My Struggle to Receive God’s Loving Acceptance
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 27 ก.ค. 2020
- I lived my whole life with a deep passion for growth and transformation. But there were many struggles I could not shake off right away. Some never seemed to stop. The more I tried, the worse it got at times.
I carried a deep anger, continually beating myself up for the lack of progress I seemed to be manifesting. Meanwhile, I was relentlessly hard on myself in how I evaluated my journey.
After years of living like this, the frustration led me to face myself in a whole new way. I wanted results, but I did not love myself. God entered into my pain to teach me how to see myself with new eyes.
I didn’t know how to be ok with not being ok. In my conditioning, it was unacceptable. It felt like failure. So, for most of my life, I built a foundation on making sure I was “good” for people. I didn’t know how to make room for weakness, mistakes and struggle, without feeling deep shame and embarrassment.
I felt like when I wasn’t “good,” a giant spotlight was on me, as if everyone was gasping at the sight of, “Mark’s not doing good!” I always felt I had to be strong for everyone. So, when I was not, I didn’t know how to manifest it in a healthy way.
When I learned to experience self-compassion, God’s love became more real to me. This loving acceptance gave me a powerful glimpse of the Father’s perspective over my life and battles. It also became a major turning point for growth and empowered decisions. I was able to see life with greater clarity. Love gave me that ability.
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I like the idea of so many people in the Bible mess up and still get to experience great things with God.
amen. He loves cause we r his children. not because of what we do
ridiculously righteous hey the story of Paul is it? who killed Christians who changed his heart? If I am wrong correct me!
Christians! Pray for me, for healing from abuse as a child and some strongholds. Please and thank you, if you have requests let me know. Mark, say a prayer for me and thank you for your service to The LORD.
How are you now?
@@NikoFinn still fighting a vape addiction. But wayyyyy better
I struggle with the same battle. 🙏🏻
@@EquippedForHimDid you give up the vape? Hope your lungs are doing well. 🙏
"My destiny can't be pinned on me doing everything right." Talk about taking the pressure off. TY
This is me!!!!.I didn't know what love really was....I had to receive God's love by Faith.
Here's what hit me: If I think I need to do everything right, then there's no room for God, Jesus, and His grace. "Apart from me you can do nothing." So sitting in my performance guilt means I'm not leaving room for God to work. Thanks for this word!
Wow that's powerful!!!
two beliefs that block my acceptance of God's love: that I can't have what I didn't earn...and being open to love means being vulnerable and not safe
Just remember Jesus is trustworthy. He will not hurt you or leave you. He wants to heal us and deliver us from fear and insecurity. May His live touch you and help you let go and let Him in. 💞🙏😇
I'm the exact same way
For me, it's more like "i dont feel loved". I just want to feel it. But it's something I have to focus on every day.
I live this every single day. I don’t know how to apply this to my life. I can’t physically/mentally let myself do this. It feels so freaking hard to let someone love me, especially The Almighty… I’m just not good enough to be loved, I haven’t earned it. And you’re absolutely right. That’s what it is. But I don’t know how to love myself or let God love me when all I do is screw up. It’s so difficult brother.. so difficult..
The devil wants us to believe his lies over Gods truth. We need to choose to believe God and not the devil. God bless you, and believe God! He doesn’t lie! ❤️❤️❤️
As I was listening to this I had a breakthrough.
I've been frustrated the past week or so not feeling very connected to God, but I've seen it as an opportunity to trust regardless of how I feel at the time. (Edit: this includes experiences, too. FAITH in what GOD SAYS, not what our feelings or past experiences say).
As you were talking, suddenly the parable of abiding in the vine blew open for me.
Abiding in Jesus means trusting. Period.
As I learned last week, not trusting IS disobedience. The obedience God desires (the work of the Father John 6:29) is to trust the one He sent. Trusting in Jesus and our acceptability because of what HE has done is being connected to the vine.
Then we can grow in trust which is always being urged by NT writers (growing and being pruned for more growth). And as we grow in trust and in love for God and man we naturally bear more good fruit (good works).
How freeing! I'm just going to focus now on trusting Jesus in all things and spending time with him trusting him to lead me into greater fellowship and service should he deem me ready. Relationship comes first!
