i guess Im asking the wrong place but does someone know of a trick to get back into an Instagram account? I stupidly lost the account password. I love any assistance you can offer me.
@@burpie3258 she didn't like the idea of me walking through the town centre on my own at midnight on a Saturday. She had fun at then plus it meant that I could drink too since she would go to the bar for me.
@Love you more my grandma is pretty special in that respect, I was never stopped from doing anything (I mean drugs but that was never really my thing) because she would just come with me or would get someone she trusted to come with me.
@@lr650 omg YES theres an 80s goth night at my local club. I haven't gone myself but my friend says its pretty good so I'm really looking forward to going myself :D
@grayson land I'm 20 and live in an extremely small midwestern town and the goth scene is weirdly rampant here 🤣❤ I mean it's awesome but you get a lot of looks from the old people clad in cowboy boots and western gear
@grayson park first of all, good luck on your journey, don’t let her invalidate your gender identity :( ❤️ Second, it is SUPER HARD to do anything with hair that’s been dyed black! Why not use your money to secretly buy a black wig online? Have it sent to a friends house. Try it out :)
It was odd. Where I lived it was very unfriendly and unwelcoming and everyone judged everyone else by what music they listened to and even if you listened to the "correct" music you also had to be listening to it for the correct amount of time. It sounds like it was very different in the UK we had all heard of the Black Rose in Camden though :D
I'm a teenager with no freedom and strict parents who have unreasonably high expectations so I live vicariously through these types of videos, your voice is so nice and your experiences are so funny and interesting!
Dorian: "I'm not a very nostalgic person" also Dorian: *Writes, films, edits, and posts an ENTIRE NOSTALIGA PROJECT* x'D Awh bless. These stories remind me of my teen goth days. I miss it
About the seeing a iconic beautiful goth goddess when you're a baby bat is for me, I was very torn between "Do I wanna be like her" or "Do I wanna date a girl like her" lol The Bi Awakening 😅😁🖤
"I'm not a nostalgic person", Dorian says. And then waffles on for an hour about good old times. :D I have lived a similar life over here in Europe. There will be a Disturbed concert in June. I'm so happy.
I too was a liberal teenager. I got to do anything I wanted. I traveled to rock festivals. I went to metal concerts. I snuck girls out of their houses late at night and ran around town. We camped in the woods instead of going to school. I lived and I knew that one day that it was going to end. And one day it did. But I lived. And I remember. I remember at time when I was free. I was free of responsibility. I was free of guilt. I lived unapologetically and I will always remember when I was young and when I was free. And listening to your stories awakened those memories. Thank you. - Six
This is beautiful but it makes me so sad because that's exactly what I wanted when I was a teen. I had a friend that lived like this and I envied her. I was never free. I was full of guilt, sadness and rage. I hated everyone and myself. I could only have fun if I was drunk. I probably wasted the best years of my life
The first goth girl I ever saw was in a food court, at a Hungry Jack’s (which is basically Burger King in Australia) and I was... stunned. Her BOOTS. Her coat. Oh my gosh. I was I think 8-9 years old.
Your comment just made me remember running into two women in full gothic lolita (parasols and all) in a mall in the suburbs when I was about 10. I was just like :O
i too remember the first time i saw a goth girl. ENTRANCED. i was born in 96 so scene was popular when i was a teen, omg the first time i saw a scene girl.. WOW. i was at a small amusement park, struggling to let myself off a ride after it was over. she walked by and released the safety bar for me and i remember being so stupefied by her style i forgot to thank her
The first older rockabilly/punk girl I met was a cashier at a pizza place. I was probably 11-13. I loved her handmade hairbow: neon green felt with a skull bead in the center. I asked her if she sold them, and she said: "Don't even worry about it!" and straight up gave it to me. My freakin' heart, man. 💚💀 I pray she's doing awesome these days. She f'n ruled. 😍
Ghost-Faced Hindu my father does that to me too! He says that I dress this way because I’m pretending to be someone else, not myself. He can’t accept the fact that I’m not the same person I was fifteen years ago.
I think I was lucky to have my grandparents, they kind just expected me to be weird. When I was 13-16 going to goth nights my grandma would come with me and I actually liked that she would come because it meant that I didn't have to walk into the centre of town to get a taxi home and risk being beaten to death by a group of drunk chavs. She liked my friends too even though they were all a lot older than me.
I'm a couple years older than Dorian. Society was different in the early 2000 when I was raving. There was no check 25. I was buying alcohol from the off licence at 14 and when I started raving at 17 it v wasn't that unusual to meet 15 or 16 year olds and I did have a raving mate who was 14 back then. it's hard to imagine now. I'd have been turned away at the door these days.
@@autumnishere420 it wasn't as romantic and exciting as it sounds lmao, yeah it has its moments and it was wild but mentally and physically we're dealing with it now
@@autumnishere420 you could find the drug dealer, alcohol, party all night, type teenage crowed nowadays, you just have to get out and get to know people, you could find these people by being curious and wanting to try some things. It’s what I did and now i’m living a life of fun and ignoring the online perception of EVERY teenager out there, cause the truth is, is not every teenager nowadays is overly sensitive, scared of life, against everything bad, not fun, that’s just the crazy people finding an outlet online to vent about everything they hate and it became a whole stereotype. So yeah, just get out more and stop being scared cause that’s what stopped me for years. Cheerios!
I was born in ‘97 and can’t relate to anything she is describing but I could listen to her talk about the 2000s goth scene for hours. She describes it so well!
Loved this .....im 48 and was a child goth in the 80s . Sisters .....cult.....alien sex fiend . My goth childhood sweetheart im with now. We rekindled our love in 2012 and still together. Its like being a teen everyday as we still listen to sisters etc. Its ace. Really loved this babe . Reminds me of how awkward we all were at that age on the goth scene . Stay safe everyone x
Not boring at all! It brings me back, honestly. I'm five years older than you and I know all those feelings you're talking about: being young and messy and cute and doing things you're not quite comfortable with so you might be seen as "cool". Though I grew up in bumfuck nowhere, so there were no clubs to go to. I ended up meeting the cutest little goth boy at a battle of the bands and falling for him. We were adorable and our makeup sucked and our clothes were just black items with holes cut into them. Lately I've been wearing a necklace he gave me 23 years ago (just a tiny skull on a nylon cord) every single day. I long for those days when I'd be vulnerable and adorable with people.
As someone who grew up sheltered and with pretty bad social anxiety and who has still never been drunk or done a non-prescribed drug in my life, I love listening to these stories
my mum let me watch what ever horror movie i wanted at the age of when i can just remember, i was watching evil dead when i was 5 n just thought everyone was aloud lol, my mum was so chill, sadly lost her to lung cancer when i was 14, but she will always inspire me n be in my heart xxxx
Your parents sound awesome! If they hadn't been as open minded, you would have done the exact same things but with zero safety! Coming from someone who was raised by strict parents 😩
Same! My parents were SO overprotective and I was quite the wild child. If anything I think their overprotective-ness made me rebel even more. Ya know the old cliche that the sheltered catholic school kids end up being the most wild, drug doing, sex having kids. 😆 It's definitely a thing. Now that I'm older though I do feel for my parents and worry I might get slapped with karma when I have kids lol 😬
Now, that sounds amazing for you, but the totally lazier-fair style of child rearing is not healthy. Kids need rules and lines and it's not easy to find a balance between letting them have freedom and finding themselves and laying down important rules.
