There’s a lot of self doubt and contradicting behaviors. Very hard for me to explain. To feel powerful but you can’t figure out where the ‘power’ lies within. To have ‘IT’ but can’t prove it. I was picked on as a child and I always felt less than everyone else. 💙🖤
I've always had low self-esteem my whole life. I'd say growing up in an household where my emotional needs were completely ignored caused a lot problems socially, which still affects me to this day. I'm still learning to cope and heal from this chiron placement.
“You heal others around you just by being yourself” I hear this ALL the time. I’m a Sagittarius rising with Pluto & Chiron in the 1st house (whole signs) and while my relationship with myself and what I’ve been taught has been quite the journey, with time, I come to realize that I am the gift. The very things people tried to destroy within me are the very things that people love about me. This is such a beautiful placement with some understanding.
I was bullied at school and at home, by my looks or my artistic expressions, music taste.when i feel sad i just freeze, thank you for sharing your knowledge
i have this conjunct pluto in my 1st. i was bullied badly both verbally and physically in school. home life was also not great and didn’t aid in helping my identity, i grew up very lost, but in my adult life it’s been a hard and long process of transformation and finding myself, but i continue to stay strong and fight through it all. thanks for the video 💜
I have chiron in my 1st house. In my life I've going through really tough moment when I was 4, my dad took me to a psychiatrist and he said that I'm not only autistic, but also my IQ is borderline to MR and development delay 8 years compare with those oridinary children of the same age as mine. Since then my life is in the living hell. my parents always in conflict on parenting schemes, schooling,my dad is highly manipulative, passive aggressive, mental and psychical abusive towards my mother and I. I've been bullied from my neighbor and when I go to school my teachers hates me, kept being bullied by the students in primary school. I thought things eould get better if studying in secondary school. however situation hasn't change when I'm in secondary school, I quit school after Form 5, and went to work and I get bullied at the workplace, even sex abuse when my colleagues knows that I'm gay. I try to call the police but they don't believe me. later on I've been dynoised as schzophinia; my love life sucks, from 13-30 year old, I experienced 7 toxic relationships including, controling behaviour, sexual violence, domastic abuse, isolation, neglection, manplutive, passive aggression.since then I received discrimination and isolation from the society and I try to find a variety of job to apply, however I didn't stay a chance to be employed when they know my medical background - schzophinia. plus I have experienced paranormal attact when staying at home. 7 years later my mother passed away and I lost someone who is the only parent that I trust in this world. few days later I commit sucide and I've been placed in a psychiatric hospital after saving my life. I have been living in despair for 33 years, I not here for gaining empathy, but rather I still believe in possibility will appear when the time is right
This is so unbelievably beautiful and spot on. I am so in awe with astrology as I study my birth chart. When I started studying Chiron every exact thing you stated was so true to my life and where my pain has come from. It is what comes up as I continue to grow from those past experiences. I really appreciate your energy and how you expressed it. Very powerful. I also appreciate the trailblazer attributes you mentioned . I am a trailblazer in the work I do as I continue to create what I see in my mind and working with the challenge of asserting myself as being awareness to what I do
Thank you!! I find myself being drawn to define my own identity alot. Got chiron in the 1st in Sagittarius. Also taking action / the feeling of being inable to properly take action has been huge for me. I’m healing now🖤
I can’t believe I didn’t look into this sooner. I have Chiron in the 1st house in cancer. I have always had problems with my self identity. I would think I had myself figured out but the next day I would feel like a fake or questioning if it was really me or me being influenced by my environment or people. I would subconsciously choose to keep people around me that I knew were no good because I felt like I didn’t deserve any better or couldn’t find better. Eventually I got out of that cycle but the self identity is still a struggle. I have a hard time starting things even though I know if I start I will be happier. I’m 32 and feeling like I need to figure out hobbies that make me happy or worthy of praise. But I am a mother. I feel like all my energy is spent on my children, school, my boyfriend, my siblings, my parents, my boyfriend’s family. My job. How can I have the energy to discover myself?
