Mental Health Check! 🥴
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 20 ก.ย. 2024
- This vlog is a weird one. I was feeling sad and decided to share...and then I fainted. lol. I'm feeling much better today though! Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I just had a wonky couple of days I guess. And a lot of you wanted me to share my watercoloring process, so I made sure to do that for ya at the end of the video. Hope you all have a beautiful weekend. :)
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This vlog is a weird one. I was feeling sad and decided to share...and then I fainted. lol. I'm feeling much better today though! Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I just had a wonky couple of days I guess. And a lot of you wanted me to share my watercoloring process, so I made sure to do that for ya at the end of the video. Hope you all have a beautiful weekend. :)
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Dear Colleen,
You haven't failed. I have 4 children and suffer from Anxiety and Depression. Like you, I am a VERY emotional person.
I tried for years to ' be OK '
When I found the right Anxiety and depression medication, it changed my life. I don't think there as much Stigma as there once was. You my dear, will BE OK! As a mum we have to be. You are my inspiration. I'm 52 and I find your Vlogs so therapeutic.
You ARE an amazing an mom and person Colleen. We love you girl. Xxx
Colleen, it’s okay not to be okay! Life always goes up and it also always goes down, and at the moment you’re in a down. As a neurodivergent already anxious girly, antidepressants will just allow your sunny self to shine through the darkness. It helps me shine through mine, and I actually see my antidepressants as a shield that blocks most of the negative thoughts!Sending you so much love ❤
I love this. Thank you! Excited for my shield 🛡️
I am so glad you’re sharing your journey. You’re helping so many people, myself included. We are all rooting for you and want you to be okay. It’s okay to need support through medicine if that it what is best for you. It doesn’t mean you’re not doing enough. It doesn’t mean you’re failing in any way. Just means you’re human going through a season of life where you need a little more help. We all need that sometimes. You’ve got this, we’ve got you. ❤
Sending you love! ❤ so glad you’re here!
I am barley hanging on Colleen. I have multi joint osteoarthritis. Its in almost every joint. We are going through bankruptcy because a contractor screwed us over then sued us in arbitration and won. My 17yo daughter is suffering with horrible depression and anxiety and quit school. My husband is out of work and at 55 its so hard to find a job. Im trying so hard to get out of this depression but its worse then its ever been and i cant get out. On 3rd antidepressant in a year and still not working. We will all hang in there together!
Hey Colleen, quick question. If your kiddos were hurting and you knew a medication could fix them, wouldn’t you treat them? Then why not love yourself as much as you love your children. As a NP, I explain to my patients that your brain is like the engine of a car. It’s pumping out a bunch of chemicals to allow your body to function properly. Two of which, are called dopamine and serotonin. These chemicals allow you to respond appropriately to outside stimuli. Happy when good things happen, sad when they don’t. However, like all of the organs in our body, sometimes they can get off track. Your brain can “misfire”, and not secrete enough of the dopamine and serotonin to keep your emotions regulated. Hence, requiring a medication to balance it out. Just like people who have an under or overactive thyroid and require medication to regulate it. Or as your doctor said, a diabetic. Also, not everyone needs medication forever. Sometimes it’s just for a little while until things get situated. Thank you for sharing with all of us. It lets people know they aren’t alone in feeling this way. ❤
Colleen! That painting is so good! You really are very talented!! It might be cool to draw the words on the glass of the frame or the frame itself. 🤷♀️
Our brains can be our worst enemies..it can’t be smiled away, as much as we wish it could be that way.😞 I totally understand the feeling, you just want to not need it! But please do whatever helps you.🩷🩷 your kids need you, you’re their whole world!
You aren’t alone, and you WILL be okay! And better than okay.💕
Edit to add that I love your painting, oh my gosh! You could take commissions.
You could add the lyrics by making them into like vines? Like the words are the vines, if that makes sense.
