FTM Trans Guy: A Letter To My Pre-Transition Self
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 31 ม.ค. 2017
- I wrote a letter of what I would say to my younger, pre-transition (before I realised I was transgender and then the very early stages of my transition), self if I had the chance, and I decided to share it with you.
This is probably the most personal video I've ever posted, but I decided to share it as it's things that would have really helped me a lot, and I hope it can help someone else.
I hope you like it.
A lot (most) of the credit for this video goes to the amazing Shaaba, it would not have happened without her.
/ @shaaba
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Aw you guys, thank you so much for all the support on this video, it's made me quite emotional reading your comments (I will try to reply to as many as possible)
Jammidodger you're a beautiful human being, I'm glad you found happiness in such a confusing world ❤️
Jammidodger you're amazing, you inspire me. I aspire to reach where you are now and I think you're a great guy for us trans guys to look up to. Thanks!
Jammidodger I love you as a person. You are my inspiration and I'm so glad I found your channel. Because of you I'm getting a little bit more comfortable with myself and confident that I'll finally be able to come out. So thank you ❤
Jammidodger keep up the good work. very inspirational.
I came out to my parents yesterday after binge watching all you videos to build courage, so happy you exist and couldn't ever wish for a bigger inspiration! :D
I love this so much. Thank you.
Kovu is a unicorn Kovu!
Kovu is a unicorn kovuuu
Oh my gosh Kovu!!!!
KOVU
Kovu is a unicorn Son!! Nice to see you here
Even his eyes look happier.
This gives all pre t guys so much motivation, thank you x
I literally cried. I can barely see my keyboard. I can't wait to be myself. I really can't wait.
hows it going?
Yeah me too! I’m really upset that we can’t be ourself until we are older :(
Hang in there 🤍
Hey there, your comment was posted 6 years ago. How are you doing now?
Six years… just came out as gender fluid to my parents and am wondering what things I can do to look androgynous. Any tip?
This is crazy good Jamie
Hi old Noah haha
@@HeHe-du4le hi month old robin
@Mar hi 6 hour old mar
Omg hi Noah :D
Hello Jamie, my name is Dominick and I am a pre-everything transguy. I wasn't expecting to see this video today, or any like it really, but I didn't realize how much I needed to see it until I did. I am 17, soon to be 18, and have known I am a boy since middle school. I was so scared of transitioning, and still am, but this video helped me realize that I shouldn't be. Of course there is always going to be tough times, but it does get better. This video proves that it does get better, along with friends and family at your side, so I want to say thank you. Thank you for having the courage to be who you are, and to share that with the world. Thank you for showing me that everything undoubtedly gets better. Thank you for being my hero and role model Jamie, thank you. -Dominick
5 year update
This video made me cry...
*cough* I mean... something manly!
Who am I kidding this was beautiful!
Many Platypodes *cries manly tears*
This was so encouraging to me as someone who is just now starting to transition socially. Thank you so much for posting something so personal-it means the world.
That means a lot to hear, thank you, and all the best with everything! :)
This video is so awesome. May I use it for my presentation at school? I'll do one about gender issues and transgender related things soon. This video would just be perfect.
Thank you, yeah of course you can, thanks for asking :)
i came out to my dad today as ftm transgender and im still not sure if he's okay with it :/ this video is great and jammi you are awesome thanks for making videos like this you've helped me so much 😊 i can't wait to transition omg
+sonoki82 and how do you know
+sonoki82 1) im not his daughter, im his son and 2) maybe if he knows it'd make me happier to get surgery, then he'd be okay with it
+sonoki82 well he probably wouldn't be okay if i was upset about being female. if he knew how upset i was before i came out then maybe he'd be glad he knows now and can do something about it.
Give him some time to process this. Sometimes parents take months or even a year to accept it
So many feelings watching this. Thanks for posting.
I was 28 when I finally started coming out and I would tell my pre-transition self: you know who you are, you don't have to justify it to anyone.
*illegally downloads over youtube to mp3 and puts on loop*
Aspen Hall same. I watch it almost every day
I have to say, this video is one of the best, if not the best, ftm-motivation video on TH-cam in my opinion. I've got tears in my eyes and could relate to almost everything as pre-T.
In a universe where we can somehow send messages back in time to ourselves, I'm sure younger you is absolutely moved to tears by this video.
I only got half way through the video when my sister came in... she still says things like "if you have girl parts you are a girl" or "you're not a boy, you haven't had any surgeries" and it's annoying... I'm still thanking myself for coming out early. Now that I'm thinking maybe Chloe is a bit young to understand, but other kids her age understand... I still act feminine. And I hate myself for doing it... I don't think I am even used to myself. I'm going to change my name. I have told people I am going to choose my name and I already have my middle name. I have two options and I can't choose one!!! It's been 2 months! Ugh. Whatever. I'm rambling. I don't know if anyone is going to read this or has read this far, but, goodbye!
