Coming here from Cody's podcast. This song really speaks so much. I'm a trans woman and I've really struggled with depression my whole life, and that bridge, the song, even the year are all so impactful. When I was a kid and people would ask me what I wanted to do with my life, or "where do you see yourself in ten years or as an adult" I'd always just come up with nothing, I never thought I'd live this long. Every day I was more miserable than the last. But as a kid I said that I would only be allowed to kill myself when I turn 25, or if something really bad happens. The condition was, if I'm not truly happy, or making steps to becoming happy by 25, then I'm finally allowed to die. Well, it's been 10 years since I said that to myself, and I only have a year left, but I am trying, I've tried so much, more than I thought I could, but sadly I'm really burning out, and I don't know if I have it in me. I want more than anything to be happy and content, but I'm just struggling, drowning even, and I'm desperate for some kind of relief, and I just keep failing over and over. But I'm still trying. Anyway, I really loved the song and I'll definitely be listening to more.
I relate I'm a trans man and if I didn't finish my transition I was planning on suicide but since I can't afford it and I am very depressed and dysphoric about it suicide can't leave my mind I hope you are still here keep being strong 🤗
I discovered Izzy at a Bear's Den concert in Vancouver last year, and have been obsessed. This song was the last one of the set and it was so moving!! So excited to see this song finally out so I can listen to it over and over again! Would love to be able to hear the acoustic version like that concert sometime :)
Don’t mind me listening to this for the 3rd time. I worked so hard to get here and some days I need to remind myself how I’m doing good. I am proud of myself.
@@zandrokosI grew up way too fast but even I can say, as I enter my 20s I feel so much pressure. I remind myself that no one else can take my passion and fire. Remember that next time it’s pushing you over the edge, I turn 20 in 2 days!
Thank you for this song Izzy, from this queer trans guy. I turn 35 in a week and still playing catch up on "where I should be in life" because I didn't think I would make it. I spent a lot of years just hanging on and trying to keep going, dealing with various setbacks. After getting my degrees a few years ago and making progression in my career, I feel I'm starting to finally get somewhere. I hope I can muster the courage to be more open about my story as you are, sooner than later. Hang in there all ❤ You've still got time.
I'm a trans teen and I never thought I'd make it past 10 and I just have no idea what to do now. I can't imagine what it will be like when I'm in my 20's, but I think I'll make it.
Joined the army after highschool hoping to die in some forgotten valley. Finally coming to terms that I’m trans. Recently turned 25. It feels good to hear a song that I can ACTUALLY relate to.
I'm 31, FTM and I had a serious crisis before my 30th birthday because I had promised myself I wouldn't force myself to go this far
I turn 25 this year. You have no idea how much this song spoke to me. Thank you
Brought me to tears ❤
Coming here from Cody's podcast.
This song really speaks so much. I'm a trans woman and I've really struggled with depression my whole life, and that bridge, the song, even the year are all so impactful.
When I was a kid and people would ask me what I wanted to do with my life, or "where do you see yourself in ten years or as an adult" I'd always just come up with nothing, I never thought I'd live this long. Every day I was more miserable than the last. But as a kid I said that I would only be allowed to kill myself when I turn 25, or if something really bad happens.
The condition was, if I'm not truly happy, or making steps to becoming happy by 25, then I'm finally allowed to die. Well, it's been 10 years since I said that to myself, and I only have a year left, but I am trying, I've tried so much, more than I thought I could, but sadly I'm really burning out, and I don't know if I have it in me. I want more than anything to be happy and content, but I'm just struggling, drowning even, and I'm desperate for some kind of relief, and I just keep failing over and over. But I'm still trying.
Anyway, I really loved the song and I'll definitely be listening to more.
I relate I'm a trans man and if I didn't finish my transition I was planning on suicide but since I can't afford it and I am very depressed and dysphoric about it suicide can't leave my mind I hope you are still here keep being strong 🤗
INSANELY UNDERRATED MAN I SEARCHED THIS ONE UP AFTER HEARING IT IN A TIKTOK
my therapist sent this to me saying I"D love it and damn I keep listening
This has me crying in the best way. I am a trans guy who's 23 and I also never thought I would make it this far.
Same! 😅🥹
turns out there is a bunch of us out there, we made it this far so might as well keep it up!
I'm glad you made it this far!
This video just came up on my homepage and now I am obsessed
heard this song about a year ago at a The Mountain Goats concert, so thrilled that it’s finally out!!
Me too! And same!
the way he rolls behind the map is so cute
I discovered Izzy at a Bear's Den concert in Vancouver last year, and have been obsessed. This song was the last one of the set and it was so moving!! So excited to see this song finally out so I can listen to it over and over again! Would love to be able to hear the acoustic version like that concert sometime :)
New Izzy music YAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!! 🩵🩵🩵
YES I remember this song from the Mountain Goats Show in Charleston last year and IT'S FINALLY ONLINE! Thank you Izzy!
❤❤❤
Fell this as an almost 18 year old trans kid in a country school. Thank you!!!
This hits so hard but in the best possible way - these are happy tears I promise
Just found your music, this is incredible and I love the story you're telling
HERE FOR MORE IZZY HELTAI ALWAYS
I’m bopping. I am turning 20 in just 2 weeks so this is bringing me joy
Don’t mind me listening to this for the 3rd time. I worked so hard to get here and some days I need to remind myself how I’m doing good. I am proud of myself.
20s is when you get to adult for real.
@@zandrokosI grew up way too fast but even I can say, as I enter my 20s I feel so much pressure. I remind myself that no one else can take my passion and fire. Remember that next time it’s pushing you over the edge, I turn 20 in 2 days!
@@themosscave1810 happy early birthday :) mine is coming up on november 7th.
listening to this banger again because I'm turning 25 next month and I am having a crisis 🥲
Love your song ❤
YAYYYYYY ITS HERE!!!!
Love it!
jam, as usual
Great tune!
Came across this just days after my 25th man! Keep making great music!
Great music, as always.
One of my favorite songs ever! 🤩🫶❤️
was that... italian in the middle of the song
i love it
Thank you for this song Izzy, from this queer trans guy.
I turn 35 in a week and still playing catch up on "where I should be in life" because I didn't think I would make it. I spent a lot of years just hanging on and trying to keep going, dealing with various setbacks. After getting my degrees a few years ago and making progression in my career, I feel I'm starting to finally get somewhere. I hope I can muster the courage to be more open about my story as you are, sooner than later.
Hang in there all ❤ You've still got time.
if you don't stay until the roll are you actually watching the video?
maybe it's just me 'cos I have it on loop
I'm a trans teen and I never thought I'd make it past 10 and I just have no idea what to do now.
I can't imagine what it will be like when I'm in my 20's, but I think I'll make it.
Another Hit! You have a beautiful face 💗
Ily
uhhh nice izzy. ur biggest friend from berlin (friend of kim
i meant fan, but we can also be friends if you like
Means the worldddd
Yes please :)
this is the most wholesome shit I've read on the internet, thanks guys
Yep absolutely balling in the best way trans music hits way too hard this is why we gotta protect trans kids
i heard this in a trans tiktok comp, and i had to search it immediately. this song is so good!!
Thank you brother !!! 🫂🫂🏳️⚧️
one trans man to another thank you for this song✅💯
you are just so fucking adorable in this video and i hate the word adorable
Joined the army after highschool hoping to die in some forgotten valley. Finally coming to terms that I’m trans. Recently turned 25. It feels good to hear a song that I can ACTUALLY relate to.
2:15 ...cos trans kids normally dont get this far
(the best verse :3, and if ur trans and reading this ur doing great kid we love u)