While some people will say that sharing these emotions is silly or an act, I think sharing these emotions is brave and helpful for you & others. This will help you feel better to talk about it and help others see that what they go through can be relatable. We love you and we’re happy you’re here ❤ this depression might not last forever. Meds will probably help. I do hope you get your house cleansed soon because clearly there are spirits present and they can have big negative effects on your emotions and mental health. Be safe and we love you ❤ we think you’re so strong. Be brave ❤
I love you Colleen! You have helped and connected so many people, we are all in your corner cheering you on! Thank you for sharing your life and being yourself! I feel grateful to have watched you grow and blossom over the years. I know the last couple have been difficult for you but diamonds are created under pressure and I know that you're resilient and strong and sparkly like one too! Thank you for being here, keep being brave
A lot has changed for you! It’s ok if you feel uncomfortable. That’s growth. You are a good person, please don’t forget that… so many folks need meds and it’s ok. It’s not a failure, but a strength to recognize that you need support. It happens to the best of us! Much love to you
I love how everyone is so compassionate and loving. It's so nice to read all the great positive comments.
Colleen, you are so beautiful inside and out. We are in a time we're its so hard to be 100% happy even 50%. So, everyone take the small wins we all need it.
The typewriter! Type out those lyrics as a way to also incorporate Erik too.
Colleen or everyone that need it send you a lot of straight and great vibes 🎉! As a person that is on anxiety and depression medication since I’m 16 (now 43) I understand the feeling of defeat when you go back to medication 💊! But think 🤔 if you have diabetes you will take the medicine 💊 cause you need it, the same as antidepressants your brain 🧠 need the medication 💊 cause your are no producing serotonin, and that why you take the medication, if you have a pain you need medication, if you have high blood pressure you need medication!! You’re not alone!! We need to normalize these topic! And I really applaud 👏 you! Cause you share it!! You’re helping a lot of people to talk about there symptoms and don’t feel like a bug!❤❤❤❤ lots of love and hugs 🤗
I was on antidepressants 10 years ago and have been “doing fine” without them but ended up getting back on them recently and I wish I had done it sooner. I was putting it off but it’s been life changing! Wishing you the best!
I think it’s great that you want to talk to your TH-cam family about your feelings. A lot of us have learned about mental health from you and the comment discussion. And it would be very interesting to know how your psychiatrist manages a patient with ADHD who also has depression and anxiety because I heard that can be tricky.
As for you passing out.. please get checked by your doctor to make sure there aren’t any other problems going on!
Love ya and thank you for sharing your life! ❤
I can relate so much to how you’re feeling, wanting to fix myself, not wanting to take meds etc. I’m glad you find talking about it is cathartic, it’s therapeutic for me too to hear you 💜
As someone who’s struggling with my depression over the last mnth, I’m bipolar, pls don’t stop talking about your mental health. I know you feel the stigma but you’re also helping break the stigma by talking about it. Plus you really helped me today by being so raw about it. Thank you! 🥰❤️🇨🇦
💜💜💜💜💜💜You have helped me decide to try and do better with my mental health and changed therapist and psychiatrist a month and half ago and actually found a good team and I actually getting some real help and they are really listening to me and I’m getting assessments and stuff instead of just try this med and I will see you in a month like old drs love you girly keep your head up your a very strong person look at everything against you and everything you have been just recently and you are standing maybe not with your head the highest of highs but you will get there and we are here in your corner and here to listen 💜💜💜💜💜💜
❤ OMG ❤ Rachel is using your song in her vlog! IT'S SO GOOD! I'm so happy 😊
You’re not fragile, you don’t give yourself enough credit. I’ve been where you are, it feels like a never ending pit of despair but I promise there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. It took me years to get on the right combination of medications. Don’t be ashamed. Remember to be brave and stay strong. Much love from one mom to another. ❤️❤️
Your watercolor paintings are SO amazing!!!
