Grieving while Celebrating and Why I Flew Home to Canada Alone | December Vlog
ฝัง
- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 16 ม.ค. 2023
- Grieving while Celebrating and Why I Flew Home to Canada Alone | December Vlog
Please SUBSCRIBE here! bit.ly/2de1gQj
Previous Vlog: • Our Relationship Chang...
December was an intense month. On one hand I was mourning the unexpected loss of my Nana and on the other I was celebrating my son's first Christmas. Some of the month I spent in Canada (I didn't film), but most was spent in Hong Kong where I tried to keep things light and joyous. Thank you for letting me share with you, through this vlog and all of my vlogs this past year. May 2023 be good to us all!
Things mentioned in this vlog:
Prestige Article: www.prestigeonline.com/hk/peo...
My Christmas Tree: www.amazon.com/National-Tree-...
Bon Appetite turkey article: www.bonappetit.com/story/no-f...
Martha Stuart Turkey recipe: www.marthastewart.com/355578/...
Montessori Busy House: / flyyoutothemooooon
*you can DM them for info and pricing
Hi! I'm Taylor, I'm originally from Canada and currently living between Toronto & Hong Kong and sharing my life along the way! My channel is lifestyle based with mostly vlogs, DIY's, makeup, health, and nutrition.
Instagram: / taytay_xx
Facebook: / taylor.r.official
Twitter: / iamtay_tay
Main Website/ my shop: toat.com
Rosie's instagram: / littlerosie_xx
Elbow san's instagram: / elbowsan_xx
MUSIC BY:
Epidemic Sound
Artlist.io
Music by Mr. Jello - No Better Place - thmatc.co/?l=4AB99688
Music by Damien Sebe - snowglobe - thmatc.co/?l=041D0E38
Music by Chinsaku - C o f f e e - thmatc.co/?l=6776FF01
Music by Reggie San Miguel - Present - thmatc.co/?l=3A18E3A5
Music by Mark Generous - Busy And Tired - thmatc.co/?l=E8457ADC
Music by Drew Richmond - Carry Along - thmatc.co/?l=8162A8FA
MY EQUIPMENT:
my camera- Canon 80D
Wide Lens
goo.gl/JuSQpY
pancake lens (tight lens)
goo.gl/oMPxg2
Rode Microphone
goo.gl/ImQK8E
vlogging camera- Canon EOS M6
Manfrotto Small Tripod
------------------------------------------------------------------------------
♥︎ Contact ♥︎ taylor@toat.com (business only)
------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Thanks for watching! ❤
#TaylorR #Vlog #HongKong
Can we just take a moment for Tom being such a supportive partner! I'm so glad you were able to have time with your grandmother before she passed. ❤
I remember her grandma...oh, will miss her!
My aunt said something to me a while ago which has stuck with me - “Life is relentless. That doesn’t mean it is always bad, but it is relentless.” Basically just the idea that things never stop happening in life; there is no ‘perfect’ or ‘easy’ time. Which inevitably means we have periods where we grieve and celebrate together. It is hard but it is part of life. Wishing lots of happiness, holiday cheer, and healing to you Taylor!
Thank you. I needed to hear this today.
That's a very good way of describing it. My family is going through a "relentless" period right now, and this gave me peace.
your anut is a smart woman. ty for advice, as a perfectionist it means a lot to me.
"To live is to suffer"
“Butter the toast, eat the toast, shit the toast, god life is relentless”-peep show
I love that the woman who worked with you after you had Levi has become a part of the family, it really is heartwarming to see. I hope all of you have a wonderful 2023 ♥
Wow Taylor I'm in tears right now. The fact your grandma sent you a message thinking she wasn't going to see you and then she did is just amazing. I'm so sorry this happened, may she rest in peace.
Our friend passed in October 2020. We had our other friend over that year for Xmas. We didn't decorate. We just watched movies and spent time together trying to keep ourselves afloat. Last year I lost 3 people. Aunt, gran and great uncle(his wife passed on Friday). Christmas was hard. I can't deny I had a wobble, I cried my eyes out for an hour missing those who didn't make it
That is really heartbreaking. I’m so sorry
♥️♥️
I’m so very sorry for the losses of your family members. This goes out to everybody too.
