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Te amoooo
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aloooooooooo!!!!!!!!!
I’m sitting on my bed with a bowl of ramen and a glass of orange juice, still awake at 4:56am, on February 18. My eyes sort of burn but I’m alright. It’s cold outside and I feel comfy in my blankets. Life’s about to open up more to me I’m still young and have a whole life ahead of me. I have no have worries right now. I feel free. I hope you find peace.
I love ramen also btw how are you?
Its 06:03 am rn for me at night
@@RandomUser4202imagine he died
If it was easier said then done
@@RandomUser4202 healing
Lets be real here,we dont go to sleep is not bc we cant,its bc we feel free at the night,its so silent,your alone,no sirens,no screaming,just you,alone,free
I have the same feeling. I Wonder why this happen
no i just go to sleep cause i have to
Read call of the night it gave me a new insight on what your talking about and how the world is different at night
This is because, for me, night is the time when I can rest from the hustle and bustle of the world. But if I spend the night sleeping, I will miss my rest time. That's how it is
That's called Revenge Bedtime Procrastination. It's when you procrastinate sleep because you feel like your daytime was stolen and wasted. So you use nighttime all for yourself
Reminds me of the first line of my first novel... "Had you asked me then why I loved the night, I wouldn't have known how to answer. Now, though, I know what I'd tell you verbatim: It's the silence, the solitude, and the fact that when I'm walking the streets at night with nothing but the starlit sky above and my own thoughts to keep me company, I feel at peace. That's not to say I don't enjoy the day; after all, one can't exist without the other. For me, though, the best thing about daytime is the anticipation of night-time's dark, inevitable embrace."
EDIT: A few people have asked if it's published. Yes, it's called As Dusk Falls by Matthew Flood. Thanks for all the nice replies
you re a good writer! keep it uppp
which novel?
Lovely.
Cool
If you ever publish this, let me know! If I ever see this comment again, I’ll be sure to read it. ❤😊
This sound is amazing. Whoever is reading this comment, I wish you success, health, love and happiness
hey ..its 4:19 now i wish it for u too
Wish you the same
Do you really tho
This is so sweet
I hope you all find peace
3:50am drinking a decaf coffee while smoking a spliff, one day I’ll cease to exist, imagine that
cheers brother, spark up some spliff we good ain't nothin to worry bout
its kind of crazy for me that everyone will cease to exist one day, but i guess we can't prevent the inevitable, so we might as well just enjoy the ride
I love you ❤️
Seeing people similar to me in the comments is all the human interaction I need right now, thank you guys
thank you too
Thx U both
Thank you
these videos always find me,, i rarely click them,, rarely,, but when i do, i spend a good time reading what you all have/had to say… i hear you, i see you… i. see. you.
i feel so alone and it hurts me, but yet i enjoy being alone. not having to worry about how others feel, just you.
I love you ❤️
This is one of the most major self dilemmas someone can go through. You're wanted and accepted my love ❤
@@LeminLinait is definitely painful yet peaceful
I feel that too @nanxy3084
there can be peace in solitude
15/03/2024 00:46
It's late and I can't sleep and it's cold outside but I'm warm inside my blanket. My days are getting longer and more boring, I don't have anyone to talk to at school, I'm doing very badly, especially in maths, I don't understand anything. I'm afraid for my future, I don't know what I want to do or what I want to become, but one thing is certain: I just want peace and being close to God. I don't know who you are or where you are from, I hope you are healthy, doing well and remember to love yourself sweetheart. 💋❤️
te amo
Just know that once you graduate from high school, maths will disappear
You don't have to be one thing, you can be lots. Good luck
Hi I was like this once as well I felt I could never be better but hitting that ‘all time low’ is what pushes the change in your life I promise it gets better ❤ but I’m still confused in math lol
@@davalka2651 unless they go to college
It’s 3:58am right now and no one can stop me from listening to this playlist.
Yoooo were the same
@@Thenightisbeautiful oh shit- hello there Kira I swear I am a good person!
4:15 am for me Monday August 19th. I've been sad... I just want to make my parents proud and I feel like I'm just rotting away. I want to make my parents happy but at this point I don't know what that is. I've crashed 2 of their cars, I crashed my own car. I keep making mistakes, stupid, stupid mistakes. im sorry mom, dad, i love you guys so much
Take care of yourself and your parents. One day, you’ll be better.
Don’t be so hard on yourself, this is all our first time being alive.
it’s 3:19 am, i feel like i got nobody. i don’t speak to anyone anymore and i miss the sense of closeness. i used to have someone to talk to all the time and rant to and just be my other half, now i have no one. i like being alone, but sometimes im just too overwhelmed about it considering i have no one to talk to. just me surrounded by my own thoughts and accomplishments.
