I think it's totally normal to go in and out confidence wise. For me I had a month break because of lack of motivation and no confidence. Thank you for touching this topic Esme 💙💕
Exactly i just started doing jumps and I’ve done it for a year now but it doesn’t matter if you have the lack of confidence it’s ok to feel lack of confidence! :D
I quit riding because I lost all confidence. I looked back and thought, "there are so many people who want to ride and can't. Why am I going to quit something like that and that I have put so much work into? I didnt come the this far just to give up!' So I rejoined. Thank for reminding me that I am not the only one who goes the tough times in life. I love riding and the gentle Giants❤️💖
Awwwww that's amazing, well done for getting back into riding!! it can be hard sometimes and we all have times when we want to quit, i personally have mad many times when i want to quit ❤ Never give up something you love
I cannot tell you how much I appreciated hearing you speak about the way the equestrian world treats one another - truly, I needed this right now. I struggled with this myself lately - there was a moment where I thought about stopping my channel and I found myself thinking of you and thinking 'how does Esme cope with this?'. It is so nice to hear you speaking about this with your platform. Thank you Esme. You are inspiring and a credit to this community.
I can tell you Rhi that many people enjoy your down to earth, real life videos. Though I would totally understand if someone decided to stop creating youtube videos. Especially with the stressors of every day life and even more so with what you are going through with Woody. I will admit I check your channel often for any updates. Even just a grooming video would be fantastic. We love Woody! I hope he is doing well. Take care. Edit: you actually have a new update. Going to watch it now lol!
I’m 13 and I started riding lessons but after a few weeks while I still wasn’t very experienced it would be our first time cantering and my horse took off with me. I soon after got kicked out of lessons (it was a group lesson and the other girls were learning way faster than me, so the gal suggested me to another trainer who later ditched me). I just recently got on a horse for the first time in months. It felt great and I even cantered for the first time with no hassle. This video is great for me because I feel like no one ever talks about confidence and how scary it can be so thankyou.
I’m sorry this happened to you, it honestly broke my heart reading this. You need to look for different stables. Please go somewhere else where people are more understanding and nice towards all levels of riding. Try as many stables as you can. There will be one somewhere that you will feel like at home I promise ❤
You are so brave, you remember that about yourself. You got back up, you did not accept the crappy judgment of folk who have no business training if this is how they treated you, and, you said it out loud in a public forum. You go, little sister, you go !
@@Graces_Art I learned in Beau court, High cross in Wales and I learned to canter within a year before my friends learned of my illness and I’ve never came back. They’ve given me so much confidence over the past 5 years and their horses were slowly dying one year apart so i stopped it. It was heartbreaking selling my horse riding equipment
I fell off at a really big horse show and that made me lose a lot of my confidence and that video made me think a lot of equestrians lose there confidence so thank you so much esme your videos are always so happy, amazing and inspirational
So many pearls in this one, Esme! I’m in my 60’s now, and I can say that life is a cycle of ebb and flow, with no perfection in sight. I get better at appreciating both others’ achievements as well as my own with each passing year. No compliment you give is wasted, and you never know how much good it can do. Be generous with praise and kind with your words. There is my two cents! 💜
I recently had a bad fall, and a concussion and fractured arm later, I can't ride my horse for weeks, I'm nervous to get back on and scared that I'll lose my confidence yet again on her :( Knowing that so many other people, including you, lose your confidence sometimes, really encourages me to get back on with a bit more confidence than i thought I would, thank you Esme 💗
In 2017 i fell off and broke my arm and lost all feeling in my hands due to nerve damage… i started again in 2019 and now i am back riding horses that test me in ways i wouldve never expected them to. That one knock of confidence is why i am the rider today. Keep going and dont give up!
Hey im feeling with you! My 5yo Sparky and me had a rough start as well. We bought him last October, when he was 4.5. In January, he started to not turn right when i wanted him to. Later on, he just started stopping , bucking at my leg aids and going backwards. Turns out I was giving him the wrong aids. We changed the barn and at the new one, one girl helped us. I started getting confidence again. Then, my trainer fell down from him, he screwed from a horse coming the opposite direction, jumped to the side, and she couldnt hold herself. Ironically, even after that incidence, my confidence grew, because afterwards I got on him and he was very brave and tame. But recently, our saddle hasnt been fitting too well.. The saddleman never had any time, and now, he seems to have a bit of a back pain. The day before yesterday, once I was in the saddle, he immediately started bucking, I wanted to dismount but tripped and fell on my lower back and hurt it badly. Then my mum lunged him a bit, and afterwards she and a girl at the barn held him when i got on him again and they walked a bit alonside us for the first round in walk. He was nice and didnt try anything, but we noticed that when we wanted to pull the girth a bit tighter, he pushed away his back. We all agreed he was in some pain. When we pulled it loose again, he was normal again. I also managed to trot a bit. I am so shocked cause despite a minor bucking in transition from trot to canter, he was never a bucking horse. Despite that one time I remember, when I forgot to fasten the girth, the saddle fell on his shoulder, causing him to buck a bit. So hes definitely sensitive on his shoulders regarding the saddle! And the problem with the saddle now is the exact same: Its way to tight in the shoulder area, he already has some hardened muscles... Now im feeling bad but also anxious: Were getting the saddle fixed, but the saddleman only has time to show up next Wednesday... But I dont want to ride him until then, cause im scared another saddle will scare him as well... and obviously I cant use the old saddle any longer in its current state... But Im afraid that he might become naughty if we cant ride until next Saturday... Im so scared actually, and im sad because we just started gaining confidence again!
To be honest, this is something a true equestrian would show. Some “equestrians” always show the good side, and never their downside. Esme is showing us that it’s okay to be scared, hurt, devastated, but to dust yourself off and get back up❤️🩹💕✨
@@ankiariekert I cried when I found out my friends horse died during my 2023 illness and I was gutted that I couldn’t see him for the last time like I did with Honey. Another horse Bella bonded with me after Honeys death that we developed a close friendship almost. No other horses have died since Bobby in 2023
Thank you so much for this! After a nasty fall, I've been suffering real confidence issues, despite being riding for a long time (30+ years). It's great for all riders to know that this can happen...and for small reasons building up. I hope the equestrian community can become kinder, more tolerant and supportive. Thank you for bring a positive role model for young (and older!) riders ❤️🐴💕
That feeling of being alone with your fear was what held me back. My trainers didn't get it. I actually started a small support group for people that felt alone with their riding anxiety/fear. You are doing GREAT!
Confidence is something I also struggle with, I’ve always needed reassurance and tbh riding horses and the injuries can be very traumatic and it’s difficult to push yourself to get back on. And once you do it’s great!
