Tired of earth. These people.
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Thanks guys for all the comments it is helpful... I hope that tomorrow
For a second i thought it was the beautiful squidward in the thumbnail
8 🎶
We made a prequel to this video if you want to check it out :)
I know it is kind of off topic but do anybody know a good place to stream new tv shows online?
“I have spent all my life resisting the desire to end it.”
- Kafka
"But we need books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we loved more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea within us."
Damn that hits deep; as someone who has spend almost two decades of his life in depression and suicidal thoughts. Got beaten like an animal as a child every other day, told by my mom i was worthless everyday of my life. Chance to escape, joined the military, 4 months into the completion of my 4 year contract i got kicked out for attempting suicide with my m16, more like a cry for help; none came. I let it all eat me up, became a recluse, and my life has been downhill ever since.
@@povang you are not alone brother. Id advice you to research the law of one.
*Kafka
the book character or the real person
Looked forward to the future when I was younger. Things got old very quickly.
not the things, just you
@@rusalkin Damn
The problem for me is there’s golden ages anymore. No golden age of movies, sports, business ventures, technology, music, etc.
There’s no excitement in the world and nothing to look forward to nowadays.
@@ChimeraArts Hey man, you're a super talented artist, that could be enough for a good life. The golden age isn't here? Make it here.
@@ChimeraArts welcome to the end of history where only amount viewed counts because you cant slap numbers on a soul
I used to laugh at the stereotype of the emotional teen laying in bed and coping with sad rock music. Now I *am* the emotional teen laying in bed and coping with sad rock music.
Life is tough.
I soo do feel you. We tend to laugh at things we deny. Sometimes because we neglect the similarities we have with what we don't wanna see (n)or feel. But every urge will finally catch up.
and now you don't laugh about it anymore also. sad
@@richard6869 Nah, I laugh about it. It's pretty funny.
@3,14 _ Thanks, friend. I hope you get through anything you're struggling with too, if you are.
Heard joke once: Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says, "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says, "But doctor...I am Pagliacci.
Alan Moore, Watchmen
You should watch the movie btw
ouch
if shrooms were legal the doctor would have his cure to be the great clown he was supposed to be tripping on shrooms lmao
I've seen this fucking comment on almost every post rock video on fucking TH-cam, and I fucking hate it, just because over fucking saturated it feels to me. I know this is from Watchmen too. Fucking hell.
@@TK45236 Really men ? I thought i was being original, just saw the watchmen pictures reminds me of these sentence
the graphic novel should be a must-read. So many themes, this is just one minor storyline in the whole book (Manhattan)
"I don't want to kill myself, but every time I wake up I can't help thinking... Just how many more days have I gotta do this?"
I resonate with this
That's how I feel every day when I wake up. Put up a fake smile and act for all to see. A social mask I'd like to call it. And it's definitely different from the covid19 face masks that I'm wearing everyday.
Till the Lord takes your breath away🎵🎶
When you try to sleep it away but you cant even do even the most basic of things anymore
Sadly haven't related to something as much as this in a very long time.
Paradoxically knowing that for 23 minutes I'm listening to this together with people, who are burned out just like me, makes me feel slightly less Tired of Earth. Keep up keeping up!
Amen brother
😢
i want to rest so bad. sleep feels like a blink and suddenly it's the next day and i'm feeling no better than the day before
cherish the second that slips by. The second that slips by every time you close your eyes, every time you feel nothingness. That moment is life, and it happens to all of us.
Change your channel’s name and put another number, it’ll help
@@RezeHB im a satanist!!!!! wooooo
@@sunayoru Why do you act like a victim then?
@@RezeHB lol
Fuck yeah. One more day without ending it.
I don't know u ,but I'm so fucking proud of you.
wooo!!!! thats awesome :)
I am just. Very happy of hearing that. Even if I don't know you. Thank you :)
This is low key the most beautiful comment ive read in my entire time here on youtube. You're a legend to me
okay.
I agree. I am so done.
Nothing. We're all beautiful and suffering.
@@brialyn337 Lies. Some people are ugly and enjoying it
@@brialyn337 you're right
@@tuckersmith5520 so are you ha!
@@brialyn337 ohhh my goodness.
Thank you. Thank you so much for that
When words can’t describe any feelings anymore, reach to music.
You are underestimating the power of words.
@@DiamondsRexpensive How about both?
@@fleurtalbot7596 both can describe or can't describe?
@@DiamondsRexpensive I meant the combining of both....as in, sometimes A + B does not always equal AB.....but most often amounts to a 'C'' .... awkwrd way of saying that the sum is not always equal to the parts....do you know?
Describes, yes.....
Pick one path, it doesn´t matter if it´s not your thing. Pick it and walk, straight forward. Change your path when you think you should. Keep walking. Repeat till you see some light.
But there's no light. Never has been. Unless you mean the light as dying.
@@canti7951 You could replace the word "light" with clarity. We all subconsciously strive for clarity rather than happines. You should strive for that. Clarity derives in tranquility and wisdom.
Nihilism
@@70MIFICATION apathy
@@70MIFICATION Thank you kind sir.
I want to make my own world.
Get a Girl, make a Baby, voilà u even make a whole new Universe.
Make ur own reality if you can not make ur own world.
hint, you're doing it now...
Make a game or cartoon(:
Write a piece of fiction then
Let each thing you do be that of a dying person.
Marcus Aurelius
"No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell."
"As above, so below"
As within, so without.
like when mommy dank too much on christmas, and when i voted 4 biden
@@hibakhld879 As there is, there isn't .
Embrace the sadness, but don’t let it suffocate you
You can be tired of the humans, but never be tired of Earth. She’s too beautiful for that
Beauty equals worth..that’s the problem.
Thank you. I needed to read this
Nah man earth sucks too. All those unconscious irrelevant annoying monstrous bugs which sole purpose seems to be invade your house. Imperfections from left to right that cause discomfort and pain. Life/nature sadly sucks too. Very beautiful under certain circumstances, true
😢 thank you ❤
na man.. it doesn't ever heard the bible quote: Matthew 7:6-7 King James Version (KJV)
Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you. Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you .
This means basically.. even the most beautiful things in the wrong hands are completely worthless... I'm not religious but I was searching for this saying "do not cast your pearls before swine" because it reminds me there is some truth to the lessons in the bible. They knew this back then... imagine what we know now. Those who consider their beauty their only worth... will soon find some swine to trample their pearls... @@lukasribin4168
I’m so tired. I want to lay down and look to the stars, but even something as simple as my window to the cosmos has been shattered. I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to be alive, not right here and not right now.
sleep. and soon, the tired will go away.
yeah man just sleep..
its da best
@@rulerofthefrogs137 It’s not that simple. In my case I can’t even sleep
@@RezeHB Try again we are all like that almost
i feel the exact same as you, i know what you feel... we can't project ourselves out of where we are, but we know, that one day, it will be different. We should just take care of ourselves during those times, and try not to stay alone if possible.. good luck through this difficult lonely walk in the desert, we'll make it..
I know that when someone dies, they don’t exist anymore. The dynamic patterns that make up their existence stop, and it basically feels like what it felt before you were born; nothing. But I still wish I could turn into an ethereal being and travel the universe when I die. Holy shit, that would be amazing. Imagine just traveling to nearby stars, black holes, planets, quasars, everywhere. Sigh
You should search up what lucid dreaming is and how to do it.
I see you want the same thing I do, depending on your age, the future will hold cosmic ships that we can take, even abandon, believing not that we are bigger but just to touch the cosmos, to die within them. To ride the moon, to disregard orders to come back to the ship, find a comfy spot and relax, watching the cosmos, knowing you will not live to see its potential but that you will not die in a secluded bubble of dirt and water, to reach a hand up and see that, nothing matters when compared to the universe yet, we EXIST we are here in it, our capability stretching across it all....its a shame, we are shackled by our founding fathers who believed in currency otherwise we could grab a ship whenever and go now.
what ever you believe will happen after you die, will happen. If someone new they were going to hell and feared it, when dying they would have that in their brain and therefore there mind will let go with only that left, so their last knowledge would be their deserving unrest. Same for people going to heaven, or no state at all and just floating around. whatever you believe, keep it inside you, and when you die, that will be the last think you acknowledge, and therefore rest with it for the rest of time. or that's how i see it
@@mooimacow9533 it's beneficial to not believe in anything at all. Heaven = false hope, hell = you die terrified. If you don't accept all that nonsense, you pretty much die like the end of a movie or something, rather than expecting it to continue. Final peace
If you don't try to understand what you are, how can you know?
