This is me. 41 year old been battling with Bi-Polar Disorder since 16. He put it so well. My feeling of despair and depression brought me to this video. It’s so complex you can’t describe it. HE DID AN AWESOME JOB OF EXPLAINING.
Sorry to hear you were feeling depressed. Hopefully you’re feeling better now. I’m only 27 but I’ve been dealing with BPD for a while now. He really does explain things so perfectly. I recommend the movie he directed “touched with fire” if you haven’t seen it yet. Know that you’re not alone and I will be thinking of you. Peace and blessings
I meditate and I don’t medicate. I am healed. Bipolar is an opportunity for spiritual enlightenment. Only if you want it. Indian spiritual masters can help. Or whatever you prefer. But these people know this happens. They don’t medicate and call people crazy. They know you are awakening from the dream of Maya.
I've known him since i was 12. He has been a very honest and loyal freind throughout my life. I never understood why he seemed different than many other people but apparently this is why. i wish him well.
I felt alone for a long time too. Reading these comments makes me feel much better. Seeing “touched by fire” really helped too. I wish all of my bi polar peers nothing but the very best ❤
I have been diagnosed in 2021 with Bipolar 2 and it has stopped me in my tracks. Everything I enjoyed has waned. I’m on pause and its like running underwater and standing still. The flood of emotions, overwhelming painful anxiety and the deep, dank, dark depression is enough to take you out of this earth. It’s so hard to understand how to harness the good moments that come and go in a moment. I look up and that moment is gone like all the other moments that are hiding in a room somewhere in my mind. I blame so much of this disease on chemtrails,the gmo foods, the air we breath and the things we are told in these crazy turbulent times of wayward funk. So many people have mental health issues. It’s an epidemic to crazy proportions. The escape is terrible but slightly hopeful to try and get out of this. For me the highs and lows, the depression, loathing, the frightening anxiety and the feeling of being in a river of quick sand and molasses when no one else is around to pull you out and the sound of your silent screams can’t pull you out makes you want to snuff yourself out. It’s so hard, too hard to try especially when theirs no hope. If I could only be dumb with hope, I could figure the next move, but the commitment of doing anything it tougher and the only thing that it says to me is shut up, be still, don’t move, don’t speak, don’t live, stay put and play dead, infact be dead, get dead, it’s your only way out! I hear a slight moan of my soul and it’s low and soft, but it says, wait, wait. It says nothing more than that but at least it spoke, which is more than my waking body and stagnant mind has said. So I wait, I’m on pause but I wait, endlessly in a waiting stance.
Its almost like thalassaphobia where you see this massive enveloping blackness about to swallow you up. That sinking feeling in your gut. Impending doom almost.
This video is inspiring to me. I have the challenge of living with bipolar 1 disorder. And, now I see it as a plus for a lot of reasons. But, my life has been a tragedy as well because the psychosis is so treacherous it defies words. I attempted suicide so many times and abused substances and blew through a large inheritance for years and years. I finally, at 61, have found a balance and understand my disease. I am clean/sober and a born again Christian. Through psycho pharmacology, but most of all God , I have found lasting peace and hope. I was hopeless for so long. Thank you for this healing video.
Euphoria and Suicidal , Paul excellently presents the experience. I also want to learn more about the Shaman. Thank you, Paul, for describing what I can only experience.
I had to send "Manic Khan" from King of the Hill to describe to a friend what only my wife and co workers see, especially before meds. Most people are like "I get excited sometimes, and active" or "I get sad sometimes and don't want to do stuff"
@@potatomuffin4420 same here bro except my problems might be worse i have bad eye to the point where i put my phone screen close to my face sometimes on top of that i have been through trauma and have other medical problems
I've had nearly identical experience. To me the best way to describe it was a truth surge in terms of seeing all the symbolism. Doctors are more eager to diagnose you than help you. I believe one of the most painful things a human can experience is never being understood. I love it when people have the courage to share their story, it helps way more than most doctors do.
Finding a psychiatrist who really sees YOu..as individual person with a personality..who really cares for you..that you get better seems to be a wonder. And also brain scans and knowing stuff of all you go gone through..right diagnoses before filling you up with meds! And meds can make longterm physical damage.I'm not against meds but also don't for them.When it really helps..yes. But nothing helped me. And there is also the spiritual aspect. The sad and horrible thing is when you don't get the right help..after many years. Bless anyone who is suffering or breathing through mental illnesses ♡Thanks..for sharing this amazing video. The interviewed man is such a kind soul ♡♡
I’m terrified of being misdiagnosed and I’ve read so many accounts of therapist doing more harm than good in till you find the right one.I think living in WV makes that even more of reality.I did use better help the therapist was giving me assignments I didn’t do them which made me feel like a wtf why am I not doing this so I quit because I felt like I was wasting her and mine time that was a couple months ago.I’ve been on such a low all I do is sleep watch TH-cam and I’ve been cutting people off because I’m so embarrassed and I have nothing positive to say.I’m also embarrassed because I’ve told friends and family that I’m gonna try to work thru it and here I am.I totally get the slipping effect I was doing smoothies trying to eat well stopped smoking weed but then I one by one I let my good habits slip and now I’m a gross lump of bad breath and embarrassment.Did Kay write the unquiet mind if so that was a great book.I’m not sure if what I have is bpd but I’m not a psychologist but I do get the racing thoughts intense inspiration creative sparks and feeling spiritually connected I get overwhelmed with it I try to regulate then I crash and get depressed I’m wondering if events trigger cycling also covid went in tandem with growing apart from my best friend and other events the last year has been rough.I feel like when I try to get out of my own head I choose activities or people that make me feel like I’m Re-traumatizing myself and the depression gets worse.rambling. Idk
I am 22 years old and I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in my last semester of college after having a manic episode that led me into jail and a mental institution. I have had a really hard time trying to understand why I have this illness/gift and sometimes I feel like the medication has kept me from reaching my full potential. I have thought about going off of it a lot in order to chase the happiness I felt during mania again but after watching this movie and listening to this interview I think otherwise. He made me have hope that I can be just as vibrant, creative, “genius” lol, even when I am taking medicine and living a normal life. I am still in the process of mourning my manic self because I do miss “her” sometimes but I have to remember that her confidence, charisma, charm, etc. still lives in me but at a much healthier level then when I was manic. It is easy to feel alone with this disorder but reading these comments makes me feel a little less isolated❤️
Bipolar never goes away so you may still feel glimpses of hypo mania that feels amazing. I was also arrested twice and taken to mental hospital for being manic. Please don’t stop taking medication.
