This is a prime example of what opiates do to a long-term term addict. They take away any self-worth or self-confidence you have to the point you feel like you are not worthy of anything good in your life. Sitting down doing what you just did isn't easy, and I hope the comments and support you get from it are as helpful to you as it was for me. Keep your head up and keep good people around you, even if it's just your family. Best of luck ahead
People like this are harming true chronic pain sufferers who have never abused their medication, don't get high from it, and need it to lead a somewhat functional life. So many people are now being harmed by these addicts. People living in incurable chronic nerve pain that is there 24/7. So many patients who take their medication as prescribed and rarely ask for an increase in dose, like myself. I have been on the same dose for over 12 years. The medication should not be demonized. It's the people that abuse it. Not every one does.
@@ballerman22345 I have to agree with you. I too have nerve damage down both my legs which causes unbearable pain 24/7 for me. Talk to anyone with small fiber neuropathy. Many are just waiting to die. It is so sad. The pain some people experience is indescribable. Yes, demonize the addict but not the drug. It is very necessary for many patients.
That is so true, man. I got no confidence in maself and feel useless. Fuck, I don't even feel like a real MAN ! Trying to stick to thé straight and narrow road is a constant struggle. I know I won't fall back into full time opiate abuse, even when I really want some, cos i cut off all contact, burnt all the bridges and live far, far away where I can't get ANYTHING ! (except fkin coke, which i DON'T want anyway) But it's just trying to live like a normal, straight person, paying my bills and keeping on top of stuff, like most people DO, I find that so difficult. This fella seems really good hearted, am glad things are turning round for him, glad he's still got that diamond of a wife with him. He's a lucky guy and hé deserves it. I wish him all the best and that things just keep getting better for him. Great vidéo, Mark.👍
@@ballerman22345 if you've been taking your meds as prescribed for 12 years w/o a dosage increase you should just ask for one. Don't let addicts stop you.
It’s a ride I don’t suggest anyone hop on willingly. 8 years sober as of Feb 26th. What started as taking medication (hydrocodone) for lower back pain (slipped disc) after giving birth evolved to being prescribed perc 10s - the school buses as I later learned they’d be called. Took my stuff as prescribed … until the pain got so intense one day that I could barely move and I only had a few Percocets left. My doctor was out of town on vacation and couldn’t see me. My husband had an uncle that was prescribed Oxy 30s for his cancer treatment. He hated taking them and had several bottles of the stuff. He came over to check on us one day and gave me a few saying they might help. Took one, felt better an hour later. Could do all regular things I needed to do. Told him, thanked him, and went to bed … woke up in worse pain the next day. Took one in place of my perc. That went on for a couple days until I didn’t have anymore. Had two percs left. He brought over half a bottle of them that he never took from the month prior and gave them to me. And that’s how it began. That shit evolved like a monster over time. Went from 30s, to 40s, 60s, then to little green beauties (80s). Got my hands on Opanas and that changed the game. I functioned every day normally. Worked and pulled my weight. A lot of people who don’t know an addict personally or have never been down that hole thinks everyone starts recreationally and that they’re only in it for a “good time”. It’s such a sad way to view things, being so misinformed. Took me a good while to admit I was an addict and needed help. Took several attempts to kick it. Cold turkey, tapering, everything … until I found a clinic, got on Suboxone, did the program, and wiped my hands clean. I never want to go back to that. I get clammy just _thinking_ about the cold sweats and cramps of going through withdrawals. To anyone who has kicked opioids, know there’s someone out there just like you going through the same shit. Once an addict, always an addict … but we take it a day at a time. It’s one hell of a beast to overcome, but you’ll be a much better person in the long run knowing you don’t need to take ANY of it.
@@justingoodwin8729 i was on opiates for 10 yrs. Its been almost 4 mos now that i stopped taking pills. Only thru being able to use suboxone strips to do so. Theres no worse feeling than being dope sick and going thru withdrawals. I 0am a pain patient and its what my Dr put me on and i trusted him..never thought i could be addicted to anything like oxycodone. Im still in pain ,even tho the strips do help some with that. I lost all my teeth from taking them ,my social life ,etc. My Dr is in prison now for 20 yrs. And owes millions he will prob never be able to pay. Im proud of anyone who can stop opiates and stay clean.
My husband is a felon for selling weed a long time ago. We got together shortly after that. He felt hopeless and like a loser for a long time because of the stigma of being a felon and lost opportunities. We have a beautiful life now, 3 babies and he has worked hard to take care of his family. Best thing I ever did was stand by that man. You are blessed, and I wish a happy ever after for you and your family.
Weed, really lady? And he didn't sharpen his skills in the joint with like minds? This dude was strung out on heroin. That's like comparing a rubber ducky to a giant octopus
@@JESUSCHRIST91126ad I know. Like I said, It's literally comparing a rubber ducky to an octopus. I know dudes that did decades for murder and come out with tons of resources at their fingertips and better off from the connections they made in prison. These days felons/cons actually have better opportunities
@aspartamekillsyaknow9019 First of all, calm down. I was simply reacting to this post. Not saying I related to the hardcore addiction he is going through, but I understand the struggle coming out of it all and having to find honest work to provide.
@@SlzyE Eric, my guy you are a strong motherfucker. I really feel what it’s like to be the one to “expose” your girlfriend to drugs and fucked up shit she otherwise wasn’t involved with; but she loves you are you are a real ass mf. You are both lucky to have each other. Sincerely wishing you all the best. Love from Boston 💪🏽
The first time I was able to vocalize that I had so much guilt and shame (tied to my addiction), I cried so damn hard. When he said the word "shame", he choked up a bit and then caught himself...I felt that in my soul. Stay up, brother, you have much to be proud of 💛💛💛
That’s a fact. I felt the same thing at the exact same time. Seems like this addiction is pretty similar across the board. I’m 6.5 days clean off a 1300$ daily, 4.5 year long oxy habit. Feels good, but goddamn it is difficult.