How can you fail at something you're still working on? We're all still works in progress. To say you failed means you've given up, you're done working on yourself. You're not done! You haven't failed! You're still working on yourself! I'm prpud of you Colleen and I'm most definitely not the only one! 💜💚
Colleen, you described my day-to-day day exactly. I fake it really good, but I, too, always feel on the verge of tears. I feel like I'm in fight or flight mode all the time. Thank you for sharing your story. You've inspired me to make an important appointment. Thank you so much. I'm with you ❤
Oh I started my day crying and spent most of the day crying bc I can’t believe how fast time goes. My babies are getting so big and I can’t stop thinking about how quickly they grow up. Ughhhhh
You are amazing Colleen!! Sometimes we are just going through it, you are doing your best. I know when I was on meds I felt like a zombie and I had no emotions, not that everyone experiences that but I didn't like how I felt on them. But if they can help you, why not try. You haven't failed because you need to use medication. You are loved and I care about you!
I’ve got nothing profound. Just that you are heard and loved and SO freaking appreciated every day. Whatever you need to do to find happiness is what is best. You’re so important to so many people. Me, thousands of others 3 beautiful kids and a man that thinks the world of you. Love you so much.
All emotions come and go but your talent stays. What a beautiful picture of your kids you water colored! You are so very talented ❤
Hi Colleen I’m so glad you are so brave to share your feelings. I feel so similar to you and what you’re going through. I spend most of my days stressed and feeling depressed and I feel guilty for it. Remember, be brave. Everything will be ok 😊
I have been on medication for 8 years for depression, anxiety, and bipolar. Sometime I’m fine but sometimes I’m not and that’s ok. I have come to the conclusion that I will be a lifer. My childhood was great and people go through way worse and I don’t think I should be feeling that way. Don’t treat your trauma any less than “regular” trauma. Our small traumas are huge for us and deserve to deal with them just like anyone else. Keep going.
You will always be the best version of yourself if you believe yourself
If you are going to frame the one with the kids in the woods you could paint the lyrics on the glass
Into the woods is my favorite musical too!! I got to see Sarah barielles as the bakers wife in nyc a few years ago! It was amazing!!
I understand your sadness. I hope you find some relief with the medicine. Lots of love, my friend!
The painting you did of your kids is badass that is so awesome
😮 Colleen that painting is amazing. You are so talented ❤❤❤❤❤
Don't feel bad for having to go back on meds if that's what's best for you. We're here for you and we love you
I completely get what you’re going through right now cause I’m going through a lot to
And I believe you can get through this you’re strong
I never ever thought I’d be *that* person to take anti-depressants, and when the doctor suggested it recently, I was taken aback, even though I was clearly displaying signs of anxiety and severe stress. I’m only two weeks in, so it’s very early days, but I’m already so glad I gave in and just did it. I feel less overwhelmed and emotional and just calmer. Someone commented somewhere online that it helps you be more ‘you’ and that really helped me because I realised it has held back the tide on the barrage of negative waves of sadness and depression that I couldn’t overcome. Even the strongest swimmer in the world would tire if they stayed in deep waters too long, and medicine is a helping hand. There is nothing wrong with us, this life is stressful, particularly if you carry any kind of emotional distress around all the time.
I just want to hug you! I feel like I’m going through the same thing and you are strong enough
Colleen I am so concerned for you. Please don't be hard on yourself for needing help. If you had a friend with an addiction to drugs and they came to you and admitted they need help, you would think they were courageous and strong for being able to admit that. That's just how we feel about you. You are courageous and strong and we consider you a friend. Just remind yourself how much better you're going to feel, and how much you feeling better will benefit those little humans of yours. We love you, girl. Be brave ❤
You will be ok! Depression is awful. I’ve had anxiety my whole life, but the depression snuck in after Covid and it was such a weird, horrible feeling that I’d never delt with. Medicine helped me so much! I felt so positive for the first time in a long time. Being on meds just corrects a chemical imbalance in your brain. You are your best you with those meds! Medical advances in the mental health field are truly miracles! You’ve got this queen!
I’m crying with you girl. I relate so hard to all of this.❤️❤️❤️
Hi Colleen❤ have you ever done more intensive therapy or maybe an EMDR trauma therapy, maybe there are deeper triggers or trauma that are deeply embedded that could be helped by something other than more basic talk therapy. Just a thought because you said you used to be a more happy person so I feel like that person is in there somewhere but so much has happened. Love you!!