Idk letting a 14 year old go to 18+ nightclubs with grown men and predators who go after grown women, let alone a minor was probably not the most awesome move. Maybe the 90’s was not as dangerous as today. Also a lot of drug issues from that freedom followed Dorian as an adult like OD’s and addictions. I’m not saying parents need to be strict and dictators but…. There is definitely a line. No hate to Dorian at all though, that’s all on the parents.
@@Jess-zm5xt Where I'm from it's normal for teenagers to go to clubs. As long as they're with friends and the parents are picking them up or are aware which parent is picking them up or how they get home it's fine. An unsafe situation involving drugs or alcohol can also happen at a house party, but banning your teen from going to those is ridiculous imo. You just have to educate your child and hope for the best, at the end of the day they are their own person.
We had emo kids and scene kids growing up. Didn't feel like I fit in with them either even though I was constantly called Emo. I just wore a lot of black and liked dark stuff. I hung out in the metal scene for a while but I didn't feel like I fit in there either. If there were goths when I was growing up perhaps that would've been my clan. Now I'm just an adult who still wears a lot of black and still likes dark stuff and I go back and forth between edm, metal, goth and industrial. I love hearing you talk because you lived through an era that I only dream of being able to experience. Now I just experience goth online.
And my first experience with Goth was as a kid. I saw mall Goths and from there, goths always caught my eyes. I remember wanting to look like that. It led me to start wearing more black once I turned 12😂 wasn't until I got older that I learned about Goth Culture.
When I was a kid, my parents had a strict "home by 10" policy until I hit 17, when they just stopped caring where I go and what I do. There were late night "where the hell were you" scandals or my mom picking me up from having a great time with my friend group because it's too late, and then there was a transitionless "aight imma go to x and y city and be home in 3 days" with no further information required of me.
This happened to me, like I could go off to Glasgow for a week at 17 and they are just like oh ok have fun but at 16 they would be like no way your going on your own we're coming with you.
My *that girl* experience was a whole bunch of girls at the Depeche Mode Violator concert, all walking around gothed up carrying long stemmed red roses. I was 19 and said THIS. THIS IS YOUR LIFE NOW. 🖤
I remember 2000 when Hot Topic was, well, entirely alternative fashion..this may be an unpopular opinion but I liked it WAY better back then without the cheesy fan stuff
@@user-mb9nm7bq5e Dollskill is a company that many alternative people don't wanna support. The owner is racist, ableist, and she's done many horrible things in the past with half-ass apologies. Plus they steal a lot of smaller-lesser-known creators designs and resell them for a higher price. Overall they're very unprofessional in my opinion.
i find myself thinking the same thing. i miss tripp pants. i'm tired of seeing billie eilish and bts merch. i used to go there to buy band tees when i was a scene kid. now the only things smashed in your face rarely have anything to do with alternative fashion.
My mother used to dress me as a child like a little porcelain doll. As I got older, she still dressed me what she called "cute", but a bit less lace and ruffles. So I was bullied for that on top of being bullied for being an Autistic "gifted" kid all the teachers adored. It wasn't until I was 11 that I realized that other kid's mother's didn't pick their clothes out at that age. When I discovered the Goth scene at age 13, my Aunt bought me my first two pairs of outfits for my birthday and she took me to her house and did my makeup and hair and then my mother came and saw me and had a conniption fit. She said for my Aunt to really tell me with what I looked like with that "stuff" on my face and in all black. My Aunt turned to me and told me when she moved out, she had black cutlery, black plates, black bedsheets and bedspread and she said, "be who you want to be". And of course, my mother was like, "Susan!" And had another fit. To this day, my mother still hates the Goth look, but I don't care because it makes me happy! 🦇
When I was younger I went through a 'goth phase' and i think i still have that inside me i just dont dress goth anymore (more historically inspired). But even though im not in the goth culture anymore, I absolutely love your videos. I love how you look, and I love how you talk. Im not saying im super clever or anything, but its so nice to hear someone else talk fast and articulatly. In my life people are constantly asking what I mean, and what i just said and its so frustrating, but I feel if i had a conversation with you, youd be able to keep up. And thats why I love your videos
This is so weird..... I couldn't be anymore opposite to goth! I love ballet and the colour white and have never liked the whole dark culture... yet here I am fascinated by you, in awe of how unbelievably amazing you look and your make up!!! Its such a nice change to see someone who doesn't want to look like a kardashian too 🙄🤪
The vid reminds me so much of my poor mum, standing second row with my teenage me at Tarja Turunen concert and wondering, where the hell she is and what she got into. Love her so much for doing so much ♡
My parents gave me freedom on how I dressed and what I listened to musically. I am forever grateful for them to allow that to me. I never really liked going out so they never had to worry about me going out meeting older folks at the time lol. Such a great video as usual!
damn i smoke constantly and people tell me all the time they don't even smell it on me. hand sanitizers, lotion, a bit of spritz, and mostly fresh air. you're good my guy!
"every goth female must have this moment" me: who was born and living in India where there is no visible goth scene at all...😖 gothrock and coldwave keeps me alive here! thankyou youtube for providing me with music.🤧
Yes! My icon has been this goth girl I met at a national bus station when I was six years old who had a pet rat that let me feed her rat a Donald’s french fry and have been inspired by her since and I am now 28 years old 🖤
More waffles from the Queen of Waffling please. Seriously I could listen to you read the ingredient list of off something and be completely enthralled. Dorian I bloody adore you
Cradle of Filth does still play live. At least they did last year. :) saw them two years in a row. Pretty sure one of your makeup looks inspired my makeup that night.
These videos make me so sad because I feel like I’ve missed out on so much - I’m 17, never kissed/been to a club/had a partner/been to a party/gotten drunk or whatever and I’m going to university next year with 0 experience of life at all 😬😭
don’t worry about it and do everything at youre own pace!!! you will enjoy it more and you will be less reckless, deffo step out of your comfort zone but dont push yourself too far and dont let others push you to do things youre not sure about.
I wasn't kissed until 17 and didn't have experience. In my 20s I went out of state I stayed out late I stayed the night with a boyfriend. I regret some terrible decisions I'm glad I had some other ones. I'm now 32 and I'm living well I know who am and what I stand for and what I like. Try new things crafts, clothes, read , go out if you can.
To me, you're problably that perfect girl at the bar. If 15 year old me would have seen you, as you look now in your video, I would probably just have given up. "Nooo.. this goth thing is not for me. I'm Unable to do anything like this, ever, so better just turn regular" I'm a 36 year old lady today. I love your hair, your makeup and your back drop! That back drop.. I want to spend money on something like that. I LOVE that green eyeshadow! Such a pretty colour. Thank you so much for this video, it's so relatable for someone growing up as a teen at those 1999/2000 timeses.
Trust me - NOBODY has more "laid back" parents than me. Laid back is an understatement to say the least, as a lot of the stuff I was either allowed to do or encouraged to do, I couldn't possibly talk about here. But honestly, I had (and still have) the most dysfunctional parents EVER.
I am still a baby bat and have much to learn but love your videos I deal with quite a bit but my grandma lets me dress the way I want similar to your parents it's just I don't have a mom or dad they left like a year ago but I get to be me because if they saw the way I looked now they would disown me I am 16 right now and am online schooled due to bullying. Because the way I express myself also I am black and goth so even alternative people choose to discriminate against me but finding TH-camrs like you truly help me a lottttt I still have much more to learn and go through and you might not see this but thank you for you are a true goddess 😆
Awww I really relate in a lot of ways. I’m happy for you that you dress how you want, I’m just now starting to realise I’m into goth/alt and I’m finding my feet here :) Do you live in the UK?