I'm going through the same thing right now but one thing that kinda helped me is to drown yourself in hard work and you won't even have time to feel those wicked emotions. Hope this helps❤
I often contemplate what people are doing at this exact moment, others, outside of my perception. So many people living and breathing at the same time as I-right in this moment. And you, somewhere, are reading the words I’ve written, we’re connected for this brief moment. You’re here. I’m here. Look up at the moon-I’m looking with you, yes, the person writing this comment. And in this very moment-a moment where you’re reading my words, ever so briefly on a screen-you are thinking of me, and in another moment, I’ll be thinking of you, and I’ll be wondering just how many have read my comment here, passed by it, read it carefully, decided to like it, decided to skip over it, decided to reply to it-I’ll be thinking how many eyes read my words that I’ll now leave here. And in this moment I’ll be thinking-of you.
how grateful I am to share this planet with you. I don’t know if we’ll ever meet again but for this moment we will always share together our timelines intertwining for a mere few minutes on the cosmic clock of infinity, I don’t know what lies up ahead for you or me but I hope you have a wonderful future
@@t2398 I hope you have a wonderful future too! :))
I love you. There is some magic in your words. Keep writing. Thank you
I don’t ever comment or reply on youtube but this was one of the most beautiful things I’ve read in a long time. You have a magnificent way with words, I truly felt what you were writing, felt that “connection” you describe. ❤
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i don't want to think deeply about anything because when i do i start to feel depressed and too aware of myself and who i am, i like thinking about nothing because its only then that i can focus on what is infront of me without reminiscing about the past or doubting myself and the changes i endure. thinking about nothing is bliss but is also a waste of time because i feel as if im missing out on something important and not being an interesting and unique person that isn't shallow. the night is calm and stress ceases to exist. i am happy.
Gotta leave the comfort zone , then u shall know the truth
same
I am now full time care taker of my daughter. It is now 3:18am and she is sleeping beside me. Just finished leveling in world of warcraft while she is asleep. I feel peace.
Meaningless, soft and undemanding music. Peace of mind. Makes me understand why my brother wanted it to last forever.
Life can be so noisy and this place a sanctuary to rest. I worry how much I love it here and not the light of day. Maybe because I can be with myself and the people I’ve lost.
If you are seeking this peace to last eternal, just know you won’t be able to enjoy it once your gone. Sleep is our placebo and day our battle to rest safe.
I hope you can find more beautiful times in life.
I’m 17 and sleep is really difficult for me. I spend my days worrying and when I try to sleep I feel like I’m wasting time. Wasting time I could be using trying to understand myself. Wasting time that I feel like I don’t have. This video is exactly how it feels. I just hope someday everything will become quieter.
4:01 AM right now. Let's see what happens with this playlist shall we?
what happend ?
Weird, got recommended this same video at the same time...
damn some recent comments
Damn, so we all jus here at midnight listening to this🙏🏼God bless yall, stay safe🙏🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼
@@Izzy_Wizzy_2002 sus
found this at 2:04 am, and at this point I feel like the only reason why I haven’t gone to sleep yet is that I want to spend more alone time, im always interacting w people..at school for example, I don’t get bugged by anyone and stuff just to much people are around me and it annoys me a lot. People running threw the hallways and accidentally bumping into u or everybody talking in the classroom..it just really stresses me out, and going back home in the metro where everybody is pushing each other.. anyways idk why im even saying all of this since after all I have to wake up at 6am and keep on working my ass off so I can have a bright future 😵
i hate dealing with people and fuss as well, i cant ever have quality alone time its always rhined by people
stay strong G , things get easier with time
Time heals the wounds ignorance scarred us with. But it does not heal the soul or bring solutions. Know this one thing, there is no such thing as a thing.
was thinking bout that 5mins ago it's so exhausting.
it's 2:04am for me right now 😁
Just wrote a short story for school about this girl named panthea who meets a boy name eleftheria. Her name means suffering in greek but his means freedom. The freedom to her suffering. The first line of the book is"perfect lights, a perfect room and perfect people" meanwhile at the end of the book (when she had just killed herself because eleftheria had died and she wanted to be with him forver) the end lines are "who needs perfect lights, perfect roomand perfect people?
When you can have the one thing you need most...your freedom" anyways i just thought that it fit this playlist perfectly.
It perfectly fits. Thank you
I would love to read your story, if that were possible. You have a magnificent mind, and the names you chose are gorgeously intricate. Thank you for sharing with us❤️
ive been trying to find a playlist that give me this feeling and eventually i found this playlist and its perfect. this is absolutely lovely. thank you from the botttom of my heart
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whenever i listen to this, i think about it. my crush, my life, everything ive achieved; was it really worth it? the talking stage i had with him, i was so happy, hearing the faint laughter, rain crashing down on the car windows as i gazed at the city, just everything that made me feel fuzzy inside. but im in my bed, all cozy with low dim lighting, just a girl waiting for something great to happen.