Being someone that’s dealt with mental illness, lupus and now on insulin injections, that I hate! Your dr is right. I wish that I could just “think” my diabetes away! But like any illness, that’s not how it works. ❤
We love and support you queen! You're so amazing and beautiful and your feelings are valid. I also struggle with mental health issues and the meds caused more issues for me than they helped, so I also want relief but fear more bad side effects.
Hugs!
You can and will get through this!
This is a hard thing, but you've done hard things, You've come through the other side on top and you can do it again.
When I was taking my meds I felt compelled to write a note to myself for when I was tempted to stop taking them. The worst I felt mentally was when I wasn't taking my antidepressants.
Colleen, you are only one human being! You are so valid and so are your emotions. It makes me so sad to hear you beat yourself up for being human. I just want to jump through the screen and hug you. I want to hug you and remind you of how wonderful you are including your different emotions. You being vulnerable has made people like myself, stop, think and remind myself that I am enough and I am allowed to feel/express my emotions. I don't have to apologize for my depression. You have helped me, and many others, realize that mental health is so important to talk about ❤❤
Thank you so much for opening up to us and sharing where you're at mentally. I myself have dealt with a chemical imbalance in my brain causing depression. It got so bad at one point I tried to unalive myself. Thank God for medication because that is what saved my life. It flipped the switch in my brain and took the sadness away. I'm sorry that you have to be back on medication but I know you wouldn't tell me that I was a failure for being on them. Do don't do it to yourself. Sending love from Los Angeles 💜💛
You experienced a trauma. You very well just may be in a purgatory, so to speak, of depression right now. But... there isn't any weakness in that. That happens to humans. Unfortunately or fortunately it is how the brain works. I hope it helps you
don't give up collenne is fine go get help and stay positif super week-end everyone
Colleen, thank you for showing us your vulnerable side and letting us see that we’re all human. I have been watching you since I was 15 and I’m now 25. I have a 2.5 year old daughter that I love more than anything 😭 I’m exactly like you when it comes to mom guilt and I can be sensitive a lot of the time. I love you Colleen, just know you are loved my so many 🩷 I miss you and your career, I will support you in all aspects of your life. My sister and I went to your show back in June 2023, in Chicago and it was one of the best trips of my life 🩷 no matter what you will always be one of my idols.🥰
Sending you all the good vibes!
I’ve been watercoloring for about 2 years now. I never would have considered tracing a photo from my phone like that! Thanks for the tip. 🎨
Do you take adhd medication? I relate to you so much. I started treating my adhd and my anxiety and depression got so much better.
Also. There is a book called “Don’t Believe Everything You Think” it has been so helpful for me.
Your brain is an organ and needs to be healthy! Sometimes that requires medication just like any other organ that’s not working properly.
Take care of yourself. ❤
I think the reason ai love you so much!! My mental Health is my biggest struggle.
Hey Colleen I love you from Australia ❤❤❤
Frame the pic of the watercolor of the kids in the woods in a white frame and then put the lyrics all around the frame :)
Colleen!!! You need to stop with the negative self talk!! I wish I was remotely that good of an artist. But all I can do is stick figures lol. Love you and your family ❤ you've helped me a lot throughout my young life and into my adult life. Know you are loved even in the moments you feel like you aren't
I like your video Colleen
I understand it's just one of those days just take a deep breath if you like to talk about on TH-cam do so if that makes you feel better turn to your children with you feeling down cause they make you feel happy.