I didn't find this boring what so ever. As someone born in the year 1997, there are certain things from the past that I wish we had more of today. Like photos that you can hold in your hand. All my recent pics are on social media and I'd love to have some of them in a photp album, or in a picture frame. And don't even get me started on sneaking in to clubs. I could never have done that when I was a teenager.
Aw these stories are so nostalgic and cute! I’m 21 now, and it made me remember 19 year old me getting ready for my first rock band gig on Halloween night to meet with the guy I liked and we ended up dancing all night together! Wish I had a physical memory with me but I guess memories are better than anything else
I totally understand what you mean about being young and “stereotypically goth” I stopped having those experiences probably around 2012 unfortunately! I miss those days so much.
My upbringing was exactly like yours. I agree with literally everything you said. I was born in '84, hit the goth scene at 15/16 in 99. I love your channel!
I could listen to at least 3 more hours of your stories without so much as a break, not boring at all! Listening to this hit me with a wall of nostalgia and took me right back to my own naive mall goth days. I remember the first alternative girl that I thought was the prettiest, coolest thing on the planet and wishing to be her. She always looked so cool and confident and her hair was different colors all the time. My brother actually ended up dating her for a while and I almost had a heart attack when she showed up at our house one day! But she turned out to be super nice too and we are still cool to this day! I remember being so easily completely enamored by anything in a trenchcoat and eyeliner, yet being so awkward and clueless and having no idea what to do if anyone actually tried to talk to me. Fun times, lol.
As someone who doesn't like parties or loud music, and is really only just now in my 20s figuring out that I *have* a style I actually wanna experiment with, these stories are fascinating and fun to listen to even if I can't relate to the goth scene.
“the sheer amount my parents let me do.” i COMPLETELY relate. the sheer amount i got away with, because i didn’t have to GET AWAY with it at all lmao, i would willingly tell my mom what i was up to (to some extent) and she would drive me to pretty much anywhere. lmfao. i didn’t experience an average regulated teen’s life until i lived with my dad for a short few yrs of highschool and had to deal with his wife’s instruction and rules of living in the house as a minor (even when i was over 18 for fucks sake!) god it was hell lol. it was so irregular (for ME). i didn’t realize until recently, aged 23, how actually irregular my upbringing w my real mom was instead oh god ahaha
I salute you, sister. I grew up in the 90s-2000s hardcore scene in the states. Everything you described- the moment you see your scene Queen, the ringing ears when you lay down to sleep, the smell of smoke and hairspray, I could practically cry with nostalgia.
"Talking about anything remotely important gets demonetized" 🤣🤣🤣 You summed up new TH-cam. As a teacher, I always feel I am free to say anything in class, but the truth.
This has been quite an enjoyable video to listen to; it was incredibly interesting to hear about your past. I really love hearing about other people’s upbringings and experiences. 🖤
The green and purple is totally bringing me back to my teenage years, early 2000s when I was a lil bb goth/punk and green and purple was my fav color combo! 😂
Thank you, Mr. Dorian, for the walk down memory lane. I really enjoyed listening to your stories. I was a teen in Wisconsin, USA, in the 1990s; and my parents were/are puritanically conservative. They were especially concerned about my clothes and the length of my hair. But they at least let me go with friends to see Rocky Horror in downtown Madison. :)
3:29 There's absolutely no way I could go to bed listening to this! First off, I am adorn by your beauty in each video and absolutely love the way you express yourself through your art, not only in the way that you express yourself from the outside, but also your artistic mind and the way that you go about speaking and storytelling... it's truly immaculate. As a struggling recovering fentanyl addict and eating disordered woman hearing your stories hit home to me even though I was not in the rave scene or club scene, a lot of our struggles are similar and your channel has seriously assisted me in that growth so I want to thank you . Much love from Texas, USA. 🖤🤍
My mom didn't make a big deal about it. I remember her buying my fishnet arm sleeves with the lil' thumb holes. However, as a teen I wouldn't put on my dog collar and choke chain until I was on the schoolbus far away from my house.😅 I was pretty boring as a Goth in my teens, heterosexual, no makeup, no drugs, no alcohol, just crazy clothes. But I was comfortable being me. Growing up in a rural town there were not many of us. You would get odd stares from people. My attitude was "You got a f***n' problem?" lol. My town didn't really have a scene and I didn't know any other goths during that time. Most of my socializing with other goths was done online. I was the only one in my small group of friends. Honestly I'm having more fun now in my 30s with my local scene than in my 20s, atleast before covid.
Lmaooo. Being from America, the end of your video cracked me up. It is such a stark contrast here! "It's fiction! We're in England, where am I gonna get a gun from? I don't even know how to use it!" 😂😂😂
in addition to my first comment about my mom being simply “too” free with me as well, i HAVE to make note of your description of leaving the club that first night. that first time you feel the ringing in your ears when the sky is midnight blue (the kind of sky you might picture The Killing Moon to be written under) at 3am and you smell a humidity (even if it’s dry out) among the smoke and you see people laughing and leaving and the fishnets and the doc martens and the purposely but also accidentally unkempt hair and the sheer bliss of the world just for that moment.. an unbeatable feeling i’ve based much of the foundations of my writings on (not necessarily the same setting but i mean the feeling i get from it) - thank you dorian for sharing. 🖤
that "after coming home from a gig" feeling is so amazing, especially when it's your first gig you've been to. i remember, my first gig i went to was these guys who were playing nirvana and the main dude looked incredibly like kurt, it was one of those tribute things. that night was also my first kiss, not a very similar experience to yours but awesome regardless. that one i went with my two friends and we had the best time ever, i fall in and out of contact with one of them and sometimes talk with the other, but it's still one of the best nights of my life and my best experiences with those people. going to little alt-type shows is such a good experience all the way through, honestly.
As a former goth-girl-wannabe, I can confirm I definitely had that experience of meeting my ultimate goth-girl icon and wanting so badly to be like her 😂
I grew up shy and sheltered so I wasn’t around older kids but I was still sort of the baby of the group even if I wasn’t literally younger, and I feel the exact same way about the idea that it was okay to be open about your naïveté. Like, my friends were probably in the same boat because they were the same age as me, but I was too paranoid about looking the nerdiest or something!
My mom was like "You always wear black! That's all I see in your closet!" Me, being the sarcastic teen that I was, and an artist "I don't just wear black! There's off black, charcoal, dark grey, ebony..." LOL! GOTH GIRLS NEVER DIE 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
I hope you know that I’ve been watching you since I was 16. I’m 21 now and only recently rediscovered your channel. I was obsessed with your stories and just rewatched almost all Of them. I just want you to know how grateful I am That you decided to share your experiences, it has helped me So much. There’s also no one else like u on this platform, your writing/speaking style is so immersive- just thank you :) best wishes
That was so strange, I knew you were going to say pantera walk because that was the first song that popped into my head. I went to a place called the Mudd klub in Aberdeen Scotland between 95-97 when I was aged 15-17 and you brought it all back for me. Even looking at you, you can see when you were explaining it you were actually there through your eyes. As well as the smells u describe I also remember the long wasted chats in the toilets and the sticky ass carpeted areas of the klub 🤣🤣🤣 thankyou so much for bringing this all back to me through your experience. I'm away to go listen to walk now 🤣🤣🤣🤣
I found the whole everyone is expected to be bisexual thing tricky because I am and was a raging bisexual and I didn't understand why these cute lassies who were happy to kiss me didn't want to form relationships and have sex. Like, now I realise that they wanted to explore their sexuality to that degree and it was enough for them and that's fine but at the time my wee neurodiverse brain was so confused and thought they were all rejecting me personally 🤦♀️
I’m really digging these types of videos. I was a emo kid from a stupidly small town in the mid 00s but I can only imagine how fun it would have been to be in any type of city setting. I’m so fascinated by the 2000s and loved existing in the mid - late 2000s as a teen, wish I had been a little bit older though.