I 100% understand losing confidence and dreading jumping. It's a terrible feeling and one that's hard to get over. Thank you for making this video and for putting it up, so many only post the perfect videos making it really hard for people who are having confidence blocks. This video helped me realize that we all go through ups and downs. Going back to basics was honestly the best thing I could have done with my horse, you don't realize it at the time, but it does help quite alot to get you going again as well as make the bond you have between you stronger. Thank you again for posting this, so many will benefit from watching, including myself😊
Thank you, Esme, this is an amazing video! Your honesty and maturity in producing it shines out. I started watching your channel because our daughter has a grey Connemara pony and originally it was your ' how I clean my pony' ones I watched. But I love that you talk about not having a flashy pony or being at the same level as your peers at Pony Club, as I saw how this impacted her as well. Everyone's equestrian journey IS individual and our horses and ponies bring their unique challenges and learning opportunities. Long may you continue to entertain, educate and encourage the viewers on your channel. 👍🏇🦄
Just wanted to congratulate you on an amazing vlog. Like you my family were not into horses and my first loan pony was a 11.2 pony with nock knees, but boy did i love him. We were laughed at,picked on but we did not care. He turned out to be the most honest, confidence giver and we grew together. Because of him my love of horses grew and grew. I am 61 now and still ride, you are such an inspection to younger riders. Don't ever change you are a lovley young lady xx
This was such a beautiful video Esme. As a mum of a 12 year old girl obsessed with your channel, you are an amazing person for her to watch and look up to. Thank you for being your true self. ❤️
before, i didnt think that i could love you more but now i realise that were so alike in what we think and if realised the more people with an image are true the more true friends they get xxxx love you and your equines. i watched you for ages and when you put the old clips in from your channel i realised how much you have changed to be more confident. i think thats because weve both gotten more confident as time goes on that we dont realise how far we have come. i love horses more than anything but i love the horses that other people stare at me with and judge even more 🥰
i’m so late! i’ve had many confidence drops before. you fall off, and your confidence just falls out of you…but, i always stay strong and continue riding. you all always such an inspiring person to watch. you are literally the best youtuber ever ❤️❤️
What a genuinely, lovely person you are Esme. When I was in school I had many friends and was rarely bullied. Unfortunately as an adult I was horribly bullied in a very toxic workplace environment. It took me years to recover from that. I also discovered very early on that horse shows were not for me because people became very uptight and sometimes mean. I just wanted to have fun but I just did not fit in. I enjoy your channel so much because you are mainly hanging out with your horses and thoroughly enjoying it. A little kindness goes a long way and you definitely are making a positive impact on many people . You deserve all the lovely experiences and meeting wonderful people because you work hard for it. xxoo
ok this really hit deep- also my friend just graduated from having someone help her with riding and she’s finally doing it all by herself now so give her a 👏
This was the most inspiring story/video I’ve seen in SUCH A LONG TIME. I am a very self doubting person, and I have always thought that I wasn’t good enough. This was so inspiring and made me feel so much stronger and energized to at least try again. This message was so important for everyone and it really shows that everyone feels uninspired at some point but the most important thing to do is “get back on that horse” whether that’s figuratively or literally. Thank you for having the confidence to share your story with us and it’s amazing to see you overcoming your struggles. Proud of you Esme!
@@ThisEsMe hi esme I’m watching this again as I have 10 horse and have just been chucked of my 17hand horse at cross country and I’m so scared to ride him again ❤❤❤
Dearest Esme, every single time I watch a video of yours, I marvel at how brave you are in all you do with your horses, especially Joey. Taking young, green horses out and about can be very challenging and you seem to have made sure you were very prepared. The setbacks you've had have been very valid reasons for feeling less than confident. You have done brilliantly to bring both Casper and Joey on, the way you have done. Im an old equestrian and had many scary moments and had to gather all the courage I had to persevere and continue riding and raising young horses. So, hats off to you young lady! You are a wonderful example to all the young equestrians looking to you for guidance and inspiration. Your honesty and integrity are so important in the career you have chosen. Well done and thank you for sharing this story with us all. Take care, happy trails!!!🤠❤❤❤❤❤🐎🐎🐎🐎
This truly showed my I'm not the only one that went through this and made me feel so supported and inspired. It even gave me confidence to continue my riding journey further. Love you Esme!!❤
He has changed so much, if I didn’t know who he was I wouldn’t recognise him! This video helps me a lot as I get very nervous when jumping even the smallest fences as my first jump I fell off and some of my recent jumps i nearly fall off but one of them I did fall, I have ridden since and I was fine but I’m still nervous. I love that you are honest to us all and help us through our tough riding times. 🐴🐴🐴
Thank you for making this, I broke my foot riding and smashed into a fence and after that I was just petrified and after watching this I felt better and built up the confidence and now I can officially call myself a “show jumper”
I have an 8 year old "problem" horse, got her when she was 4 and it has/still is a very hard journy. I have more than 1 time almost giving up on her, and lykkely havent. She is one of the best horses i'v had. No matter how many more times i gonna fall, i will never give op on the sweetest horse ever. We just have to be strong, and focus on the good things❤️
Esme, this couldn’t have come at a better time, I have been really struggling with my riding at the moment and honestly I don’t have any confidence but after watching this I genuinely feel I can face the challenges and overcome any barriers I face. Thank you so so much 💜💜
When you were talking about when you lost your confidence and had no videos to help you I could totally relate.I’ve lost my confidence numerous times all because I got dragged by a pony a couple years ago.I was very young and wasn’t the brave type.I eventually got through it by riding every lesson and hoping for a better one.Some people just need to find a way to go by loosing confidence and getting it back.Thank you esme I will use this video to help and I’m sure others will.
This is exactly what I needed! My confidence was knocked recently and I almost quit riding, but thankfully I got it back! I had no idea what was going on, and it's really nice to know that I'm not the only one that has struggled with this! :)
I've been riding for almost a year now and I've realized how many risks you take when you mount that horse. I am a super cautious person and I overthink everything I ever do. I really felt like, because of my confidence, I wouldn't be able to do the things that would get me to the next level. It's really amazing to hear that doubts and fears are genuinely apart of any sport that you love to do. Thank you for letting me know that I just need to believe and stop worrying about the future but just focus on the present 💜
Last summer, I had a fall at a show that I ended up in the ER. My confidence was shattered and I would cry every time I saw a jump in a lesson. To get my confidence back, I had to restart everything with jumping. I am happy to say my confidence is back. I am now training my 5-year-old ottb chestnut mare! 😁 I am more confident than I ever was and love my horse so much!! Thank you for sharing your story Esme! I definitely would have loved to watch this last summer!! 😘
I am a complete novice at riding,I ride once a week every summer, I still learn rising trot, but the horse I ride napps and spookes and last summer it shook me so bad, that I felt I was going backwards. Thank you, Esme, for being so open and supportive, and I know loads of people watch this but it feels like a personal chit-chat, so yeah, thank you
Don’t worry Esme, Push through because you’ve come so far, and carry on the family riding. I lost my confidence while cantering because my lesson horse is quite silly while going into canter, she does a little buck and does a really speedy canter. I didn’t give up and now I’m confident and jumping. Lots of love Xx ❤️
I honestly didn't realize how much I needed to hear what you had to say in this video. I recently got back into the horse world after loosing my forever horse. I bought a yearling at an auction and I've been doubting myself every step. The moment you said 'Am I allowed to own a horse this young?' I felt that in my SOUL. Thank you for sharing your journey and reminding us that we're not alone in our struggles. Side note - after having a few sessions with a trainer, my baby boy and I are doing great. All I needed was someone to remind me that I know what I'm doing lol
I love how you talk about your hard times with Casper, that’s how I feel about my current lease horse. They’re not bad, they just need to be shown that they can do it! And those horses are always the ones you end up loving the most! Also, love your channel ❤️
This is amazing. Such an inspirational video. I have no words. I can really take some advice from this in both riding and school. Thank you so much, this has given me more confidence!! xx
In 2020 I had a grand Mal seizure and wasn't able to ride for 6 months it took me 1 year to fully gain my confidence back and to prove that I could be safe around horses by myself. I just want you to know that no matter happens, you are the strongest and bravest equestrian I know and will and can get through anything love you!!!!
This video is truly inspiring to us all. It’s always hard to get back up once you fall but when you do, and you go over the jumps that you fell on last time, you feel amazing. Awesome video. Can’t wait for your next post!
Please continue being you.... ramble away, be passionate and confident, love your horses, love the people around you who support you and just be the ESME that we all have come to know! You are amazing and an inspiration! Thank you.