Message to the younger generation listening… I will be 40 years old in a month. Your life will have some really low lows, but conversely it will have some fucking really high highs. So, don’t let either the highs OR lows define who you are, it’s about cherishing those we love during those times. I have had two MAJOR depressive episodes in my life. Teen years. Then right after my first son was born in 2009, I didn’t think things would ever get better then they got way better. I have a wonderful family, the best friends and a career I cherish (I am a high school teacher and coach) YOU ARE ALL LOVED!!!
as much good as your message radiates into the internet i fear the problem that plagues the younger generation in this age is growing beyond the confines of personal matter
im 21 now. and i have come to learn a few things from my own limited experiences and the many thoughts and feelings that are shared in this relatively new space of thought here on the internet. as well as from science, particularly the pessimistic side that seems to be ignored by those with the means to change things
we live in an age where teenagers learn the hard way that loving each other doesn't put food on the table, doesnt pay for tuition fees or taxes.
we live in an age where only the fewest of the young people see themelfs ever being able to afford a house of their own. the continuous uncompensated inflation particularly in the US has lead to many things that were well within reach of the ordinary person 30 years ago, to be completely unattainable by the young people today.
the economic side of things is also hitting some corner stones that we should have expected. oil, coal and natural gas have peaked in the last couple years. the cost of extraction now grows as the effort to find new sources increases. the agricultural sector is noticing shortages in ground water on a global scale. we run out of essential pollinators
to keep depending crops growing. we raise sterile crops on increasingly dead soil, with its ecosystems exterminated by the excessive use of pesticides
our meat industry is struggling to keep its animals alive long enough to become consumable, we are basically feeding these creatures every medication imaginable now just so that they dont die to their horrible living conditions before they grow enough to be eaten.
the global demand for rare metals increases, as do the extraction costs. perhaps we should have expected that *rare* metals would at some point become scarce if we dont recycle our electric waste. our ocean fish is literally filled with waste as our pollution only continues to expand. the climate is already rendering parts of the world uninhabitable and refugees are making their way north. something we saw coming in the 70s but nobody in charge really thought change was needed.
the young people have understood that the standard we live is not sustainable, and they fully understand that it is too late to change the situation at this stage. we are too dependent and too unwilling to change as a society at large. hell, you can even still find people who think none of this is real, all while climate refugees knock on their borders.
everything unsustainable has an end. thats the nature of things. what makes todays young people different is the realisation that this damocles sword is about to come down on us. and for the first time in history there is a generation born that has to weigh the experience of raising a family against the knowledge that their children will suffer greatly at consequences of this unsustainably. if todays young people wont see the end, then their children will. never before has an end to our standard of living ever been so tangable. and the fact that it will be brought about by the entirely predictable event of simply running out of key resources is what baffles and frightens todays generation
we didnt choose this. we didnt know when we were children that this would be our burden.i think that is where the depression of todays young people meets with reality and the stakes at hand. the weight of the responsibility to fix this is too great. no amount of love can fix this, the damage was done before i was even born.
and i for one will not see myself raising a family. i think such would be cruel
@@sirgator8946, bring to the equation the many young that are heading into life, and their first job on that road is, drug dealing /and using. Our reality 2021, The road to Hell. 👺
These are like the words loving parents would say, that I'll never hear.
Closing to your age much faster than I'd like to admit. No friends, no career, no family. And with each passing year it only gets worse, as there are fewer and fewer people who can relate to me and vice versa (mortality rate in "my" group is disadvantageous to say the least). I don't even care if I'm being loved, given how much I loathe my mother and how much demented and disconnected from reality my grandmother became. The only thing I long for anymore, is to be forgiven and released from this prison as I myself lack the strength do both.
Sure, some of those youngsters will end up like you, but some of them will end up just or even worse than me. Not every story have a happy ending, so don't make promises you have no way of upholding. There's already enough lies and empty smiles in this false world. If anything, it would be better to warn them, to encourage them to act - this way or another (even if that means doing what you a survivor, would never condone) as it's still better than slowly and unbearably rot away.
peace
Thank you sir.. Really...
Thank everyone in the comments for sharing their thoughts and feelings. Even though I am a stranger to you, I feel you.
I'm fucking sad man. I'm so tired of everyone and everything. I wanna be happy and I tell myself not to worry about things I can't control but it still hurts. Everything hurts. I'm tired of people looking at me and laughing, people having no regard for anyone else. They're all very rude, yet I'm the bad guy.
I see you :) how are you doing now? How is life?
I don’t know you, but we could talk about it still! I’m finding out a don’t know much, but I’m here too, maybe for similar reasons. How is your soul?
Podemos fugir de nossos corpos, mas acredito que não podemos fugir de nós mesmos.
I wish I could take us, all who are sensitive beings, tired of earth, to a planet far far away...✨
Some day man some day
sign me up. I want to disappear without a trace.
But if we go somewhere together we'd be bound to get tired of each other or hate each other then we'd just want to escape again, don't mean to be depressing sorry.
this wont help man, try travelling, your problem will follow you whereever you go.
I feel that. I wish I could just be a hermit and never have to talk to people, but I need food and money. The only way I can ever be alone is when I take my last breath, and leave this place.
"where the sea swings in like an iron gate
and we touch. In another country people die.
My darling, the wind falls in like stones
from the whitehearted water and when we touch
we enter touch entirely. No one's alone.
Men kill for this, or for as much.
And what of the dead? They lie without shoes
in their stone boats. They are more like stone
than the sea would be if it stopped. They refuse
to be blessed, throat, eye and knucklebone."
Have you no spirit? You can be a hermit, you don't need money, you can grow your own food and find whatever else you may need. It's a simple life. You say you want to be a hermit, but I think nothing could be further from the truth. Humanity has the power in itself to accomplish anything, live your dreams my friend.
@@runeapples "Will you fight? Or will you perish like a dog?"
@@runeapples inspiring. but unfortunetly the mere thought seems unattainable. how can we live on the fringe of society where we are still the masters of our own ?
i want to live on a boat of my own making. in a couple years i will lay the keel when i have enough money. it will be my home, on it i will sleep, drink, eat, live. i will engage with society on my own terms and schedule. and i will stay secluded when i desire to do so. that is what i understand as freedom. but i also understand it to be unreachable in some ways. i will still need a bank account, i will still need money. i will still need to pay taxes and pay for my health insurance (germany so its mandated)
i cant vanish off the systems radar. and a mere attempt of such is a crime.
the systems we live under have a peculiar way of forcing you to not only live in them, but also engage in them. you will have to pay taxes and pay for your needs somehow. and the only way is to work under employers for whom you are nothing but a tool.
or to start your own enterprise at which point you will be stuck far deeper in society than you could ever want.
you cant produce anything worthy of trade without giving the system a cut of your profits and working in accordance to their standards and regulations. so how are you going to get money to live ? how am I going to get money to live ?
i have decided to search for an answer to that when i get there. because i fear that the answer might deter me from pursuing this foolish dream of mine, and even though it may be foolish, it is my dream nonetheless and by god i will reach it.
@@sirgator8946 Then maybe at that point it's no longer time to run, and instead time to tear it all down and let the phoenix rise from the ashes. That aside, your dream isn't foolish, it's clear however you really are tied to this joke we call the modern world and society. Break your chains, it's clear you're not happy with the way the world works or the state of your life, so don't take part in it. You don't need money to live, produce for yourself. Sell your excess (if you're so inclined) to afford what you can't produce for yourself, the thought that you can't do something even though you want to just because big brother government said you can't doesn't dictate reality, black markets exist after all. Don't let yourself be kept down by such rigid thought processes drilled into you by the indoctrination of media and education systems. I agree with what you're saying to a degree, they do try and force this integration and interaction, they make people try to think that their life is dependent on it, but it's not. All it takes is to break free and realise their iron fist of control isn't as all encompassing as they'd like you to think. Best wishes mate, good luck with your boat! Coming from someone who sails on occasion, maybe once you've gone a few places on your own merit you'll realise how free you really are.
Why is dying alone so looked down upon?
My wife always says I am going to die alone and old...Well.. I don't really care if I do. At least there would be less yelling and I could be myself.
bro leave that woman omg
@@amypretorius2018 honestly
Leave. you are much stronger than you think you are.