Sending so much love❤❤❤
My 29 year old son passed away in 2017 and I didn’t feel like doing anything . My youngest daughter was turning 10 in ten days and we still celebrated her birthday and all of the other holidays that year. They are bittersweet times. I know my son would have wanted us to continue on.
Jazz, more strength to you!
I love watching your little family. Levi is so so handsome 😍
I love you both! Wonderful content creator mommas.
#Skyfam here!!
@@junsjulywonpilsyonpilchany5241 i don't like some of them they didn't give birth to a baby girl bc they trolled us with a baby boy not a baby girl
My last living grandmother passed away last year (well August 2021 and it is one of the worst days of my life. Back then I took confort in seeing how much you tried to soak up your precious days with your family. It is just precious and beautiful when people are close with their families Sadly the death of my grandparents literally fragmented my family and turned every member against each other. It was the most painful thing ever. I hope your family can heal and remain united
You are the most honest influencer ever! I love that you don't hide the chaos behind the scenes. You two are such awesome parents. He is a very happy baby.
My grandma passed away last year a week after Christmas. The grieving process never really ends. Things will suddenly remind you of her, especially the next holiday season, but grieving her is still keeping her alive in a way
We missed you! I'm manifesting for a great 2023 for you, Taylor!
Back at you! May it be a great year for us all!
My grandma, who raised me since I was a baby, passed away last Christmas day, at 9:01 in the morning. It was so hard to celebrate Christmas this year. It's even hard to watch this video, but I love what you say about 'you can celebrate and grieve at the same time.' I will remember that for next year!
Levi’s toothy smile and little kicks on Christmas morning 😍❤️
Such a beautiful nana. To think your nana took the time to post a video to you. I’m so happy you made it home for those final, important, loving talks. You and your family are loved and appreciated ❤❤❤❤
Taylor! Sorry for your loss! Lots of well wishes from Norway ♥
Thank you ❤️
I've watched your channel for like 7 or 8 years now and when I watch your vlogs and I see your family I feel like I'm watching the most beautiful wholesome movie, I get teary eyes every time I see cute Levi smiling and laughing
I love how when you had your baby, you didn't forget about your first baby, Rosie.
It was definitely better not to take Levi to Canada for Christmas. We were dealing with all sorts of viruses over the holidays. Everyone got sick. Plus that snowstorm canceled flights like crazy. Your celebrations ended up being so cute and wholesome 😊
You're a great mom! And it was so heartwarming to know Tom was/is so considerate and without hesitation told u to go reunite with ur nana❤
I’m so grateful for him ❤️
Levi is the absolute cutest and happiest baby I think I’ve ever seen! How blessed and lucky he is to be surrounded by so much love! ❤
Baby fever is definitely hitting after watching this! Levi is so adorable 🥰
How has Levi already gotten so big and grown up, you can really see his features changing and he seems so confident. I am so proud of you, you are doing amazing and got this. Also I am so jealous of the oven, still in Japan with no oven :( Also Bisto we use in the UK and I get it shipped to Japan as so good, if you mix it using the water you use for the vege's and put in some meat juice makes it amazing
My grandfather passed on December 23, 2022. My family and I were baking our traditional Christmas cookies and receiving the news was a very traumatic experience due to it being an unexpected death. It’s already so hard loosing someone you love, but loosing someone during the holidays makes it harder. I’m so sorry about the passing of your nana. But I am happy you were able to find some sort of balance of grieving and celebrating. I’m sure it wasn’t easy. You are a strong and wonderful mother and I’m sure your nana is so proud of you! Sending lots of love ❤
im obsessed with his lil laugh
Tip for next Christmas roast - you can use the drippings from the turkey pan to make your gravy - it’s absolutely delicious! You just add wine and flour to the pan and then either water or stock (which can be where the bisto comes in). Your meal looked amazing though, so happy the turkey was a success finally!
Just know, you get to always cherish those memories. I never got those memories, I never had any family. When I’ve lost a pet it feels like the end of the world, but the memories make up for it. So sorry for your loss ❤ I can’t imagine
Levi's face meeting Santa 😆😆😆😆😆😆 At least he didn't cry. I love that you have maintained a relationship with Carol.
Ohhh, the part where you mentioned how your son has made you feel reignited with christmas and everything, got me SO emotional. I applaud Tom for being so thoughtful with the birthday cake too!!! You have such a beautiful family.
The close up on Levi on his little car suddenly smiling at the camera, oh my god how cute was that !!!