@Noah Seward oh and try Suboxone if you haven't already. You can live a pretty much normal life and not get high but you'll be trapped forever. Like me...
Hey brother if you read my comment just know I feel everything you've said. My name is Eric as well and I stay in Ponchatoula Louisiana. I'm also involved with opioid pills myself. It's a hard battle and it's draining my bank account every week. I know I deserve to be happy and I'm praying for both of us and anyone else dealing with addiction. Be strong brother
Really means a lot to me brother just know your not alone and don’t be so hard on yourself your addiction doesn’t define you brother stay up and thank you for those heartfelt words ❤️ Eric Spinks
@@SlzyEproud of you bro. I stay on the westbank off De Gaulle So I know exactly what you mean…stay the course bro ✊🏽praying for you and the other Eric above in the comments.
Eric…put the past in the past. Be proud that you are in recovery…! That’s an accomplishment brother…! You learned a great trade, work hard, and focus on your family..! No one is looking at you like you are a criminal or addict, ..! You are a hard working Dad, and Husband..! Don’t beat yourself up…! I don’t know you, but I’m proud of you hearing your story……be proud of yourself and who you have become….🙏❤️✌️
@@SlzyE stay on the road forward. You seem like all the kids I love to adopt around where I live. Inherently you're a good person I can tell. Don't live a shitty life, -you know what my big suggestion is, grow food. Try to live a simple meaningful life. Your son will benefit from it. take care of yourself.
I battle with a oxycodone addiction recently I just got tired! It’s hard to explain but I’ve been on a spiritual journey and I’m learning myself more and in realizing I can do anything I put my whole heart and mind into ❤
Excellent interview. You are worthy Eric of all the good things coming to you. Helping others is a huge way to increase you’re sense of self-worth. I have been on maintenance medication since 2011 and have been sober and it can work for you too. Please God and not yourself Eric. Nothing but respect for you for sharing in such an honest way. I wish you much success and only the best with your wife and son.
You are so worthy, Eric. Congratulations on your successes thus far- though I know there are many more to come. Your story will help so many people. Keep up the good fight
Eric, I too, am from Louisiana! Your story is an inspiration to others! Keep keeping on, stay sober, and remember, you ARE worthy. Your wife and your child need you. Great testament!!!
I've been an addict for 10 years due to a lot of health problems (6 bowel surgeries, a year being tube fed and a coma)! The illness cost me my marriage, job, home and independence! Right now the opiates have just made it worse, but I can honestly say it's the only warmth I have left!
I wish you bonne courage and strength. It might not seem like it now and it might even bé a long way off, but things can change for the better, they will, just don't give up hope, keep on keeping on.
Your Wife is a wise woman...., All that stuff You did is not who You are, It is what You did.., You are Your spirit and Your Soul...Take care of You and Your special family....
Eric’s story has me tearing up.. #1.. keep up the awesome work Eric. Your past doesn’t define who you are as a person. I’m sure you have amazing qualities under your struggles. And guess what.. we all have weaknesses. #2.. the reason I teared up.. is you and your wife remind me of my boyfriend and I. I have no experience with drugs.. i grew up in a household that was very academic/career focused.. in a bubble.. sheltered from chaos.. I’m naturally a very innocent person. I met my boyfriend Michael and we fell in love.. I fell in love with who he was as a person. I only knew the clean version of him which gave me the opportunity to experience an amazing human being. It gave me the opportunity to see him for who he was. He was an electrician (also had a skill). He was so smart.. a problem solver.. so generous and selfless. After 6 months of knowing him.. (I know it’s a short time, but I don’t believe true love is defined by time) I lost him to a relapse. We were planning our future together.. we were moving on to bigger and better things. The day I lost him.. my whole world and future plans.. were shattered. I haven’t been the same since.. I don’t think I ever will be. The story of you, your wife, and your son really touched me. I’m so happy you have such a beautiful support system. ❤ I wish you the best.
I’m saddened to hear about the passing of michael 😢he sounds like he was an amazing man. I’m sorry you ever had to experience loosing someone close to your heart. Keep your head up❤️
You got this! Shame and guilt are wasted emotions recognize your strength and be proud of who you are now.. we all make mistakes but many never recognize their mistakes or humble themselves enough to not feel like victims or take accountability. ❤️
Eric has inspired me to do better. To be a better husband, to be a better father, to be a better person. If you read this Eric, thank you, you may have changed my entire life, in respect to how I will treat people from this day forward.
I’m so glad I and really appreciate those words. Didn’t know I could reach someone remember who and what matters the most and always stand by the ones who you love never give up no matter what
@@SlzyE man.. when you were talking about not feeling worthy and living with guilt, that put tears in my eyes. I also feel that way a lot of times and it’s hard to deal with..we are all worthy of happiness though.
Listening to him say getting a job is difficult is an understatement as most know trusting a felon etc is not going to be at the top of the list of a hiring manager. He is so fortunate to have been given an opportunity and he has to feel so happy that he was given a chance. For an addict whether recovering or not, the self esteem is so low that a person can easily fall back into heavy addiction because they don’t feel worthy at all. Good job young man you seem very strong and determined to do well. Day by day.
Eric… You are worthy of all the love in the world my friend, you are as good a human as any! We ALL make mistakes, it’s part of being human. Love and forgive yourself man. You have a beautiful soul and that’s obvious to anyone who watched this video! I wish you all the peace and happiness man, I really really do.