I'm so sorry about that, I hope you're able to leave and have a better, safer life without her
Heidegger wrote that dying is one of the only truly authentic and intimate things we can have. Since dying is necessary and for me alone to undertake. nobody can truly die with me, only be there just before.
My whole life I’ve always felt as though no matter where I go, I just don’t feel like I belong. Growing up the feeling of being inferior to everyone was too much that I was always afraid to speak up at home, in school and get-togethers. Now I’m just a 20 something year old that dropped out of college, has friends and family but zero close relationships with any of them and would rather fill that void with food and being on their phone bc it’s safer than potentially setting myself up for even more rejection.
Bro I'm RIGHT there with you, I'm about to turn 20 and shit hasn't changed : )
practically me ,except my escape is fantasy stories , i care more about story characters nowadays than people ;
Omg same. I’m 18 boutta graduate and I fear the path imma take. Whether I will even fit in, intothe real world. I really just wanna stay true to myself and not change for others that’s all
I just turned twenty
I wonder who I will be at thirty
I've lived exactly like this
I dont want this to be my story forever
This is me to a ■■■■■
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👁👄👁
As a kid growing up I thought majority of people were good as I get older I am being proved wrong everyday.
Fucking same..
Time is weird. In the time we’re both listening to this, we’re together, regardless of what time it is for me or for you.
“Thought time was like a line, like our moments were laid out like dominoes. Just days tipping one into the next, but I was wrong. Our moments fall around us. There’s no without, we’re scattered, sprinkled into lives like snow.”
Sometimes I just feel like sleeping for a very very long time, like wake me up when things get better.
They pobably won't get better if your just sleeping if you wanna fix problems you sadly have to do it yourself
I just want to lay in a flower field with the person I like and just talk about life
"A Flask of Wine, a Book of Verse - and Thou, Beside me singing in the Wilderness - And Wilderness is Paradise, now"
That's exactly what I've been wanting too
I feel your words stranger...
Me too…
Only I have yet to find that person..
Worst feeling in life is when u r nice and give so much of urself to toxic , narcissist but fail to reciprocate to genuine caring people..this world is fucked up and suffering unbearable .. euthnesia should be legalised
It's okay to be tired.
Just don't give up!
Why would i not i prefer just sleeping to a marathone which i didnt wanted to participate
What is not giving up anymore, is it pushing through? Is it not killing yourself, is it trying to live even when the darkest demons say hello. I have not given up on life, I like the universe too much but my mental state, my future friends and lover, I give up on those, any future happiness I give up on because it is only temporary and in my case it lasts for a few minutes each time before crippling despare comes back to guide me away.
@@drao3837 I totaly agree on what you've said. We should define our "words" in order to make changes, or at least to live. And that leads me a very critical question; "why shouldn't ı give up?". Well i dont know a great solution, a very persuasive answer for that. Because the last two years of mine was very difficult in economic, and mental way. I kept ask myself, "why should i keep on, what is the primal impulse that keeps me going?". After years of thinking, i've decided my mind, on one topic. Which is that i should keep on living because i've nothing else to do. I fear death, but i cannot promise myself that one day i may suicide. Than i analyse the things that depressed me, cornered me in the depths of my mind. I hate city life, i hate politics, i hate "concerned people" that constantly tells you that my life is going downhill and because of that i should make it up for myself. Man, i hate that type of people so much. I hate "religious" people where they think they have a "right" judgement to tell you that my way is wrong. My way is my way, even myself have not a clear answer for it whether it is wrong or right, even i cannot make up it on my mind. I hate people when they advice me that i should find a good job which pays good. I do not want to take a part in this society, in city life where all the people depressed about they have no time for everything yet they believe it is the "right" way to live. I want to build my own farm, where time only exist within me, like i can bend my time to my needs. But people keep telling me that building a farm is a very hard thing on my own and i should abandon that idea and found a "proper" job in the city. No, i've studied history in college and i'll be graduate from it soon, i loved every minute of it but being an academic is the last thing i want. And people just dont understand it, neither me.
True.. people can be misled sometimes, and take it too serious
It's okay to give up too. Letting go is sacred.
Last year I had a dream, people were bombing my house, It was sad. Then the angel of death appeared and I ran for his embrace. I told him how people are hurting me and it was to painful to live. He held me so gently, and he heard me with every word he listened, with his soft eyes he said “I’ll take you to a beautiful place come with me”. I remember the enchanting beauty of the place he took me too, we sat together on a cliff and watched the waterfalls as I lay my head on his shoulders. That was the night before I was almost died.
Were you in a coma or something?
@@annaschneider225 Thank you for taking the time to read my comment. It was only a dream, I wasn’t in a coma, it was the night before I tried to kill myself
@@Zen-kh2hn crazy how life works, it’s a game which no one will ever know all the secrets too.
this is so sad and beautiful. i'm sorry that you were so hurt that you seeked remedy from an angel you saw in your dream
@@biiki007 indeed it is
Dr. Manhattan : "I'm tired of being caught in the tangle of their lives"
Also Dr. Manhattan : *having an affair with a girl while having a wife*
Exactly
I feel so numb. So empty, anxious and angry all the time. I have been melancholic ever since I can remember and turning 20 made it even worse. I think life is so pointless, especially for me. I just finished my first semester at a uni. I became insanely demotivated to study when I was two months in and I was convinced I would fail everything which made it incredibly stressful for me. Surprisingly I got through it. Now having a two-week break I took a deep dive into my thoughts and it's been terrible. I'm not able to cry nor feel at least a tiny bit of emotion. I find it so exhausting to even to talk to my parents or do any activity so I just sit in my room isolated from everything. Only way that has ever worked for me is getting drunk and then crying for hours and actually feeling something. I'm on antidepressants though so I shouldn't really be drinking. I don't know why I am writing this. I just wish I didn't have to fucking exist. I just entered the ultimate doomer state.
Hey yk what u can do. Have like self talks. Go on ur voice recording and just talk to yourself. It’s very relieving to let everything go
I cannot relate to the alcohol part but everything else is literally what I am going through now. Do you ever question yourself constantly about why was I even born in the first place? I keep thinking about it for a while that I can't even enjoy being with family or people anymore. I have talked about this to my close friend but she is somewhere else and can't really help apart from listening. We gotta solve our own problems ig. But I feel like I am losing the will to do it.
Join a cult. They'll give you meaning. If it feels fake, you just have to fool yourself. Voila, you're happy.
Okay, dont actually join a cult. I just think you're delving too deep into existentialism and nihilism. There IS no point in life but some people can be happy. You can be too. I think you just need someone or something to dedicate your life to even if it amounts to nothing. Your life is a goddamn miracle ffs. Think about the number of sperm cells that didn't made it because YOU had to exist. Dont waste time moping about life's meaning and all that crap. Or do, im not your dad. If you're in a shitty situation, just keep pushing, perhaps that's life's intrinsic meaning, to just keep on pushing the boulder up the hill and do it a thousand times over. Your will is something no one can take from you. Use it.
Im younger than you so maybe dont take my advice, I might just be spewing some bs lol.
Don't settle for anyone else's reality. Few things are as important as being awake to your own intelligence. University is a precious liminal space, in which to exercise, and maybe exorcise it. You may never be as awake as you are now, however painful that is, it is important.
I know it's not much but going on walks is nice :) At least enjoy the little aesthetics in life, the rest should fall more into place I guess once you start to leave the idea that you have to be like this behind, and you start to accept that sadness just sort of comes and goes and is neither bad nor good it just is.
Basically, have empathy for yourself and learn to not berate who you are inside so much because you're not all rotten like you'd like to think. Have a good day and hopefully a good life!
people always say "dont listen to sad songs or you'll get sad/depressed" but for me i feel the opposite; it brings me comfort knowing that there are others who might share the same feeling, empathy as they say. for me, it makes me feel like i'm not alone in this world. and these post rock songs do clear out my mind, like a gentle lullaby saying to embrace my problems and hardships. it's like using doomer music to escape doomerism lol. i know it's weird, but thats the effect this genre has over me.
i dont feel like ending it, i just feel lonely sometimes. and i know my case is not that severe, but just remember there are others who are also looking into the stars with you, and post rock brings us closer together.
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for me it makes me feel like I experience something that I would not have experienced otherwise. And it's good since it allows me to grow as a person and be better.
Not weird at all. I listen to type o negative for this exact reason.