I love your serious comment with the goofy baby pfp anyway gl with allat
I wanted to write something so I came up with this:
"As the night grew in and day seemed to grow ever closer. I wondered to myself how the night sky could look so beautiful. The peaceful atmosphere settled me whilst most were in their beds taking in sleep for the new day ahead...and yet here I am wide awake and grateful that I get to experience the beauty that is nature.
Although I am still young, I long for the days where it felt like nothing could stop me and I felt free. The feeling of being a kid and doing whatever felt right.This is what I longed for in those late nights where I could just stare up at the sky with no burdens or worries holding me down. No one but me and the moon; the solitude of knowing that I could just think.
But as the stars look down on me, their slow orbit pulling me into a trance, I smile knowing that whatever the future may hold...I'll still have my late nights where I can just think and feel as though I were still that burden-free child I once was."
Сейчас новый год.. 2:54 я сижу в слезах, одна. Пересмотрела всех любимых блогеров, поздравляющих всех.. Я в тёмной комнате с нулёвым настроением, за окном салюты.. в полном одиночестве.🎉
Привет, ты откуда?
Happy new year
@@760zno Россия, Москва.
@@annalinkaln5380а сколько тебе лет?
Надеюсь, у тебя всë будет хорошо. Обязательно наступит день, когда ты будешь чувствовать положительные эмоции, главное стараться не отчаиваться. Я тоже в одиночестве. Кстати, в ночь с 23 по 24 спал, это лучше чем быть съеденным собственными мыслями
praying in the future i reach all my goals and i meet someone who doesn’t make me feel so lonely and ugly. all throughout my life i never really had friends and my whole 4 years of highschool i sat by myself at lunch and never spoke in class. my teachers often marked me absent because i sat in the back and i was so quiet. when classmates would hear me talk for the first time they would always point out how they’ve never heard my voice before. i’ve never dated anyone and i often feel like the energy and effort i put into people isn’t reciprocated. im so lonely man and i don’t know what im doing wrong. nobody cares about me the way i care about them. my life just revolves around the gym work and school. why do guys only want me intimately? they never care to understand me on a deeper level. hopefully my future husband will care for me the way i pray he does.
Hey Kyle,
I hope you're doing well. I've read your comment and I'll pray for you too. You're definitely deserving of somone who cares for you and loves you on a deeper level. 🫂
Hell yeah (i've been crying for the past 3 hours and it is indeed 4 am)
You are very strong 💪 I hope you're feeling good rn ;)
I love your username. I hope everything is going well for you my friend
So much to say. Yet I can't find the mere describable words to perfectly encapsulate what i feel right now.
🌌🌠
я понимаю, что ты чувствуешь, потому чувствую тоже самое..
It’s 3:30 no expectations at this time. I love the quietness sitting in my pajamas. Just allowed to be.
That's usually the time I wake up in the middle of the night to take my Kratom and get out of withdrawal. But when it finally kicks in and I can feel the absolute calm, like everything is, always has been, and always will be alright for that moment... No words to adequately describe these words.
I don’t know why I feel compelled to comment. It is three minutes to four am. I miss him, he’s a 16 minute drive from me, asleep, and I wish I was next to him. I love him. I hope he wants to marry me as much as I want to marry him. I’m happy he’s in my life.
I hope he wants to marry you too, friend ❤
I opened youtube at exactly 4:05AM and this was the first thing in my feed....
...it may sound weird, but I needed this..
...thank you...
They know what you need they are always watching
About to be 20 on the 30th. I often wonder what went wrong. In middleschool i wished for it to be over, to be older and to be free. I was never the popular kid, i was often approached, though i wasted my school years being quiet due to overthinking about how others will judge me. I know i still have time, but its sad to know i wasted such crucial moments in my life due to being scared. Ive lost all my friends and now my girlfriend. Although i feel lost. I feel a wave of importance in my life, this is where i can start over. Make new friends. Find something im into. Ive never had a hard time having others want to talk to me. Ive just been scared to open up and let people get close. I hope one day i can make it in life and teach my future kid to be better then how i was...