I appreciated every part of this interview. From the deep thoughts about regular things, the insight and creativity... The comparison to reaction of others with marijuana, the surprise of the nature of the other "inmates"... The whole psychosis episode... Touched by Fire was the first movie I saw after accepting my diagnosis. Its still the best portrayal of bipolar disorder I've seen on screen. I know this comment is all over🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️... Just everything. Thanks for this. I go nuts because nobody around me understands. I needed this interview tonight.
As an observer, you can see it coming on with the excessive talk and the brainstorming of ideas and future thoughts. Then, boom, the exhaustion sets in and you can go from creative, driven, loving to stuck in bed and sabotaging everything you worked for. He said it right around 14:40! And sugar!!! I agree, it affects bipolar people. Still looking for balance. A life-long, tight rope. #stillgainingexperience Thanks for the insight. Didn’t even think a set off was spring! A common misconception is only winter!
I’m in awe of Paul Dalio. I loved his film Touched with Fire because it captured the way mania ravages your life by starting as a spark of elation which builds up and becomes a wildfire of a wreckage. He certainly humanized the condition and those that suffer with it; there is a beauty in it as there is a deadly sharpened edge that cannot be dismissed. I have much respect for this man.
Im 26 and diagnosed bipolar, shit sucks right now. in a big depression, cant go to work. I can barely get out of bed or my room. I hope and pray this ends soon
It is hard to no extent. Absolutely. Most times it’s hard to get out of bed for me. Brush my hair brush my teeth start the day it’s not easy some days. I don’t win I don’t begin. I stay in bed. It’s almost like it’s freezing to get out of the depression, the anxiety, the highs and lows. Yet if I stay in bed, at least it’s a familiar kind of cold. It’s like when you go into a pool and it’s freezing but you stay in long enough and your body and your temperature gets used to it to some degree you know that getting out you would feel the wind and it would be even colder so you stay in a cold pool Because actually it’s warmer than the outside, even though it is cold. It hurts it helps it’s deep and dark and dank and it’s my reality. I am not on any medication after years of being on. I have become increasingly worried about the effects of medication. The worry of getting memory loss and other Side effects. So I’m going this alone. I’m going without medication and I have been for quite some time but it’s been extremely hard. Most days I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I watch endless videos about bipolar and medication and anxiety and depression, and everything associated with it to try and gain some knowledge some answers, some hope to find a way out of this hell That I know that I’m living. What I once was I’m not now. And I know it’s hard. I’m still fighting in my silent way. I go to therapy and currently looking for another psychiatrist. I try to harness the moments that I feel great and when that happens for however, long it happens because honestly it’s really moment by moment for me I try and be the most productive I can within the time I have allotted in that moment. it’s weird it’s like a big monster waiting on the other side of the other moments. It’s like I have moments of clarity and positivity and I feel on top of the world I feel like I’m gonna change my life turn the channel and get good. And then that moment I am, and then the moments gone. I know what it’s like I live it every day you know you’re not alone. If you think you have it bad, somebody always has it worse in a different way. You have to still try to motivate yourself somehow advocate for yourself watch videos be around positive people and talk it out. Because there’s always a choice in the choices you can either stay above ground or 6 feet under and before I have that final choice I want to see if there’s anything else that I can do to see this through. I want to live nobody really truly wants to die they just want the pain to end. The most important is that there is light somewhere you have to find it. I’m still trying to.
hey I just want to say I absolutely love the content you are putting out there!!! keep doing what your doing! youve inspired me to even create my own channel regarding mental health!!!! I also have bipolar type 1 thank you 👌👌👌
That is one of the best descriptions of psychosis that I've heard. He really has a way with words. I had many profound thoughts while psychotic as well as being utterly terrified.
Loved this. Paul did an amazing job explaining bi polar. My 19 yr old suffers from it and it is so difficult. She is my hero. Even though she is depress with suicidal ideation s she does college on line and holds a job
Thank you Paul for the movie "touched with fire" , i have bipolar disorder and i loved the movie , i finally felt like someone understands it in Movie industry, and thank you For this talk , you inspire us alot .
This is most visible proof that ultra wealthy people are also humans and have deep feelings like all but some portray them as materialistic and selfish, there are things money can't buy, being a human has to go through ups and downs
This interview is opening my head up in a good way. At 59, I have recently been diagnosed and learning that all of the battles I've had through my life with my emotions has been this. I see what my grandmother went through, my father went through, my son is going through and I've been going through. I've been un-medicated, so there's exhaustion and then there's exhaustion. Thank you for this for creating this window to see through.