The first song really encompasses that feeling of being awe-inspired by the universe and its magnitude. The feeling that your troubles and thoughts are just one among billions, and that ultimately they really don’t matter that much. Existentially speaking, this is terrifying for some, but somehow having the wisdom that your actions and person are just really inconsequential is somehow freeing.
I'm tired of the human experience, i cant help but feel like i belong somewhere far out. My deepest desires involve flying off this rock and exploring and creating like a god, not the confines of the matrix.
" On winter nights the mermaid sings,
"I was made for better things
Better things, dearie,
Better things" "
I have feelings of wanting to become just pure being of consciousness, so i could float through space and see everything and observe every creature, but not being seen or interacted with. Sounds like pure loneliness, only being able to see all the enjoyable but never be a part of it? I wouldnt exactly be human anymore, maybe the need for socialising will go away with all other basic needs, but i guess it would be nicer to have a companion to observe with. We would not argue about anything, as we HAVE nothing ourselves, just the truth before our eyes, and think about it together. A true friend.
@@hamjuice345 Yeah doing that for a while would definitely get lonely, but a friend or perhaps a small group would be nice and warm. Interesting thought bro
I wanna do that too bro. Exploring what is out there would be beautiful. Unfortunately, our human capacities go so far. You and me won't get to explore it, so might as well just gaze at it and admire its absurdity as well as beauty. Try to live a good life in this earth because were already here, we can't change that. So why live sad? Just enjoy life while you're here. Much love.
@@brandonnunez6820 BIg Facts bro Big Facts. There may be another way though , astral projection and lucid dreaming perhaps
and I just found out she's with another man. And I also got a high fever. Perfect music for this moment in my life.
hell, this sucks. please don't be too sad :(
True love is dead brother.
head up, king. Sending u luv
Love became so difficult now ...
It is not yet the end, the more difficulties happen in your life the more you will get stronger
I spent countless nights dreaming of snowy, dark, cold and yet so peaceful landscapes in which I'm either slowly dying without fighting against it, or learning to appreciate nature in order to blow some sort of will to live into my lungs.
Every night when it's cold enough, I can't help but go outside and sit on my beloved cat's grave with my naked feet in the snow or in the cold and wet grass. Remembering poems or songs. Long-lost friends that actually never were my friends. All the beings I've loved. Looking at the sky, then back at my blue-ish, purple-ish frozen feet. It's the only way I can feel some kind of peace of mind. When it's dark, cold and lonely, then I can accept that I'm nothing compared to the universe, that death will come and it will be liberating and beautiful. And it brings me peace. I'm otherwise always anxious, afraid and uncertain. I don't trust anyone, let alone myself. People except so little from me and I'm still uncapable of showing them that I can do it. I haven't left my home in more than a year. Every step outside is taken with a torturing desire to escape as far as my weak body can take me. I can't stand people's eyes on me, I don't know how to look at them, how to speak to them. I'm tired of being told to be happy and enjoy life, as if I chose to come out of the womb as this melancholic, suicidal mess of a man. I dream to sleep until the end of times, in the snow beneath a darkened sky.
It sounds weird to say this, but I get you. The cold has always been somewhat comforting to me, even if it was the complete opposite of that warm hug I craved for. It was biting and unforgiving, but for those few fleeting seconds it was quiet and still and almost gentle. I love going outside on late winter nights, ones with cold breezes and ringing silence as the world fell asleep. Feeling the freezing air flutter under my light jacket or over my face was both freeing and terrifying as I finally realized that I was a mere spec in the never ending blur of our universe.
And it’s so fucking tiring.
But let me just say this: I’m proud of you. I am. I don’t know you, or what you’ve been through, but I know how it feels. The overwhelming and crushing weight of being so fucking tired of everything. I’m proud of you when you step outside, even if it is just in your backyard. I believe in you, and I’m positive that your cat did and still does too :)
If you ever find yourself on one of those nights not seeing the worth in your life, I beg you to rid those thoughts. Keep going for your cat, for those fleeting memories of forgotten friends- hell, keep going for me. It sounds weird coming from a high schooler who’s definitely not stressed about her physics homework, but maybe I’ll get you to smile for a bit. Even if it was just one smile, it still sounds like a win in my book.
Best of luck moving forward. I believe in you. I also apologize for the fucking novel I wrote out here.
this really broke my heart. i never thought i'd be that hurt to be about to cry for a comment in youtube. i just want you to know that i'm reall sorry. for everything that is going wrong.
"or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending"
@@image_not_uploaded @Sullivan hell you two made me cry. although i'm craving for a warm, never-ending hug, being outside in those dark, cold nights, barefoot and so cold that i'm not shivering anymore, is one of the few things that truly give me peace. in such moments i don't see the universe and me, but only the universe, because i'm a part of it and i only feel that way in those nights.
Hey, it’s okay. It will all be okay. We all love you. You are enough. Take life one step at a time. Those around you love you. I promise.
Hang in there, please. You are a beautiful person. Honestly, you’re comment is written somehow very beautifully, you clearly have talent in you. You don’t need to use this talent - but please acknowledge it, and recognise how amazing you are.
Please lmk if yky ever wanna talk.
I’ve been done with humans ever since I was 9. My sister showed me a really messed up video of humans being evil. And it scarred me. I remember it very clearly. And I’ve only continued to see messed up things throughout my years of growing. Everyday, month, every year. I constantly remember everything bad about the human race. Constantly caught up in the corruption and evil in the highest levels of our own species. Constantly thinking and pushed into negativity because of our own society. I’ve always been the kind to be obsessed with the natural world and the empathy and love we can have for every aspect of life. I’ve always noticed the beauty in every single atom. This is Universe is THE masterpiece. And I’m stuck with millions of people who don’t see the world as I do. My mind has been beaten down. My internal subconscious is pounded to a fine dust. But even dust can be formed through the winds of time. We can always change for the better. I’m just so tired of the obvious evil we do. I’m so tired of the stupid actually killing our own species. I don’t really believe in heaven or hell. But I wish it exists simply because of how evil we can be. The universe is just to detailed. Just to masterpiece like for their not to be some form of a higher. It can be any religion. Or something we cannot even come close to fathoming. One conscious grand step at a time through this thing we call life. We all experience it everyday. The majority of us lack the skill of critical thinking. And we suffer greatly from it. Life is the longest thing you will ever experience. Don’t let the stupid bring you to there level. Have peace. Have empathy. Have the ability to know evil from good. Break down the mental barriers inside of yourself before you turn to society. Because society won’t help you fully grow. One conscious step at a time
I'm glad I found someone who put my thoughts into words.
I wouldn't count them out yet. As the captain says in Castlevania, "I've been cruel. It's a cruel world. Maybe we do all deserve to die, but maybe we could be better too."
Power, no matter how trivial or arbitrary, corrupts. Once you start seeing people as worth less than you, its easy to put yourself on a throne high above them. All anyone can do is offer empathy and kindness to their fellow humans. We're all on this spaceship call Earth, and we're stuck together, so we have to live and die together. I know life has been cruel to you, it's been cruel to me, too. I know how crushing social isolation feels, but I try not to hate the people who made me feel those things. I've come to learn that no matter how good someone appears to be doing on the outside, they're always fighting a battle that only they can see. Most times, they're not being stupid, they're fighting a storm in their mind, and you and I happened to get caught in the crossfire. They may be inconsiderate, but they aren't bad people. I think a little more understanding on an individual level might save the world. It's really easy to fight the "War on [Insert Social Problem]," but it's really hard to ask a stranger if they're doing okay.
Your worldview gives you pain. There is neither good , neither is there bad. Realise you're in a world where all act for their own desires even unknowingly. Realise it is human to do "bad", and be selfish.
Perhaps I've worsened your condition with that, but I want you to see an explanation. If you want to talk about anything, here is my Discord: Josha#6217 (or we can talk here).
This. People ain't good. We're animals after all. I expect nothing more from them than from the coyote... People like us are some kind of defects, aliens, misfits...
