Angel Caudillo Jr: Former Bisexual with Anxiety Disorder

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  • @DanielleZambrano
    @DanielleZambrano 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    "Looking at my brain then and now, you'll see how they are black and white." True change. This was so good!

    • @LuisaGarcia_nyc
      @LuisaGarcia_nyc ปีที่แล้ว

      Reading scriptures does that transformation 🔥💥

  • @jennifereverett6298
    @jennifereverett6298 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I considered myself bisexual for part of my young adulthood, but even before I became a Christian, I looked closely at the thoughts and emotions that were creating bisexual desires and realized that a small part was lust-based and tied to societal stimuli (in other words, anything with a sexual connotation like fashion models could become the object of my lust because it was convenient) but the remainder related to various psychological challenges. One was low self-esteem/insecurity and the desire to be validated by being the recipient of sexual desire from both genders (the more, the better) or by my competition (other women; and first I was attracted to the opposite body type--voluptuous--because it was my perceived greatest competition, but then I became attracted to women with a similar body type to help affirm my own beauty). Also at play were fears like not being able to find a suitable husband and wanting a backup plan or being found unattractive by all males (now or later) and wanting a backup plan. (Oh, yeah. It might be worth mentioning that a family member told me as a young teenager, "There are no good men. They only want sex." That false teaching surely shaped my behavior!) Once I saw the inner workings leading to my desire for women, that desire fell away, praise God!
    For others, the story may look a little different. A teenage son of someone I somewhat knew began cross dressing because his grandmother was dressing him up as a girl when he visited and was praising him while in the new attire; that affirmation and extra praise led him to want more of it. And I imagine that the same kind of thing could happen at a much subtler level to even infants when the child experiences praise or lack of praise from a parent or caregiver or watches such in others (perhaps siblings) and then makes a faulty conclusion (similar to ignored children concluding that they can never get their needs met which may result in behaviors like setting the bar very low and settling for any partner regardless of how irresponsible and unsuitable for marriage and the raising of children) that may never become fully conscious. And I once watched a documentary on a serial killer who said that his sexuality early in life got connected to death when he saw (something like, I can’t recall exactly) a dead animal in the woods-very sad, but I will say that perversions like this or much less severe/disturbing are to be recognized and corrected rather than affirmed and lived out.
    As a Christian, I would also add that there is a spiritual component to life, and fallen/rebellious angels (1/3 of the total) kicked out of Heaven and now called demons have been given permission by God to test/tempt humanity (including children) to also rebel against their creator. We’ve all been given one life to prove our allegiance by obeying our creator, and sometimes we don’t see the benefits of his designs until we live within them and obey them. Lastly, it’s vital that I point out that there are many thoughts, emotions, and desires that should not be carried out-rage/murder, suicide, theft, adultery, laziness and the refusal to work, etc.
    Lastly, it’s vital that I point out that there are many thoughts, emotions, and desires that should not be carried out-rage/murder, suicide, theft, adultery, laziness and the refusal to work, etc. Sexual deviancy is also on this list.

    • @Yanerd.
      @Yanerd. ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Wow. I believe Christ led me to this post. I’m bisexual, she/they, and I’ve been struggling a lot with this. I became a Christian a few months ago, and I don’t know anymore if I’m actually attracted to females or if it’s just lust. I’m very much attracted to them still and I am still struggling with it. I’ve asked God for clarity on what He thinks and my friend and this post, I believe, God sent them to tell me what He believes. This is my answer!

    • @jennifereverett6298
      @jennifereverett6298 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Yanerd. When we don't have God's moral standard guiding our actions (e.g., sex between husband and wife--a covenant/first marriage that last's until death--for the physical bonding of the two and for the raising of children in a stable home... with sex naturally likely to create children), lust can express itself in any manner one's own lack of morality allows for (e.g., masturbation which is sex with self, pedophilia, bestiality, rape, etc.). Lust can attach to anything "of the moment" that we allow it to. NOTE: If I did not say so in my first comment, the way to control lust is to turn OFF ALL THOUGHTS etc.--including looking AWAY from things that entice--that trigger sexual desire whether from previous habits or healthy ones like a desire for a godly spouse. Controlling thoughts prevents sexual desire from surfacing in the body, and then there's no frustration to deal with.

    • @Setapartway
      @Setapartway ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you so much for posting this comment. I have thought a lot about homosexuality not being normal because it makes no sense emotionally, biologically etc. God is a god of order. All my gay friends were either molested or raped and lacked ostentoso figures so I noticed a connection with that. So seeing your comment confirms it for me. As well I recently married and I noticed my husband has feminine tendencies and began to realize he is bisexual. I’m not going to lie it scared me but just reading this comment brings me to tears because you are a loving testimony of doing the inner work and realizing the root of where it came from. Thank you! Thank you for posting this comment. It gives me hope , my husband is not a believer but it gives me hope and shows me how I can help and love him correctly. Trusting God . My husband is ashamed of his attraction to men since I can feel it and see his low self esteem and desire to be validated.
      God bless you! Please pray for my husband

  • @EdwendieAurelien
    @EdwendieAurelien ปีที่แล้ว +1

    May God show this young man continually and daily His unfailing love for him in Jesus name 🙏🏾Amen