Just wake up everyday with a positive attitude all you can do is what your doing putting your family first and working. I think your doing a great job! God bless you and keep up the good work 🙏❤️
Eric…sending you all the best wishes from the UK. I’ve been clean & sober for 10 years now. It is possible…recovery sets you free. Good luck on your journey brother. 😊
Mark, why is it that with people from wealthy backgrounds you just skim over their childhood as if there was nothing to be found? He briefly mentioned that he had no guidance and nobody was there for him and you interrupted him. I feel like there is more to the reasons why he may have started using. There was another interview with a heroin addict (the model/musician) and it was the same thing. Emotional unavailability and neglect is serious and it would be nice to hear more about the experience - hopefully in the future 🙏🏽 All the best to Eric!
He sooooo reminds me of my husband! He got caught up in dope addiction also and he did drug court for the whole 5 years (that’s how long it used to be where we live) and he relapsed after he got off. Well now he has been clean for over 8 years and still lives with so much guilt. But I told him that things had to go the way they did to have the life we have today. It is far from perfect but it is perfect for me ☺️❤️
@@SlzyE I am so glad to see that you read my comment. I was hoping you would. I have been on both sides of the fence as I will have as of April 16th 12 year myself. Luckily though I always kinda (somehow and I don’t know how) kept my crap together as much as I could for our kids. I also found my husband overdosed a few times so I know the struggle that you and my husband have and I know the struggles your wife has. We have been together for 26 years and married for 23 years and people often ask how we stayed together through the addiction and jail and homelessness and other things and I tell them it is simple, when you get married you say vows to eachother for better or worse, for richer or for poorer and in sickness and in health, till death do us part. So we made a contract between eachother and God and I take those words VERY seriously and that is the problem today with a lot of married couples, when going gets tough they get going. Marriage isn’t easy, life isn’t easy AT ALL but if you are willing to work together it can be wonderful in the long run. Good luck Eric and I know it is easier said then done, but PLEASE don’t let the guilt eat you alive! When I did my steps my sponsor said when I got to the part of making amends to those I could and I told her I was done she said well there is still one person you have not made an amends to and I was confused and she said “You Shannon, you have to made a amends to yourself and forgive yourself!” She was right, I mean 12 years later that guilt does creep up on me from time to time but I just need to remember that if my kids and my husband can forgive then I DEFINITELY can forgive myself and I am in no way shape or form that person I was and neither is my husband AND neither are YOU! Keep your chin up and remember YOU ARE WORTH A BEAUTIFUL LIFE!!!!
Hey Eric, My name is Michelle. Your story really brought out some strong emotions in me, I could empathize and sympathize with what you have been through and how it has affected you. I just wanted to let you know that I am under the impression that you are quite a good man, yes you have struggled and made mistakes, but literally everyone has. We all just mess up in different ways. I used to do all kinds of drugs, including heroin and meth. I have been sober for about five years, with a few slip-ups. I am a Christian and I feel like I have to tell you how much God loves you. He is not ashamed of you he sees you with so much love in his eyes and he wants to be your heavenly father. You can talk to him about literally anything and come to him with all your prayers and requests. I ask that you would talk to God if you don't believe in him and ask him to show you if he is real. I promise you won't be disappointed, his love is the best thing ever. As someone who grew up without a father and my mother died also, I understand what kind of hole that can leave in your heart. How it leads you to do things that you wouldn't normally do because you're just trying to deal with how you feel inside. I get it. Thank you for sharing your story with us and being so brave. I will pray for your family and you to continue on the good journey. God bless you.
Thank you for the beautiful words of encouragement. I’m glad I was able to touch the heart of the ones who see this. Mark is such a great man for shedding a light on the opiod crisis and doing his part to help people in dark times
Please keep up the good fight. You are so, so worth it and very loved. This made me bawl out loud. My son didn't make it. There were so many people that showed up to his memorial. I wished he could've known how loved he was when he was here. Please know that you are too! I know 8ts a struggle, but I believe in you with everything I have. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️ (Forever 31 👼)
You clearly have a lot in your life. You have a valuable skill, a job, and a family. That's more than a lot of people have. The opiates are clouding that to the point that you don't see how lucky you are. You have to kick it for yourself first. The only way people can kick addiction is because they want it for themselves. There's a lot in your life that make sobriety worth it, hopefully you see that some day.
Not all Junkies are bad people. Not at all. This fella is certainly one of the good ones, it's obvious to sée. He's so lucky to have such a great woman who has stood by him and hé DESERVES that too, it's not just that he's lucky in that respect. I wish him , his wife and their kid all the very best and I hope things stay good for them. I wish him thé self-confidance and strength hé needs. I sincerely do. I know it isn't easy.
I remember my son introducing me to his friend that he lived with when he was on drugs and homeless. He said Mom he's really not a bad guy. I said son you're not a bad guy. I'm crying to hard to go on. Kudos to all in recovery. You are loved and you are worth it!!
man 😳,i lost my mum in 2007 (cancer) and it’s completely ripped the ❤ out of ME and my family 😞,i’m a 30 year opiate addict and struggle every day!!!,keep going on the straight and narrow as best you can,for YOU 1st then your wife and son will follow 🤞,stay strong aight 👍.
The truth is, Eric, you are a husband, father and working man now. You are not worthless or undeserving. Never have been. That was just a lie. Keep on loving. Keep on living. Listen to your wife and hug your son.
On a lighter note, I was so excited to hear that he was from New Orleans but a little disappointed because I wanted to hear a thicker accent. I love the way those New Orleans people talk
I’ve thoroughly enjoyed this interview. Yes, you’re admitted to making mistakes in your life and you’ve paid the price. You have a great deal to be thankful for and let that be your guide light each and every day for the rest of your life. .
yo eric youre solid! life is tough if youre doing it right. be content with what you have and the people you share it with. because theres not much more to it.