Wake up to reality. Your beloved Universe/Nature is a fight for life; every single second millions of organisms (micro and macro) prey on each other across the world and wherever in the universe there is life. Take this idea home: whatever is outside that perceives you as a threat or food is going to kill you or try to. If you are a true observer of nature you already know this. Don't preach about evil as if it is something general; the thing is good goes most of the time overlook because we take it as the norm, we do not value it for what it is, we take it as a given and that is why "evil" strikes us so much. Don't preach about empathy when you dismiss any evil act; most people that commit "evil" acts have been fucked up since the day they were born in one way or the other. Real empathy is trying to understand the pain that births the evil but you are just fed up with it. You live in your own bubble of idealism, "the Universe is THE masterpiece". Of course, you are stuck with millions of people who don't see the world as you do, like what kind of complaint is that? Even if everyone were good, they would still see the world differently; for each person is unique and unrepeatable and thus has their own worldview. Life is not easy, society is not made to help you or anyone. You are scared of pain, of the pain that evil causes, accept it as a natural nondesirable part of reality, like viruses and sickness which are not evil yet they can ruin/take your life away in the blink of an eye. You are afraid to be alive, to be hurt. I wake up every day, and I do not see people around me killing each other, or trying to ruin my life, you are just traumatized by fireworks in the darkness and can't see the world you live in.
i'm tired, i'm tired of feeling like a burden to myself and to the people around me. sleep can't fix me.
Wish I could just escape into another world. Some place where I actually feel like I’m home.
Home is subjective, what do you want to be a home? The good thing as humans is that we can consciously make a decision and change whatever section of the world that we have control over. You dont have control over the political climate? Then move or adapt. Dont have control over the small things around you? Then control yourself, and dig deeper within yourself to figure out exactly it is that's causing your pain, not from outside, but from within. And instead of ripping it out and cursing your misfortune, thank it. It has given you a reason to live. We want to be happy, so we run from the pain and curse it, but it is merely a tool that helps to push us along into a state of desiring something, and giving us something to work towards. I'm not saying to love pain, we can't. We dont like pain, but we can appreciate it. You have ultimate control over one thing in life from the moment you are able to be consciously awake. You have a voice inside your head, and that voice is you, and that voice can say, wonder, play, and do whatever it wants. You can do whatever you want, and you are only confined by physical limitations. That's pretty lucky if you ask me :)
@@J.ORDI-NARY thank you...
Just because other people are cruel doesnt mean you should be cruel to yourself, hold on to life and cherish every moment you have. love everyone who is good to you and be kind even when you wont be rewarded for it and especially always be kind to yourself. we are all our worst enemies in life and can often punish ourselves for things out of our control, and we always will, but take the time to remind yourself of the good you bring to the world, and stay a while longer.
What if nobody is kind?
I needed to hear this. Thank you.
@@user-ei4zj7gg1l You're welcome, I'm glad something I said helped you and I hope you can get through any struggles you have in your life.
@@deadaccount4522 Before anything, I'd like to apologize if my words seems harsh or inappropriate (not a native speaker). Keep on living, believe that one day you'll find happiness. If there isn't anyone to help you, you're the only one that can help yourself. Share your kindness with your surroundings, even when they don't pay you back with kindness. Believe me, that is one way to find happiness.
thank you JAYZUS!!
someday. someday it's all ending.
"History is that certainty produced at the point where the imperfections of memory meet the inadequacies of documentation. "
I'm praying for armageddon
some day. but not today
@@aetherland1883 You are allready in it
It never truly ends, through the doorway of death exits unto the doorway of life... another life; unto infinity. We...God is a prisoner of infinity. In the river of time, the past, present, and future flow simultaneously, infinitely repeating in an infinite variations. God loves to explore the infinite ways it can torture itself, the infinite ways it can kills itself, its all a game to someone trapped in a prison.
in the course of a few years i lost all my friends. i might still talk to them but the everyday conection we had is gone.fizzled out. And that is ok. i used to depend on them to be happy. to be able to have a good day and stand on my 2 legs. its been a year. we still talk very rarely. i got a relationship going on 3 years . but most importantly i changed. i learnt to be ok with my mistakes and be ok with my way of being. i turned it around and now have alot of hobbies and have been working out everyday for 2+ years. Life might feel like shit but just ride it out and try to understand yourself and how to deal with the world. at some point you will reach peace
i feel you man. im going through the same path. still lost in this world floating through it
@@cheesysnacs yeah i think everyone is allways a little lost. That feeling like even though you are alive and have responsabilities but somehow it feels like you are floating in nothing. To me that is what brings peace when things get bad. If death is at the end then everything that happens Now should be enjoyed because it is limited.before an eternal rest try to live the Best you can
Take your hobbies seriously - this is the only important thing I have learned.
Lucky you are in a relationship my friends haven't talked to me for about a year and I've been single for 2 only friend I have now is my dog and he's slowly dying of old age
After wandering through this wasteland of misery and suffering, We have found this oasis and sanctuary of hope. Even in the bleakest wasteland, there is still life no matter how small or big, it somehow always lasts.
This playlist reminds me of sitting in my grandfather's house. He sat in his huge chair while he explained the vast complexity of geological time. I remember he had this big red book which listed the geological epochs, and he pointed out a little illustration of a tiny horse to me. "That's Eohippus, the dawn horse," he said, "and it went extinct 56 million years ago, during the same extinction event that made our Chesapeake Bay."
Do you remember the title of the book? Sounds like an interesting read
@@purplebubblezzz9385 I believe it was The Timetables of History: A Horizontal Linkage of People and Events.
@@enraptured6700 thanks, I'll try check it out
@@purplebubblezzz9385 the most recent edition is 2005, I'm interested in it too.
The greatest condemnation is not being able to understand each other
If we are able to fully understand each other, aren't we better off as one? Maybe I'm me and you're you because we will never truly understand what 'you' even means. Idk maybe I'm just rambling but I don't see it as a condemnation. For me, it's like our inability to fully connect and understand is the same as our ability to exist as an individual.
@@canti7951 For some reason, this evoked the philosophical idea of Solipsism for me, that you, or basically your mind are the only thing in the universe or "reality" that is real, that exists. And that everyone else is just you or an extension of you, different personalities that coexist to make up you are the different things you could be, that you could embody. Or the quote from H.P. Lovecraft, "The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents.", popped in my mind the second I finished reading your last sentence.
everyone once in a while, though, you find someone who is really on the same level as you and it feels fucking great, man. if most people don't understand me, so what? I'll save my love for the people that are worth it the most. that's what life is all about. sometimes it feels as if i'm in a great sea, adrift all by myself, except that this sea is filled with billions of other lost souls, all sailing in the darkness, and although we bump into eachother daily, and most interactions tend to be fairly unremarkable, I know that I can make an effort get my row my raft to someone who matters, instead of just letting the waves dictate my life.
@@disanders817 Poetic way of putting it, and I agree. I just put the quote and the idea for some food for thought.
@@dasuero7489 yes, sorry, got a bit carried away, haha.
24 years of life and already tired of life. Endless competition, disgusting human relationships, academic stress, pressure to achieve social status, no hobbies, nothing. I don't even have the courage to die. I've had enough and I just want to see the miserable world to end as I end my life some day.
Don't end your life man, get into something simple and then build up from there - it's never too late
Usually the "tired of life" feeling hits around the mid 30's, weird seeing people hit is a whole decade earlier now
While everyone is having an existential crisis, I'm just vibing to the music, you can't find any of this mastery anywhere else.
The time and peace this playlist gave me from everyone was needed.
Edit: How is everyone so out of sync, when we all want the same things?
Delusions of value facilitated by a synthesis of the internet, media, and the mainstream (mostly).
Righteous dudes say "keep it real". We would be wise to heed their advice.
Political and religous Dogma. Nature is the objective reality. The more we put these dogmas on the level of reality, the more we move away from ourselves.
What do we all want?
i don’t think we know how to admit it mostly bc we don’t know how to put into words what we want especially when we’ve been conditioned according to the society’s we’re born into to function essential as robots
@@drao3837 peace, happiness, safety.
At first I've read "Tired of these people" and I thought "That's an album for me !"
Same meaning
When slyvia plath said
"I need a father. I need a mother. I need some older, wiser being to cry to. I talk to God, but the sky is empty, and Orion walks by and doesn't speak."
And when "Johnny truant", in the book House of Leaves said
"you'll dismantle every assurance you ever lived by. You'll stand aside as a great complexity intrudes, tearing apart, piece by piece, all of your carefully conceived denials, whether deliberate or unconscious. And then for better or for worse you'll turn, unable to resist, though try to resist you still will fighting with everything you've got not to face the thing you most dread, what is now, what will be, what has only come before, the creature you truly are, the creature we all are, buried in the nameless black of a name.
And then the nightmares will begin."
And when my 12 year old diary said
" the fact that we're not all bawling at the very concept of existing is miraculous."
I ask myself every day how do we live considering everything? And every time the answer is, just like this, from moment to moment.