A time of hope for the future and gratitude for the past. How I long to be amongst the stars, how others have longed to be safe. We all have desires, but few take time to appreciate what they already have - it’s in moments like this that we are truly alive. That feeling of the warm summers breeze against the twilight summers sky.. watching the moon commence its journey overhead once again.. life is what you make it to be so never forget to relax every once in a while. God am I lucky to be here at the age of 15 with my whole life ahead of me, I hope you all feel the same
bro i'm 17 years old. It's comment have many motivations for our lives. You think very wisely for a 15 year old)
@@marcoedits2445 Thanks for the kind words man, it means a lot! Hope you’re doing well
Man those SHEIN ads know how to ruin my mood
Damn
frick SHEIN. all the homies h8 SHEIN
Oh just perfect. I found this at 3:20 am. Il keep listening.😊
currently at an airport at 3:20 AM in another country, pretty empty and liminal, just started the playlist...
i'm so tired helppppp
Your lucky to be in another country which one was it I wish I could just drop everything I’m doing and go visit some beautiful country meet new people and act feel like I’m living but instead I’m stuck here
@@Nah-._ heyy, unfortunately I went to England (just kidding it was kinda cool)! I went because of my 15th birthday, but I'm already back to Brazil, where do you live?
I'm sorry to hear that you're unhappy where you are, but hey, you can do all of that in any place! everyday is a new day full of opportunities! try to go to a new place in your city, try to talk with a stranger, give new things a try... and trust me, going on a trip out of nowhere it's not all roses, I had to study in the airport because I had an exam the day I got back 😢
I hope you have the chance to go on a super cool vacation without any troubles!
(and sorry for the late answer, TH-cam doesn't send me notifications about comments 💀)
@@k4id0 I live in America, so we do have very different lifestyles I can’t really move freely and go adventuring I have work and school all day, also happy birthday. (And Brazil seems pretty awesome hopefully I get to visit there someday)
@@Nah-._ thank you! my actual birthday was last year, but I only had the chance to go abroad this march 😅
also, in that aspect, our countries are not so different, actually, a lot of people also have to work and study all day here too, I think it's pretty sad, isn't it? but I mean, we can't just let ourselves die by overworking and overstudying, take little breaks sometimes :(
also, I really hope you get the chance to come to Brazil, it has it's flaws but it can be pretty cool here! the food is the best!
have a good night and good days ahead, dude! sending positive vibes to you!
@@k4id0 hows life now
3:47 aug14 sitting here just with my thoughts makes me realize how much anger i have bottled up over time, it’s an odd feeling not having anything to do with this emotion so i try to push it down and evade it for as long as possible. i know time can only move forward and things in the past don’t have an effect on me today but i can’t help but stew and just ask “how could you?” you know?
I’m at work and it literally just turned 4:02am. Perfect mix for the time I suppose!!
Why did this happen to me too haha.
What do you work?
@@nooraseer I just work at a grocery stocking shelves with food, overnight shift. I work alone so it’s really relaxed !
@@dassboot9332 that sounds really nice and chill, I can imagine the vibes. enjoyy :)
this shit is so peaceful. i love these kinds of videos, especally how i see the sunrise every single morning, i can never sleep these days
4:46 AM while i write this. i tried to fall asleep hours ago. i have on and off insomnia, decided to strike tonight i guess. so here i am. when i can’t sleep, my thoughts are inescapable, and i’m left there replaying memories i don’t want to. it almost always leads back to her. i’ll spare you the story, but i miss her.
As you read this comment, all of a sudden your heart becomes full. You let on a little smile, and in your head you realized it’s been awhile since you did one of those. Everything is going to be alright, God has a plan for your life. Plans to prosper you and to keep you. If it doesn’t take too much out of you, tell someone you love them today. And if no one has told you lately, I love you.
Listening to your enchanting melodies is like taking a serene journey through a blissful realm.Thank you for creating such a captivating haven of calmness and allowing us to immerse ourselves in the ethereal beauty of your compositions. Your channel is a true sanctuary for the weary spirit, a sanctuary where relaxation finds its perfect.❤❤❤❤❤
Currently 4:08 AM and I have finished 9 week-long procrastinated projects/tasks in under 4 hours
same here
Keep it up
awesome dude :D
ill watch this some other time when i feel bad
Hi for anyone struggling I was there at rock bottom at the lowest of lows and for 6 years. It gets better I swear❤! It might take a while but you’ll get to the key at the end of the tunnel! For me it took a year for me to not feel depressed. Just know you’re deserving of love! And even if no one shows it just know you’ll find the person that heals every wound inside you❤
“Always by your side”
“All I need”
“As the light fades”
Wow these titles are extremely depressing because I can relate to these.
I don’t have anyone who loves me. There is no one at my side.
All I need is someone I can love who isn’t part of my family but I don’t.
And… as the light fades… my mental health is fading.
Life sucks.