@@siddharthrajan24 at 10 ..lots pf tears and feeling alienated until I joined orchestra and dove into playing Viola. I found my kin. I learned yoga, inhaled books like an illegal substance. As an adult it was yoga, meditation, movement classes, counseling, raising 3 boys, lots and lots of inner working and searching. Still lots of manic ups, anxiety that crushed me, depressions that none of us understood...but I'm a stubborn survivor. Now I take Lexapro and Buspar....my brain is so so much better. Manic train is still rollong up the tracks this week but I have it better controlled. Eating decently, trying to sleep on a schedule, going outside in the sunshine, and pared my work down to a place that is calmer and less busy. Toolboxes are the way to make it through it all.
@@siddharthrajan24 Step one is to find a counselor or to visit a local mental health care facility and ask for referrals. Getting qualified help is key to it all.
Finally someone who can put in words what it feels like for me and episodes I’ve experienced. Every time I’m talking with someone about it I need them to just watch this. I can’t express it in words like he did.
Before watching this I got told by my therapist I may be bipolar my understanding of bipolar was very vague.. I had a poor perception and couldn’t seem to come to terms with me possibly having this. After listening to Paul I know I am bipolar, and quiet frankly I feel ok with that. The way he depicts it is amazing and gave me so much sense of security of myself. Thank you for this amazing interview.
He is so smart. Mental health is so complex and I hope to educate myself on different topics so that I’m more than just a pretty face. Knowledge is the key to helping others!
Anyone suffering with Bi polar either cyclo mythic bi polar 1 or bipolar 2 disorder there is an Islamic surah prayer called Al rehman its a healing verse best to meditate in the morning for about 15 20 minutes play it 3 times a day for 7 days its will help I'm trying it and it's helping me if not try and meditate when you have a quiet time concentrate on your breath in through your nose out through the mouth.
Totally related to the manic psychosis. Mine took the form of the car radio telling me what to do. I found myself racing cars, making right n left turns if the radio said so...etc. really scary now but totally exciting at the time
god damn, I loved this. I am only 30, but i've been fighting this demon since I was 14. its like hiking through an endless range of mountains and valleys. But he said hope. I need to believe there's a home at the other side of these hills. I'll climb anything to get to that home. Just tell me theres a door and a room filled with people happy to see me and I'll fly if i have to.
I was amazed at how accurately he portrayed what this illness is. I would be very interested, however, to hear his thoughts on the prejudices he has encountered, if any. From my own experience, I am able to navigate my life with this illness most of the time. What I have had difficulty with is the shame that others in relation to knowing me, feel about it. In other words, as if they either feel sorry for me because of it, or attempt to squelch my enthusiasm when I feel good because that too is odd in their eyes. I.E., my illness makes THEM uncomfortable regardless of how I am feeling at the time. Either up or down. I’ve always felt as though others , because of their lack of understanding of the illness, do not embrace it. Rather they criticize ANY emotion or reaction I have at any given moment.
Omg another great point! I’m a sucker for the hypo-manic stage. I love when my husband is there. How do I tell him (and be sensitive) he’s in it and we should increase the meds and watch the diet?
How wonderful to have achieved awareness, understanding and what I would consider success at living with bi-polar. I'm numbed out on Lithium right now and everyone is so pleased with my "evenness". I don't feel much of anything but not sure I could face the deep depressions and the obsessive monkey mind again.
14:05 This. I envy those who are able to feel pain and cry. For me depression is a just an unbearable nothingness and I con only sleep to avoid being awake and consciuos.
Yep, my mind also gets horrific it's terrifying, and people don't understand, it's definitely a problem with society , and or those who don't have bipolar disorder let alone other things and despite the fact that quite a few of those people treating me/bipolar /depressed and gut wrenching thoughs and impulses[not that it defines me] , But yeah suicidal thoughts fought and not taken to action is like hell , still alive but years of this just and then opting to just not give up. Mindfulness and being present and in state of flow. For me I'm holding on for dear life, on Faith
Loved Paul & wonderful interviewer... but having Bipolar 1 with psychotic features for 40 years and being a solid Carrie Fisher supporter, it made me sad to hear him say he was the first director/filmmaker with Bipolar Disorder.... Postcards From The Edge? Have to stick up for the first person to begin the move to ending stigmas. ♥️
I drove 110mph on highway and it felt like 50mph. Just could not get enough of that psycho manic feeling. I was also arrested during manic episode and police took me to jail instead of the hospital. In jail my angry “manic” out bursts led to having my water shut off. I was forced to drink toilet water for 15hrs and given no food, clothes, medication or basic human care. I was so crazy angry that I wrote “f*** you” with feces backwards (so they could read from other side) on the large window. The sheriff’s were so appalled and intrigued that they took pictures. I was wrongfully arrested for two days until posting $2,000 bail on false charges that were eventually dismissed after 7 court dates (two years). I received no treatment, assistance or simple apology while losing two days of my life and $2,000 for my manic episode. I’m just blessed the police didn’t shoot and kill me during the episode like many others who lose their lives every single day. Mania can be deadly so please take medication or see a psychiatrist because my depression (crash) lasted 3 months. Sorry, just being completely honest and I never knew I was bipolar until last month…God Bless!