I feel like I'm going mad. There's nothing to grasp on to, there is no god to rely on, there's not even definitive proof that anythings real and sometimes it doesn't feel real either and I just want some firm ground to stand on but it all feels like chaos and I'm tired and I might never not be tired because just what the fuck is any of this.
But even still amongst all this mess,, I know love, and if there's any comfort and peace, it's love. I forgive the world, because it has you in it.
The measure of a miracle is wonder, and that's not in the world, it's in us. "seeds of the future, sown carelessly"
popped up in my recommendations and it hasn't even been released for 24 hours. Needed this... but to my friends in the comments who are going through a really rough time. You are worthy. once you accept yourself and cull toxicity in your life you gravitate towards people who actually make your life purposeful. It doesn't stop the toxicity but makes it more bearable when you know there are people looking out for you. I love you and hate what you've experienced. That experience shapes you as a person but will never define you. Stay safe, your life is worthy.
A Friendly Reminder:
"It's just a bad day,
Not a bad life"
It's a bad 2555 days, but sure bud. Everything is awesome.
"It's just a bad life,
but a truly wonderful day. "
Naaah dude. Over 15 years of numbness.
I have had decades of bad days in a row and am only kept alive against my will
If you're reading this, I want you to know that you are a beautiful soul.
So are you
what is a soul, how do we know such thing is real, does it matter if we have a soul? does it matter if we don't? i guess not, nothing does
@@ozzylepunknown551 it's just who we are.
Thanks, Lili...
@@sophiarobinson8770 thank you ❤
In light of the currently occurring events, I must say I am tired of earth. These people.
Same
I spent a lot of my time lost in a dark pit in life, it feels like an entire section of my life disappeared. A year, gone, like dust in the wind. I still look back and wonder about it, it was a very sad time for me, but I learned a lot about myself in that time too, and I used what I learned to get out of the dark pit. Some days I can still feel myself about to fall back there, but it just makes me work harder on staying out of the pit.
The old saying of how the abyss stares back is true, but what I've learned through my experience is it's gaze is not almighty. You can still make things right. There are people out there who care about what you're going through, you just might not have met them yet, or maybe you already have. Hell, I found those friends in people I never would've expected to become friends with, there are friends in more places than you might expect.
Hardship is what makes us stronger. If you can make it through your own dark pit you'll be stronger for it, and smarter too. So please don't ever give up the good fight against the abyss.
studying history on this is just...on another level
Same, just waiting when it'll be over be.
I'm just wanna feel something new.
I'm just wanna meet someone new.
I'm just wanna believe in love again.
It hurts, I've tried so much to fix myself. I workout every other day, I eat healthy, I work a job I don't hate, I talk to people, talk to girls, practice art and music and everything I like.
But in the end I'm still alone, when with a friend group I never feel like I'm a part of the group, just a passerby. I don't really have friends, and the one time I found someone who loved me... I couldn't love back no matter how hard I try... and the worst part, with everything I've done to improve myself, and how much I except who I am... I absolutely and fully hate who I am.
I feel the exact same way, especially with the friend group thing. Here's hoping the work to fix ourselves will end up really working out
Sat in wallow for my whole life. The saddest part is when nothing seems sad... It just all blends together. They say lows and highs, but the indifference of the universe makes me equally so.
There's something very beautiful about melancholy. It's such an odd feeling, I'm listening to this and smiling with my sadness.
I've spent most of my life feeling like this and even now that I think I've moved past my feelings of hopelessness and void, this speaks loudly how misunderstood I still feel. I feel like I see, but am not seen, regardless of my openness. And I see that most people are not seen either, and it's difficult, if not useless, to lay a blame on whatever causes this
We have to share each others worlds.
And so how do we become seen? Who has truly seen us? Who truly knows us and our heart?
I believe God does, but can I be honest with you? At this point in my life, even that is hard for me. We rely so much of humans, the people around us…. Maybe we shouldn’t, we probably shouldn’t. But I don’t know how to love people and at the same time not try to put all my heart and trust and care in people.
Either I become jaded and don’t care about anyone.
Or I love everyone fully, and with all my heart, and have a faith in humanity.
Maybe things aren’t so polar as we see them. People have probably seen me right? What metric do I use to feel like they have seen me. When I have truly seen other people?
Maybe my own family? Maybe the woman I am coming to love. Maybe small moments with my closest friends.
Maybe it doesn’t have to be all the time, but then how often does it need to be? What would that look like?
All I can feel, is that right now… I don’t feel seen enough, not unsatisfied enough. I am too different from everyone I know, I’m too weird, and I’m not really sure if people actually like me at all. 😞
I came across this video on my feed and seeing Dr. Manhattan saying that line just hit me. So I clicked on the video. But I didn't expect to see the comments I see here. It hurts to know others feel the way I do. Being tired of the people and the unfortunate they bring. Seeing others sad because PEOPLE. People can't treat or care enough for one another. Can't care about someone other than their self. And the caring ones suffer. I appreciate all of the ones who are commenting to help the others who are struggling. Makes me feel like their is still hope for mankind out there. I hope sooner rather than later.
I remember a quote from the Truman Show and it stayed with me ever since then "We accept the reality of the world with which we are presented" - Christof, 'The Truman Show'
This is an incredibly beautiful comment section. Everybody letting their souls out because they tragically don't have any other place to do it.
It's actually pretty funny - I speak to myself at work in the same way that a lot of these comments write for the same reason. I really don't know why I do it (venting), but I do hope that some of my coworkers actually listen to my words. They probably just think I'm insane HAHA.
I talk about big picture things, like why humanity probably won't last another 500 years in many details; and small picture things, like why I no longer care about being a virgin. Again and again I say these things to myself hoping a like-minded person hears me and wants to skip past the small-talk bullshit and reach something visceral and deep. I realize that this tactic just drives people away, but it's the only way I know how to communicate without bogging the conversation down into awkward silence and boredom.
I REALLY wish that I'd been born in a more authentic time period, perhaps before agriculture. When a person didn't even know how large the world was, and was fully immersed in their tribe. There was no manipulation by thousands of people who don't even cross-communicate controlling the circumstances in which you exist in [THIS] way for a limited amount of time. You knew your place, fit into it naturally (no inner turmoil), and thought that gods existed because your parents taught you that when you were young and because it was seemingly confirmed from using psychedelics in your teens until death.
Forget my dry ass comment, really immerse yourself in the way that must have felt. Killing an animal and earning your tribe's respect, your father and elder giving you a proud smile looking you directly in the eyes. The liberation of not sleeping in one place for long, always living with true movement. Traveling to the distant land wondering what could be there given your psychedelic experiences. Watching lightning and thinking that it is caused by some entity that you know from altered conscious states. Dancing around a fire with no fear of judgment with people that your REALLY understand and depend on. Having sex with a girl your age after a successful day of hunting, providing meat for her.
The way we live in modern times is not correct. We are all missing so much of what this human experience has to offer AND IT'S FUCKING KILLING ME!!!
Damn😔
i agree. it'd be cool to have been born in that sort of time period. but, we're here. we might as well try to make the most of it.
I've been constantly coming back to this little playlist a lot recently. It's melancholically beautiful.
I remember sitting alone in my room high on acid and thought about the missed opportunity that I had with a girl who we shared feelings with eachother. I never cried so hard in my life. I was thinking about the world and about the fact that I won't have my parents forever. This was a very hard trip for me but I am thankful because I haven't cried in a lot of years. It felt like freedom.
Today is my 25th birthday, and I'm feeling lost. My brother has covid, but I think he will pull through. There are protests happening nearby and that's all people are talking about. My friends forgot my birthday which stings, but I don't blame them. The two birthday calls I did get from family were so negative - along the lines of "despite everything that's going on, maybe you can still enjoy your day" and I thought that I could enjoy my day but now I feel so empty.
I spent most of the day running around getting medications for my brother, because the pharmacies are running out of stock I had to go to a few different ones. When I got home, my apartment was flooded - the water destroyed the book that I bought myself as a birthday present and left in the packet next to my chair. Not much else got damaged, but I've spent the last 6 hours mopping and trying to work out where the water came from.
Not the best way to start my 26th year - but maybe it will all be fine. I am a school teacher and when our covid restrictions ease up we will be able to return to school - this might return the shred of purpose that I need in my life to wake up every morning. I think that tomorrow I will just sleep in until I can't anymore, or until hunger pulls me from the sheets.
I don't feel like waking up tomorrow, but I also don't feel like going to sleep tonight.