Another TH-cam clip recommended acting class for this placement and that's been transformative for me and improvisation especially /character experiment. If you get time and feel it may help, i recommend it:)
“The right to desire” wow, eh! So true. Never even thought of that. That the personal fire and passion within is effected is almost overlooked too, isn’t it? Good observation, Raquel. I appreciate it. I wonder how one would remedy that practically since it involves Mars and first house? I reckon, using Mars and self in a Capricornian way; to maybe dig down deep into that Capricorn earth to uncover desire, passion-fire and breath on that flame cupping it with that hands sort of speak to keep it alit. We are trying to solve life’s mysteries in the dark with the light of stars-it seems.
Randomly searching for an explanation of my Chiron placement and WOW… I’m 5 mins into this video and can’t stop crying. I’m 41 and as a constant seeker of self understanding I can truly say that you have helped me breakthrough this part of my journey. Thank you for sharing this with the world. ❤❤
This was very helpful in helping me understand my journey here. I appreciate the suggestions on how to work with this energy. More love and compassion for my self seeped in. Thank you Raquel ❤
I love love love this video and the beautiful choice of words i always felt like i never belonged in this world and hated myself from a very young age 😔 I am still learning to love and accept myself for who i am
This assessment hit me where it is; I have a Chiron in the first house IN TAURUS, and that not being enough, I have Venus in Taurus in the first house, all while being Taurus rising-self-perception has always being problematic for me; including looks and being bullied as a kid in the house and school. That really has a toll on anybody’s confidence!!
I cried watching this, your energy is healing, I am very picky and critical about myself and others but so - here you are, choosing words carefully and so inspiring, Thank you
I can definetely relate to this , it can be hard to look in the mirror at times and love myself for who i am, an meditating does help to clarify my self-image and to understand that i am good enough. great video 👌🏼
My husband has this Chiron in 1st in taurus and he has venus in 1st so I always wondered why his self worth was low 😢 today I got his time … yall im sad he has no Virgo at all my rising is in his 7th house and his venus in Aries im not his dream girl 😢😢😢😢😢😢
Thanks for sharing your beautiful energy. I like watching your videos a lot. I have Chiron and Lilith in Gemini in my 1 house and feels impossible. I would like to do a reading with you. The link didn’t work. 💙 thank you.
That’s so sweet 🤍 I forgot to add my link for readings to this video but here it is- calendly.com/raquelastrology/deepdivephonesession?back=1&month=2024-10
Just from imagining those aspects combined I feel like gaining control of your thoughts through stillness and finding comfort in solitude but also balancing that with genuine friendships that are healing would do wonders for you
I don’t have this placement. But I need to tell this one, Jeremy Renner has his Chiron in the 12th house to where he’s born, but in Nero, Nevada his Chiron moves to his 1st house according to his RELOCATION CHART, his node is in the 12th, it explains a lot about the accident.