:(
Gasca I did.
Vickywalkerpl woah
don't hate yourself for how you act unless you act in a way that aren't comfortable to you. if you act feminine but doesn't feel that it's right then stop acting that way but don't try to change yourself to try to fit some male gender role. you can be a feminine trans man if that's what you are. i am.
B S So true! Lots of feminine cis guys in the world too. There's no reason we couldn't have our feminine side too. But if behaviour is learned, to fit in or whatever, and you dislike it and it doesn't feel like you you can always learn away from it :)
How is everything?
Thank you for giving all of us pre T trans boys so much empowerment. This changed my life. Thank you so much
Your video made me cry - very poignant. I'm the mother of a 13yr old ftm and it resonates so much with how he is feeling just now, after nearly a year of living as his true self. Thank you, your videos have helped me educate myself along this big learning curve.
Thanks for the happy cry.
I cried a lot watching this, I am 10 months on HRT and starting to live as myself. I am a transwoman and will be starting the process of discussion that will lead me to being full-time at work very soon and am terrified. So the things you say have resonated with me, maybe one day I too will find happiness.
I totally did not cry watching this...thanks for making this Jamie and helping me through the long wait until that first appointment and T
Hey, so glad I can help, it will feel like a long wait now, but time will fly once you're on T. All the best! :)
This brought tears. Lots of them. My boyfriend is transgender ftm and I've been looking into it a lot so I know how to support him and understand the changes he will be going through with T etc. So your videos (and other trans men's videos) have been incredibly useful and its just beautiful to see the journies of people becoming who they always needed to be. I have a lot of respect for you. You're very brave and I admire you. Keep up the good work :3 x
This is so encouraging. For me, and maybe even more so for others. For those who dont have the support when transitioning, it's hard. I had my few close friends, but some don't even have that. Hearing it all layed out in letter form may help people connect more emotionally. Help them realise even if it looks bad now, there is still the future. It does for me atleast. Thank you so much.
Thank you so much for this Jamie. I have been struggling with my transition and found out today that my long awaited T appointment is being pushed back after months of waiting and I was honestly crushed. Your video made me feel so much better and I realize it's just a bump in the road. Thank you and I'm really proud of you for how far you've come!! ❤️
Everything you just said in this video, made me feel so confident and happy. A lot of the "problems" you pointed out (name feeling weird at first, everything going slow, etc) is applying to me right now. I feel so relieved and to stumble upon this. This video is exactly what I needed. Thank you so much. You inspire me a lot dude.
THIS IS SO GOOD!!! Amazing video. I love this so much. It's one of the best feelings when you finally realize you're a not alone and you're not crazy. TH-cam videos like this do so much to help others who are just starting out. I know I watched a ton just trying to learn as much as possible and hoping I could do it too.
thank you Jammi- this video made me cry... I felt like vicariously I was hearing myself through your words-I'll be four years on T in August... and I think this was a very inspirational video... I think I need to do something similar for myself... this was cathartic... thank you.
This is humbling, so touching and I hope it reaches many, many younger 'you's' who will no doubt benefit greatly from your experience and wisdom.
I was so confused for so long about my body and why I never felt like me, but I saw an article about your transition on facebook. I actually cried. It was the revelation I needed, and that was two years ago. In one week, I start HRT for the first time. Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is Thank You so much, for being brave and strong and who you are! thank you for showing me strength!
Oh wow that's so amazing, congrats on being so close to starting hrt, I hope it goes well! Thank you so much for commenting
Thank you. Thank you so much for making this video. I'm in tears. I'm 30 years old ftm pre everything. I can't wait to truly live as myself. Thank you again 😭❤
Hey, buddy. Just wanted to say I'm in the exact same situation (age, too). I wish you all the strength with your journey ❤
We'll get there.
Oh God this made me cry. Only discovered your channel a couple of weeks ago but wanted to be educated. Thanks so much for sharing this. It was really beautiful and you Jamie are just amazing. You should be so proud of yourself. You help so many people going through similar feelings and educate so many people who want to understand. Thank you x
such a beautiful, wise message! i am sure your videos help those dealing w this. you are really generous to share your experience. such a great family too.
I watch this once every couple of weeks. Something about it just speaks to me on a level I cant possibly explain. Thank you for this.
I was teary eyed all the way through this, thank you for showing that things do get better, this was so heartfelt and real. I love it-and you for doing this-so much thank you for being you ❤
This made me cry. I dont know you obviously but I am so joyful for you. Thanks for making such great content.