Haha... One thing I remember about growing up" if you dye your hair one more time, I am going to shave your head!" I came back a month later with a shaved head... Oh see, I did it for you!(84-85)
Omg these are the absolute best bed time stories. 😌 Please keep serving us these delicious waffles. Also that moment where you are describing the goth queen, I could definitely relate to that, in multiple ways lol.
I’m trans, I’ve just turned 17 and I’m still not able to get my hair cut. Parents are chill with me being goth though, but I’ve been wanting my haircut since I was 6. I’m so excited for when I finally can
tbh if I reallllllllly wanted to be passive aggressive about it I'd engineer some sort of crazy accident that involved getting a LOT of glue, chewing gum, etc stuck in my hair to the point where the only option would be to just shave it all off
Omg, as a 28 year old male from the goth scene in Germany I find it astounding how I can relate to soooo much of your stories :D. I started clubbing at the age of 15 and got into all of the clubs because my "crew" was clubbing for a few years already and everyone knew the owners, securities, DJs, etc. and I particularly remember seeing the "grown up" goth guys and thinking to myself how I wanna be like them ... so yeeeah, a lot of similarities there. But I actually never thought that clubs were just for illegal drugs... I actually entered the world of party drugs just a few years back. But, oh man, listening to your stories brings back so much memories from 10+ years ago. I really busted out laughing at your "make out session", I think everyone that was in the goth scene around 2000 - 2010 got those kind of stories. Thank you so so much :D
I love videos like this, I wish I got to experience the goth scene in my teens when it was thriving ,I’m 18 currently and I don’t even know one other person who likes the same music as me , the most I have is an alternative club in my city which I’ve been to twice and they don’t play any goth music at all , only really nu metal and mumble rap . :(((( i would love nothing more than to have experienced goth culture in the 80s/90s even 2000s
This is one of the most effortlessly fantastic videos I've ever watched. What a great celebration of the little piece of history and culture you lived through. Thank you so much for sharing!
You’re amazing. And my girls went thu what is defined now as emo phases. Loved it! And tho they still embrace the spooky they dress more norm now but I love they were into the same things I was from the book on paganism and ripped black jeans and black eyeliner lol. And yes they can dye their hair etc. I shaved the side of my daughters head when she was 11 or 12. Looked awesome.
Your stepdad sounds like a character in his own low-key way. I’d love to hear more stories about random interactions you’ve had with him during your babybat years.
When I was thirteen my mom helped me dye my hair purple. I have the absolute best family lol. I had limits about going out and doing risky things, but as far as creative stuff goes they were super supportive. Good times..
oh my god, the parents waiting in the car after the club :OOO between this and today's vid where you read your short story about smoking cigs at horse-camp, I am getting overloaded on nostalgia (I too was born in 1985)
I DIED as you were describing the goth girl - it’s like the scene in movies where you spot the hot girl and there’s cheesy music and slow-mo
* Dream Weaver plays * She's a babe!
That's literally how I imagined it😂😂😂😂😂😂
I saw that scene fitting in the anime "Nana" XD
I was 4 on that particular date 20th of feb is my bday
i guess Im asking the wrong place but does someone know of a trick to get back into an Instagram account?
I stupidly lost the account password. I love any assistance you can offer me.
when I was underage my grandma would come to goth nights with me
that's amazing 😭
@@burpie3258 she didn't like the idea of me walking through the town centre on my own at midnight on a Saturday. She had fun at then plus it meant that I could drink too since she would go to the bar for me.
@Love you more my grandma is pretty special in that respect, I was never stopped from doing anything (I mean drugs but that was never really my thing) because she would just come with me or would get someone she trusted to come with me.
lucky
@@lolageppl your grandma sounds awesome 💖
The whole idea of the goth scene is what makes me wish I'd been born a decade earlier
@@lr650 omg YES theres an 80s goth night at my local club. I haven't gone myself but my friend says its pretty good so I'm really looking forward to going myself :D
Same.. The whole vibe of the late 90s/early 2000s is what's getting me everytime.. I almost could experience it I'm born in 2001...
@grayson land I'm 20 and live in an extremely small midwestern town and the goth scene is weirdly rampant here 🤣❤ I mean it's awesome but you get a lot of looks from the old people clad in cowboy boots and western gear
@grayson park first of all, good luck on your journey, don’t let her invalidate your gender identity :( ❤️
Second, it is SUPER HARD to do anything with hair that’s been dyed black! Why not use your money to secretly buy a black wig online? Have it sent to a friends house. Try it out :)
It was odd. Where I lived it was very unfriendly and unwelcoming and everyone judged everyone else by what music they listened to and even if you listened to the "correct" music you also had to be listening to it for the correct amount of time. It sounds like it was very different in the UK
we had all heard of the Black Rose in Camden though :D
I'm a teenager with no freedom and strict parents who have unreasonably high expectations so I live vicariously through these types of videos, your voice is so nice and your experiences are so funny and interesting!
Me too 😪
Only good for you
Dorian: "I'm not a very nostalgic person"
also Dorian: *Writes, films, edits, and posts an ENTIRE NOSTALIGA PROJECT* x'D Awh bless. These stories remind me of my teen goth days. I miss it
About the seeing a iconic beautiful goth goddess when you're a baby bat is for me, I was very torn between "Do I wanna be like her" or "Do I wanna date a girl like her" lol
The Bi Awakening 😅😁🖤
Why not both!
@@kr3642 fair enough :D
As a fellow bi that's very relatable
Aren't they non-binary?
The bi trans awakening
Without a doubt, I could listen to you waffle about anything and enjoy it. This video felt like it was 10 minutes long.
i know right she is so awesome ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤💔
When I was like 5 minutes in I saw the time on the video and it was 25 minutes!! Like whattt
"I'm not a nostalgic person", Dorian says. And then waffles on for an hour about good old times. :D I have lived a similar life over here in Europe. There will be a Disturbed concert in June. I'm so happy.
and then Corona came
@@GrindingGrindcore lol true. It can't be helped.
Fyi dorians pronouns are he/him :)
@@beautifulnightmare7551 that's right. I changed it.
I have to ask: if "waffle" means to ramble and talk a lot in Europe/the UK, what do you folks call the breakfast dessert (American/Belgian waffles)? 🤔
I too was a liberal teenager. I got to do anything I wanted. I traveled to rock festivals. I went to metal concerts. I snuck girls out of their houses late at night and ran around town. We camped in the woods instead of going to school. I lived and I knew that one day that it was going to end. And one day it did. But I lived. And I remember. I remember at time when I was free. I was free of responsibility. I was free of guilt. I lived unapologetically and I will always remember when I was young and when I was free. And listening to your stories awakened those memories. Thank you. - Six
Bloody hell you summed all up right there, that's my story as well.