I'm on methadone maintenance as well and it has changed my life, I am a productive member of society and it feels good.. sometimes my mind goes to dark places but I try not to stay in that place for very long!!!!
Good Morning Y’all! 👋🤠or whatever time of day it is in your part of the world. Peace and Love from 6:00am Brooklyn NY🇺🇸 to you and wherever in the world you are, my SWU fam.
@@mihe6212 why are you even here.?.? You must be the most insecure person on YT! I see all of your hateful comments!! You must wake up every morning full of anger.?.? It must totally suck to be Molly!!!! I truly feel sorry for you!!!! Go watch some Right wing B's, that's where losers like you belong!!!
one thing that I can say, after watching ALL of your videos, is that most people lack a sense of self-awareness. Buddhist Meditation and the Dharma have helped me build a solid foundation underneath my feet. I have been on an inward journey of letting go and learning to love myself for who I am not. can we love ourselves for we truly are? learning to love My inner child who was traumatized. We are so hard on ourselves. continuously coming back to the moment brings me great joy now. I try to take the mental meditation cushion everywhere I go, walking meditation. it's a work in progress. 🙏🕉☮
For anyone trying to break free from opiates i can tell you from experience that suboxone truly helps break that addiction..it truly helps with withdrawals and not being dope sick. Ive been on suboxone almost 4 mos after a 10 yr addiction to opiates. I made the mistake of trusting my pain Dr and not doing any research on the medications he was prescribing. Im 62 yrs old. Its tough to stop taking opiates but suboxone really helps. I wish you all success and a healthy life.
Dude, try kratom. 80% says it'll keep you off the opiates. It did for me. I'm still stuck on it but there were three times I had to get off it and I was able to. I've got bad bad back pain that it helps. That's why I keep taking it. But I know getting off it won't be too bad if I have to. You can get it for $30-$35 per kilo if you buy in bulk.
Wish I could get some, sometimes. But it's fuckin illegal where i live ! No other country would risk sending it to me. Really, The War On Drugs needs to come to an end, it just makes things worse.
This is a prime example of what opiates do to a long-term term addict. They take away any self-worth or self-confidence you have to the point you feel like you are not worthy of anything good in your life. Sitting down doing what you just did isn't easy, and I hope the comments and support you get from it are as helpful to you as it was for me. Keep your head up and keep good people around you, even if it's just your family. Best of luck ahead
People like this are harming true chronic pain sufferers who have never abused their medication, don't get high from it, and need it to lead a somewhat functional life. So many people are now being harmed by these addicts. People living in incurable chronic nerve pain that is there 24/7. So many patients who take their medication as prescribed and rarely ask for an increase in dose, like myself. I have been on the same dose for over 12 years. The medication should not be demonized. It's the people that abuse it. Not every one does.
@@ballerman22345 I have to agree with you. I too have nerve damage down both my legs which causes unbearable pain 24/7 for me. Talk to anyone with small fiber neuropathy. Many are just waiting to die. It is so sad. The pain some people experience is indescribable. Yes, demonize the addict but not the drug. It is very necessary for many patients.
That is so true, man. I got no confidence in maself and feel useless. Fuck, I don't even feel like a real MAN ! Trying to stick to thé straight and narrow road is a constant struggle. I know I won't fall back into full time opiate abuse, even when I really want some, cos i cut off all contact, burnt all the bridges and live far, far away where I can't get ANYTHING ! (except fkin coke, which i DON'T want anyway) But it's just trying to live like a normal, straight person, paying my bills and keeping on top of stuff, like most people DO, I find that so difficult.
This fella seems really good hearted, am glad things are turning round for him, glad he's still got that diamond of a wife with him. He's a lucky guy and hé deserves it. I wish him all the best and that things just keep getting better for him.
Great vidéo, Mark.👍
are you an addict
@@ballerman22345 if you've been taking your meds as prescribed for 12 years w/o a dosage increase you should just ask for one. Don't let addicts stop you.
You can tell he is legit. I wish him the best of luck.
This honesty shows so much strength. I hope he knows that his family knows how hard he tries and they love him for it.
Anybody who can get off any opiate addiction and stay clean i have the biggest and most respect for. This shit is so hard to kick. Good luck Eric.
It’s a ride I don’t suggest anyone hop on willingly.
8 years sober as of Feb 26th.
What started as taking medication (hydrocodone) for lower back pain (slipped disc) after giving birth evolved to being prescribed perc 10s - the school buses as I later learned they’d be called.
Took my stuff as prescribed … until the pain got so intense one day that I could barely move and I only had a few Percocets left. My doctor was out of town on vacation and couldn’t see me. My husband had an uncle that was prescribed Oxy 30s for his cancer treatment. He hated taking them and had several bottles of the stuff. He came over to check on us one day and gave me a few saying they might help. Took one, felt better an hour later. Could do all regular things I needed to do.
Told him, thanked him, and went to bed … woke up in worse pain the next day. Took one in place of my perc. That went on for a couple days until I didn’t have anymore. Had two percs left. He brought over half a bottle of them that he never took from the month prior and gave them to me.
And that’s how it began. That shit evolved like a monster over time. Went from 30s, to 40s, 60s, then to little green beauties (80s). Got my hands on Opanas and that changed the game.
I functioned every day normally. Worked and pulled my weight.
A lot of people who don’t know an addict personally or have never been down that hole thinks everyone starts recreationally and that they’re only in it for a “good time”. It’s such a sad way to view things, being so misinformed.