I have been through something like this too! I had a really bad fall off of a pony and I lost a ton of confidence. I found my heart horse now (Zack)🥰 and now I am all good! I really needed something like this to cheer me up. Thank you Esme.
A lot of people don’t understand when us horse riders become “Unconfident” but it happens but I have an important message for you Esme and that is you were the reason I started riding you were and still idol and many people look up to you you are very sweet, pretty and full of talent🐴
i broke my leg riding last year and havent been on a horse since then, this video really made me think and i really want to ride again! thank you for this❤️
This means a lot. My gelding is very spooky and he bolts across the arena a lot. It has really taken a toll on my confidence in riding and makes me feel really powerless. It helps so much just knowing I’m not alone in that feeling. Thank you Esme 🤍🤍🤍
One of my favorite videos of yours. I have a 13 year old equestrian daughter that can identify with your horse journey & bullying from school mates. She doesn’t come from a horse family either so we’re all learning together. Thank you for being a wonderful & realistic role model for her and others!!
Early, love you and your horses esme. Such a heartbreaking subject but know I’m here for you!! Your such an inspiration and an amazing person inside and out. Stay strong and keep your head held high. 😊💗
I ride a hot horse who is very smart and knows how to get away with anything and everything...I've been riding for nearly 12 years now and I've lost my confidence too many times to count so this really helped me with my confidence and so many other people will agree so thank you Esme 💞💞
Im older than your target audience but I really appreciated this video. I broke my collar bone when I fell of my mare after a few months of having her and then broke my back because a cat sneak upon us and I was scared for at least 5 years after that 😅😅 I’m getting back into riding like I used too You’re a really good role model for younger equestrians and your videos are top notch quality 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼
I recently fell off when the horse I was on spooked. And after that I got really nervous going around that part of the area and jumping high jumps aswell. So, this is exactly what I needed, thank you🐴❤
I’m glad you talked about being scared of teaching Joey the wrong thing because I feel like that is very overlooked. I have been working with a green rescue and I had to un tech him everything he has learned and was always been self conscious about teaching him the wrong thing again. No one really understood why I was scared about that but I’m glad someone else shared this fear.
I lost my confidence once after falling of really badly while cantering at a show and i did get back on the horse but i was super scared to go faster than walk . Luckily My instructor noticed immediately that i was very tense and swopped me over onto a horse that i never had ridden before , he was a 15 hand cob mix called Clyde , since then the only horse i ever ride is Clyde and he is amazing,not the easiest pony to ride ,constantly refusing at jumps, bucking and rearing , but somehow he has brought my confidence sky high,I love cantering on hacks and around the schools small cross country course , and I owe it all to my amazing instructor and Clyde . I love the video, most people avoid talking about this and i really appreciate that you talked about it i love your videos and you've have inspired me to keep on riding even in difficult times💖💖💖🐎🐴🏇🏻💕.
I’m 28 and been riding since I was 4, but never fully owned a horse or competed other than 1 in hand show with my friend’s pony. I related to all of this soooooo hard! Thank you for sharing your journey & struggles, it is so amazing to hear 💙 you do an amazing job with your boys
I think it’s super normal in all equestrians, thank you for making this video. This really helped me understand, you are not alone Esme! I have lost confidence to much in my riding and it’s super okay! I hope you are doing okay and please take care!💗💗 Love you!
This video is amazing esme! Showing others that everyone has a knock backs and it’s normal and even the best riders get nervous thank u for this video💕💜
Honestly it takes a lot to open up about these things and I wish I had this video after the passed three years I’ve had with my mare. From the time she turned five I can’t tell you how much I cried and I felt hugely damaged confidence wise. I nearly gave up so many times! At the end of last year she had three months off. Best thing I ever did for that horse. Wasn’t clipped or trimmed up, never got worked just fed and massive amounts of turn out. She’s come out this year a new horse that’s for sure…. She’s eight this year and things are starting to click hopefully for us. I rode her for six weeks six days a week at the start of this year! Never felt so confident in my life and now I can’t wait to go jumping and try XC with her! Even went to the beach with her on my own (with my dad on the ground) honestly you’re amazing and you’re doing so so well with Joey! You should definitely give yourself credit and a pat on the back because youngsters are HARD man! Honestly love how honest you are! Can’t wait to see your journey continue❤️
Keep on pushing through Esme! Your so amazing and have pushed me to work harder on my own riding! Your truly amazing and inspiring! Keep it up love you!!! 💗💗
I’m not an avid watcher of you but I clicked on this because I recently lost all my confidence with horses and now I’m slowly going back in. Cool to see other equestrians being open about how this sport can be really difficult.
I’ve been through this all too. You had Joey as a major cause of confidence loss and I had a very strong mare named Evita. She gave me a concussion, knocked me out, and bucked me off multiple times. She scared me so bad but, with a lot of help from my trainers, I was able to get back on and keep going. And 4 years later she is the horse I am most comfortable on, even more so than my heart horse! I trust her so much now because I know her, and she’s taught me how to ride ANYTHING.
I know how it feels I,ve only just started sitting on my lone pony, and it's been 3 years since the pony I was riding spooked and through me into a huge rock. Sometimes you just need to spend time with them like groom them and wash them and work your way up to sitting on them.
I was miss sold my first horse when I was 13. He had a lot of problems that completely knocked my confidence to the point I was shaking at the mounting block. I'm 16 now with the best pony I could ask for and finally gaining the confidence to jump again. Thank you for reminding Everybody that ups and downs are normal.
I broke my elbow last year because of riding - today i just did my first jump and i am still getting my confidence back - this video really helped thank you.
I really appreciate your honesty and seeing the footage from your Casper days. I rode only school and lease horses growing up. There was no pony club. We had no money. My parents weren't horsey. I felt like I was seeing videos of myself when I was young and going through rough confidence stages. I was never a natural jumper. I've since gone on to manage a polo farm where I finally got to ride 5 hours a day, six days a week. I've broken my collar bone and wrist in one accident and my pelvis years later. I understand and identify with how you felt on your own, riding and making decisions for Joey and yourself during Covid. I'm older than I want to admit to you, watching your horse videos, living a life I wish I could have had when I was young, but I wanted to tell you that your words are an inspiration. You deserve the following you have.
Thank you so much for this video! I’m currently going through a confidence dip aswell and it is very hard sometimes to remain confident but it really helps to hear about how other people have struggled with and overcome confidence loss! So thank you so much this has reminded me to keep going and keep trying as it will work out in the end! Xx ❤️
I have a little pony who's quite like Casper used to be. My parents are really trying to me to either get more confident with him or get another horse and just have him as a pasture pony. I really don't want another pony so I am really trying to get more confident with him but its very hard. He used to be at the old barn I went to and was labeled as "dangerous" and "naughty." People at the barn even called him Diablo. We decided to take him and after a few years found a trainer to help us with him. I have very little confidence with him and don't do much to anything with him when our instructor isn't with us. Yesterday I groomed him and even though it barely anything it was a big step for me. This video really helped me know that I'm not alone and that everyone has rough patches they have to get through. Thank you so much for this, I know it was probably not the easiest video to make but it helped me and so many others so thank you.