I always remember sitting round a campfire for some reason.
This is beautiful but it makes me so sad because that's exactly what I wanted when I was a teen. I had a friend that lived like this and I envied her. I was never free. I was full of guilt, sadness and rage. I hated everyone and myself. I could only have fun if I was drunk. I probably wasted the best years of my life
@@me15ist awww that's sad
@@me15ist i used to feel the same way but don’t believe that misconception anymore! start living the best years of your life now! :) no more regrets
God I am wasting my teenage years away,,
Can we talk about how BADASS your contour is?!? I love how narrow and fairy-like your face looks!!!!!!
stunning.. and the colors!🖤💚🖤💚🖤💚🖤💚🖤💜
THE PURPLE IS BEAUTIFUL 💜💜💜MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE COLOR BESIDES BLACK 🖤🖤🖤 EYE SHADOW IS ON TOTAL POINT 💛💚💜🖤
@@Teemoney901 Yeah,it looks absolutely great!💜
It’s so pretty and fabulous. I’m jealous, I can’t even put on eyeliner ; - ;
The first goth girl I ever saw was in a food court, at a Hungry Jack’s (which is basically Burger King in Australia) and I was... stunned. Her BOOTS. Her coat. Oh my gosh. I was I think 8-9 years old.
Your comment just made me remember running into two women in full gothic lolita (parasols and all) in a mall in the suburbs when I was about 10. I was just like :O
i too remember the first time i saw a goth girl. ENTRANCED. i was born in 96 so scene was popular when i was a teen, omg the first time i saw a scene girl.. WOW. i was at a small amusement park, struggling to let myself off a ride after it was over. she walked by and released the safety bar for me and i remember being so stupefied by her style i forgot to thank her
The hjs in Brisbane cbd was where I saw all the coolest goths
@@rosemanning2508 I wanted to comment this! It was the place
The first older rockabilly/punk girl I met was a cashier at a pizza place. I was probably 11-13. I loved her handmade hairbow: neon green felt with a skull bead in the center. I asked her if she sold them, and she said: "Don't even worry about it!" and straight up gave it to me. My freakin' heart, man. 💚💀 I pray she's doing awesome these days. She f'n ruled. 😍
My parents: "Stop wearing black and painting your nails. Cut that hair!"
Also My Parents: "You never showed any interesting in goth..."
Ghost-Faced Hindu my father does that to me too! He says that I dress this way because I’m pretending to be someone else, not myself. He can’t accept the fact that I’m not the same person I was fifteen years ago.
@@jacknightingale4428 I told my parents "it's just a phase" that I've been in since I was 19 and I'm gonna be 28 soon.
Ghost-Faced Hindu you sure showed them lol I’m 25 and they still think I’m going through a phase.
I think I was lucky to have my grandparents, they kind just expected me to be weird. When I was 13-16 going to goth nights my grandma would come with me and I actually liked that she would come because it meant that I didn't have to walk into the centre of town to get a taxi home and risk being beaten to death by a group of drunk chavs. She liked my friends too even though they were all a lot older than me.
@@alessia9328 Suicide Girl. You are so rite.
Dorian at 14: DRUGS
me at 14: what's your patronus?
I'm a couple years older than Dorian. Society was different in the early 2000 when I was raving. There was no check 25. I was buying alcohol from the off licence at 14 and when I started raving at 17 it v wasn't that unusual to meet 15 or 16 year olds and I did have a raving mate who was 14 back then. it's hard to imagine now. I'd have been turned away at the door these days.
@@davelewis8270 Yeah, same. Plus it's different in the UK anyway.
@@davelewis8270 as a teenager in the current era i feel like i’ve missed out on all that :(
@@autumnishere420 it wasn't as romantic and exciting as it sounds lmao, yeah it has its moments and it was wild but mentally and physically we're dealing with it now
@@autumnishere420 you could find the drug dealer, alcohol, party all night, type teenage crowed nowadays, you just have to get out and get to know people, you could find these people by being curious and wanting to try some things. It’s what I did and now i’m living a life of fun and ignoring the online perception of EVERY teenager out there, cause the truth is, is not every teenager nowadays is overly sensitive, scared of life, against everything bad, not fun, that’s just the crazy people finding an outlet online to vent about everything they hate and it became a whole stereotype. So yeah, just get out more and stop being scared cause that’s what stopped me for years. Cheerios!
I was born in ‘97 and can’t relate to anything she is describing but I could listen to her talk about the 2000s goth scene for hours. She describes it so well!
"Imma get baked and talk about the old days "
This is a whole mood
Loved this .....im 48 and was a child goth in the 80s . Sisters .....cult.....alien sex fiend . My goth childhood sweetheart im with now. We rekindled our love in 2012 and still together. Its like being a teen everyday as we still listen to sisters etc. Its ace. Really loved this babe . Reminds me of how awkward we all were at that age on the goth scene . Stay safe everyone x
I'm 45 and still love playing my Sisters and NIN albums too ❤
@@amazonionavalon8252 fab isnt it . Im 50 now and still rocking xxxx
Not boring at all! It brings me back, honestly. I'm five years older than you and I know all those feelings you're talking about: being young and messy and cute and doing things you're not quite comfortable with so you might be seen as "cool". Though I grew up in bumfuck nowhere, so there were no clubs to go to. I ended up meeting the cutest little goth boy at a battle of the bands and falling for him. We were adorable and our makeup sucked and our clothes were just black items with holes cut into them. Lately I've been wearing a necklace he gave me 23 years ago (just a tiny skull on a nylon cord) every single day. I long for those days when I'd be vulnerable and adorable with people.
Your comment brought me joy i was born 23 years ago but i could still relate to your comment 💘
Wow this comment really hit me hard, I don’t even know what to say
@@amycross5341 I hope not in a bad way!
@@happyd1479 I have a feeling it's probably a fairly relatable feeling all across generations!
@Victoria Ann it's wild and messy too, but I wouldn't trade those experiences for anything.
As someone who grew up sheltered and with pretty bad social anxiety and who has still never been drunk or done a non-prescribed drug in my life, I love listening to these stories
My parents didn't want me to wear black, or paint my nails black or anything like that 🙄 because it would "open the doors for the devil" it was stupid
HHAAHAHAH same here, I ended up being the devil (?)
Lmaooooooooooo
Yeah. I knew some kids who’s parents were like this. My family is very conservative, but NEVER pulled that shit.
My parents were the same and now i have depression
my mum let me watch what ever horror movie i wanted at the age of when i can just remember, i was watching evil dead when i was 5 n just thought everyone was aloud lol, my mum was so chill, sadly lost her to lung cancer when i was 14, but she will always inspire me n be in my heart xxxx
My mom used to let me watch horror films, too. Sorry to hear about your mom.
Your parents sound awesome! If they hadn't been as open minded, you would have done the exact same things but with zero safety! Coming from someone who was raised by strict parents 😩
Truth. I had to be home at midnight. Who tf would be willing to give me a ride home? I was lucky I was never victimized.
Same! My parents were SO overprotective and I was quite the wild child. If anything I think their overprotective-ness made me rebel even more. Ya know the old cliche that the sheltered catholic school kids end up being the most wild, drug doing, sex having kids. 😆 It's definitely a thing. Now that I'm older though I do feel for my parents and worry I might get slapped with karma when I have kids lol 😬
Now, that sounds amazing for you, but the totally lazier-fair style of child rearing is not healthy. Kids need rules and lines and it's not easy to find a balance between letting them have freedom and finding themselves and laying down important rules.
