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exposure diaries ep.1 － the world is scary
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thanks for watching my first exposure therapy / social anxiety challenge video!! it was a really hard week, but i am determined to overcome this. I hope this was helpful for anyone struggling with C-PTSD, PTSD, agoraphobia etc or just anyone who can't leave the house ♥︎
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It's so wierd how proud you can feel of a stranger on the internet.
so lovely of you to say 🤍
Love this comment it is so kind and true ❤
Remember that safety is good until it keeps you trapped ♥️ I have full faith in you and everyone else on this journey!
Completely agree, you just have to find the right balance . I wish you the best 😄
You said: "my anxiety has taken things about my past and spun it into anxiety about life" and this hit me so hard... I'm so grateful to hear someone else say that out loud, because I feel so isolated in that thought. Thank you Ro, you're doing incredible things.
sending so much love 🤍
Hey there! When Ro said that bit, I felt it in my core too. I don’t have cptsd but I have an irrational fear and this video really made me feel validated and like I’m not crazy. So I just wanted to say, I see you, you’re not alone and it will get better. Lots of love 🤎
I felt so emotional watching this. Seeing the fear in your eyes even when you were trying to act fine and hearing the quiver in your voice, we can clearly see how much of an impact this has on your life yet you are here being brave conquering it one step at a time and not only that you are sharing it with us all making us feel less alone. You. Are. Amazing. ❤
you are lovely, thank you so much 🤍
No fear is stupid, it’s made me feel incredibly proud of you seeing you challenge your thoughts. I think a lot of your followers understand how hard it is to go against your brain, especially when it’s shouting irrational things at you. You are amazing Ro! You’ll get there. Keep fighting
Have you considered self-defense training as well as getting a personal trainer for strength training? I've been in your position before but getting back into body building and self-defense has been EXTREMELY empowering. Knowing that I've got the strength, agility, and awarenesses to kick a$$ and run keeps me sane, grounded, and more confident to be out and about in public without wanting to stay shut inside my home/comfort zone. Praying for you and your journey to full freedom - mind, heart, body, and soul - you got this, Ro!💪🏼💓😊
This is what I want to do. I literally escaped my traumatic situations because of my martial arts training and running hobby. They also gave me so much joy.
Now I have chronic illnesses and the physical weakness is what makes me too afraid to leave the house
You are so brave for being so vulnerable and sharing this with us. I have similar issues and have felt like I was the only person dealing with this. Seeing you overcome and challenge yourself is inspiring for me to do the same! I appreciate your content so much ❤
thank you so much!! you can do it - the more you do, the easier it gets xx
as a fellow cptsd sufferer I genuinely want to say a few years ago this was me, keep going angel
Omg this brings me so much joy for you. Traveling is my dream but currently feels like I'll never be able to
thank you so much, hearing this is SO helpful
Dear Ro, I'm so so proud of you! I have PTSD as well, and I don't feel safe, like, at all, even when I'm alone in my bed with the door locked. I am in the process of getting a PTSD/ED/Autism service dog, does Bea help you with feeling a bit more safe, or not at all? I'm so sorry you feel this way, it's something no one should go through.. I hope you have an ok week, much love
hi lovely, thank you so much! i’m sorry things are so hard, i totally get it. yes bea makes me feel a lot calmer and safer - dogs are amazing 🤍x
I feel you SO much❤ stay strong
Fellow c-ptsd sufferer here; I just wanted to say that you're doing so, so well (even if it may not feel like it at times). I know how hard it is when the body takes over, no matter how much we may think "rationally" that it should be "easy" to do certain things. You're challenging yourself, and you're incredibly strong for doing so. Sending warm online vibes your way, and thank you for sharing this!
Ro - this video really gets to me. I'm in therapy for my phobia of blood, and I really really relate to how stupid we feel when our fears aren't "rational". My brain constantly tells me how stupid and overdramatic I am for reacting to the things I am scared of, but the only thing irrational about that is my own brain telling me I'm stupid or weak or overdramtic. I am none of those things, I am just scared. For whatever reason (or with no reason at all) we're scared of something, and the only thing we are is brave. Because we're fighting it. And it doesn't matter how you react when doing exposure, because if you do it then it's gonna lead to somewhere. It's all about keep doing it however scary it feels, and trust that one day it won't feel this way anymore. One day it'll be okay, if you just keep being exactly as brave as you are.