Dam,you straight on deserve someone who you can love
Why did I literally shed tears reading this…
This is so accurate
Best music for studying and playing souls games
Literally found this exactly on 4am. Thanks ⛓️💠
its not 4 am here but 2:50 in the morning. i've been losing sleep for awhile now, i cant seem to wrap my head around the idea of certain things in life. i feel a bit tired, work still undone
I struggle to sleep at night, I get sad and worry easily but I’m praying to God and I want to trust in him more, I need rest and I need a break but it’s so hard to find strength sometimes, music brings me a sense of peace
I’ll be praying for you!
Guard your heart. Don’t worry about the things you can’t change. Do what you can
For what reason do i stay up late, is it to ponder the inevitability of what will be. The fact that life will cease to exist. To be entranced by the universe. To question my own thoughts actions. Love, what a fleeting emotion, what a thing to be young and feel it. What a thing to lose it. If my steps were different, would it have ended the same way. What’s my purpose. For what reason have I glided my soul across this plane for the years of my life. Am I a mere existence. Or by god am I considered grand in the scheme of the universe. Will that person come back. Like a mystery how I wish the memories would fade away. How her face would be covered with a cloud of nostalgia. But those feelings, those experiences, are engraved so deeply into my soul, rejected from the heart of one who I held so dear, not once or twice, but five times. Can I go back? At least be friends. Would it even change anything. Or is love not meant for this life. Do I take the next step blindly or ponder on it. Do I look where my feet land or do I search for the next platform, do I wonder where the steps take me or do I follow blindly. Do I turn back? Can I turn back? What’s back there? Is it even anything left? Can I find something? What if I missed something that would change the course of my existence. Not possible. An error in my process, a flaw in my thinking, what’s done is done. But I can’t move forward, forever stuck on this step. Wondering if I go back or I go forward. But even if I move forward, it’s as if my previous step chases me into my precious future, do I cut off my feet? Do I leap, or do I jump into the void. Not landing on any steps. This day to day life might be killing me slowly. Putting a pause on my existence, a pause which doesn’t allow for character. For change. Am I even human anymore. Stop. Breathe, look up, admire the stars, the eternalness of creation which outlast the very fibers of your body, smell the space, feel the stars, hear the void, see the end. You, on the other side of the screen, what’s your story like? Would you risk it all to change it? Or do you move forward? Is what is held in your heart the most important thing, or is the destination you end up, the journey you took? On a path which was not paved but remembered, illusions by the doings of your own brain, Olivia I miss you alot, if you ever see this just know I would have risked it all to change how it ended, sincerely kiri, the Fanny pack boy
It’s 4:00 14/8-2024. I am cozied up in my blanket trying to sleep and The feeling this sound gives me is just unbelieavably good, i love this nostalgic feeling. Thank you so much, and god bless you all
It’s precisely 4am
I don't like the day at all. My head works better at night. Knowing that people sleep at night time makes the city more mine, more free.
"You're alone?, hm.. don't worry the end of all of this are coming"
-The Crimson Stalker
сказала я своему отражению и пошла вешаться.
it's so make me relaxing and stay calm. hum, at my place rn it's already 2.25AM. i think ddis playlist it's great too if we use for meditation. ❤
I'm lying in my bed at 12:15am on september 19th. Life has been really up and down lately.
My highs can be so high... my lows can feel like I'm at the bottom of the earth, sinking, empty, lonely. I don't know how I feel right now. I know this current peace with the world, and with myself, is only temporary. I worry about tomorrow, and the next day, and every day ahead of me... I fear what will come next.
I'm leaning against my pillow, with my laptop in front of me, I'm stretched out along my bed, I'm not too warm and not too cold. I feel at peace.
smacznej KAWUSI życzę każdej osobie, która to czyta ;)
Nawzajem
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It’s 1:00am… this time last year I was living having the best time of my life, moving across the country to a new city with the love of my life… and the last 7 months I have been at my absolute lowest…
Listening to this and reading the comments from others broke me even more.
As much as I struggle to remind myself, you are loved. There are people who care about you and will do anything for your happiness. You mean to world to people.
I don’t know any one of you, and i probably never will, but i love you all and know that the best things in your lives are yet to come
why does nobody love me? what am i doing wrong. i take care of my health i go to the gym, i care about my looks and personality. what’s wrong with me that i cant see
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It's understandable to feel confused and hurt when you're not receiving the love and validation you deserve, despite taking care of yourself and your well-being. It's important to remember that the lack of love from others doesn't reflect your worth as a person.
Sometimes, it's not about what you're doing wrong, but rather about the circumstances or the people you're surrounded by. It's also possible that those who truly appreciate and value you haven't made themselves known yet.
Instead of dwelling on what might be wrong with you, focus on self-love and acceptance. Keep taking care of yourself, pursuing your interests, and nurturing your relationships with those who do appreciate you. Sometimes, love comes when we least expect it, so be patient and kind to yourself in the meantime.