Celebrating while grieving is hard indeed, I hope the celebrating part alleviated a little bit your mood ♡ sending love and peacefulness your way, always
Levi is the cutest with such a sweet cheesy grin! Thank you for sharing your holiday with us, even though it wasn't what you were originally hoping for. And so sorry about your nana.
I lost my grandma three weeks after my IVF baby was born in 2022 as well. The mix of joy and grief is such a weird feeling. I am so sorry you went through it!
I nearly lost my baby girl this December due to the viruses. Influenza, pneumonia and strep A. And a lot, a lot of kids were sick in general in Canada. Levi is so tiny. Staying home safe was the good decision! ♥
I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor. Sending you lots of love and strength from Oz 💌
Levi looks like such a happy baby.
His little laughes were absolutely everything, and they made my heart happy and gave me a little smile. 😊 I'm so sorry for your loss. Even though I am 42, and my Grandma is 87, this is honestly my worst nightmare. Even though I moved about 5 years ago to a place that, let's just say I never wanted to live, to be here for my Grandma, and my Momma. We live in the same house right now, and I still worry. Even while I am so close to them. It is still my worst nightmare, and I am here with them every day! I can't imagine the sadness that you have felt while still trying to be there for your partner and your son. Much love to you! ❤ I have never lived in a different country from my family, but I did live in California for about 6 years, while most of my family was back in Ohio, Alabama, and Texas. Even that was super hard! So I can only imagine. Once again, I'm sorry for you and your family's loss. Huge big hugs to you all!!! 🤗 keep being awesome, girlie!❤
Terribly sorry to hear about your nana Taylor. ❤ It’s going on 4 years since my grandfather passed, and in the beginning it was the most rocky ride ever. I’m so glad you got to spend that time with her though, that is absolutely invaluable. Grief is so complex and everyone goes through it in a completely different way. After a little while, people naturally stop checking in, but your grief will still be there. Don’t hesitate at all to reach out to your loved ones for support even if it’s one year or two years from now and you’re still feeling it.
Aside from that, I know we only see what you want us to see but don’t forget that you’re strong and you can handle whatever comes your way. ❤ I hope you and your family have a great year for 2023 and make new memories!
Taylor, I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️ What a blessing to spend that week with your Nana. Watching your family experience Levi’s first Christmas is so magical and special, we missed you!
We missed you Taylor!
I am very sorry for your Nana. I lost my last grandmother just before Christmas in 2019 and it was tough, but things get easier with time.
You got yourself surrounded with beautiful and caring family and friends, I wish you all the best for 2023!
Levi's giggles oh my heart is warm, God bless him ♡♡♡
My condolences. Thank you for sharing your Nana with us all. She truly is a very amazing Nana. We know how special she is to you all! 👍🏼🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼. Loved seeing Levi’s first Christmas.
With all these presents there, and Levi still looks at you and smiles, it melts my heart!
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll always be here to support you, Taylor! I love all the videos you made, always give me positive energy, your smile/laughter always brighten my day.
So sorry for your loss Taylor 💕
Levi looks at you with so much love and admiration 🥹
I love the harmony between baby and doggy. They just seem to get along so well and take turns cuddling you ☺️
I'm so sorry for your loss, Taylor. I'm so glad that you all had a wonderful Christmas & Levi is such a cutie! His smile & laugh are so precious! ❤️❤️
The hardest part about life is that we all must grieve at some point and that is always difficult. I was so very sorry when I heard about your grandmother as I know you were close. I am so pleased you got to have some time with her because that does make a difference in the healing process. I follow you here and on IG and have done so probably since day one and I am always happy with how life is going for you. You are an awesome MOM and Tom is a lovely husband, you are blessed.
So nice to be able to watch an update. Nana will be missed & I am happy you had the chance to say goodbye in person and hug her once again. That cake Tom got for you is just ❤🎉🥺
Sending you so much love, Taylor ❤️❤️❤️ I know that your Nana meant so much to you. I'm glad you were able to make beautiful memories together.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It makess me so relieved you got to see her before she went on to the next adventure; from what you have shared with all of us it is such a beautiful relationship. It makes me miss my grandma that I think knew I was autistic long before I did, and didn't treat me like other family members did. I got to see her before she left us too, but I get the feeling she's watching every so often. Happy New Year
Oh Taylor I'm so sorry for your loss! I've been watching you for Years and have always loved seeing you make Vlogmas videos with your nana! She was such a light! And so funny, especially when she'd tell you to get your camera out of her face 😅 I'm so glad you have all those memories to look back on. And that you shared them with us as well ❤️ But I'm extra glad that you got to spend the week with her! May she rest in peace.