Hey I remember my therapist discussing with me. It's called light therapy a simple search on Google will lead you to the specific lighting. The premise is that being around a specific light can help elevate mood. Its an alternative for those who do not want to take medication.
So are you pro-active holistically along with meds? or are you saying that you can avoid meds with these positive rituals>? Thank you for sharing this video, it made me cry because it described me so well.. i'm 32 and suspected bi polar from my mid 20's but came off too functional to people to get that diagnosis... i finally have a decent psychiatrist who actually listens to me diagnose me with a mood disorder for now until we talk more about my past, present experiences. I have been going through this grieving process for myself because I think that if i got the help I needed early on while there were so Sooo many red flags, what would my life look like right now? :(
We live in a fallen world and no one is truly free. I don't see any mental condition vas a gift, or having cancer. I don't blame God for my bipolar, nor can I thank him for the fall. But I live in the hope of meeting him some day which is the only thing that keeps me going.
I knew an individual who had a schizoaffective bipolar disorder diagnosis bipolar disorder and she beat it by addressing the issues in her life that were troubling her such as her adoption! Why is it people only talk of symptoms and not causes when it comes to psychiatric disorders? Oh that's right it's psychiatry! With the condition which is why Psychiatry offers no cure only treatment that's why
@Bernard Well said. It’s like playing Jenga when you don’t want to and then when they all fall, you just don’t have what it takes to pick up all the pieces so they just stay there until you finally (maybe months later) find what it takes to pick them all up. You may be able to put them back in the box for a while but then suddenly one day you walk back in the house and see the blocks set back up on the kitchen counter somehow. I duno, jenga just seemed like a sound reference
I was told by a family member I have no idea how they feel about the bipolar but they don't understand what it's like to live in this body someone who actually suffers from it someone who has to live with it 24/7 I've tried to explain how bipolar works to this family member in particular nothing goes through they don't get it I even tried to get them to watch the movie touch with fire and they seemed completely uninterested.
I would be so happy if my son would actually do something to try and understand himself all he does is only take his medication but has no counsling nothing. He is very dependent on his medication I’m glad he feels better but he doesn’t do anything hardly like motivation to do his laundry clean or work
Ashwagandha, bhrami, omega 3 fatty acid rich salmon oil, and l tyrosine works wonders for me along with minimal drugs! they are amazing for all psychiatric issues in general
So I have bi polar, runs in the family as both parents also had it. I have concrete evidence and multiple types of research on bi polar disorder and being in the manic state. It's the human evolution!
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This is me. 41 year old been battling with Bi-Polar Disorder since 16. He put it so well. My feeling of despair and depression brought me to this video. It’s so complex you can’t describe it. HE DID AN AWESOME JOB OF EXPLAINING.
Have you tried puppet therapy?
At the end of the interview it sounds like he's describing depersonalization/derealization.
Sorry to hear you were feeling depressed. Hopefully you’re feeling better now. I’m only 27 but I’ve been dealing with BPD for a while now. He really does explain things so perfectly. I recommend the movie he directed “touched with fire” if you haven’t seen it yet. Know that you’re not alone and I will be thinking of you. Peace and blessings
I meditate and I don’t medicate. I am healed. Bipolar is an opportunity for spiritual enlightenment. Only if you want it. Indian spiritual masters can help. Or whatever you prefer. But these people know this happens. They don’t medicate and call people crazy. They know you are awakening from the dream of Maya.
@@jesuschristislord7754ego death 💀 and resurrection of the soul you mean?
I've known him since i was 12. He has been a very honest and loyal freind throughout my life. I never understood why he seemed different than many other people but apparently this is why. i wish him well.
I like this interviewer, he is so gentle and quietly spoken and really listens and hears what this guy experienced.
Paul expressed what I have been going through for the last thirty years beautifully. You are trully an inspiration Paul. God bless.
Oh my god me too.. I thought I was ALONE.... but it hurts being misunderstood by everyone around me
@@realtrenchbaby12 No dear...you are certainly not alone....
I felt alone for a long time too. Reading these comments makes me feel much better. Seeing “touched by fire” really helped too. I wish all of my bi polar peers nothing but the very best ❤
I have been diagnosed in 2021 with Bipolar 2 and it has stopped me in my tracks. Everything I enjoyed has waned. I’m on pause and its like running underwater and standing still. The flood of emotions, overwhelming painful anxiety and the deep, dank, dark depression is enough to take you out of this earth. It’s so hard to understand how to harness the good moments that come and go in a moment. I look up and that moment is gone like all the other moments that are hiding in a room somewhere in my mind. I blame so much of this disease on chemtrails,the gmo foods, the air we breath and the things we are told in these crazy turbulent times of wayward funk. So many people have mental health issues. It’s an epidemic to crazy proportions. The escape is terrible but slightly hopeful to try and get out of this. For me the highs and lows, the depression, loathing, the frightening anxiety and the feeling of being in a river of quick sand and molasses when no one else is around to pull you out and the sound of your silent screams can’t pull you out makes you want to snuff yourself out.
It’s so hard, too hard to try especially when theirs no hope. If I could only be dumb with hope, I could figure the next move, but the commitment of doing anything it tougher and the only thing that it says to me is shut up, be still, don’t move, don’t speak, don’t live, stay put and play dead, infact be dead, get dead, it’s your only way out! I hear a slight moan of my soul and it’s low and soft, but it says, wait, wait. It says nothing more than that but at least it spoke, which is more than my waking body and stagnant mind has said. So I wait, I’m on pause but I wait, endlessly in a waiting stance.
