Mark: You are indeed a beautiful person. You are amazing with words. There are so many people that you have never met who really care about you. We all want you to feel good and be happy. Sending you a massive hug and lots of love. 💖
My husband started on these tablets about 6months ago. The Gp increased his dosage gradually and he now takes 150mg per day and feels so much happier.He is able to handle life’s ups and downs a lot better. It did take 4-6 weeks for them to take effect and for him to get used to them. Stick with them Mark 😊
I was on Sertraline 20 mgs for a month, made me very ill, shaky, sickness, the runs, palpitations, dizzy..very unwell, my doctor wanted to up my dose but I said no, please put me on something else? he then tried me on Amitriptyline 25mg, to be taken at night, 3 months later I am feeling much better, the only side effect is a dry mouth and doing and feeling much better. Hope you feel better on Sertraline day by day and they work for you Mark, different strokes for different folks so they say. Lots of love to you all xxxx
I think you’re still sounding bloody articulate. My thought on this is to take it one day at a time, see how you get on and be kind to yourself. As you said, this is just part of the journey. You’re in observation mode. The dizziness and feeling of being slightly removed from stuff must be a bit unnerving, but will hopefully pass. Cheering you on. Sorry for the bad news in your family ❤️
Mark, I just want to hug you. Sending you and your wonderful family so much love. This is soo good and cathartic, I can see you look tired.. give yourself some time and keep updating us. We don’t judge. Big hug lovely Mark xxx
My husband is on sertraline 100mg and I am on citalopram. It will take a good few months before you start to really really tell the difference, but it won’t be a lightbulb moment. The first few weeks of side effects are the worst, the spaced outness, dizziness will eventually go. The bit where you say your heart and body are still reacting in the same way to anxiety, but your head is watching from the sidelines, that will all connect. Your head watching from the sidelines will invite the other parts of your body to join it. You will have more clarity, but less reactive responses. You will have time and space to evaluate before going in to fight or flight. It won’t feel so chaotic. It will eventually become your ‘normal’.... but here’s the thing as you were saying we become addicted to the hits of adrenaline, hits of anxiety, hits of total meltdown, terror, chaos.... but however addictive them hits are, they are also bloody exhausting and not at all good for us. So at first you may feel like everything that’s familiar to you is being masked, it might make you uneasy because you’re not being the real you.... but the ‘real’ you that you have become accustomed to is not very well.... the you that you become on the medication is still you, but a slightly clearer, less chaotic whirling dervish.... a calmer more clarified version. Please please stick with it. The tablets are not a cure, they are an aid. Talking, exercise, fuelling your body well-it all goes together. When you say you wish you could go and eat all of the things you listed..... why not give yourself permission to have some of it, give your self permission mindfully instead of blindly, panicked like you’re doing something wrong...... I bet if you did it that way you wouldn’t actually eat 18packets of biscuits a box of pringles and a partridge in a pear tree! I bet you’d come to the realisation that 4 biscuits and a handful of pringles was actually very lovely and thank yourself for the permission to enjoy them. Don’t be too hard on yourself Mark. You’re doing fantastically. Thankyou for sharing all that you do..... sharing your journey with sobriety has helped me more than you will ever know.xxxx
You are a remarkable Man Mark... to stay soba and love and provide for a lovely Family .. remember to always remember that you bring so much comfort to those who Seek it .. Hats of lovely Man x
I’ve actually just came off these, after a slow decrease with advice from my GP. I found these, in conjunction with Cognitive-Behavioural Therapy helped a lot. I was absolutely crippled with anxiety. My biggest thing was completely catastrophising everything. It affected every single aspect of my life... Until these, and the therapy worked. There was a side effect in that I gained approximately 2 stone in weight, due to the Sertriline giving me an increased appetite (especially for sweet, sugary foods). I’ve been able to shift some of the weight after coming off them, with a healthy diet and generally moving more and being more active. I really do hope these work for you and will continue to follow your progress with them. 🙏✌️👍
@@deerheart87 Oh dear. This doesn't sound right at all. If I were you, I'd be contacting the GP. Hope you're feeling well again soon. Please let me know how you progress? Take care.
It is so rare for someone to have this much integrity, emotional intelligence and eloquence. Your subs are very, very lucky to have you in their lives. Particularly people who are living with mental health issues. My daughter has OCD. You're right about the science of mental health, it is actually a habit. Controversial, but true. The Linden Method is particularly good at explaining this. Thank you again, Mark. Xx
Mark, have you thought about taking some time out? Have a bit of you time, indulge yourself, go away for a week/end retreat and immerse yourself in whatever you feel like doing when you wake up. Don’t make plans just head off and rest
I've been on most antidepressants since I was 15 for social anxieties they all seem to make u feel exactly as you described for a while. Can't say any helped me much and I ended up agraphobic from the age 18 -22 not leaving my home apart from Drs apps. I then forced myself to group therapy for 12 weeks 5 days a week as a social phobic and agraphobic . Hardest thing I ever did I spend days/weeks in a constant panic attack. After that I forced myself to do volunteer work and from that got a job and my life changed. I always struggled with certain situations but overall I coped. 5 years later I developed a physical illness and I my life fell apart I'm now housebound through a physical illness. Doing the best I can to find treatment so I can get my life back again. Mental health or physical health it's the same thing our brain is part of our body. It all needs help sometimes no shame in it and I think it's rare a person can go their whole life without needing help for one or the other or both.
Mark ,i hope it`ll also continue to help you by talking about what`s happening.I think you have such a lovely group (large:) of subs here ,and they all genuinely care about you guys and one another.As someone who suffers more with severe anxiety/stress 24/7 ,and whose been on various meds ,it does take a while to feel somewhat lighter hearted ,and not so worried.I found taking them at night was better ,due to the chronic morning sickness type of nausea i`d get from them.I also found my dire sleep pattern was a little better ,hoping that continues!! Please take care of you ,and speak to your primary dr if you feel you need extra help in any way.If you`ve got a good gp ,they`ll know.Thanks for sharing ,it truly makes those of us who do have issues feel less isolated.Xx
Thanks for sharing, I’m sure this will help lots of people who feel alone in their anxiety/depression journey. My son suffers badly, meds’ haven’t helped, he hasn’t worked for nearly two years now because of this which also causes him anxiety through guilt. He has a young family too. Hope things improve for you x
Mark this is so honest. You really share your feelings well. You are going to be helping so many people by being so open. Like Nadia always says you under estimate how amazing you are. Its also great to see how you have such a lovely relationship with Nanny Di now. Very healing for you to be so forgiving of the past. Its all amazing to watch. Love all your content of a lovely family as crazy as mine x
That medication takes a while to fully kick in. You’ve got to give it time to do its thing. My daughter is on it . She has severe social anxiety and ocd. She is calmer since being on it but still finds it impossible to leave the house. I am also on medication for depression. I find it has helped a lot . I can deal with far more without going to pieces. Love all your videos. Love all your family. Keep doing what your doing , plodding on and hopefully the medication will start to make a difference soon 💊❤️
Mark. Just went through your responders & it seems they’re 99 percent female. Why don’t we blokes engage with this stuff? Thanks, you’re a pioneer for blokes who want to talk it out. I have a few family members who suffer similarly & I definitely talk & listen with them. Thanks Mark, for your guts. Aussie Bob X
Hi Mark. I just want to say thank you for these videos, my 18 year old daughter has also been taking these for about a week and its nice to understand a little of what she may be feeling. I just hope they bring my lovely daughter back to her happiness and you. Take care Xx
Mark, You are totally in control because you are trying to sort out your depression/Low moods, etc quickly and that takes a lot of strength in the 1st place.You are doing well and it will get much more better.Keep strong x