I really needed this as i lost it a few weeks ago and I've been terrified when jumping things that are 60cm and i usually jump 90cm It's been very hard to regain the strength to go over something and i didn't even fall my horse had just fell on the jump It's been very tough for me and i haven't told anyone I've just kept quite but I'm still terrified
This video actually helped me a lot, because lately I've been loosing my confidence while horse riding and I was crying over night about how soon something that is one of the most important things too me will become my biggest fear. You're my inspiration and I just want to say thank you for that ❤
Esme, your channel is awesome exactly for all the reasons you said made you question it! I love that you are a self made equestrian. Your parents deserve some rosettes for how they've supported you. Your passion for horses, and for your horses specifically, is infectious! You have such impressive character and I'm so glad my girls ask to watch your channel!
you are such an inspiration. i just started horse lessons 1 year ago and i haven't fallen off yet. i feel like i'm in that stage where i just want to go faster and i don't have any fear. but i also feel like i'm never good enough and that i'm not a good enough rider. this video helps me in so many ways. thank you soooo much Esme. i love you
A had a really bad fall a few years ago and I made the mistake not getting back on and now 2 years later I am still gaining my confidence. Really appreciate you making this it really helped me ❤️
this came at the most perfect time, I'm struggling with riding so much at the moment - due to confidence. I haven't ridden since January (very bad fall) and I've been so confused as to how to get back on with it. I appreciate this video so much, thank you so so much for making it! it's nice to know someone you look up to in the equestrian industry also faces nerves and confidence knocks. thank you
This is such a refreshing video! I also have a young horse, and we've definitely had our fair share of ups and downs, but it is so rewarding. So glad you're starting to feel more confident again!
This video is SO HELPFUL for me right now. I just bought my first horse at 34 years old last November. Tilly is a 20 year old arab connemara mare (grey, lol). I thought I was being so responsible getting an older horse! I even leased her first. She has bitten me, bucked going into the canter, been diagnosed with lyme's disease. I have even gotten a foster horse (with her own set of problems) to make Tilly happier. We are in a patch now where, even after lunging, she is bucking almost every day. My trainer has said to simply end the session after I have gotten a little neutral forward movement. I couldn't get up the courage to ride her yesterday, and then as we were leading, she got down and ROLLED with the saddle on. I am absolutely in the mire, and I appreciate this video so much.
I absolutely love this! Thank you so much for sharing. It's way more rewarding to build a relationship with your horse rather than get a push button horse, which is a bit boring. Horses with attitude are so much cuter and the journey is a lot more rewarding in the end. I think you're very lucky and you must feel so much achievement through gaining your horses' trust and fine tuning your relationships with them and riding. Thank you also for being so humble and kind its such a breath of fresh air in a community where horse girls are absolutely vile to be around. Thank you for being you. Really made my day finding this.
I have 100% lost my confidence and one of the main reasons is I don't have much support from family and friends, and every time I've fallen or lost my confidence they don't show that they care that much, so I can relate to you esme because actually last week I fell and hit my head, back and shoulder and lost a lot of my confidence. I really enjoyed this kind of video because it helps me since I can relate 🙂 thank you Esme❤️
I just wanna say thank you for this video because right now I’ve been really struggling with confidence because I feel like I’m going to disappoint my trainer by messing up and it’s been affecting My confidence and performance lately. It infected me so much that I have to go back to basics and sometimes I have to get off the horse because I can’t think straight. This video made me feel so much better because I realize that I’m not alone and it happens. Thank you Esme ❤️
You were such a cute little pony-club girl. I'm sure many, many people will benefit from this discussion and good on you for putting yourself out there, bare and raw. You are a lovely person and a true inspiration.
As a brand with some young ambassadors their confidence is really important to us and this video has definitely helped a lot of them! Sophia in particular is nervous to go even into a canter sometimes and seeing her favourite creator have this issue too has helped her a lot!!
for the past few weeks i have not had a lot of time riding and my (new) trainer is not really helping me to where i want to go and this video has helped me pick up my phone and talk to my trainer - Thank you so much for the amazing - So much love Esme
It's my first time watching one of your videos and I love it, to see an equestrian who isn't flaunting their wealth and getting there 10th horse because they like the look of it is refreshing, your message is so positive thank you 😊
HAVE FELT THAT SICK DREADED FEELING ONCE IN MY RIDING LIFE WITH A LOVELY YOUNG HORSE. HAD TO FORCE MY CHURNING FEELINGS TO SADDLE UP AND RIDE. I TOO WENT BACK TO BASICS AND ANOTHER PERSON TO RIDE THE COLT, TILL I WAS READY TO GET ON HIM AGAIN, ONLY TOOK A COUPLE TIMES. WELL DONE TO YOU AND JOEY. Susan
I had a very bad fall on my horse, Sam, when we were jumping and he spooked at the jump and I fell into the jump and broke my r of my rib bones. You have been very brave Esme. Keep it up!!!!
Thank you for posting this!! I know what your going through, but it’s really nice to see that creators also go through this sort of thing. So thank you for opening up to all of us!! Have a great day and good luck on your road to building back up your confidence and I really sorry you have had a confidence nock!! Have a great day though!! Xxx
so glad a larger youtuber is talking about a confidence crash, i’m in the middle of one rn, where i used to be able to jump much larger im stuck at 2’6/2’9 and am just getting SO anxious to jump bigger. and as of right now i’m stuck riding the greenies😣 so glad that you were able to over come it and resume on your normal riding.
This truely shows me how dangerous horses can be but being as brave as you were getting back into the saddle would be hard, and I can admit riding a big horse like Joey and hurting yourself severely would make me unsure to be confident or unconfident. Thanks for the note Esme, love your videos!! 😉
Yes thank you Esme! ❤️ finally a horse video that talks about this!? I am almost 100% back but still have days that it drops to 40% & -10% then up again lol 😆 No solid advice or recipe for getting confidence back, just keep working at your pace whatever that pace is for YOU two steps forward and we all get there, but not if you don’t try? You touched on everything 👍🏼 We feel and go through. I never gave up, I and don’t plan too, hopefully i can ride into my 80’s 🙏🏼🤗🐎🐎💕
really appreciate you for making this esme❤❤❤ I went through a really rough confidence knock with my young pony. Young horses are amazing and so rewarding when it goes right but it can also be very mentally draining. luckily this year my confidence has really improved. People who were born into equestrian families and can afford schoolmaster ponies can be very intimating so this video was so lovely to watch💕💕❤❤
THANK YOU, Esme. An important message for all of us 💜
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aren't y'all supposed to be removing abusive people from the arena's?
I think it's totally normal to go in and out confidence wise. For me I had a month break because of lack of motivation and no confidence. Thank you for touching this topic Esme 💙💕
I agree there is nothing wrong with losing confidence😁💗🐴🐎
Exactly i just started doing jumps and I’ve done it for a year now but it doesn’t matter if you have the lack of confidence it’s ok to feel lack of confidence! :D
I once refused to go to a lesson because I lost my confidence
@@MyPinksheep me too
same, but my horse guided me through the whole thing.
I quit riding because I lost all confidence. I looked back and thought, "there are so many people who want to ride and can't. Why am I going to quit something like that and that I have put so much work into? I didnt come the this far just to give up!' So I rejoined. Thank for reminding me that I am not the only one who goes the tough times in life. I love riding and the gentle Giants❤️💖
Awwwww that's amazing, well done for getting back into riding!! it can be hard sometimes and we all have times when we want to quit, i personally have mad many times when i want to quit ❤ Never give up something you love
I am a horse person so I go crazy on a horse and I almost guit cause I fell off but thank god I got back on cause horses are awesome ❤
I cannot tell you how much I appreciated hearing you speak about the way the equestrian world treats one another - truly, I needed this right now. I struggled with this myself lately - there was a moment where I thought about stopping my channel and I found myself thinking of you and thinking 'how does Esme cope with this?'. It is so nice to hear you speaking about this with your platform. Thank you Esme. You are inspiring and a credit to this community.
push through it, aim high, the world would be a much worse place without Rhiannon on social media
I can tell you Rhi that many people enjoy your down to earth, real life videos. Though I would totally understand if someone decided to stop creating youtube videos. Especially with the stressors of every day life and even more so with what you are going through with Woody.