Just from reading the title I knew that this video would make me cry... I can relate to this so much. The journey has been so hard at times, but I feel like I'm finally on the other side, and I'm so grateful for it. Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful letter of yours, I'm sure it will help lots of people who are still struggling on their journey.
this helped me SO much!!! thank you. you smacked me right in the feels. I can't thank you enough💕
i love you jamie and shaaba!!be happy always and im so proud of you...look at how you've come after all the struggles u had
Damnit Jaimie!!! I wasn't planning on crying at 3 in the morning. It's a happy cry but just.... thank you. You're the best. *hugs* 🙂
So heartfelt Jamie, stop making me cry x
You are a big inspiration for me and all of us. Thank you for making videos and I'm proud of you.
Shit this made me cry. I'm still in a weird limbo stage where Luke sounds weird but so does Jess, and i don't feel like a man 'yet' but I hope one day i'm where you are and will be ok with who i am. Thank you.
I cried. I think this is what I needed to hear before I start out on my own journey with T and the rest. Thank you for sharing.
You have no idea how much I needed to see this. I'm planning on coming out to my parents this week and I'm really REALLY scared. That picked me up so much. Thank you.
Why did this vid make me cry 😭
Why did i cry to this??? It was sooo beautiful! I'm feeling so inspired in so many ways. Thank you Jammie
i added this to my inspirational playlist,, I am so moved by this and I'm incredibly happy and proud of you
Thanks for helping me come out as transgender to my mom and grandmother:)
I'm pre t and I've been waiting for ages. I should be getting my first appointment this year and it's getting me down that it's taking so long. This video has made me feel hopeful and that everything's going to get better and people are going to be better with me. I just wanted to say thank you for making this video. I hope everything can go as well for me as it has for you.
I couldn't help but cry. Extremely happy for you, and extremely inspired to keep going. Thank you Jamie.
I don't understand transgenderism, but I don't have to. I just have to understand that everyone just wants to be themselves, and they are free to do so in any way they choose. I'm very happy to you see happy!
Thank you so much Jammi 😭❤️ I teared up because I feel like 16 year old you.. but I know that it will get better for me as did for you. Thank you so much for giving me hope and warming my heart with your story.
I'm so glad I stumbled upon this. I'm hoping to start my own transition soon and hearing this is just what I needed. I'll do my best to be brave on my own journey to manhood.
Hey Jamie,
I'm currently working on a MtF book and I had plan to add a small note at the beginning of the book from the Main character to her younger pre-transition self. I got the idea after watching a bit of your video on Instagram and once I had finally gathered the confidence to work on the book, I came here to watch the whole video.
This whole thing is a huge emotional train, and it's absolutely amazing. I really felt touched by this, even with just the clip.
Congratulations Jamie for making it so far and keeping strong mate, I'm really happy for you.
-From a fellow FtM and inspired authour
Thank you for this amazing video. How wonderful if everyone going through excrutiatingly difficult times could receive an encouraging message from their future self. Many more would survive to that happier future.
omg i love this so much 😭❤ its amazing to see all these changes of you becoming yourself 😏 much love !
Very good and inspirational for others.
This video is absolutely beautiful and makes me very hopeful for my own future and journey, thank you so much for making it.
Oh Jamie; 😢 beautiful 😭 I love this vid, I'm gonna keep it forever HUGS
You're so inspirational, I'm not out yet and your videos make me feel hopeful about it and I feel less alone!
Holy heck I needed this kind of uplifting thing today. Thanks Jammi, and stay awesome!
Thank you for this video, I think this is exactly what I needed.
I was on the verge of crying since about 0:25. So much feels.
Loved this. Tearing up. You should write a book and go into depth about all these things so that people know what to expect and help them go through the process.
This is BEAUTIFUL!!!!! So powerful!!! You've come so far and I'm so proud of you for staying so strong! 💪 Keep on doing just as you are, you are doing GREAT!!!!! 👌👍 love you and support you x ! 🖤
hey jamie, ive subscribed to you for a while & watched a lot of your videos and this week im finally starting t ! im really excited for it and i just wanted to tell you that your videos about the effects of t & the process of transitioning have helped me out a lot!! thank you so much for all youve posted, it kept me going and now im really starting to believe that i can eventually become the person i want to be the way you did :)
I figured I would cry watching this beforehand, but I'm in a puddle right now. Thank you so much for making this, this is so imporant to hear and I'm so glad that you are happy now. Take care
Man, this was so emotional and so helpful, I don't know about the other Pre-T trans guys, but for me, this made me feel so better about myself, and don't getting anxious about my future, if you work hard you'll get results.
¡Congratulations Jammie, and thank you for supporting us!