I watch your vlogs and I am willing myself to get help 😢. I live in a world that I don’t want to be in. I care for my partner who has a progressive illness and each day is a challenge and battle for me to stay in control. I spend every night being his voice because he can’t call out for help. I neglect myself and my own needs and often sit in the bathroom sobbing and screaming where no one can hear me. I make sure everyone is “ok” because making people happy helps me. I often think do I want to not have the good and bad feelings I have right now if I take antidepressants?? I don’t expect anyone to respond - I just wanted to write stuff somewhere that I’m not going to upset anyone and have to make a decision. Mark you rock and your family are wonderful - thank you from the bottom of my heart for being honest and maybe one day I may feel ready to deal with all this 🤗😘
Mark thank you for this, your right we all suffer in one form or another at times with mental health. Mine is over analysing, over thinking and anxiety in varying levels. The meds your on will numb things, like someone holding onto your shirt when you are trying to pull free and run, it’s to slow you down, slow the thoughts and physical responses to a 33 and a third record speed from a 78. This journey your on with these meds will be a big help to a lot of people, there is still not enough resources for mental health, raising awareness like you are is indeed a much needed platform. Love your room btw, it’s like a womb of all things interesting 👍💕
Thank you so much for this Mark. I have been an anxious soul my whole life, finally masking it/trying to cope by drinking too much ie a bottle of wine a night. Maybe not a lot compared to some, but it was too much for me. I stopped drinking a year ago, then the anxiety became terrible and depression also set in. I went on Fluoxetine (prozac) and have been on it for 5 months now. You describe EXACTLY how it felt. I had a really productive happy few months but now I feel like I am going down again... I am going back to Dr to see if I need to up the dose or whatever.. That description of the black hole with a fire coming out was perfect! Please please keep a journal of how you are feeling - you have a book in there for sure! Sorry to hear you have had some bad news and I hope you spend some peaceful quality time with your lovely girls. Sheelagh x
Great video Mark, love you talking about this stuff. It must be helping you to talk about what's in your head. I have almost done my first month on citalopram and I watched a previous video where you said you'd taken it and felt great the first few weeks, which is how I think at the moment, I am enjoying the changes with the medication, just hoping it doesn't wear off like you mentioned. I guess all the tablets do is help about 10 % and the other 90 is what you do to help yourself. The I think I rather look at it as 50/50 seems less intimidating 😂 hope you start to feel better on the setraline soon. It's all trial and error. I never coped well on it on the past with the symptoms you've been explaining so I then moved to fluoxetine which wasn't so bad. Just throwing another name in case you feel you want to try something else but hopefully you start to feel like they are helping soon. Take care
My therapist taught me to accept my anxiety and invite it in for a very short while, but tell it it’s not staying. Once I did that I noticed it stopped being a problem. It is difficult, but it does work. Life is so hard. They say creative people think too much. Good luck Mark! Xxx
Hi Mark, I've been on Sertraline 50mg for 9 years now (I did go up to 100 when I had a bit of a breakdown a couple of years ago but I weaned myself back down to 50). I remember when I first started them I felt just like you, spaced out, the 'blur' sensation when you move your head, the out of body feeling and of course the heightened anxiety. Your subs are right, it will settle down after a few weeks, but not nice to deal with in the meantime. The best advice I can offer is to take one day (even one hour) at a time, and try not to think too far forward about if it will work or how you'll feel next week, etc. I find Sertraline makes me feel numb: I don't feel horrendously low but I don't get feelings of excitement and joy either- I don't know whether that's a good or bad thing, but it's infinitely better than how I felt before. I take Sertraline just before bed because I also felt sick and nauseous with it at first (which is counter-intuitive seeing as I was taking them for Emetophobia!) so I'd recommend that if you're finding your day is overtaken with weird feelings, take them at night. It will probably give you the freakiest dreams (myself and my sister who's also on the drug refer to them as Sertraline Dreams) but for me, I'd rather have a weird dream than feel like shit all day. I hope that some of this helps, but the biggest thing for me is the taking one day at a time thing. Get through the day hour by hour if you need to. Concentrate on what's happening right now. It might be different for you as I know how busy you are, but I remember giving myself one small goal per day- as small as having to nip to the shop for some batteries- and once I'd achieved that, I put no other pressure on myself for that day. It helped having one thing to focus on rather than the plethora of crap I had going round in my head. Also, you talked about blaming things on outside forces and passing the buck so to speak. One of the best pieces of advice I've been given is that it doesn't matter what happens to you in life, however bad, it's how you deal with it. Even if you can't control what has happened, you control your response to it. You know how there's some people with cancer who are incredibly positive and upbeat, but others with flu who feel so sorry for themselves and over dramatise how bad it is and how awful they're feeling. The language you use in your speech and thoughts is really important because it sets the tone for how your body reacts (if you describe in huge dramatic detail how awful something feels, your body can respond with physical pain or discomfort). I'm probably going off on a tangent here but I'd recommend reading the Thrive Program by Rob Kelly. It's the ONLY thing I've found that helps me (and I've tried a LOT of things), because it deconstructs all these complex webs of thought processes we have and explains them in basic, non-psychobabble terms that you think, 'huh, yeah that makes sense'.
Hi Just wanted to say thank you for putting out so much footage recently. I'm beginning to get into producing so sort of have an idea of how much work you're putting in. Currently I'm suffering from some anticipation anxiety and minor depression which I have never experienced or possibly acknowledged before. But every time I go online I see you've uploaded some ginormous 50 min video which I inevitably enjoy so much. So just want to say a HUGE THANK YOU as your family videos are helping me take my mind off it. X
God Bless you Mark. I've been poorly since I was 13 years of age. Ar 18 years I had a massive breakdown. I was hospitalised too. It's been a long road for me. I'm 53 now and every day is a day that I'm grateful for. God only gives us what we can cope with. You will learn to cope, depression anxiety call it what you will. It's our makeup, its who n what we we are. Bless you my lovely. Your a lovely Guy. Stand tall my friend. Xxxx
Mark you are amazing ! Just had a bit of a rollercoaster emotional time , you have made me feel we are not alone. Thank you for such an open minded chat ,you don't know how much you help others cope. Hope your meds make you feel more comfortable very soon. 💓
Hi yay 1st to comment and view Mark your not alone, mental health is not to be ashamed of. You allowing your subscribers into your journey is to be commended. In our prayers 🙏
DEAR MARK, thank you for sharing, listening to you makes me feel that I am not alone in my struggle. I am on Citalopram but feel like they are no longer working. I am feeling worse than I felt before I started using them. Most times if feels like my mind is like a war zone and it's hard to explain to some friends who just don't understand mental health issues. I am however, going to make an appointment with my GP to discuss how I feel and see what they suggest. You are STILL very articulate, but as you said your eyes seem a bit glazed and your eyelids look heavy. I sincerely hope each day gets better for you and you start to feel better within yourself soon. You are such a lovely, kind sweet man. Please take care.
I think you are doing well . My daughter took them and she loved them , they really helped her . You are looking chilled out and less fraught and manic .
I think your amazing for talking about your mental health struggles .I have found since I had a total thyroidectomy my mental health has gone down hill also menopause doesn't help the situation sometimes I couldn't go out the door but now two years on I'm working I'm on antidepressants and I feel fine I still have a moment every now and then when I feel like things are out of my control but I'm getting there .
Thank you so much for sharing this Mark. It gives me (and I’m sure many people) a great deal of strength to know we are not alone in these mental health struggles. I’m so very grateful to you.
Would still recommend getting Vit D and B12 levels checked, as they relate to low mood etc. Talking to someone objective is also so valuable, maybe another therapist. Appreciate your honesty here.
Hello Mark, thank you for your update. I have suffered with mental health issues for 22 years and have found in the last 1year since being put on pregabelin my mind is just been numbed. My thoughts hazy and I just plod along in a feeling of clouds in my head blocking my clear thinking and almost all emotions I have suppressed. I don't know if that's better than living with the crazy in my head or not. Good luck, please keep us updated on how you are doing. X
Sounding very articulate to me - hope they give you the shift you need. I have taken these and found they worked quite quickly. 👍Thanks for sharing Mark.