Don't let any thing make you feel sad you doing ok you acapella mine with doing TH-cam playing with the children going out with your children talk to your husband through things with your husband and your family that's great that's all great can you stop feeling down you making things for your children are you getting on TH-cam and you talked out was bothering you is good I'm glad I'm glad that you have a therapist stand strong sis you doing a great job I love your children they're very lovable and very bright stand strong message you're not alone love watching you and your children everything's going to be okay
COLLEEN! Omfg the part where you explained you fainting and how pregnancy changes your body. I couldn’t related more!! I had seizures as a kid up to the age of 8 and completely grew out of them. I had my son when I was 23 years old and BAM they came back. We have no idea why. It doesn’t show up on an mri, when they did an eeg it showed it bouncing from right to left. Like I’m a mystery here now haha. Today im 30 years old and after over 400 seizures currently I am 6months seizure free. 🎉 pregnancy TRULY does change your body 😳
Hi! You should keep the photo of the kids in the forest the same and then on the frame put the lyrics! -love from Vancouver island
Sending lots of cyber hugs. ❤ 🫂 ❤
Putting the lyrics on the into the woods watercolor, you could get a photo mat and put the lyrics on the mat around the watercolor
Colleen, I want you to know that I see you. I see you and I struggle with the same issues. You are not alone. Your feelings are valid. We will all move forward on this journey together. Sending all of the love and encouragement ❤
❤❤❤❤youre incredible im so proud of your jorney and how youve shared it with us love you
I felt like that too. I didn't want to take the pills but if I cry every day without the pills I will take the pills. The tears also disturb your loved ones BTW. 😢 I have been on all the major ones over 30 years. As your body changes you will need to switch. I also had a blood profile that determined which meds would work best for me. You will have to take the meds each day. It's not that you have failed.
❤❤❤❤❤ relatable!! Sending love and thank you for sharing.
Sending you all the prayers for health and healing, sleep and rest, and joy and laughter with your sweet fam🫶🏼
Love you colleen❤❤
I think you should put the lyrics on the outside of the glass from the frame. I think it might pop if it is slightly above the painting.
Oh Colleen. I’m sorry you’re going through this. Please take the medication. It helps. It’s helped me soo much! We don’t like to see you on the verge of crying. Sometimes we just need help. It will all work out. I promise!😊
You could put the lyrics as a plaque below the painting if you don't want them on the painting.
I would frame the picture of the woods then with stickers or paint have the quote on the glass.
That makes me so sad Colleen. Take the meds and feel better. It’s not a big deal.
I love you guys ❤
Sending you hugs.
could you some how write the lyrics on the white boarder around the picture inside the frame?
Hi Colleen. I want to hug you 🫂. In sorry that you experienced something so terrible that today still affects your life. That’s why I want to hug you 🫂
The painting looks AMAZING you are to hard on yourself but we understand
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Your art is amazing
❤ you are so talented ❤ be kind to yourself ❤you make me happy watching your vlogs❤
Read the picture of you did of your children in the woods it's beautiful the way it is
I’m sorry you are going through this 😢I have been on and off this medication for years I hate it too and that’s okay to not like taking medicine I don’t think anyone likes taking any kind of medicine so I try to think of that way I don’t have to take diabetic medicine and for people who do there are physical consequences for others like myself to not take my medication there are emotional consequences which is not what I want either so we all are stuck taking stuff we wish we didn’t have to..maybe you can make new merch “ I take my medicine but I don’t like it” 😂just trying to help….you did not fail yourself never think that and just because you need this now it doesn’t mean it’s forever and if it is there’s nothing wrong with that either 🐳maybe stress caused the fainting? I hope you are okay and know we are here for you and you sharing this actually means so much!! We have no control over how our brains are wired that’s why each of us are unique in our own special way!😊 your water color skills are amazing I’m in awe of how beautiful the painting is of the kids!! I think it’s gorgeous exactly as it is !!
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Would you tell your son not to take a medication that will help him? No! So it's the same for you
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Put the lyrics on the white part of a frame matte around the pic.
Have you tried medicating with CBD/THC (marijuana) it’s helped so many people I know
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Consider nutritional therapy, I'm sad for you. You haven't failed and you CAN beat it on your own. YOU DONT NEED THAT. EMBRACE YOU! find another consultant with holistic approaches
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Hey so I do that exact fainting thing. Look up vaso vagal nerve! It is the same as when someone faints from seeing blood, your vagas nerve drains the blood from your head… I do it when my stomach gets really bad or nauseous. You need to get your head low, I have really hurt myself passing out in the bathroom 🫤