I'm a 59yr old Italian American woman. I'm so blessed that spirit guided me to subscribe to your channel. I first subscribed because of your music which I absolutely love!! But the more I watch your videos and get to see the real you , it's wonderful. You are such an amazing , brave and strong young woman!! Our world is truly blessed to have you in it. I realized you were talking about shadow work before you mentioned it. I've just recently learned about it. I haven't done very much yet but you have inspired me to do more. Thank you for being Real. Blessed be.
Yes thats when I perked up too. At first its felt too new age and I wasnt resonating especially seeing so much selfishness and fear in people lately. But going inward then, and loving all the shadows and flaws, if only everyone could do this, then yes, its like she was saying at the start about a collective healing
I have been so confused and have struggled with my mental health and addiction and I’ve had these spiritual experiences that are frightening but I know there is something more and I relate to a lot of what you are saying I’ve only recently heard your music and I love it I’m a very sensitive person too
I have bad anxiety and recently started getting worse panic attacks where all of a sudden my face starts to feel numb and i can’t breathe, like my throat is closing up. I hate it because deep down I know it’s a panic attack and that I’m fine, but it’s really hard to just breathe through it and not feel like you’re actually dying. I’ve never had these kind of attacks before, usually it’s just bad anxiety and hyperventilating. But I try to just breathe through them and almost treat my anxiety as if it’s a small child- repeating to myself and my anxiety “we’re okay, everything’s alright, just breathe, etc” and it helps a little bit. I hope you start to feel better soon, and know we’re always here for you and chances are there are a ton of us who feel exactly how you’re feeling. You’re never alone. Love you 🖤🤍
I have to tell myself that all the time. "You're fine." "You've been through this before, and you've always been fine." "You just need to calm down." "Positive thinking, positive thoughts," and a bunch of other stuff. If I repeat it enough, things will start calming down. I also have to practice deep breathing. I've had a couple terrible panic attacks, to where I nearly passed out. It's terrifying.
I say "You're safe", "You're protected", ""You are loved". Also chamomile and other teas that soothe the nervous system help reduce my attacks by a lot. Another thing, I'm starting to learn to let the energy pass through me. It's difficult but when you are able to do it, it helps the panic pass faster because you are not holding it inside.
I used to struggle with panic attacks. I had to completely cut out caffeine. Getting lots of potassium and magnesium helps. I second the chamomile. Try lemonbalm, too.
It’s incredible how much I agree with you on absolutely everything you said. And have been through quite similar trials and tribulations. There’s some incredible knowledge about healing the inner child parent etc in hypnotherapy. It’s a beautiful process but also very hard (shadow work). All that we want in the end is peace and that’s why humanity is acting out now. It’s all just a call for love.
Thank you for sharing so much with us when you didn’t have to, that was so brave and amazing of you. When you started to cry I started to as well (which is a habit I have with people I care about). These last few months I haven’t really felt well, because I feel like I’m not even supposed to exist. I feel like my living right now was never meant to be, and it’s scary. I don’t know if it’s where I’m trying to do shadow work and be more self aware or what. I’ll try going into my body like you said and see why I’m feeling that way, and try to recognize what that is and comfort it. Love you so much.
I HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR THIS VIDEO. I have had SO many questions as I have just "awakened" and I feel that I've been drawn to you for some reason, even though when I initially found you, I had very different beliefs. I consider you such an inspiration and I have been in yet another spiritual rut but then you posted this. THANK you. You inspire me to work on my own project and to become a better lightworker. Love youuuuuuuu
@@isaura-22 Same that was the song that really really spoke to me. Of course, I loved her aesthetic and voice, but she just omits love and peace and I am so so drawn to that. Now I know why. I just wish more people felt and experienced what we do
Awakened is a misused word among the new age community. Your aware now. More intuitive. True awakening is buddha. Kerlie thought she did all she can do healing wise then realized theres more layers. Theres always more layers to peel until we truly awaken and we will know then without a shadow of doubt that something profound has happened because no fear exists anymore. Just everlasting peace and bliss that does not end. Everlasting
questtofreedom I actually really appreciate that! Sorry if I was offensive at all, I’m still learning so much 😅 I definitely feel more aware for sure. I’m excited to see where this journey takes me. 💕
I could listen to you talk all day! I love what you said near the end about embracing anxiety and showing love to those darker parts of ourselves because I started experiencing panic attacks about 3 years ago out of nowhere, and I think for the first year and a half, I kept thinking "when am I going to feel normal again" which definitely made things worse because I was going against a part of myself. Then I came to the point where I accepted that I'm going to go through changes in life and that's okay. I embraced my anxiety, I acknowledge its presence whenever it comes and everything has gotten a lot better. I've been able to really ground myself within the anxiety before it gets out of hand.
I was watching a lot of negative type videos, (exposing people for bad behaviour/ racism etc) and watching this in the middle of all that negative energy was so cleansing! This kind of energy and motivation was just what I needed ☺️
I have very similar experiences where I've written them off as panic attacks, but they are more like what you described where it builds up and erupts and lasts until I go to bed too. So much of what you say resonates with me. I love listening to talk and share your experiences because it makes me feel less like people wouldn't understand what these feelings are like. I really agree though that shadow work is 100% needed to evolve. Without it I think we get stuck hidden in those shadows.
It's so strange to hear that so many people in the comments (as well as Kerli herself) had such severe panic attacks during these past few months. I had them as well and went to so many doctors and had so many tests done but nothing really came back from it. Mostly everyone said I was having a rise in anxiety because of COVID and I can believe it, but these attacks felt so different to the anxiety I've had my entire life. I know it's not anything big, but it comforts me to know that others experience these weird bouts of severe anxiety; I had a feeling it had something to do with an external force but I couldn't be sure ( and still aren't!) but reading other's accounts makes me feel a little better. Love you Kerli, I'm glad you're feeling better xx
I want to say how much your video and your experience has spoke to me. The very first panic attack I had, I was a teenager. There was a physical element to it, hormones, but I felt that day long FEAR. It was not normal. I thought I was dying; I thought I was in a living hell. I did not know anyone else experienced this kind of panic. They always say it lasts for 30 minutes or so and should go away. No, it did not go away until i asked for help from God. At this time I did not know where I stood spiritually so it was super scary. I felt like I was being spiritually attacked. The only thing that helped was praying. Because of this, I was called to paganism and witchcraft, specifically on how to mentally protect myself and battle these thoughts in my head. I am still learning, but I am so grateful for you and your story. I was also drawn to shadow work recently as well and finding your channel, I feel not so alone anymore in my journey. Much love
Instead of the difficult to breath, it was my heart failing. I had an experience pretty similar, I started feeling my heartbeat stopping, literally. Went to a bunch of exams and everything was fine, but still feeling my heartbeat stopping, worst experience in my life. Went to the hospital a lot of times, and I had this day which everything was really strange, my entire body was like receiving this extreme strong energy, I felt like I was dying. Just went of the bus (I was in my way home after the work), in the middle of nowhere and just called my mom to say goodbye, cause I was really feeling like I was dying. After this day, my heart didn’t feel like stopping and my mental health started getting better. Crazy times.
Thank you Kerli, the ascension symptoms have been horrible for me. I've been so exhausted. I also feel the collective shadow work being done in the world and I'm excited to see the flip side when we get there.
Everything you're saying is point on with a lot of my experiences. I pretty much stay quiet on things like this because of my age. I am an older person that has been on this journey for a while. I continue to do shadow work on and off. I feel like this is something that never ends. The number of younger people shifting into 5D is awesome! Even though there is resistance in the world for you now, it has changed for the better due to the answering the call to this shift! I love your music, but I have to be honest. This amount of openness and sharing is beyond beautiful. You are letting people, regardless of their age, understand that the experiences and feelings they have are rare, but not unusual! Much Love to You Kerli!
This is exactly aligned with my experiences over the past four months. I admire you speaking on everything. I think it is simply BeautiFull. This stage of life experience can be isolating. It is scary sometimes, all day sometimes, shaking etc. Some days I feel like it will kill me to simply push through the energies....the light vibrations...what I hear from a higher perspective is a drive for self Love, period. Self care. In my experience...just acting on we are being called to do in any moment is the key to making it thru so to speak. Thank you for your vulnerability and your authenticity. I value your channel eternally. Thank you.
I do feel like everything in my life is pushing me to take total responsibility, but it’s like a rabbit hole, the more I go deep within myself the most trauma I realize I have, and it seems to never end , it’s disappointment over the first disappointment 😅 going myself crazy here ... thank u Kerli, I relate to every single word you said and I send you love from Mexico City
The thought /feeling came to me not long ago that the mother energy can heal the world. As a woman approaching my mid-thirties the mother energy has been waking up in my heart for a while now. While I long to have the experience of giving all my love to a little human, giving it to myself feels blocked..something to work towards for sure, especially as I experience lately more painful life experiences and wanting to heal childhood trauma. We are our own best healers 💕
I love following you and hearing your stories and guidance. You're a role model to me. I want to be at that spiritual level. Everything you talk about is so fascinating and don't forget you're never alone. Thank you for everything you've done for us and im excited for this book of yours!