Oh bless, I won't be of much help at the mo as I'm not in a good place in my head..The only thing I can say is you're still very articulate, I can relate & understand to what you're saying..Give the meds time as your body should get used to them after a month..If you or Nads & the girls notice any side effects or strange behaviour please see your doctor straight away!..Sorry about the family member..Sending you all much love & big brummie hugs Mark 😔🤘❤🕊🇬🇧xxx
I'm so sorry to hear a extended family member is going through this 🙁 The mine field of antidepressants, not all antidepressants work for everyone and can make you feel worse at the beginning, I would urge anyone to talk to their doctor if you feel they are not helping or making you a lot worse. I have managed a few years without taking them now, but tomorrow I am taking my son to football & my anxiety is through the roof just from the thought of driving somewhere new and my social anxiety 🙁🤦♀️
Mark you are so open and brave. I hope you understand how you help others and for people with anxieties and mental health issues to talk to someone. I have had various anxieties since I was 13 and I am 50 now. I try and keep a lid on it!! Sorry to waffle but you are doing great and tablets take time and I would take it at night, as it's affecting your day. Sending love. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for speaking so openly and eloquently, there just aren't enough people talking about their mental health. I've been on so many different antidepressants and anti anxiety medications and my body just doesn't respond well to them, I seem to get most of the side effects which is a nightmare and makes me feel worse. I have agoraphobia with panic disorder and the only things that help are exercise, meditation, cbt and eating healthy. Hope you start to feel better on the medication and I hope your Anxiety gets better. ❤️
I have experienced stuff that has led to "circumstantial" depression. This has led to me taking the same medication as you. I am so sorry that you have yo live with depression on a daily basis. I am sending you a your family hugs. So comforting to hear your experiences and its inspiring how you are almost visually journaling it. Really helpful for me. Hugs 🙂🙏
I was on Sertraline and had the symptoms of dizziness and nausea when I first started them. Hang in there as they went away after about a week and I found them far better than citalopram. The side effects are just your brain adjusting to the drug
No Mark don’t think you are going on ,as you put it .we can appreciate what you are saying ,it all makes sense ...tell us Mark ,do you really know how much we your subs love you ❤️
Dear Mark..... A very good friend used to say to me “Give it a week”, when I wanted something to resolve, give me an answer, settle to my satisfaction etc. The ‘week’ he referred to wasn’t necessarily going to be 7 days....the week would be as long as it needed to be. You’re as articulate as ever, so be reassured. Take care, go with it and give it a week x
I've suffered with depression for over 20 years and when I was told I'd need to see a psychiatrist, I felt embarrassed. I quickly came to realise that I shouldn't - I have an illness that is not my fault. I've been on citalopram for 10 years and they keep me on an even keel. I still have the odd bad day but it's very rare. Hang in there Mark, you'll get there. Your wonderful family are there for you xx
OCD is debilitating. It’s for me a lot of mental ruminating and rituals in my mind. Unseen to others, recalling events over and over. Like you I’ve also been on Citalapram and Sertraline. I keep getting ‘brain zaps’ for me eating well, drinking water, being outside at least once a day, enough sleep and a little mindfulness (art, gardening, yoga) does help. I see it for me as a Chronic condition I have to learn to live with. It’s so so hard. Best wishes to you x
My Dr told me it takes 4 to 6 weeks to get in your system and the brain fog is real, I’ve suffer with brain fog and I’ve had to have mine upped so feeling overly anxious and exhausted, so just got to be patient but it is hard as you want them to kick in quicker. Keep going Mark you’ll been fine. Your mental health chat the other day made me go to the Drs as I’d been feeling unwell due to my depression and anxiety and this is why my meds have now been upped as they had to be, so thanks again. X
I think you're so brave for sharing your mental health issues. There's always an element of shame and failure which those suffering from mental health problems feel at some point. However one of the worse things for me is that people who don't have these difficulties make me feel that I'm "less than" them. Even though mental health conversations are more prevalent in the media, society aren't completely on board yet. Old stigmas are still there. So thank you for producing these videos which do help people.
Mark have you ever tried St Johns Wort for your depression and anxiety? I was on anti depressants after the death of my parents who passed away 4 days apart. I now take St Johns Wort everyday and it does help. I feel for you, and completely understand the lack of enthusiasm, sadness, alienation and loneliness you feel. For me, I pull away from friends and loved ones solely because I dont feel like myself, I dont want to burden them with my sadness. I was always the fun one, the adventurous one, the life of the party. Now, I just have no zest for life anymore. I purchased a gym membership with hopes of increasing my seratonin levels, so I will see how that goes. My partner thinks I should just snap out of it, he has no compassion or understanding of depression. I feel better when he's not around, only because I dont have to fake how Im truly feeling. He is from the Middle East, Syria. He often tells me that people from colder climates (im Canadian) are so much more emotional and depressed due to our climate, do you think thats a thing? I dont know, but I truly adore your honesty and updates on all you are doing to better yourself, truly inspirational. Thank you for your strength and perseverance, it has motivated me to do the same, Im tired of feeling like this and only I can change it, and NOW is the time, no more excuses no matter how hard it is, no more
@@AliP23236 Im sorry you are going through it as well, it can be so debilitating. I am here for you if you ever need someone to lean on,chat with, vent too... ANYTHING. Hugs xo
I take citalopram and take it at night to avoid that weird spaced out feeling that I get. Sleep has always been an issue with me but after a few months on these I sleep so much better. Its still early days and you need to give it time to work, definitely a few weeks. And you are still very articulate xx
Mark I've been on pills since 2007 .. struggled from 2005 after giving Birth to My Daughter.. Thank you for showing it's nothing to be Ashamed of although it's a Tough Journey 😘 sertraline a Tough cookie .. make sure u on correct meds xx
Its almost like your over thinking!!! things and over complicating things, you are a clever, sharp, creative person and sometimes that can be its own cross to bear i guess, whatever way it has to be good you can talk about it because that must be a good release, hope it all works out for you buddy
My husband takes setraline, he's on 150 mg a day as he suffers from depression and PTSD. He finds that the medication does make his responses slower, dulls the brain a little and levels him out. He doesn't get the highs and lows he used to but most importantly he doesn't get the lows.He's much steadier than he was emotionally. He had the panic attacks, not being able to sleep at night, nightmares and aggression. It did take a few weeks, he wasn't even sure if they would work but his quality of life is better. He's and HGV driver and he still manages to work on them. A lot of his depression is related to childhood issues which I'm sure a lot of people have. Anything new is bound to feel odd at first, but I hope this medication works for you as it has done for my hubby. The brain has to make some adaptations to this new drug it's having to encounter.
You have sought and accepted help and support. And as you mention learnt how to manage the flames. Perhaps this for now is the best you can do. My sister was fine for 40 odd years and then black dog arrived. Now she copes only now with her merry go round of different pills and her kind doctor. She Has finally accepted she will need medication for life. It’s sad feeling helpless and seeing loved ones at low ebb. So keep looking after yourself as you are trying. Hope you enjoy your weekend. I think you are you great and wish I could help fix you and my Sis.
Mark your so brave sending you lots off love . Hope the dizziness settles down . I’ve been watching you and Nadia since January . Love all the vlogs. Maddie and Kiki are lovely girls . Your vlogs have given me the will too keep going when I’m down . I’m trying St. John warts for low mood it’s so bludy hard did dry January with Nadia and haven’t had a drink since .. Thanks for sharing your journey with us Mark . Your helping lots off people lv too you all xx Mary 💙
You are such a wonderful man Mark. I wish you all the best. Take each day at a time, and try not to over think things! You will come through this. Look after yourself with the help from your amazing family. 💕
OCD can also be your thoughts. Lots of people with anxiety and/or depression have obsessive and/or compulsive thoughts. Maybe that 's what you're experiencing. Your self talk may be over active and constant. That will wear you out and cause you great anxiety and cause you to overthink whether the medication is working or not. Most doctors say to give it 4 to 6 weeks so it can even out and you can get a better picture of whether they're working or not.Maybe you could try skyping with a therapist. That might fit you better than sitting in there office. It's more relaxing in your own atmosphere. Keep trucking on and don't give up. You really are doing better than you think.
One day at a time. My experience A-Ds only part of the answer, need the other stuff, therapy, support, exercise, diet, meditation, mindfulness etc. Please keep us posted.
You LOOK like you're doing a LOT better than I felt when I was on sertraline. Only you can decide whether they are working for you or against you. Give it time. If you're still getting up and exercising and feeling less chippy, then that's mostly good. All tablets have this nasty adjustment period, and I hope you begin to feel better soon x
You are such a sweetheart x. I'm alternative and belong to a growing group of people that see the body as a biosphere. We ( society ) have come to believe that "pills" are the solution when actually the body wants to self regulate and is attempting to self regulate at every second. If you stand back and think about pharmaceuticals and that we place something external in our bodies, and every brain/mind is unique, but we expect the same result?? As a child of acute trauma and have struggled with suicide I have never taken meducation but have come to u understand that the synapses can self regulate if you give them the correct environment. Just as food and fitness training gets the body fit. Creating the correct environment a life that aligns with you then allows the mind to regulate. Many people have found that perfect nutrition as in minerals and trace minerals, the removal of metal tooth fillings and having natural regulators such as ashwaghanda and maca and mushroom adaptations ( teas/drinks) work miracles. Some peoples depression has gone overnight with metal tooth fillings removed. Also hemp CBD oil or vapours etc are incredible . Rodiola which you can buy from any good health shop is a natural calmer without drowsiness. If you really want to research alternative therapies there has been massive positive results on micro dosage of mycelium. This is a psychedelic "drug" promoted by Terrance McKenna back in the day. Now Pauk Staments a respected mushroom expert mycoligist speaks eloquently and at length about the fascinating intelligence of mushrooms and the numerous health benefits. You may find this interesting but mushrooms have redesigned the Tokyo underground. True! And their chemical construct is found in about 90% of the fabric of our bodies and planet. There is serious medical research is being carried out with psychedelics called "Saving lives with micro dosing with psychedelics" video on utube They regulate the synapses naturally. For anyone that's wants to post I cant say this. Yes I can. Adults are free to research any area correct for them and consult a doctor first before changing their medication.