In case no one told you today, you are doing so well and it is so inspiring to hear that you're fighting your fear. "I am none of those things, I am just scared" is so profound and perfectly captures it. You are brave and deserve to feel free from your fear and your brain being mean to you
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as someone who also struggles with cptsd, i am so unbelievably proud of you❤️🩹you’re an inspiration!!
I’ve felt so alone it this feeling for so long. Seeing you talking about C-PTSD and agoraphobia is so helpful, you’ve shown me I’m not the only one - thank you for being so open about it. Sending love and support ❤❤
I never noticed that I take for granted being able to listen to music and get so into it that I lose sight of my surroundings at home and just immerse myself in the melody/lyrics… I had no idea that could be something so anxiety inducing for someone, but the underlying reason of not being aware of your surroundings in that moment makes sense why it would be… I am so excited for when you’re able to lose yourself in music in the comfort of your own home. 🌷💕
24:04 "It's so true that it gets easier the more you do it. Which is annoying" - I felt you on that. It IS annoying to do the scary stuff over and over again! I'll take this video as an inspiration, though. Thank you! 💪💜
Two points. A: Dance or sing or try doing SOMETHING while listening to the music rather than always just sitting feeling the anxiety build. Maybe on off days of one day dance, on day sit. B: Another way to explain sudden non-experienced stress or anxiety is, when you're a kid and you run or jump or bike and you go too fast and fall, you'll notice, the child gets nervous and won't ride fast or will slow at the bump that reminds them of the fall. So you're example of se*ual assault, I believe is the sudden realization that A, someone I trusted (stranger or not) harmed me and I didn't see it coming. B, I wasn't able to react as the strong person I thought I would be.
Shock, innocence (trust) removed and more importantly, you think to yourself, "If I reacted in a 'bad' way: not being able to fight them off like I thought. Then what other situations have I THOUGHT I had a good plan but turns out, I will loose? Then you fear all situations (maybe) AND that child we all have in us, got hurt because you didn't see it coming because you thought you were safe. So NOW, who else can I not trust? Paranoia sets in and the 'trauma' and PTSD grows.
I also struggle with PTSD and let me tell you what you're doing is huge! Facing our triggers feels awful because our brains are convinced we're in actual danger. It's no easy task and you're doing so well.
We believe in you! You're being so strong!
thank you!🫶🏻
Ro, thank you for sharing this. I’m in recovery from anorexia and live with C-PTSD as well. My hyper-vigilance can be so limiting and I’m constantly on alert for threats. Luckily I’ve been living with a dog who is very committed to my protection and that has helped me to feel a bit safe, though I still struggle. Seeing you bravely move through ED recovery and now beginning the process of trauma recovery is everything. Ive struggled to make progress in recovery because of my PTSD and body fears and you give me hope I can and will heal fully- it just takes time and consideration for the nervous system to calm. Brilliant job, Ro!
A tip from someone with severe anxiety and trauma from abuse, try not to think of doing something new or scary as this big thing you will have to do over and over and that it will never get easier. I try to put all my energy into thinking of it as a one-time thing. I find that when I do something once, a lot of the fear and uncertainty becomes a bit easier to deal with. Trust me I know how hard it is. I'm on disability benefits and I have a very very small life. It's all about expanding your circle of manageable tasks and activities. You've got this!
„Funnily enough“ I have the same condition but have a fear of having people around me… 🌺 for me the exposure requires actually meeting friends without having an „escape plan“ and eventually letting people into my place… which really terrifies me so much ♥️ you’ve got this!!