I'm so sorry for your loss! I'm glad you got to spend her final moments with her and get those talks and hugs 💜 she's going to be the best guardian angel and love watching your family grow from above
Much love from Arizona 💜💜
Omg Levi has the most cutest smiles and laugh, my heart is melting!! ❤
That’s so heavy to hear Taylor I can tell how much she means to you ❤ Praying for your healing ❤️🩹
I’m sorry for your lost Taylor. I felt the same way. This year was a little different. Levi is so cute!! He made my day with that smile. ❤
My deepest condolences for your loss Taylor, I've lost my grandparents during New Year's/January so the Christmas period is bittersweet for me too, but life carries on, and we have reasons to cherish it and continue to live it in the best way possible, while remembering the important people and things in our lives. I'm so proud for how far you've come, and I can't wait to see what new things you will make happen. Be safe 💪🌷
I’m so sorry for your loss, Taylor. But it’s definitely okay to grieve and celebrate, like you said!
That dinner looked delicious and it’s always a joy to see Carol again 💖
I’m so sorry about the passing of your nana! My mom died December 9th last month so you can imagine the month was just… wow. It was a whirlwind.
I love how close you are to your family and know you have amazing memories with nana/as many people in your family as possible and that’s a beautiful thing!
There’s this game I was watching playthroughs of that touched multiple times on grief, and one of the quotes was “to grieve deeply is to have loved fully.”
Couldn’t agree more.
Sending blessings to you and your ENTIRE family in the new year ♥️
I’m sorry for your loss, but glad you got to have that time with your grandma.. also.. Baby laughter is literally the purest sound in the world lol. Levi’s Laugh made me light up ❤
I’m sorry to here about your Nana! Prayers and love going out to you and yours! Levi is the most adorable baby! He is just too darn cute!
I see the sadness in your eyes Taylor. Stay strong! Seeing you and your baby brought me to tears. Sending you lots of love!
I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor, your Nana seemed like she was a wonderful person 😞 I hope you are better soon ...
I love how you treat Rosie like another baby, she truly is a member of your family ❤
So sorry for your loss. Sending so much love! Also, Tom’s birthday cake idea was so thoughtful!! Hope you all had a beautiful holiday!
You guys just make my heart cry. Glad you had a good Christmas despite everything. Here’s to 2023!
I'm so sorry for your loss Taylor! I've been watching for years and years so I've got to witness your relationship with your nana through your videos. You and her seem to have had an amazing relationship, I'm so relieved that you got to go spend time with her before she passed.
Also, how is Levi already so big! His personality is shining through! Do you think he's more like Tom or you personality wise? From what I have seen it looks like he might be a perfect little blend of both of you. 😍
Thank you for sharing your life with so many, I'm sure it's not always easy.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It doesn't make it hurt less, but it is comforting to remind myself that it hurts this much because there was so much love there, and how lucky we were to have it.
I'm so sorry for your loss! I'm happy that you were able to go back to Canada and spend some time with your Nana before she passed. It's so cute to see Levi experience his first Christmas! Tom did an awesome job with your birthday cake! Wishing you all the best for 2023!
So sorry for your loss, I totally comprehend how you feel about your nana, I’m glad she had a sharp mind and you got to spend her last days with her❤ on another note, it fills me with joy seeing Levi getting so big and happy and seeing you proud and happy as well, you deserve the very best❤️ Lots of love from Mexico❤
Taylor your son is so precious and adorable! His smile makes me smile ❤
Im so happy you made it to see her ❤ We’ve gotten to know Nana over the years in these videos. What a wonderfully warm and lovely woman.
I'm glad you had these last moments with your grandma and wish you and your family all the best. I am sure she was an amazing person❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you had the chance to spend some time together... Levi's is so freaking cute, whishing a super prosperous 2023 to your lovely family. 💜
We’re glad to see you back, Taylor. We all hope you and your family receive more blessings along the way. We will always support you no matter what,
Thank you ❤️
SO SORRY for your loss, Taylor. She will always be with you and looking out for you from above. All the very best.
im so sorry taylor, i remember losing my nana.. it was rough. Im glad you got those memories honey. Youre such a good mama, you really motivate me to do better as a mom. also Happy Birthday doll!