You are amazing! Following you since 2005/06 and understanding you more as a person and artist is truly awesome. Learning from you and more about you with every song and every piece of art and every video and every picture. Keep sharing your light and love in the world! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
You're amazing Kerli, and I feel like you're a mother for all of us, who deal with unhealed trauma, depression and anxiety every day. Thank you for telling us your experiences, you're very inspiring Integrity, love and unity Love you so much 💜✨
Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I know anxiety and depression are hard subjects to talk about, and even harder to describe to someone who doesn't understand. I am, we'll say between beliefs at the moment, so it is always nice to hear other perspectives on the world, and life in general. I hope that you continue to grow into your light. Thank you for all that you give to us, your light, your music, and your love. I hope that you know there are many of us here that will always be here for you, no matter how your views change.
Around the end of 2018 I started having really severe panic attacks, before that I had never struggled with anxiety, they were so severe it would last for hours I ended up in the emergency room several times. I thought that part of my life would never end, I’ve had them to where my entire body would go numb and my chest would be burning up. I eventually realized this all stemmed from unhandled trauma in my childhood things I never dealt with until the bottle exploded. I feel it’s the points in life when we have the greatest shifts that affect us the most without us even realizing. It’s always important to check in with yourself and be aware of what’s happening both around you and within yourself.
I started listening to you when I was at my most depressed as a tiny 16yo right when Love is Dead came out, and watching this now reminds me just how far I've come. I have also gone through an incredibly similar experience - I am now making my brain get used to feel content - I have not experienced this emotion since I was a very young child. Love you so much Kerli, it's great growing together from afar.
Thank you for sharing your experience, Kerli. I appreciate you talking openly about it, because I’ve also had panic attacks recently, and I think you’re right that it’s when you try to do spiritual work/heal the shadow self some lower vibrational entities are attracted to the vulnerability. It’s almost like testing your will. You are so strong, and you have helped me to heal through my spirituality over 12 years✨ ilysm thanks for checking in, I understand and respect that you need time away and space to work on your art, but it’s so nice to see you! Btw love the garden🌿 Integrity, love, unity🤍
This was an amazing vid. the timing of it, at least for my life could not of been better timed. I am going to sit down and watch it again and take notes of things i want to comment on and share. I have been fighting too many things as of late and feel like i am just grinding gears, but this has given me things to think on that will be productive. Thank you greatly wise one. Peace/Love/Unity for all.
Honey! I've been going through the same thing. Everything you mentioned I was going through it. I saw shadows and sensed entities in my home. Spirits were even visiting me in my dreams. I kept questioning myself, like am I going crazy? My anxiety was so bad too, I couldnt be around anyone and couldnt think straight it was horrible. I really thought I was losing my mind, this was last year. Fast forward to now, I'm a completely different person. I kept getting this feeling to meditate and I did often, then one day I started noticing 111 and 1111. Ever since those numbers appeared in my life, I have changed so much, I'm aware of myself and the connection I have to everything. My anxiety is gone and things I had trouble seeing before are clear as day. Ascension is no joke, alot of people are going through it right now, It sucks but its wonderful when you get to the other side. Keep going with the flow and shining your light love. Hugs from NYC
I just started seeing MAD numbers like a week ago. I usually just think they mean "keep on going, you're tappng into smth rn". What do you think the numbers mean?
@@KERLImusic They are called angel numbers. My numbers 111 or 1111 mean I'm on the right path, my thoughts are manifesting, my intuition is reliable and I'm spiritually enlightened. I think angel numbers are beautiful, I smile now everytime I see them cause I know the universe is guiding me. You should look up the meanings for the numbers that you see.
I am so grateful to have this opportunity to tune in. In my opinion, this pandemic has forced us to pause and reflect instead of continuing to be distracted by the urgency of life. Also,you brought out great points of unification. All of us are connected here in this space and time for a reason. Currently, I'm finishing up my bachelors degree, plan to move out of my hometown, get a job and buy a house. I aim to have a collective that embraces that independence of growing food, harvesting rain water, and expressing ourselves through art. I'm still in the process of building myself but thats my aim.
I love that you can openly admit when you change your view. It's refreshing. ❤️ I swear your music literally heals my soul when I hear it. Like I physically feel a chance inside.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I thought i was going crazy and i feel the same thing. I checked my vitals and everything was fine but my heart has been feeling like it’s beating hard and fast. Lately my body has lost control of its self and I’m dealing with health issues I’ve never had before. It’s really weird because all of my blood work says I’m healthy but i know something is off. You know when everyone tells you you’re fine but deep down you know something isn’t right but can’t explain it? That’s me right now. I also am feeling a deep sense of connection with nature. Last week i was craving the mountains, and being in the woods so i flew somewhere to be there. I climbed one of my favorite mountains Mt. Rainier and I literally looked out and cried. Tears of gratitude, and happiness. Being in nature- mountains, woods, beaches... they make me feel like my problems don’t exists.
I have a lot of days where I can not breathe. Yet my vitals are perfect. And it feels like anxiety. Yet it’s something entirely different. It’s more Ethreal. Very spiritual. And I know this because later when I’m sleeping I’ll have a lucid dream and a day or two maybe more days will have passed and then I live that lucid dream and it’s like a brick hitting me into a wall. I become dizzy and sent into this weird “deja vu” state of mind and coming to the realization that I’ve already lived this day. Word for word, moment by moment, action for action. It used to scare me at first when I would have them as a child. But as I’ve gotten older , I’ve learned to accept them and even now I just smile. Because, I mean it’s the magick within me lol and it’s working and I’m in tune with my energies and my visions. And it’s exciting to have that ability and power. Never a dull moment in my life, that is for sure lol.
Yo: enojado porque Kerli nos tiene abandonados. Kerli: Les pido una disculpa por desaparecer, necesito tiempo para mi arte y mi crecimiento personal. Yo inmediatamente: TE AMO KERLI 💖
Kerli, I'm an Aquarius man and I can't express enough how grateful I am to you for making this video. THANK YOU for sharing your insight with us all, and for providing me some respite from my reality to take time and gain another viewpoint. Truth be told, I've felt this collective shadow work and admittedly, I waffle between gratitude and depressive rage, (I'm a "Manifestor" according to Human Design and anger is a big part of my driving force to institute change). Being empathic, I've felt the pain the world-over has felt. and I'm fighting to help bring about an age of compassion. I've seen throughout my life people use their privilege to build walls instead of tables, and my hope is that with this global reset we could collectively transform our walls into tables all of us could gather around. That said, thanks to your video, I need to do my own shadow-work and have compassion for myself. So I intend to begin that work you've recommended and I hope through it I can ascend to fulfilling what the universe wants me to become. Thank you Kerli for sharing, continuing to provide me inspiration, and being a voice for the universe. I truly appreciate you!
Sometimes just taking your shoes off and being grounded with earth is just what you need, feel the grass between your toes and when you get the breath knocked out of you, focusing on the trees definitely bring you back down to earth just watching them brings the air back to your lungs for me.
I had been stuck in the most violent toxic relationship for 5 years. In june decided to go to rehab because i just couldnt carry on. Knowing my bf was doing meth the whole time, had another girlfriend, was lying about having a job & had a whole double life while over here i thought i was help him kick drugs while i became homeless after having my own place & my own in come. To know my whole heart went to destroying me was more than i could recover from. I became an alcoholic & started cutting again. I couldnt stop. Hed come home after days of being gone & just laugh. Your music as always fit so perfect. It helped so much. It seems like u went thru the same hell just a little before...
Damn. My flower, I’m so sorry you had to go through such a thing. I know what it is to be in an abusive relationship, however mine didn’t have drugs in the mix. I also know what it is to cut, I’be been doing it on and off since I was 15 because of an abusive step father who we’d stayed with for 5 years as well. I’m now 33 and yeah, I have my demons, but don’t we all? There’s a line from a Hozier song called Arsonist’s Lullabye that I love and resonates deeply with me: “Don’t you ever tame your demons, but always keep them on a leash.” We’ll get there one day, and even though we’ve faced our different versions of hell, they made us what we are today and we know better from it. I wish you the best of life & love & happiness. But remember, don’t you ever tame your demons...
Also, grounding is everything. Another important thing that many skip over (myself included). I like a lot of people started on the path because I felt so alien here like I didn’t belong and the feeling intensified as I got older so I would try disengage from this reality as much as could because that’s where I felt safe so to speak. But the more I did that the heavier I got & the depression & anxiety was so much worse. Took me a while to realize that not only was that a form of spiritual bypassing (at least for me) but I am not here on earth to get away from it, I’m here to help bring that energy to earth. In order to do that you have to do things like sleep, eat well, move your body & all the other self care things. It’s so simple but it’s effective lol.
You are wise beyond your years....I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety since I was a teenager and I am 45 years old now....I was physically and mentally abused by my step mother when I was a child and it has affected me all these years and it still does and I don't know how to forgive her and move on ....every man I have been with has been mentally and physically abusive as well and these things just make my depression and anxiety worse....thankyou for your honesty....its nice to know that I'm not alone in how I am feeling....it seems like a lot of people are dealing with depression and anxiety these days and I think it's because there is way too much negativity innthe world and I believe that it affects all of us maybe even subconsciously but we need more positivity innthe world and unfortunaltely I believe things are just going to get worse and not better and I feel so sorry for the next generation and my future grandchildren....you seem like such a sweet and intuitive person and very open minded and I love people that are open minded .....thankyou again for sharing all of your knowledge because it really does help others like myself.
