Restless Heart: My Struggle with Life & Sexuality | Kim Zember
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- Join Kim Zember as she shares her testimony about struggling with same-sex attraction and the ways she wrestled with God and her heart, and ultimately the ways that restlessness gave way to the truth that He is enough.
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I have felt for over a year that the hurtful things people did to me was God’s anger with me for falling from Him for a woman. I’m now starting to realize that God is so kind and wonderful. This week I’m going to confession.
Now you get to fall from him for another man. Makes sense
He is indeed so kind, and wonderful and so much bigger than our mistakes. May you experience His goodness.
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I feel so identified to her and her story. And as she found, the answer for me was my personal encounter with Jesus as well. He is the answer ❤
he is king brother :)
This woman is literally saying my life. At 14 I had the same experience and then the craving started. Thank you Jesus for setting me free from bondage! The Holy Spirit, his power, can erase those cravings. Surrender and repent and ask and receive and god Will show up and change you. Not the other way around.
Amen
@@Northwesternforcefield28 Imagine someone who is well-respected, wife he loves, kids that are his pride and joy. Let's say he's talented, skilled and he has a career that pays well and that is rewarding. he could be self-employed. BUT, that man has a thorn in his side, and it's alcohol. I understand giving it up is going to be very difficult, but when he does, he finds all of his great life *minus* the problems brought about by alcohol. Now me. My mind has been a battlefield since my intra-uterine life, I've been plagued by thoughts of inferiority, inadequacy, with all the tag-alongs (anxiety, despair, shame, fear, fear of rejection etc.). If people you know knew me, and they were brutally honest, they'd say I'm unassertive, reserved, that I don't fit in etc. I didn't *live* life, I *did* life the way you do a prison sentence.
If I beg God to deliver me of my sin of choice, then I'm still a mess *but* without the comfort/solace/relief of the sin God ''delivered'' me from. If you could probe m yheart, here's what you'd find : God is prescient, he knew that I'd exist rathger than live, that my life would never work, that there'd be adversity left and right etc., and that I'd never *once* in the entirety of my life thank God, Christ, my parents for yanking me out of nonexistence for what I consider a generally mild gulag. Mind you, there've been times when I'd beg Christ to heal me integrally so I could live life to the fullest. Not much came of it. I would have walked on my knees for miles just so I could touch Christ's garment and *FORCE* him to heal me. I just didn't, and still don't, want to live life having been made cheaply and carelessly in my mother's womb. Sad to say, God is self-absorbed, supremely happy, whether I'm the happiest or the most miserable man alive doesn't matter to him. It's okay for him to be whatever he is, but it's not okay for the potter to make a clay pot *knowing* it'll be miserable. I'm hell-bound, but I'd never *dream* of letting my *dog* go through some of the emotional torture I've been through. My dog loves me more than God. God makes salvation extremely difficult/nearly impossible for some of us. Imagine if *at any point* God had relented and decided to radically bless me. Seafood, for example, isn't for everyone. Neither is God. Even though there may be a God-shaped hole. Just like someone can crave pasta, bread, pastries, yet have celiac disease. I think of God as the one who took me out of a place of peace and serenity for a very bad place *knowing* (prescience) that life would crush me very early on. It took God creating me for me to experience the bad side of life. If only I had the annihilation of my ****ing soul to look forward to when my sentence is done.
The second I realized Kim was talking I had to watch🥺🥺🥺 love this woman🥰
This is so so so good!!! God bless you Sister. Amazing message!
SO POWERFUL THIS IS AMAZING
GOD LOVES EVERYONE so encouraging
amazing wish everyone can listen to this......
The Catholic Church is the pillar and foundation of truth. The traditional teachings of the Church are Church Dogma, unchanging. They do not change with cultures, fads or certain leaders.
No scripture says " the Church " . The catholic thing is an interpretation. And a very bad one,as it did not exist until the 4th century 😊
Thank you so much for sharing 🙏🏽
Thank you so much for this
Nailed it Kim!
This is so good!
What a beautiful testimony, Jesus is king 💗💗
Needed this 🙌
Thank you 😢
I don't think that being a sexual being is necessarily a negative feeling. Saving your self for marriage and giving GOD his place. It is beautiful. And you shouldn't feel burden by sexuality. Being your spouse best friend is respectful. ❤🙏
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Everyone has a God sized hole inside them… if ya don’t fill it with God- ya find other disordered things to try to fill it with. Sex, food, drugs, drama, video games, gossip, shopping…. It’s all self centeredness instead of God centeredness.
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All roads lead back to cannibalism.
What are you talking about?
@@esmysyield2023Hi hi! Former Catholic and literary analysis nerd here. The consumption of Christ’s body is extremely important to /Catholics/ specifically. A human physically eating another human -> cannibalism.
Kim discusses homosexual desire as a “craving”. What do people crave? Food. Homosexual attraction is the desire to “consume” another. Cannibalism in literature is used as a metaphor for sexual desire for that reason. The act of consuming another person is corruption (homosexual sex). But the act of willingly giving your body selflessly is cleansing (the body of christ).
All roads lead back to cannibalism. The ultimate metaphor for the anguish, the heart break, and the nourishment of being in relationships. Beauty in the morbidity of it all :)
Well, as *disgusting* as the acting up would rightly be seen as, I do appreciate her candid honesty on her motives., and her own feedback is useful if nothing else.
You can be LGBT and Christian 👨❤️👨
@Gen Z Catholic Woman You're from the ministry of bringing the woman caught in adultery to jesus. The ministry of stone after the order of aaron. Not melchizedek. Jesus has already written a message in the sand for your church of the nicolations. Jesus said to do as you say but not as you do because you receive everything in Parable so you don't understand
That's an oximoron.
For example, The hallmark of the lgbtq+community is pride. And that's not Christian. With all due respect
@@no_prisoners6474 what's wrong with being your authentic self?
@@dansaber4427 who said there's anything wrong with it? As a straight woman, my authentic self doesn't start with my attraction to men. Lgbtq is no one's identity. It's a group.
Pride is anti Christ. How can a group that identifies itself by sexuality be Christian?