Took me a good while to admit I was an addict and needed help. Took several attempts to kick it. Cold turkey, tapering, everything … until I found a clinic, got on Suboxone, did the program, and wiped my hands clean. I never want to go back to that. I get clammy just _thinking_ about the cold sweats and cramps of going through withdrawals.
To anyone who has kicked opioids, know there’s someone out there just like you going through the same shit. Once an addict, always an addict … but we take it a day at a time. It’s one hell of a beast to overcome, but you’ll be a much better person in the long run knowing you don’t need to take ANY of it.
I’m going through it right now. Shit is rough
@@justingoodwin8729 Stay strong bro, its not easy. I know your feeling.
@@justingoodwin8729 i was on opiates for 10 yrs. Its been almost 4 mos now that i stopped taking pills. Only thru being able to use suboxone strips to do so. Theres no worse feeling than being dope sick and going thru withdrawals. I 0am a pain patient and its what my Dr put me on and i trusted him..never thought i could be addicted to anything like oxycodone. Im still in pain ,even tho the strips do help some with that. I lost all my teeth from taking them ,my social life ,etc. My Dr is in prison now for 20 yrs. And owes millions he will prob never be able to pay. Im proud of anyone who can stop opiates and stay clean.
My husband is a felon for selling weed a long time ago. We got together shortly after that. He felt hopeless and like a loser for a long time because of the stigma of being a felon and lost opportunities. We have a beautiful life now, 3 babies and he has worked hard to take care of his family. Best thing I ever did was stand by that man. You are blessed, and I wish a happy ever after for you and your family.
Weed, really lady? And he didn't sharpen his skills in the joint with like minds? This dude was strung out on heroin. That's like comparing a rubber ducky to a giant octopus
@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019 She's talking about sales not being an addict. Back in the day when I was in the joint I knew guys doing 10 years.
We need more like you.
@@JESUSCHRIST91126ad I know. Like I said, It's literally comparing a rubber ducky to an octopus. I know dudes that did decades for murder and come out with tons of resources at their fingertips and better off from the connections they made in prison. These days felons/cons actually have better opportunities
@aspartamekillsyaknow9019 First of all, calm down. I was simply reacting to this post. Not saying I related to the hardcore addiction he is going through, but I understand the struggle coming out of it all and having to find honest work to provide.
damn dude if you're reading this I hope you stay strong and know that there are thousands/millions of people out here that are wishing you success
Thank you
@@SlzyE Eric, my guy you are a strong motherfucker. I really feel what it’s like to be the one to “expose” your girlfriend to drugs and fucked up shit she otherwise wasn’t involved with; but she loves you are you are a real ass mf. You are both lucky to have each other.
Sincerely wishing you all the best. Love from Boston 💪🏽
The first time I was able to vocalize that I had so much guilt and shame (tied to my addiction), I cried so damn hard. When he said the word "shame", he choked up a bit and then caught himself...I felt that in my soul. Stay up, brother, you have much to be proud of 💛💛💛
That’s a fact. I felt the same thing at the exact same time. Seems like this addiction is pretty similar across the board. I’m 6.5 days clean off a 1300$ daily, 4.5 year long oxy habit. Feels good, but goddamn it is difficult.
@@noahseward3791 🙏
@@noahseward3791 you mean 65 days…not 6.5. Because if it was really that, you would not say you feel good. Lol you would still be Hurting
@Noah Seward thats a half million dollars in dope buddy. Wish I had that kind of money to piss away the past 5 years.
@Noah Seward oh and try Suboxone if you haven't already. You can live a pretty much normal life and not get high but you'll be trapped forever. Like me...
This man is so strong, you can tell how much he loves his wife and son. I hope he sees how incredible that kind of strength is, and keeps it up
Such a great example of how with the right mix of Love, support, opportunity, and determination can turn your life around. Good job!
Wishing him & his family growth, love, & peace.
Hey brother if you read my comment just know I feel everything you've said. My name is Eric as well and I stay in Ponchatoula Louisiana. I'm also involved with opioid pills myself. It's a hard battle and it's draining my bank account every week. I know I deserve to be happy and I'm praying for both of us and anyone else dealing with addiction. Be strong brother
Really means a lot to me brother just know your not alone and don’t be so hard on yourself your addiction doesn’t define you brother stay up and thank you for those heartfelt words ❤️ Eric Spinks
@@SlzyEproud of you bro. I stay on the westbank off De Gaulle So I know exactly what you mean…stay the course bro ✊🏽praying for you and the other Eric above in the comments.
Eric…put the past in the past. Be proud that you are in recovery…! That’s an accomplishment brother…! You learned a great trade, work hard, and focus on your family..! No one is looking at you like you are a criminal or addict, ..! You are a hard working Dad, and Husband..! Don’t beat yourself up…! I don’t know you, but I’m proud of you hearing your story……be proud of yourself and who you have become….🙏❤️✌️
Thank you Eric for this very honest interview, best wishes for you and your family
Thank you🙏
@@SlzyE stay on the road forward. You seem like all the kids I love to adopt around where I live. Inherently you're a good person I can tell. Don't live a shitty life, -you know what my big suggestion is, grow food. Try to live a simple meaningful life. Your son will benefit from it. take care of yourself.
I battle with a oxycodone addiction recently I just got tired! It’s hard to explain but I’ve been on a spiritual journey and I’m learning myself more and in realizing I can do anything I put my whole heart and mind into ❤
Been fighting oxy for two and a half years. Sober for a 8 days right now. I wish you luck in your journey please check in in a month!
I also have music out on all platforms as well as a brand new music video on my page, if you could check it out I would really appreciate it!
