Pile 2. Crazy work. I signed up for therapy through my doctors because there are supports for children and grandchildren of ppl who were in residential schools in my province. I started getting better and I became someone who couldn’t stay in my family to continue to heal. There’s so much toxicity that I thought understanding could help me navigate but.. when it’s people that are supposed to love you unconditionally - it hits harder when you find out how little they actually think of you. Because getting better to them makes it seem like when I don’t want to argue, it’s because I feel better than them. The idea of not being abusive is a new one.. because it’s what they learned. When I broke free and went no contact I asked my other friends and ppl I knew for help financially when I was down and out and SO many ppl refused because “I was on drugs” It was devastating. They don’t know how it feels to lose the pillars in your life because of their alcoholism and their drug use and them becoming not safe ppl anymore. I fought anyway and it made me SO careful with these things and avoiding them growing up. It meant nothing to anyone around me. But I have enough of my own story to not feel like I have to convince anyone anymore. All I’ve ever wanted is a stable home and a chance to remember that I enjoy life, and I feel it coming back. It’s difficult that people with no network that grew up in poverty can’t even have that as a reason they have no money. People expect that a fully traumatized person should also hold a career and job and support themselves. It doesn’t work that way and you have to fit in very narrow lines to get welfare. I was at the end of my rope a few months ago but it’s gotten marginally better.
Not pile 2 being 2222 😭 if that sign isn't big enough ❤ But yes this describes my DV scenario, from 7 months ago I'm still suffering the repercussions of people victim blaming 😂👍
Pile 3 here I don't have anyone to talk to because they don't really care what I go thru or they go tell ppl what I go thru to joke about it so I rather just keep to myself and speak rarely. I have no one to consul with but it's cool
Pile 2. People usually wonder why can be so survivalist and I out maneuver people strategy wise in career in drama in social things pretty fast like 10 steps ahead. I was heavily said by my baby sitter and her husband. I shouldn't be alive from how bad it was. I was only 3 when it started and one day when I was five I started getting loud because I was always a quiet child I never cried in public or near anyone I never was like that. and I noticed oh he has to stop if I make noise then he'd start beating me and I believe I cannot remember to be sure but I assume from certain black spots that I was drugged. One day I physically started fighting back and I bit clawed scratched and became feral to get it to stop and then they stopped for good. I saw them a few years later and he physically shook in my presence. I may have only been 5 but I was a gymnast and a pretty tough one I used to beat up boys and flip out of trees and I remember I left him with marks. I think about Whos Afraid Of Little Old Me by taylor swift the line goes I am what I am cuz you trained me. You caged me and called me crazy ( I physically was locked in rooms for hours watching kids my age including theirs play at the playground across the street while I was starved dehydrated and tortured in silence not even a bathroom) Like I actually had to become a monster to survive and a part of that rage still lives in me and toxic exes have brought it out I warn people I really do I don't like being touched in places and I have no sympathy if you disturb the dragon I told you about. I learned from those abusers how to win and survive at all costs. I learned mentally how to watch and pick up on people lying or being truthful and can figure out motives from extreme hypervigilance. I'm not always the most social to be around and I don't trust anyone but my pets. I love my friends and family but I'll never trust anyone with all of me. Every time I do I'm immediately met with the consequences. I understand this world I'm meant to help people like me and I would never tell them to not trust anyone I would help them with trust but for myself I know my path and I know people usually never expect my story to get so dark so young and they never see it coming from how I act. I can be very charismatic but I flip given reason. I fought for every thing in my life and I've lost everything over and over. I love people i want the best for everyone but I want to be left alone. The people that know the truth especially the ones that don't even care for me have told me they get it and don't even know how I'm even nice at all or how I'm strong. But I don't care about being strong anymore I care about being left alone to work it out. I can never physically have a normal intimate relationship because of panic attacks that I can't even control it's muscle memory, I can't sleep half the time so I have mania. It is what it is. I feel like a empty shell somedays truly. Like I'm ruined but I'm still alive and every time I've tried to unalive myself I have literally miracle survived doctors said it themselves. I'm here for a reason and I'll do what needs to be done to survive.