You can feel them coming on , when you are sober the mania is amazing, but the depression is unbearable
@Creed Bratton if I'm on top of the world , yes
Hell on earth:(
But hypomania/mania is MAGIC!;):)
Its almost like thalassaphobia where you see this massive enveloping blackness about to swallow you up. That sinking feeling in your gut. Impending doom almost.
@@hellsingdudeman Anything (within limits!🤷) but Clinical Depression!🥴🥴🥴
This video is inspiring to me. I have the challenge of living with bipolar 1 disorder. And, now I see it as a plus for a lot of reasons. But, my life has been a tragedy as well because the psychosis is so treacherous it defies words. I attempted suicide so many times and abused substances and blew through a large inheritance for years and years. I finally, at 61, have found a balance and understand my disease. I am clean/sober and a born again Christian. Through psycho pharmacology, but most of all God , I have found lasting peace and hope. I was hopeless for so long. Thank you for this healing video.
I am so happy for you. I hope you are still well ❤
All praise to god 🙌 hope you’ve been well
That is so nice and so good to hear. Peace to you and God bless.
Euphoria and Suicidal , Paul excellently presents the experience. I also want to learn more about the Shaman. Thank you, Paul, for describing what I can only experience.
Its crazy how many times I've tried to explain what hes explained 😕 but never can
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Glad someone can explain it my son has bipolar and I want to help him and give him hope
@@jcastro91235 send me ur no I can help get rid of it..... It's a help no costs
I had to send "Manic Khan" from King of the Hill to describe to a friend what only my wife and co workers see, especially before meds. Most people are like "I get excited sometimes, and active" or "I get sad sometimes and don't want to do stuff"
@@potatomuffin4420 same here bro except my problems might be worse i have bad eye to the point where i put my phone screen close to my face sometimes on top of that i have been through trauma and have other medical problems
I've had nearly identical experience. To me the best way to describe it was a truth surge in terms of seeing all the symbolism. Doctors are more eager to diagnose you than help you. I believe one of the most painful things a human can experience is never being understood. I love it when people have the courage to share their story, it helps way more than most doctors do.
Finding a psychiatrist who really sees YOu..as individual person with a personality..who really cares for you..that you get better seems to be a wonder. And also brain scans and knowing stuff of all you go gone through..right diagnoses before filling you up with meds! And meds can make longterm physical damage.I'm not against meds but also don't for them.When it really helps..yes. But nothing helped me. And there is also the spiritual aspect. The sad and horrible thing is when you don't get the right help..after many years. Bless anyone who is suffering or breathing through mental illnesses ♡Thanks..for sharing this amazing video. The interviewed man is such a kind soul ♡♡
I’m terrified of being misdiagnosed and I’ve read so many accounts of therapist doing more harm than good in till you find the right one.I think living in WV makes that even more of reality.I did use better help the therapist was giving me assignments I didn’t do them which made me feel like a wtf why am I not doing this so I quit because I felt like I was wasting her and mine time that was a couple months ago.I’ve been on such a low all I do is sleep watch TH-cam and I’ve been cutting people off because I’m so embarrassed and I have nothing positive to say.I’m also embarrassed because I’ve told friends and family that I’m gonna try to work thru it and here I am.I totally get the slipping effect I was doing smoothies trying to eat well stopped smoking weed but then I one by one I let my good habits slip and now I’m a gross lump of bad breath and embarrassment.Did Kay write the unquiet mind if so that was a great book.I’m not sure if what I have is bpd but I’m not a psychologist but I do get the racing thoughts intense inspiration creative sparks and feeling spiritually connected I get overwhelmed with it I try to regulate then I crash and get depressed I’m wondering if events trigger cycling also covid went in tandem with growing apart from my best friend and other events the last year has been rough.I feel like when I try to get out of my own head I choose activities or people that make me feel like I’m Re-traumatizing myself and the depression gets worse.rambling. Idk
I am 22 years old and I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in my last semester of college after having a manic episode that led me into jail and a mental institution. I have had a really hard time trying to understand why I have this illness/gift and sometimes I feel like the medication has kept me from reaching my full potential. I have thought about going off of it a lot in order to chase the happiness I felt during mania again but after watching this movie and listening to this interview I think otherwise. He made me have hope that I can be just as vibrant, creative, “genius” lol, even when I am taking medicine and living a normal life. I am still in the process of mourning my manic self because I do miss “her” sometimes but I have to remember that her confidence, charisma, charm, etc. still lives in me but at a much healthier level then when I was manic.
It is easy to feel alone with this disorder but reading these comments makes me feel a little less isolated❤️
Bipolar never goes away so you may still feel glimpses of hypo mania that feels amazing. I was also arrested twice and taken to mental hospital for being manic. Please don’t stop taking medication.
It’s so inspiring to hear an experience that echos my own expressed so eloquently. Thank you for sharing.
I appreciated every part of this interview. From the deep thoughts about regular things, the insight and creativity... The comparison to reaction of others with marijuana, the surprise of the nature of the other "inmates"... The whole psychosis episode... Touched by Fire was the first movie I saw after accepting my diagnosis. Its still the best portrayal of bipolar disorder I've seen on screen. I know this comment is all over🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️... Just everything. Thanks for this. I go nuts because nobody around me understands. I needed this interview tonight.
It's hell the depression's. The mania is too. It touches every aspect of life and is very disabling.
The best interview I’ve heard on bipolar disorder! So real and authentic. Root for me to find that light box!
I like this presentation because it speaks to the depression which is a walk through hell.