  • @____ashh_____
    @____ashh_____ 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    He’s a amazing guy. Always has been. He has a really bright future ahead of him. God blessed him forever 🙏🏻

  • @BellaSophia
    @BellaSophia 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    these are really powerful testimonies. I appreciate this channel for making these videos. thank you

  • @griselmosqueda777
    @griselmosqueda777 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you for sharing your testimony. You are very courageous. May you walk in freedom and be all that He’s called you to be! His gifts and calling is irrevocable 🙌🏼🕊🔥

  • @spiritofecstasy23
    @spiritofecstasy23 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Oh God look at you, looking at this young gentleman I see God deeply rooted. God you are good no need to taste and see if you are good you are just good 😊🩸

  • @shinanniegan
    @shinanniegan 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Angel, seeing you now, I can't even imagine the kind of trauma and hurt you endured growing up in the circumstances you shared here. What an incredibly powerful story. Thank you for giving us the privilege to hear your story of redemption. I know this world is a better place because you're in it. May God continue to bless you and keep you and your family.

  • @warrior4christ488
    @warrior4christ488 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Hey Cousin Awesome Awesome testimony praise God ty Jesus keep sharing your testimony and the hope and love of Jesus Christ a Love everlasting not like a temporary love of the world

  • @CamGuy125
    @CamGuy125 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Amazing testimony. 🙌🏼❤️

  • @renerobles
    @renerobles 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Awesome!. Share this

  • @lindalopez7402
    @lindalopez7402 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Praise God !!! What a testimony!

  • @rebeccagarcia3200
    @rebeccagarcia3200 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    awesome testimony Angel ♥️

  • @starwavez
    @starwavez 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Adversity builds character and God only gives you as much as you can handle. The greater the adversity, I believe the greater rewards in heaven. If you keep faith and treat others with the Golden Rule. When I met you I noticed a precocious young man with limitless potential and a brilliant mind. Keep shining and never stop showing and sharing the love. 🙏🏽

  • @lavender9265
    @lavender9265 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I used to identify as bisexual and Christian simultaneously and, to be honest, i wasn't really living for Christ back then. You really can't live an lgbt lifestyle as well as a biblical lifestyle since so many things are contradictory. I feel like, the fact that my gay friends back then kept on pushing me to come out was one of the things that made me realise "well if what I'm doing feels right, then why do i feel this tiny bit of shame, fear and guilt with what I'm doing"...
    I remember I used to go to these parties with my friends at the beach, camping, on boats, sleepovers, basically wherever, and we would all get so drunk, and we would smoke and vape, we'd dance to these songs, we'd play these drinking games and spin the bottle where we'd just makeout with whoever it landed on... We all just felt so empty inside and tried to fill ourselves with youthful lusts...
    The thing that set me apart was that, in that friend group, i was the only one who identified as Christian, and also the only one who went to college late (thank the Lord though i will be going soon)... My family was also pretty poor and my dad is also pretty sick (but we believe in the power of the almighty for his full healing)... This also meant that during the school year, while mum was working i was taking care of the house, my dad and doing my homework (on a broken computer with sensitive eyes that i didn't get treated till this year) all at the same time... Which kinda led me to failing some classes...
    During those times, in my alone time i would just waste my time consuming either queer, pornographic or nonsensical media... I was addicted, and i only just started to break free late last year, though to be completely honest i still get these urges to relapse sometimes, but they have gotten less intense and less appealing as I've continued dedicating my life too Christ.
    Looking back, I'm just glad that, even with all this, I'm still considered chosen in God's eyes. I still got the opportunity to know the true God how he wanted me to do so and i just want to say Thank You God, Thank You Jesus and Thank You Holy Spirit for everything.

  • @julieoverbey6342
    @julieoverbey6342 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Praise God

  • @LoveGod-ObeyGod
    @LoveGod-ObeyGod ปีที่แล้ว

    God bless you young man 🙏❤️

  • @followerofjesussonofgodjul188
    @followerofjesussonofgodjul188 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    amen

  • @Rusaved90638
    @Rusaved90638 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Happy Salvation anniversary
    What a great testimony

  • @lilman0820
    @lilman0820 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    What a great guy

  • @yowceph8111
    @yowceph8111 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Love you Brother

  • @davidgodinez7595
    @davidgodinez7595 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    🌈

  • @colleenroyle588
    @colleenroyle588 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    LGBTQ is not a sin and stop preaching that it is...Love is LOve

    • @mommaof6
      @mommaof6 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Love is speaking the truth.

    • @colleenroyle588
      @colleenroyle588 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@mommaof6 yes and the truth is being gay is not a sin..grow up already!!

    • @jessicasuzanne___
      @jessicasuzanne___ ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Yes it is actually
      It's outside of God's will and it's against His nature
      The Bible says homosexuality IS an abomination

    • @jessicasuzanne___
      @jessicasuzanne___ ปีที่แล้ว

      @@colleenroyle588Yes it is
      Homosexuality is an abomination and it is not from God

    • @Bombizzle74
      @Bombizzle74 ปีที่แล้ว

      Read the bible sweetie, I’m constantly praying for the blindfold to be removed from this community because this hits really close to home. Ask God for discernment and clarity.
      Leviticus 18:22
      1 corinthians 6:9 & 18-20
      1 timothy 1:8-10
      Jude 1:7