I'm denoised as autistic spectrum and 8 year of developmental delayed when I was 4 , since then my dad start mentally abuse me and hurt me so deeply in the core that my miserable past is hard to wipe away, Bullying is a constant situation to be faced from childhood to adulthood, Throughout my life, I've experienced gay prostitution, gang raped, seduction, sodomic activities in general, being kicked into the triad society, domestic violence, love addiction, toxic relationships, cold violence, physical, psychological and mental and political abuse, drug dealing, human trafficking, systemic discrimination, autism and schizophrenic discrimination, sexual minority and all other minority stigmatization, heterosexistic social structural, legistrative, cultural, ideological, philosophical, psychological, mental development, conversion therapy, sexual repression in a healthy gay relationships, discrimination among sexual minoritic communities. In the age of 38, he pull out a huge knife and a boiling oil whose wants to kills me, so I move out, I'm abnormal, foolish, stupid, irrational and never good enough regardless on what I've achieved in every single aspects in my life (academic field , daily fundamental financial managing skills, housekeeping skills, including cooking and all the chores has to be done in his house, EQ, communication skills, telepathic sensitivity, body language interpretation, time management, multitasking, home safety, proper usage in electronic products in general etc.) in his eyes. The in detention of details of harsh , rough irrational discouraging and unemphatic criticisms is all I heard throughout my childhood. the only remaining of my self-confidence has fallen into pieces. plus 7 years ago, my mother passed away, I totally break down and can't forget her love towards me, her life principle, her teachings her insistent belief of my musical talent, regardless the opposition of her family tree, her cousins, dad, mom and so on, and her sense of humor, all shaping my characteristics, especially when I'm facing the public. She is the light that shine through the eternal darkness of my life Now I'm into social work, social psychology, parapsychology, psychic mediumship, channeling, numerology, astrology, tarot reading, Akashic records, flower of life, tree of life, seed of life, Dancing, chanting, plants magick, history of occult and mystic development in the society, cultural studies , buddhism, spiritual science and spiritual psychology and spiritual based ideological aspects, social structure, law and order and city planning, sexology, sex therapy in order to heal myself
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There’s a lot of self doubt and contradicting behaviors. Very hard for me to explain. To feel powerful but you can’t figure out where the ‘power’ lies within. To have ‘IT’ but can’t prove it. I was picked on as a child and I always felt less than everyone else. 💙🖤
Chiron in cancer 1st house. This is a heavy hitter. Healing to all. ⭐️
I've always had low self-esteem my whole life. I'd say growing up in an household where my emotional needs were completely ignored caused a lot problems socially, which still affects me to this day. I'm still learning to cope and heal from this chiron placement.
I love this song choice 💚 I was bullied when I was younger and I always felt alone . It’s a tough aspect but a meaningful one .
“You heal others around you just by being yourself” I hear this ALL the time. I’m a Sagittarius rising with Pluto & Chiron in the 1st house (whole signs) and while my relationship with myself and what I’ve been taught has been quite the journey, with time, I come to realize that I am the gift. The very things people tried to destroy within me are the very things that people love about me. This is such a beautiful placement with some understanding.
I have this placement. and the part about taking action hit so hard. and please say more about this placement. thanks for your content :)
I was bullied at school and at home, by my looks or my artistic expressions, music taste.when i feel sad i just freeze, thank you for sharing your knowledge
i have this conjunct pluto in my 1st. i was bullied badly both verbally and physically in school. home life was also not great and didn’t aid in helping my identity, i grew up very lost, but in my adult life it’s been a hard and long process of transformation and finding myself, but i continue to stay strong and fight through it all. thanks for the video 💜
i have those placements too ♡
I have those placements in sag and both in 1st house
@@justauser2111 SAME. chiron conjuct pluto in my 1st house as Sag rising. and Lilith conjuct my ascendant too in my 1st house... T-T
@@mohamedelbessam8120 wow 😍 What is your date of birth?
@@justauser2111 17/12/1999, what about you?
I have chiron in my 1st house. In my life I've going through really tough moment when I was 4, my dad took me to a psychiatrist and he said that I'm not only autistic, but also my IQ is borderline to MR and development delay 8 years compare with those oridinary children of the same age as mine. Since then my life is in the living hell. my parents always in conflict on parenting schemes, schooling,my dad is highly manipulative, passive aggressive, mental and psychical abusive towards my mother and I. I've been bullied from my neighbor and when I go to school my teachers hates me, kept being bullied by the students in primary school. I thought things eould get better if studying in secondary school. however situation hasn't change when I'm in secondary school, I quit school after Form 5, and went to work and I get bullied at the workplace, even sex abuse when my colleagues knows that I'm gay. I try to call the police but they don't believe me. later on I've been dynoised as schzophinia; my love life sucks, from 13-30 year old, I experienced 7