@@Outerspacejunky I wish you luck to you got this don’t even think about it you deserve a good life 💪🏾
Excellent interview. You are worthy Eric of all the good things coming to you. Helping others is a huge way to increase you’re sense of self-worth. I have been on maintenance medication since 2011 and have been sober and it can work for you too. Please God and not yourself Eric. Nothing but respect for you for sharing in such an honest way. I wish you much success and only the best with your wife and son.
I feel like I don’t deserve anything either brother! Praying for all of us!
I know Eric, his wife and my girlfriend are good friends. He is good people. Really solid dude.
Show him all the loving and supportive comments !
You are so worthy, Eric. Congratulations on your successes thus far- though I know there are many more to come. Your story will help so many people. Keep up the good fight
Eric, I too, am from Louisiana! Your story is an inspiration to others! Keep keeping on, stay sober, and remember, you ARE worthy. Your wife and your child need you. Great testament!!!
I've been an addict for 10 years due to a lot of health problems (6 bowel surgeries, a year being tube fed and a coma)! The illness cost me my marriage, job, home and independence! Right now the opiates have just made it worse, but I can honestly say it's the only warmth I have left!
I wish you bonne courage and strength. It might not seem like it now and it might even bé a long way off, but things can change for the better, they will, just don't give up hope, keep on keeping on.
@@baublesanddolls I'm in the UK and it seems like there's literally no alternative!
Your Wife is a wise woman...., All that stuff You did is not who You are, It is what You did.., You are Your spirit and Your Soul...Take care of You and Your special family....
so by ur logic if someone rapes somebody there not a rapist they just happen to rape somebody. does that make sense?
“all that stuff u did doesn’t define who u are” sometimes it does
@@iminyourcity4001it doesn’t have to. Certainly doesn’t in Eric’s case.
Eric’s story has me tearing up.. #1.. keep up the awesome work Eric. Your past doesn’t define who you are as a person. I’m sure you have amazing qualities under your struggles. And guess what.. we all have weaknesses. #2.. the reason I teared up.. is you and your wife remind me of my boyfriend and I. I have no experience with drugs.. i grew up in a household that was very academic/career focused.. in a bubble.. sheltered from chaos.. I’m naturally a very innocent person. I met my boyfriend Michael and we fell in love.. I fell in love with who he was as a person. I only knew the clean version of him which gave me the opportunity to experience an amazing human being. It gave me the opportunity to see him for who he was. He was an electrician (also had a skill). He was so smart.. a problem solver.. so generous and selfless. After 6 months of knowing him.. (I know it’s a short time, but I don’t believe true love is defined by time) I lost him to a relapse. We were planning our future together.. we were moving on to bigger and better things. The day I lost him.. my whole world and future plans.. were shattered. I haven’t been the same since.. I don’t think I ever will be. The story of you, your wife, and your son really touched me. I’m so happy you have such a beautiful support system. ❤ I wish you the best.
I’m saddened to hear about the passing of michael 😢he sounds like he was an amazing man. I’m sorry you ever had to experience loosing someone close to your heart. Keep your head up❤️
Just want to say Thank you to Mark and best of wishes to you Eric your son & wife.. Stay strong!! We do recover!
Another great interview, Mark. You can do it, Eric. I believe in you!
Thank you
what a heart warming genuine person, rooting for him
Another fabulous life story. I am so glad that this man found himself. Fabulous job so glad that this gentle soul has found himself
You got this! Shame and guilt are wasted emotions recognize your strength and be proud of who you are now.. we all make mistakes but many never recognize their mistakes or humble themselves enough to not feel like victims or take accountability. ❤️
Eric has inspired me to do better. To be a better husband, to be a better father, to be a better person. If you read this Eric, thank you, you may have changed my entire life, in respect to how I will treat people from this day forward.
I’m so glad I and really appreciate those words. Didn’t know I could reach someone remember who and what matters the most and always stand by the ones who you love never give up no matter what
@@SlzyE man.. when you were talking about not feeling worthy and living with guilt, that put tears in my eyes. I also feel that way a lot of times and it’s hard to deal with..we are all worthy of happiness though.
best of luck, eric. you *are* worthy of that queen & that lil boy. i wish y'all many happy years together. keep kickin addiction's ass. ❤
Self pity overload
@@marystack3577 you ain’t new to this channel, “mary.” don’t be a turd today.
Listening to him say getting a job is difficult is an understatement as most know trusting a felon etc is not going to be at the top of the list of a hiring manager. He is so fortunate to have been given an opportunity and he has to feel so happy that he was given a chance. For an addict whether recovering or not, the self esteem is so low that a person can easily fall back into heavy addiction because they don’t feel worthy at all. Good job young man you seem very strong and determined to do well. Day by day.
Eric… You are worthy of all the love in the world my friend, you are as good a human as any! We ALL make mistakes, it’s part of being human. Love and forgive yourself man. You have a beautiful soul and that’s obvious to anyone who watched this video! I wish you all the peace and happiness man, I really really do.
Just wake up everyday with a positive attitude all you can do is what your doing putting your family first and working. I think your doing a great job! God bless you and keep up the good work 🙏❤️
Eric…sending you all the best wishes from the UK. I’ve been clean & sober for 10 years now. It is possible…recovery sets you free. Good luck on your journey brother. 😊
You’re worthy man. Clear intelligence but suffering from the human condition. Wish you the best brother.
I was raised by my grandmother from birth the day she passed I felt the exact same way.
I wish you luck Eric. Keep working at it. It'll come to you and be worth it.