As an observer, you can see it coming on with the excessive talk and the brainstorming of ideas and future thoughts. Then, boom, the exhaustion sets in and you can go from creative, driven, loving to stuck in bed and sabotaging everything you worked for. He said it right around 14:40! And sugar!!! I agree, it affects bipolar people. Still looking for balance. A life-long, tight rope. #stillgainingexperience
Thanks for the insight. Didn’t even think a set off was spring! A common misconception is only winter!
How does sugar affect?
I’m in awe of Paul Dalio. I loved his film Touched with Fire because it captured the way mania ravages your life by starting as a spark of elation which builds up and becomes a wildfire of a wreckage. He certainly humanized the condition and those that suffer with it; there is a beauty in it as there is a deadly sharpened edge that cannot be dismissed. I have much respect for this man.
Thanks for doing such an incredible testimony about this condition!
Thank you for both of you
Im 26 and diagnosed bipolar, shit sucks right now. in a big depression, cant go to work. I can barely get out of bed or my room. I hope and pray this ends soon
Hello I'm seeing this interview for the first time and came by your message and just wanted to see how you were doing?
It is hard to no extent. Absolutely. Most times it’s hard to get out of bed for me. Brush my hair brush my teeth start the day it’s not easy some days. I don’t win I don’t begin. I stay in bed. It’s almost like it’s freezing to get out of the depression, the anxiety, the highs and lows. Yet if I stay in bed, at least it’s a familiar kind of cold. It’s like when you go into a pool and it’s freezing but you stay in long enough and your body and your temperature gets used to it to some degree you know that getting out you would feel the wind and it would be even colder so you stay in a cold pool Because actually it’s warmer than the outside, even though it is cold. It hurts it helps it’s deep and dark and dank and it’s my reality. I am not on any medication after years of being on. I have become increasingly worried about the effects of medication. The worry of getting memory loss and other Side effects. So I’m going this alone. I’m going without medication and I have been for quite some time but it’s been extremely hard. Most days I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I watch endless videos about bipolar and medication and anxiety and depression, and everything associated with it to try and gain some knowledge some answers, some hope to find a way out of this hell That I know that I’m living. What I once was I’m not now. And I know it’s hard. I’m still fighting in my silent way. I go to therapy and currently looking for another psychiatrist. I try to harness the moments that I feel great and when that happens for however, long it happens because honestly it’s really moment by moment for me I try and be the most productive I can within the time I have allotted in that moment. it’s weird it’s like a big monster waiting on the other side of the other moments. It’s like I have moments of clarity and positivity and I feel on top of the world I feel like I’m gonna change my life turn the channel and get good. And then that moment I am, and then the moments gone. I know what it’s like I live it every day you know you’re not alone. If you think you have it bad, somebody always has it worse in a different way. You have to still try to motivate yourself somehow advocate for yourself watch videos be around positive people and talk it out. Because there’s always a choice in the choices you can either stay above ground or 6 feet under and before I have that final choice I want to see if there’s anything else that I can do to see this through. I want to live nobody really truly wants to die they just want the pain to end. The most important is that there is light somewhere you have to find it. I’m still trying to.
This is such an inspiration! Thank you! I believe awareness of self and emotions is the key.
Thank you!
Thank you so much Paul 💚💚💚💚💚
Thank you very much for this interview.
hey I just want to say I absolutely love the content you are putting out there!!! keep doing what your doing! youve inspired me to even create my own channel regarding mental health!!!! I also have bipolar type 1 thank you 👌👌👌
That is one of the best descriptions of psychosis that I've heard. He really has a way with words. I had many profound thoughts while psychotic as well as being utterly terrified.
So thankful I found this video! Thank you 🙏🏽
Loved this. Paul did an amazing job explaining bi polar. My 19 yr old suffers from it and it is so difficult. She is my hero. Even though she is depress with suicidal ideation s she does college on line and holds a job
Thank you Paul for the movie "touched with fire" , i have bipolar disorder and i loved the movie , i finally felt like someone understands it in Movie industry, and thank you For this talk , you inspire us alot .
I hope Paul is coping well with the loss of his brother. My condolences to the entire Dalio family.
Oh nooooo. I’m so sorry to hear that. Poor Paul.
This is most visible proof that ultra wealthy people are also humans and have deep feelings like all but some portray them as materialistic and selfish, there are things money can't buy, being a human has to go through ups and downs
This interview is opening my head up in a good way. At 59, I have recently been diagnosed and learning that all of the battles I've had through my life with my emotions has been this. I see what my grandmother went through, my father went through, my son is going through and I've been going through. I've been un-medicated, so there's exhaustion and then there's exhaustion. Thank you for this for creating this window to see through.
Wd u like to discuss and c if v could reduce it... Probably b cd
How did you manage for so long???
@@siddharthrajan24 at 10 ..lots pf tears and feeling alienated until I joined orchestra and dove into playing Viola. I found my kin. I learned yoga, inhaled books like an illegal substance. As an adult it was yoga, meditation, movement classes, counseling, raising 3 boys, lots and lots of inner working and searching. Still lots of manic ups, anxiety that crushed me, depressions that none of us understood...but I'm a stubborn survivor. Now I take Lexapro and Buspar....my brain is so so much better. Manic train is still rollong up the tracks this week but I have it better controlled. Eating decently, trying to sleep on a schedule, going outside in the sunshine, and pared my work down to a place that is calmer and less busy. Toolboxes are the way to make it through it all.