Thank you sooo much for talking about this. I know that you are not looking for this, but I think you are amazing for talking about your issues. Bless and loads of hugs!!!
Mark you are amazing how you can articulate your feelings through your struggle a brilliant mind in so many ways, move over Stephen Hawking idea for a movie.The meds are giving you sugar cravings fight them it may give you something to focus on through the fog. You have pointed out the up side of feeling calmer with other people’s personalities not irritating you. Thank you Mark you have truly helped me understand a little of how my husband must feel on a daily basis we irritate him as much as he irritates our adult kids and myself...
Interestingly, some scientists think that the reason antidepressants take a few weeks to actually work is began they allow your brain to grow new neurons which appear to help lessen depression symptoms alongside therapy. Until this happens however, meds do feel very much like any other drug one used to patch up their issues with and if they aren't right for you it kinda makes things worse. I was on setraline for a while, won't go into details but I've been very nervous around taking pills since.
Mark you’ve been in my thoughts - it takes a while for the meds to settle and that in between time is so hard !!! wishing you all the happiness and contentment you deserve 🥰
It sounds like a normal reaction of you having just started these new meds Mark. You will feel tired and spaced out for a while during this stage until your body and mind get you to a level where you can live without the panic and dread. Unfortunately it does take time and ultimately these particular meds made turn out to not be the ones for you and you may need to try another as I did. When you feel sleepy have a nap and hopefully switch off for a while or take a dip in your hot tub while listening to the radio or contemplating a new garden project. Be kind to yourself. I am sorry you got bad news today. I will be thinking if you and wish you the best of luck xx
Labels are for clothes! I’m sick of getting shunned. Mark you said how you wake up breathless, I wake up every morning with the feeling that I’m about to receive bad news were I actually throw up. My stomach is starting to rip with the muscles all tightening around my ab’s with me constantly throwing up with anxiety. I’m off the anti depressants totally l was on Sertraline 50mg like you now I’m off those completely & trying to sort myself out with CT. Everything will get better for you Mark & I used to feel like you & wondering how people viewed my & did I fit in?? Fit in to what I ask myself?? I’m choosing life and sending love light & prayers 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I'm on Sertraline I was worried as I'm anti drugs but apart from feeing sick in the mornings after 2 week I definitely felt better, I'm now been on them for 5 months and changed to taking them in the morning , it's helped and I'm beginning to feel in control so give it a chance Mark it's early days x
hi mark,im pauline,i have depression,severe anxiety thats kept me in my house for 30 plus years,i was really ill and had to go to the hospital last year,taxis cost me over a 1000,i cant be around lots of people,my doctor offered pills but i declined,i dont want them messing with my mind,my anxiety is loo relatated ,stomach pain and fear related. i cant go outside without them side effects. its crippling and effects my mind and myself daily. i wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. i hope you get some release from your illness and i hope you feel better soon . regards pauline, a long time watcher and friend
Mark my daughter could never get on with them she used to say the same sort of symptons like you plus shaking she had shaky trembling hands all the time ,tried a couple of different types that the gp.prescribed but eventually could not get on with feeling so not herself, turned to counselling and meditation and relaxation type of therapy. Wish you all the best.
You used the word "labyrinthian" in a sentence, so I think your ability to articulate is still on point! Give the meds a chance to maintain, but keep in contact with your doctor if things are too off for you. Like I said in an earlier comment, the dose might simply need to be adjusted. Sending love & hugs over to ya! xx (PS -- I want your little Gizmo you have sitting back there on the shelf. SO cute!)
Mark, it's very early days yet so take each day at a time, they do take a good couple of weeks to kick in properly. No embarrassment whatsoever, been on a mild dose for years and haven't looked back. Thanks so much for sharing. Take care.
Mark, you do give yourself such a hard time? You need to give yourself time to adjust to these meds. As others have already suggested, some time away would be good, a retreat, a CBT retreat, as you need to get back in to that. Take more time for yourself and look after yourself more, you are eating healthier and exercising, but you also need earlier nights and time out for you. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your thoughts xx 💜
You may feel a little removed, however I have watched the you tube videos for around a year now and you are as incredible articulate as ever. I describe my anxiety when bad as a rollercoaster 🎢 and with sertraline more like a slow train 🚝 that occasionally nearly details but manages to stay on track with help from my family. How about that for an analogy 🤣 the brain / mind is so complex and is affected by its experiences and what it’s exposed to from conception into childhood to being an adult. Not much of which is under our control. We just have to deal with the after effects by learning how to deal with it, being kind to ourselves, not having to be perfect 100% of the time and it’s ok to have an off day. It’s normal sometimes to want your own space. down time calms the mind, slows the palpitations and eases the stressful anxious pit of your stomach type feeling. 😘
I am on trazadone 150mg and I have really bad anxiety but it's down to my health and also had binge eating disorder I got therapy for the eating disorder, but my anxiety is around death and there being something wrong with me. I am all about mindfulness and also self esteem and got therapy for those but that health anxiety is still got a grip on me, i do go for cbt classes but they wanted to discharge me 2 weeks into it because i was having a good week, every week is different so how can they just discharge you because you had a good week? it's so frustrating.
Mark, I haven’t watched all of this vlog yet but didn’t your GP explain to you that your anxiety is likely to worsen and side effects such as nausea, dizziness, yawning/drowsiness, insomnia, restlessness etc are extremely common in the first few weeks? I’m surprised they didn’t warn you because it can be really awful. I’ve take Sertraline for extended periods of time a few times over many years - trust me, the first couple of weeks you will feel wretched but it’s just the hormones levelling out. Just try to ride it out and I promise you, you will come out the other side feeling yourself again (obviously I know everyone reacts differently but I have a lot of friends and family who have also taken them and their experiences are generally the same). I promise, you won’t feel this uncomfortable for too long. Hang in there. All the best, Laura
Aaah Mark, I realise it’s tough going back on meds, however I believe you’re over-thinking how you’re feeling on them. A lot of what you describe is what I feel anyway when I relapse into bad depression/anxiety. It really interferes with what you perceive to be ‘real’ and’ legitimate’ feelings. I also know from over 25 years of nursing that people struggle just the same with taking medication for physical illnesses and with their body, physically, failing. Many people try to do without their meds, sometimes with fatal or life-threatening consequences. We all want to be invincible and perfect and brave and strong! We’re not. Physical or mental (often both) illnesses get in the way. I’ve heard an awful thing tonight, a 37 year old mother of a 10 month old baby has committed suicide in our local area. I was friends with her sister in school. I know mental health help of any kind in our area is appalling at present. I thank god I had my last bad dip 2 yeas ago, it wasn’t quite as bad then!! Stick with everything you’re doing Mark, your really doing your best with everything. You know it doesn’t last this bad for ever, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will feel better than you do now. Lots of love XXX
People look at me, I look fine, I look at you, you look fine, no one can see the struggle we have going on inside x
so true
Totally agree Allison. Xx
What a fantastic video. Fantastic to see a man speak publicly about mental health. So refreshing and helpful. Thanks.
Mark: You are indeed a beautiful person. You are amazing with words. There are so many people that you have never met who really care about you. We all want you to feel good and be happy. Sending you a massive hug and lots of love. 💖
My husband started on these tablets about 6months ago. The Gp increased his dosage gradually and he now takes 150mg per day and feels so much happier.He is able to handle life’s ups and downs a lot better. It did take 4-6 weeks for them to take effect and for him to get used to them. Stick with them Mark 😊
I was on Sertraline 20 mgs for a month, made me very ill, shaky, sickness, the runs, palpitations, dizzy..very unwell, my doctor wanted to up my dose but I said no, please put me on something else? he then tried me on Amitriptyline 25mg, to be taken at night, 3 months later I am feeling much better, the only side effect is a dry mouth and doing and feeling much better. Hope you feel better on Sertraline day by day and they work for you Mark, different strokes for different folks so they say. Lots of love to you all xxxx
I think you’re still sounding bloody articulate. My thought on this is to take it one day at a time, see how you get on and be kind to yourself. As you said, this is just part of the journey. You’re in observation mode. The dizziness and feeling of being slightly removed from stuff must be a bit unnerving, but will hopefully pass. Cheering you on. Sorry for the bad news in your family ❤️
Mark, I just want to hug you. Sending you and your wonderful family so much love.