I love you ❤️ god love you you love you you are love
@@colilightning8165 thank you so much 🤍🤍
ts is like a compilation of perfect pause menu soundtracks
Жизнь совсем не такая легкая как я себе представлял. Сейчас мне 17 хоть ощущаю я себя на 16. Мне нравятся тусовки, общение, но так всегда складывалось, что я больше времени был один и это осознанный выбор. И вот я спрашиваю себя пройдут года и по каким критериям я буду считать прожил ли я хорошую жизнь или нет.
Такое ощущение, что мне не хватило наивности, легкости, которой пронизаны года молодости. Возможно я слишком рано стал взрослым, все же мне не много не хватает вайба вечеринок, беспризорнечества. Я слишком рано сделал себя взрослым. Возможно этот момент настанет, но я чувствую, что не могу осознанно забить на все и просто веселиться, не возникнет такого чувства которого я хочу. Сейчас настало время, когда пора действовать и я буду. Я достигну успеха, для меня успех это нечто духовное, оно не определяется деньгами, оно придет по мере моего духовного становления, укрепления дисциплины, подсознательное игнорирования вредных импульсов, все это в совокупности и сделает меня успешным. В последнее время очень озабочен автомобилями. Мечтаю о GMA T50, Pagani Zonda 760, чувство когда ты сидишь в автомобиле, проносишься ночью, это чувство хоть и не происходило со мной вживую, но оно ни чуждо глубине моей души. Поэтому я мечтаю воплотить эти чувства в живую. Но как буд-то я не смогу сполна насладиться им и в целом жизнью, если у меня не будет отрезка с тусовками, беззаботностью, но как придет беззаботность, когда я уже анализировал это? Как? Получается даже если я буду тусить, отрываться все это будет неискренним и мой внутренний духовный гештальт не закроется. Спасибо за то, что мой отец до сих пор жив. Он мужчина. Хочу показать ему какого сына он вырастил, хочу подарить ему audi a6 allroad которую позволить он себе пока что не может. В моих ежедневных занятиях нет правды. Каждый день засыпаю с мыслями, что же я наделал, зачем я опять подрочил, потратил весь день, смотря бесполезные ролики на Ютубе, опять съел шоколадки, ничего не меняется и ничего не поменяется с таким образом жизни, Артем.
В последнее время я раздумываю о том, чтобы убрать все отвлекающие факторы и добиться этого внутреннего чувства успеха. Будет много соблазнов, препятствий, я это понимаю, но не достигнув внутреннего чувства успеха я не заслуживаю жить. Соответственно каждый день, когда я не занимаюсь построением успеха я просто не заслуживаю жить этот день.
Я вернусь сюда через 3 года. Моя жизнь изменится навсегда, через три года я буду читать этот текст в совсем другом положении, состоянии. Я иду без возбуждения, взволнованности я иду из за долга. из за того что я мужчина и должен достичь всего чего хочу. без детской наивности с пониманием того что возможно умру на этом пути но лучше умереть так чем смотря однотипные видосы булкина. это будут 3 долгих года, я сделаю их долгими потому что буду проживать каждый день преодолевая желания, соблазны.
наверно идеально у меня не получится прожить, по крайней мере я буду иметь суперкары мечты, а еще subaru wrx sti на которой буду хасанить по снегу в горах Франции. после того как вдоволь накатаюсь, вернусь в свою виллу, где пожарю сочнейшый стейк из барана которого я добыл из лука в недельном походе в лес, сидя на стуле в -15 на столе стейк, на мне самые качественные вещи, куртка cp company хлопья снега по всюда красивейшая панорама на горы. А я просто сижу после прекрасной поездки наслаждаясь моментом, чтобы потом пойти вновь заниматься разработкой своего собственного гиперкара, при этом укрепляя свое понимание мира, свою духовную силу. этот момент который я наверно хочу прожить больше всего в жизни в гараже пагани гма м5 е60, суба, я занимаюсь собственной разработкой и ниче больше меня не волнует, время развернулось вспять, больше не существует такого духовного понятия как время существует момент в котором ты ловишь каждый вдох наслаждения с внутренней гармонией и пониманием того, что вот -- ты добился того самого успеха, ты смог этого сделать и тебя больше не волнует ничего, хоть завтра закончиться жизнь, мне все равно я прожил абсолютно сладчайшую ее часть и умру с честью перед самим собой. я смог это сделать. умру с честью перед отцом. просто лягу на снег закрою глаза и буду наслаждаться каждым вдохом...............