Small steps are better than no steps. Every achievement is a big win.
thank you :)
Not only do I feel so so proud of you Ro, this was the best representation of the reality of ptsd recovery I’ve ever seen online. You’re doing more than you even know! So excited for you- the future is bright, I promise❤️🔥
So so proud of you, trying to sort out my own mental health rn this video felt like a bandaid ❤❤❤ you are an inspiration Ro
you’ve got this! thank you 🤍
@@RoMitchell Thank You Ro xxx
This video made me tear up because I have struggled with this exact same thing! I have complex PTSD and GAD, and I have a lot of the same fears as you. Like being kidnapped or attacked, or otherwise hurt by others. I am also afraid of getting in a car accident. And for me it feels really embarrassing unfortunately, so to see you open up about it, and challenge it feels so encouraging 🖤 I am really afraid of driving and being out in public places on my own. It took me a long time to be okay with being in the grocery store by my house by myself, and I can do the library now too. But now the main thing is the driving bit and the navigating public places on my own and going long distances away from home. But I am also working to challenge this all too, thank you so much for making this video and for sharing 🖤🩷
This actually made me cry a bit, I can’t even express how incredibly proud I am of you. You’ve been so strong and have been through so much more than you deserve. I wish you the absolute best Ro, you have an amazing soul 💜
Remember that you are so much stronger than you think! Youve lived through so much and survived everything!
'the more you do it the easier it gets' - im holding onto this, its so true and really motivates me to push myself out of my comfort zone
It’s so comforting seeing someone else with similar struggles and seeing you so bravely challenge it makes me feel capable to try and do the same🥺🙏🏻 Thank you
The amount of respect I have for this woman. I have been watching your videos since the begging and you helped me so much with my own recovery. Every time I would have a hard time I would watch one of your videos and I wouldn’t feel as alone in this. I hope through all the support from your community and your family as well you will get an extra portion of willpower. You can do this. And as you said: there is nothing to be ashamed of. You are not only helping yourself but so many others as well. You are the safe space for so many. And how amazing is that. It is okay that it is hard, it is okay that you feel sad about it being so hard. Feel the emotions and trust that the progress will be there.
I bought loop quiet and engage after your previously sponsored video - cannot praise them enough for helping me feel like I'm in my own bubble. Love that they help my misophonia, which in turn calms me; allowing me to focus on what I'm doing. You are doing so much hard work on yourself. I am so happy for you and all your successes.
i’m so glad you had a positive experience with them!! i seriously love them so much, they are so helpful 🥰✨ sending love & thank you! xxxx
It's not stupid to feel the way you do about being alone, especially in public places. As women we're conditioned to always be on the alert in case something does so trying to navigate that with your ptsd must be very complex. I've always been on my own going out & using public transport because I have no choice & unfortunately things have happened to me so watching this is helping me try to be brave but also not limiting myself from life. It's not easy.
hey I know this is a little out of context..but I have been watching your vids for a very long time and after a year I have returned back on this channel and all i want to say is that I am beyond mesmerised at how beautiful you have become and not just on the outside! I mean in everything, you have changed tremendously in the best way possible, you have that shine in your eyes and you seem so much happier and I am so happy for you and you should be very proud of yourself and how strong you are! Its insane seeing you now, you are such an inspiration to me and many other people! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
oh honey, I'm so proud of you for challenging yourself! you're doing so good! be gentle with yourself babes🩷
As an over thinker, we think that we are protecting ourselves with logic and 'rationality' by meticulously taking stock of every uncontrollable variable and preparing ourselves for the 'worst case scenario.' As a result we become the antithesis of rational but paranoid and afraid. We are afraid to give ourselves permission to let go of these fears and be braver, because we think that is the moment something bad will happen and we will get to say to ourselves: "told you so." It is about confronting that possibility and saying: "I Know. It's ok. I am doing it anyways because I have to live this life as my fullest self and that means staring into the unknown, unflinching" - Even in the midst of fear, we must not let it dictate our actions. Keep at it - you will astonish yourself at what you are capable of, I know it.
I've missed and have been thinking of you, Ro, and was hoping to see an update on your journey with this. You are courageous for sharing and for taking every single step. Your boyfriend sounds so loving and supportive. What a blessing. You beat anorexia, and that is such an incredible victory that continues to inspire me. You have great strength, Ro. Sending so much love to you. 🙏🏻❤️
Never related to someone so much in my life.