Pile 2 yup hell and back It’s honestly magic 🪄 that I am still alive…. Thank god and only god Basically all of my life I was fighting and surviving Finally freeeee I have not done anything wrong before god But now I am a badass 😂😂😂 I think I could attend the Mafia by now
I keep seeing 222 as a pile 2 heheheh; I was blackballed from a school district even though my ex boss held me hostage in his office, they gave him a desk job tho
#3 all true. Please don't mind. It's just me only. I don't understand music messages. I don't listen to music anymore. And I can't connect with music messages so I become confused. Instead of music if you make only messages would help me understand. No offense tho because everyone loves music. And I didn't mean anything bad. I am really sorry everyone and you dear. But I just don't understand music messages at all..... Normal messages would be helpful for me. But just for one person you shouldn't change your readings. Please don't be offended. I didn't mean anything bad. Thank you 🖤☔🍂🍁🧿🪬
Pile 2 and 777 likes, confirmed by a comment about 420 and you started coughing bc I couldn't sit down 😅😂😢 child! I am ready and the damn thang start at 22:22 😢❤.. What am I in for!??
Thanks for Watching!
Pile 1: 1:21
Pile 2: 22:22
Pile 3: 45:15
Pile 2, thank you for channeling this. Except “no” on the “lie, cheat and steal”. That would make one just like them.
Pile 2. Crazy work. I signed up for therapy through my doctors because there are supports for children and grandchildren of ppl who were in residential schools in my province. I started getting better and I became someone who couldn’t stay in my family to continue to heal. There’s so much toxicity that I thought understanding could help me navigate but.. when it’s people that are supposed to love you unconditionally - it hits harder when you find out how little they actually think of you. Because getting better to them makes it seem like when I don’t want to argue, it’s because I feel better than them. The idea of not being abusive is a new one.. because it’s what they learned. When I broke free and went no contact I asked my other friends and ppl I knew for help financially when I was down and out and SO many ppl refused because “I was on drugs” It was devastating. They don’t know how it feels to lose the pillars in your life because of their alcoholism and their drug use and them becoming not safe ppl anymore. I fought anyway and it made me SO careful with these things and avoiding them growing up. It meant nothing to anyone around me. But I have enough of my own story to not feel like I have to convince anyone anymore. All I’ve ever wanted is a stable home and a chance to remember that I enjoy life, and I feel it coming back. It’s difficult that people with no network that grew up in poverty can’t even have that as a reason they have no money. People expect that a fully traumatized person should also hold a career and job and support themselves. It doesn’t work that way and you have to fit in very narrow lines to get welfare. I was at the end of my rope a few months ago but it’s gotten marginally better.
Thank you for sharing ❤
@@EuridesCardoso it was making lots of sense for me! ty
Can totally relate, you actually put it into words better than I could’ve. Thank you! sending love ❤
Pile 2 not you coughing while I’m 420ing 😭😭
THAT HAPPENS WITH ME TOO LMAOOO
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Hahaha we are all the same 🤣
pile 2 and same
Pile 2 accurate we did not go through it unscathed!
Not pile 2 being 2222 😭 if that sign isn't big enough ❤
But yes this describes my DV scenario, from 7 months ago I'm still suffering the repercussions of people victim blaming 😂👍
#1 Justice will prevail!
The only reward is yourself.. Not money or materials just peace of mind & the power to keep others away forever if so desired!
pile 3 came for me a little bit, but thank you 😊
Pile 3 here I don't have anyone to talk to because they don't really care what I go thru or they go tell ppl what I go thru to joke about it so I rather just keep to myself and speak rarely. I have no one to consul with but it's cool
Pile 3: I got diagnosed with bipolar type 2. I'm medicated now and my anxiety levels are so low in comparison to what it was. ❤
#3 Crazy accurate
pile 2…that was so specific. sending love to all the other pile 2’s
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Dont matter what topic, your readings are my go-to, safe place, relaxing and just bestt🎉
Pile 2.
People usually wonder why can be so survivalist and I out maneuver people strategy wise in career in drama in social things pretty fast like 10 steps ahead.