This is soo good and cathartic, I can see you look tired.. give yourself some time and keep updating us. We don’t judge. Big hug lovely Mark xxx
My husband is on sertraline 100mg and I am on citalopram.
It will take a good few months before you start to really really tell the difference, but it won’t be a lightbulb moment.
The first few weeks of side effects are the worst, the spaced outness, dizziness will eventually go.
The bit where you say your heart and body are still reacting in the same way to anxiety, but your head is watching from the sidelines, that will all connect. Your head watching from the sidelines will invite the other parts of your body to join it. You will have more clarity, but less reactive responses. You will have time and space to evaluate before going in to fight or flight. It won’t feel so chaotic.
It will eventually become your ‘normal’.... but here’s the thing as you were saying we become addicted to the hits of adrenaline, hits of anxiety, hits of total meltdown, terror, chaos.... but however addictive them hits are, they are also bloody exhausting and not at all good for us. So at first you may feel like everything that’s familiar to you is being masked, it might make you uneasy because you’re not being the real you.... but the ‘real’ you that you have become accustomed to is not very well.... the you that you become on the medication is still you, but a slightly clearer, less chaotic whirling dervish.... a calmer more clarified version.
Please please stick with it. The tablets are not a cure, they are an aid. Talking, exercise, fuelling your body well-it all goes together.
When you say you wish you could go and eat all of the things you listed..... why not give yourself permission to have some of it, give your self permission mindfully instead of blindly, panicked like you’re doing something wrong...... I bet if you did it that way you wouldn’t actually eat 18packets of biscuits a box of pringles and a partridge in a pear tree! I bet you’d come to the realisation that 4 biscuits and a handful of pringles was actually very lovely and thank yourself for the permission to enjoy them.
Don’t be too hard on yourself Mark. You’re doing fantastically. Thankyou for sharing all that you do..... sharing your journey with sobriety has helped me more than you will ever know.xxxx
You are a remarkable Man Mark... to stay soba and love and provide for a lovely Family .. remember to always remember that you bring so much comfort to those who Seek it .. Hats of lovely Man x
I’ve actually just came off these, after a slow decrease with advice from my GP. I found these, in conjunction with Cognitive-Behavioural Therapy helped a lot. I was absolutely crippled with anxiety. My biggest thing was completely catastrophising everything. It affected every single aspect of my life... Until these, and the therapy worked. There was a side effect in that I gained approximately 2 stone in weight, due to the Sertriline giving me an increased appetite (especially for sweet, sugary foods). I’ve been able to shift some of the weight after coming off them, with a healthy diet and generally moving more and being more active. I really do hope these work for you and will continue to follow your progress with them. 🙏✌️👍
Weird these make me feel v anxious v sick and v shut down plus my body twitches horrible
@@deerheart87 Oh dear. This doesn't sound right at all. If I were you, I'd be contacting the GP. Hope you're feeling well again soon. Please let me know how you progress? Take care.
@@WillC1528 I can’t stand anti depressants I came off of these the drs never help they are rubbish but I’m very anti depressants
It is so rare for someone to have this much integrity, emotional intelligence and eloquence. Your subs are very, very lucky to have you in their lives. Particularly people who are living with mental health issues. My daughter has OCD. You're right about the science of mental health, it is actually a habit. Controversial, but true. The Linden Method is particularly good at explaining this. Thank you again, Mark. Xx
Mark, have you thought about taking some time out? Have a bit of you time, indulge yourself, go away for a week/end retreat and immerse yourself in whatever you feel like doing when you wake up. Don’t make plans just head off and rest
I've been on most antidepressants since I was 15 for social anxieties they all seem to make u feel exactly as you described for a while. Can't say any helped me much and I ended up agraphobic from the age 18 -22 not leaving my home apart from Drs apps. I then forced myself to group therapy for 12 weeks 5 days a week as a social phobic and agraphobic . Hardest thing I ever did I spend days/weeks in a constant panic attack. After that I forced myself to do volunteer work and from that got a job and my life changed. I always struggled with certain situations but overall I coped. 5 years later I developed a physical illness and I my life fell apart I'm now housebound through a physical illness. Doing the best I can to find treatment so I can get my life back again. Mental health or physical health it's the same thing our brain is part of our body. It all needs help sometimes no shame in it and I think it's rare a person can go their whole life without needing help for one or the other or both.
You have to work out what suits you,you are brìlliant talking about it dont under estimate yourself Mark
Mark ,i hope it`ll also continue to help you by talking about what`s happening.I think you have such a lovely group (large:) of subs here ,and they all genuinely care about you guys and one another.As someone who suffers more with severe anxiety/stress 24/7 ,and whose been on various meds ,it does take a while to feel somewhat lighter hearted ,and not so worried.I found taking them at night was better ,due to the chronic morning sickness type of nausea i`d get from them.I also found my dire sleep pattern was a little better ,hoping that continues!! Please take care of you ,and speak to your primary dr if you feel you need extra help in any way.If you`ve got a good gp ,they`ll know.Thanks for sharing ,it truly makes those of us who do have issues feel less isolated.Xx
Thanks for sharing, I’m sure this will help lots of people who feel alone in their anxiety/depression journey. My son suffers badly, meds’ haven’t helped, he hasn’t worked for nearly two years now because of this which also causes him anxiety through guilt. He has a young family too. Hope things improve for you x
I hope things get better for your Son Allison x
clair berkon thank you x
Sandra Lupson xx
Mark this is so honest. You really share your feelings well. You are going to be helping so many people by being so open. Like Nadia always says you under estimate how amazing you are.
Its also great to see how you have such a lovely relationship with Nanny Di now. Very healing for you to be so forgiving of the past. Its all amazing to watch. Love all your content of a lovely family as crazy as mine x
Fair play to you Mark for being so candid. Thank you.