I will admit I check your channel often for any updates. Even just a grooming video would be fantastic. We love Woody! I hope he is doing well. Take care.
Edit: you actually have a new update. Going to watch it now lol!
@@lizbelli8287 that's very kind of you and it really is lovely to hear. Thank you for supporting us 🥰
Rhi we love love love your videos x
@@littlelovee3056 Wow - i did not expect these comments. Thank you - it's lovely to see a supportive space!
I’m 13 and I started riding lessons but after a few weeks while I still wasn’t very experienced it would be our first time cantering and my horse took off with me. I soon after got kicked out of lessons (it was a group lesson and the other girls were learning way faster than me, so the gal suggested me to another trainer who later ditched me). I just recently got on a horse for the first time in months. It felt great and I even cantered for the first time with no hassle. This video is great for me because I feel like no one ever talks about confidence and how scary it can be so thankyou.
I’m sorry this happened to you, it honestly broke my heart reading this. You need to look for different stables. Please go somewhere else where people are more understanding and nice towards all levels of riding. Try as many stables as you can. There will be one somewhere that you will feel like at home I promise ❤
Such savage riding schools I have fallen of twice
Both from a spook
You are so brave, you remember that about yourself. You got back up, you did not accept the crappy judgment of folk who have no business training if this is how they treated you, and, you said it out loud in a public forum. You go, little sister, you go !
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I learned in Beau court, High cross in Wales and I learned to canter within a year before my friends learned of my illness and I’ve never came back. They’ve given me so much confidence over the past 5 years and their horses were slowly dying one year apart so i stopped it. It was heartbreaking selling my horse riding equipment
I fell off at a really big horse show and that made me lose a lot of my confidence and that video made me think a lot of equestrians lose there confidence so thank you so much esme your videos are always so happy, amazing and inspirational
So many pearls in this one, Esme! I’m in my 60’s now, and I can say that life is a cycle of ebb and flow, with no perfection in sight. I get better at appreciating both others’ achievements as well as my own with each passing year. No compliment you give is wasted, and you never know how much good it can do. Be generous with praise and kind with your words. There is my two cents! 💜
I recently had a bad fall, and a concussion and fractured arm later, I can't ride my horse for weeks, I'm nervous to get back on and scared that I'll lose my confidence yet again on her :(
Knowing that so many other people, including you, lose your confidence sometimes, really encourages me to get back on with a bit more confidence than i thought I would, thank you Esme 💗
In 2017 i fell off and broke my arm and lost all feeling in my hands due to nerve damage… i started again in 2019 and now i am back riding horses that test me in ways i wouldve never expected them to. That one knock of confidence is why i am the rider today. Keep going and dont give up!
Hey im feeling with you! My 5yo Sparky and me had a rough start as well. We bought him last October, when he was 4.5. In January, he started to not turn right when i wanted him to. Later on, he just started stopping , bucking at my leg aids and going backwards. Turns out I was giving him the wrong aids. We changed the barn and at the new one, one girl helped us. I started getting confidence again. Then, my trainer fell down from him, he screwed from a horse coming the opposite direction, jumped to the side, and she couldnt hold herself. Ironically, even after that incidence, my confidence grew, because afterwards I got on him and he was very brave and tame. But recently, our saddle hasnt been fitting too well.. The saddleman never had any time, and now, he seems to have a bit of a back pain. The day before yesterday, once I was in the saddle, he immediately started bucking, I wanted to dismount but tripped and fell on my lower back and hurt it badly. Then my mum lunged him a bit, and afterwards she and a girl at the barn held him when i got on him again and they walked a bit alonside us for the first round in walk. He was nice and didnt try anything, but we noticed that when we wanted to pull the girth a bit tighter, he pushed away his back. We all agreed he was in some pain. When we pulled it loose again, he was normal again. I also managed to trot a bit.
I am so shocked cause despite a minor bucking in transition from trot to canter, he was never a bucking horse. Despite that one time I remember, when I forgot to fasten the girth, the saddle fell on his shoulder, causing him to buck a bit. So hes definitely sensitive on his shoulders regarding the saddle!
And the problem with the saddle now is the exact same: Its way to tight in the shoulder area, he already has some hardened muscles...
Now im feeling bad but also anxious: Were getting the saddle fixed, but the saddleman only has time to show up next Wednesday... But I dont want to ride him until then, cause im scared another saddle will scare him as well... and obviously I cant use the old saddle any longer in its current state... But Im afraid that he might become naughty if we cant ride until next Saturday...
Im so scared actually, and im sad because we just started gaining confidence again!
Lisa & Carismo x3 have you tried maybe bareback on him with a pad? Strengthens your muscles well and maybe could give him a break from the saddle?
To be honest, this is something a true equestrian would show. Some “equestrians” always show the good side, and never their downside. Esme is showing us that it’s okay to be scared, hurt, devastated, but to dust yourself off and get back up❤️🩹💕✨
So true
I cant understand how she is not crying when she says some of the stuff... I litterly cried 3 times. So proud of u Esme❤️
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I cried when I found out my friends horse died during my 2023 illness and I was gutted that I couldn’t see him for the last time like I did with Honey. Another horse Bella bonded with me after Honeys death that we developed a close friendship almost. No other horses have died since Bobby in 2023
Thank you so much for this! After a nasty fall, I've been suffering real confidence issues, despite being riding for a long time (30+ years). It's great for all riders to know that this can happen...and for small reasons building up. I hope the equestrian community can become kinder, more tolerant and supportive. Thank you for bring a positive role model for young (and older!) riders ❤️🐴💕
I needed this so much! I have been struggling getting my back after a fall and this video is so helpful! You are my roll-model! ♥️❤️💕
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Same, me too :( I fell off the horse hard and hurt my back. I haven't ridden a horse yet after I fell. Get well soon by the way
You havent even been able to watch the whole video yet n u already saying its helpful 💀
@@user-xe1mr4wb5k your so rude! Quit dragging ppl down!
Everything takes time, especially gaining confidence back, you've got this Esme
That feeling of being alone with your fear was what held me back. My trainers didn't get it. I actually started a small support group for people that felt alone with their riding anxiety/fear. You are doing GREAT!
Esme, as a mom of an 8-year old horse mad kid, this was such an important video for us to watch together. You said it all beautifully. Well done you.
Confidence is something I also struggle with, I’ve always needed reassurance and tbh riding horses and the injuries can be very traumatic and it’s difficult to push yourself to get back on. And once you do it’s great!