I was heavily said by my baby sitter and her husband. I shouldn't be alive from how bad it was. I was only 3 when it started and one day when I was five I started getting loud because I was always a quiet child I never cried in public or near anyone I never was like that. and I noticed oh he has to stop if I make noise then he'd start beating me and I believe I cannot remember to be sure but I assume from certain black spots that I was drugged. One day I physically started fighting back and I bit clawed scratched and became feral to get it to stop and then they stopped for good. I saw them a few years later and he physically shook in my presence. I may have only been 5 but I was a gymnast and a pretty tough one I used to beat up boys and flip out of trees and I remember I left him with marks. I think about Whos Afraid Of Little Old Me by taylor swift
the line goes I am what I am cuz you trained me. You caged me and called me crazy ( I physically was locked in rooms for hours watching kids my age including theirs play at the playground across the street while I was starved dehydrated and tortured in silence not even a bathroom)
Like I actually had to become a monster to survive and a part of that rage still lives in me and toxic exes have brought it out I warn people I really do I don't like being touched in places and I have no sympathy if you disturb the dragon I told you about. I learned from those abusers how to win and survive at all costs. I learned mentally how to watch and pick up on people lying or being truthful and can figure out motives from extreme hypervigilance. I'm not always the most social to be around and I don't trust anyone but my pets. I love my friends and family but I'll never trust anyone with all of me. Every time I do I'm immediately met with the consequences. I understand this world I'm meant to help people like me and I would never tell them to not trust anyone I would help them with trust but for myself I know my path and I know people usually never expect my story to get so dark so young and they never see it coming from how I act. I can be very charismatic but I flip given reason. I fought for every thing in my life and I've lost everything over and over. I love people i want the best for everyone but I want to be left alone. The people that know the truth especially the ones that don't even care for me have told me they get it and don't even know how I'm even nice at all or how I'm strong. But I don't care about being strong anymore I care about being left alone to work it out. I can never physically have a normal intimate relationship because of panic attacks that I can't even control it's muscle memory, I can't sleep half the time so I have mania. It is what it is. I feel like a empty shell somedays truly. Like I'm ruined but I'm still alive and every time I've tried to unalive myself I have literally miracle survived doctors said it themselves. I'm here for a reason and I'll do what needs to be done to survive.
Ahhh. I see army in your music recs. I chose pile three btw 💕
P2, accurate. Your readings help me heal
Pile 2 yup hell and back
It’s honestly magic 🪄 that I am still alive…. Thank god and only god
Basically all of my life I was fighting and surviving
Finally freeeee
I have not done anything wrong before god
But now I am a badass 😂😂😂
I think I could attend the Mafia by now
Pile one ❤ thank you
I keep seeing 222 as a pile 2 heheheh; I was blackballed from a school district even though my ex boss held me hostage in his office, they gave him a desk job tho
#3 all true. Please don't mind. It's just me only. I don't understand music messages. I don't listen to music anymore. And I can't connect with music messages so I become confused. Instead of music if you make only messages would help me understand. No offense tho because everyone loves music. And I didn't mean anything bad. I am really sorry everyone and you dear. But I just don't understand music messages at all..... Normal messages would be helpful for me. But just for one person you shouldn't change your readings. Please don't be offended. I didn't mean anything bad. Thank you 🖤☔🍂🍁🧿🪬
Pile 2 💜
Pile 1 🥳 meanwhile missed u
I always say that office reference but people don’t know it 😫
Love it❤ Thanks
P3, I laughed when you asked who's pile 3's counselor because I literally said YOU (Tarot readers & Spiritual Community) HAHAHAHA
Pile 2 Thank you ❤❤
#UNIVERSALSPIRITUALLIGHTSPACEANDTIMEXOXOXOXOXO EVERYONE BLESSINGS 😘😘😘
Thanks 🌟
Pile 2 and 777 likes, confirmed by a comment about 420 and you started coughing bc I couldn't sit down 😅😂😢 child! I am ready and the damn thang start at 22:22 😢❤.. What am I in for!??
Never been so early!🤩
You're my favorite ❤️❤️
Girl, I've been listening for over a year. I adore every video you make xo
Pile 1.
Pile 2 all is well now :)
Pile 3! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 😊
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Pile 2 is in 2222 🎉😂
I really don't care at this point. I really don't have friends.
Stay strong🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
why does pile 2 remind me of the menendez brothers
hi if ur watching guyz
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