нет это не импульс 2024 года новый год новая жизнь это настоявшийся момент все эти мысли они настолько безструктурны но только ночью в тишине они могут прийти, эти ценнейшие мысли могут прийти
но если все будет структурно то ты не проживешь эти случайные моменты счастья когда ты на коттедже слушаюсь с другом ебнутый реп прыгая в конвульсиях хавая при этом шаверму а потом через час за вами приедет полиции и вы поедете в отдел. так в чем счастье. я лично оиднаково наслажусь этим моментом и чувством того что я смог что я добился успеха но чувство этого счастья не возникнет когда ты жиыешь структурно ты просто не дашь ему возникнуть. Вообщем мне еще предстоить изучить жизнь и за эти 3 года я постараюсь это сделать по максимуму. но а сейчас я пойду прогуляюсь по ночному-утренему сосновому бору, городку с насленеим 80к в котором не умеют мечтать....
Прочитал весь текст и задумался о том, что у тебя есть хорошая цель, а у меня и ее нету, просто учусь в универе и надеюсь, что в будущем чего то достигну, а по ночам слушаю музыку и думаю смогу ли я вообще что-то сделать в своей жизни сам и без чьей-то помощи, даже тусить никуда не хожу, просто сижу дома. В любом случае надеюсь у тебя все получится и ты добьёшься того, чего так сильно желаешь, удачи
This is all i ever needed
its 3:10 am, im smoking weed and listening to this playlist after having mental breakdown~
Real
2/10/2024
It’s currently 4:00 am, I feel tired yet my thoughts won’t shut up. All I can feel is the fact of how I have to wake up tomorrow, take my sister to Walmart and start my first week preparations for a television show me and my dance crew are being apart of in October. I feel weirdly at ease with how fast my life is changing, how things are starting to look up. I’m scared for all of it too, because what if I fail? Anyways if anyone even took the time to read this, you dont know me and I don’t know you. Though what I want you to know is that no matter who you are I love you. You deserve happiness, success, a good life, the works.
crazy how i literally seen this at 4am on my FYP in a time of need
Revel in the love you have, but please love yourself.
only reason i stay up at night is because that’s when the world stops for me and i enjoy this moment of silence by myself. nothing matters during those hours and i feel free
I got this video recommend to me at exactly 4am wtf
literally is 4am and im still awake. perfect
We need positive energy because we are human beings and man is weak before the face of God Almighty. We are only human beings. We make mistakes, correct things, and return to mistakes. We want to be free, without deep thinking, no negative thoughts, no failure, no fatigue, and no exhaustion. We only need rest and a place in which we can rest. We certainly warn you that we are human beings and we have a personality that wants comfort and positive energy, and all of the above you will possess when you are a Muslim, obedient to your Lord, praying that your life is positive, where everything I said is positive, you will find it in Paradise because you only did that.. ♡
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4:16 in the AM, cant sleep, thinking about life. Man this Christmas was just another normal day
nothing makes me happy anymore man, like either i do a fake smile or just look like im not real
Dont even wanna go to school next week
Hey ! Life is exhausting and in fact, more you grow up, more the smile is fake , but you will manage to get rid of it, don’t really go deep with your fake smile, it’s okay to be okay. And in fact, that’s really weird to be okay in this time with this world full of war, crime, lies and so on, but think about it, you will leave this world, make sure you live a life you will remember
Real
The fact is it is actually 4 am here right now
4:18 for me being alone in my thoughts truly does bring peace and the time for self reflection fr it’s well needed for everyone in life stay strong everyone ❤
its 4:22 and i have decided idgaf abt my sleep schedule and am just gonna stare at the sky till its day cus what better is there to do
Real
It's Saturday 15th of June, 4.27 am. I'm in Mulhouse, finishing my thesis. I'm a day away from the deadline.
Would love to be brought back here a few years later.
we are waiting....
2:11 am rn and I have to be up by 10:30. I most likely won't fall asleep until 4 or 5.This is the perfect soundtrack for the dread I'm feeling for my future sleep deprived self...
I was studying for a big test yesterday. I didn’t go to bed until 5am in the morning because I wanted to do well on the test so I have a chance to pass the class. Engineering is no joke but the degree is worth it.
Good for you, but your gloating is Irrelevant.
Thats great! I hope you did good! Ignore the other guy, idk wbat his problem is.
It’s 1:31 am and I feel like I’m falling back into a depression after a few months of not feeling depressed, and I feel unable to talk to people about it, because what got me out of it last time was not talking about it.
Edit: Its 4:54 am a few days later, I feel like I am coming to new conclusions and it feels good. Shoutout to this video and comment section.
Typically I would write about an emotional memory as a comment but I cant resist writing about how my cat is Chewing on my guitars strings and her teeth are plucking some funny notes, (just to give you a bit of a description on what she looks like she's not a white cat but she dose have some cute little white ankle socks on all of her paws except the top right one.