I 100% understand losing confidence and dreading jumping. It's a terrible feeling and one that's hard to get over. Thank you for making this video and for putting it up, so many only post the perfect videos making it really hard for people who are having confidence blocks. This video helped me realize that we all go through ups and downs. Going back to basics was honestly the best thing I could have done with my horse, you don't realize it at the time, but it does help quite alot to get you going again as well as make the bond you have between you stronger. Thank you again for posting this, so many will benefit from watching, including myself😊
Thank you, Esme, this is an amazing video! Your honesty and maturity in producing it shines out. I started watching your channel because our daughter has a grey Connemara pony and originally it was your ' how I clean my pony' ones I watched. But I love that you talk about not having a flashy pony or being at the same level as your peers at Pony Club, as I saw how this impacted her as well. Everyone's equestrian journey IS individual and our horses and ponies bring their unique challenges and learning opportunities. Long may you continue to entertain, educate and encourage the viewers on your channel. 👍🏇🦄
Just wanted to congratulate you on an amazing vlog. Like you my family were not into horses and my first loan pony was a 11.2 pony with nock knees, but boy did i love him. We were laughed at,picked on but we did not care. He turned out to be the most honest, confidence giver and we grew together. Because of him my love of horses grew and grew. I am 61 now and still ride, you are such an inspection to younger riders. Don't ever change you are a lovley young lady xx
This was such a beautiful video Esme. As a mum of a 12 year old girl obsessed with your channel, you are an amazing person for her to watch and look up to. Thank you for being your true self. ❤️
before, i didnt think that i could love you more but now i realise that were so alike in what we think and if realised the more people with an image are true the more true friends they get xxxx love you and your equines. i watched you for ages and when you put the old clips in from your channel i realised how much you have changed to be more confident. i think thats because weve both gotten more confident as time goes on that we dont realise how far we have come. i love horses more than anything but i love the horses that other people stare at me with and judge even more 🥰
i’m so late! i’ve had many confidence drops before. you fall off, and your confidence just falls out of you…but, i always stay strong and continue riding. you all always such an inspiring person to watch. you are literally the best youtuber ever ❤️❤️
You got this!
What a genuinely, lovely person you are Esme. When I was in school I had many friends and was rarely bullied. Unfortunately as an adult I was horribly bullied in a very toxic workplace environment. It took me years to recover from that. I also discovered very early on that horse shows were not for me because people became very uptight and sometimes mean. I just wanted to have fun but I just did not fit in. I enjoy your channel so much because you are mainly hanging out with your horses and thoroughly enjoying it. A little kindness goes a long way and you definitely are making a positive impact on many people . You deserve all the lovely experiences and meeting wonderful people because you work hard for it. xxoo
ok this really hit deep-
also my friend just graduated from having someone help her with riding and she’s finally doing it all by herself now so give her a 👏
This was the most inspiring story/video I’ve seen in SUCH A LONG TIME.
I am a very self doubting person, and I have always thought that I wasn’t good enough. This was so inspiring and made me feel so much stronger and energized to at least try again.
This message was so important for everyone and it really shows that everyone feels uninspired at some point but the most important thing to do is “get back on that horse” whether that’s figuratively or literally.
Thank you for having the confidence to share your story with us and it’s amazing to see you overcoming your struggles. Proud of you Esme!
We all need this have been riding for 10 years and I have never stopped but lost my confidence many times so this video is very needed thank you Esme
thanks Evie
@@ThisEsMe hi esme I’m watching this again as I have 10 horse and have just been chucked of my 17hand horse at cross country and I’m so scared to ride him again ❤❤❤
Dearest Esme, every single time I watch a video of yours, I marvel at how brave you are in all you do with your horses, especially Joey. Taking young, green horses out and about can be very challenging and you seem to have made sure you were very prepared. The setbacks you've had have been very valid reasons for feeling less than confident. You have done brilliantly to bring both Casper and Joey on, the way you have done. Im an old equestrian and had many scary moments and had to gather all the courage I had to persevere and continue riding and raising young horses. So, hats off to you young lady! You are a wonderful example to all the young equestrians looking to you for guidance and inspiration. Your honesty and integrity are so important in the career you have chosen. Well done and thank you for sharing this story with us all. Take care, happy trails!!!🤠❤❤❤❤❤🐎🐎🐎🐎
This truly showed my I'm not the only one that went through this and made me feel so supported and inspired. It even gave me confidence to continue my riding journey further. Love you Esme!!❤
He has changed so much, if I didn’t know who he was I wouldn’t recognise him! This video helps me a lot as I get very nervous when jumping even the smallest fences as my first jump I fell off and some of my recent jumps i nearly fall off but one of them I did fall, I have ridden since and I was fine but I’m still nervous. I love that you are honest to us all and help us through our tough riding times. 🐴🐴🐴
take as long as you need Esme, I completely understand that you fade out of riding.
Thank you for making this, I broke my foot riding and smashed into a fence and after that I was just petrified and after watching this I felt better and built up the confidence and now I can officially call myself a “show jumper”
Love you and all your animals esme, I know alot of people will need to hear this and you've helped so many people! x you're such a role model.
I have an 8 year old "problem" horse, got her when she was 4 and it has/still is a very hard journy. I have more than 1 time almost giving up on her, and lykkely havent. She is one of the best horses i'v had. No matter how many more times i gonna fall, i will never give op on the sweetest horse ever. We just have to be strong, and focus on the good things❤️
Esme, this couldn’t have come at a better time, I have been really struggling with my riding at the moment and honestly I don’t have any confidence but after watching this I genuinely feel I can face the challenges and overcome any barriers I face. Thank you so so much 💜💜
When you were talking about when you lost your confidence and had no videos to help you I could totally relate.I’ve lost my confidence numerous times all because I got dragged by a pony a couple years ago.I was very young and wasn’t the brave type.I eventually got through it by riding every lesson and hoping for a better one.Some people just need to find a way to go by loosing confidence and getting it back.Thank you esme I will use this video to help and I’m sure others will.
This is exactly what I needed! My confidence was knocked recently and I almost quit riding, but thankfully I got it back! I had no idea what was going on, and it's really nice to know that I'm not the only one that has struggled with this! :)
I've been riding for almost a year now and I've realized how many risks you take when you mount that horse. I am a super cautious person and I overthink everything I ever do. I really felt like, because of my confidence, I wouldn't be able to do the things that would get me to the next level. It's really amazing to hear that doubts and fears are genuinely apart of any sport that you love to do. Thank you for letting me know that I just need to believe and stop worrying about the future but just focus on the present 💜
Last summer, I had a fall at a show that I ended up in the ER. My confidence was shattered and I would cry every time I saw a jump in a lesson. To get my confidence back, I had to restart everything with jumping. I am happy to say my confidence is back. I am now training my 5-year-old ottb chestnut mare! 😁 I am more confident than I ever was and love my horse so much!! Thank you for sharing your story Esme! I definitely would have loved to watch this last summer!! 😘
I am a complete novice at riding,I ride once a week every summer, I still learn rising trot, but the horse I ride napps and spookes and last summer it shook me so bad, that I felt I was going backwards. Thank you, Esme, for being so open and supportive, and I know loads of people watch this but it feels like a personal chit-chat, so yeah, thank you
Don’t worry Esme, Push through because you’ve come so far, and carry on the family riding. I lost my confidence while cantering because my lesson horse is quite silly while going into canter, she does a little buck and does a really speedy canter. I didn’t give up and now I’m confident and jumping. Lots of love Xx ❤️
I honestly didn't realize how much I needed to hear what you had to say in this video. I recently got back into the horse world after loosing my forever horse. I bought a yearling at an auction and I've been doubting myself every step. The moment you said 'Am I allowed to own a horse this young?' I felt that in my SOUL. Thank you for sharing your journey and reminding us that we're not alone in our struggles. Side note - after having a few sessions with a trainer, my baby boy and I are doing great. All I needed was someone to remind me that I know what I'm doing lol
I love how you talk about your hard times with Casper, that’s how I feel about my current lease horse. They’re not bad, they just need to be shown that they can do it! And those horses are always the ones you end up loving the most! Also, love your channel ❤️
So true!
My favourite horse is Casper and my favourite elegant lady is you Esme.... I love you 💕
I needed this! Tysm for sharing this with us as it’s something most equestrians have been through and it’s so good not to feel alone ☺️
You are the resource and role model young (and older) people need, Esme 💕 keep being you and spread love and kindness in this world we live in!