I have GAD, agoraphobia, health’s anxiety, & PPD. In the last couple of weeks I’ve hit the same place as you (fed up of always been inside & not living life), fed up of not doing normal everyday things that everyone else just does without thinking.
So on Friday I took my daughter to her first ever swimming lesson!! I got a taxi up there, took her to the lesson, went to McDonald’s (just across the road from the pool) & got a bus back home! (5-6min journey). Not going to lie I felt absolutely awful whilst doing it all, I felt sick, panicky, felt like my throat was closing up & getting tight, a bit woozy, & just wanted to run & get back home! But I pushed through like you are & I did it! I am like you I can’t do anything on my own & k get overwhelmed & super anxious & panicky like you do because I’m scared I will have a panic attack or just something bad will happen to me.
I am also going on the bus with my fiancé to his on Friday. He has to come back with me on Sunday as I can’t do it on my own yet but he’s patient & kind.
Really happy your doing this on your channel now as I feel like it could really help me. ❤
So proud of you!! 🎉
I don't know you but I thought I'd let you know how proud of you I felt when reading through your comment. Keep up the good work, friend, you rock!! 💪❤ Well done! Balancing patience & challenging yourself is the key. Sending love & strength!
If you find the Reach Out Guide, 2011, it’s a free pdf, it breaks down how to do exposure therapy effectively, it might help you structure things a bit, and guides how long to do tasks for. It’s made for practitioners but it might help you have some more guidance through this ❤
‘If it doesn’t challenge you, it won’t change you’ so proud of you, you’re doing it. ‘Recovering is tough, but so are you’
You’re a trooper Ro, I still have flashbacks occasionally and overcoming those as well as trying to continue challenging my bulimia is tough but you have motivated me so much to continue to overcome my ED. Thank you for being so supportive, you’re incredible!
Wow, it is incredible to watch you be resilient and fight for the better life that you know is possible. You are doing great! I never thought about how your fear could have been "stupid," only how I was proud of you for facing it. THAT is our true character, not who we are when we're unwell but how we fight to get better.
"Jose you were lovely" aw, amazing to see you carry on & grow! Also those sound reducing devices seem pretty neat. I think it's powerful to hear you notice the language & tone you use to speak about yourself & picking up on when you're being harsh on yourself. You model great resilience & self compassion!
I have that sense of guilt for being unfriendly with strangers or projecting a fear onto them. That is a product of not being exposed to a wide variety of people on a regular basis & usually I am more fearful of them judging me rather than being someone who will hurt me. Either way, this video gives me an idea on something I can challenge myself to do since I appreciate when strangers give a polite smile or say hi. I can try to be more receptive or start with reflecting on the thoughts that come up in those moments.
I keep neglecting my exposure work. This is my sign to start it up again for more freedom!!
Also doing ERP now and it's killing me. Thank you for putting this up. It feels less lonely. now. Less insane.
I just wanted to thank you Ro❤you are such a big Safe Place for me and your Recovery videos help so much ❤
Hi Ro! as someone who originally started to watch your videos because of your anorexia recovery journey, its been very insightful to watch the few videos you've made about your ptsd. as someone who does not struggle with ptsd , I still think its so important to acknowledge other mental health disorders and especially for me, it allows me to gain more knowledge about various mental health issues in the hopes that I can use it to help people who need it , offer my support or just simply understand what people are going through. Hope all is well in the Mitchell household xx
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It's so cool to see more of your other daily life stuff. I'm so proud of you!
This gives me so much encouragement, I suffer with ptsd too and one of my triggers is doing a walk in a certain time of day I live on my own so after talking to a therapist I was able to use techniques to be able to get through it. I’m not gonna lie, I was anxious the majority of it but I was proud of myself for doing it either way. It gives me reassurance that it’ll get easier the more I do it❤ you’re doing amazing, it’s something that will take time and any baby steps you can do- the small are always the best achievement. One of my triggers was being in my own home. I was offered to stay at a parents house but I knew if I did that I wouldn’t go back so I had to expose myself from the get go. It’s getting easier and you’ve got this!
i know this must be so hard for you to speak about, but girl you have my utmost respect for your bravery and authenticity, we’re all so proud of you
I'm so proud of you! I have done exposure therapy as well. Do not get discouraged with set backs. You've had a great first week!
