Love conquers all!

  • @mtnduck3674
    @mtnduck3674 ปีที่แล้ว

    Raw. Real. Wicked strong. Questioning. Determined. Hurting. Amazingly inspiring...
    Ashlynn, it is so wonderful to see you smile again - regardless if it is in sarcasm or how fleeting it comes and goes. The important thing is that it was there. I saw it. Everyone saw it. For this reason or that, more smiles will come, and more behind those. Give it time. And no worries - we all have plenty of patience because you are worth it - to us, yes, but especially to your family. One day at a time...

  • @jamesweitkamp2118
    @jamesweitkamp2118 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi there I have been watching your channel for years and haven’t seen any updates on your progress on how you are doing And wanted to make sure your doing ok with what your going through 💐your a very strong person and I look forward to seeing you back in dust buggy 😊

  • @Therichzone
    @Therichzone ปีที่แล้ว +1

    My heart breaks for you. Prayers

  • @jodymorris1072
    @jodymorris1072 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hang in there 💖 you know your Friends and your family Love you..! Look to the Future and having more Adventurous Moments.. God Bless You!!

  • @craigparrott9355
    @craigparrott9355 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Much love

  • @Clintcellington
    @Clintcellington ปีที่แล้ว

    I am so so sorry for your loss. You guys had magic. We could all see that. I can't imagine life without my wife. I wish I could help somehow. This breaks my heart. ❤

  • @papachubby1951
    @papachubby1951 ปีที่แล้ว

    Just finished the video. 😢 Damn. Both my wife especially and I remember all of the surgeries. Skin grafts. The itching ( benadryl helps), the Jobes pressure garments, changing the bandages and the why me. If I had only did this or that. All the questions. Please go to the support group and when you can, fire up the dust buggy and be with the friends you and Spencer had together. Again hugs.

  • @abdulmuhayminsarosh5394
    @abdulmuhayminsarosh5394 ปีที่แล้ว

    Get well soon ❤️🇩🇪

  • @thebraintrain8942
    @thebraintrain8942 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I can't even imagine going through all of those medical procedures much less loosing my wife. You are so strong and I'm sorry this happened to you. It was good seeing you smile again. We love you your in our prayers.

  • @SteveBlack-kj3pm
    @SteveBlack-kj3pm ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Te apreciamos. Animo y Saludos

  • @REEPER_ONE
    @REEPER_ONE ปีที่แล้ว

    came to show my support and let you know you have been missed and are loved. I cant bring myself to watch the video.

  • @michaelcrosby6071
    @michaelcrosby6071 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hey kid, hope your doing ok. Lot to deal with . Spencer ❤ & Ash

  • @dfx2dfx250
    @dfx2dfx250 ปีที่แล้ว

    My heart breaks for you and Spence I never had the chance to meet you guys but I love you guys from your videos and it's hard to watch this video I can feel your pain. When I look at my baja I think of you guys I will miss you guys

  • @bajarunner1128
    @bajarunner1128 ปีที่แล้ว

    Heartbreaking and unbelievable. Try to dig deep if you can and live the life Spenser would have wanted you to live. Doing it for yourself may seem to tough, do it for Spenser and do it in his honor. Time heals, please keep looking up. Sending love and prayers. ❤🙏

  • @joshuahull3694
    @joshuahull3694 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m so sorry dust buggy. I could not watch all of the video. I drive up and down the 14 every day and always think about you and Spencer. Good speed dust buggy

  • @grandmaster1004
    @grandmaster1004 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m sorry this happened to you. It’s absolutely insane that you survived and have all your limbs, you’re walking and moving normally. I remember the early IG posts when you were in a wheel chair and couldn’t wear shoes. I get it though, the what’s the point, why am I here. Why anyone would ask if you’re "over it yet" is beyond me…how stupid can they be.

  • @michaelcrosby6071
    @michaelcrosby6071 ปีที่แล้ว

    Try to keep moving forward, baby steps. We need you.

  • @nobadvandays7711
    @nobadvandays7711 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    🙏🏽

  • @JamesBrown-hv1xu
    @JamesBrown-hv1xu ปีที่แล้ว

    🙏🙏🙏

  • @jaredf5828
    @jaredf5828 ปีที่แล้ว

    I don't know what to say, but just know that I am pulling for you.

  • @dclongoria1
    @dclongoria1 ปีที่แล้ว

    You can't for see the future it's part of God's plan. You make the most of it and you go on day by day. Live your life in what you like to do. Some day you will see Spence in the new world. Good luck and keep living your life...

  • @kokrket
    @kokrket ปีที่แล้ว

    I think Spence would want u back out in the desert!! Don’t let anything slow that down!!

  • @099las
    @099las ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi, hang in there. Greetings from Denmark.

  • @bigrodney1453
    @bigrodney1453 ปีที่แล้ว

    Always remember, even though it doesn't ease your immediate hurt and pain and isn't easy. ... Remember God's plan is WAY bigger than ours and WAYY BIGGER. Keep pushing and hang in there like Spence would want you to. Trust God.

  • @michaelcrosby6071
    @michaelcrosby6071 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hope your recovery is going good. You and Spencer are remembered at my church.

  • @johngibson9307
    @johngibson9307 ปีที่แล้ว

    😢😢

  • @wirehyperspace
    @wirehyperspace 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    5th element

  • @davemitchell6281
    @davemitchell6281 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I haven't seen all you locals in a while I watch now and then this just sucks I'm sorry.

  • @madmardigan246
    @madmardigan246 ปีที่แล้ว

    Godspeed girl...... Just breath .

  • @DaleJackson-lg2yy
    @DaleJackson-lg2yy ปีที่แล้ว

    Find anything to hold onto day by day ♥️ …
    I had a kidney transplant some time ago I can relate to some of what you were talking about 3 years of what seemed like torture dialysis.
    surgery’s I’d never do it again. I made a full recovery since but is there really such thing not really emotions and memories stay with us….. but this isn’t about me I just wanted you to know I heard your words and thoughts and that you are in many people’s thoughts and hopefully you can draw on that as a small part of healing ❤️‍🩹 took so much courage and inner strength to post your video if anything that shows how much of a fighter you are !

  • @bigrodney1453
    @bigrodney1453 ปีที่แล้ว

    🙏🙏🙏