This is amazing. Such an inspirational video. I have no words. I can really take some advice from this in both riding and school. Thank you so much, this has given me more confidence!! xx
thanks Corina!
In 2020 I had a grand Mal seizure and wasn't able to ride for 6 months it took me 1 year to fully gain my confidence back and to prove that I could be safe around horses by myself. I just want you to know that no matter happens, you are the strongest and bravest equestrian I know and will and can get through anything love you!!!!
This video is truly inspiring to us all. It’s always hard to get back up once you fall but when you do, and you go over the jumps that you fell on last time, you feel amazing. Awesome video. Can’t wait for your next post!
Please continue being you.... ramble away, be passionate and confident, love your horses, love the people around you who support you and just be the ESME that we all have come to know! You are amazing and an inspiration! Thank you.
I have been through something like this too! I had a really bad fall off of a pony and I lost a ton of confidence. I found my heart horse now (Zack)🥰 and now I am all good! I really needed something like this to cheer me up. Thank you Esme.
A lot of people don’t understand when us horse riders become “Unconfident” but it happens but I have an important message for you Esme and that is you were the reason I started riding you were and still idol and many people look up to you you are very sweet, pretty and full of talent🐴
i broke my leg riding last year and havent been on a horse since then, this video really made me think and i really want to ride again! thank you for this❤️
Good luck Agnes, hope it goes well 🏇🕊️
@@jandavison7288 tysm, i’m actually riding today!
@@agnes6657 that is fantastic news, enjoy it , take it easy and breathe!🏇🏇🕊️🍀
How did you get on? 🏇
@@jandavison7288 as normal actually! but i did not canter tho:/
This means a lot. My gelding is very spooky and he bolts across the arena a lot. It has really taken a toll on my confidence in riding and makes me feel really powerless. It helps so much just knowing I’m not alone in that feeling. Thank you Esme 🤍🤍🤍
One of my favorite videos of yours. I have a 13 year old equestrian daughter that can identify with your horse journey & bullying from school mates. She doesn’t come from a horse family either so we’re all learning together. Thank you for being a wonderful & realistic role model for her and others!!
Early, love you and your horses esme. Such a heartbreaking subject but know I’m here for you!! Your such an inspiration and an amazing person inside and out. Stay strong and keep your head held high. 😊💗
I ride a hot horse who is very smart and knows how to get away with anything and everything...I've been riding for nearly 12 years now and I've lost my confidence too many times to count so this really helped me with my confidence and so many other people will agree so thank you Esme 💞💞
Im older than your target audience but I really appreciated this video. I broke my collar bone when I fell of my mare after a few months of having her and then broke my back because a cat sneak upon us and I was scared for at least 5 years after that 😅😅 I’m getting back into riding like I used too
You’re a really good role model for younger equestrians and your videos are top notch quality 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼
thanks Andy!
Im really, truly thankful you made this video for us
I recently fell off when the horse I was on spooked. And after that I got really nervous going around that part of the area and jumping high jumps aswell. So, this is exactly what I needed, thank you🐴❤
I’m glad you talked about being scared of teaching Joey the wrong thing because I feel like that is very overlooked. I have been working with a green rescue and I had to un tech him everything he has learned and was always been self conscious about teaching him the wrong thing again. No one really understood why I was scared about that but I’m glad someone else shared this fear.
I lost my confidence once after falling of really badly while cantering at a show and i did get back on the horse but i was super scared to go faster than walk . Luckily My instructor noticed immediately that i was very tense and swopped me over onto a horse that i never had ridden before , he was a 15 hand cob mix called Clyde , since then the only horse i ever ride is Clyde and he is amazing,not the easiest pony to ride ,constantly refusing at jumps, bucking and rearing , but somehow he has brought my confidence sky high,I love cantering on hacks and around the schools small cross country course , and I owe it all to my amazing instructor and Clyde . I love the video, most people avoid talking about this and i really appreciate that you talked about it i love your videos and you've have inspired me to keep on riding even in difficult times💖💖💖🐎🐴🏇🏻💕.
I’m 28 and been riding since I was 4, but never fully owned a horse or competed other than 1 in hand show with my friend’s pony. I related to all of this soooooo hard!
Thank you for sharing your journey & struggles, it is so amazing to hear 💙 you do an amazing job with your boys
Lately my confidence hasn’t been very good so hearing this definitely helps me realize it happens to everyone :) Thank you!
I think it’s super normal in all equestrians, thank you for making this video. This really helped me understand, you are not alone Esme! I have lost confidence to much in my riding and it’s super okay! I hope you are doing okay and please take care!💗💗 Love you!
This video is amazing esme! Showing others that everyone has a knock backs and it’s normal and even the best riders get nervous thank u for this video💕💜
Honestly it takes a lot to open up about these things and I wish I had this video after the passed three years I’ve had with my mare. From the time she turned five I can’t tell you how much I cried and I felt hugely damaged confidence wise. I nearly gave up so many times! At the end of last year she had three months off. Best thing I ever did for that horse. Wasn’t clipped or trimmed up, never got worked just fed and massive amounts of turn out. She’s come out this year a new horse that’s for sure…. She’s eight this year and things are starting to click hopefully for us. I rode her for six weeks six days a week at the start of this year! Never felt so confident in my life and now I can’t wait to go jumping and try XC with her! Even went to the beach with her on my own (with my dad on the ground) honestly you’re amazing and you’re doing so so well with Joey! You should definitely give yourself credit and a pat on the back because youngsters are HARD man! Honestly love how honest you are! Can’t wait to see your journey continue❤️
Keep on pushing through Esme! Your so amazing and have pushed me to work harder on my own riding! Your truly amazing and inspiring! Keep it up love you!!! 💗💗
Thank you so much!!
I’m not an avid watcher of you but I clicked on this because I recently lost all my confidence with horses and now I’m slowly going back in. Cool to see other equestrians being open about how this sport can be really difficult.
I love how people work hard on there videos and it’s amazing
I’ve been through this all too. You had Joey as a major cause of confidence loss and I had a very strong mare named Evita. She gave me a concussion, knocked me out, and bucked me off multiple times. She scared me so bad but, with a lot of help from my trainers, I was able to get back on and keep going. And 4 years later she is the horse I am most comfortable on, even more so than my heart horse! I trust her so much now because I know her, and she’s taught me how to ride ANYTHING.
I know how it feels I,ve only just started sitting on my lone pony, and it's been 3 years since the pony I was riding spooked and through me into a huge rock. Sometimes you just need to spend time with them like groom them and wash them and work your way up to sitting on them.
stay strong esme!! you’ve got this girl! you’re amazing!!
Yeah she’s got it
I was miss sold my first horse when I was 13. He had a lot of problems that completely knocked my confidence to the point I was shaking at the mounting block. I'm 16 now with the best pony I could ask for and finally gaining the confidence to jump again. Thank you for reminding Everybody that ups and downs are normal.
I broke my elbow last year because of riding - today i just did my first jump and i am still getting my confidence back - this video really helped thank you.
that's such a short time!
I really appreciate your honesty and seeing the footage from your Casper days. I rode only school and lease horses growing up. There was no pony club. We had no money. My parents weren't horsey. I felt like I was seeing videos of myself when I was young and going through rough confidence stages. I was never a natural jumper. I've since gone on to manage a polo farm where I finally got to ride 5 hours a day, six days a week. I've broken my collar bone and wrist in one accident and my pelvis years later. I understand and identify with how you felt on your own, riding and making decisions for Joey and yourself during Covid. I'm older than I want to admit to you, watching your horse videos, living a life I wish I could have had when I was young, but I wanted to tell you that your words are an inspiration. You deserve the following you have.