I am so proud of you Mark to speak out the way you do. You will help a huge number of people ❤️
That medication takes a while to fully kick in. You’ve got to give it time to do its thing. My daughter is on it . She has severe social anxiety and ocd. She is calmer since being on it but still finds it impossible to leave the house. I am also on medication for depression. I find it has helped a lot . I can deal with far more without going to pieces. Love all your videos. Love all your family. Keep doing what your doing , plodding on and hopefully the medication will start to make a difference soon 💊❤️
Mark. Just went through your responders & it seems they’re 99 percent female. Why don’t we blokes engage with this stuff? Thanks, you’re a pioneer for blokes who want to talk it out. I have a few family members who suffer similarly & I definitely talk & listen with them. Thanks Mark, for your guts. Aussie Bob X
Hi Mark. I just want to say thank you for these videos, my 18 year old daughter has also been taking these for about a week and its nice to understand a little of what she may be feeling. I just hope they bring my lovely daughter back to her happiness and you. Take care Xx
Mark, You are totally in control because you are trying to sort out your depression/Low moods, etc quickly and that takes a lot of strength in the 1st place.You are doing well and it will get much more better.Keep strong x
I watch your vlogs and I am willing myself to get help 😢. I live in a world that I don’t want to be in. I care for my partner who has a progressive illness and each day is a challenge and battle for me to stay in control. I spend every night being his voice because he can’t call out for help. I neglect myself and my own needs and often sit in the bathroom sobbing and screaming where no one can hear me. I make sure everyone is “ok” because making people happy helps me. I often think do I want to not have the good and bad feelings I have right now if I take antidepressants?? I don’t expect anyone to respond - I just wanted to write stuff somewhere that I’m not going to upset anyone and have to make a decision. Mark you rock and your family are wonderful - thank you from the bottom of my heart for being honest and maybe one day I may feel ready to deal with all this 🤗😘
Mark thank you for this, your right we all suffer in one form or another at times with mental health. Mine is over analysing, over thinking and anxiety in varying levels. The meds your on will numb things, like someone holding onto your shirt when you are trying to pull free and run, it’s to slow you down, slow the thoughts and physical responses to a 33 and a third record speed from a 78. This journey your on with these meds will be a big help to a lot of people, there is still not enough resources for mental health, raising awareness like you are is indeed a much needed platform. Love your room btw, it’s like a womb of all things interesting 👍💕
Thank you so much for this Mark. I have been an anxious soul my whole life, finally masking it/trying to cope by drinking too much ie a bottle of wine a night. Maybe not a lot compared to some, but it was too much for me. I stopped drinking a year ago, then the anxiety became terrible and depression also set in. I went on Fluoxetine (prozac) and have been on it for 5 months now. You describe EXACTLY how it felt. I had a really productive happy few months but now I feel like I am going down again... I am going back to Dr to see if I need to up the dose or whatever.. That description of the black hole with a fire coming out was perfect! Please please keep a journal of how you are feeling - you have a book in there for sure! Sorry to hear you have had some bad news and I hope you spend some peaceful quality time with your lovely girls. Sheelagh x
Great video Mark, love you talking about this stuff. It must be helping you to talk about what's in your head. I have almost done my first month on citalopram and I watched a previous video where you said you'd taken it and felt great the first few weeks, which is how I think at the moment, I am enjoying the changes with the medication, just hoping it doesn't wear off like you mentioned. I guess all the tablets do is help about 10 % and the other 90 is what you do to help yourself. The I think I rather look at it as 50/50 seems less intimidating 😂 hope you start to feel better on the setraline soon. It's all trial and error. I never coped well on it on the past with the symptoms you've been explaining so I then moved to fluoxetine which wasn't so bad. Just throwing another name in case you feel you want to try something else but hopefully you start to feel like they are helping soon. Take care
My therapist taught me to accept my anxiety and invite it in for a very short while, but tell it it’s not staying. Once I did that I noticed it stopped being a problem. It is difficult, but it does work. Life is so hard. They say creative people think too much. Good luck Mark! Xxx
Hi Mark, I've been on Sertraline 50mg for 9 years now (I did go up to 100 when I had a bit of a breakdown a couple of years ago but I weaned myself back down to 50). I remember when I first started them I felt just like you, spaced out, the 'blur' sensation when you move your head, the out of body feeling and of course the heightened anxiety. Your subs are right, it will settle down after a few weeks, but not nice to deal with in the meantime. The best advice I can offer is to take one day (even one hour) at a time, and try not to think too far forward about if it will work or how you'll feel next week, etc. I find Sertraline makes me feel numb: I don't feel horrendously low but I don't get feelings of excitement and joy either- I don't know whether that's a good or bad thing, but it's infinitely better than how I felt before. I take Sertraline just before bed because I also felt sick and nauseous with it at first (which is counter-intuitive seeing as I was taking them for Emetophobia!) so I'd recommend that if you're finding your day is overtaken with weird feelings, take them at night. It will probably give you the freakiest dreams (myself and my sister who's also on the drug refer to them as Sertraline Dreams) but for me, I'd rather have a weird dream than feel like shit all day. I hope that some of this helps, but the biggest thing for me is the taking one day at a time thing. Get through the day hour by hour if you need to. Concentrate on what's happening right now. It might be different for you as I know how busy you are, but I remember giving myself one small goal per day- as small as having to nip to the shop for some batteries- and once I'd achieved that, I put no other pressure on myself for that day. It helped having one thing to focus on rather than the plethora of crap I had going round in my head. Also, you talked about blaming things on outside forces and passing the buck so to speak. One of the best pieces of advice I've been given is that it doesn't matter what happens to you in life, however bad, it's how you deal with it. Even if you can't control what has happened, you control your response to it. You know how there's some people with cancer who are incredibly positive and upbeat, but others with flu who feel so sorry for themselves and over dramatise how bad it is and how awful they're feeling. The language you use in your speech and thoughts is really important because it sets the tone for how your body reacts (if you describe in huge dramatic detail how awful something feels, your body can respond with physical pain or discomfort). I'm probably going off on a tangent here but I'd recommend reading the Thrive Program by Rob Kelly. It's the ONLY thing I've found that helps me (and I've tried a LOT of things), because it deconstructs all these complex webs of thought processes we have and explains them in basic, non-psychobabble terms that you think, 'huh, yeah that makes sense'.
Hi Just wanted to say thank you for putting out so much footage recently. I'm beginning to get into producing so sort of have an idea of how much work you're putting in. Currently I'm suffering from some anticipation anxiety and minor depression which I have never experienced or possibly acknowledged before. But every time I go online I see you've uploaded some ginormous 50 min video which I inevitably enjoy so much. So just want to say a HUGE THANK YOU as your family videos are helping me take my mind off it. X
Interesting insight into how your feeling mark your so inspirational and amazing helping alot of people out there suffering too hugs and love
God Bless you Mark. I've been poorly since I was 13 years of age. Ar 18 years I had a massive breakdown. I was hospitalised too. It's been a long road for me. I'm 53 now and every day is a day that I'm grateful for. God only gives us what we can cope with. You will learn to cope, depression anxiety call it what you will. It's our makeup, its who n what we we are. Bless you my lovely. Your a lovely Guy. Stand tall my friend. Xxxx
Mark you are amazing ! Just had a bit of a rollercoaster emotional time , you have made me feel we are not alone. Thank you for such an open minded chat ,you don't know how much you help others cope. Hope your meds make you feel more comfortable very soon. 💓
Hi yay 1st to comment and view Mark your not alone, mental health is not to be ashamed of. You allowing your subscribers into your journey is to be commended. In our prayers 🙏
DEAR MARK, thank you for sharing, listening to you makes me feel that I am not alone in my struggle. I am on Citalopram but feel like they are no longer working. I am feeling worse than I felt before I started using them. Most times if feels like my mind is like a war zone and it's hard to explain to some friends who just don't understand mental health issues. I am however, going to make an appointment with my GP to discuss how I feel and see what they suggest. You are STILL very articulate, but as you said your eyes seem a bit glazed and your eyelids look heavy. I sincerely hope each day gets better for you and you start to feel better within yourself soon. You are such a lovely, kind sweet man. Please take care.
Oh you are a lovely man. I hope you can find some peace.
I think you are doing well . My daughter took them and she loved them , they really helped her . You are looking chilled out and less fraught and manic .
I think your amazing for talking about your mental health struggles .I have found since I had a total thyroidectomy my mental health has gone down hill also menopause doesn't help the situation sometimes I couldn't go out the door but now two years on I'm working I'm on antidepressants and I feel fine I still have a moment every now and then when I feel like things are out of my control but I'm getting there .
Thank you so much for sharing this Mark. It gives me (and I’m sure many people) a great deal of strength to know we are not alone in these mental health struggles. I’m so very grateful to you.
Would still recommend getting Vit D and B12 levels checked, as they relate to low mood etc. Talking to someone objective is also so valuable, maybe another therapist. Appreciate your honesty here.
Hello Mark, thank you for your update. I have suffered with mental health issues for 22 years and have found in the last 1year since being put on pregabelin my mind is just been numbed. My thoughts hazy and I just plod along in a feeling of clouds in my head blocking my clear thinking and almost all emotions I have suppressed. I don't know if that's better than living with the crazy in my head or not. Good luck, please keep us updated on how you are doing. X
Sounding very articulate to me - hope they give you the shift you need. I have taken these and found they worked quite quickly. 👍Thanks for sharing Mark.
Oh bless, I won't be of much help at the mo as I'm not in a good place in my head..The only thing I can say is you're still very articulate, I can relate & understand to what you're saying..Give the meds time as your body should get used to them after a month..If you or Nads & the girls notice any side effects or strange behaviour please see your doctor straight away!..Sorry about the family member..Sending you all much love & big brummie hugs Mark 😔🤘❤🕊🇬🇧xxx
I'm so sorry to hear a extended family member is going through this 🙁 The mine field of antidepressants, not all antidepressants work for everyone and can make you feel worse at the beginning, I would urge anyone to talk to their doctor if you feel they are not helping or making you a lot worse. I have managed a few years without taking them now, but tomorrow I am taking my son to football & my anxiety is through the roof just from the thought of driving somewhere new and my social anxiety 🙁🤦♀️
Mark you are so open and brave. I hope you understand how you help others and for people with anxieties and mental health issues to talk to someone. I have had various anxieties since I was 13 and I am 50 now. I try and keep a lid on it!! Sorry to waffle but you are doing great and tablets take time and I would take it at night, as it's affecting your day. Sending love. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for speaking so openly and eloquently, there just aren't enough people talking about their mental health. I've been on so many different antidepressants and anti anxiety medications and my body just doesn't respond well to them, I seem to get most of the side effects which is a nightmare and makes me feel worse. I have agoraphobia with panic disorder and the only things that help are exercise, meditation, cbt and eating healthy. Hope you start to feel better on the medication and I hope your Anxiety gets better. ❤️
Mark you are fab. Can take several weeks for body to adjust. I think your candid approach is priceless for your subs. Thank you for this. X
Look after yourself Mark, hope you feel better. You’re such a lovely man! Lotsa ❤️😘
I have experienced stuff that has led to "circumstantial" depression. This has led to me taking the same medication as you. I am so sorry that you have yo live with depression on a daily basis. I am sending you a your family hugs. So comforting to hear your experiences and its inspiring how you are almost visually journaling it. Really helpful for me.