Idk letting a 14 year old go to 18+ nightclubs with grown men and predators who go after grown women, let alone a minor was probably not the most awesome move. Maybe the 90’s was not as dangerous as today. Also a lot of drug issues from that freedom followed Dorian as an adult like OD’s and addictions. I’m not saying parents need to be strict and dictators but…. There is definitely a line. No hate to Dorian at all though, that’s all on the parents.
@@Jess-zm5xt Where I'm from it's normal for teenagers to go to clubs. As long as they're with friends and the parents are picking them up or are aware which parent is picking them up or how they get home it's fine. An unsafe situation involving drugs or alcohol can also happen at a house party, but banning your teen from going to those is ridiculous imo. You just have to educate your child and hope for the best, at the end of the day they are their own person.
the way you explained the "new night" when your young that you've never experienced before was absolutely beautiful
We had emo kids and scene kids growing up. Didn't feel like I fit in with them either even though I was constantly called Emo. I just wore a lot of black and liked dark stuff. I hung out in the metal scene for a while but I didn't feel like I fit in there either. If there were goths when I was growing up perhaps that would've been my clan. Now I'm just an adult who still wears a lot of black and still likes dark stuff and I go back and forth between edm, metal, goth and industrial. I love hearing you talk because you lived through an era that I only dream of being able to experience. Now I just experience goth online.
And my first experience with Goth was as a kid. I saw mall Goths and from there, goths always caught my eyes. I remember wanting to look like that. It led me to start wearing more black once I turned 12😂 wasn't until I got older that I learned about Goth Culture.
Are you me?
You're such a great story teller and you're so beautiful. Hi from California.
When I was a kid, my parents had a strict "home by 10" policy until I hit 17, when they just stopped caring where I go and what I do. There were late night "where the hell were you" scandals or my mom picking me up from having a great time with my friend group because it's too late, and then there was a transitionless "aight imma go to x and y city and be home in 3 days" with no further information required of me.
This happened to me, like I could go off to Glasgow for a week at 17 and they are just like oh ok have fun but at 16 they would be like no way your going on your own we're coming with you.
my parents were exactly the same
My *that girl* experience was a whole bunch of girls at the Depeche Mode Violator concert, all walking around gothed up carrying long stemmed red roses. I was 19 and said THIS. THIS IS YOUR LIFE NOW. 🖤
I remember 2000 when Hot Topic was, well, entirely alternative fashion..this may be an unpopular opinion but I liked it WAY better back then without the cheesy fan stuff
Same! I remember being excited to wear hottopic when i grew up 🙄
What do you think of dollskill?
@@user-mb9nm7bq5e Dollskill is a company that many alternative people don't wanna support. The owner is racist, ableist, and she's done many horrible things in the past with half-ass apologies. Plus they steal a lot of smaller-lesser-known creators designs and resell them for a higher price. Overall they're very unprofessional in my opinion.
i find myself thinking the same thing. i miss tripp pants. i'm tired of seeing billie eilish and bts merch. i used to go there to buy band tees when i was a scene kid. now the only things smashed in your face rarely have anything to do with alternative fashion.
@@darkgraver6095 omg girl yall wanna cancel everything go be annoying somewhere else
ur life is so interesting i could listen to u talk for literal hours
My mother used to dress me as a child like a little porcelain doll. As I got older, she still dressed me what she called "cute", but a bit less lace and ruffles. So I was bullied for that on top of being bullied for being an Autistic "gifted" kid all the teachers adored. It wasn't until I was 11 that I realized that other kid's mother's didn't pick their clothes out at that age. When I discovered the Goth scene at age 13, my Aunt bought me my first two pairs of outfits for my birthday and she took me to her house and did my makeup and hair and then my mother came and saw me and had a conniption fit. She said for my Aunt to really tell me with what I looked like with that "stuff" on my face and in all black. My Aunt turned to me and told me when she moved out, she had black cutlery, black plates, black bedsheets and bedspread and she said, "be who you want to be". And of course, my mother was like, "Susan!" And had another fit. To this day, my mother still hates the Goth look, but I don't care because it makes me happy! 🦇
I can never pick an aesthetic. I wanna be something completely different every week
When I was younger I went through a 'goth phase' and i think i still have that inside me i just dont dress goth anymore (more historically inspired). But even though im not in the goth culture anymore, I absolutely love your videos. I love how you look, and I love how you talk. Im not saying im super clever or anything, but its so nice to hear someone else talk fast and articulatly. In my life people are constantly asking what I mean, and what i just said and its so frustrating, but I feel if i had a conversation with you, youd be able to keep up. And thats why I love your videos
I thought I wanted to be goth/emo but was actually a hipster in denial
@@LD-2401 no im from whitby north yorkshire
I feel the same way sometimes
I have been guilty of dumbing down to fit in with certain groups in the past if I look back....
My mom would've killed me if I had walked around in a pvc dress. She definitely was very controlling and I never could express myself properly.
This is so weird..... I couldn't be anymore opposite to goth! I love ballet and the colour white and have never liked the whole dark culture... yet here I am fascinated by you, in awe of how unbelievably amazing you look and your make up!!! Its such a nice change to see someone who doesn't want to look like a kardashian too 🙄🤪
The vid reminds me so much of my poor mum, standing second row with my teenage me at Tarja Turunen concert and wondering, where the hell she is and what she got into.
Love her so much for doing so much ♡
I am not ashamed to say that I have a gigantic crush on tarja
My parents gave me freedom on how I dressed and what I listened to musically. I am forever grateful for them to allow that to me. I never really liked going out so they never had to worry about me going out meeting older folks at the time lol. Such a great video as usual!
Being in clubs with smokers was awful. The next day my lovely Basques and corsets would stink 🤢.
This is so random but are you on BabyCentre? I recognise your profile pic 😂
@@ericab1302 hahaha yes 😆
the smell of my hair on the drive home would be awful too
I love that smell, even as an ex smoker. The smell is comfortable. Started smoking a pack a day at 17.
damn i smoke constantly and people tell me all the time they don't even smell it on me. hand sanitizers, lotion, a bit of spritz, and mostly fresh air. you're good my guy!
"every goth female must have this moment" me: who was born and living in India where there is no visible goth scene at all...😖 gothrock and coldwave keeps me alive here! thankyou youtube for providing me with music.🤧
Honestly the fact that you memorize all these stories from your early experiences just baffles me
Yes! My icon has been this goth girl I met at a national bus station when I was six years old who had a pet rat that let me feed her rat a Donald’s french fry and have been inspired by her since and I am now 28 years old 🖤
You’re such a good storyteller. If you ever felt like it, I bet if you wrote a biography or whatever it’d be SO interesting
More waffles from the Queen of Waffling please.
Seriously I could listen to you read the ingredient list of off something and be completely enthralled.
Dorian I bloody adore you
Cradle of Filth does still play live. At least they did last year. :) saw them two years in a row. Pretty sure one of your makeup looks inspired my makeup that night.