I’m being following you since MySpace days and hearing this video makes me feel not alone! I’m feeling the same so much! Experiencing panic attacks, huge spiritual awakening and I’m an Aquarius as you Kerli! ❤️ Energy frequency really exist and I’m happy to follow you all those years, we all dealing the same energy 🙏🏻✨
Have had an experience of not being able to breathe and have had high anxiety before . I allow myself to feel those feelings . I will do guided meditation and not worry about it again . It took years of practice but I’m aware more of myself than before . Also have begun painting again to relax but it started bringing up emotions and I am happy that it does so I can let go of those emotions . 🖤
Last year I started having anxiety experiences that lasted hours like that, right up until i fell asleep. It felt like surges of adrenaline linked to a sensation of complete impending doom. I couldn't eat or sleep, at its worst the surges were coming every 90 seconds. This went on for weeks and only really settled down when i began trauma therapy that bypassed my usual thinky talky style and went straight to processing my unheard feelings. This inner work has given me some of the most frustrating, exhilarating, terrifying experiences of my life. It's gonna be a continuous journey, for sure, but the framework of polyvagal theory really helped me make sense of what was happening on a physiological level. I now believe my inner child/ parts were finally surfacing as i confronted some deep fears (the episodes began during a period of huge stress). They came up now because I was finally ready to hold them, and I am slowly learning the story of all these lost selves I never knew. It's heartbreaking. It's glorious.
I've been explaining 20/20 to my children this way. Hindsight is 20-20. What is going on this year is everything we NEED to address on personal, societal and global levels will now come back to the forefront in ways we no longer choose to ignore or turn a blind eye to. It's important to do the work. Growth that is uncomfortable can be our most productive. And I too have recently gone through breathing issues. I have reactive airway and someone's strong perfume gave me chemical pneumonia in October. And in the midst of that my cat allergy I can normally handle with claritan ended up being a 4 month ordeal because I am now allergic to something their saliva. To the point I got blisters and went into anaphylactic shock
You have no idea how much this matters to me, Kerli. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for being who you are for the over a decade. Thank you for sharing your journey. Love from Australia.
My anxiety has been off the charts also and I feel that the collective consciousness around the globe has been feeding that steadily. I appreciate this vulnerable video so much, thank you Kerli.
Hi Kerlie. I experienced this two years ago. I had a series of episodes where I couldn't breath and it would last for hours. I too kept calling the ambulance because I literally thought I would die. I would walk and just sit in a and e because I thought I might die any minute. Ofcourse they checked all my vitals and I was technically fine but it was worse when I woke up at night. Looking back on it now I do think it was anxiety. I was in an abusive relationship and also living in a narrow boat which was claustrophic. From listening to you talk I know some of how you feel - I would say your long episodes of not being able to breath is anxiety attacks that last much longer like mine did. Hope you feel better soon xxx
i'm only halfway through this but i want to thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us kerli! i'm currently grappling with ending an 8 year friendship which has become so horribly toxic within the past two years (i have been the target of narcissistic abuse) and i needed to hear all this so much. the energy has been so heavy and full of anxiety lately but i'm ready to take back my freedom and hold myself and heal. much love
For indigo or crystal children gens it makes sense now. To feel, to channel or forge that type of mother love and connect with it. If something isn't prexisting, if we can't affirm it or back it up, its hard to find which direction to aim the other magnetic end.... isn't it? Kerli, you struck gold for me with this share. This made me realize I had a constellation above my head in my shadow... not just a star. 💓
Over the years I have many 'wrinkles',but,I've worked through all of them and I'll be turning 52 this month.You have a strong character nature is a great healer,be brave and I love you.
Thank you for this video. I know it has been a while since it has been released, but I think we see things at a specific time for a reason. This is what I needed to see this morning, I also suffer from anxiety and allergies, and I have been well still am on pills to help. In addition I am spiritual, and I am very young but also old in my journey if that makes sense. This video is showing me there are other way to look about my progression. I though I had right up until recently when those dark energies were coming back, but it is helpful to learn how to love them rather than to just fight because that could take its toll on you. I know talked about a lot, but I wanted to let you know how grateful I am of you. Always been a fan of your music and creations, but this has helped me far more than I can yet to realize. Hopefully I see brighter things for me as well. Love and Support always. Dallas
You are incredible! I've been going through the same thing, especially this year! I've done soo much shadow work and its so beautiful. This is such a powerful time in the universe! 💖✨
I've always watched you vlogs but I've never commented UNTIL relate that kinda of experience where you got to be your own mother. I'm living by my own for 3 years now and I'm becoming to experience this feelings where you doubt yourself but at the same time say several times to yourself "you got this and I got you"
One of my first major shamanic experiences was being called to go out in a thunderstorm. When I answered the call, the rain let up, and I started speaking words, some I didn't understand, none I had previously thought of and there was no intention or anything specifically from myself or my own consciousness. I was basically creating a pact with the planet as a protector and warrior. When I finished saying the "pact" there was a massive clap of thunder and it started pouring rain, and I felt brand new. It was amazing, and also daunting. I've had a lot more experiences now, and I'm fairly used to them by now, but they still amaze me. Thank you for sharing your journey! It's amazing to hear other experiences and see how the community grows and connects!
So much yes to the Shadow work! Just like anything else in spirituality we ALL have access and can do it but certain things may be easier for others. Shadow work they may have taken years or even lifetimes for some is showing up & pounding on the door now demanding to be looked at. Which as scary as that can be, when I have moments of clarity I still appreciate that 3D allows you to experience spiritual growth & lessons in a really visceral & dense way that may not be the cases in other forms of consciousness. So I also really resonate with the idea of everyone is going through the shadow work both personally & collectively in order for us to ascend.
agreed 100%. i lost faith in my religion and government and set out to find my own spiritual path that fits my life and only my life without others input i began spiritual AWAkENING while learning from your videos.thank you for sharing and creating content.. great content i love it.
Kerli I have been watching your music videos for a while and I absolutely love your asthetic as a creator and singer. You inspire so many ideas for my novella. I hope you never stop producing music and ideas. Lots of love from America!
So important to me you mentioned shadownwork and the fact that we don't have to be or we aren't always vibrating in a positive frequencie. I've changed a lot this past year and I was depressing myself trying to be like I was before creating the image that I was happier, more joyful, but with everything that is happening in the world, and all the times that I was alone without even a thought made me realize that "here and now" was never so real and it's all part of the process, I keep on moving, and i can't wait to see you in #PoweOrPride I hope we find a way to make it happen ♡
shadow work will increase your frequency anyway , so it is all good , integrate , heal and release what does not serve, will make you lighter and help increase you frequency . much love from north africa.
Completely resonates with me. I LOVE the way you explained the triple moon sign, as well as self parenting. Our higher self IS the parent of our 3D form. I haven't done shadow work yet, but my guides are most definitely sending me signs I need to. Thank you for this video!
Kerli you are such a beautiful person inside an out. I am so grateful i found your Vlogs during this lockdown and i love watching them. This one was exactly wanted i needed to hear in this moment, i felt overwhelming moments of emotions and tears. For me during this year so far i have felt waves of spiritual disconnect (like a numbness) and reconnect throughout this summer, but after each wave i feel different. it constantly changes, my mind has become more still, my heart is opening up bigger than i thought it could, i have days of feeling like i am not even in my body, it feels so strange. but i know its positive. my views are constantly changing as i become more aware and i am becoming at ease and embracing the unknown. I really love your vibe, your energy is beautiful! to everyone on here who has being going through anxiety, sending you so much love and healing, you are all beautiful, and loved xxxx
I've had chronic night terrors for my entire life. It took me a while to realize that this is a sign of deep inner turmoil. You're very inspiring to start working on myself.
I love you. I felt anxiety with being alone in my house for the first time in months and I had to mother myself too with music, my dogs, and just talking to myself.
Thank you so much for talking about all this. It touches some things I'm dealing with right now and just seeing somebody else talking about it makes me feel better. This year has been a painful ride so far, but the insight gained from it is invaluable. Your video made me connect some of it into a bigger picture. Thank you again for being such an amazing inspiration.
Kerli, I have also shared the experience with you this year of extreme anxiety. I have had real panic attacks since the lockdown has started, right after I was doing well, found a gym I finally don’t have to force myself to go to, been eating better too. And I know too it is a part of coming out and ascending closer to my purpose, my higher self. I am the most whole I’ve ever been. I also think Jung is super interesting and I would like to continue my shadow work. I wish I could find a healer like you to help me through it. While I was doing my own it was very very intense. I.L.U. 💕
I here you, you never alone, enjoy the ride, explore and keep encountering your inner fears, they are good lessons, part of growth into collective spiritual revolution of total freedom, peace and freedom, your words of wisdom is proof of that, respect Kerli, keep up good work of spreading light and love. Listening from London, thanks - Olen eestlane.