toxic relationships including, controling behaviour, sexual violence, domastic abuse, isolation, neglection, manplutive, passive aggression.since then I received discrimination and isolation from the society and I try to find a variety of job to apply, however I didn't stay a chance to be employed when they know my medical background - schzophinia. plus I have experienced paranormal attact when staying at home. 7 years later my mother passed away and I lost someone who is the only parent that I trust in this world. few days later I commit sucide and I've been placed in a psychiatric hospital after saving my life. I have been living in despair for 33 years, I not here for gaining empathy, but rather I still believe in possibility will appear when the time is right
This is so unbelievably beautiful and spot on. I am so in awe with astrology as I study my birth chart. When I started studying Chiron every exact thing you stated was so true to my life and where my pain has come from. It is what comes up as I continue to grow from those past experiences. I really appreciate your energy and how you expressed it. Very powerful. I also appreciate the trailblazer attributes you mentioned . I am a trailblazer in the work I do as I continue to create what I see in my mind and working with the challenge of asserting myself as being awareness to what I do
Loved reading this thank you soo much :)
Thank you!! I find myself being drawn to define my own identity alot. Got chiron in the 1st in Sagittarius. Also taking action / the feeling of being inable to properly take action has been huge for me. I’m healing now🖤
I can’t believe I didn’t look into this sooner. I have Chiron in the 1st house in cancer. I have always had problems with my self identity. I would think I had myself figured out but the next day I would feel like a fake or questioning if it was really me or me being influenced by my environment or people. I would subconsciously choose to keep people around me that I knew were no good because I felt like I didn’t deserve any better or couldn’t find better. Eventually I got out of that cycle but the self identity is still a struggle. I have a hard time starting things even though I know if I start I will be happier. I’m 32 and feeling like I need to figure out hobbies that make me happy or worthy of praise. But I am a mother. I feel like all my energy is spent on my children, school, my boyfriend, my siblings, my parents, my boyfriend’s family. My job. How can I have the energy to discover myself?
Another TH-cam clip recommended acting class for this placement and that's been transformative for me and improvisation especially /character experiment. If you get time and feel it may help, i recommend it:)
Chiron in cancer in 1st house too! 35 mom of 2. Love and light to you. ⭐️
“The right to desire” wow, eh! So true. Never even thought of that. That the personal fire and passion within is effected is almost overlooked too, isn’t it? Good observation, Raquel. I appreciate it. I wonder how one would remedy that practically since it involves Mars and first house? I reckon, using Mars and self in a Capricornian way; to maybe dig down deep into that Capricorn earth to uncover desire, passion-fire and breath on that flame cupping it with that hands sort of speak to keep it alit. We are trying to solve life’s mysteries in the dark with the light of stars-it seems.
Randomly searching for an explanation of my Chiron placement and WOW… I’m 5 mins into this video and can’t stop crying. I’m 41 and as a constant seeker of self understanding I can truly say that you have helped me breakthrough this part of my journey. Thank you for sharing this with the world. ❤❤
@@LilDreamrGrl Thank you for sharing that the fact that I could help means the absolute world to me ❤️❤️❤️
@@raquelintuitive🫰🏽🫰🏽
This was very helpful in helping me understand my journey here. I appreciate the suggestions on how to work with this energy. More love and compassion for my self seeped in. Thank you Raquel ❤
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I have this placement. Being autistic with it is very hard. Thanks for your compassion.
I love love love this video and the beautiful choice of words i always felt like i never belonged in this world and hated myself from a very young age 😔 I am still learning to love and accept myself for who i am
This assessment hit me where it is; I have a Chiron in the first house IN TAURUS, and that not being enough, I have Venus in Taurus in the first house, all while being Taurus rising-self-perception has always being problematic for me; including looks and being bullied as a kid in the house and school. That really has a toll on anybody’s confidence!!
I have the same placement it's a journey but a lot happens with the healing and it can become a power
I cried watching this, your energy is healing, I am very picky and critical about myself and others but so - here you are, choosing words carefully and so inspiring, Thank you
Thank you love 🥲 it felt so good reading this, I’m glad you enjoyed the video
I can definetely relate to this , it can be hard to look in the mirror at times and love myself for who i am, an meditating does help to clarify my self-image and to understand that i am good enough. great video 👌🏼
Had to drop a sub you were so on point and like your vibe
This video helped me so much; thank you for sharing your energy…Namaste 🙏🏾💜🔮
Thank you so muchh! Namaste 🤍
You are very talented. I appreciate you! 🙏
That was very interesting. I'll be looking more into chiron. Thanks for the info
Thank You So Much ❤️🔥
This video resonated with me so deeply. I cannot wait until you continue your NN series; I’m ready for the 5H North Node video!