:)
This touched me deeply. And while I know your not...in alot of ways it felt like you were talkin to me cuz its how I am feeling. Not sure if you will see this but I am so glad I found your channel. It has helped me alot
Great video. Very personal, encouraging, and uplifting. Thanks for sharing.
I guess I'll just repeat what others already told you: you are SO
inspirational. I'm not a trans but i'm starting to deal with some
slightly"related" stuff and you know, it's tough. But even tough times
come to an end...thank you so much Jaime, I'm sooo glad I found your
channel!
S. from Italy
From someone who daily struggle to accept this part of themselves, thank you so much. I really needed to hear this.
Uh...I'm not crying...WHY AM I UH...CUTTING...ONIONS?! Ok...I'm crying this is such an inspirational video!
I've been struggling a lot with accepting my gender identity and I just came out to my mom a couple days ago as FTM(she was very supportive but yeah very confused), honestly I can't tell you how much I've appreciated you and your channel Jamie. Your videos have helped me a lot through this whole process. Thank you
You're doing what most of us are afraid to do; living an authentic life and I admire you for that. Best wishes.
Ten seconds lisening and i smash the like button, this is such a beautyfull video, from a beautyfull person. Lots of love!!!
This made me very emotional for some reason, oh god I love this so much! I'm so proud of you for not giving up, stay strong!
Thank you, I'm just starting my process a little late in life, I'm so excited to get my first T February 7th and trying to be patient with my journey. Thank you, thank you, thank you for all your videos, your so precious❤️
I thought I'd cried enough on my first trans clinic appointment today but then I see this... :') Thank you for this beautiful video. I'm gonna need to watch it again whenever I feel like this is going nowhere. It's such a slow and humiliating process but it will get better.
I'm happy for you and everyone in the comments. I've seen this a lot later then them, 4 years later. But I'm glad I've seen it. They've seen it when they needed it - and now I have too. Thankyou.
This made me cry. Jamie I can't believe how far you've come.
this made me cry, I love this so much ♥
This is so beautiful I'm crying. Thank you for sharing this with us Jamie. For me, I'm still thinking things through and I've just spoke to the doctors about possibly being referred to the Gender Identity Clinic to see if that'll help. I feel like a lot of your videos helps calm me down in a sense that I don't have to worry about not knowing, since everyone's different. I love you and Shaaba so much and I'm so happy things are better now. :)
This made me cry a lot - me and my partner are both transguys and he's going through a really tough time at the moment and I don't know thank you so much for doing this you're amazing and an inspiration
I love this. It's so great to watch also for a person pre-transition
This video was posted 12 hours ago and it still has zero dislikes!! I'm so proud of you Jamie
I can't explain how this makes me feel. I cry every time I watch this it gives me hope and helps me think and look forward to the future
Very cool. Your documenting of your transition is so awesome
this hits so close to home thank u for making this
I think I started crying within the first 20 seconds. You've come so far. I'm really happy you exist.
This made me tear up....you're amazing, I subscribed
I'm a little late watching this but this is something I think all trans people at the beginning of their transition need to hear! Thank you for sharing this and your story! (also thanks for the advice on binding you gave me, my binding experience is going pretty well .. so far).
pollo was so tiny!!! i love the content you put out, even though you wont read this, watching your videos helps me be sure about my future and that it can and will most likely get better.... you and shaaba are a feckin power couple with every challenge youve had to face and im so glad youre getting married, took long enough. anyway, you amazing, your videos are amazing... ive learnt so much about aspects of transition and its been an eye opener and helped me learn about the fact that im trans, i hope everything goes smoothly for you from now on. love to you, shaaba and pollo
Xx -Daniel : )
Awe that actually made me emotional 😕 I'm a new subscriber and when I subscribed I binge watched your videos and I think you're amazing!
This is so incredibly sweet. Thank you for sharing.
I'm going to keep this video to me. When ever I feel down, I'll watch it. It made me feel better.
This made me cry and smile at the same time your amazing I hope i can get enough courage to come out to my family and have their support I love watching your videos ❤️ and always be happy 😊
Brings tears to my eyes. Great video - thanks
Dang it man! Where did all this dust come from?!
What a beautiful letter. I get to start T in 5 days and I'm excited and nervous and this made me feel so good. Thank you for sharing!
I come back to this a lot, on an account bearing the wrong name, and I still cry every time. Everything rings so true and it's hard to push past the impatience and simply enjoy the social transition...but it IS so good and only going to get better.
Jammi .. I can only hope to get to this point in my life one day. You are so amazing, so strong, and so brave.
I came out to my mother a little over one year ago and have not really made it too far in my transition so I hope, one day i can made a letter to myself someday.
stay strong bro.