This video affirmed why I love you so much. I know what you are going through. Interpretation is everything. Don’t let fear interpret things for you. We always underestimate how much we rely on the same old symbols, conceptions, and patterns. How these come out, and working through them causes fear as you move away from them. They are sort of a symbolic womb. And the contractions and the crushing anxiety of Birth are there to expand your life into a new realm. So you need to ride the waves of anxiety, the contractions of the old ways and the old world. What worked best for me is self-love. You said you were self-centered in the past and that usually comes from fear of loss or loss of love. So maybe your hurdle is more trust and self-love oriented. So I would suggest looking into a mirror and say how much you love that scared little girl within. Even stroke your arm or leg in a loving way gently and say those things and you need to repeat it. It takes a while to reverse old habits, like 45 days every day minimum. It’s not instantly that things will change. Women who give birth think birth takes 45 days... or forever... especially the first one. 😂 You will be surprised how effective that will be to use the vibration of speech on yourself and try to lower your voice because It will travel deeper into the spiral cochlea of the ear. Your body is your unicorn. Yes Kerli you know this. You are a spiritual rider. Love that scared evolutionary animal of light which carries you. Who you really are is beyond that far far beyond. There is no fear in who you really are and have the potential to become. Don’t let other people define you and try to tell you who you are. The old voices will come and you will just reinterpret them and turn them away. The center of you is all ready to shine like a diamond. You gave me gifts with your music and I would help you with anything. To me you are far far more than a pop star and fame can be a burden. I get that: but you are still a person. And I consider you my friend. I am glad I listened to this. I have been going through my own journey as transgender and spiritual lately and I haven’t been following you as much and I apologize. This morning I woke up in my car (long story) and in the field outside my window a solid white cat ran across the field toward the bay. It was so clean and white. I watched it the whole way. The reason I watched this video was because I saw you holding a white cat. 🥰🌈 I love the kitties so much!!! ❤️😝 I always have time for Kerli. 🙂
Yes. A million times, yes. Ever since this year started, the only word I've held into my brain is "growth", "this is a year of growth" I would say. And maybe what it was was the new light? Winter time was the lowest I've ever been. Started to work on myself at the end of it and then coronavirus hit. But somehow I still felt peace, I felt that this year was going to be a growth for everyone. And so many things have come to light. It's mind blowing. I can barely make words for it. Thank you for sharing 🖤🤍
When you started crying I did too!😭😭Lol I'm so sensitive. I'm so thankful that you share your spiritual journey with us cuz I know it's really personal.🖤🖤 I relate a lot especially spiritual awakening. I get angry to the system and feel 1000x everything. Which is great and annoying at the same time.
Gosh I really didn’t realize how much I needed a kerli sit down. It feels like it’s been sooo long, and these often force me to ground myself a little more. I’m gonna write a bit of a diary entry here because I know this is a safe space. I feel like I’ve taken 100 steps back recently. Feeling too weighted by earthly things which is uncomfortable for someone who’s an Air sign like me. Recently I’ve become a huge part of a community for a musician you posted before, iamx, he’s been doing these free online mental health gatherings where he lets people discuss and ask questions regarding mental health and mindfulness and lately it’s really been the key to me focusing on healing. But I feel like everytime I get closer to working on myself something happens to my body physically, pulling me backwards. I definitely am self absorbed right now, kind of feel like I’m locked into it and I keep fumbling and dropping the keys trying to get out. I feel like the shadowwork, I’m really good at it, but I’m also really good at getting stuck in the goo of it. I don’t feel connected at all to these human experiences which is one thing I think I really benefit from when it comes to focusing on healing myself- I don’t have earthly desires or wants. I don’t feel connected to it which is why I think I like to get stuck in my bubble. Chris/iamx has taught me so much. I think he’s a really special person and teacher even if he doesn’t know it. He’s taught me: The past and the future don’t exist, mindfulness is key to freedom, sometimes I have to accept the “isness” he says of things. Also! It’s crazy that as I’m writing this you mention moths- because these past few days I keep thinking of moths. They keep coming up, like a sign to me. I was thinking about moths as you were talking and then you said the word. Anyone know what that means? Spirit animal wise even?
I have gone through the same and have been on my own and felt like I was on my own for so long, thank you for making me understand that we are all going through this together, love you xxx
this vlog really made me reflect on my spiritual journey and how it's made me the way i am today. i definitely see myself in a lot of things you've shared with us and i'm really happy that it's made me reconnect with my deeper self. the only thing i wanted to point out: you getting a gun permit is gun control, you're getting a PERMIT you're not buying guns in a store. Gun control is the way we european people live and, in my opinion, it helps our society a lot. Thank you for sharing your story with us, forever grateful for the inspiration and reflexion.
You have one of the brightest, most beautiful and pure hearts. I love your music but you as a person I adore. Thank you for loving us all and allowing us to send that back in kind. I have 4 daughters and raised them on Sailor Moon, and I found you and shared your work with them and they adore it too. Diamond Hard is my 9 year olds favorite, and Zero Gravity is mine. Thank you for being such a beautiful soul. People like you are why I think mankind as a whole has a chance.
i absolutely resonate with you and i cannot wait for more of your art. we are coming into the age of aquarius slowly... so many shifts are happening beneath the surface. i'm working on a secret music/film project and it's aligned with where we're headed in humanity... surprises are ahead! 💚
I have had ascension symptoms too.... Fatigue and ringing in my ears. I feel for you Kerli. Your experience was intense. And I love your music. Told my friends about you today.
You've described a lot of what I'v been going thru during this entire pandemic, like calm in the storm, but the fatigue has been wicked. Maybe it comes from holding that calmness for so long in the heavy 3D energy. Although we're in a higher vibration we still have to live in the 3D world and try to rise above it all. A lot of us are doing very intense inner child/shadow work right in the middle of all this. I'm a crone and still doing work, it never ends hun. You're doing great, keep rocking it queen!
Kerli, you have been my idol since I was so young. I remember listening to your song tea party when I was 10 years old, I would put on a costume dress and pretend to be you, I spent hours listening to your music and I just never stopped. I use your album Shadow Works to meditate, I can feel your energy through my screen and you bring so much peace into my life, so thank you for all you do, I'm so happy to call myself a moon baby. I truly wish you nothing but the best!
I had the experience as well. It's like a tidal wave taking me under. Drowning from every trauma and emotions (past or present) all came down on me all at once. That's when I lost my fight and my thrive to survive. It was just too much plus the high stress environment and career. All that physical/emotional/ mental and spiritual pain does not go well with the career. I had to take myself out the situation to focus on self healing. Still in progress...
This is so incredibly interesting, I find myself dealing with panic attacks sometimes, I medicate to suppress that feeling. But it’s so interesting to see how others can deal with it by themselves.
Love you too Queen, you will forever be my favourite Artist I seem to connect with so much you say and sing it kind of baffles me how much I will be forever greatful as I used to be a doubter of spirituality but no longer am my Dad was a very spiritual person and I never understood but now I do I feel more connected to my Dad than ever now as I want to try to be spiritual too and better myself you have helped me so much in my live whether that be spiritually or personally and I'm sure you will continue to be a constant inspiration for the rest of my life you helped me overcome so much past trauma I am Eternally Greatful Moon Baby Alex Xxxxx
Something I find in common with you is that I also need those times where I disappear. It means I'm doing something, and then I can come back and share. Thank you for saying it, that it's not about toxic positivity. I run away from people who say we should stay positive all the time. That's not true, as everything is in constant movement and changing, we were never supposed to be just one thing, one emotion, it's not true. Thank you. Hope you find a way to improve your condition when the allergies strike again.
Hello 🐈♥️ Just dropping by to say how much I love You and all that you do. It's been said you have to learn to love yourself. There is truth to that but how to apply it?! I think you have to embrace growth and to remind yourself to keep loving yourself. I personally have always felt different. I am okay with that now more than ever. I don't have to worry about what others think. I havn't always been at odds with myself but most of my life... I was. I feel I am now accepting things better. Just turned 50 even though many can't believe it 😎 I am an Artist. I am spiritual. I don't have all the answers. I know what I do know. I have my experiences. I help others. I have commented on some of your videos before. This time was more personal. Love you Kerli!! You are not alone. ♥️
I've been feeling the same change and urge to go off grid as well as have been going back to my spiritual roots. I completely understand and have experienced what you're experiencing. 🌒🌕🌘 🖤
I'm a 59yr old Italian American woman. I'm so blessed that spirit guided me to subscribe to your channel. I first subscribed because of your music which I absolutely love!! But the more I watch your videos and get to see the real you , it's wonderful. You are such an amazing , brave and strong young woman!! Our world is truly blessed to have you in it. I realized you were talking about shadow work before you mentioned it. I've just recently learned about it. I haven't done very much yet but you have inspired me to do more. Thank you for being Real. Blessed be.
Kerli when you said "I got you" I began crying. You are right, us sensitive people have had a lot of hurt and trauma BC we are sensitive.
Yes thats when I perked up too. At first its felt too new age and I wasnt resonating especially seeing so much selfishness and fear in people lately. But going inward then, and loving all the shadows and flaws, if only everyone could do this, then yes, its like she was saying at the start about a collective healing
You are one of the best artists out here. I can't wait for your book to drop in English. I love your work so much. 🌜✨ Moonbaby for life! 💜
How can we make sure we get notified of it's launch? I'd love a copy and feel I'd truly be missing something special and important if I missed it..
Omg I had no idea she made a book!
I have been so confused and have struggled with my mental health and addiction and I’ve had these spiritual experiences that are frightening but I know there is something more and I relate to a lot of what you are saying I’ve only recently heard your music and I love it I’m a very sensitive person too
I have bad anxiety and recently started getting worse panic attacks where all of a sudden my face starts to feel numb and i can’t breathe, like my throat is closing up. I hate it because deep down I know it’s a panic attack and that I’m fine, but it’s really hard to just breathe through it and not feel like you’re actually dying. I’ve never had these kind of attacks before, usually it’s just bad anxiety and hyperventilating. But I try to just breathe through them and almost treat my anxiety as if it’s a small child- repeating to myself and my anxiety “we’re okay, everything’s alright, just breathe, etc” and it helps a little bit. I hope you start to feel better soon, and know we’re always here for you and chances are there are a ton of us who feel exactly how you’re feeling. You’re never alone. Love you 🖤🤍
I have to tell myself that all the time. "You're fine." "You've been through this before, and you've always been fine." "You just need to calm down." "Positive thinking, positive thoughts," and a bunch of other stuff. If I repeat it enough, things will start calming down. I also have to practice deep breathing. I've had a couple terrible panic attacks, to where I nearly passed out. It's terrifying.