Stay safe everyone. I wish we were closer.
Atleast happy birthday bud
@@al-farizi8756 Thank you
hey hope you're doing okay! bad days are just what they are, days that are bad. have faith. things will get better in time!
@@turtleby Thank you very much Elaine. You're right! A day is not a lifetime. This means so much to me. This will turn around!!
@@MitstaGhana cheer up man, life is unfair but i hope you will come through it. Wish you the best, you can do it🤗
I went to bed an angry 20 something and woke up a 48 yr old man.
People talk about so much topical and social issues and conspiracies.
The one they dont talk about is how it was possible for the last 20+ years to melt away in the amount of time it took me to glance left.
Yup…
Too real
The only thing that keeps me going is the solace that I am not alone. You are my people, and in this tiring life, we will trudge forward into the darkness of tomorrow.
This is one of the prettiest stanzas I’ve ever read. Thank you.
That feeling when you tell people around you that you don't wanna live anymore and they start laughing.I hate this world so much!
To the kid in the darkness blessed by the stars, Good night.
This playlist is amazing, as all the playlists on this channel are, but I cannot get over the fact that the illustration looks like handsome squidward gazing off into the distance
" To live among lies and watch the ones you love slowly die is the incarnation of hell its self'
whole thing felt like the expanded form of Low Roar's Breath In, set to chill mode.
every day i’m reminded when you lose someone you used to share your ideas on the secrets of the universe with... your heart is resilient but so is the memory tucked away in it.
Anyone who feels lost and alone in this world...
sit outside under the stars one night and look up...
Somewhere, out there...
Someone is looking with you ❤️❤️
"And i wondered how the same moon outside
Over this chinatown fair
Could look down on illinois
And find you there"
When you're in a big city you can't even see stars at night
Reading this really make me wanna cry man. It's just, it hits me hard that even I have friends, family (well, not complete since my mother had divorces Twice), I always feel incomplete, empty, and alone. No one really care of what I feel, that's why I have no one to talk. Even my closest friend can't even understand how I feel, he can't put himself in my shoes. I'm so tired of being empty, I have trust issues considering how my mom got divorce twice, I got too much burden on my shoulder of how I have to be a father figure in such a young age for my younger brother and sister since their father left them. Everything feels hard for me, and I just want someone I can trust, to talk about all of these. I've met that person once, I thought she was the love of my life. When I started to trust her, felt comfortable around her, she left me and choose my friend over me. Now I can't move on from her since I really trusted her. Sometimes when things gets harder, I just wanna call her and cry, but I can't, I can't reach her, she belongs to someone else, my friend
An infinite lives you live, each one you, staring back. Thats the fun of the movie, not knowing how it ends or how it begins.
Definitely feel like that time is coming soon. Just hope it's peaceful
This reminded me of a dream. I met myself as a child. That little squeaky voice. "Does it get better?" All I could could come up with was "No, but your still here." I guess that's the point though, I am still here.
You know that old phrase "Too early to explore the stars, too late to explore the world?" That eats away at me sometimes. Im here in this world, at just the right moment, where the only true unexplored frontier to venture is right above my head, and I can't go there. All the things I could do with my life, out where gravity and light are confined to the lands, sky's and sea's of other bodies of matter. I could find new gems worth more than any amounts of diamonds, speak with a civilization other than my own, and see the terrifying beauty of space.
And im stuck here.
On a rock, at the end of the day. Nothing truly new to do, as almost anything you could do on a single planet other than _leave_ has been done. It's funny too, im not qualified to be an astronaut. I haven't the IQ or general wits to do such a demanding job. But that doesn't mean I can't dream of being in a spaceship, on my way towards an infinite adventure.
I don't hate Earth. It's a good home, even if we aren't that good at keeping it that way. But the same blue sky's and rainy days have been seen before and will be seen by people long after me.
I want to see something truly new. Blue grass on the moon of a gas giant, winds that can make islands fly away like paper airplanes, the ability to jump across an entire planet with low gravity, all like some childs dream. Even if I knew I was the only living thing on the entire planet, I would leave something small behind, just to be remembered by something.
Well, its dark outside, it won't be within the hour, and honestly; im tired.
Guess that means it's time for another day, even if it was virtually the same as the last. Goodnight, reader.
i hope it was a good night indeed. as reader i'd like to thank you for the well wishes. clearly you are a dreamer. the world needs dreamers. make sure you aren't missing anything in the place that you're stuck.
Personally, I never understood that outlook. While I, like many others, have thoughts of things grander than I. Exploring the cosmos and whatnot. Even if the world has been explored by others, all the people before me having experienced love, loss, birth, death, and everything in between. I was not born then and have not experienced all the complexities of life that those before me witnessed. Every individual person has a uniqueness to their personal journey, if you wish to explore something new, go out and find it. Even if we can't explore the stars, we can still explore each other. In others, there are entire continents to find and explore, you just have to look for them.
Why should I wish to go back in time or look to the future when there is still so much to find and experience right in front of me?
Well, everyone in this comment section is spewing their soul out in text form so I might as well join in.
I am afraid of an imminent and unavoidable future. One that I felt forced to chose and didn’t necessarily want. I try to focus on the present, on what makes me happy, but I can’t since everything points me forwards. I‘ve always dreaded becoming an adult and now that im finally one, I can’t help but feel petrified and paralysed by fear, but honestly even more by the fact that it’s all my fault.
I too am done with people. Not because I feel like they have disappointed me, but because I can’t stop thinking I will disappoint them. No matter how many friends I find or talk to very few stick. Everyone likes my jokes and finds me fun to hang around, yet It takes so much just to reveal even a sliver of my true maskless self to them? No matter what I still spend more time wasting and rotting on this chair in front of my desk doing endless work, while everyone else is actually enjoying their lives or advancing in a way that they want to. I envy them all for they don’t let the pressure of the future get to them, something I find myself too weak and fucking stupid to do. But instead of admitting it to myself I keep on working and putting on an idealised persona in front of others, a version of myself I wish I was. I don’t know how much longer I can be this way honestly, as I feel myself disappear more and more behind this idealised version of myself, leaving nothing but just an empty husk of a person with no goal, meaning or reason to be in life. If only they knew how truly pathetic I was.
„Fake it till you make it“ people say. But honestly make it to where? From my point of view there’s only a desert of pain and regret up ahead, same one there’s always been.
Upon proof reading this I can’t help but cringe at how pretentious I made it sound. I cant even express myself like a normal person anymore, but whatever. Hope this message helps whoever reads this unstructured and frustrated midnight ramble.
i too, cant talk to people without getting a mask at how they want me.
I don't know wether to laugh or cry at your story, because it feels so connected to mine, except mine is a notch higher in tiredness as I'm already unemployed, diagnosed and under treatment for depression. Forget productivity, I'm just desperately trying to find any hobby to connect back. I've lost interest in most things. Right now hanging on to music like these and some sketching, which wasn't even my hobby in the first place. Anything that makes me connect again, and stops me from looking at the fan above, repeating the steps in my mind of how to tie the knot. I'm scared because what little is left of interest in my life is also fading away slowly.
Sorry, i don't mean to depress you. For what it's worth, stay curious about the future. Who knows, you might win a lottery or things might get better ahead.
Feel free to write back to me here in the comments if you ever feel down again, I'll listen to you. Hope you have an interesting tomorrow.
@@shishirdas9697 Damn, it seems like you’ve reached an even greater height of apathy and desensitisation. Honestly, I wish I could tell you at least something that could help you, but as you’ve read my position isn’t that much better than yours.
Still I’d like to say that it’s always better to focus on a thing that makes you forget about your past or future and makes you live in the present. Of course it’s not advisable to constantly live in the present but so is living in regret of the past or dread for the future. That thing might seem weird, stupid or embarrassing to you at first but in the end it’s always worth doing it over living in numbing comfort. Also venting by yourself could help. For me I’ve found that letting my emotions go while listening to angry or sad music has worked in at least marginally keeping me afloat.
Honestly, I’m glad you decided to comment. The fact that someone in a similar state decided to reach out genuinely means a lot to me. Thanks and I hope you find whatever you need to make you feel alive again.