These videos make me so sad because I feel like I’ve missed out on so much - I’m 17, never kissed/been to a club/had a partner/been to a party/gotten drunk or whatever and I’m going to university next year with 0 experience of life at all 😬😭
honestly same lol
same! i feel like i'm wasting my youth but where am i supposed to find this stuff, i just dont know
that’s fine. it’s honestly better to experiment when you’re older. drugs can really mess you up permanently when you’re really young
don’t worry about it and do everything at youre own pace!!! you will enjoy it more and you will be less reckless, deffo step out of your comfort zone but dont push yourself too far and dont let others push you to do things youre not sure about.
I wasn't kissed until 17 and didn't have experience. In my 20s I went out of state I stayed out late I stayed the night with a boyfriend. I regret some terrible decisions I'm glad I had some other ones. I'm now 32 and I'm living well I know who am and what I stand for and what I like. Try new things crafts, clothes, read , go out if you can.
To me, you're problably that perfect girl at the bar.
If 15 year old me would have seen you, as you look now in your video, I would probably just have given up. "Nooo.. this goth thing is not for me. I'm Unable to do anything like this, ever, so better just turn regular"
I'm a 36 year old lady today. I love your hair, your makeup and your back drop! That back drop.. I want to spend money on something like that.
I LOVE that green eyeshadow! Such a pretty colour.
Thank you so much for this video, it's so relatable for someone growing up as a teen at those 1999/2000 timeses.
Trust me - NOBODY has more "laid back" parents than me. Laid back is an understatement to say the least, as a lot of the stuff I was either allowed to do or encouraged to do, I couldn't possibly talk about here. But honestly, I had (and still have) the most dysfunctional parents EVER.
I've been looking like a vampire goth but I want to try something more chaotic....like a marilyn Manson as a gothic elf
How's that one working out for ya lately? 😅😜 Only joking. Hope you found yourself, lovely!
I am still a baby bat and have much to learn but love your videos I deal with quite a bit but my grandma lets me dress the way I want similar to your parents it's just I don't have a mom or dad they left like a year ago but I get to be me because if they saw the way I looked now they would disown me I am 16 right now and am online schooled due to bullying. Because the way I express myself also I am black and goth so even alternative people choose to discriminate against me but finding TH-camrs like you truly help me a lottttt I still have much more to learn and go through and you might not see this but thank you for you are a true goddess 😆
hey ik this is a 10 month old comment but i wanted to say that u seem rlly awesome! thas all ok hav a nice day whenever ur reading this x_x
Good luck in life, baby bat x
Awww I really relate in a lot of ways. I’m happy for you that you dress how you want, I’m just now starting to realise I’m into goth/alt and I’m finding my feet here :) Do you live in the UK?
@@blkbarbie2671 no I live in the U.S I wish I was in the UK and thank you so much☺️
@@polariize awww thank you that means a lot ☺️😌🙃🙃
The fact that you had your first kiss a few days before I was even born just blew my mind
I didn't find this boring what so ever. As someone born in the year 1997, there are certain things from the past that I wish we had more of today. Like photos that you can hold in your hand. All my recent pics are on social media and I'd love to have some of them in a photp album, or in a picture frame. And don't even get me started on sneaking in to clubs. I could never have done that when I was a teenager.
i love how honest you are about the things that most people usually don’t
Aw these stories are so nostalgic and cute! I’m 21 now, and it made me remember 19 year old me getting ready for my first rock band gig on Halloween night to meet with the guy I liked and we ended up dancing all night together! Wish I had a physical memory with me but I guess memories are better than anything else
I like to watch your videos when I’m stoned because your voice is so calming it’s hard to get paranoid
I totally understand what you mean about being young and “stereotypically goth”
I stopped having those experiences probably around 2012 unfortunately! I miss those days so much.
My upbringing was exactly like yours. I agree with literally everything you said. I was born in '84, hit the goth scene at 15/16 in 99. I love your channel!
Your first date pictures are so cute 😭
I could listen to at least 3 more hours of your stories without so much as a break, not boring at all! Listening to this hit me with a wall of nostalgia and took me right back to my own naive mall goth days. I remember the first alternative girl that I thought was the prettiest, coolest thing on the planet and wishing to be her. She always looked so cool and confident and her hair was different colors all the time. My brother actually ended up dating her for a while and I almost had a heart attack when she showed up at our house one day! But she turned out to be super nice too and we are still cool to this day! I remember being so easily completely enamored by anything in a trenchcoat and eyeliner, yet being so awkward and clueless and having no idea what to do if anyone actually tried to talk to me. Fun times, lol.
As someone who doesn't like parties or loud music, and is really only just now in my 20s figuring out that I *have* a style I actually wanna experiment with, these stories are fascinating and fun to listen to even if I can't relate to the goth scene.
Yes!! That’s exactly how I feel 🖤 She makes her experiences soo relatable!!
“the sheer amount my parents let me do.” i COMPLETELY relate. the sheer amount i got away with, because i didn’t have to GET AWAY with it at all lmao, i would willingly tell my mom what i was up to (to some extent) and she would drive me to pretty much anywhere. lmfao. i didn’t experience an average regulated teen’s life until i lived with my dad for a short few yrs of highschool and had to deal with his wife’s instruction and rules of living in the house as a minor (even when i was over 18 for fucks sake!) god it was hell lol. it was so irregular (for ME). i didn’t realize until recently, aged 23, how actually irregular my upbringing w my real mom was instead oh god ahaha
I salute you, sister. I grew up in the 90s-2000s hardcore scene in the states. Everything you described- the moment you see your scene Queen, the ringing ears when you lay down to sleep, the smell of smoke and hairspray, I could practically cry with nostalgia.
Dads being there to drive their vulnerable daughters home safely are everything.
"Talking about anything remotely important gets demonetized" 🤣🤣🤣 You summed up new TH-cam. As a teacher, I always feel I am free to say anything in class, but the truth.
This has been quite an enjoyable video to listen to; it was incredibly interesting to hear about your past. I really love hearing about other people’s upbringings and experiences. 🖤
The green and purple is totally bringing me back to my teenage years, early 2000s when I was a lil bb goth/punk and green and purple was my fav color combo! 😂
Thank you, Mr. Dorian, for the walk down memory lane. I really enjoyed listening to your stories. I was a teen in Wisconsin, USA, in the 1990s; and my parents were/are puritanically conservative. They were especially concerned about my clothes and the length of my hair. But they at least let me go with friends to see Rocky Horror in downtown Madison. :)
You have vivid memories of your adolescence, your are telling this stories with all the thoughts you had, that’s really funny and interesting!
3:29 There's absolutely no way I could go to bed listening to this! First off, I am adorn by your beauty in each video and absolutely love the way you express yourself through your art, not only in the way that you express yourself from the outside, but also your artistic mind and the way that you go about speaking and storytelling... it's truly immaculate. As a struggling recovering fentanyl addict and eating disordered woman hearing your stories hit home to me even though I was not in the rave scene or club scene, a lot of our struggles are similar and your channel has seriously assisted me in that growth so I want to thank you . Much love from Texas, USA. 🖤🤍
My mom didn't make a big deal about it. I remember her buying my fishnet arm sleeves with the lil' thumb holes. However, as a teen I wouldn't put on my dog collar and choke chain until I was on the schoolbus far away from my house.😅 I was pretty boring as a Goth in my teens, heterosexual, no makeup, no drugs, no alcohol, just crazy clothes. But I was comfortable being me.
Growing up in a rural town there were not many of us. You would get odd stares from people. My attitude was "You got a f***n' problem?" lol. My town didn't really have a scene and I didn't know any other goths during that time. Most of my socializing with other goths was done online. I was the only one in my small group of friends. Honestly I'm having more fun now in my 30s with my local scene than in my 20s, atleast before covid.