Angela It definitely is tough sometimes. I’m so happy we have this community through Kerli where we can all help each other 🖤
I say "You're safe", "You're protected", ""You are loved". Also chamomile and other teas that soothe the nervous system help reduce my attacks by a lot. Another thing, I'm starting to learn to let the energy pass through me. It's difficult but when you are able to do it, it helps the panic pass faster because you are not holding it inside.
I used to struggle with panic attacks. I had to completely cut out caffeine. Getting lots of potassium and magnesium helps. I second the chamomile. Try lemonbalm, too.
its probably covid
It’s incredible how much I agree with you on absolutely everything you said. And have been through quite similar trials and tribulations. There’s some incredible knowledge about healing the inner child parent etc in hypnotherapy. It’s a beautiful process but also very hard (shadow work). All that we want in the end is peace and that’s why humanity is acting out now. It’s all just a call for love.
woah tony, didn't know you liked Kerli ! :D
Tony commenting on a Kerli video feels like a crossover episode
Thank you for sharing so much with us when you didn’t have to, that was so brave and amazing of you. When you started to cry I started to as well (which is a habit I have with people I care about). These last few months I haven’t really felt well, because I feel like I’m not even supposed to exist. I feel like my living right now was never meant to be, and it’s scary. I don’t know if it’s where I’m trying to do shadow work and be more self aware or what. I’ll try going into my body like you said and see why I’m feeling that way, and try to recognize what that is and comfort it. Love you so much.
I HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR THIS VIDEO. I have had SO many questions as I have just "awakened" and I feel that I've been drawn to you for some reason, even though when I initially found you, I had very different beliefs.
I consider you such an inspiration and I have been in yet another spiritual rut but then you posted this. THANK you. You inspire me to work on my own project and to become a better lightworker.
Love youuuuuuuu
@@isaura-22 Same that was the song that really really spoke to me. Of course, I loved her aesthetic and voice, but she just omits love and peace and I am so so drawn to that. Now I know why. I just wish more people felt and experienced what we do
Awakened is a misused word among the new age community. Your aware now. More intuitive. True awakening is buddha. Kerlie thought she did all she can do healing wise then realized theres more layers. Theres always more layers to peel until we truly awaken and we will know then without a shadow of doubt that something profound has happened because no fear exists anymore. Just everlasting peace and bliss that does not end. Everlasting
questtofreedom I actually really appreciate that! Sorry if I was offensive at all, I’m still learning so much 😅 I definitely feel more aware for sure. I’m excited to see where this journey takes me. 💕
She is so F*cking beautiful!!
OMG Kerli looks like a goddess
Are her eyes Hazel? I'm hypnotized.
@@bitcoinski Her eyes are blue but here her eyes look hazel..
@@rosegarcia8374 You're too sweet, guys! My eyes actually change color. Usually they're blue, green or gray.
@Seth wait how doy you do thatt? I get mad or sad and they stay black :(
I could listen to you talk all day! I love what you said near the end about embracing anxiety and showing love to those darker parts of ourselves because I started experiencing panic attacks about 3 years ago out of nowhere, and I think for the first year and a half, I kept thinking "when am I going to feel normal again" which definitely made things worse because I was going against a part of myself. Then I came to the point where I accepted that I'm going to go through changes in life and that's okay. I embraced my anxiety, I acknowledge its presence whenever it comes and everything has gotten a lot better. I've been able to really ground myself within the anxiety before it gets out of hand.
I was watching a lot of negative type videos, (exposing people for bad behaviour/ racism etc) and watching this in the middle of all that negative energy was so cleansing! This kind of energy and motivation was just what I needed ☺️
Same
moment of silence for all the people, pets, and strangers that left before the coming of the new age
I have very similar experiences where I've written them off as panic attacks, but they are more like what you described where it builds up and erupts and lasts until I go to bed too. So much of what you say resonates with me. I love listening to talk and share your experiences because it makes me feel less like people wouldn't understand what these feelings are like. I really agree though that shadow work is 100% needed to evolve. Without it I think we get stuck hidden in those shadows.
It's so strange to hear that so many people in the comments (as well as Kerli herself) had such severe panic attacks during these past few months. I had them as well and went to so many doctors and had so many tests done but nothing really came back from it. Mostly everyone said I was having a rise in anxiety because of COVID and I can believe it, but these attacks felt so different to the anxiety I've had my entire life. I know it's not anything big, but it comforts me to know that others experience these weird bouts of severe anxiety; I had a feeling it had something to do with an external force but I couldn't be sure ( and still aren't!) but reading other's accounts makes me feel a little better. Love you Kerli, I'm glad you're feeling better xx
I want to say how much your video and your experience has spoke to me. The very first panic attack I had, I was a teenager. There was a physical element to it, hormones, but I felt that day long FEAR. It was not normal. I thought I was dying; I thought I was in a living hell. I did not know anyone else experienced this kind of panic. They always say it lasts for 30 minutes or so and should go away. No, it did not go away until i asked for help from God. At this time I did not know where I stood spiritually so it was super scary. I felt like I was being spiritually attacked. The only thing that helped was praying. Because of this, I was called to paganism and witchcraft, specifically on how to mentally protect myself and battle these thoughts in my head. I am still learning, but I am so grateful for you and your story. I was also drawn to shadow work recently as well and finding your channel, I feel not so alone anymore in my journey. Much love
Instead of the difficult to breath, it was my heart failing. I had an experience pretty similar, I started feeling my heartbeat stopping, literally. Went to a bunch of exams and everything was fine, but still feeling my heartbeat stopping, worst experience in my life. Went to the hospital a lot of times, and I had this day which everything was really strange, my entire body was like receiving this extreme strong energy, I felt like I was dying. Just went of the bus (I was in my way home after the work), in the middle of nowhere and just called my mom to say goodbye, cause I was really feeling like I was dying. After this day, my heart didn’t feel like stopping and my mental health started getting better. Crazy times.
Thank you Kerli, the ascension symptoms have been horrible for me. I've been so exhausted. I also feel the collective shadow work being done in the world and I'm excited to see the flip side when we get there.
Everything you're saying is point on with a lot of my experiences. I pretty much stay quiet on things like this because of my age. I am an older person that has been on this journey for a while. I continue to do shadow work on and off. I feel like this is something that never ends. The number of younger people shifting into 5D is awesome! Even though there is resistance in the world for you now, it has changed for the better due to the answering the call to this shift! I love your music, but I have to be honest. This amount of openness and sharing is beyond beautiful. You are letting people, regardless of their age, understand that the experiences and feelings they have are rare, but not unusual! Much Love to You Kerli!
This is exactly aligned with my experiences over the past four months. I admire you speaking on everything. I think it is simply BeautiFull. This stage of life experience can be isolating. It is scary sometimes, all day sometimes, shaking etc. Some days I feel like it will kill me to simply push through the energies....the light vibrations...what I hear from a higher perspective is a drive for self Love, period. Self care. In my experience...just acting on we are being called to do in any moment is the key to making it thru so to speak. Thank you for your vulnerability and your authenticity. I value your channel eternally. Thank you.
I do feel like everything in my life is pushing me to take total responsibility, but it’s like a rabbit hole, the more I go deep within myself the most trauma I realize I have, and it seems to never end , it’s disappointment over the first disappointment 😅 going myself crazy here ... thank u Kerli, I relate to every single word you said and I send you love from Mexico City
i was going to write almost the exact same comment as this-like word for word. you summed up exactly how i've been feeling :).
ali-inka hehe ☺️ feel you sister, sending you love ❤️ !! Probably we only need to meet hell to integrate everything.. 🙈
You are not alone I feel exactly the same way. Sending you light and love.
The thought /feeling came to me not long ago that the mother energy can heal the world.
As a woman approaching my mid-thirties the mother energy has been waking up in my heart for a while now. While I long to have the experience of giving all my love to a little human, giving it to myself feels blocked..something to work towards for sure, especially as I experience lately more painful life experiences and wanting to heal childhood trauma. We are our own best healers 💕
I love following you and hearing your stories and guidance. You're a role model to me. I want to be at that spiritual level. Everything you talk about is so fascinating and don't forget you're never alone. Thank you for everything you've done for us and im excited for this book of yours!
We are very fortunate to have a beautiful human being like you💜 Thank you for sharing a little about yourself and do not apologize, we understand
You are amazing! Following you since 2005/06 and understanding you more as a person and artist is truly awesome. Learning from you and more about you with every song and every piece of art and every video and every picture. Keep sharing your light and love in the world! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
You're amazing Kerli, and I feel like you're a mother for all of us, who deal with unhealed trauma, depression and anxiety every day. Thank you for telling us your experiences, you're very inspiring
Integrity, love and unity
Love you so much 💜✨
Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I know anxiety and depression are hard subjects to talk about, and even harder to describe to someone who doesn't understand. I am, we'll say between beliefs at the moment, so it is always nice to hear other perspectives on the world, and life in general.