Mark, why is it that with people from wealthy backgrounds you just skim over their childhood as if there was nothing to be found? He briefly mentioned that he had no guidance and nobody was there for him and you interrupted him. I feel like there is more to the reasons why he may have started using. There was another interview with a heroin addict (the model/musician) and it was the same thing. Emotional unavailability and neglect is serious and it would be nice to hear more about the experience - hopefully in the future 🙏🏽
All the best to Eric!
Well said.
Eric keep looking forward! Looking over your shoulder only slows your progress! Best of luck♥️
He sooooo reminds me of my husband! He got caught up in dope addiction also and he did drug court for the whole 5 years (that’s how long it used to be where we live) and he relapsed after he got off. Well now he has been clean for over 8 years and still lives with so much guilt. But I told him that things had to go the way they did to have the life we have today. It is far from perfect but it is perfect for me ☺️❤️
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@@SlzyE I am so glad to see that you read my comment. I was hoping you would. I have been on both sides of the fence as I will have as of April 16th 12 year myself. Luckily though I always kinda (somehow and I don’t know how) kept my crap together as much as I could for our kids. I also found my husband overdosed a few times so I know the struggle that you and my husband have and I know the struggles your wife has. We have been together for 26 years and married for 23 years and people often ask how we stayed together through the addiction and jail and homelessness and other things and I tell them it is simple, when you get married you say vows to eachother for better or worse, for richer or for poorer and in sickness and in health, till death do us part. So we made a contract between eachother and God and I take those words VERY seriously and that is the problem today with a lot of married couples, when going gets tough they get going. Marriage isn’t easy, life isn’t easy AT ALL but if you are willing to work together it can be wonderful in the long run. Good luck Eric and I know it is easier said then done, but PLEASE don’t let the guilt eat you alive! When I did my steps my sponsor said when I got to the part of making amends to those I could and I told her I was done she said well there is still one person you have not made an amends to and I was confused and she said “You Shannon, you have to made a amends to yourself and forgive yourself!” She was right, I mean 12 years later that guilt does creep up on me from time to time but I just need to remember that if my kids and my husband can forgive then I DEFINITELY can forgive myself and I am in no way shape or form that person I was and neither is my husband AND neither are YOU! Keep your chin up and remember YOU ARE WORTH A BEAUTIFUL LIFE!!!!
This guy is such a good storyteller, I feel like I'm in a movie just listening
Hey Eric, My name is Michelle. Your story really brought out some strong emotions in me, I could empathize and sympathize with what you have been through and how it has affected you. I just wanted to let you know that I am under the impression that you are quite a good man, yes you have struggled and made mistakes, but literally everyone has. We all just mess up in different ways. I used to do all kinds of drugs, including heroin and meth. I have been sober for about five years, with a few slip-ups. I am a Christian and I feel like I have to tell you how much God loves you. He is not ashamed of you he sees you with so much love in his eyes and he wants to be your heavenly father. You can talk to him about literally anything and come to him with all your prayers and requests. I ask that you would talk to God if you don't believe in him and ask him to show you if he is real. I promise you won't be disappointed, his love is the best thing ever. As someone who grew up without a father and my mother died also, I understand what kind of hole that can leave in your heart. How it leads you to do things that you wouldn't normally do because you're just trying to deal with how you feel inside. I get it. Thank you for sharing your story with us and being so brave. I will pray for your family and you to continue on the good journey. God bless you.
Thank you for the beautiful words of encouragement. I’m glad I was able to touch the heart of the ones who see this. Mark is such a great man for shedding a light on the opiod crisis and doing his part to help people in dark times
Please keep up the good fight. You are so, so worth it and very loved. This made me bawl out loud. My son didn't make it. There were so many people that showed up to his memorial. I wished he could've known how loved he was when he was here. Please know that you are too! I know 8ts a struggle, but I believe in you with everything I have. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️
(Forever 31 👼)
Also maybe your journey was to help others like you have today. Good vibes only!
Thank you so much for the kind words that was very kind of you
Stay strong for your beautiful family they NEED you ❤
You clearly have a lot in your life. You have a valuable skill, a job, and a family. That's more than a lot of people have. The opiates are clouding that to the point that you don't see how lucky you are. You have to kick it for yourself first. The only way people can kick addiction is because they want it for themselves. There's a lot in your life that make sobriety worth it, hopefully you see that some day.
You are completely deserving of love and a family. I hope the best for, you seem like a respectful and nice guy
Not all Junkies are bad people. Not at all.
This fella is certainly one of the good ones, it's obvious to sée. He's so lucky to have such a great woman who has stood by him and hé DESERVES that too, it's not just that he's lucky in that respect. I wish him , his wife and their kid all the very best and I hope things stay good for them. I wish him thé self-confidance and strength hé needs. I sincerely do. I know it isn't easy.
I remember my son introducing me to his friend that he lived with when he was on drugs and homeless. He said Mom he's really not a bad guy. I said son you're not a bad guy. I'm crying to hard to go on. Kudos to all in recovery. You are loved and you are worth it!!
A good guy? He’s driving around bank robbers for heroin. Your bar is way way way too low.
@@Jackjohnjay *He drove
man 😳,i lost my mum in 2007 (cancer) and it’s completely ripped the ❤ out of ME and my family 😞,i’m a 30 year opiate addict and struggle every day!!!,keep going on the straight and narrow as best you can,for YOU 1st then your wife and son will follow 🤞,stay strong aight 👍.
From Fase to Face..stay strong ! Heartache and Pain can become your Drive! Trust!💯
Mark should get some kind of humanitarian award for all his work
He really should he is a godsend
I'm so proud of him I love the way he tells his story Good luck to you and thank you for sharing Eric
Your a smart man , I wish you the best in this life my friend , take care of your family
Keep grinding Eric .. you’ll be good man. Don’t give up. Day by day. You’re a good dude.. we can tell 🙏
Eric you are one of my favorites! Omg you’ve come so far and you have a teachable soul who wants to do good ! God bless you
what an admirably honest guy!! sending him all the luck in the world
The truth is, Eric, you are a husband, father and working man now. You are not worthless or undeserving. Never have been. That was just a lie. Keep on loving. Keep on living. Listen to your wife and hug your son.
❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏☺️☺️☺️
On a lighter note, I was so excited to hear that he was from New Orleans but a little disappointed because I wanted to hear a thicker accent. I love the way those New Orleans people talk
😄 Me too ! I really love that accent.
Getting arrested for disorderly conduct in the french quarter is like getting arrested for swimming in the Ocean.
This accent is not thick enough? :)
I’ve thoroughly enjoyed this interview.
Yes, you’re admitted to making mistakes in your life and you’ve paid the price.
You have a great deal to be thankful for and let that be your guide light each and every day for the rest of your life.
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Eric you are worthy of love. Keep in the light✨️💜✨️
Love you brother in law❤ we got this 👊 👌🏻
Love you too brother❤️❤️❤️❤️
I wish you the best. You really do deserve love.
A perfect example of an uptown white new orleans accent.
Jail for drugs makes no sense
I grew up in Baton Rouge, and worked for years in New Orleans. Hits close to home
To jsem si dával teďka na záchodě! Je to super!!!
Wish his all the best. And shoutout to his wife for knowing how to LOVE
yo eric youre solid! life is tough if youre doing it right. be content with what you have and the people you share it with. because theres not much more to it.
Hope he sorts out his life , raising a child with special needs is so hard for parents so wish him all the luck in the world
I'm on methadone maintenance as well and it has changed my life, I am a productive member of society and it feels good.. sometimes my mind goes to dark places but I try not to stay in that place for very long!!!!
Good Morning Y’all! 👋🤠or whatever time of day it is in your part of the world. Peace and Love from 6:00am Brooklyn NY🇺🇸 to you and wherever in the world you are, my SWU fam.
@@mihe6212 yes you are!!!!
What's up brother, 2 for Thursday!!!
@Gram #7 What up Gram! Thank bud! 😉👍
@@mihe6212 the, not another!!!
Eat shit, and get a life POS!!!!!!!
@@mihe6212 why are you even here.?.? You must be the most insecure person on YT! I see all of your hateful comments!! You must wake up every morning full of anger.?.? It must totally suck to be Molly!!!! I truly feel sorry for you!!!! Go watch some Right wing B's, that's where losers like you belong!!!
This guy's cool end deserves to be happy ✌
Stay on it brother. You are the company you keep, stay aware of that.
I love this man
one thing that I can say, after watching ALL of your videos, is that most people lack a sense of self-awareness.
Buddhist Meditation and the Dharma have helped me build a solid foundation underneath my feet.
I have been on an inward journey of letting go and learning to love myself for who I am not. can we love ourselves for we truly are?
learning to love My inner child who was traumatized.
We are so hard on ourselves. continuously coming back to the moment brings me great joy now.
I try to take the mental meditation cushion everywhere I go, walking meditation. it's a work in progress.
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So happy for you brother , God bless your son, your , wife , and you! your doing great , God has saved your life :)
I'm from the westbank marrero la I relate to this guy sort of . I am also the blacksheep of my family .
Never let no one stop you from being a good person. Or being good to others.. 😊😊😊😊😊😊
Keep God and your family first and everything else will come!! Stay strong my Brother!!
God bless you Eric I wish you all the best because you deserve the best life ❤
Please pray for this man 😢
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He told his boss he'll be a few minutes late with an 8ball of heroin.
Chile 🙄
Sending you and your family lots of love ❤
Sending positive vibes your way!
I hope he makes it He looks like a good guy
Interveiw his wife. I wish them well
For anyone trying to break free from opiates i can tell you from experience that suboxone truly helps break that addiction..it truly helps with withdrawals and not being dope sick. Ive been on suboxone almost 4 mos after a 10 yr addiction to opiates. I made the mistake of trusting my pain Dr and not doing any research on the medications he was prescribing. Im 62 yrs old. Its tough to stop taking opiates but suboxone really helps. I wish you all success and a healthy life.
That’s awesome Cathy but….. screw that Suboxone too U don’t need it! Try to slowly wing off bc unfortunately it as well cause withdrawals.
I like this guy.
A lot of wealthy parents neglect their children. It's pretty common.
Address things one step at a time. Start with something small, then another thing. Eventually you will get everything worked out.
Stay strong dude you have a good woman
Dude, try kratom. 80% says it'll keep you off the opiates. It did for me. I'm still stuck on it but there were three times I had to get off it and I was able to. I've got bad bad back pain that it helps. That's why I keep taking it. But I know getting off it won't be too bad if I have to. You can get it for $30-$35 per kilo if you buy in bulk.
Wish I could get some, sometimes. But it's fuckin illegal where i live ! No other country would risk sending it to me.
Really, The War On Drugs needs to come to an end, it just makes things worse.
I was on kratom for 2 years and hot stomach issues and lost my hair. On subs now. Be careful kratom is addictive!
Good story
Were opiates mentioned at any point in this video?
watch in 2x speed it sounds like Eminem exactly. His story is touching.
Mark never sleeps
I like this guy
I believe him...best wishes Eric...
Love to all of you!!!!!
You ARE worthy
Addiction is one of the tools that shame and feelings of unworthiness use to propagate themselves.
Look in the mirror and say I am husband, I am a father, I am a plumber. I am a work in progress.
I think you spelled Dave Annabel’s name wrong. 😮 His portrait looks exactly like the actor!