Hello, dear Ro!
Thank you for keeping me company!
Nothing you feel is stupid.
You are a lovely person. Big warm hugs from Japan.
Forever proud of you ro, in time it’ll get easier, sending all my love and wishing you happiness
I have to do exposure therapy for OCD and this was really relatable for me. Exposures can be so alarming to my emotions even though I logically know it doesn't make sense. But exposure therapy has been the most effective thing Ive done for my OCD and allowed me to do things I would have avoided in the past and told myself I'm not capable of doing. You are always making progress even if you don't see it!!! ❤
Brandon is such a gem….such a gem! Honestly, the world needs so many more Brandon’s. And Ro, AMAZING work! Super proud of you. You have been working so hard for the last couple years… what a true pleasure to witness and such an inspiration. So proud of you❤
I have PTSD from so really a awful things that happened to me when I was younger and developed crippling paranoia and anxiety. And when I started walking and running on my own again something that really helped me still being alert and observant but focusing that energy on my surroundings like identifying 3-5 different things I observed on my walks and runs and repeating them to myself when my paranoid thoughts would become increasingly invasive. I doubt it would work for everyone but it helped me a bit. I also wanted to just say you are doing great and I just know you will overcome this you have done so many hard things already and helped to many people.
Things I've realised from watching your video..
Its not normal to sit alone inside and be as quite as can be.
No showering, hair drying music.
Cant open the door to people on your own.
These are all struggles i have and didn't see them as a trauma response. Now i know i need to challenge myself like you are to live a free life, so thank you for helping me realise that i struggle more than i thought as ive become so use to living this hypervigilant life. Good luck with your journey!!
Goodluckk with the therapy, im sure you’ve already been doing amazing, keep going, you can do it !! (:
Also needed thiss, currently revising for a levels and have a lackk of motivation tbh
Hope everyones having a good dayy
I want to curl up in a corner and never face the world, everything outside my home is so scary and I'm so so afraid of people and *everything* but you make it feel like there's still hope :) thank you so so much. you were there when I was stuck in the hospital, fighting my anorexia and now you're there for me while I try to step out of my tiny bubble of safety and repetition
I can’t thank you enough for your vulnerability and authenticity. You are INCREDIBLE and what you are doing just further demonstrates your strength. I see you and you help me and I KNOW you are helping so many other people just by being vulnerable. Even if we don’t have the same struggles as you, seeing you push through your challenges gives me the strength to push through mine. You’re incredible. Keep going. You can do it. I can do it. We all can do it!!
We're all behind you ro! You can do this!!!💛
I also think about people trying to hurt me but I don't think my anxiety has latched onto the idea as much as yours has. Walking my dog around the block used to be hard because I was worried about how the world would see me and perceive me but I think it has gotten better over time.
Wow, I thought i was the only one who had the same thoughts that you have 😭 I can relate so closely to you, without knowing your trauma - just the thoughts you have about day to day life and basically fearing for your life every second of every day. I could go on and on, even the thing about answering the door - I am the exact same. Wow…I’m just…well for one, sad that you are living that way because I know how you feel. But two, I feel so much more normal knowing someone else goes through this. I am so happy you’re taking the right steps and finding that light! X
We are all here for you Ro, even you can't see us in real life, we are all here for you. All the love in the world ❤❤❤
Also wanted to say you're one of the bravest people I [internet] know! The amount of persistence, determination, and sheer will power you've been exercising over each and every challenge in your life the last couple years is so inspiring!
For me it's the opposite, I'm battling the need to be alone and I hate being around crowds
I'm feeling for your struggles. It's SO amazing how you work towards change by challenging yourself in this way to break the cycle. Many would avoid the fears. Great job! Also, props to your boyfriend for his awesome support. You're a good man Brandon! Thumbs up to you both.