I hope that you continue to grow into your light.
Thank you for all that you give to us, your light, your music, and your love. I hope that you know there are many of us here that will always be here for you, no matter how your views change.
Around the end of 2018 I started having really severe panic attacks, before that I had never struggled with anxiety, they were so severe it would last for hours I ended up in the emergency room several times. I thought that part of my life would never end, I’ve had them to where my entire body would go numb and my chest would be burning up. I eventually realized this all stemmed from unhandled trauma in my childhood things I never dealt with until the bottle exploded. I feel it’s the points in life when we have the greatest shifts that affect us the most without us even realizing. It’s always important to check in with yourself and be aware of what’s happening both around you and within yourself.
I started listening to you when I was at my most depressed as a tiny 16yo right when Love is Dead came out, and watching this now reminds me just how far I've come. I have also gone through an incredibly similar experience - I am now making my brain get used to feel content - I have not experienced this emotion since I was a very young child. Love you so much Kerli, it's great growing together from afar.
Thank you for sharing your experience, Kerli. I appreciate you talking openly about it, because I’ve also had panic attacks recently, and I think you’re right that it’s when you try to do spiritual work/heal the shadow self some lower vibrational entities are attracted to the vulnerability. It’s almost like testing your will. You are so strong, and you have helped me to heal through my spirituality over 12 years✨ ilysm thanks for checking in, I understand and respect that you need time away and space to work on your art, but it’s so nice to see you! Btw love the garden🌿 Integrity, love, unity🤍
This was an amazing vid. the timing of it, at least for my life could not of been better timed. I am going to sit down and watch it again and take notes of things i want to comment on and share. I have been fighting too many things as of late and feel like i am just grinding gears, but this has given me things to think on that will be productive. Thank you greatly wise one. Peace/Love/Unity for all.
Honey! I've been going through the same thing. Everything you mentioned I was going through it. I saw shadows and sensed entities in my home. Spirits were even visiting me in my dreams. I kept questioning myself, like am I going crazy? My anxiety was so bad too, I couldnt be around anyone and couldnt think straight it was horrible. I really thought I was losing my mind, this was last year. Fast forward to now, I'm a completely different person. I kept getting this feeling to meditate and I did often, then one day I started noticing 111 and 1111. Ever since those numbers appeared in my life, I have changed so much, I'm aware of myself and the connection I have to everything. My anxiety is gone and things I had trouble seeing before are clear as day. Ascension is no joke, alot of people are going through it right now, It sucks but its wonderful when you get to the other side. Keep going with the flow and shining your light love. Hugs from NYC
I just started seeing MAD numbers like a week ago. I usually just think they mean "keep on going, you're tappng into smth rn". What do you think the numbers mean?
@@KERLImusic They are called angel numbers. My numbers 111 or 1111 mean I'm on the right path, my thoughts are manifesting, my intuition is reliable and I'm spiritually enlightened. I think angel numbers are beautiful, I smile now everytime I see them cause I know the universe is guiding me. You should look up the meanings for the numbers that you see.
I am so grateful to have this opportunity to tune in. In my opinion, this pandemic has forced us to pause and reflect instead of continuing to be distracted by the urgency of life. Also,you brought out great points of unification. All of us are connected here in this space and time for a reason. Currently, I'm finishing up my bachelors degree, plan to move out of my hometown, get a job and buy a house. I aim to have a collective that embraces that independence of growing food, harvesting rain water, and expressing ourselves through art. I'm still in the process of building myself but thats my aim.
Dope!
I love that you can openly admit when you change your view. It's refreshing. ❤️ I swear your music literally heals my soul when I hear it. Like I physically feel a chance inside.
Thank you for your amazing existence! Integrity, love, unity 💚
Thank you so much for sharing this. I thought i was going crazy and i feel the same thing. I checked my vitals and everything was fine but my heart has been feeling like it’s beating hard and fast. Lately my body has lost control of its self and I’m dealing with health issues I’ve never had before. It’s really weird because all of my blood work says I’m healthy but i know something is off. You know when everyone tells you you’re fine but deep down you know something isn’t right but can’t explain it? That’s me right now. I also am feeling a deep sense of connection with nature. Last week i was craving the mountains, and being in the woods so i flew somewhere to be there. I climbed one of my favorite mountains Mt. Rainier and I literally looked out and cried. Tears of gratitude, and happiness. Being in nature- mountains, woods, beaches... they make me feel like my problems don’t exists.
Omg, you make me cry. I agree so much with everything you describe. You're like a teacher. So glad I just discovered you and your music recently!
Everything you said throughout this video really hit me. I couldn’t agree more.
I have a lot of days where I can not breathe. Yet my vitals are perfect. And it feels like anxiety. Yet it’s something entirely different. It’s more Ethreal. Very spiritual. And I know this because later when I’m sleeping I’ll have a lucid dream and a day or two maybe more days will have passed and then I live that lucid dream and it’s like a brick hitting me into a wall. I become dizzy and sent into this weird “deja vu” state of mind and coming to the realization that I’ve already lived this day. Word for word, moment by moment, action for action. It used to scare me at first when I would have them as a child. But as I’ve gotten older , I’ve learned to accept them and even now I just smile. Because, I mean it’s the magick within me lol and it’s working and I’m in tune with my energies and my visions. And it’s exciting to have that ability and power. Never a dull moment in my life, that is for sure lol.
Yo: enojado porque Kerli nos tiene abandonados.
Kerli: Les pido una disculpa por desaparecer, necesito tiempo para mi arte y mi crecimiento personal.
Yo inmediatamente: TE AMO KERLI 💖
You shouldn't have been mad anyway but at least you forgive.
Kerli, I'm an Aquarius man and I can't express enough how grateful I am to you for making this video. THANK YOU for sharing your insight with us all, and for providing me some respite from my reality to take time and gain another viewpoint. Truth be told, I've felt this collective shadow work and admittedly, I waffle between gratitude and depressive rage, (I'm a "Manifestor" according to Human Design and anger is a big part of my driving force to institute change). Being empathic, I've felt the pain the world-over has felt. and I'm fighting to help bring about an age of compassion. I've seen throughout my life people use their privilege to build walls instead of tables, and my hope is that with this global reset we could collectively transform our walls into tables all of us could gather around. That said, thanks to your video, I need to do my own shadow-work and have compassion for myself. So I intend to begin that work you've recommended and I hope through it I can ascend to fulfilling what the universe wants me to become. Thank you Kerli for sharing, continuing to provide me inspiration, and being a voice for the universe. I truly appreciate you!
Sometimes just taking your shoes off and being grounded with earth is just what you need, feel the grass between your toes and when you get the breath knocked out of you, focusing on the trees definitely bring you back down to earth just watching them brings the air back to your lungs for me.
I had been stuck in the most violent toxic relationship for 5 years. In june decided to go to rehab because i just couldnt carry on. Knowing my bf was doing meth the whole time, had another girlfriend, was lying about having a job & had a whole double life while over here i thought i was help him kick drugs while i became homeless after having my own place & my own in come. To know my whole heart went to destroying me was more than i could recover from. I became an alcoholic & started cutting again. I couldnt stop. Hed come home after days of being gone & just laugh. Your music as always fit so perfect. It helped so much. It seems like u went thru the same hell just a little before...
Damn. My flower, I’m so sorry you had to go through such a thing. I know what it is to be in an abusive relationship, however mine didn’t have drugs in the mix. I also know what it is to cut, I’be been doing it on and off since I was 15 because of an abusive step father who we’d stayed with for 5 years as well. I’m now 33 and yeah, I have my demons, but don’t we all? There’s a line from a Hozier song called Arsonist’s Lullabye that I love and resonates deeply with me: “Don’t you ever tame your demons, but always keep them on a leash.”
We’ll get there one day, and even though we’ve faced our different versions of hell, they made us what we are today and we know better from it. I wish you the best of life & love & happiness. But remember, don’t you ever tame your demons...
Also, grounding is everything. Another important thing that many skip over (myself included). I like a lot of people started on the path because I felt so alien here like I didn’t belong and the feeling intensified as I got older so I would try disengage from this reality as much as could because that’s where I felt safe so to speak. But the more I did that the heavier I got & the depression & anxiety was so much worse. Took me a while to realize that not only was that a form of spiritual bypassing (at least for me) but I am not here on earth to get away from it, I’m here to help bring that energy to earth. In order to do that you have to do things like sleep, eat well, move your body & all the other self care things. It’s so simple but it’s effective lol.
Really great comment!
You are wise beyond your years....I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety since I was a teenager and I am 45 years old now....I was physically and mentally abused by my step mother when I was a child and it has affected me all these years and it still does and I don't know how to forgive her and move on ....every man I have been with has been mentally and physically abusive as well and these things just make my depression and anxiety worse....thankyou for your honesty....its nice to know that I'm not alone in how I am feeling....it seems like a lot of people are dealing with depression and anxiety these days and I think it's because there is way too much negativity innthe world and I believe that it affects all of us maybe even subconsciously but we need more positivity innthe world and unfortunaltely I believe things are just going to get worse and not better and I feel so sorry for the next generation and my future grandchildren....you seem like such a sweet and intuitive person and very open minded and I love people that are open minded .....thankyou again for sharing all of your knowledge because it really does help others like myself.