Hugs 🙂🙏
I was on Sertraline and had the symptoms of dizziness and nausea when I first started them. Hang in there as they went away after about a week and I found them far better than citalopram. The side effects are just your brain adjusting to the drug
No Mark don’t think you are going on ,as you put it .we can appreciate what you are saying ,it all makes sense ...tell us Mark ,do you really know how much we your subs love you ❤️
Dear Mark..... A very good friend used to say to me “Give it a week”, when I wanted something to resolve, give me an answer, settle to my satisfaction etc. The ‘week’ he referred to wasn’t necessarily going to be 7 days....the week would be as long as it needed to be. You’re as articulate as ever, so be reassured. Take care, go with it and give it a week x
I've suffered with depression for over 20 years and when I was told I'd need to see a psychiatrist, I felt embarrassed. I quickly came to realise that I shouldn't - I have an illness that is not my fault. I've been on citalopram for 10 years and they keep me on an even keel. I still have the odd bad day but it's very rare. Hang in there Mark, you'll get there. Your wonderful family are there for you xx
OCD is debilitating. It’s for me a lot of mental ruminating and rituals in my mind. Unseen to others, recalling events over and over. Like you I’ve also been on Citalapram and Sertraline. I keep getting ‘brain zaps’ for me eating well, drinking water, being outside at least once a day, enough sleep and a little mindfulness (art, gardening, yoga) does help. I see it for me as a Chronic condition I have to learn to live with. It’s so so hard. Best wishes to you x
My Dr told me it takes 4 to 6 weeks to get in your system and the brain fog is real, I’ve suffer with brain fog and I’ve had to have mine upped so feeling overly anxious and exhausted, so just got to be patient but it is hard as you want them to kick in quicker. Keep going Mark you’ll been fine. Your mental health chat the other day made me go to the Drs as I’d been feeling unwell due to my depression and anxiety and this is why my meds have now been upped as they had to be, so thanks again. X
I think you're so brave for sharing your mental health issues. There's always an element of shame and failure which those suffering from mental health problems feel at some point. However one of the worse things for me is that people who don't have these difficulties make me feel that I'm "less than" them. Even though mental health conversations are more prevalent in the media, society aren't completely on board yet. Old stigmas are still there. So thank you for producing these videos which do help people.
Mark have you ever tried St Johns Wort for your depression and anxiety? I was on anti depressants after the death of my parents who passed away 4 days apart. I now take St Johns Wort everyday and it does help. I feel for you, and completely understand the lack of enthusiasm, sadness, alienation and loneliness you feel. For me, I pull away from friends and loved ones solely because I dont feel like myself, I dont want to burden them with my sadness. I was always the fun one, the adventurous one, the life of the party. Now, I just have no zest for life anymore. I purchased a gym membership with hopes of increasing my seratonin levels, so I will see how that goes. My partner thinks I should just snap out of it, he has no compassion or understanding of depression. I feel better when he's not around, only because I dont have to fake how Im truly feeling. He is from the Middle East, Syria. He often tells me that people from colder climates (im Canadian) are so much more emotional and depressed due to our climate, do you think thats a thing? I dont know, but I truly adore your honesty and updates on all you are doing to better yourself, truly inspirational. Thank you for your strength and perseverance, it has motivated me to do the same, Im tired of feeling like this and only I can change it, and NOW is the time, no more excuses no matter how hard it is, no more
Lola Mar
Your story is so similar to mine , hope things get better for you ❤️
@@AliP23236 Im sorry you are going through it as well, it can be so debilitating. I am here for you if you ever need someone to lean on,chat with, vent too... ANYTHING. Hugs xo
Lola Mar
Thanks Lola ❤️ here for you too xx
First 2 weeks are always the worst, it takes 2 weeks for them to get into your system. X
I feel the exact same, been watching this channel for a while now and it always makes me feel better, wouldn't wish depression even on my worse enemy.
I take citalopram and take it at night to avoid that weird spaced out feeling that I get. Sleep has always been an issue with me but after a few months on these I sleep so much better. Its still early days and you need to give it time to work, definitely a few weeks. And you are still very articulate xx
Mark I've been on pills since 2007 .. struggled from 2005 after giving Birth to My Daughter.. Thank you for showing it's nothing to be Ashamed of although it's a Tough Journey 😘 sertraline a Tough cookie .. make sure u on correct meds xx
Its almost like your over thinking!!! things and over complicating things, you are a clever, sharp, creative person and sometimes that can be its own cross to bear i guess, whatever way it has to be good you can talk about it because that must be a good release, hope it all works out for you buddy
My husband takes setraline, he's on 150 mg a day as he suffers from depression and PTSD. He finds that the medication does make his responses slower, dulls the brain a little and levels him out. He doesn't get the highs and lows he used to but most importantly he doesn't get the lows.He's much steadier than he was emotionally. He had the panic attacks, not being able to sleep at night, nightmares and aggression. It did take a few weeks, he wasn't even sure if they would work but his quality of life is better. He's and HGV driver and he still manages to work on them. A lot of his depression is related to childhood issues which I'm sure a lot of people have. Anything new is bound to feel odd at first, but I hope this medication works for you as it has done for my hubby. The brain has to make some adaptations to this new drug it's having to encounter.
Mark you are helping so many people in their own mental struggles...
You have sought and accepted help and support. And as you mention learnt how to manage the flames. Perhaps this for now is the best you can do. My sister was fine for 40 odd years and then black dog arrived. Now she copes only now with her merry go round of different pills and her kind doctor. She Has finally accepted she will need medication for life. It’s sad feeling helpless and seeing loved ones at low ebb. So keep looking after yourself as you are trying. Hope you enjoy your weekend. I think you are you great and wish I could help fix you and my Sis.
Thank you for sharing Mark a detailed narrative of your mental health experience you soon will feel much better x hugs x
Mark your so brave sending you lots off love . Hope the dizziness settles down . I’ve been watching you and Nadia since January . Love all the vlogs. Maddie and Kiki are lovely girls . Your vlogs have given me the will too keep going when I’m down . I’m trying St. John warts for low mood it’s so bludy hard did dry January with Nadia and haven’t had a drink since .. Thanks for sharing your journey with us Mark . Your helping lots off people lv too you all xx Mary 💙
You are such a wonderful man Mark.
I wish you all the best. Take each day at a time, and try not to over think things! You will come through this. Look after yourself with the help from your amazing family. 💕
OCD can also be your thoughts. Lots of people with anxiety and/or depression have obsessive and/or compulsive thoughts. Maybe that 's what you're experiencing. Your self talk may be over active and constant. That will wear you out and cause you great anxiety and cause you to overthink whether the medication is working or not. Most doctors say to give it 4 to 6 weeks so it can even out and you can get a better picture of whether they're working or not.Maybe you could try skyping with a therapist. That might fit you better than sitting in there office. It's more relaxing in your own atmosphere. Keep trucking on and don't give up. You really are doing better than you think.
One day at a time. My experience A-Ds only part of the answer, need the other stuff, therapy, support, exercise, diet, meditation, mindfulness etc. Please keep us posted.
Mark. You take the time throughout your struggles to reach out to others. I think you are a hero. Sending you lots of love.xx
Well done Mark. You express your thought so beautifully, which I am sure are a great help for people suffering in the same way. x
You LOOK like you're doing a LOT better than I felt when I was on sertraline. Only you can decide whether they are working for you or against you. Give it time. If you're still getting up and exercising and feeling less chippy, then that's mostly good. All tablets have this nasty adjustment period, and I hope you begin to feel better soon x
You are such a sweetheart x.
I'm alternative and belong to a growing group of people that see the body as a biosphere. We ( society ) have come to believe that "pills" are the solution when actually the body wants to self regulate and is attempting to self regulate at every second. If you stand back and think about pharmaceuticals and that we place something external in our bodies, and every brain/mind is unique, but we expect the same result??
As a child of acute trauma and have struggled with suicide I have never taken meducation but have come to u understand that the synapses can self regulate if you give them the correct environment.
Just as food and fitness training gets the body fit. Creating the correct environment a life that aligns with you then allows the mind to regulate.