Great insight. THANKS
I learned this too. Roman's 14:23
Nailed it, friend!
When i tell you this is exactly what im currently going through the obssessive thoughts the thinking trying to work in salvation when Jesus tells us to rest and accept love where you at its been like since 2020 a long time God spoke this to me the last week after going to church on my own for the first time through the pastor about receiving forgiveness receiving love and God would and is showing me this with jacob how he lied constantly but that didn’t determine Gods blessings over his life and the Love of God, God still loved him the same.
Wow... This is so healing. Lord help me receive your Love so I can Love like You.
Absolutely, exactly what I feel. Its going.
Just going to let God Love me.
My walk with Christ has been marked by the overwhelming awareness of my sin and how awful I am, which has led me to a place that I can't believe that God could love me. It's horrible to live this way.
The devil wants us to believe his lies over Gods truth! Don’t believe the devil’s lies! Believe God! God Bless you! ❤️❤️❤️
I bind one to receive all of God his love for one in my life, the lives of my family, friends, colleagues, neighbours, acquintances, opponents and the body of Christ without thinking this love can be earned, binding myself not to be unequally yoked with and have any common share with those who do not can accept God his love without the thought this love has be earned, in accordance with this word and ephesians 2:8-9, john 15:12, 2 corinthians 6:14-18 in the name and blood of Jesus Christ, amen and hallelujah!
Wow. I’ve been praying to understand the Father’s love this week and every bit and word of this video I can relate to on a very deep level and this is 1000% what I needed to hear. Learning how to accept His love in the midst of the struggle, “…in my current state, apart of performance, achievement etc.” The Holy Spirit has pointed out to me to focus on His love and how I struggle with a disconnect with His love (don’t really know how to accept it at times, even as a believer). So this was a very spot on message. Thank you for sharing your testimony and experience in this area! 💯🙏🏾
Its hard to accept I guess once you know your nature and struggle with the flesh, we are just not exactly worthy but alas we have to stand blaneless in front of them all, I have much to learn and more to share! I regret much but cannot get over his grace that freely offered me a sinner free eternity with him!
Love Him and Keep His Commandments
wOW!! hit the nail on the head! this is me. Verbal abuse an rejection have done me in!!!im 75 now, an still no breadthru😢PLS...NEED PRAYER..im here an STUCK.. im ocd an ruminate. It just feels all to much ,so i just push it DOWN .i wish i could get healed from this💔
The devil wants you to believe his lies over Jesus’s truth! Who will you choose to believe. God Bless you.
😢thank you.😢😢😢. I needed this so bad.
God bless you Mark, I really needed to hear this. Thank you.
Wow , wow , wow ! Thank you sir for this . Found myself sobbing , you've accurately described how I've been feeling throughout my existence .
The timing of this.....I can't describe how perfect this timing is. This entire video is ME. I couldn't have needed this at a more opportune time. Thank you. This topic makes me so emotional. Today I have felt so much pressure to be "perfect ". Every day really
So glad you are back! Was just saying I hope Mark returns soon. Hope you had an amazing Sabbatical 🙂
Right now I really need Gods love and an assurance of that
THIS IS DEEP!!!
I jus have to say this video changed my life. It explains exactly what I thought of myself and even though I loved god I couldn’t accept him loving me. Thank you so much! Your ministry is so needed!
This is very good stuff!
So good Mark
Timely word Mark. Keep it up!
Mark thanks for what you do! Your are bold and humble to share your story and help me in my journey of receiving God’s love. Bless you brother.
So glad!
Thank you SO MUCH this is life changing
sometimes we cannot embrace Gods's love because we think that we always are gonna be blessed and when we go to large season of struggle (any kind of struggles) we think that God doesnt love us. Instead of saying that even tho our problems (because he never says that every moment of our lives we are gonna be blessed) he is with us, and he is helpings us, because remember things can always get worse, but the bible says that god he will let us go through things that we cannot bear
Oh this was good!!!!! He hit on some valuable points and feelings Ive had
This is so good!🙏
Thank you brother, well received and well heard ''
Thank you so much for this teaching!