I’m being following you since MySpace days and hearing this video makes me feel not alone! I’m feeling the same so much! Experiencing panic attacks, huge spiritual awakening and I’m an Aquarius as you Kerli! ❤️ Energy frequency really exist and I’m happy to follow you all those years, we all dealing the same energy 🙏🏻✨
Have had an experience of not being able to breathe and have had high anxiety before . I allow myself to feel those feelings . I will do guided meditation and not worry about it again . It took years of practice but I’m aware more of myself than before . Also have begun painting again to relax but it started bringing up emotions and I am happy that it does so I can let go of those emotions . 🖤
Last year I started having anxiety experiences that lasted hours like that, right up until i fell asleep. It felt like surges of adrenaline linked to a sensation of complete impending doom. I couldn't eat or sleep, at its worst the surges were coming every 90 seconds. This went on for weeks and only really settled down when i began trauma therapy that bypassed my usual thinky talky style and went straight to processing my unheard feelings.
This inner work has given me some of the most frustrating, exhilarating, terrifying experiences of my life. It's gonna be a continuous journey, for sure, but the framework of polyvagal theory really helped me make sense of what was happening on a physiological level. I now believe my inner child/ parts were finally surfacing as i confronted some deep fears (the episodes began during a period of huge stress). They came up now because I was finally ready to hold them, and I am slowly learning the story of all these lost selves I never knew. It's heartbreaking. It's glorious.
The interesting thing is that sometimes they can also surface in times of relax...when the energy feels calm enough for the traumas to be held.
@@KERLImusic some EMDR but mostly Internal Family Systems
I've been explaining 20/20 to my children this way.
Hindsight is 20-20. What is going on this year is everything we NEED to address on personal, societal and global levels will now come back to the forefront in ways we no longer choose to ignore or turn a blind eye to.
It's important to do the work. Growth that is uncomfortable can be our most productive.
And I too have recently gone through breathing issues. I have reactive airway and someone's strong perfume gave me chemical pneumonia in October. And in the midst of that my cat allergy I can normally handle with claritan ended up being a 4 month ordeal because I am now allergic to something their saliva. To the point I got blisters and went into anaphylactic shock
You have no idea how much this matters to me, Kerli. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for being who you are for the over a decade. Thank you for sharing your journey. Love from Australia.
You are so awesome for promoting EFT! I've been tapping since I was 16 and it saved my life
My anxiety has been off the charts also and I feel that the collective consciousness around the globe has been feeding that steadily. I appreciate this vulnerable video so much, thank you Kerli.
I feel so lucky just being able to hear you talk. You're full of light and love ♡ thank you for sharing Kerli 🌒🌕🌘
Hi Kerlie. I experienced this two years ago.
I had a series of episodes where I couldn't breath and it would last for hours. I too kept calling the ambulance because I literally thought I would die. I would walk and just sit in a and e because I thought I might die any minute. Ofcourse they checked all my vitals and I was technically fine but it was worse when I woke up at night. Looking back on it now I do think it was anxiety. I was in an abusive relationship and also living in a narrow boat which was claustrophic. From listening to you talk I know some of how you feel - I would say your long episodes of not being able to breath is anxiety attacks that last much longer like mine did. Hope you feel better soon xxx
i'm only halfway through this but i want to thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us kerli! i'm currently grappling with ending an 8 year friendship which has become so horribly toxic within the past two years (i have been the target of narcissistic abuse) and i needed to hear all this so much. the energy has been so heavy and full of anxiety lately but i'm ready to take back my freedom and hold myself and heal. much love
For indigo or crystal children gens it makes sense now. To feel, to channel or forge that type of mother love and connect with it. If something isn't prexisting, if we can't affirm it or back it up, its hard to find which direction to aim the other magnetic end.... isn't it? Kerli, you struck gold for me with this share. This made me realize I had a constellation above my head in my shadow... not just a star. 💓
Over the years I have many 'wrinkles',but,I've worked through all of them and I'll be turning 52 this month.You have a strong character nature is a great healer,be brave and I love you.
I cannot yet fully comprehend how much I needed this. But I'm seeing it clearer each minute. Thank you for that ♡
Thank you for this video. I know it has been a while since it has been released, but I think we see things at a specific time for a reason. This is what I needed to see this morning, I also suffer from anxiety and allergies, and I have been well still am on pills to help. In addition I am spiritual, and I am very young but also old in my journey if that makes sense. This video is showing me there are other way to look about my progression. I though I had right up until recently when those dark energies were coming back, but it is helpful to learn how to love them rather than to just fight because that could take its toll on you. I know talked about a lot, but I wanted to let you know how grateful I am of you. Always been a fan of your music and creations, but this has helped me far more than I can yet to realize. Hopefully I see brighter things for me as well. Love and Support always. Dallas
You are incredible! I've been going through the same thing, especially this year! I've done soo much shadow work and its so beautiful. This is such a powerful time in the universe! 💖✨
I've always watched you vlogs but I've never commented UNTIL relate that kinda of experience where you got to be your own mother.
I'm living by my own for 3 years now and I'm becoming to experience this feelings where you doubt yourself but at the same time say several times to yourself "you got this and I got you"
One of my first major shamanic experiences was being called to go out in a thunderstorm. When I answered the call, the rain let up, and I started speaking words, some I didn't understand, none I had previously thought of and there was no intention or anything specifically from myself or my own consciousness. I was basically creating a pact with the planet as a protector and warrior. When I finished saying the "pact" there was a massive clap of thunder and it started pouring rain, and I felt brand new. It was amazing, and also daunting. I've had a lot more experiences now, and I'm fairly used to them by now, but they still amaze me. Thank you for sharing your journey! It's amazing to hear other experiences and see how the community grows and connects!
Sounds amazing! I had a similar experience with the spirit of my land over here. Promises were made from both ends.
Ya exactly! That is amazing!
So much yes to the Shadow work! Just like anything else in spirituality we ALL have access and can do it but certain things may be easier for others. Shadow work they may have taken years or even lifetimes for some is showing up & pounding on the door now demanding to be looked at. Which as scary as that can be, when I have moments of clarity I still appreciate that 3D allows you to experience spiritual growth & lessons in a really visceral & dense way that may not be the cases in other forms of consciousness. So I also really resonate with the idea of everyone is going through the shadow work both personally & collectively in order for us to ascend.
agreed 100%. i lost faith in my religion and government and set out to find my own spiritual path that fits my life and only my life without others input i began spiritual AWAkENING while learning from your videos.thank you for sharing and creating content.. great content i love it.
Kerli I have been watching your music videos for a while and I absolutely love your asthetic as a creator and singer. You inspire so many ideas for my novella. I hope you never stop producing music and ideas. Lots of love from America!
So important to me you mentioned shadownwork and the fact that we don't have to be or we aren't always vibrating in a positive frequencie. I've changed a lot this past year and I was depressing myself trying to be like I was before creating the image that I was happier, more joyful, but with everything that is happening in the world, and all the times that I was alone without even a thought made me realize that "here and now" was never so real and it's all part of the process, I keep on moving, and i can't wait to see you in #PoweOrPride I hope we find a way to make it happen ♡
shadow work will increase your frequency anyway , so it is all good , integrate , heal and release what does not serve, will make you lighter and help increase you frequency .
much love from north africa.
Completely resonates with me. I LOVE the way you explained the triple moon sign, as well as self parenting. Our higher self IS the parent of our 3D form. I haven't done shadow work yet, but my guides are most definitely sending me signs I need to. Thank you for this video!
Kerli you are such a beautiful person inside an out. I am so grateful i found your Vlogs during this lockdown and i love watching them. This one was exactly wanted i needed to hear in this moment, i felt overwhelming moments of emotions and tears. For me during this year so far i have felt waves of spiritual disconnect (like a numbness) and reconnect throughout this summer, but after each wave i feel different. it constantly changes, my mind has become more still, my heart is opening up bigger than i thought it could, i have days of feeling like i am not even in my body, it feels so strange. but i know its positive. my views are constantly changing as i become more aware and i am becoming at ease and embracing the unknown. I really love your vibe, your energy is beautiful! to everyone on here who has being going through anxiety, sending you so much love and healing, you are all beautiful, and loved xxxx
I've had chronic night terrors for my entire life. It took me a while to realize that this is a sign of deep inner turmoil. You're very inspiring to start working on myself.
I love you. I felt anxiety with being alone in my house for the first time in months and I had to mother myself too with music, my dogs, and just talking to myself.
Excited to see more from you ❤️
Thank you so much for talking about all this. It touches some things I'm dealing with right now and just seeing somebody else talking about it makes me feel better. This year has been a painful ride so far, but the insight gained from it is invaluable. Your video made me connect some of it into a bigger picture. Thank you again for being such an amazing inspiration.
Kerli, I have also shared the experience with you this year of extreme anxiety. I have had real panic attacks since the lockdown has started, right after I was doing well, found a gym I finally don’t have to force myself to go to, been eating better too. And I know too it is a part of coming out and ascending closer to my purpose, my higher self. I am the most whole I’ve ever been.
I also think Jung is super interesting and I would like to continue my shadow work. I wish I could find a healer like you to help me through it. While I was doing my own it was very very intense.
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Yeah, it's hard to do the conscious growth on your own. I wish that helpers appear on your journey!
Also, that’s awesome you’re getting a gun, there are great options out in Eastern Europe!!! I envy you lol
I here you, you never alone, enjoy the ride, explore and keep encountering your inner fears, they are good lessons, part of growth into collective spiritual revolution of total freedom, peace and freedom, your words of wisdom is proof of that, respect Kerli, keep up good work of spreading light and love. Listening from London, thanks - Olen eestlane.