This was a very informative video.Thank you for sharing your knowledge! I'm excited to see what else you will share with us!!!
Awesome video. Definitely helps knowing it gets better!
Glad that it helped 😊
My husband has this Chiron in 1st in taurus and he has venus in 1st so I always wondered why his self worth was low 😢 today I got his time … yall im sad he has no Virgo at all my rising is in his 7th house and his venus in Aries im not his dream girl 😢😢😢😢😢😢
Thanks for sharing your beautiful energy. I like watching your videos a lot. I have Chiron and Lilith in Gemini in my 1 house and feels impossible. I would like to do a reading with you.
The link didn’t work. 💙 thank you.
That’s so sweet 🤍 I forgot to add my link for readings to this video but here it is-
calendly.com/raquelastrology/deepdivephonesession?back=1&month=2024-10
i love ur videos omg
thank uu
Thanks for the video!!!
Very helpful, thank you.🙏🏻
❤️
My moon and Chiron conjunct ascendant in Gemini, What strategy should I use to heal myself ?
Just from imagining those aspects combined I feel like gaining control of your thoughts through stillness and finding comfort in solitude but also balancing that with genuine friendships that are healing would do wonders for you
@@raquelintuitive Thankyou
Thank you
Nice video 😁💯
I don’t have this placement. But I need to tell this one, Jeremy Renner has his Chiron in the 12th house to where he’s born, but in Nero, Nevada his Chiron moves to his 1st house according to his RELOCATION CHART, his node is in the 12th, it explains a lot about the accident.
Chiron 1st sag xo
I'm denoised as autistic spectrum and 8 year of developmental delayed when I was 4 , since then my dad start mentally abuse me and hurt me so deeply in the core that my miserable past is hard to wipe away, Bullying is a constant situation to be faced from childhood to adulthood, Throughout my life, I've experienced gay prostitution, gang raped, seduction, sodomic activities in general, being kicked into the triad society, domestic violence, love addiction, toxic relationships, cold violence, physical, psychological and mental and political abuse, drug dealing, human trafficking, systemic discrimination, autism and schizophrenic discrimination, sexual minority and all other minority stigmatization, heterosexistic social structural, legistrative, cultural, ideological, philosophical, psychological, mental development, conversion therapy, sexual repression in a healthy gay relationships, discrimination among sexual minoritic communities.
In the age of 38, he pull out a huge knife and a boiling oil whose wants to kills me, so I move out, I'm abnormal, foolish, stupid, irrational and never good enough regardless on what I've achieved in every single aspects in my life (academic field , daily fundamental financial managing skills, housekeeping skills, including cooking and all the chores has to be done in his house, EQ, communication skills, telepathic sensitivity, body language interpretation, time management, multitasking, home safety, proper usage in electronic products in general etc.) in his eyes. The in detention of details of harsh , rough irrational discouraging and unemphatic criticisms is all I heard throughout my childhood. the only remaining of my self-confidence has fallen into pieces. plus 7 years ago, my mother passed away, I totally break down and can't forget her love towards me, her life principle, her teachings her insistent belief of my musical talent, regardless the opposition of her family tree, her cousins, dad, mom and so on, and her sense of humor, all shaping my characteristics, especially when I'm facing the public. She is the light that shine through the eternal darkness of my life
Now I'm into social work, social psychology, parapsychology, psychic mediumship, channeling, numerology, astrology, tarot reading, Akashic records, flower of life, tree of life, seed of life, Dancing, chanting, plants magick, history of occult and mystic development in the society, cultural studies , buddhism, spiritual science and spiritual psychology and spiritual based ideological aspects, social structure, law and order and city planning, sexology, sex therapy in order to heal myself
Solo busca de dios
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Chiron is PAIN......