Many people have found that perfect nutrition as in minerals and trace minerals, the removal of metal tooth fillings and having natural regulators such as ashwaghanda and maca and mushroom adaptations ( teas/drinks) work miracles. Some peoples depression has gone overnight with metal tooth fillings removed. Also hemp CBD oil or vapours etc are incredible . Rodiola which you can buy from any good health shop is a natural calmer without drowsiness.
If you really want to research alternative therapies there has been massive positive results on micro dosage of mycelium. This is a psychedelic "drug" promoted by Terrance McKenna back in the day. Now Pauk Staments a respected mushroom expert mycoligist speaks eloquently and at length about the fascinating intelligence of mushrooms and the numerous health benefits. You may find this interesting but mushrooms have redesigned the Tokyo underground. True! And their chemical construct is found in about 90% of the fabric of our bodies and planet.
There is serious medical research is being carried out with psychedelics called "Saving lives with micro dosing with psychedelics" video on utube They regulate the synapses naturally.
For anyone that's wants to post I cant say this. Yes I can. Adults are free to research any area correct for them and consult a doctor first before changing their medication.
Excellent advice here! I definitely think Mark should give cbd oil a try x
Thank you sooo much for talking about this. I know that you are not looking for this, but I think you are amazing for talking about your issues. Bless and loads of hugs!!!
That fire analogy is so useful, thank you so much for sharing.
hope your feeling better soon mark your such a lovely guy and you have a beautiful family xx
Great Video my sister goes through the mood swings & has been on different meds so can understand!!!
Mark you are amazing how you can articulate your feelings through your struggle a brilliant mind in so many ways, move over Stephen Hawking idea for a movie.The meds are giving you sugar cravings fight them it may give you something to focus on through the fog. You have pointed out the up side of feeling calmer with other people’s personalities not irritating you.
Thank you Mark you have truly helped me understand a little of how my husband must feel on a daily basis we irritate him as much as he irritates our adult kids and myself...
Interestingly, some scientists think that the reason antidepressants take a few weeks to actually work is began they allow your brain to grow new neurons which appear to help lessen depression symptoms alongside therapy. Until this happens however, meds do feel very much like any other drug one used to patch up their issues with and if they aren't right for you it kinda makes things worse.
I was on setraline for a while, won't go into details but I've been very nervous around taking pills since.
Mark you’ve been in my thoughts - it takes a while for the meds to settle and that in between time is so hard !!!
wishing you all the happiness and contentment you deserve 🥰
Lovely mark Love and blessing praying your health improves xxx
It sounds like a normal reaction of you having just started these new meds Mark. You will feel tired and spaced out for a while during this stage until your body and mind get you to a level where you can live without the panic and dread. Unfortunately it does take time and ultimately these particular meds made turn out to not be the ones for you and you may need to try another as I did. When you feel sleepy have a nap and hopefully switch off for a while or take a dip in your hot tub while listening to the radio or contemplating a new garden project. Be kind to yourself. I am sorry you got bad news today. I will be thinking if you and wish you the best of luck xx
Labels are for clothes! I’m sick of getting shunned. Mark you said how you wake up breathless, I wake up every morning with the feeling that I’m about to receive bad news were I actually throw up. My stomach is starting to rip with the muscles all tightening around my ab’s with me constantly throwing up with anxiety. I’m off the anti depressants totally l was on Sertraline 50mg like you now I’m off those completely & trying to sort myself out with CT. Everything will get better for you Mark & I used to feel like you & wondering how people viewed my & did I fit in?? Fit in to what I ask myself?? I’m choosing life and sending love light & prayers 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I'm on Sertraline I was worried as I'm anti drugs but apart from feeing sick in the mornings after 2 week I definitely felt better, I'm now been on them for 5 months and changed to taking them in the morning , it's helped and I'm beginning to feel in control so give it a chance Mark it's early days x
Thank you mark share this video with us and you are a great role model and human being 🤴🤴🤴
hi mark,im pauline,i have depression,severe anxiety thats kept me in my house for 30 plus years,i was really ill and had to go to the hospital last year,taxis cost me over a 1000,i cant be around lots of people,my doctor offered pills but i declined,i dont want them messing with my mind,my anxiety is loo relatated ,stomach pain and fear related. i cant go outside without them side effects. its crippling and effects my mind and myself daily. i wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. i hope you get some release from your illness and i hope you feel better soon . regards pauline, a long time watcher and friend
Mark my daughter could never get on with them she used to say the same sort of symptons like you plus shaking she had shaky trembling hands all the time ,tried a couple of different types that the gp.prescribed but eventually could not get on with feeling so not herself, turned to counselling and meditation and relaxation type of therapy. Wish you all the best.
Love the fire analogy. That’s really relatable. Thanks 😊
You used the word "labyrinthian" in a sentence, so I think your ability to articulate is still on point! Give the meds a chance to maintain, but keep in contact with your doctor if things are too off for you. Like I said in an earlier comment, the dose might simply need to be adjusted. Sending love & hugs over to ya! xx (PS -- I want your little Gizmo you have sitting back there on the shelf. SO cute!)
You should be proud that you are opening up about this and well done for taking control 💪🏻
Mark, it's very early days yet so take each day at a time, they do take a good couple of weeks to kick in properly. No embarrassment whatsoever, been on a mild dose for years and haven't looked back. Thanks so much for sharing. Take care.
Mark, you do give yourself such a hard time? You need to give yourself time to adjust to these meds. As others have already suggested, some time away would be good, a retreat, a CBT retreat, as you need to get back in to that. Take more time for yourself and look after yourself more, you are eating healthier and exercising, but you also need earlier nights and time out for you. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your thoughts xx 💜
You may feel a little removed, however I have watched the you tube videos for around a year now and you are as incredible articulate as ever. I describe my anxiety when bad as a rollercoaster 🎢 and with sertraline more like a slow train 🚝 that occasionally nearly details but manages to stay on track with help from my family. How about that for an analogy 🤣 the brain / mind is so complex and is affected by its experiences and what it’s exposed to from conception into childhood to being an adult. Not much of which is under our control. We just have to deal with the after effects by learning how to deal with it, being kind to ourselves, not having to be perfect 100% of the time and it’s ok to have an off day. It’s normal sometimes to want your own space. down time calms the mind, slows the palpitations and eases the stressful anxious pit of your stomach type feeling. 😘
I am on trazadone 150mg and I have really bad anxiety but it's down to my health and also had binge eating disorder I got therapy for the eating disorder, but my anxiety is around death and there being something wrong with me. I am all about mindfulness and also self esteem and got therapy for those but that health anxiety is still got a grip on me, i do go for cbt classes but they wanted to discharge me 2 weeks into it because i was having a good week, every week is different so how can they just discharge you because you had a good week? it's so frustrating.
I hope you feel better soon..& things start too settle..
Mark you look so different I'm worried xx my life is OCD glad you understand the difference/wide range of OCD x much luv xx
Mark, I haven’t watched all of this vlog yet but didn’t your GP explain to you that your anxiety is likely to worsen and side effects such as nausea, dizziness, yawning/drowsiness, insomnia, restlessness etc are extremely common in the first few weeks? I’m surprised they didn’t warn you because it can be really awful. I’ve take Sertraline for extended periods of time a few times over many years - trust me, the first couple of weeks you will feel wretched but it’s just the hormones levelling out. Just try to ride it out and I promise you, you will come out the other side feeling yourself again (obviously I know everyone reacts differently but I have a lot of friends and family who have also taken them and their experiences are generally the same). I promise, you won’t feel this uncomfortable for too long. Hang in there. All the best, Laura
Aaah Mark, I realise it’s tough going back on meds, however I believe you’re over-thinking how you’re feeling on them. A lot of what you describe is what I feel anyway when I relapse into bad depression/anxiety. It really interferes with what you perceive to be ‘real’ and’ legitimate’ feelings. I also know from over 25 years of nursing that people struggle just the same with taking medication for physical illnesses and with their body, physically, failing. Many people try to do without their meds, sometimes with fatal or life-threatening consequences. We all want to be invincible and perfect and brave and strong! We’re not. Physical or mental (often both) illnesses get in the way. I’ve heard an awful thing tonight, a 37 year old mother of a 10 month old baby has committed suicide in our local area. I was friends with her sister in school. I know mental health help of any kind in our area is appalling at present. I thank god I had my last bad dip 2 yeas ago, it wasn’t quite as bad then!! Stick with everything you’re doing Mark, your really doing your best with everything. You know it doesn’t last this bad for ever, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will feel better than you do now. Lots of love XXX
Your such lovely man Mark love listening to you talk about things