Much love sister and everyone here ❤️ love your furbaby... Many are waking up and more people to come!!
I love you Kerli, you made me realize many things. I'm just starting this journey of self-discovery and self-love, peace to you
This video affirmed why I love you so much. I know what you are going through.
Interpretation is everything. Don’t let fear interpret things for you. We always underestimate how much we rely on the same old symbols, conceptions, and patterns. How these come out, and working through them causes fear as you move away from them. They are sort of a symbolic womb. And the contractions and the crushing anxiety of Birth are there to expand your life into a new realm. So you need to ride the waves of anxiety, the contractions of the old ways and the old world. What worked best for me is self-love. You said you were self-centered in the past and that usually comes from fear of loss or loss of love.
So maybe your hurdle is more trust and self-love oriented. So I would suggest looking into a mirror and say how much you love that scared little girl within. Even stroke your arm or leg in a loving way gently and say those things and you need to repeat it. It takes a while to reverse old habits, like 45 days every day minimum. It’s not instantly that things will change. Women who give birth think birth takes 45 days... or forever... especially the first one. 😂 You will be surprised how effective that will be to use the vibration of speech on yourself and try to lower your voice because It will travel deeper into the spiral cochlea of the ear. Your body is your unicorn.
Yes Kerli you know this. You are a spiritual rider. Love that scared evolutionary animal of light which carries you. Who you really are is beyond that far far beyond. There is no fear in who you really are and have the potential to become. Don’t let other people define you and try to tell you who you are. The old voices will come and you will just reinterpret them and turn them away. The center of you is all ready to shine like a diamond. You gave me gifts with your music and I would help you with anything. To me you are far far more than a pop star and fame can be a burden. I get that: but you are still a person. And I consider you my friend.
I am glad I listened to this. I have been going through my own journey as transgender and spiritual lately and I haven’t been following you as much and I apologize. This morning I woke up in my car (long story) and in the field outside my window a solid white cat ran across the field toward the bay. It was so clean and white. I watched it the whole way. The reason I watched this video was because I saw you holding a white cat. 🥰🌈
I love the kitties so much!!! ❤️😝 I always have time for Kerli. 🙂
Yes. A million times, yes. Ever since this year started, the only word I've held into my brain is "growth", "this is a year of growth" I would say. And maybe what it was was the new light? Winter time was the lowest I've ever been. Started to work on myself at the end of it and then coronavirus hit. But somehow I still felt peace, I felt that this year was going to be a growth for everyone. And so many things have come to light. It's mind blowing. I can barely make words for it. Thank you for sharing 🖤🤍
Your talk about 5D world concept has opened my eyes to appreciate myself even more in spiritually. Thanks for the sharing. :D
When you started crying I did too!😭😭Lol I'm so sensitive. I'm so thankful that you share your spiritual journey with us cuz I know it's really personal.🖤🖤 I relate a lot especially spiritual awakening. I get angry to the system and feel 1000x everything. Which is great and annoying at the same time.
Gosh I really didn’t realize how much I needed a kerli sit down. It feels like it’s been sooo long, and these often force me to ground myself a little more.
I’m gonna write a bit of a diary entry here because I know this is a safe space.
I feel like I’ve taken 100 steps back recently. Feeling too weighted by earthly things which is uncomfortable for someone who’s an Air sign like me.
Recently I’ve become a huge part of a community for a musician you posted before, iamx, he’s been doing these free online mental health gatherings where he lets people discuss and ask questions regarding mental health and mindfulness and lately it’s really been the key to me focusing on healing. But I feel like everytime I get closer to working on myself something happens to my body physically, pulling me backwards.
I definitely am self absorbed right now, kind of feel like I’m locked into it and I keep fumbling and dropping the keys trying to get out.
I feel like the shadowwork, I’m really good at it, but I’m also really good at getting stuck in the goo of it.
I don’t feel connected at all to these human experiences which is one thing I think I really benefit from when it comes to focusing on healing myself- I don’t have earthly desires or wants. I don’t feel connected to it which is why I think I like to get stuck in my bubble.
Chris/iamx has taught me so much. I think he’s a really special person and teacher even if he doesn’t know it. He’s taught me: The past and the future don’t exist, mindfulness is key to freedom, sometimes I have to accept the “isness” he says of things.
Also! It’s crazy that as I’m writing this you mention moths- because these past few days I keep thinking of moths. They keep coming up, like a sign to me. I was thinking about moths as you were talking and then you said the word. Anyone know what that means? Spirit animal wise even?
Don’t apologize!
Thanks for always being there girl!! 💛 🌝
This is something I went through in August as well. Word to word. Exactly how you describe it. Thank you for sharing ♥
I have gone through the same and have been on my own and felt like I was on my own for so long, thank you for making me understand that we are all going through this together, love you xxx
this vlog really made me reflect on my spiritual journey and how it's made me the way i am today. i definitely see myself in a lot of things you've shared with us and i'm really happy that it's made me reconnect with my deeper self. the only thing i wanted to point out: you getting a gun permit is gun control, you're getting a PERMIT you're not buying guns in a store. Gun control is the way we european people live and, in my opinion, it helps our society a lot. Thank you for sharing your story with us, forever grateful for the inspiration and reflexion.
You have one of the brightest, most beautiful and pure hearts. I love your music but you as a person I adore. Thank you for loving us all and allowing us to send that back in kind. I have 4 daughters and raised them on Sailor Moon, and I found you and shared your work with them and they adore it too. Diamond Hard is my 9 year olds favorite, and Zero Gravity is mine. Thank you for being such a beautiful soul. People like you are why I think mankind as a whole has a chance.
i absolutely resonate with you and i cannot wait for more of your art. we are coming into the age of aquarius slowly... so many shifts are happening beneath the surface. i'm working on a secret music/film project and it's aligned with where we're headed in humanity... surprises are ahead! 💚
I have had ascension symptoms too.... Fatigue and ringing in my ears. I feel for you Kerli. Your experience was intense. And I love your music. Told my friends about you today.
Thank you for being so open to us⭐💕 this was a bad period for me too... I know I'm not the only one so big hugs to everyone feeling bad and scared
You've described a lot of what I'v been going thru during this entire pandemic, like calm in the storm, but the fatigue has been wicked. Maybe it comes from holding that calmness for so long in the heavy 3D energy. Although we're in a higher vibration we still have to live in the 3D world and try to rise above it all. A lot of us are doing very intense inner child/shadow work right in the middle of all this. I'm a crone and still doing work, it never ends hun. You're doing great, keep rocking it queen!
Yes... As we awaken it's like that ... Staying in the moment is good and trying to be in the moment as much as you can 😊
Kerli, you have been my idol since I was so young. I remember listening to your song tea party when I was 10 years old, I would put on a costume dress and pretend to be you, I spent hours listening to your music and I just never stopped. I use your album Shadow Works to meditate, I can feel your energy through my screen and you bring so much peace into my life, so thank you for all you do, I'm so happy to call myself a moon baby. I truly wish you nothing but the best!
I had the experience as well. It's like a tidal wave taking me under. Drowning from every trauma and emotions (past or present) all came down on me all at once. That's when I lost my fight and my thrive to survive. It was just too much plus the high stress environment and career. All that physical/emotional/ mental and spiritual pain does not go well with the career. I had to take myself out the situation to focus on self healing. Still in progress...
This is so incredibly interesting, I find myself dealing with panic attacks sometimes, I medicate to suppress that feeling. But it’s so interesting to see how others can deal with it by themselves.
Love you too Queen, you will forever be my favourite Artist I seem to connect with so much you say and sing it kind of baffles me how much I will be forever greatful as I used to be a doubter of spirituality but no longer am my Dad was a very spiritual person and I never understood but now I do I feel more connected to my Dad than ever now as I want to try to be spiritual too and better myself you have helped me so much in my live whether that be spiritually or personally and I'm sure you will continue to be a constant inspiration for the rest of my life you helped me overcome so much past trauma I am Eternally Greatful Moon Baby Alex Xxxxx
Something I find in common with you is that I also need those times where I disappear. It means I'm doing something, and then I can come back and share.
Thank you for saying it, that it's not about toxic positivity. I run away from people who say we should stay positive all the time. That's not true, as everything is in constant movement and changing, we were never supposed to be just one thing, one emotion, it's not true. Thank you.
Hope you find a way to improve your condition when the allergies strike again.
Hello 🐈♥️ Just dropping by to say how much I love You and all that you do. It's been said you have to learn to love yourself. There is truth to that but how to apply it?! I think you have to embrace growth and to remind yourself to keep loving yourself. I personally have always felt different. I am okay with that now more than ever. I don't have to worry about what others think. I havn't always been at odds with myself but most of my life... I was. I feel I am now accepting things better. Just turned 50 even though many can't believe it 😎 I am an Artist. I am spiritual. I don't have all the answers. I know what I do know. I have my experiences. I help others. I have commented on some of your videos before. This time was more personal. Love you Kerli!! You are not alone. ♥️
thank you for sharing 💓 feeling all the love. happy to get to see this video!!☀️🤍 also love the kitty
I've been feeling the same change and urge to go off grid as well as have been going back to my spiritual roots.
I completely understand and have experienced what you're experiencing.
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Its as though I can feel this collective awakening. Beautiful.
I definitely agree with your spiritual advisor, and resonate with what you are saying.