Thank you so much for this video! I’m currently going through a confidence dip aswell and it is very hard sometimes to remain confident but it really helps to hear about how other people have struggled with and overcome confidence loss! So thank you so much this has reminded me to keep going and keep trying as it will work out in the end! Xx ❤️
I have a little pony who's quite like Casper used to be. My parents are really trying to me to either get more confident with him or get another horse and just have him as a pasture pony. I really don't want another pony so I am really trying to get more confident with him but its very hard. He used to be at the old barn I went to and was labeled as "dangerous" and "naughty." People at the barn even called him Diablo. We decided to take him and after a few years found a trainer to help us with him. I have very little confidence with him and don't do much to anything with him when our instructor isn't with us. Yesterday I groomed him and even though it barely anything it was a big step for me. This video really helped me know that I'm not alone and that everyone has rough patches they have to get through. Thank you so much for this, I know it was probably not the easiest video to make but it helped me and so many others so thank you.
I really needed this as i lost it a few weeks ago and I've been terrified when jumping things that are 60cm and i usually jump 90cm
It's been very hard to regain the strength to go over something and i didn't even fall my horse had just fell on the jump
It's been very tough for me and i haven't told anyone I've just kept quite but I'm still terrified
This video actually helped me a lot, because lately I've been loosing my confidence while horse riding and I was crying over night about how soon something that is one of the most important things too me will become my biggest fear. You're my inspiration and I just want to say thank you for that ❤
Esme, your channel is awesome exactly for all the reasons you said made you question it! I love that you are a self made equestrian. Your parents deserve some rosettes for how they've supported you. Your passion for horses, and for your horses specifically, is infectious! You have such impressive character and I'm so glad my girls ask to watch your channel!
you are such an inspiration. i just started horse lessons 1 year ago and i haven't fallen off yet. i feel like i'm in that stage where i just want to go faster and i don't have any fear. but i also feel like i'm never good enough and that i'm not a good enough rider. this video helps me in so many ways. thank you soooo much Esme. i love you
A had a really bad fall a few years ago and I made the mistake not getting back on and now 2 years later I am still gaining my confidence. Really appreciate you making this it really helped me ❤️
this came at the most perfect time, I'm struggling with riding so much at the moment - due to confidence. I haven't ridden since January (very bad fall) and I've been so confused as to how to get back on with it. I appreciate this video so much, thank you so so much for making it! it's nice to know someone you look up to in the equestrian industry also faces nerves and confidence knocks. thank you
I hope you make it back to riding
Take it slow and steady
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This is such a refreshing video! I also have a young horse, and we've definitely had our fair share of ups and downs, but it is so rewarding. So glad you're starting to feel more confident again!
This video is SO HELPFUL for me right now. I just bought my first horse at 34 years old last November. Tilly is a 20 year old arab connemara mare (grey, lol). I thought I was being so responsible getting an older horse! I even leased her first. She has bitten me, bucked going into the canter, been diagnosed with lyme's disease. I have even gotten a foster horse (with her own set of problems) to make Tilly happier. We are in a patch now where, even after lunging, she is bucking almost every day. My trainer has said to simply end the session after I have gotten a little neutral forward movement. I couldn't get up the courage to ride her yesterday, and then as we were leading, she got down and ROLLED with the saddle on. I am absolutely in the mire, and I appreciate this video so much.
I absolutely love this! Thank you so much for sharing. It's way more rewarding to build a relationship with your horse rather than get a push button horse, which is a bit boring. Horses with attitude are so much cuter and the journey is a lot more rewarding in the end. I think you're very lucky and you must feel so much achievement through gaining your horses' trust and fine tuning your relationships with them and riding. Thank you also for being so humble and kind its such a breath of fresh air in a community where horse girls are absolutely vile to be around. Thank you for being you. Really made my day finding this.
I have 100% lost my confidence and one of the main reasons is I don't have much support from family and friends, and every time I've fallen or lost my confidence they don't show that they care that much, so I can relate to you esme because actually last week I fell and hit my head, back and shoulder and lost a lot of my confidence. I really enjoyed this kind of video because it helps me since I can relate 🙂 thank you Esme❤️
"Like a powerful horse, that I had a partnership with," that hit hard, makes so much sense 👏
I just wanna say thank you for this video because right now I’ve been really struggling with confidence because I feel like I’m going to disappoint my trainer by messing up and it’s been affecting My confidence and performance lately. It infected me so much that I have to go back to basics and sometimes I have to get off the horse because I can’t think straight. This video made me feel so much better because I realize that I’m not alone and it happens. Thank you Esme ❤️
You were such a cute little pony-club girl. I'm sure many, many people will benefit from this discussion and good on you for putting yourself out there, bare and raw. You are a lovely person and a true inspiration.
As a brand with some young ambassadors their confidence is really important to us and this video has definitely helped a lot of them! Sophia in particular is nervous to go even into a canter sometimes and seeing her favourite creator have this issue too has helped her a lot!!
for the past few weeks i have not had a lot of time riding and my (new) trainer is not really helping me to where i want to go and this video has helped me pick up my phone and talk to my trainer - Thank you so much for the amazing - So much love Esme
It's my first time watching one of your videos and I love it, to see an equestrian who isn't flaunting their wealth and getting there 10th horse because they like the look of it is refreshing, your message is so positive thank you 😊
HAVE FELT THAT SICK DREADED FEELING ONCE IN MY RIDING LIFE WITH A LOVELY YOUNG HORSE. HAD TO FORCE MY CHURNING FEELINGS TO SADDLE UP AND RIDE. I TOO WENT BACK TO BASICS AND ANOTHER PERSON TO RIDE THE COLT, TILL I WAS READY TO GET ON HIM AGAIN, ONLY TOOK A COUPLE TIMES. WELL DONE TO YOU AND JOEY. Susan
I had a very bad fall on my horse, Sam, when we were jumping and he spooked at the jump and I fell into the jump and broke my r of my rib bones. You have been very brave Esme. Keep it up!!!!
Thank you for posting this!! I know what your going through, but it’s really nice to see that creators also go through this sort of thing. So thank you for opening up to all of us!! Have a great day and good luck on your road to building back up your confidence and I really sorry you have had a confidence nock!! Have a great day though!! Xxx
so glad a larger youtuber is talking about a confidence crash, i’m in the middle of one rn, where i used to be able to jump much larger im stuck at 2’6/2’9 and am just getting SO anxious to jump bigger. and as of right now i’m stuck riding the greenies😣 so glad that you were able to over come it and resume on your normal riding.
This truely shows me how dangerous horses can be but being as brave as you were getting back into the saddle would be hard, and I can admit riding a big horse like Joey and hurting yourself severely would make me unsure to be confident or unconfident. Thanks for the note Esme, love your videos!! 😉
Yes thank you Esme! ❤️ finally a horse video that talks about this!? I am almost 100% back but still have days that it drops to 40% & -10% then up again lol 😆 No solid advice or recipe for getting confidence back, just keep working at your pace whatever that pace is for YOU two steps forward and we all get there, but not if you don’t try? You touched on everything 👍🏼 We feel and go through. I never gave up, I and don’t plan too, hopefully i can ride into my 80’s 🙏🏼🤗🐎🐎💕
really appreciate you for making this esme❤❤❤ I went through a really rough confidence knock with my young pony. Young horses are amazing and so rewarding when it goes right but it can also be very mentally draining. luckily this year my confidence has really improved. People who were born into equestrian families and can afford schoolmaster ponies can be very intimating so this video was so lovely to watch💕💕❤❤