So cute !!
i love this :)❤
22 years old, almost 1 am. Graduated, unemployed. My old friends are zombies on medication, my family and I have different mind frames. I need to make money in surplus so I can save and leave this community, then city, then state. I need to be distant from all this.
For you, yes you reading this! Your not sad, your not alone , your not meant to feel this way.
That longing you have..... It's not for that girl/boy you like, it's not for that new job, that luxurious life.
That disconnection your feeling, that void is you longing to come back to me.
This world was never meant to satisfy you.
As you sit here feeling the way you do. I feel the same about you!
When you were a child you used to talk to me. I miss our talks. And your smile when the world was a brand new place! How very little thing's just seemed so bright and wonderful. Your life was full of light and wonder then!!
But you grew up..... You left me behind. But I never left.... I've watched you everyday hoping that you might come back to me. It breaks my heart to see you like this.
It was never the world that made you feel complete.
It was my presence child.
And I do long too have a relationship again. After all you're my most prized possession and i cant help but love you with an everlasting love.
I Gave everything i loved that you might love me in return.
But times running out and the world will soon come to an end. I'm pleading you to come home, i miss you!
I will use anything to get you attention! Even this comment section!
John 3:16
" For God so loved the world , that he gave his only son and whom ever shall believe in him shall not perish but have everlasting life "
I will wipe away every tear and take away all the hurt this world has caused you! We just never talk anymore.
I'm Waiting......I'm always waiting.
Your loving Father
Almighty God ❤
Absolute beauty put man in gods shoes you are a writer
Thank you 🙏🏼🫂
2:32 am for me.. i’m in the dark in my room. i hope this message finds you all well, we’ll meet again soon someday.
Yup, 4am. I really gotta fix my sleep schedule
relatable
I keep having this reoccurring thought/realization that the worlds ending so fast I’m still so young and this is what’s engraved in my mind. Not work,school,grades,luxury,etc. I fear if I’ll be able to live or not, if I’ll be happy, if someone would love me, get to have kids, what my life would look like, would I even get to see that? And if this end is so near why don’t we know what it is why can’t we fight to just have one more day just face all the unknown
I don’t want to accept the fate I didn’t choose..
4:15am.
Its almost 2am and i have to get up early to travel. Its quiet in my room but i feel a lot of bad energy. My eyes are sore and my throat hurts. I wish i could sleep, instead im mourning my thoughts and feelings
Tell me why it’s exactly 4am and I’m seeing this video
When I hear the sirens I just think, "Good morning New Yorkers! Looking for another beautiful day in the city..."
omg it's literally 4AM and I'm still awake
Just turned 4am. It's one of those nights I question everything and ask myself why I'm still here.
I’m doing this tonight… Hope things are a little better for you now.
@zevo8293 Thank you for the kind words. I hope you too are feeling a little better. Stay strong.
4:18 am I'm in my bed still thinking I'm a failure
You’re not a failure at all. God loves you
it just turned 4:02 A.M, I logged onto youtube to look for some ASMR and got recommended this video. TH-cam knows me too well.
I'll listen to it when I'm still awake at 4am
It was almost a week but now... Now its 4 am and i'm still awake because of my school. I don't think that we have to spend so much time on it. I just know that a will really want to sleep all day after sleepless night, but its not like i have strength to do something with it..
@@wiriks_228same bro
1:01 AM
I hugged my pillow and inexplicably burst into tears. He did me horribly wrong, I know, but he also did me horribly right. Life is strange in the way that someone can take advantage of you, cheat, lie, and throw you away like nothing but you will still find yourself longing for them late at night when your texts won't go through and the only sound is soft music and the white noise of a whirring fan through the silence. His voice used to be apart of all that silence. I remember his laugh like it was yesterday and I remember his touch like it was a moment ago. I remember his eyes and his smile and his jokes and his sex and his love and his hate. I wonder if I will ever feel again? If I have the capacity to love without feeling like a traitor. When I attempted, I wrote in his letter to "meet me in the stars, old friend. We are stars not yet dead, I feel we have more to go." He never read that letter and it feels symbolic. I hope to someday meet another star.
I hope all is going well, and continue to stay strong, I’m also in the same boat and have the same thoughts/feelings as you. I pray everything works out for us
It's actually 05,00 am and I feel like wanted to do stupid stuff.
Waking up the next morning is 100% worth more then 100000 dollars remember that. Remember that people do care about you as well. We are all humans and capable of doing many great things but some of us choose to not do those great things. My motivation may not be great but I hope it helps.
It’s raining, I’m sitting alone in my car at midnight with this masterpiece playing out loud. My home is in another continent and I want to go back, I can’t.
It’s currently 4:34 am and I have never felt more alone than now. If your reading this I hope you never feel like this.
So relaxing💆