You are so sweet and beautiful. You are such a good mom. Levi is adorable and seems like such a happy baby. Also it makes my heart happy to see that you make an effort to keep including your first baby, Rosie!
Your Nana was so special, and i'm so sorry for your loss. Sending love and hugs to your family. This was a very touching video, Thank you for sharing and inspiring so many!
Oh Taylor, I am so happy that you were able to see your grandma before she passed. Sending you my love!
Ohhh Levi's little laugh melts my heart 🥺🥺
Your Nana was so sweet, and I loved seeing her on your vlogs because she reminded me a lot of my mom, who passed away in 2010. I'm sorry for your loss. She loves you so much and will always be with you! Levi's smiles and laughter just makes everything brighter. What a precious little boy! Thank you for sharing him with us!
Levi looked so cute in his personal ball pit!
I realize it's not easy to celebrate while grieving but I'm glad you gave yourself the grace to feel both.
The memories of being one last time with your grandma will always hold a special place in your heart just as the new memories you are making everyday with Levi and Tom. A wonderful vlog which was a pleasure to watch. Thank you Taylor ❤
I'm glad even though nothing went as planned that you had an amazing holiday with people you care about ❤️❤️
It looks like Levi liked his first Christmas celebration in his life.
Then, sorry to hear about the loss of your Nana, Miss Taylor. I hope you can get everything settled during and after spent your time with your family back in Canada.
I'm sorry for your loss. Happy that you got to have a nice Christmas even if it was different from the way you originally planned. Wish you and your family all the best for 2023 ❤
Sorry for your loss Taylor :(
I hope the new year brings you many blessings! Glad your feeling better!
Sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your experience with us
Levi is truly adorable!❤
♥ Sorry for your loss Taylor, it's sad to hear your grandmother passed away, may she rest in peace ♥ and may you and your family find comfort in the nice memories you have together ♥
What a handsome little man and so lucky to have you both as his parents. Sending warmth and love.
Watch your first Christmas brought back so many memories of both my kids first ones. It’s such a special time. Love seeing you all play and giggle. Many hugs. So sorry for the passing of your nana. ❤
Those little human mistakes like buying the wrong pan size/not checking your oven and sending your husband out for pick-up when you paid for delivery are so nice to see. Might sound a little funny, but we're all just doing our best out here!
This brought tears to my eyes. I am so sorry for your loss, I recently lost my grandfather and the pain is still fresh after nearly 4 months so I truly feel your pain. My heart goes out to you and your family.
So sorry about your Nana. Your family is sweet. Thank you for sharing these moments ❤
Sorry to hear about your Nanna , you were so lucky to be able to go and spend that time with her , it will be something you will always remember x
Levi is so adorable, Taylor!! That smile of his after the bath made my day! Your Christmas looked wonderful and happy which is just what your nan would want for you. It’s so hard to celebrate and grieve at the same time.
Thank you for introducing Tom to the day after Turkey sandwich with French fries and gravy. Such a Canadian thing. I’m also a Canadian, but live in the USA. I love those little traditions that are so different outside of Canada. Thank you for sharing with us! Happy new year! It’s going to be a great one
So sorry to hear about your nana. I'm glad you were able to see her one last time. Levi is the cutest baby ever. I absolutely love your little family.
You are a great mom! I love how you look after Rosie as well as Levi, btw. Levi is SOOOOOO CUTE!!!! Such a darling, gorgeous boy!! 😮🤗🤗 I am very sorry about your beloved nana. 😢
Levi is getting so big! I'm glad you had a good Christmas, sorry about the loss of your grandmother. It's tough no matter the time of year.
I’m so sorry to hear about your nana. I always loved watching the two of you and your relationship.
Im on my third round of IVF and I always watch your fertility journey videos for strength and I was watching this video and was already crying about your grandma when you said the thing about feeling like a kid again and reliving all of these moments with Levi and started 😭 all over. It’s so precious and special! It’s all I want!
I've been so stressed out since the last couple of months. Watching this video made me so happy. Thank you for sharing these beautiful moments with us Taylor. God bless you ❤