@@marciatillison2893 thanks for your reply. I am finding it very hard to go through this..... I just feel like giving up and dont find the motivation
@@siddharthrajan24 Step one is to find a counselor or to visit a local mental health care facility and ask for referrals. Getting qualified help is key to it all.
Finally someone who can put in words what it feels like for me and episodes I’ve experienced. Every time I’m talking with someone about it I need them to just watch this. I can’t express it in words like he did.
Before watching this I got told by my therapist I may be bipolar my understanding of bipolar was very vague.. I had a poor perception and couldn’t seem to come to terms with me possibly having this. After listening to Paul I know I am bipolar, and quiet frankly I feel ok with that. The way he depicts it is amazing and gave me so much sense of security of myself. Thank you for this amazing interview.
Nice i like the way you explain it
Thank you.People need to Change their perspective on mental illness
He is so smart. Mental health is so complex and I hope to educate myself on different topics so that I’m more than just a pretty face. Knowledge is the key to helping others!
Excellent thanks for the post much appreciated.
Anyone suffering with Bi polar either cyclo mythic bi polar 1 or bipolar 2 disorder there is an Islamic surah prayer called Al rehman its a healing verse best to meditate in the morning for about 15 20 minutes play it 3 times a day for 7 days its will help I'm trying it and it's helping me if not try and meditate when you have a quiet time concentrate on your breath in through your nose out through the mouth.
Totally related to the manic psychosis. Mine took the form of the car radio telling me what to do. I found myself racing cars, making right n left turns if the radio said so...etc. really scary now but totally exciting at the time
🌻🙏🙃thank you
Thanks for the video! I have bipolar disorder. I share about it on my channel here too.
Phenomenal description of psychosis
It’s not a disorder it’s the greatest blessing. The society is the disorder not us.
I love this
So on point. 💝
Very inspiring. Am 71 years woman diagnosed 7 years back. It’s very tough
This was so informative!
6:00-9:00 is extremely under rated and by far the most important part of the video.
god damn, I loved this. I am only 30, but i've been fighting this demon since I was 14. its like hiking through an endless range of mountains and valleys. But he said hope. I need to believe there's a home at the other side of these hills. I'll climb anything to get to that home. Just tell me theres a door and a room filled with people happy to see me and I'll fly if i have to.
Thankyou somuch for sharing this experience.
His calm way and his words! I would like the script of all his descriptions
I was amazed at how accurately he portrayed what this illness is. I would be very interested, however, to hear his thoughts on the prejudices he has encountered, if any. From my own experience, I am able to navigate my life with this illness most of the time. What I have had difficulty with is the shame that others in relation to knowing me, feel about it. In other words, as if they either feel sorry for me because of it, or attempt to squelch my enthusiasm when I feel good because that too is odd in their eyes. I.E., my illness makes THEM uncomfortable regardless of how I am feeling at the time. Either up or down. I’ve always felt as though others , because of their lack of understanding of the illness, do not embrace it. Rather they criticize ANY emotion or reaction I have at any given moment.
Omg another great point! I’m a sucker for the hypo-manic stage. I love when my husband is there. How do I tell him (and be sensitive) he’s in it and we should increase the meds and watch the diet?
How wonderful to have achieved awareness, understanding and what I would consider success at living with bi-polar. I'm numbed out on Lithium right now and everyone is so pleased with my "evenness". I don't feel much of anything but not sure I could face the deep depressions and the obsessive monkey mind again.
14:05 This. I envy those who are able to feel pain and cry. For me depression is a just an unbearable nothingness and I con only sleep to avoid being awake and consciuos.
I absolutely love life, I completely undesrtand how it feels like to be sane, but i have never been able to be sane. I can't take this anymore.
Yes you Can.
It's hard, but You Can.
It's Close, but you can.
Keto helps. Carnivore cures.
I’m on the path and feel the body healing. I’m BP2.
The mindfulness book "30 Days to Reduce Depression" by Harper Daniels is a good resource.
I also think it is key to not spend too much time alone. Iv got the same outfit... Hoodie, headphones... rap..
Paranoia , ocd , makes me feel suicidal sometimes
Yep, my mind also gets horrific it's terrifying, and people don't understand, it's definitely a problem with society , and or those who don't have bipolar disorder let alone other things and despite the fact that quite a few of those people treating me/bipolar /depressed and gut wrenching thoughs and impulses[not that it defines me] , But yeah suicidal thoughts fought and not taken to action is like hell , still alive but years of this just and then opting to just not give up. Mindfulness and being present and in state of flow. For me I'm holding on for dear life, on Faith
It’s a daily work to manage. Best wishes to all living with this illness.
Im bypoler and love him for making
Loved Paul & wonderful interviewer... but having Bipolar 1 with psychotic features for 40 years and being a solid Carrie Fisher supporter, it made me sad to hear him say he was the first director/filmmaker with Bipolar Disorder.... Postcards From The Edge? Have to stick up for the first person to begin the move to ending stigmas. ♥️
I drove 110mph on highway and it felt like 50mph. Just could not get enough of that psycho manic feeling. I was also arrested during manic episode and police took me to jail instead of the hospital. In jail my angry “manic” out bursts led to having my water shut off. I was forced to drink toilet water for 15hrs and given no food, clothes, medication or basic human care. I was so crazy angry that I wrote “f*** you” with feces backwards (so they could read from other side) on the large window. The sheriff’s were so appalled and intrigued that they took pictures.