I needed this so much today. Thank you 🤍
You just described me perfectly! WOW! Going to get books! Bless you!
Thanks dude!
So good, brother!!!
This is so beautiful ❤️🌼
Amen Praise God ❤
Thankyou....I needed to hear this
Spot on, keeping people at a distance because of such rejection and I didn’t know who I was in God’s eyes. Please Lord let me remember that your opinion is the only one that matters, the statement of this is a deep heart issue really hit home; thank you: much needed, to God be the glory forever💕🙏
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SO Good thank you
God bless you.
thank you
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So good Mark. Thank you 😊
The yoke is light and burden rest for the weary, revelation is Gods to give. As a learning sinner i strugle with the truth i am not worthy of but that thought comes from my own conviction, Jesus Loves me as his own, maybe I don’t but he God… God is good! I appreciate the light amongst the darkness praise God. I feel that people must see Pauls journey. Look at what he became because of his change of heart. Its hard but worthy to talk of Jesus he is so smart! Lol silly to say but have you ever seen how he thinks of our struggles? Just a simple chuckle that says your off the mark boy, but keep trying!Never been worth in my visions to speak candidly with Him! But I witnessed his presence and I know I do need him very much for eternity! Think what do you struggle with, is it worth it? Of Course now! I need to be more like him and less like me! Praise God!
Same
I just read something on the internet that scared the piss out of me. I won't go to details but maybe it's time for me to stop running from god. I would also say this im easily the worst person on this commit section. Hope everyone has a good one.
Please don't put yourself down like that. Jesus created you in His image and he forgives and takes us back every time we repent and turn from wrong ways. I pray you will accept his goodness and love. 💞💞🙏
@@maryedithswann3034 this sunday im submitting to god. The way I look at it is my life is almost over so ill submit to god. Even when I submit to him I still know im going to have one hell of a bad times. Im not blind and as we speak im always looking for the other shoe to drop and I do mean always looking for the next fail to come. Im sorry if I sound like a downer but that is what keeps happening to me bad after bad. So, here's to what bad thing that's coming next, I hope the next bad that happens to me will just shut my heart down and I get to die. Cause when I submit to god I know things are only going to get worse so I pray the next thing that comes for me will finish me off for good.
@@mattjacobson3616 i can relate i have often grown weary but the Word says to put of the armor of God to be able to stand against the enemy. Submit to God resist the devil and he will flee. Knowing the WORD and quoting it from your mouth when your under attack is powerful. Walking in complete forgiveness closes the door to the enemy. Pray and ask Him to show you if there are open doors to your life that the attacks are coming from. Its either 1. Reaping what we sow 2. Unforgivness and uncompressed sin that needs to happen. 3. Lack of KNOWING how to use spiritual weapons. The Sword in your mouth. The WORD OF GOD.
I pray you learn how to endure as a good soldier and you perserve until the end. Your an OVERCOME. His strength is made perfect in our weakness. TRUST Jesus with all your Heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path. I pray for you to have Faith in Him by listening to the WORS And BELIEVE that you are LOVED. 💞💖💖💞💕💕💞💞💕💕💞💕💞💕
How do i submit to God and accept His, love, mercy and grace. My heart is hard. I have addictions, doubts and unbelief. Why won't i change & accept Jesus whilst heartedly. I'm desperate but such an hypocrite. I need to be spiritually alive
I get scared about fearing God. I have SMI and I need to focus on his love. And w performance, I can’t do a lot for Jesus Christ because my SMI keeps me from functioning normally like most folks
What if I’m in sin? Am I loved? Doesnt seem so
7:45
What if you did go on the other end of you need to act and do something when you don't want to? But really wanting God to work with the inner person first then to act outwardly...
Sometimes it's like or being told you need to get it first like food take it and eat it then it fills you up your body digests it and then gives you energy. But then the choices of what to do with it? sit there or move? Save the energy or use it up your self or share it?
Physical healing as seen body already has on the inside what it needs to heal but also the external medicine that may also help used to healing. And then there's Jesus by faith instantly healed and had love for people.
And God is a spirit!
whit out sin you can not be saved!!!!!!!!!!!!