Bless you, don't be embarrassed at all! I'm a fair bit older than you and I turn my house into something out of home alone when I have to be on my own overnight so I can hear if someone breaks in and have to check every room when I come home to an empty house. I'm also nervous when out walking in the countryside on my own, even though I genuinely believe the majority of people are good. Give yourself time and you're being so brave doing the exposure therapy and also sharing it.
hi ro i’m not sure if you’ll see this but i’ve been having a not very nice couple of weeks and your videos have made me feel so safe, validated and understood during this rough patch. from the bottom of my heart, thankyou.
The home alone fear hit me hard I get that. Same paranoia ofc no details bc I don’t wanna trigger anyone but the fear of history repeating is real you’ve come so far tho !!!
You are so strong Ro. You have pulled yourself out of such a hard place and have been so brave to make your recovery journey public, it’s helping so many people, thank you xx
Ro I am so proud and happy for you! You seem truly committed and making great strides towards independence. I already knew you were brave for fighting anorexia and now you're doing it again.
I have the same issue! I have started really struggling to leave the house, and when I do I’m very on edge.. just because I don’t know what will happen to me.. plus the no making noise in the quiet thing. It’s inspiring to see someone with similar fear fighting against it :)
I have c-ptsd too and I love watching videos about other people who have similar struggles and thoughts to mine😊 makes me feel less alone and broken
Oh Ro, I am so so so proud of you. Seeing you go from panicked and shaky, to shyly smiling to yourself on that last walk was amazing!!
this looks so hard to deal with and im so so proud of you for not giving up and trying your best! you are doing amazing
Keep going Ro, you are doing well. I suffer with anxiety and other health problems. My dad always says mind over matter, but I know it doesn't always work. I do my best to stay strong and keep going .
proud of you ro
Nothing is harder then trying to fight your own fears, but you can do it. Take it slow and steady.. it’s like you have a threshold and if you cross it. Crippling fear. I feel your pain, but you can do it !!
you're so brave for doing this and i know how real the fear can be, like you genuinely believe the terrible thing will happen even though part of you knows logically it's so so unlikely. so it makes sense how scared and anxious you get because to you you're risking your life. anyone would feel anxious in that situation. but it'll get easier and you're doing amazingly even just trying let alone carrying through and doing the exposures!! also similar to what you said about probable vs possible, i get reminded in therapy that nothing is risk free but you've got to live anyway. i know the risk of NOT doing the exposure is worse because it's detrimental to my mental and overall health. i think with CPTSD, and OCD too, a 0.0001% chance feels like a 99% chance and that's terrifying to live with, but you do the exposure and response prevention and eventually you start feeling safer and freer. anyway thank you for this video and you should be so so proud of yourself 💛💛
I have the same restrictions and the way you have been kind to yourself has made me realise I need to do that too. So many times I think my feelings of vulnerability are silly or weak when I should really take it serious and be kind to myself and what you said about trauma playing a part in fearing the world makes complete sense ❤
I don’t have ptsd (at least I don’t think so) but I can relate to this because this is similar to my gen/social anxiety and my own struggles. Seeing you feel the fear but do it anyways…inspires me to do the same. Thank you, Ro.
I have PTSD and used to struggle w anorexia as well and I just wanted lyk proud I am of you
Breaks my heart to see how much you are struggling. But I am equally excited for you to be making these changes. Much love and support to you ❤
This is something I very much struggle with so thank you for sharing this video because it is incredibly helpful and motivating and comforting to me.
I am the first one to comment,
Omg,
I hope you see my comment ro,
But let me tell you my ed recovery journey has gone absolutely parallely with yours.
I started watching your videos back in 2021, and have watched every single one of them.
I started at an extremely toxic and miserable place,
But since then, i have worked my way through it, i have had my periods regularly for a1.7 years after losing it for an entire year,
Grew an absolutely beautiful relationship with my bf and friends.
And very recently i have stopped using the food scale completely.
That was the only thing i struggled with till the very end i just had to keep some control even though i was eating out 90% of the time, being a university student and couldn't measure but i still felt the need to measure every gram everytime i was at home.
But yaay!! i am done with that for once and for all last week.
Thankyou so much for being such an amazing support system all this while.