I was wrongfully arrested for two days until posting $2,000 bail on false charges that were eventually dismissed after 7 court dates (two years). I received no treatment, assistance or simple apology while losing two days of my life and $2,000 for my manic episode. I’m just blessed the police didn’t shoot and kill me during the episode like many others who lose their lives every single day. Mania can be deadly so please take medication or see a psychiatrist because my depression (crash) lasted 3 months. Sorry, just being completely honest and I never knew I was bipolar until last month…God Bless!
Paul you did speak about some light treatment. Could you highlight what that is.
Hey I remember my therapist discussing with me. It's called light therapy a simple search on Google will lead you to the specific lighting. The premise is that being around a specific light can help elevate mood. Its an alternative for those who do not want to take medication.
So are you pro-active holistically along with meds? or are you saying that you can avoid meds with these positive rituals>? Thank you for sharing this video, it made me cry because it described me so well.. i'm 32 and suspected bi polar from my mid 20's but came off too functional to people to get that diagnosis... i finally have a decent psychiatrist who actually listens to me diagnose me with a mood disorder for now until we talk more about my past, present experiences. I have been going through this grieving process for myself because I think that if i got the help I needed early on while there were so Sooo many red flags, what would my life look like right now? :(
Thank you for sharing. To everyone reading this, Jesus loves you. ❤
We live in a fallen world and no one is truly free. I don't see any mental condition vas a gift, or having cancer. I don't blame God for my bipolar, nor can I thank him for the fall. But I live in the hope of meeting him some day which is the only thing that keeps me going.
I knew an individual who had a schizoaffective bipolar disorder diagnosis bipolar disorder and she beat it by addressing the issues in her life that were troubling her such as her adoption! Why is it people only talk of symptoms and not causes when it comes to psychiatric disorders? Oh that's right it's psychiatry! With the condition which is why Psychiatry offers no cure only treatment that's why
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Hope of being better after this than before. Im going to hang onto that.
Being insane in the Victorian age was easy all you had to do was be a little sad or nervous.
'I'm still alive in this life'... Yes, explained perfectly... Waking up and seeing a daylight, thinking... Another day suffocating
You lost me at “it’s a gift” but still a great video thank you.❤
@Bernard Well said. It’s like playing Jenga when you don’t want to and then when they all fall, you just don’t have what it takes to pick up all the pieces so they just stay there until you finally (maybe months later) find what it takes to pick them all up. You may be able to put them back in the box for a while but then suddenly one day you walk back in the house and see the blocks set back up on the kitchen counter somehow. I duno, jenga just seemed like a sound reference
@Bernard keep at it my friend and stay strong
I went psychotic after experiencing dope. However I only had tea because I cannot smoke it. Cannabis is not working for me. Have bipolar 1
Cannabis is not working for me either. Is getting me paranoid and anxious. I have also bipolar 1
@@miranday.7995 same had to quit completely
I've grown to hate weed, I haven't been diagnosed but I relate to this video so much its leading me to believe
Ok. A lot of rock musicians and artists have this.
I was told by a family member I have no idea how they feel about the bipolar but they don't understand what it's like to live in this body someone who actually suffers from it someone who has to live with it 24/7 I've tried to explain how bipolar works to this family member in particular nothing goes through they don't get it I even tried to get them to watch the movie touch with fire and they seemed completely uninterested.
I would be so happy if my son would actually do something to try and understand himself all he does is only take his medication but has no counsling nothing. He is very dependent on his medication I’m glad he feels better but he doesn’t do anything hardly like motivation to do his laundry clean or work
@@antoineborg1327 can I talk to u please?? I want to know about this method
@@siddharthrajan24 i
@@candaceyoung2695 yeah?? Tell me please.... Am a bit better... Thanks to medication
I don't know this man but you can just tell he's extremely bright.
I couldn't describe depression better
Holy shit we have the same sicosis thoughts
that must of been some good kush
Ashwagandha, bhrami, omega 3 fatty acid rich salmon oil, and l tyrosine works wonders for me along with minimal drugs! they are amazing for all psychiatric issues in general
All hell in its finist shape and form
Is that the Hamilton dude
Money helps
BP sucks period battling with 10 year battle 11 battle with depression and Anxiety
Wrong to think hypomanic is always going to be a mild mania. Hypomania can also manifest as irritability and aggression.
The thing he said about weed where when everyone can smoke and be fine but when he smokes his mind races and eventually goes 'insane'... I'm the same.
It seems these people are particularly sensitive, so drugs may push them over the edge. He did speak of abuse
Feels like he's had just as many sleepless nights as I did
I have bipolar disorder
So I have bi polar, runs in the family as both parents also had it. I have concrete evidence and multiple types of research on bi polar disorder and being in the manic state. It's the human evolution!
How do you figure it’s evolution? I’m totally fascinated with evolutionary psychology right now and I’m interested what you think about bipolar
@@1evilhag_ stay away from conspiracy theories buddy it will make it worse don’t over think things relax
@@kinfoul I appreciate your concern but I don't see any problem with asking questions o.O
i wouldn't recommend sensitive people take drugs, unless they insist doing damage to their brains.
What do you suggest?
@@kimtrachtenberg what do you mean?
13 years of bipolar 1 it's F*cking sucks
victim of crime + 1 world lifesaver +1 world become a lifesaver
Icarus will always get too close to the sun.... That's the human condition
The doctor seems to have good intentions but it is still noticeable that he does not have a lived experience
Maybe uncomfortable on camera, very professional presentation
Yes. Its horrible.