First kiss-
“This is a weird, weird ritual”
Lmaooo. Being from America, the end of your video cracked me up. It is such a stark contrast here! "It's fiction! We're in England, where am I gonna get a gun from? I don't even know how to use it!" 😂😂😂
Your makeup and outfit are so gorgeous!
In Lost Souls, the way Ghost is written, he seems to be Aspie in retrospect
Where do I get the book?
You have a real gift for storytelling. Your stories are so detailed. I feel like I’m there.
in addition to my first comment about my mom being simply “too” free with me as well, i HAVE to make note of your description of leaving the club that first night. that first time you feel the ringing in your ears when the sky is midnight blue (the kind of sky you might picture The Killing Moon to be written under) at 3am and you smell a humidity (even if it’s dry out) among the smoke and you see people laughing and leaving and the fishnets and the doc martens and the purposely but also accidentally unkempt hair and the sheer bliss of the world just for that moment.. an unbeatable feeling i’ve based much of the foundations of my writings on (not necessarily the same setting but i mean the feeling i get from it) - thank you dorian for sharing. 🖤
that "after coming home from a gig" feeling is so amazing, especially when it's your first gig you've been to. i remember, my first gig i went to was these guys who were playing nirvana and the main dude looked incredibly like kurt, it was one of those tribute things. that night was also my first kiss, not a very similar experience to yours but awesome regardless. that one i went with my two friends and we had the best time ever, i fall in and out of contact with one of them and sometimes talk with the other, but it's still one of the best nights of my life and my best experiences with those people. going to little alt-type shows is such a good experience all the way through, honestly.
As a former goth-girl-wannabe, I can confirm I definitely had that experience of meeting my ultimate goth-girl icon and wanting so badly to be like her 😂
I grew up shy and sheltered so I wasn’t around older kids but I was still sort of the baby of the group even if I wasn’t literally younger, and I feel the exact same way about the idea that it was okay to be open about your naïveté. Like, my friends were probably in the same boat because they were the same age as me, but I was too paranoid about looking the nerdiest or something!
My mom was like "You always wear black! That's all I see in your closet!"
Me, being the sarcastic teen that I was, and an artist "I don't just wear black! There's off black, charcoal, dark grey, ebony..." LOL!
GOTH GIRLS NEVER DIE 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
I hope you know that I’ve been watching you since I was 16. I’m 21 now and only recently rediscovered your channel. I was obsessed with your stories and just rewatched almost all
Of them. I just want you to know how grateful I am
That you decided to share your experiences, it has helped me
So much. There’s also no one else like u on this platform, your writing/speaking style is so immersive- just thank you :) best wishes
That was so strange, I knew you were going to say pantera walk because that was the first song that popped into my head. I went to a place called the Mudd klub in Aberdeen Scotland between 95-97 when I was aged 15-17 and you brought it all back for me. Even looking at you, you can see when you were explaining it you were actually there through your eyes. As well as the smells u describe I also remember the long wasted chats in the toilets and the sticky ass carpeted areas of the klub 🤣🤣🤣 thankyou so much for bringing this all back to me through your experience. I'm away to go listen to walk now 🤣🤣🤣🤣
Ru talking to me
I grew up in the Cincinnati Punk scene and I love listening to your stories. They really make me feel nostalgic. I wish we could go back.
being 16 in 2020 in a small town really sucks. THEY DONT DO IT LIKE THIS ANYMORE 💔
You are the best story teller. It's like I am right there with you and I have visions in my head. Well done.
"Wet and slug like" perfect example of kissing lmao
I've never sat through an hour long storytime but you're such a great story teller
I found the whole everyone is expected to be bisexual thing tricky because I am and was a raging bisexual and I didn't understand why these cute lassies who were happy to kiss me didn't want to form relationships and have sex. Like, now I realise that they wanted to explore their sexuality to that degree and it was enough for them and that's fine but at the time my wee neurodiverse brain was so confused and thought they were all rejecting me personally 🤦♀️
I’m really digging these types of videos. I was a emo kid from a stupidly small town in the mid 00s but I can only imagine how fun it would have been to be in any type of city setting. I’m so fascinated by the 2000s and loved existing in the mid - late 2000s as a teen, wish I had been a little bit older though.
Haha... One thing I remember about growing up" if you dye your hair one more time, I am going to shave your head!" I came back a month later with a shaved head... Oh see, I did it for you!(84-85)
Omg these are the absolute best bed time stories. 😌 Please keep serving us these delicious waffles.
Also that moment where you are describing the goth queen, I could definitely relate to that, in multiple ways lol.
I’m trans, I’ve just turned 17 and I’m still not able to get my hair cut. Parents are chill with me being goth though, but I’ve been wanting my haircut since I was 6. I’m so excited for when I finally can
tbh if I reallllllllly wanted to be passive aggressive about it I'd engineer some sort of crazy accident that involved getting a LOT of glue, chewing gum, etc stuck in my hair to the point where the only option would be to just shave it all off
Omg, as a 28 year old male from the goth scene in Germany I find it astounding how I can relate to soooo much of your stories :D. I started clubbing at the age of 15 and got into all of the clubs because my "crew" was clubbing for a few years already and everyone knew the owners, securities, DJs, etc. and I particularly remember seeing the "grown up" goth guys and thinking to myself how I wanna be like them ... so yeeeah, a lot of similarities there. But I actually never thought that clubs were just for illegal drugs... I actually entered the world of party drugs just a few years back. But, oh man, listening to your stories brings back so much memories from 10+ years ago. I really busted out laughing at your "make out session", I think everyone that was in the goth scene around 2000 - 2010 got those kind of stories. Thank you so so much :D
I love videos like this, I wish I got to experience the goth scene in my teens when it was thriving ,I’m 18 currently and I don’t even know one other person who likes the same music as me , the most I have is an alternative club in my city which I’ve been to twice and they don’t play any goth music at all , only really nu metal and mumble rap . :(((( i would love nothing more than to have experienced goth culture in the 80s/90s even 2000s
This is one of the most effortlessly fantastic videos I've ever watched. What a great celebration of the little piece of history and culture you lived through. Thank you so much for sharing!
I have to say, your lippy is a gorgeous shade.
This is favorite bedtime story!!!!! Everything about it is so nice to listen to. ! Thank you so much, Dorian!
You’re amazing. And my girls went thu what is defined now as emo phases. Loved it! And tho they still embrace the spooky they dress more norm now but I love they were into the same things I was from the book on paganism and ripped black jeans and black eyeliner lol. And yes they can dye their hair etc. I shaved the side of my daughters head when she was 11 or 12. Looked awesome.
Your stepdad sounds like a character in his own low-key way. I’d love to hear more stories about random interactions you’ve had with him during your babybat years.
When I was thirteen my mom helped me dye my hair purple. I have the absolute best family lol. I had limits about going out and doing risky things, but as far as creative stuff goes they were super supportive.
Good times..
oh my god, the parents waiting in the car after the club :OOO between this and today's vid where you read your short story about smoking cigs at horse-camp, I am getting overloaded on nostalgia (I too was born in 1985)
"trying to be a grown-up" is usually very over-rated and misunderstood
I like the waffles way more than the ones that are read from a script or story or wve. these types of vids way more emotional and rambly im obsessed