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was having a panic attack and put this on as distraction, it helped so so much!!! Thank you for being so open and posting this it helps me calm down enough to go to bed
You should be so very proud of yourself. You are a very strong determind person who, whatever the details are, has obviously been through some really traumatic things. You will continue to free yourself of this, keep going. Im only a stranger on the internet but I for one, and im sure many many others, are with you.
Thank you for being so open about this. I totally understand this. I also wasn’t able to go outside, order food, go shopping, sometimes I was so scared I couldn’t move when I was home alone and couldn’t move for hours. ❤ to everyone who is going through something like this: it will get better ❤️🩹 we can do this
I work with patients on exposure therapy at Camhs and this is so important, you are doing so well Ro xxx
just wanted to say that i relate SO much to many of the things you said and experienced in this video, but also want to give you hope that it is possible for them to get easier and to be able to do these things! it’s not easy and not fun a lot of the time, but but i wanted to say that i have been in a very similar place to where you are, and want to share that i am now in a MUCH better place, and it is possible for you to get there too. happy to talk about it more if you ever need but you’re doing so amazing!
This all makes so much sense to me because I struggle with the exact same things and thank you for doing a video on it because it makes me feel less alone and I now im not the only one with these worries you did amazing because I’ve done exposure therapy and it is one of the hardest things to do so well done
I have been ill for a while and am waiting to get my Crohn's Disease diagnosis confirmed ( a form of IBD so an autoimmune digestive disease). Due to being in pain and a variety of symptoms considered embarrassing in British culture, I am mostly housebound. It worries me to the leave the house. I have preparation time and recovery time. Plus loads of stuff to carry and research to do about where I am going. What has forced me out of the house are hospital appointments and blood tests. Trips to my Grandparents, about 20 minutes away, have been good practice for car journeys too. Once I start treatment, I am hoping to worry less about physical symptoms and doing these practice journeys is helping me mentally too. You are doing so well, well done. xx
I relate so much to this video.
I'm also collecting evidence of the real world vs my overly anxious paranoid brain and the stories it's created, it's hard work but you're doing amazing! So proud of you ❤
This was sooo interesting. You are so brave sharing this with us. Thank you, Ro.
thank you for sharing your struggles❤ i am really grateful for your content because i struggle with social anxiety a lot so i can kinda relate to some of that fear of leaving the house alone. I think often times other people don't realise how much stress such "normal" things can cause someone and some days that's like super hard. And today i fought my fear again and that was super stressful but i want to be free again and do things.
youre giving me so much courage with this series ro
thank u for this video, i also have cptsd and only recently have i realized how fearful i am and how much it limits my activities. i’m going back to school in the fall in an unfamiliar place and i’m so scared, and i realized how important it is that i commit now to challenging myself and my comfort zone, or i don’t know how i’ll handle it. i don’t have the same fear about leaving the house just to walk (although public transport is a different thing), but i am afraid of going to the empty downstairs apartment or basement in my own house, especially when i’m home alone. you’ve inspired me to do some exposure therapy and force myself to go downstairs during the day. i really want to be able to spend time downstairs cleaning the apartment and setting up an art studio, and be able to garden and use the basement to access gardening tools, hopefully i can do small steps like you are and get there one day
I feel so privileged to be able witness your vulnerability. It makes me feel brave to do scary things too :) ❤
Hi Ro, I have been following you since almost the beginning of your channel. I know youre a stranger on the internet but I have been so proud of you and how hard you have worked. I have never had an ED but I DO have PTSD. Different fears but I completely understand what you are talking about with a lot of this. I have always thought you were inspiring and incredible but you've just proven to me that it possible to face our fears and survive even though it is REALLY hard. Thank you for being brave enough to share your struggles because you're helping a lot of people, myself included. You've given me the boost I really needed to get up and do some exposure therapy that I have been putting off. So thanks Ro. I hope that every day things get a little easier ❤
wow you are such a warrior!!!! bravo!!! and ty sm for sharing this journey with us, and being vulnerable with us, you allow us to resonate with you and see and understand that it is possible to heel and take care of ourselves, ty!!!!!!
When I am anxious or sad I love cuddling with my dog. I would recommend getting your favorite blanket and candle out as listen to music and love on the dogie🥰