Wow , we share similar experiences. It honestly is tiring having to hide who I really am. I’m tired of being scared to embrace who I really am deep down. I lack in social skills and am awkward. Makes it hard enough to connect and relate with people. I’m boutta graduate hs and mann what a ride life is gonna be
I feel you too. You worded my fright of the future perfectly and you should try becoming a writer cause that was beautiful
the first track really hits different. feels like the last thing you hear before the end of everything
Idk what I'm doing here. Sure, I could be considered melancholic, but I'm definitely not in a depressive state; I'm generally happy with my life. But reading the comments of people in here really touches my heart. It hurts to know that so many people are in pain simply due to the life in which they were born into.
That being said, there is nothing I can truly do or say that will be of much help, but I really hope you all can make it through what I hope is only an episode in your life. I can't say whether it gets much better; I'm still young, I wouldn't know. But I hope you can find something, or someone, that will give your life meaning.
I hope one day you may find the happiness to keep on living.
Alcest and Sigur Rós creates magic ❤️
I heard this song two days before my dog died of cancer, this song reminds me of her, thanks for uploading it.
Running away from this society and building a cabin in the woods is all i can think about these days.
"I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore"
The fact that Dr Manhattan got overwhelmed proofs that he's still a human, that makes everything about him more tragic
I'm feeling this exact way today. Your upload was timely.
i'm just now listening to this playlist as i read the comments. i think i found a place to go when i feel emotional or apathetic, i love to see that everyone looks at death with different eyes. for me, i've never been afraid of it. it has always been something i've been curious of, rather than afraid. everyone is scared of death, whether if it is themselves dying or their loved ones... maybe it's because no one close to me has ever died, and i know that when that happens i'll feel extremely sad. but when it comes to thinking of me dying, the only thing that i'm scared of is the physical pain that my body could suffer. but i rather want to experience it, just so i can finally discover what comes after, and hopefully be in peace.
this is a difficult world, where you cannot stop pretending when you're with someone. i feel like it is impossible to be oneself when you're interacting with other people, even if it is someone you completely trust. not saying that as something bad, human relations are essential to be alive. but at one point, you'll always need to be by yourself to be in peace.
just some thougts that have been in my mind forever.
I'm not sad, I'm just extremely puzzled. I'm puzzled with how confused and calm I am: I am puzzled that I do not feel anything. I like solving puzzles though. It's just that I don't possess enough intelligence or skill to solve the puzzle I made myself. It takes a different kind of genius to solve the puzzle they made themselves, I suppose.
What do I need to know now ?
Open yourself to your question, and dwell in it as you let other things that seize your mind gently go. And in that place an answer will grow
Not all questions need to be answered. But from what I have lived through, I can say this, it's fine to feel calm when faced with this hell we call life, but don't let that peace come from indifference, because then you succumb to despair, and if that happens, it's difficult to come out of that hole.
I once read something I liked, "it's not about finding answers to questions, it's about questioning the answers"
My eyes are closed. I listened more intently. I’m coming out as extra terrestrial.
I've lost so much in the past four years. My 13 year relationship with the only woman who would love a loser like me, my mother, my job and home. But it doesn't matter.
Because I don't matter.
you matter. to not feel sickened by what you have experienced would be unhuman. You will find yourself again. Your life is worthy.
You matter. You are your own.
You matter.
You matter Adam
God loves you man
You’re not a loser
Rise up man
Rise
Adam I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm just a random guy on you tube but my thoughts are with you, the numbness will fade eventually just stay busy m8.
I'm so afraid of growing up, I'm still just a kid and for the longest time, I wanted nothing more than to grow up. But as I get closer to moving out and starting on my own I realize how badly I wish to stay a little kid. trauma and mental health took my early childhood and I was always a bit of a loner, I was forced to grow up much faster than most kids so it was hard to relate to the carefreeness, it feels like yesterday I was starting grade 7 and thinking I had passed the halfway point. where did the years go? right now in my life, I can't tell if it the best it been in a while or the worst, I'm in love with a girl who is just as in love as I am, but I struggle with myself all the time, one of the few people I have always had with me recently tried to take their life and is on the edge most of the time, I cry for him sometimes. not for myself. It's been a long time since I cried for myself, the stories of other people always get me, maybe it's because I think I could have helped or what I've been through isn't as bad. It hurts knowing that I lost my innocence far sooner than most ever should, I was stressing about what I wanted to be before I could do long division, I don't have much time left before I'm going to have to choose, my family isn't a military one but I don't know where else to go, and if I truly don't have a passion then at least I'm fighting for my people. being a guy im used to not being able to express my self but I only have 1 person I could talk to like this, and he tried killing himself. It is much easier to talk to random anonymous people on the internet than it is expressing myself to the people I care about, I feel like a burden when I do because i know my family has all been through stuff and they are all doing their best. now that I have let out my rant of being a kid regretting growing up and my loss of innocence, to whoever reads this, to whoever is going through a hard time. I love you, and not like I'm just saying that to make you feel better, the world is a hard, hard place and I know it. But if you need 1 person to tell you that, ill be that 1. and you stay on this floating rock with me too, because if i could i would say i love you in person and if you're gone. then I never can
U have 👊😉💞
The first track feels like living through a few thousand years on a wasted, barren Earth, unable to die, unable to evolve, with nothing to do but to gaze at the infinite sky and see the stars and the faces of those who have been granted with mortality and have since then left.
This is oddly calming. I wanna feel sad yet i don't. It's almost as if this is my happy song. I am okay, I'm not thinking of anything and I am at peace.
sheep are couting me
I am very lucky. Being alive is such a wonderful experience, the good makes us feel accomplished and the bad makes us want to go back to the good. We always have something to do, to want. How boring would everything be if we could find permanent peace, it would be mindless. If we really wanna find peace, then why dont we like it when we numb ourselves to everything, why dont we just all remove the emotion from everything? It's because it isnt about the peace, it's about not being bored. I think the hatred, sadness, pain, death, tragedy, ect- is just as beautiful as happiness. They are the things that give us something to strive for. When you pity yourself, you focus so much attention of what things went wrongly for you that you never stop to appreciate the obstical in the first place, or congratulate yourself for getting over it. What a great gift we have been given through birth. We have a mind that does not seek peace, it seeks happiness. And through that slight difference we have such a diverse, controversial, complex, and wonderfull human society. To fully experience life, you domt just feel happy as much as possible, because your cannot be happy all the time and striving for it constantly almost puts too much strain on yourself. At the end of my life, I will look back and go "I'm so happy to have felt something, good or bad, all these years." Because feeling the pain, it hurts, we all know it hurts, and its the emotional pain is what makes us not appreciate the opposite of happiness. It hurts so much, indescribably so, for every one on earth to live and keep moving. We undergo discomfort and annoyance and pain and hardship and work every single day, because in order to survive we can't just sit back and relax and have kind people around us all the time and have perfect days and have perfect attitudes, we have to suffer to keep going, and it's in those tiny moments inbetween the pain that we look forward to. But dont you realize? The pain makes us feel alive. It's such a blatant reminder of the fact that we have conciousness and lucidity and emotions, the opposite of boredom, yet we often get stuck in the desire to get away from pain that we dont actually understand why we feel it. We are lucky, more so than we can really comprehend. Pain isnt such a bad thing, In a sense, pain is a good thing because it gives us something to not want and of a consequence, something to desire, to do, to move toward, to work toward, to put in effort for, to learn things for. We will never reach true happiness or peace, and if we do, it will be the end of us. As soon as the threat of pain and the desire of something better leaves, we will have nothing to do, no where to work towards, no competition within ourselves. No reason to live other than to permanently be in one state and then die. What we endure serves as a reminder that we are alive. So I'll say it again.
We are lucky, all of us.
woawwwww !!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺
this is one of the most beautiful thing that I ever read in my life
@@antofashionbeauty thank you :) if you wanna follow my insta it's the same as my name here
It sounds nice, but I disagree.
well spoken my guy
I think today was the longest time I've ever stared at my reflection without doing anything, not to do make up, not to fix anything, just dead ass stare at myself. It was okay. Great even. I didn't see anything. Not the flaws that i once used to focus on more so much, not the ugliness that used to make me wanna kill myself, and definitely not the future that my mind used to envision and that i used to firmly believed was going to be my fate. Instead i saw nothing but plain me staring back at me. For others they might think nothing of it, that its normal and that i shouldn't think of it as anything special but for me that was new, that was great, it was a feeling i once wished for. I felt- feel not necessarily happy but contented... like I'm at peace or something. Im almost so sure that any moment now, the old me could come back but for some reason i couldn't care less at all. I'm just gonna enjoy the moment, cherish it and wish that when my old self-hating self do comeback i would be able to look back at this moment and smile.